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𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐑: 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐃 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐅𝐓 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝟏

𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐑. 2 years😭 𝐀𝐆𝐄. 16-17 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐏: sirius, remus, james, lily, peter, dorcas, marlene, mainly people from gryffindor and ravenclaw

𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒. single (5th to the end of 5th year) TAKEN BAHSDHABHAHDB (summer after 5th year - ongoing)

「 ✦ 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮𝓼 ✦ 」

okay guys.

this is it. THIS SHIFT IS MY ROMAN EMPIRE. i have so many things to tell about this shift 😭😭😭 so let's get started because this one will be looooooooooooong

i shifted for 2 YEARSSSS WHICH IS SO INSANE like, it's my longest shift ever 😭 the shift is taking place since summer before 5th year to the beginning of 7th

「 ✦ 5th year ✦ 」

𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮 - 5𝓽𝓱 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻

so, as you probably know what happened during 5th year, i'm gonna tell you my scripted timeline.

august - the nightmare in the noble house of black

october - me, james, sirius became illegal animagus

beginning of december - peter became illegal animagus

may- 'the prank' happened

june - snape worst memory (as i read that it happened AFTER the prank)

june- i confessed my feelings to remus

july - sirius ran away to james

august - I ran away to remus, as walburga used crucius on me as a punishment

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— ୨୧₊˚ the nightmare in the noble house of black

living in this house wasn't the greatest experience ever 💀 and this summer was literally one of the worst since our beginning of learning in hogwarts. this summer was the first one that walburga used cruciatus on me and sirius. it was kind of torture, also, I hoped that reggie would say something, but he did nothing to stop our parents from doing this shit. ( it wasn't easy, but we still had james, remus, peter to send letters to. during this summer for the first time i thought of running away from this family. but i didn't want to leave regulus, and, even if i run away, where would i go? i didn't have truly anyone, and i didn't want to bother other marauders ( i mean remus especially, he was the closest friend of mine)) she did this because we didn't want to join their lord voldemort kind of cult. sirius and i knew that regulus won't say no to them. we knew that in some time, he''ll become a death eater. as war started in 1970, a lot of muggles where dead, as well as wizards. our parents weren't in voldemort' group, but they were conviced, that voldemort is doing the right thing. before the first day of 5th year, walburga was extra angry. (basically i told her to fuck off of me and sirius. we were abused for years, as this would change anything. we were in gryffindor, i had a friend that was muggle-born, we were friends with potter. nothing would change after their torture on us - emotionally or physically. i mean, this one pissed her off. she locked herself and me in one of the rooms we usually didn't use and you can imagine what happened - this part i have scripted off, as i 'don't remember what happened' i love angst in my drs BUT NOT THIS 💀💀 hell no, i'm not gonna be through more pain) i scripted that sirius knows what happened

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— ୨୧₊˚ 1st day

in the train me and sirius found a cabin as fast as possible, as i wasn't stron enough to walk around the train after the night before yk

we sat, and i kind of fell asleep?? i mean, i was just so tired that i kept my eyes shut the whole way to hogwarts. ten minutes after james, remus, and peter joined us. i didn't say hi or anything, just nodded my head and said something like 'gentelman' LMAO remus sat in front of me and tried to make some eye contact with me, tried to cheer me up, but i was to tired to react. Sirius also changed during this summer. We were both diffrent. boys saw that, james started to ask some questions like "Are you alright?" "How are you?", but sirius cut them and just said "Please, can we pretend like this is normal first day?" GUYS. AND THEN REMUS MOVED HIS LEG CLOSER TO MINE. as some kind of sign that he's sorry, even tho he didn't know what happened. IT WAS SUCH A CUTE INTERACTION AHHHHHHH

well, nothing really happened this month. we were just joking around, and we took care of remus when there was a full moon coming. lily and I became even clloser this time. She knew that i liked remus A LOT but she tried to stay out of this business (haha, she DID NOT. literally because of her i confessed my feeling for remus before him)

i knew that she didn't like what boys were doing with severus, but i did not say 'stop' when they were doing it. i never truly cared until may and june.

also lily and remus became prefects.

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— ୨୧₊˚ me, james and sirius became illegal animaguses

hello!!!!!! WAKE UPPP it's the month when me and marauders FINALLY became animaguses!!!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH

so basically we of course didn't know if the whole 'let's become and animagus' plan is gonna work. it was truly crazy that we did it. well, we didn't show remus anything at first, because peter didn't turn into one at first (he became one in december). My animagus happened to be a black puma, sirius turned into black dog, and james turned into a fucking stag, which was so hilarious like IMAGINE SEEING A HUGE RED STAG COMING OUT OF YOUR BATHROOM

(my animagus right here) ⤸

this was literally so funny, we couldn't believe it. only peter failed first time, but he eventually turned into animagus in december :))

i mean, during the first few months, nothing really happened. boys where doing pranks, me and lily were doing 'girl stuff' as james called it. i also spent a lot of time with remus, and i liked to do it a lot. we both have similar hobbys, and we just liked to spend time with each other. it was fascinating for me. he was fascinating. after this little intreraction we had back on train, something was diffrent between us. i mean, something weird was going on between us for literal years.

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— ୨୧₊˚ mine and sirius' birthday

and here it is. november. it was the time of the year that i tried to figure out how should we convince remus that we became animaguses for him, and that with this 'skill' we want to help him. we knew that he will say no for this idea, but we were determinated. so we started planning how we want to tell him about the whole 'omg remus look, i'm animagus!' thing. in november, james started to look after lily again. he wanted her to notice him, as me & boys knew he was not obsessed, but he was just in love with her, since early age. but i knew that lily doesn't want to has anything to do with him. well, not for now. he wasn't nice for her friend, severus. she cared about him, he was her closest friend, they knew each other even before hogwarts. so i understood why she was mad at james and ignored him.

੭ ME AND SIRIUS TURNED 16!!! we had a party in gryffindor common room, as we always did. every year we had some kind of party, but this one was HUGE. sirius wanted it to be special for both of us, so he invited people from hufflepuff and ravenclaw that we knew. from james and peter i got CDs and t-shirts of my fav band at the time - Fleetwood Mac and ABBA when i asked them how did they get it, they told me that they stole it LMAO sirius got me some perfumes that he knew i liked. BUT REMUS. oh. my. god.

when party was super loud, a lot of people (i mean james, peter nd sirius mainly) were drunk, i was standing by the wall, just drinking coke and talking to lily. then remus came up to us and asked if he can 'kidnap me' i was... kind of shocked. i said 'yes, of course.' so he asked me to close my eyes and he gave me a bandana, that probably belonged to sirius and covered my eyes, and he told me to go after him. he literally HOLD MY HAND and took me out of the common room. i knew it because he told me to 'be careful' and after the whole screams and party noices vanished. for few minutes we were just walking around the castle, when he finally took the bandana off, and told me to open my eyes.

HE. MADE. GODDAMN. PICNIC. ON. AN. ASTRONOMY TOWER.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND? LET ME SAY THIS ONCE AGAIN

HE. MADE. GODDAMN. PICNIC. ON. AN. ASTRONOMY TOWER.

my heart.

he even got this magical vinyl player (i think that in the movie prisoner of azkaban you can see something like this) AND PLAYED DAVID BOWIE

it was SOOOO BEAUTIFUL the weather was perfect, he even tried to apologise me that he didn't have anything else for me, THIS WAS THE BEST PRESENT EVER. we were just sitting, listening to music and eating snacks. IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL, and i can confirm, that THIS WAS THE TIME THAT I WAS SURE THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH REMUS FREAKING LUPIN

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— ୨୧₊˚ peter became illegal animagus

christmas time!!! finally!!!

during past like 3,4 months there was a lot of work to do - me and boys became animaguses, school wasn't the best thing too. i liked most of the classes, but herbology was kiling me. i just UGHHH i don't like magical plants ok? i just can't work with plants even in my cr, sooooo it is what it is. for extra classes i took magical theory and study of ancient runes, as i always found it interesting. 5th year is the year when in hogwarts i needed to pass OWLs to get into another year. i wanted to become an auror, so i had a lot of work anyway.

charms and DADA were the easiest classes for me. i even tought peter and james after classes, as sirius was too lazy to do that, and remus was good at it too.

also peter finally became an illegal animagus, so all of us were able to change our form. and finally, we decided how we would tell remus about the whole thing. as a christmas gift (james came up with that and we all thought that this is a good idea)

— ୨୧₊˚ before christmas

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE

I LOVE CHRISTMAS AT HOGWARTS it's always so beautiful

me and sirius, as well as remus stayed at hogwarts during christmas.

but before james and peter left, we had a little surprise for remus

we planned the whole thing to be perfect in every detail. we had to do it in secret, of course which was kind of almost impossible. it was christmas time, everyone was giving others present, dormitory was FULL of people, somebody wanted to talk, or somebody wanted to give you presents. lily even locked herself in our dormitory to hide FROM JAMES LMAO

but finally we all got a moment when boys could hide in their dormitory, there transform into animagi and i could go and ask remus if he can go after me. it happened on 16.12.75, two days before full moon.

WELL, HE WAS IN SHOCK.

when we got in, first sirius came out as a black dog, and remus didn't know wth is going on, then peter showed up AND THEN JAMES CAME OUT OF A BATHROOM AS A STAG. i just said "well, we knew that you would protest if we told you, soooo we've done that in secret. we want to help you remus" HE WAS JUST STANDING THERE LIKE THIS 🕴🕴🕴 the only thing he said was "oh my god" then he turned to me and said "you too?" and i nodded. then boys turned into human form and james started talking why we did that, that we want to help remus during full moons, taking care of him and watching on him in shrieking shack. in animal form he wouldn't see human beings in us, just other animals. well, remus didn't like the idea. but we proved our right.

੭ 2 days later, when full moon came, we went after remus to whomping willow, and spent whole night with him. we took care that he wouldn't harm himself like he did before. and guess what? we were right. when he turned bck into a human form, we needed to go back to hogwarts before pomfrey would find us. when we met him at the hospital wing, he said that "on merlin's beard, you were right" and since then, we took turns, one time me and sirius spent time with him, once james and peter, other time just me, once me and james etc. and it was working!

