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One of my mutuals opinions is the "bro code" thing, that Curly is one of those guys who wouldn't care about the victim because the perpetrator is his friend and I'm really banging my head on the wall like that other anon. I've only played through the game once but Curly's behaviour/reactions etc read completely different from the "bro code" thing and I have to wonder if my mutual and I even played the same game.. like the constant digs at him from Jimmy, his body language in his face reveal and so on like you mentioned in your post. While this game is a little different obviously, it kind of reminded of a point in Alice Madness Returns that makes it very clear that Alice's pain blinded her to the abuse of the other children and her failure to act earlier because of it. Curly is guilty of a similar inaction but it doesn't change the fact he was a victim of Jimmy too. I don't think I can look at it any other way because both of these games have really stuck with me.
I genuinely think it really is the idea that people want a simple easy to blame problem and the idea that the only relatable victims of abuse are those that "surpass" it or do a lot to help others. When it comes to victims, especially those that don't fit the typical demographics, who either accidently perpetuate it, enable it or aren't ideal in some way shape or form, people jump to ignore what they went through as it's easier than dealing with those conflicting sentiments.
The bro-code conversation in Mouthwashing stems from a concept I generally dislike that there had to be something about Curly that made him meet or keep being friends with someone like Jimmy. I think people genuinely underestimate how many like decent and good people just know an asshole or are friends with someone who is really bad outside of their view/established dynamics. The game makes it clear none of the inaction against Jimmy is because of a lack of care, it is a lack of understanding from the privaleged postions they have as men to not have to worry about what Anya does/went through and the type of extremes men like Jimmy will go through to cover it up. They are all too preoccupied in their own strifes.
Another thing I see being oversaturated the idea that you have to be a freak, misanthrope or have a disorder to do the thing Jimmy does. The game is an escalation, it's a spiral that I don't see people comment on that Jimmy was not likely having the mood swings and episodes of rage/frustration we were seeing in the game. This is after they all start experiencing the worst moments in their lives that he got THAT openly bad. Of course, this is just my interpretation but much like in real life, people that go to extremes like that usually live mundane lives. It's a pressure cooker affect to where the stress made them pop. It's self inflicted but still the case.
I really think people need to be more willing to acknowledge that not everything needs to be an extreme or in black and white or easy to understand. It doesn't need to be happy or have an answer or solution, especially in the cases where the abused sadly helps perpetuate what they experience. It's not he should've known better from experience or shouldn't he have known what could've happened because victims tend to not like to think in matters of the worst. Not to mention, especially in cases of abuse where it feels so personally directed that you don't expect to happen to someone else.
#i also hear the bro code thing in tandem with his comments on saying he knows Jimmy but that is also in a much different context than#if he said it when Anya was actively telling him about the dead pixel or the pregnancy or even when she told jimmy that was about himself#and getting between Anya and Jimmy as in he knows Jimmy and knows he wont try anything when hes around not that he doesnt think hes#doing anything or doesn't believe Anya and Im a bit annoyed people shorthand or try to recontextualize the statements he makes about it#cause even the let me talk to him line is more in concern of what Jimmy could be doing and less wanting to make sure hes okay and#being more worried about his friend than Anya in that moment like removing the context makes the sentiments sound more uncaring#and typically but the context is how they are deconstructed to give the story and themes a deeper nuance because Anya is happy that Curly#says that becuase he leads it under the idea of protecting her as he knows and she has likely seen/experienced it enough that Jimmy#back down/off around Curly typically as we see he does relatively subdue Jimmy's attitude before the eval and it only gets bad once the#scene at the birthday party happens when Jimmy is likely in a mode where hes not going to listen to Curly about anything after cause he fee#personally betrayed in a selfish egotistical way like the game is a deconstruction nothing is supposed to a typical one to one on the#concepts it handles. this also ties to me like getting more and more annoyed everytime is see a post making Curly the most milktoast#no opinions ever sort of guy when he does have a personality outside of enabling Jimmy and has opinions on things like the QnA's#talking about him being snow Tony Hawk flesh him out more realistically than think pieces saying he has no opinions on anything#and would never take stances like this is a immediate dire circumstance with multiple facets I dont think hed hesitate to help if he active#saw like someone getting attacked on the street or that hes a centrist that doesnt care about womans issues like this is the equivalent#of when a character gets dumbed down to their like favorite food and one defining aspect of themselves and even then I feel like everyone#else but the mouthwashing fandom has a better grasp of that aspect before they make it unrecognizable.#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#ask#anon
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hiii just read your tags about the dynamic between your courier and benny and i'd like to say that was so beautiful and i really loved it! also very curious about what's gonna happen when she finds him
aWAHHH THANKU THAT MEANS A LOT TO MEE, get followed new friend!!! ANYWAY like I said in the dumb in depth tag thing She isn't sure what she's going to do, but I personally believe it depends on where they both are in their lives. For my courier taking over the strip was NEVER in her plans and it accidentally made her have to be responsible.
