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[seraphs-spider-web]

The afterlife

Knowledge is power. But not knowing what comes after death is the most agonizing thing about suicide.

Lately, I've been afraid that the journey doesn't end in a quick painless death. I'm afraid that I'll be weighed down with chains and become a ghost, forced to relive old memories over and over again for all eternity for having the audacity to take control over my fate.

If there is any sort of mercy, I would get to write my life's story after death. I elect to become a fairy, high on happiness, spreading cheer and joy.

When the depressed ones sleep, off I'll trot into their blackened hopeless lives and suck out their depression.

With a swish of my wand, they'll be filled with joy and hope

The will to live

The ability to love themselves...

For you see, when you despise yoursel, a voice inside you constantly tells you that you are not good enough, you hear it echo around you. When people tell you that you've been excellent, the voice comes along and sharply tells your dampened spirits to stay dampened. You also hear the voice tell you that you are being given praise out of pity.

No compliment that ever came your way was ever real.

And so, if and when I become a fairy in the afterlife, I'm going to visit all the downtrodden hopeless ones and suck out that voice.

And then, I'm going to fly away to nearest volcano with the speed of light and hurl down the blackened emotions into the smoldering pit of fury and rage.

And when they burn, my fairylight will twinkle with pride.

In the afterlife, I'm going to be a fairy godmother for all the Cinderellas who are burnt and stung by the embers that are fuelled from the inside.

[casadefreewill]

Frozen Wings by flightoftheseraph (@seraphwrites)

Summary: Weeks after seeing the weary traveler Castiel leaves his nest to explore the forest he calls home when he is startled by a desperate cry for help.

From: AO3

Chapters: 1/1

Word Count: 1,471

Rating: General

Yay! Protective papa Cas! Go read it it’s good! Also if it catches your interest go read the series from the beginning :)

[threshie]

7 - 7 - 7 Tag Game

Got tagged by @seraphwrites -- thanks!

Rules: Tag 7 blogs, go to page 7 of a WIP, and post 7 lines.

Here’s a snippet from the angsty Sastiel WIP I have going:

What was there to say, though? Cas belonged to Dean. It was the perfect story, the angel and the Righteous Man, the mortal and the celestial being that pulled him from the pits of Hell. Sam’s brother and Sam’s best friend.

“Sam.” The way Cas said his name so gently hurt. Why couldn’t Sam just bury this forever? The last possible thing he wanted to do right now was to confess how he really felt, but the angel’s next words gave him no choice: “I can feel your longing, Sam.”

Tagging @jhoomwrites @samanddeaninpanties @aini-nufire @dreamsfromthebunker @sassysousa @caswouldratherbehere @cenedrariva 

[tommyficsarchive]

Sometimes You Need A Ghost To Comfort You by seraphwrites

(2,405 | 1/1 | General Audiences)

Summary: Tommy is having a bad day after escaping exile and doesn't think anything could really help, until a certain ghost makes sure he feels loved again.

[deancaspinefest]

A Wonderful Mess We’ve Made

fic by flightoftheseraph (seraphwrites)  |  art by shadowpaintedrose

Shortly after facing what they thought to be the end of the world, Sam, Dean and Castiel are surprised when Amara, Chuck and Lucifer vanish without a trace. With no leads in sight and the end of the world temporarily on hold,Castiel branches off on his own, to investigate an leads elsewhere. 

When Dean calls him with a hunt that Castiel has knowledge with, a biblical case in a small town in Wyoming. Castiel agrees to tag along in an attempt to be useful. What they both don’t realize is how much more complex the case will be and how they finally be given the chance to truly talk to one another.

11x23 AU

Keep reading for a sneak preview!

Dean pulled the Impala up to the quaint townhouse, it was baby blue with white accents and paneled windows. It was covered in huge amounts of foliage and flowers seemed to flourish from every possible spot. There colourful flowers were extraordinarily vibrant against the plain colour of the house. Castiel couldn't help but stare, as Dean stopped the car near the driveway.

"Dean, what are we pretending to be? I think the locals will become wary of us if we attempt to impersonate the FBI.". Castiel said.

