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pokespetrash · 2 years

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nemona.

she’s covering her face, shielding herself from you and the crowd she herself had gathered to watch your ultimate battle. confused, you step toward her slowly.

“you…YOU DID IT!” she cries. she’s beaming from ear to ear. you hear a collective sigh of relief from the surrounding crowd—they had been momentarily uncomfortable seeing her wearing anything but a smile. they aren’t in close enough proximity to see the tears forming in her eyes.

“this is legit incredible! you’re the strongest out there!”

you swear you hear her voice quiver as she says your name.

“i mean, you knocked me flat, and i was giving you absolutely everything i had!”

the crowd has dispersed, appearing uninterested in her supposed typical antics about battling. they know it all too well.

“everything i…i…” her voice grows faint. you almost don’t hear her. you aren’t used to her whispering.

“HAAAA! HA HAAAAA!” the boom of her voice makes you flinch. you can’t help but wonder where this sudden change of character is coming from.

she glances around quickly to find that the director, the top champion, and a couple elite four members are still present. her eyebrows raise ever so slightly, almost as if she had realized that she let her guard down. maybe the crowd wasn’t entirely gone. “oh man. pokémon battling, am i right?”

of course she’s right, you think. at least, you want her to think that she’s right. now you aren’t so sure.

“it’s so much better—so much more fun than i ever even knew!”

you allow yourself to chuckle. that’s her, you think. there she is. you gaze at her as she extends her hand.

“thanks for that incredible match. you beat me for REAL this time!”

for real this time. every time you two battled, you won. a clean sweep of her assembled teams. you knew that she was a champion, and she was proud of it. she only used different teams each time she battled you to make it a fair fight.

or did she?

you smile at her and take her hand. her grip is crushing and you find yourself wincing in pain. the look on her face is heartbreaking. nobody else can see it, but you can. it feels like goodbye.

she quickly starts rambling about having another battle immediately after the one you two had just finished. the remaining crowd rolls their eyes at her in annoyance and they walk away. up until now, you thought that she was completely oblivious to others’ feelings about her fixation with battling. right now though, you still see the tears brimming and the light leave her eyes.

because she knows. she’s aware that she annoys everyone. she never lets it show, but it hurts her to her core. but it didn’t annoy YOU, so she saw an opportunity and hit the ground running. was it to prove something to herself? she would often sit up at night, wondering if something was wrong with her. that is, until you moved in. everything changed then. the pain became bearable and she actually had something to look forward to when seeing you. now that the two of you shared a (truly incredible, you can’t help but agree) final match, there was nothing else for her to grow excited about. she is devastated and thinks that she has lost her best (and only) friend. she plasters on a fake smile and turns to walk away, each step growing faster until she begins to sprint. you don’t follow her. this is how she knows it’s TRULY over.

she also knows that no matter how hard she tries, she will NEVER beat you. because she really did give you EVERYTHING she had.

#this is kinda emo sorry #feeling sad so i wrote this #she reminds me of myself in many ways #we need to talk about her more #pokémon #pokémon scarlet #pokémon violet #nemona #trainer nemona #pokémon fanfic #trainer arven #trainer penny #director clavell #champion geeta

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shannonsketches · 3 months

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He said "Fuck this shit, I'm out" I'm crying. Toriyama's Vegeta was so top shelf 🤌

(From Neko Majin Z Chapter 5!)

#dbtag #Idk why Toei didn't lean into Vegeta being a version of Piccolo you could put in funnier situations like Toriyama wrote #He's reserved and professional and proud but JUST immature enough to bite down on a gag that Piccolo would readily swerve #But they take a lot of Goku's chaotic comedy away too in favor of Hero(tm) writing and that is why I keep pulling my hair out aklsjdlas #Toriyama was sO funny and it bums me out so much that the anime derailed how lighthearted and straight up silly the humor is #and replaced it with Misogyny Is Funny and humiliation kinks asjklfhadjk and it's not just my complaints about Vegeta and Bulma!!#“Goku is running away from his very reasonable wife because he is a goofy little guy who doesn't want to do his chores” becomes #“Chichi is Cruel to Goku who is Trying to be a good husband because she doesn't relate to his passions and vilifies him for having them"#which is not their dynamic at all but dudes in the writing room are like “being married is fucking awful amirite fellas hahaha”#but Toriyama was like “Being married is not for everybody but it can be really great if you and your partner are on the same page”#Chichi's reasonable! And Goku isn't romantically wired but Goku can enthusiastically consent to sex and still not enjoy kissing #those things can be and are true for a lot of people! And it makes even more sense if you hc Goku to be aspec (and audhd coded) like I do #Kissing can feel gross and can be a sensory overload for many folks. Doesn't mean they're stupid or innocent.#(although Goku CAN still ride nimbus so idk what Pure entails in this universe askljad)#Like I am the FIRST person to joke and drag Goku about his marriage as an aspec myself but like legit Goten is a Last Night On Earth baby #He knows what sex is. But also between how socially removed Goku is and how Shy and Conservative Chichi it's not out of line #to assume the actual words sex and kiss have never been spoken in that house skljdlajdf I FULLY believe Chichi uses code words #Chichi thinks her son being blonde makes him a delinquent and still uses honorifics with Goku like it is fully reasonable to assume #that the joke of Goku's naivetè centers around the fact that his wife is too embarrassed to talk about Certain Matters in a normal way #While Bulma and Vegeta are slutty hedonistic cityfolk who need jesus (according to chichi probably...and me but I support them)#anyway. point is. Toriyama was funny as hell and Nekomajin is absolutely ridiculous and goofy and has a fully amoral main character #which just reminded me that toei is allergic to letting goku be a gremlin and so vegeta's not allowed to be a gremlin wrangler #even though that's been his job since the day he met raditz alksdjaskljd