— ୨୧₊˚ christmas

this year me and sirius didn't come back home for christmas, even tho' regulus tried to convince us, we said no. james, peter and lily went home, so me, sirius and remus were entirely alone. from gryffindor only we stayed in hogwarts. but we had fun!!

for christmas i got remus a moon calendar, as i know he didn't have one (i scripted that pomfrey was checking on moons then), so he could be warned about full moons coming. he was still kind of mad about us becoming animagi, but i knew that it wouldn't last long. he knew that no matter what we would help him, even if he said 'no'.

for sirius i contacted andromeda to send me new AC/DC album, so i got him a vinyl :)) (album is called T.N.T. and came out 1 december 1975 if you wonder!)

remus stayed because his father wasn't home anyways, so he just stayed at hogwarts

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ OKAY SO IM HERE TO EXPLAIN SOMETHING ABOUT LUPIN FAMILY LOREEE

okay. about mother of remus (hope lupin) i scripted that yes, she's a muggle, she was an opera singer but died when remus was young boy. about his father - lyall lupin - he was a wizard, i scripted that he was in ravenclaw and worked in ministry of magic at department for the regulation and control of magical creatures, because of that he was usually very busy he left contry even for month, so yup :( and that he died during 1st war. i think that making remus' mother an opera singer was kind of beautiful, later on, during the war he listens to her records at 12 grimmuald place and at home that we live in :)) (i will make a playlist with music that she recorded/operas that she performed in)

okay that's all about his family, i will tell more in another post :))

ANYWAY let's get back!

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— ୨୧₊˚ new year's eve

during new year's eve, me, sirius and remus went to astronomy tower as may students did, dumbledore told us that we can party and that we can go there, but he hoped we wouldn't do anything stupid. also, severus snape stayed that year at hogwarts, so of course sirius couldn't stop himself from doing something stupid. when he was trying to prank him, me and remus stayed at astronomy tower and looked at the stars, as well as we did back in november <333 we talked about how he should not be mad at us at accept the fact that we are trying to help him, and then we were stuck in some situation that was just... awkward. i mean, he said that he understand us and he knows that he won't stop us... but i mean, i wanted to kiss this man so badly. like GODDAMN HOW MANY MONTHS DO I NEED TO WAIT

it was cute until sirius came back out of nowhere at just stood behind us and said "ok, now kiss" LMAO it was so awkward

but we made it! we made it to 1976... which was CRAZY

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during these months, we were stuck on studying to OWLs, but what happened was some birthdays and full moons of course.

in january there was first full moon when sirius and peter was around remus when he transformed into a werewolf. sirius and james even made up cover names for us based on our animagi form.

james happened to be prongs, peter was wormtail, sirius was padfoot, i was fang, which i didn't like, but it stayed with me for years, and remus was moony. at first we both didn't like this, but when we started using those names it felt okay. so it stayed like this.

also, in january there was lily's birthday! i got her a silver necklace that she told me she wanted before summer '75, james of course wanted to ask her on a date, she of course said no :( but he still got her flowers and her favourite chocolates from hogsmeade :))

in february, on valentines day, he also was super crazy about her. he was just running around gryffindor common room, not knowing what should he get her, but finally sirius told him to 'calm yourself and try to talk to her like you aren't a psychopath" well, it didn't work either.

i also felt like i want to give something remus for valentines, but i was too scared to do anything 💀💀💀 so i just locked myself in a dormitory and stayed there for whole day, especially day later full moon was there, so remus also stayed for the whole saturday in his dormitory.

in february james and peter stayed with remus during full moon

in march and april nothing really happened, we were just studying for OWLs that were very close, but still james, pter, and sirius got a detention from mcgonagall after they blew up her office 💀💀💀 me and remus stayed out of this kind of business 💀 and thanks to god for that

in march me and james stayed with remus, in april - sirius and peter

ALSOOOO in march remus and james had their birthdays!!!

for remus i got a necklace that was sun-shaped, and i showed him, that i had similar one - but moon-shaped. and guess what HE WORE IT ALL THE TIME, WHENEVER HE COULD. i noticed it after some weeks but still. like, boys were making fun of him because of that, they even called him 'girlypop' LMAO it was funny sometimes, even for remus but some of the times he was so tired of this that he just told them to 'shut up' and then he just went away from them, sometimes to sit with me in common room, sometimes to library.

for james i had mini version of his broom that he owned. it could even fly around the room :)) there was also a party, we did only one but big one :))

AND HERE WE ARE.

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ekhm, ekhm, ekhm... prepare yourself

— ୨୧₊˚ the prank

the prank in my dr is... a crazy domino effect

let's start from the beginning, and let's get through this situation as SLOW as possible.

so,

⋆｡°✩┊3 days before the prank

remus felt more pain because of full moon than he ever did. he stayed in bed, because he didn't want to go to pomfrey, he didn't want to show his weakness at that moment. he locked himself from us, but peter found a way throuhj some holes in walls as an animagi.

so we had eyes on him, even when he didn't want us to.

sirius also started acting... diffrently. i noticed that quickly, like, i'm his sister, we are twins 💀 so i notice things like this fast. he planned something. i knew that. but i didn't care, as i thought that this would be another stupid idea by sirius black. how wrong i was...

⋆｡°✩┊day before the prank

remus was with pomfrey that day. we didn't see him, as pomfrey told us not to do, even when james started literally fighting over it, but she still said no.

during the day, when we were after classes, and we were in common room, i couldn't find sirius there. which was weird, 'cause he always sat with boys in dormitory or in common room. i had to return his books before OWLs that had place next day, and he wanted them back. but i didn't find them. also, this full moon me and james should take care of moony during this night, but prongs was getting sick. i knew that he was also tired from learning to pass OWLs, so i offered that only i would go that night. he protested at first, but finally agreeded. i told him to just go to sleep and rest. i mean, my animagi is puma, so i would be okay, i mean, that's what i thought

⋆｡°✩┊the night when the prank happened

everything was okay at first. as usual, i waited for a bit, so pomfrey would take remus to shrieking shack and come back to hogwarts. that's when we went in our animagi form to whomping willow. and that's what i did too. when i got into shrieking shack, moony was already in his werewolf form. it didn't happen often. i mean, usually we got couple more minutes before he transform. but it didn't happen that day. i felt that he was nervous, even angry at some point, more than usual. so i just got into my sleeping position, and even fell asleep. at first remus was fighting himself, but stopped very quickly. he was calm, layed in the floor. when we were both laying down, after like an hour?? maybe?? something happened. moony suddenly raised his head. but i felt the same thing as he did. someone was outside. i thought it was james, so i stood up and just walked to the spot where i could see the person that was at the time walking down the stairs.

everything happened in seconds.

when i saw severus snape standing at the door, in a milisecond remus stood up and i knew what would happen next. he wanted to atack snape. i felt how he got angry. why didn't severu ran? but when i saw remus getting ready to jump to him, i didn't think twice. i turned into my human form again, and in a blink of an eye i was standing between moony and severus. BUT HE WAS STILL STANDING THERE. like why didn't he run?? i shouted to him, to go find somebody, dumbledore, mcgonagall, or pomfrey, but he was still standing there, too scared to even move an inch. then remus attacked us. i used basic spell to get rid of him for a second, but i knew that it made him angry even more. i shouted 'go' to severus. it finally moved him, and he ran away. i hoped that he would get somebody before something happens.

he attacked me more aggressively, than before. i didn't want to use more hard spells, 'cause i knew that i would hurt him. iwould hurt moony. remus.

so i didn't attack. i just casted spells that would help me protect myself, well, it worked 'till he didn't even see the spells. he just ignored them. like i was just, you know, just a girl that was standing on his way for his food. then it happened. he took a swing and his claws landed on my neck and cheek.

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ANOTHER EXPLAINATION HEREEEEEE

so, when i first created this dr, as a faceclaimi took sophie thatcher, and it stayed like that BUTTT in first 'design' of me i had scars. scars are beautiful. all of the scars have their own story, through scars you can see what someone was going through. and, well the idea stayed with me. but, i wanted the scars to have history, as every scar have one, yk :) sooooo i scripted that i have scars on the right side of my face, on my cheek. then the right side of my neck, and then, a little bit lower on my right hand, forearm, etc., so, as scripted i needed get those from somewhere... and the prank is one of those situations that when i was creating my first script for this dr, i thought 'hell yes, this is THE moment' so, here we are. with a little bit of angst coming in, let's get going :))

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so also i just scripted a 'huge pain' etc. out of my dr, so i just felt a scratch, like nothing really happened.

as soon as this happened, somebody came into the shrieking shack. it was dumbledore and pomfrey, and after them i saw james. he was about to help pomfrey to take my out of there. dumbledore tried to calm down moony. i think i kind of fell asleep? passed out or smth? idk , i just woke up in the hospital wing. remus was sitting next to me, asleep. when pomfrey saw that i'm awake, she came and gave me some meds, she asked how do i feel and told me what happened, even tho i remembered. she also told that remus refused to move from hospital wing untill i woke up :((

when he finally woke up, i said something that was suppose to be 'hey' but sounded more like 'ghrb', LMAO that's bc wounds on my neck. but, it quickly vanished

well... and now the rollarcoaster is coming.

he said, that sirius told severus about whomping willow and the spell that you cast to go to shrieking shack. what he didn't know was that i was alone there. that james stayed in the dormitory for night. it was around midnight when sirius woke james up and started mumbling something like 'why are you here', 'isn't it your turn today?' james started to try to calm sirius down, he waken up peter too. they started talking with him, about what happened, when he finally said that he told severus about remus, james panicked. 'he just shouted something like 'tara is there. alone' sirius looked as if he had seen a ghost. when james left the dormitory, he went to pomfrey to wake her up. when he was on his way, he bumped into severus. both of them was going for someone. severus went to dumbledore, and james to pomfrey. severus stayed in castle, and james went with professors to help them bringing me back to hogwarts. rest of the story i knew.

well, i was in quite shock. SIRIUS. S I R I U S

and i connected the dots too. what he was doing when i couldn't find him.

remus wasn't looking at me when he spoke. and when he spoke again, he also wasn't looking.

teachers didn't know that we were animagis, so james lied to dumbledore about how did i end up there. that i figured out about sirius' plan before boys. and that i went there alone. james told that version to severus and other marauders. also remus.

i was kind of getting ignored by him? i mean, he wasn't looking at him. i was ANNOYED by this. so, even with the 'thing' with my voice, it was better this time. i told him to look at me. he DIDN'T. bro. why the fuck. then i said it again. when he finally looked at me, his eyes were teary. HELL NAH. he literally cried. about what happened. he was BRRRRROKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN. about what happened. he knew what he had done while being in his werewolf form. and he didn't want to look at me because of that. hell. no.

i said, that it's not his fault. that i don't want him to be sorry. and, oh god why, he literally SHOUTED at me 😭 that i have no idea, that he destroyed me, that he almost killed me. that he made me ugly. he literally used that word. UGLY. so i said that he have wounds too. that they are not making him ugly. that he is even more beautiful because of that. so then he just got up and left. GOT UP AND LEFT.

and how am i supposed to react bro. HOW.

in big summary, after him dumbledore came in. he told me that he sent an owl to my parents. he didn't tell the truth tho. he needed to lie about this situation, as also my parents were anti-werewolfes yk. he also told me that 'mr lupin is mad at your brother, and he's ignoring your other friends. he blame himself about what happened. and about what happened to you.' he just told me that he needs to take points from gryffindor, but i shouldn't feel that it's because of me. 'and even mr snape won't say that, he is thankful. you can stay here for some days. poppy will probably force you to stay until the wounds heal.' well, i heard pomfrey say that those wounds will stay with me forever, as scars, but it was okay. as i said scars are BEAUTIFUL and in that moment i knew that. they didn't make me ugly. they didn't destroy me. i was still me. scars only made me more visible. more me.

about my OWLs - i did pass them, dumbledore proposed me another deadline. i left hopsital wing after a week. pomfrey healed my wounds as much as possible, but as she said, these are magical wounds, and they won't vanish from my body. they will stay with me as scars.

