#she spends forever making these

[bloomingdarkgarden]

A Nocturne Verdant // by ehoney For author + AO3 use, please do not use elsewhere without permission.

[plushie-lovey]

FINALLY!! At long last, I've gotten my hands on a Pumpkin Kitty, after a whole year of wanting and waiting.

Her name is Latte! (Short for Miss Pumpkin Spice Latte) You can also call her Miss Spice!

[tsuki-in-faerun]

it means a lot to me to have k as a gender diverse individual talking about what you choose to make of your life versus what you are born/created for. love that as a recurring theme.

[carefulfears]

how do you see mulder leaving in season 9? scully giving up william? how do they deal with these things? (their guilt, resentment, futility, etc)

i know i have a realllllllly unpopular opinion on all of this but as i've said recently, i just don't think there's anything easier on earth to convince mulder of than "things are safer if you're not here."

i usually come back to doggett's confusion in the beginning, the way he keeps asking and arguing and scully just keeps saying "he's gone" and shutting it down, until the end of the premiere when he realizes: "oh my god. it was scully. scully made him go."

god, it's sad. it's hard to talk about. i teared up trying to write this, as much as i am fonder of the storyline than most. i don't find it unrealistic or out of character or unfitting of the narrative. it doesn't mean i don't feel it's heartbreaking. i have such a hard time thinking of mulder missing that baby. not even having the chance to put up a fight, walking back into empty rooms. the show as a tragedy, finding your burden again, etc. the x-files as the gap between teary smiles at baby kicks to screams in a jail cell. as what it was in the beginning: unknowable answers to insurmountable grief.

and i just think about mulder's dramatic emails, writing that he doesn't think he can survive being away from them. spender looking at the baby and telling scully he's heard "so much" about him. mulder being tortured by soldiers, saying he's just thinking about his son. keeping 1 baby photo for 15 years. "i just missed both of you so much."

scully's fertility treatments and her prayers and her tears and her "last chance" and her miracle. and how deeply unfair it is, what happened to her. i don't think a single one of us could say what we could do if people kept breaking into our homes to suffocate a child we were still nursing. she didn't ever want to do it alone, that was never the plan.

but scully desperately wants to keep everybody safe. she thinks she’s keeping everybody safe. it’s hard to be starbuck. it's this conflict i keep talking about recently where you really start to notice how controlled she is by fear, how difficult it is for her to balance it all. my favorite visual on this is the gate at the house in i want to believe: every day the way she pulls up to it, gets out, opens it, pulls through, stops, gets out, closes it. repeat in reverse. and then she comes home and she says "the truth is, i worry about you." and that he's too isolated. turns around and shuts the door, leaves the house and locks the gate.

i wrote a bit a few weeks ago about scully's protectiveness and it made me think about what a trap it can be, how defending lends to fear and fear lends to defeat. to standing in a church 25-years deep and saying "i failed." in the tags of that post i asked "could they ever recover from her exiling him from being with their child because she was afraid it would kill him?" and said i don't know. and i don't, i don't know.

but i think there's something so brave in saying: i did the best i could, and maybe that wasn't right. it's why ghouli is one of my favorite episodes. scully sobbing to her son that she's sorry. she's sorry he doesn't know them. she wanted him, they loved him. "i was trying to keep you safe. i hope you know that." and she thought she was being strong, but maybe she was wrong.

things don't always shake out the way you want them to. it was always mulder that called their son a miracle, and mulder doesn't believe in miracles. mulder believes in the world, and the search, and the after.

[quinn-pop]

yet another oc that only exists because i wanted to write something very specific

(middle is a little older, hence her scar healing. i like to think she gets a glass eye at some point)

anyway this is mira! (they/she) since that wip is almost 20k words and counting i won’t give away too much but long story short she’s the result of meta going “one last time, i promise” and adopting yet another kid

also galaxia kinda indirectly picked the name :)

i’ve mentioned before that i headcanon that pretty much all astrals are autistic and this is just kinda an extension of that. whereas meta tends to suppress his emotions and conform to others, mira…doesn’t. she gets uncomfortable and upset and lashes out at people easily, and working through their emotions is no small task.

