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ok i am home i am on vacation but i had a fight with my roommate but then talked normally i feel absolute whiplash but i have showered and i am in bed goodnight and let's begin this VACATION
#we did come to a conclusion abt what we should do abt this issue that we had so i hope it won't be an issue anymore#idek if i overreacted to her blaming me or not im still confused#but what basically happened was we weren't home on the same night and so the cat wasn't fed#and she said it was my fault bc she told me abt her concert many times in advance (just talking excitedly)#i ofc didn't remember the exact date#amd she's usually home on sunday night#but i went to the doctor's in another town#so how is it my fault#did i tell her i was going... i do not remember#maybe i did?#i think i did?#but why did she blame me today for apparently not feeding her cat all week#when i absolutely have#anyways we both think we're in the right#but what bothers me is that she told me 'ok then i know i can't count on you from now on'#what the fuck that was so hurtful#and then i got upset cried showered and when se met in the kitchen after i had calmed down#she just spoke to me normally#and i did too#bc i cannot fight on a friday evening
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Of Godsons, Fruitloops, and Lois 'I will drag all secrets out into the sun' Lane
Danny loses his parents due to their own lack of safety in the lab (death? Coma? People finally putting their foot down about the Fenton's endangering their kids? Idk pick). Jazz can't take him in due to being in college and living on its campus (and he didnt want to force her into an apartment just to keep him, he saw the prices and knows she'll have to work to make rent) and Danny fears the only place he can go to is... Vlad. (Sam's parents would never let him live with her and Tucker's place doesn't have the room)
Vlad's been lording it over Danny, smug about it all, after all he IS Danny's godfather and he has the space and money to provide for the boy in his time of need.
Only, when digging into Danny's files, his social worker discovers Vlad isn't Danny's godfather, he was meant to be but the Fenton's forgot to send/sign in the final paperwork (even if those documents were the only contact they had with Vlad over the years before the reunion)
No Danny's godparent, the person to take him should anything happen to the Fenton's is....
Lois Lane.
His mom's childhood friend.
#danny phantom#danny fenton#blue rambles#crossover#writing ideas#random idea#danny phantom dc#dpxdc#Lois gets a call about her godson who she hasnt really seen since he was a toddler#both she and Maddie had gotten busy with their lives and careers but did still talk at time#she does still send things and have talked with Danny over the phone though#though last time they spoke was before his accident#when she see's him alarm bells start ringing#Danny just got out of a fight with Skulker and is kinda curling in on himself as Vlad is towering over him and threatening him#Vlad is trying to use Lois as a 'Tell her you wish to stay with me and I wont have to harm her' threat against Danny#ooooh what if Clark was with her#and hears EVERYTHING Vlad's been saying#normally i do the bats but hey I wanna switch it up a bit#Lois has a new rich target to sic her investigate journalism on#'hmmm yes EXACTLY how did you get so rich so fast again Mr. Masters?'
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lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety
#to the judge that’s gonna see this case next year and the lawyer that is representing it assuming the state idk how this all works#why has the person to say the least get to go a whole year without consequence? a known criminal who after stealing from me and being#released and again getting arrest now for gang violence or some shit she was let go? she maybe associated to the group that killed that boy#last year. and here i am panicking because im afraid to carry cash. im paranoid that imma go outside and my car will be missing. i’m get#panic attacks when i drive to close to that gym and tired going back but physically cannot get out of my car and i start to cry in the#parking lot. i’m not sitting at work shaking forcing myself not to cry because someone handed me cash and i’m afraid someone is going to#steal my purse again. you think that’s not a big deal and honestly i didn’t think it was until my purse was gone. my cards stolen and used.