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for two weeks after the prank i still have trouble with speaking, but with potions from pomfrey it . me & marauders passed OWLs, so we are kind of celebrating :))

andddddd here we are

— ୨୧₊˚ i finally confessed my feeling to remus

so let's just go STRAIGHT to this moment 'cause i wanted to share this with you for literal month LMAOOO

okay.

here we go.

everything started after like a month after may accident?? something around that.

remus was still mad at sirius, so was i. i mean, yes, he was my brother, but yes, he did what he did. and he will not run away from that. but after all he literally was stalking me to check if i'm okay, brang me potions from pomfrey, which was very nice from him, and i knew that he had done that because he was kind of stupid LMAO i think you know what i'm talking about. he didn't think about consequences of that :( remus sat separately from us. and in june, i got rid of that, and sat in front of him. he didn't talk to me, didn't even look at me. i was angry of course. he was my best friend, and he just stoped talking to me, because of what sirius had done. at the time my wounds were healed and i didn't wear any bandage or something - it wasn't necessary. and yes, as i said before, i have scars as i meant in the beggining of creating this dr. he wanted to go away, but when he stood up, i thought that maybe we just need to talk face to face, without anybody around us. So i said his name, he stopped for a second. I said something like 'can we talk at the astronomy tower tonight at midnight?' BUT HE DIDN'T EVEN NOD OR SOMETHING. like goddamn, why. but ANYWAY, he just walked away back to dormitory, and i hoped that he will show up (like i do not have it scripted LMAO)

okay so let's move on.

i stayed up all night nd just before midnight i got myself up and went to astronomy tower, hoping that he would be there. HMHMHM GUESS WHAT.

he was there.

he was already there when i came PLSSSSS

he was standing back to me, i didn't see his face or something, so i just stood next to him, and when he like didn't talk, i started explaining to him, that all of this that happened wasn't his fault. (well at some point it was also mine, i didn't defend myself as i could just because i didn't want to hurt him lol) and then i saw that he cried??? LITERALLY CRIED??? so i just shut up and we stayed in silence. AND THEN THERE IS T H I S PART. I LITERALLY SCIPTED ALL OF THIS (as i love that i do not script almost anything that people are saying, it's kind of funny sometimes, but here i scripted THE WHOLE THING WE WERE SAYING LMAO) so basiclly he said: 'I hurted you. The marks humans leave are too often scars. And the worst pain for me is, that i know i did this to you.' AND HERE HE FINALLY LOOKED AT ME. “Pain is temporary, but quitting lasts forever. I do not want you to leave because of that. I need you, remus. I don't care about this. I didn't care and i won't care untill i die. You would've never done that, and you know that. Do not seperate from me please, because this is what could make me feel worse. That you don't want to see me, touch me, speak to me." (i said) and there we stayed silence and i knew what i said. I LITERALLY CONFESSED MY FEELINGS TO HIM. so i kept going with this "You are closer to me than James or Peter, you know that. And i think i..." (here was a dramatic pause ofc lmao) "I think i feel something diffrent to you than to them. i don't know how to say this" Basiclly i started to stress and started mumbling, and he was still looking at me. AND THEN THIS HAPPENED.

REMUS FUCKING LUPIN KISSED ME GUYS

LET'S CELEBRATE OMG KJSDFHKJSHFKJSHDFKJDSFBSKDF

he said "You have no idea how i struggled to keep myself away from you."

MY HEART

MY.

HEART.

I AM STILL IN SHOCK OKAY. IT'S BEEN A MONTH AND THIS IS ALL I THINK ABOUT.

(and all of this wouldn't happen without lily, she literally told me 'she'i will kill you if you do not talk to him right now' so i guess she is a mother of this success here)

THE END OF PART 1

ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ ᴠᴇʟᴠᴇᴛ - marauders dr playlist

“ɪ ꜱᴏʟᴇᴍɴʟʏ ꜱᴡᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴜᴘ ᴛᴏ ɴᴏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ.” - my little mixtape

'ᴍʏ ᴍᴜᴍ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴀɴ ᴏᴘᴇʀᴀ ꜱɪɴɢᴇʀ, ʏᴀ ᴋɴᴏᴡ?' - hope lupin

ʙʟᴀᴄᴋ ᴠᴇʟᴠᴇᴛ - pinterest board

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WRITING THIS WAS A TORTUREEEEEEEEEEE it took me whole month i'm so sorry that i update it rn. i also need to edit this because i made a lot of mistakes LMAO, so pls don't come after me if i misspelled some words or changed from past to present lmao

but yup. Part 2 will come sooner i promise <3

#yup guys stay tuned #(i need to go back there RIGHT NOW)#reality shifting #shifting #desired reality #quantum jumping #shifting community #reality shifter #shifting realities

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thesoulsofthedarned · 3 months

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So I finished the Rimet Cup Event

It was really good! I enjoyed the event story a lot, mostly because of the characters and how they moved the plot along. Nothing felt boring or dragged out longer than it should, plus the character interactions were funny and wholesome.

Melania was a queen, I thought she was cool at first but seeing her in action was amazing. I also liked her dynamic with Ms. Acey, and her plan to steal the Rimet Cup was interesting to watch unfold. Pickles was cool too, though what really got me invested was his relationship with Charlton. Regulus and Mr. APPle’s side plot was funny, I’m glad I got to see more of them.

The character who really stole the show for me was Diggers. I already liked him because prior to this event I thought he was a typical chill hippie dude that was just a little in over his head. Then I found out that apparently people hated this guy because it turned out he was lowkey a terrorist??? Bro was stealing documents, disrupting the peace, drugged a whole BLOCK of people to throw an improvised block party, and apparently in a scene I haven’t seen yet, kidnapped Pickles because he got more attention than him?!

I thought my opinion on him would shift watching these events unfold but no, I love him all the same. He’s just this chaotic, silly lil dude who wants to spread peace (by doing it in the worst way possible)! This man was honestly hilarious, and the fact that he may or may not have joined the Manus Vindictae in 1.4 is just insane to me. Bro really thought the best way to spread peace and love was to join a literal terrorist cult, that’s actually hilarious.

TL;DR: event rerun was great, Diggers was the best character, I love him 🥰

#reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 diggers #i love him so much #And before anyone asks:#No I do not agree with this man’s methods #Nor would I support him if he were real #I just find him incredibly entertaining #Also if you hate diggers thats totally valid #I can understand how a good chunk of people hate him for being a peace disturbing hypocrite who only opposes the law unless it suits him #Plus theres the whole “drugging people” thing #I just appreciate how Reverse 1999 is ok with making characters who are genuinely flawed and not just superficially imperfect #Anyways thats all I have to say goodbye and good luck on your pulls 👍

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july-19th-club · 3 months

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having THE most insane type of scrupulosity situation going on right now which is that. ok for background. i grew up catholic as many know and round about college stopped going to services regularly. and even when i was a kid and therefore obligated to be religious i never had any strong beliefs about it. so i'm the lapsed catholic's lapsed catholic - steeped enough in the cultural mindset to have issues but with no odd hangups about whether god exists (i just don't think he does). so for the past ten twelve years or so the only time i've been to mass has been when i'm with the family for some function or occasion and i've been obligated to go, and due to my general atheism i've never had this huge urge to seek out different kinds of organized religion. i'm intrigued by the reform jewish philosophy but not intrigued enough to formally attempt to join another ritualized congregation etc. but this has been a very trying year and my mother has been on me about Going To Church and i said yeah sure yeah might be a good idea. but i'm not going to YOUR church because i cannot sit through one of your boss's masses and feel anything other than the need to argue theology with him (she is the parish finance wrangler, so priest is her boss. same priest who in 2016 drove my fourth grade teacher to leave the parish entirely bc of his 1st week of november sermon about how you're betraying the Cause (aka antiabortion. that was the only cause) by not voting trump). ANYWAY. so i'm not going to that church. and the only church in my area that i could find that has what i'm looking for which is to say no christian god PER SE is the local Unitarian Universalist around the park from my job. bit of a drive on a day when i don't normally go anywhere but whatever. and on their website it says their summer services are Themed (this year's Theme is The Creative Spirit) and what the service seems to consist of mostly is a bit of drumming and a Chalice (i don't think you drink from it. i think it's ceremonial). and like. folks talkin'. and that's it! which is my ISSUE. like...it seems to EASY. like what i just go there and it's like a weekend class up at chautauqua where some hippie gets enthused about the spirit for a bit and then you leave feeling like you had a fun time but not like, a religiously challenging one? like, is that allowed? is this allowed? like it feels like it doesn't COUNT you know what i mean? like that's not church that's a free music class with a demographic (middle aged ladies who enjoy a good crystal store). what am i supposed to do with THAT. it's too EASY!

the next loosest church is the episcopal one next door to my job. oldest church in the diocese, beautiful dark stone, red door, the works. never been inside but due to its proximity to my work and the great architecture i have had a lot of dreams about what i imagine its interior to look like. this church is like catholic lite as a friend (who i did meet at chautauqua also) once described it. they have a sermon and some prayers and what is called a Healing something after the mass. which i guess is not a mass, it's just a service, huh, because only catholic churches have masses. between where i live and the town where i work are like thirty miles of small "nondenominational" protestant cult churches who are all salivating for new members, which is obviously out of the question. and i'm like in this quandry okay.

which is insane. i feel like i SHOULD go to the episcopal church because a) they said they have some kind of health prayer and i have been particularly concerned with my health over the last month or two which is part of why i'm so stressed i feel the need to go to church, and if i go to the place without the healing prayer i may not have good health. which is obviously a buck wild thought but not one i can easily let go of now that i've had it. and b) because it sounds like Church. like you go there and you say some hail marys, presumably, or something similar, and a guy gets up in a robe and says his opinions on something which you don't really agree with but you sit through it anyway and try not to be too visibly upset when he he hauls off with something really messed up. and then afterward he lays on his hands or something. and maybe this church would NOT have a guy who hauls off with messed up stuff in the homily. maybe he really does accept everybody and pray for peace and all that. maybe so. maybe my biases and my fears are steering me here. and that's the other thing because the UU thing sounds FUN. church is not really intended to be fun in my imagination. it's an obligation that you fulfill in order to get good fortune out of it if you are polite enough to god in the process. even though every religious person i've ever spoken to describes god and grace as non-transactional, the culture tells me that it absolutely IS: when you're low on good emotional stuff or you want some boon you think is ungettable, they'll say 'go to church'. which indicates that there's some transaction taking place, no, that you attend and THEN you receive blessing. blessing does not get to you unless you fulfill your end of a bargain which includes acquiescing to the church itself. the Fun Spiritual Experience sounds too fun to get you that. like i would go and have fun, but would my life get better? would i regret it because it felt like i was wasting time when i needed to be going to a place where i could get a guarantee that i would be healthy during a busy work week which is all i really want right now, to be healthy this week so i don't disrupt the workflow when everybody's schedules are out of whack? it feels like going somewhere just to have fun does NOT net you that. you have to go to a place that does not give you fun and you have to submit to the rigors. or there's no exchange, there's no offering taking place, is there? you're just indulging yourself, at which point you might as well stay home

#im WAY overthinking this but you see my brain and my spiritual background wont let me do anything else

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I’ve been thinking real hard and I’ve decided to create a Guts and blackpowder au for welcome home. This is still a work in progress since I just started on it today. I will do my best to combine the two but im not great at this stuff so this will be somewhat bad. I mainly thought of this from the achievement Alone, at the end of the world which means that many people ( or puppets if you may) are no longer. The lore for it currently is instead of it being those who forsake god it is instead Home being determined to take over the world or something like that. Wally is a devout worshipper of Home having an odd cult around Home which protects the members from the blight but at the cost of their free will. At this time the only other characters I have worked on are Sally and Poppy. Sally has been going insane since nobody is caring about her drama so she just kinda sits in the theater waiting for an audience to give her attention. Poppy is one of the leaders of the remainder of the people or puppets who haven’t been turned into a zombie of gone of to join Wally. For characters that’s all I’ve really done for now.