(5 min doodle bc I love u) So if Benny somehow settled down/became a family man in-between the events of him running off and my courier finding him then she might try to worm her way in - claim she's not opposed to "sharing" and insisting he move the whole family/SO back to New Vegas seeing as she's got it working better than ever - She'd gloat hard. If he insisted she scram I think things would get... Messier. How do you take all that from someone, give them a "legacy" and then have the gall to tell HER to scram? I think she'd take everything from him - fair is fair after all right? If he wants revenge, or closure, or ANYTHING he can hike his ass all the way back to the strip like she had to. God she would want him to - the worst case scenario here is he runs off again or just gives up so she might stack the deck a little. However if she just finds Benny in a pathetic hovel, or beaten down then all the better. How thrilling it would be to pull a gun on him and give him a: "Well isn't this just a 18-carat run of bad luck." Only to laugh and tell him it's all gonna be alright. She would love to play savior here. Bundle him up, get a robot to drag him from the mud and care for the poor little guy... It could get downright domestic/fluff when he's taken back to the strip. I think she has a soft spot for him even if he fails to "complete" her the way she thinks he can. He can't, but maybe it would help to have a flesh and blood friend/partner to talk to - if you let her she'd only communicate with robotic creatures for the rest of her time and stick to quick trysts that mean very little outside scratching an itch but with him it's different. This "Connection" is a big thing to her, an Achilles heel - so this time she might ask Benny something dangerous; "Hold me will ya?" And how well that goes is up to your interpretation of Benny. He might be a rat and try to steal the whole thing out from under her, or maybe he likes having her at his side - even if she can be a little unpredictable or emotionally driven. Maybe it's endearing, maybe he just thinks he can control that fire. Either way, they're fun to think about.
(Old art bc ily might toss a bunch of old Plat art on my art account just bc of this ask thanks again ;u:)
#My couriers name is Platinum#I booted up the game thinking it'd be funny if she had a name like a “stripper” sounding name - I was a dumb kid#BUT WHEN IT TOLD ME SHE LOST THE CHIP I LOST MY MIND AND DECIDED SHE WAS A AMNESIAC n that was one of the last things she remembered#by the way Boxcars runs the Gommorah front desk - she would have gotten him out of Nipton and he's doing fine.#She might make him Robolegs someday if she has time but this isn't about him#Gen love answering questions about my ocs ahaha
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I was talking to an idiot and I need validation.