#my key missing EVERYTHING in my purse GONE. so many things in there plus the purse i had money and all that is stuff i paid for now im out#all that cash i’m out 500$ for a key replacement i stopped feeling safe leaving my house all my non replaceable things gone and everyone#spoke to me like it was my fault and had to stand their crying while adults told me not to use a gym locker ??? but in the same breath telli#telling me this isn’t the first time she’s done this she has a warrant for her arrest she’s known to steal cars i’m the problem and there’s#nothing they can do to help me. so while i cry because all the money i had lost and never got back i had to do ALL the work to call my bank#track where my cards were being spent at call the jpay line she transferred money to look up the person she cashapped money to call the#business she was actively spending money at ask the manger if she is currently there and if they could give the police all the receipts and#video of her there for them to act like the hero’s for my brother and i tracking her down while you all belittled me#FUCK YOU AND FUCK HER i can’t be fucking normal about STUPID mundane shit i’m stuck here shaking and crying and what you tell me later it’s#not a big deal? give me all the content of your car and wallet or purse or backpack take nothing out and see what you’re left with and how m#much you need to spend to drive your car again and to tow your car home let a stranger have all your cards and address and tell me you feel#safe#OH and for the gym to tell me they know about her she used to be an employee there she doesn’t have a membership so they don’t know how she#got in and they can’t help but she did steal from another girl that night and an employee last month and who knows how many more ppl like#that’s convenient you pos sounds like she has friends that still work at the gym and open the back door for her or just let her in that’s#crazy no ? and this is all alleged because when if i lost all these things i can’t speak on what did or didn’t happen that’s some crazy bull#shit anyways the towing company felt bad for me maybe because i hadn’t stopped crying they gave me the key replacement number and told me to#mention he referred me so i could get a discount and the layman felt back for me because when i called him i started to cry and when he told#me the price i cried harder so 500$ was the cheapest but pretty much my whole check#key man*#bad** LET ME FIX TAGS#allegedly all these ppl are privileged kids from a privileged background that grew up in a sheltered community and thing there’s no#consequences to their actions because of the lack of accountability from their parents who willing pay for people to look the other way
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probably oversharing at this point ive been doing that a lot. very much had the experience of everyone ive told about this going "hey. im glad youre getting whatever that is out"
hmmmmm
#honestly i was having a normal conversation w my mum just now and for some reason the conversation turned to. the father situation.#and i think it was me who brought it up and i was like. ahaha yeah. and then we were collectively getting somewhat nervous as we spoke#and then i kept talking more about it as if it was funny and she said you know that really messed me up when that happened#like when something reappeared and re fucking traumatized me all over again and im like mMHM#YEAH ME TOO FOR SURE!!!#and then she was like you know i think we all have this collective trauma and i think if anybody needed therapy i would do it i would go#and im like. hm im thinking about the ninja turtles actually please dont make this real right now anyway#cuz thats how IM coping i dont wanna cope WITH you but like thanks anyway fuKing spirals#its possible im panicking. ugh#ANYWAY.#FUCKING IGNORE THIS
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made the gaang with this picrew cause i have too much time on my hands, enjoy
#almost didn't make suki#so disappointed in myself fr#it's like if they were normal teenagers but i gave zuko and aang their scar and tattoo because they looked wrong without them#dimpled aang and suki supremacy#i gave zuko a hearing aid in his scarred ear because he canonically can't hear well out of it#(i'm aware that hearing aid probably can't help with damaged eardrums maybe they can i don't actually know so sorry)#gave sokka glasses cause i'm projecting and i feel like he's strained his eyes so much over the years#freckled aang sokka (on his neck down so you can't really see it) and suki supremacy#gave sokka a bunch of face moles cause i can#gave toph acne cause she's the youngest in my heart (yes i know her and aang are the same age)#i gave the gaang as whole many piercings and i'm not ashamed (aang's the only one without one idk why don't ask)#atla#avatar the last airbender#the gaang#aang#katara#sokka#zuko#toph#suki#also this is how i had to learn that suki is the only one out of the gaang that has like actual lips at all times#(as in her character design)#OH i also gave aang and toph scars (aang = arms toph = face) because it spoke to me and felt right idk#also if you squint you can see blemishes on zuko's neck cause again it just felt right#i'm actually so proud of these AHHHH#team avatar#didn't even mean to make a pattern with the backgrounds just worked out that way heheh#EDIT: remade the boys cause i used the wrong sized clothes and it was bothering me SO MUCH (zuko's hair is longer now let's all cheer)