Feel free to give suggestions since this is a work in progress. Also feel free to draw your oc’s or draw them along with the neighbors. Oh wait I forgot to mention that guts and blackpowder is a napoleonic era zombies game. Either way thanks to Fezezen, 1936indiana, Mad(mad_hhhh), ElectroMotiveDev, Kristopherf, and Electronic_Person for making guts and blackpowder on Roblox. I’m sure they’d be happy if you played the game.

#Au #welcome home #welcome Home au #guts and blackpowder #Guts and blackpowder au

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mercair · 7 months

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Okay so I may or may not be working on drawing some of my secret bosses with yours (cough cough Veratus cough cough Quiddo), but since scrolling through your blog and seeing other people ask how your bosses would react to theirs, I gotta know.

How would your secret bosses react to Bitsy, Elymas, and Veratus?

Ooh we got some interesting folks here!

Also i already saw your drawing, and i loved it!!

Let's start with Woostern! Lucky for Bitsy, Woostern doesn't watch Tv at all! (Unexpected, right?) If Woostern knew about the dark twisted stuff she was doing back then she'd be in a pickle. Also, that mantle... Looks familiar to her. About Elymas! Woostern has always been neutral about religion n' stuff so i don't think she'd understand anything Elymas has to say, but her lil' FRIEND may do! And as for Veratus... Shouldn't have brought a sword to a GUN FIGHT... Wait, she doesn't have a gun.

Bonslick! Well, as usual he flirts and tries to look cool in front of evrey pretty woman he sees so yeah, Bitsy. He doesn't care about any religion related stuff either, so yeah he ain't joining Elymas' cult, bro literally just wants to beat up Gaster. And Veratus, well uh, he's kinda like a royal guard of some sort, right...? Well Bonslick doesn't really get along with the po-po so... YOU'LL NEVER TAKE HIM ALIVE, RAT!!

Left-E!! Luckily there is NO data of Bitsy on his criminal database, but as SOON as she starts doing creepy stuff in front of children she's OUT. Ice-E's P"E"ZZA doesn't allow crazy cultleaders to enter the establishment anymore, sorry Elymas. And Veratus... Reformed by the criminal, and now loyal to the criminal, i think this interacion would go wrong in several ways.

Sonatta! Well, besides her creepy behavior sometimes, she seems like a nice friend to take a cup of tea with! I think she'd outright disagree with Elymas, the angel exists! They just haven't showed up yet... And as for Veratus, i think they could probably get along! Considering she also came from a very similar dark world.

Quiddo! Quiddo is very Quiddo to everyone, no matter their multiple eyes, religion, or if they just outright hate Quiddo! Now. Quiller. Disturbing the minds of innocent children may be one of the most inoffensive things Quiller has ever seen, not much to add onto that. If Elymas ever saw half of what Quiller has seen, they'd realize there is no entity in this world or any other that's worth putting your faith on, not even yourself, on Quiller's mind, they should give up. And Veratus, on Quiller's eyes, is just another decomposing corpse.

Shikari. She never watched kids cartoons or whatever, but secretly she wishes to have grown up watching a show like Bitsy's, specially after she went insane, that would've rocked. She does not care about religion either, for what she knows she might be the devil incarnated so yeah, good luck trying to convert her Elymas. And as for Veratus! Oh she's for sure fighting him, even if it isn't a fair or entertaining fight, but just because he's loyal to HIM. Veratus might be a dead rat, but who says Shikari can't kill what's already dead?

#deltarune secret boss #deltarune oc #deltarune #sheriff woostern #bonslick the wicked #left-e #sonatta #quiddo #shikari #Bitsy #Elymas #Veratus

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Cateye ( Korean : 케이트아이 ) is a sub-unit of the fictional girl group VIVACE under I-Teen Media. The unit consists of four members : SOOMIN, MEI MEI, KYURI, & XINYI who debuted on December 11, 2019, two month after VIVACE’s debut, with the mini album CATEYE.

Popular for their experimental music and darker concepts, Cateye took the industry by storm with their creative concepts and interesting music. The last sub-unit of VIVACE to debut, Cateye is formed with the youngest members of the group and their goal is to bring youth and freshness into VIVACE and show fans concepts that they don’t see commonly from the group. Their debut song, ‘No.’, quickly gained them popularity and overtime their concepts have given them a huge international fanbase. Cateye is is the second biggest sub-unit of VIVACE and has built a cult following.

౨ৎ BASICS

NAME : Cateye ( 케이트아이 )

LABEL : I-Teen Media

DEBUT DATE : December 11, 2019

DEBUT SONG : No.

MEMBERS : SOOMIN, MEI MEI, KYURI, XINYI

FANDOM : MAOMI

౨ৎ MEMBER PROFILES

ᡣ𐭩 Seo Soomin was born in Seoul, South Korea on May 11, 1999. She was born into the Seo-Park Family, a famous Korean family full of models, actors, and fashion icons. Soomin was born as the youngest of three snobby older siblings: her two older sisters, Soojin & Minju, and her older brother, Soobin. Due to growing up with a family with horrible personalities and insane amounts of wealth, Soomin turned out to be very spoiled and rude.

Her family’s fame opened the door for Soomin to get a bunch of opportunities she didn’t earn. When she was sixteen, her parents paid for her to her music career as a soloist despite having no prior experience in performing. Although she didn’t earn her career fairly, her visuals and surprisingly good vocals attracted South Korea, and her debut song debuted in the top 10 on the global charts. When Soomin turned nineteen, she announced her hiatus as a soloist because she would be joining a survival show the following year to debut in a group.

Soomin participated in I-Doll in 2019 and ended up ranking #10. Despite her being a nepo baby, most people hated how obnoxious her family was, and she even had a lot of backlash for being on the show in the first place and making it into the debut lineup. Soomin debuted in VIVACE on September 17, 2019, as a Vocalist, Rapper, & Dancer, and in their third sub-unit, Cateye, on December 11, 2019, as the Leader, Main Rapper, & Lead Vocalist. Soomin has claimed she isn’t like her family anymore, but a lot of people don’t buy it and have said she’s very passive-aggressive and rude behind closed doors.

౨ৎ BASICS

BIRTH NAME : Seo Soo-Min ( 서수민 )

STAGE NAME : Soomin ( 수민 )

BIRTHDATE : May 11, 1999

BIRTHPLACE : Seoul, South Korea

ETHNICITY : Korean

SEXUALITY : Lesbian & Asexual

౨ৎ CAREER

PROFESSION : Idol

LABEL : I-Teen Media ( 2019 - Present )

TRAINING PERIOD : 1 year ( 2018 - 2019 )

GROUP : VIVACE

SUB-UNITS : Cateye

CATEYE POSITIONS : Leader, Main Rapper, & Lead Vocalist

VIVACE POSITIONS : Vocalist, Rapper, & Dancer

FANDOM NAME : SEOBYEONG

౨ৎ PHYSICAL

FACE CLAIM : Choi Yena

HEIGHT : 162 cm ( 5’3)

tw : injuries, chronic pain

ᡣ𐭩 Cai Yumei was born on June 13, 1999 in Nanjing, Jiangsu, China to former professional dancers. Yumei’s parents taught her how to dance from a very young age, and she participated in many dance shows and competitions. By the age of thirteen, she was named one of the most talented dancers in the country, but later that year, during practice, she fell and had to be rushed to the hospital. Unfortunately, her doctor informed her that she had fractured her knee and would have a high chance of never dancing again.

Yumei was devastated by her injury and had to stop dancing to focus on school and starting physical therapy. Her love of dance never vanished; she could even begin to slightly dance at eighteen after years of recovery and physical therapy. To her surprise, a talent agency located in South Korea reached out to give her a contract as a dancer, and she immediately accepted. Yumei moved to Korea and trained her dancing more as a trainee under the company and was amazingly regaining functions in her injured leg.

In 2019, Yumei’s company sent her to audition for the idol survival show I-Doll, where she ranked last place at #13, just barely making it into the debut lineup. Yumei debuted in VIVACE on September 17, 2019, as a Dancer & Vocalist and in its third sub-unit, Cateye, on December 11, 2019, as the Main Dancer & Sub Vocalist. To this day, Yumei’s injury still isn’t fully healed, and she experiences a lot of pain if she dances too much, but her story has inspired a lot of people to chase their dreams despite the difficulties.

౨ৎ BASICS

BIRTH NAME : Cai Yu Mei ( 菜玉梅 )

STAGE NAME : MEI MEI ( 메이 메이 )

KOREAN NAME : Choi Yu-mi ( 최유미 )

BIRTHDATE : June 13, 1999

BIRTHPLACE : Nanjing, Jiangsu, China

ETHNICITY : Chinese

SEXUALITY : Straight

౨ৎ CAREER

PROFESSION : Dancer, Idol

LABEL : I-Teen Media ( 2019 - Present )

TRAINING PERIOD : 2 years ( 2017 - 2019 )

GROUP : VIVACE

SUB-UNITS : Cateye

CATEYE POSITIONS : Main Dancer & Sub Vocalist

VIVACE POSITIONS : Dancer & Vocalist

FANDOM NAME : CAIYU

౨ৎ PHYSICAL

FACE CLAIM : Shen Xiaoting

HEIGHT : 168 cm ( 5’6 )

tw : abusive father, alcoholism, domestic violence

ᡣ𐭩 Katherine Kim was born in New York City, New York, USA on October 12, 2001 to a newlywed Korean couple. She grew up close to her mother due to her father's growing alcohol addiction, and her mom gave her the nickname Kitty, which stuck through her childhood. They even ended up making it her legal name on her tenth birthday. Around the age of twelve, Kitty accidentally found out about the long-time abuse her mother had been facing at the hands of her father after walking in on him hitting her mom after an argument.