#superman#clark kent#kal el#comics#dc comics#smallville#martha kent#jon kent#ma kent#pa kent#im gonna rant now. this isnt at you its at the dumb fuck who was commenting on my comment on tiktok.#YES! why the fuck wouldn't he be! he was ADOPTED to be adopted you gotta have the right paperwork in order. the person im mad at LITERALLY#SAID Clark was in an orphanage... lets put our thinking caps! if he was in an orphanage Ma and Pa gave him to the state and yk what! i bet#they thought he was an abandoned baby! no one knew he was an alien. if they didnt he would have been in a govt lab! and in a comic i read ma#and pa thought he was a nasa experiment! yk how they put dogs and moneys in orbit? they thought they did that with a baby! so they took him#ok ok ok then the person i was debating said ma and pa were CRIMINALS!!!!! THEY JUST SAID CLARK WAS IN AN ORPHANAGE!#SO MA AND PA FOUND A BABY. TURNED HIM OVER TO THE AUTHORITIES AND AFTER IT WAS PROVEN THAT HE HAD NO FAMILY THEY ADOPTED HIM!#all of that is legal! they made it sound like ma snuck into a house a stole a child! put some respect on the Kents!#and for why we were debating. he had to have been assigned an ID/ss number/citizen ship because he was to the govt an abandoned BABY#they made it sound like Clark was a 20 year old! he was at best a toddler. he didnt need to take a citizenship test or anything cus HE WAS A#BABY! he was just issued citizenship cus to the govt he was an abandoned baby in the usa WHERE EISE WOULD HE HAVE BEEN FROM!#cus i cant stress this enough NO ONE KNEW HE WAS AN ALIEN! (except maybe ma and pa)#the govt gave an abandoned baby in Kansas an us id cus THEY HAD NO REASON TO NOT BELIEVE THAT THE BABY FOUND IN A FEILD IN KANSAS WASN'T#BORN IN THE USA! and with all the paperwork they did on him they gave him us citizen rights like THE RIGHT TO VOTE#there are a million possibilities for why a baby would be abandoned in a feild in Kansas and it would take awhile to aliens#this is what i think the govt thought 'ok baby abandoned in a feild of a local couple. no family to be found. a young mother probably got#pregnant and didn't want to baby so she left it where a couple who couldn't have children could find them. oh look the couple wants to adopt#let them take the baby.' babys being abandoned was so common that safe haven laws were made to give mothers who didnt want their infants a#safe place to drop their kid off (usually a special box at a fire department or hospital)
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My hot take is that marcanne has as much potential for toxic yuri as any other calamity trio ship and it's not nearly as soft and fluffy as one may think
#amphibia#marcanne#anne boonchuy#marcy wu#in one hand: marcy kidnapped her. by giving her AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT something that was meant to benefit HER#(yes she didn't know it would work but the point is that she thought about herself first. even though it was her best friend's birthday)#she never wanted to come back. she wanted to keep her with her forever. she was happiest when they were together#most importantly she saw what she did as a good thing. as something good that she gave to her#yet still lied to her. After what happened with Sasha#she still lied to her. became another person to betray Anne#then she fucking died for her 😭😭😭#on the other hand. you have anne#she looked after her. she certainly loved her. but she didn't care much about the things that were important to marcy#nor did she care about her feelings or needs. she and sasha third-wheeled her for years#even though marcy came first#she could only really see her once sasha was gone#you have to remove her from the equation for both of them to flourish and connect#because the shadow of sasha's abuse oppressed them for so long. anne and marcy reuniting in S2 looked a lot like two people escaping#abuse together. healing together. coming into their own. becoming better people. they get to know themselves and each other much more deeply#now that they're free. only - they aren't free. they're constantly thinking about sasha. when sasha comes back they welcome her#they reproduced the toxic patterns she left of them#though i'll recognize that in anne's case she healed a lot more from sasha's toxicity than marcy#and you can see that in how her way of relation to marcy is a lot healthier than marcy's way of relating to anne#anne is now truly and genuinely connecting to her friend. marcy is still lying to her#pushing down her feelings. ignoring her own needs. pretending everything is okay. lying lying lying#anne was the only one who could escape but marcy couldn't quite move on yet. she couldn't be free#hope this makes sense i'm writing it at 4am i'll delete tomorrow if i realize it sounds dumb
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"they sound awkward" they are awkward. What do you want
#I can't even pretend that Marcille's original voice is better#it's not#I don't think I'd like her nearly as much if her english voice wasn't so dumb#that's exactly what she should sound like#dungeon meshi
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WHO is saying prose in tlt is too melodramatic?? It is the perfect amount of melodramatic for what’s happening bffr
