#she got me a whooooole bunch

[spirk-trek]

a very star trek birthday :)

[purveyorofsocks]

TW | I harm myself and I have for a while

If you didn't put in the specific tags necessary to end up on this side of tumblr that header might be a bit of a lot. But for others, the kind that search out this kinda thing, those like me, it's just another post of its kind. BUT I have something to say, a point if you will, as all other posts of this kind tend to have. It's a stupid point, one we all know but some fight more then others, that "this" isn't actually helping. So dive in with me to the beginning of this 9 year long crutch.

I was 12, which after intensive obsessive research, I know to be the average for girls/women. I logged onto a little website called "7 cups of tea" If you were born in the early 2000s and spent too much time on the internet you're probably well acquainted. I filled out the little test that labeled me as depressed so I entered chats with volunteer councilors with that in mind, and the first question posed was always "So, do you cut yourself?" And I didn't, but whenever I told a councilor that the interaction immediately went stale.

12 yr me took that to mean "This is what it takes to be heard"

And so I did, and everything got a whole lot worse for a long long time. My parents finally confronted me about it and responded poorly, got yelled at by my mom. Not that she wasn't trying, she just really didn't have all the information and she had her own baggage, so much to say that I've forgiven her not that her actions were ok.

Cutting was how I got groomed for the first time, this guy in his early thirties came to 15 yr old me and said he'd share his bdsm test results with me if I could go cold turkey for certain period of time. I started carrying razor blades in my pocket.

At 17 I carved a shitty boys name into my thigh. (It faded not long before the friendship ended due to a whooooole bunch of bullshit

It never stopped, I didn't hide the knowledge from anyone aside from my parents and they still don't know the extent, but you know who does? My hairstylist, his wife, all of my friends, family friends, my boss, colleagues. And at this old age of 21 I still haven't stopped and most days? I have no desire to, a part of me is masochistic enough to like it. But I can acknowledge that it's unhealthy, and I know it's a crutch for something I am trying to avoid.

I have unhealthy patterns though, I try to find fanfiction that has the same topics (that happen to be well written enough for them to be believable*rare*) and I make myself worse to better enjoy the adrenaline that pain provides. But there are things that have improved, harm reduction mostly. I try not to let the severity of the injury dictate how seriously I take my pain, I don't reuse blades, I clean and bandage anything above a cat-scratch.

I have to report to my roommate after each relapse because she deserves to know when it's getting bad, she needs to know she's not going to come home to the bathtub overflowing.

And this isn't me at perfect, but this is me at better. Don't let them lie to you, and most importantly don't lie to yourself. It can and will get better, unless you fight better. Because sometimes joy is too vulnerable for the broken.

If any of this feels familiar, know you’re not alone. You don’t have to fix everything overnight—sometimes, harm reduction is progress, and ‘better’ doesn’t have to mean perfect. But you deserve more than survival, even if it feels impossible to imagine.

Start small. Reach out to someone safe. Take one step—just one—to show yourself that healing doesn’t mean giving up who you are.

And if nothing else, keep going. Because even if joy feels out of reach right now, there’s still something waiting for you on the other side of this.

I was talking to someone today who told me that they had struggled with similar addiction until their 30s on and off until eventually they realized that throwing up all the time could cause them to stroke, and that just seemed like a lot to deal with over an extra slice of cake.

Take that how you will.

[thelightofthingshopedfor]

you know, I think I’d be at least slightly less upset/frustrated about character deaths in the MCU if they expanded more on the concept of the afterlife and brought that aspect more in line with the comics

because, I mean, it’s been mentioned, even portrayed, but not in a way that’s at all consistent, and at least for me, that makes some deaths feel a lot more final than others. not even “final” as in “I’m expecting the MCU to do the revolving-door thing of the comics and never keep its characters dead,” because I don’t expect that, but like--it makes a difference if you know a character’s soul continues to exist and they’re at peace, you know? especially if the alternative is, they were human and they died and now there’s just nothing?

and it’s confirmed for a few very specific aspects of the MCU. Asgard has Valhalla, implied before and now shown directly. Wakanda has the Ancestral Plane. there’s some stuff in Moon Knight that I haven’t actually seen yet but I know it’s there because of the wiki. those are all nominally based on real-world religions and gods, but in the MCU they’re actual reality whether you believe in them or not, and your cultural background seems to be the only thing dictating where you end up in the afterlife. I guess the Astral Dimension is...kind of connected to the other afterlives, but maybe also not, which is exactly the kind of thing they should develop more.

the very existence of the Soul Stone (and the fact that everyone has an astral form, I guess? but the Ancient One’s astral form fades when she dies, so does that mean astral forms don’t actually have anything to do with souls, or that human souls just poof into oblivion when they die, or just that their afterlife is completely inaccessible to the living?) is hard proof that souls exist in the MCU and everyone has one. only, there’s no indication that anybody else actually gets an afterlife, because absolutely nothing is ever mentioned, aside from human-typical stuff about resting or being reunited with dead family members or whatever. it would make sense if they did, for sure! like, it would be extremely weird if the souls in a small handful of cultures throughout the universe got to continue existing after death and literally everyone else just stopped existing as if they’d never been there in the first place. but nothing in the films indicates otherwise. every single other character who’s died might as well just be erased from existence like they’d never been, like they’d never mattered, and that just sucks, you know? at least in the comics, everybody--I’m pretty sure--went somewhere when they died, whether they stayed there or not.

which is also not to say that I think everyone in the MCU should know/believe that some kind of afterlife exists. obviously the Earth-based stuff in the MCU is more or less based on the real world, which has a ton of different beliefs about what happens after death even while none of us can ever actually know, and it would be pretty weird to make that huge of a difference between the MCU and reality. but there can also be a big difference between what the characters know and what the audience knows, or between what some characters know and others know. we could have gotten a quick shot of Tony and Natasha reuniting in some vague afterlife, for instance. (or Gamora absolutely wrecking Thanos in the afterlife, but that might be too complicated to do it quickly, and also they’re cowards and super weird about Thanos so they probably wouldn’t have done that anyway.) or a Wakandan could be explicit about the Ancestral Plane being only one afterlife of many, all connected, with everybody getting one whether they expect it or not. or one of the Masters of the Mystic Arts could say that the Astral Dimension contains a whooooole bunch of afterlives and the living can’t access them so not much is known for certain but they at least know something’s there and various people have had glimpses of dimensions or whatever that look like the afterlives described in various cultures.

...granted, I only watched Doctor Strange once, and I still haven’t seen Multiverse of Madness, Wakanda Forever, Moon Knight, or Love and Thunder, so I guess it’s possible any of these things could have happened and I forgot or just didn’t know, but the wiki doesn’t mention the kind of thing I want so I assume there wasn’t anything like that, and it bugs me.

