#she makes my brain go brrrrrr

[one-womanparty]

Developing the biggest crush on Linda McCartney was not on my 2024 bingo card, but a welcomed one. She's so beautiful and for what?

[aymayzing]

Brynn Cousland, you will always be famous

[singlethread]

Good thing I already ordered food bc I would’ve forgotten if I had seen this before

[coachbeards]

honestly. I love it when ted and beard are a little toxic codependent dynamic that has a power imbalance . I think it’s swell

[sanguivor]

you give me courage.

[boydykedevo]

I’m so fucking normal about izutsumi

[artdcnaldson]

looove the patrick’s sister au where art is super mean to her but hear me out im having thoughts and behaving in ways

im gonna emoji sign this if i may just in case you’d like to enable me

alt au where patricks sister is just super super mean and unapologetic like patrick. think sarah michelle gellar in cruel intentions kinda. like fully a bitch and she has a craaazy corruption kink with repressed art

like mayyybee patrick mentioned art wanting to save himself for marriage or smth like that to her and her brain goes brrrrrr i need to defile him… maybe everytime arts at their house she’ll like flirt with him unabashedly… suck on lollipops while looking him in the eye… rub her ass against him pretending to reach for things… and her just having so much fun when he gets all red and flustered and hard :(

idk just some thoughts

- 🐚 (if its available)

This made me need to take a walk. Had to crack open a cold Diet Coke to address this.

But yeah :(( art comes to stay with you and Patrick a lot for summers and holidays since, y’know, he can’t exactly stay at his grandmother’s nursing home.

You and Patrick have lived in the pool house forever— pool house is actually a stupid name for it. It’s a guest house, two full bedrooms, a kitchen, a living room, a whole loft upstairs. It’s obscene how fucking rich you two are.

And he gets so squirmy when he’s around you and Patrick, but even more when it’s just the two of you alone. He’s been staying up in the loft, pads down the stairs after a lazy, midday nap. And it’s just you on the couch, watching a movie. It’s dark, maybe he slept later than he thought he did.

“Where’s Pat?”

You shrug, pat the sofa beside you. He sits, but leaves an entire cushion between the two of you. “I think he’s fucking the neighbor. The one with the cute curly hair.” Art flushes, ducks his head. You smile, showing off pretty teeth. “Aw… I’m sorry, should I have said he’s making love to the neighbor?”

“Shut up,” he mutters. He’s pink to the tips of his ears.

It’s interesting, you think, that he told Patrick he’s saving himself. It’s sweet, very… admirable. But it’s such a fucking waste. He looks so yummy in his flannel pajama pants and grey tank top that shows off his muscles.

“So, you’re a virgin?” You ask, turning to face him. His eyes go wide before his face twists in annoyance. He splutters out weak— what did Pat say— That’s none of your business— you’re so out of line— but you interrupt. “No need to be shy about it, Art. I think it’s… very cute you want to wait until your wedding night. I’m sure you’ll have a really riveting time figuring out where it goes.”

“Shut up.” It’s the second time he’s said it that night. He really needs to work on his comebacks.

“I can give you a hint,” you say with a grin, scooting across the empty cushion until your knees touch. “There are two main holes down there, and it’s the one that gets all slick and wet when she’s turned on.” He clenches his jaw, looks away.

You laugh and sit back, only slightly. “Aren’t you going to thank me for the tip?”

He turns back, eyes narrowed. “You’re not very funny.”

“Was I joking?” You trail a finger up his arm, give him a crooked smile. “Really, Art, it’s sweet. Maybe I should’ve saved my virginity for a nicer boy instead of losing it in the golf cart shed at the country club.”

He stammers. “You— you could always—“ he can’t even meet your gaze, it’s too humiliating. The smug expression you wear pins him in place. “Start now. Promise to not have sex anymore, not until it’s with someone you love. It’s— it’s more special that way.”

