#seb is cn

[emomeishibot]

For the Henry AU I sketched some of the scenes about Ciel from my friend’s CN sbcl fanfic. which I’m glad they are rewriting recently, to fill in the missing chapters lost over the years from the original post.

Ciel’s eepy, for his soul is leaving his body bit by bit, but none of them knows that at this moment and Seb will regret that he did not realize it sooner. Ciel’s drinking coffee instead of tea to stay awake…

Ciel reads Seb’s journals and occasionally annotates them with complaints because he can😗

[postsofbabel]

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[littlemissidontcare]

Yeah it’s definitely not him / you're the most delusional person there is lmfao, why wouldn't he has g out with his friend Margot??? 🤡🤡🤡 you want to alienate him from everyone judtsl you CNS say "yes he wasn't with Annabelle" 🤡🤡🤡🤡

Are you drunk? I’m not alienating him from anyone, I’m simply saying that isn’t Seb. It doesn’t look like him at all, even if he did shave and cut his hair.

[softichill]

To all the characters I’ve had crushes on:

WHY ARE YOU ALL IN THE CHAOTIC ALIGNMENT

[jeffrrandell]

My Sumouski Family Analysis!!! Heres ALL of Sumos sibbies aged up! Most of them I had to give names myself hehe

[pilmyeol]

talking to seb about hsav is gonna make me cry ive been like. reading the fucking novelupdates comments and NONE of those people get it like he does

[bwoahtastic]

Usually when Seb needs to be fucked 2 of the alphas come around and watch the pups whilst Seb goes to the alphas house to fill his needs. This time though all the alphas and pups are together for family night and bit by bit the kids all get put to bed and Seb starts feeling this kind of itch but ignores it because he has to put the pups to bed. Eventually they are all in bed and Seb is feeling restless just needing to be fucked so the alphas take him to bed. Seb getting fucked trying to keep in all of the noises not wanting to wake the pups up however Seb hears the baby monitor go off meaning that one of the pups woke up. Part of Seb wanted to make the alpha stop so he could check on his pups, but he couldn't do that because the itch he had for the past few days was getting scratched and he didn't want to stop luckily one (or two) of the other alphas went to sort out the pups.

Seb getting knotted and feeling knot drunk and when he comes to it realises the alpha that had left still hadn't come back and he wants all of them in his bed so he goes searching for them. In one of the rooms he sees several pups (even ones whose room it's not) cuddling with the alpha fast asleep in the middle of pile and that is the moment Seb realises he got lucky with the 3 alphas and wants to mate them all. He's not too sure how it'll work but he wants to date them all and mate them all especially considering the pups already call them all different variations of the word dad.

PLLLSS Seb knowing he needs to be fucked real bad. He cn feel the itch but it has been busy with all the pups needing a lot of momma love. But he knows he needs it now so he calls his 3 Alphas. All the pups seem to be asleep so all three Alphas can join him in the bedroom and Seb is just so happy and purring a lot. Dan fucks him first and he sucks Lewis off and Kimi just quietly pads off to check on the pups when the monitor goes off.

Dan and Lewis knotting him and Seb is just rosy and happy after and going to check on his pups and seeing so many pups sprawled over Kimi who is fast asleep too sksk. Lewis brings some last missing pups in to complete the cuddle pile and Dan comes in carrying a snoozy, clingy Kevin and even goes to carry Nico in too ksksks. Everything to have the chaotic family altogether and Seb gets so happy and emotional because he knows these 3 alphas are his happy ending!

[niennandil-me-writes]

try to hide but i see you

cn: gore, violence, murder, paranoia

[I wrote this for @steamblade’s Birthday, who owns Morpheus, Gwydion and the monastery this writing is set in. Other characters who are mentioned belong to @arocalyptic]

My head is full of nightmares and flare guns I try to wake myself but I can't run Away from what’s been hunting me in my dreams For so long and now I hold my breath And count to ten

Seb Adams – Nightmares & Flare Guns

A scream in the night made Morpheus look up from his reading. It wasn’t a loud scream, certainly not loud enough to wake anyone. In fact, the only reason it had been audible at all was that it was perfectly silent in the library, the soft sound of book pages turning being the only thing to disrupt it. But while it wasn’t loud, it did sound desperate, maybe even more so. It sounded like someone was hurt, and badly, like someone could barely get enough air in their lungs to scream for help.

