#second therapist it is i guess
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The way I was totally right about my therapist being able to do not shit for me in this situation lmao
#second therapist it is i guess#she was like 'we need to identify your Emotions about this'#like girl the emotions are Bad idk what to tell you in terms of specifics#me and all the other coworkers are going through it and I'm the only one who will see a therapist about it#like man we are All Suffering Here all the emotions can't fall to me#I'll do it but fuck's sake#this is literally a nightmare i hate it here#and we have new people who are coming into this raw so that's interesting#like they're obviously not emotionally affected bc they're new but they're not getting the best of vibes rn#i feel kinda bad bc we're not being super welcoming to them but what can you do#anyway#not snz
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Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors
Me: *Is super stressed over life.*
Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.
Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.
Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.
Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.
Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.
Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*
Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...
Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL
#is this tmi? oh well. this is the tmi website#trichotillomania#dermatillomania#onychophagia#bfrb#body focused repetitive behavior#ocd#guys guess what? my therapist all but prescribed that i get a manicure to prevent picking at my skin#apparently after a year with this therapist i never mentioned my finger picking until this week#and she was like 'ok since you find it tough to paint them yourself get a manicure. self care and preventative'#because my cuticles are horrific due to me constantly picking at them and the sides of my fingers#so i've always been too embarrassed to go to a nail salon and my therapist was like 'exposure therapy!'#currently my nails are sloppily painted because i can't hold a brush still and they're already chipping after like 5 days#actually they probably started chipping on the second day honestly.#i need to redo my twists a bit which actually satisfies the trich urges since i'll be running my fingers through my hair to do it#but i won't actually be pulling. but also. i will be getting the shed hairs out. so. kind of fulfills that.#but right now my nails are long enough for me to feel them sometimes hit my keyboard. which. isn't normal for me.#and despite the nail polish i feel the urge to bite them shorter ahhhhh#anyway if you're Black with natural hair and have trich i HIGHLY suggest mini twists since it helps deter me from pulling#sure i have to redo it every few weeks but seriously. game changer. harder to find individual hairs to pull.
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Guys. It’s 5 AM and I have two exams, a lab, an interview, and a concert today, I’ve gotten no sleep, and yet in the time I was meant to be sleeping, all I could think about was Rosegarden because of course they take up any and all down time I get but
Guys.
What if. At the end of it all. Salem and Ozma have departed the world. The gods have left for good. Everyone is standing in one place, uncertain. And someone asks, “so… what do we do now?” And Ruby and Oscar look at each other and say at the same time, “whatever we’d like”
BECAUSE THEIR CHARACTERS ARE FOILS OF OZMA AND SALEM AND WHEN THEY FINALLY REACHED THEIR GOALS TWICE THATS WHAT THEY SAID BUT FIRST IT WAS OZMA AND THEN IT WAS SALEM BUT THIS TIME ITLL BE OSCAR AND RUBY AND ITLL COME FULL CIRCLE AND-
#I literally forced myself not to get on my phone when I was lying awake in bed trying to sleep because I needed sleep#and checking your phone when trying to sleep is not the best for you so literally when my alarm went off I came here to bestow my idea#I know people have had this idea before but to me it hit like a train and I had to let it be known#stheim stop thinking about rg for one second of your life challenge failed#my therapist is going to be so concerned#yet again#do you see my vision#rwby#rwby theory#I guess#I know it’s not explicitly rg but it was down the line of thought of rg so I’m tagging them anyway#rosegarden#rwby rosegarden#rosegarden rwby#ruby rose#oscar pine#rwby salem#rwby ozma#greenlight volume 10#greenlight rwby volume 10#greenlightvolume10#crwby
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ive seen ppl saying smth in the wider plagiarism discussion to the tune of "don't worry anxious people, it's impossible to accidentally plagiarize!" and i feel like that lacks a lot of nuance that anxious brains like mine latch on to to just dismiss the possibility outright, as well as a lack of life experiences fueling it.
it is possible to "accidentally plagiarize" in that you can read something, forget about it, then a while later have your brain spit the ideas back out without telling where it got them. so of course you just assume they're yours and share them as such, because That's Where Most Of The Thoughts In Your Head Come From! and it both is and isn't plagiarism, you weren't /intending/ to pass someone's else's work off as your own, i'd even say in a way you were just as much a victim of misinformation as your audience. but you very much so did still resuse the work of someone else, even if you don't remember it.
but in my experience, this kind of thing also happens to a lot of people. you tell a friend a joke then wake up in a cold sweat two days later realizing the reason they didnt laugh was because they'd told you that joke a month ago. you reply to a friend's text and after sending you realized you ended it with the same exact phrase as theirs. you're writing edgy poetry and write a line you really like only to see it in a text post two days later saying youve already liked the post. like, it happens. so if it DOES happens and you're just honest and explain, people will understand. something like "oh shit im sorry, i totally have read that, i mustve forgotten and only remembered bits and pieces and just thought they were mine. thank you for letting me know and for the source" works wonders.