(I don’t actually expect an Asgardian to care about any afterlife but Valhalla so I’m not surprised we didn’t get anything useful from them. ...I am annoyed Love and Thunder didn’t expand on the Valhalla bit just a little to show that Loki’s been reunited with his mom. and slightly surprised, because as joke-heavy as that movie apparently was, I wouldn’t have been surprised at all to have Loki welcome Jane to Valhalla just so she could punch him again--but more effectively this time--in a callback to TDW. the only question would be whether Taika would go for the cheap but basically nonsensical joke by leaving it there, despite Loki saving Jane’s life twice in TDW and apparently dying for Thor, and then fighting for Asgard in Ragnarok and actually dying for Thor in IW, or if he’d make it reasonable with “that’s for letting Thor think you were dead for years, asshole,” but then hugging him or something, all “that’s for...a bunch of other stuff. you’re still an asshole though.” which is something I could easily turn into a short little fic, probably, but I still prefer just going “well anyway he’s not dead because I said so.”)

[coffee-or-murder]

5, 9, 23, and 25 for Lemon :>

5. How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

Honestly it depends on the thing! She’s not a particularly materialistic person, and she’s pretty sure that with her set of skills (healing magic, arcane/nature knowledge, and baking/cooking) she shouldn’t have to resort to stealing from innocent folks to get by. Lemon also has a problem of putting others' needs/wants before hers, up to and including sacrificing her own comfort for their needs/wants, for people she cares about. We’ve talked OOC about how another person’s heart is an acceptable substitute for a diamond for a revivify spell, so under the very specific circumstances of “during combat person kills a person I love, person is clearly the aggressor and is in their right mind, I have no diamonds to bring back the person I love” Lemon would kill the other person in fear/rage to bring the person she loves back to life which with some team members might be a major point of contention between them. 

The most in canon thing she’s done to pursue a “material want” was when the team was clearing out the Tower, and she and Nick found a set of very fancy kitchen knives. Lemon pocketed those with a little nudging, but the party also technically owned everything in the Tower at that point, so I wouldn’t count it as stealing. The most she’s done “emotional want” wise is run away from home to avoid delay her arranged marriage, but even that was orchestrated by her family and not totally her choice. They were always going to get her out of the shires, but whether she hid at a distant family friend's home or joined up with LEAGUE was the only choice she got to make.

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

So Lemon’s playlist is now up to…..160 songs so there’s a whooooole bunch I associate with her. Here’s a selection~ ;D   

“Make it easy/ Make it clever, craft it into pieces/ Make it sweet/ Crimp the edges/ We'll make it sour and serve with lemon wedges/ Even doubt/ Can be delicious/ And it washes off of all the dirty dishes/ When it's done/ I can smile/ It's on someone else's plate for a while/ I'll place it on display/ And then I'll slice and serve my worries away”

“Sometimes I find myself shaking / In the middle of the night / And then it hits me and I can't / Even believe this is my life / But people have problems that are worse than mine / I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time / And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths / I'm not strong enough to deal with it / I am slowly falling apart”

“I'm happy for you, I'm smiling for you / I'd do anything for you, for you / It's always for you and never for me / And I need it to stop so let me tell you, please / I'm always sad and I'm always lonely / But I can't tell you that I'm breaking slowly / Closed doors, locked in, no keys / Keeping my feelings hidden, there is no ease / I need it to stop and I want to be able to open up / But my feelings are fatal, my feelings are fatal”

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

She has trouble processing anything to do with guilt/shame, which unfortunately is also deeply entangled with her perceptions of love and her own self image. Lemon is so full of shame over her own wants and needs because of her mothers emotional abuse, and even with the support and love of the rest of her friends/family she hasn’t managed to unlearn those feelings. She openly and repeatedly offers love/comfort/help to others, but has a lot of trouble admitting her own need for it out of fear/shame of being a burden to the team and losing the little bit of love she’s found with them. 

Lemon has the most trouble with expressing negative emotions in general to the people she cares about! She’ll get mad and sass back at rude people or a stranger who ignores her boundaries or is mean to her friend, but if her loved ones toe the line of her comfort she just ignores it. She tries very very hard to only let her friends see her be happy/supportive/comforting out of fear of them leaving her behind, because why else would they want her around if she isn’t providing a service? She’s a bit of a crybaby, but has smothered that response the best she can so no one gets annoyed by her crying when she’s stressed/angry. Everytime she has a disagreement with a friend she tends to panic and immediately back down, though she’s been getting a bit better about realizing that one disagreement isn’t the end of everything! It’s slow going, and only made worse because of how isolated and untethered she feels being away from home and cut off from the only support she felt she could trust. 

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

Her hair and freckles are so much fun to draw lol. Something about trying to maintain a loose heart shape with her hair and getting to dot her freckles is just a lot of fun. I also enjoy how I set up how her magic feels to her! It’s fun coming up with various ways she feels the hearth fire/boiling pot in her gut and how it can react to outside stimuli. Also the dice seem to always know when I’m rolling to see if Lemon got flustered by someone and she rolls so low everytime. It’s hilarious lol. 

[moonlit-trolls]

💅🧿♠️⚖️🎄 for Qianna

💅 "Well let's say the haul from enemy ships and bases goes to the commanding officer and being on one of the highest levels i bring it home, and sell it back to the fleet. Sooooo i got a bunch of cash, and sixteen spa days for when i'm off duty for the next month"

🧿 "They're just silly stories. c'mon there's no way something that big hasn't tried to kill people yet, and if you dive too deep you'll just, die to sharks, everyone knows that"

♠️ "RIVALRY WE NEED TO BE ANGRY AT EACHOTHER BECAUSE WE KNOW WE ARE BETTER y'know!! i mean i hate a bitch but i ain't hating her Enough if she's don't got the ability to be better than me. Y'know!!"

⚖️ "Justice gotta be taken to our hands, i mean, someone tryna kill you? kill them. Shot six guys robbing a bank. people were mad at me cuz they were trolls too and blah blah blah, Shot em dead, Would do it again"

🎄 "Noooope! i sleep! we get the whole ship-day off so i just go and lay my back down on my sixteen plushies and twelve pillows and NAP the whooooole day"

[tobuo]

hey so !!!! @mstalltale your point is really interesting and got me thinking so i wanted to add it on to this post. hope you don't mind! i still don't think they're going to bring him back as was, or at least, i'll be really disappointed if they do for the reasons i touched on in my original post, and a few more here, because i think it would cheapen the sacrifice BUT this whole bit of lore is really interesting and touches on a whooooole bunch of other lore i enjoy....... so now im speculating for fun tehehe

SPOILERS FOR OCHKANATLAN, 5.3 ARCHON QUEST & MAUVIKA'S STORY QUEST + SPECULATION ABOUT CAPITANO, XBALANQUE & THE PYRO SOVEREIGN UNDER THE CUT.

