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Sam (given the nature of these two i'm gonna b a little horny abt it lol) 4) Best places to kiss on their body: uhhhh first and foremost his cute lil pointy nose!! give that bad boy a hearty ~chu~ But if the kisser wants to really feel how they're affecting him I would say go along the jawline. He carries a lot of tension in his jaw and it would be fun to feel how that tension lessens/intensifies by being smooched. (Spicy version) I think starting at the hip and kissing down the V of his abdomen would be fun for all parties involved. 5) Guilty pleasures: Now this one is very fun bc has his whole obsession with purity and being 'clean' so there's a lot of things he doesn't allow himself to do. I def think one of his guilty pleasures is that he likes Chick fil a. He knows they're a super shitty homophobic corporation and he KNOWS he shouldn't support them AND a lot of the food on the menu is 'unhealthy' and something he can't eat bc of [insert w/e diet he's on this week] but he loves it. OH, how he loves it. It's his comfort food. He likes their special sauce and even when he tries to make it himself it never quite tastes right so he will occasionally buy food from there and then feel awful about it for like 3 days afterward. (Spicy version (warning for mentions of SA)) Ok so I think Sam has a lot of weird hangups about sex. Particularly, he feels weird about subbing. I do think he enjoys it, but where the guilt comes in is that he doesn't feel like he should enjoy it because of the ways in which his bodily autonomy has been jeopardized. It feels very strange to him to derive pleasure from a situation that resembles a context in which the circumstances were very dire for him. I think it's scary for him to give up that sense of control, but even scarier that he actually enjoys it. Since Sam has been known to diminish and trivialize his own trauma, I think subbing might make him slip into a spiral about if he 'actually was assaulted' bc if he enjoys it here how bad were the times when he was forced to submit to someone? I think he has a lot of trouble acknowledging himself as a victim, and I think enjoying subbing would make him think himself a """bad victim""" if he doesn't actively work to get out of that mindset. Because of that, I don't think he subs often, and only with someone he really really trusts, but I think he does really enjoy it and can even derive some catharsis from it.
Dean 9) Humiliating memories: ooooooooh ok now this one is a little tough bc Dean is constantly tormented by The Shame so it's hard to pick out a specific instance where he was definitely humiliated buuuuuut in my personal headcanon one of the most impactful times is his first solo hunt. More specifically, the situation leading up to Dean's first hunt. I mention it here, but essentially, John catches on to Dean having feelings for another boy, which scares the hell out of Dean. After disappearing for a few days (leaving Dean alone and sick to his stomach with anxiety for John's total lack of a reaction) he comes back to the motel, picks Dean up, and tells him to go do a salt and burn of two dead gay nuns. He does, but also internalizes the message John is sending: this is what happens to people like you. John picks him up afterward and never directly says what he's referring to, but tells Dean, "you need to be careful and not be selfish. Your stupid decisions could get you or even Sammy hurt." That, of course, makes Dean feel so astoundingly horrible, he can barely respond. It's why I am in the camp of 'Dean is painfully aware of his attraction to men, but rarely acts on it/never vocalizes it.' bc ^this memory, coupled with the homophobia of the 90's/00's makes Dean very wary of how he carries himself and the kind of """negative attention""" he wants to could attract, and how that could endanger himself/other people around him. 10) Fears/phobias: ok this could couple nicely with the thing i just talked about above but instead I'm going to go in an entirely different direction: DEAN IS (or should be) SCARED OF DOGS. It's honestly pretty wild to me that this really isn't touched on in canon. One of his most significant/narratively impactful deaths is when he was mauled by Hellhounds, and consequently dragged to Hell for 40 years. Canon like, farts in this direction sorta in s6 but it's really not talked about. Homeboy got sliced and diced by dogs!!! He should have some residual stuff about that!! Also I think it would be a point of contention between himself and Sam, Known Dog Lover. It's also why i'm team 'fuck that dog' from the finale. Although, it could be cathartic for him to have an esa/therapy animal be a dog, to rebuild trust.
Castiel 14) Ingrained habits/forces of habit: this one is SO fun for him bc there's so many possibilities with him being an angel. I think this manifests a lot as physical ticks/quirks from being an angel in a human vessel. I think a 'force of habit' of his is literally breathing. He really only needs to breathe in order to talk, but I think in early seasons he catches himself doing it all the time, as a leftover instinct from his human vessel. Later, he catches himself mirroring Dean's, Sam's and other people's breathing as he starts growing closer to humanity, before eventually just adopting breathing all the time. I think it also takes him a long time when he's human to get used to moving at a human speed. If he realizes he needs to go somewhere, his first thought is to fly, and he often has this moment of "why am I not there yet?" before realizing he needs to physically move his human body đđđ I also think it would be really fun if, especially after first obtaining a vessel, he often speaks quietly because he is used to overwhelming humans with his True Voice. 15) What it takes to make them cry: đ€đ€đ€ I think Cas is like, a medium-frequency crier (order of most to least likely to cry imo is Dean, Cas, Sam). I think he IS a happy crier and that's what most often causes him to cry; being overwhelmed by positive emotions (i.e. love for his family). I don't think he's normally an angry crier but I do think that when Jack died he should have 1) gone completely silent and stone faced 2) leveled like an entire forest in grief-induced rage and 3) broken down in full on heaving sobs in the middle of all the destruction. 18)Things theyâll never admit: OUGH THIS ONE IS SO JUICY FOR HIM. SO SO JUICY. This one stumped me a bit at first because Cas is a very honest person who normally speaks his mind. He's also pretty self aware. BUT the thing that Cas will never admit is that he kind of revels in being The Universe's Greatest Fool. Like, he's the Angel that Fell in Every Way Imaginable!! He betrayed all his kin and fucked up The Father's Great Narrative, all because he fell in love with a stupid human!! A Bug, Even!!! A BUG WHO DOESN'T LOVE HIM BACK (he does, but, well, see above). And he does it, over and over and over again. He always chooses humanity; he always chooses Dean. The thing is, there's a part of him that feels really comfortable in that idea of ceaseless devotion without acknowledgement; without reciprocity. Of course, it's familiar, but on top of that, I think there's a part of him that still houses guilt for going against his programming. We know he was lobotomized countless times; certainly there's residual feelings about straying from his designed path? And I think it's easier, in a way, to wallow in this self-pity, then to actually attempt to vocalize his wants and ask for what he needs. So, essentially, he fell and he feels like he needs to be punished, and the best possible punishment is for his one true desire to be something he can never obtain, because he doesn't deserve to have what he wants. Anything else feels foreign.
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THE OTHER SIDE OF PARADISE - rafe cameron (+18) - five
request: "a rafe enemies to lovers đ«Ł the reader is jjs sister the whole drama before but then she gets left behind on the ship and rafe ends up comforting her and then yea thatâs all I got you can do whatever else the rest đ"
warnings: angst <3333333 for everyone <33
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The ride back to home was a blur. The plane ride, the ferry.
Everything.Â
Every mile away from Rafe felt like reopening an old wound, over and over. The cops kept trying to make small talk, but you barely said a word. One-syllable responses if anything. Eventually, they just gave up and let you stare out the window in awkward silence.
By the time you pulled up, even the streets of The Cut didnât make you feel any better. Home didnât feel like home anymore. It was weird, almost like you didnât recognize it. Walking in with the officers behind you just made everything feel more real, like a slap in the face of the life you were stepping back into.
âYour brother and your friends were rescued from a remote island a while ago. He was informed of your whereabouts an hour ago, heâll be here soon.â
You barely processed what they were saying. It didn't really sink in. You just nodded, like you were on autopilot, but your brain was still stuck in everything that went down two days ago. What kind of sister doesnât freak out when she hears her little brotherâs alive and okay?
You shouldâve been losing it with relief, right? But all you felt was this weird emptiness. You were supposed to protect him. You didn't.
Their words barely registered.
You nodded numbly; your mind still stuck between the events that had unfolded just two days ago.
What kind of sister had you turned into? Barely phased over the fact your little brother was thankfully alive and well? You were supposed to protect him.Â
They could tell you were checked out, they exchanged this look, like they didnât know what to do with you, then quietly stepped out onto the porch, leaving you to rot with your thoughts.
You wandered around the house, but every step felt so heavy. Every room was just a reminder of what used to be. The couch where you'd would argue over stupid TV shows while Luke was off doing who-knows-what, the kitchen table where it was just the two of you, eating and sharing stories like nothing was wrong... It all felt so distant, like snapshots from another life you couldnât touch anymore.
You knew, deep down, things would never go back to how they were.
You ended up in my room, collapsing onto your bed, the sheets still smelling like home. But even that didnât help the ache in your chest.
It didnât feel right. Nothing ever did unless your brother was there.
But now, not even the thought of him being back could bring you peace. All you could think about was Rafe. His smile, his touch, his voiceâevery part of him was still so clear in your head, and it hurt so bad to remember.
That must be your punishment.Â
A soft knock on the door jolted you from your thoughts. You sat up, heart racing. Your body was still on high alert, even the tiniest noise made you jump, like you were waiting for something bad to happen.
The sound of gunshots still echoed in your mind. It hadnât even been three days.
The old wooden door creaked open, and there was JJ, his bright blue eyes wide and full of worry. He rushed to you so fast, you almost lost your breath when he pulled you into this bear hug.
"Holy shit,â he whispered, his voice shaky, "Holy shit."
Tears just started pouring out of you, and you couldnât stop. You were full-on sobbing while he held you like you used to hold him when he was little, and it killed you. It was all so wrong. It devastated you. It felt so disappointing. He was never supposed to be the one carrying the family burden, you were.
After what felt like forever, you pulled back and wiped your face, your throat tight. JJ sat next to you, searching your face with those big, worried eyes.
âYouâre not hurt?â
You took a deep, shaky breath, trying to get a grip. All you could manage was a small âNo. You?â
âNo,â JJ nodded, lips pursed into a tight line as if he was figuring out what to say next, âThey told me about the shooting.â
Your heart sank further at his words. You had hoped to avoid talking about it, at least for a little while. You didnât want to talk about that. Not yet. But the way he looked at you, like he used to when you'd protect him from everything, you couldnât just shrug it off.
âIâm fine, I swear.â You reached out and squeezed his hand. "What about you? How did you get off that island?"
JJ let out a bitter laugh, shaking his head.
âIt was a mess. We were stuck there for weeks, trying to find a way out. Pope and Kie kept us sane, but it was rough. We finally managed to signal a passing boat, and they rescued us. But the whole time, I couldn't stop thinking about you."
You squeezed his hand even tighter, his words hitting you like a truck, and the guilt just kept building. You squeezed his hand tighter, trying to keep it together.Â
"I'm sorry I wasn't there. I'm so sorry, JJ."
He shook his head vehemently. "No, don't apologize. None of this is your fault. IâI shouldâve saved you on that ship, okay? Itâs on me, not you.â
You felt another wave of tears coming but swallowed them down.
âYou did everything you could. We both did. None of this is your fault."
âThe one time we changed places, and I couldnât do it.â
"Jayâ"
"I should have been there for you," he cut in, his voice cracking. "I hated not being there. "I hated it."
God, if only he knew.Â
If he found out what really happened with Rafe, heâd hate you. It wasnât his faultâit was yours. You pulled him into another hug, trying to say everything you couldnât with just your touch. The weight of everythingâyour guilt, your painâwas too much, but at least you had each other. You could feel his body shaking, and you didnât even know if it was from exhaustion or emotion.
When you finally let go, you took a deep breath, hoping to find some semblance of strength.
"Weâre gonna be okay.â
JJ nodded, though you could see the doubt in his eyes. "I know. It's just... hard."
"I get it. But we're both here, we're alive.â
He gave you this sad little smile, "Yeah, I guess you're right."
You sat there in silence for a bit, and it felt fragile, but at least it was peaceful. Outside, you could hear the waves crashing, like life was still going on, even though yours felt like it was stuck.
"Do you think things will ever go back to normal?" JJ's voice was quiet, almost hesitant, like he didn't want an answer.
Normal? The nightmares of him finding out about Rafe haunted you every night, mocking at your mind. But You couldnât tell him that. It made you want to scratch your skin raw.Â
âYeah.â
"Yeah," I lied.
You could see how tired he was, like he was just as drained as you felt. You both needed sleep, but honestly, the idea of closing your eyes terrified you. The nightmares were always there, waiting.
"Let's try to get some sleep," You suggested softly, though you weren't sure you could follow your own advice. "We both need it, âkay?â
âLetâs try to get some rest,â I said, though I wasnât sure if I could actually follow through. "We both need it."
JJ nodded, even though you could tell he wasnât convinced. He lay down next to you on the tiny bed, and you barely fit, but it was comforting. Just having him close made you feel a little less broken.
The minutes passed in silence, the only sound being the waves outside. You focused on them, using them to ground myself. Slowly, you felt the tension start to slip away, just a little.
"Do you remember the first time we went out on the boat alone?"JJâs voice was barely a whisper in the dark, like he was holding onto a memory that felt safe.
A small smile crept onto my lips. "Yeah. You swore you knew how to steer, and we almost crashed into that sandbank."
He chuckled softly. "We were so scared. But you figured it out. You always do."
The memory was bittersweet, a reminder of when things were simpler, back when your biggest problem was not sinking a boat and you weren't a complete fuck up.
Now, you felt like you were drowning every day.
Your eyes started to get heavy, and JJâs breathing next to you slowed, evening out. You wanted to tell him everything, but you couldnât. If you did, you'd lose him for good.
Sleep came slowly, but when it did, it was deep and dreamless. Empty, like how you'd been feeling for way too long.
Morning came too fast, sunlight slipping through the curtains and filling the room with a warm glow. You blinked awake, feeling disoriented for a second before everything from the past few days came rushing back. JJ was still asleep next to you, his face finally relaxed, looking so much younger and peaceful.
You carefully slid out of bed, not wanting to wake him. The officer who comforted you after the shooting promised heâd call as soon as there was an update on Rafe. So far? Nothing.
You couldnât help but wonder if the hospital had already contacted Sarah. She was basically the only family Rafe had left, other than Wheezie, who was just a kid, and Ward⊠well, a literal wanted criminal now. It made sense for them to reach out to her first.
If you called the hospital yourself, they wouldnât tell you anythingâYou weren't family. And asking Sarah? Sheâd immediately know something was off. There was no way you could risk that.
The kitchen was weirdly quiet, the early light stretching shadows across the walls. You made a cup of coffee, letting the warmth calm the cold ache inside you, but even that didnât really help. Sitting at the table, you tried to think of some kind of plan. You needed to know if he was okay, but every option felt like a trap.
Suddenly, your new phone buzzed on the table, shaking you out of your thoughts. You grabbed it, heart pounding, seeing an unknown number flash on the screen. Your stomach twisted, but you answered.
âHello?â
âThis is Officer Thompson. I promised Iâd keep you updated on Rafe Cameronâs condition.â
You closed your eyes, thanking God for finally giving you some piece of mind, âYes, thank you.â
âHeâs stable,â Officer Thompson continued. âThe surgery went well, and heâs in recovery. Itâll be a while before heâs fully back on his feet, but heâs out of immediate danger.â
The knot in your stomach loosened just a little. âThank you for letting me know.â
There was a pause on the other end.
âI know this is difficult, but you should focus on your own recovery too. Thereâs a chance the feds will contact you, theyâre building their case on Ward. What happened to you is, unfortunately, considered a minor crime compared to everything heâs done, so maybe youâll get some peace. If not, you might have to testify against him.â
Testify. The thought of standing in a courtroom, reliving everything in front of strangers, made your skin crawl.
âAnd Rafe? What are his charges?â
"Heâs facing several charges, but the severity of his sentence could depend on his cooperation. If he agrees to testify against his father, the authorities might offer him a deal."
A deal. The idea of him getting out that easily shouldâve made you angry, but instead, you felt this weird sense of relief. You hated myself for it. You wanted him to pay for everything, for all of it. But now? You were clinging to any slim chance of freedom, even if it wasnât fair.
You thanked Officer Thompson again and ended the call, setting your phone down with a shaky hand. The coffee had grown cold, but you didn't have the energy to make another cup. You sat there for a long moment, staring into nothing.
The sound of footsteps snapped you out of your thoughts, and you turned to see JJ in the doorway, his hair sticking up in all directions, still half-asleep.
âWho was that?â he asked, his voice groggy.
âUhâOfficer Thompson. He was at the scene the other day and told me heâd keep me updated.â
JJ tilted his head, his messy bed hair making him look like a confused puppy. âUpdated on what?â
âRafeâs condition,â You replied, the words feeling heavy on your tongue. It was a half-lie, but at least you were giving him something.Â
He stopped mid-step, âAnd you care becauseâŠ?â
âFor closure, I guess," You mumbled, trying to brush it off like it was no big deal.
His gaze softened a little, but not by much. He pulled out a chair and sat across from you. âYouâre too good, yâknow that? Personally, I donât give a fuck if he dies.â
You winced inwardly. "JJ, you can't just say stuff like that."
He leaned back, crossing his arms. "Why not? After everything heâs done, he deserves whatever he gets."
You couldnât really argue with that, but something inside you felt the need to defend Rafe, even if you hated that feeling. He had saved your life, and that wasnât something you could just forget.
âHeâs still a human being, okay?â
JJ scoffed, shaking his head like youâd said the dumbest thing ever. "Barely."
You didnât know why you suddenly felt so angry, so defensive. But it made its way up your body until your lips were moving again, practically spitting the words out.
âHe saved my life.â
Your brother stared at you like you were speaking another language, âSaved your life? Are you serious? Itâs his fault you were there in the first place!â
âHe chose to help me. And I can't just forget that."
JJ ran a hand through his hair, clearly frustrated. âThis is insane. One good deed doesnât make up for all the shit heâs done.â
âI know that,â I said, reaching out for him, but he pulled back before I could touch him, your fingers only brushing against his shirt.
âDo you?â His voice was cold, and the way he looked at youâlike he didnât recognize youâcut deep. It was the look you dreaded seeing in your nightmares, and now, it was real, it ten times worse.Â
"Iâm not saying heâs a good person. Iâm just saying⊠itâs complicated."
He started pacing around the kitchen. "Complicated? Complicated is being stuck on an island, wondering if your sister is even alive. Complicated is dealing with the fact that the guy who screwed us over gets to play hero for one day, and now youâre defending him."
"I'm not defending him," You said, voice rising. "I just⊠I saw a different side of him. Maybe he can change. Or at least help put Ward away."
You never raised your voice at him.
JJ stopped and spun around to face you, his eyes blazing. "And what if he doesn't? What if this is all part of some twisted game for him? People like Rafe don't just change, okay? They manipulate, they hurt, they destroy."
âJJâ"
âYou sound just like her.â
You didnât have to ask to know what he meant. Suddenly your entire soul felt like it was being drained out and slashed into pieces. A carbon copy of your mother, your punishment. All you life, youâd been told you were like herâjust as blind, just as soft.
âDonât say that.â
âThatâs exactly the type of bullshit she would spit out about dad, wasnât it? And look where it got her.â
"Thatâs the kind of crap Mom used to say about Dad, remember? And look where it got her."
Memories of mom came rushing backâthe excuses she made, the false hope she clung to, and the endless disappointment. You weren't like her, were you? You weren't defending a man who was never going to change. You couldnât be. Youâd spent your entire life trying not to be like her.
It wasnât fair. You were just trying to find a shred of humanity in someone who had shown you mercy. How could he think you were blind to Rafeâs faults? You knew them all too well. You felt exposed, vulnerable, and fiercely defensive.
âIâm not her,â You finally managed to say, your voice cracking, âIâm not defending him like she did.â
âIs that what you tell yourself to make you feel better?â
Your eyes narrow into slits, âIâm not doing this with you, not right now.âÂ
You turned away, your fists clenched at your sides as you fought to keep it together.
He followed you hot on your heels, "Don't walk away from me.â
"I'm not defending him," You insisted, your back still to him, âIâm just trying to understand, okay?â
âUnderstand what? Jesus, Rafe is who he is.â
"And maybe he can change," You fired back, the words spilling out despite the tightening knot in your chest. "Maybe he saved my life because he wants to change."
"He's manipulating you," JJ retorted, his jaw clenched. "Just like he always does. You went through some traumatic shit together, but that doesn't mean you owe him anything."
You stopped dead in your tracks, turning to face him again. Your head was tingling, the headache already forming itself, and you felt hot all-over. The word "traumatic" set you off.
âSome traumatic shit?â You repeated, âAre you fucking serious?â
JJ raised both his hands, tangling them in his hair in frustration, âYou almost died, and now youâre standing here, defending the guy who put you in that position in the first place!"
The accusation hurt. You hated fighting with your brother and he wasnât wrong. You hated that Rafe was coming between you both, but you couldnât shake what you felt.
He shook his head, disappointment oozing from him, "Good luck with that. Just don't expect me to sit here and act like everything's okay."
You blinked away the dryness in your eyes, "I'm not asking you to. Can't you see that maybe things aren't as black and white as they seem?"
âAll I know is what he's done to us, to you."
âAnd what about what he did for me?â The words tasted bitter as they left your mouth.
âAnd what did he do exactly?" Your lips parted to speak, but words continued to spill from his mouth, âWhat did you do?â
You gave no reply, unblinking, short breaths escaping you. You couldnât let it out. Not yet. Not to him.
Not to JJ, not yet.
"I don't expect you to understand," Your voice was strained,"But Iâm not turning my back on him.â
JJ's eyes narrowed; frustration etched on his face. "Why?â
âBecause I want to!â The scream ripped from your throat before you could stop it, tears spilling over. "Iâm still my own person, and I can make my own decisions."
He opened his mouth to fight back, but the words seemed to evaporate from his tongue. The kitchen was filled with nothing but the sound of your heavy breathing and your instant regret.
âFine,â he muttered, turning away. âDo what you want.â
You watched him walk out of the kitchen, his back stiff with anger and disappointment. It was the first time you'd ever yelled at him, and you hated every second of it.
Alone again in the kitchen, you sank back into your chair, your energy completely drained. Part of you wanted to run after him, to explain yourself, to make him understand.
But he wouldnât. How could he?
None of them would.
Because unlike you, they werenât stupid enough to sympathize with Rafe Cameron.
Sitting there, you couldn't shake the feeling that you'd crossed a line. You stared at your hands, still trembling from the argument, and let out a long, shaky breath. What was it about Rafe that had such a grip on you?
You heard the front door creak open and shutâJJ leaving. Maybe that was for the best. You both needed time to cool off. You got up, poured the coffee down the sink, watching it swirl away. Weirdly, the sound was kind of comforting, like you were washing away the mess clinging to you.
You spent the entire day locked away in your room, ignoring the sun, ignoring everyone. Your phone buzzed again, and for a second, you thought about letting it go, but you couldnât. You picked it up, expecting another call from Officer Thompson, but the name on the screen made your heart skip a beat.
Sarah.
With a deep breath, you answered. âHey sweets.â
âHi,â Sarahâs voice was almost unsure. âJJ and the police called earlier, told us what happened. Are you okay? Iâm on the mainland with John B, weâre taking the next ferry back home.âÂ
You closed your eyes, somewhat relieved that you wouldnât have to face them yet.
âYeah, IâmâŠManaging. I'm okay.â
âGood, thatâs good,â There was a pause, and then she asked, âHave you heard anything about...Rafe?â
Had the hospital not called her? How much should you tell her.
âHeâs stable. The surgery went well.â
Sarah sighed, âGood. Thatâs good to hear I guess.â
You bit your lip, unsure if you should ask, but you did anyway. âSarah, did the hospital call you?â
There was a long silence on the other end before she replied, âYeah. But IâŠI donât know. I just couldnât bring myself to answer. I knew it was coming after the police called. ButâYeah, itâs just, itâs really hard.â
You didnât know what to say, âIâm so sorry.â
âYouâre the only one not giving me shit about still⊠caring, I guess. Heâs my brother, you know? And I want to hate him. I should hate him. But I canât.â
"I get it, Sarah. Heâs your brother. Itâs okay to feel conflicted."
"Yeah," She exhaled heavily, "But I don't know how to deal with it. He's done so much harm, and yet. I keep hoping there's still some good left in him. I know there's no hope for my dad, but Rafe..."
She trailed off, and you knew exactly where she was coming from. Sheâd seen Rafe before Ward broke him down. And you knew she still carried that guiltâthe guilt of being the favorite, never standing up for him, even when she saw Ward lose control.
âI get it,â You whispered. You were both tangled up in love and hate when it came to him, the messiness of family making it impossible to separate the two.
 âHe was good to me.â
There was a long pause. You expected her to hang up on you, to freak out and call you a list of degrading names, all of which you felt you deserved. She had enough at the hands of her brotherâ the same brother you had come to care for, despite knowing the full extent of what heâd done.Â
But you underestimated her. You'd momentarily forgotten just how compassionate and noble she was. She possessed a goodness smiliar to your ownâloyal, forgiving, and endlessly understanding.
Both lovers and fighters.
 "I know, the feds told me about the shooting," Sarah finally said, "And I think that's what makes it so hard. Picturing him as the same monster from before was a lot easier.â
You nodded even though she couldn't see you, feeling a deep ache in your chest. "Yeah."
"I don't know what to do," She confessed, her vulnerability cutting through the distance between you. "Part of me wants to see him, to talk to him. And part of me wants to never look at him again."
"I think... whatever you decide, it's okay," You offered tentatively, not entirely sure if your words were comforting or just empty platitudes.
âJohn B disagrees.â
âYeah, so does JJ.â
"I appreciate you telling me about Rafe," Sarah continued, her voice softer now, more vulnerable. "I... I don't think I could have handled hearing it from anyone else."
Guilt prickled at you. âIâm sorry you had to hear it like this. I wish things were different.â
"We all do," she replied softly. "Thank you.â
âOf course," You said, "Take care of yourself.â
"You too. We'll see you soon, okay?"
"Yeah. See you soon."
You hung up and stared at your phone, the screen going dark. It matched how you feltâempty, lifeless.
You spent the next few days in a haze, avoiding JJ and the rest of your friends as much as possible. Youâd only seen Sarah. Somehow her presence didnât make you feel as nervous as you thought. It weirdly calmed you down. Youâd always been close, ever since she joined the group, but now you felt like she was the only one who understood your point of view.Â
You knew Pope and Kie wouldnât, and you couldnât blame them.
Sarah never pushed you to talk, never demanded explanations. Instead, she just sat with you, shared a laugh or two, and let the silence speak for itself.
Your small house felt like a prison. It wasnât until a week later, as you sat on the beach watching the waves crash against the shore, that your phone buzzed with a message. It was the officer: "Rafeâs awake."
Your heart jumped straight into your throat. You still hadnât told anyone the full story about what happened between you and Rafe, and honestly, you didnât even know if you ever could. They knew the basicsâhe was in the hospital, you both got caught in a shooting, and somehow, heâd saved your life. Thatâs all anyone knew.
But now, with him awake... you were completely lost.
With shaky hands, you fumbled for the phone, dialing the number the officer had given you. It rang a few times, "Hello, this is St. Michael Hospital. How can I help you?"
"Hi, I'm calling to check on a patient, Rafe Cameron. I was told heâs awake."
There was a pause on the other end of the line, just the faint sound of keys clicking away. "Yes, Mr. Cameron is awake. Are you a family member?" the nurse asked.
You hesitated, unsure how to answer. "No. Uh, a friend, I guessâ" You almost started rambling, but instead, you settled for, âCan you tell him Maybankâs calling?â
"Okay, just a minute, please."
You stared at the sand, biting your lip, trying to figure out what youâd even say to him. When the nurse finally came back on, her voice was softer, almost pitiful, and you immediately knew you weren't going to like her answer.
"Iâm sorry. Mr. Cameron has requested not to speak with you," she said. "Is there anything else I can assist you with?"
Your whole body went numb. You wanted to throw the phone, scream into the void, drown yourself in the ocean and not come up until you didnât feel anything anymore.
 What the hell?Â
Youâd spent weeks thinking about him, on edge, worrying if he was gonna make it, praying for him even though you werenât even sure you believed in any of that. And now...he didnât want to speak to you? Unbelievabl, like all of itâevery single moment you spent worrying, crying, hopingâit was for nothing. You didn't have it in you to put up a fight.
"No, that's all. Thanks," you mumbled before hanging up.
