#shes fine guys dw

[ashipiko]

DANCE WITH ME YOU LI-IA-IAR ♡

OVERBLOT ASHI??? ANYBODY??? the ANGST that this baby can store!!! SHEESH!!!!!!! <3 I only have one post dedicated to her and liar dance lyric analysis (the post is kinda outdated in gen) BUT…… I also have an overblot monologue as a treat 🫶 I wanted to better explain her angst and so!!! BABAM!!! enjoy

ASHI’S MONOLOGUE:

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up here.

A place named “Twisted Wonderland”, and at a school named “Night Raven College”.

At first, I figured that I was the odd one out— Y’know, the Ramshackle prefect and everything. The magicless girl at the magical all boys school? Nuts, ain’t it?

I’m known for a lot of things. Things that are different from the others. The fact that I stand out is part of the Ashi charm, something I’m known for.

But… Over time I found myself sorta feeling in place here.

Because as much as I try to believe it, I can’t safely say that I’m better than anyone else here.

I’m a fake. I make conversation and lots of friends, but for what? A backup in case something goes wrong? A sense of protection for my reputation? In what case are any of those friendships something I truly want? In what case are any of these strings more than just a tool instead of a thread made of my real feelings?

Behind this, I’m no different from any other student here. Even through my individuality, my cheerfulness, my endearing oddness… I’m still a horrible person. Using people to get what I want, toying with people and their feelings in order to gain power and gain a spot the top. All to become untouchable. It’s screwed. It’s not right.

My insides are ugly. The truth of me is something I want to keep tucked away deeply, because I don’t want people to see this part of me. A brash, annoying, selfish version of me, everything people hate to see. I don’t want this side of me to be seen because people will run away— people I don’t care much about, sures, but people I love, too. I don’t want to drive them away. So I keep quiet and give them a shallow show.

I give them a source of entertainment that’s controlled by the real me, every calculated movement translating into a marionette-like response. The only show I allow you to see is one that’s so carefully crafted by the chaotic clown backstage. The one that is shunned away from the light, the strings being the only hint of the puppet’s phony existence to the foolish audience.

But suddenly, I feel as if being here has started to let this side of me come crawling back into the spotlight.

It scares me.

It scares me to be vulnerable, let all of my faults lay out on the table like playing cards. To take the risk without the protection, to gamble everything I’ve built up away just like that. But you…

You.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel as if I don’t need to hide anything. I can give you the key to my heart and you would have no malicious intent. You wouldn’t cut out the parts people don’t like. You would enjoy the performance in full, every bit of it.

You make me believe that I’m nothing special, and yet something so valuable at the same time.

It’s silly. You’re silly. And yet that’s something that’s helped me.

It’s helped me realize that that truly is just how people are.

We aren’t villains. We aren’t antagonists. We aren’t monsters.

We are nothing but people, with faults and feelings that should be valued.

I am more than just a jester, a sake of entertainment.

I’m a person who is entirely worthy of love. All of me.

It reminds me that I must’ve came here for a reason.

Because this is where I belong.

[smilepebble]

doodles from what i affectionately call the "WHA castaya AU", in which malaya is the former watchful eye of an atelier whose students disappeared after a strange rainfall, while castti conifer is a mysterious amnesiac doctor that appears suddenly in the great hall's infirmary.

[silvertiefling]

LIKE THIS FOR KATYA TO COME INTO UR INBOX AND CALL UR MUSE MOMMY/DADDY (she doesn't have the kink, but she's going to do it jokingly to see her partners/people react LOL)

[namelessprince]

MY BEAUTIFUL RIPTIDE OCS... their names are catalina and milo avery <3 catalina's a water genasi, and milo's a tiefling :] !!

[benadrylcandlewhack]

Should've kept her out of it, Jackie

[rosykims]

literally best decision i made in december was to stop thinking abt veilguard and instead replay rt because god if this interaction does not have more Baby Boy Baby energy than any scene w assan or manfred combined lol

[thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname]

mission to zyxx episode 301, first listen: wow, I'm really enjoying this podcast! I'm so glad I'm not even halfway done yet. the new orchestral intro was so cool and I can't wait to see what other funny stuff is in store!

mission to zyxx 301, every subsequent listen: (jumping up and down, screaming, wearing one of those hats with the swirly straws, covered in leis and plastic bead necklaces, waving a foam finger and glowsticks, shouting through a megaphone) AJ! AJ! AJ! ARE YOU GUYS SEEING THIS??? HE'S FINALLY HERE!!!!! WOO! AJ! WOOOOO!!!!! JUCK YEAH! THAT'S MY SON AJ! WOOO BABY YEAHHHHH!!! GO AJ GO!!!!!

[kdotan]

end of amity

[ryssbelle]

My cousins made their own troll Ocs and I drew them in my style.

They were very excited about it

[dragon-spaghetti]

Real footage of me at my granny's door begging to be let in after our carbon monoxide alarm went off 💀

[justablah56]

hmm I think instead of feeling bad I will simply project this bad onto The Character . for funsies .

[dullahandyke]

The guy in my sisters year who was harassing her a while back got stabbed in school by another girl he was harassing and I have to say. Lol

[sailorgrams]

Aiden getting downed 3 times in the Nere fight vs Aiden barely getting to half health in the Grymforge Battle when I went for the "didn't even use the hammer" achievement

[ratatatastic]

entering to panthers pulse does go pretty hard luosty yeah

Luosty Cup Day | 8.5.24 (x)

[codecicle-archive]

worlds teeniest tiniest vent but i think all transphobic lawmakers should get their balls put in a panini press and get run over by cars so perfectly that their pussies get roadburn actually. they don't deserve happiness or respect and i hope they all die <3 <3 <3 <3

[dragonlordofmiddleearth]

Literally crawling across the floor to move my washing from the machine to the airer piece by piece bc I'm too exhausted to stand up and wondering how exactly the PIP department managed to conclude that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me