#she's always wanted to be a bridesmaid 💜

[snakesandstone]

Genuinely adore this picture. Look at loki. Her little shit-eating grin. Her fucking limp wrist. She's having the time of her life.

[thewispsings]

Could you do a part 2 to please date my sister in law with max and r getting married?

wedding of the century | max verstappen

part 2 of ‘please date my sister in law’

pairing: max verstappen x reader

summary: one year after charles sets up his sister in law with max, the world is preparing for the wedding of the century.

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maxverstappen1: to be wed 💙

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user1: OH SHIT ITS HAPPENING

user2: STAY CALM EVERYONE!! STAY CALM!! STAY FUCKING CALM

user3: charles leclerc found yelling out in happiness, 3:21 AM, monaco.

user4: oh my god

user5: omg

user6: the pictures are so cute 🥹

user7: THAT SHOUDLVE BEEN ME

user8: marrying max? or marrying yn?

user7: BOTH

user9: max waited no time to put a ring on that

user10: AHH IM SO EXCITED

user11: i can live out my wedding fantasies through you guys 🥹

user12: i know charles is freaking out rn

charles_leclerc: oh yes. i’ll be over with the binder in five minutes.

user13: he’s actually at lot more calmer then i expected

yoursistersuser: nope! he yelled for a straight ten minutes after this was posted

user14: yeah that sound more like him…

user15: so happy for you two 🤞

landonorris: so when can i pick up my bridesmaid dress?

maxverstappen1: you mean your groomsmen suit?….

landonorris: i know what i meant

user16: i hope max takes her last name

danielricciardo: how funny would it have been if she said no

maxverstappen1: not funny at all

danielricciardo: tough crowd

user17: ahhhh congratulations!!

user18: NO PLS NO

user19; you have shattered my heart

yourusername: FUCK YOU BEAT ME TO IT

maxverstappen1: YOU TOLD ME I COULD MAKE THE ANNOUNCEMENT FIRST??

yourusername: I LIED I WAS GOING TO BEAT YOU TO IT

maxverstappen1: HAHAH SLOW POKE

user20: these are the two getting married btw

user21: i didn’t want you anyways 😒

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yourusername: officially a #fiancé! 😾

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user22: so it’s real….

user23: why wouldn’t it be real?

user22: idk i was hoping max went crazy and just started making shit up

user24: you know what. hell yeah.

user25: mama a happy future ahead of YOU 💜

user26: CONGRATULATIONS!!

user27: no….

user28: this just broke my heart

user29: so happy for you two 🥹

user30: if anyone deserves this happiness, it’s you!! congratulations 🎊

oscarpiastri: oh he wasn’t kidding

oscarpiastri: you said yes?…

yourusername: i cannot deal with your negativity today oscar

oscarpiastri: IM JUST SAYING

oscarpiastri: you said yes?…

user31: let’s all say thank you charles!!

charles_leclerc: YES THANK YOU CHARLES! WE ALL THANK CHARLES!!

charles_leclerc: and too think they all called me crazy for setting them up!

charles_leclerc: HA

charles_leclerc: and to think…

user32: you’re talking to yourself babe

landonorris: i can’t wait to pick up my bridesmaid dress

yourusername; we talked about this lando

landonorris: i know 😔

user33: does this mean lando isn’t a bridesmaid? because i would KILL to see that man in a dress

user34: HELL YEAH!!

user35: true love, rock on 🤘

user36: 50 percent of marriages end in divorce

user37: genuinely, why would you say this

user36: i’m a hater to my core

user38: no you’re a bitch to your core

user39; oh damn

yoursistersuser: love you babe 💜 but pls tell charles he can calm it with the wedding planning

yourusername: and you think he’ll listen to me?

yoursistersuser: no, but it was worth it a try 💔

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charles_leclerc: it’s always hows the wedding plannING? and never hows the wedding plannER? 😕

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user40: nobody gaf how you are, WHENS THE WEDDING?????

carlossainz: when’s the wedding?

user41: you signed up for this buddy, when’s the fricking wedding???

oscarpiastri: when’s the wedding?

user44: uh huh, uh huh, yep totally agree! when’s the wedding?

user45: who cares, when’s the wedding?

user46: i don’t care, when’s the wedding??

landonorris: when’s the wedding?

user47: don’t give a shit, when’s the wedding?

user48: chop chop wedding planner, when’s the wedding????

danielricciardo: when’s the wedding?

user49: OMG CHARLES NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOU, WHENS THE WEDDING????

user50: shut up when nobody asks, when’s the wedding????

maxverstappen1: when’s the wedding?

user51: boy who asked? when’s the wedding?????

charles_leclerc: I WAS GOING TO ANNOUNCE THE WEDDING DATE. BUT YOU SICK FUCKS DONT DESERVE IT! SO FUCK YOU ALL!!! YOU WONT KNOW WHEN THE WEDDING IS!! HA HA HA. LOSERS.

user51: charles wait we were joking

user52: don’t pmo

user53: DONT BE SUCH A BABY!!! WHENS THE FUCKING WEDDING?

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maxverstappen1: i’ve reached peak happiness

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user53: you are fucking kidding me

user54: CHARLES I WILL KILL YOU

user55: WHAT

user56: WHEN

user57: HOW

user58: WHERE

yourusername; 💙💙

user59: BUT YOU JUST PROPOSED??? LIKE THREE MONTHS AGO

user60: no, you guys are actually so fake for this

user61: wow, i can’t believe this

landonorris: congratulations!! i still think me as a bridesmaid would’ve been amazing but….

maxverstappen1: let it go lando

landonorris; FINE

user62: charles when i find you

user63: i say we all kill charles on his birthday

user64: how could you guys do this to me??

oscarpiastri: loved the shrimp! 🦐

user65: THEY HAD SHRIMP

user66: charles planned a whole wedding in 3 months???

use67: that’s actually so impressive

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yourusername: i win! 👰‍♀️

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user68: you’re actually fucking kidding me. charles leclerc when i find you

user69: not to much now, he did plan this in 3 only months

charles_leclerc: THANK YOU!! HOW ABOUT SOME APPRECIATION FOR MY PLANNING

user70: stfu. it’s your fault non of us knew when the wedding was going to be

user71: these pictures are so cute 🥰

user78: living through you guys rn

user79: someday i hope to be married to someone who loves me as much as max loves yn

user80: con😭gra😭tula😭tions😭

user81: so happy for you guys!!! i will go kill myself now!!!

user82: THAT SHOULDVE BEEN ME

user83: that man did NOT wait to put a ring on it

user84: if he wanted to, he would

user85: let this be a reminder to women that if someone wanted to marry you, they would!! congratulations 💙

oscarpiastri: loved the shrimps 🍤

user86: we get it oscar

oscarpiastri; no. you don’t. the shrimp were delicious.

user87: don’t brag

oscarpiastri: i’ll brag all i want. you can’t do anything about it because i had the shrimp and you didn’t 😹

user88: oh damn

user89: someone’s passionate about the shrimp…

yoursistersuser: love you to the moon and back 🌙

yourusername:💛💛💛

charles_leclerc: i’m hearing a lot of ‘love you’ and ‘shrimps’ but i’m not hearing enough ‘thank you charles for planning a beautiful wedding in 3 months and taking time out of your very BUSY racing career to make sure my wedding was amazing’

yourusername: don’t act like you didn’t beg me to let you plan the wedding

maxverstappen1: yeah, me and yn were fine with eloping

charles_leclerc: please guys, no need to thank me! it was my pleasure ❤️

oscarpiastri: the shrimp were great man

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charles_leclerc: since no one else will say it 😒 thank you charles for planning a beautiful wedding in 3 months and taking time out of your very BUSY racing career to make sure my wedding was amazing

