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Izumi (steambaby) sketches.
#zutara#atla#avatar the last airbender#steambabies#atla izumi#zuko#katara#atla art#atla fanart#zuko x katara#katara x zuko#fire lord izumi#atla oc#fire lord zuko#katara of the southern water tribe#steambaby#Hello Izumi!#She's got her dad's dry sarcasm and her mom's Stare of Judgment™#Uncle Sokka's perfectionism and Auntie Toph's tendency to give nicknames to anything that moves#Auntie Suki's Kyoshi Warrior training (because of course) and Uncle Aang's love for animals#Auntie Azula's poker face and Uncle Iroh's stragetic mind! And love for tea. And wisdom (which is overruled by her awkward self)#She's a daddy's girl and momma's best friend. They'll all braid each other's hair and go to terrible plays and do vigilante stuff together#She's got blue fire and a blue baby dragon named Tui and an arctic wolf named Agni. And yes that's the right name order. Deal with it.#She probably has a nonbender baby brother. Lu Ten is a swordmaster and the most lovable human being on this planet#Maybe another baby sister. Waterbender. Absolute MENACE. I'll think about it.#Or maybe she's an only child#Who knows!#I'm just here for the vibes and drawing pretty people#You guys come up with headcanons for her. I'd love to read them!#I don't think I'll do anything with her any time soon so...
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i sense how on the contrary, when moon is in Zeph’s local group the members will all go ‘omg youre actually letting us do this’ or be surprised of her leniency with almost anything(or if she gets upset she wont be yelling her ass off and will try to remain calm), because of how Zeph would usually be so strict with em and they didnt expect better
see- first you gotta understand that the chancla doesn't really Hurt the iterators. while they definitely can feel through their puppets, those things are made to be sturdy (throw a normal or singularity bomb into Pebs' chamber,he's fine, i know he just doesn't have health but worldbuilding is worldbuilding so i guess a fully functional iterator is fine with blackhole into the head). it maybe stings for a sec but it's not worse than gettin pinched (also where did you get that she yells at em, she's only exclaimed so far i think. if you check how she handled Innocence, that's how she generally goes about it- no yellin for the sake of puttin 'em in place, she's just venting out her frustrations into the air)
the Point of the chancla is to get the target's unwavering attention so she can talk some sense into them WITHOUT using the senior privilege which is far more invading since it cuts straight through their systems and forces the juniors to stop everything to pay attention. these things are giant supercomputers! they are going to have a different perspective on what counts as "too much"/"too bad" than us humans! it isn't used to limit what they are doing unless the thing they are gon do is explicitly threatening to their safety, the limiting is what the Senior Privilege does!
in that lil comic with Pebs, Suns, Nish, Inn and her, she doesn't actually even hit Nish in the last panel, the chancla is only supposed to suddenly appear from behind next to his face n he gets startled + drama queen points. i've admitted in the tags of it that i gave up on the last page so i don't blame anyone for not gettin that since i haven't put enough effort into communicating it
with what she's doin back in her own group, she Needs to be this strict if she wants her plan of keeping everyone reliably long-term safe to work
and her groupmates would undeniably miss her. they love her! they don't want some lenient stranger without constant spice to her instead of their ramshackle beloved Azzie!!!!