You stick out your bottom lip. “You think I deserve special?” You ask softly. He shivers as your fingers trace swirls onto his chest. “That I need candles and rose petals and soft jazz music when someone stuffs me full of their cock?”

It’s too precious. Too good. His cheeks flame and he sits back. He stands suddenly, doesn’t even look at you as he marches back upstairs. You grin and listen to the sound of the shower turning on upstairs.

You wait until you hear the scrape of the shower curtain closing to pad upstairs and sit outside of the door. A smug grin spreads across your lips at the sound of him jerking off.

All whiny, poorly muffled moans, the slick sound of him beating his dick. All, ah! ah! ah! oh, fuck! god— fuck! You can tell when he cums based on how pitchy and whiny he gets, and the way you hear his head knock against the tile.

You fight the urge to let him know you heard, instead you slip back downstairs. When he comes down, you’ve switched the movie, act like you’d never left at all. You can see the guilt in his expression, like he knew he’d done something bad.

God, he’d be so easy.

[scekrex]

Hi!! This is the same Anon who requested the Sinner! Adam x reader with one sided AdamsApple. I wanted to say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT. You write them so well 😭 I would really love a part 2 of it if you could make one, especially seeing more of the dynamic between them after Charlie walks them both to talk with Adam + Reader. (again FULLY your choice if you even do this + feel free to take any creative liberties OFC!)

AdamsApple is such an angst ridden ship and I love every second of the dynamic, even if it’s in a one sided relationship!

Have a great rest of your day ❤️❤️

Dude I absolutely love you/p for requesting a second part bc their dynamic causes my brain to go brrrrrr so here ya go <3

Part 1

This hurts me like hell, feel like the angel who fell

pairing: one-sided adamsapple/Adam x male!reader

warnings: language & angst

note: not beta read bc fuck you I don't have beta readers

“Lucifer,” you beamed at the blonde man who looked somewhat uncomfortable. Given Adam's reaction to your cheerful welcome Lucifer wasn't the only one though. The first man was quick to wrap his wings around your body in protection. Logically the brunette knew that you were safe, that you weren't gonna leave him but emotionally it was hard to deal with.

“You haven't been around in a while, what have you been up to?” you offered him a warm smile that Lucifer copied as well as he could. It wasn't your fault after all, he couldn't blame you for loving Adam, not when he himself was in love with the first man. It had been an unlucky accident that Adam had fallen for you instead of Lucifer - he had been locked up in his tower, suffering from yet another depressive episode while you had been there. You had been there to take care of the brunette.

The devil however tried to appear as cheerful as possible when he responded to your question, there was no good reason to bring the mood down, not when neither of you were responsible for how things had ended up. Emotions weren't controllable after all. “Oh you know,” he tried to make the grin on his lips as natural as possible - it seemingly worked out, “A little bit of this, a little bit of that, ruling hell is a full time job after all.” Adam huffed at that and Lucifer had to bite down on the inside of his cheek in order not to look down at the brunette. “Yeah right, I bet you still make those fucking pathetic rubber ducks,” the former angel sounded pissed and Lucifer partly understood why. He had never apologized to Adam for what had happened in Eden, for the drama with Adam's wives. Lucifer remained silent for a moment, you however managed to unintentionally cover the devil's back, “Don’t be a fucking asshole about it,” you hissed at the man underneath you and slapped his chest, that only made the first man tighten his hold on you and his wings were now covereing every single inch of your body. The feathers of his wings weren't bright golden anymore, they had changed to black. So it was quite dark for you once Adam's wings had also covered your face. “Yeah? So you're on the devil's side now?” Lucifer recognized the jealousy in Adam's voice immediately, he wanted to assure the other male that he had nothing to worry about as he raised his voice again, “Adam, I'm not interested in him, I-” but the brunette turned his face towards the fallen angel and interrupted him, “You’re not interested in him, huh? Just like you weren't fucking interested in Lilith once she had been given to me? How you weren't fucking interested in Eve once Lilith bored you? You're not fucking interested, you never are and yet you always fucking take what's made to be mine, so up your fucking ass, Lucifer.” Adam's voice sounded venomous, it was filled with honest hatred towards the devil and Lucifer understood. The former angel was right after all, whenever someone had been given to Adam, Lucifer had taken them from him and who was to say that it wouldn't happen again? Well Lucifer was to say because he wasn't interested in you, but Adam didn't believe him and the former leader of the exorcists had every right to do so.