the main reason i chose to write them that way was for the sake of narrative but i’ve grown attached to it because there’s a lot of ideas there i’d like to explore. stuff about navigating emotions and relationships when existing is so suffocatingly uncomfortable. it’s not something i could center around Kirby himself, but i think it makes sense with a post character development meta knight.

they are very loved (omg oldee cameo???)

kirby was definitely very excited to have younger siblings after being used to being the youngest in the room for so long!! (with the like. one and only exception being gooey.) he’s super affectionate with both of them and wants to have a close relationship one day, but for now mira is pretty unappreciative of that fact lol. they don’t like being pestered for hugs

everyone else is okay tho

(i know that’s hard to read. oops. “obvious bite marks”. siblings being siblings.)

mira also has a very love/hate relationship with the egg kid, being so close in age they kinda Have to get along but in typical sibling nature they also fight a lot. sure it’s probably rough for a while but i think in the end they’d be good buddies. maybe not as close as Kirby and Bandee but still.

anyway i have a lot of thoughts and am very busy but. i’m really enjoying writing about all this lately it’s been fun ^^

[tjerra14]

Hear me out: Ikrie in HFW

[tls123]

girls (gender neutral) when kim dokja in chapter 380, ep.72 — three methods, IV

[kisaraslover]

if anyone has any problem making sense of the way i interpret Kaiba just remember this: Tea Gardner looks at him one day and has the dawning realization "hes like a lesbian of some kind" this should make all the pieces fall into place

[eiikyuu]

" When I'm with her, I understand the meaning of happiness. "

[sickofthis666]

Me, watching SVU s14 e15: Damn, what can you do when your armed sister's abusive ex keeps following her and beating her despite a restraining order and you being an armed cop? Besides killing him...

Amanda: *kills her sis' ex*

Me: Oh. Nice??

[laniidae-passerine]

decided that in my own personal canon, Santiago’s maker looked similar to Louis, simply because Ben Daniels stated that Santiago was very likely in love with his maker. and wouldn’t it be some kind of torture to fall in love with the man who murdered your first vampiric love? to then watch him fall in love with another, who bears an eerie resemblance to that first love? to be witness to something tender and affectionate blooming, every moment a memory of how none of those you’ve adored have ever wanted you back? it would be agony. it would be torture. god, you would just hate them to pieces, loathing even as you loved them. and you wouldn’t know peace - not until the whole pack of them learnt the horror of love, just as you have.

[carefulfears]

an endless line

[steeltwigz]

HEADCANON TIME I think Marshmallow and Apple end up missing out on a lot of cuddling time while the mansion is being rebuilt. My thought-process here is that I think Marsh wouldn't rlly be one for extensive PDA, and literally EVERYONE is here helping rebuild so she's bit more self-conscious and withdrawn than usual. And then once they're done building, everyone is still living in the mansion for some time while they work on the Hotel, so Marsh has to wait even LONGER becuz now even tho she technically has her privacy back with having her own room again, she still has to spend most of her time looking after her home and taking care of her guests, laying out and enforcing certain rules, breaking up fights, etc etc etc so her alone time with Apple gets interrupted a lot. And then once everyone leaves, she and Apple have to make up for the months of lost time and they were already a little codependent (imo) so they start to spend a lot of time with each other, like holding hands or Marsh sitting on Apple's lap, or with their arms around each other.

For a while during the building process and all the contestants living in the mansion together, Marsh is super stressed out and everyone just thinks it's nerves but rlly she just needs her emotional support girlfriend 😔 sad!

[pzyii]

I haven't drawn anything for it and haven't written enough to post but it should be public knowledge how easy it is to make a childhood(preteen?) friends au with the twisted sisters

Oh Meredith spends all her time in the hospital her mother works? Well what if Cristina was in Seattle when she and her dad were in a car accident? What if when the ambulance finally arrived she was brought to Seattle Grace? And what if Meredith was hiding around in the ER trying to catch a glimpse of her mother working and ended up being awfully fascinated by the girl around her age who came in just now?

[sirenemale]

Listening to Return to the womb muship again - _ -

[dykethang]

at this point i give up on trying to decode Why certain things happen because the answer will never be good enough so whatever it is what it is forever baybee!!!