Kitty’s mom told them not to worry about their father, to keep quiet around him, and to focus on her education. So with that, she lived four more years having to deal with her father’s abuse towards her mother until the night before her fourteenth birthday when they and their dad got into a horrible argument about Kitty wanting to pursue a music career instead of going into business like he was. Kitty’s mother walked in the middle of her husband, hitting Kitty, and then immediately grabbed Kitty and ran.

Her mother filed for divorce and took Kitty to move with her back to South Korea. Being away from their father was the most free Kitty had ever felt in her life, and they could start doing the things they liked, including singing and dancing. At sixteen, she got into a talent agency to pursue a singing career and auditioned the following year on the survival show I-Doll. Despite having no prior fame before the show, Kitty quickly became a fan-favorite contestant and finished the show ranking #9. She debuted as a Rapper, Vocalist, & Dancer of VIVACE on September 17, 2019, and the Lead Rapper & Lead Dancer of their third sub-unit, Cateye, on December 11, 2019. Kitty is known by fans as the OT13 Fairy because, despite the members disliking each other, they always finds a way to get them together for photos/hangouts and seems to be the glue holding them together.

౨ৎ BASICS

BIRTH NAME : Katherine (Kitty) Kim

STAGE NAME : KYURI ( 큐리 )

KOREAN NAME : Kim Kyu-Ri ( 김큐리 )

BIRTHDATE : October 12, 2001

BIRTHPLACE : New York City, New York, USA

ETHNICITY : Korean

SEXUALITY : Bisexual & Nonbinary (She/They)

౨ৎ CAREER

PROFESSION : Idol

LABEL : I-Teen Media ( 2019 - Present )

TRAINING PERIOD : 10 months ( 2018 - 2019 )

GROUP : VIVACE

SUB-UNITS : Cateye

CATEYE POSITIONS : Lead Rapper & Lead Vocalist

VIVACE POSITIONS : Rapper, Vocalist, & Dancer

FANDOM NAME : KITTY KAT

౨ৎ PHYSICAL

FACE CLAIM : Huh Yunjin

HEIGHT : 174 cm ( 5’8 )

tw : death of a family member, mentions of drug dealing

ᡣ𐭩 Zhao Xinyi was born on January 4, 2002 in Shanghai, China to a low-income family with her mother, father, and older brother, Xuejian. Her family struggled a lot with money issues, and her parents took up multiple jobs to support them. Xinyi had always felt like she deserved better than what she had with her surprisingly strong singing abilities and natural beauty. Even from a young age, she knew she would be a star. When she was only eight years old, her mother and father ended up passing away in a freak accident, and Xinyi was sent away to live at an orphanage with her then sixteen year old brother.

Only a year after living at the orphanage, Xuejian ended up falling into a life of drugs and started selling them to make money. One night, he ran away from the orphanage without even telling Xinyi, and due to her getting adopted a few weeks later, they lost contact with each other and haven’t spoken since. Xinyi’s new family was everything she had ever wanted. Rich, famous, superstars, everything she had looked up to as a child, and anyone could see she was letting it get to her head, gaining a massive ego. Her parents commonly moved to different places worldwide for work, including France, Greece, and Canada, but they decided to stay in Seoul, South Korea, for a while to settle down.

To no one’s surprise, Xinyi was scouted by a bunch of major companies over the years, but declined a lot of them because they didn’t fit her standard of perfection. At fifteen, she was scouted by a super famous company that even offered to pay her family to get her to join. She joined the company and was known as the Ice Princess trainee for her cold personality, and some trainees were even scared of her. In 2019, she auditioned on I-Doll and ranked #7 and debuted as a Vocalist & the Maknae of VIVACE on September 17, 2019, and in Cateye on December 11, 2019, as the Main Vocalist & Maknae. Xinyi is regarded by the members as possibly the meanest member in the group and doesn’t even try to hide her dislike for the other members, even going as far as publicly slandering them multiple times. Although she has a huge ego, she knows her talent and visuals make up for it, so she doesn’t really care about repercussions.

౨ৎ BASICS

BIRTH NAME : Zhao Xin Yi ( 赵欣怡 )

STAGE NAME : Xinyi ( 신이 )

KOREAN NAME : Jang Si-Eun ( 장시은 )

BIRTHDATE : January 4, 2002

BIRTHPLACE : Shanghai, China

ETHNICITY : Chinese

SEXUALITY : Unlabeled

౨ৎ CAREER

PROFESSION : Idol

LABEL : I-Teen Media ( 2019 - Present )

TRAINING PERIOD : 2 years ( 2017 - 2019 )

GROUP : VIVACE

SUB-UNITS : Cateye

CATEYE POSITIONS : Main Vocalist & Maknae

VIVACE POSITIONS : Vocalist & Maknae

FANDOM NAME : ROSIE

౨ৎ PHYSICAL

FACE CLAIM : Ningning

HEIGHT : 161 cm ( 5’3 )

౨ৎ DISCOGRAPHY

CATEYE : debut mini album ( 2019 )

I GOT A BOY : mini album ( 2020 )

DUSK : single album ( 2020 )

COVEN : mini album ( 2021 )

KISSY : digital single ( 2021 )

BLACK DRESS : single album ( 2022 )

BLACK CAT : full album ( 2022 )

ROCK UR BODY! : digital single ( 2022 )

RLLY BAD BOY.. : mini album ( 2023 )

SPACE PRINCESS : full album ( 2023 )

CATGIRLZ : mini album ( 2024 )

#kpop oc #ᯓ ᡣ𐭩 ⸺ vivace [cateye]#ᯓ ᡣ𐭩 ⸺ vivace [profiles]#fake kpop girl group #fake kpop idol #fake kpop oc #fictional idol community #fictional kpop oc #fake kpop group #fictional kpop group #oc kpop gg #oc kpop group #fictional kpop idol

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good-beans · 9 months

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You talked a little while ago about why you don't think Shidou would make a good father to Amane (agreed) and proposed the idea of Mahiru adopting Amane. That's cute but I want to tell you about my post-MILGRAM headcanon:

Amane joins the Kajiyamas

Not Fuuta specifically adopting her, but like him taking her back to his family's house. I'm sure they'd have a spare room

I think people don't think about Fuuta's homelife much, or if they do they take Fuuta's one interrogation question where he calls his dad an old fogey and assume its like, abusive

And don't get me wrong, I don't think the Kajiyama household are perfect. Fuuta' beautician sister surely hasn't helped when it comes to Fuuta's body image issues and I'm betting they're all a bunch of tsunderes too embarrassed to say they love each other

But in a series where most of the abused characters are still convinced their abuser loved them/acted out of love. Seeing a guy not be afraid to call his dad a loser is almost a green flag

I think it'd be good for Amane to not necessarily be adopted as the lone child to a single parent but get to be introduced to a very different style of family unit from her own One where its normal to express different opinions or disagreements or even have arguments and not have it be the end of the world

Amane already has a snarky side to her, I bet it'd flourish in a brash household like the Kajiyama's (or at least how I imagine them to be)

OOHHH wait I love that so much! >:O

I agree -- I never interpreted Fuuta's family as abusive or harmful, just not super close and struggling a bit after his mother left. (And yeah, all as openly emotional as him😭) They seem stable and very capable to taking in a extra, very well-behaved child. Assuming Fuuta is the way he is because of them, that atmosphere of being very honest and forward would work well for her. They say things as they are, little by little pointing out the harmful parts of her worldview. Like you said, none of them make excuses about harmful behavior stemming from love, so she'd get a really healthy dose of truth in that area. She never feels coddled or treated like a baby. They care for her while treating her very maturely.

I absolutely love how well she and Fuuta get along, with that snarky side to her that you mentioned. It would allow her to fit in well in the new household, getting the sense of belonging she'll lose after leaving the cult. Also, seeing how Fuuta and his sister let things slip and aren't perfect sons/daughters, she'll be able to relax about earning a parent's love through perfect behavior. She'll probably stay exactly the same, but her stress about it will fade <3

I doubt Fuuta's father can ever replace the hole she'll have from her own father, but the addition of an older sister will be huge. Amane will never get the feeling her mother is being replaced, but the woman will still fill the gap of the older, same-gender role model she needs. Her beautician job may throw Amane at first (being an indulgence in vanity), but it isn't as in-your-face as other careers. I think she could definitely ease Amane into accepting it, and over time, accepting her own personal "indulgence."

Plus, her moving in would also be really good for Fuuta! I think he'd recognize there's a ton of fun things she missed out on, and that heroic side of him outweighs the part that cringes: he gripes and groans about going to "kid places," but he's always the one to announce "I can't believe you've never been to __, we're going right now!!" This allows him to touch grass leave the house and experience his own life to the fullest. He's able to channel his desire to help society into a healthier outlet. Also, seeing her studying habits and plans for the future might even inspire him to do the same. (might.) He becomes the stereotypical good big brother, though of course he denies it viciously...

I have recently been going insane over their friendship so I'm completely taken with this idea OUGH thank you for telling me ;-----;

#milgram #amane momose #fuuta kajiyama #i am going to think about this nonstop now 😭✨#ive literally been thinking of how much i love their sibling relationship but didnt consider them becoming Actual siblings ;---;#my heart...#the way i interpret the family theyd be able to give her a good mix of treating her like an adult and still giving her the 'childish' care #that she missed out on #and that honesty would just be really healthy for her #she learns not to fear punishment because if someone has a problem with her theyll just say it and move on #she is also a very straightforward person so shed communicate well with all of them #and yeah... i never realized how good an older sister would be for her but thats perfect #also i dont think fuuta is that fucked up lol but it sounds like he has no commitment to school/his future #so once he realizes he wants to help amane and be there for her he really buckles down on everything #if anyone can Fix Him amane can asdfsdfs #now im picturing all the adults scrambling to prepare themselves and trying to figure out if they're in a state to take on a new child #the time comes to leave milgram and they plan this whole speech to ask amane who she'd feel most comfortable living with and all this stuff #then they spot her walking away with fuuta while hes actively trying to get her to stop following him 💀💀💀#ask #rose posts

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may i request a part 2 to “pretty when you cry”? It was so good and i have to know what happens next if your willing to write it!!

PRETTY WHEN YOU CRY (part 2)

pairing: tai x van x reader

word count: 2833

notes and warnings: aaaaahhhhh. hope this lives up to yalls expectations lmao i had no inspo while writing but hey we see all the girls in this part so <3 only tw is cult mommy matthews tries to sacrifice us to the wilderness . not proofread.

summary: maybe you should read part 1 and then you’d know smh smh

You ran through the forest, tripping over branches and running into trees, but not stopping, never stopping. You could feel her behind you, her presence almost tangible, and though you got as far away from her as you could it never felt like enough.