You stared at your phone, trying to process it. Rafe didnât want to talk to you. It was like someone ripped the ground from under you. Everything you thought you had shared, everything he did for you, saving your life... Had any of it mattered to him?
Had you just imagined it?
You tried to think backâRafe had kissed you, touched you like you were precious, like he didnât want to break you. And that moment when heâd saved youâhad that meant nothing to him? Maybe you were just fooling yourself. Maybe, to him, you were just a temporary distraction, someone who didnât mean anything outside of that life-or-death situation. Just a pogue.
You were just sitting there, staring out at the water, trying not to fall apart. The sun felt too bright, the world too loud, everything too much. The anger, the hurt, the confusionâBefore you even realized what you were doing, a scream tore out of you, raw and guttural.
It ripped through the air, echoing across the beach as if it could somehow take away everything inside. Tears came next, hot and salty, and you couldnât stop them even if you wanted to.
Without warning, a scream ripped from your throat, raw and unfiltered. It echoed across the empty beach, a primal release of everything you had been bottling up. You hadnât cried properly in weeks.Â
You screamed until your throat was raw, until you had nothing left to give. The sun cast long shadows on the sand, the beach deserted except for you. Collapsing back onto the sand, you let the tears flow freely.Â
There was no one to judge you, no one to see you fall apart. Youâd spent a lifetime pulling yourself together, it was only fair you finally got to breathe properly. When the tears subsided, you wiped your face with the back of your hand and took a shuddering breath. The tightness in your chest began to ease, replaced by a hollow ache.
You were many things, but none of them were weak and yet...It was almost unbearable, the way your mind replayed every interaction, every look, every word, searching for signs you might have missed, clues that would have warned you not to get attached.
Footsteps crunched in the sand, and you tensed, knowing who it was even before you turned to look. JJ. Of course, it was him. You still werenât ready to face him after the argument. But he sat down next to you without saying a word, just looking out at the water like you were.
When he finally spoke, his voice was softer than you expected.
âIâve been thinking about what you said.â
You nodded, unsure of what to say.
âIâm sorry for what I said about Mom,â he continued, sounding just as broken as you felt, âI shouldnât have compared you to her. That wasnât fair.â
You swallowed hard, your throat still aching from the scream. âItâs okay,â you whispered. âI get it.â
âI did, and I didnât,â he admitted. âI just... I donât want to see you get hurt. I donât trust him, and I hate that youâve been caught up in all this.â
âHe doesnât want to talk to me.â
JJ turned to you, frowning, âWhat do you mean?â
âI called the hospital. They said heâs awake, but he doesnât want to speak with me.â
You could barely get the words out without choking up.
Your brother frowned, his protective instincts flaring up. âThat fucking piece of shit. After everythingââ
You shook your head, cutting him off gently. ââMaybe heâs right. Maybe itâs for the best.â
JJ sighed, softening as he looked at you. âHey, donât do that. Donât blame yourself. You didnât do anything wrong.â
A lump formed in your throat, but you nodded, trying to believe his words. âI just... I thought there was more to it. That maybe he could change.â
âPeople like Rafe... itâs hard to change.â
âYeah,â you whispered, tears threatening to spill again.
âBut that doesnât mean youâre wrong for wanting to see the good in him.â
He spoke with such gentleness and wisdom. You forgot he wasnât a kid anymore. That heâd also done his fair share of growing up way too fast.Â
You leaned into his touch, âI know.â
âWeâll get through this,â JJ said firmly. âTogether. You and me, like always.â
You nodded, wiping your face with the back of your hand. âLove you.â
âLove you too.â
As the sun began to set, casting a warm glow over the beach, you and JJ sat there in silence. The waves continued to crash against the shore, a reminder that life moved forward, even when it felt like everything was falling apart.
Maybe things would never go back to the way they were, but you had your brother, your friends, and a resilience you didn't know it was capable of existing until then.
Six months had gone by since that day, but it felt like a lifetime ago.
Life had somewhat gone back to normal, or at least a version of it. The days were getting hotter, like the summer was showing off, making everything sticky and slow. Youâd spent the afternoon alone, sprawled out on the couch with a book you werenât really reading, barely feeling the breeze from the old fan struggling against the heat.
You were in the middle of rereading the same sentence for the third time when loud banging on the door made you jump. The knock was so aggressive it had to be someone with a serious problem, and the sound jolted you upright.
You groaned, rolling off the couch and heading for the door. "What theâ"
Before you could even finish, you yanked the door open, annoyance already building up. And then, just like that, it drained out of you.
âRafe?â
It was him. Standing there. Looking... well, looking alive, which was more than you expected after months of silence.
You froze, staring at him, and instinct kicked in. You tried to slam the door in his face, but he was quick. His hand caught the edge, holding it open. âSeriously?â you hissed, shoving harder. âGet the hell off my porch.â
"Maybankâ"
"If you don't get off my property, I swear to fucking Godâ"
âWaitâMaybankâjust listen.â
âNope. Get lost. Now.â
âPlease.â His voice cracked, and his hand shook where it held the door. âJust give me a minute.â
You glared at him, every instinct telling you to push harder, to shut him out. But something in his eyesâfear, desperation, a flicker of the Rafe you once knewâgave you pause.
The last time you saw him, he was bleeding out and terrifyingly pale. It wasnât the cocky Rafe you remembered. The last time you saw him, he was bleeding out, barely conscious. And now he was just... here. What the hell was he doing here?
The last update you had on him was from Sarah, months ago. He had left the hospital and kept sporadic contact, reaching out to her only every few weeks. You never asked her about his well-being or what he was doing; despite guessing that he was cooperating with the police.
At least you hoped he was.Â
You were determined not to care anymore.
He leaned against the doorframe, looking worn out in a way that made you pause for a second too long. âYou look good."
You rolled your eyes so hard it hurt. Was he for real?
You were going to slap the lack of common sense out of him. You werenât about to let him waltz back in like nothing had happened.
You scoffed, not letting your guard down. âWhat are you doing here?â
He looked down, trying to find the words as he scratched the back of his head, âI... I needed to see you. To talk.â
âYeah, no. Get back to whatever hole you crawled out of.â
You tried to slam the door again, but he held firm. âPlease, just let me explain.â
âYou had six months to explain.â
âI know, and Iâm sorry. I wasâ Itâs messed up, okay?" his words coming out rushed and uneven. âIâm still working with the feds. I was losing it. Still am, probably. But I need to explain. Please, Maybank, just a minute.â
Maybe it was the part of you that used to care, or maybe you just needed answers after everything that had happened. You stepped back, letting the door open just enough for him to walk in.
âFine. Talk.â
Rafe stepped inside, looking around your small living room as if seeing it for the first time, which you now realized he'd never been in your house. And now that he was standing here, you regretted letting him in.
He turned to face you, his expression earnest. âI didnât know what to say. I feltââ, He took a deep breath, cheeks puffing, âAshamed. I donât know.â
You crossed your arms over your chest, keeping a safe distance between you.
âAshamed? Youâve done a lot of things to be ashamed of. You canât just show up after six months and expect everything to be fine.â
âI know,â He admitted, taking a deliberate small step closer to you, âI wasnât expecting that. I just... I wanted to tell you that Iâm trying. Iâm in therapy and rehab, trying to get clean. Iâve been going to meetings. Itâs been hell, but Iâm trying.â
You looked at him, searching for any sign of deceit. His eyes were clear, more focused than you had ever seen them. He wasn't high.
You eyed him skeptically. âWhy should I believe you?â
âBecause youâre the only person who ever saw anything good in me. And I canât forget that. I donât deserve it, but I need you to know that your faith in me wasnât for nothing.â
The vulnerability in his voice took you by surprise. You had expected anger, arrogance, manipulationâbut this was different. Genuine. It felt like you were back in that motel room, in his arms.
You scoffed, turning away from him. âIs that all? Thatâs why you showed up here out of nowhere?â
âNo, itâs not,â he said, sounding more desperate. âI justâShit. I need to make things right. With you. I donât know how, but I need to try.â
You took a deep breath.
You didnât want to talk to me.â
He winced at that, his guilt obvious. âI was scared, okay? I didnât know how to handle it. I still donât. But Iâm here now, trying to fix what I broke.â
Part of you wanted to believe him, to give him another chance, but the other part of youâthe part that had been hurt and abandonedâwas screaming not to fall for it again.
âSo you shut me out?â You snapped, âYou made me feel like I meant nothing.â
âThatâs not true,â He snapped back, head whipping up, then immediately softened his tone, taking another step closer. âThatâs not true. You mean more to me than youâll ever know. I was getting better for you."
âDonât lie to me.â
Rafe looked offended, eyes zeroing in on your lips before his gaze met yours. That's when you felt it again, âI never lied to you, pretty.â
You recoiled at the nickname, taking a step back, needing space.Â
âCameron.â
Another step closer. His eyes pleading with you to understand.Â
You were staring up at him now, the look on your face completely unreadable. You were waiting for an answer, but he had a feeling that no matter what answer he gave, it wouldn't make a difference.
"I never lied to you," He repeated, his voice shaking slightly. "I was scared and confused, but I never lied.â
âScared and confused? Thatâs your excuse?â
Rafe flinched at your words, but he didn't back down. âI know how it sounds. I handled it all wrong. Iâm trying to fix it.â
âYou think saying sorry and showing up out of the blue makes it better?"
His hands reached out, his palms open as if he was dealing with a wounded animal. âIâm not asking for forgiveness right away. I just want a chance to make things right.â
âYou donât get it, do you?â You spat, your voice trembling with emotion, âHow it felt, watching you almost die. I spent days wondering if you were going to beââÂ
You stopped yourself, knowing that if you continued your voice would crack and the tears would start pouring down your cheeks.
You already cried enough for him.Â
Rafeâs expression softened, and he reached out tentatively, his hand stopping inches from your arm. âIâm sorry, baby.â
You took a step back, putting more distance between you, needing the space to think clearly. âI needed you to be sorry six months ago.â
Itâs only then, when your brain cleared slightly that you noticed he looked different. His hair had been buzzed, his skin looked tanner than the last time youâd seen him, he looked healthier.Â
Rafe noticed your eyes wandering to his head and ran a hand through his short hair, a hint of a self-conscious smile flickering across his lips.
âYeah, I uh, made some changes. Trying to start over, I guess.â
âIâm happy for you, but I canât do this.â
âPrettyâ"
You sighed, rubbing your temples as you cut him off, âI feel guilty enough as it is around everyone else.â
âI told Sarah.â
His words hit you like a punch to your gut.Â
âWhat?â
âAbout us.â
You felt your stomach drop and your vision narrow, the world tilting sideways. âYou what?â
âI told her.âÂ
âYou absolute fuckingââ You hissed, your voice rising without warning, âAre you serious?!â
âI thought it was the right thing to do,â His tone faltered to one that couldâve fallen on deaf ears if not attentive enough. âI needed someone to talk to, and sheâsâŠmy sister.â
You were fuming, pacing the room. âDo you realize what that could do? My life hereâeverythingâcould be ruined because you couldnât keep your mouth shut.â
Rafe flinched, taking a step back. âI didnât think it would be this bad.â
âOf course you didnât,â You nearly growled, pacing the small living room. âYou never think about anyone but yourself, do you?â
âListenâ â He opened his mouth undoubtedly to fire back with another half-assed apology - but you barreled forward, letting the months of bottled resentment continue to burst open.
âYouâre so selfish.â
âShe promised she wouldnât tell anyone,â His throat bobbed in an audible gulp, âItâs okay.â
âYou really believe that?â You stopped pacing and turned to face him, your hands clenched into fists at your sides. âThis is too much for her to keep to herself. Itâll eat away at her until she tells someone. And when that happens, my life here is over.â
Rafe looked stricken, âI justâI needed someone to understand what Iâm going through.â
For the first time, he took the time to explain what was going on in his head instead of letting his frustrations take over and kissing you.
âAnd what about what Iâm going through?â You demanded. âDid you ever stop to think about that? Iâve been trying to move on, to rebuild my life, and you just waltz back in and blow everything up.â
âIâm sorry,â he said, his voice barely a whisper. âIâm so sorry.â
You spotted his sun-kissed freckles. They wouldnât be noticeable if you hadnât looked at him so closely before.
âSorry doesnât fix this,â Bitterness began to overpower the pit of your heaving chest, âSorry doesnât make it go away. You canât just undo what youâve done.â
âI know,â One shaky hand scrubbed over his face, refusing to meet your wide-eyed stare., âBut Iâll do whatever it takes to make it right. I swear.â
âMake it right? You canât make this right, Rafe.â
âI donât know what else to do,â he said, his voice breaking. âIâm trying, pretty. I really am.â
You felt a smidge of sympathy despite your anger.
You could see the pain and desperation in his eyes, the same pain and desperation you had felt for the past six months. But that didnât change the fact that he left you hanging for so long.
âI need you to leave."
You expected him to put up a fight, to lash out, hide his emotions with empty threats and petty names. But he didnât. Instead, he nodded, his shoulders slumping slightly as he turned to leave. You watched him go in silence.
Part of you wanted to run after him, to give him another chance, to believe that he could change. But another partâthe part that had been hurt and left to heal on its ownâknew that it wasnât that simple.
You had to protect yourself, even if it meant shutting him out for good.
Rafe paused in the doorway, his back to you. His voice was barely above a whisper, but it carried clearly through the thick air. "I donât regret it," he repeated, his shoulders tensing as he spoke.
You blinked, taken aback. "What?"
He turned slightly, just enough for you to see the raw honesty in his eyes. "I donât regret what happened. Between us. I regret how I handled it, how I hurt you, but I donât regret feeling something real for once."
The words hung in the air, and for a moment, the suffocating heat seemed to dissipate, replaced by a cold clarity. You crossed your arms tighter around yourself, trying to hold onto your anger, your resolve. But his words had hit a nerve, bringing back memories youâd tried so hard to bury.
You looked away, unable to look at him, "It doesnât change anything."
"I know.â
And with that, he walked out, leaving you standing there, your heart in pieces all over again. You pushed away from the door, needing something to distract yourself.Â
You picked up your book, but the words blurred on the page. You tossed it aside, your thoughts too chaotic to focus. Instead, you paced the small living room, replaying the conversation in your mind.
You eventually collapsed onto the couch, staring blankly at the ceiling. You did the right thing, so why did it hurt so bad?Â
You felt like a wound had been reopened, and you hated him for it.
But you hated yourself more for letting him get to you.
The hours dragged on, the sun dipping below the horizon and casting long shadows through the windows. You tried to lose yourself in anythingâTV, reading, cleaningânothing worked.
You only saw Rafe's face, his desperate eyes, his trembling hands.
You remembered the feel of his skin, the sound of his voice when he was vulnerable. The memories were too real, too persistent. You couldn't bring yourself to explain it to yourself. Your eyes begin to itch, warning you to think of something else.
Anything else but Rafe.
Was this heartbreak? Noâit couldn't be. Why did it still hurt?
You weren't in love with Rafe Cameron.
At least, you didn't think you were.
You had never allowed yourself to consider it, to dwell on what you felt for him. But now, in the stillness of your small living roomâŠit was different. You never had a good parental figure to teach you these things. All you knew was destruction, violence, and heartbreak. And although youâd done pretty well for yourself, all things considered, this was new to you.
You had tried so hard to suppress your feelings, to deny your connection with him. But thisâŠwasnât something that could be easily forgotten or ignored. You had been so afraid to admit it, fearing that acknowledging would destroy you.Â
You were in love with Rafe Cameron.Â
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His love language?? Definitely quality time and physical love. He will literally show up unannounced at the sorority house. Come into your room and lay in your bed till you get back from class. Or if your doing course work or getting ready to go to class. Heâll lay there watching or chatting. He even goes to your room while youâre in class. Just so he can be in âyourâ environment. Itâs comforting to him, watching your tv while lying on your bed?? Heaven
Definitely a clinger or heavy flirt when drunk âdamn baby, you look sâgood right nowâŠâ âRafe, Iâm in my fucking pyjamas, shut up.â âNah, baby, swear⊠youâre even better without themâŠâ âRAFE, SLEEPâ
This guy when it comes to you in his clothes. GOD heâs feral!! âJesus Christ, when did you get that??â âOk, one Iâm not Jesus, and two, last week I stole it before I left.â âFuck, keep stealing, look so goodâ âshot take my whole closet.â
Heâs so laid back with the sorority girls. Heâll listen to the gossip and even add on to the shit. If youâre heavy on the âyou gotta get along with my friends for me to even consider getting into a relationshipâ heâs getting to know your friends instantly. He wants you, of course heâs gonna do it.
You got class and he doesnât? Heâll walk you. Until he knows your in your class, heâs not leaving your side. Making sure no one knocks you or barges into you in the hallway. Holding your hand like youâd drift away if you didnât hold his hand. Either that or an arm around your waist. Gotta show everyone youâre his, of course.
Stealing your notes, idk why, but I feel like he would. âRafe?⊠Babe? Have you seen my sport notes?â âUhhh no? Why they gone missing?â âYeah⊠think someone has them in a backpack thatâs right by their shoesâŠâ âwho me?! Nah baby, wrong person, I didnât steal shit.â âSo if I looked in your bag?â âOk, I may have-â âyou bitch!â
He loves cuddling after a long college day. Walks into your room, not bothering to knock. He lays on your bed. If youâre at your desk and look over to him, his arms are open and his famous words âcome lay with me, pretty girl.â And in one swift movement. Youâre in his arms while he plays with your hair.
He also oddly loves that youâre passionate about your favourite subject. Like if itâs art for example, heâll always ask to see it or watch you while you do your art. Or of itâs sports and you need someone to help you with a part of your course. Donât even ask, heâs already said yes. Such a supportive boyfriend fr.
He LOVES when you either rub his back or play with his hair. Especially when heâs lying on top of you. His head on your chest. His cheek squished against you, eyes shut as you play with his hair and rub his back. His body could just go limp from the sensation you make. He doesnât understand how it makes him feel so good. Too good. But he will never EVER decline.
He loves that you get along with the guys. Like youâre able to match their energy and throw comebacks right at them. He just finds it so easy that you get along. As past hook ups would usually find the frat house annoying. Whereas you thrive there. Itâs practically your second place at the college as your over there so much. Movie nights with the boys every Friday too, then party on Saturdays.
On the topic of being close with all the guys. You tell them all the gossip. You love how they listen to your rants and actually listen. Like while youâre doing your makeup at Rafe desk or picking your outfit for the night. Theyâll all sit around Rafeâs room and listen to you rant about girl drama or things in general.
If you play a sport at college. Expect him to be there for every game, along with the frat guys. And heâll make sure to pick you up after every practice (if you didnât take your car).
He loves his kisses. Even if theyâre quick ones. This guy will crave them 24/7, 365 days. Anywhere on him, he just wants them. He loves when you kiss his forehead, then his cheeks, then his chin, then nose and then his lips. Makes him melt right there and then.
He loves touching you, in both ways. But deep down, he loves just regular affection. Holding your hands, fidgeting with your rings. Playing with your hair, brushing his knuckles on your cheeks. Resting his forehead on yours, resting his cheek against yours. Watching movies and cuddling. Sitting on his lap, arm around your waist. The list can go on forever.
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⧠word count: 26.7k ⧠warnings: cursing, VERY suggestive/innuendous, reader teases mark a lot playfully but heâs a shy loserboy so the banter is not usually returned and it might come across as a bit excessive/mean sometimes but itâs their version of flirting i promise, blasphemous usage of the word MILF ⧠genre: fluff, strangers to lovers, modern magical creatures au, basilisk mark, sphinx reader, age gap (older reader), college student mark, career woman reader, ft. various magical neos, human renjun, human johnny (and other very special guest appearances), same universe as strawberry sunday ⧠extra info: this work is set in the same universe as strawberry sunday but can be read as a standalone! there is no continuing plotline between fics in this universe, they simply take place in the same world/magic system and may have overlapping characters (neos may pop up in more than one work!) ⧠authorâs note: this one is definitely not going to be for everyone i think. but! i had fun with it. itâs got me exploring a lot of new stuff in it: writing for mark, writing this kind of relationship dynamic, figuring out what sphinxes are like in this universe, and some new characters (gasp!) so i had a ball. which of course means the word count is obscene lol. anyway enjoy the (probably) last installment of the strawbsunday universe. iâm not going to call this the official end bc i had so much fun with these characters that i could totally see myself coming back, but as of now this is all i have planned! thank you all for tagging along and i hope you're looking forward to whatâs next! ⧠EDIT DEC 2024: this fic had a brief mention of a former 127 member in it. iâve edited this fic to take it out, but if there are any mentions of him that i missed, inconsistencies, or plot holes, please let me know!
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âYouââ Jisung was cut off by Chenle.
âTotally fucked our neighbor! I always knew you were a MILF hunter, Mark Leeââ Chenleâs voice was getting louder and louder, and you were sure that at this point you might not have even needed magical hearing to discern their words.
Friday night. After a long week of work, you finally could relax, order some food, make yourself a drink, kick your feet up, and just have a nice quiet night to yourself. Reclined on your couch in your comfiest silk robe, you brought your glass to your lips as you flicked through some options for what to watch. With delight, you realized that a drama youâd been watching had released a new episode. Youâd barely clicked play and settled in when the raucous sounds of hooting, hollering, and electronic shooting and smashing penetrated through your living room wall. Sighing to yourself, you paused your show and stood up to walk over to the wall that your TV hung from, which you shared with your next-door neighbors.
A few months agoâat the beginning of the local universityâs fall semester, you figuredâtwo college kids had moved in next door to you. You liked Chenle and Jisung just fine; they were polite whenever you saw them in the hallway or elevator, sometimes if Jisung saw you carrying heavy groceries, the dragon would offer to help you bring them in, and while some people may not be thrilled to have a fairy next door, you knew that a lot of your neighbors felt the same way about you, so you didnât hold that against Chenle. All in all, they werenât the worst people to live next to. Except for when their other rambunctious college friends came over for video game nights. They didnât always seem aware of the noise levels. Thankfully, they were quick to make adjustments as soon as you made them aware. Another reason that you didnât mind living next door to them, despite the occasional loudness.
You banged your fist against the wall a couple times. It was almost immediately followed by a distant âOh shit!â and the hasty lowering of their video game volume. A young manâs voice then came through the wall much clearer, as if he were just on the other side from you.
âSorry!â It sounded like Jisung. You didnât respond, instead plopping back down onto your couch and playing your show again. No need to have a shouting match through the wall and disturb everybody else in the building. They continued their video games at a constant, but much quieter hum for the rest of the evening, and you puttered around through your streaming services until you deemed your night over.
After putting your leftovers away in your fridge, you were about to head off to your bedroom when you heard the distant shuffle of footsteps over your welcome mat. You paused at the threshold of your kitchen to your living room, waiting to see if whoever it was would actually ring the doorbell, or just keep⊠well, it sounded like they were pacing anxiously. Finally, there were a couple soft taps on your front door. If you were a human, you werenât sure if you would have even heard that. Your footsteps were soft across your carpeted floor as you moved to answer the door. First looking out the peephole, your interest was piqued when you saw a young man standing there who was neither Chenle nor Jisung. Though you did have an idea of exactly what this was about.
Undoing your deadbolt, latch, then disarming the alarm, you opened the door just enough for you to cross your arms over your chest and lean against the doorframe. âI accept apologies in the form of cash or groveling.â
âHuh?â The young man stared at you wide-eyed, open-mouthed, and dumb-founded. You took note of his slit pupils, and the two fangs that hadnât yet fully descended from his top jaw. Huh, basilisk.
âDid the boys not send you over here to be the sacrificial lamb?â You cocked your head and looked him up and down perhaps too obviously, as he shifted nervously under your gaze. A very timid basilisk at that. You eyed the oversized t-shirt he had on that had the same university logo that youâd often seen your neighbors wearing. âYou are one of Chenle and Jisungâs friends, right?â
âOh, y-yeah, I am. Iâm Mark. Mark Lee.â He took one of his hands out from where heâd stuffed them into the pockets of his joggers, wiped it on the leg of said joggers, and held it out to you. As he got close enough to shake your hand, you could finally smell him. Sphinx noses werenât as sensitive as werewolvesâ or vampiresââor basilisk tongues for that matter. Not to mention that basilisks just didnât have as strong of a scent as most other beings. They had a mild, earthen smell that reminded you of peat freshly after rain. Others tended to make less favorable comparisons such as damp caverns or even mildewy caves, but those ideas never occurred to you. Maybe it was because one of your own childhood best friends was a basilisk, so you were just used to the smell and had positive memories associated with it.
You couldnât conceal the amusement on your face as you delicately shook his hand, now very aware of his clammy palms. âItâs nice to meet you, Mark, Iâm Y/N. Now if they didnât send you over with your big brown eyes and sweet face in an attempt to distract me from the ruckus you all were making earlier, then why are you on my doorstep?â
âWait, you can look at my eyes?â There was a noticeable drag on his sâes when he spoke, which you noted with a certain fondness. He must be young enough to have missed most, if not all, of the mandatory speech therapy that the basilisks of your cohort and before went through during primary and secondary school. It was removed from the curriculum for being unfair and prejudiced against the creatures, but that was after your time. You could remember your friend Jongin being singled out to leave class three times a week for the âtherapy.â Even now he could still recall the name of the instructor who led it, his voice filling with bitter vitriol on the rare occasions heâd choose to talk about it.
âIâm a sphinx, honey. You couldnât petrify me if you tried,â you informed Mark knowingly. Now you were curious as to why he was out and about without magical eye protection or at least non-magical sunglasses if he was apparently so worried about petrifying people. But, not curious enough to divert you from your original mission. âNow, why are you here?â
âO-Oh, right, uhm, Iâm really sorry for bothering you, maâam, itâs just that I went to go get something from my car but then I realized that I forgot my keys in their apartment and I came back up to get them but I locked myself out. My phoneâs in the apartment too, and I tried knocking but theyâre not answering andââ
âThey fell asleep in the two minutes you were gone?â You cut him off, raising your eyebrows slightly in disbelief.
âNo, no, they were already asleep. You see, uhm, Iâm crashing on their couch tonight andââ
âGot it, got it.â You nodded. Well, that explains the lack of sunglasses. They were also presumably locked in the apartment. âSo, what do you want from me?â
âCan I borrow your phone really quick, just to try to call them and see if theyâll pick up? Again, Iâm really, really sorry about this.â
âI will actually do you one better, Mark.â You did a small shooing gesture, and he seemed to get the idea, taking a couple steps back. Once he was off of your welcome mat, you lifted up the corner and grabbed the key that was sitting under there. You held it out to him. âHere.â
âUhââ
âItâs their spare key, not mine.â You reassured him. âWhen they moved in, they asked if they could hide it under my mat because it would be too obvious to burglars for their spare key to be under their mat.â
âO-Oh.â Mark gingerly took the key from you. âThank you, maâam.â
âMark, one more thing.â
âAnything!â He blurted out, then his entire face flushed as he scrambled to tone it down. âI mean, y-yeah, of course, maâam, what do you need?â
You couldnât help but smirk as you requested, âStop calling me maâam.â
âRight, sorry.â
âYou can call me Y/N.â
âO-Okay!â The basilisk smiled at you brightly, another flash of his not-yet fully developed baby fangs. He presumably was only a year or so out from his first molting. They were cute. He was... cute.
âGoodnight, Mark.â You stepped back and grabbed the edge of your door, preparing to close it.
âGoodnight, Y/N.â
His eyes didnât leave you the entire time as you shut the door. Curious, you peered out your peephole. Mark flicked his forked snake tongue out in the air once before he made his way over to your neighborsâ door. The boys had a corner apartment, meaning that despite the two apartments sharing a wall, their door was actually perpendicular to yours, so you could see it from your peephole. You watched Mark unlock the apartment, then dart back over to yours and bend over to lift up your mat. You froze, not expecting him to immediately return the key. You figured heâd just give it back to his friends in the morning. He paused after heâd put the key under the mat again, tongue once more testing the air. You held your breath, waiting for a paralyzing one, two seconds before he finally left again. You didnât relax fully until the boysâ apartment door had closed behind him, though. You wanted to hit yourself. What were you even nervous about? A grown woman being caught standing by your own apartment door? By some random college kid? Ridiculous. You scoffed, doing up your locks, latches, and alarm again.
