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coffeegnomee · 1 month ago

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All About You

This is about to be the most meta analysis post of my life, but something that has fascinated me the most about lifesteal recently: chat is the 38th member.

As a live stream story, lifesteal is always going to be affected by the live audience, the streamer reading messages, talking back and forth, sometimes doing what chat wants. This is the streamer-chat dynamic. It's natural, it's part of the story.

But something that has fascinated me particularly since season 4, particularly post zam's break s5, and Particularly in s6 since I've started interacting on tumblr, is just how much chat influences the lore and how much we influence each other.

At each of these moments there was a shift in the PrinceZam streamer-chat dynamic.

Season 4 was a lot of anti-lore chatters. People who blah blah blah'ed it up whenever Zam went into a spiral about what he should do. It heightened the feeling of isolation and confusion, especially as some chatters (shoutout van) tried to gently encourage zam in his decision making, giving counter points to the negativity. Unfortunately it often just lead to more confusion as chat was split 50/50 on almost every decision.

In season 5, after the break, there was a reset of the mod team to the team we have now (knowing most of you are here potentially reading this is weird.) These were the best chatters of s4, the ones who became highly invested in Eclipse, and lifesteal in general, and Zam in particular.

In season 5 the hivemind of the mod team getting excited about lore was hilarious to watch. Half the team reprimanded backseating of the rest of the mod team (shoutout meep), the other half lored it up (shoutout chips), everyone loved it. 'Credit to the artist' was born as direct quotes from chat made it into the character.

Read that again: Direct Quotes From Chat Made It Into The Character.

That is weird.

No longer was it simply the mind of PrinceZam forming the character of Zam, as we watched and reacted, but chat itself became an integral part of the lore (these are his amends. make him repent) forming and shaping it, right alongside Zam, into what that season became.

In particular the conversations as the Joker (specifically the Jumper yap in your president doesn't care about you) brought out comparison after comparison to past seasons of princezam as chatters brought up and compared jumper to zam season 3. This sparked a huge renaissance of past season analysis of Zam which became heavily integrated into the final months of the server, with zam to minute, with minute bringing up his own inspiration of season 3 zam, and with zam musing about how each character approaches what past seasons mean to them (concluding, iirc, that they remember it but it doesn't matter to them. tell that to s6 zam lol).

In season 6 the dynamic has shifted again. Credit to the artist has died down, usually in favor of admitting he's reading a suggestion from chat, but the back and forth conversation, reading out specific messages, from often the same few people (shoutout arch and van and citrus (hi citrus)) has flourished more than ever (also shoutout the new chatters. there's been a turnover again and a lot of new names who are consistently affecting the lore)

Right at the end of season 5 I began interacting on lstumblr and writing and reading posts. It came from the end of season conversation about The Mering essay, Barrier Blocks: a breakdown of lifesteal in 22k words about season 4 and conflict. It wasn't the first time that essay and the story of Eclipse Federation was brought up and analyzed on stream as Zam encountered head on that his darkest time on lifesteal was the defacto fan favorite story of the server.

The analysis of the chatters was being shared with the streamer and therefore, the character. These were the seeds of thinking deeply about his actions in s4 and s5 and how he actually felt about them and not just moving on and forgetting.

And then something else started happening. Maybe it happened often before, and I was just not aware of it; I do remember a few times in s5 the mod team referencing and asking zam questions about his character that they had talked about or mused over between each other on discord. So it was happening to some extent, but particularly since starting to hear your opinions and analysis about the story on tumblr, I'm seeing a new trend in s6.

The fandom stream snipe:

When someone in chat innocently brings up something I damn well know was talked about on here just the day before.

Some analysis about a previous stream. Some wishful musing about interactions we hope to see. A tidbit about a previous stream that was unresolved.

And it changes the lore just as much as Planet is known to change the lore by talking to Zam.

The two instances that got me really thinking about chat being the 38th member were recent:

After 4c betrayed there was of course a lot of discussion and the general consensus was the we would love to see another 4c and zam conversation. Especially after 4c gave kab the disc, and zam did the short confrontation of him with derap. Multiple people, I mean it was on everyone's mind, wanted another interaction.

And when the timing was good, chat struck. Or should I say, van cooked. After Zam wrote signs about kab and wondered what to do about his interactions with her, someone mentioned 4c, and the door was opened to talk about what we were all wondering about. Van delivered, nearly single handedly driving the conversation towards talking to 4c, musing that it felt unresolved. When zam got distracted by demi talking about his base, van brought the discussion back around to 4c and the rest of chat started cooking too, innocently encouraging a second conversation. And Zam /msged 4c to talk.

It would not have happened without chat.

The second was yesterday: talking about Leo potentially being a mole. I had analysis, I know zy had analysis, I think others did as well. But until chat started bringing up fandom analysis, zam and derap were not sus of Leo in the slightest. Zam was only partially suspicious about Mapicc wanting to kill Flame, but he only thought of it in terms of letting Mapicc down.

And it got me thinking; at what point are we stream sniping ourselves? It's not really stream sniping (though the 4c one gets very close) because it's based on our own analysis, and usually just based on zam's streams, or doesn't include knowledge that isn't known.

But that Leo analysis was lifesteal spoiler walled. It was, by default, something that was kept hidden from lifestealers on tumblr (though less for zam and more for anyone else), though, as a theory, is it really a spoiler? But as a theory, is it really meant to be seen by the character? Unless we were a member and wanted to tell our teammate we thought something was up?

It's an interesting conundrum. Our analysis is a hivemind of hyperfixating viewers who Think about lifesteal all the time, rewatch streams, watch everyone and know how everyone is likely to be thinking and acting, breaking it down, reading each other's analysis and cultivating a deep web of theories and hopes and dreams about this lovely server of ours.

And that holds weight. All the minds of the viewers pushing together to have an affect on the server. Honorable mentions are our opinions/analysis on lskab that ran rampant in chat for that like month, and, in the opposite direction, mer's rewatch of s4 ending in a "i wish zam could talk to vitalasy again" post which plausibly reignited the deep dive thinking about that season and then culminated in this past saturday's stream!

Would PrinceZam the character ever have wanted to talk to vitalasy nearly half as much without the love of the fandom (not just mer) for eclipse federation that persists to this very moment nearly 2 years later?

We mighteswell be a member on the server asking zam to talk to someone!

Not to give us a big head.

I'm in no way criticizing these actions. I don't have an opinion either way for when it's too much. It's part of the medium to have a chat. Lifesteal would simply not be lifesteal without the audience interaction and this influence is hardly new to the story. One could say the ls story never got started until the audience cared enough about the story as story to have an opinion on where it should go.

And it's the same with the server members: they have to care about the story enough to log on and be in the story. And then they start affecting it and the story is created.

#lifesteal spoilers #gnome rambles

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nonexistant00tmblr · 3 months ago

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I love ii but it WILL be the death of me. I keep thinking about how Baseball's storyline is just so damn tragic, and nobody notices. "Always strikes out", And he 𝘩𝘢𝘴 his whole life (his whole time on the show).

Not rejoining, even when he earned it (Paper most likely had the sympathy of fans due to Paper having been there the longest, but Baseball had also been there almost just as long, and- 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. He 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 threaten to kill anyone upon his release! /sarc)

having a constant stream of ridicule from the other contestants regarding his weight lasting S1 AND the start of S2. Why do they even CARE about his weight brah. Ohhh, that's right! Meshart4 fated him to never get what he wants, like people 𝘯𝘰𝘵 seeing him for only his weight. Womp womp, I guess. Wow Mephone, projecting, much? (Also [in my opinion] weight seems VERY irrelevant for objects to care about, due to how most things that could change the appearance of a human [such as; diet, physical strength, hygiene.] Don't really change an object's appearance.) ((Also also being criticized for his armless-.. ness(?) Ouch.))

As much as being a team leader seems like it would be a 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 thing, with the team he had, it was like being a single mom of 10. Having to mediate all of the drama in his team whilst leading it in the first place put so much pressure on him, not to mention having the weight of his friend's problems weighing on him making things harder to deal with. The reason he and Nickel had that lil tussle back in s2e10, was BECAUSE Baseball had so many bad things happening to him. He just wanted that little reassurance that even with all the crap happening, he was an at least half-decent leader, and all he got was his best friend making a joke about it, and downplaying Baseball's very real feelings. He tried to save it, but just that first comment I feel definitely affected Baseball in a negative way.

