#sees people doing literally anything like haha wow i wish i could do that

[ghostlypawn]

every day i wake up and am confronted with the fact that i will never be normal

[misc-obeyme]

Re: the earlygame beef between Mammon and MC. I always find it so funny whenever I see the (abundantly common, entirely typical) "Mammon has been there for us since day one! Our first man! Mammon is the only brother who never threatened to kill us or try to hurt us!" posts. Because it's just...so incredibly obvious how wrong they are? I have to assume that the people making those posts either literally never played the actual game at all, or they played with their eyes closed. Or perhaps they don't know how to read.

Because the game was literally shoving the fact that Mammon hates your guts and wishes you were dead in your face for like 2 or 3 Lessons straight. On day one when he first meets you? He can't stand your ass. He wants you gone. All the way up until you make a pact with him, and even for a little while AFTER making a pact, Mammon actively despises you and tells you so himself. And then multiple other characters (including Diavolo, Barbatos, and Lucifer) ALSO come along and give you extremely obvious exposition like "wow, it's Mammon's job to watch over you and protect you in this hostile new environment? And he abandoned you the first chance he got, leaving you to the wolves? Haha, classic Mammon. Of course he abandoned you to get eaten by other demons, what a goofy guy"

And YOU LITERALLY ARE ALMOST EATEN BY DEMONS. BECAUSE MAMMON DIDN'T GAF ABOUT DOING HIS JOB AND DITCHED YOUR ASS. The manga goes into more detail about it too, showing that you literally came to harm because Mammon abandoned you when he was supposed to keep you safe. And later on when you call Mammon out, he threatens to kill you and eat you. To your face. He literally does that.

Idk, it's just crazy to me how badly people can mischaracterize these things. I know that Mammon is the fandom baby or w/e but Mammon fans in particular love to rewrite history and infantilize him as this sweet innocent woobie who never did anything wrong. "Mammon is the only brother who never wanted to kill us!" you're literally lying, lol. He threatens to kill you and eat you to your face. "Mammon loved us from the very beginning!" No he didn't, he repeatedly told you that he hated you lmao.

This happens with other characters too, yeah. People include Beel as part of the "never tried to hurt us" group even though he absolutely DID try to hurt us when Mammon physically force-fed us his custard (another thing Mammon did to deliberately harm us) Also Satan gets thrown in the "one of the bad ones who tried to hurt us" camp, despite never actually doing anything to us. He gets angry and goes on an edgy little rant, but if you actually know how to read you'll notice that he doesn't ever actually DO anything to harm us or try to kill us. He never makes any kind of move to actually harm us, but everyone assumes he does? Wild. But Mammon gets this the worst for some reason.

I could go into a whole entire separate spiel about how the Mammon infantilization also applies to the "everyone bullies him for no reason even though he's literally an innocent pure baby who never did anything wrong ever" but I'm just gonna double the length of this already long rant. What's crazy is I don't even dislike Mammon, he's cool. But oh my god some Mammon fans can be absolutely fucking insufferable 😭

Woobie 😭 I'm sorry, I know there's like paragraphs happening here but that word sent me lol.

I'm gonna level with you here, anon. This kinda thing just does not bother me in the slightest. I mean it doesn't matter to me if people mischaracterize or rewrite the story to fit their preferences. If it makes them happy, then they can go ahead and live their truth.

I think I probably land somewhere in between on the Mammon characterization scale, mostly because I like when he's a lil pathetic~

Anyway, if you want me to get into the nitty gritty of how I characterize Mammon, I can certainly do that. But I kinda get the vibe that you just needed to rant a bit. And that's okay, my ask box is always open for ranting or rambling or anything else!

[angelismmm]

bff head empty but

IL dan heng and dan heng teaming up against you 🤭🤭

୨ ୧ pairing. dan heng il + dan heng x gn!reader

୨ ୧ synopsis. 3some, thats it, i kinda discuss their kinks seperately too

୨ ୧ a/n: i rmeebebe talking abt tis before and how bad i wanted to write ab them just being in a 3some w reader bc 💔💔 update 4-5 days later: wow holy shit idk what possessed me but im writing it now

୨ ୧ warnings. breeding, creampie, 3some, 2 dick dan heng il, sex basically ><, when i say 'hole' in this instance, just take it as like the ass hole, thank you

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）dan heng il

kind of a meanie honestly.. like sure he's sweet and intimate in the moment but he's quite rough. probably makes you ride his thigh if you smiled at someone else too much

orgasm denial: he probably loves to edge you, the way you just beg him to finish you up already has him as hard as a rock again!!

overstimulates you just to see your pretty little expression go cross-eyed!! i've probably made it kind of clear he likes it when you beg, but please beg him for more and he'll go wild

like i said, he loves it when you beg, something just turns him all the way up when you start to plead for him to go slower, he will go faster, no warning no nothing, just hunger in his eyes

praise kink (giving): he just can't help but praise you when you really are doing so good! the way your hole just clenches around him, not even letting him out, he just knows his good pet wants some more loads inside them!

i just know his tongue is LOOOONG. and he abuses the HELL out of that fact. like when he eats/sucks you off he just knows all the right spots.

unlike dan heng, dan heng il whines a ton, maybe higher pitched moans, but you know, but i just know bro is loud.

back to overstimulation thought train, he would make you cum over and over again 'till tears come out your pretty eyes! probably loves it so much, it's not that when you cry out of stress he gets turned on yk, but when you cry because one of his dicks treat you so good you start to sob your eyes out?! now that! is what turns him on.

literally loves it when you both are done, like he just came another load into you, loves seeing you just so shaken up, just wants you to make you so sensitive a single touch could make you cream on his cock

"oh fuck— you're doing so good for me honey.." he said, lightly grabbing your head farther down his shaft, while your other hand stroked his second cock, precum already dripping down to the floor. he couldn't help but let praise slip past his lips, it's been maybe an hour? roughly 2 sure. he loved the way your pretty head bobbed up and down, taking all of him in, ahh he just loves you so much! might as well reward your pretty mouth with his seed<3

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）dan heng

probably more on the soft side! would rather die than ever hurt you!!

is all about body worship ngl.. like he'd say that your body is his kink, just everything about it yk?!?!

tbh dan heng just that kind of guy to not really use sex/intimacy as a way to take out his anger on you BUT when he starts to use his mouth on you it's a different story. like he'd suck/eat you out like he hasn't ate anything in DAYSSSS.

dan heng just that kind of guy to praise the hell out of you as well!! literally just wants to tell you how good you've been for him, taking all of him in, just goes crazy for it!!

his moans are angelic as FUCK. like i wish i could say more, if i could i would, but hearing them is like a blessing from heaven itself.

lives for skin-to-skin contact, ngl!!!!!! will kiss you anywhere and everywhere his lips can reach, moans your name so angelically too

his hands will be wandering everywhere too haha, oh but he seriously loves putting hickeys on your precious neck, especially in the most exposed spots that he knows other people will see. but he would never call the pretty marks on your neck hickeys, he'd say they're more like.. love bites!

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）dan heng il + dan heng :0

it's like having 2 softies being a bit mean too. cuz damn 3 dicks is alot!

and i have 3 holes

and oh boy are you in for a lot.

but first off, let's talk about aftercare! aftercare is important to both of them, they both wanna make sure you're okay yk?!?! constant praise from the both of them too cuz not everyone can take in 3 dicks fr!!!

oh but you guys go on and on and on, like before you guys move on to another round, again, they'll ask if you're still up for it cuz they aren't that mean!! but if you say you are they'll really give you another round, and i mean a really harsh another round.

please please. they both love it when you pull their hair, it's just like, a mutual thing between them. especially when dan heng il is the one doing wonders with that tongue of his.

just mess dan heng's hair up, like um, just make his hair absolutely messy, and he'd fall to his knees and be yours

tbh dan heng probably never expected to threesome with the love of his life, and him..self? idk, just think lik they're 2 diff people for the sake of this fanfic.

dan heng il was so busy with your hole just clenching around his cock, just putting you into a mating press just to see the white circle around his shaft when he pulls out, every now and then, you make eye contact with the cutie across the room on the edge of the bed stroking his cock to the sight of.. i guess himself in a dragon-human form going down on you? well, it doesn't help all that much looking at your boyfriend dan heng for 'help', dan heng il got your hands held down by his tail :P

not rly tagteaming ish, but id rather it be like this than reader getting pounding every way possible

[devotedbutterfly]

bruh like i saw people online being like “i dislike huayin” and proceeding to like fenglian. and im sitting here like “okkkk and your arguments to hating huayin also apply to fenglian” it’s stupid honestly

ppl really wake up and think “wow polyamory doesn’t exist and i NEED TO HATE ON THIS HARMLESS SHIP and be a hypocrite” like ?????? i myself don’t really care abt huayin(as in it doesn’t give me. dopamine particles but i like qijiu and liujiu. if that counts???) but like do you really feel the need to be an asshole for no fucking reason? literally only posting here online since if i talked about this in the discord server people would probably want my head on a spike

it’s stupid that i have to fear backlash and hatred for TALKING about a ship with two FICTIONAL. FICTIONAL. THEYRE WORDS ON A PAGE. MADE UP characters.

this cool thing called polyamory exists! like im sitting here like. he can love yin yu. AND love xie lian. “huayin wouldn’t make sense cuz he waited 800 years for xie lian” well MAYBE he can also live yin yu AND xie lian??? shocker

sighhhh these people would have qi deviations if they entered the svsss fandom. wish they could do maybe they’d realize that “wow! maybe talking about your dislike and hatred of a harmless ship and demonizing the people who ship that is bad! and immoral! and very assholey and rude!” but alas.

tldr don’t be assholes when you see any ship that has a character that is canonically in a relationship polyamory exists and don’t fight over not liking a (normal, legal)ship over fictional characters

very very real - I’ve thought the same things lol - it doesn’t make sense how ppl r very okay w ships in one fandom of mxtx’s novels but suddenly it’s disrespectful in the others…? Like you don’t see this much hate for other ships w bingqiu as much as you do for hualian (idk anything abt mdzs or the fandom so idk what shipping is like over there but from what I heard from mutuals I assume it’s not that great either lol) thankfully nowadays I’m seeing more tolerance towards shipping Xie Lian w other characters but even then SOME ( NOT all ) of them still turn around and spew hate to other ships w Hua Cheng…? Which..doesn’t make sense…?