“I think that's-” Charlie tried to calm the conversation down but Lucifer talked over her, “I’m sorry Adam.” The brunette rolled his eyes, clearly not believing the blonde a single word - and once again Lucifer understood.

Because back in Eden Lucifer and Adam had been close, closer than friends yet not close enough to be considered lovers. What they had was special and Lucifer would forever remember their bond. They had been kissing - Lucifer had been Adam's first. There had been no one else back then, it was before Lilith had been created. And in return Adam had shown Lucifer pleasure. The devil remembered their time in Eden so vividly, like it was a movie playing inside his mind, a movie that was set up to be a romance but fell apart and turned into war.

“Of fucking course you are,” Adam turned his head to face the ceiling instead of Lucifer. It was hard for the first man to be around the person he had once considered his best friend and yet said friend had been the one causing him to drown in so much pain. Adam had died alone because both of his ex wives had been with the fallen angel, there had been no one, just him. And now Lucifer decided to apologize? An apology wouldn't make up for the pain he had felt, his trust towards Lucifer had been broken and Adam had sworn himself to never trust him again.

You pushed Adam's wings out of the way to look at your boyfriend, his expression was cold and you immediately knew he was bottling up the sadness Lucifer's presence caused. Adam had never truly told you much about the devil, Eden or his human life in general. But you understood, it must have been hard for Adam, to be stuck in the place that he despised more than anything. Surrounded by the person that had ruined his life. You gently cupped his face and he seemed to relax at least a little.

Lucifer watched the both of you, watched carefully how Adam's tense body softened once your hands were onto his face, once your lips gently kissed his jaw. He tore his eyes away from the scene, he knew it wasn't healthy for him. It would only worsen his already unstable mental state. His heart was already being torn apart by razor sharp claws, he didn't need to sprinkle salt into the wound. He patted Charlie's shoulder gently, offered you a gentle smile as you looked at the devil apologetic. The fallen angel didn't blame you, he liked you actually. You had no fault in all of this, it had been his own very fault, he should have done better and maybe then he would be cuddling with Adam, but he hadn't done better, he had fucked up.

So now he had to live with the consequences.

[lanternfeather]

as a scientist, i am SO fascinated by how sevika’s arm works. i replayed that scene of her adjusting the gears in it at the last drop over and over when i first saw it. was she adjusting the timing? tuning it up? what makes the brain-body connection work? is it all possible through shimmer? i love the detail of the cooling fan on her shoulder. i bet i could write some code to make it function faster. if i was her gf i would want desperately to help her fix it and maintain it. acts of service for sevika make my brain go brrrrrr

on another note, being a disabled scientist makes me feel an extreme kinship with viktor. i think he may be my second favorite character in the series so far

[yanderehsr]

Hii! How have you been? I'm sorry for doing another request but your way to do and write is wayy to good! Can I request another platonic yandere with the characters you want with a diona or klee!reader I know, I know another child reader request. But I love the platonic stuff it's very cute! 😭💞 Sorry if I spelled something wrong, I'm still learning english! Have a good day!!

The characters I want? You fool, you have given me too much power🙂

And due to the fact I posted a platonic yandere with klee!reader, I will choose Diona!reader

Trigger Warning: Yandere, Obsessive behaviour, Possessive behaviour, Kidnapping

Tingyun: She thinks that everything about you is too cute to be true, everything from the cat ears and tail to your tsundere attitude. It's just all too adorable, tries to spend as much time as possible with you.