FIRSTLY im not sure his lack of face reveal means much. i think it was probably hoyo wanting to let the player know just how horrifying the curse is by explaining capitano as being eroded/rotted beyond recognition... but feeling it might be too graphic to show. but i could be wrong!

as for the crucifixion nails in his symbol, for me that kind of alludes to the fact that capitano died for someone else's sins. mauvika was the one who used the ruler of death's power, she was the one who committed that "sin" and whose life should have been forfeit as a result, but capitano took her place and i guess, in turn, resurrected the lord of the night/the night kingdom that wouldn't have survived if not??? maybe?? you could also say he died for all the other souls that were with him too, to grant them peace they otherwise wouldn't have been given

that said, i definitely think it's interesting that hoyo went the route of having his body remain rather than doing what they did with signora lol. i don't think you're wrong that it's intentional and i DO have a few different thoughts on this sjkdfhsdf. the first is what i believe is most likely, but your comment got me thinking about the others just for fun lol. either way tho, i don't see capitano coming back.... but thats just me

SPECULATION #1 - NATURE OF NIGHT KINGDOM

my main theory would be because the basis of the night kingdom is as a kind of..... liminal space for souls to exist? "between body and mind, life and death" in the words of the genshin wiki, so it makes sense that capitano's death was a spiritual one rather than a physical one, especially considering his curse and that he kinda merged with the lord of the night who rules over the night kingdom. mauvika also mentions that for those afflicted with the curse of immortality that being removed from the physical plane is a kind of peace... i cant remember/find her exact words here im sorry to me that implies that he, and other khaenri'ahns, can't physically die... but that their souls... can? or at least can transcend to some other place where they might escape the curse. if we then also assume this means the khaenri'ahn curse is a physical affliction it makes sense that his body would remain since ronova "upheld" the rules and the curse. that's the whole paradox and this is partly what makes me think he isn't going to be "resurrected". the whole point is that his curse/body/life force is what's sustaining the lord of the night.... him coming back.... would undo that..... his cursed body is the thing sustaining the lord of the night, so it has to remain there. THAT SAID i am definitely interested to know how much of capitano/thrain remains, if any, since he transferred his life force to the lord of the night. she says to mauvika not to seek traces of him... but does that mean his soul is gone completely? WHO KNOWS!!! i'm also SUPER interested to know what this situation will mean if the traveller/their sibling ends the curse of immortality too

SPECULATION #2 - VESSEL FOR XBALANQUE

this is a bit more out there skdjfhsdf but...... the crucifixion nails in his symbol.... which then leads to the idea of resurrection. BUT DOES IT HAVE TO BE CAPITANO'S? there are a LOT of mentions of xbalanque, and he even "appears" in mauvika's story quest. temporarily. he himself says the body he appears in he's "only possessing [it] temporarily" and that the borrowed body is "a bit lacking when it comes to exercise, and hasn't really trained any aspect" but that he has "[his] own plans". AND WHO JUST HAPPENS TO HAVE A FREE BODY RIGHT NOW POTENTIALLY? PRIME REAL ESTATE. MY MAN IS EMPTY one of the main things we also know about xbalanque is that when he killed xiuhcoatl (the pyro sovereign), xbalanque was "revived from the flames". there's a lot of mentions throughout ochkanatlan especially about the everlasting flame of life/primal flame. when the traveller awakens to the pyro element, we even make offerings of burning flint which has a "fiery pulse" to capitano on the throne of primal fire. in ochkanatlan??? i know mauvika's story quest kind of presents it that this one day trip was xbalanque's reward for the "bet" he made with ronova and that he's not planning to return because he "gave" the rest of the "life force" ronova granted him to mauvika after their duel so its highly unlikely but......... the possibility is out there....... especially since, as you said, death isn't an absolute in natlan and the ode of resurrection does still exist in some capacity. maybe the throne of primal fire works as another kind of ode of resurrection??? i definitely think it's intentional that we offer those things to capitano's body/the throne. okay SO maybe i just want playable xbalanque because his lore is SO INTERESTING TO ME and he seems so funny but this is a fun theory all the same

SPECULATION #3 - VESSEL FOR PYRO SOVEREIGN/XIUHCOATL

even more out there...... but this speculation involves much of the same ideas as xbalanque being ressurcted using capitano. some ppl in natlan do think xiuhcoatl is still in the volcano, just in some kind of statis/hibernation or that a husk of him remains after xbalanque killed him but............. again........ if the primal flame/sacred flame/flame of everlasting life etc. has the power to resurrect....... who's to say it's not possible to reawaken the pyro sovereign this way..................... using the throne of primal fire....... ESPECIALLY SINCE THE ARCHON'S SEAT WHOSE POWER COMES FROM THE SOVEREIGNS IS THEIR "DIVINE THRONE".......... lol i don't think this one is super likely, i tend to lean more towards the idea that our little saurian companion will somehow be related to or become the vessel for the pyro sovereign (they are "the chosen of dragons" and have the "flamelord's blessing" after all) BUT we do know from neuvillette that the sovereigns can be reborn in human form............ and its just a fun theory to imagine lol

anyway if anyone has thoughts on this, i'd love to chat about it more!!!!!!

ppl complaining abt capitano ~dying~ like it isn't the most thematically appropriate end to his story. none of the actions we've ever seen from him have been for personal glory or gain. it's perfectly in keeping with who he is to sacrifice himself for a cause like this. it was his choice, on his terms, with the added poetic justice of spitting in the face of the very being who cursed him and all the other khaenri'ahns after suffering for hundreds of years.

like............. yeah it's sad that he's likely never gonna be playable, but honestly i think his storyline was so narratively satisfying and a really gorgeous, fitting end for a really interesting character

[spiderstaff]

🌻

"My dads are the greatest!" Kay bounces on her heels at the question, opening her locket to show him the photo inside.

"Dad with the glasses is named Jim. He's reaaaally into magic, and he invented a whole bunch of necromancy spells. Even powerful ones that got banned!" She pauses, her grin fading. "He doesn't do those anymore. But he's really funny, and he was the first person who was ever nice to me! It might not seem like it, but he's a really kind person."

"My other dad is the Emperor of the whooooole country! But he doesn't act all stuck up like most nobles. He's nice, and funny! He slacks off a lot, too, and gets lectures from my other dad. But he's also really caring... he told me once it's important if you're in charge to care about people." She smiles. "I hope when I grow up, I can be just like them!"

...

"I didn't know my other dad growing up. Like, my real dad." Crossing her arms, she averts her eyes from Hunter's. "Like, OK, he's not my real dad. At least I don't think about him like that. But he's the one who's related to me. I didn't meet him til I was older, and he tried to kidnap me for ransom money or something. It's whatever. My dads kicked his butt." Sitting down, she closes the locket, letting go of it. "I try not to think about him, actually. If I think about it too much, I get confused, and kinda sad. It doesn't feel good to know he didn't actually want me or anything."