Finally you reached the end of the forest and you were back at the edge of the compound. Spinning around to check that she wasn’t near, you took a moment to breathe and collect yourself. It had been a while since you’d run that far, let alone that fast, and it felt like your lungs had gone up into flames.

There was no sign of Taissa anywhere. It was as if she was never there in the first place.

Taking the opportunity of her absence as permission to stop running, you walked the rest of the way through the field of the compound, eventually reaching what you’d heard Lottie call the Sharing Shack. You tried the door, and seeing as it wasn’t locked you went inside, flipping the lock behind you.

You jumped when you turned and were faced with the other four women who had come to the wellness center. They were sitting in a circle around a small table, staring at you, taking in your disheveled appearance and labored breathing.

Lottie, who you hadn’t noticed was sitting in the corner, stood and came to meet you where you still stood at the door. Van was close behind, and in a moment you were trapped between the two of them and the door.

“Are you okay?” Van asked in a hushed voice, taking your hand. “Where’s Tai?”

You didn’t answer, not entirely sure what to say, how to describe what you had witnessed.

“It happened again, didn’t it?” Lottie asked. “She changed.”

You nodded. “She said I wasn’t supposed to know.”

“Know about what?”

Again, you weren’t sure what to say. You didn’t want a similar situation with the rest of them as you had just had with Taissa, but the only way you gained protection was by explanation, and you had no other choice. “What you did to Jackie,” you said, and both of them were silent. “And Javi… what happened to Travis and Lara Lee. I’m not supposed to know that it chooses.”

“It only ever wanted one of us,” Lottie said. “You’re an outsider. It feels threatened.”

You shook your head, shoving your way through the two of them and approaching the back exit of the shack. You hardly acknowledged the rest of the women sitting there, listening to the exchange. “You’re all fucking insane,” you accused. “I’m going home, I can’t stay here with all of this.”

“No, wait-” Van started, but you cut her off.

“I’m not going to listen to another one of your tangents about how Taissa isn’t in control of it, or how you think it’s some fucking forest god causing all of this,” you said, your voice calm but cold. “I listened to everything you told me, and I was fine with it. I agreed to let Taissa stay with us for a few nights even though she’s fucking crazy. I came with the two of you to join a damn cult! But I’m not going to get chased through the woods by someone you think is possessed who clearly needs serious help, Van.”

Van came toward you, watched you with a sense of defeat that you would have done anything to undo under different circumstances. “Just stay the night, please. Let us find Tai and make sure everything’s okay, and then in the morning if you’re still upset we can go back home.”

You shook your head, in disbelief. “We can go home? I thought you made it pretty fucking clear that it’s over for us, didn’t you? If not today, in a few months. Let’s make it easier on ourselves.”

You paused, turning to Lottie. “And you,” you accused, “if you even think of pulling something on me like you did with Natalie, I will call the cops. You can’t just kidnap people, that’s fucking deranged.”

You turned to leave, and you had just walked through the threshold and out into the rest of the wellness center when something sharp collided with the back of your head, and in a daze you were sent to the floor, consciousness flickering away until all you saw was darkness.

–

“Misty, you can’t do shit like that!”

“I was just trying to help!”

“Does it look like you fucking helped?”

A short pause. “Well, yes, actually. She looks a lot more peaceful like that.”

“Oh my god.”

“Save it, I’ve already heard it from the others.”

The first person sighed, and as you slowly gained consciousness you began to process the conversation, the voices. You forced your eyes open, and you were faced with the wood ceiling of a cabin. Someone was sitting at your bedside, and as the world began to come more into focus, you recognized who it was.

You jolted back, sitting up and leaning against the headboard. You pulled your legs to your chest, trying to get as far away from her as you could, everything she had done the night before flashing through your mind. How she had pulled a knife after accusing you of being an outsider. How she had attempted to kill you multiple times, only to sit at your bedside like nothing had happened the next morning.

“See, Tai? She’s fine, she’s awake,” Misty said, and you noticed her standing a few feet away. “I'll leave you two to talk.”

“No,” you said, a bit too loudly and a bit too quickly. You couldn’t risk being alone with Taissa after what had happened last time. “Misty, stay. Where’s Van?”

“With Bruce and Shauna in the barn.”

“Bruce?”

“The goat,” she said, as if it were obvious.

“Did you knock me out, Misty?”

She shrugged. “Yeah, no one else was going to.”

You sighed, shaking your head, turning back to Taissa. “Didn’t end up offing yourself in the woods?” you said sharply, and she sighed. “Eat any dirt? Climb any trees?”

“Stop.”

“No, you don’t get to say that after what you did last night.”

“I don’t know what I did,” she said, pleading, and you could see her desperation. You knew she wasn’t aware of what she did. But it had been so terrible to be stuck with the other her, to be so randomly assaulted, that still you couldn’t stop blaming her for it, couldn’t see past the night.

For a moment you softened. You weren’t sure if you believed in possessions, but you had always played along with it for Van’s sake, for Taissa’s. But even if it wasn’t a possession, if it was just Taissa, she couldn’t be blamed for things she had no control over, and it made you never want to tell her what she had done. You couldn’t make her life with the guilt of it.

But then again, she needed to know the extent of what had happened.

“You tried to kill me,” you said quietly, and she froze. “You took out a knife, and you tried to kill me.”

“I’m so sorry,” she said breathlessly, moving closer to you, but stopping when she saw you tense. “I don’t remember any of it, it wasn’t me, it was-”

“I know,” you said. “I don’t really want to talk about it right now.”

“You’re going to have to,” Misty said, and both of you turned to her. “If you’re going to convince Lottie, I mean.”

“Convince her?”

“Convince her not to kill one of us.”

“We have to give it what it wants,” Lottie said from the doorway.

You weren’t sure how long she’d been there. None of you had noticed her presence, certainly not Misty, who gave you an unsure glance before quickly leaving the cabin.

“I thought it felt threatened by you,” Lottie continued, speaking of the forest spirit. “Like I said, you’re an outsider, you’re not supposed to know what happened in the wilderness. But I think it’s more than that. I think it wants you.”

You sat back down on the bed, hardly breathing, panic beginning to overcome you. You thought of the stories Van had told you of what they had done to Jackie, what they had done to Javi, and it was almost enough to have you passing out again.

Noticing your panic, Taissa moved to sit beside you. You let what had happened the night before fade away as she pulled you into her arms — more than you needed retribution you needed her touch, the comfort of her embrace, and you were willing to give everything to have it.

“There’s no way to be sure, of course,” Lottie said, “unless we do it how we did before.”

“The cards?” You breathed, and she nodded. You felt Taissa’s arms tighten around you ever so slightly.

“Lottie, we can’t do this,” Taissa said, desperation evident.

“Are you volunteering? Because you know what happens if you resist the draw.”

She was silent.

“It will happen tomorrow,” Lottie decided. “All of my people will be gone, and we will do it in the woods.”

With that she left, and it wasn’t until a few minutes after that you realized you had been left alone with Taissa. Panic burned in your chest, and you took a quick survey of the room, trying to locate anything you could use as a weapon in case she turned again.

“You know I’m not going to hurt you, right?” Taissa said, noticing your anxious expression. “In the woods, I wasn’t… it wasn't intentional. I would never do anything to hurt you.”

But you did, you wanted to say, but you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. “We should leave,” you said quietly, taking her hands in yours. “We should get Van and leave. We can be gone before anyone notices and by tomorrow we can be across the country, we can start somewhere new and never have to think about this shit again. We can get Van a specialist, and you can see someone-”

“You know we can’t do that,” she interrupted. “Even if we get out of this, it doesn’t go away.”

“You don’t believe doing this ritual will fix anything, do you?”

She was silent, only shrugging, and you scoffed. It was ridiculous, all of it, and you weren’t about to go performing a human sacrifice to calm the anxiety of your girlfriend and her cult-inclined friends.

Taissa could see your apprehension. She put her arm around your shoulders, and you leaned into her embrace. “We do this, and I promise we can leave. We can go home, and we can get Van a specialist, and everything will be how it should be.”

“What if we get picked?” you asked quietly. “What if one of us draws the queen?”

You felt her tense, but that was the only tell of her building dread. For your sake she didn’t let it show.

“I won’t let anything happen to you,” she said, “I promise.”

And it was the last time you could bring yourselves to talk about the ritual.

—

The seven of you stood in a circle, a bonfire burning brightly before you, smoke and the pressure of anxiety flooding your lungs as the entire world burned.

You clutched Van’s hand, grounded yourself with her touch. Your anger with her had subsided, if not out of forgiveness out of desperation, but both of you were willing to take what you could get. Taissa stood at your other side, eyes trained on the fire as if none of it were happening.

You watched as Lottie came forward with the deck of cards. All but one of the four queens had been removed. After sparing a quick glance at each of you in confirmation, Lottie began to shuffle the cards. She seemed impatient, almost excited for the ritual to take place, and it made you wonder how quickly she would turn on you if you picked the card — you already knew. You spied the masks and knives sitting on the trunk of a fallen tree a few feet away.

“I’ll go first,” Van said suddenly, and it was all you could do to keep your heartbeat steady, for you to keep breathing.

Lottie handed her the cards, and without hesitation Van pulled the top one, glancing at it before signing in relief and throwing the card into the fire.

Taking her nonchalance as bravery for yourself, you quickly pulled the second card. You almost fainted seeing that it wasn’t the queen, so overcome with relief.

Hesitating for a moment, you handed the deck to Taissa. Vaguely you registered in the haze overcoming your brain that this could be the last time she would be safe, that if she pulled the queen there would be nothing you could do to help her.

She pulled a card, threw it into the fire.

Safe.

Around and around the deck went, passing you by and by, and it must have been three or four rounds before finally the deck came into Van’s hands again, and she was about to pick the top card when you saw it slip a bit, and saw what was on the other side.

You almost had to wrestle her for the deck — but eventually you ripped it from her hands, taking the top card and throwing the rest of the deck into the fire.

There was no escape. Better you than her, and now there was no way out.

You flipped the queen card to show the rest of them. Everyone was silent, until Lottie let out what was a mix of a giggle and a sob before rushing to get a knife. The rest of the girls followed, all except Van and Taissa, who stood at your sides protectively. Van had her arm on your bicep, Taissa’s hand in the small of your back. Constant contact, ensuring that you were there, you were real and unharmed.

“You can run,” Lottie said giddily, approaching you, “like we used to out there. Or you can submit.”

“Lottie, this is fucking insane,” Van shouted, but the woman was unphased.

“This is what it wants… it wants her.”

Taissa grabbed your hand, beginning to step away and leading you and Van with her.

“Is that your choice, then?” Lottie asked, sincere. “Do you choose to run?”