Morpheus immediately got up from his desk and hastened down the corridor between the high bookshelves, taking off his reading glasses on his way. As soon as he stepped out into the hallway outside the library, he spotted the origin of the scream: Another monk, an elf woman, on hands and knees on the floor. Her wide robes were green, but stained red with her blood, just like the floor behind her, where she must have first stumbled and then crawled, judging by the drops and smears.

“Don’t move!” Morpheus called out and ran over to her. When she heard his words, she looked up in fear at first, but then her features slacked in relief as she recognized him as a fellow monk. Morpheus kneeled beside her. He knew the woman only by looks, had seen her often in the meditation room or talked to her during a meal, but he couldn’t remember her name right now, and the shock of the situation didn’t help.

He spotted the reason for the blood immediately: Multiple deep slashes on her arm, her hip and a smaller gash into her chest. Following the trail of blood she had left with his eyes, which was going far beyond the curve in the hallway, he was astounded that she had even made it that far. She was still clutching her shortsword.

He directed his attention at the monk again. “It’s going to be okay,” he murmured while he summoned healing magic into his hands and then touched her gently. She gave out a sigh as her wounds closed, not completely healed, but at least no longer a threat to her life.

“What happened?” he asked.

“Someone attacked me,” she said, the disbelief in her voice just as big as the one in his mind.

“In the monastery?”

She nodded.

“A monk?”

She shook her head. “Nobody in our garbs. And I didn’t recognize him.”

He shook his head as well. They were both thinking the same thing: It was impossible for anyone to get into the monastery without the monks’ knowledge. Nobody even knew where it was located, and the residents only brought their personal guests, whom they trusted. Besides, who would break into the monastery and brutally attack a seemingly random monk?

Morpheus looked at what was left of her wounds. He bit his lip. “What did they want?”

“He – he wanted me to lead him to someone…”

“Who?”

“Couldn’t say. I got away before he could go on. Got my shortsword between his armor plates and ran off.” She gripped his robes. “We have to do something!”

“What did he look like?”

“Big, many scars. He wears black armor and a tattered coat. Wields a greataxe.”

Morpheus nodded along to the description, having already half expected it – as much as he had hoped to be proven wrong – but then he faltered at the weapon.

“Here’s what we’re going to do,” he heard himself say. “You are going to look for the guards, tell them what happened and send them where you last saw him. And then you get to a proper healer. I’m going to go look for that intruder right now. Where did he attack you?”

He expected her to argue, to tell him he shouldn’t go on his own, but maybe due to the blood loss, she just nodded and gave him the directions and then hastened away.

“Tell them to bring holy water, if they have any!” he called after her right before she disappeared around a corner. Then he drew his rapier, cast Pass Without Trace, and set off. He followed the monk’s directions, but didn’t even need them, as he simply had to follow the drops of blood she had left behind.

Teo Dagger. In the monastery. Not for the first time in his life, Morpheus asked why it had to be him of all people. He was beginning to wonder if it was his destiny, his curse, to always be confronted with this maniac. What was he even doing here? For that matter, what was Morpheus doing? Why didn’t he wait for the guards?

Because, he answered himself, any minute that nobody did anything could be an innocent monk dead at Teo’s hands. He realized with some concern for his own mental well-being that he thought he could not just beat Teo, but even talk sense into him. Which was ridiculous. He had only met him twice so far, but he knew that there was little else in his head but murder and violence, that he probably wouldn’t even let Morpheus utter a sentence before he went at him with his beloved greataxe.

Still, he knew that Teo wasn’t completely beyond reason. He had witnessed that himself. The question was if Morpheus could achieve something only a deity of madness had done so far, or if his determination would only end in his death. He could try at least. Unlike any other person in the monastery, he knew Teo, knew at least a bit of what made him tick. He had seen him hesitate, had even seen him do something good for a change. He had seen him cry.

After two minutes of running down the hallways and a long flight of stairs, and then down a corridor again, the blood trail ended, as did the directions of the monk. Morpheus gripped the rapier tighter and looked around, but nobody was there. He didn’t know what he had expected. Teo waiting for him here, Dex already raised for an attack?

Morpheus’ tail was whipping around nervously. He didn’t even know what Teo wanted here. He was apparently looking for someone. Probably to kill them. Definitely to kill them. There wasn’t really any other reason for Teo to get interested in someone.

His investigations of the surroundings lead Morpheus to some different blood splatters on the ground, separate from the ones of the monk. He remembered that she had stabbed him. There weren’t many stains, but they led in the direction of another flight of stairs leading downwards and then ended there. Since it was his only lead, Morpheus went down, more careful now.