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user91: i’m still pissed at you for not telling us when the wedding is

user91: it was a beautiful wedding tho

charles_leclerc: thank you charles!!

charles_leclerc: of course charles!!!

charles_leclerc: beautiful work!! especially with the very short time you were given

user92: maybe we shouldn’t let charles plan anymore weddings, it looks like they’ve drove him insane

carlossainz: i look gorgeous

oscarpiastri: the shrimps were chef kiss 🤌

landonorris: what is with you man?

georgerussell63: are you still drunk?

user93: charles posting more photos then the actual people who got married is so funny 😭

user93: it really sums up their relationship

user94: beautiful wedding planning charles!! 👏

user95: how much do you charge??

user96: i still can’t believe yn and max got together, engaged, and married in less then 2 years

user97: i bet she’s pregnant

user98: WOAH

user99: where tf did that come from

user100: or maybe they just love each other??? not everyone waits years and years hoping that their shitty bf will propose to them

user101: oh! okay!

user102: you ate those decorations up charles

user103: the flowers??? gorgeous

user103: if yn and max ever divorce, i will kill myself

oscarpiastri: great shrimp 🥰

user14: what tf is wrong with you

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thank you fo rrequesting!!! life’s been busy but i hope you guys didn’t forget me 🩶

[yellowhollyhock]

Please tell us more about Donny and Angel I love these two as a couple they so cute! She’s so perfect for him and vise versa. I like to pretend when the series ended they became official they got married. Mikey is the flower girl because that’s hilarious to me and he’s genderqueer so he’s like yes I get to wear a dress. LH is best man because he’s Donny’s best friend. I am not sure what Raph and Leo are lol. I know there’s brides maid but not sure what you call the version for the groom so Raph and Leo are up there with LH.

Aaahdhhs thank you!! 💜💜🥹 I am always at any time so ready to talk about Donny and Angel.

I love your ideas about their wedding! I think since Splinter would be officiating, Raph can give Donny away (is giving grooms away a thing? if it isn't then, oh well it is now), and Leo can be the ring-bearer. Angel's friends Ashley and Jessica who I made up for the Meeting Gramma fic (it's in pinned post) are bridesmaids.

Okay so below the cut, here's some things I've been thinking about, and how I imagine his proposal!

I don't imagine them fighting often, but one thing that would definitely cause friction is his driving. In the show his bros always let him drive, but have you ever noticed how he's crazy? Usually I think it ends up that way because there's a big chase or it's just comedic, but I like the idea that he's actually quite reckless. Tbh, a lot of people I know irl who are really good at working on cars are really bad at driving safely. They know exactly how far they can push that machine and they like showing it, sometimes forgetting to factor in that there are other people on the road and such things as safety laws.

Anyway Angel lost her mom in a car crash where the other driver was at fault. She was six. Neither her nor Ryan have licenses, partially because driving is scary to them but also because they live in New York City.

I don't think Donny would take it well when Angel calls him out about his driving. This is something he taught himself how to do in order to take better care of his family. He didn't have access to the resources she did to learn (experienced drivers, opportunity to legally obtain a license), and she hasn't shown any interest in using them (he doesn't know about how her mom died at the time), so why should he take criticism from her? He gets defensive when she makes a comment, something she is not used to from him, and they both end up pushing and holding onto little things. Angel says she'd just rather not get in the car with him and if he wants to go places with her they can walk. This seems pretty inconsiderate to Don who cannot simply walk through the city, and he doubts she wants to learn how to slink around and jump across rooftops since she doesn't even want to learn to drive.

Once they've both had time to cool down, he apologizes--he hates that he made her feel unsafe, he'd be happy to walk places with her if that's more comfortable, and he'd like her to know he has asked Raph to backseat for him for a while (call him out if he takes corners too fast, breaks laws etc). With him being vulnerable and apologizing, it's much easier for her to realize and admit why it actually scared her so much, that it wasn't all to do with him, in fact she never feels safe in cars. As they've been getting closer she's been worrying a lot that she would lose him somehow. She apologizes for losing her temper and calling him out in front of everyone (everyone probably consists of April, Casey, and his bros). She tells him how much she appreciates that he's trying to do better and that of course she doesn't mind driving places with him, in fact she feels better knowing that if something does happen, she'd know about it right away.

Also kinda thinking maybe Donny teaches her how to drive, later when she asks. I think she'd still feel safer with him at the wheel, especially once he starts being more careful, but it could still be empowering for her to know.

Their proposal~~

He takes her to Central Park--they wouldn't go somewhere like that very often, but they risk it early one November morning for what he will only vaguely call a 'special occasion.'

Anyway it's not hard to stay disguised because he's freezing and wearing so many layers you can't even tell he's round. (We don't really see the turtles in winter clothes much in the show, but after all the chaos had stopped I think they'd be more comfortable doing little things for themselves such as keeping warm). They buy hot chocolates. She makes a snow angel, which he cannot stop laughing about. She keeps close by to keep him warm, which makes him nervous because the ring is in his pocket and she's going to find it before he's ready--he panics and starts a snowball fight. She's in her element. He's getting more flustered by the minute. He's still a ninja though, and holding his own--until in a moment of distraction she nails him right in the face. She's wheezing, crying, cackling and fussing all at once--and when she comes over to help him up he panics again and takes the opportunity to pull out the ring.

It's a puzzle ring. They've talked about it before, and she's never liked the idea of a fancy gem. She wears lots of jewelry, and an engagement ring of all things should be practical to wear daily, not like her studded nose rings or chain necklaces with all kids of loud charms.

He pulls it out and lets them dangle from each other; four rings, all attached to each other. "It takes some work to fit them together," he explains as he assembles it for her, "But it's impossible to take them apart." Allowing herself to get close to people has been a big deal for her since her dad left. He's still haunted by the possibility of just disappearing one day, apparently without a trace.

He's getting teary and having a hard time getting through the speech he planned so carefully. "I want that for us."

She slips the ring on and pulls him into a hug. "I want that, too." Then, as if she's only just thought of it, "Let's get married." Because she's always loved making him laugh 💜

[canirove]

Declan Rice Imagine | five

Author’s note: This is a request an anon sent me earlier this month with the prompt "So you're sure you love me?" "We've been together for five years and we're getting married next month, what do you think?". It is a lot shorter than what I usually write, but this is the only thing my brain was able to come up with 😅 Hope you like it, and as always, thank you for reading! 💜

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“I think we may have some of those left in the other room. Let me go check.”

“Thank you” Declan smiles as the florist leaves us alone. “What was that?”

“Uh?”

“That long and deep sigh you just let out.”

“Nothing” I say.

“I know you and it was something. That's what you do when you are worried about something.”

“I'm fine, Declan.”

“You just crossed your arms over your chest.”

“And?”

“And that's another thing you do when something worries you. C'mon, tell me about it” he says, taking my hand on his.