âHi, Ms. Y/N.â âHi, Ms. Y/N.â
Chenle and Jisung gave you two very polite nods as they passed you in the hallway heading out of the building at the same time that you were coming home from work. It had been a couple weeks since their last video game night when youâd had your unexpected visitor, which was also the last time youâd seen or heard a peep from either of your young neighbors. You figured theyâd been keeping an extra-low profile out of guilt.
You smiled back at them genuinely. âHi, boys.â
The third figure behind them looked at you with wide eyes, and you arched an eyebrow curiously at him, a silent challenge.
âH-Hi, Y/N.â To his credit, Markâs voice didnât crack at all, despite the stutter.
âHi, Mark,â you practically purred his name, not slowing down in the slightest as you continued your path to your front door. You bit your bottom lip to keep from laughing as you heard the fervent whispered back and forth of the college students behind you.
âDude, what the fuck?â Jisung hissed at Mark.
âYeah, what the fuck is wrong with you?â Chenle concurred.
âWhat?â Mark shot back quietly.
You arrived at your apartment door at the end of the hall, still well within earshot for you. Opening up your purse to fetch your keys, you unhurriedly flipped through every key on your keyring.
âYouââ Jisung was cut off by Chenle.
âTotally fucked our neighbor! I always knew you were a MILF hunter, Mark Leeââ Chenleâs voice was getting louder and louder, and you were sure that at this point you might not have even needed magical hearing.
âDude!â Mark snapped, and you heard the sound of what you were pretty sure was the basilisk slapping a hand over the fairyâs mouth. âShe can totally hear us!â
You raised a hand above your head and, without turning around, waved it. âHey, boys. Sphinx, remember?â
âSorry, Ms. Y/N!â Jisung called out down the hall to you, and you could picture his sheepish face in that moment. You went to actually unlock your apartment now, pushing the door open.
âSorry!â Mark apologized too, as you had stepped into your home.
You just caught his eye and a glimpse of his pink ears as you turned around to disable your alarm next to the closing door. In the moment before the gap shut all the way, you winked at him.
Humming along to the music playing from your phone, you touched up your work makeup to make it a little more ânighttimeâ and swapped out your studs for some more flashy going-out dangly earrings. Youâd already changed into a much less corporate outfit for your night out with your friends that you had planned and were just putting the finishing touches on before you had to leave in a few minutes. Youâd just finished up with your hair and makeup when you swore you heard a knock at your front door. Pausing your music to stick your head out of your bathroom, you listened more carefully. Yeah, there were definitely footsteps at your front door, and it didnât sound like a delivery person dropping a package off and leaving. In fact, it sounded like someone pacing nervously. A very familiar shuffle, if you werenât mistaken.
Already bemused, you took long strides through your apartment to get to your front door, deftly unlocking it. And sure enough, when you so confidently swung it open without peeking through the peephole first, your instincts had of course been right. Mark Lee was standing on the other side, shifting his weight nervously from foot to foot. His gaze immediately snapped up to you, and you barely contained your amusement at how his jaw literally dropped when he took in what you were wearing.
âHello, Mark,â you greeted him, once more leaning against your doorway. It had been a few weeks since youâd last seen him, and you could only guess why he was knocking on your door again.
You could see him blink himself out of a trance, running a hand through his hair, knocking the hood of his forest green hoodie off his head in the process. âHi, Y/N. How-How are you?â
âIâm well, thank you. How about you?â
âGood! Iâm good.â
âSo⊠What brings you to my doorstep again? You know where the boysâ key is.â You pointed to the welcome mat underneath his sneakers.
âOh, Chenle and Jisung arenât even home right now,â he said off-handedly. âI didnât come to see them.â
âIs that so?â
âYeah. I uhm, I wanted to ask you something.â
âMarkâŠâ You said his name calmly, but with a hint of warning. Truly, this was your fault. Youâd been having too much fun and let this get out of hand, and now you were going to have to let this sweet boy down easy before he started something he couldnât finish. And youâd had such a good relationship with your neighbors so far, too. Maybe heâd be too embarrassed to tell them. One could only hope.
Markâs ears were getting redder by the second. âSorry, I know youâre probably too busy butâ Could you maybe help me with my abilities?â
Well, that certainly wasnât what you were expecting. Shoving away the strange twinge of disappointment in your chest, you reminded him, âIâm not a basilisk. Iâm not even reptile adjacent at all. Sphinxes are part-lion, part-eagle.â
âI know, I just thought that, you know, sphinxes develop your powers later, right? Youâre not born with them.â
âRightâŠâ
âBasilisks too. I just thought that, I donât know, maybe youâd be able to at least give me some advice?â He immediately shook his head at himself. âIâm sorry, you donât even know me, Iâll justââ
âHold on, Mark.â You went to stop him from leaving entirely. While you werenât fully convinced, this at least wasnât a conversation to be having on your doorstep. You had better manners than to leave the poor boy on your doormat. You stepped back from your door, opening it wider. âHere, come in.â
âO-Okay.â He obliged, walking into your apartment. âThank you.â He stood awkwardly just a couple steps past the front door, looking around your living room hesitantly.
âDo you want something to drink? Water? Tea?â You offered, hoping it would calm him down. He looked so tense that you were a little worried about his blood pressure. âUnfortunately I donât have any Red Bulls or whatever college boys sustain themselves on.â
âOh, uh, no thank you. I actually donât drink energy drinks or any of that stuff.â He shook his head, his nose wrinkling. âTastes too⊠too much.â
âHmâŠâ You filled up a glass of water for yourself, and an extra for Mark anyway. He was your guest, after all. You sat back in your spot in the corner of your couch, putting one of the glasses down on your coffee table for him. You took a sip of the other. When Mark was still rooted to the same spot a couple seconds later, you gestured to the other two-thirds of the piece of furniture. âYou can sit, my couch wonât come to life and swallow you whole, you know.â
âRight, sorry.â He laughed, looking down at his feet as he walked over and sat on the opposite end from you. Or, as far to the opposite end as he could get. You had several throw pillows on that side. He still looked nervous, refusing to meet your gaze as his eyes flicked around your living room skittishly.
âIâm also not going to swallow you whole.â
âOf course, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry.â Mark picked up the glass of water that he had told you he didnât want, this time looking you in the eye as he gave you an anxious smile before bringing the drink up to his lips.
âNot unless you ask nicely.â
He immediately spat the drink of water heâd just taken back out into his cup as he coughed and choked, and you covered your own mouth as you giggled, not wanting to outright laugh in the poor boyâs face.
âIâm sorry, Mark, that was mean of me.â You patted his knee, then quickly took your hand back. You really were just trying to reassure him. âNow, you came in for a real reason, not just for me to tease you. Go ahead.â
Having finally recovered, he set his water back down on the table to talk. âY-Yeah, right. Uhm⊠So, basilisks donât start developing their powers until theyâve gone through their first molting. Mine was a year and a half ago and honestly my life has kind of been one big shit show ever since.â
âBasilisk powers arenât all they were cracked up to be?â
âI first partially petrified my human roommate last spring and now I have to wear sunglasses around him all the time or God forbid Iâm going to actually turn him to stone one of these days. I accidentally compel him, too, like all the time, and he refuses to let our witch friends make any sort of protection charm for him.â
âHe wants to get petrified and compelled?â
âNo, he doesnât want me to think heâs afraid of me. But Iâm afraid of what Iâm going to do to him. I feel like I can barely be in our apartment except to sleep.â Mark rubbed a hand over his face, visibly stressed and upset now. âDude definitely knows Iâm avoiding him but⊠I donât know what Iâd do with myself if I actually hurt Johnny.â
âWell first youâre not going to punish yourself over something you havenât even done. Thatâs not going to do anything for you or your friend,â you told him firmly.
âHmph,â he chuckled cynically.
âYou donât know any basilisks that could help you? Your parents? Friends?â You suggested gently. He clearly did need help, but you werenât going to be his best option. âThey might be a bit more useful than me.â
âMy parents live five hours away. Not exactly a day trip. And I donât know any other basilisks at school. My friends have all been supportive but useless. Theyâre either human or have been using their powers since before they could talk.â
You sighed and nodded in understanding. âI know what you mean. Itâs like puberty all over again. A magical growth spurt but instead of suddenly losing all body awareness, growing four inches, and having hormones making your brain all fuzzy, youâre trying to gain an awareness on some new part of yourself you didnât have before, youâre teething like a giant toddler, and have magic making your brain all fuzzy.â
âYes, the teething! God, I thought I was crazy!â Mark groaned, vindication and relief all over his face at having someone else validate whatâs been happening to him. His features then turned confused. âWait, sphinxes donât have fangs, do you?â
You grabbed your top lip to pull it up, at the same time letting your second set of teeth descend.
âWowâŠâ He breathed out, watching you as you tucked them back into your jaw.
âLion canines. Retractable, thankfully.â You let go of your lip and closed your mouth, habitually running your tongue over your normal teeth. Sphinxes still didnât have perfectly average human teeth as their first set of teeth, they were much sharper, with a greater number of human canines. But you much preferred your first set anyway, they were the ones you grew up with, and were a lot less cumbersome than a full set of lion canines, incisors, and carnassials. All the second set was really good for was a party trick. Not that you really went to those anymore; youâd been out of college for years now.
âHave you ever met another sphinx before me, Mark?â You asked.
âW-What do you mean?â
âYou knew that sphinxes get our powers later in life, but you didnât know about our second set of teeth. I donât know, your knowledge is a little... inconsistent.â
He rubbed the back of his neck nervously. âWell... my friend Renjun, heâs a Magical Creatures Studies major. He goes on all these tangents all the time. I kind of zone in and out.â
âSo you havenât met another sphinx, but you were listening when your friend was talking about sphinxes getting their powers later in life, but you completely missed the part about lion teeth.â You ticked every detail off on your fingers to make sure you had it straight.
âYeah...â
You burst into laughter again, watching as the pink that had persisted on the tips of his ears spread down to his cheeks. âSorry, sorry, Iâm not laughing at you.â
âIt sure feels like it,â he mumbled, but you caught sight of a bashful smile on his lips as he stared down at his lap.
âI mean, I am laughing, but itâs justâ youâre justâ youâre very endearing, Mark,â you tried to explain to him. âIâm being endeared right nowâ Itâs a good thing, just take it as a compliment, okay?â
âSure, Iâll take it as a compliment.â He nodded. âFrom now on, when you laugh at something stupid and embarrassing I do or say, Iâll take it as a compliment.â
You chuckled, âYouâre funny, you know that?â
âYouâre the first person whoâs ever told me that,â he admitted, looking up from his hands to you. âYou know that?â
âWait, seriously?â Your smile faded.
âNo, but you believed me, didnât you?â The basilisk snickered.
âOh, hey!â You retorted indignantly. âNot fair! You had me feeling bad for you this whole time with the sob story about your powers! You canât justââ But Mark had already devolved into a fit of giggles, and you knew he was too far gone for your argument to hold any water. Instead, you watched him fondly as you realized that this was the most relaxed heâd been around you. As he started collecting himself, you took one more sip of your water, then set it down on the coffee table. âAlright, so whatâs your class schedule?â
Mark stared at you wide-eyed. âHuh?â
âI canât guarantee results of any kind, but Iâll do my best to teach you what I know at least.â
âReally?!â He seemed shocked that his own plan had worked.
âItâs not going to be a one-and-done, I can tell you that much. So, whatâs your schedule?â You reiterated your question. âI get off work at five every day and have yoga Tuesdays and Thursdays. So you better be available on a Monday or Wednesday.â
âWait, whatâs wrong with Friday?â
âYou may have endeared me, but not enough to give up my Friday nights.â
"Of course, right. Uh, Wednesdays should be the best for me. My last class is over at three and I usually donât get scheduled then since itâs so late in the day.â
âWhere do you work that 3:00 in the afternoon is late?â
âCampus bookstore. Closes at 5:00.â
âGotcha. So, I will see you here, next Wednesday at 6:00.â You could see panic grow in Markâs eyes as you started to stand up.
âW-Why not now?â
âBecause I have other plans, Mark,â you told him patiently. âIâll keep Wednesdays for you in the future, but tonight I have somewhere to be. You and Johnny have survived this long, I believe that youâll be able to survive one more week, okay?â
He got to his feet with a sigh. âYouâre right, Iâm sorry. Thank you, Y/N. Seriously.â
âDonât thank me yet.â You started guiding him toward your front door. âWho knows, I might make it worse.â
âI doubt it could get any worse.â
âI am so sorry Iâm late,â you breathed out as you sat down at the restaurant booth where your friends were waiting.
âThatâs okay, Y/N!â Baekhyun reassured you, pushing a glass over to you. âHere, we got you a water. We didnât know what you were going to get to eat, so we didnât want to order a drink-drink.â
âYouâre not usually late,â Minseok, another sphinx, pointed out from across the table from you and your siren friend.
âYeah, is everything alright?â Jongin asked from his seat beside Minseok. You especially noticed now how his sâes werenât as pronounced as Markâs, but at least some of his natural sibilance had come back once he got out of that speech âtherapy.â
You let out a sigh, dropping your head back against the booth. âI had an unexpected visitor.â
âOoh, do tell.â Baekhyunâs opalescent scales that sat just under the skin of his cheekbones, bridge of his nose, and forehead shifted with the inquisitive tilt of his head.
âNothing scandalous, I assure you,â you snorted. âJust some friend of my neighbors, you know, the college kidsââ
âA college boy? Y/N, you cougar!â The siren exclaimed, and you rolled your eyes.
âAre you done?â
âYes, continue.â
âI mean, his friends did indirectly call me a MILF, but I donât know if I should take that a compliment or an insult really.â
Minseok and Jongin guffawed at that while Baekhyunâs face lit up with delight. He smushed your cheeks in between his hands. âOh, Iâm so proud of you! My babyâs all grown up! No longer a baby but a MILF!â
âAt least to a bunch of college boys,â Minseok pointed out, grabbing his glass that looked like it was filled with some dark liquor. Whiskey, maybe. He always liked to mix it up. âDonât let it get you too down, Y/N, they probably think anybody above human drinking age is middle-aged.â
âLet it get her down?â Baekhyun scoffed indignantly. âYouâre clearly missing three-quarters of the acronym here, Minseok!â
âGuys!â You cut into their bickering. âI donât particularly care one, how old they think I am, or two, how fuckable they think I am.â
âThen why was one of them over at your place and making you late to our dinner?â Jongin arched a brow, taking a drink of what you knew was a glass of witchâs brew and tonic water. Basilisk tongues were extremely sensitive to taste, so regular alcohol was out of the question for him. Witchâs brew on the other hand was the perfect solution, with no burn and a pleasant, light, flowery taste. Almost too perfect of a solution, as youâd carried him home absolutely shitfaced drunk from plenty of parties after he discovered it in high school. Thankfully heâd both built up a tolerance and learned to pace himself and drink responsibly since then, so you hadnât had to do that in years.
âBecause I kind of just agreed to sort of... mentor him?â
âHuh?â Baekhyun tilted his head to the other side.
âWhy?â The sphinx snorted and took another swig of his drink.
Jongin just stared at you wordlessly. Shifting forward in your seat, you prepared yourself to try to explain it. âLong story short, he needs help with his powers, and he thinks I can help him.â
âSo heâs a sphinx,â Minseok surmised.
âWell, no...â
âGryphon that was abandoned as a child and never learned how to fly?â
âWhat? No.â
âSorry, thatâs just literally the only thing that makes sense other than him being another sphinx.â
âNo, heâs a... heâs a basilisk.â You crossed your arms over your chest, already prepared for the backlash from your friends over your choice.
âThen give him to Jongin.â
The basilisk scoffed, âI did not come out tonight to be given some kid. No thanks.â
Minseok gestured to him to emphatically. âSee? If Jonginâs not worried, the kidâs probably not that big of a danger to society. No need to help. Which you wouldnât be able to do anyway, because youâre not a basilisk.â
You held your hands up defensively. âLook, I told him I might not be any help, butââ
âBut he was just sooo cute with his widdle forked tongue and shedding molting skin all over your couch that you couldnât say no?â Minseok retorted, making Baekhyun burst into laughter.
âIâm right here, man,â Jongin muttered, taking another sip of his drink.
âNo!â You replied indignantly over both Minseok and Baekhyunâs unrestrained laughter at your expense. âHe had an actual reason! He pointed out that sphinxes and basilisks develop their powers similarly. We both are born as supernatural creatures, instead of being turned like vampires, but we get our powers later in life, unlike most creatures like sirens, or fairies, or dragons.â
While Jongin actually seemed to be considering the argument, Minseok and Baekhyun still both had disbelieving looks on their faces. The siren composed himself again to ask, âSure... yeah. But be honest... was he at least a wittle cute?â
You narrowed your eyes at him.
âI mean, thereâs a reason we donât let you near the animal shelter, Y/N,â Minseok reminded you. âYouâd adopt everything in there and never get your security deposit back.â
âI told him it might not work. It wonât hurt to just try,â you huffed.
âJust donât let him tear up your curtains.â Baekhyun patted your shoulder.
The next Wednesday finally rolled around, and you went through your day at work with the thought of your impending guest lingering in your mind. Or, more specifically, what the hell you were going to teach him. It had been on your mind all week. You jotted down what you were first taught when you got your sphinx powers, which was mostly a lot of breathing. Probably not really what he was looking for, but it was the best you got. It sounded like he didnât even have much of a foundation, which he needed before you could do anything close to actual compelling or petrificationâor preventing such.
Locking your front door behind you, you set your purse down and made a beeline for your bedroom to change out of your work clothes into something casual and comfortable. Mark had already seen you in your pajamas once, you werenât trying to make any impressions here. You tidied up your living room a little, moving a couple dirty pieces of clothes into your bedroom hamper, then took care of your dishes from breakfast this morning that you hadnât cleaned before leaving for work. All those miscellaneous tasks took up your time nicely, as just as you had finished wiping down your kitchen countertops, you picked up a familiar squeak of sneakers rushing down the hallway. Glancing up at the clock on your microwave, it struck 6:00 p.m. at the exact moment your doorbell rang.
You tossed your used paper towel in the trash before walking over to the front door. Mark was on the other side, the basilisk panting heavily, panic on his face. Before you could even greet him, he blurted out, âIâm sorry! Iâm so sorry! I hope Iâm not late! Iâm here! Please! I was studying, and lost track of time, please, Iïżœïżœm really sorry, Y/N!â
âWoah, Mark, slow down,â you said calmly. âYouâre right on time. Itâs okay. Please, come in.â
Holding the door open and stepping back, you beckoned him in with a reassuring smile. He let out a sigh of relief, walking in with his head down, eyes focused on his shoes. You got the two of you settled on the floor of your living room, sitting cross-legged facing each other.
âOkay, so today weâre really just going to beââ You were cut off by the sound of a stomach growling very loudly. And it wasnât yours.
Mark ducked his head in embarrassment. âIâm sorry! Keep going! Just-Just ignore that.â
âYou hungry, Mark?â
âSorryââ
âDid I ask for an apology?â
âNo.â
âThen why are you apologizing?â You asked gently.
âRight. Uhm, I had classes and then a meeting with a professor and then I was studying and Iâm pretty sure I havenât eaten since breakfast. I didnât want to be lateâŠâ
You shook your head. âWell, you canât do this on an empty stomach.â
âIâmââ
âIâm putting a moratorium on the word âsorryâ for tonight. Youâre done. Youâve hit your max.â You stood up, heading towards your kitchen. âCome on, letâs get some food in you.â
âOkayâŠâ
You rummaged through your fridge to bring out the ingredients for the dinner that you were planning to make tonight after Mark left. Looks like you were going to be moving dinner up. âI donât know what kind of gourmet meals youâre used to, but donât expect anything fancy out of my kitchen,â you forewarned him in jest, turning on the stovetop.
That finally got a smile out of him. âBetter than the dining hall, Iâm sure. And, you really donât have toââ
âItâs fine. Think of it like this: Would you go on a run, or go to the gym without eating anything? Magic needs energy too, just like exercise.â
âI never realized that.â Markâs stomach let out another growl then, making the basilisk rub the back of his very red neck, and you smiled quietly to yourself.
âAnd, I donât think either one of us could focus much with your stomach rumbling like that.â
Dinner was pulled together quickly, and you took it to your dining table. Pushing aside your laptop to give you enough room to set your plate down, you headed back to your kitchen. âMark?â You called for his attention as you opened your glasses cabinet. âWater? Wine? Beer? I think I might have a Coke in the back if you want that.â
âWaterâs fine.â
You nodded, filling up his glass of ice water before grabbing a beer for yourself and heading back to where the basilisk was waiting for you.
âThank you.â Mark accepted the cup from you. âReally, this is great.â
âYouâre welcome.â You popped open the tab of your can and held it out towards him. He tapped his glass to it, and you grinned, taking a sip before picking up your utensils to start eating.
As you watched Mark dig in eagerly, you felt a warm fondness in your chest for the basilisk in front of you. You wracked your brain for the last time youâd cooked for someone else. Whoever your last boyfriend was, you figured. It was funny, you couldnât even remember a specific instance, that was just a guess. You and your friends usually ate out, ordered in, or there was the odd occasion that Jongin would host a dinner party and you all would get dressed up to go over to his penthouseâheâd done the best out of all of you, he owned a luxury clothing brand and definitely lived like it. So as you sat here, watching the college student in front of wolf down the simple meal youâd just made for him like it was the best thing heâd ever tasted, you felt the sides of your lips upquirk just the slightest. You lifted another bite to your mouth and took another swig of your beer.
âSo whatâs your major?â You asked, and he finally looked up at you. It took everything in you not to immediately giggle and coo at his slightly bulging cheeks.
He quickly swallowed the food in his mouth and drank some water before answering your question. âBio⊠pre-med track.â
âWow. Human medicine or magical creatures?â
âBoth. Doctors should want to help everyone.â Mark had a scowl on his face as he stabbed a piece of food with his fork.
âGood point. When do you graduate?â
âNext spring. One more year.â He took a deep breath, then let out a big sigh. âAfter this semester. Then med school⊠If I donât catch an attempted murder charge for petrifying Johnny first.â
You looked down at his empty plate, then your half-full one. âLetâs see what we can do about that, then. You want seconds?â
âPlease?â
You couldnât help but chuckle at his big, pleading eyes. âOf course, go for it.â
Back on your living room floor sat cross-legged after dinner, you started where you left off before getting interrupted by the basiliskâs growling stomach. âTonight wonât be anything big and showy. From what youâve told me, you donât even have a foundation. We need that first.â
âA foundation?â The basilisk questioned.
âThe times that youâve accidentally petrified or compelled Johnny, did you feel anything?â
âHorrible and guilty and like a terrible person and that I was a danger to other people.â
You shook your head. âI meantâ Did you feel any different physically? On the inside? Or in your body? Not like, ashamed or embarrassed. Not emotionally.â
His face screwed up as he tried to think. âNo?â
âThatâs what I mean. You canât even feel when youâre using your magic. Your powers are a part of you, but right now theyâre functioning completely separate from you. We need to work on you being able to feel your magic at all before getting around to doing anything with it.â
âAnd how do I do that?â
âWeâre going to go through some guided breathing techniques that I did when I first got my powers, and see how those work, okay?â
âOkay. Uhm, first, thoughâŠâ
You looked at him attentively. âYes, Mark?â
âDo you think you could show me your-your heliokinesis?â
âAsked your friend to finish his lecture on sphinxes, huh?â You snickered, twisting around to crack your back.
âYeah, I meanââ
âItâs fine. Good move, considering. We just donât call it that.â
âOh. What is it called?â
âHeliokinesis is the academic word for the general ability to control solar energy, you werenât wrong. A few different beings can do it. Witches, with the right tools or spells; some fairies; phoenixes at the zenith of their life right before theyâre reborn; dryads to a smaller degree; and sphinxes. Us sphinxes call it sol-channeling.â
âGot it. Could you show me some? Sol-channeling? If thatâs okay?â
Looking out the window, you saw that there were still remnants of the sunset glowing outside. âSure, thereâs still enough light out.â
The basilisk sat up straight, eagerly drinking in every move you made and every word you said.
âNow, we can only channel, manipulate, and shape existing solar energy thatâs available. We canât create solar energy. So once the Sun is down, thatâs it,â you explained, raising your hand towards a beam of orange sunlight that was illuminating a square of carpet in front of you.
Delicately, you plucked the light right out of the air and into your palm, feeling the warmth against your skin as the square melted into a puddle of gleaming liquid amber in your cupped hand. The boy across from you gasped softly as you raised your hand up slightly to pour the sunlight into your other palm like sand at the beach. Tossing it up into the air, it turned into splatters in the empty space between your faces, like an abstract art painting. The deep terracotta light washed Markâs delighted features in a heavenly glow as he watched it hover there in awe. Like wiping a chalkboard, you took the light back down into your hands again, then gestured for Mark to hold his out. âCome on.â
âA-Are you sure?â He looked between you and the apricot heavens that you were holding uncertainly.
âYes. I wonât let anything happen to you, Markie. Promise.â You pushed your hands towards him again, insistent. âNow come on, before the sun sets completely and I have to send it back.â
âAlright, alright.â He put his hands out in the space between you, palms cupped together. You placed yours just above them, parting your own palms so that the sunlight fell down into his waiting hands. It had already been tempered, so you werenât worried about it burning him. Instead, you just got to watch him breathe out in absolute stunned awe as he gently rolled around his little puddle of sunshine. âDudeâŠâ His eyes were glued to his hands. âThis is officially the coolest fucking thing Iâve ever seen. And done.â
You laughed. âIâm honored. A bit skeptical, but honored.â
âMy powers arenât cool. Theyâre just something else that can go horribly wrong,â he sighed, continuing to watch the light in his hands.
Looking outside at the fading sunbeams, you held a hand back out towards him. âI need to send it back. The Sunâs almost gone.â
Mark gently tipped the golden energy back into your waiting palm. You closed your hand around it, focusing on allowing the light to return to its natural state, before opening your fingers. A soft ball of pure, hazy light drifted up from your hand, before shooting out your living room window to rejoin the setting Sun.
âSo thatâs sol-channeling...â The basilisk murmured.
âOne facet of it, yeah,â you nodded.
âItâs beautiful.â
You tilted your head as you took in the pensive look on Markâs face. Turning back around to fully face him, you could only guess where his thoughts had spiraled to.
âAnd destructive. Before I could do that, I would melt things, light things on fire, burn... hurt people. Things I canât undo.â Your voice was quiet but firm, trying to get the point across to him in the most sympathetic way possible that he wasnât alone in this. He wasnât the only person to have ever struggled with powers, to have done things he wishes he could take back. âYou have got to stop looking at your powers like a curse, and everybody elseâs like a blessing. Theyâre neither. Theyâre just... they just are.â
The basilisk was quiet, turning his gaze from the carpet up to you. You held his eye contact, easily looking back into those slit pupils with sincerity. âGot it?â You asked.
âGot it.â
Trying not to make your breath of relief too obvious, you rolled out your neck as you focused back on what youâd really meant to start with tonight. âSo, some breathing techniques for grounding. Again, weâre trying to build a foundation before anything else. Throughout all of these, I want you to try to reach out for your magic. I know this whole time youâve been trying to avoid it, right? Trying not to hurt your friend?â
âYeah.â
âYou canât hurt me, so donât worry,â you flashed him a confident smile.
Mark sat up with interest at this. âIâve always heard that sphinxes canât be petrified by basilisks, and I always kind of thought it was just one of those things about our magic canceling each other out or whatever. Like how siren venom doesnât work on other sirens. But then Renjun said that actually nobodyâs powers work on you because youâve got... he called it anti-magic, I donât know if thatâs right or...â
âWell thatâs very dramatic,â you commented humorously. ââAnti-magic.â No, we call it nixing, or foiling. Like all of our powers, we donât come into it until weâre adults, so technically magic does work on us for a period of time. It also fluctuates with our magical strength, like all beingsâ powers. Thatâs why âanti-magicâ isnât the best word, because it is magic. We can use it too much and get drained.â
âSo thereâs still a chance I could accidentally petrify you or something!â He panicked, his voice rising with fear.