people know you can forget things. people won't automatically doubt your apology just because all true plagiarists say it was accidental. HOPEFULLY people can understand the nuance between a genuine remorseful explanation, and a thief who hoped no one would find out scrambling for excuses for why they did it. and those who can't, that's a them problem, not a you problem, you've taken responsibility for your actions as much as you can. they think the answer is simple, that the only thing stopping you from saying "yes i did it on purpose, i knew the whole time and deliberately copied them" is shame/inability to admit to your actions. but sometimes things AREN'T that simple, so imo ppl who are shitty to you for not following the script they made up for you in their head should be ignored
#youre allowed to make up scripts for people in fact good luck stopping yourself since thats kinda just part of how conversation works#is you try to predict how your audience will react to a certain statement#and my therapist actually encouraged me to practice run stuff i wanna talk about in sessions because That Makes It Easier To Talk About#like who cares if it's rehearsed‚ it's still the truth‚ yknow?#however that only applies to the things /you/ want to say. you are the only one aware of this script and the only one who agreed to it in#the first place which is why you plan contingencies into the script#is because you only have control over one character and can only take guesses at what the others might say#if you guess wrong and they do something different that doesnt mean /theyre/ not following the script#it means /your/ copy was a misprint and you filled in the blanks wrong. so do what good actors do and improvise. you'll get back on script#eventually. or not‚ if your guesses devolved into wildly speculative fanfiction‚ but frankly you knew going into it that#most of your script was guesswork so you should be prepared to have to make some things up on the fly#or see again: prepare contingencies#if your guesswork on your copy of the script turns out to be wrong‚ wouldnt it be sooo handy to have a second copy which follows this#version of events much better?#and if not that one‚ maybe this third? how about this fourth? etc etc etc#but really just. when guessing at what others will say. know that you are guessing and dont hold it against /them/ if youre wrong#sorry ik that wasnt super related to the post itself im just also passionate abt that#plagiarism#james somerton
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I am very lucky that the personality and temperament I had in mind for Rook as a starting point just so happened to align with what Bioware had in mind and thus I enjoyed spending time with her (even if I did try to steer in to the hubris and regret and making mistakes thing with... rather little payoff), but.
Perhaps it was a unique mistake to choose the Veil Jumpers for my faction, because Bellara is the most competent of all the Veil Jumpers and Rook knows basically nothing, but.
Like, why is Rook there? Rook isn't someone Solas doesn't know; he says he's been keeping an eye on her the entire time she was with Varric and Harding (let's never mind about how for the minute). She has no unique skill like the Inquisitor. The story isn't about her in an irreplaceable way the way it is for Hawke. The Warden, the most blank slate of them all, is a better and more determined leader, no matter what other personality traits you give them, who has to struggle and fight for every victory. Rook isn't even an expert in her own field, because whatever companion shares your faction is.
So what exactly is Rook bringing to the table, here? What can she offer to this story? Why does it need to be hers?
#aside from the fact that she is a qualified therapist i suppose#i don't know man i simultaneously enjoyed rook and was befuddled by her presence#and found her arc um. unsatisfying.#not even rooks companions seem to care about her in more than an abstract way#like when she was trapped in the regret prison and all the companions were like#we've been trying to save you for weeks and now you're finally back!!!! phew#i was like oh shit they care about her? they missed her? that's a nice development that feels like it came out of nowhere. thank you.#idk i'm only a little bit into my second playthrough so i don't mean to be definitive about this#but the companions feel like. almost uniquely self-absorbed in this game#like. thinking of morrigan calling you friend after so much careful work to show her kindness#or alistair's faithful commiseration about how hard and sad everything is#or josie asking the inquisitor about their perspective on their backstory before the conclave#or or or etc. idk! i feel like 'thank you rook' only goes so far? does that make sense? and that's all rook gets. ever.#she's not their friend she's their therapist slash hr department#like it'd be a bummer if she wasn't around i guess but the story could go on without her. she isn't crucial#like. assemble a team of experts! and rook is there too also#i looked forward to talking to solas because he alone was interested in rook as a person#even if it was for his own nefarious ends (affectionate)#god when he asked why rook's in charge and i had literally no idea#dragon age#veilguard critical#da4 spoilers#i have been away and know scholars no longer
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Ah. The scrupulosity.