It was getting darker, as places that far down weren’t usually kept lit during the night. That could be to Morpheus’ advantage. Unlike Teo, he could see in the dark. Maybe he could get the drop on him. He reached the end of the stairs and looked around. Still no sign of any living (or undead) person, but when he turned left, he noticed a doorway, the heavy iron door standing wide open, as was the grating behind that.

It was only then that Morpheus realized how far down in the castle he was. He must be close to the cellars now, and that door was one of the few that led farther down into the bowels of the monastery, far below ground. He had never been there, few people had, but he had heard stories of them. Was this how Teo had been able to get into the monastery unnoticed? But that was impossible. From what he had heard, the tunnel system was a labyrinth, which only few monks knew how to traverse. And Morpheus knew Teo well enough to know he didn’t have the smarts or patience to find the way on his own. Morpheus felt a coldness grip for his heart. Had someone helped him get in?

Then another shock took hold of him, as a blood-curdling scream echoed through the hallway. It felt like an ice spell had been cast on his stomach, cold shudders running through him, paralyzing him for a moment. It was hard to judge with how distorted from pain it was, but the voice sounded so familiar. But that couldn’t be, it just couldn’t.

Shaking off the shock after what felt like an eternity, Morpheus dashed into the direction the scream had come from, away from the open door, down the hallway, towards a left turn.

And all the while he was thinking of the half-elf who was probably, hopefully, sleeping nested in a bed of pillows in the big sleeping chamber, or lying awake, impatiently waiting for him to finally finish his work in the library, but either way he was safe, surrounded by people who could protect him, he had to be, because if he wasn’t –

Morpheus turned around the corner, rapier drawn in front of him and then he froze up. It was only now that he realized how much he had hoped he was wrong, both about the origin of the scream and about what kind of monster would be waiting for him down here. But of course, as so often, he was disappointed.

Teo was standing with his back to him, his grimy coat already soaked in blood. And pressed to the stone wall by the handle of the axe whose blade was cutting into his shoulder, blood streaming from a gash on his face and sticking his hair to his scalp, was Gwydion.

Morpheus had clasped his left hand over his mouth. He felt like throwing up. His whole body was shaking.

Teo had not noticed him yet, too deeply focused on his work, but now Gwydion’s eyes darted over to Morpheus, and for just a moment shock and fear replaced the pain on his face. Teo tilted his head and then turned a little to look behind him, still fixing Gwydion to the wall with Dex. The maniacal grin on his lips spread even wider when he saw Morpheus. He twisted the axe blade around a bit, making Gwyn scream again.

The scream tore Morpheus out of his stupor. His mind was racing and then finally he touched his arcane focus and yelled: “Don’t hurt him – or me. I am here to talk.” The magic rang in his voice, twisting itself into Teo’s head, who looked annoyed for a moment, and then yanked his weapon away from Gwydion. The half-elf slumped to the floor, holding his bleeding shoulder, and breathing heavily.

“Morpheus, get away!” he yelled.

Morpheus kept his eyes trained on Teo, who was looking at him impatiently.

“What are you doing here?” Morpheus asked. “I thought you were supposed to be trapped in the Abyss. Or…” His eyes shot to Dex, who Teo was holding almost tenderly, running his fingers over the bloody steel. “I thought you would only get him back once you were worthy of him.” Or once he had found a way out of the deal he had struck. None of this made any sense.

“I was sent here for a hitjob,” Teo explained, and left it at that.

“On whom?” Morpheus asked.

Teo grinned. “You.”

Maybe he was just out of shits to give for that night, but this time Morpheus’ reaction wasn’t shock, but blank confusion. “Me? Why would anyone have me killed?”

Teo shrugged. “I’m not here to ask questions, just to kill you.”

“This doesn’t make sense,” Morpheus said. “Last time I saw you… you gave up Dex. You gave up… I thought something had changed.”

Now it was Teo who looked confused. “You didn’t actually believe that, did you?” He laughed dryly. “To be honest, I don’t think I’m capable of changing.” For a moment, Morpheus thought he saw something else in Teo’s face, muted even below his usual barely existing expressions. It distracted him enough that he only realized what Gwydion was doing when it was too late.

The half-elf had disappeared into the shadows on the floor and then reappeared in the shadow Teo was casting, a dagger in his hand.

“Stop!” Morpheus shouted, but it was already too late. Gwydion went for Teo’s neck, but Teo turned around at the last second so the blade stabbed into his shoulder instead. He sucked in the air with what sounded more like satisfaction than pain, grin spreading on his lips again, as the attack broke the control that Morpheus’ spell had over his brain.