âMark, youâre not going to,â you said calmly. âNixing is instinctual to me, like it is for any developed sphinx. Thatâs why your friend Renjun called it âanti-magic.â Because itâll seem like Iâm not even doing anything, like your powers are just fizzling out on their own. I promise itâll be fine. It would take me nixing a lot of very strong magic for a very long time to be drained anywhere near levels where my nixing could have even a chance of being weaker, much less not working at all. What weâre doing wonât even come close.â
He gulped. âReally?â
âReally. Let me worry about me and my powers.â You placed a hand over your chest. âYou just work on finding your powers, wherever youâve pushed them to in there.â
âYou say that like Iâve got some big cavern inside of me or something,â he snorted skeptically. âOr this mind palace thing that Renjun always talks about.â
âIf imagining something like that helps you, then sure.â
âI was joking.â
âThis is magic, Mark. Itâs a lot more abstract and metaphysical than whatever youâre learning in your bio classes.â
He groaned. âOh great. I almost failed my philosophy class freshman year.â
âGood thing Iâm not handing out grades, then. Come on, close your eyes. Iâll start a count.â
Mark had even less of a foundation than you did when you started out. At least your powers had been tied to your emotions at firstâsuch as the case of a rather unfortunate car meltingâmeanwhile from what you could tell, his seemed to just happen randomly. When you tried to talk him through recalling how he felt in the moments leading up to when he actually used his powers, he couldnât find any sort of common thread. The first time, heâd been startled by Johnny unexpectedly appearing around the corner in a clay face mask, but other times theyâd be watching movies together, eating dinner, or playing basketball. It couldnât be self-defense, fight or flight, or even just any strong emotionâone time Mark was scrolling on his phone practically catatonic, glanced up for one second and Johnny was on the floor.
Counting back down from the last breathing exercise you had prepared for the night, you stole a glance at the time. Between dinner and this, Mark had been at your place for almost three hours, that was plenty for one night. âAlright, Mark, letâs call it there for today,â you announced quietly, offering him a fleeting half-smile. âHow are you feeling?â
âThe same as when I got here. Well, less hungry, I guess,â he shrugged, blowing a couple pieces of hair out of his eyes. âThanks, though. Sorry I ate your food then just wasted your time.â
âI told you it wasnât going to be a one and done. I think the only one of us who expected you to come in here and immediately nail everything was you.â
âItâs not that I was expecting to nail everything⊠just sort of hoping Iâd at least be able to do something? Other than breathe?â
You chuckled, âYeah, thatâs fair. Once you can feel your powers, itâll be a lot different, I promise.â
âDifferentâŠâ he echoed. âNot easier, or better?â
âDifferent,â you confirmed with a nod. âUnfortunately, itâs looking like we canât use muscle memory to get there, which is how I was taught. Since thereâs apparently nothing in common with how youâve used your powers before. Other thanââ With a thoughtful frown, you cut yourself off, quickly trying to recall all the stories Mark had told you tonight of him accidentally petrifying or compelling his roommate.
âOther thanâŠ?â The basilisk prompted you curiously.
âHave you used your powers on anybody other than Johnny?â You questioned. âOther human friends? Classmates? Random cashier at a grocery store?â
âYeah, one time.â
âTell me about it!â
âI donât know if it really countsâŠâ
âItâs an anomaly, it might help. Who was it? What happened?â
âIt was Renjun.â
âYour Magical Creatures Studies major friend.â
âExactly. Heâs kind of got like this list of magical stuff that he wants to do? Like, getting his blood drank by a vampire, experiencing siren venom, that kind of stuff.â
âGetting petrified by a basilisk?â
âYeah.â
âSo you petrified him.â
âNot on purpose! Or, not on my purpose,â Mark groaned. âRenjunâs like actually insane when it comes to that kind of thing. Somehow, he figured out when he was most likely to get accidentally petrified by me and⊠it happened.â
âMark.â
âI didnât mean to!â
âYou need to get Renjunâs notes,â you instructed him.
âWhat?â
âOn how he got you to petrify him. If heâs that neurotic, he was definitely taking notes and found some sort of pattern, and probably kept his notes. We need those notes. Get them.â
He sighed and rubbed his face. âYou donât know Renjun. When I say heâs insane about this, Iâm not kidding. Thereâs no way heâdââ
âJust a copy, he can keep the originals. He can come make the copies at my office so he doesnât even have to use his printing credits at the library,â you bargained.
âFine, fine! Iâll ask him.â
âPerfect! Here, if you give me your phone, Iâll put my number in and you can let me know what day I can expect him.â After inputting your cell and texting yourself, you handed Markâs phone back to him, not missing his shaky fingers. You patted his hand, softening your voice, âWeâll figure this out, Mark, alright?â
âWhy?â He looked up from where your hand was still resting atop his, to your face, gnawing on his bottom lip with his baby fangs. âWhy did you agree to help me? Why are you doing it so⊠enthusiastically?â
âIâm helping you because you asked for help. And when I was your age, and I needed help doing all of this, too, I had somebody there with me. I donât know, call me crazy, but I donât think all of us are here just to go about our lives by ourselves. I think people are supposed to rely on each other, criss-cross their lives so much until you canât tell one line from another.â
âWeâre all interconnected?â
âYeah, or at least I think we should be, thatâs how weâre meant to be. To rely on each other.â You nodded. âNot to randomly get all philosophical on you, I know you said you almost failed that class. You asked me for help, and I wanted to try to help you. No ulterior evil sphinx motive here, I promise. You can tell everybody not to worry about their poor little Markie.â
Markâs face started turning pink. âIt wasnât really the sphinx part that they were focused on.â
âOh?â You leaned back, propping yourself up with two hands behind you. âWhat was it then? Stranger danger?â
âNo, not exactlyâŠâ
âThen I am stumped about what it could be,â you replied facetiously.
Mark started scrambling to his feet, his word speed picking up, âYou know, itâs getting late, if weâre done, I should really get goingââ
You followed him up with a grin. âYeah, of course. You know, Iâve got work tomorrow, youâve got classâOh, is that it?â You breathed out in feigned realization. âBecause Iâm an older woman? They thought I was going to devour you in a different way?â
âOh Godââ He said under his breath, staring at the ceiling. His throat bobbed up and down as he swallowed hard. âIâm really sorry, they were just kidding, you know. And I know thereâs no way youâd want toââ
âRemember what I said last week, Mark?â
âW-What part?â
Leaning forward just a little, you reminded him, âNot unless you ask nicely.â
His eyes shot open to the size of dinnerplates, and you could only hold it in for a second before you were openly laughing in his face, barely having the decency to attempt to cover your mouth with your hand, which honestly did little to muffle it.
âYouâre awful, Y/N,â Mark groaned, squeezing his eyes shut and shaking his head. âIs this what endearing you gets me? Torture?â
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â you tried to apologize through your breathless giggles. âAnyway, Iâll let you go, stop torturing you. Let me know when to expect Renjun. In the meantime, I want you to practice that first breathing exercise twice a day on your own until next Wednesday, okay?â
âRight, thanks.â
You didnât even look up from your computer screen as you picked up your ringing desk phone. It was the ring for an internal call, meaning that it was either the front desk or one of your colleagues calling you, you didnât need to filter those calls as much as external calls. âThis is Y/N,â you answered automatically, still reviewing the timeline that had just been submitted to you.
âUh, Ms. Y/L/N?â It was the receptionist, the poor guy sounding rather confused. âThereâs a⊠boy here to see you?â
âA boy?â You repeated, bewildered. âWhat? Like, a child?â
âNo, sorry, not like a little boy. College kid, Huang Renjun, says youâre expecting him?â
âOh, oh, yes!â You lit up in recognition. âHave him wait there, Iâll be down in just a minute to grab him.â
Striding off the elevator, your eyes immediately locked onto a young man standing in the lobby, clutching a notebook to his chest as he peered around at everything suspiciously. He readjusted his backwards baseball cap minutely, checking the watch that was on that wrist as he brought his hand back down from his head.
âRenjun,â you said his name confidently, walking up to him with a bright smile. âHi, Iâm Y/N. Thanks for coming.â
âDamn, youâre real,â he breathed out.
âLetâs go upstairs, hm?â
The two of you were the only ones in the elevator as the doors shut. âSo, what part of my existence did you doubt, exactly?â You asked, amusement in your tone. âMark knowing me? Or my being a sphinx?â
âThe first one,â Renjun had recovered from his initial shock, his voice level as he answered. âIâve met a sphinx before.â
âAnd what did you have them do to you?â
âWhat?â
âYouâve tricked Mark into petrifying you, had your blood drank, and you want a siren to dose you up. Iâm wondering what about sphinxes could provide that sort of⊠rush.â
âIâm not an adrenaline junkie.â
âYour words, not mine.â You held up your hands. âAnd Iâm not judging you, Renjun. Just curious.â
âI donât know them like that, anyway. Itâs my friendsâ boss.â
âSo whatâs on your list, then?â
âI want to solve a sphinxâs riddle.â
One of your eyebrows quirked up, and it was then that the elevator dinged and stopped on your floor. In the copy room, you held a hand out towards Renjun expectantly, and he reluctantly gave you a stack of notebook paper from within his binder. You put the first page on the pane of glass of the copier, lowered the lid, and prepared the setting to make the first copy. âIâm not giving you a riddle,â you stated into the heavy silence that had descended over the two of you.
âWhy not?â Renjun whined, reminding you of a petulant child.
The copier shot out the first page, and you repeated the process with the backside. âAs a Magical Creatures Studies major, Iâm sure you know very well why not.â
âI would totally solve it though! You wouldnât have to worry about me going insane!â
âYou either greatly overestimate your intelligence, or greatly underestimate a sphinxâs.â You shook your head.
âPlenty of people have solved sphinx riddles.â
âAnd even more have gone insane trying,â you retorted. âNo way am I going to even risk making you go insane.â
âIâll sign whatever waiver you want! You wonât be liable at all!â
âBut itâll still be my fault,â you sighed. âSol-channeling, nixing, flying, Iâd show you any of that. But no riddles.â
He let out a long, dramatic sigh, âFine.â
âHowâd you do it, by the way?â
âDo what?â
âMake Mark petrify you.â
âItâs all in there.â
âYeah, but weâre going to be here for a little while I copy all these.â You put the next page on. âYou can tell me how you figured it out, canât you?â
âWell, I started by taking notes of as many parameters I could get about when, where, and how Mark was petrifying Johnny,â Renjun started, his eyes sparkling with excitement. âAt first I was a bit concerned that he wouldnât be able to petrify anybody but Johnny. But then I found that in addition to him always petrifying Johnny, one of three things was always present.â
âAnd what were those three things?â
âBeing at home, it being nighttimeâaka he was tiredâor him being stressed. I figured if I could remove Johnny from the equation but hit all the other three, and conveniently hide his sunglasses, I had a pretty good chance of being petrified.â
âAnd what if he had accidentally turned you to stone for real?â You crossed your arms over your chest. âHeâs a developing basilisk with absolutely no control over his powers, he could have seriously hurt you, or worse.â
Renjun shrugged. âThat was a risk I was willing to take.â
âYeah, for the both of you,â you scoffed, throwing the lid of the copier open and accidentally hitting the wall behind it in the process. âDo you know how awful Mark wouldâve felt if he had actually turned one of his friends to stone? And then he had to live with that for the rest of his longer-than-human life? Did you even think about that before tricking him into petrifying you for some stupid fucking magic junkie bucket list?â
The human seemed to be at a loss for words, opening and closing his mouth several times before he looked down at his shoes, going silent.
âThat wasnât rhetorical, Renjun.â You closed the lid on the next page, turning to look at him pointedly. He was looking incredibly guilty, but you werenât going to let him get away with a noncommittal silence. âLook, Iâm going to give you the benefit of the doubt that your heart is in the right place, and youâre just genuinely curious about all this stuff, but your magical friends are not just here for your entertainment. Whatever they do to you, they have to live with too. You know that, right?â
He sighed bitterly, and after another long, contemplative pause, nodded. âYouâre right, youâre right.â
âYeah, I know I am.â
You sent Renjun off with his original notes and hopefully a lot to think about. You yourself didnât have too much more work left to do, and locked yourself in your office to go over the copies youâd made. Heâd been thorough, and you were realizing that Mark really hadnât been exaggerating when heâd called his friend crazy. About thirty minutes before the end of the workday, there was a timid knock at your door, and you put down the papers to go answer the door. It was one of your team members, who timidly informed you of a horrible error that had happened that would put the entire project back by two days if it wasnât fixed today. It was really nobodyâs fault, so you took a few deep breaths, rolled up your sleeves, and got to work with everybody else. It was Wednesday, though, and you kept an eye on the time as you worked, running mental calculations in the back of your mind as to when youâd have to text Mark to let him know youâd be late getting home. Thankfully, it was all solved right before then, and you were able to run out the door at just the right time where if you speedwalked and made every light perfectly, youâd be home right on time.
And so you burst into your hallway at exactly 5:59 p.m., spotting Mark on your welcome mat, just lifting his fist to your door to knock. âIâm here!â You called out to him, making him whip around, the surprise apparent on his features. âIâm here, sorry, Iâm here. Got held up at work.â
âHey, no worries,â he flashed you a bright smile, stepping out of your way to let you unlock your front door. âEverything alright?â
You threw an exasperated look at him over your shoulder as you disarmed your alarm, then led the way into your apartment. âHeavenly Sol, donât get me started. Computers are out to get us all, I swear.â
âYeah, okay,â Mark nodded, closing the door behind you two and flicking the latch. âAdd printers to the list, too. I can never figure out the ones in the library when I have an assignment due.â
You threw your purse onto your kitchen table haphazardly, starting to look through your fridge for dinner ingredients. âOh shit, I was going to pick up stuff for dinner on my way home, but then everything fucking caught on fire right before I was supposed to leave.â
âThatâs okay, Y/N,â the basilisk reassured you. âWe can just order pizza or something, alright?â
âYeah, okay, pizza.â You shut your fridge, rubbing your face in frustration.
âIâll call and order it, you go get out of your work clothes and stuff. Sound like a plan?â
You took a deep breath. âSure. Thanks, Markie.â
He beamed at you again, letting you get a full view of his baby fangs. âSee? Iâm not totally useless.â
âNobody said you were except you,â you finally chuckled, patting his cheek on your way out of the kitchen.
Jongin had invited everyone around to his place for another dinner party, and you were the first one to arrive tonight. Youâd already cracked open a bottle of wineâyou snooze, you lose, Baekhyun and Minseokâand were tipping back your first glass of the night as Jongin finished up the food preparations.
âY/N, howâs your basilisk doing?â Your friend asked, plating a serving of pasta.
âHeâs doing alright. Itâs been a little rough these past few weeks, if Iâm going to be honest with you,â you sighed, doing another heavy pour for yourself. âI taught him some breathing exercises, and those helped a bit, but I can only watch him breathe for so long.â
Jongin made a noise of acknowledgment, but didnât say anything else, fingertips messing with a silver chain around his neck.
âDo you⊠have any tips for me?â You asked, used to his minimalist way of communicating.
Your friend pulled out from under his shirt the pendant that hung at the end of that silver chain. It was a black gem that could fit neatly into his palm, obsidian, an intricate weaving design of a snake carved out of the face of it. âDoes he have an anchor?â
You habitually twisted the ring around your right ring finger. âNo, he doesnât.â
âFind him one.â He tucked the necklace back under his shirt. âGet him out of his head.â
âRight. Thanks, Jongin.â
A flurry of excited knocks came from the front door, and you and Jongin exchanged knowing looks. You threw open the door to see an excited Baekhyun and already beaming Minseok, the formerâs eyes lighting up even as he gasped in mock offense.
âYou started drinking without us?!â The siren threw a hand over his chest as he locked in on the glass in your hand and open bottle on the kitchen island.
âYep, youâre a glass and a half behind,â you taunted, guiding him in by the arm he had around your shoulders. âBetter catch up, Baekhyunnie.â
âShe opened that not even ten minutes ago,â Jongin informed the other two flatly in lieu of a proper greeting.
âFuckinâ narc.â You stuck your tongue out at him as Baekhyun started pouring for him and Minseok. Minseok, meanwhile, was over by the vinyl record player, flicking through Jonginâs collection until he picked one that he liked, and swapped out the classical music that the basilisk already had playing.
âI was listening to that,â Jongin complained as a funky, upbeat pop melody started coming through the speakers.
âAnd now youâre listening to this,â Minseok retorted. âMuch better party music.â
âAnd you people wonder why I donât invite you to events with my colleagues,â the basilisk sighed, taking out his bottle of witchâs brew from the fridge. His slit pupils trailed over the figures of you and Baekhyun, not nearly tipsy enough for the kind of dancing you were doing, but doing it nonetheless. âHeathens, the lot of you.â
âOh, like we didnât all go to college together,â Baekhyun fired back, mischievous glint in his eye. âWe all know what you used to get up to on that stuff, Jongin. Before you started playing pretend at being respectable and refined.â
âYeah, come on, NiNi!â You tugged him into the living room by his wrist, playing absolutely dirty by bringing out the nickname you used to call him when you were little, little kids. When you first met, you couldnât quite say his name, so you somehow landed on NiNi, which you called him until you could finally say it intelligibly. Even now, you only brought the nickname out when you really wanted something. And according to the now nearly two glasses of wine in you, you really wanted him to dance with the other three of you.
âGod, fine,â he rolled his eyes, taking a deep swig of the witchâs brew before letting you fully tug him into the mess.
The following Wednesday found you opening up your door a few minutes early, 5:55. Mark was already pink-eared and covering his face with his hands. âGod, let me in, please, please,â he groaned, making you cock your head curiously.
Before you could ask what was going on, you heard a couple wolf whistles and taunts from further down the hall, and spotted a gaggle of college boys heading towards you. Or, rather, heading towards your neighborsâ apartment, presumably, as you spotted Chenle and Jisung in the throng of students. You opened your door wider for Mark, who didnât even wait for you to move as he ducked under your arm to run inside. With a final humorous glance at the group, you turned around to face the anxiously pacing basilisk.
âAnd what are you so worked up for?â You asked with a chuckle, shutting your door behind him. âYou just got here, take a breather.â
He gesticulated at the closed door, a wild look in his eyes. âWell, because they all think weâreââ
âHaving sex? I know.â You laughed again and headed back into your kitchen.
âAnd you donât care?â
Pivoting on your heel to focus a pointed look on him, you put your hands squarely on your hips as you told him frankly, âMark. Iâm a grown ass woman. Whatever ideas my two college kid neighbors and their little twerp friends have about my sex life are so beyond the realm of things that I care about.â
âOh.â He blinked, and you could practically see the gears turning in his brain as he processed that. âOf course.â
With that settled in your mind, you turned your back on him again to attend to your cooking, continuing your conversation over your shoulder. âYou should really try it, you know.â
âTry what?!â He squeaked as he was halfway through taking his backpack off his shoulder and setting it down beside the couch.
âNot caring so much about what other people think about you. You know theyâre only doing all that because youâre reacting like this.â
âI know, I know,â he admitted with a sigh, his voice much closer now. You heard the scrape of one of the stools at your kitchen island as he pulled it out to sit down and watch you cook.
âSo, have you been working onââ
âWait, do you think Iâm a twerp?â
You pivoted around, knife in hand. âThree seconds ago I wouldâve said no, except you just interrupted me, so yes, I think youâre a rude little twerp with no manners.â
He looked at you with wide eyes. âSorry, sorry.â
âSo have you been working on the breathing techniques I showed you?â You tossed the last bits in the container, sealing it up before putting it in the fridge.
âYeah.â
Putting everything into the sink to be washed up later, you spun around to look at Mark eagerly, âGood. Now come on, grab your bag.â
âWait, weâre done already?âÂ
âNo, weâre going shopping.â
âI thought you were cooking dinner?â
âYeah, thatâs my dinner for tomorrow, itâs got to marinate overnight. You and I are eating out tonight. Come on!â You clapped your hands together in a hup-hup gesture, and Mark scrambled to grab his bag before meeting you at the front door.
âFor a lot of magical creatures who were born with their powers, they often see it as shameful to use objects to focus or help them harness their abilities,â you explained to Mark as you stopped in front of your first destination. He rushed to hold the door open for you, and you gave him a nod and grateful smile as you continued, âSave for witches, of course, thatâs kind of their whole thing. But for beings like us, whose powers come on later, a lot of times having an external object can help ground us a lot better and give us something physical to tie this new part of us to while weâre learning to use it.â
âWhat kind of object?â He asked, looking around the apothecary hesitantly.
âItâs different for every kind of being, and even for every individual. Thatâs why I couldnât just show up with some rock and say âhere you go!â You need to pick it out for yourself.â
âWhatâs yours?â
You held up your right hand, where a toffee brown gem gleamed from a silver setting on one of your fingers. âTigerâs eye ring. My grandmother gave it to me when she was helping me out with my powers.â
âItâs really pretty.â
âShe said she got it from a witch âfriendâ of hers a while back,â you commented humorously. âAnyway, anything speaking to you?â
He looked over the merchandise around you, and sighed. âI mean, itâs all cool, but... nothing really jumps out.â
âThatâs fine, donât force it. This is just the first aisle of the first store weâre looking in. Deep breath, Mark.â
âRight, okay. It can be anything?â
âAnything. Doesnât have to be a stone, doesnât have to be jewelry, those are just sort of the most popular items. I hate to have to say this but... youâll know it when you see it. You just will.â
âY/N.â He said your name flatly. âI have never been that sure of anything in my entire life.â
You tried to keep in your giggles at his clearly exasperated expression. Tweaking one of his cheeks, you reassured him, âFirst time for everything, Markie.â
Three apothecaries and a 24-hour ramen place later, and you could tell Mark was Over It, capital O, capital I. He had really been trying his best, engaging with every miscellaneous item that you showed to him, but you could tell that none of them were it for him. Leaving the last shop for the night, you opted not to take him into another one, instead meandering away from the shopping district downtown that you had been in.
âIâm sorry Iâm such a dud, Y/N,â Mark groaned, running a hand through his hair.
âNo, youâre not, Mark,â you tried to reassure him. âYouâre just⊠taking it at your own pace.â
âWas that supposed to make me feel better? You might as well have called me a late bloomer.â
âWhatâs wrong with being a late bloomer?â
âThatâs what people tell losers so they donât feel like losers.â
You rolled your eyes. âAnd thatâs how I can tell youâre still a kid, Markie.â
âWhat?â
âThereâs nothing wrong with being a so-called loser, or a late bloomer, or taking things at your own pace. Part of growing up, and becoming an adult, a real grown-up, is realizing that thereâs no one prescribed path and way to do things. Especially when it comes to being a magical being.â
âThatâs easy to say when youâre already a grown-up.â
âI suppose.â You shrugged. âHere, Iâll let you in on a secret, hm?â
âOh yeah?â
âWhen was your first kiss?â
âWhat?â He sputtered out. âI thought you were going to tell me a secret?!â
âHumor me.â
He mumbled something under his breath that you couldnât quite catch.
âWhat was that?â
âSeventeen, okay?!â He huffed. âListen, it was my first girlfriend andââ
âTwenty-one,â you cut him off with a shrug.
âWhat?â
âMy first kiss was when I was twenty-one,â you repeated nonchalantly. âYou thought I had it a lot earlier, didnât you?â
âItâs not like I was really hypothesizing about it or anythingââ
âBut the way you told me about yours, you got defensive, like you had assumed yours was late or something, and that I was going to judge you, because I must have had mine earlier than seventeen,â you pointed out. âBut I didnât.â
âBut youâre⊠youâre so⊠Why?â His face screwed up in confusion.
âThat was my first serious boyfriend,â you explained. âI wanted it to be special. I didnât expect it to take that long, but it did.â
âAnd what was the point of this?â
âThereâs nothing wrong with whatever pace your life is going at, Mark. I donât think âlate bloomersâ even exist, because that implies thereâs a benchmark to do something by, and having it happen after that therefore makes you late.â
Mark was quiet for a few moments as you continued walking. âYou really think Iâm still a kid?â
âOh yeah,â you ruffled his hair. âOnly a kid would be worried about if someone thinks theyâre a kid.â
He made a disgruntled sound at you messing up his hair, but did nothing to move out of the way of your hand. âWhere are we even going now? Another store?â
âNah.â You led the way off the sidewalk and into the grass, towards the river that cut through the center of town. Traffic hummed overhead where a bridge crossed the water, and you stopped at a rocky patch to pick up a smooth pebble, tossing it up and down a few times. Looking over your shoulder at a skeptical Mark, you asked, âYou know how to skip rocks?â
You tossed your first one, managing to skip it a few times before it plopped under the surface. Grabbing another rock, you pushed it into Markâs hand insistently. âOh, gross, itâs cold and wet,â he wrinkled his nose, but readied his arm nevertheless.
âYouâre literally a basilisk, dude,â you retorted, watching him line up his shot.
âRude.â
âHey, I donât mind.â You held up your hands defensively. âIâm just saying.â
He got it two-thirds of the way across, and shrugged. âEhâŠâ
âFirst one to skip it all the way across wins?â You suggested with a smirk.
âWins what?â
âMmmâŠâ You hummed thoughtfully. âI got it! Winner earns a secret.â
âHuh?â
âWinner earns a secret of their choosing from the loser. If I win, I can ask you to tell me a secret about whatever topic I want. If you win, same goes for you.â
âWhy would I agree to that?â
You grinned. âBecause you want to know more about me, donât you, Markie?â
He gulped, then started looking around at the rocks down by his feet. âFine. But donât ask me anything weird if you win.â
âAw, whereâs the fun in that?â You snickered, searching for your own rock to toss.
Mark went first, and his almost made it, but lost momentum about eighty percent of the way there. You went next, flicking your wrist the complete wrong way, only getting one skip before your rock pathetically plopped under the surface. The basilisk next to you giggled. âAre you even trying?â
You stuck your tongue out at him. âLike youâre doing any better, you little shit.â
âReal mature,â he shook his head, brushing off some dirt from the rock he just picked up. âReal grown-up of you. Whoâs the kid here, allegedly?â
âJust throw it.â You were already searching for your next pebble.
âSo, did you say anything to Renjun, when you met him?â
âWhat do you mean? Of course I talked to him.â
âNo, I mean likeââ Mark flicked his arm a couple times in practice shots, maintaining his hold on his stone. âHe apologized to me, for tricking me into petrifying him and bought me lunch. Renjun doesnât apologize.â
âOh,â you feigned surprise. âThatâs nice of him.â
âY/N.â
âI didnât threaten him, if thatâs what youâre asking. We chatted. He apparently thought some more afterwards.â You finally spotted a lovely lighter colored one, with dark, perfectly circular spots all along it. You couldnât quite make out the colors in the negligible light from the moon and lone streetlamp all the way up on the bridge, but you liked the weight of it in your hand.
You looked up just in time to watch Mark skip his rock all the way across the river, skidding up onto the shore on the other side. He jumped up and down victoriously, turning around to look at you, excitement on his features. âYes! Did you see that?!â He cheered, an ecstatic grin on his face. âHa! Take that!â
âGood job, Markie,â you snickered, holding a hand up for him to high-five zealously. Your palm stung where he had smacked it enthusiastically, a loud slap of skin hitting skin ringing out. Taking your phone out, you turned on your flashlight to look at the rock that you had found, taking in the mossy green color and dark red spots. âHuh, cool.â
As you were about to toss it back into the water, Markâs hand darted out to grab your wrist. âWait a secondâŠâ
âWhat?â You looked at him curiously. âYou want to try to make it across twice? You wonât get two secrets from me. Sorry, one-time offer.â
âNo,â he shook his head, holding your hand open to stare down at the stone. âItâs⊠itâs a nice rock.â
âYeah, I guess,â you agreed, continuing to study his face. âDo you⊠want to keep it, Mark?â
âDo you mind?â
âNo, go for it.â You turned your hand over, depositing it into his palm. âAll yours.â
He continued looking at it with fascination, fingertip tracing over the textured edges. âY/N⊠I think this is my anchor.â
âI think youâre right.â You patted him on the shoulder. âCongrats, dude.â
âHey, can I uh, take a raincheck on asking you for that secret? I kind of want to think on it.â
âSure. Use it wisely.â
âI just got home, Sehun, what could be so pertinent that you need to call me now?â You sighed as you answered your ringing cell phone some weeks later. âAnd why are you still at work? You said only ten more minutes, thirty minutes ago.â
Your coworker sounded simultaneously guilty, nervous, and as exasperated as you, âI know, but Director Han was asking to see some of the numbers and then, well... I got this email from Mr. Shin. I donât know how to respond. I forwarded it to you.â
Sitting down at your kitchen table, you opened your laptop, which turned on already to your work email. Right at the top was a forwarded email from Oh Sehun, and you clicked on it. You skimmed it over, your lip curling with distaste. Mr. Shin was a project manager in another department, and was apparently trying to assign âurgent tasksâ to your employees that needed to be on his desk first thing tomorrow. Sehun wouldâve needed to stay all night and/or come in ridiculously early tomorrow in order to get this done. âIâll handle Mr. Shin, donât worry about doing any of this. You go home. Now.â You directed Sehun. âAnd Iâll remind Director Han in the morning about the companyâs overtime policy as well.â
âRight. Thank you, Y/N.â
âOf course. Goodnight, Sehun.â
Setting your phone aside, you quickly drafted an email in reply to Mr. Shin, keeping your snark to appropriate corporate levels, reminding him that he couldnât assign tasks to your employees, and any requests such as this had to come through you first. As well as outlining the unreasonableness of the time demands.