Unable to speak, hardly able to move, you nodded, and a moment later you bolted, the three of you running deeper into the woods. You could hear the others following, and you knew it was only a matter of time before they caught up and all of it was over.

You tripped over a tree root, plummeting to the ground. Your ankle made a sharp popping sound, and all at once pain like a thousand nails drilling into you overcame your ankle. You couldn’t walk — at the very least it was sprained, if not broken, and even in the adrenaline rush you were close to tears.

“I’ve got you, baby, come on,” Van murmured frantically, hoisting you up and leaning your weight onto her. Taissa took your other side and the three of you continued through the woods, slightly slowed down but still ahead.

The sound of a gunshot halted you, and everything stopped.

You looked back and you could see the rest of the women lingering about a yard away. In front of you stood Shauna’s daughter, wielding a gun that she held with shaking hands. It was aimed at Lottie, and upon looking closer you saw the blood pouring from the gunshot wound in Lottie’s arm.

“Callie,” you said quickly, breathless, “give me the gun.”

The girl didn’t move, spared only a glance in your direction.

“Callie,” Shauna urged, taking off her mask and moving toward you. “Give it to her. It’s okay.”

Slowly Callie moved toward you, handing you the gun. Balancing on your good foot and leaning your weight into Taissa, you stood as straight as you could, pointing the gun in the general direction of the group of women lurking in the trees.

“It’s not going to be me,” you said, keeping the gun steady. “I’m not going to die here. And neither are Tai or Van. So if it has to be someone, who’s it going to be?”

No one moved, no one said a word.

Out of the guard of the trees approached another figure. Lisa came forward with a rifle, tears running down her face.

You knew. It was the only way, and no one else was worth sacrificing.

Aiming the gun at Lisa, you pulled the trigger.

“There,” you breathed, watching as everyone panicked, as Lottie sank to her knees, as Nat began screaming at you. “We gave it what it wanted.”

And you waited. Until the next time it wanted someone, until it wanted you.

Until, again, you had to give it what it needed to survive.

#taivan #taivan x reader #van palmer x reader #taissa turner x reader #taissa x van #taissa x van x reader #yellowjackets x reader

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f3v3rdreamz · 8 months

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The tonist cult

"Marice? Come, Diane will be speaking with you." The tonist eyes Marice up and down, their dark emerald eyes sending a shiver up the young womans spine. Marice had heard about Tonists being judgemental before, maybe a bit insane, but this place seemed..calm? This tonist was clearly older then her, and showed clear signs of turning the corner. "Ah, Marice! Come, come, I wish to speak with you." The so called 'Cult leader' was a woman who seemed to be in her early twenties. Her skin was lightly tanned, with curly short hair and a unsettling Grey colored eyes, the woman motioned for Marice to sit down. Before she could even speak she was cut off, "I hear you want to join my cult? I'm not gonna sugarcoat it hun, but I don't trust you. But that doesn't matter, you may call me Diane for now." Marices lips parted a bit, "Your correct, I want to join your Cult." Diane narrowed her eyes, getting up from her seat,, the high heels on her boots clicking on the floor. "Are you sure you can handle this mentally and physically?" With a hesitant nod, Diane grabbed Marices chin. "Your action may have consequences."

@misuse-of-formaldehyde

#arc of a scythe

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sapphicthunderhead · 10 months

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I need to talk about Dr. Manuela Dominguez (from The Magnus Archives). This woman Drives Me Insane. [TL; DR at the bottom.]

She is initially presented as a textbook mad scientist: a disgraced astrophysicist bent on ending the world as we know it. But with every nuance and detail introduced about this character over the course of the narrative, my understanding of her shifted. By the end, I felt as if the person she described at the beginning of her first Statement was completely divorced from the twisted thing she became— which is the repugnant truth of what happens to Fear Avatars.

Some key details from her first Statement that really struck me: 1) I can really see myself in her love for physics and her ambition. 2) Her alienation from her fanatically religious, “vicious” parents is a big contributor to her downfall, but never remotely presented as an excuse for her actions. 3) She is so utterly unrepentant.

Regarding her parents: She saw the inconsistencies and hypocrisy in their bigoted beliefs about what is “unnatural,” likely in part because, she says, “I found myself crossing that line from an early age. Although, strangely, out of everything I was, it was always my desire to pursue a scientific career that they railed against with the most energy” (MAG 135: Dark Matter).

(I could be projecting, but this line has caused me to speculate that she might also be gay. If so, it would certainly add another level of pain &/or frustration to her home situation.)

But young Dominguez disregards her parents’ ludicrous exhortations and goes on to become an an expert on dark matter (mysterious masses that cover much of the universe and do not emit, absorb, or interact with photons) and dark energy (mysterious force which may be responsible for the expansion of the universe).

It is in the process of researching these phenomena that she has a spiritual awakening of the worst kind. She soon becomes a disciple and eventually second-in-command to Maxwell Rayner, ringleader of the cult of the Dark, the Church of the Divine Host (said Host being Rayner). As a cultist, she goes on a mission aboard the vessel of allied Fears that is the Daedalus space station. There, she creates The Extinguished Sun— a sun made of dark matter, which the Church uses as a focal point in their ritual of the same name to bring about eternal darkness.

That brings us to the point where this character loses my sympathy in the same way Callum (Rayner’s partial reincarnation?) did in S5. The Extinguished Sun ritual involves keeping Marked individuals (which events in S5 lead me to fear may be predominantly children) trapped and terrified in the dark for extended periods of time, and then sacrificing them to the Dark via drowning, in a callback to the manner in which Halley/Rayner was killed/reborn as a vessel of the infinite darkness that predates time itself.

So How Am I To Cope??? Do you know how often I come across women as mad scientists in media— let alone ones who are ambiguously implied to be gay?! Not often!

But there is a possibility she kills kids, and I can’t tolerate that shite, so all I am left with is immeasurable disappointment in her lack of conscience, and in her for joining a cult instead of getting therapy, and in her parents for being dicks, and in those who have purveyed ignorance and engaged in cruelty “in the name of God” both historically and unto the modern day, and in society for the continued existence of systemic sexism (and other biases), and in the limited number of women, POC, and LGBT+ individuals portrayed as mad (and regular, marginally less fun) scientists in media, etc… It’s quite the web of inequity and suffering, stretching between this world and the fictional.

Dr. Manuela Dominguez is a character who makes me sad that there aren’t more women mad scientist characters in media. If there were, it perhaps might not hurt so much to see her progress from someone whose trials, goals, and motivations I can understand and empathize with, to an unredeemable child killer.

To clarify, I don’t believe the author’s writing of this character was bad or sexist. I don’t feel the same morose regret about what could have been when it comes to Jude Perry; I do when it comes to Agnes Montague; I don’t when it comes to Gertrude; etc. I think that Jonny intended for the audience to at least passively ponder the person that Dr. Dominguez could have been, under different circumstances. It is a feature of the writing of all the Avatars.

One of the core themes of the series is this: How do circumstances (such as economic systems, wink wink nudge nudge) shape people? Dr. Dominguez is just one of many disheartening answers to that question.

TL;DR: Dr. Dominguez started out as a victim of bad parenting, and eventually into an even more sick and twisted version of her parents, who she despised as a child for their zealotry and cruelty. But this might not hurt me so bad to think about if 1) I didn’t relate so much to her younger self, as an aspiring physicist and a sapphic trying to shake off the message that everything that brings me joy is “unnatural” and 2) if she wasn’t the first character I thought of when trying to recall women mad scientists in media.

For those who feel like looking for other fem mad scientists in podcasts, I believe Ava the theoretical physicist from Midnight Burger and doctor/assassin Vespa Ilkay from Penumbra both count. For a sane fem scientist, try the marine biologist protagonist from DOWN. If you think of any others in any kind of media, you’re welcome to respond in the comments or tags.

(I know of Poison Ivy, as well as the more sane Dr. Sattler from “Jurassic Park” and Dr. Calvin from Isaac Asimov’s “I, Robot,” and I appreciate them. You may leave them out of the replies.)

#the magnus archives #tma #tma spoilers #Dr Manuela Dominguez #manuela dominguez #tma dark #mad scientist #representation matters #yes i know #this is long #I am asking for more female mad scientists in media

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So, my friend has been streaming me Nier:Automata. And we just finished it. We’ve been making jokes as he played and while I can’t believe I slept on this series, I have something else to say about it.

These are the headcannons that I’ve come up for it during my time playing.

2B: She’s keeps going fishing every time she’s near a water source, won’t stop gambling if given the opportunity, keeps joining cults, and has a love for femboys. Yes, she does call it “Femboy Fishing” if she brings 9S along.

A2: Mostly her canon self, except that she will always go on refreshing walks at THE most inopportune time, no matter the situation. She enjoys them.

9S: Oh boy. He is the most OP being in the world, but he’s also absolutely insane. He is THIS close to breaking down and just killing everything and everyone in his path at any given moment. He’s doing his best and does not deserve what happens to him.

60: She may stay up in the bunker, but that doesn’t stop her from having hobbies. She runs a fight club. Specifically, she runs the resistance arena in the flooded city area.

21O: She’s actually the most sane of this list, just tired of everyone’s wackiness. Please, give her patience.

#nier automata #nier 2b #9s #nier a2 #yorha no.2 type b #yorha no.9 type s #nier 6O #nier 21O #nier series

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awildkelkinnie · 8 months

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I WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY OCS SO I WILL !! :3c (even tho the story isn't done ヽ（≧□≦）ノ)

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Death, Car Crash, shooting, brain alteration (I think), cults, and other things, JUST STAY SAFE ON THE INTERNET!!!

So, to start off, here's a summary of how this whole story started:

Additionally, William leads a cult. The cult is a group of people who believe that William is a god

There are these 2 dudes: William and Adam. They are 2 engineers, and they both join an engineering competition. Adam wins, and William is JEALOUS!!!! (the award for winning was a check of 1000 dollars or smth) WILLIAM WAS OLDER SMARTER AND HE WAS ANGRY HE DIDN'T WIN SINCE HE NEEDED THAT CASH BADLY!!

Timeskip, Adam gets a wife named "Rose" (her stage name) and shes this lovely woman, and her and Adam get this child named Madeline. WILLIAM WAS STILL MAD!!! so What did he do? hire a hitman to kill his ex-friend ofc.

2. Bethany Lewis: A teacher in her 40s who helped Madeline and had to retire

On March 23, 2012, the small family was driving home after celebrating Madeline's birthday, and the HIT MAN TRIES TO SHOOT ADAM, BUT HITS ROSE INSTEAD, AND THIS CAUSED A CAR CRASH. Since the car crash was on Madeline's birthday, she felt like it was her fault that she wanted to go out, that she wanted to celebrate her birthday, and etc.