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#first time i start off the day crying in bed for an hour again in probably a few weeks now#guess i spoke too soon saying i was doing better OR. or maybe it's bc i met with my psych...and she sent me evil psychic waves to make me#feel more depressed again so she can put me on more meds. <- deranged line of thinking#:> anyway time for breakfast. i must bury these feelings in work again or die trying bc there's no other option.#upd: crying while im out of bed and trying to start my day is going to be a problem#i cant just show up to the function like hi im your prospective dogsitter. pay no mind to how puffy my eyes are#at least it's cold outside :/ that should help. woe water be upon me for now#anyway i have no time to be getting sick over this shit again lmao!! moveon.org#upd2: wow this is. bad#visibly put together enough i think to get thru this meeting with none the wiser but wow this feels exceptionally awful.#so exceptionally nauseously very god awful#actually maybe not visibly out together enough my eyes def still feel puffy. i should have iced them ughhhhhhhhh i hope it's cold enough to#be a cold compress substitute but im out here and well. it could be colder for sure. for sure it could be colder#and should be colder but we're living in the apocalypse so no more cold winters mild summers ever again. smiles.#upd3: mostly normal now
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currently reading northanger abbey and i keep having to Take a Break because i feel such intense intense anger towards john thorne I Fear I Need Something Drastic to Happen to Him
#i keep having to put it DOWN cause im FUMING#this is my first time reading a jane austen novel 🫣🫣🫣🫣#i’ve had such bad attention span these last few years and so i never could Stuck Into Classics but MY GOD! this BOOK!#thorpe just came to tell catherine he SPOKE TO MISS TILNEY FOR HER and i feeeeeeel RAGE#help is this a normal reading experience of northanger abbey#is this rage a common side effect of jane austen novels or just northanger abbey or am i just a little too invested#im sorry but i LOVE catherine?????? she is everything to me and i cant STAND FOR THIS#northanger abbey#jane austen
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so much
#so much has happened so much to say#friend who i spoke about in past REALLY pissed me off at my pole showcase#i do pole dancing and we had a showcase and ahe invited herself last minute on the day#which whatev u kno i was like ok shes making an effort to support me#then she goes and pulls me out of the crowd to tell me she wants to leave and my bf is gonna take her home#i was so upset cuz we had plans and i told her to her face what she did was rude#immediately starts back tracking. i dont trust like that.#it took me being visibly upset before you think about how your actions affect others??#not my bf telling u no he wants to stay bc i want to stay??#anyway fuck her. sick of puttng energy into her just to get disrespected again and again#back on my fucking no friends arc#but i love my bf. i really do.#i was upset w him too tbh but we talked it out and man is just a bit of a fucking pushover#i was like if youre not gonna defend and stand up for me i dont want to be with you. its important to me that i know youre on my side#i shouldnt have had to have handled that. you shouldve told her no and been done with it#and he said he did but i was like i had to come out. i had to say no. i shouldnt have had to have done that#missed out on the big group photo cuz of it#but pole is really fun my instructor reckons i can move to interprep abt halfway thru next term soooo exciting!!#i graded 2 combos yesterday#upside down flip both sides and climbing to the top of the pole#she got me to do a tuck spin too but i really need to work on my tucks#my wrists are instable so the tucks are extremely hard cuz if i fuck them up they HURT#lol#stefan is meeting my parents this week lol#and theyve invited him to christmas...#he doesnt like christmas and normally spends it w ppl w no families so idk if hell come#like truthfully i want him there but if hes not ready hes not ready i cant force him#i understand its a big thing and like overwhelming n what not#well see how he goes meeting them first#oh i love him
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Guys its so over
#OHHHHHHHGHHGHHGG PRETTY GIRLLLLLLL#pretty girl tag#we went to the dinosaur museum bc she loves museums and i love dinosaurs#anyway we have additional trips planned for january and uuuuerrerrgghhhhh im normal im normal im normal#i had a catagory five special interest moment and was making donald duck noises of delight and i bought myself a fossil#anyway she seemed to be charmed by my enjoyment of paleohistory#but it was basically: im going to rant at you about dinosaurs and deep time for four hours#AND SHE LET ME#and she had a lovely time#Anyway i took a bunch o pictures of her bc shes SOOO gorgeous and sent them to her all edited and lovely and URGH#i had a great time. she had a great time#she made me a watercolour painting of a triceratops like im GONE on her#shes so great. and so wonderful#we analysed the museum afterwards and shes just so lovely to talk to. like i could talk to her for hours#we walked through a christmas store and spoke to each other in dutch and it was VERY broken dutch but it was amazing#always lovely to practice a language with someone. she bought me a Christmas ornament#i gave her a hug at the end. URGH it was great. shes so great. i love being her friend#shes just so smart and knowledgeable and has such a cultured perspective on so many things and AAAAA#anyway if she ever finds my blog im COOKED#ohhhhhhh pretty girl.....
