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No, but she literally does this with Karlach! In the Karlach origin who does not romance Minthara, Minthara is offering Karlach an army and her support once she claims her house. Minthara is willing to go to fucking war for Karlach, a woman who doesn't even love her back and there is no guarantee that all of this will win Karlach's affection. And it isn't for power, it isn't for glory, it's for vengeance and the guarantee that Karlach gets to live.
And when Karlach asks her why Minthara is doing all this, Minthara pussyfoots around the issue. "Oh, you know, the heart is so mysterious and wants what it wants. If only we can share our minds you'd understand. But alas, there is no worm and you'll never know. The words for what I feel don't even exist in your language." Minthara is deeply, madly, stupidly in love with Karlach, but will do absolutely nothing about it. She won't admit it, she won't make the first move, and she makes her efforts seem practical rather than obviously romantic.
Minthara going to Avernus has never been about power, it is about love. So she shies way from it because she does love Karlach, just not in the way that she is "supposed" to love another woman.
choosing to interpret and characterize mintharas sexuality and her partner preferences as violating cultural norms in menzoberranzan because she doesnt desire the "right" kind of person in the "right" kind of way, and as a result of that minthara being constantly surrounded by people trying to gain her favor (because Baenre) that she can't form close relationships with, surrounded by suitors but never comitting, short one off affairs that never amount to anything, because the last lover she had, she has to kill
minthara being all alone in a crowded room. how she just thinks thats how she'll always live her life. at the epilogue party surrounded by people who enjoy her company and think fondly of her and she still feels alone and wants to leave to get away from it. pinning everything she wants out of someone onto her partner because she genuinely doesn't think she'll have anything else
theres just something sooo. like going through high school and you have crushes on the right people but everyone around you can still tell your doing it wrong even though you have no idea what you could possibly be fucking up. im doing everything right, im doing what you told me to do to survive, im exactly what you want me to be, what am i doing wrong? what can you see that i cant? i dont know how to want any other way. i dont know how else to love.
maybe im just meant to be lonely. maybe all i need is just one person who understands and ill be fine. theres just something about me specifically that repulses people away. its my fault, its my responsibility, ill just live like this, i just need to survive it
are you done talking to your friends? can we go home?
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#burnre#and this is in the ending where minthara goes back to the underdark too#so she is broiled deep in these social norms and expectations once more#and there is a possibility of real social and personal regression on minthara's part#and it makes me so gods damn sad because minthara is an incredibly lonely person#she wants connection and friendship#but menzo politics really fucked her up and what she actually wants doesn't align with what she is expected to want#so she's kinda stuck in this self fulfilling prophecy in which her own actions make her lonelier
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how does pony government work in the skyscraper gods universe? Like the gala and other stuff? How do royal courts work?
Other places in the world do have monarchies, but equestria does not. It's governed by stewards appointed by the sun in places where she cares, and elected officials where she does not. It's a messy system and is in dire need of an overhaul. There is a lot of "this is the will of god" without actually consulting God, and she can't be bothered to care about import taxes on turnips. So it's a theocracy but God participates sometimes.
Equestrians refer to the gods as "princesses" but they are borrowing the term from neighboring countries that have actual royalty. With the return of Luna and the emergence of 2-3 more deities, it's a very strange time and political systems are going to start fracturing.
It's less "the divine right of kings" and more "the divine have a right to be kings" with that "right" being both a political and theological question.
The question is arising: does divinity grant you political authority? Should it? Does the goddess of love actually have a right to rule a kingdom of people completely foreign to her just because there was a power vacuum? Does having a horn and wings somehow make her more qualified than a pony who is actually part of that kingdom?
The sun willed it, so it shall be.
But that doesn't mean it's right.
#skyscraper gods#skyscraper gods lore#i think the two sisters do retire from governing in the end#so thats canon#but its because their newly ascended god of friendship has a fresh perspective and is very connected to mortal ponies#and their needs and wants#she looks at the sun and moon and says yall are out of touch#you have your domains but they arent government#so either get really involved in turnip taxes or step off#so theyre like ok u wanna be queen then?#twilight says yes and becomes queen#and immediately dismantles the governemnt and impliment democracy
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I am so tired of seeing arguments against J/C, saying that Kate never wanted them together on Voyager because it would blah blah blah. Guess what? We are in agreement and we understand why it was necessary, especially when you consider the context of the time when the show was made. We fully support why it had to be done that way back then.