Idk the thing that bothers me the most is getting a lotta comments w ppl who have a very big prejudice against polyamory ppl ..I assumed a danmei fandom ,, yknow since it’s a queer book series - the fans would be open minded and stuffff UHHHH but I guess not HSHS - like yesterday I got another comment saying that I was making them hate polyamorous ppl 💀 like ,,, maybe u were never that much of an ally to begin w if all it takes to hate a whole group of ppl is Huayin art .. ? idk man 💀 but uh yah hypocrisy and polyphobia in the mxtx fandoms is very uh.. interesting and fun to deal w first hand 👍👍👍 YAYYY (get me out of here HAHA)

[salemcantupdate]

So this is my updated shipping and favorites perspective, given my prior one I no longer agree with.

First things first, I believe in big polycule ship, everyone is together and dating. (Sobs in that’s not the case).

But! My favorite ships that isn’t just massive polycule (preface I am a multishipper):

Gale and Astarion, aka, Bloodweave. Listen, it’s all big now, we all know about it. Opposites but the same, walking the same path, they can make each other so much worse or so much better. Hubris vs self preservation, both essentially having the possibility to become a god. Both have been beaten down and belittled by beings far more powerful than them, one knowing the abuse and the other not. Also the manipulative hatefuck to love would be incredible.

Lae’zel and Shadowheart, aka Silverheart. Classic enemies to rivals to lovers. Both have been mislead and brainwashed by evil female goddesses that demanded total obedience, that both people completely dedicated themselves to until they realized everything they knew was a lie. Whats more romantic than fighting and getting bloody and then fighting over who tops?

Wyll and Karlach, (I don’t know their ship name, may I suggest Devilbound?) is one that I’m still kinda iffy about honestly. I’m not sure if I can see them as explicitly dating, but I can see them being best buddies who fuck sometimes. I can see them making a deal like “If neither of us are married in a decade let’s just marry each other.” Like they aren’t actively in love or awed by each other but there is deep respect and they would fight and die for each other. And I also headcanon that if you romance Karlach and then go to Avernus with her, Wyll HAS to join and it’s gone be a weird little polycule thing I don’t CARE.

So, another thing. I really really like a threesome of Karlach, Lae’zel, and Shadowheart. The Ladies. But like, Lae’zel and Shadowheart both immediately love Karlach. Lae’zel being like “You WILL respect her” and Shadowheart like “She could carry me to safety.” Are they not blatantly simping??? Like I think they would hatefuck and then stare at Karlach and be like “We need her too.” Two scary women and then the golden retriever girlfriend.

Wyll and Astarion isn’t one that really calls to me, though I get the appeal. Monster and monster hunter, Wyll being the hero that Astarion always dreamed of saving him so long ago. So on and so forth. I just prefer a Redeemed Durge playing that role for Astarion?? But I definitely get the appeal.

Wyll and Gale, I haven’t seen anything for. I don’t know if anyone ships them. But listen, these two would try and one up each other in wowing and wooing the other, Gale with the weave and Wyll with the stories of old. Imagine Wyll trying to get old and out-of-shape Gale to dance in his physical body. They are both 100% into worshipping their partner, so them worshipping each other would just be so cute to me.

Now, this one really surprised me. But I really like Karlach and Astarion??? Like, cause, OK. If you romance Astarion as Karlach, you can’t actually have sex with him in his first romance scene cause it’ll burn him. This causes Astarion to panic, immediately forced him out of his comfort zone, and also ensures a route in which you never have to have sex with Astarion??? Which I know I wish I could do in a normal route! So lowkey adore those two. Also, they’re literally black cat and golden retriever??? Someone who literally went through Hell and lost all bodily autonomy for so long but still laughs and smiles and has so much hope compared to someone who was beaten to hopelessness. It’s cute! But I also ship this in specifically the asexual way. They kiss and cuddle and bump heads and are adorable, but I can’t really see them having sex. That’s just me though haha.

Durge and Gortash obviously fucked and were so in love with each other in such a horrible twisted way. If Gortash ordered it, Durge would stay their hand. Durge prayed for forgiveness, begged for it, promised, swore, vowed that he would still kill everyone, kill all. But he was in love, he was obsessed, and Gortash may have been able to pull Durge from Bhaal’s grasp, only for Gortash himself to fall to the depths of depravity. I need more fucked up fics for these, with all the gore dirt and blood. I want it to be like the movie Hellraiser.

Durge and Astarion is by far my favorite for “canon” routes. It’s just, Astarion doesn’t feel like he’s a damsel in distress being saved, he doesn’t want that. He wants to be your equal, he wants to help you, and as Durge you are able to save each other from the hunger, from the urge, from the “monster”, from the Father. Both were created to be a tool, to be used, for a singular purpose to serve. And both break free, and then have the choice. Shall they become what they were made to be? What they are destined to be? Or take a shit on destiny and be truly happy?

Now for bear-daddy Halsin. He’s more difficult, as his story isn’t fully explored in the plot of the game and he was mostly added as a proper companion because he was so popular. Which I’m extremely happy about cause I fucking love him. But! Due to this, it’s hard for me to ship him with anyone. I’ve seen some people argue for Kagha or Rath, but I personally disagree. I do like Astarion and him, or a poly with him, Astarion, and Redeemed Durge. Fighting the “beast within” and all that, Halsin in the more metaphorical sense. BUT, let me offer something up as an idea, a concept if you will. Gale and Halsin. NOW, now, let me explain. This isn’t JUST them being my two favorite romance options and me being sad I can’t be with them both. But! Both were young men suddenly thrust upon with a massive amount of responsibility and faith put in them; Halsin becoming a commander and archdruid as an apprentice during the war against Ketheric, Gale with being chosen by Mystra, taught by her, and then becoming her romantic partner. A literal goddess. And I’m one of the people who headcanon that their interactions started when Gale was a teenager. Gale both believes he is the best and deserves to die, Halsin has never once believed in his ability to lead. Also Halsin explicitly notes he will miss the library at the grove, and GUESS WHAT GALE HAS? A library. But like, imagine Gale making a magic teleportation circle thing that goes from his tower to the middle of the forest with a little cabin that Halsin lives in and they can easily travel and visit each other and fbskfhwkfjw. Also, both of them having weird sex scenes (that I absolutely adore). Gale with astral projection and Halsin with bear. I bet Gale is one of the few companions who’d be like “Oh you’re a bear? Chill, not the weirdest sexual experience I’ve had.” Halsin would also smile and nod along and sip tea and Gale goes on his long long rant and then— gah it could be so cute. Cottagecore meets academia. I’m gonna call their ship name CottageAcademia. I will take criticism on that name. I’m dumb.

Speaking of, if I failed to mention, Halsin and Gale are my absolute favorite romance options. Gale makes me giddy every single play through and I break my heart every time I have to say no to him for a different romance (like Astarion). He’s just… I find him so charming and cute and I love him and I GAJDHAKSHQK.

Anyways, npc involved ships. (Also I can’t say anything about Minthara cause I literally don’t know her, never played evil route)

Karlach and Dammon is cute, but, eh? I don’t get much from it personally. I think Karlach and Alfira would be cuter.

A fucked up ship that I like is Astarion and Raphael. It… yes, I know, it’s terrible, it’s abusive. But it’s juicy, it’s delicious, the best of the poisoned apples. There’s a fic on AO3 that’s just fantastic even though it’s only got two chapters so far, it’s called Palmarosa by thespectaclesofthor

… The Emperor and Gale. LISTEEENNN, it’s just, Gale is the only one ok with mindflayer Tav. And like, Emperor is smart. It’d be funny. Come on.

Another fun fucked up ship that I haven’t seen much of, Minthara and Orin the Red. It’s bad, it’s terrible, it’s so fucked up, but I like it.

Barcus and Wulbren, no, I don’t think it’s healthy. But Barcus clearly loves Wulbren so damned much and I just want the poor stupid gnome to be happy godsdammit all.

Apikusis and Kagha. So, I don’t know if anyone else has spoken to the Druid Apikusis, but she is one of the few druids who is desperately against the rite. And when I spoke to her after, she said she saw the old Kagha in the woman, was desperate that what she saw was true. What if they were girlfriends? Then Kagha fell to the shadow druids, and now that they’re back they can fall back into love? I just see so much possibility in them!