...

"...L-like I said! Don't think about it and it won't matter, right?"

[aleinnilatibae]

Repair! Sportarobbie! :D

repair. being confined to bed due to injury or illness and hating every second of it.  

This is such a good prompt because NEITHER OF THEM would be good at this, in any way...

Okay this has turned into neurodivergent!Sportarobbie, and you know what? I’m not complaining in the least, thank you indigo.

warning: blood and emergency room mentions

On their first trip to the emergency room, Robbie was PANICKING.

He was trying to hold it together, as the only one in LazyTown with a valid drivers license, while Sportacus pressed a mountain of gauze to his own still-bleeding stomach wound and struggled to breathe through the pain in the passenger seat.

He found himself saying some very un-villain-like things, murmuring things like “it’s gonna be okay, it’s gonna be okay, Sportacus, just hold on, we’ll be there in a SNAP! Just stay with me, stay with me-”

He found himself FEELING some very un-villain-like things while they took him away, a powerful ache in his chest as they whisked him past all of the less-injured people in the ER’s waiting room, down the hall to the triage room.

Oh, who was he kidding. He and Sportacus hadn’t been enemies for some time now, and truth be told? It would be FAR more accurate to describe them as FRIENDS.

Enemies certainly didn’t drive each other to the emergency room, or pace in the lobby waiting for good news about them.

When Sportacus came back after a fretful hour, sporting only a line of stitching across his stomach, Robbie thanked every deity he had ever heard of, and they spend the drive back to LazyTown in pure relief.

“Doctor says rest,” Robbie said gruffly. 

“I will!” promised Sportacus, walking gingerly up the ramp into his airship.

And then Sportacus ripped his stitching out doing a flip, and it landed them in the emergency room a second time.

He smiled sheepishly as he bled all over their tile floor, and apologized to the people who patched him up a second time.

“PLEASE don’t do this again,” Robbie said on their way home.

“I won’t,” Sportacus promised.

On the THIRD trip to the emergency room, Robbie was--well, he was still worried, because tearing stitches HAD to be painful, and dangerous to boot, but mostly he had had it up to HERE.

“Robbie, you really don’t have to go with me this time, I can handle it-”

“No, Sportacus, I want to hear it! I want to hear you explain to this nice lady right here-” he gestured at the receptionist, “-AGAIN, why we are back in the EMERGENCY ROOM for the THIRD TIME!!”

Robbie crossed his arms, and waited.

Sportacus sighed. “I...I had some stitches put in my abdomen, and they got, ah...accidentally torn out. Again.”

“WOULD you like to tell the lady....HOW they got accidentally torn out?!” said Robbie.

Sportacus sighed. “I was doing a flip,” he mumbled.

The receptionist heaved a great sigh, suggesting that she wasn’t paid enough to deal with this.

“Also I am bleeding a great deal, so...I would appreciate it if you could, ah...get me checked in,” asked Sportacus, very politely for a man whose bloodstained shirt was growing more and more bloodstained by the second.

The ride back was...tense, to say the least.

Robbie parked outside of his lair, to the surprise of Sportacus.

“I don’t trust you in your ship,” Robbie said, by way of explanation, “You’re staying with ME this time.”

Robbie lead Sportacus carefully through his lair, to his own barely-used bed.

“Now THIS time,” Robbie said with a beleaguered sigh as he helped Sportacus climb into the bed, “Could you. PLEASE. Stay! Still!”

“I’ll try my best,” Sportacus said carefully.

“N-no! No try! You-y-you-” Robbie sputtered in frustration, then regrouped, with a different tactic. 

“If not for yourself, could you do it for ME?!”

“For you?” asked Sportacus.

“Yes, for ME!” Robbie exploded, “EACH time we have gone to the emergency room, I have to CHOKE DOWN the FEAR that THIS is the time that you’re going to BLEED OUT, or get an INFECTION, or-or-or-” Robbie choked down a sob. 

“So please, for my SANITY,” he said, holding onto his temples, “Can you STAY! IN! The BED?!”

Sportacus looked at Robbie as if seeing him anew. 

“I’m...I’m sorry, Robbie,” he said quietly. “It’s just...I can’t STAND staying still.”

Robbie took a deep, steadying breath. “Yes, I had FIGURED OUT as much,” he said, “After living in this TOWN with you for years. But you’ve...you’ve GOT to.”

Sportacus stared down at his thrice-repaired abdomen, then heaved a despondent sigh.

“I don’t think I’m going to be able to do it,” he admitted quietly. “I don’t want to hurt you, or-or hurt ME, for that matter, but...it HURTS to stay still, for any length of time.  It crawls underneath my skin, like-like-I don’t know what. And when the ah...pain gets strong enough, and it outweighs the risk of the stitches tearing...I’m going to move.”

Sportacus scrubbed at his eyes, looking defeated.

Robbie on the other hand, stood slackjawed as he FINALLY understood.

Of course! Without his flips, that Sportaflippity was understimulated! And while the urge to do a flip was VERY alien to him, Robbie understood the skin-crawling feeling of understimulation like the back of his HAND!  

“Sporta-all you need is a different outlet!” Robbie exclaimed, turning heel and running excitedly through his lair, HOPING that Sportacus would stay still while he lugged back this enormous purple box.

“What we NEED is ALTERNATIVES!” he said as he returned, taking the lid and tossing it behind him, ignoring the crash as he rummaged through the box. “And boy, have you come to the right PLACE!”

“We’ve got...a heavy blanket! No, no, no pressure on your stitches, but--still could be used for those restless legs, I’ll put that one in the MAYBE pile. But I have a whooooole bunch of stim toys here, that don’t involve your body at all!”

“Stim toys?” parroted Sportacus, looking quite overwhelmed by Robbie’s sudden excitement.

“Of course! I NEVER leave the house without one or two, these days!” Robbie babbled, “You should have SEEN how much my last bill to Stimtastic was, whoo-EE!”

Sportacus was still staring at him like he was speaking a completely different language.

“But anyway,” Robbie cleared his throat, “I figure a guy like you....”

He rummaged, down to the bottom, to the things Robbie himself very rarely used but suddenly lit up in his mind as VERY USEFUL.

“Here,” Robbie said, tossing a ball to Sportacus, “Check THIS out.”

Sportacus caught the knobbly rubber ball effortlessly, examining the texture of its dull rubber spikes by tossing it from hand to hand.

“Oh, that’s nice,” he said, in surprise, rolling the ball over the bare skin of his arms with obvious satisfaction on his face.

“Oh, there’s PLENTY more where that came from,” said Robbie, tossing item after item on the bed.