I have seen people mock the style of the prose as too homestuck adjacent and clearly written by someone who also writes fic. First of all I'm like...if you hate those things so much, I've got bad news for you about 75% of the queer sff getting written these days! I think it's actually fair not to enjoy that style but I do also notice the lines people usually point to are either silly gideon navisms which you either find endearing or you don't but they're clearly a character choice, not a feature of the basic narration of the series. OR they're melodramatic lines spoken by necromancers and cavaliers about each other which I think sometimes people mistake as the author trying to be straightforwardly romantic versus portraying the dramatic emotions of these young queer people who are genuinely not okay + the ways their society is set up to require this kind of over the top devotion from them. Tazmuir does have fun with the drama and I love that about her writing but it's a more thoughtful choice than it might appear at first glance, imo
#replies#let her cook!!#i guess i am one of those readers who is usually more frustrated when it feels to me like the characters don't have any big emotions#or aren't motivated by anything#i'm like these people aren't making any dumb decisions for love. sounds fake i don't think humans really live their lives this way#this will bias me in favor of melodrama but look. tazmuir's makes SENSE for the story she wants to tell
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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again
#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard#which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks#but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with#which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam#but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree#and i just cleared 1 of them#like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it#ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times#i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done#but it feels back to square one now#man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal#you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again#that's exactly what happened#i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure#but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug#but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now#i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen#man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall#ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just#another form of self loathing lol#im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer
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ok kind of an insane ask so feel free to ignore but would you be able to translate "友達バリア" by deco*27? i can't find any translations online and i wanna see if i'm right about the song kind of fitting the matsus... it's also a banger imo
- vocamatsu anon
omg.... tbh i have a feeling deco will make a video for this one which means we'll get an official english translation of it, rendering this completely redundant, but i'm really cheesed to have been asked, so i gave it a shot for you anyways <3
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Friend-zoned, love fire, sparks flying HIBANA We're ready, set to lock horns, love's ultimate showdown I'm outmatched- but it's not over yet! I won't let this end! With a dazzling, never-give-up attitude, I'll break through your defenses!
The despair of never getting anything more of this Your behavior, nor what's going on in your head- I can't read it at all! I can't help but envy the kindness you radiate Omnidirectional compatibility- it's just not for me
Carefully-picked down-played words The outcome: A bloody heart True feelings double-crossed by embarrassment; how frustrating, I'm changing sides But that won't fill up my heart What I want is nothing more than to be by your side If you've got something to say, then say it- 'til I defeat you, that is! 3, 2, 1!
Friend-zoned, love fire, sparks flying HIBANA We're ready, set to lock horns, love's ultimate showdown I'm outmatched- but it's not over yet! I won't let this end! With a dazzling, never-give-up attitude, I'll break through your defenses!
I want you to like me! I want you to like me! Friend-zoned, love fire, hey, say "I give up"! With a dazzling, never-give-up attitude, I'll break through your defenses!
Fun things, good feelings- without you, they have no taste at all Sadness, jealousy- if they're cuz of you, then I don't mind them Let's throw down, bro! Better to regret doing it, than not doing it at all! A feeling like I won't need any special moves, YEAH I'm sure everything will be OKAY With an endless supply of love, you're undefeated, AYE Play dead, BYE BYE I'll be the one to throw the first punch
Friend-zoned, love fire, sparks flying HIBANA We're ready, set to lock horns, love's ultimate showdown The lonely and timid me is already no more! With a dazzling, blazing flair, I'll burn through your defenses!
Do you like me yet? Do you like me yet? Friend-zoned, love fire, now, let's immerse ourselves in love! With a dazzling, blazing flair, a never-ending HAO sweetener battle!