Olly and Rugan got down and dirty after barely surviving the gnolls and I’ll put money on that.

Omeluum and Blurg, they just seem like science husbands. They’re married and I refuse to take criticism on this.

That’s all I can really think of, but for characters I’m just absolutely obsessed with: He Who Was and Abdirak are my favorite npc’s. Gale and Halsin are my favorite companions.

Now, my personal opinion on class/race Tav/Durge romance for each character.

Shadowheart: Selune Cleric for obvious reasons, race I don’t think super matters. But I do like Durge, connect on amnesia. Just figure out how cleric and a Durge works haha.

Lae’zel: Githyanki who defected from the gith and has been living peacefully in hiding until recently (so a class that gives peaceful options) Tav

Astarion: Redeemed Durge, any race any class. I’m personally doing a Drow Spore Druid. But a paladin or cleric could also be super cute.

Gale: Wild Sorcerer / Bard, and I personally prefer gnome? But any race is still fine. Also Tav or Durge work fine to me, he’s gonna be a big simp. Though, I do personally like the idea of you becoming the mindflayer in this route. He would use magic to disguise you and it’d be cute

Wyll: Tiefling Bard… I know it’s the first that’s so specific but come on. He becomes a devil, he loves stories of old, y’all dance together. I think it’s cute. I also prefer Tav here, I just can’t see a circumstance where he looks past the murder of Alfira to romance a Durge.

Karlach: Honestly she’s the one I’m least sure over, other than I like being smaller for her. I also like the idea of a paladin / bard for her?

Halsin: Literally anyone and anything as long as you’re down to fuck a bear.

These are all just my own opinion, added it cause I know sometimes I wanna see what other people think is the best “romance route” for a character.

But that’s the closing! These perspectives might change again, but for now this is my thoughts on everything shipping and romance related (that isn’t explicitly canon).

[cosmicjoke]

Is it OK to ask you questions about your fics? Your portrayal of different mental illnesses is SO SO good. You incorporate these little details that I’ve never seen other writers include like the way Levi’s sexual abuse makes him feel literally deformed and how it goes beyond him seeing himself as unattractive and how Levi’s OCD is as much about the intrusive thoughts as it is about the compulsions and how Levi takes the thoughts as proof he’s bad. I don’t have an ED but my twin sister had anorexia and the way Levi acts is -eerily similar- to how she would act in the middle of her illness down to the little rituals and how she would describe the feeling of fat on her body and how she would take any mention of her needing to put on weight as other people trying to make her “fatter”. And my sister would also actually throw the food others would try to get her to eat. I wanted to know what inspired you to tackle these subjects and if you were willing to share, how you know so much about this material. Seriously I’ve never seen a better portrayal of these things. The amount of research is -incredible-. Also as a linguistics fan, your focus on how Levi’s environment influenced his language is ON POINT.

First of all, of course, you can ask me anything you want! And second, wow, I'm honestly blown away by your kind words. I can't tell you how much they mean to me, to know how much you appreciate and enjoy my story, and the research that's gone into it.

To answer your question, I wish I could take all the credit for the accuracy of my depictions of Levi's various issues in my story, but I actually have a friend, @scarletskiesinthepaths, who's been really helping me out there. Honestly, without her input and sharing her own experiences, I never could have gotten anywhere close to as accurate a portrayal as I have in "This Life, After". I'm hugely indebted to her for allowing me to really do a lot of these topics justice and avoid any sort of offensive or insensitive moments, at least hopefully, haha. So yeah, any sort of realism, particularly with regards to Levi's medical issues, really comes down to her helping me. But I'm so glad the story has managed to reach you and you see some of your own experiences with your sister reflected in it. I always think that's the greatest compliment a writer can receive, is to know that the issues they tackle in their work particularly touch those affected by those issues in real life.

In terms of what inspired me, I just like tackling dark subject matter in general, so I always kind of gravitate toward issues like the ones I have Levi dealing with in my story, whether that's child abuse or serious medical conditions, etc... I also think Levi's life post-canon is ripe for exploration, and I initially set out with this story just to write something exploring what Levi's life post-canon would be like, particularly with him having gone from being "Humanity's Strongest Soldier" to being disabled and needing a wheelchair. I find that particular aspect of Levi's character very interesting to think about. And it just sort of grew from there, and I ended up giving Levi a lot more issues than I originally planned, lol. It just sort of took on a life of its own.

Also, thank you so much for your kind words regarding Levi's dialect in my story, haha. I really enjoy writing the sections from Levi's POV in particular, for that reason. I'm glad it feels genuine and not forced or affected in some way to you. It just makes sense to me that Levi would speak with a fairly heavy dialect, given the type of upbringing he had, etc...

Anyway, thank you so much! I really appreciate it, again, and if you have any more questions, feel free to ask!

[artsybug0]

Hi Bug again! I really want to know more about RF Millie, I just love her. I don't know if there was an answer to this question or not, but .. How did Millie lose her wings in the factory? What is her relationship with RF Wally? And what is its main task at the factory? Thanks in advance for your answers! ✨

She lost her wings before she even started working in the factory! I’m not sure how yet though since it is a new detail but I’m thinking either an accident, a result of abuse or bullying, or self harm.

She loves Wally a lot. Though it could be seen as an unhealthy obsession with him. Since her accident she’s been extremely lonely and depressed. No one visited her in the hospital except her boss, Wally. Now before then they didn’t talk much at all but I’m thinking he felt guilty about her getting caught in the explosion and wanted to make sure she isn’t like dead lol. It was a simple gesture but that got her hooked.

Soon she became his assistant! Though she does a lot more then her job requires her to do! She’s extremely loyal and dedicated to Wally. There is literally NOTHING you can do to make her betray him. She would murder for this man, she would kill herself if he asked. She would allow him to test dangerous chemicals on her if that is what he wishes. She doesn’t have anything or anyone but him.

She doesn’t have friends. She doesn’t have a family. Her parents murder happened later so she would of been around 14 when it happened. And no one wants to adopt a teenager..

All she has, is Wally.

Which does cause a little bit of trouble when it comes to Julie-

Millie has a love hate relationship with Julie, but mostly hate.

Millie admires Julie’s beauty and kindness.

But she also hates her for it. She hates people who have what she doesn’t.

Friends

Family

Beauty

Before her accident she was VERY pretty but ever since she’s been ignored and teased about her scars. No one is allowed to see them, she panics at the idea of Wally seeing them too..

She hates that Julie is Wally’s ex wife and she hates that they still love each other. She does everything for Wally, the reason why she’s unhealthily skinny and so exhausted all the time is because she’s always working and doesn’t stop to take care of herself. Hence why she passes out randomly. Wally doesn’t know this though.

She hates that Julie still wears their wedding ring even though she was the one to divorce him

But she doesn’t do anything about it! She just can’t! She admires Julie too much to want to hurt her, and she knows she would lose Wally if she tried.

If anything, she wants to be Julie. She wants to be the beautiful kindhearted woman that Wally loves.

Im pretty sure the canon ending for Rainbow Factory Au is that Wally and Julie remarry after the revival of their daughter.

And I do like to work with the canon story.

So I think, sadly, Millie would never get Wally.

Or even Howdy because he’s married too lol-

I guess RF Millie is just, destined to be alone. ^^

Haha! Wow I just dumped so much on y’all! I hope this was interesting!

[gltownsend]

Hello hello! This is the writeblr library's librarian with some questions. You can choose to do question one, question two, or both! (and there's no time limit btw <3) Have fun!

~will be reblogged onto the writeblr library~

What inspired your WIP? Was it another piece of media? Multiple pieces of media? A certain genre? Tropes? Parts of your life? A hyper-specific random thing

What environment gives you the best ideas for your WIP? Do you have a playlist? Do you go for a walk? Do you get ideas at 3am and have to write them down NOW otherwise they disappear? Do you write anywhere and anywhere? What gets you in the mood to write?

Hi!! (and thank you!)

1- wow I actually don’t remember! While it’s changed entirely all ship of Theseus-like, I’m pretty sure I actually came up with the original plot of this WIP when I was 11-13 years old (god. So I entered and will exit my teenage years with it). (I put it under the cut if anyone’s curious, haha. It’s very different.)

And 2- I actually really don’t get ideas unless I make room for them. I really have to sit down and write out everything that’s happened up until this point and then write out everything that COULD happen brainstorm and choose. I don’t really get inspiration naturally 🤷‍♂️ it’s all forced, lol. I WISH I was the type of person who got ideas from walking or music or stuff so they didn’t seem so forced sometimes, but I suppose consistency is good too.

Thank you for the ask!! Cool idea and yeah just… thank you >:]

Since it was so long ago I have no clue where I came up with it, but I still remember the super basic idea; a young teenage boy from the normal world gets caught in a forest fire, dies? and wakes up in a high fantasy world (no I’d LITERALLY NEVER read or even heard of a portal fantasy, this was my original idea and I was gutted when I found out it was an already established thing) in a kingdom where royals and nebulously Important People have the power to control fire. He gets sort of taken-in-stray-cat-adopted by the similarly aged not-in-line (so not very important) prince who does have the power. Because he just appeared and has no abilities and no life here.

They’re trying to work out how to get him home when he suddenly starts (oh no!!) making sparks and stuff but he hides it because (Oh No!!) he’s in love with the prince (or something idk I was like 12.) Somehow some confrontation exposes fully fledged fire powers like only a master from this world should have and for some reason this makes the king super flip out. He and the prince flee. It ends there.