Teo swung Dex around and hit Gwydion in the stomach. Blood splattered on the stone floor and walls, on Teo’s face, soaked Gwydion’s blue garbs. He was thrown back against the wall by the impact, his eyes rolling back into his head, but he was still alive. Before he could fall to the floor again, Teo had gripped into his long hair and yanked it to pull him up. With one hand, he raised the axe.

“Stop!” Morpheus screamed again, more desperate this time.

“Don’t worry,” Teo said without lifting his eyes from Gwydion’s face. “I’ll get to you in a minute.”

“I’ll let you do anything you want to me, but please, leave him alone!” Tears were running down his face.

Now Teo looked up, glancing between him and Gwydion. “Who is he to you?”

Morpheus remembered a moment at the shore of the ice-cold lake at the edges of the Abyss. “He’s everything I have.”

Teo stared at Morpheus. He lowered Dex. Morpheus sobbed. Then, still looking Morpheus in the eyes, Teo sliced the blade into Gwyn’s chest, splitting bones and organs. Gwyn’s death scream almost got lost in the wail coming out of Morpheus’ own throat now, but at the edges of his mind, he could still make out a garbled “run!”.

And he ran. Teo was right behind him, and picking up pace. Morpheus sprinted down the corridor, but when he reached the stairs, Teo was already there, in his way, holding Dex in front of him, ready to attack. Morpheus dodged and then, since he didn’t see any way of getting past Teo, he ran on, past the stairs. And then he was at the doorway leading down into the tunnels again. He didn’t really have a choice. Morpheus ran down the stairs.

He didn’t know what was waiting for him down there, but he knew it was better than facing Teo. The stairs seemed to be going on forever without turning, until finally he arrived at the bottom. There were corridors going off from this point, left, right and straight ahead, framed by walls of weathered but solid rock. Just like the rest of the monastery, the walls were ornated with symbols of the Three, triskeles chiselled into the stone. Maybe long ago they had been painted In various colors, but now the stone was weathered, brittle pieces stretching the three arms longer than they should be, and the damp air had let lichen and algae grow inside them. Without thinking, Morpheus ran right.

It was dark down here, almost too dark even for Morpheus’ darkvision, but he didn’t dare use a spell to cast some light. He kept going, until he reached another branching in the corridor. He went left and then pressed himself to the wall, left hand clasped over his mouth, trying to be perfectly still.

He still hadn’t fully comprehended what had happened, but now it was starting to sink in. Gwyn’s death cry was echoing in his head, into every bone in his body, making his blood freeze. He tried to close his eyes and breathe but all he could see was his partner’s mutilated body covered in blood. He was dead. Teo had killed him.

It would have been so easy to let despair take him over then. Just sink to the ground and wait until Teo found him and finished the job. He might even have called that merciful. But he couldn’t forget Gwydion’s last word to him. Run. He couldn’t give up now. He had to keep going. If not for himself, then for Gwydion. Or his death would have been completely in vain.

Morpheus opened his eyes, wiped away the tears, and focused on listening. He heard heavy footsteps, but they were getting farther away. Good. If he could just keep hidden from him for a while longer, the guards would doubtlessly find the signs of a fight and come down here, and that would make dealing with him easier.

The steps were barely audible anymore. Morpheus allowed himself a muffled sigh of relief. At the same moment, Teo came dashing across a corner ahead of him, his grin just as sharp as the edge of his axe which he was swinging at Morpheus. It was too late to dodge. Dex cut into Morpheus shoulder and then swung around again. This time, Morpheus could evade the attack and answer with his rapier, which slipped between Teo’s armor plates and stabbed him in the side. He used the momentary advantage he had to dodge past Teo and run back the way he came from.

If he was fast enough, he could make for the exit before Teo caught up to him. Then he would be in an environment he knew again, where it would be easier to hold his ground. He took the risk of slowing down a bit to send some healing magic through his body while he was running. Dashing around the last corner, he stopped. The stairs should be exactly here. But they weren’t. Morpheus turned around. Had he taken the wrong turns?

He heard steps coming from an opening in the walls to his left. He reached for his quiver, pulled out four crossbow bolts and placed them on the ground on every side of him, weaving magic around them. Then, he darted off again, hoping he would find the exit somehow if he just kept looking. He had been running for only a few seconds when he heard some of the bolts go off, hitting something – twice the wall, once armor and once something that sounded a lot like split flesh. A low chuckle echoed through the stone corridors.