“The florist is gonna be back any moment now.”

“Judging by her face she's probably gonna be gone for a while looking for those flowers, so c'mon” he smiles, squeezing my hand.

“It's… I… Ok” I say, taking a deep breath. “Declan, are you sure that you love me?”

“What?” he laughs. “What kind of question is that?”

“Are you still in love with me?” 

“We've been together for five years and we are getting married next month. Of course I love you!” he chuckles. 

“But… I… It doesn't matter” I say, shaking my head.

“It does matter” he says, caressing my cheek with his other hand and making me look at him. “If it didn't, you would not have asked me something like that or look this worried.”

“It's just… Everything has been a chaos since you asked to marry you, you know? Like, nothing has gone as it should since the moment you got down on one knee, and maybe you are regretting asking me or even being with me because this is like a sign of us not working out. This is the universe telling us to stop.”

“The universe knows shit. I don't regret asking you to marry me, and I definitely don't regret being with you. Asking out has been one of the best decisions of my life, and like I just told you, I love you” he says, emphasising those last three words.

“But everything has kept going wrong, Declan. For example, we started it all with the ring you got me being too big, me almost losing it that day, and then not being able to wear it for months because they had to resize it.”

“And that was all my fault because I got your size wrong. But while we waited for it to be fixed, you got to wear a different one that you got to choose yourself and that you also love and can wear daily, not just on special occasions.”

“That's true, yes. But like I said, that was just the beginning of our problems. The place where we wanted to get married was completely booked for two years, and the next one we liked and that was important for your family, wasn't available either.”

“But they say third time's a charm, and we found a venue that has everything we liked from the first place, and that actually has an important meaning for our families since both your dad and my mum used to spend their holidays in that area when they were kids.”

“Ok, fine. That turned out pretty well. But what about the catering, uh? We have gone crazy looking for one who fitted everything we wanted and that was appropriate for our guests since they have different diets, allergies…”

“That was a bit of a headache, yes” he chuckles. “But thanks to my brother, it is all fixed now and there won't be any problem.”

“The bridesmaids dresses! We are a month away, and the girls still haven't received them!”

“But you already found a plan b, didn't you? And the dress that matters is yours, and that one is ready for the big day.”

“The flowers" I continue. "Another thing we don't have ready yet. What if she can't find the ones we want? We can't have a venue without flowers, Declan!”

“And we won't” he says, squeezing my hand again.

“It's been all problem after problem. Can't you see it?”

“We've struggled a bit, yes. But what couple doesn't?”

“It hasn't been just a bit, Declan!” I say while letting go of his hand, some of the other clients looking our way since I've raised my voice more than I should. 

“Ok, we've struggled a lot to make it work. But now we have almost everything under control.”

“Almost, you just said it. And something else can go to hell from here to the actual day. Like my hairdresser getting sick, or the bus that has to take the guests to the venue getting a flat tire, or…”

“Or nothing” he says, putting his hands on my shoulders to try and calm me down. “Organising a wedding is stressful, ok? There are too many things to worry about, and feeling like this is normal. But I'm not going to stop loving you because things haven't gone as smooth as we thought they would.”

“Then you don't... Despite all the problems you don't regret asking me to marry you? Loving me?”

“I don't regret loving you or asking you to marry me, no. In fact…” he says, moving his hands from my shoulders to my waist. “I'm thinking about doing it again.”

“What?” I laugh.

“Asking you to marry me. You have doubts about me not loving you anymore because things aren't going as we would like them to go regarding the wedding, so to show you that I do love you as much as a did when I first asked you, probably even more, and that I regret nothing…” he says, getting on one knee and taking my hand on his. 

“You are crazy” I laugh again.

“For you? I am, yes” he smiles. “So this time I am going to change my question. My love… Would you marry this man who is so crazy in love with you, that he is asking you to marry him again in the middle of a florist's and with people definitely looking at him and thinking, is he ok?”

“Yes, Declan. I want to marry you again even if you are embarrassing me in front of everyone” I chuckle.

“Are you sure? Because this is forever, and me being embarrassing is part of the deal. It will happen again.”

“Oh, don't worry. I've known you are like this since the first time I said yes. It's part of your charm” I tease him.

“That's a bit rude but cute at the same time” he says, standing up. “And looks like we now have to kiss” he says when the few people at the florist's start clapping.

“Yep.”

“But before we do it, there is something I have to say.”

“Ok.”

“I love you. I loved you when I first asked you to marry me, I love you now, and I will love you forever.”

“I love you too, Declan. Forever” I smile before kissing him, the other clients now clapping louder and even cheering for us.

[dapper-shipping-forever]

The destined wedding

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Natural light cascaded from the little window, motes of dust spinning in its beams. It danced across the white fabric of the dress, giving it a slight glow fitting of a blushing bride. The fabric shifted, Gill shifting her weight as her hands played with the fabric. Her veil rustled with her hair, bleached white and tied into a delicate bow.

She caught sight of her appearance in the tall mirror on the brick wall before her. Part of her kept being astonished each time she saw it; a rather large part at that. It was one thing choosing each piece and being fitted for them, seeing it all together elevated it all.

Yes she knew they'd powdered and fussed with her image enough for today, that each stray strand of hair had been tamed and each scuff cleaned. She could not stop fidgeting, though. Already, she heard people in the other room, seated and waiting for the ceremony to begin. Only a handful of minutes more. She'd see him and he'd be waiting for her at the alter they've come to together.

Now, she simply paced around. The energy inside her eager and overflowing. She knew Vash was in the other room too, another side room redecorated as a dressing room like this. How'd he feel? Was he pacing same as her? Was he thinking about her as well? Her mind was only on her groom, for soon they'd finally be together in every way. She's loved him as long as they've known each other, loudly and softly. She could never say just how much he means to her, the ways she would bend herself backwards just to make him happier. She would follow him everywhere. He shone like her guiding star, a bright light who's warmth filled her and made her sing. He made her feel light, each step dancing on air. Her devotion to him was sealed with their kiss.

"We're going to be married." She said softly aloud to herself.

She just liked hearing that, from anybody including her own lips. Married, to the man she adores. Bound forever always.

"You might wear out those shoes before you can reach the ceremony; we're going to have to redo your hair and makeup with all your fretting." Meryl chimes in.

Gill pauses, looking to her friends. Meryl and Milly were her beloved bridesmaids, the two people she thought of right away and knew she could depend on in the roles. They looked lovely in their own dresses, pale pink complimenting her lustrous white.

She sighs. "Can't help it."

"Why're you nervous; you wouldn't get cold feet? You've been wanting to marry him for years." Milly bluntly wonders.

"Of course not. My feet are far from being cold; it's totally not that, it's restlessness. I want to be at that alter. Fiance is a wonderful word, but I just want to be able to call him husband." Gill gazes at the engagement ring on her finger; long before he gave her this, she's been dreaming of being Vash's wife and soon she is finally going to become that. His bride. In all ways just simply HIS.

Milly coos, giving a soothing, bright grin. "Gill, you're already making for the prettiest bride; I'm sure mister Vash is just as impatient."

Meryl nods. "We're almost ready to start the wedding. Your man is waiting."

Gill blushes with the teasing. The patience she displayed not eloping, dragging him somewhere alone with nobody but a priest and their witness was great. "Yeah, I know." She smiles, eyes set on her finger. Soon, Vash. They'd be together shortly.