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having a crush makes me feel like such a freak this has to stop...
#i keep thinking abt some guy that works in this different department of this store i work at and hes soooo attractive it makes me feel crazy#i know like nothing about him because we spoke once after running into e/o months ago but i cant stop thinking about him its fucked up!!!!#yesterday my coworker was telling me that he was staring over in our direction while walking the other way#and he was looking so hard he almost ran into one of the check lanes and i somehow saw none of this#but my coworker was like 'he was totally staring at you' like be so serious rn you cant just tell me this shit#i was smiling like an IDIOT after that and he totally might not give a fuck about me whatsoever!#but hes super nice and has a great voice and i need to know what hes like and all of his interests and his life story.... in a normal. way.#he also might have a gf bc a diff coworker of mine saw him out shopping with some girl though it could have been a friend or wtvr#but then this OTHER coworker whos actually worked with him closely was saying shes pretty sure hes gay so what the truth here??#anyway
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There was a primary healthcare center I only worked at for a few days and then, they didn't want me anymore, because I didn't get along with the other staff members. One woman was OBSESSED with my weight, tried to force me to march around outside on concrete, refused to learn about my health conditions or knee injury, was absolutely convinced I was overweight due to my eating habits, was baffled by why my parents didn't force me to get married young like she was, tried to force button my labcoat until she realized the last two buttons would not close at the time... a male coworker brought lunch that'd make me sick (too greasy) and gave me two sandwiches, like one wouldn't be enough?! What do they think I am?!
I'd never eat two shawarma sandwiches, even those big ones they serve cut in half, I always ate only half and reheated the rest another day, and I usually wouldn't eat them for dinner when the parents bought them because they'd give me reflux. Another doctor thought I was wrong about my diagnosis when I was in horrible pain from the reflux and the cramps... it was just. A nightmare.
I actually went back through my me, dical file to find the diagnoses so he can know that no, I'm not wrong, yes, my suffering is caused by GERD and a sliding hiatal hernia...
So, naturally, I guess they got mad when I requested that no one except patients come see me in the clinic, staff members can only come in if they want to discuss work.
I came to work another day and the doctor in charge was shocked I came in place of some other doctor (who HATES clinic duty and just. Closed the door when she was there, so patients didn't even realize she was in???), so, he realized she was trying to shirk work and lied, as if our hospital and this clinic had no connection, she tried to claim the main hospital needed her for something not knowing her employer and the the head doctor in the PHC kept in contact. He sent me home, told me to ask my employer to be sure before attending in someone else's stead, said I shouldn't be working post-call (what a nostalgic word! I haven't heard it in years... I'm made to work the day after I'm on-call, in this hospital...) and told me not to come again.
I'm glad to see I'm not alone in this "oh, you're making the work environment unfriendly by not wanting to engage in chitchat with the other coworkers."
They're bullies and presumptious and rude. I don't want to talk to them! They're projecting all their stupid issues on me and nitpicking everything from the colour of my headscarf to my weight to how they imagine I eat or move. I exercise regularly, more than most of these women, I just have always had weight fluctuations and I have a hormonal issue that makes it worse because I have PCOS. I'm also mixed, I am never going to be flat all the way up and down like most Saudis!!! The North African genes gave us curves and we're naturally on the heavier side. Even my literal bone mass is greater than most women. Sorry?