- My current plot, in contrast, has a (different) older teenage guy (closer to my age now) as the main character but it doesn’t really start with him. I don’t want to describe it too deeply but the main characters all attend a sort of community boarding school because they live in a society where education and knowledge and ability are really highly valued, more than really any material or object or anything?

(So basically not because they’re rich or important, it’s normal, and the boarding aspect is because everyone lives very communally in general, and higher education doesn’t really exist because of the level of societal development. So this is the only stage in life where they get any real independence from their parents, because as adults usually people return and live in family groups again so this is how they learn to be self sufficient away from parents, I suppose?)

Anyway there is a younger kid about 10 in the junior school who is having weird stuff happen to him and it’s sort of related to the ghosts, which are a normal aspect of the world which is where time is wearing kind of thin and you can see echoes of people from the past or future through, and something happens that makes main character, friend group, and child need to leave school to try to work out what’s happening.

There is a bunch of weird time stuff in the middle like things happening and unhappening, and time loops but short, and it’s got the same sort of beats because it’s overall a sort of coming-of-age romance between main character and his best friend, and it was originally an adventure romance between main character and new wow prince.

…there were a bunch of middle iterations between this with the characters from current iteration in the current world but with a similar plot to original story (basically some people have fire powers, some people have healing powers, main character is supposed to have healing powers but then he randomly has fire too, this makes people flip out, he runs away with love interest (roommate) and then I never knew what happened after that…) but this final iteration is the first one to have an ending.

In 2019 it briefly went through a real-world (not fantasy) post-apocalyptic phase in the aftermath of a plague where they had been on a school trip on one side of America (a distant and exotic place!) when everyone had died or become evil and now they were trying to get back home in a stolen van when none of them could drive because they were underage teens. So road trip across America to the other side after plague. Scrapped shortly before Covid, actually.

[alltheanonymousmusings]

I finished my 1st playthrough of Veilguard and I definitely have thoughts. If you are still actively avoiding spoilers until you finish your game, do not interact. While there are no plot spoilers, I don't want anything in the post to potentially spoil something for you.

The Good:

I really enjoyed the game overall. Will definitely be playing multiple times, hopefully finding something new the next couple times. (I wasn't anywhere close to 100% this time around haha)

I love that I can make Rook and absolute purple menace, and I also love that sometimes the companions will call you out on it if it bothers them. I used the not-american voice option for my female Rook, and the voice actor was absolutely delightful. They really nailed the inflection and timing for me.

I really like the return to a smaller world as compared to Inquisition, but it still feels large and expansive without being overwhelming. And no bears! Or spiders!

The Lighthouse is so much fun to watch change as your relationship with your companions grows. Harding's little greenhouse going from boarded up and empty to a literal overflowing garden is soooo cool. And Lucanis going from an empty pantry to a less empty pantry with a lamp. 💀 Man is a whole ass mood, I get it.

I literally cried. Like had to put the controller down and take some time, cried. (You know the part) And here's the thing, I LOVE when media makes me cry. I LOVE having my feelings put through a pasta sheeter. I LOVE having my feelings hurt in the only way Bioware can. And when I look back on the entirety of the game now, I just.....wow. Very very good.

I surprisingly (for me) really enjoyed the combat. It kept me really invested in what was happening, and instead of just bringing the same few people I always do- I had to actually think about who combos with who and what not- which I actually found fun. Though I do wish there was a feature when choosing your party that showed which abilities or who certain companions comboed best with depending on their abilities.

I really like how the inventory works. I did fight with the menu from time to time, but that's a user error and just getting used to what buttons do what.

I could probably write a dissertation on the character creator, but enough people have already. It's seriously the most comprehensive character creator I've ever used to date. I think there's a few things that could be tweaked, but not enough to make me feel it's not amazing.

I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE that you can choose an armor/weapon, but then set the appearance to something different. It seems silly to some, I'm sure, but I have had moments I've wanted to use a lower tier item because I absolutely hated the way the higher tier item looked. (I'm a visual person...not sorry)

BEING ABLE TO PAUSE CUTSCENES... as someone with a young kid, this is an absolute dream come true.

I love the campy dialogue. I love being a shithead to Solas. Some of it got a little cringe- but keeping within the dragon age charm we all know and love.

Auto saves at decision points is soooooo cool. Gone are the days of save scumming (to a degree). I love it so so much.

The Meh:

Sometimes the pacing gets a little weird, but that's kind of inevitable when you're playing a game with lots of little side quests like Dragon Age games usually have. I know a lot of people who played Inquisition didn't like the power system, but I found it really nice for getting a ton of side quests done and a large chunk of exploring out of the way.

Patch 1 dropped about halfway through my playthrough, but I did hit some weird respawn and mission bugs. I didn't go back to see if the patch had taken care of it or not, so we'll find out next playthrough. But I adored the new chest in the Lighthouse, and the nod to Mass Effect...that was so cute.

I know I just praised the character creator, but a few things: it does take a certain level of skill, and...if you lack skill...patience. I don't like the triangle sliders as much as I thought I would, but again...skill and patience. I know the more I practice with it, the better I'll get and the more I'll enjoy it. Also, in the character creator, I literally could not see the glitter anywhere, even when I turned the intensity up to 100% and made the glitter an obnoxious color. That could be something on my end, but I ended up always just using none and moving on.

For the amount of hair options they gave us, I still really struggled to find one I wanted. There are so many hairstyles where it's just a different length of the previous option, but of course not the one I wanted. (Also, a long- like chest length version of Antoine's hair would be so pretty... come on, bioware)

The Cons:

I need more companion moments. I need more romance scenes. I romanced Davrin for my first playthrough, and he's charming, he's flirty, but where's the spice? A huge selling point they gave us was how impactful and significant the connects we'd build with our team were, how deep the romances were, and how steamy and spicy the romances were. I'm not expecting (nor do I want) a full blown bedroom scene, but like...Davrin gave me half a shoulder rub and magically took my clothes off. Give me more buildup, more tension...something. I feel like they were so much more focused on the connections between the companions that the connection with the player fell to the wayside. The "dates" felt like filler, and the whole thing kind of felt like an afterthought. Seriously, bioware, if you need help writing romances, look to the fanfic community...we're going to be working overtime to satisfy a lot of missing content.

The lack of an epilogue other than the "where are they now" right before the credits is a HUGE bummer.

There are other thoughts, but they take a level of nuance to discuss that I don't think can be accomplished in this particular setting.

Overall, my opinions are overwhelmingly positive, and I'll definitely be doing a bunch of playthroughs. The game was so so enjoyable and I had a great time. I know the community will fill in the romance blanks with all the amazing art and fics. I'll also be writing up a storm...even in just the tiny bit of content I got I've fallen so hard for these characters.

Anyway, on to my next playthrough!!

[castlebyersafterdark]

I'm never gonna be in a situation where the person I'm sleeping with has that as a factor, if that's what you’re getting at. I did actually try to date a few girls when I was a teenager but, yikes. Never got very far hahaha. But it's not like women (and those who otherwise experience this) are so super mysterious. It's not secret knowledge. Moral of the story: I just know for a fact that many men are purposefully obtuse or immature. Sexism. All that. Simplifying the issue but for the purpose of this ask! 💁‍♂️

ok wow i'm gonna need some vintage vinny elaboration! this is sooo interesting

firstly - getting as personal as you wish or dont wish, can you elaborate on your teen experiences dating girls to give some context to mike?? any similarities aside from the superhero thing haha? or not, if we're speaking metaphorically. i mean, when s4 opened with mike boasting to dustin about how el 'literally saved the world twice', i was like... dude. that's literally guys just showing off their trophy girlfriend cos she's got big tits yet he doesnt know anything about who she is.

and secondly, men being purposefully obtuse and putting women on pedestals because of sexism? oh, if you have time pleaseeee elaborate on that too! sounds like you were amongst that perhaps before guys knew you were gay so they tried to get you to laugh along and you were just like... hahaha... ermmmm...

Oh gosh, not the vintage Vinny lore 🤣 High school me is so... I mean. We have to give our teenage selves some grace. We were all so young and stupid and naive and confused and it's not our fault! That's just life. And if you are still a teenager - stay strong, power through.

If you want context to explain Mike, my path wasn't quite similar, but I understand where he's coming from. Since this is the space I'm spending my time, just some anecdotes for comparison sake later. I think something to consider with Mike is that I really don't think he recognized his sexuality for what it is until we see him in season 4. This is the beginning stage of, hmm not acceptance because he's not accepting it, but recognition? Eddie. Not being able to tell El he loves her. His weird reaction to seeing Will again. Not being able to reach out to Will. Isolating himself through his off screen depression in between the seasons. He's going through it. Gay thoughts are one thing, behaviors we read as super gay as watchers of the show but for the character it's not apparent yet - the subconscious. Internalizing it. His journey is latent. But he's in it now. I think a part of him did want to have a girlfriend, he's supposed to want a girlfriend, and El - what a perfect girl to have by his side! He doesn't recognize Will for what he could be to him, even if his behavior can be read as a crush, esp in season 2. But he's young. He doesn't really know yet. Conformity and internalization are a hell of a beast. He's getting there. Tooth and nail.

Personal takes under the cut like always!!