#Spot says stuff#rw#oc tag#remember!!!!! important point to her character that also bothered me at some point with how similar it makes her to Moon was that shes Kind#Zeph is kind almost as much as Moon but their situations- concerning all their past present and future- are strikingly different and so#their lives require them to have different approach to things. what Zeph is specifically doin different from Moon is that shes Firmer#strictness isnt wrong!!! if you arent strict on either yourself or the people around you then it is easy to breach boundaries n do-#-Terrible things. its. honestly why i got real sad when a peep asked me to tag that one post as abuse. its not that believe me Zeph would-#-Never abuse another iterator. shes specifically trying to get around that while still keepin them sensible. but ofc ill tag it as such 4 u#look where Moon's leniency got her! dead and hurt and everyone who loved her suffering! there are times when you Need to be firm and cut-#-a bad situation at its bud before it can spiral into something absolutely damning#i didnt include it cuz it isnt Funney™ but after each chancla she talks to the target about why what they did was wrong#Suns you cant send that. it can hurt him very badly. Innocence you need to respect other people. Pebbles this will Hurt me if u keep doing-#-what you are doing right now. it could *kill* me. why are you doing this in the first place? do you need to talk? need me to listen?#being strict and being cruel or dictatorial are different things
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the treat: we're watching Red Riding Hood (2011)! 🍭🎃
the trick: it's absolutely terrible ⚰️💀
Celebrate Werewolf Season™ by watching Catherine Hardwicke's forgotten flop Red Riding Hood (2011) with us! NLOG heroine? Check. Love triangle with two hot guys? Check. Billy Burke? Also check. Join us Halloween night on our Discord at 8:30 PM EST to watch this peak Catherinecore "masterpiece" that is totally not a Twilight ripoff at all ;)
lurkers and new folks always welcome! 🎥 🍿
Bella's Book Club is an interactive virtual book club created by the Three Books One Plot podcast. Our monthly discord discussions are open to all! More info here.
#bella's movie club#movie night#in catherine's defense she did the best she could with a terrible script#but boy howdy does this thing have 10% on rotten tomatoes#it's gonna be a BLOODBATH. stop by in between handing out candy to your trick-or-treaters!!#official™ announcements
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Okay, I know I've literally never talked about Supernatural before on this blog but I actually am a massive fan of the series. I could honestly run an entire separate blog about it. Anyway I rediscovered Milo Greene's song "What's the Matter" earlier and it got me thinking about the episode Bitten.
People have eased up on this episode in recent years but overall the general opinion is still pretty negative, which I think is sad since this is probably one of my personal favorites. Keep in mind it's been a couple years since I've rewatched the show, so I'm running mostly on memory here.
First things first, I think it helps keep the series connected to its roots. After season 5, they kept trying to one up themselves in terms of stakes, ultimately leading to such events as "Satan's son's birth opens the multiverse". And we were sitting in the aftermath of Dick and the Leviathans™ where the show was heading back on its stride, so it feels really nice to just remind us where we began. Saving people, hunting things.
Second, it actually does a lot for the worldbuilding. We get to actually see the perspective of both the people being saved and the things to be hunted, all while they have to grapple with it. While they may not be the most compelling, it was really important we got to see the evolution of these friends, a view into the mundane yet interesting history of these regular people's lives. That way it really hits when things go to shit, you (or at least me) genuinely wish things could have gone differently for them. These people had dreams and goals, loved ones, and now two of them are dead and the other is on the run. All that and they still manage to convey it in a way that feels mostly organic.
On top of that, we get a particularly interesting glimpse into how Sam and Dean look from the perspective of strangers, including some interesting character details. Their shenanigans, their work. We really never get to see people who recognize them from other things (like don't they technically still have warrants for their arrest?) so I thought it was cool how the characters pick up on that.
The found footage aspect is usually hated by people, but I thought it was a really cool way to see it unfold. Cause remember, they could have easily just given us an episode from someone else's POV. But instead, we experience it as the brothers experience it. Context for certain things is missing, there are time jumps and finally it ends with a message directly for them both.
It makes sense that they would film what they do too (for the most part). We see that these are people who record fun and mundane things just for the hell of it, so of course they would record one of the most strange and harrowing events of their lives. In an era where people record strangers for internet points, it's honestly refreshing to see people record mostly just for the sake of capturing memories or entertainment for themselves.
I know a lot of people like it, but it holds a special place in my heart. When I think of the heart of the show, I don't think about the world ending or the multiverse or any of that, I think of stuff like this. Things that really stick in your mind.
And also that song fucks.