Do you like me yet? Do you like me yet? Friend-zoned, love fire, now, let's immerse ourselves in love! With a dazzling, blazing flair, a never-ending HAO sweetener battle!
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my overall interpretation of this song is "I'm trying to break through the friend zone (friendship barrier) so that you like me instead of thinking of me as a friend", so any vagueness in translation went in that direction
The use of "lock horns" in the official translation snippet + the HAO motifs give me the mental image of like, a hand-to-hand kung fu battle, so I leaned towards that imagery whenever there was vagueness (as opposed to like, a military campaign, for example)
deco's official english translations tend to be very liberal, so i tried to keep my translation a little more literal
#translation#i dont really like the use of 'friend-zoned' for the official translation of this#in general deco's english translations seem to favor localizing over keeping original meaning which i usually support wholeheartedly#but i feel like their en localizations sometimes lack a colloquial understanding of how these terms come across to english speakers#like the Vibe. i dont know if they grasp the Vibe#like on the surface 'friend-zone' seems like a reasonable localization for this concept#(Actually why is the localization the adjective form? shouldnt it be the noun? tomodachi barrier = friend zone? well anyways)#term for when you can't advance a platonic relationship to a romantic one + the term 'zone' is often used in fighting and battles#but colloquially i feel like this term has more of an Incel Connotation#due to its use being most popularized among men who see women as a prize they can win if they put enough effort in#+ its usage furthering the underlying expectation that women should date a man because he likes her regardless of how She feels abt it#of coures i know this is not the literal definition but again. the colloquialism. the Vibe. i really value the Vibe in localization#it gives off more of a pathetic desperate entitled vibe than a determined lonely feisty vibe which is what i personally got from the song#but vibes are subjective of course and dependent on one's personal experience#and who knows maybe that IS what deco's going for. i may very well be missing some japanese colloquialism as well#anyways as to if this fits the matsus.... well. they dont really have any friends in the first place do they#except totoko who repeatedly and easily beats them in hand-to-hand combat#i guess it could be atsutodo if you were full of whimsy#(suddenly coming back into the room) BY THE WAY I HATE HAO#I THINK HE'S TRYING TO DO THE THING WHERE HE JUST MAKES UP WORDS/MEANINGS BECAUSE IT'S THE KANJI IN SUKI#IT'S JUST AN EXTREMELY COMMON CHINESE WORD AND HE'S USING IT IN WAYS THAT SOUND SO DUMB AND WEIRRDDDDDDDDD#“a never ending HAO sweetener battle” <- WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE HAO HAPPEN? DONT PISS ME OFF#IM LIKE PRETTY SURE HIS TRANSLATOR IS EN/CN/JP TRILLINGUAL TOO SO WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE HERE#anyways thank you for the ask. mwah. i hope u enjoy this
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love her and her greasy vibe
#greasy dumb art tag#sona: venomstory#stupid dumb dummy. the her. and her alien#this one blames any and all vaguely attracted to women thoughts on the symbiote. btw#'ah. i see. you are a gay alien. therefore you are making me think gay thoughts.'#sound logic. i guess#better than nate who insists that his entire life he was straight because#'well yes i was with a woman before i was out of the closet. but also i was a man all along so its was straight'#theyre all a little. yeah. metas normal in the sense she just doesnt think about any of it. girls got better things to do
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why the fuck do they sell boiled eggs in servos in the us what is wrong with you guys
#.lvblg#charlie just went on a whole thing about eating gas station eggs and genuinely that sounds awful#actually i’m gonna look dumb if we have them here#but i still think it’s gross either way#baghera said she would also eat them because she’s gross lol
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will never understand why ppl always say that heart axe that went viral should go to hilda. it is so clearly edelgard’s. SHES GOT HEARTS ALL OVER ALL OF HER OUTFITS shes so themed around ideas of love (what kind of love is up to interpretation but like literally look at her w byleth… regardless of route like fome on) and how love can either save you or be your downfall COME ONNNNNNNNNN
#freudian slips#this also might be coming from the place in me that j likes edie more#and i love having my favs with cute things i LOVE heart themes#i think edelgard and fogado should meet#iirc his bond convo was unfortunately not with her#i think it was with claude which is great bc i love claude too#does nothing to help the stupid ‘fogado is just claude 2’ take tho#but anyways wow love characters who are modeled around love but not in the typical way i love it!!!!#anyways main point WOULDNT SHE BE SO CUTE WITH THE HEART AXE…#im gonna sound so dumb if no one knows what im talking about….