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girlatrocity · 2 months

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MAN.

#bnha spoilers #a had no delusions abt her being alive before but saying it out right is differenttt #i just really liked himiko she was my favourite for many many reasons but mostly bc i loved how she reminded me of myself in a weird way #like in a cathartic way idk #she was also taught that her love was like a terrible unnatural evil thing #that should never be seen or expressed #and she never fully realized her capability to love until she finally let herself indulge in it #and thats the thing how she LET herself #and how she wanted to live her life exactly the way she wanted so bad that she didn't care that none of them would love her for it #because she wanted to be free ☹️#and the fact that even after all of that rejection and loathing she still found a place for herself where there was people #who LOVED her and and CARED about her and then eventually ochako who wanted to save her #and it still proves everyone else wrong about himiko #because himiko never had to change or hide those fundamental things about herself to be loved in the end #and i hate that she died #i really do #but her narration of her death scene really hit me bc she's RIGHT #she lived her life exactly the way she wanted to and never got chained down again #and she had people who knew everything she was and loved her not in spite of it #and she's a normal girl #and so am i #UGGGHHUUJHH anyways just wanted to talk i love that girl rip himiko

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fatehbaz · 5 months

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#thinking of dinosaurs and troodontids were my favorite dinosaurs as a child #when younger i had a real full troodontid tooth fossil that meant a lot to me #for a time we lived within a few kilometers of hadrosaur sites and troodontid sites #while wider general area had many sites of recovery for the big celebrities like tyrannosaur and multiple dromaeosaurs #at that time troodontids were kinda infamous for i think the depiction in some childrens field guides and dino books #which depicted like a fantasy speculative humanoid troodontid based on 1980s model at Canadian Museum of Nature in ottawa #anyway would visit a small local paleo center a lot and woman in her 70s or 80s ran the counter of their center and rock shop #one day she asked me what my fave dino was and i said troodon so she pulled out the tooth and just gifted it to me #in little black case size of ring box with padding and transparent plastic viewing cover kinda like laminate for displaying a trading card #tooth got stolen from out my vehicle while giving some people a ride while at university before i got too poor for tuition #later during first year of pandemic owner of my storage unit died and new property owners threw away everything i ever owned #i was homeless anyway lost job due to early pandemic closures and had to allocate any money to insulin and other prescrip meds #but wouldve found a way to save my things if the new owners had contacted me #they threw out photoalbums y backpacking gear y books y musical instruments y clothes y artwork y camera y all family keepsakes #and all childhood treasures like souvenirs and gifts and school awards and writing portfolios and all the little memories #which i was always sentimental about as child #from earliest age my room looked like a natural history museum with plants and maps and library of field guides #and rocks and field trip keepsakes and all kinds of little animal figurines and mother had painted room in forest greens and browns #to feel like a forest and among the succulent plants and a globe sat the troodon tooth #parents passed when i was a child #never near any family and were always moving never got to settle into proper stable place then father passed after long sad illness #and mother put in so much effort but she passed few years later and i could not take care of myself or my remaining material possessions #and so im still quite hurt having nothing whatsoever remaining of my childhood or school friends or mother or life generally #and when trying to process grief my thoughts often come back to the troodontid tooth as a focal point a distillation of what was lost #even when young i knew it was advised not to become too connected to material physical possessions #but still there are some small little trinkets in our lives that seem to hold so much meaning and i tortured myself for losing that tooth #thinking about troodon reminds me of childhood

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brainfilehasstoppedworking · 2 months

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Amy Rose, I love you. You're just like me. They could never make me hate you 🫶🫶

