#she cant fly but she can float for like 5 seconds//

[bubblebaath]

gimbal status check

[joannaliceevans-fanficblog]

Goodbye

Since y'all want more, here it is.

A big fat warning here: this is going to have 1000000000% angst.

Also, after talking to @princessofdarkwinter​ , I have decided to make this into a series. (This will start after No Time To Waste) 

Catch up: Pictures

A few hours earlier

Your heart was beating so fast, that you can hear it pounding, and it felt like it was going to jump out. Your hands were shaking, as the timer was going. According to the instructions in the box, it said, to set timer for 5 minutes. And so you waited, the longest minutes of your life.

Beep

You nearly jump, when the timer went off. You took deep breaths and let out a long sigh. With your shaking hand, you picked up the applicator. You looked at the small box, on the device and it read in bold letters: Pregnant.

At this point, you weren't sure if you should be happy, excited or be upset. You had a fight with Chris, the other day. Because of what's going on. You need to tell him, but at this point, your too angry. You were brought back to the when first found out that you were pregnant. 

   You were excited to tell Chris and you did. But all of it came crashing, when you simply went through a stressful work week, and you miscarried. Chris wasn’t able to be there, due to work again and was left to deal with it on your own. He was able to come home, from Atlanta. 

That was the darkest you went through, because once again, Chris had to go back to work. No matter what you said, and he tried. But he had to go back to filming. And that killed Chris. 

"Its better to wait, when you are calm."

So, you place the box with the applicator into once of the drawers. And went to bed.

Present time

You stood in the back kitchen, rolling out the fondant for a cake order. Music was playing in the background. Its your day off, but you didnt want to be home, and not to be around Chris. The more you looked at him, you just wanted to strangle him. But at the same time, you wanted to run to him. Because, well you felt bad.

But you needed to stand your ground. What he did you, for the past 6 years, hurt you. And you put up with it, for way too long.

Your phone rang, and you reached behind you. You looked at the screen, and it was Chris. You swiped the red button and continued with the order. Then the work phone rang, and Diana picked it up. You heard her foot steps and you looked up.

"Its Chris." She told you. You sighed and went over to her. You picked up the phone from her, and she went back to the front.

"I'm busy right now." You said, in a icy tone. You can hear his voice, as you hung up. You placed the phone, back down and went back to the cake.

Throughout the afternoon, you kept yourself busy. The photos and news still floated around the internet and also your employees talked about it as well. During your lunch break, one of your employees came to you. She told you, that a man, with a black red Sox hat and sunglasses is her to see you. You knew who it was and sighed.

"Tell the man, that I'm busy." You say. Cass nodded and left your office. A second later, you phone rings. You looked down to see Chris left you a message.

Babe,

I have a meeting today and I have to fly back to Boston. Can you please call me back. I cant leave like this. I love you.

You really wanted to call him. But you were still too mad at him. So, you sighed and turned off your phone and went on with your day. 

   Just like what you told Chris this morning, you and Diana went to have a late lunch, went to some shopping for new baking supplies. But as you shopped, there still more news about your fiancee rumors. You did your best to ignore them, but it has gotten to the point, where you couldn’t ignore them any longer. You had to turn off the radio in the car.

    Dinner, was even worse. Your employee’s kept talking about it, to the point where you had to tell them to just shut up and talk about something else. In which it worked. It was getting to the point where, you couldn’t take it anymore. And you made a very hard decision. It’s a hard one, but it needs to be done. You no longer, can take it anymore. 

   You were strong enough for this relationship to work, until now. You have your limits, and you had enough. By the time you got home, you felt your heart hurting, as you packed your bags. Chris wasn’t home, and Chris took Dodger with him. As you packed, you turned on your phone and to see 100+ missed calls from Chris and at least 10 text messages from him as well. He’s kept apologizing to you and that he loves you very much. But you couldn’t buy it. 

   Once you got everything you went turn off all the lights and made sure that you locked everything. You placed your bags into your car and headed to Diana’s house. 

   You knocked a few times and she answered the door. The moment, the door opened you burst into tears and she brought you in. Diana knew why. You tried to stop, but the backed up emotions you held in you, for so long just came out.The pain, the hurt and your heart. 

   After collecting yourself, you wiped away your tears and looked towards your best friend. 

“Diana, I’ve made a decision. I”m leaving you in charge of the bakery. “ You say. Diana looked at you and sighed. 

“Y/N why? Did something happen with you and Chris?” Diana asked. You nodded your head. 

“We got into a fight the other night about those pictures and this morning. I basically told him everything. I can’t do this anymore Diana. I love Chris, I really do. But I can’t keep putting myself out there for him, when he can’t do anything for me.” You say, “ And not to mention that he forgets every year about my birthday.”

“Sweetheart, are you sure about this?” Diana asked. You sighed and more tears came down your face.

“I am. i done and I can’t take it anymore.” You said. 

    Later that night, managed to get a last minute plane ticket to Boston and booked a room at the one of the hotels. You plan was to look around for an apartment in Newton, your home town. 

    As you slept on the couch, the light on the screen cam on and Chris sent you a message. You went to retrieve the message. Chris had told you, to call him. But you just ignored it again and placed your phone back down.

**

You stood in line, waitng to board your flight. You were the tenth person in line, and you just wanted to get out of LA. The line finally moved and you finally got to the front. 

“Y/N!” You heard that familiar voice. Your heart cringed and you turned around to see Chris making his way through the crowd. As you turned, he stopped in front of you. Chris looked at you with begging eyes.

“Y/N, please?” Chris begged. You looked at him once more turned back around. You handed your ticket and walked in. You continued to hear his voice, until you walked through the tunnel and until it became a distant.

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[anestheticrage]

Be you: Morgan Yu (a name so fitting Yu might forget you're not You) scientist extraordinaire, catchin’ some z's in your penthouse apartment. Got red in the eyes, and needles in the brain. Big Bro Yu calls to say how excited he is to stick more needles in Yu. we can roll with that. ride a helicopter to see the Title, press some buttons, move some crates, watch the doctor get eaten by a big ol’ black spider. typical day at the offi-

Be you: Morgan Yu, scientist extraordinaire, catchin so-  wait, wtf is going on? Who moved the cereal. also that’s one fake ass helicopter, and now a calendar is talking to Yu, and all the apples and coffee mugs are actually spiders, and your penthouse is a space station. this sounds like a job for the trusty wrench. Wait, did i accidentally click on System Shock…

become the paranoid monster you were always meant to be, and smash every inanimate object between Yu and that office. Stick with the disembodied voices, they’ll know what to do. Big Bro is happy you’re alive, but says Yu need to get your shit together and embrace your potential as the ultimate hybrid Cyberpunk alien god. expectations are high, but anxiety is higher. Calendar says fuck that, blow shit up. sounds like a plan. go meet calendar in person... err, machine, and realize it's you. Not Yu, you. Just you. Not to be confused with other Yu, or other you. You tells Yu that Yu were you, and that you said 'blow up everything', but other other you says run away. Wonder what Yu thinks?

hit snooze on your introspective personality crisis slash moral dilemma, cause it’s time to recycle. luckily people materials come in three easy to identify color coded cubes, and alien materials are a bouncy purple ball. Yu’d think this technology would be hard to come by, but luckily theres a cube n’ ball machine around every corner like its fucking Starbucks.

now the spiders are people, and the people are dead, and the dead are everywhere, and so are the spiders. adopt 'scream and run away' policy as a legitimate strategy, while trying to collect enough cubes and orbs to make more of the needles that got you here in the first place. hard to learn from history when JFK didn't actually die, and also oh right you have no M e M o R i E s

its a spider, its a wrench, its a SHOTGUN. oh how the turn tables have tided. feel unstoppable for all of 30 seconds until the floaty bois arrive and all the ammo is gone. fuck TriOptimum…. i mean Transtar, and their shitty ammo distribution. id almost rather fight plagues and rats with a foldable sword...

INTERMISSION 

oh shit wait Yu GET TO FLOAT IN SPACE WITH A JETPACK, MOTHERFUCKER, NEVER MIND I TAKE IT ALL BACK. it’s the one mechanic to save them all. nothing screams spacepunk dystopia like looting a mutilated corpse in the void. Glide around for about an hour to see all the locked doors at your disposal, get bored cause space is still just space, and now it’s time to get your boots back on the ground to sAvE tHe WoRlD or whatever You, Yu, and other You keep going on about. But first have an apple and a nice refreshing bottle of  - GOD DAMMIT WILL YOU STOP RIPPING OFF FACES EVERY 5 SECONDS

Big Bro and the calendar are at it again. yes yes, fate of the human race… brainwashing, needles, convoluted plots, evil experiments… got it got it. Pretend to be listening while you hack into every god damn email ever sent on this space station. oh shit you have an ex girlfriend and shes still alive. maybe you can get something out of all this bullshit after all. hopefully she has a kink for needle marks

up the non-elevator to turn on the elevator, to go back down another elevator, to the other elevator, that leads back to the first elevator that takes us to the door we were already at that needed to be opened to begin with. It’s almost like the physical maze of the space station is a metaphor for the complex labyrinth of morality for an individual with no true past and the fate of a species in their amnesiatic hands……..

maybe if there was as much ammo as there are loading screens on this fucking station we could have actually stopped this before space satan took over everything. 

and now there are glowy cobwebs everywhere sending mysterious premonitions that make it more obvious than ever that the disembodied voices are lying to Yu. shocker. 

grow some apples, play some dnd with dead people, unearth a black market smuggling ring, and participate in the best lesbian revenge plot since The Handmaiden. rescue Javik from his own stupidity and emotional distress cause Mozart is the key to happiness in the space apocalypse. Inevitably run out of side quests and cubes and orbs and needles and realize it’s time to get this whole saving the world business over with, so Yu can get some fucking sleep, and I can play SOMETHING FUN

The voices all agree Yu need to reboot the station. Oh hey it’s your nearly dead ex who controls the power button. Isn’t that convenient “have you tried turning it off and on again?” THANKS. DIDN’T THINK OF THAT. GLAD THAT DEGREE IS REALLY PAYING OFF. NO WONDER WE BROKE UP

turn it off and on again. oh... guess that worked.

Help your ex score some drugs to cure her Space Diabetes, only to find out that you (not Yu) murdered her dad for Science™

Now the fuzz is here via a series of bad decisions on everyones part, most specifically your parents for ever giving birth to Yu, but also other reasons such as: corporate evil, and plot holes. zap a bunch of flying robots and the guy who owns them cause honestly why have a difficult boss fight when literally every encounter has been. a. fucking. boss. fight. 

Finally meet up with Big Bro to get the kaboom key, get the biotic god pitch once again, continue to not speak to anyone and pretend you’re in a simulation (>.>) get interrupted by the ultimate eldritch horror. *see: 'scream and run away'

Back on the elevator for the hundredth time. God, I hate this thing. Check your ammo: empty. Check your health: dying. Check your brain: needles. Classic. Get out. Immediately come face to face with your own waking Nightmare. Jump back in the elevator. God, I love this thing.