“This one is supposed to be a hand-strengthening tool, but I don’t really like it much, it hurts my JOINTS, heh heh,” Robbie said, placing the item within Sportacus’ reach, “But you haven’t LIVED until you’ve used the snap-and-click! Oh, and you might appreciate THIS! It may seem ordinary, but if you roll it between your hands, you will see that it turns to-” 

Robbie spent what seemed like hours, explaining and explaining,and was certain that Sportacus would try to make a run for it, but he was...raptly attentive the entire time, asking questions, trying out the things Robbie talked about, keeping that same knobbly ball in his hands the entire time.

“I...never knew that there was another way,” said Sportacus quietly, at the end of it, “To solve....that problem. I never even...considered it.”

“Boy do I remember THAT feeling,” Robbie nodded.

"Want to know what I’m feeling now?” Sportacus asked.

“What?”

Sportacus looked up and gave him a smile. “Hopeful.”

Sportacus reached out his arms for Robbie.

“There’s no way that I’m letting you hug me with TWELVE STITCHES in your stomach,” Robbie warned.

“Not going to,” Sportacus said, drawing Robbie in by a hand and planting a kiss on his cheek.

“Thank you,” Sportacus whispered.

“Hrgh,” garbled Robbie, feeling suddenly disarmed.

Head spinning, heart thumping, he picked up one of the stretchy noodles and nervously wound his hands in it. “W-well, I’m GLAD you’re hopeful, because if you tear your stitches out ONE more time, I will re-stitch them MYSELF! And, I won’t be NICE about it!!”

Sportacus chuckled, “Okay, Robbie.”

Robbie harrumphed, but he still built up the courage necessary to kiss Sportacus on the cheek before he ran off, muttering excuses about finding his knitting needles and forcing Sportacus to learn a LAZIER hobby.

Only problem was, he just couldn’t stop SMILING while he was doing it.

[godkilller]

unprompted ask.      //      thank you!

          Gin would’ve found ease in blatantly admitting his general dislike for the Gotei 13′s many soldiers------in him slumbered a cold indifference, observed and learned via Aizen, to the overall structure of the Seireitei, its plentiful pieces presenting themselves as... rather lackluster when all was said and done. Ultimately, it was Shinigami ranked among the Gotei 13 who hurt dozens of spiritual-pressure bearing children throughout the Rukongai, and ultimately it was those very same Shinigami, the saviors from Soul Society, who plagued upon Rangiku’s soul. Ultimately, it was by Yamamoto Genryusai’s failure that monsters such as Urahara Kisuke, Aizen Sousuke, succeeded in their experimentations of Shinigami limitation wearing the very robes that were supposed to symbolize protectors. Gin knew his hatred was secretly childish, basic, but then again the blame----the responsibility to keep innocent souls safe----simply fell upon the grand commander and his many captains at his disposal at the time. Every single acting captain, lieutenant, and ranking soldier seated below ALL SWORE TO KEEP THOSE CHILDREN SAFE. What a load of bullshit!

       WHERE WERE THEY WHEN SHE WAS ATTACKED?

          Vehemently wishing the entire Gotei 13′s demise was far too much to dare imagine, and Gin found himself instead bitterly dismissive of their plights as an alternative. If Aizen so happened to kill a few of those less-recent additions to the Gotei 13 during his assault on Karakura Town? Gin wouldn’t have any complaints, especially if he managed to take out the old man himself... Soul Society could use a refresher from the outdated mind of a withering body. Maybe then the new generation of leadership could, possibly, spot a god damn traitor in the ranks before he could make a bunch of children his test subjects.

          At least Gin got to kill a few stiff and misguided Central 46 judges on his way out.

          ❝ There’s a whooooole lista things that’re bad about Soul Society. It’s never jus’ been about purifyin’ souls, leadin’ them to the light... gettin’ rid of a few Hollow here’n there. The things I’ve been told? Alllll those lil secrets shoved under the rug? At this rate... the entire thing oughtta get reset. ❞

          But despite his blame set upon the Gotei’s shoulders, Gin still could enjoy the company of a select few--------before his official betrayal, at least. He knew not all of the apples were bad, necessarily. Just loyal to the wrong thing... and he could say that because he had misplaced loyalties, too. For even the traitor deep down RESPECTED AIZEN, the culprit he currently placed his reasons for disrespect upon the Gotei 13 of old for being unable to stop. That was a complication, a labyrinth of emotions and connections, groomed into place for decades as he fused his mask to skin, and Gin could never delve into, explain, let alone merely acknowledge out loud the strength of that despicable respect...

          Listing off a few old comrades would do for now.

         ❝ I used to like cap’n Komamura, always thought he was awfully devoted ‘n kind, cared about his subordinates the most and never stood back ‘n watched if somebody ever needed help. He didn’t talk to me much, though----I figure he was shy or jus’ didn’t like me, which’s fair and why I respect’im even more if I gotta be honest... and Ukitake’s always been one, I don’t think anybody’ll ever tell ya differently. Even though he treated me like a kid back then---technically I was one----so it wasn’t wrong or anythin’. Maybe it’s ‘cause he didn’t talk down to me at all, he was fair’n gentle. He’s always been wise, too. Unohana’s high up there obviously, it takes a lotta guts to take care of a buncha dumbasses without losin’ your cool on a daily basis----I don’t think I’ve ever met anybody else as patient as her. Plus... soooomethin’ tells me she ain’t got that blood smell only ‘cause of her work. Take it from somebody who projects killin’ intent pretty often: I think she’s hidin’ somethin’ awfully dark, which’s all the more reason to respect her. Scaaary~! And then Izuru’s of course on my list, I reckon he’s gonna make a real good captain one day, I hope----once he gets past his fears’n discomforts, he’ll be unstoppable. For now? He’s always been an overly dedicated person, an excellent subordinate, ‘n a great friend----...to whoever he’s friendly with nowadays. As for the rest of’em all? I ain’t that interested. ❞ 

[blatterpussbunnyfromhell]

Today was such a fucking ride... (long post under the cut, but if you read it please keep in my mind that I’m easily unnerved by a schedule not being respected.)

This morning I arrived one hour late at Amiens’ train station and had to walk 3 fucking kilometers from the train station to my school with sick legs and an underhydrated body because I couldn’t pay for the bus hahaha, once I arrived in class I heard a bunch of dudebros trying to translate homophobic slurs in spanish class, went through the whooooole process of trying to send my applications for next year through the new french website (the old one was shit, but oh god is this one even shittier, asking impossible questions) while a teacher passed around a sheet for the acces code with everyone’s name AND FIRSTNAME thus telling everyone my friend’s and my own birthnames (I was so pissed I thought I was going to slam the keyboard against the computer).

Then the Social Economic class, where we got taught what to say in a dissertation about unemployement, I got tons of homeworks to catch up on, so I thought “hey, I managed to walk for 50 minutes, on three miles, I’m not gonna be stopped by a fucking dissertation.”