âSo what do you do?â Mark asked, suddenly reminding you of his presence. It was Wednesday, though your usual dinnertime ritual had been interrupted before it could even start, Sehunâs call coming as soon as the college student had stepped foot in your apartment.
âIâm a project manager at a company that does network security for other companies,â you informed him, not taking your eyes off your screen as you went to re-read the email for a quick proofread.
âProject manager?â
âI manage a bunch of other peopleâs projects instead of actually working on them myself, and get paid more than them for it.â You filled in a missing word, and deeming the email finished, pressed send, shutting your laptop. Looking up at Mark, who had an adorably confused look on his face, you gave him a smirk. âWhen you grow up, Markie, youâll understand that most corporate jobs are fake and itâs all about your title and how well you can negotiate your salary and bullshit in front of your boss.â
âSo you donât like your job?â
You shrugged. âI like it just fine. It pays for me to live here by myself, after all. I have reasonable hours, and plenty of free time, vacation days, and disposable income. I keep my subordinates and my superiors happy. But if I got a better offer at another company, and my company couldnât match it, I would have no qualms about packing it up next week.â
âSeriously?â His eyes widened.
âSeriously.â
âJust-Just leaving?â His voice rose with alarm.
âThe company, yeah. Not here. I have a life here. My family, and my friends,â you explained, standing up from your dining table.
You could see him visibly relax at that. âOh, okay.â
âAnd my Markie,â you teased, pinching his cheek as you passed him on your way to the kitchen.
He squirmed a little, but didnât knock your hand away. âHey...â
You laughed to yourself, stopping at the sink to wash your hands before starting on dinner.
âAm I not your friend?â Markâs question stopped you as you were grabbing ingredients from the fridge.
âHuh?â It was your turn to be confused. Your hand hovered over a bell pepper.
âYou said you have your family, your friends, and me. You didnât include me in your friends. Am I not your friend?â His voice was closer now, and you shut the door to turn towards it, not expecting him to be right on the other side. You jumped in your skin a bit, but that wasnât the only reason your heart was racing, and a shiver shot up your spine all the way to the back of your neck. Markâs dark, slit pupils were focused on you with such an intensity that you wouldâve thought he were trying to petrify you if the both of you didnât already know that that wouldnât work. There was something so startlingly adult in his gaze, all sense of boyish charm that his features usually held gone as the overhead lights of your kitchen cast them in harsh shadows and angles. For the first time ever when you looked at Mark, you were reminded that basilisks were technically predators.
You laughed, hoping he couldnât hear how nervous you were in it. Wishing your heart to still, you squeezed his upper arm reassuringly. âOh, no, of course youâre my friend. Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to leave you out like that.â
Were his arms always this toned? Or was this just the first time you noticed it?
Mark held your gaze for another moment before he blinked, shook his head, and smiled, âYeah, of course. Iâm sorry about that. Schoolâs just fried my brain, you know?â
âDonât worry about it.â You smiled back, patting his shoulder before opening the fridge again.
âYou need any help?â
âSure, sure. You mind chopping some vegetables?â You held the bell pepper out to him.
He nodded dutifully. âOn it!â
As he started on that task with the same eagerness to please that he always had, you found that you couldnât box him back in as just that cute bumbling college kid who had appeared on your doorstep a few weeks ago. Gently pressing your hand to his back to let him know that you were skirting around behind him with your own knife, you took note of how firm it was under your fleeting touch, hidden under another one of his school t-shirts that hung off his shoulders in such a way that it seemed as though every readjustment of his arms caused the motion to catch your gaze. When he asked you to assess the cuts he was making, you had to reach over to adjust how he was holding the bell pepper and knife, listening to his own heartbeat for a twofold reason: to not have to hear to your own spike as your gaze dragged over his forearms and hands where they gripped the handle, and because you were curious. You werenât a fool, you knew Mark was attracted to you superficially the moment you opened your door the first night. But what about now?
You carefully made a couple minute adjustment to his fingers, letting your own fingertips graze over his skin and linger for just a moment longer than necessary, as if you were making extra certain he had the right position. To your satisfaction, you heard his heart pick up to more of a skitter, and his breaths through his nose quickened. Then, you let go of him as quick as youâd descended.
âTry that now,â you murmured. He pushed the blade down and sliced it through the red pepper easily, at the perfect width. You squeezed right at the bend of his arm approvingly as you praised him, âGood job, Mark.â
âT-Thanks.â The tips of his ears were red, and you could feel his arm tense under your grasp. Taking your hand back to pick your blade up again, you then went back to chopping your own ingredients.
A few weeks later, and Mark had been progressing pretty well now that he had an anchor. Youâd taken his stone to a local covenâs shop downtown to get it turned into a pendant so he didnât have to worry about remembering to put it in his pocket every day. Interestingly when given free rein to match the carving to him without either of your input, the witches had crafted a lion instead of anything serpentine, as was popular for basilisks. On a Wednesday morning, you had just settled into your desk at work when your phone buzzed with a text from Mark.
[markie: i am SO sorry but my prof just announced a study session tonight and i NEED to attend. are you free any other time this week? if not, next week is great as usual!]
[you: saturday. 10:30 a.m. be there or be square]
[markie: be there or be square? i forgot how old you are]
[you: nvm donât come over you ungrateful twerp]
[you: i was joking, Sol forbid women do anything]
[markie: nooooooo im so sorry đ„șđ„șđ„ș]
[you: nice try but those emojis are doing nothing you googoo gaga ass bitch]
[markie: i'll bring bagels?]
[you: fine. no bagels no entry]
[markie: đ«Ą]
Saturday at 10:29 a.m. there was a knock at your front door. Mark was in fact on the other side, holding up a brown paper bag with a logo of a nearby bakery on the side.
âHey, come on in.â You smiled breathlessly, readjusting the toddler on your hip.
âThanks.â He shut the door behind him, then nodded to the child. âSo uh, anything new, Y/N?â
âHeâs not mine,â you replied frankly. âThis is my nephew. Iâm emergency babysitting, hope you donât mind. We had already rescheduled once, and it was last-minute.â
âNo, of course not. Little guyâs cute.â Mark gently poked MinMinâs chubby cheek, making the little boy giggle, and the basilisk giggle back in turn. âSo this is what a baby sphinx looks like...â
âNot a sphinx, heâs a wittle witch.â You cooed at the baby in your arms, gently pinching his tummy to elicit another joyous laugh.
âHuh?â
âHeâs not actually related to me, heâs my friendâs kid. Iâve just known Jongdaeâhis dadâfor so long that I get to be Aunt Y/N.â
âThatâs really nice... So whatâs his name?â
âEveryone just calls him MinMin. I donât think the poor guy will ever be called by his real name unless heâs in trouble.â
âOof, the full name scolding.â
âSpeaking of... Did you remember, Mark Lee?â
âOuch. You can literally see the bag in my hands.â He shook the bag before putting it on the dining table.
âI meant your homework, not the bagels.â
âOh.â Mark grabbed a couple dishes from your kitchen cabinets, setting them at your usual places before doing the same with napkins. âYes, I did that too.â
You sat down, settling MinMin in your lap as you peered into the bag for your usual bagel order, setting it on your plate. âAlright, then show me.â
âUh... with MinMin here?â Mark asked uncertainly, looking at the child.
âOh, right. Hold on.â You stood up and walked over to the diaper bag Jongdae had dropped off when heâd shown up and deposited MinMin into your arms in a rushed panic. His wife was an emergency medicine doctor and had gotten called into a shift at the ER in the wee hours of the morning, but your friend was already booked to perform at a wedding that day, and the only babysitter he could find at the last minute was you. You were more than happy to take MinMin for the day, even with your prior arrangements with Mark.
Rooting around through a couple of the pockets, moving aside diapers, snacks, and spare changes of clothes, you finally secured what you were looking for. A teeny, tiny, baby-sized pair of sunglasses. Taking him and the glasses back over to your spot in front of Mark, you sat MinMin down in your lap and gently pulled the green Keroppi-themed sunglasses onto the childâs face. They secured around the back of his head with a strap, which you adjusted as you spoke to Mark, âHe would probably be fine, but just in case.â
Mark still seemed hesitant.
âHis parents are witches, these are enchanted,â you reassured the basilisk, tapping the frames. âAnd Iâll be nixing anything you send our way. Heâll be fine. Promise.â
âArenât we supposed to eat first?â He sighed, gesturing to his bagel that he hadnât even been able to take a bite of.
âYouâre right, youâre right,â you relented. You were a few bites into your meal when MinMin had finished off his sippy cup. Picking up the empty container, you took it and the toddler with you as you stood up from the chair. âOh, all done, bub? Letâs get you something else.â
Opening your fridge, you started pointing out the options to the child, âLetâs see⊠we have water, your dad left you a juice box⊠or we can open the chocolate milk we grabbed from the corner store before Markie got here?â
âChoco!â MinMin chirped excitedly, and you chuckled as you took out the carton. As you turned to grab the sippy cup, you werenât expecting to see Mark turned around and peering at you with interest on his features, his eyes locked on the jug in your hand. You raised an eyebrow at him, continuing your task of rinsing out the previous drink before cracking open the carton.
âMarkâŠâ You said knowingly. âDo you want chocolate milk?â
âPlease?â He replied sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck.
âSure.â You smiled to yourself as you grabbed another cup from your cabinet, filling that and MinMinâs up before putting the chocolate milk back. Handing MinMin his sippy cup to hold, you carried him on one hip and Markâs glass with the other hand, setting it down in front of the young man as you went to sit back down.
âThank you!â He beamed, immediately picking it up and taking a big gulp.
You had the same fond smile on your face as you immediately saw his dark milk mustache, handing him a napkin. âYouâre welcome.â
âThank you!â MinMin echoed, lifting his own sippy cup to his mouth. âThank you thank you!â
âAww, youâre welcome, MinMin,â you giggled, patting the top of the boyâs head.
âAlright, youâre doing pretty good,â you declared as youâd reached a stopping point for the day.
He ducked his head bashfully. âYouâre a good teacher.â
âAw, thanks.â You stood up, grabbing the napkin from MinMinâs snack to toss in your kitchen trash. The boy was playing with some toys next to the two of you on the floor of your living room.
âSo uhââ Mark cleared his throat over a voice crack. âWhat are you doing for the rest of the day? Do you have MinMin all day orâŠ?â
âJongdae said the reception wonât be over until late tonight. But his wife should get off sooner than that.â You tidied up a couple miscellaneous items in your kitchen as you chatted. âAnd what are you doing today, Mark?â
âWellâWoah!â At his sudden exclamation and the small giggle that followed, you peeked up from the dish you were drying to see Mark cautiously holding his hands up like he was under arrest as MinMin floundered around in his lapâyou guessed he had fallen into it at firstâfor a second before righting himself and plopping down properly. âUh⊠hi, buddy?â Mark said, his lack of self-confidence evident in the high pitch of his voice.
âHi!â MinMin replied cheerily, his attention otherwise on the toy in his hand.
âYou two alright in there?â You questioned, not bothering to hide the amusement in your tone.
âHe just kind of sat down, I donât know,â he quickly explained, still not lowering his hands.
âIf youâre okay with him being there, thatâs fine.â
âY-Yeah!â
âYou sure?â You walked back over, sitting down in front of the two boys so you could reach out and teasingly pinch MinMinâs nose. âYou look terrified. Heâs a baby witch, but he wonât do anything to you, promise.â
âItâs just⊠I have an older brother, and Iâm the youngest cousin,â he admitted. âHavenât really been around a lot of babies. Basilisk or otherwise.â
âMe neither, before MinMin,â you replied in understanding. âOnly child, and so were my parents.â
âWow, really?â
âSphinxes are rare, remember?â
âI mean, I knew that, but I never really thought about what that really meant like, for you. Like, your family, that kind of stuff.â
You shrugged as a sort of âit is what it isâ gesture. âSo, you never did tell me what youâre doing today.â
âOh, uhm, well, weâre all having a movie night, at Chenle and Jisungâs later. And I was wondering if youââ
âWould let you stay here until then so you donât have to go all the way back home then come all the way back here?â You finished knowingly, eyebrow quirking up.
âYeah! Yeah, exactly,â he smiled sheepishly.
âSure,â you agreed. âLooks like MinMin isnât going to let you go anytime soon, anyway.â You indicated towards the toddler who had slowly started slumping over in Markâs lap, very clearly about to nap.
âUh, what do I do?â He asked you with wide eyes.
âHe can sleep there, or I can take him.â
âMaybe you shouldâŠâ
You nodded, standing up to go over to MinMinâs bag and pull out a floor mat, stuffed animal, and baby monitors. After setting everything up in a clear area of your floor, you scooped the boy up out of Markâs lap and deposited him onto the mat on his back. You watched as he rolled around and readjusted until he was comfy, eyes fluttering shut completely and breathing evening out. Satisfied, you walked back over to Mark and offered him a hand up off the ground. He took it, seeming confused as you then led him away from the living room and towards your bedroom. At your room, Mark stopped in the threshold like crossing in would burn him alive, as you flopped onto one side of your bed, set the baby monitor on your nightstand, and grabbed your laptop. You scoffed and patted the other side of the bed, âDo you need to be invited inside like a vampire? Please, come in, Mark.â
âIâve never been in your bedroom,â he muttered, taking a hesitant step in, his eyes focused on his feet.
âReally?â You scrounged through your memories, and came up empty. Shrugging, you patted the empty space on your bed insistently again. âFirst time for everything. Come on, we canât watch TV out there with MinMin napping.â
He tentatively sat down cross-legged, his entire body noticeably tense as you slumped into your pillows and started scrolling through your options.
âYou pick,â you declared, pushing the device towards him. âIâm in the middle of a drama and if I put it on, youâll be confused.â
âI donât mind, you can put on what you want,â he nudged the laptop back to you.
âNope, I donât need a twerp making fun of my drama preferences.â You pushed it back.
âNot a twerp. And I wonât make fun of it.â He pushed it over again.
âOn one condition,â you bargained, pointing a finger at him threateningly. âYou need to get invested. No scrolling on your phone. Iâll pause and answer any questions, explain everything for you. But I need you to be an active watcher with me. Deal?â
âDeal.â He nodded quickly.
As you queued up the next episode, you explained the basic premise, âItâs set in modern day, but thereâs flashbacks from all different time periods. Itâs about a phoenix who was cursed hundreds of years ago and can never remember her past once she reincarnates. This is obviously difficult for her vampire lover, who now has to win her over again with each reincarnation, but theyâve made it work so far. Except he wasnât there when she had her last reincarnation, because she got into an accident while he was away at work or something. So in her amnesiac state after reincarnation, she wandered off, and he ended up losing her for long enough for her to have started a completely new life. And by the time he finds her again, she now has a new partner!â
Mark was nodding along, having listened to everything with rapt attention like you were teaching him about his powers again. âSo thatâs where this episode starts?â
âNo, Markie,â you laughed and patted his leg. âThat was just the first half of the pilot. Weâre about to start episode eight.â
âWait, thatâs it?!â Mark scrolled down to the bottom of the list of episodes in disbelief. âBut they just canât leave it there!â
âThe season is still premiering,â you informed him with a chuckle, readjusting your pillow under your head. âI think thereâs maybe five more episodes?â
He had gradually sat back against the pillows at the head of your bed over the course of the two episodes youâd watched, and ran a hand through his hair as he let out a disgruntled sigh. âYouâve got to tell me how it ends.â
âIt premieres on Fridays at 8:00.â
His brows knit together with confusion as he tried to follow the conversation. âItâs okay, I wonât make you wait five days to watch it with me.â
It was your turn to be confused for a beat, and then you realized that he thought you were offering to not watch new episodes when they premiered on Fridays and instead watch them with him when he came over on the following Wednesday. âNo, Mark, if you want to watch it, you can come here and watch it. On Friday.â You clarified, then at his apparent surprise, tacked on, âWith me.â
âBut I thought you didnât want to give up your Friday nights?â
âYeah, because Iâve been watching this,â you gestured to the laptop screen. âNo magic, that stays on Wednesdays. Fridays are for âOur Love from the Ashesâ only. Deal?â
You held your pinky finger out to him. He looked down at it nervously, then hooked his with it. âDeal,â he nodded, shaking pinkies in a very business-like manner.
At the same time, you started hearing the babbling sounds of MinMin waking up, and your phone screen lit up with a text. You grabbed both the baby monitor and your phone as you rolled off your bed, checking your messages and heading for your door. Covering your mouth, you couldnât help the gasp that escaped.
âWhat?â Mark was following you, and stopped when you did by the threshold.
âJongdaeâs gig got cut short. Heâll be by to get MinMin soon,â you said, reading the message from your friend again.
ââGot cut short?ââ
You looked up at the basilisk as you said plainly, âGroom got cold feet, apparently.â
His eyes widened. âOh my godâŠâ
There was a knock at your front door less than an hour later. âMinMin, thatâs your Dada!â You told the toddler enthusiastically, pulling on his last shoe as he sat in your lap.
He kicked his feet excitedly, making the task more difficult. âEee!â
âMark, can you get his diaper bag for me?â You requested of the basilisk, who was standing off to the side uncertainly.
âYeah, of course.â He quickly went to oblige.
You walked over to the front door holding one of MinMinâs hands, and opened it for your friend. Jongdae was still in the full suit he was meant to perform in, bowtie and all, and stepped inside to give you a hug hello. âHi, Y/N,â he patted your back. âThank you again.â
âHey, Jongdae,â you hugged your friend back. âNo problem, he was great for us. I feel so sorry for that poor bride, though.â
âI know, I know.â He shook his head.
âPlease tell me youâre still getting paid, right? At least a half-day or a deposit or something?â
âI keep my deposit, yeah. I usually donât insist on much more if itâs not a mutual cancellation. Feel too badâŠâ He rubbed the back of his neck before picking up his son, focusing a much brighter smile on him. âHi, MinMin! Were you good for Aunt Y/N?â
The boy nodded quickly. âYeah!â
Jongdae then turned back to you, âSo who did you say was coming over again? Baek?â
Mark finally approached from where he had been awkwardly hovering by your dining table just behind Jongdae, holding MinMinâs diaper bag. You stepped in to make introductions, grabbing Markâs arm to bring him closer. âJongdae, this is Mark, the basilisk Iâve mentioned, remember? Mark, this is Jongdae.â
âNice to meet you,â Mark said politely, offering out the bag.
âYou too.â Jongdae accepted the bag, giving the younger man a quick, mildly intrigued once-over before looking back to you. âWe owe you one, Y/N.â
âNo you donât, you know heâs welcome here anytime. Heâs a little angel.â
âFor now. The terrible twos are around the corner,â your friend scoffed, turning towards the door again.
âYouâre going to jinx yourself,â you warned him, grabbing the door handle to hold it open for him.
âIâll throw some salt over my shoulder when I get home.â He shook his head, then gave you and Mark a nod goodbye. âSee you two. Say bye, MinMin.â
âBye!â The boy waved zealously over his dadâs shoulder, and you grinned and waved back before shutting the door behind them.
Turning back to your one remaining guest, you tilted your head to ask, âWhen does movie night start?â Before Mark could answer, however, the sounds of explosions and engines revving came through your living room wall, albeit slightly muffled. âRight now?â You guessed, amused.
âOh, didnât even realize the timeâŠâ Markâs ears were pink as he looked at his phone as if checking said time.
âIt was very sweet of you to stay, Mark, but you couldâve gone to movie night. You saw how good MinMin was, I wouldâve been fine with him on my own,â you smiled and squeezed his arm appreciatively, herding him towards the door.
âThereâs still dishesââ
âYou want to do my dishes?â You laughed. âCollege boy who wants to do dishes instead of go to a movie night with his friends? Whatâs gotten into you?â
âNothing, I justâI donât know, itâs not fair. You do everything.â
âItâs my home. Youâre my guest.â You cocked your head curiously. âItâs okay, Mark.â
âWell, Iâm here a lot, you know? Youâre already helping me with my powers and stuff. I want to help you too.â
âOkay, you can start doing your own dishes if thatâll make you feel better,â you agreed skeptically. âNext week. Go on, Iâm sure theyâre going to give you enough shit as is for being late.â
âItâs not just the dishes,â he mumbled under his breath, stuffing his feet in his shoes. You werenât sure if you were meant to hear that.
As he went to grab the door handle, you put a hand on the door to keep him from opening it. âI want you to bring Johnny next time.â
âWhat?!â He squeaked.
âBring Johnny when you come on Wednesday. You need to practice using your powers on someone theyâll actually work on.â
âI donât think thatâs a goodââ
âIâll be right here, Mark,â you reminded him. âItâll be fine.â
âAlright, fine. Iâll see if he can come.â
At 5:58 p.m. the following Wednesday, there was a knock at your front door. You opened the door to two figures this time, Markâs familiar face and another young man behind him, a head taller than him. âMark! And you must be Johnny.â You beamed at the two of them, beckoning them in and then introducing yourself to the human, âIâm Y/N, please, come in.â
âThank you for inviting me over.â Johnny nodded politely as he followed Mark in.
You furrowed your brows, looking over at the basilisk suspiciously. âMark, you did tell him why we invited him over, right?â
âI did, I swear!â He promised.
âI know it might sound kind of weird, for me to be thanking you for inviting me to get petrified and compelled or whatever, but I want to help Mark out however I can. So really, thanks,â the human smiled genuinely.
You relaxed at this, guiding them further into your apartment. âWell in that case, youâre welcome.â
âY/N, bathroom?â Mark pointed down your hall.
âYou know where it is.â You waved him off as you headed towards the kitchen to grab three glasses.
Johnny followed you into the kitchen, careful to lower his voice as he told you, âBesides, none of our friends have even met you, and weâre all kind of curious about Markâs new older lady friend that he keeps talking about, so I just had to come, petrification be damned.â
âI do hate to burst your bubble, Johnny, but Chenle and Jisung have met me before. They live next door,â you informed him.
âOh, Markâs other friends?â
âYeah, I guess. He hasnât drawn me a diagram, so I donât have a perfect idea of who knows who, sorry.â
âWell, of our other friend group, Iâll be the first to have met you, then.â
âAnd? Am I everything you all had dreamed of? The mysterious sphinx in her lair luring poor little Markie in every week?â You opened your fridge, skimming your eyes over your drink options. âWine? Beer? Water? Chocolate milk?â
Johnny chuckled, âIs that for âMarkie?ââ
âNo,â you snickered. âMy nephew was over this past weekend, but I figured Iâd offer it to you guys since I had extra.â
âWhat kind of wine?â
âA very lovely red. The grapes are grown in a vineyard in this fairy kingdom whose vale naturally produces magical dew. Itâs hard to describe, but the flavor that gets imparted is⊠exquisite to say the least.â
âSold.â
You poured two glasses of the red wine, then filled up the third with chocolate milk. âSo, if Mark hasnât explained how this works, weâll eat dinner first, then get into the magic stuff. Itâs kind of like exercising, itâs pointless to do it on an empty stomach.â
âYouâre different than I thought youâd be,â Johnny admitted thoughtfully, swirling the wine in his glass around.
âMore human looking?â You guessed, expecting that you were the first sphinx heâd probably ever met. Not only were your kind rare in and of themselves, but Mark had mentioned that Johnny didnât even meet any magical creatures until coming to college just a few years ago.
âThat, and⊠younger?â
You snorted, Chenleâs previous âMILF hunterâ comment echoing in the back of your head. You set your wine down to cross your arms and cock your head as you asked him, âWhat do you know about sphinx and/or basilisk aging?â
âLiterally nothing. Mark molted all over our apartment a couple summers ago and it was so gross but apparently thatâs something thatâs supposed to happen a year or two after basilisks reach adulthood.â
âSo I could be a thousand years old for all you know.â
He blinked. ââŠAre you?â
âNo.â You shook your head. âHowever, Mark and I will both outlive you and your grandkids, Iâll tell you that much.â
âWoah⊠congrats.â
âBut since you brought it upâŠâ You lifted your glass back to your lips, taking a slow sip. You then leaned in conspiratorially. âBetween us, does Mark have a thing for older women?â
Johnny smirked and leaned in as well. âWhy? You interested?â
âJust heard a little rumor, thatâs all.â
âI donât know about having a type, per se, but he definitely has a thing for this one older woman he knows.â
Before you could respond, you heard the door to the bathroom open, and straightened back up. Johnny furrowed his brows in confusion, and you nodded towards the entrance of the kitchen, where Mark appeared just a moment later.
âHey guysâoh, chocolate milk! Sweet!â He happily picked up the untouched third glass. Mark then went to explain to his friend, âY/N only buys chocolate milk when her nephew MinMin comes over. Sheâs way too much of a real adult to have it around otherwise.â
âIs this your passive-aggressive way of telling me I should buy chocolate milk just for you to drink when you come over?â
âMaybe. Is it working?â
âWhen you start helping foot my grocery bill, you can dictate what goes on my grocery list, how about that?â
Markâs eyes widened at that, and he didnât respond, instead taking another big gulp of his chocolate milk. When he brought his cup down from his face, he had a chocolate milk mustache, and offered you a big thumbs up as he grabbed for a napkin. âThanks, Y/N! This is perfect!â
âUh-huh,â you rolled your eyes, but were unable to fight the fond smile on your lips as you turned back to your fridge. âAlright, dinnerâs pre-made ravioli, the next person who whines doesnât eat.â
âYum!â âMy favorite!â
Sat at your dining table across from the two roommates, you took a sip of your drink before engaging your new guest in conversation again, âAre you a student as well, Johnny?â
âYes, Iâm a Comms major, focus in advertising,â he answered.
âAnd what do you want to do? Advertising?â
The human shrugged and smiled. âDonât know. Something I donât hate, I guess.â
You laughed. âThatâs fair. I was the same way when I graduated undergrad. Didnât care where I worked as long as it paid well, didnât have crazy hours, and wasnât so boring that I wanted to bang my head against a wall while I was there.â
âExactly.â Johnny gestured at you triumphantly. âWhereâd you end up working?â
âNetwork security company,â you shrugged one shoulder. âHonestly, Iâm not even a big tech person. Canât fix my own wi-fi if itâs out, past turning it off then back on again. Iâm a manager.â
âNeed an intern?â
âDude, you have a job,â Mark interjected, elbowing his friend in the arm.
âIâm networking, dude,â Johnny replied pointedly, elbowing him back. âNot all of us can bank on being doctors in eight years, you know.â
You watched their bickering with amusement before answering the humanâs question, âI can make an inquiry. The Advertising AD may or may not owe me a favorâŠâ
âThanks!â He beamed at you. âSo, Iâm sorry, if this rude or something, but sphinxes do those riddles, right?â
You arched an eyebrow. âYes⊠Donât tell me Mark has two magical adrenaline junkie friends? Iâm not giving you a riddle either.â
Markâs head shot up from where he had been sullenly eating his ravioli, his eyes going wide with mortification. âRenjun asked you for a riddle?!â
âI didnât give him one,â you snorted. âIâm not going to be responsible for some kid going mad.â
âIâm going to kill him,â the basilisk groaned, covering his own face in embarrassment. âWhy is he like this?â
âIâm not asking you for a riddle, donât worry,â Johnny assured you. âI was just curious⊠Would that make sphinxes good poets or writers, then?â
âSphinxes are good wordsmiths, yes,â you answered with a smile. âBut we stick more to oral traditions. One of our favorite pastimes is riddle-weaving. Sphinxes will swap riddles back and forth, solving each otherâs riddles to see who can come up with the best one. Itâs a good way to pass the time on long car rides.â
âRenjun also said thereâs a lot of sphinx lawyers?â Mark added.