Me? I wish I could explain how sexuality develops and how people know young while others don't. I cannot give that insight. When kids talked about crushes and stuff about girls, I knew I had to keep my damn mouth shut because I thought about boys. And I knew it was weird. I told myself, fine. Keep that secret. But you gotta think about girls, too. So I forced it. I never pursued a girl, but if some brave girl made it clear she liked me - yeah, I'd try it. Go on little dates. Kiss, make-out, but I just never really wanted more and I fucking knew why!! And kissing and making out were just really fun to do. But - I liked the company of girls. Girls are awesome!! But that was all.

It's brings it back to why I relate the most to Robin, which I've mentioned. I made a close friend in my junior year. She was so cool. If I was straight - I'd have wanted her to be my high school sweetheart. We were outsiders in our extended friend group because we hung out with the skater kids and stoners - but neither of us could skate! We were both such shit at it. So we stuck together. And she confessed a crush on me at one point. I couldn't break this girl's heart or pretend. So I came out to her. The only one who knew besides my sister. And she was sad but told me it made a lot of sense, which rocked me to hear, but we remained friends. Took her to prom actually. Senior year I ended up in a complicated fwb situation and I was in no way taking him to prom and I still feel like an asshole about it.

So. There's some lore!!! Being a teenager is so hard. Sexuality is a behemoth of confusion and the journey is winding. Give grace to your teenage self. What did any of us know? How do you navigate all that?

As for the "men being purposefully obtuse" comment - I remember now what I meant for it. It was less about the average man putting women on a pedestal and more about men being so purposefully backwards that the misogyny and sexism override any sense or logic. I meant like, how you read about some conservative senator making an inane comment about women's bodies, for example "if she didn't want to get pregnant she should have just controlled her body and not gotten pregnant" or that some guy said "why can't she just hold it and wait until later" about a woman having a period like a grown man saying that?! All the comments you see screenshot from idiot twitter threads. Come onnnn, men! I know how these things biologically work and I'm a cis gay man, why can't you straight men learn some basic facts about the people you want to date or just simply have sex with? I feel like a lot know, but they on purpose, refuse to portray themselves as anything but these ignorant brutes, hating women while desiring them. Do they really not know or is not knowing part of the image. "Can't let them know we understand women or else we can't keep on being dicks and saying it's impossible to understand women." Irritating!! Sorry for the rant hahaha

[lenteur]

hiii, my lovely. i'm so sorry for not speaking for a few days, christmas is really hard for me because of people close to me not being here and i was really down these last few days </3 but i'm okay, feeling a bit better <3 i hope you're okay :)

she's honestly the best, i'd be lost without her i think </3 you & your mum sound so so cute i want to hug both of you :(((

honestly, it never made any sense to me haha, and i'd never learn from my mistake, "oh i'll sleep early tonight," like, no you won't, future heather, how dare u lie

it's very very VERY obvious in ive right now, i think even people who don't stan ive can see the favouritism in that group. i love ive, i think their music is amazing and so so catchy. love dive is such a BOP but when they first started performing eleven live, the company/stylists were not putting all of the girls in the same outfits, like they were veeeery clearly putting wonyoung in other clothes to stand out more </3 even though they don't do it as much anymore, you can still see & feel how they favour her more than the other members (and that's not her fault at all). i just want those girls to have equal love <3

i feel like with seventeen you don't really see any kind of favouritism (unless there is and i'm blind). i do feel like lately they are loved all of the same (though i do wish people would love seungkwan more, he's the literal loml hi)

you are so sweet, thank you <3 i love u bruno give mal credit

i haven't watched any kdramas yet as i have been sticking to criminal minds.......of course. halfway through season ten now! i also rewatched wednesday.....again.......

speaking of kdramas, have you watched business proposal? it's on netflix and it's so so good <3 so funny as well.

i have a mental list of 98473 shows i said i was gonna watch but haven't seen any of them

despite the fact that i was nervous as heck throughout this whole event, you've been nothing but kind to me and i just *screams internally* you're precious 💖 also !!!! i will be happy to send cat photos whenever, if you need/want them, i will get off my lazy butt and take photos of toffee & luna for you <333

hi love 💞 it's ok :) i do understand how stressful/tiring the holiday season can be 💔 but at the same time, you don't have to apologize for anything. i appreciate you making continuous effort to come and talk to me 💗

i love that we both are lucky enough to have amazing moms! the way you describe your mom is super sweet and i'm so happy you have a strong bond with her 💓 my mom has officially invited you to our group hug 🫶 you can use that card whenever you feel sad/stressed/in need of a hug 💘

i can see what you mean with the wonyoung favouritism. i haven't followed ive that closely but i can still see how the company tends to put a little bit more effort in promoting her rather than other members. i hope the other girls get the same amount of love in the future 💕

consider yourself an influencer because you turned me into a boohive 💝 i'm on a roll today with my puns wow i mean you could talk about him better than me but one of the main reasons i like him is because even when i wasn't a carat, i knew how sweet he was with others. every single interaction with another idol, he was always funny/kind/welcoming. i've laughed so many times thanks to him so yeah, all in all, in seungkwan we trust 💟 i know he's basically the host of most (if not all) svt games but if he ever joined a variety show, he'll outshine everyone there 💓 not only is he funny, he's also super respectful of others so you know he makes fun of someone just for fun and not because he's a hater

the siren calls of wednesday are too strong for userhev i fear 💔 good luck with finishing criminal minds (with a rewatch of wednesday between each season of course hehe)

no i haven't had the time to watch business proposal :( i have seen a few scenes and it really seems like a good kdrama. and i've wanted to watch a kdrama with sejeong in it so it's the perfect opportunity to do so ^^

98473 shows seems like the number of shows i've also wanted to watch but still didn't begin lol

it makes me super happy to know i was able to make you comfortable during this event 💖 i try to make my blog a safe space for anyone, so that means i try to make every comfortable talking to me. i'm also very shy & awkward but i'm trying my best to make others feel welcome 🫶 so tysm for the big compliment <3

and please do share more toffee & luna pics 💟 my daughters (they're both girls right?) are so precious and beautiful and talented (at being cute and sleepy) 💝 what is there not to like about them?

[raplinesmoon]

wow how is it already the 21st of december? i’m plodding away on your gift but i don’t think i’ll have it to you before christmas day! i hope that’s ok haha. perhaps it can be like an extra little gift to brighten up that weird time between christmas and new years when all the other gifts have already been opened.

it was so much fun reading all your answers :) my sister literally named her first born my favourite name for a girl so i feel you man. to be fair, my niece is now three and i am nowhere near having children so like i get it! but still… haha

i love baking! i actually don’t like cooking at all but baking can be so fun and you end up with such yummy stuff :D you should totally pick it back up again. there’s always going to be someone better and someone worse. that doesn’t matter if you enjoy it :P (says me who can’t make myself do anything i’m not automatically good at on the first try lol)

i have a ‘hope right here’ sweatshirt and a ‘sweet night’ sweatshirt and i love them both so much - so cozy! i’m jealous of your everythinggoes one though, that sounds so cute!

how’s your secret santa gift going? working away? obviously you don’t have to tell me much for fear of giving away who you are writing for. are you able to share which idol you are writing for without giving it away? i’ll look forward to reading it :)

another question for good measure: what are you looking forward to in the new year? could be writing related or just life related…

- merry ❤️❤️

Hi Merry!!

Merry Christmas if you celebrate🎄❄️✨ sorry for answering this a few days late haha, I was enjoying some much needed rest!! The time in between Christmas and New Year’s is so awkward you’re right… it feels like saying goodbye to the holidays but then there’s another one on New Year’s 🙃

How were your Christmas celebrations? Did you do anything special with family?

Ahhh that’s so cute that you and your sister had the same little argument over baby names… I think my sister won though, and I probably need to start looking for other options if and whenever I do have kids!!

Also, after you sent this, I did actually make some treats! They were mostly no bake desserts for one of my coworkers who’s leaving in the New Year. And while I did almost cry because it didn’t turn out perfect, I reminded myself that not everything has to be for me to enjoy myself 💗

I so badly want a hope right here shirt!! Or idk if you’ve seen them but the hope world sneakers from Sugar Seoul are so 🔥🔥🔥 half the time I’m scared people will judge me for wearing them in public, but other times I think they’d think they’re super cool too!

My secret Santa gift is still in the planning stages, I tend to impulsively write things out when the pressure’s on, so we’ll see how it comes out! I want it to be nice and fluffy though, so hopefully my muse cooperates (if you check my master list you’ll know who I love to write for 😅)

As far as New Year’s wishes, I just really want to spend the next year happy and healthy!! 2022 was so up and down for me in terms of finishing dental school but also the mental stress of what it took to finish and then starting a new program and my physical health kind of took a nosedive too! I’d like to be able to do more in 2023 without limitations from my body… so here’s to health!!

[beesgav]

So... for the past few days I've been watching Steins;Gate.

I initially checked it out because. uh. truth be told it's because I thought one of the characters was cute, haha. As of my writing this I'm 9 episodes in and WOW I'm invested. Spoilers for those first 9 episodes up ahead, but I think I'm only just now getting really into the meat of the series so it shouldn't be anything major.

(before I get too deep into this, though, I have to confess - before fully committing to actually sitting down and watching it I read about half its TVT page, so unfortunately I did spoil myself on some pretty major things coming up. So I do have a bit more insight into why certain characters act the way they do than I really should, and I really wish I didn't bc I think it'd be more fun to learn naturally :P whoops.)