#sam's talky talks #She's the one of the many female characters I feel incredibly comfortable with being relatable to #Like. With how I feel sometimes kinda #She feels like a sorta representation of my feminine side and all the girly things I enjoy #And her emotions and things remind me of myself in some ways #And I've grown to admire her #That she is who she is. A kind person with so much passion and love #She's who I wanna be ya know #She's who I feel close to compared to all of the Sonic characters #She's always been one of my favorite characters. There was a period of time where I hated girly characters–#–but I always loved Amy in some ways or another pertaining to being my favorite character #There is so much to her character that I believe people forget and it upsets me #Anyways. I love Amy Rose she's always gonna be my favorite character #Nobody. And I mean nobody. Could make me hate her no matter how shit they write her #Just rambling in the tags don't mind meeeeee #amy rose

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butmakeitgayblog · 9 months

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Lotd have mer y ADC looks so good with her new selfie. And she’s posting flowers as usual 🥹

And wearing a white shirt. I'll say this, you can't accuse the girl of not staying consistently on brand 🥴

I will say also, she's never escaping the Victoria Pedretti doppleganger allegations any time soon (although I guess it'd be the other way around since she's older. Whatever) Anyway they neeeeeeed to play sisters at some point cuz what the actual fuck are we doing here like what is the point of all this if that never happens

#anon #I'm sorry in advance but that last one gives me overwhelming AWTR vibes #Lexa's not much of a selfie taker by nature. she just doesn't see the point. “I know what I look like already Clarke-#i don't need to thousand pictures to remind myself. i bet I could even pick myself out of a lineup. no help needed“#cuz she's also a little smartass ya see #but this feels like such a AWTR Lexa thing to do #to have this little disposable camera that she takes with her on their trips - their honeymoon. their rides along the coast. apple picking.#and she just... takes pictures. of anything she feels like. moments that obviously meant something to her #or that's what Clarke assumes when she finds the thing tucked away in Lexa's bedside drawer when she finally packs up to move #2 days before she's heading to the other side of the country and she finds herself sitting on the edge of Lexa's bed holding this gd camera #that she's completely forgotten existed #an hour of trying not to throw up just touching it - an hour of driving to the nearest pharmacy that still prints these damn things -#and a day of waiting for the roll to get developed is enough to have Clarke walking around like the equivalent to an exposed nerve ending #the first half of the roll just makes her smile cuz it's exactly what she expected #pictures of leaves. bumper stickers she saw. shots of the ocean at sunset. a weird rock Clarke distinctly remembers Lexa calling ~majestic #too many shots of Clarke doing mundane things that Lexa apparently thought needed capturing #and then like a suckerpunch to the face... there's this #a shot that Clarke knows without knowing that Lexa took to finish out the roll #probably snapped in a moment of Lexa's little way of saying 'hi :)'#but all it feels like in her hands one last goodbye...#wow this got away from me #my bad #AWTR

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benetnvsch · 2 years

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maybe you could draw kunikida with flowers in her hair if you wanted maybe sorry fjdjsh

I am so perfectly normal about this idea (<-lies and deception)-

#AAAAA #sticks prompt in my mouth and runs away #u do not understand how much this prompt means to me-#also she/her Kunikida SO REAL #*flops Kunikida around like a wet towel (affectionately)*#this was def not her idea but she goes along with it bc it makes the other happy -#Kyouka def helps with the flowers #and I feel like maybaps Junichiro ? helps braid them into her hair?? bc he feel like he'd know hair stuff lmao #this is solely bc he has hair clips LMFAO #Kenji feels like he'd know how to help too -#man I wonna draw them all together just putting pretty things into Kunikida's hair KSJHSKJHSK #I have too many emotions about this character pls #Kunikida doppo #bsd #bungou stray dogs #kite draws #kite watches bsd #also didn’t draw the flesh colored vest bc it reminded me too much of Tevin and I couldn’t keep me shit together to color it AKSHSH /pos #I mean that in the best way genuinely - I love that silly beige color i just would have been laughing to myself at 3 am coloring which -#not ideal (get it??? badum tsss)

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anotherpapercut · 5 months

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working with children really will make you examine your thought processes and emotional reactions like nothing else. I've found myself being so much more thoughtful in my daily life about how I respond to my emotions and environment, as well as the reasoning behind why others behave the way they do