Tingyun feels jealous whenever you spend time with anyone who isn't her, can't you just be hers, her cute little kitten. She sees you like a little sister, but in a possessive way. You are hers just accept that, or does she need to take you away from others to make you understand.

"My sweet kitten, no need to struggle. I'm just taking you home"

Hook: She tried to reqruit you, but you rejected the offer. She gets mad, how could you reject Pitch-Dark Hook the great. She tries to follow you around sneakely, she's bad at it but hey, she's trying atleast.

Hook wants to touch your ears and tail, they look so fluffy. She sees you talk to other children and she gets jealous, you shouldn't talk to them, can't you see that she is right here. She will cling to you, glaring at the other child.

"Go away, can't you see that she is property of Pitch-Dark Hook the great"

Seele: You were a child that she always saw when walking past the bar. It made her stop in her tracks immidiatly, what is a child doing working at a bar. She asks you why and you answer is that it is so you can take down the alcohol business.

Seele is now always walking past that bar to check in on you, make sure that nothing has happened to you, if she sees even one scratch on you, she will drag you away, you will not work there anymore. But don't worry, she will beat up anyone who stands in the way of your protection.

"Stop crying, I am just making sure you're safe"

Yandere Tingyun makes my brain go brrrrrr

[kiwiana-writes]

Ooooh please can I ask you about the rockstar!Alex WIP? I cannot explain how INVESTED in that AU, I gobbled up all the snippets of it that you've posted 👀

ABSOLUTELY you can, because I’m also invested in that one 😅

So this fic started out as a tumblr game. The basic idea was “send me an idea for a fake AU and I’ll give you five facts about that AU.” And @tintagel-or-cockleshells sent me “An AU in which Henry and Alex are exes, also Alex is a rockstar who puts a lot of himself into his songwriting. And there’s a happy ending.”

And… here’s the thing. Up to this point, I’d never had a conversation with tintagel one on one. I’d commented on some of her stuff, she’d commented on some of mine, we’d reblog each others WIP snippets on tumblr. We didn’t know each other outside of that. But EVERY DAMN TIME I did games like this, she would ALWAYS come in with something that made me REALLY wanna game fail and actually write whatever it was. She was just impressively tapped in to the sorts of things that make my brain go brrrrrr 😂

The other thing about tintagel is that she’s on, effectively, an opposite timezone to me. So by the time I answered the ask, she was already in bed. I also hit post on the answer and then immediately went into an hour-long meeting…

And came out of said meeting to like 40 notifications and a DEEP sense of confusion until I actually opened them. It popped off, and I absolutely succumbed to the peer pressure. Which meant that by the time tintagel was back online in her morning, this fic had run the full gamut from “this is a fake AU” to “this has a google doc and oh my god I think I’m writing original songs send help”.

At first I thought it would be MOSTLY epistolary, because I was really attached to #3, and then I had a brainwave about how I could make that epistolary, so… now it’s fully epistolary. I’m gonna have to create MULTIPLE new skins for this sucker. As well as like… recording original songs, because I have never made a sensible decision in my life.

And if you think I can’t inflict immense emotional damage via epistolary, I have a lot of Schitt’s Creek pals who would be HAPPY to prepare you for the Suffering ™️😂

[Sleepover weekend!]

[disneyprincemuke]

wait, all of this logan working out/at the gym content we’re getting is making my brain go brrrrrr

because what if he had a girlfriend who wasn’t really a “i’m going to actively exercise” type of person it’s me and she goes with him. it starts off because she wants to keep him company in the limited time he’s not off racing around the world, but very quickly turns into “oh my god my boyfriend is so hot and i’m just here to stare at him”

- @fxrmuladaydreams

no shot ive done that same exact shit before LMFAOOOOO and i enjoyed every second of it

he’d catch his girlfriend looking like “why are you just staring??? do your exercise???” and she’d be like “ok!” and pretend to do her set while still staring at him and giggling quietly to herself in the corner and never finishing her set

[troutfur]

do you have a favorite medcat mentor + apprentice duo? what do you find interesting about their dynamic?