Told the teacher I was going back home, took the 2pm bus, arrived back at Beauvais at 3.40pm and thought that’ll leave me around 5 hours to study before going to bed, and that’s where it gets shitty : My mom’s car has died. So she asked her “”friend”””’s husband (they’re supposed to be friends but there’s always some drama happening, like they said they were talking to each other anymore but my mom keeps going back to them...) to pick me up at the train station.

He arrived 45 minutes late, with his daughters, I wanted to go home as early as possible, and the man took aaaaaallllllll his tiiiiiiiimeeeee to take one of his kid back home, then took the time to get to a garage to get a folder for his car or smth, it was 5.15. I was so fustrated I bit my fist and screamed while I waited in the car, for AROUND FIFTEEN MINUTES and then when his daughter and him got back, we got stuck in the traffic.

I got home TWO FUCKING HOURS after having arrived at Beauvais, and usually that only takes 10 minutes. I’m so unnerved I might not even get my homeworks done lmaoooo

EDIT : I sort of calmed down and I’m still going to do my homeworks. I don’t know what the heck is happening today. I’m not breaking and that’s fucking weird.

[radroller]

Squigly

First impression: Cuuuuute

Impression now: Cuuuuute and also pretty dang strong!

Favorite moment: Idk how this works for a fighting game character? I haven’t played her story or anything so I wouldn’t know.

Idea for a story: Some more stuff about her mom would be pretty cool.

Unpopular opinion: I love Squigly, but I heard that the reason she wasn’t in the initial roster was because she got dropped in favor of Valentine, and honestly i don’t really mind it. Nothin AGAINST her I just like Valentine a whooooole bunch. Then again, that’s pretty easy to say after we managed to get both gals as characters.

Favorite relationship: Her and Leviathan pretty much by default.

Favorite headcanon: Again, I don’t really have any.

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Lisa Berry talks 'Supernatural,' Death and 'Wayward Sisters"