âIf you compare the percentage of the entire population that are sphinxes and the percentage of lawyers that are sphinxes, yes, sphinxes are overrepresented in that field,â you nodded. âKind of like how thereâs a lot of unicorns in healthcare and education.â
âAnd dryads in ecology,â Johnny followed your train of logic.
âExactly.â
After dinner, the three of you moved into your living room. The sun was beginning to set outside, so you retrieved the glowing spheres that had been sitting in your lamps and sent them back outside to rejoin the rest of the rays. You preferred to light your apartment with sunlight when possible, as it was both more beautiful to you, and way more cost-effective than using electricity.
As you went to turn the ceiling light on with the lightswitch, you started explaining what youâd just done to your human guest, âThat was sol-channeling. You might hear it be called heliokinesis as well. Sphinxes always call it sol-channeling.â
âCan you sol-channel moonlight? Since itâs technically just reflected sunlight?â Johnny questioned curiously.
âNope. Magically different properties. Just like how werewolves are only affected by the full moon and moonstone, not by any sort of sunlight or sunstone.â
ââŠRight. Of course.â
âWe can only manipulate existing sunlight, but we canât make it, and we have to send it back before the Sun sets.â
âWhat happens if you donât send it back before the Sun sets?â
âWeâre only borrowing the sunlight from Sol. It has to be anchored to us while itâs here,â you said, guiding him by the arm to stand in one spot. âIf we donât end that connection ourselves willingly, itâll still go back⊠and rip a piece of our soul out with it. The more sunlight that youâve sol-channeled, and have anchored to you, the more of your soul thatâs taken.â
You then positioned Mark across from Johnny, facing his friend from several steps away. The basiliskâs eyes were locked on your face in horror, but you just kept calmly readjusting him.
âCan you⊠regrow it? If that happens?â Johnny asked quietly.
âYou can heal, physically,â you answered levelly, walking behind Mark. âHurts like a bitch for a while⊠but healing a soul, thatâs something that takes a lot of power. I can really only think of one thing that would do thatâŠâ
âWhat is it?â Mark blurted out.
âThe Sun,â you replied bluntly. âPhoenixes, when they reincarnate. Everything is healed, soul included.â They were quiet for a moment, and you clapped your hands together, changing conversation topics, âAlright, time for some compelling! Ready, guys?â
âTotally!â Johnny gave you two thumbs-up.
âMark?â You prompted the basilisk right in front of you.
âShouldnât you be by Johnny? In case you need to nix it?â He pointed to the human, looking down at his feet.
âI can nix from here,â you assured him. Reaching over his shoulder, you secured between two fingers the silver chain that you knew his lion pendant dangled from. You pulled it out from under his shirt, holding it in his eyeline. âBreathe, Mark. Letâs do a round of those grounding breaths, hm?â
You let his anchor go to rest on his chest again, and watched his eyes flutter shut as you started counting him through the breaths. Once he was done, he opened his eyes back up, the slit pupils slowly dragging up from his feet to your face first. You smiled reassuringly at him from your spot just beside him now. You squeezed his arm. âYouâve got this, Mark. Just like weâve done before. Iâll be right back here, okay?â
As you went to step back, you saw Mark gulp, and his gaze fell down again. He wouldnât be able to compel Johnny if he didnât look him in the eye. While you had read through Renjunâs notes pretty thoroughly early in working with Mark, you were using them as a guide of what not to do. You didnât want him to constantly be in a state of being stressed, tired, and stuck at home in order to be in tune with his powers. But right now, you could tell that you were hitting at least two out of three of those. Dinner had already taken up a considerable portion of your evening, and Mark was still not as relaxed as you needed him to be.
âHey, Mark, I finally figured out why Yutaâs barely passing all his classes,â Johnny suddenly interjected.
That caught the basiliskâs attention, his voice confused as he went to respond, âI thought he was on the Deanâs Listââ
âBecause sirens only know whatâs under C-level,â the human finished with a wide grin.
âDudeââ Mark was cut off by his own laughs. âThat was bad. Like, barely made sense bad.â
âWell, did I tell you about this fairy philosophy major I met the other day?â
âWhat? Were they cute or something?â
âYeah, a real Thinker-bellâŠâ
That one even made you snort as Mark devolved into giggles. Johnny caught your eye as he continued, âI was reading this book about dragons the other day, but I couldnât get through it. It just seemed to drag on and on.â
âStop, dude,â Markâs protests were dampened by his non-stop giggles as he clutched his sides. âWeâre trying toâ Weâre tryingââ
âWhatâs a vampireâs favorite fruit?â You cut in, making both of them turn to you. âA neck-tarineâŠâ
Johnny actually burst out laughing at that, probably more than the awful pun warranted, as he quickly doubled over and had to hold himself up with his hands on his knees. Mark stumbled just the slightest towards you as he was still giggling, finally moving from the place that you had set him up in. âY/N, not you too!â He complained through laughter. âGod, you two are awful. Not funny at all.â
âThen why are you laughing so hard, Markie?â You pointed out with a chuckle, letting him lean his weight on your shoulder as he tried to catch his breath.
âBecause I canât believe you would make terrible dad jokes like that.â He took deep breaths, still holding his side. âLooped back around to being funny.â
âThen whyâd you laugh at mine?â Johnny was upright again.
âPity.â
And as you caught Johnnyâs twinkling eyes again from across the room, you figured that you were thinking the same thing. Success. One much more relaxed Mark Lee.
Mark found his footing again, and with one more deep breath, looked up at Johnny. You watched him carefully, feeling the exact moment he made contact with his powers, extending them out towards Johnny. They werenât overwhelming, out-of-control, hasty, or at risk of boiling over. Johnny stood still, pupils dilating as he looked to Mark for his cue.
âTouch your right index finger to your nose gently,â Mark instructed calmly. That was something you had worked on, specificity without complexity.
Johnny lifted his right hand, tapping his nose with his pointer finger.
âPut your right hand down.â After he had done so, Mark then requested, âLift your left hand above your head, slowly.â
Johnny raised his hand like he was in a classroom, holding it there.
âPut your left hand down please.â
The human lowered his hand again.
âThanks, Johnny, youâre done,â Mark released him, and you felt the energy draw back into the basilisk as steadily as it had extended out. He let out a breath as Johnny blinked and came back into himself. âYou alright, man?â
âGreat!â Johnny beamed and gave him a thumbs up. âThanks for not making me do anything weird.â
âI told you I wouldnât, man.â The basilisk rolled his eyes.
âMark!â You threw your arms around his neck without a second thought, practically vibrating with excitement. âYou did it! On purpose!â
âIâm going to pee, before the petrification,â Johnny whispered loudly, excusing himself down the hall.
âI-I mean, I had a good teacher...â Mark muttered, tentatively hugging you back.
âI wonât argue with you there,â you snickered, squeezing him even tighter. âIâm proud of you, Markie.â
Two days later, and it was Friday night. After a long week of work, you finally could relax, order some food, make yourself a drink, kick your feet up, and just have a nice quiet night to yourself. Well, sort of. You had actually ordered food for two, prepared an extra glass of ice water, and were awaiting a familiar knock on your door before you could kick up your feet and start your show.
Mark knocked at 7:50 p.m., just 10 minutes before the newest episode of Our Love from the Ashes would be premiering, and you ushered him in quickly. Squished into the middle two couch cushions next to each other so you could both have access to your coffee table to eat from, you were pleasantly surprised to find that he wasnât incredibly tense or actively running away. He was doing exactly what youâd asked him to doâgetting invested. Reacting to the episode with you, quiet at the tense parts, laughing at the funny parts, pretty much the perfect drama watching partner. You were done with your food halfway into the episode, and dragged over a blanket to cover your lap now that you werenât at risk of any spillage. It was large enough to cover both you and Mark, so you put it over his lap too, and that was when he suddenly choked on a noodle.
âYou alright?â You snorted, giving him a couple solid smacks on the back. âFood go down the wrong pipe?â
He wiped his mouth with a napkin to catch a dribble of sauce. âYeah, sorry. DonâtâDonât mind me.â
Right as you focused back on the show, however, loud shooting and explosion sounds started up from the other side of your living room wall, and you sighed. You reached forward to grab the remote, pausing the show before scooting out from under the blanket and walking over to your shared wall with Chenle and Jisung. Banging your fist against the wall a couple times, you then waited. The video game sounds decreased significantly, then you heard a dampened, âSorry, Ms. Y/N!â from Chenle this time.
âThatâs how loud it is?â Mark asked, now looking incredibly guilty.
âYep,â you replied, plopping back down on the couch next to him and pulling the blanket over you again. With the show still paused, you looked over at him curiously. âAre you missing a video game night right now?â
âItâs not like everyone or anything,â he shrugged, casting his eyes down to his dish as he pushed food around with his utensil. âI mean, I think itâs just Jaemin, Hyuck, Chenle, and Renjun. Jeno and his girlfriend are celebrating their anniversary, and Jisungâs not even there at the game night in his own apartment because heâs out with his girlfriend. It was going to be a single losers night.â
âSo what does it mean that youâre here with me instead then?â You mused humorously, hitting play.
Mark apparently wasnât hungry anymore, as he set his food down and leaned back against the couch cushions. But he didnât relax very much. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see one of his legs bouncing up and down. With the warm summer air outside, he had worn a t-shirt with some comic book character on it. As his fingers started messing with the texture of the blanket, your eyes followed the movement, up to his hands, then further up to his forearms, where you could see his muscles twitch and flex in the slightest under his skin. You were suddenly more aware of the lounge clothes you were wearing. They were nothing special, a comfortable t-shirt of your own and pair of shorts, but as you became conscious of exactly how much the shorts had ridden up with the way you were sitting under the blanket, your focus was still locked on Markâs hands, not the show that you had unwittingly tuned out.
âSorry,â Markâs voice was sheepish, and you blinked, looking up from his hands to his face. âDidnât mean to pull at a thread. I just fidget, you knowâŠâ
His fingers had stopped messing with the blanket, and you gave him a half-hearted smile and shake of your head. âItâs fine, Mark. Didnât mean to stare like that, sorry.â
When you turned back to the screen, you were able to focus on the show for a whole two minutes. And then the main coupleâs romantic kiss turned into a prolonged make-out session. Markâs hands pulled at the thread again. You smacked a hand down over his, harder than you intended to. He jumped under your touch, but stopped his accidental unwinding of your textile. You kept your hand there to prevent him from unraveling the thread again, skin buzzing with a new kind of energy where it touched his. You didnât look at him. Then the kissing turned into a bit more, with some conveniently placed objects in frame, and a tasteful fade-to-black. Mark shifted a bit higher in his seat. You slowly took your hand back. That wasnât the end of the episode, as there was a very cute morning-after scene as well, but you could barely celebrate the fact that the characters were back together. Finally looking at the basilisk beside you out of the corner of your eye, he was staring straight ahead at the TV, his leg back to bouncing. He ran a hand through his hair, and you could see his throat bob as he swallowed hard.
As soon as the credits started rolling, Mark was on his feet. âUhm, thank you for having me.â
âRight⊠thanks for coming over.â You walked him to the door like usual, which he seemed to be racing you to. Holding your hand on the door handle without actually opening it, you watched him shift uncomfortably in place. âAre you okay, Mark?â
âHm? Fine, fine!â His voice cracked. âIt was a-a good episode.â
âYeah, they finally got back together andââ
âSorry, I just remembered I actually have an assignment due at 11:59 tonight,â he blurted out, scratching the back of his neck. You peered over his shoulder at your stove clock visible from your kitchen. 8:58 p.m.
âOh. Well, Iâll let you go then.â You went to give him a one-armed hug goodbye without a second thought, feeling him stiffen in your loose hold. Stepping back, you opened the door for him. âSee you Wednesday, Mark.â
His face was bright red as he stammered out, âSee-See you. Goodnight, Y/N.â
His sneakers squeaked as he took off down the hall. You closed the door behind him and looked back into your apartment, which felt oddly empty now.
Pushing open the door to Half Moon Bakery some days later, you were immediately enveloped by the cozy and sweet smells of the various breads, sweets, and pastries inside. Two employees were behind the counter, one attending to the register while the other restocked their shelves with loaves of bread from a tray, his back to you.
âHi! Welcome to Half Moon! How can I help you?â The friendly-looking worker at the register greeted you brightly. As you got closer, you could very clearly smell that he was a werewolf, musky and warm.
You offered the young man a smile back. âHi, Iâm actuallyââ
âY/N?â The other employee, who had also been wearing a backwards baseball cap, turned around then, surprise on his features.
It took you a second to place the face so out-of-context, immediately offering a kind greeting as soon as you recognized him. âOh, Johnny, hey. Itâs good to see you. Almost didnât recognize you in the apron, sorry.â
The human gestured down to the navy-blue apron he had donned as part of the bakeryâs uniform. âYeah, itâs me.â
The first boyâs eyes widened as he turned to Johnny. âWait, Y/N, as inâŠ?â
âYes, Jeno, this is Chenle and Jisungâs neighbor,â Johnny confirmed pointedly through gritted teeth. You knew very well what was also implicitly being confirmed, because if he knew Johnny, knew your name, and knew Chenle and Jisung, then Jeno presumably also knew Mark and your apparent reputation among their friend group.
âI-Itâs nice to meet you, Ms. Y/N. Uhm, sorry about all the noise all the time,â Jeno stammered out an apology.
The way he addressed you made you chuckle lightly. There were only two people who called you that, and with whom he wouldâve had to be apologizing for noise if heâd been with. âOh, you must be one of Markâs other friends thatâs always playing video games so loudly in the boysâ apartment next door.â
âR-Right. Again, Iâm so sorry.â
âIâm teasing, Jeno,â you reassured the poor boy, who looked like a kicked puppy at this point. âItâs nice to meet you.â
âSo what can we get you?â Johnny asked, motioning to all of the various baked goods in the shop.
âAs delicious as everything looks, Iâm actually not here to eat, unfortunately. Another time,â you promised. Refocusing on the real reason you came into the bakery today, you looked around. âMinseok in?â
âOh, yeah, Mr. Minseokâs in the back. I can go grab him for you,â Jeno offered.
âWould you please, Jeno?â
âSo, how do you know Minseok?â Johnny asked as you waited, genuine curiosity in his tone.
âOh, weâve known each other for years,â you started. âWeâreââ
âY/N, hey!â Minseok calling your name out snapped your attention to your friend making his way out of the back of the bakery.
âMinseokâ ah!â You got cut off by a sputtering laugh as he came around the counter to hug you, patting his back in the embrace. When you pulled back, you didnât let your friend get very far, brushing at a white smudge on his cheek. âYouâve got flour on your face, you know? I swear youâd have lost your canines a decade ago if it werenât for me, Kim Minseok.â
âI work in a bakery,â he reminded you with a huff, disentangling from you to cross his arms stubbornly. âCall it an occupational hazard. And youâve got some on you, too.â
âOh, and whose fault is that?â You scoffed, wiping at your own face where it had brushed against his in the hug.
âYours. Youâve got to play better defense, Y/N.â He pretended to punch your upper arm a couple times as if in a boxing match.
âDefense against flour-covered hugs? My bad, Iâll train up on that this weekend.â
Your friend dropped his mock boxerâs stance. âAnyway, you ready to go?â
âYep, I am if you are.â
âAbsolutely.â He nodded, then turned to his employees, who suddenly seemed extremely invested in wiping down the countertop by the register. âIâm about to take my lunch. You two need anything from me?â
Johnny shook his head, giving his boss a reassuring grin. âNope, nope, all good.â
âJeno, you think she needs anything back there?â Minseok asked the werewolf.
âNah, you saw her, sheâs totally in the zone,â Jeno replied, a soft smile overtaking his features. âWeâre actually taking our lunch break soon, too.â
âCool. Be back in an hour, hour and a half.â
You lifted a hand to give them your own farewell, âIt was good seeing you guys, bye!â
âSince when do you know my employees so well?â Minseok squinted at you as the two of you walked down the sidewalks together.
âTheyâre both Markâs friends,â you explained.
The sphinx made an extended âohhhâ sound as you rounded the corner to your destination, a quick, casual cafĂ©. While you didnât technically have a timed lunch break since you were in a salary position, your schedule was full up with meetings for the afternoon that you couldnât be late for. Minseok held the door open for you. âSo I guess I have you to thank for Johnny no longer missing shifts because he got petrified, then.â
You covered your mouth with your hand to cover your laugh. âI guess so.â
Saturday night found you hosting all your friends at your placeâa rare occurrence. It wasnât that you didnât like hanging out with all your friends, it was that you four usually went out somewhere, or to someone elseâs place. You werenât a big hostess in general, and typically Jongin or Baekhyun preferred to do the hosting of the four of you, but somehow, this time, everyone ended up at your place for board game night.
âSomething youâd like to tell us, Y/N?â Baekhyun raised his eyebrows as he dug a forest green garment out from between two of your throw pillows on your couch. He set his wine glass down on the coffee table to spread the hoodie wide, allowing you to see the logo on the front, the name of the college that Mark and your neighbors attended.
âMark left a hoodie here?â You questioned. âThe horrorâŠ? Itâs a hoodie, not a condom. Calm down, Baek.â
âI just donât get what youâre waiting for.â
âWhat are you talking about?â You walked over to take the hoodie from him, folding it up and setting it aside on your dining table so you wouldnât forget to give it back to Mark on Wednesday.
âYou havenât talked about any other man since you started âmentoringâ this kid,â the siren said frankly, putting his hands on his hips. âEvery time we see you, itâs âMark did thisâ and âMark said thatâ and âMarkâs doing so goodâ andââ
âI donât sound like that,â you scowled.
âYou kind of do,â Minseok agreed, reclined on your couch.
You looked to Jongin, hoping that heâd at least back you up. He shrugged.
âIâm just saying, from what youâve been saying, heâs been wrapped around your finger since he laid eyes on you,â Baekhyun continued. âSo, what are you waiting for? Heâs got his powers under control; heâs obsessed with youâhave some fun. I think youâve earned it. Go be the MILF you want to see in the world.â
âYou mean the MILF that you want to see in the world. Pass.â
âWhat? Is he not cute orââ
âI said pass, Baek. Leave it.â
âDoes he have a partner or something?â
âNo, I donât think so. Can we just playââ
âWhat is yourââ
âBaekhyun.â Jongin cut him off coolly. âStop.â
The siren held up his hands. âFine. Sorry.â
As everyone sat around your coffee table to start setting up the board game, you could feel Minseokâs contemplative gaze on you. âYou really like him, donât you?â The other sphinx asked quietly, into the dead silence. âYour basilisk.â
Never had you ever been more relieved to hear loud, raucous video game explosions from the apartment next door. You scrambled to your feet, happy to be out of that conversation. âOh, thatâs the boys. Sorry, hold on.â You walked over to your shared wall, and banged your fist on it a couple times.
The volume was quickly cranked down, then Jisung called out, âSorry!â
You turned back to your own friends with a pleased smile. âThere we go.â
A moment later, your phone buzzed in your hand.
[markie: sorry, i tried to tell them it wasnât quiet enough]
[you: thatâs alright. thanks, markie]
[you: also, you left a hoodie here. you can grab it wednesday]
When you sat back down to set up the boardgame, your friends apparently decided to leave the topic well enough alone, letting you start reading off the direction with no further poking or prodding.
A few hours later, after the games had been abandoned but before your friends were ready to leave, you were washing up a few glasses at your kitchen sink as the others debated some movie options to round out the night. There was a faint knock on your front door, and you looked at the time on the stove clock curiously.
âOh, can someone get that?â You called out to the living room, hands still wet, soapy, and holding an equally wet and soapy glass. âIâm expecting a package, needs to be signed for.â
âIâve got it!â Minseok shouted back, the sound of the front door opening following just a moment later.
âW-What?â A familiar stutter reached your ears, and you grabbed a dish towel to start drying your hands off, listening carefully to make sure youâd heard correctly. There was no reason Mark should be at your door right now.
âOh, Mark, right? Johnnyâs roommate.â Nope, apparently he was, according to Minseokâs memory.
âMark?â You poked your head out of the kitchen, the rest of your body following when you did in fact see the basilisk at your front door. âWhat are you doing here?â
âWhat is he doing here?â Mark pointed at the other sphinx accusatorily.
âSo this is Mark?!â Baekhyun had joined you three at the door, delight on his features. âMinseok, donât be rude, let the boy in.â
âWhatâs uh, whatâs going on?â Jongin called from the living room as he, too, stood up to start walking over to the front door.
You shook your head at your friends, turning to chastise them, âOh my God, all of you, stop it.â Clearly, the younger basilisk was in some kind of panic, and you had no clue why he was even at your door when as far you knew, he and his friends were playing video games thirty seconds ago. Putting your focus back on Mark, you softened your tone, âMark, why are youââ
But the college student turned on his heel and took off down the hallway at a sprint.
âMark! Hey!â You called after him, stepping out of your doorway, but it was useless, as he was already long gone down the stairwell. With a sigh, you dropped your hands to your sides in defeat and moved back into your apartment. Leaning against the inside of your closed door, you looked around at your friends, at a loss for words.
âDo you think we scared him?â Baekhyun asked, his head tilted.
Jonginâs forked tongue flicked out, his eyebrows shooting up before his features relaxed again. âYou think?â
The next Wednesday, as the time neared 6:00 p.m., you paced your living room anxiously, eyes on the microwave clock as you strained your ears to listen to every minute sound in the hallway. Listening for footfalls, or maybe even the door of the stairwell opening if it were quiet enough. 6:00 passed, then 6:01, 6:02, 6:03, 6:04, and at 6:05 you checked your phone for any indication from Mark that he was still planning on coming over, maybe just running late. You hadnât heard a peep from him since Saturday, which included leaving you on read this afternoon when you asked him if he wanted pizza or dumpling soup for dinner. You made pizza, too distracted to trust yourself to do more cooking than putting a frozen pizza in the oven. 6:08 p.m., and you heard someone walking down the hallway, past the boysâ apartment, and finally stopped on your doormat. They knocked, and you let out a sigh of relief, rushing to answer the door before he could have the opportunity to run away again.
You unlocked your locks in record time, a breathless smile coming to your face at the familiar figure of Mark standing there. His hands were stuffed into his hoodie pocket as the side of his mouth pulled up into a sheepish half-smile. âHey, Y/N. Sorry Iâm late.â
âMark,â you breathed out his name in relief. âJust get in here, would you?â
âIâm really sorry about Saturday,â he apologized immediately as soon as you had locked up, running a hand through his hair.
âYeah, what even was that?â You asked, a concerned frown on your face as you stepped closer to him. âI mean, why did you come over? And then why did you run away as soon you showed up?â
âItâs⊠not a good reason. And again, Iâm so sorry.â He ran two hands through his hair this time, thoroughly mussing it up.
âUh, do you want to sit down, Mark?â You offered your couch up.
âSure, sure, yeah.â He obliged, but was on the edge of his seat, leaning his weight forward on his arms and bouncing a knee. You were getting more nervous just looking at him. âUhm, so, Jeno had told me about when you came into the cafĂ© last week, when you got lunch with his boss. And I sort of got freaked. And then I came over here and he was here, I got even more freaked. And then all those other guys were here and I got super freaked and bolted. Like I said, Iâm really sorry.â
You opened and closed your mouth a couple times as you tried to figure out what you wanted to address first. Finally, you landed on: âJeno told you? Not Johnny?â
âJohnny helped me get un-freaked enough to come over tonight.â
âWell, big thanks to Johnny, then. Though I will admit that Iâm not sure what to do with the fact that me having friends freaked you out so bad in the first place.â
âI-I know, it was really immature of me, I justâŠâ He sighed, wringing his hands together.
You felt bad, he was clearly at a loss for what to do next. He knew heâd messed up and how, and had apologized multiple times. You figured heâd only gotten so âfreakedâ because heâd known so little about the situation, so you decided that offering some more information would help put him at ease.
âBaekhyun, Minseok, and Jongin. Those are their names,â you said. âTheyâre my closest friends. Baekhyunâs a siren, Minseokâs a sphinx like me, and Jonginâs a basilisk like you. You can ask me questions about them, if you want.â
âHow did you guys meet?â
âWe were all in the same class together in primary school.â
âOh thatâs cool!â He replied brightly.
âWhat?â You blinked at him, caught off-guard. That usually wasnât the reaction that piece of information garnered from other magical creatures that were from here.
âThat you guys went to school together and youâre all still friends. I donât know how many people I went to primary school with that I could even still name off the top of my head. Did you guys have like a Cool Magic Kids Only Club type thing or something?â
You looked down at your lap. âNot exactlyâŠâ
Mark had picked up on the unease in your tone, all perk falling from his features. âWhat? Is something wrong, Y/N?â
It took you a moment to figure out how to phrase this for him, pressing your lips together in a line as you thought. When you settled on the words, you told him gently, âWe were all in the same class because we were the only kids in our class. It was for magical creatures only.â
âWait, what?â
âI mean, not just the four of us, there were ten students total. But, yeah, we were kept separate from the human kids in school. For their safety.â
âIâve heard about that kind of stuff, like, when integration was first happening, but youâre not that much older than me!â He pointed out, his jaw dropped in disbelief.
You decided to do a little test. âMark, did you go to speech therapy? When you were in school?â
âWhat? No.â
âJongin, the basilisk, he used to get pulled from class three times a week to go to speech therapy to âfixâ how he spoke.â You made sure to throw sarcastic air quotes around the word fix.
âWhat the fuck?â
âI mean, I didnât have any powers, so I just had to keep my first set of teeth in check, you know. But they didnât believe me when I told them I couldnât possibly be a danger yet because sphinxes didnât get their powers until they were adults. After all, sphinxes were riddle-makers, tricksy, and couldnât be trusted.â
âOh, oh my god, Y/N. Iâm so sorry.â
âSo, anyway, thatâs how we all know each other. Thirteen years of educational trauma does a lot to make some pretty unbreakable bonds.â
âY/N⊠Iâm so sorry, I was a dick.â
âThanks, Mark. But to be fair, you donât know any of my friends, do you?â
âIâve met Minseok before.â He tried to reassure you. âAnd Jongdae!â
âYou mean youâve said hi to Jongdae once, and met Minseok as Johnny and Jenoâs boss.â You shook your head with a small smile. âBut I mean, Iâve met a bunch of your friends. Chenle and Jisung, obviously, and Iâve met Renjun, Johnny, and now Jeno. You talk about all of them all the time. Itâs not entirely unreasonable that you couldâve⊠jumped to conclusions.â
âBut it wasnât fair of me to do that.â
âWell, canât argue with you there.â You agreed. After a pause of the two of you just sort of looking at each other, you offered, âDo you want to hear more about them?â
âYou donât have to⊠tell me anything you donât want to, Y/N.â
âMinseok and I werenât always the closest on the surface, you know. Baekhyun and I liked more of the same stuff, Jongin didnât really to talk to anybody except me for our first few years of primary school, and Baekhyun and Minseok would team up to pick on me sometimes, but there was always an unspoken bond between us, since we were both sphinxes.â You decided to start with Minseok, since thatâs who started this whole freak-out in the first place. âYou know, weâre so rare, it was comforting to have another one of us around during all of this. We werenât allowed to riddle-weave at school, obviously, but whenever we could find the rare opportunity at our magic-only recess, or in a corner of the library, or walking home from school when we were a little older, weâd swap riddles back and forth with each other. One of us would give a riddle, the other would solve it, then give a riddle back. And donât get me wrong, our whole class was really close. There were only ten of us, and we had pretty much no contact with the rest of the students at our school until high school. But the four of us, Minseok, Baekhyun, Jongin, and I, were truly the best of friends. Still are.â
âWhat about the rest of you? The other kids from your class?â He asked.
âWe keep in touch with all of them. Sort of parted ways in college and as we got older, you know. I actually work with one of them. Remember that phone call I got from my employee, Sehun?â
âKind of?â
âHeâs one of my former classmates, a witch.â
âOh. Huh.â
âYeah, I couldnât believe my eyes when I saw him walk in on his first day. Let me think⊠Jongdae, witch, heâs the only one of us to have a kid so far, MinMin; Chanyeol, werewolf, just got a promotion⊠then of course Minseok owns the bakery, Baekhyun has his boba shop, Jongin has a whole designer brand... Yeah, weâre all doing just⊠great. Really makes my heart happy.â
âAh, Y/NâŠâ Mark got to his feet, throwing his hands down by his sides in fists as he paced.
