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[ashipiko]

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OVERBLOT ASHI??? ANYBODY??? the ANGST that this baby can store!!! SHEESH!!!!!!! <3 I only have one post dedicated to her and liar dance lyric analysis (the post is kinda outdated in gen) BUT…… I also have an overblot monologue as a treat 🫶 I wanted to better explain her angst and so!!! BABAM!!! enjoy

ASHI’S MONOLOGUE:

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up here.

A place named “Twisted Wonderland”, and at a school named “Night Raven College”.

At first, I figured that I was the odd one out— Y’know, the Ramshackle prefect and everything. The magicless girl at the magical all boys school? Nuts, ain’t it?

I’m known for a lot of things. Things that are different from the others. The fact that I stand out is part of the Ashi charm, something I’m known for.

But… Over time I found myself sorta feeling in place here.

Because as much as I try to believe it, I can’t safely say that I’m better than anyone else here.

I’m a fake. I make conversation and lots of friends, but for what? A backup in case something goes wrong? A sense of protection for my reputation? In what case are any of those friendships something I truly want? In what case are any of these strings more than just a tool instead of a thread made of my real feelings?

Behind this, I’m no different from any other student here. Even through my individuality, my cheerfulness, my endearing oddness… I’m still a horrible person. Using people to get what I want, toying with people and their feelings in order to gain power and gain a spot the top. All to become untouchable. It’s screwed. It’s not right.

My insides are ugly. The truth of me is something I want to keep tucked away deeply, because I don’t want people to see this part of me. A brash, annoying, selfish version of me, everything people hate to see. I don’t want this side of me to be seen because people will run away— people I don’t care much about, sures, but people I love, too. I don’t want to drive them away. So I keep quiet and give them a shallow show.

I give them a source of entertainment that’s controlled by the real me, every calculated movement translating into a marionette-like response. The only show I allow you to see is one that’s so carefully crafted by the chaotic clown backstage. The one that is shunned away from the light, the strings being the only hint of the puppet’s phony existence to the foolish audience.

But suddenly, I feel as if being here has started to let this side of me come crawling back into the spotlight.

It scares me.

It scares me to be vulnerable, let all of my faults lay out on the table like playing cards. To take the risk without the protection, to gamble everything I’ve built up away just like that. But you…

You.

You make me feel safe. You make me feel as if I don’t need to hide anything. I can give you the key to my heart and you would have no malicious intent. You wouldn’t cut out the parts people don’t like. You would enjoy the performance in full, every bit of it.

You make me believe that I’m nothing special, and yet something so valuable at the same time.

It’s silly. You’re silly. And yet that’s something that’s helped me.

It’s helped me realize that that truly is just how people are.

We aren’t villains. We aren’t antagonists. We aren’t monsters.

We are nothing but people, with faults and feelings that should be valued.

I am more than just a jester, a sake of entertainment.

I’m a person who is entirely worthy of love. All of me.

It reminds me that I must’ve came here for a reason.

Because this is where I belong.

[sqoiler]

group chats at midnight

demiwonder: i’m hella bored u awake?

demiwonder: hello?

demiwonder: donna?????????

demiwonder: zeus almighty it’s only like midnight how are you asleep?????

demiwonder: donnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaa

odesseus: cassandra

odesseus: darling

odesseus: why

demiwonder: is it a crime to be bored?

odesseus: it is at midnight

odesseus: go to sleep

demiwonder: dude nobody’s asleep around here it’s actually normally pretty lit but everyone’s being buzzkills

odesseus: you young hero types need sleep???? why are you awake?????? how do you

odesseus: live like this??

demiwonder: it’s called coffee look it up

odesseus: i can’t believe this

demiwonder: oh like you were so “””””’pure””””’ in your titan days

odesseus: i never said we were pure

demiwonder: tmi man

odesseus: but no, we slept

odesseus: batman was very strict about bedtimes back then

odesseus: we lived in fear that he’d come and see that we weren’t sleeping

demiwonder: tim hasn’t slept in four days i don’t think

demiwonder: soooooooooo

odesseus: drug him

demiwonder: wtf????????

odesseus: dick says

odesseus: that if you put sleeping pills in his coffee, then he goes right to sleep

demiwonder: wtf grayson????? that’s your brother you’re talking about????? why

odesseus: well how do YOU get him to sleep???

demiwonder: kon’s a living furnace and bart purrs

demiwonder: idk it just Happens sometimes

demiwonder: but like when it does we know it’s time for lights out

odesseus: and?

demiwonder: …..yeah he fell asleep

odesseus: thank hera

odesseus: please go to sleep

demiwonder: night sis!