"I've already got that covered, we're just lost, looking for directions and a place to stay. Interested in cross country travel and especially small towns. If we can find a place to hunker down we can set up base and hopefully we won't be noticed much." Castiel nodded -- that sounded like a plausible cover.

Dean got out of the car and walked up to the bright red door of the home. A colourful wreath decorated the door and Castiel couldn’t help but notice how the tiny buds of flowers were intertwined through the wreath.

Dean knocked with a dull thud, while Castiel just waited patiently, staring down at the worn wood of the deck.

No answer was forthcoming, and Dean swore under his breath. When Castiel saw the bright white blinds were slightly ajar, he peered inside, and his stomach dropped. 

It was hard to see with the lack of light but he could see sigils, made of blood or some similar substance. “Dean,” he said, and Dean joined him, staring at the blood covered walls.

“Welp, looks like it’s extreme measures,” he said, and before Castiel could even register a thought of what that might mean, Dean pulled out his pistol and shot the lock off. Then Dean walked into the house and Castiel carefully followed behind. 

[Continue reading on March 18]

[samwinchesterbingo]

New Year’s Resolution - Sam W Bingo

With 2020 approaching fast, we know that many resolutions are being considered, some of which may be fandom related!

We know this bingo is a no-deadline, low pressure challenge, but why not resolve to make a bingo - 5 squares across, or diagonal, or four corners (or even finish your card?) - in 2020?  

Let us know if you make a Sam W Bingo resolution, and we can help you stick to it!  We can give you monthly or quarterly reminders to create, if you’d like, or just some general encouragement throughout the year.

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[deancas-sweetheart]

Thank you to everyone who participated in the second round of this challenge! We had another fantastic year, and you can find all of the submissions from the 2018 edition below.

By Any Other Name by A_Diamond

Dean calls Cas baby and sweetheart and darling, and he doesn’t understand why Cas only ever calls him Dean. Until he does.

Church and State by HollyBlue2

Dean calls Castiel sweetheart while at work in front of a patient which goes against their personal relationship rules and despite now being married, they still have to work through it.

Dean’s Gift by donnawooza

Castiel gives Dean, a very special gift for his birthday. The only problem, the gift doesn’t seem to like Dean and Cas being Sweethearts.

Eyes So True by edgarallanrose

Dean would like to blame the alcohol in his system, or even the Valentine’s spirit that he hadn’t been aware of until about forty-five minutes before, but the truth was he just really wanted to kiss Cas.

Fly Right Home to You by Dogsled

Dean is drinking alone at a bar when a low, seductive voice takes over the microphone. It’s Castiel Novak, a local country singer, and he’s entertaining friends and well wishers with his crooning melodies. Unfortunately for Dean, he’s never heard anything so instantly intoxicating in his life as Cas’ voice, which makes it hard to get up from the bar and make a quick escape.

Fort Netflix by mscaptainwinchester

When Cas develops a blanket obsession, Dean tries to be supportive. It pays off in the cuddliest of ways.

Half-Past Eleven by kiasqueaks

It was the quiet that always got to Dean the most. 

keep the lovelight glowing by vaudelin

“It’s unusual to see a diner so festive,” Cas says once they’re seated, his gaze swaying around the dimly-lit room.

Dean shrugs. “These kinds of places live and die on the fifties vibe. It’s practically law they have checkerboard floors.”

Though he’s staring at his screen, Dean catches Cas’ head tilt in his peripheral. “That isn’t—the streamers, Dean. The balloons.” His hand comes up from the table, curving toward the aisle.

And that… Dean shakes his head, like he’s imagining it. He glares at his phone, swipes to the calendar just to be sure.

Let It Slip by zaphodsgirl

Dean always comes over to spend time with Cas when he’s upset.

love around the corner by sternchencas

Castiel works at the library and finds notes hidden in the returned books, addressed to him. Will he find out who’s sending them? 

Love like we’re young by adela_19

Dean is married. He has been married for some time now to his great love, his college sweetheart. So why after so long does he still get so lonely? Castiel’s famous band is on the road again and Dean is pushed by his outraging emotions to do something he never thought he will: go on a plane. When things don’t turn out as he planned, Dean is left to piece himself back together. Will he have to that by himself?