Watch you and other Yu get into it one last time and finally decide to blow everything up or control Space Satan.

Roll Credits

WAIT ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS, I JUST PUT LIKE 30 HOURS INTO THAT GAME, YOU CANT JUST CUCK ME WITH SOME 10 SECOND ENDI-

Be Yu/You???: strapped in a chair with Big Bro and the robo squad looking down at you. Verbally break down your choices almost like they were a morality scale in a convoluted and heavy handed video game. Realize your arms look like spiders. Realize you’re space jesus. #worthit

Big Bro offers you his hand so you can ask yourself one last time:

 "Who are Yu?"

[lesberrian]

Ghosting (one)

Tw: Cursing, ghosts

“Hey, um... ‘Phelia?” Fay floats in front of her friend holding her head on the ground. Backing away slightly when she sits up the ghost gestures around them. “So, where are we?” 

“Welcome to The Devildom!” 

Both of them focus on the man who spoke. Could he see Fay? Ophelia recognized him as Diavolo, Prince of Devildom, but never bothered to know much about him. She never really thought that besides the time she spoke to the Avatar of Envy once that she would ever actually talk to demons. (Even though she has a few things that have demons in it)

Ophelia stands up, taking a deep breath and holding it for a second. She lets it all out with a slow “Fuuuuuuuuuuck.”

Clapping her hands together she stares the man down. Unlike most people, she could less about the rude glare she was giving a prince. Diavolo laughs slightly, he wasn’t expecting this kind of reaction. Maybe a scared ‘where am I’ or wanting to know how they got here but not this.

Fay, like the little gremlin she is, laughs at the situation. She looks at Diavolo and shakes her head. “Man, you took her from her deep cleaning day. Tsk, tsk, tsk, shame on you.”

She realizes that Diavolo can’t see or hear her when he doesn’t even glance at her. “Hey, ‘Phelia, you should probably let him know before it’s too late. I think he thinks you’re just some normal boring human. You know, someone who can’t see ghosts and stuff.”

“He can’t see you?” Ophelia whispers, furrowing her eyebrows at the 13-year-old ghost. Looking at Diavolo with a confused look she questions, “You can’t see her?”

“See who?” Lucifer walks in and Fay jumps (just floats more into the air but fast).

“Wait you guys actually can’t see her?” Looking over at Fay she motions her to the ground. Putting her hand over the girl’s forehead, she mutters, “Vivifica.”

In about 5 seconds, Fay was ‘revived’ in a way. Her body was now physical but she was as cold as a dead body, with no heart pumping blood. She didn’t need to do anything someone alive has to do.

“Who are you, child? And why do you have so many bracelets?” Lucifer asks harshly. It was obvious he didn’t expect the exchange student to be able to summon and talk to ghosts.

“First of all, I’m a teen, 13 to be exact. So don’t call me ‘child’. Second, my name is Fay. Third, it’s called Kandi and it’s cute. Finally, why are we here? I want to go home.” Fay crosses her arms and sticks her tongue out. The Kandi on her arm made a sound when she did it.

“Oh, I suppose I never did get to that, did I?” Diavolo laughs. “I’m sorry about that.”

Mainly talking to Ophelia, he explains what was happening. He also introduces them to Lucifer. At the end of his speech, he pauses, staring at Fay. Fay, being Fay, stares right back at him, not blinking even once until he does.

Fay laughs slightly. “Hehe, I won! So what’s up with the starin’ Prince man?”

“I guess I lost,” He laughs. “The crystal on your wrist, that’s what connects you to Ophelia, correct?” Fay nods and Diavolo smiles. “That’s what I thought it was for. Since you can be in your body before your death, would I need to have Lucifer prepare a room for you?”

“Uh, that would be nice but you don’t really have to. I don’t really like being like this,” Fay gestures at herself. “It’s kinda strange, to say the least. Plus I cant fly around so it’s really boring!”

“I’ll have it arranged before you get to the house of Lamentation.” Lucifer nods. Fay glances over when she hears footsteps right outside the door. The door opens and two more demons walk over. Right after them, another with orange hair and food in his hands comes in and stands by Lucifer. “Ophelia, Fay, these are my brothers. This one right here is Asmodeus, fifth born, Avatar of Lust.”

“How dare you refer to me as ‘this one’?” Asmodeus looks offended. “What a rude way to introduce me!”

He steps closer to the two girls and Fay holds onto Ophelia’s jacket Asmodeus coo’s at this, not realizing she’s not actually scared. “Aww, you’re almost as cute as me! Your style is so unique, I think that  you’re the only person to pull it off!”

Fay growls at him, stepping in front of her friend. Ophelia has to swat her head like a dog. “No! Bad Fay!”

“Ahem,” Lucifer calls for their attention. “That one is Satan, the fourth-born avatar of Wrath.”

“So I’m a that now?” Satan rolls his eyes. He looks over at Ophelia. “Your name, are you parents a fan of William Shakespeare?”

“I don’t know.” She shrugs. “I like him though if that counts for anything. I enjoy a lot of his stories.”

He nods in approval when the ginger’s stomach growled louder than the two girls have ever heard. “Sorry. I’m hungry. I’m Beelzebub.”

“Now that three of my younger brothers have been introduced, why don’t you call Mammon? He’ll be looking after you this year.”

“Um, okay?” Ophelia looks at him warily before grabbing her D.D.D and opening it. Going to her contacts it already had a good amount in there. Seeing mammon’s name she hits the call button and waits for him to pick up.

“Yoooo,” She hears from the other side.

“Yooo, this Mammon?”

“Wha’ who’re ya?” He seems confused. “Did Lucifer set you up to this or somethin’?”

“Uh, no. Well, kinda? I’m the exchange student you’re in charge of. That’s what he said at least.”

“Exchange student?”

Ophelia nods. “Yeah, from the human world. And I think Lucifer wants you here.”

“So you think you can go swinging my brother’s name around because I have to listen to him?! I mean- I don’t HAVE to but-”

“Mammon.” Lucifer takes the phone from Ophelia’s hand. “I’m giving you ten seconds to get here.”

He hangs up and hands the phone to Ophelia. In the background, Asmodeus is watching Fay count to ten. Right, when she says eight the Demon comes bursting through the door. 

“And two seconds to spare!” Fay rushes up to him, giggling out of excitement. “You’re really fast! And super tall! Woooow!” 

“What?! Why am I babysitting a child?! Who chose to have a kid as the exchange student?!” Mammon shouts, backing away from they hyper girl in front of him.

“I’m actually the one in charge of her.” Ophelia smiles. Sure, right now she doesn’t like Mammon too much but seeing how Fay responded to him out of everyone already makes him her favorite by default. “Fay, come here. I think you’re scaring him.”

“Why would I be scared of some kid? I’m THE Great Mammon after all!” He stickers his thumb towards himself.

“Well, I’m a ghost. Does that make me scarier?” Fay tilts her head at him. “We’re still working on a way so I can do it myself but watch! ‘Phelia can show you no problem!”

Ophelia sighs. Turning her back into a ghost she leaves it up to Fay to focus on letting them see her. It takes a second of Fay balling her fists together, trying her best on letting others see her as a ghost. It’s been a few years since she’s ever done this.

“Wh-what? You’re actually a ghost?!”

“Mhm!” She floats upsidedown in front of him. He takes a few steps back and she crosses her arms. “Rude.”

[ehstarwar]

a poor prisoner in his twisted gyves (5/8)

Rey has always known Ben was attractive. But right now, he was perfection.

Rey felt almost guilty for all the debasement she was about to unleash on him.

Almost.

-

Ben and Rey spend her heat together.

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Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 2.6K

Read on AO3

Notes: so sorry for the delay on this chapter! i threw a May the 4th party for my fam and my attention were... elsewhere. plz enjoy this party of sin as a lil treat. 

♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ)

(also i feel inclined to inform you that the editorial note for this chapter was 'Ch 5: Ben comes over; they fuck')

chapter 5: made with the fume of sighs

-

It’s hot when she wakes. Like, boil off your skin, 7th circle of hell, smokey inferno, hot. It’s not that she didn’t expect it, per se, but she didn’t realize just how bad it would be. Heats on suppressants were awful, to say the very least. She remembers the scratches that adorned her skin the first time she ever had a heat. The body marring she’d inflicted upon herself when the fire inside of her grew too hot. But they were bearable by herself (and a solid knotting dildo that she’d used her very first paycheck on).

But this? Rey would never survive on her own. 

When she realizes that she doesn’t have to, Rey instantly turns to Ben. He’s snoring softly next to her, chest moving slowly as he breaths. The soft glow from a lamp they’d forgotten to turn out in the hallway illuminated his skin. 

Rey has always known Ben was attractive. But right now, he was perfection. Rey felt almost guilty for all the debasement she was about to unleash on him. Almost.

She rolls over onto his chest, nose instantly going to the juncture between his shoulder and neck, inhaling as deeply as possible. His scent is so thick and rich, she can taste it on her tongue. Ben smells sinful.

Only when her hips start grinding on his thigh does Rey realize how wet she is. Her slick has clearly been flowing for some time now, and has drenched her cunt. It’s wet and sticky and feels so, so good moving against Ben.

He’s already hard when she wakes, and can feel him through the thin shorts of his boxers. Her hands dig into his sides, grounding her to him like she might float away if she doesn’t. She feels Ben wake with a sharp intake of breath, no doubt smelling her. Ben stays still below her for a moment, letting Rey use his body, until he finally comes to full consciousness. His whole body tightens when he realizes what she’s doing, and his hands grip her hips. 

Rey is putty in his hands, making no effort to combat him when he flips them over, just holding herself to him as tightly as she can manage. Ben mouths at her hair, kissing any part of Rey his mouth can find. Rey touches all the skin she can find, and nearly hisses when she feels the fabric of his boxers impede her way. 

She tries to shimmy them off of Ben, trying to get him naked and inside of her as soon a possible. Her hands shake against his skin as the fruitlessly pull at the offending fabric. Ben guides his hand down her body and to her shaking fist, soothing her in a way she didn’t know she needed. Ben moves with her to take of his boxers, and Rey is only reminded that she’s wearing a shirt when Ben rips it off of her.

Rips.

With his bare fist.

The omega in Rey positively keens. 

She’s panting against Ben as he continues his assault with his mouth, moving to her neck and sucking on her scent glands.  She babbles incoherently until she feels his cock, hard and dripping against her core. 

“Need you… alpha… need you…” Ben makes a sound of affirmation at her words, unable to pull himself off her to properly respond. When his hips cant and his head enters her for the second time that night, Rey gasps. 

Her hands fly to Ben’s head, tugging his hair into her fist as he seats himself fully inside of her. His groan against her skin sends delicious vibrations all the way down to her toes and Rey thinks she’s never felt more right. 

“So, so good… good for me… omega…” His words are whispered through clenched teeth. Ben bites at her collar bone, no doubt leaving even more purple hickeys dotting her skin. Rey tries to move her hips beneath his crushing weight, to get him to move inside of her like she so desperately needs.