//(Lil detour time, I wanna talk about how Nickel affected Baseball in GENERAL [for the better AND the worse.], Baseball clearly views Nickel as his best friend, even after everything they've gone through in season 2, but I don't think that's necessarily a good thing. I think it shows that Baseball was too scared to try and make new friends in the game, as to not accidentally make an enemy. I feel this is because Baseball was slowly realizing that most things he tried to do wouldn't go his way, so he'd cling on to Nickel as his only friend, hoping not to lose him, feeling lucky to have him at all (and Nickel would know all about luck/jjjjjjj). This lead to Baseball disregarding some of Nickel's actions towards himself and Suitcase as to preserve his relationship with Nickel. Though, I do feel that the bond they had was real. It started in season 1, where there was less drama built up over time(ex; Tophy and Knife in s2e1 planting the seed for their inevitable rivalry, vs Taco randomly being that bitch and that hoe. /silly), so Baseball most likely wasn't thinking about "preserving his friendship" with Nickel, but rather being friends with him in general. This gave them that time to have genuine interactions that build up the trust between the two. This is why Baseball played along with whatever Nickel did, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘮. That friendship was real, and Nickel was taking advantage of Baseball without even realizing it. I doubt his did this consciously due to his s3 arc, and how he was programmed that way. Nta. /silly. Nickel getting eliminated was a real roadblock for Baseball because (as aforementioned) Nickel was Baseball's only real friend in the game at this point, and Baseball still had that very real connection with him. This is why I feel he was so awkward in s2e14, as he was trying to have that confidence that Nickel had, and he never did. As much as that's really good for him- like, yay! You go girl!! It's inadvertently horrible for him specifically, because he is hardwired to have all of his efforts for naught. It took Baseball all of s2e15 talking to Suitcase to realize all of Nickel's wrongs, and how ignoring them put him in the wrong too. Once he finally realized that, it seemed like Baseball was really coming into his own! Working out his own issues bit by bit.

WRONG!!🤑👅💜 s2e16. We got only one Baseball and Nickel interaction, but it was enough to change Baseball for the rest of the life he had left. Watching Nickel die/get X'd was like s2e13's elimination put to an extreme. It's clear that - even thought he was working out his issues - Baseball still had that strong attachment to Nickel. People respond to grief in many ways, but when things get too much for one person, they can simply go numb. Baseball was in a very sensitive mental state, and this really hit him where it hurts most. His best friend. He went numb, not telling anyone what he saw. Even in Baseball's last moments, he tried to take that leader-like stance, and help everyone but himself, just as Nickel told him he could.) // lil detour over (I say lil as if this wasn't long as HELL💜)

Though I did connect back to the main claim occasionally, Nickel was a very important part of Baseball's character development that matters to this conversation imo.

Getting out in s2e15 was also (possibly) a place where Baseball's programming played a part (alternatively, he got out because Suitcase had too many negative experiences with Baseball, and thought that her deep emotional views of him would impair her gameplay in the finale.) "Always strikes out", even with the people he thought were friends. Even with the person he thought was his friend. Even with Suitcase. I feel the reason Baseball had the response he did, was him coming to terms with things just not going his way, which sets him up in that sensitive mental state in s2e16. He seemed to have come to terms with Suitcase choosing Knife, and didn't want to procrastinate on the obvious, that he was just never enough. Not enough for Suitcase, not enough for his team, not enough to win the game.

He just wasn't the guy who could do it. And he knew he never would be.

He always strikes out.

#inanimate insanity #mypost #myrant #baseball ii #ii baseball #ii nickel #nickel ii #this is your cue to cry baseball fans #ii suitcase #suitcase ii #:3 #ii2 17 #ii2 16 #ii 17 #ii 16 #ii2 15 #ii 15

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daisynik7 · 1 year ago

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cw: established relationship, smut - PIV sex, cunnilingus, ass slapping, pet names (good girl, good boy) - MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

Author's Note: This is so so silly y'all, I'm sorry. As an avid fan of ugly sweaters, I just couldn't resist this one. 😬 Divider credit to @/cafekitsune!

It’s the ugliest sweater he’s ever laid eyes on, yet Nanami finds himself wearing it, grimacing at his own reflection in the mirror. “Honey,” he calls out to you. “Are you sure about this?”

The distinct sound of jingling bells grows louder the closer you approach him, wearing the same exact sweater. There’s tinsel haphazardly spread across the chest, puff balls sporadically glued throughout the fabric, and of course, bells littered in what seems like every inch. You found it at a local thrift shop and just had to buy it for the upcoming holiday party with your friends. With this, you’re determined to finally win the contest against reigning champ Satoru Gojo, who always wears the same sweater every year, one that plainly has the word “HO” stitched on it.

You stand beside your husband, beaming at the mirror, admiring your outfits. “What do you mean? It’s an ugly sweater party! This is perfect!”

He pinches at the sides of it, cringing at how each movement emits a ringing that’s already grating on his ears. “It’s so…loud.”

You shimmy, sounding like a tambourine. “I know, isn’t it great?!” You grab onto his hips, forcing him to sway with you. “Come on, sweetie! Are you going to be naughty or nice for me tonight?” you tease him.

He finally cracks a smile, giving into your silliness by wiggling in place ever-so-slightly to produce a jingle. You giggle, sliding your arms around his neck, giving him a big smooch on the lips. “Thank you. You’ve been a very good boy this year.”

He lingers on your lips, voice low and sultry now. “How about you? Are you going to be a good girl for me tonight?”

You bite your lip. “Kento…”

Soon, the both of you are naked from the waist down, ugly sweaters still intact. You’re bent over the edge of the bed, legs spread apart, ass cheeks stinging from Nanami harsh slaps on your flesh, enjoying the way it jiggles with each solid smack. “Good girl,” he says, squeezing your cheeks in his firm grip.

You can’t help but think this is some sort of payback for making him wear the ugly sweater, though you don’t mind it one bit. “Fuck me, Kento,” you whine, pussy already wet from foreplay.

“Not yet,” he growls, turning you over to face him, laying you flat on the mattress. “Your good boy is going to be very naughty first.” He dives into your arousal, licking your clit with long strokes of his tongue, lubed-up fingers pumping in and out of your slit. You squirm in pleasure, the bells of your sweater ringing with each little twist of your pliant body, yielding to his every touch. He puckers his lips around your swelling bud, sucking on it until you’re gushing all over his face.

The cacophony only gets more intense when he’s pounding you from behind, you on all fours, him slamming into you. Each thrust produces a new chime adding to whatever symphony of sex you’re creating in the bedroom. After your third orgasm, Nanami flips you over one last time, a wicked grin on his lips, relishing the fucked-out expression on your face as he strokes his cock fast in his fist. “Naughty girl, getting our sweaters all filthy. I guess it won’t hurt if I get them a little messier, right?” He moans, shooting his load onto you, spilling his seed all over the bells and tinsel.

You’re absolutely certain now that this is revenge for the whole ugly sweater thing, though you don’t let it deter you. After carefully hand washing it, the two of you manage to win this year’s ugly sweater contest, and Nanami can no longer contain the hard-on he has as you parade around in it, reminding him of when you first christened it. He rushes home that night to fuck you once again in that sweater, finally making his peace with it.

#nanami kento #nanami smut #nanami kento smut #kento nanami smut #nanami x reader #nanami x you #kento nanami x reader #kento nanami x you #nanami kento x reader #nanami kento x you #nanami fluff #nanami kento fluff #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #nanami drabbles

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existentialterror · 7 months ago

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ARG notes: ZampanioSim

Okay, a work this metafictional and also that (I think) responds to audience interaction is going to need a high-caliber gimmick. Hang on.

...

Alright. Hey guys, catfishAnabasis (Light) here, taking a moment out of my surprisingly busy day tell you about a weird thing on the internet.

ZampanioSim is an intricate and brainbending ARG. It takes direct inspiration from Homestuck, The Magnus Archives, and House of Leaves, as well as the creator (JR, jadedResearcher/justifiedRecursion)'s previous canon of Homestuck fan-work and games. A major theme is "unreality".

HERE IS YOUR TRAILHEAD.

Feel free to ignore the rest of the writeup and check it out now.

I know very little about JR's other work, right now. However, among my many INTERESTS, I am something of a TMA ENJOYER and an AMATEUR INTERNET INVESTIGATOR, and if I were in a HOUSE I like to think I could LEAVE it pretty easily.

So, yeah. I figured I'd just describe my experience of this rabbithole and maybe you'll want to check it out too. I'm sure this will only scratch the surface.

ZampanioSim is structured as a nested labyrinth. In the same way that:

Homestuck is a webcomic framed as an interactive adventure game about an account of kids playing a video game (Sgrub) that doesn't exist, and

House of Leaves is a novel framed as a found scholarly discussion about a documentary (The Navidson Record) that doesn't exist about a house that doesn't exist,

ZampanioSim is a game-based ARG framed as an attempt to simulate a game (Zampanio) that doesn't exist based on a found FAQ of the game (that only sort of exists).

More concretely, ZampanioSim features a lot of nested browser games, as well as audio, narrative, an actual audience-interactive narrative game (the way Homestuck was originally), external websites, and more.

The starting point is, of course, the House:

ZampanioSim takes full advantage of the browser as medium. There is content accessible via the address bar, developer tools, cookies (I think), the developer console, and probably more that I haven't realized.