I was fascinated with Lisa Berry’s character when she first appeared on Supernatural as Billie the Reaper, and chatted with her shortly after her second episode aired. So needless to say, I was thrilled to see Lisa return to Supernatural as Billie in the finale of Season 12 (to be killed by Castiel) and then again in Season 13 – this time as Death herself. We had a chance to chat after her appearance in Episode 13.05, the aptly named Advanced Thanatology. Billie had a pivotal confrontation with Dean Winchester, which was one of my favorite scenes in the episode, so I couldn’t wait to ask her about that and more! Lynn: This last episode that you were in, that scene between Billie and Dean was so pivotal to that episode… it was amazing. What made it so pivotal is that Billie was in a sense the audience’s point of view – through her eyes, we realized how much Dean had changed. How hopeless and despondent he had become. Going into it, how much if anything did you know about what Dean’s mindset was at the time, because you really played that realization so well? Lisa: Oh thank you so much, I appreciate that. As a fan of the show, I appreciate that you appreciated it! (laughing) Lynn: I did! Lisa: I didn’t get much background, I kind of was just assuming a lot of things. So when I got the script, I had to fill a whole bunch of things in. But the way that Steve [Yockey] wrote it, it made it easy enough to see that this is the path to where Dean is probably at, this is what he’s probably doing. A lot of clues were given in the script. So I think that was a really big help, but I didn’t get to read the first four scripts beforehand so I was kind of just like an audience member left with the Season 12 finale. Lynn: That’s what I thought, especially because it was so early in the season. I often wonder how you as a guest actor are able to so seamlessly put yourself there, in the moment. Obviously, the writers are following along with the story, but it seemed like you were able to put yourself right there where the viewer was and Billie just sort of jumped in to explicate our point of view. Lisa: I really appreciate that, because you know I’m a huge fan of the show myself. Lynn: (grinning) I know, and I love that. Lisa: I had the history and the background [of the show] and so in my interpretation of the character I’ve always put myself as right next to Death, his number one, even if you couldn’t see me. So I endowed my character with a lot of knowledge and background and history and being there for all of those touching Dean moments, because I have it in me.  I’ve seen the series like a couple of times over. Not just the show, but the whooooole series, and there’s so many of them! I have really dedicated a lot of my TV watching time to Supernatural…. Lynn: (laughing, because err…me too) Lisa: I have! And a lot of times, I’ll just go back to one of my favorite seasons which is like when Death was introduced, which was so mind-blowing for me. And I’ll have it in the background while I’m working. I’ll have it on, and then I’ll just get caught up in a moment, and then you find yourself just watching it again – and I’m like, you’ve seen this, like seven times! Lynn: I totally love you. Lisa: You know? Lynn: I totally do. I do that too. Like, a lot. Lisa: (laughing) OK then I don’t feel so crazy because it’s a comforting show to have on in the background when you’re doing something. And then when I got the call that I was gonna be back, and I got the script, I immediately messaged Steve and said OMG this is so amazing and I’m so grateful that you trust me with this role. And they gave me lots of time with the script. I was also working at the Shaw Festival at the same time, so I was doing two plays in rep. Lynn: Oh wow, that’s a lot. Lisa: And then on my long weekend on Labor Day, I had to go and film the episode, and they somehow made it work.  They were like; this is a big scene, are you sure she can do it in one day? And I was like; I can handle it, you’ve given me plenty of time to learn my lines and really digest the character. So I just went and basically had fun on the day. All the work was done, and then Jensen is like an amazing actor and scene partner, it’s just like, “Annnnnnd scene.” Lynn: It’s funny when you say that, it didn’t occur to me that it might have been filmed in one day because it was such a big and complicated scene. But I’ve talked to other guest actors on the show who have said – I remember Curtis Armstrong telling me that when he did that really long dialogue scene with Rob… Lisa: Oh yeah… Lynn: That they wanted to do it as much as possible all in one day, just get in it and do it and he felt like that was part of why it came off as so powerful. I wonder if that’s part of why that scene with you and Jensen came off as so powerful too. The energy just crackled between the two of you. Lisa: Oh yeah, and our director [John Showalter] was so great – at the time I was very much in the theater world, so all you do is you show up and you do a play. You know all of your lines, and you just go for it. There’s no cut, try that again. And [on this episode] everybody was kinda just like ohhh he wants to kinda film it just like one shot, like continuously going and not breaking it up. In TV a lot of times you only have to know so much of your dialogue, and then you cut and then you can take it from there and space it out. But a scene like that, I was definitely an advocate for no, let’s just do it as one scene. Lynn: And it so worked. It’s interesting too because Jensen has said that one of the things that frustrates him sometimes – and they’ve sorta gotten away from it in Supernatural because they’ve been doing this so long – but it’s doing those very fragmented repeated takes kind of thing. He and Jared sorta joke about it like when they do it too many times, it’s like ‘I’m running on repeats’. Like you won’t get the best stuff. Lisa: Yeah and really, if you show up and you’re prepared, the set is completely open arms for you. I mean that as much for Supernatural as for any set. When an actor shows up and is prepared, then they can have fun. When an actor is not prepared, then it can become a really long day. Lynn: (laughing) Lisa: But it’s such a fun role, and it’s just gotten better and better every time I’ve gotten a script. I’m just so humbled – you know the show, there are about a million gazillion people they could bring back and story lines they could weave in and could be a part of their consideration – it always just makes me a little teary eyed to be brought back, like really? Lynn: You’re right, but it’s interesting, some fans long ago thought maybe Billie will be the next Death. And Julian Richings, a few years ago, said that he’d like to see you play Death if it isn’t him – and he said he loves you too, by the way. So maybe it was in the collective consciousness of the show. Lisa: I was just like, I hope the fans don’t hate me, because I love Julian too!  So I was just like, I really want to play the role with as much dignity and honor as I possibly can, because it’s like picking up a baton, you know? Lynn: Was that intimidating? We’ve talked before about Billie’s epic entrances. And this one was too – I think I said something in my review like the character is both beautiful and intimidating. That long coat and the ring and just the way she has about her. Was it intimidating to step into that role? Lisa: Awww, thank you. Absolutely, absolutely, because it’s such an iconic role. Whether you play it on television or film, or whatever. I went to see Thor Ragnarok and I thought OMG she plays the goddess of death – as do I. It’s like a role that I don’t know any woman who wouldn’t be like, YES PLEASE. Lynn: Oh yeah Lisa: And to sink your teeth into it…I was nervous obviously, I’m not gonna lie about that, but that’s the beauty of playing a role like that. I know when I’m in Billie, because Billie doesn’t have any nerves. She doesn’t get afraid and she doesn’t feel judged and she doesn’t worry about those things. And Lisa does. So it’s very easy to tell when I’m in the character and when I’m not. It’s a wonderful opportunity just as a human being to stand your ground and be confident and bold and to live in that energy. You don’t get to live in that energy that often, or stay in it that long, because something comes around to be like uh you’re actually human and you can be hurt, scarred, bruised, cut. Lynn: Alas, you have to go back to that. Alaina Huffman and Ruth Connell have said that too, that stepping into the shoes of their (powerful female) character who really doesn’t give a damn in the way most of us do is kinda therapeutic Lisa: Oh my gosh, yes. And especially with the role that I was playing on stage, it was so nice to straighten my spine and get to say how I feel and have an opinion and move through the world with confidence. Because when you’re playing a slave girl in 1833, you don’t get to do that. Lynn: I guess not, what a contrast! Lisa: It was, oh yeah. This past year I went from playing the handmaiden to the queen to a slave trying to make it through the day to Billie. It’s been all in a week, and that was kinda cool. Lynn: This is why I’m a psychologist and not an actor – I think that would mess with my head! Lisa: (laughing) Lynn: I don’t think I could do that Lisa: Oh man, tools. As a psychologist you absolutely know that people have their tools and I just always try to be the sanest actor I know. We do have a reputation for being crazy. So I do try and go in and out as gracefully as I can from roles and still be a functioning human being in the rest of the world. Lynn: It’s interesting, I know that’s the stereotype. But I know so many actors now from doing this research and writing these books for so long, and they’re some of the least crazy people. High strung maybe, and emotional – very empathic often – but not crazy. Lisa: Yes, yes. Lynn: So if you put yourself in your head canon for Billie right now, where is she in terms of the Winchesters? She said that her perspective has shifted, so how does she view them now? Is it a little grudging admiration, or is it why do I have to keep these guys around? Lisa: I think, and this is with having zero information, I think she has a soft spot for them now, now that she can see the big picture, you know? Lynn: Mmm hmm Lisa: It’s like when you’re mad at somebody and then you find out they go home to a cardboard box and they actually don’t have a home and their puppy died, and it’s that whole bigger picture. And you realize, I was really hard on you, looking through my little telescope, but now I have the bigger picture and wow, it really costs you guys to do this. And what you’re doing is for a much greater good.  