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Vash readjusted his tie. Again, and then again, and more again. He's not sure how many adjustments the mirror has watched, but his hands keep finding the fabric.

"Soon," He breathes out. "We're going to see each other soon."

"Needle noggin, you're gonna strangle the tie. You want to look like a mess for your almost wife, hm?" Wolfwood clicks his tongue.

Vash quickly allows his hands to land at his sides. He turns, looking not at his reflection but right at his friend. "But it's crooked."

"Your head's crooked." Wolfwood shakes his head; his own tie slightly loosened. "The more you adjust yourself, the more you make yourself and your bride wait."

Vash's throat bobs as he takes in a breath. "Is everyone ready to start the wedding?"

"Yep; cmon, blondie." Wolfwood steps aside, gesturing to the doorway with a lopsided grin. "Let's get you hitched."

Soon, Vash stood at the alter, smiling to their guests and finding it exceedingly challenging to not keep fiddling with his necktie. Wolfwood already reprimanded him three more times.

His friend was not only the best man, but their officiant as well, book in his hands and looking semi respectable. He acted coy, but Vash had seen his eyes glisten when he asked him to be part of their marriage.

And also beside him as a groomsman was Nai. Semi reluctant, but he's made great progress since his defeat in mellowing out; Gill likes and Nai loathes calling it his domestication. The fact he's agreed to be there though means a lot.

The building echoes the murmered conversations of their guests. It wasn't a huge event, but they'd invited a lot of those who they cherished. Friends and companions from their travels sat and waited for the wedding to start, catching his eye and offering wide smiles. The only person more reluctant than Nai was Lyric. Him being there had been gone back and forth on for a while before they decided to invite him. His relationship with Gill wasn't anywhere near fixed, but they'd also made progress towards something better; hed always be part of her and a part she wanted there. Everyone else was more than eager to see them married.

Music began, a piano song ringing loud and bright and immediately quieting the crowd. Vash's back jolted, straightening. His bride is coming now. His eyes fixate on the door across the aisle, searching and needy for a look. They'd spent yesterday night in different places to get ready for the wedding and prevent each other from seeing the other before hand. Now, he was starving just to be near her.

First, from the doors came the bridesmaids. With them, Gill's God daughter proudly held a pillow with the rings on it. Meryl and Milly walked slow to match her little legs as they all walked to the music. The two girls caught his eye and gave knowing looks, well aware who he was waiting on. Their trio reached the alter, the young ring girl handing off the pillow to Milly and toddling back to her parents.

Then, the doors opened again. Every person looked to them, as the sun appeared.

Not the sun, though she shone as bright. It was immediate, the way their eyes met and held each other's looks from across the way. Gill stood in her wedding attire, veil draped around her and dress cascading from her figure. She began to walk towards him with her steps timed with the song. Each note bringing her closer to him again. He realizes that he's crying. Large, joyful rivers flow and drip from his face. Looking at her just overwhelmed him with joy. There she is.

Vash thinks this is why he was born. To watch her walk towards him across the aisle. To take her hands as he does. To love her.

When she stands right before him, and he can admire each detail, she holds his offered hand and smiles wider to him. "Hey, handsome." She whispers softly.

He smiles back. "Hey, gorgeous."

She stands with him. Seeing his wet tears, she reaches for him and uses her sleeve to wipe his face. It dirties the gown, but he knows thats not what shes prioritizing. Again and again and again, shes proven her love.

They hold both each other's hands, he feels the eager trembling from her's and gently squeezes, rubbing little circles into her's. Vash is glad to have this body, to control two arms to hold her hands. The artifical one too, though he hadn't known it, was made to hold her. Because since he was born to be with her, every part of him was made for her. His arms to hold her, his mouth to tell her loving words, his legs to walk with her. All of him was her's. If she wanted she could break him and he'd simply be glad for it, but she never would. She treated him gently, touch tender and each action loving. He's her's, without any doubt.

Wolfwood begins his speech, voice loud to the audience. He speaks of love, of commitment, and of promises. He gestures to the bride and groom, now letting them speak their vows.

Gill talks first. "Vash, my love. I'd wondered many times what love meant and each person I'd asked gave me a different definition. It was confusing, I couldn't quite picture what a feeling like that meant; then, we met. Love isn't one thing and there's no way to get one answer. To me, for you, love is like breathing. It's simple, and now that I've felt it I cannot stop. My love is colorful and warm, it's made to bring joy and delight. It's your hands in mine, and all the things I do beside you. My devotion is to you. Anywhere we go it's together. I cherish you, each little piece in the work of beautiful art you are. I swear to be with you, always and forever."

Vash has to swallow and regain some composure. "Gill, my dear. I could feel how special you are the day we'd met. I'd rarely allowed anyone to get close to me, but the draw I'd felt towards you urged me to keep you nearby. Though I wasn't the easiest companion, you never left me. You taught me to feel worthy and loved, and remind me at every opportunity of your teachings. You are precious to me, and though I was perhaps the final person to realize your feelings and mine own, now I know how to love. I won't leave you. I would do whatever you asked of me, I would give you everything. The greatest gift is you letting me love you in return. You're mine, and I know I'm yours. There's never been another option. I promise to be beside you, forever and always."

With the vows, Milly presents the rings, both of them taking one of the set. Wolfwood speaks with a smile. "Gillian, do you take Vash to be your husband?"

Her eyes haven't strayed from Vash's. "Yes, I do." And Vash takes her loving hand and slides the ring onto her finger.

Again, wolfwood asks them his question. "Vash, do you take Gillian to be your wife?"

He manages to keep his voice from yelling. "Obviously, I do." And Gill takes his gentle hand and slides the ring onto his finger.

Wolfwood address them, the audience, and the stars. "By the power vested in me, I now pronounce you husband and wife. Kiss your fucking bride already." It's astounding he kept professionalism for most of this.

They hardley needed instruction, lips drawn together by forces of nature into a kiss. One of many in their relationship and their first as spouses. It's sweet, it's loving, and it's wonderful. It's a little salty too, Vash hasn't quite crying but there are tears from Gill too, which they both wipe for each other. They both sear the taste of this kiss within their minds, preserved and safe. The kiss seals their promises, a vow made with love and care.

When they draw back, their foreheads stay together. It is just them in that frozen minute.

"I love you." Vash tells her.

"I love you." Gill instinctively says.

Vash could burst into laughter. He's full of more emotion than he can comprehend, elation bursting his seams. The audience clapping is just background sounds. A trill of laughter does escape him, as he scoops his wife around her waist and lifts her feet from the ground. Her arms naturally wrap around her husband's neck and she giggles. That's great, all she needs to do is hold him tightly and he's carry her anywhere. He's going to carry her with the arms made only for her.

[pixie88]

Morning Pixie 🌞

I have noticed you have used Ana for two of your face claims. On reading both stories, Ellie and Alana have a type bad boys.

But what do you think sets Dean and Adam apart?

What do they love most about her?

Is there a trait both men have?

Would you ever do a cross-over?