Not Your Baby by candybarrnerd

Cas has noticed that when Dean is outwardly affectionate, it doesn’t seem to be directed at him. He tried not to let it get to him. It still did.

Of Mice and Murmers by fallenandthefaithless

Exhausted after a long series of hunts, Dean falls asleep to the sounds of an animal documentary Cas had found on television. When he wakes the next morning it’s to find Cas silent and strange.

Oh, How I Love You by QuillsAndInk

Mornings like these made loving Dean easy.

Out into the Woods by oceanbluecas

When Cas takes Jack off somewhere secluded to teach him how to control his powers, Dean’s left at home feeling disappointed. He just got Cas back, and now the distance feels worse than it ever has. They talk daily, easing the ache in Dean’s chest a little, but everything changes when Cas sends The Text. It’s up to Dean to figure out what to do with it.

Please, Professor? by courie969

Castiel’s in danger of failing Professor Winchester’s Classic Lit course and decides to ask for some extra credit.

remember this feeling by superhoney

The Olympic Games bring together the best athletes from all over the world to compete for the opportunity to bring pride and glory to their countries. For American hockey player Dean Winchester, this second trip to the Games is another chance at the gold medal he’s dreamed of since he was a kid. He thinks he knows what to expect: fierce competition and grueling games.

But he never expected Castiel Novak, the Russian speed skater with something to prove, to become an unlikely ally along the path to the podium.

Sweetheart Dance by firefly124

Dean hated cases in high schools these days, but at least this one wasn’t a musical.

(tell me that you) love me, babe by remmyme

“Thanks, snookums,” the man deadpans, giving nothing away, and with a brisk turn on his heel is striding towards the door, and while it should be impossible with his casual speed and the lack of an indoor, gusty breeze, the man’s tan trench gives the strongest impression of dramatic billowing Dean’s ever actually seen. Because this is real life, not a goddamn Billy Wilder film. And also, what the fuck.

That’s Why I’m Your Sweetheart story by hartlessfiction, art by cryptomoon

Dean didn’t think his life could get any better. He had the mate of his dreams, a really nice apartment in the heart of the city, and a comfortable position at one of the leading architectural firms. At least that’s what he thought when he stepped off the elevator after a long, late shift at the office. The smell of cookies baking is supposed to make a man feel happy and hungry, but Dean sensitive nose it sparks a warning bell. There’s no other explanation for it, Cas is stress baking.

The Promise in a Kiss story by destimushi, art by aceriee

It’s Valentine’s Day and the annual County Fair is in town. Dean uses this chance to do something he’s been meaning to for a long time.

The Sweetheart Next Door by noxlee

Dean just bought a new house. And the next-door neighbour? Smoking hot.

Untitled by whichstiel

Inheriting the throne was once the only thing Prince Castiel dreamed about. Today he gives up everything to be with the man of his dreams.

Waiting in the Wings by seraphwrites (flightoftheseraph)

Castiel an injured hunter stumbles into a town and meets an angel who may just have be having the same rotten luck he is.

Wake Up, Sweetheart by breathingdestiel

“Cas, baby, c’mon. Wake up,” he begged. “Wake up, sweetheart.”

His heart thumped as images of Cas never waking up raced through his brain. He didn’t remember the last time he was this scared.

You Called Me Sweetheart by WhiteRoseOfRivendell

A lone angel stands at a quiet grave. He mourns and loves, but can’t bring himself to say the word goodbye.

You’re Cute When You’re Unconscious story by osirisapollo, art by cryptomoon

Dean is not really accustomed to waking up with someone in his bed… but he could get used to it.

[ao3feed-crimeboys]

tear through my cheeks

by seraphwrites

After spending half a year with the weird group of two hunters and one, even more weird, vampire, Tommy was starting to settle in nicely in their cabin in the woods. Until Wilbur started acting strange and no one would tell him anything.