When he starts thrusting, Ben does it like it’s painful. Like every movement test his self-restraint. Like he wants to piston inside of her and fuck her within an inch of her life. If Rey had the capability to speak in even fragmented segments, she would have begged him for that.

“Fast…Ben… please…”

He moves with purpose now, giving Rey a taste of the roughness the fire inside of her so desperately desires. Her mouth goes to his glands, licking and sucking at his like he did for her. The whimper he gives makes her arch her back even further into him. His hands hold onto her hips, at first to keep her steady, but now to move her along his cock. Ben stretches her every time he enters her, giving wondrous sensations along Rey’s spine. He moves her so easily, like she weighs nothing at all. 

The heat that Rey woke to, that she though was all consuming, became a blanket of comfort. Feeling the heat between them was satisfying in a way Rey had never thought possible. It’s still a lot, still clouding her head like a dense fog, but there’s a rightness in it. A sense that this is where she’s supposed to be. Beneath an alpha, this alpha, letting him have her in anyway he could want. It’s a drug that she’s quickly becoming addicted to.

Her orgasm crashes on her the moment his thumb finds her clit. If she screams, the blood rushing in her hears drowns it out. Her mouth flies to Ben’s, eagerly waiting for her. Ben works her through it, kissing Rey within an inch of her life, and using his body to bring out any pleasure that could possibly be given. 

Rey feels the hot splash of tears on her cheek, and when she opens her eyes, it shocking to see that they come from Ben.

“Baby, what’s wrong?” Her hand instantly flies to up cup his cheek. Bens’ eyes are wide as they stare down at her. He still moves within her, slower now, with that same painful restraint from earlier.

“I need this… I need you…” The flush in his face and pout in his lips make Ben look so beautiful that it’s impossible to look away. Rey pets his cheeks, brushing his hair from his sweaty forehead.

“You have me, Ben. You have me,” She tells him. His lips drop to hers in a bruising kiss as he comes. His hips are flush with hers that their body is nearly one, as he continues spilling into her. 

It’s a balm her body needed that comforts her in a way words won’t do justice. Even better than before, on the couch, before the worst of her heat. Now, in the throes of it, his come saves her.

His knot inflates and locks them together, not that either of them would ever dream of parting, but in such a secure way that Rey is overwhelmed with. Ben collapses on her, kissing and licking her skin and glands, knowing somehow that its what she needs. 

She knows the hot tears on her cheek this time come from her.

-

They drift between sleep and sex like breathing. One moment they’re basking in the feeling of cooling come, the next they’re passed out like they haven’t slept in days. Rey like it most when she wakes to Ben kissing down her skin, either in chaste, kind kisses that remind her there is thick layer of sweetness beneath this strong alpha, or in hot, wet kisses that makes her body feel like it’s on a bed of needles. 

She’s lost count of how many times they’ve fucked, certainly how many times they’ve come, but the sticky white fluid coating her thighs and sheets beneath her makes her think a lot. 

His head is resting on her stomach, hands holding onto the sides of her hips. Ben sores lightly against her skin as she cards through his hair. It’s a rare moment of clarity that is giving her the ability to bask in the moment, feel human again, if only just. It’s been… 36 hours? Maybe. The curtains are drawn closed so time telling is a bit harder. Especially since they don’t know where their phones are and don’t care to look

Rey feels Ben come to, snores ceasing. She smiles down at him as he lifts his head from her abdomen, sleep still evident in his eyes. 

“Hi,” She breaths, mentally mapping the moles on his face. Ben grumbles something before dropping his head back down, planting wet kisses on her stomach. 

“I think…” He begins, trailing kisses up to her face, “… that I’m going into rut.”

Rey hums, still running her fingers through his hair.

“How do you know? When it’s coming on, I mean?” She asks.

Ben pauses, seems to consider this while his nose works a line up and down her neck.

“My senses are on overdrive… like I can taste emotions. Last time you came I could taste it in my molars.”

“That sounds unpleasant.”

“Its not. Not with you.”

If Rey were in any better state of mind, that admission would cause her to reel. To think of what he means and if he actually means it and it’s not just some pheromone induced statement meant to get into an omegas pants. 

But heat-Rey knows Ben means it. Means it for her. 

Rey feels the familiar lick of heat stir within her core and knows this brief reprieve will be ending soon and the lust induced haze will settle over her once more. 

“What are you like during rut?” Rey rushes to ask. She’s not worried about it in the slightest, just curious to know before her hindbrain takes over.

“Posessive.”

Ben doesn't elaborate, but they both know it’s enough of an explanation. 

-

The slick, slapping sounds of their hips meeting repeatedly almost drowns out the grunts Ben gives and the moans Rey can’t contain. He is spread on his knees, hands holding Rey by the waist as he moves her up and down his cock. 

“Want… want behind… you behind… please…” Her voice is broken as she whines her request. The blurry view of Ben she has is enough to see him clench his jaw tighter.

“No,” He grunts out. Rey gasps.

“Please alpha… please.” 

“If I take you from behind,” Ben punctuates his words with a deep thrust that makes Rey feel him in her throat, “I’ll bite you.” The words are spoke though clenched teeth, with a voice that sounds like its pulled from the depths of his vocal cords.

“Bite me, alpha. Mate me, mate me please…”

“Omega,” He warns.

“Please, alpha… mate me, fill me with your pups… please, alpha,” Rey cries.

Ben’s knot catches as he comes and comes and comes.

-

“Please…”

Rey protrudes her neck out even further, chin all the way pushed into her chest. 

“Rey…” His voice is a whine, his resolve is breaking.

“Want you to mate me, alpha.” “You don’t know what you’re saying.”

“I do, I do! Please, Ben,” She sobs. 

His head falls on her shoulder blade, and she can feel the tension in his jaw. 

Ben has his arms wrapped around her center as his cock pushes into her, much too slowly for her liking. But alpha is in control now, and Rey doesn’t dare move against him.

“Baby… I can’t.”

Rey goes to beg him again, but his hand latches onto her clit, circling it until her lips can’t form words.

-

It’s cool when Ben wakes.

The a/c must have kicked into overdrive while he and Rey were… fornicating. His room is frigid and a stark comparison to the heat they’ve been wallowing around in for days now. Rey must be cold to because she’s huddled up beneath him, body curled around his and leg hooked over him.

Her small hands are balled into fist holding up one of the many blankets he brought over when they first got here. She’s warm against him, but not in the steaming hot way she had been all weekend. That, and her scent, tell Ben that her heat is over.

The stab of disappointment he feels hollows some part of him out.  

Ben should get them up, give her some water and food, make her take a shower, then drive her and her nest to her apartment, with a friendly peck on the cheek while he thanks her for a much-needed vacation.

That’s the proper way to handle this. It was a means to an end. She went into an inevitable heat, putting him to a rut, and they fucked like rabbits because it’s what biology wanted. 

Biology did, however, fail to explain the intense feelings Ben still felt when he looked at her. Or the way he always held her tighter when she said his proper name. Or how hard he came when she was begging him to mate her. Or the surge of love he felt when she asked him to give her pups.  

Ben looked down at Rey, still sound asleep against his chest. 

He knew he would never recover from this. That now his life was her. That it didn’t matter how Ben didn’t sink his teeth into the pulsing gland on the back of her neck and mark his territory forever; Ben was Rey’s, mating be damed. 

Rey’s face scrunched up before her breathing caught, coming too much like Ben had. When her hazel eyes opened up and landed on Bens’ face, he felt his heart stop.

“You’re awake.”

He nods.

Instead of getting up and doing what Ben fears the most, Rey nuzzles back into him, inhaling his skin like its not the only thing she’s smelled for the past few days.

“My heat is over.” Ben doesn’t know whether he says it for her benefit or his.

“Yeah.”

They stay silent for a moment before she speaks again, this time her voice is even softer than before.

“You didn’t mate me.”

The twinge of disappointment he detects in her voice make his throat feel tight.

“Did you want me to?”

It’s a loaded question, one that shouldn’t be asked to an omega coming out of a heat. Ben needs to hear her answer all the same. 

“I asked you to.” Her hand comes up to brush along the gland, feeling the unmarked skin. Rey looks back up at Ben, eyes wide and filled with an emotion he can’t quiet place. “Thank you. I shouldn’t have asked that of you… especially in rut. You’re a stronger alpha than most.”

Ben should feel a bout of alpha pride at that complement. He should beam and flex his muscles and buy a monster truck just to back up what she’s said.

But he doesn’t.

For all the times Ben has wished for strength and resolve, he wished it weren’t given to him. That he was weak enough to have broken down and bitten her and mated with Rey and finally confessed what he felt for her went far beyond the friendly rapport he would have to sink back into. That the sense of belonging he felt with Rey and no one else would finally come to head and they’d be connected for the rest of time. That he would mate her and marry her and have a hoard of children and grow old together and be remembered as each others.

Ben hopes she can’t see the tears welling in his eyes.

“It would have been wrong of me… to do that to you. Without your consent… your mentally stable consent.”

She looks at him for a moment more, face unreadable even in the pale sunlight that is peaking into the room. When she rest her head against his chest once more, only moving her hands to caress his skin, Ben exhales a sigh of relief and prays that this moment would last forever. 

-

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now heres just a collection of all the random dreams i could find (eight of em)

1. i was like sitting in a little shallow pool and i was just hangin out with someone else and i was like aw cute a litrle fake jellyfish and it brushed me and i was like hm that kinda hurts weird and i touched like three others bc i thought they were cool and then when i got up they were like UMM please go to a doctor. where i had touched the jellyfish had swollen and then like Burst open and it was these big ugly gashes and i like limped along and got them stitched up at a doctor but couldnt rly walk too well for a little while i kind of had to drag my leg behind me that was def the worst one it was on the back of my calf and if i moved it too much it would tear open again and start BLEEDING everywhere i cant remember what else happened but eventually it healed and i did something else

2. it was kind of all over the place at first i was like in a classroom ans there was an earth quake and i was like aw fuck and i hid under a desk and then my teacher was like you need your parents to sign this paper so you can bring your cat to school and i was like ok and i left. and then i went to a con and like there was this competition where like u throw this thing ans it launchws like ? balls? into a wall? and i tried very hard but i was too weak to throw it and ppl were like LOL U CANT THROW and i was sad and then i walked around and looked at stuffed animals and then i left and then i went to school the next day and some ppl like picked me up so i couldnt get away and punched me and i was like fuck you and kicked them in the dick and then went in my group chat and was like lol guys i just got punched in the face and then i went to class and something else happened i cant eemember and then i woke up

3. i had a dream some kids found my possom (this was right after i found that dead possom in the woods and i took it) that skmehow got into a big open field and they were like touching it with their hands and i was like UR GONNA GET A DISEASE AND ALSO DONT TOUCH MY BABY U BASTARDS and then one of the people that were touching it was like thats weird wanna be friends and then we were friends and we lived togethwr for some reason

4. i had nightmares within a dream last night except it wasnt really scary like a dream within a dream but dream me was having nightmares.and when i woke up i couldnt see or hear very well . only simple words. it didnt really scare me or anything i thought it was just because i was really tired and i went in my group chat and something was happening and i was like hey im here i just cant really see anything right now and i spent the whole dream kind of fumbling around trying to wait for my eyesight to come back but i kept falling asleep and i couldnt stay awake long enough for it to come back completely. very relieved when i woke up for real and could see fine

