#the respect gin holds for these people cannot be equated to respect given by others.

[godkilller]

unprompted ask.      //      thank you!

          Gin would’ve found ease in blatantly admitting his general dislike for the Gotei 13′s many soldiers------in him slumbered a cold indifference, observed and learned via Aizen, to the overall structure of the Seireitei, its plentiful pieces presenting themselves as... rather lackluster when all was said and done. Ultimately, it was Shinigami ranked among the Gotei 13 who hurt dozens of spiritual-pressure bearing children throughout the Rukongai, and ultimately it was those very same Shinigami, the saviors from Soul Society, who plagued upon Rangiku’s soul. Ultimately, it was by Yamamoto Genryusai’s failure that monsters such as Urahara Kisuke, Aizen Sousuke, succeeded in their experimentations of Shinigami limitation wearing the very robes that were supposed to symbolize protectors. Gin knew his hatred was secretly childish, basic, but then again the blame----the responsibility to keep innocent souls safe----simply fell upon the grand commander and his many captains at his disposal at the time. Every single acting captain, lieutenant, and ranking soldier seated below ALL SWORE TO KEEP THOSE CHILDREN SAFE. What a load of bullshit!

       WHERE WERE THEY WHEN SHE WAS ATTACKED?

          Vehemently wishing the entire Gotei 13′s demise was far too much to dare imagine, and Gin found himself instead bitterly dismissive of their plights as an alternative. If Aizen so happened to kill a few of those less-recent additions to the Gotei 13 during his assault on Karakura Town? Gin wouldn’t have any complaints, especially if he managed to take out the old man himself... Soul Society could use a refresher from the outdated mind of a withering body. Maybe then the new generation of leadership could, possibly, spot a god damn traitor in the ranks before he could make a bunch of children his test subjects.

          At least Gin got to kill a few stiff and misguided Central 46 judges on his way out.

          ❝ There’s a whooooole lista things that’re bad about Soul Society. It’s never jus’ been about purifyin’ souls, leadin’ them to the light... gettin’ rid of a few Hollow here’n there. The things I’ve been told? Alllll those lil secrets shoved under the rug? At this rate... the entire thing oughtta get reset. ❞

          But despite his blame set upon the Gotei’s shoulders, Gin still could enjoy the company of a select few--------before his official betrayal, at least. He knew not all of the apples were bad, necessarily. Just loyal to the wrong thing... and he could say that because he had misplaced loyalties, too. For even the traitor deep down RESPECTED AIZEN, the culprit he currently placed his reasons for disrespect upon the Gotei 13 of old for being unable to stop. That was a complication, a labyrinth of emotions and connections, groomed into place for decades as he fused his mask to skin, and Gin could never delve into, explain, let alone merely acknowledge out loud the strength of that despicable respect...

          Listing off a few old comrades would do for now.

         ❝ I used to like cap’n Komamura, always thought he was awfully devoted ‘n kind, cared about his subordinates the most and never stood back ‘n watched if somebody ever needed help. He didn’t talk to me much, though----I figure he was shy or jus’ didn’t like me, which’s fair and why I respect’im even more if I gotta be honest... and Ukitake’s always been one, I don’t think anybody’ll ever tell ya differently. Even though he treated me like a kid back then---technically I was one----so it wasn’t wrong or anythin’. Maybe it’s ‘cause he didn’t talk down to me at all, he was fair’n gentle. He’s always been wise, too. Unohana’s high up there obviously, it takes a lotta guts to take care of a buncha dumbasses without losin’ your cool on a daily basis----I don’t think I’ve ever met anybody else as patient as her. Plus... soooomethin’ tells me she ain’t got that blood smell only ‘cause of her work. Take it from somebody who projects killin’ intent pretty often: I think she’s hidin’ somethin’ awfully dark, which’s all the more reason to respect her. Scaaary~! And then Izuru’s of course on my list, I reckon he’s gonna make a real good captain one day, I hope----once he gets past his fears’n discomforts, he’ll be unstoppable. For now? He’s always been an overly dedicated person, an excellent subordinate, ‘n a great friend----...to whoever he’s friendly with nowadays. As for the rest of’em all? I ain’t that interested. ❞