But times change; narratives and characters evolve, and views and perceptions shift. If anything, Voyager's inability to ever have two adult characters discuss their feelings ended up falling into another trap - they had Chakotay go after the 'prettier and younger' girl. You know what kind of message that sent to girls and women? You can have the most profound relationship in the universe with someone, yet he will still pick the prettier girl over you, even if they have nothing in common.
Prodigy had the perfect opportunity to subvert expectations by making them canon because, in retrospect, the 'will they, won't they' dynamic was predictable.
It was stated multiple times that they were afraid it would completely take over the show, but I don’t see almost anyone mentioning that this is exactly what happened with Wesley. Every podcast I listen to spends 50% of the time talking about Wesley, while the main Protostar crew is hardly ever discussed. J/C is also mentioned in passing. It all became about Wesley. In trying so hard to avoid falling into the imaginary J/C trap, they ended up in a much worse one, where all any Trek fan wants to talk about isn’t the Protostar kids or J/C, but Wesley and Wil Wheaton.
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#janeway x chakotay#star trek voyager#star trek prodigy#I have yet to find a podcast where they talk about Zero's transformation#Or about Rok's creation aka Bribble and what this meant for her#Or Jankom in general. No one EVER mentions Jankom as if he isn't part of the main crew#Janeway and Chakotay have a direct connection to the Protostar kids so when you talk JC you also talk about the kids#Like why does Murf love Chakotay so much#Foreshadowing Dal and Chakotay's friendship in the Who saves the Saviours episode#Why Chakotay trusted and wanted the Protostar kids on the Protostar with him when Ascencia attacked#And how Dal went to first race and then pilot the Novas and how that foreshadows his interest in piloting when he decides he won't be capta#Wes and kids are connected only by the plot and him being the original Prodigy#But he has no effect on their development other than telling them what to do and where to go#He is a plot device#the evolved deus ex machina#No discussions about Ascencia or Ilthuran#Literally half of the time is dedicated to Wes and timetravel and how he's connected to it#Maybe they see the talk about Wes more mature and more worth having than talking about the silly JC romantic connection#which is just anti fem cause women like to talk relationships#and making fun of them for wanting to do so is a can of worms y'all are not ready to open#don't booo me you know I'm right#women are always being made fun of for their interest in relationships. Take Ellie from trek culture as an example#especially if you've listened to their podcasts which were yikes on bikes in some moments#but she's handling it like a champ and doesn't let the dudebros stop her from discussing her interests
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telling myself i can't start another tdwt rewrite but dear god do i want to write one focusing on alejandro and courtney in this weird situationship thats a lot more nuanced than just alejandro manipulating courtney and her falling for it. like theyre best friends they dont trust each other theyre the same person they dont know anything about the other one theres a mutual attraction theyre pining for other people theyre codependent they dont care about each other theyre platonic soulmates like i just want to do a deep dive into how messy that relationship couldve been building off of their friendship that exists in my head except the line between romantic and platonic is so fucking blurred they have no idea what they are to the other person
#they live rent free in my head as you can tell#ive been writing some intense moments for them in amicus curiae and im having a lot of Feelings about platonic alecourtney#tbh the whole concept of them replacing the best friends has been a great avenue for me to do a deep dive into their friendship#aughhhh i just. love them so much#and i do want to explore them in a situation where there is relationship potential even if that relationship never actually happens#because everything between them during tdwt could be so MESSY!!#like alejandro says he's just manipulating courtney but he's also doing it to make heather jealous but he's also genuinely worried about he#after the duncan thing but this is the only way he knows how to express that concern without making himself look weak#meanwhile courtney is falling for the act but she also knows its an act and is going with it for the emotional support it provides and shes#just doing it to make duncan/gwen jealous but she also is starting to see the real alejandro underneath it all because he does care even#though he doesn't want to and they do feel a strong connection that they dont know whether its platonic or romantic because romance is bein#shoved down their throats on this show and theyre both in complicated romantic dynamics with other people that theyre the easier option for#one another but they dont really want to be with one another like it just doesnt feel right#okay okay i legit have to stop and go to bed but just. them. im thinking so hard about them#platonic alecourtney
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#ryuji suguro#ao no exorcist#blue exorcist#ryuuji suguro#bon suguro#suguro ryuuji#suguro ryuji#izumo kamiki#time to go on a mini analysis#because i think this moment is hugely important and rather telling for miss kamiki#tamamo kamiki was shown to be very social and bubbly#but it was demons and her babies she was surrounded by#her would be partner also didn't seem to care for her at all outside of a good time#and the people in the town and shrine didn't care that *she* disappeared#they only cared that she was keeping the head priest distracted and sleeping with him#and the only conversations we hear around her of disapproval of her#i don't think she had any friends outside of the demons at her home and shrine#i think she did it all entirely alone#and that nine tails fed off that until she had the breaking moment of the one adult she thought was on her side dropping her#because all he wanted was *fun*#and her seeing that her daughter has people who came to fight for her and care about her gave her enough peace to finally pass on#and it's utterly heart breaking#so much of this manga is about friendship and connections and what happens when you're isolated or pushed away#anyway i just wanted to point that out because i think about it a lot#rin okumura#konekomaru miwa#shimane illuminati arc#chapter 61#shiemi moriyama#yukio okumura
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big fan of the john wick movies so far. first of all i'm delighted by how the whole series feels like a chance to explore the world that the writers built in the first one. second of all yes most of the movies are killing and the consequences of cruelty and the cycle of violence but more importantly than all that the movies are actually about kindness and connection and the ways that people love each other and choose to help each other again and again. and also about how much people love their fucking dogs.