5. i think in my dream last night there was an avalanche and a bunch of dogs were just swimming in the snow and the dogs were the only ones who didnt get hurt or die. i got trapped in a little hotel kind of thing and there was snow everywhere and dogs running in. wild

6. in my dream it was like some weird futuristic thing where like maybe it was overpopulated or something but everyone had an assigned death date and u couldnt Escape it unless u broke the law and like when it started thwre would be numbers above ur head it starts six minutes from ur death and then counts down and like i couldnt figure out how to break the law so i was just like yknow what ill just not look and have it take me by surprise because its terrible to have to know when itll happen and then suddeny some BITCH COMES IP AND IS LIKE oh you have four minutes left and im like SHHHHUT THE FUCK UP I DIDNT WANNA KNOW!!!!! so im like fuck it whatever ill try to break the law and like 30 seconds before i am massacred with some space rock heading toward my face i fling myself into the River Void that this place has an i just sort of float there and no one ever got out of there so everyone assumes you die in thwre but i didnt die i just floated and saw like some girl fly by trying to fight aome sort of dragon and then i made some coffee in the void river and woke up

7. this morning i had a dream someone got me pregnant but id never had sex and the closest thing was someone May have fingered me but i wasnt sure and my mom was like WHY ARE YOU PREGNANT!!! and i was like IDONT KNOW!!!!!!!!! D:

8. i had a dream that i was in some sort of game thing ig? but i didnt rly know i was in a game but in the game i took whitefang to see this whale minigame thing i cant remember what the minigame was but i know it had to do with whales and she was very excited. also in my dream i found an alien dildo and like sent it off in the mail to someone ? that was weird

also in general ive still been having dreams where i cant or have a really hard time walking. cannot for the life of me figure out why

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[SCENARIO REQUEST] Hufflepuff!Seokmin x Hufflepuff!Reader

Written for: @puffyamieyumi

Okay, so this is a Hogwarts AU written for admin Seokminned’s friend, and she was in the Hufflepuff house, so I’m sorry to other Seokmin stans out there that belong to other houses! But it was really fun writing this out and I hope you guys enjoy it anyway!

If you would like some more speculations between more pairings from different houses, feel free to request for them when our requests are open ^^

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Half blood from his father’s side, he discovered his powers after a bike crash left him floating in mid-air when he was seven

Wand: springy, unicorn hair core, alder wood, 12"

Patronus: An Australian animal called the Quokka. Seokmin loves it because it’s always smiling like he is

SUCH. A. SWEET. STUDENT.

Fell in love with charms on the first day of class. His eyes just sparkle whenever he does a successful spell, and his amazement and enthusiasm at everything magic just makes him so loved by the professors

Also has a flair in potions. He's known to improvise and experiment (sometimes leading to rather disastrous results), but he never gives up until he finds the combination that gives the most potent results.

He and his best friend Mingyu would often stay behind in the potions room after class to try out these concoctions.

Tried out for quidditch as a beater once but quit out of guilt because a particularly strong hit from him knocked a Slytherin seeker Jihoon right off his broom

He was cured in like, 5 seconds because, well yunno, magic

But it left Seokmin so scarred he never wants to get on a broom ever again

Precious child ;;

Also has a saw whet owl that he LOVES SO DAMN MUCH. She stays perched on his shoulder all the time instead of staying in the owlery.

It’s not allowed, but who would dare tell the cute boy off?

The owl's also too small to be delivering actual packages. His friends point that out on more than one occasion and Seokmin just gasps, reaching over his shoulder to cup his buddy's ears

"Shh don’t listen to them you’re perfect okay?"

You and Seokmin have been pretty close friends since you first met. He sits next to you during the welcome feast

He normally sits next to you in potions. More often than not he has to help you with brewing the concoction at the right temperature

You also represented Hufflepuff as the quidditch team seeker for a year, the same year as Seokmin's first, and last.

He’s saved you from a raging Quaffle more than once during the season, and you’re grateful for that

But you only start getting REALLY close to him during the Christmas of year five

For some reason, neither of you could go home to celebrate that year

Mingyu had his own celebration together with the other prefects, leaving Seokmin feeling lonelier than ever

To be honest Seokmin has already been feeling distanced from his best friend ever since Mingyu became a prefect and got a girlfriend

After lunch, you entered the common room only to see Seokmin sitting by the fire staring blankly into space

"You didn’t go back home for the holidays?"

“Nah..." he sighed.

He explained to you that his muggle side of the family was over for the holidays and his dad wrote to him, asking him to stay away from home a bit because they weren't exactly... receptive

You frowned a little, but understood his issue.

Seokmin has always been such a bright sunny kid, and seeing him looking this forlorn makes you unsettled

“Hey, you wanna play a game of exploding snap?"

You had pretty sharp reflexes as you had been a seeker, after all, but you would think a beater like Seokmin would fare pretty well too?

But no?

You keep laughing as the cards explode in his face

“How are you so bad at this?” “Cards never explode like this back at home!”

You both quickly move on to wizard chess when he accidentally singed his temple

He even teaches you his native muggle games (your favourite one was ddakji and surprisingly Seokmin’s also hilariously bad at it)

The night passes like this. Mingyu and his girl join you with pints of butterbeer afterwards, and the four of you had a blast

Easily your favourite Christmas of Hogwarts

Needless to say, Seokmin and you got reALLY close after this.

You both start walking each other to classes.

He offers to carry your books and parchment for you, but eventually it evolves into a playful game of wingardium-leviosa-hohoho-try-to-catch-your-potions-notebook-nawh-you’re-so-short-it’s-really-endearing

"LEE SEOKMIN YOU’RE DEAD MEAT"

You tackle him in an attempt to wrestle the wand out of his hand but this only causes him to trip

You both fall backwards screaming

Seokmin catches you before you could land badly, but this also leaves you staring at him dead in the eyes

Dammit he’s so frickin adorable

Your books crash-lands at who-knows-where, but you both cant care less

But of course, the moment had to be ruined by someone.

"... AND SEOKMIN SITTIN' IN A TREE. K-I-S-S-I---"

"KIM MINGYU."

But anyway everyone basically knows by now that you and Seokmin have a thing going on

And Seokmin finally confesses to you on Valentine's’ Day.

Whether the flush in his cheeks was due to the February chills, or his embarrassment, you couldn’t really tell.

But either way, you throw yourself onto him with an eager “OH MY GOD, SEOKMIN, YES!”

It comes as no surprise to your friends when you announce that you’re dating him, and tbh everyone is lowkey jealous because you’ve scored the sweetest boi on earth

LIKE OMG IMAGINE

Being really great in Charms, Seokmin gets inspired by the Howler and makes his own spinoff AAAAAAA

You first receive your first ‘Singer’ waking up a week before final examinations, Seokmin’s owl watching you with its adorable, beady eyes.

A WEEK. BEFORE. FINAL EXAMINATIONS. Seokmin had done all this for you!!!!

You open the letter up curiously and imagine your delight, instead of hearing the usual screaming, the letter starts singing in Seokmin’s melodious voice

“I wanna be your morning baby, from now on it’ll be alright~”

You’re melted, you can’t move. RIP you.

After examinations end, you bring him out to the quidditch field to fly, even though Seokmin swears up and down that he’ll never mount a broom again.

“Seokmin, relax, there’s nothing here that can hurt me.”

You eventually coax him to sit behind you on your trusty Starsweep, his larger body spooning yours as you kick off into the air

His grip on your waist tightens as you shoot up towards the sky, and his face is pressed between your shoulder blades.

“Seokmin, I’m fine! You’re fine! Open your eyes!” you yell above the wind as you soar around the school.

And he does, and you’re both greeted by the picturesque sight of the sun dipping beneath the lake

His trepidation eventually melts into exhilarated laughter, and his hands coming to clasp over yours. You loosen your grip on the broom ever so slightly, letting Seokmin take control.

He flies the both of you to a secluded spot between the school towers, and you’re both left to busk in each other’s presence

You had your first kiss suspended in mid air, and to this day you still feel like you’re walking on air

LATE NIGHT ESCAPADES TO THE KITCHENS (bless Hufflepuff’s common room location)!!!!!!

One night when you’re both staying up late to study, you start feeling peckish

Seokmin senses it and gives you a playful grin. “Wanna head down to the kitchens?”

YES

The house-elves recognise you and let you into the kitchen with a lot of knowing smiles

They love the both of you so much tbh. One time, you both nearly get caught by the caretaker on patrol, but the house-elves leap in to save your skins by conjuring up a whole freaking cabinet for you both to hide in

“Was this cabinet always here”

“WHY OF COURSE, SIR. NOTHING SUSPICIOUS HERE.”

Sometimes the elves leave your favourite food out, but at other times Seokmin offers to cook for you instead

And BOY HIS COOKING IS SO DAMN GOOD

It ranges from simple cookies to full-out bubbling, spicy, savoury stews. And you’d sit in a circle feasting together with the house-elves

Mingyu comes in to steal some food occasionally, Seokmin shoos him off. But eventually the two start cooking side by side while you and his girlfriend hang about awkwardly at the table.

Year seven arrives and you both become STRESSED AS HECK

Seokmin really wants to start his own business with his special charmed romantic gifts. They were already in pretty high demand throughout your school after the students discovered his ‘Singer’.

You had your own ambitions too, but you’re most definitely ready to spend your future with Seokmin.

Your dates become a lot less frequent but neither of you minded that much

I mean, you have your whole lives together ahead of you.

That doesn’t mean he stopped giving you gifts and showering you with so much affection every time he sees you

And that also doesn’t mean you stopped checking on him to make sure he’s healthy and happy and that he’s not overworking himself too much

If anything, it just means that your relationship is much stronger than ever.

STUDY DATES FT. YOUR MONTHLY HONEYDUKES STASH

Seokmin makes sure to feed you a piece of your favourite candy every now and then while you’re busy burying your head in books.

From chocolate frogs to sugar quills, both of you’d eat them all

You both take a break once Seokmin unwraps a box of Bertie Botts with a glint in his eyes

“Lee Seokmin, don’t you dare.”

“Come on, it’ll be fun!”

It ends with you happily chewing on a cinnamon bean while he chokes on his earwax-flavoured one.

Essentially, Seokmin would make sure you’re always happy with him

Your NEWTs arrive and a whole month of stress ensues

But that only makes the end of the examinations all the more rewarding

Especially when your beloved boyfriend pulls you out of the great hall once the final exam was adjourned to celebrate, both your delighted laughters ringing through the school.