I appreciate your work 🩷

Hey Anon, sorry it's taken me so long to reply to this...I'm not on here much atm 🤦‍♀️

First of thank you so much for taking the time to read not just one but both fics especially when there are 4 for A&E 💜

But also sorry because if you have recently read series one of A&E I'm currently editing it from first person to third and I've not finished yet 😅

Please correct me if you think I'm wrong my brain is fried right now so I can't remember half the stuff I have written for these couples 😘

What sets Dean and Adam apart?

Adam is a solicitor and Dean is a mechanic 🤣 sorry I'm trying to think what sets them apart 🤦‍♀️ different taste in music? 🤣 Sorry I can't think of any 🤦‍♀️ they have the same taste in women 🤣 Adam has kept a secret for Ellie that could land her in prison, Dean hasn't made a big deal of Alana sleeping with Issac weeks before they confessed their feelings 💜

What do they love most about her?

Dean - Alana: She calls him out from day one, she's been through so much, but she still doesn't let it stop her. She can read him like a book, she's kind and stands up for what's right even if it means someone she loves will get hurt *coughs* Simon and Fifi!

Adam - Ellie: Her independence, she's the kind of girl that wants a man but doesn't need one to support her. The fact when she went through PND she still pretended like everything was fine because she didn't want anyone to see how weak she was.

Is there traits they both have?

Hmm... they both have similar traits. Obviously they both will do anything to protect their family and friends.

Dean warn off....oh wait I don't think I posted that chapter yet 🤫🫢 well Dean obviously punched Simon after warning him already not to lay hands on Alana.

Adam, he warned off Laura....for a while until Ellie put an end to her. Even before they were dating he caught her falling from a ladder and from Laura's venomous tongue.

Would I ever do a cross over?

Of these two? Erm I'm not sure to be honest, I wouldn't know how to work that considering they have the same FC, but I did do a scene cross over with my original fic Always the Bridesmaid and A&E. I can't remember how but I know I did it 🤣

Thanks for the ask lovely 😍

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I wish I had more time to write a more heartfelt explanation of how much I loved Lavender, but I gotta go to bed 😆 Beskar Doll and Lavender were the first two long fics I’ve read and still in the top 3 (idk what the third is but it’ll probably end up being Yearling honestly).

I have a thought though and now is the time!

I know you love Lavender Joel and I do too, but I still struggle so much with the big reveal about losing the baby and how that changed everything for him. I know he was traumatized, but he loved Doc so much and has always had her on such a pedestal (deservedly!!). I think it’s just as likely he would have been crushed, but only wanted to comfort her and apologize for not being there with her and for her. Maybe he goes out and gets drunk and gets in a fight and then shows up for her in some way seeking forgiveness for not knowing and for making her that much more vulnerable at the end of the world. Like if he’s been better she would have told him sooner and then they’d have been together when it all started, and then even if he still lost Sarah he’d have something to live for and wonders if he might have become a different man. And THEN he gets to kill the rapist.

Anyways love you happy Lavender-versary 🥰💜

OMG Hi Bestie!

Thank you SO SO much! I'm so happy these fics have meant so much to you and that you've loved them <3

I TOTALLY get this take! And I will say, I don't think my interpretation of Joel is the only one or the right one, it's just how I see him. That being said, I'm not sure this was what would happen for him in the QZ. I think if he was outside the QZ? Maybe! Jackson, definitely. He probably wouldn't even get drunk in Jackson (or Lincoln for that matter) he'd just take care of her. But inside the QZ I think he just keeps living in this cycle of retraumatization. He doesn't WANT to be distant from her. All he wants is to be close to her and love her and have her love him. But there's this instinct inside him that's going "no, no, no, no, no, remember what happens the last time you had someone you loved in a situation like this? What you tried to do when she died? You cannot do this, it is going to kill you."

It kind of reminds me a bit of this time when I got SUPER drunk, so drunk I was incredibly sick. Probably borderline alcohol poisoning (I was young and stupid and I'm typically not much of a drinker.) I physically couldn't drink again for MONTHS. It didn't matter if I wanted to have a glass of wine with dinner or a cocktail at my best friend's wedding when there was an open bar and I was a bridesmaid, the second I smelled alcohol I gagged. It's not because I didn't want to have a drink, it's because my body went "HEY REMEMBER THE LAST TIME YOU DID THAT? I DO AND I THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA DIE SO I'M JUST NOT LETTING YOU." I think Joel is experiencing that but to the extreme. He's constantly surrounded by death and soldiers killing people with abandon. He can't shake the feeling that he's going to lose her the way he lost Sarah and he knows, on some level, he cannot survive that.

All that being said, I think Joel is at his core is much more like the person you describe. But the Joel who was already searching for an out because there's that fight or flight part of his brain that's been working in overdrive for 6 years now is trying to force him into a situation it thinks he can survive? Different story, But also, that's me! I love how much nuance there is in his character and so much to explore with him, it's why I love him so much.

And either way, he kills the rapist 😌

Thank you for reading, Bestie!! Love you!!!

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#5

Zig/Maya in Wild and Weary 💜 requested by @maya-matlin

15 notes - Posted November 22, 2022

#4

talking about season 2 episodes 12 and 13 titled white wedding gets me super warm and fuzzy and nostalgic. overall it's an underrated one and most people don't like it I'm sure because the parents have a larger role than the teens which i can see how that could be a downer.

i'm putting this under a cut so you can read it at your leisure. took me long enough eh?

so yeah white wedding is my favorite episode and this ep had everything you could want, a big event being the wedding spike finding out she's pregnant again, this time days before the main event, we have jt and toby hijinks with the fancy plot, joey and caitlin flirting pretty much all episode, manny playing matchmaker and of course the at the time long-awaited reunion of semma. i remember i recorded it on my VCR in my room back in the day when it aired and even now it's my favorite episode.

so we begin with sean, jt, manny and toby in the media immersion room about to listen to a speech about love and marriage but its acutally the theme of a show called the love boat.

"someone's never been in love" sean says when jt acts love makes him wanna throw up and then they assume he means he's been in love before and they all assume it's emma because at that time yes it makes sense.

getting back to sean, he's always been on the outside looking in despite being a member of the original 6 it's important to note that he knew he was the only one not invited to the wedding and when manny invites him it's as if he'd come into the fold by the invitation so i think that was another reason why he was crushed, because he wanted to be a part of it and manny gave him an in and took it away. i expected him to disappointed or sad but literally sniffling and tearing up made me feel bad for him. boy had it bad. lol @ tracker eating out of a pot. of course they play 'the sean music' which is a guitar i believe but they play it whenever something happens to sean or whenever he's on screen i don't get it but it's something i observed over the years. sean music also could be attributed to emma and sean's relationship at least in season 1 so that's i guess something to note.

moving on, so emma's home from school. she recieved the wedding cake which was swapped by mistake. i couldn't help but note spike and emma's dynamic is somewhat codependent and sisterly. very candid can talk about whatever and they're comfortable about it. spike doesn't want to change the relationship and sees nothing wrong with it. even when what happens is inappropriate, spike shouldn't tell emma about her pregnancy and abortion, a conversation more suitable for an adult being snake. spike shouldn't have to rely on a 13 year old for support when she knows she has her friends around is all i'm saying.

elsewhere, jt, toby and craig scheme to get a stripper to come to the 'stag'. who calls a bachelor party a stag? i guess only in canada lmao they try to go but they obviously look juvenile so craig ditches them pretty much and goes to joey.

fun fact: the address on the strip club door is 212 the number of the episode in pt 1.