I also very vaguely remember seeing a chunk of the first episode at a convention years ago, so for the longest time my impression of Steins;Gate was "oh, that's the anime where they have a microwave that can turn bananas into gel" which is not an unfair impression to get. There's a lot of gel bananas in the first few episodes.

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On the whole I felt the show started a bit slowly, and I probably still would have felt that way if I'd gone into it completely blind. I don't think it's a bad thing because it allows the show to establish its central character relationships very strongly before it starts getting more action-oriented. It feels very day-to-day at first, with a lot of time spent on how the characters interact and the new characters they meet as they're slowly setting up the literal plot device of the phone microwave. It takes them around 6 episodes to build the time machine the series is known for and another 2 to fully figure out how it works, and while I absolutely wouldn't've sacrificed anything they did spend that time on for the sake of getting to that point faster, I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a point where I was starting to wonder when they were going to start time traveling. Again, could be a side effect of "I know these beats are going to happen, I just don't know when" and I should've gone in totally blind, but...

I want to say here that I'm not the biggest fan of the show's color palettes, especially for outdoor scenes- I think I get what it's going for and it certainly conveys a mood, it just personally isn't my thing. Not really relevant, but wanted to get it out of the way early on.

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I was not expecting to like Okabe as much as I do. Going in I honestly thought his design was pretty boring, which I mean. The mundanity of the characters and the world is kind of the point, but still.

and then he turned out to be Weird and oh no I really like watching him and how he interacts with people. He has this elaborate spy-fiction fantasy that the people around him just kind of have to either adapt to, indulge in, or just put up with. He's rude and standoffish and proud but he's dealing with interesting enough things that people (Makise) have no choice but to continue interacting with him, which slowly gives them insight into his true personality.

Later on it becomes clearer that these fantasies pretty much act as a coping mechanism for the fact Okabe doesn't really know how to let people get close to him, as well as to fulfill a deep-seated desire to feel important and like he has control over things- he'll brush off moments of emotional vulnerability or honesty by acting like it was all part of a grand plan, or deal with moments of uncertainty or when he feels like he's losing control of a situation by making himself feel like it's an outside threat he has to overcome. People have forced him to give up the act by just. not giving him what he wants until he's honest, and it's clear that this makes him feel like the narrative is being taken out of his hands, which he obviously dislikes. If I were to guess I'm assuming his main character growth arc is going to be about growing out of these habits and facing the world head-on, letting go of the need to be/feel in control of everything.

So needless to say it's very interesting to see someone who needs to feel deeply important suddenly be important and not know how to deal with the ramifications of the control he suddenly actually has. He has the ability to go back and change history while retaining the memories of what actions he took to change that history, but right now is figuring out that the actions he's taking as he's exercising this newfound control have massive ramifications that he doesn't know how to influence.

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Mayuri is an interesting character to watch. She's a bit spacey and at least seems airheaded (and she won't stop staring at the sun), but also. she's the only member of the Future Gadget Lab who actually earns an income. She plays along with Okabe's fantasizing somewhat (moreso than Daru or Makise do, at least) but still recognizes him as who he is, to his chagrin. She's also definitely the closest to Okabe at this point, given that they're Unspecified Childhood Friends, and out of everyone he's probably kindest to her? He still sees her as someone to order around, but he also seems to just enjoy spending non-FGL-related time with her.

I do like how genuinely kind she is and how easily she gets along with the other characters, including the just-met Makise, Suzuha, and Moeka. She definitely has a social aspect that the FGL badly needs, and it's nice especially to see her and Makise's dynamic. I can't say I'm a big fan of the fact she doesn't seem to get innuendo, just because it feels a bit... archetypal? It's the most obvious joke to go for with a character like her, but with the surrounding characters there it's not too bad.

I feel a bit bad for not having more to say about her, I feel like we'll learn more about her as the series continues from this point. It's evident that she's had some kind of loss at some point before the series, and I'm assuming that'll be explored more as time goes on (it's also making me realize that aside from Makise and Luka, nobody's parents have come up yet). I do like that calling the future emails "d-mails", as in short for "delorian mail", was her idea.

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I knew going in I was gonna like Daru. I've always had a soft spot for geek/hacker/otaku-type characters and while I kinda wish they hadn't gone the full mile and also made him a bit of a pervert (again, most obvious joke to go with given his character archetype) it's honestly. not a pain to watch? Obviously it remains to be seen what happens in the rest of the series but so far it seems to have a handle on just how far to push the joke with him, so while it does come up sometimes, it never feels like they're going to pull something shocking, further evidenced by the fact that nobody really behaves like he's actually hurt someone.

so. just wanted to get that out of the way first since it's the most obvious counterpoint to liking this character.

But yeah, I like him. He's generally grounded enough to be a good balance to Okabe's eccentricities, but still has a fair few of his own. Despite these contrasts it's pretty clear why they're friends, and honestly I think there have been more scenes of Daru and Okabe hanging out together so far than of Okabe and Mayuri hanging out. He's unwilling to really go along with Okabe's dramatics and gets embarrassed when he's doing it in a public setting. At the same time he's just as interested in time travel as Okabe is, just more on the technical side, to the point where he was willing to work for two days straight hacking into a European company's systems essentially because Okabe, on a hunch, asked him to.

There hasn't been much indication of how Daru and Mayuri really interact other than Daru sometimes taking advantage of her naivete, but he has called Okabe out on taking advantage of her financially and they generally seem to get along just fine. I like that Daru respects Makise's intelligence on the subject of time travel more than Okabe does (initially, at least) and they seem to work together pretty well too.

Given that the series is from 2011, the phrases Daru uses (at least, as well as the subbing team translated them) come off as charming in a way that I don't exactly think was intended. The one thing I don't regret looking on TVTropes for is for the references he makes because otherwise they would've gone straight over my head.

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Makise is great. I feel a bit bad talking about her so far down, but given how the order of relationships between characters was presented in the series it would've felt odd to talk about her earlier. She's at this point very clearly the main contrast to Okabe, with their interactions forcing them to reveal aspects of themselves they otherwise wouldn't, making the both of them into more well-rounded characters. She's clearly very intelligent, definitely moreso than Okabe, but with Okabe having stumbled upon a technology she thought was impossible, she has no choice but to put up with him to learn more about it and how it can be used. However, she's still very dry and unwilling to participate in Okabe's fantasies while being polite and friendly to everyone else, so it's always fun to see them interact, even with Okabe refusing to just call her by her name until she forces him to.

So far her main character arc seems to be confronting her analytic detachment to the things and people around her- Okabe calls her out on her not wanting to tamper with her own history and the past at large- she's very determined to keep facing forward no matter what, even presented with an opportunity to go back- but being perfectly fine with sitting aside and allowing others to tamper with history. Since joining the FGL, though, she's started to form friendships and connections with the other members- initially Mayuri, who I already said I loved her friendship with, but she gradually seems to be connecting with Okabe and Daru more as well.

She does warn Okabe about the butterfly effect and how small actions can have large unintended consequences, something which doesn't sink in for him until Okabe goes too far and alters the world beyond recognition, and I'm very curious to see what her thoughts on the damage/alterations he's caused are.

There's also, obviously, what she's dealing with from her parents. I haven't gotten far enough to have too much insight into how things will resolve, but having spoiled myself somewhat I certainly know Things are Afoot.

A smaller detail, which feeds back into her feeling/being isolated, is her disconnection from Japan, having spent time in America. Maybe it's just a personal thing because I haven't seen much anime in the grand scheme of things, but I thought the scene where she reads out the SERN reports Daru uncovers because she can read English while Okabe and Daru can't was a super cool use of that character detail. It's also fun that she later used it to make fun of Okabe in a test text, which Okabe only realized after the fact.

She's the character I'm probably the most interested in seeing how her story unfolds and how she develops, because she's definitely the most fun to watch.

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Luka is adorable and I'm very worried that they're not gonna do her justice. Yeah, granted, I'm coming into this 2010s series with 2020s ideals, and in all honesty she's not disrespectfully handled, I feel. There are a few off-color comments made about her, but everyone pretty much immediately respects her wish to have been born a girl and are willing to give what she's asking for a try. Her ask also brings up a genuine conundrum for the issue of time travel: how can you send a message to a past before cell phones? They figure out a solution, but it's definitely something I'll be keeping in mind as the story continues: there's a limit on just how far back they can go based on the rules of the tech at play here.

Back on track with Luka as a character, her relationships with the others are very cute. She's close with Mayuri and surprisingly close with Okabe, being one of the ones most willing to just go along with his fantasy. Makise is, of course, instantly polite, and it's always nice to see her just have a normal friendship with someone. On the whole, very cute, Mayuri's just gotta remember that no means no next time.

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Suzuha starts off fun and quickly becomes wildly interesting. She's probably the one I regret the most spoiling myself on, because I feel like it'd be so much more fun to learn her deal naturally, but oh well. My added insight does allow me to connect a few dots that an initial watcher may not have, and it remains to be seen if I'm right or if I'm completely off-base, connecting one thread with a thread that is supposed to be invisible to me at this point.