ANOTHER TIMESKIP, the year is 2017. Adam and Madeline have moved to Neptura City around 2015, and Madeline had some prettay neat friends.:

1. Madison Salazar: She is an older girl at her school, and she had to go due to financial reasons

3. Andres Lopez: her cousin!! Who had to leave for med school but was rather distant for some reason..

4. Hayate Otowa: Her therapist, who is helping her!!!

So she only had Hayate, and she told him about how she had this vivid sights of her imaginary friends (Who are all based off one of her close friends/relatives mentioned in the list above)

Madison = Fern

Bethany = Bliss

Andres = T.E.L. (which has a secret meaning (⊙ˍ⊙)')

Hayate = Hayate.. he is hayate.

Her therapist is worried and he goes "ayo..you SEE THEM AND CAN TOUCH THEM??? 🙁🙁🙁😦😦" so he reaches out to a friend, Ejice (WHO IS WILLIAM WHO MADE HIMSELF A NEW IDENTITY OUT OF FEAR OF BEING TRACKED DOWN BY THE COPS)

Ejice RECOGNIZES MADELINE AND IS LIKE "..oh 😈" and abuses his power as a scientist to alter the child's brain, to torment her so she would go insane or so, and her dad (Adam) would die alone.

Hayate is unaware, but checks on madeline, genuinely caring for her. Ejice has been studying a new theory of his: The dreams people dream of aren't just dreams, they are a new universe hidden away.

He coins the term "Myalou realm" to refer to where dreams occur (Myalou is greek for mind :3). In order to torment Madeline, he does these things:

alter Hayate's dream counter part to make him evil and try to hurt Madeline

Intensify the nightmare side of her brain

alter some memories of hers

he also had another idea, to bring her imaginary friends to life. Why you may ask? As an experiment. He wants to bring his horrible creatures in his mind to life to take control of the world. I forgot to mention that ever since he made a new identity, he gained a bit of a superiority complex, and because he was able to escape a master plan, he could make more master plans and not get arrested

So this is all i wrote so far 💀 but I promise to write more!!

#wild type!!#wild art!!#tw #tw death #tw murder #tw violence #tw gun mention #tw gun use #tw manipulation #tw implied death #MY OCS #Ocs #hehehehehehehe #tw cult

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Not you and Bee updating your fics the same day when just yesterday I was going through both fics again because I missed them dearly. You people are gonna kill me, the adrenaline that shot through me hit so hard when I saw The Answer and Wonderwall had updated that I almost spooked myself and fell from my bed.

Anyways HELLO! Good to see you again <3

Hope you're having a good 2024 so far.

Here we go on another one of my unnecessarily long ass comments about the fic, sure hope I haven't overstayed my welcome with them just yet lmao (let me know if I do end up overdoing it at some point please, I will gladly tone it down if it becomes a problem).

FIRST OF ALL: I THINK I'M GOING INSANE.

Maybe its the hj brainrot that I've been stuck on for the last few months, maybe it's the fact that the ateez hyperfixation is hitting harder than usual since the comeback but him throwing a tantrum yelling "you will not take her from me"? Butterflies. Got me giggling and kicking my feet. I was rolling around on my bed as I read that.

Maybe it's the absence making the heart grow fonder and all that.

That being said, my misplaced fondness for this clown did die down once he hit us with the whole "she should be begging me for her life", if the cult thing wasn't enough of an ick I guess that did the job. Like, sir you had me for a sec there with the possessiveness (*tucks my hair like debbie ryan*) why did you have to remind me of your actual personality?

But yeah, catch me slowly being dragged down against my will to join the TheAnswer!HJ simps, though I guess that's what's gonna happen to mc soon enough too, I really am along for the ride with her. Me and mc peering down the edge into the abyss where they lay, the abyss stares right back at us. Damn. People are right, we are not immune to cult propaganda. Tragic.

I really wanted to point out that this chapter had me extra paranoid than the last one tbh, you mentioned in the notes that this was shorter and that you felt like it was lackluster, but I seriously didn't feel it at all because of how on edge I was at times, not as much as let's say during her escape attempt in the corn field sure, but I was still wary and uneasy while reading. I know we had the whole circus with the Guardian thing last time, but san being so urgent in his claims that they have to leave and us getting to hear about how pissed off hj got because of mc's "unsatisfying" reaction to his little scheme? I am dead serious when I tell you I was bracing for the absolute worst, got me shaking in my little tinfoil hat.

The part about the machine harvesting the field? With mc saying she wouldn't want to be caught in it? (ALSO I SEE THAT SHORT YEOSANG MOMENT, I SEE YOU LEAVING A TRAIL OF BREAD CRUMBS FOR HIM 👁👁 <- EYES THAT SEE)

My 2 braincells immediately went "oh em gee, foreshadowing?", like I am certain to my core that someone's gonna fucking die to that or be horrifically injured, its just a matter of: whom? 🤨 I'm gonna save my guess as to who it could be in case that does happen, but I will come back here to yell on another ask about it if that comes up in the future.

Then the scene with hj and hwa talking to mc about her questions, and she hits them with the "oh what can I do if I'm alone?" and hwa is desperately trying to get her to stfu (me too man, me too) while hj smiles at her. You know, like a cryptic weirdo.

Now, I am more than willing to say that what came to mind for me in that moment was probably due to my very *rational* fear of TheAnswer!HJ, but ignore the fact that I am losing myself to his mind games and hear me out for a bit: I kid you not, for a second, I legit thought that he may suggest to or even outright attempt to like "mark" mc with the Sign.

In what way? I don't fucking know but there are many options and he is twisted enough to think of that, we all know it and the sirens were blaring in my head about that when he said the Sign would protect her as long as she had it in her, like "mc girl, I dread to say this but I feel like we should trust mr lapdog on this one, I fear you may be poking the modern day moses a bit too much and we all know he is having a diva moment today", because for hwa to be so concerned over it while hj reacts somewhat positively? Yeah, something wicked this way comes. And on that note, it seemed to me that hwa wasn't just trying to get her to steer from upsetting hj, he seems like he was trying to keep the peace between them in more ways than just that (more on that in a separate ask cause I feel like this is getting too long and its probably a pain for people to scroll past it LMAO I'M SO SORRY).

You clarified for me last time that mc will find out eventually about what happened to her bff (thank you by the way <33) and given how much it was brought up this chapter, I do think he is gonna wait out a while to use the haseul card (haseul girl you will always be remembered as the ride or die friend that you were, more on the die side but it's not your fault girlie, we love you), because while he is clearly prone to emotional outbursts, he is also smart as hell and just as cruel, we are yet to see him mess up big time just out of losing his cool (or maybe the consequences just haven't quite caught up to him just yet but I'd argue he is still ahead in that case), so I imagine that the threat of doing it is very much real but he will play it right for his own advantage.

The man is a diva but he is a cunning one, he more so seems to bring it up because he knows that the idea of devastating mc in that way is a threat in and of itself to everyone else that is also vying for her attention, which is 100/10 writing, author you are amazing (if the way that the fic is eating away at my brain wasn't clear indication of that).

I am also once again proud of our mc for *once again* poking holes in his little bible lore, yes bestie you are correct, wtf does it mean for a Guardian to kidnap someone? A question that I personally had when I read his explanation is: if the Guardians can kidnap people across dimensions then why tf can't the cult members or him, the big powerful prophet himself, also do something like that? Wouldn't that be way more helpful than sending uber eats across dimensions to the Others through sacrifices?? He says they need mc to do that but the Guardians have no issue going "yoink :3" over to our dimension to spirit away his followers and at the same time he also wants us to believe that the same Guardians are afraid of him? Sir. Pick a side, you can't have it both ways. Either they are clearly stronger than you and that's why we are all struggling with mc being a non believer or you are the op big shot of this religion whom everyone grovels under, make it make sense ! !

(Also this isn't me trying to point plot holes in your story pls lol I don't think his religion's lack of consistency is a reflection of your writing ever, in fact I think it's really cool cause it adds to the mystery of it all along with making us question him even more, I just have a lot of fun dissecting the snippets of it we do get out of spite for him lmao).

I have some more things I wanted to add but I'll throw them into another ask cause, again, I feel like this is already gonna be annoying to scroll past lmao, so sorry for anyone seeing this, apologies everyone.

But these were my general takes on the chapter, I really enjoyed it as always so thanks for another update Lauren <333 wish you well!!

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LKSJLFKJASDF OMG HI!!!! <33333

First of all let me just say that you will never annoy me w these comments like this is seriously my dream feedback i could cry honestly im so touched that you care so much to type all of this out and that you clearly spend so much time thinking about the answer and really appreciating it and like. YEAH ILY SM DO NOT WORRY !!!!!

Fun fact about bee and me updating at the same time . we didnt plan it this time . it was in fact random . but there was a time in like… i wanna say december 2022 when bee was writing claire de lune and her and caly and i all conspired to update on the same day and im pretty sure we did and i cant even imagine what it wouldve been like to be a claire de lune/mists of celeste/the answer reader on that day LMFAO

ANYWAYS INTO THE MEAT AAAAAAAAAAA pls these reactions to hj are so real like sometimes ill write something a little bit too … cute ? and then ive gotta reel it back real quick we gotta remember who we’re talking about we gotta stay strong even if he is hot and obsessed

TY for saying you felt that the chapter was still interesting hehe i guess i felt like people would be expecting a lot from this chapter and i knew it wasnt going to be What Was Expected or like that it wasnt going to go right into the escape attempt like i think some people probably thought SO im glad that the chapter was still … paranoia inducing LMFAO

No fun fact idk if this is like obvious or not but my grandparents are/were corn farmers so like. Obvs i have spent a lot of time on a corn field. Planting harvesting running around etc. and i was always so freaked out by combine machines theyre literally fucking ENORMOUS like easily 15 feet tall but the good news is they go like. 10mph. But i still wouldnt want to find myself in the path of one AHAHAH !!!!!! ANYWAYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!

eheheheeh yeah the whole scene w the unholy trinity really …. Ooooooo was it fun to write hehe yes the whole situation w haseul is really a big opportunity for hj to keep manipulating mc and something for him to hold over her head and i hope the dramatic irony is coming through w the fact that we obvs know she’s dead but mc has no idea bc i lovvveeeeeee that tension in a story like just waiting and waiting and waiting for mc to find out … ehehe and i like how you point out that hj hasnt really messed up big time or lost his cool bc youre … right … but he’s almost almost getting there and i just love him being unhinged and ………… yeah ill be quiet now heh

UBER EATS SACRIFICES ACROSS DIMENSIONS SENT MEEEEEE LAKDJFL;ASKJDFL;KJA;DFKJ youre so real for these questions and like yes this is exactly the type of thing i want you to be thinking … hehehe keep yourself in mc’s shoes yk … i def get that you’re not trying to point out plot holes hehe dw dw thank you for your compliments hehe

I WILL ANSWER YOUR SECOND ASK NEXT !!! TYSM AGAIN I LOVE YOU MWAH MWAH MWAH i hope you are WELL !!! <3333

#👁👁 anon #answered #the answer spoilers #feedback

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