so caitlin and lucy come over and they decided to wear the same dress to the wedding which makes sense since they're bridesmaids but of course they're here to party so they go to this weird place with mexican singers which idk the song they're singing so if there's symbolism who knows? but spike aint in the party mood.

fun fact: lucy wears the same outfit in the series premire '1.01 mother child reunion'.

also that scene when joey and snake come over with lucy and caitlin over somethings to note starting with, "when are you gonna add a little spike and snake to add to mini caitlin over there?" it's a funny little nod to the original series, that emma was coined by lucy as mini-caitlin because it's true! after all, caitlin interfered with spike's pregnancy back in the day on degrassi junior high when she famously wrote an opinion piece in favor of keeping spike at degrassi despite the angry parents who wanted to ban spike from school due to her pregnancy. emma too has the tendency to stick her nose where it doesn't belong and this very episode is no exception somewhat following in caitlin's footsteps in this very episode and others at the time. it was pretty obvious that emma was written to be much like caitlin in the mix of characters from the og degrassi. emma has always liked and looked up to caitlin and was seen in 1.01 mother child reunion to be a fan of ryan's planet, caitlin's environmental television show and took shitty romantic advise from her espy as well.

nearing the end of part one, it's worth noting that yes, spike's secret wasn't emma's to tell but spike should've known better to talk to a friend of hers not her 13-14 year old daughter. spike makes it seems like snake would abandon her or not help out when we know snake isn't like that. i guess she did talk to caitlin and caitlin gives notoriously bad advice and says, "call him in the morning." like he should know five seconds before they get married or whatever. i guess they didn't think 'mini caitlin' would wake up in the middle of the night and spill the beans to him as if she was sent by spike. wtf?

fun fact: at the party, mr raditch wants everyone to call him dan lol irl the actors name is dan as well.

poor toby gets his hand stepped on but i have a lot of feelings about snake and emma's talk outside when he yells at her but, he had a point that spike should've told him not her, "why you why not your mom?" but the remark, "what kind of family is this?" was a tough blow.

so then - we got a pissy emma in the morning, manny when she's not sucking heilium explains that emma did fuck up and she should feel bad. emma goes off and sees sean in her pjs and tracker is trying to phase sean as they talk. words cannot describe how much i love that emma went to sean and she invited him to the wedding.

meanwhile spike and snake are talking rightfully so on some boardwalk pier thing. snake remarks, "yeah as friends, maybe we should've kept it that way." but it reminds us that they started out as friends, and she should've been able to tell him things no matter how weird or complicated especially since they were about to be married.

the directors cut always cuts out jaitlin's discussion about their past engagement. spike is late as usual, a nod to 'it's late' from degrassi junior high and her pregnancy in this ep and current situation nice. i love how they reference the original series.

joey catching the bouquet and him lament that he plans, makes me wonder if the show was going to explore a real take on marriage between jaitlin. so the 'slow song' playing at this time is titled just jane by christopher rouse which i scoured the internet way back in 2003 for it and didn't get a real download of it until this cd degrassi released with all their background songs on it. i doubt it's available anymore but my friend at the time had it and ripped it and sent me a bunch of the songs like 'heartbreaker' 'get it right this time' and some others.

getting back to the final scene emma discovers sean came to the wedding and the rest is history. the end scene made degrassi crash course on the-n as most intense moment but also it's probably the most romantic because it seems so genuine. and that's a wrap on white wedding. i also would like to mention, if anyone has seen sixteen candles with molly ringwald there's a stark similarity in the dress samantha baker wears and what emma nelson wears. if you know you know if you don't sean is like the 'jake ryan' waiting outside the church or in emma's case under the tree. i only recently made the connection, someone made a post about it but now it's my favorite little thing to think about when i watch this episode and that's all i'm gonna say about that.

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#2

Craig Manning + Singing the Praises of Locked Briefcases requested by anon

22 notes - Posted July 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

i rarely do this anymore or whatever but let's talk about degrassi season 2 episodes 1 and 2 when doves cry and how it's probably one of the best dtng episodes not just maybe dtng but in the entire franchise.

yes i'm aware it's kinda old and most people don't care but I was watching when doves cry on pluto's degrassi channel last night and I can't help but remark, it's one of the very best. if degrassi had a greatest hits that showcased all the gems this is on the tracklist without a doubt.

as you all know or should know s2 is a strong season and underrated af. as sad and heart breaking the episode(s) are it has aged remarkably well at least the a plot. (side eyes paige attire which dramatically dates the episode)

its almost perfect how Angela is seen to be interested in dinosaurs Craig tells him about the dinosaur (being Albert) that hurts him and then Angela clad in little dinosaur pajamas was able to recall what she had seen. i do like it when degrassi does 'dark' subject matter but this episode is the first episode that really showcases it well.

I've seen this episode so many times and yet I never put 2 and 2 together with the pajamas but it was a nice touch in direction with that attention to detail.

I also had this thought too so Albert found Craig's photo album that had that "perfect family" mash-up picture with Craig, Joey and Angela and inside the book with other pics of Angela and Joey he had taken and I can't help but wonder if Albert lashed out at Craig bc he had hurt feelings regarding his photo book it all came to a head for Albert and that turned to anger and rage as if he shouldn't care about joey and angela bc he is his father not joey and they are associated with his ex who left him whom despite her death he is bitter about.

its important to note craig and alberts rocky relationship was strained long before but the reminders of the past get to Albert. Such as when Craig mentions mom at dinner and he violently throws the plate something in that tells me it's not the first time or would be the last time such a thing would happen. I'm not defending Alberts behavior but even the part where Albert turns and just seeing him look over at Craig when he was on the floor after he beat him in the darkroom as if he felt bad for what he had done after the fact when it's too late and wanted to say something but stopped himself. There's a lot of subtext and the direction really did an excellent job of showing rather than telling you the story.

It's such a well-done episode and if you'd like to show a person who's never seen dtng show them that one. I always struggle with what's a good one to show someone?

With the subplot there's some relief from the dark subject matter but it's one of the top season premieres that gives you chills from the acting the direction camera and more. It has a bittersweet ending with Craig standing up against his dad and ultimately moving in with Joey and freezes on Craig looking back at him as he drives away.

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But You Do...

➡ Pairing: Doctor!Kim Namjoon × oc (Seo Lee)

➡ Genre: fluff, angst, romance

➡ Trope/au: strangers to lovers, slice of life

➡ Rating: NC-17

➡ Triggers/Warnings: Graphic depiction of verbal abuse, toxic family relationships, description of pollen allergy, lots of crying

➡ Word Count: 2.0k+

➡Banner(s): made by apotatomashedbybts

➡ Summary: A simple wish of having a loving family was never so simple for Lee. So when she ran away from that unfulfilled wish she realised that not all wishes are granted the way they are wanted. And sometimes a loving family can be a single person too.

➡ Disclaimer: This fanfiction was originally posted 3 YEARS AGO ON MAY 31, 2019 AT 8:14 PM . The description of the symptoms and effect caused by the allergy and the treatments may not be accurate. The italics indicate flashbacks/past incidents.

➡ Author's note: I have decided to repost my old writings and this one is the first. I am so happy to bring back this one. This story is very much personal to me in many ways. I hope and pray no one is going through such time. And if someone is then please reach out. Even venting about it helps a lot.