LEAFPOOL AND JAYPAW NO CONTEST!!!!!

They make my brain go brrrrrr. I really love this contentious, mutually frustrating, sometimes downright antagonistic thing they've got going on. Temperamentally they're so unsuited for each other. Having to interact with him makes Leafpool count her lucky stars that she doesn't have to raise him.

And that's fun. Fun, funny, ironic, and downright interesting. Whenever a fic calls for an argument between Leafpool and Jayfeather the words fly off my keyboard. I really have a great time writing them.

I really don't like how they're portrayed way closer as mentor and apprentice in fan works. I get the impulse, it's about letting poor Leafie, a character that's already beaten up by the narrative, have her cake and eat it too. But these portrayals leave such a richness of characterization and sources of conflict on the table.

In the end these two reach an amenable status quo. To me post-OotS they're not mother and child or mentor and apprentice, just cordial coworkers. It's not the resolution most want but I think it makes sense for them emotionally and is a good ending of a sort.

[virgo-arts]

Could you tell me more about Slasher!Gambit, please?

HI YES ABSOLUTELY!!!!!

OK OK OK, *SO*,

The Slasher AU was an idea that I came up with along with a few friends, where Remy is a Ghostface-esque slasher and my oc Melanie is the final girl. Gambit as a Slasher is such an interesting idea to me; I feel like people forget that Remy is, at the end of the day, a manipulator. He doesn’t do it the way he used to in the comics bc he’s a full-time hero and mentor now, but like???? He’s DANGEROUS. His charisma is literally a part of his mutation, being able to charm people with ease.

So no one would be the wiser if he was a Slasher.

I chose the design based on the motifs associated with him; the Ace of Spades, obviously, the stripes on his outfit, the pink that matches his energy. I imagine his mask is one of those LED light masks with changing symbols, and each symbol means something different! I imagined it this way:

Spades: General killing

Diamonds: Stalking

Clubs: He’s PISSED

Hearts: He’s never really had to use this, because he only uses it with those he takes a strong liking to…until a certain goth telepath comes into his radar ;)

I imagine Remy’s kills are ELABORATE. He’s a dramatic man! And I think he displays his victims according to certain cards. For example, and warning for gore folks, I think if he killed a woman according to the Queen of Hearts card, he’d pose her body very elegantly, holding her own heart. Aces are his favorite, because he sees himself in them a bit; they’re always pretty clean, no gruesome wounds, posed in nice clothes and made up. He leaves his cards as well, calling cards.

As for Melanie, she’s the only one that really sees through his facade. To be clear, Remy is still an X-Man in this AU; he’s still out doing good. The people he kills aren’t innocent like with most slashers. I imagine quite a few of them are anti-mutant bigots and the like. And he never kills children. But Melanie? Melanie is special.

Melanie is a telekinetic and telepath. Of course, Gambit has that anti-telepathy field around his brain, but if you didn’t know, Melanie is very good at people. Like Remy, she grew up as a street thief. So she knows a liar when she sees one. I imagine one day by chance she finds his mask, and connects the dots between Remy and the “Ace of Spades Slasher” as the media dubs him. Naturally, she doesn’t say a word because she doesn’t want to fucking die, but Remy is damn smart so he of course figures out that she knows.

Melanie is in her room alone one night, and lo and behold, there’s a pink glow behind her window.

A pink heart.

Remy doesn’t want to kill her. After all, Mel’s his girl. But he can’t have her ratting on him. So he gives her a good scare every once in a while to make sure she doesn’t tell. He might not kill her, but if they have to take a little weekend “vacation”, so be it. He’s not above isolating her.