Like, to give you a sense of the kind of rabbithole we're dealing with: Here's a map I made of the House outset page today:

...And I say today because the House does change over time. Today (a friday) when I clicked on the EastEast route, for instance, I was greeted by this grotesquely distorted version of Rebecca Black's "Friday":

Okay, let's talk about what we have going on in the House map, starting from the doors and working out. (I've given some of these my own names for clarity.)

North

The Classpect Menu Game:

This, I think, is the main titular "ZampanioSim". It's the part that's intended to recreate the experience of a supposed old computer game, but by and large, you only experience the menu screen, not the rest of the gameplay. You can select attributes (based on Homestuck's Classpecting system + the Magnus Archives fears) gain points and select skills and (depending on your seed) eventually "beat the game". It's glitchy, it's a hellscape, there's an entity or two in the menu system that are trying to talk to you. It's great fun. Contains links to a rabbithole (which you can plug passwords into for more secrets) and + some secrets to you in the credits.

(While mostly the aspects seem to add flavor to the menu options, there's a special class called "Waste". This appears in neither TMA nor Homestuck, but comes from a fan or meta-joke that Andrew Hussie and Toby Fox, the writer and a major composer for Homestuck, are classpected* as the "Waste of Space" and "Waste of Time". By telling it you're a "Waste"you're more likely to get weird glitches and new options in your Classpect Menu game run - there's a fun recurring element in some of these games about the game changing depending on who you tell it is playing. I learned about the Waste trick from JR's youtube channel. Also, setting your birthday as Halloween might also do something.)

I have no idea if the different iterations of games here are substantially different. I haven't checked. There's a lot going on. "There's a lot going on" is a good summary of ZampanioSim overall.

*( Uh, classpecting is this in-Homestuck personality system where game players are a [Role] of [Element].)

Eyedlr: Eyedol Games is the company that supposedly made the original game Zampanio. Eyedlr is their spambot-filled tumblr clone, which also has secrets in it. (Actually, just assume everything has secrets out.)

East

The House Exploration game: It has the same setup screen as the Classpect Menu game, but this one drops you into a game with visuals: An infinite(?) procedural house you navigate with imagery derived from your choices.

Peewee's exploration game: When it's not blasting Rebecca Black's Friday But Weird into your ears, the EastEast route is another procedural infinite(?) maze, except that you type directions to Peewee, a snake guy with goggles who also moves around on his own. This one also introduces named characters we learn more about elsewhere.

Bathroom text: Procredural bathroom maze, unless it's just some text telling you to take a break. ZampanioSim really likes telling you to take breaks and hydrate, so that you can better appreciate and spread Zampanio.

Absolutely not. Also, I'm a busy woman. I have to finish this writing summary first.

South

The Train Game: a game - notably not a maze - where JR walks down a series of train corridors and monologues to you about the game and the "reality" behind it.

The mazecrawler game: You tell a little guy how to navigate an infinite(?) maze - and if you choose right and open up your browser's Console menu, you can learn a great deal more about

West

The only West route is AdventureSimWest, which is an actual text narrative game where readers submit commands that the author incorporates into updates - just like early Homestuck. It's still going. The logs are extensive but it's mostly about the antics of a new employee at Eyedol Games, which is stuck in a time loop.

Other

Then there's some other scattered clickable text -

The truth about alt: An exchange between two shapeshifters.

A transcript: A dialogue between two people who apparently work for Eyedol Games.

The lower left leads you to an apparently rotating selection of other Zampanio-related games. I particularly liked NagaGirlfriend.

None of this is even the stuff you can reach this page exclusively through the Console menu.

And much more

And there's a lot of stuff that's NOT branching directly off of the house. There's other things you find buried in links or by searching - a discord and a wiki that both straddle the line between in-character and -out, Archive of Our Own content, a youtube channel, the Eyedol website...

Is there a "story" to ZampanioSim?

Yes.

Like I said, there's a lot I haven't seen yet. But what's going on is something like this:

JR is attempting to recreate this game, Zampanio, of course, and tap into its fanbase. The game Zampanio is an infectious meme. Eyedol Games is a transdimensional company that is perhaps both trying to spread the meme and contain it, by removing its spores, e.g. the Zampanio FAQ - the thing that inspired JR to make ZampanioSim - from the internet.

Various parts of the game recognize that they are fictional and may identify you the reader/player as "Observers".

There are a few recurring characters who have gotten swept up into the meme, either working for Eyedol or trapped in ZampanioSim or both, and have followed it from variant to transdimensional variant.

(this is an image from homestuck. it's a reference.)

Japes aside, this is a brain-bending, very cool, and completely ludicrous unfiction project which I believe is made mostly by one person with an unparalleled hand for web sorcery, whimsy, and vibes. The vibes are so good.

The host website, Farrago Fiction (which AFAICT is a multi-person project), hosts a number of often-homestuck-inspired weird games and simulators.

I know ZampanioSim is now a few years old and is still actively updating. Consider checking it out.

2024-08-24 edit: Part 2!

#zampaniosim #creepy shit #light's arg notes #arg #unfiction #light writes #homestuck #house of leaves #light listens to the magnus archives #zampanio

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saintblk · 1 year ago

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SHAWTYY! You are feeding my Kaldur obsession like that mannnn is delicious but if you can I was thinking a kaldur and wyynde x fem! Atlantean reader. Like she’s pregnant (or they wanna get her pregnant *wink wink*) fluff or smut or both. Like imma eat up anything you write sooo go crazy shawty!

(Like I just love them so much it hurts😭)

ah to have two fictional men manhandle tf out of me:( bby your mind 10/10 i love this scenario wish it was me fr. i woulda had this done earlier but i’m gonna blame it on school

cw: established poly!relationship, threesome, dubcon if you squint, centred around pregnancy basically, fem!atlantean!reader but it’s not described that much

THERE WAS a change in your behaviour; a slight but noticeable one. kaldur was the first one to notice it and didn't wait very long to tell wyynde. the two began observing you closely — well a lot closer than usual. it wasn't long before they discovered the reason for the shift in your demeanour. wyynde happened to catch sight of you with mera and her son. as you doted on the small boy, the glint in your eye became evident. from the way you interacted with all the children you came across, it seemed you desperately wanted one of your own.

which is how you found yourself sandwiched between your partners, crying incomprehensible words as tears ran down your face. it'd been only moments since your last orgasm; added to the numerous orgasms preceding it. the two members inside you had came several times before, but still they rammed into you, intent on doing it again.

"c'mon pretty girl." wyynde hummed, looming over you. "you can give us one more."

you barely manage to shake your head no in protest, an action that went seemingly unnoticed. below you laid kaldur, also buried deep inside your walls while he folded your legs up against your shoulders. this way, wyynde could kneel in front of you and slide into your tight walls. they were kind enough to slow down a little, letting you ride out your last high.

the blonde pressed a kiss to your neck, breath fanning against your gills. "last one, my love. don't you want a baby?"

the whine you let out was answer enough, just the thought making you clench down on both of them. it was difficult even considering bringing it up, but the thought of bearing their child made your heart ache and your stomach twist into knots. luckily, simply the image of you carrying their baby was their driving force that night.

while kaldur whispers sweet nothings against your buzzing skin, wyynde captured your lips and pulled you into an intoxicating kiss. the ache in your stomach had long since become a sweet pang that raked through you with every thrust.

your walls further constrict around the two men, rushing them towards their own release. wyynde throbbed against kaldur’s shaft before shooting his seed into you. kaldur followed, joining the other male in filling you to the brim. once they pulled out, kaldur took it upon himself to scoop the cum leaking out of you with two fingers and shove back into your cunt.

you think you’re in the clear when both men slide off the bed, leaving you to catch your breath. but soon enough you feel your body being lifted and put into a new position.

“i know we said it was the last one.” kaldur husked and planted a kiss on your forehead.

“but if you really want a child, we must make this count.”

side note: kaldur uses contractions in his speech when he’s having sex cause he’s not thinking:)

#kaldur x reader #kaldur x black reader #kaldur x wyynde #kaldur smut #young justice smut #young justice x reader #collection :: yj #꒰ from the mailroom ꒱#꒰ slim’s works ꒱

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hollywoodroses · 1 month ago

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basic instinct (a dave mustaine fan fiction)

this story is not based on the film basic instinct, it’s an original story idea

“After spending the school year at a university exchange program in italy, you are invited by your housemate to spend christmas/new years with her family. When preparing for the trip home with her, she forgot to mention she had a troubled brother who would later set his sights on you.”

this is the first time I am writing about dave mustaine, please bear with me. I really hope all of you like it!

a/n: I couldn’t wait and wrote this at midnight

Warnings: heavy smut including, spit!kink and cum!eating, masturbation, language including sexual language, mention of violence, a character passes away, and cigarette smoking.

minors please do not interact

While spending the school year in a university exchange program in Italy, you became friends with your housemate who was from Los Angeles. It didn’t take her long to find out you had no family, you lost your parents in a car accident when you were 18 years old. Since you were of legal age at the time, you were considered an adult and you were forced to move out on your own.

You had spent the time in Italy while choosing whether you wanted to go to law school or nursing school after spending two years studying political science with a minor in world languages.