I hope you have a good time reading this story. Feedbacks are always appreciated and looked forward to. They make me happy and motivated to write more! If you are shy, my anons are always open!💜🌼

Leaning on the windowpane of the moving bus Lee heaved a heavy sigh and looked out at the blurrily passing by night city. She could sense the uneasy yet surprised stares of the other passengers that were directed towards her. Though feeling uncomfortable she didn't care much. If she was in their place she would have been curious and surprised too, to see a constantly sneezing girl in a white knee-length bridesmaid dress, badly messy hair, red face partially covered by a pollution mask and even redder eyes.

Glancing for the fifth time in the past hour at the board inside the bus - that said about its current position- she grew impatient, but at this moment she needed to stay as calm as possible otherwise her condition would only get worse and thinking that she tried to calm herself down. She reminded herself that time was only relative - the more you wanted it to pass quickly, it gets slower and the more you wanted it to slow down, the faster it passed. She scoffed to herself as this reminded her of a day almost six years ago.

"Mom!!" An excited Lee came jumping into the kitchen, "Do you know that time is a relative unit? It works inversely proportional to the speed that you want it to pass! Isn't it amazing?" She was clearly fascinated at the new discovery and wanted to share it with her mom.

"And where from did you know that?" Her mom asked while kneading dough because Lee's brother wanted to eat pie that night. Lee's eyes sparkled at the thought that her mom was interested so she replied, "I was watching a movie named Lucy! It's so amazing and I learnt so many things."

"So you were wasting your time watching movies? Listen, those bullshit things are never going to help you in your real life! All that matter are your marks! And if you are not studying now then help me with making this pie. All you ever do is waste your time on useless things and pick up bad habits! What am I gonna do with you?"

The enthusiasm that Lee brought with her drained in an instant and quickly replying "Sorry mom.." she started helping her, trying hard not to let her tears fall in front of her mother.

The tears that had started to fall at the playback of the memory brought her back to reality and she glanced once again at the electrical board, relieved that she had only one more stop, to endure the pain, and the stares.

Getting off the bus she opened the Google Maps to search for any clinics nearby - the sneezing and the itchiness were getting intolerable. To her convenience there was a clinic nearby. At the reception she managed to ask about the doctors for allergies amidst her terrible sneezing. The receptionist looked at her with concern and said, "The doctor's shift is about to close but let me check. Please wait while I make the call." She nodded in agreement and looked away at the posters hanged in there to distract herself while tapping her feet impatiently.

"Excuse me!" The receptionist called out after a while. Lee turned her head at that way and pointing to herself asked, "Me?"

The receptionist nodded and said, "The doctor is ready to see you. His room is at the very end in the left wing. Please make your left turn at the very first turning of this passage," and pointed towards a long passage ahead. Bowing at the receptionist as a thanks Lee made her way towards the doctor's chamber.

She gently knocked at the door and a gentle soothing voice answered, "Please come in. The door is open."

As she stepped into the room she could figure out that the doctor had already packed up to close for the day. She was grateful that he agreed to check her up before leaving. He told her to sit down and told her to take the mask off. His soothing expression turned into a worried one as soon as she did what she was told to. He exclaimed, "It seems like you have pollen allergy and you have been holding it for too long! I will give you an antihistamine shot, that'll give you relief." He gave her a gentle smile and went to prepare the shot. Lee looked around while waiting and her eyes landed on the nameplate. "Kim Namjoon" she whispered to herself smiling mildly as she realised the meaning - the name suited his genius looks.

"Are you afraid of injections?" He asked after preparing the shot.

"Not really. I am used to them." Lee answered and then sneezed loudly.

Dr. Kim shook his head slightly and said, "You shouldn't have stayed unchecked for so long. But what's done is done. You will feel better after this." He then applied ethanol at a certain spot on her left arm and pushed the injection.

"I'll write you some medicines. Make sure you take them." Saying this he began writing the prescription with concentration. The shot seemed to do its work and her vision was much clearer than before, so she took this opportunity to observe the person sitting in front of her. She couldn't help but gawk at him - she seldom came across such handsome men. Not long after, she discovered his dimples, and noted in her mind that he was not only handsome but cute too, and his long and beautifully shaped fingers became her instant favourite.

After paying the fees, Lee came out of the clinic and sighed heavily thinking, "What now? There's no going back at this point."

It had been a long day and she never expected that this day would arrive so soon. Although she was glad, somewhat, that she was finally in Seoul, away from her family but still some things made her sad and she couldn't figure out what those things were. She had been preparing herself for this day subconsciously from many days back, and now she had enough money to stay at a cheap hotel until she found an apartment to rent.

She had been giving job interviews secretly online after completing her graduation and she was beyond happy that she got the job in Seoul; pretty far away from her home.

As the medicine worked its way to drive away the temporary sickness, she made her way to get a hotel room.

After checking in, she quickly went in for a bath, leaving her luggages on the bed. As she stood under the cold shower, she could feel the whole day's fatigue wash away little by little. Changing into her favourite pajamas, she called in the room service and ordered some cold noodles and fried chicken; she was starving. The food, she thought as she took in the savoury feeling, had always made her feel content and happy. But her mom had always thought quite the opposite of it. According to her, Lee's loving food was a bad habit, just like every other 'bad habits' she had. Whenever her mom scolded her for being hungry frequently and on the other hand constantly asked her younger siblings whether they were hungry or not, it made her tear up always. As she sat down and ate, she remembered that her family had always had dinner together, no matter what happened. Now that she was alone, she kinda missed the noises but didn't mind because it was somewhat peaceful. Once again her mind raced to the past, three months ago, an August evening to be precise.

"So when are your results coming out?" Lee's mom asked after putting half of a boiled egg in her mouth elegantly while sitting at the dining table.

This was the time of the day that Lee dreaded as well as hated the most. Her mom had a strict rule that everyone in the family should have dinner together. If someone was late, everyone had to wait for that person to arrive so that all of them could spend some quality 'family time'. But at this point, Lee totally doubted whether she was a part of the family or not and also whether this dinner was actually, as mentioned earlier, a family time or 'criticise-Lee-and-praise-others' hour.

"I don't know mom. The university has put up a notice saying that it would be delayed." She replied timidly, measuring every word cautiously, so that her mom wouldn't find anything in those words offensive enough.

But it never actually mattered how much caution she put in choosing the words because after all it's her mom and she would always find something to scold her about.

"What do you mean by the university has put up a delaying notice? Your university isn't that irresponsible! That's why I admitted you there; for your irresponsible self to get at least a little bit responsible! I bet you haven't checked properly. How can a person be so absentminded? " Her mom sighed loudly and continued, "Or is it the other way around? I think they have already published the result and you are not telling me!" Her mom glared at her.

Up until now Lee was swallowing up her words silently because talking back would have only resulted in getting a smack back. But the problem with her was that she had never been good at controlling her rage enough when it came to someone accusing her falsely. Or maybe that rage was just a longbuilt suppressed emotion trying to break free from its confinement.

Keeping the spoon with a loud clinking sound she rose from her seat and said, half yelling and half holding back her tears, "If you distrust me so much then go to my university tomorrow and see for yourself!"