#yesterday i got really frustrated and overwhelmed at one point because this one little girl keeps getting really upset when she cant help me #like shell ask to help and i wont have a task (or ive run out bc shes already helped) shes capable of so i tell her that #and thank her for being thoughtful and helpful. admittedly the first time this happened i was really frustrated w her already #bc she had made a huge mess doing something i told her not to do and then didnt want to clean it up and she only came back #and asked to help because her friend had been helping me. so i was like girl. you didnt even clean up the last mess #but i also had nothing for her to do. anyway she started screaming and hid under a table so then her friend did it sith her just. because.#idk kids will see their friend freaking out and they do it too. and i understand it but my god. i dont deal well with really loud noise #and she did it again yesterday. i let her help me and then i ran out of tasks and she started crying and saying i never let her help #and for some reason there were like 6 other kids in there all wanting to help so then several of them started freaking out #and i could not handle it. i literally told my coworker like im about to cry right now lmao #and later the little girl was like wanting to hug me and talk to me and acting like nothing happened and i found myself wanting to withdraw #like i was feeling like i wanted to avoid her and not speak to her or be cold but i also knew i didnt want to treat her that way #and i took a couple minutes by myself and thought about why i felt that way‚ what the effects of that would be‚ and how the kid felt #and i really just had to remind myself that she was feeling just as many emotions as i was but that shes only had 6 years #to learn how to manage them and deal with them in a productive way. she wasnt trying to upset me. she wasnt trying to make me mad #she was just dealing with her emotions in the only way she knew how. and im an adult and if she can get over it i really need to get over it #long ass tag story sorry

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sorrowsaint · 4 months

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im going to bed

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heres a song i like goodnight

#......................#.............................................#..............................................................................#thats probably enough of a buffer.#last night i dreamed i was in the hollow below the tree that my body was in. when i woke up in the morgue all i wanted to do was curl up #my bones remember i think. even if i dont. sometimes i feel a phantom emptiness on my chest #like the arrows. like the knives.#its scary. its so scary.#im just a kid #will i remember it forever? how long will it haunt me?#people die all the time. people die and come back. people die and come back and they remember but it doesnt haunt them #i was trapped in death and i think thats... its not gone. maybe it is magically but i still feel it.#all i had for so many months was the vague knowledge that i was dead and this overwhelming sense of sharp coldness #my body remembers. i remember. how does anyone forget things like this? i dont want this. i dont want to remember.#i like it under my bed. ive put pillows and blankets down here. the vent that blows in cold air is here too so it feels comfy #and maybe it reminds me of being under the tree. and i dont know why but thats something im actually okay with #my body was under something for so long. the soil was cursed but i loved those woods. i miss the woods. my body hurts.#my mom is missing a leg and sometimes she talks about phantom pains. like her leg realizes it isnt there and screams #can you feel that way about a hole in your chest and your neck. can you feel that way about a tree above you.#can you feel that way about death #maybe i should get angry. but alone. so so alone so i dont hurt anyone.#i cant prove him right. because he was wrong and everything he ever said was wrong and he sucks and i hate him #im not like him.#im like gertie and my parents.#im so tired. im so tired. i want to sleep in dirt for a few more months. maybe sort myself out somewhere dark and quiet.

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juodojimirtis · 1 year

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An endless list of favorite characters: Yasmine Amunet (Warrior Nun)

"Sister warriors don't run, sister warriors nuns don't run"

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lessthanimpressedlesbian · 1 year

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Honestly, I love that Ruby is in her "self-centered" stage of depression. She's been neglecting her own feelings for so long that she can't think about anything else now.

#rwby #rwby spoilers #ruby rose #i also love that shes being homophobic #i was expecting it but to see it feels so satisfying #especially after so many people said it wouldnt happen #shes just so stuck in her feelings and cant see any way to escape without lashing out #it reminds me of myself a decade ago #edit: for clarification and legal reasons the homophobic comment is a joke #shes just lashing out #but its funnier to call her homophobic

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jackredfieldwasmyjacob · 2 months

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my birthday couldn't have started better holy fuck

#my mum and sister brought me chocolate con churros for breakfast which !!!!!!!!!#i myself didn't even realise i wanted them today but YES that was the correct choice #but that wasn't the best thing #this friend of mine who's doing a phd and that sometimes tells me about opportunities and stuff #texted me today and told me she found out my phd advisor managed to get approval for her project #a project about identity in ancient greece. guess what my phd project is about. lol.#anyways. that project will get an fpi selection process in which they'll select phd candidates to do the phd within that project #and my friend told me they apparently had someone in mind but she didn't know who #that's why she texted me. cause she thinks it's me. cause there's not many more options basically #the professor hasn't emailed me or anything but that's normal for her. we thought it would be best for me to email her in september #to remind her i exist and what i want to do and you know.. who knows #cause the thing about fpis is. how to put this. they're rigged. kinda. they usually have the person they want to get on the team in mind #and the fpi is just like the administrative way to do it

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dismalzelenka · 10 months

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