#the movies are about john wick but more importantly they are about the people that he knows.#the people that he's formed connections with. friendships with.#john wick exists in this world because he knows the manager. knows the doctor. can send his dog to stay with charon.#yes he's caught up in a huge cascade of consequences that are making him do things he doesn't want to do but more importantly#he sits with gianna d'antonio while she dies. he holds her hand.#he can't go to anyone in the world but still he has people who he goes to to ask for help.#and in the world itself the whole system of the high table and the continental is built on the commerce of relationships. social currency.#very cool. very cool. i'm thinking about it#valentine notes#john wick
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What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?
(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)
Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:
#ffxiv#wolship#g'raha tia#y'shtola rhul#wolgraha#wolshtola#y'shtola x wol#arsay nun#graharshtola#y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw#and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh'#her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo#i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship#someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections#its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either#just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together#or that she could at least bring some cheer to#and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it'#which arsay certainly did#i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags#so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks#graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough#to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her#to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath.#he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life#but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast#so hes trying to build her up in other ways#focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side#and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its#'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter
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this episode is even funnier after watching shogun assassination arc and learning that sacchan and the shogun were childhood friends along with zenzou. i wanna know what sacchan was thinking during this whole episode
#i like to think she was pretending not to know him bc they want to keep their connection/friendship a secret and private#but it's just so fckn funny to think that they chatted after this and she was like. Yo what was that#gintama
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Don't know what to do with this but uhhhh something something Gwen wanting so desperately to be taken seriously/treated with respect and something something Sam pretty consistently being the one person who's respectful towards her
#this has tapered off a bit in more recent episodes#if only cause they aren't interacting as much now#but it was definitely there in the first like 10 episodes#I really wanted them to end up developing a weird friendship and I still do but it feels like the plot would need to make some turns first#in order for their dynamic to shift even remotely towards friendship#celia isn't really disrespectful but she's pretty damn neutral#while sam made efforts to connect with gwen/took her side when alice was poking fun#tmagp#the magnus protocol#samama khalid#gwendolyn bouchard
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From my notes....... like to me Sharena is projecting a little bit, here. She's frustrated with Veronica not only because of her behavior, but because if SHARENA EVER acted out anywhere NEAR that way. Maybe there would be severe consequences. Maybe it's something Sharena makes an effort to correct, within herself, before any consequences can catch her. And yet. Despite all that. Sharena still has moments of attitude and dare I say, Stubbornness, too.