#been doing generally better lately to the point that i had been starting to second-guess some of my suspicions#but over the past week i have been. hm. noticing things#currently it's a distressing guilt spiral over something that's not really my fault but still feels like it is#which is more than enough to make me miserable#oh andreas we're really in it now etc etc#i don't think my therapist knows much about moral ocd so i've been having trouble talking these things out or getting a diagnosis#but maybe. i should push a little harder
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I need someone that can handle my repressed memories lmaooo because tell me why I accidentally got soap in my mouth and then stood there for a hot second because I remembered my mother shoving a soap bar into my mouth and I remember feeling her hand going back and forth with the bar as she held my head down with her other hand and I remembered looking in the mirror telling myself to never forget what she was doing but then I had completely forgotten that until now. I was around 8 years old(im 25 now)
But Like yeah sorry I dissociated for second I promise I'm not a Debbie Downer just like let my brain load back to reality. I'm like super hot super fun or whatever.
#lmaoooo ahhhhhhh its okay yall im also on new meds just let my brain settle#soup brain#mental illness#actually mentally ill#mental health#it tasted very similar to the soap bar so i think thats also why it probably wasnt triggered before#alexa play that one song that goes i can be a good mother#also like thank god i live alone imagine having to explain why i stood there staring in the mirror for a hot second with a blank face#tmi#repressed memories#i guess thats what happens when you start talking about your childhood with your therapist
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Do y'all ever get like weirdly resistant to doing things bc people keep asking you to do them? Like there's a book series I wanna read but a friend has been pestering me to read it and keeps asking if I've read it and gets kinda bummed whenever I say I haven't yet.
And like, it's making me wanna not read it bc fucking jeez I'll get to it when I get to it and if I force myself to read it bc they want me to I won't enjoy it bc it'll feel like an obligation or a chore and not something I'm choosing to do for fun
But on the flip side I feel bad bc I'm SURE I'll like it bc it's super up my alley, and I know they're recommending it bc they like it a lot and they know I'll like it too! And actually I had found and intended to read this series BEFORE my friend ever read it! And I wanna talk to my friend about this thing they like even if I end up not enjoying it yknow?
But the stubborn part of my brain is digging in it's heels and getting weirdly resentful and wants to NOT read it bc said friend is so excited and like??? what a shitty emotion, to start to resent the idea of something bc someone you care about likes it??? fucking WHY ugh let me try the things my friends enjoy
#I have to force myself to talk to friends about joint interests sometimes#like a bunch of us have all listened to tma#but I'm not finished and they are and I don't want to tell them I'm trying to get caught up#bc they'll get all excited and expectant and then my brain will do this thing and make me stop#I always complain about wanting to talk to people about my interests#but like the second my friends are in to something I get weird about talking to them about it#and idk why#like am i worried I'll like it differently? or “wrong” somehow?#am i worried they'd judge me if I'm TOO into it (but like no they won't i know this??)#am i worried they'll be disappointed if i don't like it as much as they do??#and this is EVERY shared interest#like why am i so resistant to talking to specifically my irl friends about shit we all like????#idk another convo for my therapist i guess#whenever i find one again
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today i was catching up with my friend and i had to be like yeah i haven’t been out much lately surviving the horrors have kinda turned from a nights thing to every moment i have my eyes open thing and she suddenly went serious and said “do you know what triggered it because something must have” and that’s when i remembered she’s a therapist…
#and i’m like a therapist’s worst nightmare#i was just trying to explain why i haven’t been to school in weeks</3#i have no clue what you mean with ‘what usually starts it’ like It hasn’t left since i was 9#it’s okay we moved on a few seconds later<33 and i’m going to school tomorrow#IF SOMEONE TELLS ME THE ASSIGNMENT#i also don’t know why it got this bad it does when i let it i guess
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REALISED I FORGOT TO SAY GUYS I AM OFFICIALLY BACK, NOT MENTALLY BUT I AM PHYSICALLY.