(updates daily<3, title from "Body" by Mother Mother)

Words: 1366, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Series: Part 5 of cringe culture is dead (dsmp fics), Part 2 of the stake wasn't sharp enough

Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), DreamSMP

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: Gen

Characters: TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot, Technoblade (Video Blogging RPF), Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF), Clay | Dream (Video Blogging RPF)

Relationships: Wilbur Soot & Technoblade & TommyInnit & Phil Watson, Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit, Wilbur Soot & Technoblade, TommyInnit & Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF), Technoblade & Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF)

Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Alternate Universe - Vampire, Vampires, Vampire Wilbur Soot, Hurt TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Angst, Fluff and Angst, Platonic Relationships, everything is platonic, Blood and Injury, Sleepy Bois Inc as Family, Protective Sleepy Bois Inc, Sleepy Bois Inc-centric, Hunter Technoblade (Video Blogging RPF), Hunter Phil Watson, ill add more tags if i remember

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/36827494

[expurgatedversion]

Self-Rec Fest

Welcome to the Self-Rec Fest, where we encourage authors to celebrate their own works without shame. Fandom: Supernatural. Pairings: Destiel, Jensen Ackles/Misha Collins Warnings may apply, and summaries may be edited from the original.

Summer Blue Skies by @destimushi RPF - Jensen Ackles/Misha Collins. Complete. Rated E. Part 1 of a series.

The mission was to infiltrate. Jensen knew the consequences of capture, and when it happened, he was ready to die for his country. Misha Collins was the master of torture, and it shouldn’t be difficult to hate him, but the interrogator was hot and cold, and Jensen soon found the boundaries between love and hate blurring.

Between the Folds of Submission by destimushi Destiel. Complete. Rated E.

Castiel races against the clock as the killer ups the ante, but Dean—rich, drop-dead gorgeous, and a famously unconventional Dominant to boot—proves to be a distraction he can’t afford. As the danger grows, Castiel finds himself torn between upholding his beliefs and giving in to his desires. Can he resist his urges long enough to find the killer, or will his biology consume him?

Music To His Ears by HollyBlue2 @envydean Destiel. Complete. Rated E. On the way home from work, Castiel hears the lilting tune of a piano and eventually goes to investigate. When he does he finds his mate in Dean Winchester, who rejects him right off the bat, sending Castiel into a debilitating heat.Ending up in hospital, Castiel and Dean finally meet again...

Lazarus Writing by @jemariel Destiel. Complete. Rated E. Castiel is an author struggling to come up with his next novel. Luckily for him, a gift arrives in the mail from his publisher: a fancy new notebook and pen set with a note that promises to “bring new life to your writing”. It’s all fine until Castiel decides to write his grocery list in the back of the book… only to find the items have materialized in the kitchen. So, Castiel is in possession of some freaky magic which could be pretty amazing… if it weren’t for the fact that he just started a new novel in that book and the contents are not something he wants to see in this world.... Five Days in May by Dangerousnotbroken, @kreweofimp Destiel. Complete. Rated E. The unseasonable hurricane wasn’t the only force of nature on the beach that night. Dean counts himself lucky that the beautiful blue-eyed stranger was there to save his life. He never could have anticipated that a nameless one-night stand in a tiny storm-tossed shack would change his entire life. Like Catnip by KreweOfImp Destiel. Complete. Rated E. It's one thing to be pissed off that Cas was up late gaming and didn't come to bed when he said he would. And yeah, Cas pretty much figured there was gonna be some sulking and he was gonna have to do some groveling to make up for it. He maybe even could've foreseen the desire for a little revenge. But did Dean really have to involve the cat? Cumulonimbus by KreweOfImp Destiel. Complete. Rated E. In which Cas watches snow, Dean watches Cas, Sam is a jerk, things get out of hand, and Dean is taken in hand. Written in the Stars by @lunastories Destiel. Complete. Rated M. Castiel, one of the last of the Celestials, descended onto Earth by orders of his garrison leader. What he finds there is the soul he lost long ago, the other part of him that he'd been searching for.

Dean was a normal guy, living his life and trying to take care of his errant researcher brother. When his brother asks him for a favor, claiming that an alien wants to speak to him, he's of course skeptical.