It was time to go back home, your housemate invited you to spend Christmas and New Years with her family. You were so excited to spend time with people as you had always felt alone. She explained she had a mother and aunts, uncles and cousins that would be there. She forgot to mention her brother Dave, well didn’t really forget. Her family doesn’t talk about him, he was a bit troubled and labeled the “bad-seed” of the family. He did petty robbery with his friends and led women on with a promise of having a sexual encounter with him. He was 22 years old and still living at home, refusing to grow up and mature.

The plane ride from Italy seemed like a lifetime, you had so much energy you spent the flight talking with your friend, more like best friend. You didn’t realize the plane was landing when you were about to take a rest from all the chatting.

You are surprised to see a taxi waiting for you, ready to take you to your friend’s house and for the party to start.

-AT HOME-

Just as your friend was about to open the front door with her house key, you noticed a figure of a young man leaning against the side of the house. A flame from a lit cigarette burning in the dark. You are curious of the mysterious man. You decided to brush off what you are thinking as you are greeted by the family you would spend time with.

You spend hours chatting with the family you are with sitting with two women looking at baby pictures of your friend. While laughing at how cute she looked as a toddler, you noticed the young man from outside was sitting on a couch opposite you. Was he checking you out? You thought to yourself, he had a soft smirk while he gazed at you. It kept you speechless and a little uneasy as you tried to ignore him while listening to the women talk about their plans for the new year.

After awhile you excused yourself to go to the washroom. When you are finished your business, open the door and are shocked to see the nameless man who was checking you out earlier. You try and scream but he covers your mouth with his hand, pushing you back into the washroom and warning you to be silent.

“What’s your name, pretty girl?” He asks.

“Y/N.” You whisper with an innocent look in your eyes.

“I’m Dave and when I saw you for the first time I knew I had to have you”.

You feel turned on and a wetness begin to form in your pussy as you heard him confess to you. You didn’t understand but you wanted him too. Licking your lips, not realizing you are temping him he kisses you gently. You open your mouth and let his tongue explore you. Feeling his hands on your chest, you break the kiss and encourage him to rip off your blouse while you take your panties off under your skirt.

You sit on the countertop, you can’t help but feel horny. You pull Dave close to you and kiss him as you begin to grind against his dick that is covered by his jeans. Breaking the kiss, you moan as you speed up your grinding feeling like you can squirt at any moment. Suddenly, Dave puts his hands on your face and whispers lovingly to you, making you stop and get back to reality. Getting a wicked idea, you wet your fingers with your mouth and proceed to finger yourself as Dave watches you with a dark look on his face. You continue to fuck yourself until you orgasm, sucking your fingers clean.

You jump off the countertop and kiss Dave one last time, or is it the last time? You couldn’t get enough of him. He smirked at you as he left the washroom before you as not to cause a scene. You turn to look at yourself in the mirror and notice your face is red and you feel a chill all over your body. You put water on your face as you wait to cool yourself down. Once you feel better, you head back to the living room where everyone is.

-BACK AT THE PARTY-

When you are finally back in your seat downstairs, you see your friend talking to Dave. She seemed upset, even going as far as losing a few tears. You swear you over hear her talking to him.

“Please leave my friend alone, you remember what happened to Daisy right? Because, I remember how fucked-up you can be!”

Thankfully her family didn’t hear her conversation, they were all on the fancy kitchen table getting ready to eat.

“Y/BFN” Her mother called her.

You look at Dave, wondering what his sister meant when she talked about this unknown girl.

You see, Daisy was a smart girl. She was the daughter of their mother’s childhood friend. Daisy got good grades and excelled in piano, she was planning to go to Juilliard to learn how to be a piano player for classical concerts but her dream was to play on Broadway. Unfortunately, this all changed when she met Dave in her senior year of high school. Daisy had just turned 18 while Dave was a high school dropout. he met Daisy at a house party and she was intrigued by him.

When Dave found out, Daisy had a school-girl crush he decided to make a move on her. This encounter caused her to get pregnant and she was forced to live with her grandparents in San Francisco. This way, she would be far away from Dave and his wild antics. The person who was hit the hardest from the loss was his sister, she was the same age as Daisy and they grew up together.

You try and have a good time at dinner and once it’s all cleaned up, the family puts on a Christmas movie. You seem uninterested and get excited as you look over at Dave. Walking up to where he is sitting, you make a silent move to grab his hand and walk him to your bedroom. You fail to notice that his sister saw the whole thing. She couldn’t say anything as you and Dave are free to make your own choices. She just hopes you won’t get damaged like Daisy did.

Once you are alone with Dave, all bets are off. You push him onto the bed and crawl on his body, sitting on his lap. You move out of the way a little and unbutton his jeans. Pulling his jeans down along with his boxers, you start to rub his dick. Slowly at first than faster. As you are doing this you feel yourself get wet. You watch Dave in awe as he closes his eyes and moans. It doesn’t take long for him to cum all over your hand. You look at him as you lick your hand clean of his juice. You can’t help of moan as you savour his taste. Rolling his cum in your mouth with your saliva, you crawl up towards him, encouraging him to open his mouth for you, you spit in his mouth as you kiss him. You and Dave spend the whole night exploring each other. Both falling asleep in sexual bliss.

Once it is morning you wake up to an empty bed. Wondering what happened to Dave, you put on his discarded t-shirt and walk downstairs to the kitchen. You find Dave’s sister with her mum, crying. Along with a newborn that was sleeping in its carrier.

“What’s going on.” You ask.

Dave’s mother sits you down at the counter and explains everything to you.

“Dave went out last night, to see Daisy. She was giving birth to his child. While at the hospital, Daisy’s brother got into a fight with him. After Dave’s daughter was born, he ran off with Daisy due to threats from her family. While getting their belongings, Daisy’s brother and his friends tracked them down and shot Dave. He died of his injuries and they took Daisy away. All we have left of him is his daughter. She was left at our door in the middle of the night”.

You are shocked to learn everything. You truly felt in love with Dave but you were just a toy in his dangerous game. A game he played with another innocent girl that cost him his life.

the end

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itsblasttothepast · 5 months ago

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Why do you like Max? He was horrible to Checo, the way his family spoke about him was so awful, I can't understand how Checo fans can like this guy

Oh anon, this is a very complicated question, because like many Checo fans in 2022, I also hated Max back then.

But it will be a long, long, LONG rant, so click under if you want to enter this particular rabbit hole:

Before they were teammates, Max was just another driver in my radar (as you are asking for my PoV, which is clouded as a Checo fan), nothing to notice there except a few interaccions with Checo; I was very surprised in Turkish 2020 because I thought Max would go for blood when Checo made him spin around twice (minute 1:20 of this video). But nope, at the end they even chatted and everything (a small Chestappen seed was planted since Monza 2017 and it had been growing with these interactions).

Anyway, when Checo became Max teammate, the contract was clear: He was there to succeed in what other teammates failed: helping Max winning the championship and take the heat of the team.

And he did, during 2021 they were working hard for that championship, and bonded really well, they seemed to get along great, share some sort of weird sense of humor and they were really nice to each other.

But in 2022, Checo thought that since he already fulfilled the requirement for 2021, he could fight for the championship in 2022. That led to straining the relationship with Max, and all that tension boiled over in Brazil. It was messy, and yes, Max was an asshole back then because they weren't fighting for the podium, and Checo needed the points. But what came after was the worst part because the declarations from both Checo and Max, and the Max's mom getting involved with the cheating thing... honestly I don't know how they managed to finish the season without killing each other.

Most Checo fans said that Max tried to make up with Checo in the 2022 Honda Racing Thanks day thing; all I noticed was Checo with the fakest smile he could put for the cameras. PR to the bone. I mean, they had Marc Márquez there to be a buffer, along with Yuki and Pierre, you could see it in the pictures:

They had Marc there to keep Max chatty:

You could see how far apart they were in the group picture (far apart for what they have us accustomed to):

(they left space for Jesus)

Also Max said he would help Checo in the last race of the season, but that was just adding salt to the wound.

Checo had just renewed contract, so we thought he would get the boot because obviously RBR was keeping Max, the one expendable was (and is) Checo. For some reason, they decided instead of doing that, to try and smooth over the situation. Checo apologized for his statements to the press and said it was all good with Max, and they had couples therapy.

No, really, they hired a 'mediator' or something like that, to help them regain the camaraderie of 2021. But instead, they fell in love and got really close. However, RBR had their plan B, bringing Ricciardo as the third driver in case things didn't work out (in fact, this is why we thought Checo was out of the team for 2023, we were looking options, seeing which teams needed drivers... wild times).

So, when Max did the Brazil thing, obviously Checo fans hated him and wanted his head, I remember people not even in the F1 fandom hating him (still butthurt about the world cup and the 'no era penal' thing). I particularly thought it was a dick move, but also kind of understood where Max was coming from. He was raised for glory, totally different to Checo who practically raised himself since he was 15. Checo and Max families are also vastly different, and the culture as well. So I hated him but not really?