#okay OKAY OKAY NEED TO EXPLAIN.#batman the one that's not me#visited me IN THE NIGHT#also the shelter burned down don't worry everyone's fine#anyway batman visiting me#and basically like okay yeah sorry you had a psychotic episode bc of me here's some resources to help you#my friend brian told me it was a psychotic episode probably????#ANYWAY continuing#okay so first of all I can actually charge my phone enough to post#Second of all so I'm travelling now I guess because I NEED TO work out my deal#also brought brian with me because I honestly need the company and he's a therapist
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i try my best not to think of it and i havent in years but the fact the only people who were ever supposed to be my friends irl would always dump their love on me and then to leave me & say they dont like me over and over and over again only so they could watch my reaction n make fun of me together maybe did affect me huh
#i am normal i am not affected ii do not see ◡_◡#[distant sounds of me crying & screaming && gasping for air &&& ripping myself to shreds like a bear]#i was always an autistic lil freak who didnt speak so i guess i shouldnt be surprised#but like. i always just wanted them to like me#i always just wanted the chance to like them back and let be allowed. always just wanted someone to be pals with. someone i could trust to#have my back for once vs everything else#i remember such a specific moment right#and we were going on a roadtrip w her and one i already had#and they ended up talking before we left#the worst part is i had to keep seeing them. i had to just keep reliving the humiliation over n over again n it got so deep in me#& the og one had a plan that we would sit together in the back n n we had like. tons of stuff brought we could do n snacks n all this#n then at the very last second literally as i had just sat down she was like . actually. i dont want you back here. i want her she's way be#better#and i remember so specifically she was like. LOL look at ur face..........#and so i had to sit up front alone w nothing to do the entire ride but listen to them make fun of me for it#i feel like it would be better if they had left it at that but then they always came back n treated me so sweetly so i was like . ok i have#a chance#maybe they do like me#like the same girl went on to share cookies she had bought w me and we sat on the lawn for hours hanging out n eating them#and then she did it again#and again#but i was so alone in the world otherwise that i stayed#for years n years#my therapist always talks about how because of how long ive had anxiety means itll take either equally as long or longer to recover#and all i can think ab is how i lived with everything horrible at home#always just wanting to escape#to living through bad things outside of it too#just piling on top#from 6-16#and i kept going back
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Stayed up literally all night on Tuesday for no good reason. Expected I'd be really sleepy on Wednesday, but instead I was VERY awake. And twitchy. Flinched at noise more than usual. Couldn't concentrate even medicated. Got bitten by the inspiration bug and did some animating in a haze of divine madness, that part was fun. Overall fucked up and stressful would not reccomend
#sleep deprivation#turns out you produce more cortisol when you're sleep-deprived#or so says my therapist#fucked up if true. I mean i guess it makes sense#body notices you not sleeping. Assumes you need to stay awake.#stresses you out so you stay awake#it was yikes#the creative burst was great though.#Tumblr's being a bitch about letting me maje a post people will SEE#but i made a lil animatic#it's like 16 seconds
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my main goal is for everyone to like me is that wrong
#these tags are just me doing dbt for several paragraphs’ worth of text#so. proceed with caution ->#not really everyone. but as many people as possible#i finally feel like i’m starting to fit in with my partner’s friend group and i feel really good about it but now i’m second guessing that#like is this a normal level of ‘hooray new friends’ or is it like ��ah yes i’ve been accepted. i’m getting a good grade in Personality’#which is great! considering the disorder#as i was typing that i thought about what my therapist would say. and she’d say that external validation is somethig everyone needs sometime#it just ideally shouldn’t be your only source of motivation#but it’s ok to want it and be happy to receive it#verdict: not unhealthy#and! it is also normal and healthy and good to be excited about new friends!#double and. i think a little preening and trying to people please isn’t necessarily a bad thing when you’re new to the group#make them glad you’ve joined yknow?#i’m ingratiating myself#plus i gotta make up for killing the vibe at game night by being to mtgpilled 💀#ok problem solved!#personal#dbt
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It gives me hives whenever therapists suggest that maybe a medical issue could be the result of unresolved trauma/a delayed reaction to trauma. That’s a baseless claim… literally, pseudoscience. To be clear, I think that psychological trauma can induce physiological stress that can contribute to the development of medical issues (disease and chronic illness). But that doesn’t mean that you can look at the end state, and conclude etiology just from that. And yet, therapists do this… ALL THE TIME.
#idk shit like this is why i second guess becoming a therapist#it’s fucked up. stay in your lane. not everything is 100% psychological!!#this bothers me so much because it’s an example of medical gaslighting. pure and simple#and it’s pseudoscience — with about as much merit as christian science#(nothing against christian scientists — the difference is we aren’t licensing them and regarding them as healthcare professionals)
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I'm gonna have to get on the evil pills pms is really ruining my life
#i swear it's fucking with my adhd and making my life 5 times harder#i hate it when mental health professionals don't take pms seriously like it's not in my mind it's literally my hormones going haywire!!!#and the chemicals in my brain are always already going haywire don't you think those two things may have some negative interactions#anyway i hate taking contraceptives but at least i don't need an adhd diagnosis for those#which I'm working on getting but what do you know it's hard to find a professional who knows what they're talking about in this city#the neuropsychologist i saw was useless#also transphobic and voted for the fascist asshole#i hated every second i spent in there#my therapist found me a better second option but i was burned out from the first try and when i finally called she didn't pick up#and guess i have adhd so i haven't called again#it's a fun catch 22 to he stuck in#alex txt
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been keeping shiv and roman’s unnamed therapists in my thoughts this past week
#ik they were filled with dread the second they read the headlines#actively seeing how many open spots they have so they can prep a schedule in advance#the unnamed therapists could easily be a bit but idc they’re real to me#roman’s therapist sighing rn: i guess the work on setting boundaries can take a pause for now#they need a raise STAT#shiv roy#roman roy#succession
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