#they turned me into this stereotypical fat person who eats everything and never moves that exists in their minds#I was pacing around comfortably as I normally do and people tend to assume I'm working out now#get lost.#I always do this this is just what I do when I'm thinking#I hate all of you#they were so nosy and horrible#negative *#this is old and I've lost weight since then and my lab coat is now... oversized pffft it just still angers me so it's nice to get this out#stupid jealous piece of crap it's not my fault your parents in your self-professed *village* forced you to get married#why do you want to force that on me?#and she just kept showing me all her kids' pictures and of course spoke nothing of her husband she never even picked anyway#just because you're miserable doesn't mean you gotta force it on me#ughhhhh#the worst part is it's always overweight doctors often heavier than me trying to call me obese#(I think it's the curves most people here are flat whether thin or fat so with my curves I always look heavy to these women)#PCOS#weight shaming#body shaming#medical *#food * mention
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Recently I was at a meet-up-thing for a-spec people and one of the older ones who organise these meet-ups said in the course of a conversation “well I’m ace and whatever sort of attraction I might feel every time a full moon aligns with the bloom of a special flower won’t shake my understanding of myself, I’m secure enough in who I am to not let that shatter my picture of myself” (that was a very loose quote but I think u get what she meant). And I just found it so funny cause she said it like it was a ridiculous thought to herself, that something small like that could impact herself so much because she’s obviously very at piece and secure with and in her asexuality and while I’m also quite sure of myself in that regard nowadays, there was a long period of time where a random maybe-attraction could definitely make myself question my whole sexuality all over again so that ridiculous thought was and in parts still is a reality to me. And I think this really beautifully shows how self-discovery is a process that we’re all taking at our own pace but that can “end” at some point where we can still be open to new feelings and realisations but where we can have found a way to self-identify that makes us be secure in who we are and where the path of self-discovery is less a daily shattering of our perception of ourselves and more a stable ground we can be free to make new experiences on.
#starrytalking#just to be clear she obviously spoke about her own experiences and I’m pretty sure she didn’t mean to invalidate anyone who would be really#unsettled after experiencing something that makes them going into questioning all over again#also that wasn’t the main topic of that conversation it just briefly came up#and I found it funny in what different stages of questioning and self-identification we are#so it was funny but also cool to see how open she is about her asexuality and how safe she feels in it#like the older people at this meet up honestly make me so emotional because I’m not even out to most people I know and these people are out#there living their lives and being openly ace and organising meet-ups and holding speeches and being in YouTube videos#it’s honestly so so cool to see that!!! and that’s exactly why representation matters! because it makes me believe that asexuality is real#and that my feelings are normal and valid which is super helpful at times where my head tries to tell me that it’s all just on the internet#which isn’t true but it kinda feels like it but with these meet-ups and friends of mine also being aspec and storylines like Isaacs in#Heartstopper I can feel more secure of that :)))#asexual#ace#aroace#aspec#lgbtq+#queer#thoughts#representation matters#self discovery
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you ever just see a post and just
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#Worst emoji combo ever but it’s gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up#don’t you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years you’ve only seen people the large total of…. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon#outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years!#Don’t you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid#shit like your average high schooler would do and you’re just like “oh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the#entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over you” oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking#ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so#thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck#And now I’m debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me#There. I wasn’t even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone else’s shoulder#everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and I’m just there talking to one friend who I don’t even think is my friend#“Hey man I’m really fucking sad rn can I talk to you” “womp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when#you talk about anything else about me” oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn#At least someone wants to talk to me#Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me I’ll change I’m amazing at changing my personality to fit others#promise me on that I’ve done it my entire life#Even just messaging me more than once every year and I’d consider you my best friend this is how bad I’m getting#What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I don’t care how badly you fucking word it just something#It shouldn’t be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you#Oh dear did the gc’s without me in it there’s one for every friend group I’ve ever been in why isn’t there one for the main group I’m in rn#Idfc anymore just tell me what I’m doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place#And it’s always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject#Please if you’re someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I can’t fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like#Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me#It shouldn’t be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what I’m in rn#I fucking hate everything
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wowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowowow
#im so glad i learned i had autism#bc...... other ppl control so much of our existence#thinking im a bad person my whole life when in actuality#i was always rejected for my sense of justice#and only accepted if i mirrored triggering behaviors#if i was doing what everyone else was doing it was fine#but if i spoke on my sense of justice i would get rejected#so id try to mirror and it always felt bad#like really bad#i was telling my mom yesterday that#her my dad brother and sister have all done things that#would keep me up at night sick with guilt for the rest of my life#and how i cant fathom how they can live their day to day lives without being burdened with extreme guilt#and she said she just doesnt think about that stuff#i feel guilty for a girl i was mean to once in 2nd grade still to this day#i know every instance in which i hurt someones feelings without a reason and i feel guilt about all of it still#it hurts me so much that id rather fight with ppl who think that behavior is okay#rather than mirror it#but i would mirror stuff sometimes bc it's like “will this make me normal?” and the answer was no#it just made me copy behaviors of bad people who dont have remorse#and that had huge negative effects on me#im glad to know that im not an evil person
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My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.