#my notes#book 1 lore#maybe??#idk i feel like i should be tagging the 'studies' i'm doing LMFAO#but like it has been SO fun and so refreshing to me actually. sharena is a sweetie a hype man 110%#but MAN. I REALLY DID OVERLOOK. THE ATTITUDE ON HER. and tbh i'm thinking of other instances too#where maybe she's blunt and fails to consider other people's feelings. thinking of a few alfonse interactions here#like. to me. i think sharena is a FASCINATING case. of someone who struggles to see beyond herself#but she longs for connection SO BAD. and she wants to reach others SO BAD. and she's SUCH a ray of sunshine#but SO much of her is also just muddied by the fact that she's just. constantly performing.#it's REALLY hard to see her bc of that.#she's not lying and she's not disingenuous..... but she is so deep in the performance of what she 'should be'#or how she 'should act' to achieve a desired result (often friendship -- which ALSO kicks her in the ass)#bc it's just. so hard to see her under there. but moments like THESE i feel like she jumps out#when she's blunt and when she's frustrated. back talking the commander!!!! damn girl!!!!!!#idk idk unfortunately i think there is a reason i struggled to fully look at sharena. esp early on#but i love her. i love her so much i'm gonna thrup.#sharena
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Various sketches of the mane 6 as villains
I’ve had a lot of fun thinking up this idea :DD I might do full references for them if I find the time
Bonus Pinkie y Dash interactions bc I love this version of them soooo much
They hate each other n prank each other all the time <3
#biggggg ol art dump this time#I totally didn’t forget to post yesterday#anywayssssss#yeah I’m not the first to do this kind of au#but I’m having my own fun with it#sometimes you get brain rot of your own versions of characters tehe#I focused on making their villainy/backstory focused around#1) the rainboom that got their cutie marks failing therefore causing their different cutie marks/stories#(they are still connected and tied together in destiny even when evil!!!!!)#and 2) basing their villain personality around the disharmony versions of them#fluttershy is mean aj lies all the time rarity is greedy etc etc#and the group is p much split#half of them want to take over Equestria#the other half. are just bad guys. like flim n flim or trixie level villains#I hope ppl are interested in these guys bc I am!!!!!!!#I’m gonna post more of them anyways#my little pony#my litte pony friendship is magic#mlp fanart#fluttershy#twilight sparkle#rainbow dash#pinkie pie#applejack#Istg I have an idea n story for rarity I just haven’t drawn it yet#she’s my favorite rn so#mlp au#my little pony fanart#Crab Doodles
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said to my counsellor that i wasnt built for friendship because everyone always eventually just. stops speaking to me and she went “ok why do you think that is?” and then when i finished my dumb sad list she went “ok so maybe you aren’t good at friendship” and i. have never regretted spending £50 more in my life lol
#A RANT IN THE TAGS MY GOD I DIDNT EVEN REALISE I AM WRITING THIS WARNING RETROSPECTIVELY#£50 to feel like never trying to speak to anyone again or forge any connections THANKS RUTH#Ruth remember when I said that every friendship I’ve had I’ve never truly known if it’s a friendship or if it’s one sided#remember when I told you that my friend groups always had people who had a favourite and I was never the favourite#remember when I told you that several friend groups have disbanded but not really they actually just made new spaces without me?#remember that? remember my trauma? remember?#because I DO!!!#I was not born to have friends I don’t think#I can’t even make friends with other autistic people or other weird people or other queer people#I don’t even think I could make friends with a clone of myself#this is so guy wrenchingly isolating lol#like girl what do you want from me? keep everyone at arms length like I used to?#try not to let myself get attached to people in case they decide they don’t want to be close to me anymore?#please it is not great advice Ruth#THE WORAT PART is that I literally was like ‘I don’t message too much because I’m overbearing’#and she asked where the proof was#and all I had was the complete dissolving of any relationship where I tried or tried too hard#so now I’m left in this confusing space of do I message too much or not enough because I have no happy medium#and she knows SHE KNOWS I also have energy issues and executive dysfunction stuff going on#and I know she is just trying to help and get me to think about this stuff#but it was just not the time lmao#finnie shouts into the void
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so this is pathetic of me but does anybody wanna help me learn to become a better friend let me befriend you and we make sure we always talk/text in someway everyday even if its just once like no matter what we always check in w each other? i think i’m gonna try bumble friend thingy but maybe there’s a mutual here who feels the same way as me
#ive been trying to do this w my bestie but she’s also super depressed#so its not easy for her either which is why we’ll always be friends but i really want to like be more open to connection so#platonic connections and friendships definitely feels like where i need to focus#i’m like super awkward and i feel like i’m bad at conversations but hopefully i can get better and more confident with that lol#idk how to make friends or meet new people as an adult
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Type of person who says "I think my lipstick would look soooooo good on you!", gives you a kiss on the cheek, declares their lipstick looks fantastic on you and they'd like to see it on you more often, then breezes on by all those mixed signals to continue on with whatever was at hand.