#like some people say its annoying but i disagree#the song feels so calming and has such a nice vibe that i think really fits the ethereal tragedy of the episode#supernatural#dean winchester#sam winchester#the winchester brothers#plus like in a show with gods sister or Gay Angel Superhell™ or A TERRIBLE HABIT OF KILLING GAY CHARACTERS IN THE WORST WAYS#is bitten really the worst we can find#found footage#LIKE THEY REALLY THINK THEY CAN JUST KILL CHARLIE LIKE THAT AND THEN REPLACE HER WITH A NEW ONE#AND EXPECT ME TO NOT HOLD A GRUDGE#SHE WAS MY FAVORITE I WAS SO UPSET WHEN I WATCHED THAT EPISODE I THOUGHT NETFLIX JUST SKIPPED CONTEXT BUT NOPE THATS JUST HOW IT HAPPENS#at least dean got to go on a “you killed my baby sister you fuckers” murder spree against the Stynes#but man this show did not treat gay people well. im honestly hesitant to go back in fear that ill see some transphobic shit#thats lily simpsons job not mine#saving people hunting things#the family business#sorry this post is significantly more rambly than usual i am so tired
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so. about the new wh casting........
#i'm sorry but. my first thought was ''they're TERRIBLY miscast''#margot robbie is actually a very good actress but she's just. not right for cathy??#and jacob elordi... i liked him well enough in priscilla but as HEATHCLIFF? erm. nope i don't think he's right for the part#he doesn't even LOOK like heathcliff. too much of a pretty boy#the only pretty boy i could accept as h. is assad zaman WHO SHOULD'VE BEEN CAST BTW#mmmmh it just smells of ''i'm gonna cast some big names so the Youngsters™/general audience will watch my movie'' tbh#val speaks#txt
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brought my precious & beautiful hard drive to work because my teammates are super reliant on paying for netflix & when they found out that i'm a digital piracy connoisseur they begged me to bring it & then my sort of normie manager was like what are your recommendations :) i was like do you want something more commercially appealing or something a bit weirder (by non-Online™ standards, i meant) & her smile froze in that super confused way lol anyway one of my colleagues who is secretly a cool, non-obnoxious film bro saved the day by looking over my boss' shoulder & said "whoa you already have Past Lives (2023) dir. Celine Song? may i Please have a copy! :)"
#told my boss i love eeaao & girl w the dragon tattoo i truly hope she likes them...... those seem like good recs right? ksjdksj#like i Know i sometimes(?) have terrible taste amongst Online™ communities but also it's funny when people irl#who are outside of very online spaces talk about things they like about media. which might be mean & snooty or whatever#but it seems like a lot of them can be sold by shock value instead of like. the story & its cultural context & the Themes etc etc.#anyway i think i should not say things out loud ever again
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#the PROBLEM is. some properties I like I cannot even talk about my Criticisms™ because if I do it attracts people whose side I am NOT on#like in the case of a certain british procedural show adopting old mystery novels that went on hiatus a lot. I did not like season 4.#but that is not because The Ship didn't go canon and it CERTAINLY wasn't because I never thought any of the show was good in#the first place. and I don't like The Main Ship of the c-chibs era but it's because the way it was written was VERY much not for me.#it's not because I think the whole era is trash (that ship was really the ONLY part of it I didn't like I loved everything else)#I DO have beef with some of the choices in season 8 of The Gritty Deconstruction Fantasy Show but they sure weren't ANY of the issues#that anyone else had!!! and I don't think it retroactively ruined the whole show actually!!!!!#like it's just so frustrating. especially since sometimes I DO want to break down what I consider to be unfortunate writing choices.#and I DO want to complain sometimes! but so much of the discussion around various properties is taken up by me just.#trying to explain that I'm allowed to like it in the first place and defending why I don't think it's Unconditionally Bad#so I can't ever like. for example. discuss the deaths in 8x03 and my issues with THOSE as character endpoints#or why they killed mary and had her husband act terribly to her for no reason just before she died#or how shitty it was in the last era for me to see ANOTHER character be mentally ill but in the most unobtrusive palatable way possible#(and then also make that really weird comment about a previous love interest??? who WAS unpalatable in many ways--though not like.#canonically mentally ill. even if I and many other people are drawn to that interpretation.)#perHAPS I want to talk about my confusion over the story's handling of j/d for reasons that are not 'I hate these characters' or#'that's pRoBLeMaTiC and you shouldn't ship it because that's pRoBLeMaTiC'#maybe I WILL just make a 4-hour video essay unpacking all my Thoughts™ on that show. because people don't have to watch it!#they could just hit the back button!
