#self science

[psykoticrefuge]

DIY

Content warning: discussion of biohacking and both medical and slang terminology of sensitive areas

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Not only do I like to science stuff, the PDA (persistent need for autonomy <or> pathological demand avoidance) tism type brain is a big, do it yourself kinda vibe. And as such I've ordered some progesterone cream to stimulate breast growth.

You wanna science along? Come with.

Background stats:

9 months HRT

8 of which was sublingual estradiol 2mg thrice daily (if you remember a previous post I had extra and was taking 4 pills a day and felt amazing)

Spironolactone 50mg twice a day

3 weeks in on depo estradiol injections

First week: 0.3ml/5mg and the last day was BRUTAL

Past two weeks: 0.4ml/5mg and feeling good

I do have an endo prescribing Spiro and E but reluctant to do prog yet

Cis women in immediate blood family and extended are typically gifted in the bewb department

Currently a tanner 3 tanner 4 cusp, unknown cup and band size

I've used the cream two days now and let's talk turkey:

I ordered the cream from Amazon and it's bio identical progesterone from yams. Smells great. Bottle says to use one pump (1.3g of cream) once or twice a day on soft skin areas. I started the same day as shot day and I'm applying the cream evenly between both breasts twice a day. The bottle also says to cycle it depending on menopausal or not. No instructions for trans folk. I'm doing this off of research and anecdotal evidence.

Today was a rough mental health day, combined with a rough physical pain day. Unsure if mood affected by introduction of new hormone. Over the last 3 weeks day 2-4 after injection are usually higher days. But also it's a very heavy time to be trans so again, can't make pure judgement call on mood effects. The nipples are more sensitive, like I can feel subtle movements of my top while I breathe. I'm prone to headaches and there is a listed migraine warning but so far no worries in that department. I probably won't post updates daily but will keep track of progress and write about it.

[space-dinosaurs]

Don't fuck with the science team

[kilgarraara]

HLVRAI Human Resources Violation

Chapter 9

This is a very small part of Kogo-Dogo's fanfic Human Resources Violation, I wanted to have some fun and recreate it as a comic just to see if I can:'D

I didn't have much power in me to make it clean, but still!

If you interested in reading it, please check it out, I'm rereading it after two years and it's incredible!!

[noodles-and-tea]

For the twins in time AU, I genuinely wonder what kind of people the young twins grow up into because of Stan’s/Ford’s influence. Especially if it takes years for the portal to get fixed.

(Sorry if it seems like I already sent this question, I don’t know if it got sent the first time I asked)

I haven’t fully fleshed out how Ford grows up in the past but I do have thoughts on Stan presently

[inkzectz]

Californica // frenrey

song: californica - la gusana ciega

órale 🍷

[komputercom]

will i ever not make a benrey centered post

[gal-o-guacamole]

my stupid late contribution for both hlvrai and tf2 fandoms

+ bonus side B (i have no energy left in me to finish this one so.... b&w)

+ original reference: ft2 ost album

[kwonkissed]

college!wonwoo who gets sick on campus one time and immediately develops a crush on the student nurse that assisted him at the health clinic.

you’re sweet and kind (like all nurses should be), but you’re also really chatty. talking about your humanities course and the readings you have that week. and wonwoo, being so whipped, just nods along thinking, “maybe I should read up on this sartre guy…”

when he leaves, he already misses the conversation. but he shakes it off. they’re cute and they’ve done your job, he thinks. now it’s time for him to get over it. except he doesn’t. because a few days later he finds himself back in the health clinic with an “earache”.

and he prays that you’re the one that attends to him that day, because if not, this would be really embarrassing. but it is you who opens the door to his room, a bit shocked that this cute boy has returned.

“hello, i’m— oh, it’s you. back so soon,” you quip, sanitizing your hands and walking over to him. “still having symptoms of your cold?”

“uh, no actually. something different. it’s,” he clears his throat. he’s never been a good liar. “um, it’s my ear this time.”