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I have to admit that nine times out of ten when people write Maura misusing idioms it falls flat for me 💀
#I know it’s a documented thing she does#but a lot of times people just write it in because it’s a ‘Maura thing’ and don’t think it through#and it makes her sound uncharacteristically dumb
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thought about thalita lyra again
#SIGHHHHHHHH my favorite girl always and forever.#partly because sibling dynamics always make me go a little nuts so the lyras were bound to be my favorites from the start#but i think she's an interesting character to think about#something something how her attempts to bring people together fail and she just ends up as a parallel to renato being on the outside#<- i didnt explain that very well but trust im rattling the bars of my cage#or im completely misinterpreting tome 15 and i sound like an idiot who knows but anyway i do what i want forever#i also headcanon (i guess) that sometimes she's a little lame. a little corny if you will#she's very charismatic but i think with that charisma she can just say dumb shit sometimes for the laughs. does that make any sense#tangent over she deserves the world i love her#complaining abt dbd tag#thalita
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the worst part about confession compulsions is when you verbalize an intrusive thought in an effort to confess it and then realize you just made yourself look stupid
#friend said her baby was dancing as babies do yknow with the bouncy legs and I went “haha is she throwin' it back?''#and then proceeded to tell her about the video that had put that phrase in my head which is this lady who calls it that#when her dog sticks his butt in the air lol. or she says her dog is twerking.#which. objectively funny#but bc for some reason I thought my initial thought was Bad and Evil and said it out loud now I just sounded dumb#bc that was all completely a non sequitur and kind of weird#like. girl just shut your mouth. it was a random dumb thought and not even a sinister style intrusive thought.#you don't need to tell anybody about it you're just making people think you're weird 🙄#Lu rambles#easier to vent on Tumblr than explain it to my mom who I've already harped on the intrusive thoughts with for months lol
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Okay, you know what I just realized? If Lagertha thought Aslaug bewitched Ragnar... then wtf was that whole goodbye scene between them in 4x11 where he apologizes for his mistakes and she says "no regrets and yet every regret" and kisses him and sends him on his way???? Like... did she think the man was bewitched just then, did she think he did things like leave the throne and lie about the wessex settlement because he was bewitched. Because if so... WHAT WAS SHE DOING? Omg, so much of the show just becomes categorically nonsensical if you realize that Lagertha is operating with the mentality that Ragnar is under the influence of some form of witchcraft.
#text#vikings#she's talking to him as if he's made his own choices#he's talking as if he's made his own choicees#but SHE DOESN'T THINK THESE ARE HIS CHOICES#I sound like an idiot right now but truly#Lagertha's last meeting with Ragnar makes absolutely 0 sense#if you keep in mind that she is currently planning to take over Kattegat#kill aslaug#and hand the throne back to Ragnar#maybe she like... thinks it's good if he's away for this? and she just strongly believes he won't die#but also why did she not tell bjorn at least?#do you think if I wrote michael hirst an email#he would explain things to me#I'm not even trying to be mean#I just legitimately do not understand#I'm dumb michael hirst please hold my hand#and explain your genius to me
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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages#me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my#pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones#idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when#everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that#and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for#this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100%#myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too#and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for#networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and#then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first?#which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else#anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me#i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so)#oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like#alright that's it for now i think#gah emotions and whatnot#missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon#personal
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