I don’t know any human who has ever made that sort of sacrifice. So I think she’s begrudging because she’s just hated them for so long and she’s had this sort of thorn in her side with them. And now it’s like she has to take it out and feel that weight. Lynn: That makes sense, that’s what I would guess too. I think you played the opening of that in the last few lines she had. And talk about iconic, Steve Yockey gave you a call back to one of the most iconic lines in the show – when Billie said ‘you’ve got work to do’ it was a call back to ‘we’ve got work to do.’ How did that feel, to deliver such an iconic line? Lisa: The whole scene hit me, like every word, hit me as important. I really did my absolute best to mine the script as best as I could and just try to find and turn over every stone and understand what is going through her mind and where she’s coming from and what she wants and needs. I asked why to every single thing that she said. Because as human beings, we always know why we’re doing what we’re doing, very specifically. Even when we’re telling a story about people needing to mind their own business, it’s like you have someone in mind. Lynn: Totally, you’re so right Lisa: You’re not just randomly saying that, you know? So I really wanted her to be able to think in and around the words and they all really struck me as this whole scene is very iconic. It made me think of when we first met Death, in the slow motion and the car and everything. This is a new spin and a different play to it, but lines like that – and hearing you say it now makes me hear it even more than I even heard it then, which is kinda cool. I really thought that about a lot of the scene, even the ‘we need to talk’. Lynn: Oh yeah Lisa: Like wow, you’re just given me one like everyone-wants-to-speak-like-that kinda line. Lynn: True. Lisa: I remember doing a guest spot on Lost Girl and my superpower was I could ignite fire from my hands. Lynn: Cool Lisa: And I was ready to burn a building down with my hands and in the end they’re like cut, no, we’re scrapping it, and I have to be like ‘I hate getting all hot and bothered for nothin’ Lynn: (laughing) Great line! Lisa: What actor doesn’t want to have to say that line?  So as an actor and an artist, you’re grateful when you get to say the cool lines and do the echoes of the episodes that came before. Because it’s been well over a decade, so to be able to bring that back – and I also think it kinda represents where the show is at right now, kinda like when I read the script I was like – okay and now I’m talking as a fan here – when I read the script I was like whoa they really could keep opening up one dimension after another, and this show really could go on forever! Lynn: That’s what it feels like. Lisa: Yeah, I mean it evolved from being a show about monsters and then it got very biblical and now we’re talking about worlds and galaxies and I was like whoa, okay. Okay! Lynn: I know, right? So much potential. Lisa: Exactly. And it was also very exciting to be part of opening up a new avenue, a new portal. That was cool; I was like wow. Lynn: I’m assuming that you watched the episode when it aired. The other thing that worked so well, I think, is what Jensen did in that scene. It’s something that Julian Richings has talked about in his scenes with Jensen, that what worked so well to invest Death with awe and fear is that Jensen played all that in Dean, through Dean’s perspective, so Julian didn’t have to. And he did that in this scene too, with you. The way he was looking up at Death, looking like a little kid, like absolutely in awe of her. Lisa: Totally. Totally. He, like I said, he’s one of my favorite actors to work with. He makes you better, I think, he’s that kind of actor. Lynn: You both played off each other masterfully. And it was an important scene too because we learned a lot about the main character. Any scene in which we learn a lot about the mental state, and the emotional state, of one of the main characters, it becomes so important. Lisa: Mm hmm. Thank you. And personally, I’m just a fan of Dean monologues, so I’m always game for that. Lynn: (grinning) Me too. I remember when we chatted before, you said that the first time you were on the show you were nervous, because you were a fan of the show. How is it now, after multiple guest appearances? Is it more relaxed? Lisa: You know, I’m like a hair – and I mean that literally, like a cat hair – more relaxed (laughing) But because I shoot these episodes with a lot of time in between shootings and I’m there for a day or two, so all in all I’m probably there for like eight days over three years (laughing) so the nerves haven’t had a chance to completely subside. First, I get a script and I’m like I can’t believe they’re bringing me back! Lynn: Right! Lisa: I always look at it like what a wonderful way to go out, that’s how I am – any time I’m a recurring character on any show, the last episode I shoot I’m always like, that’s a great way to go out! And if I come back again, that’s great. [caption id="attachment_51949" align="aligncenter" width="600"] Source: Lisa Berry[/caption] Lynn: That’s a great attitude to have, especially on Supernatural! And then if you come back, it’s a lovely surprise. Lisa: It’s always a lovely surprise. That’s the beauty of it. And this was definitely one of those episodes where I was like oh THAT is the way to go out! Lynn: You’ve had epic entrances and exits, come to think of it. And you’re still there. Only on Supernatural! Lisa: (laughing) Only on Supernatural, it’s so true. God bless that show. So I do feel more at ease as an actor because I’ve been lucky enough that I’ve continued to work on my own projects, so I feel more prepared as an actor, having learned and grown as an actor. I feel like I’m able to bring something new when I come back, so I feel more confident as an artist. But fangirling out, feeling like a nerd? That hasn’t subsided. Lynn: I think I like that about you, Lisa – don’t let that change! Lisa: (laughing) I’m still like, can I get a picture with you, Jensen? Lynn: Hey, some things you never get used to. When I’m talking on the phone with them I’m fine, but then when it’s in person, I’m distracted all over again. Lisa: I know, seriously. And they’re just such loving people, that’s also what makes the gush happen. It’s like well you can’t be super nice, because now I’m gushing even more! Lynn: (laughing) That’s right, it doesn’t help. If they were only standoffish… Lisa: (also laughing) Totally. Lynn: I know you did some viewing parties with some of the other guest actors, and I know they all think very highly of you. How has it been to get to know some of the other SPNFamily? Lisa: When I was living in LA for a while I spent a lot of time with Alaina and Ruth especially, and they have really taken me under their wing. It’s crazy. And Briana and I knew each other from back in the day, and Kim has just been so kind, and Sam is literally like just such a nice person. One day when I had off, she was like hey, you wanna hang out today? And I was like, you wanna hang out with ME? Lynn: Awww. Lisa:  I was like um yeah sure! And I find that to be really heartwarming and it makes me really grateful to be a part of something that’s more than just a show. Lynn: Oh yes, it is more. Lisa: And getting to do a calendar with them was wonderful [for Stands], and even though I haven’t met everyone in person, we know each other on social media and via email and text, because we’ve got a little group thread that’s ongoing. Lynn: Everyone seems to value that so much Lisa: Sometimes people will just chime in with a great quote or something or just send somebody some love. And I find that to be really cool. I lost a friend this year to mental illness… Lynn: I’m so sorry Lisa: And I put it out there like hey I lost somebody today. To be welcomed back like I was, because we don’t see each other a lot, I haven’t done the conventions like many of them have, so we don’t talk on that level, but I just wanted to still keep them included in my life and what’s going on and they are just super kind people. Lynn: They really are.  It’s a unique bunch of women. And speaking of the kickass women of Supernatural, I wanted to ask you – Kim, Briana, Ruth and Rachel all wrote chapters in my book that’s out now, Family Don’t End With Blood… Lisa: Which I have! I bought it.  I’m about to start reading it when I head back to Chicago. It will be the first thing I read in 2018. Lynn: Oh, awesome! You have to tell me what you think when you read it. Everyone – both the actors who wrote chapters and the fans who did - really did an amazing job writing very personal chapters. My next book is focused on the women of Supernatural, and I wonder if you might want to write a chapter. Lisa: OMG I would be honored to do one, are you serious? Lynn: I am, it’s right here on my list of questions. Lisa: Oh my god, thank you so much. Oh my goodness, you don’t wanna know – literally when I picked up your book I was like, this is so cool. Lynn: The actors who wrote chapters had some really important things to say, and I think what they wrote has made a difference. That’s what we wanted to do. Okay, last two questions. Why have we not seen you at conventions? Lisa: I don’t know! Lynn: Fans would love to have you at cons. Lisa: I would love to be at conventions. To be honest, I’ve always tried to be the person who says well if it was meant to be, it’s meant to be. Everything is trying to find its way to you and you’re trying to find your way to it. I did get to do a convention in the UK and it was such a wonderful experience. But I only want to be there if people want to hang out and have a good time, I’m not really a push my way through the door person, so if nobody invited me, I just kinda move on and go with the flow. Lynn: I think people would love having you there. And you’re back as Death, so it’s a no-brainer now! Lisa: Aww, thank you. Check Out Our Holiday Gift Guides: [abcf-grid-gallery-custom-links id="50643"]

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@twohundredpower​ said: 4 and 7! 

kay talks about people she knows (Accepting!)

4. someone they admire

“Oh!! Well, there’s so many people here in Spirale, but back home I really admired my friend Sasha! She’s a little older than me, but she ran a whooooole resistance group all by herself, and organized a bunch of people to fight a lich! And after, she started organizing to help rebuild all the cities that got hurt in the attacks, so... I just think she’s really good. I hope I can help people like she did someday.”

7. someone they view as a mentor 

“Hmm... other than my dads? Maybe Lio. He’s a tiefling, which means he has cool horns and stuff, and he always helps me when I need it. He gives pretty good advice, even though he doesn’t let me have any fun around the base, and gives me lectures about responsibility and stuff...”

“...he’s also a huge pushover. If you ask real sweetly he’ll pretty much let you get away with anything. One time, he caught me coloring on the walls, and I somehow managed to convince him to clean it for me while I took a nap. He’s the best.”