“hm, alright then,” you say with a smile. “i’ll get your vitals and check your chart, and then the doctor should be in shortly.” wonwoo nodded. you put the blood pressure cuff on his arm. your fingers dance across his bicep as you fit it around him, and he tries to will his racing heart to stop beating so hard — it’s going to give him away.

“everything looks good on my end,” you say as you flip through his paperwork. “it might be a minute, but a doctor will be in here. holler if you need me.” you give him a warm smile and turn to exit the room. ah, screw it.

“hey, I don’t know if this is too forward, but could i take you out sometime? or walk to you home? something?” wonwoo’s words spill out of him like a dam’s been broken. your eyebrows have shot you up your forehead, and wonwoo braces for this inevitable rejection.

you giggle. you’re giggling at him. wonwoo doesn’t know if this is worse than there being no response at all.

“aw, you’re cute,” you say, taking a step toward him. you bite your lip and look down at your watch. “i get off at two,” you whisper. a heat creeps up wonwoo’s face and it only makes you giggle more. god, he’d love to hear that sound forever.

“it’s a date then,” he says grinning. you beam back at him and close the door.

wonwoo’s so excited about seeing you later that when the doctor comes in for his appointment, he forgets which ear was supposed to be hurting.

[theambitiouswoman]

Cognitive Techniques To Change Your Thoughts ✨✨

Cognitive techniques are strategies used in cognitive therapy to help you identify and change negative thoughts and beliefs. These techniques should be practiced regularly so that they become habits.

Cognitive Restructuring: This involves identifying and challenging negative or irrational thoughts and replacing them with more positive or rational beliefs.

Thought Stopping: When you notice a negative thought entering your mind, you can mentally shout "Stop!" This interrupts the thought process and gives you a chance to replace the negative thought with a positive one.

Mindfulness and Meditation: These practices help you become more aware of your thoughts and feelings in the present moment. When you observe your thoughts without judgment, you gain insight into negative patterns and choose to let them go.

Journaling: Writing down your thoughts can help you process and analyze them. With time you can identify patterns and work on changing negative thought cycles.

Positive Affirmations: Repeating positive statements can help counteract negative self talk and reinforce positive beliefs about yourself.

Evidence Collection: When faced with a negative belief, ask yourself, "What evidence do I have that supports or refutes this thought?" This can help you see things in a more balanced way.

Decatastrophizing: If you tend to imagine the worst scenario, ask yourself how likely it is to happen and what other possible outcomes there might be. This can help you view situations more realistically.

Labeling: Instead of saying "I am a failure," label the thought as "a negative thought about my abilities."

Distraction: Engaging in an activity or hobby can divert your attention from negative thoughts and give your mind a break.

Scheduling Worry Time: Instead of ruminating on worries throughout the day, set aside a specific time to process them. This can prevent constant worry and allow you to focus on other tasks.

Challenging Cognitive Distortions: Recognize and challenge cognitive distortions like black-and-white thinking, overgeneralization, and personalization.

Visual Imagery: Visualize a place or situation where you feel calm and happy. This can help shift your focus from negative thoughts.

These are very simple descriptions and examples of cognitive techniques. I listed the ones we can put into practice on our own. There are more in depth methods and practices used by doctors on different fields of study and practice. I can list, as well as add upon the information listed here.

[persianprincess9999]

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part 1 part 2 [ extra: 1 & 2 ]

did i mention noodle bites alot (he loves me i swear)

[w03]

6/25/21 science team piece for the hlvrai year one zine

[kilgarraara]

I made an animatic!!

This is an homage to Human Resources Violation fanfic by the amazing @kogo-dogo!!

This story has me hyperfixating again, so I wanted to put some of my love into this, I really hope you enjoy it!! :D

[saintaviator]

lineup fer an AU I've been slowly rotating in my head for a month or so.... sniles....

[BETTER LINEUP & FULL AU EXPLANATION HERE !!!!]

[pealooza]

???? ? stuff

[rockiithium]