âWoah, Markie, are you okay?â
âNo, justâ Doesnât it make you mad? That they did this to you guys?â
âIt used to, yeah, absolutely. We used to be the angriest, angstiest, most vitriolic people you could ever meet. We hated that school, and society, and the world for letting them treat us like that. Hell, Jongin still hates his speech therapist, and Iâll let him die with that grudge.â You shook your head, the momentary bitterness dissolving from your tongue and a melancholy replacing it instead. âBut it ate at us. And not only that, but society kept changing. And we were all stuck in that time, in those memories, stuck with that anger. It was killing us from the inside. I am so glad you didnât meet me in college, Mark, because it was not pretty. The number of nights that none of us can rememberâand not for any fun reasonâis far too many.â
He still didnât seem convinced, but had stopped his angry pacing, standing in front of you with his arms crossed over his chest.
âI mean, just look at you. You went through the same schools that I did practically right after us and had a completely different experience. A better one. And that makes me so relieved.â You beamed up at him, and saw a mixture of guilt and bashfulness flicker across his face. âIt doesnât take away what happened to me at all. But anger with no direction is useless. It all really hit us when Jongin, Minseok, and I all developed our powers the same semester of undergrad. And we were all messes. We couldnât get them under control because we were just so angry. We felt like we were being forgotten, that our suffering was being forgotten. Everybody else was moving on and pretending like it never happened. When I uh, mostly unintentionally melted a portion of a professorâs car, my grandmother pulled me away for spring breakâabsolutely ruined my plansâand made me spend the entire week learning to control it all.â
âYou meltedââ
âThankfully, Dr. Kwon was very understanding, and I wasnât kicked out or anything.â
âHow did Minseok and JonginâŠ?â
âThose arenât really my stories to tell. But ultimately, we couldnât hold onto that anger anymore. So instead, I try to focus on all the good that we have in our lives, and all the things weâve been able to accomplish despite what was done to us.â You then gestured to him, âAnd I look at the magical creatures who came after us, how much better things were for them, and are continuing to get, and all I can feel is happiness now.â
Mark sighed and sat down on the cushion next to yours, and you found yourself relieved to see the anger drain from his face. âIâm sorry, Y/N. Itâs not my⊠thing to get angry over.â
âNo, Mark, itâs okay.â You reached out to grab his hand, pulling both of them over to rest in your lap. Your other hand was up by your mouth, where you were chewing on a nail in between your thoughtsâ an anxious habit your grandmother thought she had broken you of in high school. âIt tells me you care, and it means a lot, that you do. Makes it still feel real. And it is your thing to get mad about, as far as Iâm concerned. What happened to usâand to Jonginâcouldâve easily been you and your friends too. Iâm just really glad it wasnât.â
The basilisk squeezed your hand, then scooted closer until you were shoulder-to-shoulder, knee-to-knee. But it wasnât electricity that jumped between you two this time, or strange butterflies in your stomach. It was an unspoken, understanding kindness that connected you and Mark, and a quiet sense of security that had settled deep in your chest. You shifted to rest your head on his shoulder, letting go of his hand only to wind your arm under his and lace your fingers together.
âMark?â You said quietly, gaze locked on your intertwined fingers.
âYeah?â He murmured, and you could feel him turn his head to look down at you.
âWhen you asked me if youâre my friend⊠one of the first times you were over. You remember that?â
âAh, god, Y/N.â He shook his head, letting out an embarrassed chuckle. âIâm sorry about that, I shouldnât have asked you. I was insecure and fishing forââ
âNo, Iâm sorry. I didnât answer you honestly,â you insisted. You held Markâs hand even tighter. âYouâre not my friend, and⊠I donât know when it happened. Honestly, I donât think you ever were.â
He was quiet for a moment, letting your confession settle over the two of you like a blanket. But you didnât feel suffocated by it, or scared. It sort of felt like something that was always in the room with you and Mark, but now you two were just finally talking about it. And after Markâs history of impulsive decisions, and talking without thinking, and getting freaked, you were more than happy to give him whatever time he needed to get his thoughts together before responding to you.
âCan I ask you for that secret now?â He asked into the empty air of your living room, his voice wavering.
âOf course. Anything.â
âHow... Can you tell me a secret you have about me? About how you feel about me?â
You lifted your head off his shoulder to turn in your seat and face him. His big, brown eyes were looking at you like you were everything, and you just took a second to admire him as you pulled together your own thoughts. Here everyone was worried (to varying degrees of seriousness) that you were luring poor, innocent little Markie into your lair every week and corrupting him. But really, youâd been unknowingly leaving the doors to your heart wide open for this little basilisk to slither right in and make himself at home. And now that he was here, you had no intention of ever asking him to leave.
âI like you, Mark. Something other than friendship. Romantically,â you clarified. âI have feelings for you.â
His grip tightened on your hand as he squeezed his eyes shut.
âMark? You okay?â You asked softly.
âGreat, yep, awesome,â he promised. âJust uh, just losing my mind a little.â
You laughed, stroking your thumb over his comfortingly. âTake all the time you need. Donât want any more freakouts if we can avoid them.â
âY/N?â He looked up at you again.
âYeah, Mark?â
His eyes flicked between yours and your mouth. âCan I kiss you?â
âYes.â You agreed enthusiastically, but didnât make another move for fear of scaring off the skittery basilisk.
He still hesitated, though. âD-Do you want me to?â
So polite. It was taking everything in you not to pounce on him.
âYes.â You said again, a bit firmer. For encouragement, you took his hand that you were holding and moved it up to your face.
Mark took the cue and gently cupped your cheek, leaning in towards you. Your eyes fluttered shut as you let him guide your mouths together. The first touch of his lips to yours was feather-light, barely there.
âIâŠâ He drew back, dropping his hand to hold yours again. âLike⊠You want to date me?â
âYes,â you confirmed with another light chuckle.
âYouâre laughing at me again.â
âSorry, sorry.â You tried to compose yourself, but you knew that you still had the same smitten smile on your face. âYouâre just⊠too cute.â
âDo you remember when I came here to ask you for help with my powers in the first place?â Mark asked, poking a couch cushion. âWhat you said about your couch?â
âMy couchâŠ?â You echoed, trying to think that far back. It felt like a lifetime ago at this point that you had first welcomed the incredibly timid basilisk into your home. Then it hit you. âI said neither my couch nor I would eat you whole.â
âUnless I asked nicely,â he added, swallowing thickly. âIâm-Iâm asking nicely now, Y/N. Please, if you wantââ
âOh, Markie,â you sighed, standing up and pulling him up with you. You grabbed his jaw between two fingers, looking into his slit pupils as you pulled him closer. âYouâre so adorable.â
Before he could say anything else, you crashed your mouths together. His hands immediately flew to your hips to ground himself, as you kept one hand on his jaw and the other rested on his shoulder. You had a reason for standing up, however, beginning to push him back in the direction of your bedroom.
He asked to be eaten whole, after all.
When your work alarm came the next morning, you snoozed it and buried your face back into your pillow. There was a groan from beside you, and you could hear Mark shifting as well.
âDonât tell me thatâs actually how early you get up for work?â He asked incredulously.
âI have to shower, and make breakfast, and brush my teeth, and get dressed in clean clothes, and commute,â you mused. âCanât just roll out of bed five minutes before I need to leave and show up in the same pajamas I slept in anymore.â
âUgh.â
You chuckled, rolling over to snuggle up to his side, throwing an arm over his waist. âDo you have class today?â
âSummer break.â His arms hesitantly wrapped around you.
âRight, right. Well, I guess you can snooze until Iâve got breakfast ready, then.â
âMm, pretty sure I heard something about a shower?â
âYou might have,â you replied coyly. âWhy?â
âYou know, Renjun was telling me about how climate change is shrinking the natural habitats of glacial sirens at the poles, andââ
Your laughter cut him off, and he started giggling at himself as well. When youâd finally caught your breath, you said, âIâve heard the âsaving waterâ line before, never heard it taken to that extreme. Come on, if we waste any more time, weâll be having untoasted bread for breakfast.â
âOoh, my favorite,â Mark grinned, following after you.
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FEMALE MOVIE/TV RECS (PART 5 / HORROR & CRIME DRAMA)
got inspired from a recommendation post so decided to make a list of movies and shows with female-centric stories/female protagonists. since i can't post all of the genres in one post, i'll split it into multiple posts and y'all can save or add to the list as you wish. (disclaimer: i have watched most of these, but i only know about the existence of others. not every movie/show on these lists will be my recommendation. my recommendations will be beneath the list with reasons. also some of these are way better than others in terms of storytelling/performance--which is why i'll list my faves separately):
Common Themes:
-Dangerous girls (they ain't innocent)/ girlhood as violent
-Stressed out and melancholic female detectives and authors (lots of drinking/smoking)
-Mothers who've seen too fucking much to play games/I'm a good mother until it doesn't let up
-Women handling shit/getting shit done
-Mothers who didn't want to be mothers but here we fucking are so might as well handle shit
-Evil women who are also unfortunately hot
-Female sociopaths (not always negatively portrayed)
HAVEN'T WATCHED
The Royal Hotel
The Silent Twins
The Kitchen
The Lost Flowers of Alice Hart
I'm Thinking of Ending Things
Sharp Objects
Killing Eve
Abigail
Heavenly Creatures
A Quiet Place Part 2
Panic Room
Alice, Darling
Blood Red Sky
Rust Creek
The Marsh King's Daughter
Pearl
Longlegs
GOOD STUFF (NEVER WATCHING AGAIN THOUGH!)
Bad Sisters (8/10) (sisters plan to kill their sister's abusive husband)
Yellowjackets (9/10) (love as cannibalism)
Candy (7.5/10) (she's just a killer lol)
Cruella (6.5/10)(help my mom is a narcissist and it's hereditary)
Jennifer's Body (7/10) (boys aren't people lmao)
Bird Box (8/10)
Under the Bridge (8/10)
PERSONAL NOTES
I watched Tragedy Girls years ago, and I remember being grossed out and having a lot of fun as well. If you like Jennifer's Body, you'll probably like Tragedy Girls, too. And if you like Tragedy Girls, you may also enjoy Thoroughbreds. All three have a twisted sense of girlpower.
The Call isn't scary so much as its nerve-wracking and upsetting. It's not gory (although there is violence), but it deals with heavy subject matter. I can, however, promise a satisfying ending. Even though I doubt it would put you at ease.
Horror is my least favourite genre so bear that in mind. I just hate jump scares (because I hate being startled) and I don't like gore though there are times where it doesn't bother me so much. So this is definitely not an exhaustive list on horror recs. Crime is as close as I usually get to such dark stuff so I put the dark crimes, psychological thrillers and horrors together. I don't even want to talk about these that much because I'm nauseous already.
Watch at your own risk.
#this stuff isn't good for people with anxiety like me#but some of these are so dern interesting#radblr#feminism#female centric media#horror#drama#crime drama#thriller#female centric crime#female horror#female psychological thrillers#psychological thrillers#hadesoftheladies rec list#pearl#birdbox#abigail#the royal hotel#tragedy girls#thoroughbreds#heavenly creatures#jennifer's body#the call#alice darling#panic room#blood red sky#cruella#the quiet place 2#killing eve#rust creek
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Ê Send Me an Angel É
- pairing: mean!eddie munson x bratty!henderson older sister!female reader
- content warning: 18+ nothing too graphic, but I prefer no minors on my blog, thankssss
- a/n: idk what this is lol, I just love fem/bratty reader and intimidating/mean Eddie <3
âUgh why do your weird nerdy friends have to come here Dusty??â you pout at your little brother as you lay on your stomach on your bed, him staring at you from your doorway.
âI told you, the drama kids are putting on a play or some shit so we canât play D&D in there.â He says to you like itâs the most obvious thing in the world. âJust stay in here, my friends donât wanna listen to your stupid shows on the TV or watch you dance around to your girly music.â He slams your door shut and your head shoots up off a pillow, shocked at how rude he can be. You scoff and roll onto your back, eyes growing heavy and leading you into your after school nap.
Youâre rudely awakened by loud laughter and yelling. You look at the pink clock on your wall. 6:05pm. Their little game has only been going for 5 minutes and youâre already annoyed. You get up and head to your door, swinging it open and heading towards the bathroom for a quick shower before you go make yourself some dinner.
âCâmon Eddie, I wanna cast a spell, hurry up and roll!â you hear Mike Wheeler yell. Little twerp just like your brother. Always running into the house, tracking in dirt, leaving their bikes in the drivew⊠Wait. Eddie. Eddieâs here. In your dining room. Youâve had a crush on Eddie all year and while you two have talked here and there, youâd be lying if you said his harsh leather metal head look didnât scare you a bit. Youâre all soft edges, pink backpack, frilly white socks rolled over your reeboks, soft hair swaying. Youâre not perfect, certainly no Phoebe Cates. But you know youâre pretty, plush lips over straight teeth, cute perky boobs and a butt that jiggles when you walk.
Youâve felt Eddieâs eyes on you at school. Once he even bumped into you when you stopped short to tie your shoe. âWalk much?â Eddie said to you with a glare. âOh!â Youâd said as you spun around, surprised at his proximity. âS-sorry.â You said sweetly, his big brown eyes stared at you and made your tummy flutter in the most amazing way. Your tummy isnât flat and perfect but thatâs ok. You like cookies too much, is that a crime?!
âActually since youâre here, can you hold my books while I tie my shoes?â youâd asked, voice smooth and sweet like syrup. Eddie stared at you for a second then put out his hands. You assumed that meant yes so you handed him your heavy textbooks. You turned and bent forward, ass almost grazing his crotch. The way the fabric of your white jeans stretched across your cute little butt made him stop breathing. Eddieâs mind went blank, mouth going dry and fingers going numb from the weight. Your textbooks slipped out of his hands and hit the floor with a slam. You squeaked a scared little scream and stood back up quickly. âShit are you okay?â Eddie asks you as he drops down and picks the books back up, placing them gently into your small hands. âIâm fine. Was just loud. Scared me.â He chuckled, eyes narrowed and and flickered with mischief, making you wonder if he did that on purpose. âIâm sorry angel⊠I mean-â Your reaction to his nickname for you got cut short when you jumped for the second time in the last two minutes thanks to the class bell ringing. âGotta go.â Eddie said with a wink before racing past you, your face red with embarrassment.
You giggle at the memory as you exit the shower. Quickly running back to your room to get ready, you think to yourself: How can I get Eddieâs attention but not let him know he has mine? I think he likes me but I donât wanna look too desperate. Gotta tease him a bit⊠You curl your lashes and put on your sparkly pink lipgloss. You open your closet and weigh your options⊠tight jeans?⊠but you want Eddie to see your panties. A dress? thatâs a little too obvious⊠your fingers reach for your soft pink frilly mini skirt that has a matching jacket that your friend borrowed and never gave back. You slip it on, white and pink lace panties underneath with a scalloped edge that hug your ass just right. A simple white T shirt thatâs slightly see through over a matching pink and white lace bra and a couple sparkly silver necklaces finish your outfit. Barefoot you begin to creep downstairs, the sounds of boys whooping and dice hitting your wooden dining room table growing louder as you ascend.
âSo uh, whereâs your sister D?â you hear one of the boys ask. You stop on the second to last step, leaning in to listen. Itâs not Eddieâs voice, but too deep to be Mike or Lucasâs. âUp in her room, sheâs so annoying.â You roll your eyes. âMaybe..â Gareth grumbles. âBut I certainly donât mind lookinâ at her.â Everyone busts out into laughter except your brother. âEw dude gross! Shut up, itâs your turn.â âYeah G,â you finally hear Eddieâs voice, it sounds deep and tight like heâs clenching his jaw. âRoll the dice before I write you out of this whole campaign.â âJeez fine. I got a 12.â âNot enough, you lose 18 hit points.â âWhat the fuck man!â
As the game continues you saunter past the table, only turning your head once to smile and wave politely at the group. You feel Eddieâs eyes follow you all the way to the kitchen. Their conversation continues on, sounding further away now. You begin to warm up some rice and leftover chicken, mixing up a strawberry lemonade while the microwave whirs. As you watch the yellow drink turn pink you feel a warmth encroach your space, the smell of weed and cinnamon gum filling your nostrils.
âHey y/n.. didnât know you were here.â Eddie says as he stands behind you. Closer than what would be considered normal. You spin around, big doe eyes looking up and meeting his, small silver spoon that you were mixing with coming up to your lips and sucking, savoring the tangy powder. His eyes fall to your mouth, half hooded, eyebrows raising slightly. You pull it out slowly and lick the tip of it with your tongue, before saying âI live here. Where else would I be?â in your bratty tone.
He shrugs his shoulders, âFriday night, thought maybe youâd be on a date.â He says with a crooked smile. Does he think about me going on dates? He crowds closer into your space, you feel the countertop at your back as you lean against it. âNope. No date. Maybe you can set me up with one of your friends?â you say as you look past him, over his shoulder towards where Hellfire is. âMy friends? You wanna date one of us?â âI donât know.. maybe. You think theyâd be interested?â you ask him confidently but your heart is beating so fast, your breath uneven, chest rising with every shaky inhale. BEEEEEP. The microwave signals behind you. âEddie! You done in the bathroom yet?!â you hear your brother yell from down the hall. âSounds like youâre needed out there.â You say to him, beginning to slide past him. His hand shoots up to grab your hip and maneuver you back. Caged in by him.
âYeah, gimme five minutes!â He yells over his shoulder. You stare up at him, unsure what heâs going to do. He reaches behind you picking up your pink lemonade and drinks the whole thing in one long sip. You watch as his neck stretches back and his adams apple bobs when he swallows. The pale smooth skin of his neck looking irresistibly bite-able. âSweet. Like you.â He says, low and gravelly. He puts the glass down and drops his chin to his chest, looking at the small space between your bodies. âIs this a skirt or a belt? So fuckinâ short I thought I saw some ass when you walked by.â âMaybe I wanted your friend to see. Whatâs his name? With the curls⊠Gareth?â Eddie snorts and throws his head back with a mock laugh. âGareth wouldnât know what to do with you.â His eyes sweep down your neck, your chest and stop at where the thin fabric of your shirt and lace bra are barely doing anything to cover the pebbled peaks of your nipples. âOh and you know what to do with me?â you ask, eyebrows raising condescendingly. He exhales a low growl before reaching to grab the back of your squishy thighs and lifting you up onto the counter.
âIâd have a lot of fun finding out-â he leans forward, hands softly grasping the back of your calves, thumbs rubbing up and down the smooth skin as he guides them to rest around his thighs. âAngel.â he says with a wink. You feel a shudder go through you, ending at your core and making you ache between your legs. Eddieâs standing between your spread thighs, the rough fabric of his black jeans rubbing against your legs as he talks. Everything about him feels so warm. âListen to me real good now.â He says, lips brushing the shell of your ear causing goosebumps to erupt down the whole left side of your body. âYouâre going to eat your little snack. Then go back upstairs to your room and wait for me. Think you can do that?â He doesnât wait for you to respond before heâs backing away and walking back down the hallway. âEDDIE COME OOON!â Gareth yells. âCominâ!â He says back, wide smirk dancing on his lips.
Youâre left in the kitchen wondering what just happened and what you just got yourself intoâŠ
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#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson fanfic#eddie munson x y/n#eddie stranger things#eddie x reader#eddie x y/n#mean!eddie#bratty!reader#eddie munson moodboard#henderson!sister#eddie x henderson!reader
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My thoughts on my One Piece journey and How itâs affected me đ©·
This is going to be long ass post lol
I think this is the platform that I never knew that I will ever comeback to but you know because of one piece and deprived of Sanji, Nami & Law content, âš here I am đâš *shamelessly comeback after abandoned tumblr for good 11 years lmao*.
Anyway, I just want to let out my thoughts on my one piece journey and how it affected me. So bear with me. This is only place I can talk about One Piece because other platforms I had is related to kpop * Yes Iâm a kpop fan. HEAVY ON NCT. Neo Got My Back.*
I know about one piece way back when Iâm teenager. Itâs just I donât start to watch it/ read it somehow?? Idk why đ€·ââïž Iâm also confused to as why because I did grew up watch anime like FMAB, Naruto, Bleach, Black Butler, K-On, Fairy Tail on tv. HECK I EVEN WATCH THE LONG ASS DETECTIVE CONAN TOO đ
I think itâs because back in the day ( 2010 - 2017 ), I had lack of access to internet and not exposed to the series at all. Besides the local TV station here, only aired Naruto ,Bleach and those anime I mentioned . *Iâm just 24 years old btw*
So around September 2023, I came across to One Piece content on TikTok and funny enough itâs Brook edit! I was so intrigued with this character and little did I know I watch a bunch of One Piece clip here and there on TikTok. To be fair, I am basically spoiled myself that time đŹ but Iâm the type dgaf if I got spoiled because I wonât remember at all later on. đ€·ââïž
So I decide to start watch it. First few episodes, my reaction was like â Okay Luffy is an interesting guyđ§his body stretches and always smiled! He got damn hands tho nglâ. Zoro, my reaction was like âahaaa SO THIS IS ZORO THAT EVERYONE KEEP TALKING ABOUT. Quite a Stud.â
Nami, interesting female character that I can relate because I like money đ€ and her backstory is so sad. Ussop is also another character I gradually love over the time!
Then COMES MY HUSBANDO, SANJI. Man I have a thing for a man who can cook and looks good in suits. Sanji really makes me having my first anime crush ever! I DONT HAVE A CRUSH ON ANYONE IN NARUTO & Detective Conan but One Piece made me have one đ€§ *The upgrade from loving a guy that exist but doesnât know you exist ( haechan,jaehyun & jaemin bb i luv you guys but Sanji đźâđš) to loving a guy who are not exist on this plane of earth đ*
Little did I know I start to binge watch it. First day of watching, 30 episodes in 6 hours. 10 days later I already watch 325 episodes . but the show is so good! The story telling that oda created really hit home to me and the foreshadowing & lore he created makes me hooked unlike other story that I have read & watched.
Hereâs the thing, to me every anime that I watch, I never like finish it . Sometimes I would just watch last ep and called it the day. This is not only apply on anime, itâs apply to western shows, my own local shows & k-dramas. So One Piece truly like solidified their place on my heart. I finally can understand why one piece are so loved for decades!
Also during those times, I hit rock bottom too. I quit my job because I was falsely accused for stealing shit at my work place and being discriminated by my ex-boss due to being the youngest one for my entire work.( everyone else was in their 40âs ). That time I was desperate as I need some money to achieve my bucket-list and want to lessen the burden of my family. Lord heavens knows what Iâm going through, got death threats by that mf. Twisted the truth that causing my whole family cut ties with her severely. From there, I felt so stress and worried.
So One Piece is my way of escapism and itâs been a beautiful and exciting journey. Compared to last time, I took a 7 months breaks from works due to burn out & anxiety, this time it doesnt took long for me to overcome those situations and my âyear-end bluesâ that I called is not as bad as before. I also has been actively try to get a job asap so I can buy an Ipad as I want to start learning digital drawing again after watching one piece.
One piece teach me itâs never late to start a new journey towards your dream! I used to dream to be a graphic designer or animators but my family donât want me to be that. They want me to have that conservative jobs like working in government, an accountant etc. so essentially I gave up those dreams so I can make them proud of me. Itâs been bothering me for so long as I felt like I should have go for what I want not what people want. At the end, I abandoned my accountancy knowledge and worked as an admin & a baker which I found a lot more less stressful that being an accountant. I guess what people describe after knows me personally being a confident, free-spirited & rebellious is just the way I am. AND oddly enough One Piece is just perfect manga & anime for me!
At this point, I already caught up with anime. Iâm a weekly basis anime watchers now. I also has caught up with manga too. Itâs been a huge revealing & fresh experience of One Piece for me. I felt like I being myself again! Itâs weird but itâs the truth! I never felt so at ease and being seen. I just want to do what I want. Itâs just fitting fate for me to be a One Piece fan!
Thatâs all what I want to say⊠if you really read this till the end. Thank you!
#one piece#Iâm lucky to found one piece#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#nami#ussop#sanji#tony tony chopper#PEOPLE SHOULD START WATCH ONE PIECE FOR BETTER LIFE! Iâm being real here!#soul king brook#franky#jimbei#nico robin
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i mean if it isn't romantic, how do we get to every?
neil himself has said that this season is romantic, and has also said that good omens is a love story (not the book, but that he envisioned the tv show as a love story from the beginning) - these are from asks on his blog.
tbqh if every is a cop-out or if there isn't at least very heavy hinting at a romantic relationship, i will be capital p Pissed LMAO
i am LIVING for this drama and the hype around spoilers man this is amazing, i havent been this hyped for a show in like at least a decade & the drama has definitely added to my excitement tbh
i dont understand what isnt romantic about everything that we know about the second season so far - we can clearly get the feeling that they care about each other and they want to work and live together, we can see that not only have they known and protected each other since the beginning of humanity, but since the beginning of the universe itself, we can see that they respect and are curious about each other, we can see that they willingly put up with each other's shit and try to meet each other in the middle, "we carved it out for ourselves", "you ever get the feeling everything would be better if you were near one particular person?", we can see they got way more comfortable with being around and close to each other than they were in season 1, we can see they're exploring their new found freedom, we can see they clearly think of the other as an unquestionable part of their own existence - and this is just from what we got from the first two episodes, we got a whole season in front of us filled with little moments that will certainly make us get even stronger heart eyes.
honestly, all of this is love, and it doesn't matter how you turn or twist it, it's still love. and we don't know how or why [EVERY] happens, we'll figure it out in 4 days, but everything that leads up to it? it's romance, it's love. it's real and it's there, and they experience it however they please by setting their own pace.
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You can decide from here on out how you take my requests: drawing and/or writing. Whichever you prefer for the specific thing.
Max and Richie playing video games. Pre or during relationship doesn't really matter.
I hope you're not sick of me-
I could never be sick of your requests. :))
And I'm gonna write it since it's easier for me where I am right now (in the kitchen, with no WiFi to be seen).
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A new club had sprouted up at Hatchetfield High and sue Max if he joined it. He didn't exactly want to. But joining a club would help his resume to joining a good college, and when it proudly presented the advertisement of "Video Game Club", well it didn't seem like the nerdiest thing.
There were those soccer games, right? Yeah. He could just play those. Whatever. It was better than nothing.
The club occupied a computer room where every computer looked older than he was, grimy off-white mouses beside the awful clackity keyboards. It wasn't surprising that Hatchetfield High had a shit computer room, just about all of their funding went to the sports teams to beat Clivesdale in their competing events.
Nobody else had entered the room, yet, and Max found himself wondering who'd even started the club in the first place. He sat himself at the teacher's chair, spinning in it halfheartededly. As the door began to push open, Max turned and slow creeping regret settled into his bones as he saw who was behind it. He should have just taken the hit on not attending any clubs.
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Richie had wanted to start a club for the past year. It was easy enough, just declaring it to the head and getting approval for it. Video games was a universal enough subject that meant there wouldn't be a big gate to getting involved with it. Ruth and Pete couldn't join for the first session, occupied with drama and science clubs respectively.
Richie's old, ratty PS3 weighed heavy in the plastic bag it was placed in alongside a disc case, and he considered the chance of it snapping under the weight. He shook his head, unlikely.
Richie had gotten lucky when he'd decided to bring the console in that day. He housed it in his locker and not once had Max or the other jocks come to pick on him in front of it, meaning it got kept a secret.
The computer room door was heavy as he pushed it with his shoulder, only looking up once it was too far open to back out.
Max JĂ€german sat in the teacher's chair staring at him. Richie's brain set off alarm bells. Shit. This must have been an accident, right? A swift look to the room number confirmed it. Either Max had the wrong room, or he was intending on joining this club too.
Richie, numb from panic, placed the console on one of the desks close to him. He was aware of the eyes burning into the back of his neck and he jumped as the door to the room closed behind him.
The silence was thick as Richie stalled himself from turning around, but eventually he had to bite the bullet and turn, eyes immediately meeting Max's. The tension grew thicker and Richie wondered if he was living in a TV show or anime where he was bound to have unlikely events happen to him.
"So..." He awkwardly broke the silence. He drummed his fingers on the table behind him. "... Video games?"