I really like her being so relaxed with the weird things Okabe, Daru, Mayuri, and Makise are getting up to and even helping Okabe out with parts shopping at one point. It's also very obvious even at this point how out-of-step she is with the rest of the world even if I'm not supposed to know the full extent of it yet. Again, oops.

Her reaction to first meeting Makise, of course, is what has me most intrigued, and has become one of the series' bigger mysteries by this point- what did Makise do to get her this on-edge around her?

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I like pretty much all the characters in the show so far, but if there was one I was closest to disliking, it's Moeka. It's not that I even dislike her, either, it's just that at this point her behaviors have no explanation, and I know it's just because I'm still pretty early in on the series. It's very clear she has some kind of issue with communication, hence her communicating primarily through email over talking. But she's also very... driven, in a way that seems suspicious, especially when concerning the IBN 5100. It's surprising how lenient Okabe's been with her considering how paranoid about conspiracy he generally is. She's otherwise quiet and cold, which makes it hard for the other characters to form any kind of meaningful relationship with her. I'm curious to see what the show does with her moving forward and if I'll get more invested in her, because right now I (and the show, tbh) are much more interested in seeing how Okabe deals with the butterfly effect consequences of using the D-Mail system than I am in seeing what she's up to.

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Feyris is really fun. I like that she's this idol that Daru adores, but is also just a person they know and seem to kind of be friends with- especially with Mayuri being her coworker. She's also a lot cleverer than she seems at first blush, but is also the most willing along with Luka to go along with Okabe's fantasy. At this point she's also set up a pretty big question- just what did she text back 10 years to change the city so much, and what happened to her dad in the previous world line? The aspect of her outward persona being this sunny, confident idol who doesn't look back or regret anything, but then as soon as she's given a chance to change her past she goes for it is also an archetypal character conflict to give her, but it's archetypal because it's immediately intriguing.

I keep expecting her to be revealed as another character I spoiled myself on and I'm slowly realizing it's probably not gonna happen. But does she really have pink drills??

Related, I also really like how her main outfit is her work uniform so in the intro it just looks like this show stars a catgirl. (I couldn't get the version of the shot with Makise in it because it went by too fast sorby)

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I'm a really big fan of how the time travel mechanics work in this series- with the texts sent back in time essentially allowing Okabe to "slip"/"jump" from world line to world line, which represent the infinite outcomes that come from choices that affect how events play out. There seem to be some rules as to how these effects happen- whatever happens, Okabe has to wind up in the exact same geographical location as he was when he made the jump, despite the events leading up to that point inherently being different because of the text he sent back. It also seems like there's a threshold of interference- when Okabe tries to use the D-Mail to win the lottery, it causes a jump even though Luka gets the wrong ticket and they don't win, but when Okabe tries to use it to get Daru to win against Feyris in her board game competition, Daru loses anyway and the world line doesn't change, even though events in that same world line have now played out differently for Daru to have received Okabe's text.

In a way, it kind of reminds me of the copy/paste mechanics of SOMA? As in, with the simulation of the world lines all existing simultaneously, the original world line continues to persist while we switch perspective to the new one where the choice was made, but it's probably more accurate to think of each worldline being theoretical and only the one Okabe is currently in being the one that exists. It's probably the least headache-inducing explanation of time travel I've seen in media, since as they've established, sending anything more than a bit of information back in time doesn't work (well. it works, but not in a way that's useful to anyone) and each divergent choice is treated as its own timeline.

The central question of the series to me, at this point, is how did Okabe accidentally sending a text back in time to Daru, which he said he ignored because he thought it was spam, about Makise's stabbing at the radio building cause events to be rewritten in such a way that a satellite crashed into the building instead?

On the whole, I'm surprised by how much it grabbed me and I'm very eager to continue watching when I get a good chance to. I'm really liking it so far.

How much rambling about an anime i'm watching would you guys tolerate from me

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I don't mean to throw an existential crisis at someone out of nowhere but I'm struggling with identity stuff and am kinda lost and if it's not too intrusive to ask:

How do you know you're a girl and/but identify as they/them? What's the distinction for you? (Iswearimnotbeingmeanihopeitdoesntsoundthatway I'm really just trying to gather information for my own personal understanding I am so sorry)

you don't sound mean! I get being confused haha I actually made a whole video about it here if you wanna listen!! but I'll try to summarize it if you don't have ten minutes to spare

first off, pronouns do not equal gender, they don't indicate what gender you are, they're more like titles. even though it's not the most well known thing to do, you can definitely be a she/her boy, or a he/him girl, or a she/he nb person, or a they/she girl (that's me hehe), or whatever you want even if it isn't ""usual"" or whatever. like it's literally fine and not as big of a deal as some people make it out to be

I see they/them as equal to my online username, or my last name; quite formal, how you'd talk to a person who you don't really know personally. if my friends use they/them exclusively for me I feel bad, cuz they're my friends, they don't have to be that formal with me! but for the general public I definitely prefer it. I see she/her as my name, or personalized nicknames my friends make up for me, or pet names like honey or sweetheart. it's very intimate and friendly, something that I love to hear my loved ones call me, but would feel invasive and uncomfortable if it came from someone I didn't know.

ANYWAY basically when I realized I actually liked the sound of it when strangers online referred to me as they instead of she, and I started attempting to go by that, I had a few people message me and (incorrectly) tell me that I wasn't allowed to use they/them pronouns unless I was trans, and that if I felt comfortable using they/them pronouns, I was probably nb and just hadn't figured it out yet. and since I didn't know anything I was like alright these random internet tumblr people are probably right! I guess I should try and figure out how to unlock the feeling of being nb even though I still feel like a girl! so I spent the next five whole years (literally almost every single day, it was on my mind CONSTANTLY) thinking super deeply about my gender and wondering what made me nonbinary besides my preferred pronouns, trying to find that "omg I get it!!" moment that all my nb friends described (all my nb friends described discovering they were nb as feeling so free, like they could just be whatever they wanted, but for me, it felt like I was stepping out of my house and going "why the hell am I out here, I want to go back inside") and it got to the point where I was literally waking up every day going "I wish I was a girl sooooo bad" and yet somehow I still didn't get it lol

and then finally ppl started getting smart and realizing that actually you can use whatever pronouns you want and I was like wow cool this would have been nice to know five years ago. but those five years gave me such a better understanding of gender in general and also made me a thousand times happier to be a girl bc back then I was just being a girl bc it was what was expected of me but now I know I'm a girl because it actually fucking RULES

[unfoundhoney]

being karl jacobs little sibling ↠

↠ karl jacobs x reader ; fluff

↠ masterlist

hello to the entire smp’s favorite

you’re a big sweetheart like your brother

you’ve got this feral teasing, satan spawn side once you get comfortable around someone but it’s more cute than anything else

karl has always adored you & been protective of you

he used to be mean to you & tease you all the time but he grew out of that & now he is the bestest big brother

he loves you ok :(

you’re the baby of the family & karl must therefore make sure no harm comes to you

no one’s allowed to bully his baby sibling unless it’s him because then it is okay

he was the older brother who would just come into your room & lie on your bed & pretend that he’s doing it to be annoying but really he just wants to spend time with you

when he got his license he would always drive you places

school, friend’s houses, mcdonald’s, the gas station at one in the morning

he likes spending time with you i just want to make that point very clear

you two have always been really close & he just loves you alright

you’re first introduced to the internet as a possible winner of one of the many “one of the crew’s siblings gets the prize” mrbeast videos

you didn’t even know what was happening karl just picked you up one day like “get in loser, we’re doing a mrbeast video”

& off you went

suddenly you’re everywhere on the internet bc people just absolutely adored the way karl would check up on you throughout the entire video

which was obviously kept in because quality content

he brings you on or all the mrbeast videos he can

like the christmas lights video?

you were there helping him & sean win

(karl) JACOBSES FOR THE WIN L E T ‘ S G O

animal shelter video?

short little clip of karl facetiming you to show you the puppies & the camera just hears you “aw”ing over them

eventually karl does a stream w/ you & the plan was to play kirby’s epic yarn

but karl just gets absolutely spammed on discord

by who you may ask?

i think you already know

it’s tommyinnit begging karl to get on the smp w/ you & let him talk w/ you

tommyinnit: KARL YOU SHOULD LET ME SPEAK WITH YOUR SIBLING

tommyinnit: KARL PLEASE IT’S FOR THE CONTENT

tommyinnit: KARL

tommyinnit: DON’T MAKE ME INDIRECT YOU ON TWITTER.COM BECAUSE I WILL

tommyinnit: IT WILL BE FUNNY & I WILL BE MOSTLY WELL BEHAVED PROMISE

tommyinnit: KARL PLEASE

eventually karl relented & went on the smp & had you play

here comes big man tommy (& co.) to farm more “i spoke to my friend’s sibling” content

(you) haven’t you already done like fifteen of these videos?

(quackity) holy shit, did y/n just call tommyinnit unoriginal?