He didn't expect that meeting to change the course of his entire life, throwing him into a war that he wasn't prepared for. Love me to Death by LunaStories Destiel. Complete. Rated M. There once was a man who feared Death. He feared him so much, he tried to seek immortality but his efforts were in vain. Eventually, he learned to love Death and everything he represented. This is the story of a mortal and a god and their love for each other. Mermen and Mistletoe by @robotsnchicks Destiel. Complete. Rated T. When Cas draws his long-term crush's name for the office gift exchange, he is determined to find the perfect gift. Unfortunately his co-worker Meg has an unconventional suggestion. Signs Point To Yes by robotsnchicks Destiel. Complete. Rated G. A series of coincidences conspire to remind Dean of his New Year's resolution—To ask Cas out. Lifestyles of the Weird and Sexy by robotsnchicks Destiel. Complete. Rated E.Dean's roommate Castiel is a pretty weird dude. He's also hot as hell and Dean might have a bit of a crush on him.The problem is Cas might be a witch. And finding out the truth isn't as easy as Dean thought it would be. I Don't Know Why by @saltnhalo Destiel. Complete. Rated E. Dean gets home from a long job to find a note on his front step. He knows exactly who it's from and what it means; it promises fun and danger and a fucking good time, and there's no way he can turn down this invitation. He can never say no to the Angel. Roll With It by saltnhalo Destiel. Complete. Rated E. For two years, Dean’s been slaving away beneath his boss – many label him a secretary, but he fucking hates that and feels like it only applies to someone wearing a pencil skirt, so he insists on his title of Executive Assistant. And for what? In the vain hope that one day he’ll manage to become an editor for Sandover Publishing, and that he’ll see the manuscript that he’s slaved over since college finally realized in print. That’s the dream, anyway. Right now, he’s fucking late. From Grace and Uniform by saltnhalo, thepopeisdope Destiel. Complete. Rated E. When FBI agent Dean Winchester was first assigned to the Ghost’s case, he was expecting it to be the same as any other serial killer hunt--frustrating dead ends, a trail of bodies, unending paperwork. What he wasn’t expecting was for it to be interrupted by a mysterious alpha calling himself Cas, knowing far too much about him and offering up not just a lead, but concrete information on his mother’s killer. As the two set off in search of justice for Mary Winchester and the countless other victims of Azazel Masters, Dean struggles to come to grips with himself. Despite his whirlwind attraction to Cas, he knows that exposing himself to his colleagues as an omega instead of the beta he pretends to be would be a mistake. Nothing can happen between the two of them; not without Dean losing everything he knows. Waiting in the Wings by @seraphwrites Destiel. Complete. Rated T. Castiel an injured hunter stumbles into a town and meets an angel who may just have be having the same rotten luck he is. Written for the Hey, Sweetheart 2018 challenge. spinning (series) by @reallyelegantsharkfish Destiel. Complete. Rated T-M. “Listen up!” Dean hollers, louder than necessary in the small space. “We are spinnin’ this bottle, and then we’re going to do some kissin’! Happy New Year!” suckerfish (series) by sharkfish Destiel. Complete. Rated E. At some point in the last couple of months, Dean became friends with the monster in the lake. traveling light by sharkfish Destiel. Complete. Rated E. Cas is, impossibly, far more gorgeous in person, and he’s taller than Dean expected, and he moves with this casual grace that makes Dean’s brain short circuit. So Dean thinks he probably looks a little like a deer in the headlights when Cas catches his eyes from the door of the restaurant. He breaks out into a smile, the full, wide one that never came out in his pictures, and Dean actually goes weak in the knees. “Cas,” Dean says. “Hello, Dean,” Cas says. Sealed lips. Tied hands. by @sternchenchas Destiel. Complete. Rated G. Dean Winchester doesn't look forward to his first day of school, but it's not because of your usual teenager problems. He would be glad if he had to deal with dates, grades and rumors about his love life. Instead, he struggles even to communicate. In a world where everyone talks in sign language, his hands are tied. He's a happer. One of those weird people who have a hard time figuring out what others say, and can't express what they want to tell. But one good deed might save him because he helps Castiel Novak. A boy who might be just as different and weird as Dean. A boy who understands even when Dean's lips are sealed. Reality of Dreams by sternchencas Destiel. Complete. Rated E. Dean Winchester has been living a boring life. At least until his brother is missing, the police think he has something to do with it, and a group of people who call themselves 'Liberi Somniorum' and live in an underground bunker ask him to join them so they can teach him how to use his dreaming abilities. As if that isn't bad enough, the police also took his car and then there's this guy in a trenchcoat who's guarding him, and some dark secret. Dean does his best to convince himself it's a dream. But somehow, sometimes, dreams can be very real, and this time, he just can't wake up. Porch Light by @surlybobbies Destiel. Complete. Rated N/A. Before he could think too much about it, Dean had reached over his duffel bag and skated his knuckles across Cas’s cheek, just once, before dropping his hand and his gaze. “I’ll leave the porchlight on for you,” he had mumbled. (Dean and Cas reunite in Lawrence after meeting in Boston 6 months prior.) Brambles by surlybobbies Destiel. Complete. Rated T. “You like the dirty mechanic look, Cas?” Dean says, winking.Cas steps back to let him in. “Not particularly.” Dean’s grin falls. He swipes an arm over his sweaty forehead. “Well, get used to it, bud, ‘cause I’m your neighborhood dirty mechanic on the days I’m not the neighborhood drunken arsonist.” Criminality by surlybobbies Destiel. Complete. Rated T. In which Dean accidentally breaks into and falls asleep in Cas's car, and Cas accidentally kidnaps the stranger who had been eyeing him all night at the bar.