odesseus: SLEEP

lexKONthor: so do you think birds have feelings?

konpleasechangeyourname: no????

konpleasechangeyourname: maybe????????????

konpleasechangeyourname: wait

konpleasechangeyourname:?????????????????

lexKONthor: it’s a valid thought!

jonno: guys its rlly late

jonno: maybe you should be sleeping

lexKONthor: why the heck are YOU awake?

jonno: bcuz you are

jonno: i have superhearing, you know

jonno: texting is rlly loud

konpleasechangeyourname: omr i’m so sorry jon!!!

konpleasechangeyourname: wait kon aren’t you with the titans?

lexKONthor: yeah why?

konpleasechangeyourname: is tim asleep?

lexKONthor: yeah why?

konpleasechangeyourname: if tims asleep that means you should be, too

lexKONthor: kara please

lexKONthor: i slept last night, unlike SOME PEOPLE i could name

jonno: i slept last night!

konpleasechangeyourname: i know sweetie

konpleasechangeyourname: he’s talking about tim

jonno: when did tim last sleep?

lexKONthor: probably

lexKONthor: a few days ago?

lexKONthor: cassie says it was four days ago

jonno: rao!!!!!

jonno: that’s a rlly long time w/out sleep!!!!!

lexKONthor: i know little buddy i know

lexKONthor: tim won’t listen to me when i tell him to go to sleep

jonno: i thought you were best friends!

lexKONthor: we are but he doesn’t really listen to anyone

jonno: that’s mean

lexKONthor: i’m showing him that text when he wakes up, thanks jon now i have PROOF

jonno: i don’t get it

konpleasechangeyourname: it’s okay kiddo, i barely get it either

konpleasechangeyourname: now go to bed, okay?

konpleasechangeyourname: me and kon will, too

lexKONthor: buzzkill

jonno: don’t be mean!!!

jonno: goodnight kara and kon!!!!

konpleasechangeyourname: goodnight <3!!

lexKONthor: night little dude!!

konpleasechangeyourname: now it’s your turn, kon

lexKONthor: no

konpleasechangeyourname: why

lexKONthor: it’ll hurt the bird’s feelings

konpleasechangeyourname: urgggggggggggggggggggggggg

shutupsteph: ey lads what’s kicking?

coolerthantim: please never use those words in that order ever again

circus: donna said that you’re alseep, timmers, and yet here you are

shutupsteph: excuse you grayson donna’s information is faulty and also where did it come from i need #sources

circus: according to her it came from cassie

shutupsteph: cassie’s a liar who tf is cassie

coolerthantim: w h a t did you just say about cassie????? i’ll kick ur ass

shutupsteph: please do

wayne1: i’d pay to see that

coolerthantim: u know what dami that was really supportive and i appreciate that

wayne1: i don’t know you

idiedonce: can everyone please shut up some people have things to do

lordofthebats: i appreciate that none of us are under the impression that we’re actually sleeping

shutupsteph: lol

idiedonce: lol

circus: lol

wayne1: i refuse to type that out but know that i, too, am laughing

coolerthantim: sleep is a myth, duke

dance: harper’s asleep

idiedonce: harper’s a civilian, cassie, it doesn’t count

coolerthantim: nah fam she was a bat at one point

shutupsteph: are you sure?? i never signed that contract :/

circus: me neither tbh

idiedonce: is the contract why you keep inviting me to things? please rip mine up

circus: never

shutupsteph: we’ll probably invite you to stuff until you die again

idiedonce: i can’t wait

wayne1: i hate all of you

idiedonce: seriously, please kill me

coolerthantim: murder is illegal!!!! and batman says no, sorry :/

idiedonce: i hate all of you

wayne1: plagiarism

delphi: everyone go tf to sleep right now

circus: i’m….nowhere near my bed, babs, how am i supposed to

delphi: go. to. sleep.

circus: yes ma’am i sure do love rooftops.

circus: so comfy

coolerthantim: dami hmu i know you’re by my apartment

wayne1: falsehoods and lies

coolerthantim: i can

coolerthantim: see you

coolerthantim: right there

delphi; go to bed

delphi: for real

dance: night babs!

delphi: night cass!

delphi: everyone else

idiedonce: jesus christ babs how are we supposed to sleep if you keep telling us to sleep????

delphi: leave that warehouse right now, jason peter todd

idiedonce: i hate you

lordofthebats: goodnight i guess then?

lordofthebats: guys?

lordofthebats: oh

lordofthebats: night!

[lordofthebats has disconnected]