“He can’t hide forever, Dex.” Teo’s voice was far off, and getting even farther away, as both Morpheus and Teo were running in opposite directions. But this time, Morpheus didn’t trust the sound. After the last surprise, it was clear to him that something within the architecture of this place made it transport in weird, misleading ways.

“Though I have to hand it to him: He’s making this a lot more interesting. Wish he’d stop hiding and start attacking, though. What did I even kill the other one for if that doesn’t even get him to fight?” He chuckled. It sounded like he was getting closer again. And Morpheus still hadn’t found the stairs. Before he went on, he leaned down again to place another Cordon of Arrows on the ground. The spell was just finished, when he heard footsteps coming closer, and then Teo was in front of him again, the bolts immediately taking off towards him. Three missed, the last hit him in the chest, puncturing his armor and lodging itself deep inside his flesh. Blood ran down the bolt as well as Teo’s mouth, but he was still grinning from bloody lips.

“I hope you didn’t think that would stop me. Only makes it more fun.”

Morpheus jumped up to evade the axe striking down on him. Teo seemed a bit disappointed.

“After all, where would the fun be if this went the easy way? I like the hard way.”

He swung Dex around. This time, he struck true. A bit lower and Morpheus whole head would have been cleaved in half. Instead, the blade struck only his right horn, hacking it off. A dull pain rang through his head and spread through his entire body, and then he felt the axe handle twist under his legs. He lost his balance and fell.

He tried to slink backwards, but his shoulder bumped against cold hard rock. He was trapped, the wall behind him, Dex in front of him. Teo stepped closer, hunching down before him. He lowered the blade almost gently to Morpheus’ chest, cutting through the outermost layers of his robes.

“I love the hard way.”

Morpheus swallowed. He was listening intently for any sounds betraying the arrival of other people in the labyrinth. They had to be coming soon. He knew there was nothing left he could do but stall for time. His head was still ringing, it felt like his skull was cracked. He felt the cold steel on his chest, and then white-hot pain as the blade cut into him.

“Why are you doing this?”

Teo shot him a confused look. “Are you seriously asking me why I want to kill you?”

“I – I don’t mean that. I know you are a sadistic asshole. But why me? Why come here? Why would your masters send you here to kill me? What would a demon lord want with me? This doesn’t make any - ” He froze. Teo had never said who had sent him.

Morpheus leaned back against the rock wall again, where he could have sworn there had been an entry into another corridor, where he had wanted to escape just a moment ago. He had put it down to being disoriented from the attack, but now he wasn’t so sure.

As Dex cut deeper into his flesh, he sucked in the musty air, and beneath the already familiar dust and mildew, he smelled the stinging tinge of saltwater, and algae. He looked up at one of the triskeles chiselled into the wall in front of him, which had too many arms and algae growing all over it, making it look a lot more like writhing tentacles.

He looked at Teo. “This is a dream.”

Teo seemed annoyed.

“Aberrant was the one who sent you,” Morpheus said. “To kill me in my own dreams.” He knew he should be angry, fuming at his patron for putting him through this, for forcing him to meet Teo again, but all he could feel was relief over the fact that Gwyn was still alive. A laugh came over his lips as the tension fell off him.

“Don’t worry,” Teo said, guiding Dex down to his stomach while leaving a bloody trail on his skin. “The pain won’t feel any less real.”

Morpheus screamed out as the steel cut and twisted into his guts. His fingers gripped for something, anything, to hold on to, and then he felt the leather cover of a book under his left hand. Of course, he had brought it all the way from the library where he had been reading it and then dropped it as Teo attacked him. And remembering that, he knew what he had to do. There was a reason he had come down here.

“How did you get Dex back?” he asked through gritted teeth. “You didn’t answer me before.”

“Not by earning him, if that’s what you mean.” Teo did not stop his work while he answered. Morpheus did his best not to look down, not to think about his organs being torn apart and ripped out of his body. “There was no chance I could ever do that. Not without him. So I just went up to Aberrant and demanded him back.” He stopped for a moment to tenderly run his own fingers over the opposite blade, drawing blood which trickled down the axe head and onto Morpheus’ wound. His eyes were fixed on Dex. “I just couldn’t be without him.”

“And Marlowe?”

Teo flinched at the name, but didn’t answer. He yanked Dex inside the wound, twisting him further into Morpheus’ guts.

Morpheus tried to ignore the pain to ask again: “Did you demand him back as well?”