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completely rearranged my room today in a desperate bid for control and personalization cause I cannot find a fucking affordable and livable in apartment here yet, and I would kill for a nice hot tub soak right about now
#sometimes im like 'you know the chronic pain in my neck and back has really calmed down lately'#'maybe its getting better'#and then i do something like this and its just like 'ah no there it is.'#its not terrible cause its only just starting to get irritated#but im only halfway through my room i still need to clean a bunch tomorrow and i know im going to be Hurting™ this time tomorrow#chronic health issues#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#sadly the hot tub is at my gf's place and she is out of town right now
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NUMBER THREE FOR THAT QUESTION THINGY
also for some reason tumblr asked me if i wanna add tags to this question wtf so sorry if it got messed up tumblr is tumblring
Ah, tumblr. Please change.
#Bailey Adler (oc)#behold my terrible attempt to draw a cast#we're bopping all around the timeline here -- this is a couple years into her superhero career#after she's had a chance to go to Thanagar and gets magical wings and a bunch more trauma to avoid and pretend she's fine about :D#i am constantly putting this woman through The Horrors™
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Kerros Severan-Laidir sounds suitably impressive and completely jarring
#Chione Laidir.... his momma wasn't a Severan original™ so the idea of her being a lord of fortune runaway is [CHEFS KISS]#or a stowaway rather - Amrun had some involvement in her being sequestered away in the relative safety of Dhavan'an#datv#datv spoilers#i love how a backstory 10 years old is being informed by a game coming out next month like augh. thedas is such a fun world to build in#anyway rion was fucking punching well above his league let me tell you#chione is so fun. a total whirlwind. i still haven't decided her ultimate fate yet#in some headcanons she dies after being struck down in a hunt gone wrong - a hunt that Calahan (rion's childhood bestie) was overseeing#but that feels very tropey and unimaginative even though it fits the story perfectly well#my other musing is that she's very much just afraid of settling. her son is an unexpected gift#but not a gift she can keep safe in the places she wants to go#so whether her and rion have some kind of arrangement? some sort of terribly tragic understanding that she has ten years to travel the worl#unimpeded by an ailing ex-lover and overly curious son#ten years before Rion has to accept his own death after overseeing countless others#like a twisted version of davy jones' curse except instead of stepping on land every 10 years it's returning to your heart#one day i will actually use the tags for their intended function but not today thank u#c: kerros severan#c: rion severan#c: chione laidir
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My daydreaming ass, trying to decide Rocco's gender on their tragic queer romance story:
#the real question is not what's their gender#the real question is what gender dod their parents want to force on her#like did they try to raise them as a sweet princess who doesn't raise her voice and it terribly backfired?#or did they raise him as to be a Strong Child Soldier™ in case her brother died and it backfired?#I don't fucking know! and I like both!#so that's a problem!#bc one can't exactly have two childhoods!#only thing I know for sure is that she dies then gets revived and lives happily ever after with her evil wife and their child#so there's that
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#ok so i know this girl#who's nice and everything#but shes kinda like. me if i was successful. who i was supposed to be#shes pursuing baking and shes doing better with the kid business thing than i did#shes graduating hs soon and she just turned 16#it was always my goal to graduate at 16 and i did but it was a few months later than i would've liked#i was closer to 17#and she supposedly has social anxiety#and i feel like shes become the poster child for it#her parents talk about it a lot so everyone knows#and I just get the vibes that everyone's like. well SHE has such 🥺 horrible 🥺 terrible 🥺 social 🥺 anxiety 🥺#but she still does xyz. she can do xyz. she's very bubbly and talkative#and then they look at me like ??? THATS how someone with social anxiety is supposed to act ?? what is that Freak ?#also less importantly but very annoyingly . she's 'likes' Taylor bc its popular#but again. her and her parents are really loud. so somehow she's the Taylor Swift girl#which. i dont necessarily want to be the Taylor Swift girl#but she's such a tiktok entitled wheres rep tv thinks she knows everything kind of fan#and her mom especially tries to relate to me and my mom like omggg we're All Swifties™!!#and im just like. girlypop we are not the same. its not BAD to be a new fan but i know where it came from and it wasn't interest in taylor#this is my full time career. dont talk to me like we're the same 💀#BUT ANYWAY. she works at a bakery#(which at first was a little upsetting bc i was like how did this 16yo child get a baking job when im over here suffering#but its not a baking job lol its a counter job. so its not like she took a baking job from me 😭)#but apparently her boss asked if she knew anyone whod be interested in working there#and she said me#which is very nice!!#i told her to tell the boss im interested in a part time decorating job#and she wants to meet me !!#i havent talked to her personally yet so#wait im out of space. continuing in next post. im just rambling dont mind me
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proposing what I'm going to call Gaylor's Razor, which is: never explain normal shit as being part of a secret message that can only be decoded by over-analysis.