Hhhhh they’re so toxic they make my brain go brrrrrr, I’m gonna draw more of them soon I promee

[squarebracketsmileyface]

hot take, Brian is 100% the type that knows damn well he has power over people because of dat southern accent, so he uses it to get his way constantly. he LOVES flustering Tim and/or Jark by sweet-talking them, calling them pet names like darlin' or sugar bum (a term in which Brian Haight jestingly called Tim Sutton during one of Tim's MH Watch-A-Long streams back in 2020) and complimenting them to the point that they just turn to putty in his hands lmao. i can see Tim or Jark having a bad dysphoria day, when here comes Brian crooning that they're the most handsome man/most beautiful woman in the whole world, and Tim or Jark just get almost high from the love.

MOST IMPORTANTLY TO ME, though, is thinkin about Brian sweet-talking to the kids as well - NOT THE SAME WAY HE DOES TO HIS PARTNERS OBVIOUSLY, but i love the idea of him saying something like 'hey, pretty girl' to Birdie in the mornings when she gets out of bed, or him calling Jesse 'my sweet li'l man' (i know there's a stigma with the term li'l man but damn it it's sweet to me so fuck it). and the kids get all giggly and shy because it makes them feel so loved and special aaaa

don't get me wrong, Jark and Tim are loving and sweet to the kids and are both mushy-gushy as well, but in my mind's eye, Brian is just the KING of soppyness. he is the one that's always on the hunt to find opportunities to give them kisses and cuddles, or even just hold their hand. i know you've mentioned he's the stern parent between himself and Tim, the one that lays down the boundaries and upholds them, but at the end of the day they're still his babies, so you best bet that the kiddos will still come to him for cuddles on the couch before bed <3

SORRY THIS GOT LONG but loving Bubba Brian makes me go brrrrrr

Omg yes yes yes

I don't know what it is about Brian, maybe it's something to do with the fact that Hoodie never speaks out loud, but I love the idea of him being a sweet talker, having a silver tongue, having a voice people absolutely fawn over.

He definitely uses it against his partners, whether that's to fluster them and see them go red in the cheeks or to get something he wants. He never hesitates to whip out that pretty accent and a smattering of petnames and terms of endearment because it always works like a charm. I think his favourite thing to do is throughout a day just keep making the petnames he's using more and more ridiculous but always using the same exact tone, so he'll go from 'baby' to 'sugar bum' to 'schnookum wookums' to whatever the fuck else he can come up with. He likes to see them almost go to be all "awww 🤭" before they catch onto what he actually said and go through all five stages of grief before threatening to divorce him.

He'd definitely use it to help on dysphoria days too. Idk something about him putting on a bit of a thicker southern accent to compliment them how they need it just makes them feel even more at home in their skin and like they're being perceived how they want to be than the same compliments in any other accent. He comes up with the best compliments too, like ones that are so weirdly specific they make Tim/Jark laugh while also settling nicely into their brains like "the way I nod my head along to music is so feminine? 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰" Or "my thumbnails are a really masculine shape? 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰" And the thing is is that when they've tried to figure out if Brian's just saying shit, they always find out he's not. He has the perfect, personalised explanation all ready for them like he's been thinking about it for weeks.

And with Birdie?? Yea :}

That girl grows up knowing she's the smartest, prettiest, more interesting and brave and amazing kid in the world. Brian makes it a point to compliment something interesting or special about her/that she's done every single day and Tim and Jark pick it up too after not long. Brian leaves little notes in her lunch box, under her pillow, in her clothes pockets, under her toys and games, for her to find. He's also an absolute fucking menace because he and Birdie will gang up on the other two, and Birdie will whisper in his ear what she wants, and he'll use his best puppydog eyes and prettiest of pleases to get her what she wants. If Jark and Tim are managing to hold their ground (not on big things, but "five more minutes?" And "can I have one more spoon of ice-cream?" Stuff like that that Brian knows Tim and Jark don't actually mind about)

And once Jesse's in the mix? Yeah Tim and Jark stand no fuckin chance. If they wanna stop the kids getting their way they'll have to find a way to take Brian out. Jesse mimics Brian too, especially when he's learning to speak. So you have Brian already being insanely sweet in that pretty voice of his, then a tiny little baby trying to do the same. It's the cutest fucking thing and Tim and Jark die every fucking time, because baby babble with a little bit of a southern accent? Fucking adorable, literally the cutest thing in the world.