[ao3feed-destiel]

How Far We've Come

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2GwQXjZ

by seraphwrites (flightoftheseraph)

Castiel and Dean take a walk and Castiel decides to make snow angels. (inspired by this tumblr post here)

Words: 640, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Supernatural

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Castiel, Dean Winchester

Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester

Additional Tags: Fluff, Sad Dean Winchester, Snow Angels, SPN Fluff Bingo 2018

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2GwQXjZ

[seraphs-spider-web]

Psychiatric assessment

There are times when you want to hurt yourself. Just to escape the mind numbing agony that consumes you from the inside. The pain becomes a black hole and sucks out the joy of living.

You become an extension of the couch. You watch banal reality TV shows to escape the life that has become your reality.

And what is your life?

A strange medley of assignment deadlines and an assortment of shrink meetings who try to figure out what's wrong with you.

This was my sixth assessment session. And somehow in every assessment the questions never vary:

1. How are you?

2. How long have you been depressed?

3. Do you think of death?

4. How would you kill yourself?

5. Do you have a plan to kill yourself? Do you have a date?

6. Why do think you're fat?

7. Has there been a history of mental illness in your family?

And these questions are asked in robotic voices and you answer in the voice of an automaton.

But an automaton you cannot be. You are a mass of tremoring emotions that will eventually take over.

And so, after you come home, the shrinks judgy face looms at you. His thin lips have become thinner and his voice becomes sharper and starker.

Does this get any better?

[ao3feed-castiel]

When the Mountains Crumble to the Sea

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2KwbDuj

by seraphwrites (flightoftheseraph)

Dean never realized that his apartment burning down would turn out to be the best thing that ever happened to him. But after going on a road trip after losing his home, he accidentally finds exactly what he's been looking for all along.

Words: 2531, Chapters: 1/5, Language: English

Fandoms: Supernatural

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester (mentioned)

Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester/Other(s)

Additional Tags: Asexual Castiel (Supernatural), Grey-Asexual Dean Winchester, Asexual Character, Roommates, Alternate Universe - Roommates/Housemates, Developing Relationship, Marriage Proposal, Trans Castiel (Supernatural), FTM Castiel, Coming Out, Supportive Dean Winchester, Questioning Dean Winchester, mentions of transphobia, Past Relationship(s), Fluff and Hurt/Comfort, Asexual Supernatural Mini Bang, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2KwbDuj

[deancaspinefest]

Good news for everyone who likes their Destiel fic with a healthy dose of yearning: previews are here!