"These Taylor Swift lyrics are actually coded messages saying that she's a lesbian and is forced to stay in the closet! Any lyrics that are clearly about being attracted to a man are just to throw us off the scent!" Sometimes people, like Taylor Swift, are straight and write about being straight, because they are straight.
"The fourth series of Sherlock was deliberately bad because it was actually a coded message to us fans that there is a secret fourth episode that will make Johnlock canon and will actually be good!" Sometimes writers (even experienced writers who are normally good at their jobs) will write something that's not good, because no one is perfect. They're not going to waste everyone's time and money and energy creating something terrible on purpose as part of a grand master plan.
"Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir, the Canadian Olympic ice dancers, are secretly married (with kids)! Their public relationships with people who are not each other and them repeatedly saying 'we dated as kids and now we're just friends' are just to hide the truth! Which they need to hide for some reason! Their relationship is obvious just from their physical chemistry when competing! JUST LOOK AT THIS TWO SECOND CLIP OF HIM BLINKING AT HER!" It seems counterproductive to put all that thought into hiding a relationship that doesn't need to be hidden but then also telegraph that same relationship in front of millions of people through planned choreography.
"But BB, what about times that people really are speaking in code or hiding something due to outside influences?"
If it requires huge leaps in logic, like adding all the letters in a sentence together and dividing by seventeen and that number matches the binary sequence for the color yellow so YELLOW MUST BE SIGNIFICANT, it's not a secret code.
If it requires focusing on teeny tiny details but discards huge ones, like analyzing someone's micro-expressions but handwaving away what the person is actually saying out loud with their mouth, or focusing on one specific line instead of the entire scene or song or whatever, it's not a secret code.
If both supporting and contradictory evidence are used to come to the same conclusion (ex: when Taylor says something that I interpret as gay, that means she's gay, and when she says something that I interpret as straight, that still means she's gay and just hiding it), it's not a secret code.
Trying to apply fandom meta analysis techniques to real life is a really good way of fall into conspiratorial thinking that can be easily exploited. You can totally try to predict what's going to happen in a story or choose to interpret a scene in a specific way; you can't do that in real life with real people. That way lies the kind of nonsense that leads to shit like "this image of pizza on a children's toy is actually subliminal messaging by The Cabal™ that proves that Pizzagate is real."
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One of my favorite parts about the writing of Howl's Moving Castle is how easy it is to write off all the things from our world at first as him just being a weird wizard™ (also thanks to bestie @jutenium for spotting this I wouldn't put it like that without you!!/pos). Sure, Sophie uses weird descriptions, but readers have every reason to believe them because of the way Howl is presented as a character. When Sophie says he wrote with a quill that doesn't need an ink, you wouldn't think it was actually a ballpoint pen, you would think Howl had just enchanted his quill so that it wouldn't need ink! When she adds that she can't make out a single word, you think he has matchingly terrible handwriting, but in fact Sophie has simply never seen a pen writing. When she sees the mysterious labels on his books, you think he's keeping a lot of obscure magical literature, but it's really just an encyclopedia and a guide like "Top 10 Rugby Tips." When Sophie notices the bottles in Howl's bathtub, you think they're some kind of magical jars where he keeps girl's hearts, but I'm almost certain that they're just 'Dove' and 'Head and Shoulders' that he's enhanced with his spells and put silly labels on. When you read Calicifer singing a song in a language Sophie doesn't understand, you think it's some kind of ancient cipher or code, but it's actually just a rugby song in Welsh that Howl sings when he's drunk. And finally, when you see the terrifying black door, which is completely shrouded in darkness, you imagine a passage to an eerie, mythical place, similar to what Miyazaki showed us - but it's just fucking Wales.