So during 2023 I saw Max changing and being more mature, calmer, softer sometimes. He wasn't a bad person, he just made mistakes like any human does, and the pressure people put on him was insane! To me, Checo and Max balance each other really well, which is why they could work things out. If Checo could move on and be friendly with Max, I'm sure that we, as his fans, can do the same.

I like Max because he's genuine, and he learns from his mistakes. He is a little crass when provoked, but in general he is a nice guy; I don't know if you believe the whole 'Max is faking caring' that most haters say (they imply Max hates Checo and just tolerates him because he's forced), but I do believe Max can't fake this much this long.

Anyway, as usual, I went overboard with this, sorry anon, I wanted to give you context about why I like Max, and then filled this with my ramblings.

You can dislike Max anon, that's fine, just don't be hateful or claim to know better than them. Only Checo and Max know how is their relationship, but if Checo seems okay with him, that's all good in my book.

I think I haven't rambled this long in a while 😅

#anon questions #cinnamon random ramblings: f1 style #max verstappen #sergio perez #checo perez #chestappen #in my head

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positivelybeastly · 3 months ago

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I wanted to get your thoughts on a topic surrounding Beast that has personally annoyed me. I've never liked how Hank is usually seen as the oldest man in any room he's in by fans. Despite being part of the same original class as Scott, Warren, Jean, and Bobby, Hank is always treated by fans like he's around 60-70 while characters like Scott and Jean are still treated and written like they're in their 20s. I partially blame the Fox movies messing with the generations and ages and having Hank as an older mentor to people he's around the same age as in the comics. I partially blame how Hank became progressively less of a man of action as the comics continued while his peers were continuing to run around doing athletic feats.

But it is disheartening when I see fancasts for movies and Hank is always at least 20-30 years older than the casts for characters like Scott and Jean. One positive about our current clone Hank is that he's unquestionably young again. The Infinity Comics even poked fun at this with Scott saying Hank didn't want to play basketball because he was "Afraid of losing to his elders." But what do you think? Does this bother you as well or do you not think it's a big deal?

So, I completely understand where you're coming with this, and it does bother me a bit, too. I think there's a whole ass confluence of factors that have led to this impression, but you've correctly identified at least a few of them.

The Fox movies. Replete with inaccuracies as they are, it feels almost churlish to rag on them for making Hank notably older than everyone else in his generation because there is just so much wrong with those films, but, as the entry point into the franchise for a whole generation of fans, and having created a whole sub-genre of X-Men fandom that occasionally touches the comics but otherwise stays hermetically sealed, it's created this persistent impression that Hank is Old.

Kelsey Grammer was born in 1955. That made him 34 years older than Shawn Ashmore, 27 years older than Anna Paquin, 18 years older than James Marsden, 13 years older than Hugh Jackman, 11 years older than Halle Berry, 9 years older than Famke Janssen - he's only 15 years younger than Patrick Stewart, and only 16 years younger than Ian McKellen.

That is a huge age gap, and it's not just the actual age gap, either, it's the kind of performance that Grammer gave, which is very much in tune with TAS Beast - he is not a very youthful and exuberant Hank McCoy. He feels older, distinguished, he wears a lot of suits, he's only in one real action scene, and even his costume is less revealing than almost any of his comic costumes.

No, I'm serious, it has an effect!

The version of Hank from the Marvels is played by Grammer 20 years after X3, and yet I think it's undeniable that he looked and felt younger in the movie made way later. Partly it's thanks to the CGI, but I also think the fact that he dresses in a pair of shorts and a lab coat plays into it, too. Young people wear less, old people wear more, generally speaking.

And that's not necessarily a problem, because Grammer's performance is excellent, and there are touches that make it feel right for this version of the character in X3, like the fact that he's notably fit but appears to have gone a little to seed, and the fact that he's straight up in government now. But. A popular performance is a performance that gets remembered, and codified.

Hoult being the only member of the actual O5 in First Class and being carried through those movies as an original X-Man, with characters like Scott and Jean being introduced in Apocalypse as very, very young teens, only exacerbated the problem, on top of being a version of the character that doesn't have much resemblance to Hank McCoy anyway.

There's a whole subsection of the X-Men fandom that only really interacts with the series through those movies and writes about those movies - check AO3 sometime, and see how much is still being produced for the XMCU fandom, even though the main series is over and has been for years at this point. For them, Hank is only ever one way - Old. And even when he wasn't old, he was stodgy.

Which leads us to the next problem - the fact that Hank, often, will act much older than he is. It's glaringly obvious especially when you look at 60s Hank, who's already contending with the fact that young people in the 60s looked like they were 40 despite being 16; on top of that handicap, he's canonically the oldest of the O5 (by a whopping whole year, wow, much age gap), but also the one who dresses most formally, and speaks the most formally, and looks the most adult, because of his mutation.

He is physically the largest because of his massive limbs, ergo, you mentally code him as Older. The things that he does to hide and blend in, the suits, the primping, the big words, the stuffiness, all code as Older. You can also really see it with how he changes from classic Hank to feline Hank.

Like, there is a passage of time here, but despite the gap of around 15 years publication time, in-universe, it's only meant to be a few years. Hank is maybe 29 in the first page, 33-ish in the page, but the process of mutating and needing to affect a more distinctly human and more controlled appearance, the trauma that piled on multiplicatively, the darker tone of the comic as they went on, Hank just became older, relatively speaking, and artificially so, in a way.

This ended up compounding with storylines like X-Force, where he was explicitly written as being out of shape, sedentary, more cynical, less funny, all of these character tics that you just instinctively associate with age. A similar sort of thing happened with Professor Xavier - he was written to be much, much closer to the O5 in age in the original 60s run, judging by certain contextual clues and character backstory, but as time went on, his baldness, his disability, his relationships with notably older, adult women, his authority, all contributed to him being aged up and up and up. It's subtle, and it happens over time, but it does happen.

And, as you've touched on, Hank just became much less a character of action as time went on.

Hank actually became much stronger over time, going from being able to lift just one ton to a full ten tons by his modern mutation, but even with that power upgrade, his character archetype has been firmly nudged over, from the original X-Men's Big Guy bruiser, into a full on genius/mad scientist.

That is now his defining trait, because comic book writers like to have an easy source of sci-fi problems and solutions to tie up their plots, and use of brawn is just not considered to be an appropriately Beast solution to problems anymore. See also the move towards showcasing characters with flashy powers like energy projection and psionics over raw super strength, which I think is why characters like Colossus have really suffered with staying relevant in the comics these last few decades.

Hell, it's gotten so bad that Hank's trademark visual action style has, by and large, fallen by the wayside. It used to be that Hank did this kind of sequence all the time:

He does still do it, very, very occasionally, but the last time I can really think of him doing it is during S.W.O.R.D volume 1, back in 2009. Which, again, has a very bright, upbeat, energetic Beast. This sequence communicates energy, vitality, youth, and even though Hank hasn't aged that much, the lack of use of his old visual signifiers means that he feels older - or, maybe it's more accurate that he feels less notably young. Either way, the effect is the same.

On the one hand, this overall ageing up doesn't bother me as much as a lot of other Beast related foibles - the fandom's refusal to shut the fuck up with their one war crimes joke, for one - and it is a thing that Hank often tries to consciously foster, so that he feels more trustworthy and less dangerous, but it removes him from his friends in a way that I hate, and it makes him less human and less fun and, honestly? It makes him less popular, more remote.

You only have to see how people conceptualise Beast in headcanon or X-Men '97 fandom posts to see how Beast being older knocks on to his relationships with people - he's not regarded as Jean and Scott's mutual best friend, he's regarded as essentially Charles' friend, as the mature one.

People don't conceptualise him as funny, as overtly romantic, as sexual, as goofy, as lovable, he's distinguished and controlled and sometimes even cold, and that's just. Not Hank. Not in his entirety, anyway, not fully. Hank is such a good character precisely because he swings so wildly all over the emotional spectrum, is all of these things and more, and yet it all still makes cohesive sense when you key in to his character. Removing his warmth, his immaturity, his humour, his youth, hurts that complexity.

In short? #LetBeastBeYoungAndGoofyAgain. We're well overdue.

#koalaguru #outofmuffins

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bwat5-blog · 2 months ago

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Pivotal Moments for Jinx

**SPOILERS FOR ALL OF ARCANE**

**Disclaimer: As I stated in my other deep dive on Jinx, mental health is a huge part of her character. With that in mind please be aware I am in no way a mental health professional, and am in no way qualified to speak on proper handling of mental health issues. I am just a fan who like all of you has fallen in love with this story and its characters, and think they are worthy of further analyses**

Before we begin, let me again thank anyone kind enough to read and respond to these. I love learning new insights from all of you and doing these is helping me pretend the show isn't over haha. Because I believe it fits most with Jinx's Arc, I am going to title this one with 3 sections. These titles are all very flowery, don't make fun of me I went out on a limb haha.