Under the cut you’ll find links to thirty-seven Pinefest fic previews, along with a handful of art previews--though most of our artists are keeping their work completely under wraps until their posting day. 

Once posting begins on March 3, we’ll start adding links to each masterpost, too.

2017 Ao3 collection

2018 Ao3 collection

March 3  - If Love Was a River - preview - masterpost fic by loversantiquities  |  art by subtextiel March 4 - Heroes for Ghosts - preview - masterpost fic by pantheonofdiscord  | art by maiglöckchen March 5 - The Scent of Magic - preview - masterpost fic by dr-dean  |  art by cenedrariva March 6 - Winchester 275 - preview - masterpost fic by mittensmorgul  |  art by whichstiel March 7 - It Starts With a Kiss - preview - masterpost fic by jhoom  |  art by ricketyjukeboxer March 8 - Like Curving Colour fic by robotsnchicks  |  art by dogsled March 9 - Attention Interest Desire Action fic by procasdeanating  | art by exceptcas March 10 - ‘Connections’ with Castiel fic by bluemasquerade  |  art by delicious-irony March 11 - Turn the World to Gold fic by teacass + superhoney  |  art by thevioletcaptain March 12 - Cat-and-Mouse… And Cat fic by paperann  |  art by dmsilvisart March 13 - Whispers in the Wind fic by cenedrariva  |  art by purzelndesbaeumchen March 14 - Ships in the Night fic by thetwistedwillow  |  art by pbj*fish March 15 - Find Our Way fic by youaresunlight (puppycastiel)  |  art by miggles-scribbles March 16 - Dig the Devil’s Blood fic by carrieosity  |  art by correlia-be

March 17 - From Sea to Shining Sea  fic by mscaptainwinchester  |  art by cryptomoon

March 18 - A Wonderful Mess We’ve Made fic by flightoftheseraph (seraphwrites)  |  art by shadowpaintedrose

March 19 - Merger in the Woods fic by tobythewise  |  art by spnheart

March 20 - Clay fic by dogsled  |  art by blusart

March 21 - Pining Sickness, or; Murder with One Stone fic by athaclena  |  art by imtoobiforyou

March 22 - Because This Moment Simply Is fic by ilovelucey  |  art by dreym

March 23 - Winding Roads, Blinding Lights fic by grumpyphoenix  |  art by frosted-astronaut

March 24 - None today :(

March 25 - Breaking the Rules fic by legendsofsnark  |  art by dreamsfromthebunker

March 26 - The Rigged Mandela Effect fic by starespressos  |  art by starmouse123

March 27 - Love Has a Quiet Voice fic by casloveshisfreckles  |  art by correlia-be

March 28 - Genie in a Bottle fic by thepopeisdope  |  art by missaceriee

March 29 - The Great Escape fic by deaneatscake  |  art by kuwlshadow

March 30 - Pies and Prejudice fic by cassiebobassie  |  art by wheres-cas

March 31 - The Sacredness of Tears fic by ladyofthursday  |  art by dmsilvisart

April 1 - The Shape of Regret fic by halzbarry  |  art by throughxthexice

April 2 - Raining at Sunset fic by livinginthequestion  |  art by maiglöckchen

April 3 - Good Things  fic by fallenandthefaithless  |  art by cryptomoon

April 4 - Somewhere We Belong fic by zaphodsgirl  |  art by imtoobiforyou

April 5 - Picture Perfect World fic by pherryt  |  art by dogsled

April 6 - None today :(

April 7 - Little Blue Dragon fic by saltnhalo  |  art by elliottranstrex

April 8 - The Shop on the Corner fic by cascase  |  art by bs-acorns

April 9 - So Make it Count fic by atomicdetectivehideout  |  art by boopliette

April 10 - Highway 9 fic by ellispark (solo author)

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Sam Winchester Bingo Participant List

BLACKED OUT CARD LIST:

2/23/19 @just-another-busyfangirl​ Masterlist 10/26/19 @queen-of-deans-booty​ Masterlist 12/14/19 @silvaxus Masterlist

Here are all the blogs currently participating in the Sam Winchester Bingo!