#text post#like i know why i am awake babe why are YOU awake this late#and god why do we have to do another visit#they aren't bad enough to make me stop this dose and i haven't been on the new dose long enough to let it even out#can i not just Not have to do another uncomfortable visit where even if things turn out okay after#i later feel like I'm still not being wholly trusted/treated like i know my body and how i feel#i had worse side effects restarting this med months ago and we didn't have any additional visits for that#they fucking forgot to even book me for a f/u and i had to call in and beg for one basically#and then they misbooked it for the wrong reason and with the wrong doctor#and made it out like it was my fault when i made clear i begged and told the receptionist i spoke to to book said appt#that it needed to b with my doc for the Lamotrigine and that i hadn't been told when to follow up so i was just. doing it#bc she said i needed to but then didn't say when to book it#they're trying hard and im trying to give them grace but then this shit happens and like#im tired. makes me want to go into my new doc like nah never mind im fine. don't ask me nothing and i won't bug you with anything#unless im dying or nearly dead already.#would suck beyond believe attempting to raw dog life mostly again but goddamn. im so sick of this lack of stability with my care#anyway. probably an appt next Tuesday which is great#that's the week of the weekend that i work again and the week before my bday#(a bday I'll be working now which I'm not normally irked abt but. i am a bit rn)#so cool. yeah. let's stack anxiety and fear over a medical appt on top of everything else for that week#and that's not counting that this weekend I've been tasked with buying and getting signed a v expensive and rare figure#for my mum's bf and I'm kind of terrified im gonna fuck it up#he paid for tickets to the con the figure will be sold at and that the person he wants to sign it will be at#so if i fuck this up he'll want (understandably) to be paid back asap for that#and that's money i don't fucking have rn#i really wish she had waited till the actual day proper to contact me bc i couldn't sleep before this#and now i definitely cant bc like#it's dumb. but what if she takes my med away. it isn't perfect but it works better than any other med I've tried#what if she wants me to try a new one. i cant do that and b dealing with major side effects during the intense work schedule#that'll be happening for me v soon and then into November
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light and misa's "relationship" is rlly tragic and fucked but also in an isolated state its really fucking funny. ESPECIALLY if you consider them both to be arospec like i do
#misa is like ''oh light my wonderful boyfriend~!! we need to go on a date we haven't been on one in so long!''#(i know that when you're dating you're supposed to go on dates. so we have to go on a date every so often to assure me that i'm getting a#good grade in Having a Boyfriend something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve)#and then light is like (internally) 'i would literally rather kill myself than spend time with her but i need her for my purposes so i have#to appease her' (externally) ''ok sure i guess misa''#and then they go to a restaurant and misa waits for him to kiss her the whole night (she does not attempt to herself)#meanwhile light just sits there and goes nonverbal for long extended periods of time while he monologues in his head about how to appear#like a normal (straight) human being (spoiler: he's really bad at this)#and every so often he'll be like ''you look nice. this food is good. other boring pleasantries'' while glaring as if he's poisoned her food#THEY LIVED LIKE THIS FOR 4 YEARS.#again. awful. but also kind of fucking funny. gay aroace guy and aroace girl going through the motions of a heterosexual relationship for 4#whole years. they hate each other for sure dawg ToT obvs misa to a lesser extent but i think she definitely had a lot subconscious hate for#light. that only got stronger the longer things went on#also during this time they definitely had sex a Single Time because they got to a point where misa was like we've been dating for like#2 years normal couples usually sleep together way before then...... and light was like. LOUD SIGH. ok#it was terrible. neither of them enjoyed it and they never spoke of it again#gee wonder why that was (holding the ace spectrum behind my back)#anyways they're so awful im obsessed w them. awful apart and even WORSE together. it's beautiful#then you throw L in this mix and it gets even funnier and MORE awful#(he's bi aroace to me btw. for the record)#serena.txt#death note posting
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