Section 1: The Lost Child- The journey of Powder, showing us all the promise she had before her innocence is stolen from her

Section 2: The Fractured Self- The period of struggle between who she used to be and who she has become

Section 3: Embracing The Storm- The beginnings of her inner journey to become who she is meant to be

Section 1: The Lost Child-

The Unification Bridge:

Powder is the very first voice we hear in this story. Small, afraid, and haunting, we meet her hand-in-hand with Vi on the unification bridge, surrounded by smoke and death at the sight of their first of many great losses to come. The haunted and heartbroken expressions on their faces is crushing, but the interaction between them also gives us our first clue into who Powder is.

Vi, like the good older sister she is, is standing tall and holding Powder's hand when we first see them. We even see her making small movements blocking Powder like she is trying to protect her from the horror around them. However, what happens when Vi is finally overcome? Powder IMMEDIATELY hugs and tries to be there for her. It is a loving moment between these kids who are in the middle of something no child should endure. But more importantly for our purposes, it speaks to their bond and Powders love for her sister in whatever way she can express it.

The Heist:

The heist of Jayce's lab is our first moment with Powder after the introduction and immediately we are introduced to a clever, imaginative and sweet young girl. From her faith and trust in her older sister, to her dreams of riding on an airship, to her knowledge of Valdiani we get an excellent first glimpse into who she is after that heart breaking introduction. However, we also have two major seeds planted that will plague this character for years..

Milo- Milo is a teenage boy. He is a kid to and kids say and do stupid things, especially picking on their siblings. And at this early stage of the story its easy to just see it on that level. Powder is younger, she is weaker, Milo picks on her for not being up to speed as a real part of the gang yet. But we as the audience have the gift of hind sight. And we know sadly that Powder's self doubt born from these interactions will poison her in a way that is difficult to overstate

Hex Tech- It is of course during the heist that Powder is first exposed to hex tech even in its rough form. This bright young girl has no idea that what she holds in her hand will one day be what she uses to end the life of Caitlyn's mother, let alone her own family (although on accident). But it is part of the show's overall story of the danger and sinister impact of the arcane that it takes the object of this curious child's wonderment and one day makes it her murder weapon.

The Aftermath of the Heist:

The period of time after the heist leading to doomed rescue of Vander does not spend a lot of time with Powder. However, but there are a few moments that are absolutely worthy of mention in terms of giving us more a look into her character. So we will group them here under one section.

The Fight With Deckard- Vi, Milo and Claggor are in shockingly brutal fight with Deckard and his thugs. During the entire confrontation Powder has been on the sideline holding their loot, until one of the thugs chases her, leading her to toss the loot into the water after a failed use of one of her bombs. This whole incident is foreshadowing into who Powder will become. The crux of the transition from Powder to Jinx is ending fear and becoming strong. I suppose to simplify things, imagine someone you know in life tells you they had a nose job after years of insecurity, now you are being shown tapes of people picking on that person when they were a kid for the size of their nose.

Relationship with Vi- We are treated to a touching moment between the sisters in which Vi reassures Powder, showing her that none of them are perfect and insisting she knows Powder's gadgets will work one day. This foundational belief in Powder's potential becomes a huge factor in their relationship throughout the entire show.

Shooting Range- This is treated mostly as a "you were saying?" moment toward Milo. Milo is continuing to tease and bully Powder before she absolutely destroys him in their arcade shooting range. it's a silly moment mostly played for comedic relief before the Enforcers attack, but it is also again, a glimpse into the transformation we know is coming. Jinx is absolutely lethal with firearms.

The Panic Attack- Our first real glimpse into the darkness in this poor girl. Please don't misunderstand me, I am not suggesting her having a panic attack in this instance is somehow wrong of her, or makes her broken. She is so young, she saw her parents die just like Vi, now she knows Vander has been taken and her whole family is in danger. She wants to go and help. But her reaction is extremely emotional and volatile. She starts sobbing and screaming, hitting herself and almost destroys her monkey bomb when she can't get it to work. We are seeing these deep seated insecurities born of her trauma and from her brothers lack of acceptance in what makes her different. And the truly heartbreaking thing here is that she is not a defiant child. When she realizes it was the stone that caused the explosion her exact words are "I can help them". That's all she wants. And it could not go more wrong.

The End of Powder- Part 1:

This is the beginning of the incident that changed this young girl's life forever. Now, when I say "The End of Powder", I am not suggesting she has an alternate personality form or something. I have absolutely ZERO qualifications to suggest such a thing. I am speaking in terms of who she was, and who she becomes. We see this brave, clever young girl arrive where the only family she has left are fighting for their lives. She has no idea they have broken through the wall. No idea Vander is free. All she knows is that THIS is how she can help. And she does what she can. From the look on her face here and when she first comes to Vi she is so proud and happy, she genuinely believes she saved her family and it is just.. terrible.. We are watching the violent death of what little innocence this child has play out in real time.

The End of Powder- Part 2:

This is whole incident is heartbreaking. It's not Vi's fault. She is a teenage girl who is scared, in pain, and just watched her family die violently for the second time. Now she learns her little sister who she tried leave at home for once TO KEEP HER SAFE, has seemingly caused the deaths of everyone they love when they were seconds from freedom. So she lashes out. Like all people do when in grief and fear and anger. I think its probably fair also to say as Vi considers protecting Powder her responsibility, she is also angry because she is horrified Powder was anywhere near this incident that could have claimed her life (think parents- I'm so glad your okay! Now I'm gonna kill you!" Sadly Marcus takes Vi before she is able to make things right.

So what does that mean for Powder? it means that while trying to process the fact that her actions have caused the deaths of their whole family, she also has to reckon with the older sister who always protected and loved her, striking her (lets be real even at that age Vi hit like a freight train), grabbing her roughly and yelling at her, calling her a Jinx. This poor little girl who wanted so badly to save her family has just had all of her insecurities and fears made real in the worst possible way. Emotionally and mentally she is a massive open wound. Enter Silco.

The End of Powder- Part 3:

Powder never stood a chance. As I stated above, she is as vulnerable in this moment as someone can be. She has lost everything. So even though he has sinister intent in the moment, she latches on to the very next person to show her kindness, and he has a change of heart. What Powder needed after everything she has been through, is healing. Love and kindness, someone to help her through the guilt and grief, time for she and her sister to grieve together and make things right. Instead, she is taken in by a man who much later states he believed the only way to face the harmful forces of the world was "..eliminating those I deemed my jailers". Silco is a complex and broken man, and although I believe he comes to love Jinx in the only way he can, he takes all of her anger and guilt and grief and teaches her to weaponize them, not to heal. Again I am not suggesting She develops a split personality or something, But I believe that in this moment, Powder is destroyed, her name, is Jinx

Section 2: The Fractured Self-

The Fight With The Firelights:

This is our first big introduction to Jinx. She is working for the man who took her in, the man who instigated the event that claimed her whole family. And on the surface, She has overcome the weaknesses she always hated about herself under his care:

She can fight

Her assorted gadgets work to a lethal level

She isn't afraid of anyone- The firelights know who she is before they even see her, suggesting she now has a reputation for how dangerous she has come. Additionally she stands up to Sevika with absolutely zero hesitation.

However, we are quite quickly shown that everything is not so simple.. Even in the midst of proving she has become a warrior in her own right, she uncovers a female Firelight with pink hair. That past she is trying so hard to bury comes out roaring as she sees her sisters face on a total stranger, her resultant breakdown leading to her executing the firelight, and firing wildly with her gun even hitting one of the men on her side in the conflict. We learn during a conversation between Sevika and Silco, and then Jinx and Silco herself that these issues have happened before. Silco's teachings have made Powder jinx strong on the outside. But she is still very much tortured and afraid on the inside.

The Theft of the gemstone:

We are then treated to a much clearer picture of how this young woman is doing. After returning to her hideout we see Jinx is haunted by the specters of her guilt and grief. She sees shadowy images of those she has lost and hears them taunting her. In an effort to prove her strength to Silco, to negate those negative feelings she can't escape, she attacks the upper city, killing six enforcers and stealing a gemstone that would initiate a series of events that's importance cannot be overstated. She has just committed a crime that could have killed her, and did kill several others. And Silco's anger abates when she is shown the gem-stone. The Weapon. The bargaining Chip. Again I don't doubt he loves her. But we are given a very clear glimpse into how she has been taught at his feet.

Silko Drives Her Further Down the Path/ Jinx cracks Hextech:

We are given continuing glimpses into the guilt poisoning Jinx when her attempts to weaponize the hex gem cause a minor explosion and she runs away, crying and saying it was an accident. She is still suffering so badly because while Silco has made her dangerous, he hasn't made her healthy. Silco tries to help her move past them in the way he knows how. He takes her for a baptism in the darkwaters where he himself was reborn. "your strong now, just like you were always meant to be", "Jinx is perfect", "You need to let Powder Die". She is clearly still suffering due to the events of her childhood. But Silco telling her to essentially "just don't worry about it anymore cause you are doing great" is delusional and dangerous for all involved.