(george) i think they did oh my god

you meet tommy obviously & the other feral bois & a bunch of other smp members you bump into as you’re wandering around

karl shows you kinoko kingdom all proudly

he gets all smiley when you talk about how much you like it

you & the feral boys are kind of iconic ngl

bc you’re actually really funny you’re just kind of shy & need someone to hype you up

and these himbos are just the men for the job

karl would love to make content with you as long as you were comfortable with it

like

imagine doing a cooking stream but you like actually know how to cook smth & karl’s just your little assistant/hype man

(karl) go y/n, go y/n, go go go y/n

(you) i am literally putting salt in a pot of water

& then at the end karl just going full big brother braggart mode

(karl) guys this is literally the best thing i have ever eaten you all wish you had a sibling as cool as mine haha as if no one is as great as y/n so haha get rekt losers

meanwhile you in the background like “please stop”

the mrbeast crew absolutely adores you as well

chris especially is very verbal about how great you are

& there’s this clip of karl & jimmy just absolutely demolishing you & chandler in a chicken pool fight

suddenly it’s not a mrbeast video w/o a y/n cameo in some way

you are tucker’s official babysitter, what a privilege that is

it’s cool thought bc tucker loves you

you’re just such a lovable person

karl would totally love painting your nails or letting you paint his or whatever

& if you’re actually good at like nail art???

he loves you even more now wow

might help you up your fashion game or ask you for fashion advice too

he likes to show you off like a proud parent bc he just thinks you’re great & wants the world to know how great you are

would defo cry at your graduation just saying

prom/school formal?

cute picture of you all glammed up & laughing as karl is literally on the ground bowing to you

would go to as many of your games/recitals/concerts as he could if you have them

& if not he’d be sure to hype up the little achievements like a good test grade or baking a cake

basically: it’s karl’s job in life to make sure you know you are loved & appreciated

you all have one of those “siblings but besties” type of relationships

cuties, we love to see it

[taco-bell-mitchy]

I Don’t Like You

Rindou x F!Reader

-Someone likes you, but they’d jump out a window before they admit it. Literally.

Warnings: cussing, annoying Ran, minor violence (?)

School confessions were always so awkward. Especially when greeted with rejection. So Rindou Haitani was writing his, he cringed. He simply couldn’t keep these feelings in any longer. He also didn’t know how to express his feelings very well. So what was he supposed to do? Just tell you he likes you? It’s not like you would even believe it. Which he doesn’t blame you for. As Rin seems to have a resting bitch face.

Anything he tells you, you either take it the wrong way because of his face, or he says it wrong because of his well…face. His tone can be quite monotone as well which doesn’t help. So when you change you hair style one day and he stares at you, you automatically never do it again as you think he’s disgusted at it. Or when he ask, “Is that a new shirt?” With a plain face and bored eyes you assume he also doesn’t think it’s very cute. So even if he did try to confess in person, you’d probably think he’s playing a sick joke.

Crumpling up another letter he became infuriated. He just can’t seem to get his feelings right. His cheeks are burning red as he’s writing all of them. Ran see his brothers irritability but leaves him alone for a while, until he can’t get over the annoyed yelling.

“Okay what’s wrong?” Ran asked leaning on the door frame, “Nothing.” Rindou’s irritability was visible even more in his voice. Ran looked around the room at crumpled papers and smirked while picking one up.

“Dear y/n, I know I’m not the best at expressing myself but I’m truly in love with you-”

“STOP IN RAN!!!” Rindou screamed at brother like a toddler asking for a cookie. Rindou’s face had furrowed brows but his scarlet cheeks told another story. “My little brother is writing a love letter~” Rindou looked away, “Shut up, I’m trying my best.” Ran sighed with a smile while crouching down next to his brother. “Your big brother is to the rescue. We’ll write the best love letter ever.” Rindou shook him away, “I don’t need your help Ran. Besides I’m not gonna even wrote it anymore I’m done.” Ran shrugged while walking out his room, “Well, a bit of advice still, just write what you want her to know, how you actually feel. Goodnight~”

The next morning Rindou shoved his school supplies and folders into his bag once more and ran to school. He was sleep deprived from all the writing he had done. Only in the end deciding not to even give it to her. He got to school eventually and eased into the day.

Today I got to school early. Unlike most days. I walked into the classroom sitting in my assigned seat. Looking beside me towards the window where Rindou Haitani usually sat earlier than me. I was a bit relieved he wasn’t here today. Though, yes he was easy on eyes, every single day and second he seemed to want to murder me.

He would ask if my clothing was new with such a bored face as if he were judging me for my choice. Or I would change my hair style for a hair and I’d watch him stare into my heart and soul the whole day. Sometimes when I’m laughing with friends, later in the day they’d tell he was glaring daggers at them too. It always seemed like no matter what I did it didn’t impress him. It didn’t bother me at first but now I just wonder why he hates me.

That’s when he walked in. Messy hair and wide eyes. It’s the most expression I’ve ever seen him have. I looked down to hide my face. I admit, my feelings towards him were…complicated. The reason I wondered he hated me was because I felt anything but hate towards him. When he wasn’t looking at me, he seemed so peaceful. On my way home I’d see him laughing with his brother and being a normal guy. Though he was a delinquent he still was charming. Yet he hates me.

I was pulled out of my thinking at a second loud voice. Ran Haitani. Huh? He wasn’t in this class. The first Haitani brother, well I see him as second, was never here. So it’s odd for him to be loudly yelling to his younger brother. “Aye Rindou!! I think you accidentally packed something of mine. Can I check?” Rindou looked over to him and sighed, “Whatever.” Ran’s smile seemed to lighten.

He rummaged through Rin’s backpack. Finally pulling out a sheet of paper. It seemed to be folded and messy. Ran yelled a quiet ‘yah’ and unfolded it. He looked over at me and since I was already staring at him we made eye contact. “Y/n! This is for you!” Rindou looked up at what he was holding and as I went to reach it Rindou grabbed it.

“Stop it! Don’t fucking touch things that aren’t yours.” I pulled my hand back at his harsh tone. Ran frowned, “Stop being a pussy Rin, just give it up-” Rin held the paper tighter. “It’s none of your business Ran leave me alone. And you,” he pointed towards me, “Dont listen to him he’s an annoying fuck who doesn’t know anything.” I felt awkward especially with the disgust in his eyes. At least it always felt like disgust when he stared at me. Ran grabbed the paper again but Rin struggled leaving Ran pushing Rindou against the open window.

Ran stared Rindou hard in the eyes, “I won’t let go of this.”

“I know”

“I wish push you out this window if you really want it to not be seen.”

Rindou felt his heart race is frustration, “Do it. I won’t change my mind.” And not to Rindou’s surprise. He actually did. The few students rushed to window, we were only on the second story, but it was still sure to hurt. I, too, rushed to the window. And I saw Rindou’s face as he stared up at us while laying in the bushes. I laughed as he mouthed a ‘fuck you’ to his brother. Who simply laughed and flipped him off.

I hurried down to him, even if he rejected me now, or looked at me with disgusted eyes, or if cussed me out. I’d go to him this time with no regrets. So as I rushed down to my luck I still see him there. Now he’s sitting upright brushing leaves off him with a pained expression. I walk over to him crouching down. He looked up at me with the same cold eyes. I smiled at him offering a hand.

“Hey. You okay?” He stood up gripping my hand softly, “Yeah sorry about earlier, Ran can be a lot.” I nodded it became silent between us I stared down. We still held hands. He was about to let go but I pulled harder, “Wait! I have to tell you something.” His eyes peeked in interest. “Yes?” I let go of his hand and held my own. Breathing in I finally said, “I know you aren’t quite fond of me but I hope you at least get to know me better because I like you. I think if you get to know me better it’ll be easier to like me right? I mean I understand if you like someone else or even if you’re dating someone then sorry! But I can’t keep this in forever-” I stopped talking at his bubbly laughter

“You sure do talk a lot, yeah?” I laughed a little too at that. I stopped when I felt him reach to intertwine our fingers. “Yeah, I guess you’re okay or whatever.” I looked up at him and smiled, “Thats cool or whatever.” I say mocking him. He smiled wider and looked towards the school door. “I guess we should be getting to class right now, come on let’s go.” I followed with our hands still intertwined. The paper in his other hand.

“What is that by the way?” Rindou’s face went red, “haha nothing…” I nodded and put aside my curiosity. He looked down at me and we made eye contact, “Let’s go when thing straight though, I definitely don’t like you.” I rolled my eyes, “Yeah okay Rindou, you definitely don’t like me.”

But you both knew. He definitely did like you.

Bonus:

“Y/n did he give you the letter!” Ran yelled excitingly towards me. I stared at him in confusion. “What?”

“I saw you two walking while holding hands so he gave the letter right?” I shook my head, “No, I was the one that confessed. I didn’t even know he had a letter.” Ran smirked with mischief. “I thought that might happen so i saved an old copy.” He gave me a wink and handed me the letter.

I read the letter which read,

“Dear Y/n,

I’ve liked you for a while now. No, loved you. I hope that doesn’t sound to bold but it’s the truth. I wish you could see the way I stare at you with so much love, but apparently most people don’t see it as love but more of disgust or ill intent. Still, it is love. I’ve always been afraid to admit it to you because I don’t want you to reject me. Now I hope you can really tell my true feelings. I want to hold your hands and kiss your face and have you in many vulnerable ways. Is this to straightforward? Ah I don’t know, it’s hard to write this and as I am I’m very confused. I hope one day you’ll just be able to see how much I love you. With my touch and stares. So please accept my confession.

Sincerely,

Rindou Haitani”

I smiled with my eyes a bit watery at how cheesy it was. “Wow Ran. We gotta make fun of him for this forever yeah?” Ran laughed loud. “oh I definitely like you!”

I think we’ll all get along fine. Oh and I was definitely gonna tease Rin.