[newtothewaywardparty]

The Ghost of an Idea 5

Read Stave One: Bobby’s Ghost, Part 1

Read Stave Two: Bobby’s Ghost, Part 2

Read Stave Two: The First of the Three Spirits, Part 1

Stave Two: The First of the Three Spirits, Part 2

Stave Three: The Second of the Three Spirits

The clack of hooves were the first sound to penetrate Dean’s dreamless sleep. “Huh?” he snuffled into his pillow as he canted his ear towards the motel window. The unmistakable sound of a horse blowing air through its mouth? Nose? Whatever, Dean wasn’t really a rural kind of guy, cowboy fantasies notwithstanding. Anyway, that was definitely a horse within earshot of his room. He groggily pushed himself up off his stomach and stumbled towards the window. It was still open, cigarette-scented curtains waving in the sharp December Kansas wind. Dean peered out, wiping sleep from his eyes. Yep, that was a horse all right.

A big fucking white horse stood outside his window. Atop it, resplendent in velvet green Renaissance-style gowns, sat Charlie Bradbury, her auburn hair long again and styled with a circlet crown of twisted gold. She haughtily peered down at Dean. “Hop on, Handmaiden,” she ordered, tacking a crooked smile on at the end.

Dean eyed the horse warily. Again, he was more comfortable around engines than livestock. “Uh, I don’t really…” he began weakly.

“Shut up, bitch. Atreyu can smell fear.” Charlie said, suppressing laughter. She pat the horse’s flank behind her, indicating where he should sit. She extended the hand to assist him up.

Dean was expecting an embarrassing interlude that would rack up a lot of hits on YouTube (He could picture the headline now: Dad vs. Horse, Who Would Win?) Instead, the instant Charlie’s hand touched his, he felt the same weightlessness Jo’s touch had bestowed upon him. In a blink, he was seated, comfortably if not confidently, astride the brilliant white horse. Bow-leggedness had its advantages at times.

Charlie leaned forward in the saddle. “Engage.” she whispered with a smile in Atreyu’s ear, and they were off, flying through the air back to the bunker.

Dean tried not to enjoy it but it was hard, grasping Charlie’s warm green robes, watching the countryside float past in the darkness below. He had always hated airplanes but this felt almost nice. Secure. Maybe it was just Charlie. He adjusted his grip on her waist.

“Don’t get fresh, cowboy” Charlie teased, glancing back at him enough to wink. Dean grinned. Damn. He had really missed her.

“I wouldn’t dare.” he solemnly replied. He swallowed. Stingy. The word ricocheted around inside his head, fresh from his encounter with Jo and his trip down memory lane. “I, uh, really” Dean took a breath. “Missed you, Charlie,” he finished haltingly. See? He could use his words like a grown-up.

Charlie threw a knowing look over his shoulder. “Enjoy the clip show, did ya?” Dean avoided her gaze. “Yeah, Jo can come on a little strong. You should know, though; Bobby told her to not take it too easy on you. That’s how she got chosen for that part of the mission. I wanted to do the flashback sequence but he thought I’d be too nice.” Charlie scoffed. “As if.”

She whispered a command for Atreyu to come out of Warp and they descended. “You know the drill here, right?” Dean loved that about Charlie. She never acted like he was dumb. And she was almost as allergic to chick flick moments as he was.

Dean swallowed. “Yeah. Ghost of Christmas present, right?” She nodded and they hit solid ground, Atreyu smoothly trotting to a stop in front of the bunker door.

“Ladies first,” Charlie said, indicating the door. Dean rolled his eyes and opened it. They descended the stairs together, unnoticed. The scene was exactly as Dean had left it earlier in the night. An assortment of found and recycled ornaments adorned the Christmas tree’s branches. Lights were evenly distributed throughout the branches, except for where Sam had obviously tired of detangling them. A large knot of lights clumped in the back, where Sam probably figured no one would see them. Dean bit back an affectionate smile.

Dean’s eyes were immediately drawn to Cas. He was the brightest thing in any room. His posture was unusually relaxed back in his chair, which was pushed back from the table so he could watch Jack by the tree. He had loosened his tie, and gripped a beer bottle’s neck loosely in a hand. His eyes were wide and warm, focused on Jack.

Jack was stringing popcorn with an intensity and focus Dean associated with Cas. Dean noticed the needle in use had been liberated from their medical stash, probably last used to give someone stitches. Jack’s tongue was sticking out slightly as he aimed the needle toward the center of a kernel. Dean’s chest tightened in that predictable way when he thought about the nephilim and his relationship with his chosen father.

Sam sat at the war table. He leaned back, jamming his chopsticks with finality into a take-out container, and pushed his chair back, humming in satisfaction. Dean peered into the white box with Chinese characters on it, frowning at the veggie tofu dish inside. “Typical” Dean muttered, under his breath. Charlie elbowed him.

Cas took this as his cue, and pushed his chair back. He cleared his throat, looking at Jack, who dropped his craft project. “I’d like to propose a toast,” began Cas formally. Dean couldn’t help smiling. What a dork, he thought. He could practically hear the air quotes.

Sam looked surprised, then amused. He picked up his own beer bottle and waited for Cas to continue. Cas looked at Jack and raised an eyebrow, waiting. A few seconds ticked by before Jack picked up his own beer bottle, looking sideways at Sam to copy him. Dean was grinning now. That was just fucking adorable. Not like when Jack was trying to learn by imitating Dean. His grin slipped a little at the memory of how hard he had pushed Jack away at first.

Cas nodded, satisfied now that all members of their little party were participating in this social ritual. “To Dean,” Cas began. Dean’s mouth fell open in shock. Cas was still talking. “Even though he wasn’t able to be here tonight, he’s in our hearts. Always.” Cas raised his bottle a bit at this and made to drink when Sam interjected loudly:

“In our hearts?!” Sam’s eyebrows had disappeared into his hairline. “I wish he was here right now. I’d serve him a piece of my mind.” Sam scoffed. “Shit, I’d shove it down his throat.”

“Sam!” Cas said in a warning tone, cutting his eyes at Jack who was watching, nervous and confused. “It’s Christmas.”

“Yeah, yeah.” said Sam, running his fingers through his hair in a familiar gesture of frustration. “Just another Winchester holiday to remember; drinking a toast to a cowardly, weak man who ran out on his family.” He was as angry as Dean had ever seen him, lips pursed, pacing up and down in front of the tree, clenching his beer bottle tightly.

Cas put out a placating hand and repeated: “Sam. Christmas.” in a gentle voice.

Sam raked his hair back from his face, stopping his route in front of Jack. “I’ll drink to Dean for your sake and for Jack’s” said Sam, indicating them both with his beer bottle, “but not for his. A very Merry Christmas, big bro, wherever you slunk off to.”

Sam tipped his bottle up and Jack and Cas followed his lead, subdued. Dean’s face burned. How could Cas defend him like that? Why would Cas bother toasting Dean at all, like he was a worthy man, in the face of all evidence pointing to the contrary? He felt a flood of affection for his friend.

Dean felt Charlie’s elbow jostle his side again. “Aw. That was cute.” Charlie’s words held real affection. Dean gazed at Cas, who in turn was beaming at Jack, hanging up grody old socks for Santa. “You’re in his heart!” she practically squee-d, smacking his arm. Dean blushed furiously and looked away.

The truth was, Cas deserved better. He always had, and recent events did nothing to convince Dean otherwise. Why wouldn’t Cas get the hint and move on? Maybe he just needed time. Time away from Dean. Time to listen to Sam’s fairly accurate assessment of Dean’s strength and courage when it came to emotional intimacy.

But what if he didn’t move on? “What will happen to Cas?” Dean asked Charlie suddenly. Now that the worry had entered his head, he found it impossible to forget. Dean could always run; he had the Impala, he had hunting, he had alcohol and one-night stands and long- and short-cons and violence. He had Sam. In short, Dean had a lifetime of experience with unhealthy coping mechanisms for heartbreak and loss. Cas had no such practice.

Charlie just gave him a look of pity and understanding. “C’mon” she urged, dragging him up the stairs. Dean gave one last look at the trio around the tree, now exchanging presents wrapped in old magazine paper. He caught a flash of Cas’ teeth as he smiled broadly at the assorted-flavored Osage honey sticks Jack had bought him at a convenience store in the Ozarks. The metal door of the bunker clanged, cutting off the beautiful sight of that smile.

With a snort and a whoosh, Atreyu bore them aloft and they landed in a field outside the bunker. Charlie dismounted with an imperious air. She strode away from Dean a few paces. “I want to show you something” she said, grimly.

She whisked her green velvet skirts out of the way to reveal two tiny figures huddled by her legs. One was a person of extremely advanced age: emaciated skin dotted with skin sores, balding head peppered with white stringy hair, mouth puckered with toothless gums, hands tipped with claw-like yellowed nails, eyes cloudy with cataracts. “This is loneliness” Charlie intoned.

The other was an emaciated young teen, bright red scars lining their arms and legs. Their eyes were red with tears and their hair was greasy and unwashed. They were curled in on themselves, clutching their stomach and rocking themselves. “And this is self-loathing” Charlie said carefully, piercing Dean with a knowing gaze.

Dean moved on instinct. He rushed forward to help, but Charlie halted him with a ghostly strong hand. “Can’t you save them?” he shouted at her angrily.

“Dean,” Charlie began in a mockingly cheerful tone sharper than any Dean had ever heard her use in life, “Better for them to be alone, to be the ones pushing others away, right?” Dean grit his teeth. He had never said those words aloud, had only thought them to himself every time he wanted to gather Cas in his arms.

Her face softened and she said “I know you like to pretend to be functionally illiterate but even you’ve heard the Tennyson quote. ‘Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.’”

Dean snorted in derision. “Yeah, that’s pretty much the opposite of my life motto.”

“No shit, Sherlock.” Again, Charlie threw his words back at him. “Why do you think I’m doing this for Bobby? We’re trying to get through to you, bitch.” She rolled her eyes dramatically, re-covering the shrunken nightmare figures below her skirts.

Dean retorted ‘I’m as free as a bird, now, and this bird you cannot change.” He crossed his arms across his chest with a defiance he did not feel.

Charlie’s look was pure pity. “Did you really just quote ‘Free Bird?’ What’s next? You going to tell me how when it’s time for leaving you hope I’ll understand that you were born a ramblin’ man?” She stage-whispered, “Do you ever think learning about love and relationships exclusively from your grief-addled father and classic rock lyrics might not have given you the healthiest outlook?”

Dean meant to sigh dramatically, to cast his eyes skyward, to give a witty retort, preferably with a nerdy pop-culture reference. Instead, he found himself reaching forward to pull Charlie into a hug. To press his lips into her red hair, to tell her just how much she meant to him. Just as his arms extended, she abruptly disappeared. A glance behind him showed Atreyu was toast, too. And now he was choked up with the loss of her.

He saw the glint of light off metal across the field had Dean prepared to flee. As the figure drew closer, Dean relaxed, if only minutely. It was a woman with a glorious crown of black curls, perfectly painted red lips lips, and a leather jacket Dean could find himself coveting. It was Billie. Death.