Additionally, lets think about this for a moment. As a young girl she was frequently berated for her weakness, for who she was as Powder. Remember I mentioned that even though Milo was just being a teenage boy, these things stick? We are now learning Silco essentially continued to reinforce the idea that all those insecurities Powder had were true and needed to be changed in Jinx. Imagine if Vi had been able to go back to her- "What makes you different makes you strong". I feel like I am getting a little lost in the weeds here on this point so more simply:

A little girl wanting badly to fit in is told she is weak, she needs to be less afraid, she needs to fight and be willing to be hurt.

Her older-sister that she loves and looks up to tries to help negate these toxic ideas, but in a moment of crushing emotional duress lashes out and reinforces all of them. And is robbed of the chance to fix it.

She is taken in and raised by a man who tells her yes. All those things you have been are bad. But if you become this person I tell you to be, now your perfect .

Reunited with Vi

This scene is really quite sad. First of all, even after all this time, whne Jinx finds out about Vi being alive she puts faith in Vi to honor her promise of the flare. She still believes in her older sisters promise to come get her. Vi has spent seven years in isolation being abused and neglected wanting only to come back to her sister. Jinx has done everything asked of her to become the person she thinks she had to become and is OBVIOUSLY ashamed facing Vi. And the really bad thing is that its going well at first. Their connection even after all of this time hasn't been totally severed. Until the arrival of Caitlyn and the paranoia fed to Jinx by Sevika (and later Silco)takes over. All culminating in Vi being torn from her and her being alone. Again.

The Battle on the Bridge and The Suicide Attempt:

Once again we are treated to another example of the mass violence Jinx is willing/able to visit upon those she deems necessary but there is a deeper meaning to this incident.

Talking about Vi and Cait first: Regarding Jinx's interaction with Vi and Cait, Jinx does not attack at first. We see her openly arguing against her darker angels, insisting her sister is not going to leave her. AND SHE IS CORRECT. It is only due to the betrayal by Marcus that Vi turns around. Unfortunately this causes Jinx to spiral in that moment, hallucinating Caitlyn's face twisting demonically and launching a violent attack on both of them. Her actions here are wrong there is no debate. But she is not evil. She is not irredeemable. There is still a part of her that tries very hard to do the right thing and see the truth. But ever since Vander died and she was left with Silco, she has been taught that strength and vengeance and pain were the way forward and she is overcome by that darkness.

Fight with Ekko and the aftermath: Ekko steps in on the bridge and the two former friends (childhood crushes according to LOL lore apparently) have a brutal fight. At it's end, we see a glimpse of who she was once, before she detonates one of her bombs. Now, I have read all kinds of interpretations of this. From the most surface level- "crazy girl does crazy thing" and onward. As sad as it is, I see it as a moment of Lucidity. She knows what just happened. She just killed however many enforcers (I know we aren't really sad about them just considering the whole picture), she tried to kill Caitlyn, but worst of all, she almost killed Vi who she just got to see again. And now she is face to face with one of the only faces left who knew who she was and I think she just wants it to be over

Shimmer:

In terms of impact this literally physically alters her abilities for the rest of show granting her signature speed that impacts every situation we see her in after this. But on a story level, we get a much more heartbreaking point. She is hallucinating all throughout the "Life Saving" procedure. And initially what does she see when she is in so much pain and so afraid? She sees herself and Vi where Vi reminds her she is stronger than she thinks, She apologizes for leaving her, but then Caitlyn's voice enters and the hallucination grow frightening. Keeping in mind that the only reason Jinx has all of this distrust and paranoia toward Caitlyn is because of Sevika and Silco's manipulations, it feels like we are watching that good part of Jinx we know is still there struggling so hard against the poisonous effects of the life she was forced into, and losing.

Taking Caitlyn:

Not a lot to say here in terms of Jinx herself but in terms of the parallel between Caitlyn and Jinx that eventually comes to fruition and in terms of the interactions with Jinx that lead Cait down her own dark path this really important. Jinx has almost killed Caitlyn multiple times by this point but she is back home. She is safe. Until the woman rapidly becoming the face of her nightmares takes her from her own bathroom.

The Dinner Party:

So obviously, this incident is absolutely a turning point in who Jinx is. She has who she was represented in the dolls of her brothers. She has who she thinks she is supposed to be represented in Silco. And then she has the conflict, Vi. She knows Vi loves her. But Vi is also having her own totally understandable struggles with how her sister has changed. And all of the conflict and paranoia and anger have built to this incredibly tense situation. She offers to be be Powder again if Vi will KILL CAITLYN. She gives away the game. Powder would never ask such a thing. When Vi and Silco start fighting for Jinx's soul she is backed into a corner mentally seeing these specters of her dead family while Silco yells his dogmatic opposition to who she was and ultimately it all ends with Jinx making the choice to save Vi's life at the cost of Silco's. And out of penance, she strikes at Silco's enemy one last time. Top side. And I would say it is worth mentioning, that even with everything between them including Caitlyn's threat of violence against Jinx and Jinx's multiple attempts of violence against Vi and Cait by this point, She lets them leave. She doesn't stay around taking advantage of Vi's post Sevika injuries or Caitlyn's emotional distress. She doesn't try to hurt anyone else.

I have presented this information to you in phases. I presented the first section as covering her life until the events of her childhood shatter Power, remaking her as Jinx. The second phase has been the clashing of who she was against who she is. That conflict, that schism in her soul ripping her apart. And although it ends on a dark note I do believe the end of this is the end of that phase and the very beginnings of her learning to be just Jinx and what that means. A murky, dark, despondent beginning, but a beginning none the less. The sun is not always shining when kings are born, no matter what the stories say.

Section 3: Learning to Embrace The Storm

Meeting Isha:

Meeting Isha is the beginning of the clouds clearing in Jinx's mind. When we return to her in early season 2 Jinx has given up. She tells the audience everything is broken, and falling apart. She seems drained. That is until this little spit fire that would change her whole life shows up and jinx starts slowly having no choice but to wake up again.

The Battle with Vi:

So remember although I do consider this the early stages of Jinx finding herself, this stage begins in darkness. Jinx feels totally alone. Then sitting in her childhood haunt, she sees her beloved older sister in the uniform that tore their parents from them (i have done many deep dives on Vi if you want my thoughts on her decision to on the team I'd love for you to read them) It is the last straw for her. I think she has ended the clonflict between herself and who she was, but what does she have left? What is her reason for continuing? Right now, she doesn't have one. And to her, by walking wearing that uniform Vi has announced that aside from jinx's outrage over her wearing it, she believes Vi has given up on her.

This of course leads to the terrible fight in that large chamber. There are all kinds of things that happen here with various characters but we are focusing on Jinx. She has her pre-battle bravado speech of whatever then the fight starts. What I want to focus on is this quote here: "I'm glad its you.. it had to be you". Jinx says that to Vi just as Vi is preparing to finish her, and its like Vi can see her little sister in Jinx for the first time since they first reunited. This show does an excellent job of reminding us of their bond no matter what the circumstances or how dark the context. She doesn't beg Vi to stop or try to lash out at Vi verbally for her part in this. She is happy that if her life is going to end.. the last person she believes loves her is going to do it. That is of course, until Isha interjects and everything goes haywire./

Life With Isha:

"Jinx is dead". That is what Jinx tells Isha when they are discussing the outside world. Zaun is under millitary occupation, the people cry out for Jinx to help. But ultimately, what we are seeing here is a period that HAD to happen to help Jinx start progressing. She has a fresh start in this child and has clearly tried to make good on it. They play games, dye Isha's hair, tell stories and try to follow Vander's teaching and protect the one who looks up to her.

Forced back into the action:

As we all imagine, Isha and Jinx hideaway is doomed to end. Between the political unrest and Jinx being the most wanted woman in the twin cites this was a matter of when not if. But what's most important here to me is that Jinx is taking ownership of who she is, and what her responsibilities are. The starts to fill in the outline of who she is, with something other than grief and pain, even if its only slowly to start.

Her specters try to come back when she learns Isha has been taken but she gets control.

She is working much better Sevika for the good of her people even though they have never gotten along

She frees the Zaunites from the rally at risk to herself. We have that really moving moment where she realizes she means something to these people, as they do to her.