Also Brian reading the kids bedtime stories.

Tim stands leaning against the doorway while Brian has birdie in his lap and Jesse in her lap, all leaning precariously on each other while he tries not to drop his book and lose their page. Usually he has to read from kids encyclopaedias, because both those kids are autistic and love insects and lizards. (And also because when I was little my mum also had to read me encyclopaedias for my bedtime stories 💀)

Tim and Jark are so fucking baffled and in love. Like "look at our weird fucking kids 🥹 they're so strange and we love them so much."

Also there's stigma around lil man?? It's such a cute name for a kid cos like, look, over there, that really is a little man, a little lady. Especially with the way kids like to pretend to be all big and grown us and serious sometimes. Like yeah, that's a little man right there dressing up in his dad's clothes and constantly walking out of shoes that are a million sizes too big for him, a right little gentleman look at him go

[thecasualqueer]

oooooohhhh def def agree with your addition! and just bc your addition got my brain tumbling, if I may add:

"So, I don't think this is something that TV Kara has ever admitted to anyone, to the point where even when being asked by someone close to her who has been through similar things she still can't admit it."

I sooo agree with this PLUS I think the expectations and pressure she felt all added to her not admitting it. Like in the start, she didn't have anyone to really talk to about her survivor's guilt who would really understand why it hurt so much. Someone who wouldn't pity and baby her if she mentioned it. Bc to the Danvers and even to Kal, Kara was just a kid. Not someone who would've been the youngest Kryptonian in the science guild, not someone who will never hear the harmony of prayers in Rao's Temple ever again, not a girl who didn't just lost her family but every single person she's ever met, too.

When Kara was younger (and even in the show, as an adult), the people around her could never fully grasp the depth and grief that Kara carried (which Kara is also infinitely grateful for, she wouldn't wish this pain on anyone), so she definitely kept it in. Both duty-bound to continue living for her parents who told her to, and for her new family who have sacrificed so much to keep her safe and alive. But for a long while, she definitely did not want to.

But what else could she do? Add another point of pain to the people who have already been through so much just to keep her with them?

You're so right in mentioning Kara's martyr-like approach in S1 and I think that applies to the way Kara never really talks about her darker thoughts too. She would martyr her emotions and thoughts if it meant keeping her loved ones from worrying about her. In her mind, and as taught to her way back on a planet that once was home, it is important to be "other-focused" and to show restraint towards things that would "unbalance" the peace.

Kara doesn't admit that she dreams of death bc she doesn't feel like she deserves it and because she doesn't feel like it's fair to share to her loved ones (who, to Kara, have sacrificed so much for her).

anywayysss sorry for the long ask-reply to your addition it just got my brain going brrrrrr 😂😅 I'd love to hear if you have any more additions or different thoughts though!

yes this ☝️☝️☝️

I also think this intense unspoken pain is also what draws her to Mon El. At the point when she meets him she has gone so long feeling this way and never being able to talk about it that when she thinks she has found someone who could finally understand she can't let that opportunity pass by (even if he is the biggest dick to walk the earth).

also... having to send him away after all this??? ie literally subjecting someone else to the the same trauma she's spent her entire trying to get away from, bc it's the only choice she has to save the world.

No wonder she has a mental breakdown and quits her job after!!!!

Also, also, this is one of the things that makes her relationship with Lena so special and unique, bc even though they have vastly different experiences Lena is probably the only person in her life who can relate to having trauma so deep that it cannot even be spoken about. Just like Kara, Lena has been through so much that she is practically bursting at the seems (mentally), and just like Kara, she has had to put on a brave face through all of it.

Like, look me in the eye and tell me that Kara does not put her trauma into little boxes!!!

Anyway, sorry it took so long for me to reply to this ask I've been really busy lately but I hope it was worth the wait.

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