Read Stave Four: The Last of the Three Spirits

[fromfelidae]

OK guys hear me out on this but- I think that the entire TAZ world, or at least the seven red-robes are running on a constant majoras mask/refuge year long loop that resets with the earth being devoured by The Hunger, and that there is a second voidfish that (up until now) kept this a secret

There will be a tl;dr at the end

SECOND VOIDFISH

UPDATE: CONFIRMED AS OF EPISODE 58

This is up first because its less of a theory and is something I have no doubts about happening in canon. There is a second fully functioning voidfish out there, and it is blocking memories from *everyone*

- First and foremost, the huge memory gaps each of the boys find that they have in the eleventh hour when June is going back through their memories, emphasized by the fact Magnus’ had the biggest gap

- This is made especially evident by Magnus remembering a book floating in the voidfish tank, I strongly believe that this was the book of the “lonely journal keeper” keeping record of all the events of the red robes, it was destroyed by the voidfish, explaining the huge memory static in THB

- Magnus only began remembering because he died, this ones obvious because the episode started off with an explanation of how voidfish cannot suppress memory from beyond the grave.

- The reason it is coming back so slowly (shoutout to Brian for figuring this out) is because of how unconventionally Magnus died, he was seperated from his body, killed, and then possessed another body. If he had died ‘normally’ his memories wouldve been restored in a similar manner to when they drank the voidfish water

- This is also how Barry remembers! he was dead- with this information, we could argue that literally any living person could be a red robe without knowing

update: now we know who the red robes are

- (EDIT): Its possible the second void fish is the “EGG BABE” the voidfish told Magnus about! given that communication is difficult, the voidfish could have matured enough to be able to consume and hide memories as well

LOOP THEORY

Getting it out of the way now, Refuge is the biggest foreshadowing for this theory, (see more at the end of this post), the entire arc in and of itself was basis for what the entire world is like.

I believe that the world, is being looped in a Refuge-esc style.

I’m not sure where it starts, but it ends with the world, each individual plane, being eaten by The Hunger. akin to how each loop in Refuge ended with being eaten by the purple worm.

The only difference being not every loop is exactly the same, things are different slightly each time- which explains why there were two suns, and the sky was purple in Magnus’ memory. I think that was his origin before the loops began.

evidence:

- (UPDATE) The vision the voidfish showed Magnus "12 multicolored circles rotating in perfect harmony with one another" Then a Bright white circle flies into the center, and the circles begin to make more intricate movements and rhythms until a large black circle appears and consumes all the other circles. Eventually the white light breaks from the black circle and the entire pattern repeats.”

It’s unclear right now what the white circle is, but the large black one is clearly the 13th plane, The Hunger. The scene the voidfish is describing is what has been happening over and over in the loop, repeating when The Hunger consumes all (and the white plane escapes).

- In the eleventh hour Griffin tells the boys that something about dying like this is ‘familiar’, while theyve gotten close to death before in the podcast theyve never truly died, how could it be familar if they hadn’t been reliving an even bigger loop unknowingly for years

- Kravitz states the boys have died more than anyone hes seen before! He acts as though he cant understand /how/, this was before the 11th hour so there’s literally no explanation other than they’ve been dying over and over again from the hunger, on a loop (EDIT: it was bought to my attention that Kravitz stated they have different death counts! taako having the least and merle having the most- while this complicates things i still think the loop is possible)

(EDIT 2.0: SOLVED!! by @stalllme in this post here)

- Barry Bluejeans turning to Magnus and saying “next time”, theyve been trying to save the world over and over in each loop, unable to succeed (until now??)

- This quote from Istus  "Our existence is made up of countless realities where the same people are just doing the same actions at the same time in parallel worlds throughout the echoes of creation, except for you! The three of you are the only three that there are doing the things the three of you do here in this world! When I say that you’re unique, I’m not being flattering, I’m being quite literal… The three of you are anomalies, and I certainly have god-like powers and I don’t like to brag, but I’ve never known anything like the three of you and I don’t know why that is, but I’m intrigued…”

This is relevant because this is going to be the loop that they break.

- It’s important also, because THB broke the loop in refuge, foreshadowing that they could potentially break the one around the world

-  Another helper on the “loops but everything is slightly different” is @martypines’s theory that the second sun in the purple sky that Magnus saw could be a base for the red robes! similar to the bureaus except, well, a sun

every arc is foreshadowing for end game

1 (here there be gerblins) - basically Barry Bluejeans’ origin story, cant be asked to expect much from here seeing as griffin had barely started fleshing out the story until halfway through the arc

2 (murder on the rockport limited) - (UPDATED: thanks to this anon!) murder on the rockport limited taught us and the boys not to trust people by their first expectations, similar to the attitude shown towards the redrobes. that attention to detail, a keen eye and the boy detective are key to solving a mystery

3 (petals to the metal) - Introduces us to the fact not everyone who takes a relic is evil, and more importantly, the sheer strength and power that love has. Hurley is able to break the thrall the sash has on Sloane through the power of her love.

4 (crystal kingdom) - The astral plane got introduced the most prominently here, showing us the ability to pass between them, the fact people live on past death, and that multiple dimensions do exist. There was probably a lot more important exposition I’ve forgotten.

5 (the eleventh hour) - The most important arc imo!! The entire concept of looping is introduced here, that a whole town can be completely unaware theyre reliving the same day over and over again, resetting as they are all killed. It also introduces the concept that red robes arent inherently evil

6 (the suffering game) - Unsure as of the moment, it was very endgame.

MISC BUT STILL IMPORTANT

Magnus and the red robes were collecting information about the loops, and trying to fight against it. I also strongly believe that they are the seven birds in the prophecy.

- This is backed up by the book being destroyed in the voidfish tank, I believe that was written by “The Lonely Journal-Keeper”

UPDATE: CONFIRMED: this is what lucretia was doing

- This would explain the reason Magnus knew to protect the chalice in Refuge! because the red robes had already figured out the global loop that was happening, and it was almost an unintentional test run?

EDIT: I believe LUP was the leader of the redrobes, and might be still alive but very out of action. (UPDATE: Davenport was the leader, chalupa theory got confirmed) I strongly believe she was the one speaking to Taako through telecommunication (no other female redrobe has been introduced by name excluding her, it makes the most sense!)

I think shes the leader, or at least, was very strongly important to their ‘family’ (in barrys words) because of the strong emotional connection Taako feels, he cant distinguish it but its there. LUP meant a lot to all of the redrobes when they were alive, i mean, she was able to convince Taako ‘dont trust anybody or anything’ to trust Barry. (UPDATE: Chalupa theory was correct)

prophecies and their continued relevance

" But I saw a brilliant light heralded by seven birds flying tirelessly from the storm. I saw seven birds: the twins, the lover, the protector, the lonely journal keeper, the peacemaker, and the wordless one.”"

I am almost certain that the birds in Maureen’s prophecy are the red robes. the lonely journal seeker would be the one who wrote the book we saw getting fed to the voidfish. this is backed up by “A Brilliant light[...] flying tirelessly from the storm”, i believe the light is the silver ship we saw in Magnus’ memories.

(UPDATE: confirmed, and

taako & chalupa = the twins barry = the lover magnus = the protector lucretia = the lonely journal keeper merle = the peacemaker davenport = the wordless one)

“In the future, you will be offered a terrible choice, between two options that will determine the fate of reality itself. In this moment of crisis, remember: There is always a third option.”

"And I cannot make the difficult decision that lies at the end of your quest for you, but I can grant you the time that you need to make that decision."

This is the choice that will determine the fate of both the world and the astral plane, it’s also what Istus said she would give the boys time to choose as seen in the second quote. She’s granting them the time they need to find and make that third choice

The first one just looks like an ocean made out of tar, with a black sky above it, and this tar is like bubbling, and you see some stuff moving under the surface of the tar but you can’t make out what it is, and that’s on the left picture. And the one on the right is just a grey world, covered in ash, that is just completely barren and lifeless.

Shoutout to bee for figuring this out a few weeks back! This is what we believe the boys will have to choice between, saving the astral plane (1st) or saving the physical (2nd). I am not as confident in HOW this will play out, but it is relevant.

UPDATE: all but confirmed that these are descriptions of what the astral/physical planes are becoming due to the hunger!!

-  "I have one last prophecy for you, Taako. Something you will need to know. In your hour of greatest need, you will find the power that you seek from the man wreathed in flames."

speaks for itself

the patches THB recieved were red robe patches

-  And they’re these dark blue circle, like, iron-on emblems. And inside of each of these blue fabric circles, there are twelve more circles, all of different colors around the outside of each badge. And in the middle is a word that’s written in a language that none of you recognize. You cannot read, you cannot make out what the word is, what these badges are for, because you cannot read the word in the middle. And tucked in between these three badges is a note that says, “For Your Eyes Only”

- "(..) Sewn into its breast you see a familiar sight- you see a circular patch with a design containing twelve multi-colored circles and a sort of shifting imparsible text in the middle of it. Only Magnus, you can read that text plain as day, it says “I.P.R.E.”

update: basically confirmed, these were THEIR redrobe patches

TL;DR

Time is looping on repeat, every loop being a slight variant but always ending with The Hunger swallowing the world whole, causing a reset.

The vision the voidfish showed Magnus is the happenings of every loop.

Refuge’s entire existence is foreshadowing for the global loop

There is a second voidfish suppressing everyone’s memories of said loops, especially the red robes. the reason Magnus and Lich-Barry remember is because they died (CONFIRMED)

This means that literally anyone alive could be another red robe without knowing

The red robes are a group of seven, who worked together to gather information about the loop and try to break it.

LUP was the leader of the red robes (it was davenport)

The patches the boys received in the candlenights lunar interlude are red robe patches (CONFIRMED)

Maureen’s prophecy about the seven birds is about the red robes

Paloma's prophecy about making the third choice is about THB choosing between the astral and physical plane somehow, possibly by breaking the loop

Istus used her divine power to give the boys more time to make the third choice, which is, to break the loop

here is my tag for this theory! if you have any additions, questions or find mistakes please send an ask!! i love discussing it ^_^

[paulhway]

My Mass Effect: Andromeda thoughts...review thing... kinda.

Finished it last night, maybe 90 hours. More if you use Multiplayer.

Expect minor ... S P O I L E R S ...

To start, character customization is garbage. This isnt anything new, I cant remember a Bioware game where I was happy with it. From the limited "cryo chic" hairstyles, to the surprisingly unfriendly facial morphs, finding a face you're OK with is challenging and takes far more time than it should. While I wholeheartedly applaud the racial variations available, everything else is sub par, at best. For a game where 75% of the game is your character taking and emoting right in front of you, this is still too glaring a mistake to overlook. You need to do better, Bioware, this is terrible (I think I said this abount DA:I too).

The Tempest is awesome. Love it. Want more.

Scene: I am talking with Jaal about something sad, and suddenly his leg starts spasming like crazy and never stops. Scene: Sitting lovingly w/ Peebee, and her hand is clipping inside her stomach, and the cup Lexi was drinking floating 2 feet from her actual mouth. Scene: Talking to Drack, when his Drack clone walks by in the cut scene (He doesnt have those, btw). Scene: Talking to the Moshea, cutting back to me and you can only see the top of my head. Yeah, far more of that than there should have been. I don't even know what this IS, but it happened. A. Lot.

While on the surface some of the characters can seem kind of bland, once you get to know them, almost all of them are wonderful. Even the people I didn't like, I liked. ;) Yes, even Tann.