Her Rescue of Isha on top of just reinforcing this adorable bond shows us Jinx changing. She is more than the manic criminal who is ready to die. She feels guilt, and responsibility toward this child she cares for so she as Piltover's most wanted has come to this terrible place and put herself at risk to do the right thing. Even with all the years of pain and loss and twisted emotions, when push comes to shove does she do what Silco would? No. She does what Vander taught Vi to do- "When people look up to you, you don't get to be selfish"

Meeting Warwick/Vander (I'm just going to call him Vander for simplicity):

Before knowing who/what this creature is, Jinx immediately engages it in combat and tells Sevika to run and to get Isha out. She immediately is willing to sacrifice herself to protect her people. Now, I have read some people interpreting this as her wanting to die. I don't see it that way. She only pulls the bomb when she is reasonably assuming she is about to be violently mauled. She heroically risks her life, and is rewarded with what we all have been waiting for... "Powder"

Reuniting with Vi:

Jinx coming to Vi has shocked a lot of people but it didn't shock me. I know there has been so much pain and darkness between them. And right now, Vi is at her absolute lowest. But even through the hallucinations, the violence, the anger and the paranoia, Jinx's love for her sister has come out time and time again. Now, we are a point where due to "breaking the cycle" created by Silco and living her own life for the first time alongside Isha, while at the same time perhaps gaining a whole new perspective on what Vi has been through by taking the child under wing, Jinx has learned something of immense importance to she and her sister and does the right thing with that information. She loves her sister, and Vander's return is the door she is hoping Vi will trust her enough to step through with her, even after all they have suffered.

Saving Her family:

So here I am referring to the scene above and their adventure in the commune until Singed and Ambessa ruin everything. We really are given more of a glimpse into the ways Jinx is maturing while they are underground looking for Vander. We see her caring more for Isha, she compliments Vi even if its a sibling bickering style compliment, and she laments that Vander and Silco could have had peace had the letter been found. Jinx early this season tells us since Silco died her head has quieted. And I think they are showing that well.

Finally we get to Vander's arrival and while being obviously visually stunning it is also very intense. Vi is fighting for her life to protect them while Jinx is trying to figure out what to do as two people (one woman one wolf technically) she loves are trying to kill each other, and ultimately she convinces Vi to take a chance on trusting her. Now, I have written about this in another post but its worth repeating the scene is so wonderfully done. We know that Jinx has to be terrified she chose wrong. By bringing Vi here, she could have got Vander killed. By convincing Vi to lower her gauntlets she could have got Vi killed. The scene with Jinx flicking her lighter to see what happened, and she is so afraid that she has once again brought death to those she loved is just.. it hurts. But her relief and her joy to see what actually resulted, and to be welcomed into the family without judgement, its beautiful. And even though its short-lived and creates new struggles for her, we get to watch this woman who is so sure she is a monster, realize that because of her, her family is together and safe for at least that moment.

Not a ton to say for the commune itself, I would just say it mostly builds on she and Vi's relationship recovering. Vi is trusting her again, and they are facing the potential of being actually happy. Of course this is Arcane.. so see below.

Loss of Isha:

Okay. So as well all know, this was terrible. Not in a "oh that was shitty writing" kind of way although I'm sure some fans feel that way. But in a "how am i supposed to process that" kind of way. I have thought long and hard on this in terms of Jinx's arc, and the lessons she has to learn, and this is what I have come to believe based on my own understanding. To say Jinx has been changing, is undeniable. I stand by my premise that she is in the early stages of finding out what it means to be a person and be Jinx. Not the feral gun-slinger wearing a half-eaten carnival tent for pants with her loud music and snappy comebacks. But someone who can be trusted. Someone who be relied upon. We have been watching her take responsibility, learning to trust others (laying down her weapon at the commune), starting to really care again. But, there are still parts of that negative aspect of her she has been holding on to.

When it comes to Isha, Jinx is replaying her own story. We of course don't the specifics of Isha's origins but lets lay this out:

Undercity child all alone

Gets taken in by dangerous criminal with their own idea of how to show love

Child morphs themselves to fit the image of who their surrogate parent makes them think they should be either through word or deed.

I feel like I have not explained it well, but ultimately as sad as it is and as heroic as the little blue haired hellion goes out, this is all a result of Jinx continuing the cycle without meaning to because that's how generational trauma works. We as the audience know that Jinx's big lesson is building toward "finding the will to walk away". and "Breaking the Cycle". The problem is that without even meaning to, Jinx was teaching Isha to just take her spot on the ride. And we all paid the price to drive that lesson home.

Jinx in Jail:

Here we witness Jinx's "pit-fighter era". Just like her sister, she has fought, and bled, and sacrificed and tried to do the right thing, and come up short. She is picking at herself, her hair is loose for the first time all series, the show makes the conscious choice not to mention Isha out loud lending itself to the unspeakable tragedy of the child's death, and she just seems.. empty. But it is at this lowest point with the flash and the swagger and the persona dropped that we get very valuable insight into Jinx we have not up til now:

There was absolutely a time Jinx would have blamed Vi for stopping for from getting to Isha and been cruel to her. Instead Caitlyn tells us Jinx's 1st and only priority was making sure Vi was safe after Vi used her own body to block the blast

Jinx's apology to Caitlyn is worth so much more than people give it credit for. She and Caitlyn have not bonded for obvious reasons but what many people have missed is that they are both living variations on the same trauma and in need of the same lessons. Children grieving the loss of a parent who were taken and weaponized by someone who should have them helped heal. Not to mention blue-haired marksman. The fact that Jinx owns that it would likely have not stopped her at that moment but wants Caitlyn to know she didn't know is so well done.

Her last lesson from Silco is beautiful as well. Especially considering the truth. This is a lesson Jinx has learned and is walking through in her own mind. "I'm done running in circles", "Killing isn't mercy", "Break the cycle". Now it must be said, that given her attempt to take her own life, we know this all to have a fairly dark meaning when she is going through it. But its the fact that she knows this is all true. The seeds are there. These are massive developments in her as she takes ownership of who she is that allow the change in her when Ekko comes.

Her conversation with Vi gets me every time. She knows Vi will never stop. Vi would fight every enforcer in the building to get her out if she had to. Because at the end of the day what has endured throughout the entire show? "Are we still sisters?.. nothing will ever change that". Even if their bond has strained, changed, or warped at various points. it has always come through in the end. And knowing that Vi will never have the happiness she deserves if she continues to try and save her, Jinx makes the decision to leave and implores Vi to accept the love and happiness she wants for her.

Jinx and Ekko:

So I know this GIF is from the AU, and the AU was before the jail stuff. But in terms of who our Jinx is dedicating a whole thing to the AU didn't make sense because the lessons Ekko learns there have much more to do with who our Jinx might be someday. And that's how he saves her. Jinx has two fundamental beliefs about herself that are the final roadblocks in her realizing she has worth:

"There's no good version of me"

"Everyone who gets close to me dies"

We will deal with number 2 soon. But in terms of the 1st one. This is the moment. She has surrendered, she has given up at this lowest point not caring if she dies, and here comes Ekko. "The Boy Savior" and he uses what he knows about her potential to save her life and give her the will to keep fighting, which allows those lessons that were merely seeds before to bloom in her. "Killing isn't mercy", "Break the Cycle", "I'm done running in circles".

I have seen much made about the fact that Vi wasn't the one to save her and Ekko was. I have explained in excruciating detail in other posts why the Vi haters are wrong about essentially everything they believe, so I won't go there here. All I will say is no one can save everyone. Sometimes its the right person, with the right words, in the right place and time. And Ekko was that for Jinx. Just like she was in the AU to help him save his reality.

JINX RETURNS:

Here we see Jinx fully realized. Not the terrorist. Not the grinning nightmare who stole Caitlyn naked and afraid from her bathroom and offered Vi her little sister if she would only murder the woman she loves. Jinx leads the undercity to battle in her style, honoring where she is from, her sister (Vi's Bunny on the balloon), Isha and more. She thunders in blasting music and unloading on the enemy with a colorful machine gun having finally made peace with who she is and believing that who she is deserves to have a life.

The Sacrifice:

Remember I said we would address Jinx's number 2 worst fear about herself- "Everyone who gets close to me dies". In this moment, after leading the undercity in saving the day, after rejoining her sister and LITERALLY having her back, Jinx makes DAMN SURE that the person she knows never truly gave up on her or stopped loving her makes it out. It is heartbreaking and painful, it is also heroic and beautiful to see this young woman who has experienced so much sorrow protect the person with whom she shares a bond so strong it has never truly faded. If you recall, the very first moment we share with these incredible sisters is one of tragedy and pain. And in that moment we see Vi holding fast trying to be strong for her sister, but what happens when her sorrow threatens to drown her? Her little sister takes her in her arms and tries to comfort and protect her.

I like many of you, believe that Jinx is alive. We have all seen the videos expounding on the reason why. And it makes sense. The end of her story in this show is her moment of accepting herself as she is now and ready to let the crushing guilt and grief that has tortured her for so long go. She knows the only way for she and Vi to have peace is to walk away.. at least for now.. We haven't seen her happy ending because now that she is the person she has been working to become, she is off to find it on that airship.

Conclusion: Yall. Jinx is an incredible character. She is so complex and layered. And I feel like because of the rushed pacing of season 2 we missed a lot of scene fleshing out her development. But as I continue to say we can only work with what we were given. and what we were given will stay with me forever. I honestly felt I was not quite smart enough to do her justice here but if it helps even one person appreciate this character even more I'll call it a win. As i said in the beginning, Jinx's story is so wrapped in mental health i totally understand if you feel I was way off base with something. I just appreciate you reading. Take care.

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