#▌ ◈ shi qingxuan ; ⌜ study ⌟#yeah this is all i've got until later i think#discord convos got me holding my head in my hands. lady u've got to learn how to differentiate between different affections#surface level its cute sure but beneath i think its worrying. maybe even irritating/contemptable. depends on the person.#girl who cares you so so so much but her stunted emotional advocacy/expression makes her seem airheaded and unserious#girl who plops you both down into the friendzone bc she's wholly unaware of her own capacity for intimacy beyond friendship#when i say intimacy i mean genuinely any display of connection/attraction/what have you#queen of mixed signals and hard to get bc she's not reading her own signals and doesn't know she wants to be gotten#her ignorance is wreaking havoc yet again!!!!!#i have so many thoughts about sqx and Deep Feelings:tm: be they platonic or any other type of attraction#but this'll have to do for now. ogh. hopeless romantic but quite literally hopeless. so entirely hopeless. girl u've got nothing.#what is it tsun and i say.... stuck in the dark forest (metaphorically) (literally) (horrible beast)
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—————————————— Nynseph ——————————————
daughter of death, born with too much life. clawed her way out of her own grave, from the underworld, from her father’s frigid embrace. sister killer, life saver. the great change of the seasons, from pale winter to shuddering, hot spring. the flower and the serpent underneath. death’s lost love; the seed to his scythe. so desperate to defy fate and their red strings. life-sworn; promised to protect nature and in doing so, defying her own. wayward, aching, furious soul, begging for forgiveness. begging for life, for love, for a world untorn. begging to bury her father’s sickle, so that she may bloom.
#this is my dark urge nynseph……..#she’s a nature sworn paladin (ik ik i love paladins SORRY)#and took her vow as a way to defy her fate#i shall not go into too much details of her past bc dark urge and tbh i don’t know it all yet BUT#she is a little odd…….kinda weird girl….but like.#v eager for friendships and connection even if she doesn’t Know How To Do It#not naive per se but like….so eager to experience more human/simple life#has a mischievous streak#she is romancing astarion……#or well. he is so pathetically in love with her and sees so much of himself in her struggle to be free#and is just. anguished. over his feelings for her#and she is oblivious JFKDJSKSJAL#she thinks he’s sweet! (even when he’s snarling and awful) and needs some care LMAOOO#nynseph: i found this flower for you…it is the color of your eyes :)#astarion: are you done wasting time flower-picking?#nynseph: do you not want it? i know karlach likes them…#astarion (gritting his teeth so hard he’s gonna give himself a migraine): no. give it to me.#cielo rambles!#nynseph#nynseph the reborn#bg3
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Okay, so not fanfic/writing stuff but do you ever think of how close Calla and Kody used to be? How sweet and bright and encouraging she was towards him when they were younger? How friendly and warm she was? How they smiled at each other? It makes me want to eat rocks.
#Lumine#Lumine webcomic#Lumine (webcomic)#Lumine (webtoon)#Lumine webtoon#And then ableism starts dragging Kody down.#Dozens of things that are either pinpricks or full-on bricks getting slammed into him (figuratively. I do not mean. Kody got beaten with#bricks.)#''It's not like he could have played anyway--he can't use magic''#Kody's disappointment and heartbreak at not being able to use magic like the other witch kids#Him finding other ways of being a witch (potion making) to accommodate to his limitations#But still not being seen as a proper witch according to some (i.e. Calla's family; ''they could forbid me from seeing you/us being friends#if they found out'')#Anyways I don't really know where I was going with this but it just makes my heart Ache#I can't remember how canon it is (I'll find out soon) but I always imagined that Camille had a heavy focus on potions;#I feel like she really appreciates potionmaking and the uses/applications of it; how versatile it is and while it isn't as convenient as#general magic--having a potion prepped in-advance would be pretty useful and convenient. Especially if you got too tired to actually do#general magic or something was blocking it off.#It's why I think she would be a good parental figure or aunt figure or mentor or SOMETHING to Kody#Kody finding a way to accommodate to his illness and disabilities by trying potion making has always been something that's stuck out to me#That doesn't take away the grief or pain of Not being able to do it ''the normal way'' but it gives you SOMETHING. Any connection to what#you love dearly and want to do.#This was Not meant to be a rant on disability stuff whoopsie. And yet here I am. I'm gonna cut it off there.#If this didn't make sense sorry the migraine-hangover brainfog is eating my words alive#My heart just hurts over their old friendship and how sweet they were#Also forgot that Kody wanted to open a bakery when he's older... Aughhhh. Implodes into 500 tiny shrapnel forever.
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