Startships in cut scenes are good, and mostly in game they are too (Love the Tempest!). The exception to this is "mob drops". On most worlds, enemy outposts are supplied w/ "mobs" via dropships, which are completely broken. They fly in @ mach whatever through mountains, the ground and other physical impediments JUST to get in your way. Then they launch into the stratosphere as if "my people need me" is still a thing. I had more than one fly right through me just to get to it's drop.

Vetra goes from Tony Curtis in Operation Petticoat to protective Older Sister instantly, and never looks back. Her sister Sid is more Vetra than Vetra is. While I love Vetra, I REALLY wanted her to be more proactive in her "supply officer" role. But outside of some small character things here and there, it never happens (did not romance her). As a character, she is better than this.

Facial animations for humanoid are, almost across the board, terrible and poorly done. They all suffer from "Botox Face". Addison has the emotional range of a flea, Cora and the Asari are always happy about SOMETHING, not matter how horrid the scene is, and default Sara Ryder looks like a victim of the Jokers laughing-gas bombs. Sara's emotions are almost non existent, visually (her voice conveys far more emotion that her face ever does). I CANT count the amount of times I was removed from a scene because the facial animations didn't fit the scene OR voice. I CAN count on my hands the variance of emotions Sara had in cut scenes, and even fewer that worked (wry smile, semi-angry, cute smile)

Drack is the best ever at everything. He was never not in my landing party (save for certain quest obj), and his personal story is the strongest (and most fun/touching).

While Liam needed more development time to become an interesting character (dug the Movie Buff aspect), I really loved the whole loyalty story side of him (fighting pirates, Star Wars references) and wished THAT Liam was more present in the regular story.

OK, I need to get THIS off my chest. Peebee loyalty story. I HAVE BIOTICS! I CAN THROW PEOPLE! I CAN CATCH GRENADES! How the FUCK can I not grab the Remnant thingie while Peebee saves the ex? HOW?!?

Love the Raptor, and the Angara are a cool new addition to the ME universe (while feeling kinda Geth-y @ the end). Jaal is amazing.

Ok, when you're invited to the party on Kadara, get wasted. Best scene in the entire game.

Reyes. I saw his con the second I met him, but the game wouldn't let Sara. I tried to "romance" long-con him the same way he was me. I needed the James Bond style "We are romancing each other, but totally gonna kill each other" choice here. Sara is NOT this dumb, people.

Andromeda felt like "Star Wars: The Force Awakens". Using the formula of the first game/movie and restart the series. It was OK, but once you saw it, some of the magic died. Mass Effect can do better than that.

I could see the Archon's end game before he did. Seriously. How do I NOT have the option to counter this? It kind of started to ruin the story.

You fight the Archon's fight 4 times before you finally fight him. The Architects. The first time, "OK! Fun!". Second time, "Oo, something different? Oh. No?". Third time, "Fuck you!", fourth time, "Another mob...", final time "Really?". Just... shitty.

Archon was a shitty villain. He had no weight behind him. Bland as bland could be. The IDEA of what he was and represented was stronger than anything he actually brought to the game/story.

Backtracking sucks. I cant tell you how often I had to go back to the planet I was just at because "reasons". And being unable to skip certain cut scenes (Landing) or just directly land on the planet (ala Eos) makes it even more annoying. I literally alt tabbed out the second I clicked on a planet knowing I could surf the net and not miss of affect anything in game.

Cora had a nice story. She found herself in being able to help the new Asari Pathfinder, and it worked real well. I loved that and wish we had seen more of it.

Bioware in in danger of becoming the next Ubisoft. Ubisoft games are marked by the "Climb the tower" mechanic, and now Bioware games have that same mechanic. If you played Dragon Age Inquisition, Andromeda feels almost the SAME. I neither want, nor need this. Once you SEE the mechanic, it's ALL you see. Story first, guy, come on. You used to know this.

Having finished it, I am glad I played it. ME:A is a good game, a 3 out of 5. But because it's a Mass Effect game, I expected more. It’s only been a day, but I miss the world, I miss the characters, I miss my Pathfinder.

If you're an ME fan, you're already playing it. If not, it's a very average RPG. If you're looking for one, try it out. I wouldn't pay full price, though. Wait for a sale. Anything around 40$ and I'd be happy w/ what I got.

[thegeminisage]

more botw blogging, SUPER spoilery

this is a real long post sorry normally i break these up and this time i didn’t

and finally, off we go to a new province

this time im making its tower my first stop, since i can see it from here

i tried to paraglide across the river but i didn't have enough height so i landed on the cliffside and ITS RAINING!!!!! for fucks sake

i cant believe this game actually got me to hate rain..........

not only that but when i died in the water it didn't reload me back to where i started to glide from but a bit of cliff i stood on lol so #struggles right from the first minute

rain for the next 3 hours.......and i gotta climb it in the rain....jesus

i guess i could fast travel but i'd have to walk all the way back there :/

hmm. maybe the gae's throwing me the rain on purpose. an npc mentioned this river was notoriously difficult to cross :///

yep as soon as i turned away: it cleared. Great

well i see some bridge-like things further downstream i guess i'll check that out

lol jk i managed to glide across a different part and climb

like i saw my forecast change but then it changed back to sun so w/e i'll take it im up here now

aaaaah i can see so many cool things from here!!!!! i cant wait to explore them all!!!! that #new province feel

i hate like, feeling obligated to track down every last bit of stuff in the old ones when you're seeing new exciting stuff

but i love the feel of getting to a new one and not even knowing which cool thing to check out first

ohhh my god lol there's a big-ass bokoblin camp on the way to the tower i think i see a moblin but im not sure

aaaand im dead

at least there werernt any moblins!

tbh it isnt a difficult camp i just wasnt vigilant about healing

me every time i see something new: what the Fuck is that!?

in this case it was an ice wizzrobe which made it snow EVERYWHERE oh my god

That Was Difficult

if i didn't have my fire arrows and lynel bow it would have taken way longer

i died again!!!

those weird pattern bokoblins have SO much attack power ):

come on i have to clear out the camp AGAIN? and kill the wizzrobe?

naw dude i am skipping this nonsense i am going straight up the fucking cliff

HA i sniped them from above >:3

w

there's a zora on top of this tower!!!!!!!

omg poor thing he can't get back down i wish i could carry him on my paraglider

man i love the tower cutscenes and music and the way they unfold it's so cool

BIG SHINY NEW PROVINCE YYYYEAH!!!!

oh hey i found another zora down near these bridges

they all want me to go see their prince haha noooo i have too much to explore!!!

oooh it's so easy to get all turned around on these bridge thingies

man i love this province it's SO pretty

ah i found a goron on a sandbar!! how did you get out here with all this water...

nooo the blood moon again i knew it was coming the music has been funny all night >:(

lol jk the music faked me out its 2am and i warped to the stable for nothing (i was trying to get that one dude's reaction)

i came back and did the shrine and found another zora!! lol they all really want me to go see that dude

there's a thing i need to climb but ugh rain

while i was bored i chopped grass and attached octo balloons to things

now i am in the wetlands which are AWFUL to walk through i can practically feel the mud squishing between my toes and i want to die lmao

there are horses here!! i miss mine ):

ive done enough shrines now to get another upgrade but i dont feel like doing all that backtracking blegh

oh noooo i see a guardian out here, a moving one ;_;

ah it's been awhile since i failed to fight the still ones on the plateau...i wonder what the start screen meant by "the right tools" ive got a lot of damn tools!! did they mean arrows??

lol yet another zora telling me to meet with the prince.........dude

this prince must be either desperate or spoiled

uh

okay maybe its a glitch but i think?? i see?? a flying island in the distance? What The Fuck

wait no it looks kind of like a ship or giant bird??

my pins don't stick to it, it's definitely moving around

jesus fuck

AHAHAH FUCK THE GUARDIAN SAW ME

HAD TO TAKE REFUSE IN THE FUCKING SHRINE

jesus christ i hate those things!!!! you can't kill them!!!!!!!

NO oh my god there's a hinox over here too

why this Why This

lol the hinox fighting music is giving me trauma flashbacks

actually that wasnt so bad with a defense elixir on

maybe it's just me but this province feels kinda small? i feel like i could finish exploring it p quickly, which is nice

not that i'm not having fun but i know i'm going so slowly ):

me every five seconds: i miss my hooorse i want one to ride around to go faaaaster

i guess...i could catch...one of these

and like. not register it bc the stable is 10000 miles away but

a temp ride. let's see if i can. need to use up some of my sneak potions anyways

i caught one and rode it awhile, but my heart's not in training it...i want My Horse

oh my god wait i hear town music!! is this a stable right here!! AAAAAH

so i did catch a pretty black one and named it luna - had to let the first one i caught go lol but it didn't have great stats and i only rode it once so it'll be happier in the wild probably

KASS IS AT THIS STABLE IM SO HAPPY SO IS HESTU

he's playing epona's song i'm gonna CRY

I MISS EPONA IM DYING

oh my god he had a story for me!! the same one that impa told!!!!! man

the music is still so good. fuck.

lmao i was talking to one dude and he was like well might as well head back inside ugh that place is so filthy and the women so free you might as well call it a manfill

UM?? NINTENDO??

i can see hyrule castle super close from where i am and it looks super scary and i super want nothing to do with it rn

i get the feeling you can like, go in there whenever? maybe even do the endgame stuff early? but oh my god i Dont wanna

OMG i just mounted a bear

i read that you could ride things other than horses but holy shit lmao

i mean

it killed me after i got off, but man

sadly i must now board my horse and continue with The Story see i explored the non-story bits of that province SUPER quickly dang

oh no

this shrine is called a minor test of strength

Oh No

Why, God

oh. that was actually like SUPER easy compared to the other two haha phew

this lady at the crossroads said the prince was creepy omg i knew there was something, ahaha, excuse me, "fishy"

whoa i love his music theme!!

lmao i always get so SHOCKED when they talk!!! even still!!!!!

voice acted cutscenes of this game are like fmvs of final fantasy games in generations 5-7 lol

oh my god...the wink/sparkle thing...he's such a HAM

he's flattering me TOO much omg dude what do you want.......

ok, ok, i like him

he doesn't seem very trustworthy but since his people are in trouble i'll cut him some slack on that one

oh nooo i gotta climb this in the rain......

ah, it's sunshowering tho! that's kinda neat

i just got attacked by octoroks and my heart wept a little because traveling up zora's river dodging octoroks to get to and save zora's domain...I've Been Here Before

listen, i could write a book on this

(lol i did write 300k on this but shhh that was a long time ago)

like...if link is actually a reincarnation does he get flashes of memory

oot happened in every timeline but i know wind waker didn't

but do you think assuming this is in the same timeline as wind waker something in him feels at home the first time he sails a raft again

or hears kass play epona's song at the ranch

or ducks an octorok on his way to zora's domain

people treat the incarnation thing as a kind of tragedy - the world will never be free of evil so long as ganon/ganondorf exists

but maybe there's happiness in it too

no matter what happens, no matter how sad the ending - i mean hell, in this very game, link and zelda LOST

no matter what though, it's guaranteed that they'll see each other again

over and over and over without end, link and zelda are gonna meet and be together for awhile while they defend hyrule again

frankly if that's not a soulmate idk what is

and frankly i'm perpetually offended that they don't develop ganondorf the man more like they did in wind waker...that was the Peak tbqh

i would kill for something like that again

anyway

i love how present the current here is, like with the stuff floating down the river, thats a NICE touch

tbh it's actually really nice that he keeps uselessly checking on me on the way up the river

like, i've been so lonely

even now i miss my companion going "what's WITH that guy" like they probably would if i had one

so this is nice. tbh.