#howl's moving castle#sophie hatter#howl pendragon#howell jenkins#hmc#howl's moving castle book#hmc book#diana wynne jones#I love him he's a mess#he just goes 'I'm gonna make myself such a quirky horrible image so that no one wouldn't question the weird stuff I keep using'#('because no WAY I'M GONNA WRITE WITH A QUILL 20TH CENTURY GUYS)#and it WORKED#(Also that probably why Suliman can't do the same thing. He's too classic Royald Wizard™)#(and ppl would have questions to him)#(but Howl? He's fine guys he's like that All The Time)
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As much as nearly every character she meets tends to act like there's something uniquely broken and wrong with Claudia, at no point does it truly seem to me like there actually really is? I mean, obviously she is extremely fucked up, she straight up went through a serial killer collecting trophies phase, but there's a level of fucked up that's sort of the baseline for every character in the show, and obviously being turned into a vampire as a child puts her at a unique disadvantage. But for all that everyone around her spends their time bemoaning how dreadful and doomed her life is, even Louis who genuinely loves her but also builds so much of his identity around feeling responsible for her Terrible Fate��, I really don't think she's like, fundamentally damaged any more than any of the other vampires are.
But Lestat is so unwilling to be wrong that every time her life hits an inevitable road bump instead of helping her through it he points and says "look! see! she IS a monster, I was right Louis, making her was a mistake!" (and I think he sees his own monstrousness in her but fails to also see her humanity)
And then Armand meets her and sees only someone who will inevitably lose her mind, so of course speeding up the "inevitable" and siding with the coven to plan her death is just a mercy, absolving himself of any blame. (and he projects his own frailty and desire for death onto her, failing to see her strength and her desire for life)
Which makes it so cathartic when she meets Madeleine, admits to her how broken she feels sometimes, and Madeleine's response is just. Well that's normal. Who isn't a little broken these days. Let yourself feel it, move on, let yourself feel it again if you need to. After spending her life having others act as if her emotions are something uniquely dark and worrying, Madeleine's incredibly blase attitude must have been such an incredible breath of fresh air for Claudia!
To spend her whole life being made to feel like something is Wrong™ with her, and then meet someone who's just like, "yeah, and?? Who isn't? Join the club I guess"
Which makes her death so incredibly tragic and frustrating because like. She was fine! She was making a life for herself! She wasn't doomed by her nature, she wasn't "doomed by the narrative" (whatever the fuck that even means), she was doomed for no reason other than that everyone around her (except for Madeleine) preemptively DECIDED she was doomed and never gave her a chance to prove them wrong.
#interview with the vampire#claudia iwtv#claudia de pointe du lac#claudia eparvier#(just using all the possible last names for the sake of thorough tagging lol)#there's also a very interesting layer of like#disability metaphor in claudias story#with her just living her life as best she can#despite a physical disadvantage#that makes the world perceive her as both childlike and unsettling#and others see this as a terrible fate worse than death#meanwhile she's just#living her life#she could have lived a full and good life (by vampire standards) if others hadn't decided that she couldn't/shouldn't
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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but#not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about.#that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends#that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even#considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF...#like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy)#but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car#crash or fix me soup when I'm sick.#like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad#and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship#right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go#if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through#the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!!#and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after#she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think#anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore#but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst#Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that#this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me#WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!!#*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today#and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore!#In the Vents#GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS
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