The walk to her room was not easy as her legs felt like concrete, heavy, but she somehow managed to drag herself away. While going back she could hear her mother shouting at her, "How could you talk to me like that? Have you ever seen your sister or brother talk to me like that? You never loved anyone of us! I can sign a bond that one day you are gonna leave us and never look back, ignoring all the responsibilities to your family!"

At this she turned back and with hoarseness permanent in her voice, she replied, "Of course! Isn't that obvious enough? That's what I am going to do! It's not worth it to live here." A drop of tear trickled down her cheek as she choked back the words "all you ever did was hate me. I was never a good child to you as your other children are! I would never be good enough for you."

She slammed her door shut and broke down while sitting and leaning on the door; the tears were unstoppable. She could still hear her mother complaining about her loudly to her sister.

To stop the sounds from reaching her ears, she lied down on her bed with a pillow on her ear and cried until the hiccups made her breathing go hazy, until she fell asleep.

Lee sighed and shook her head to not let the memory dig deeper and decided to stay happy until she finished her food. Turned out that her mom's words became true; she had left her house. She knew that she would do it anyways so she didn't regret it, neither did she feel bad that her mother had 'predicted' so.

By the time she wrapped up, it was already midnight and she was sleepy. Not wanting to ruin the still-happy mood she decided to gulp down the medicines and hop into bed as soon as possible. As thought, so was done.

Nights like those, where she had just cried wetting her pillow, muffling her voice in it so that the scream couldn't come out because she was tired knowing that no one cared, until she fell asleep, were endless and the most painful moments in her life. But tonight was different. It was peaceful and she hoped that the coming nights would be too.

She snuggled closer to the pillow with a faint smile still hung on her lips in the anticipation of the new life she was about to begin and drifted off to sleep quite quickly while hoping that tomorrow would be better.

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-> Chapter two

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[rae-gar-targaryen]

is it shitty of me to be a little upset that my mom doesn’t want me as her maid of honor. i feel like i am cause it’s her wedding but i was just kinda hoping that she would. things could change but it seems that when i brought it up that she hadn’t even considered it. i feel like i’m being overdramatic and thinking to far into it.

Hi, love! I don't think it's shitty of you at all!! I think it would be totally reasonable to want to or feel like you would be a maid of honor/bridesmaid/be involved with your mother's wedding.

Is it possible she didn't know it was something you might want? And maybe now that she does know she might create a role for you or have you be more involved?

I definitely know how it feels to feel left out of a wedding when you thought you might have a role. And especially when it's your mother's day??

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. And that something that's supposed to be joyful is connoting with something negative. I just hope that it resolves! And please know the way you're feeling is NOT shitty or unreasonable.

You're always welcome to vent here, sunshine. Sending you a hug. 💜🌿

[allie-ofthedolls]

My best friend is EVERYTHING. She’s the kind of friend who you text and you say “I need to vent” and she’s says “ok. Go” . She provides me with such a strong foundation, she holds me up, she holds me down, she NEVER lets me forget WHO I AM, she calls me A QUEEN, she sends random texts that say "I’m thinking about how awesome you are, right now.” Or calls, actually picks up the phone and calls to say “I’m thinking about you, I want to hear your voice.” She tells me when I’m being a little bitch. She validates my feelings and always lets me know 1.) my feelings MATTER and 2.) she will always UNDERSTAND me. We are puzzle pieces that fit together just right. We are made from the same star as she likes to say. She is the yin to my yang. She lets me freak out when I need to. She has never not been there for me in 15 years of friendship . We’ve gotten FIRED from not one, but TWO jobs together. We’ve lived together. We’ve fucked up together. We’ve gotten really fucked up together. We’ve supported each other through it all, and last January when my world fell apart she took a weekend away from her new husband and five children to just check into a hotel with me and do nothing. SHE HELD ME AS I SOBBED. I just burst out in tears and she literally got up from where she was sitting and tried to hold all my pain inside. She tried to hold it herself. I will never have another friend like her. She is my best friend. We’ve never fought over men. We’ve never fought over other women, her friends are mine and my friends are hers. We literally just want the best for each other. I’ve seen her through her divorce, she’s seeing me through mine. We met in our early 20s working as Make Up Artists at Nordstrom. I worked for Stila, she worked for Philosophy + Tony & Tina. We went to shows together. We went to clubs together . We went to bars together. We partied. We grew into our upper 20s together . My 27th birthday she was pregnant with her first child, a girl named Clementine, and didn’t even know it. We ate sushi in DC and sang karaoke. Shortly after she moved to LA to raise her daughter near family. When my world crashed at age 30, she invited me to live with her. I brought my dog and moved cross country from D.C. to L.A. and I moved in. We ate dinner together as a family, I always looked forward to spaghetti night, she made the best spaghetti sauce and she would make aTON of it. I had leftovers for a week. We ate Pinkberry. Lots and lots of Pinkberry. We watched Dexter religiously. We loved Twilight and analyzed it endlessly. I eventually moved home, and met my husband. She stayed in LA, I in DC. But we talked almost every week. Then she became pregnant with her second child and I became pregnant with my first. Yes, pregnant at the same time. She eventually moved back to the D.C. Area and now lives in Annapolis and I am SO grateful to have her back on the East Coast with me as we both head into our late 30s, I can honestly say, besides one other woman, Jessica, a friend we both love and share , she has been around for every major life event of mine. She was a bridesmaid at my wedding. She is holding my hand through my separation. She is ✨Sarah✨, my soulmate. Carrie Bradshaw was right. Our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with. All you need is one. One friend like this. I am blessed with three, but she's my number one. She is more than my best friend, she is my sister. My sister by choice . So much stronger of a bond than by blood. I love you Sarah. AGOFFOS FOREVER MY NLLP. 💕💜💕💜💕💜💕💜💕💜

[pixie88]

Fic Ask Game

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

Hey @munstysmind 💜

Ok! 🤣 Let's see what we have here! Hope my answers don't disappoint!

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it?

I'm going to say the scene from Spiralling - Adam & Ellie's series Alone. Its where he find his wife on the kitchen floor sobbing her heart out because unbeknownst to her, she has PND which is something I struggled with after my fourth and it wasn't until I put the Alone series out there I told people outside my husband about it.

He puts his key in the front door, he can hear the kids crying, he makes his way inside as he comes into the living room, he spots Charlie on the sofa crying and Delilah in her swing crying, but Ellie is no where to be seen "Ellie?" he calls out as he makes his way to the kitchen he swings open the door spotting his wife crouched down on the floor, her head in her hands sobbing.

He makes his way over to her crouching down at to her pulling her hands away from her ears, she looks up at him, puffy eyed, tears streaming "Ellie?" her eyes fill again "I can't do this Adam! I can't do it!" he pulls his wife to him, wrapping her up in his arms "It's OK beautiful!" he pulls out his phone calling Elaine.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

Probably fluff! I love fluff in both reading and writing.

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

Hmm probably the characters Laura from Adam and Ellie and Vicky from Always the Bridesmaid and Addicted to you 🤔 I can't decide.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd care to share?

So, @gloriousalmondvoiddreamer wants me to do a fics for Jensen Ackles where he falls for a co star on Supernatural. I did write the first chapter, but I think I'll wait to finish my other Supernatural fics first.

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

I love any prompts!!! 😍 I still have @secretaryunpaid and @aussieez to do 🤣🤣

Thanks for the ask lovely 😍