Participants, we would love to link your masterlist here.  Please DM it to mod @just-another-busyfangirl to be added.

@aceofspadescas - Personalized

@achillesfallenangel - Pre-Made Card 7

@aeonflux40 - Pre-Made Card 2

@always-keep-writing - Archived Card 12

@amal-albuloshia - Archived Card 6

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@belabee - Archived Card 3

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@caffeinechesters - Archived Card 9

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@castielswinchestergirl - Pre-Made Card 10

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@girlofrandomfandoms - Pre-Made Card 12

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@hallelujas - Personalized

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@i-write-for-all-soulmates - Archived Card 3

@idreamofplaid - Pre-Made Card 3

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@just-another-busyfangirl - Pre-Made Card 1

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@momstiel - Archived Card 1

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@mystrie - Archived Card 13

NeonKnight (AO3) - Pre-Made Card 1

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@ohheyitsg - Pre-Made Card 13

@pansexualmoose - Archived Card 9

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@risingphoenix761 - Personalized

@rockwhiskeybaby - Pre-Made Card 18

@rodiniaorzetalthepenquin  - Archived Card 11

@rosemoonweaver - Archived Card 5

@roxy-davenport - Personalized

@saintsurvivor - Archived Card 9

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@samanddeaninpanties - Archived Card 3

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@samflovver - Archived Card 12

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@seraphwrites - Personalized

@snarkysnartes - Archived Card 8

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@spnbaby-67 - Archived Card 11

@spnfan1912 - Archived Card 1

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@sprinkles888 - Personalized

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@tigre5s - Pre-Made Card 14

@tistai - Personalized

@transsammywinchester - Personalized

@waywardream - Personalized

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@writings-of-a-twisted-mind - Pre-Made Card 3

@zoeyofthedead - Pre-Made Card 2

*post updated 12/31/19*

[seraphs-spider-web]

Conversations with Q

Him: So, will you be happy if you're 45 kilos?

Me: Yes

Him : And then die right? Because.... Quit while you're ahead.

Me: (Chortles for five minutes) Yeah. Also, if I kill myself now, I'll be a fat ghost.

Him : .......

[seraphs-spider-web]

A Borderline’s Way of Loving

Lets talk about love. The subject of almost every book, every poem and every work of art. The many ways to portray this singular emotion. The many words to describe this feeling. The many kinds of love. Romantic love. Platonic love. An artist’s love for his creation. A writer’s love for his type-writer. And a borderline’s love.

When I fall in love, I am submerged in thoughts of the person I am in love with. I study their habits, their thoughts and their life and incorporate every habit of theirs into my life. I need to constantly be assured  that they will never leave me. And on my part I love that person with absolute loyalty, faith and adoration. I place them on my highest pedestal. The hardest part of being in love is that I can never see the person I’ve placed on the pedestal for who they actually are. My head gleans some of their traits and this is all I can see in them. Usually, I am very good at reading people but where it matters the most, that is, with the people I love, I simply do no get a read on them. All I see are traits like spirituality, intelligence, intellectualism and kindness. My eyes amplify these traits and their pedestal grows higher and higher. Soon, the pedestal gets so high that I cannot see the favorite person anymore. The wonderful traits I’ve heaped on them blare out at me from a distance and they assume a god like state in my head. 

And so, when my love is not reciprocated in the slightest, I feel crushed. I feel worthless. The rejection makes me question all of my achievements. The rejection makes question my self-worth. The rejection fills me with a sense of self-loathing so powerful that all I can think of is death. Sometimes, passively and sometimes, with an active will to hurt myself. I want to hurt myself again. I want to die. 

But know this. I do not fall in love with everyone. If you are worthy of my love, then it means that you are par excellence. And if you let me into your world, I will love you fiercely. Until you disappoint me. But until then, I will flutter around you anxiously like a butterfly. All I want to do is fetch you pollen from the prettiest flowers in the world and fill your heart with the sweetest honey.