Max looked like he was debating punching him, walking out or responding. Richie hoped it was one of the last two.
To his relief, Max responded. "Yeah."
Richie turned again and picked up the console, trying and failing to ignore how close he needed to get to plug it into the teacher's computer to get it to show on the projector. It felt like a black hole, being drawn in and pulled towards danger, ever aware of Max's presence.
After successfully turning the console on, Richie once again turned to the plastic bag and pulled out the case of games. He hesitated before handing it out to Max.
"You can pick a game." He said as Max took it from his hands.
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Max had chosen Little Big Planet 2. Richie couldn't tell you why, but they played it. The classical music was almost humorous as the unmentioned tension sat heavy between them. Customizing their characters went as swiftly as it could have been.
Slowly, they worked their way in silence through the levels. Richie was taken aback by how well they were going through a teamwork based game without saying anything to one another.
That came to an end though as Max found an unreachable collectable. "How'd you get up there?"
"Uh-" Richie looked at the screen.
"There. Where that platform is." Max's character moved back and forth where his half of the screen was. Oh.
"Oh. That. I don't know. I haven't finished this game." Richie admitted, his character joining Max's and giving them a bigger screen to look at.
Max frowned in Richie's peripheral. "That's shit."
Richie swallowed the urge to apologise. "Yeah. Uh. A lot of these levels are difficult with only one player. And my brother's occupied with theatre and his boyfriend so..."
"Okay so we'll beat it." Richie's head snapped to look at Max suddenly. Even Max looked shocked by what he said.
Instead of clarifying, Max put his controller on the desk beside him and got up and left without a word, leaving Richie confused to process what had just happened.
#asks#lab-trash#j is talking again#michie#technically?#i love little big planet 2 and i want to play it again i just have the little issue of not having a ps3 console#or any ps console#but ps3 is what i grew up with
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Hello, Becca! I hope you're doing well! Bit of a random question perhaps but since you are a woman of great tastes, I am curious: What are your top 10 favorite shows?? Feel free to add what you like most about them! Thanks for indulging me and keep being amazing <3
hello phoe! hope you're well too<3 i'll be honest, whenever i get this kind of question my mind immediately goes blank and i forget any show i've ever watched, so this is by no means a 'definitive list' because there are definitely things i love that just slip my mind, but here are more shows i've really enjoyed this past year:
the witcher: for the women who take shit from no one and kick ass, but also for the found family vibes. the witcher will always have a special place in my heart, the characters are both fantastic on their own and interacting with each other, and this show will always feel like home to me
shadow and bone: just because i've giffed it a lot this week and it brought back all the feelings. comedy mixed with action, it was just an adventure and a joy. shadow and bone brings back the young adult fantasy nostalgia my brain craves, but injects a freshness of sarcastic comedy into it with the addition of the crows (my beloveds)
yellowjackets: rewired my brain chemistry. it was the biggest surprise of a show for me because i actually thought i really would not vibe with it as it's marketed towards horror and i am a scardy cat who does not vibe with anything horror. and yet, from the first episode it completely grabbed me. the wanting to know what happened next of course, but mostly just getting to see the intricate relationships between girls. there is nothing out there quite like yellowjackets, and for that reason it really is a special one
house of the dragon: divorced lesbians let's go! i love a show that's a tragedy. i love a show where i know the ending and it's inescapable. i love watching everything crumble whilst knowing there is no way out, and yet begging at every second for something to somehow change. just fantastic worldbuilding, fantastic characters, and fantastic relationships to watch burn. if you like angst and pain this one's for you!
our flag means death: i don't think anything exists quite like our flag means death. it's a breath of fresh air in the tv world. there's a character for everyone to love, whatever archetype you fall for. and it's guaranteed to be a rollercoaster of emotions: this show has made me laugh and cry but most importantly it never disappoints
the last of us: show of 2023 for me. i knew very little about the last of us game watching this, and for that reason i was hooked the second i started watching because i just had to know what happened. i still have to know what happens, the wait for 2024 may kill me. just a great action-packed show with the most beautiful acting in existence
good omens: good omens was just a little bit of light in my life this year. where a lot of shows in the currently tv world rely on heavy action sequences, or gore, or even sexual content, good omens challenges that perfectly. it's a light-hearted relief, even silly at times (in the best way possible), but also knows how to make you think and make you cry. i just adore how the plot is done, with a 'present day' storyline but also several stories that run in the past to see how the characters got to where they are now, it's a trope that i very much enjoy
bridgerton: i absolutely love a good period drama. i grew up watching many a jane austen adaptation with my mum, and so there is something incredibly comforting to me about adaptations set in this time. bridgerton is just a good vibe, i know it will make me feel warm and fuzzy inside no matter what drama it also serves on the side. plus kate and anthony? rewrote the definition of chemistry
the umbrella academy: honourable mention to my little superhero show of chaos. if you like superhero shows, watch the umbrella academy. if you don't like superhero shows, watch the umbrella academy. it's a chaotic mix of found family and time travel and trying to save the world and that makes it perfection
merlin: shoutout to this classic because i've been rewatching it lately and damn, they just don't make tv like they used to in the mid to late 2000s. at times it's cheesy, at times it makes you want to bawl your eyes out, and you know what? you'll never know which one it's going to be. it's absolutely ridiculous but entirely fun. once you accept that the bad cgi is hilarious you'll be guaranteed a wonderful show, just take your tissues with you for the sudden gut-punches of emotion it provides
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My Lady Jane / Tv Show Review
This is a mostly spoiler free review of My Lady Jane.
My Lady Jane is based on a book series that was on my to-be-read list for quite some time back in the late 2010s. It is modern, it is feminist to a point, and it's a fun little romp with a romance with a very good sizzling chemistry between the leads and a very strong, ensemble cast. It does feel a bit dated at times, like the feminism and the plot wasn't updated enough from the time it came out and while the narrator that tells you the story in a nonchalant, comedic way is fun, but it does get a bit grating at some point.
The eight-episode curse strikes again with some rushed plot points and character introductions. Things just sort of happens sometimes, side characters fall in love too quickly and certain things just don't feel earned enough which makes certain things and plot elements just not hold enough weight or tension. Things just happen to move the plot along. There is however a certain amount of earnestness radiating from the main character of My Lady Jane that make up for that. You can tell that the actors are giving it their all and poring the heart and soul into this show.
Certain parts of it do feel a bit formulaic and almost too standard for this sort of modern period drama that it has becomes sort of a cliché or like an overused trope. The broody dark haired love interest with his tragic past and the modern thinking, girlboss sort of female lead that is just smarter are archetype just feels a bit boring. And the show just doesn't do enough to make those characters more than those tropes. But the ensemble cast had some excellent performances and unexpected gems when it comes to characters and despite the archetypes the chemistry between the two leads is excellent. Those two really do sell the romance to the viewers.
The enemies-to-lovers plot was predictable, but the leads had such great chemistry that I sort of forgave them for it, and there is just so many ways that sort of story can end or go. It was fun to watch, just predictable. I did indeed wait and wait in anticipating for them to kiss, even if the pining for that 'lust at first site' romance could have been stronger, but that could also just be because of the time-limit. But then again, I live a good slow-burn and a shit ton of yearning.
The fantasy element was a fun addition to the story, even if those sort of plots of the magical users being persecuted by society isn't anything new you could tell that they were trying to use it as a metaphor or a reflection on the politics of our society. It felt a bit heavy handed at times, but it also made an effort to show that you can't rush thing with these sorts of policies and that the fight takes time.
I would describe My Lady Jane as a 2010s CW period drama with slightly better costumes and a budget than one might get on a show such as Reign. You can tell that the people behind the show really wanted it to be like The Great, but the YA romantasy story elements of the source material make it lose its edge a bit, despite the efforts the show puts in to say swear words and such.
It does however manage it incredibly well to take itself seriously and yet not at all at the same time and just have fun with the wild premise that it got to be a very enjoyable ride with some good rom com elements. It does try a bit too hard at times, it is maybe a bit too rushed and a cliché, but it's never boring. It is a vibe for those of us that just enjoyed Reign because it was dramatic YA-like period drama with some cute leads and romance.
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Ayo Angel who do I have to fight? đĄ đ€ I can't stand when anons wanna talk mess instead of minding their actual business trying to police what people write! They do realize that writing is literally the safest way to explore certain "bad topics" without having to actually commit the deed right? If they love Marvel movies or detective dramas or basically anything that even showcases a smidgen of violence etc then they're a hypocrite cuz does that make the writers of ST fucked up for all the torture they put their underage characters through? S4 legit had a grown man slaughter lab kids and Hawkins teens but are they called sickos or deranged for writing it? S1 showed us El killing folks and she is like 12 years old but the writers aren't considered disturbed? Newsflash, horrific shit happens ALL THE TIME 24/7 and people shouldn't write about it like huh what make it make sense?
Anon truly doesn't fuck with horror movies then or crime detective TV shows cuz that always displays violence. It is a hard truth but violence doesn't discriminate no matter the age, gender, location. It is a universal experience and instead of targeting I dunno actual criminals that use violence to control and destroy - like war criminals, people getting trafficked, those that glamorize real life serial killers and demonize their real life victims - they choose this fake ass activism of silencing and policing a fanfic writer. Performantive moral high ground distraction cuz anon is choosing to focus on something that isn't a real issue cuz if you don't like keep scrolling. Internet etiquette 101. You aren't forcing folks to read unlike real violent people who exert power nonconsensually to others. You're tagging those that fuck with it and using the tags/keep reading button as last resort warnings if said anon chooses to engage with the triggering content. Just saying irl there is no trigger warning, you just gotta deal with that in real time.
Anyhoo keep doing you Angel my evil twin đ my angel đ and as my people say "must be doing something right cuz I got haters đđđ€Ș" and ofc the other slogan being "oh you mad? stay mad then" lol
hi lex ~ yay to everything you said ~!! most of the media we consume nowadays has some level of violence or amorality and that's all fine since it's fiction ! it is through fiction that we can all explore different facets of the human condition that are either too grim and depressing to think about in real contexts, or that hide some lessons about the things that truly matter and are often just taken for granted in our day-to-day lives.
so yeah, exploring violent, uncomfortable or heavy topics is important to fiction as a whole, and it is nigh impossible that anon (or anyone else) has never consumed any type of creation that showcases these stories to some degree.
ultimately, the perfect ethical piece of media doesn't exist and trying to force people (not even filmmakers, showrunners or published authors/artists; random internet people who create things for free) into abiding by some wacky, sanitised, morally upright set of rules made up by a conglomerate of people who lack media literacy is absolute madness and it only serves to destroy creativity and limit self-expression >.<
,,,anyway, thanks for the message lex !! ^-^ you don't have to fight anyone, don't worry. i get these messages twice a week so i've grown used to them and can handle them ~ ! hope you're doing fine and are having a great day !!!
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You're a fan of SRK right?đ Got a question for you... Do you feel it is high time for him to explore himself as an actor - not just a superstar? Jawaan was great and I really enjoyed, but somehow I feel bollywood did not really exploit the great acting quality of SRK, actor srk kind of got overpowered by the star SRK. When can we expect another bazigar or another chak de or another My name is Khan?
Yes, I am SRKian. To answer you honestly, no, I don't think now is the right time. Currently Indian film entertainment market is not favorable for experimental movies or actors. For now, there is a clear distinction - all the experimental, drama heavy, or script led content is working on OTT platforms. Whereas, on multiplexes, if we go by the last three quarters or even year, then what worked is larger than life story telling filled with high octane action and decent script. Take into account the movies that were successful on Box Office - Jawan, Pathaan, Gadar, KGF II, RRR, Vikram etc...All of them got decent storyline, which is backed by high octane actions and shock values.
At times of inflation, people are visiting cinemas, spending pretty good chunk of money, so they don't expect to watch a movie that can be easily consumed on OTT platforms.
Also, as far as SRK is concerned, I think he had done his far share of experimental work with Swades, My Name Is Khan, Fan, Ra.One, Zero - none of them worked. Ra.One and Zero getting flop was understandable as the script was shit but rest all were quite different and interesting films, and people liked them when it was premiered on TV. On theaters, it didn't do well.
With Pathaan, Jawaan, and Dunki SRK, it was quite clear that he was making these movies for his youngest son. He wanted to show him why so many people come to greet papa everyday, why they stand for hours outside his bungalow? Why was his papa famous? He proved with Pathaan and Jawan.
Now, post Dunki, let see what SRK decides to do. It all depends on him because he is at the top level of his career, that too, at the age of 57. He has proved that he is still the Badshah of Bollywood. I mean, now he got fan following from three different generations, which is huge. So, at the level that he is, I think he should do cinema only because he likes the script.
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I'm gonna be honest, I started watching it when it first came out (or perhaps a year later, I don't really remember) and got annoyed and quit during that early S1 scene where they accidentally rip Joe's shirt off and see his scars.
While part of it can be attributed to my personal issues at the time making it hard to get into anything, it was also, as you said, having recently watched Mad Men (and also The Knick iirc) and being kinda tired of prestige drama. I was seeing it through the lens of its similarities to that show and thought that they were positioning Joe to be like Don (the typical prestige TV tortured white man antihero, with a heavy emphasis on a very tragic backstory and on his hypercompetence, with all the deconstruction kinda drowned out by the cool shit he does), and when we got to the tortured backstory part so quickly and ham-fistedly I got frustrated at the melodrama of it and quit before I got to that episode's final scene.
But when I decided to give it another short recently (because I was really hungry for a punk female protagonist), I could kind of see where they were going with it from the start and could immediately tell that he was bullshitting. And I could kind of see the threads of what they were going for from the start - his act was always kind of tinny and pathetic and clearly and deliberately presented as such, which you can see from how he actually fails at a lot of what he tries and from how plenty of other people immediately see through him or actually present credible threats to him. A thread that continues throughout the series - his techniques always work in the short term but consistently manage to alienate potential allies in the long run, to the point that people assume the worst of him even years afterwards.
I think the issues were that (1) the first half of season 1 is both kind of clumsy in its execution, in that the episodes are structured in a kind of simplistic and overly stylized way way because the writers are still finding their footing, and (2) that they tried to "hook the audience in" by obviously going for parallels with stuff like Mad Men while (IMHO) intending to subvert it later all along, and by creating hooks much in the way Gideon the Ninth's advertising team did by describing the book as lesbian necromancers in space (Patrick Bateman is friends with benefits with Lisbeth Salander!) .
When you combine the two, the audience ends up kind of unsure of whether the writers are setting things up to be played with or whether they're just playing it straight like the other five shows currently on air but in a way too clumsy to be enjoyable, and I think that this, alongside it being read through the lens of "Mad Men's successor", kind of killed a lot of potential interest in it.
Halt and Catch Fire is the best show ever and you should watch it if you haven't.
It has amazingly deep and three-dimensional and tender characterizations and a plot that's structured kind of like a spiral, in that you observe the characters over the course of ten years where they keep ending up in similar situations and you can see how much they have or haven't grown since the last time they had to face a similar thing.
It gives you a new appreciation for the wild west days of IT of the 1980s and 1990s, which is something I keep seeing people mention but have actually never experienced on my own unless you count searching for pictures of the W.i.t.c.h. on dial-up and playing some kind of pop the bubble game in 1999.
It has amazing female characters that aren't perfect but also don't have flaws that are sexist stereotypes. The two female leads are an angry punk girl and a hyperfeminine Southern girl and they are both presented as equally competent and given equal importance, even though the hyperfeminine girl gets underestimated a lot in-universe (she has a STEM degree and is as good with computers as the other one, but gets relegated into a "team mum" role a lot).
There is A LOT of focus on friendships and business partnerships and found family - it gives these relationships equal focus to the romances, and they are all realistic and grounded in the characterizations of the leads. In fact, the last episode focuses on the two girls' partnership, not their respective romantic lives. But the romances are amazing too, I have never been invested in a pair so hard the way I currently am in Joe and Cameron, if I weren't bi already they'd be my bisexual awakening. They seem like total opposites but have so, so, many parallels between them, and they have realistically sad backstories that aren't the stock "I was beaten by my mean dad" type. And they have amazing chemistry. And I love how the show is aware of the fact that they need to go outside of their relationship to grow and address their shortcomings because they kind of have the same flaws too, and even though they're still kind of pining after each other they only come back to each other when they're capable of having a stable relationship. This is especially good beacuse the girl is in her early 20s at the beginning and it was so so good to see the show let her grow into her own, on her own, rather than leaving her stuck in an endless back-and-forth with a messed up guy who's her boss and 10 years older than her, but then also respecting the connection they have.
All the characters are realistically flawed, and their flaws come back to bite them in their asses in the end, and the setups for this are strewn across several seasons. And it all makes sense for the character as a whole - for example, the punk girl is rebelling against pretty controlling parenting, but she obviously never learned how to handle relationships except in terms of the dominant person and the one who obeys, so she'd rather live in anarchy and never form any kind of power ladder in the first place. However, when she is forced to do so in order to handle the people who work for her punk IT startup she becomes very autocratic and controlling, and when people try to give her ideas she replies with, "Well, I'm the boss so we'll do what I say."
Why does she do that? Because she obviously doesn't know how to argue constructively. She knows how to a) aggressively overwhelm you, b) get up and leave (as she did to her family) and c) submit (unacceptable).
She does b) to her smarmy yuppie "it's complicated" man who is also one of the main leads - he does something to break her trust, she just abandons him and that's it. But then she gets into a fight with her next boyfriend, and she just assumes that that's it, and he says, "Woah, we're not breaking up, we're just arguing, have you never done that before in your life?"
At the same time, she forms a partnership with the girly girl and the girly girl starts just going around her whenever she hears the "I'm the boss so we'll do as I say" thing because she's frustrated that she has no say in things. This leads to several fallouts because spiral plot structure, and they're all mostly over one of two things: Cameron (punk girl) is being autocratic or Donna (girly girl) is being manipulative. Eventually they run the company into the ground because they can't listen to each other, and the plot always varies which one of them is right and never paints one of them as the 100% villain because they're both being kind of assholes but also deeply sympathetic.. But over the course of all this Cameron kind of learns how to be more functional in her partnerships, which then helps her with both her love interests AND her career. And then other things happen to address and highlight other flaws of hers, and this happens to all of the characters - three marriages fall apart in the course of this show, several companies with really good ideas are run into the ground and a guy commits crimes and then commits suicide because he bought into a Steve Jobs-type bulshitter's cool aid too much.
It has what I'd call great queer rep because one of the leads being a bisexual man is treated very casually and yet the rare instances where homophobia is touched on fit into the rest of his character and backstory so well (he insults a homophobic business partner at some point, and he also has an AIDS scare, and he recalls being bullied at school and how it affected him, and he makes friends with a queer teen because he notices she's like him and that's it). Like, there's an episode where his ex boyfriend comes into the picture and the plot doesn't revolve around them both being men - the plot revolves around his current girlfriend feeling insecure about the guy still having feelings for his ex and coming off as flaky and untrustworthy. The genders of the characters are incidental.
Like seriously this is the best show ever and I don't know why people don't talk about it more, current stuff like The Bear and Succession can only wish to be this nuanced.
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Murmurs of life
Warning: Pregnancy, fluff... that'll be all.
Word count: 1, 164k
Author's note: I hate this, took me ages, I don't like it and I really don't like talking about early pregnancy.
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Soft hands caressing your skin hidden under the covers. Breathless kisses and secret whispers, promises, ushered in the dark of the night. In the anonymity of your bedroom chamber, it was the most affection Keigo would offer you. You're used to the surprising softness the Winged Hero could provide in moments of calmness.
Most days, you sleep in a cold bed, after all.
You don't blame Keigo for his absence, not when he works to apologize for those lonely times when he comes back home. It's not his fault he got caught up in shit at such a young age. And he only wants what's best for you. Which, in this instance, is not to be known by the public.
"It would be a bore." He said once when you asked.
That had been another date spent at home, a nice homemade dinner and the preview of a soon-to-be-released movie he obtained you-didn't-know-how. And at this point, was it worth it to ask?
"Why?" You'd asked while putting the dinner plates away after drying them.
He sighed and placed the sponge back in the sink before turning to you.
"Cuz there'll be journalists everywhere, and we'd have to move again, and my manager would probably try to use you to use me or somethingâŠ"
His perpetually unbothered face scrunched in disgust, and his shoulders bent forward in a bad posture you were trying to rid him of. The memory of your rushed move three months prior is still fresh in his mind. So many camera flaunting him while you cleared out of the apartment building from the back. Not an experience he wished to redo so soon.
You had only nodded and changed the subject. Again.
But now, in the darkness of your cold bed, only the memory of warm hands on your body to overthrow the heavy feeling resting in your stomach could help you get through your day off. One that you'd spend alone. Again. Hadn't Keigo said it was off today too? Welp, what was new. Of course, they would pull Keigo out of his vacations to work.
The necklace sporting one of Keigo's feathers flew centimetres away from your face, trying its mighty best to get you up and start your day. Without much luck as it seemed. Gently pulling on its rope to incite you to rose, it soon fell back in its place just below your breast, inert.
It shuddered and started to float again. Tugging twice, it let itself fall back toward your stomach and nuzzled. (Y/N) raised one of her eyebrows and moved to push the feather away, but it came back and swatted her hand in retaliation. It began to shake as if taken in a panicked frenzy or excitement. (Y/N) didn't think much of it. Sometimes, when Keigo worked, its feathers followed his movements.
Making her way toward the kitchen, (Y/N) started her day, as she usually did, stirring her coffee, opening the TV, and placing the news channel as background sound. The woman started prepping the ingredients for her breakfast, something with fruits and eggs⊠and olives, because why not. The feather shivered again, nuzzling closer to her stomach.
"More news coming from the arrest happening earlier this morning. We now have confirmation that the suspect was, in fact, part of the group attacking Ms. Takamori this summer. Authorities did not reveal the suspect's name. And as a matter of privacy, to quote the agent in charge, refused the journalists." Said the commentator, a hand covering his ear. Behind him, the visual showed a busy street, many police cars and the familiar red wings flashing for a brief moment before disappearing.
Preferring to skip the drama for today, (Y/N) changed the channel and turned to her preparation once more. The Takamori attack made headlines after the poor woman was found by a bypasser beaten up in an alley. Terrible thing.
The apartment's door opened with a bang, and a burst of air surprised the woman as two arms wrapped around her middle, gently pulling her to a muscular but warm surface. Only two people had the apartment's key, herself andâŠ
"Keigo!" She laughed, swatting the part of his chest she could easily access.
"Are you alright?" Asked the figure, shaking her shoulder. A face rested in the junction between her neck and shoulder as the question echoed against her skin.
"Yes, why?"
"You're heartbeat's all messed up. It's been like that for days nowâŠ"
(Y/N) shrugged, continuing her preparation. Silence floated around her and Keigo for a moment before he talked again.
"Can I listen again?"
There was a beat of silence where (Y/N) looked over the raw scrambled eggs before her, making turning his question in her head, trying to make sense of it. "To my heartbeat?" She asked, turning her head to look at Keigo.
"Yeah!" He responded, raising his head from its perch. He turned to look at her expectantly.
"You do your thing." Said (Y/N), dislodging from his arms. "I thought you were working todayâŠ"
Situating a big hand right over her throat, covering the fluttering of (Y/N)'s heart, the other covering her belly, right over the feather necklace, silence is the only answer Keigo gives her. His ear is awkwardly placed against her back, which can't be comfortable, but she doesn't say anything. Breathing deeply and leaving her body to be supported by her lover as he listens to the echo of her heart, (Y/N) closed her eyes. The scent of eggs was starting to heavily hang around her, making her stomach turn in disgust.
"I don't think I want eggs anymore." She whispers to no one in particular. Keigo only hums against her shoulder.
"I'll make something else." There's a pause. "Did you feel, I don't know, weird those past couple of days?" He asks finally.
(Y/N) thought for a moment, scanning her memories for any inconvenience she could have felt. The back pains shooting near her hips and spine came to mind, but that was usual. The headaches too, but they'd become more frequent those past weeks. The nausea was new, but she'd been stressed by her work lately. Nevertheless, (Y/N) related all those to Keigo, who only hummed.
"What about the thing I asked you to do?" He asked finally, moving away from her gently yet still keeping a hand on the small of her back.
It was her turn to hum. "Forgot it. It's in the bathroom, I think. I was in a rush yesterdayâŠ"
Keigo slapped her ass playfully, then kissed her lips when she turned to chide him. "Go check on that. I'll make something else to eat."
A short moment passes before a clatter can be heard, and giggles and sobs echo in the apartment, (Y/N) comes back jogging toward Keigo and jumps in his arms.
"We did it, Keigo, we did it."
"I know!" He laughs.
In the bathroom, the pregnancy test forgotten on the counter shows two pink lines.
#takami keigo#takami keigo x you#Takami keigo x reader#Hawks x reader#Hawks imagine#bnha imagines#bnha x reader#fluff#pregnancy#pregnancy imagine#x reader#x reader imagine
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As a fellow oldest of four, take my Raph headcanons and accept them as canon
Has to HAS to be the first player in every game. Even if there isnât a first player, heâs the oldest and needs to have the main controller
BABIES MIKEY he doesnât have favorites but Mikey is his favorite to spoil. He gets frequent forehead kisses :)
On the subject of Mikey, heâs also Raphâs favorite to bug. Donât ask why, but heâll happily poke and jab at the kid until Mikeyâs ready to bite him or something. Unless itâs really serious, Raph will just laugh at how mad he gets
Heâs not above messing with Leo and Donnie for the hell of it either. Big fan of the classic âhey stupid, why do you look like that?â For no reason
Him and Leo wrestle a lot and if Leo starts to win, heâll just sit on him until he gives up
Video game buddies with Donnie, which is to say Donnie has an addiction and Raph plays because heâs bored. They like to play childhood games like Mario kart which Raph used to DOMINATE when they were younger, but Donnie has become infinitely better at since then. Raph is really just happy to be there and Donnie likes to brag about how good he is
Doesnât understand what Donnie is talking about ever, but will always listen and let him talk for however he wants. Heâll probably call him a nerd afterwards though, but follows it up with âthatâs pretty cool though, you got anything else going on?â
He does share his snacks believe it or not. He prefers not to but when heâs eating something sooo good, he usually offers to give them a piece. If they ask though, his automatic answer will be ânope!â But heâll do it anyway
Daddyâs boy đ„č he lives for being with his dad, even if Splinter isnât always the cuddliest. Believe it or not, Raph is Splinterâs tv buddy, they have a lot of shows (sitcoms, dramas, reality, you name it) they watch together. They have a few shows theyâve seen countless times that they rewatch all the time and are just as invested as they were the first time :)
He tells Splinter everything pretty much, especially after the conclusion of the show. They mostly talk about how much his brothers bug him, or the ridiculous shit they get into, and Splinter likes to talk about his time being Lou Jitsu !
Him and April are big on the platonic cuddles ! He may be a little spiky, but April makes sure to wear some heavy clothes so they can be comfortable :) they watch video essays together
Theyâre also each otherâs protectors, in a way. April will physically fight anyone for him, but sheâs quicker to verbally defend him from anyone, even himself.
Also April doesnât let him steal her seat. If he does, sheâll just sit on his shoulders and get comfortable there
Raph is constantly poking and tickling them. He has all their sensitive spots memorized so he can fuck with them whenever he wants. Just imagine Leo getting water and Raph comes up behind him to poke him in the side and he spills it everywhere- itâs a regular occurrence for everyone.
Claims his birthday is the most important day of the year (they all do this, but he likes to point out heâs the oldest so it has to be true)
Threatens to beat them all up at least 5 times a day
âHey, hey, Donnieâ âwhat Raph?â âYou look stupidâ âwhat the fuckâ
âLEO come get the remote for meâ âdude itâs literally right in front of youâ
âWhereâs my specialist baby brother!!!â âIâm not a baby Raph!â âyes you are.â
First to apologize after a fight, he hates fighting with his brothers more than anything because they mean the world to him.
But they piss him off beyond belief too so..
Never says no to hugs đ„č they donât even need to ask with him, his arms are always open.
Heâs also very good with kids, like really good with them, which is how he ended up working with April part time at a daycare for a few months
All in all, heâs a little shit of a brother, but heâs the best big brother they could ask for
#emmie speaks#rottmnt#rottmnt raph#headcanons#I always have Raph on the brain :)#heâs such a great character!! peak older sibling representation
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