i know it was probably a deliberate choice and makes the game stronger but a companion for this game, someone to share it with...that would've been cool

even just zelda as the protag, she could do some internal narration

but the whole thing is just so quiet.

this place is so pretty tho?? in the distance i see these like, pink coral looking plant things, and the blue columns and bridges are gorgeous

OH NO LIGHTNING GOD WHY

i think its an area thing too i cant just wait it out lmao im gonna Die

oh jk it's just rain now

idk why my entire forcecast changes to a particular type of weather and its only like that a few seconds...super weird and annoying

lol sidon all "you're almost halfway there i believe in you!!" and not helping fight and link's little "k" wave

i love link as a silent protag even if i did have him talk in my writing like it's so endearing

i wonder if link is like sgr like "i am 100 years old what is this zora kid even doing. what is he EVEN DOING."

lol just had to dodge some rocks rollin down a hill

you see this is what i mean. there's a weird sense of familiarity and nostalgia if you've played the games a lot. i wonder if the spirit of the hero feels that way with each new adventure, too

like if he's okay doomed to an eternity of fighting and parting with zelda over and over

because in the end he always gets to do this again

like i can see the spirit of the princess/goddess being high key miserable about those circumstances but i wonder if the spirit of the hero is maybe secretly glad

because part of him will always yearn for the next adventure

he never COULD be happy settling because this is what he was born for

WE love doing this again and again and again, maybe it's not such a stretch to think the spirit of the hero does too

or maybe i'm projecting so hard onto him because undertale has so successfully blurred the line between the player and the game for me LMAO

oh man i just noticed all the names on this map

lulu, mikau ;_;

i miss them!!!!

just once i wish zelda games would feature the same side characters in two or three titles

we never got to see saria or darunia or lulu again

we get to come back to the world but every friend we've ever made has been gone

like some narnia shit i swear to god

lol this is why i should never do story all i do is rant about My Zelda Feels, which are literally endless

oh NICE battle with a blue moblin on the bridge!!!!

ah i like the zora history here too please give me all the worldbuilding i wanna know everything about this world that i can bc rn all i know is "we got Fucked"

i guess i also know about the automans but i need More

i say, while procrastinating on getting to the story

in other news i have an ice and lightning rod which i havent bothered trying to use

bc when i tried to use the boomerang i failed utterly lol

but these? holy shit dude these are Powerful when you actually land a magic hit like Dang

i Love them im never avoiding another wizzrobe again (thats where they drop from)

oh wow

i finally made it, and

man. oh man. it's so beautiful

i wish i could see if better

jesus the zoras always had the prettiest parts of the games imo

OH NO THE MUSIC

OH NO!!! im gonna cry omg

it's the same melody from oot i think!! oh my god!!!!!!

omg there's a zora here named rivan who says he knows me?!?!

omg no he's listing some of link's old pals from Before im so sad why can't he remember

OOOH i shouldn't speak to the elderly bc apparently i am "guilty" of something?? i love this development PLEASE tell me more

i love that they all age so slowly #nice

am i walking into a fucking execution lmao sidon don't play me......

omg the little zora kids are adorable!!!

omg there's a statue of the zora champion ;_;

man this is all so cool i wanna know EVERYTHING about what happened back then!!!!

lol the shrine here was SUPER nerve wracking god you had to like, roll the giant ball down a hill and stop time at JUST the right moment skjghf

oh my gosh ANOTHER zora who knows me (lol "linny")

im so ;w; they all know me!!!!!!

i slept on the blissful water bed at the inn and was mystified and alarmed by the sound effects but i got an extra stamina wheel and 3 extra hearts!!! god damn you can't beat that shit

im so amazed at how many people knew link and like, blame him? i wanna know so bad what happened, i wanna know more about mipha

ten bucks says she's still alive and like trapped in the divine beast but corrupted

or a ghost or something like the old man ;_;

aww zoras sleep in the water aw aw :3

i'm loving this theme of link sleeping for so long like at first i thought of sgr but i just realized it's also like oot (and i can't believe i didn't make that connection first...)

like in oot the people who knew him Before are so happy to see him again and are sure he can help them

but in this game it's a bit mixed

and in this game we don't know the details of 100 years ago yet ;_;

zora's domain here is like. so GLOWY. reminds me of waterfall from undertale tbh lol i wanna paint it

so i'm talking to the king and this one elderly zora goes "the hylians abused an ancient society's power to turn hyrule into what it is today" & like...tbh my dude you have a point. if they had never gotten those guardians out then they couldn't have turned on them

oh my GOD

i just got my first look at a divine beast and i can't believe i was calling them jaegers

my jaw dropped irl holy shit

like that thing truly looks both divine and beastly (this one is an elephant)

is mipha still in there as like a ghost ;_;

it's so clear how much everyone misses her

and she seemed so sweet in the one short memory i recovered

every time sidon does his sparkle smile i love him a little more

i didn't trust him at first bc he seemed a little too eager but now i see he's just doing his best!!!!

especially as someone who thinks radically and progressively in a society where elders stay around hundreds of years

YESSSSS I GOT ZORA ARMOR!!!! YES!!!!!!!!

SWIM SPEED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omfg and it's an engagement thing just like the sapphire

MADE BY MIPHA?

thats right that other lady said link was supposed to choose between her and mipha

listen mipha seems cool and all but i've been shipping zelink for 19 years, so

oh NO, mipha had feelings for link

oh no poor mipha...oh my god

WAIT AM I ABOUT TO GET ANOTHER MEMORY??? OH MY GOD!!!!!

duuuuuude

"no matter how bad the wound i will ALWAYS" heal you and then link wakes up in water

did she do that!!! did she save him ;_; oh my god im going to cry

"you are quivering like a hatchling" PLEASE protect my poor son

muzu is making me sad dude he misses her so much and he hates this so much

ooooh i have to fight another lynel for shock arrows...good Lord im not looking forward to that

I KNEW IT

"calamity ganon took control of the beasts and trapped the champions inside" yep either she's still alive like link and zelda or her body is in there and so is her fucking ghost

DUDE!! i just swam up my first waterfall and it was AWESOME!!!!!

so im at shatterback point now hwere lynel is just bc i wanted to swim up a waterfall but probably he will kill me quickly lmao

apparently you can mount him too which. sick.

but idk i dont have any good food or elixirs or weapons ready im just up here for science im probably gonna knock off soon i gotta Draw

Oh Fuck There He Is ):

it's super tedious to have top go back and delete every fucking picture i take for my copendium one by one those shouldn't save in my album automatically come on dude im trying to take a picture of this lion centaur thing here

aaah there's a rainbow here too #nice

ah well got him about a quarter pf the way down before i died :/ not bad for being completely unprepared

tbh i only had one defense food?? had i had more i could have whittled him down eventually

anyway thats all for tonight!! i doubt i'll play anymore tonight bc i have drawing to do

lol this is a long post but it's all in one bc i'm typing them in notepad now and don't have to worry about them getting too long

[lesberrian]

Ghosting (one) Prolouge

Tw: Cursing, Ghosts (Like the entire story)

I’m gonna be putting this story under #Ghosting Ditzy-star and I’ll figure out how to do a master list. Also please if you want send in requests for scenarios or questions for my OCs or anything like that! Please note I’m a minor so don’t be weird about anything! Don’t forget to drink water and eat ❤ also I haven’t double checked for spelling. I just wanted to post some of my story so far! I have a lot of homework from school so hopefully I’ll be able to finish by the end of the week

“Hey, um... ‘Phelia?” Fay floats in front of her friend holding her head on the ground. Backing away slightly when she sits up the ghost gestures around them. “So, where are we?” 

“Welcome to The Devildom” 

Both of them focus on the man who spoke. Could he see Fay? Ophelia recognized him as Diavolo, Prince of Devildom, but never bothered to know much about him. She never really thought that besides the time she spoke to the Avatar of Envy once that she would ever actually talk to demons. (Even though she has a few things that has demons in it)

Ophelia stands up, taking a deep breath and holding it for a second. She lets it all out with a slow “Fuuuuuuuuuuck.”

Clapping her hands together she stares the man down. Unlike most people, she could less about the rude glare she was giving a prince. Diavolo laughs slightly, he wasn’t expecting this kind of reaction. Maybe a scared ‘where am I’ or wanting to know how they got here but not this.

Fay, like the little gremlin she is, laughs at the situation. She looks at Daivolo and shakes her head. “Man, you took her from her deep cleaning day. Tsk, tsk, tsk, shame on you.”

She realizes that Diavolo can’t see or hear her when her doesn’t even glance at her. “Hey, ‘Phelia, you should probably let him know before it’s too late. I think he thinks you’re just some normal boring human. You know, someone who can’t see ghosts and stuff.”

“He cant see you?” Ophelia furrows her eyebrows at the 13 year old ghost. Looking at Diavolo with a confused look she questions, “You can’t see her?”

“See who?” Lucifer walks in and Fay jumps (just floats more into the air but fast).

“Wait you guys actually can’t see her?” Looking over at Fay she motions her to the ground. Putting her hand over the girls forehead, she mutters, “Vivifica.”

In about 5 seconds, Fay was ‘revived’ in a way. Her body was now physical but she was as cold as a dead body, with no heart pumping blood. She didn’t need to do anything someone alive has to do.

“Who are you, child? And why do you have so many bracelets” Lucifer asks harshly. It was obvious he didn’t expect the exchange student to be able to summon and talk to ghosts.

“First of all, I’m a teen, 13 to be exact. So don’t call me ‘child’. Second, my name is Fay. Third, it’s called kandi and it’s cute. Finally, why are we here? I want to go home.” Fay crosses her arms and sticks her tongue out. The Kandi on her arm made a sound when she did it.

“Oh, I suppose I never did get to that, did I?” Diavolo laughs. “I’m sorry about that.”

Mainly talking to Ophelia, he explains what was happening. He also introduces them to Lucifer. At the end of his speech he pauses, staring at Fay. Fay, being Fay, stares right back at him, not blinking even once until he does.

“I guess I lost,” He laughs. “The crystal on your wrist, that’s what connects you to Ophelia,correct?” Fay nods and Diavolo smiles. “That’s what I thought it was for. Since you can be in your body before your death, would I need to have Lucifer prepare a room for you?”

“Uh, that would be nice but you don’t really have to. I don’t really like being like this,” Fay gestures at herself. “It’s kinda strange to say the least. Plus I can fly around so it’s really boring!”