Teo withdrew the blade from Morpheus’ abdomen and in the same quick motion brought it to his throat instead. Morpheus forced himself to remain calm. He knew he’d struck a nerve.

“If you are that irredeemable monster that you pretend to be, then why did you let him go? Why not keep killing him again and again, like you did before?”

“Shut up.” Dex bit into Morpheus’ neck, but only skin-deep.

“I’ve seen that there’s something good inside you. Something capable of making the right decision. Even if you don’t allow yourself to see it, that part of you is still there.”

“Then why,” Teo said with a voice, a face that was devoid of any emotion, “why am I doing all of this? Why do you think I keep killing people? Why do you think I kept killing him? Do you think you’re the first person who tried to convince me I’m better while I was murdering them? And you can’t even imagine how good that feels to me.” The grin returned to his face, but it looked strained now. “All I can think about right now is how much I love tearing you to pieces, and how amazing your screams of pain sound. That and the look on your face when I killed your partner.”

Morpheus swallowed down any anger he felt over Teo’s words. “Because you’re lonely.” He hesitated. “I was there when you let Marlowe go. When we arrived, you stood in front of him like you wanted to protect him from us.”

“When you arrived, I had just killed him! Because – ”

“Because you didn’t want him to leave you.”

“Because killing him was fun!” Teo shouted. “That’s why I killed him over and over again. It’s what I do.”

“You killed him for the same reason you killed Dexter.”

This time Teo didn’t respond, so Morpheus went on, warily: “That first time we both travelled to Aberrant I saw you murder a dream version of your husband.” He gripped for the book next to him. “And then immediately after that you said – “

Teo moved Dex forward and Morpheus was pretty sure that half of his neck was cut open now. But this was his dream. In dreams, you died slowly, and even though he should be choking on his own blood now, he could talk on, albeit with silent voice: “You don’t do what you do because you are an irredeemably bad person. You do it because you’re desperate. Because you’re lonely”

“Because there’s nothing else left to me, and I’m too selfish to give that up as well,” he said dryly. “What does that change?”

“I’ve seen you be selfless, though. I’ve seen you make the right choice. I know you can do better.”

He opened the book that was lying beside him, the book that had been part of his personal library ever since that first venture into the realm of Aberrant he had been part of. A dried wreath of daisies was lying within the pages as a bookmark.

He picked it up and slowly and carefully sat up, leaning back a bit to get the axe blade out of his throat. The blade didn’t follow his movement, even as he moved forward. It was pointing at his chest now, and cutting him when he leaned towards Teo, but he pushed the pain aside.

With trembling fingers, he put the flower crown on Teo’s head.

“I think he knew that as well,” Morpheus said and then placed a soft kiss on Teo’s forehead.

Dex’ blade was directly at his heart now. All Teo had to do was push a bit forward to kill him, and Morpheus was expecting he would. But instead, Teo just sat there, unmoving.

Morpheus removed his lips from Teo’s skin. “This is my dream, you know, and dreams don’t have to stick to reality. Dreams are made of thoughts and memories,” he explained. “I’ve seen you cry, Teo.”

He felt Dex be pulled out of his ribcage. He prepared for another strike. But it never came. Morpheus leaned back a bit and looked at Teo. He was trembling, hugging his axe close like he was clinging on for life. Tears were running down his face, washing away the blood on his skin. Morpheus took him in his arms and gently wrapped his tail around him. Teo laid his face on Morpheus’ shoulder and cried into the blood-soaked fabrics of his robes, his body shaking from violent sobs.

And like this, the dream dissolved.

[redbullseb]

i am like technically on hiatus bc that’s what i keep telling myself but a life update for the brick wall i talk to:

there is light at the end of the tunnel for my research !! still a ways to go but i have all my ideas and i’ve crunched the numbers and really it’s just a matter of grinding for the next two days to finish my rough draft. sigma mindset call that grindset

i have a lot of club/publication stuff to take care of this weekend and early next week scream but also i am sooo excited because things are coming together and the semester looks like it’ll be Fun!! god i am just <33 i love the pressure and managing things like it is Stressful but also it is Not because it is Something I Love

i am moving back to my apartment soon!! freedom!!! mental stability on the horizon!!!! homeostasis not a joke my friends!!!

seb’s dsq do be hitting Hard but also not as hard as i was expecting it to ?? i fully credit that to getting back into my other interests/seeing my friends again n feeling relatively normal for once

anyway life is like relatively gucci and i think i’ll be mia for the next week ish too but hopefullyyy i can be back asap to hype ppl’s cool art up and talk to friends again! missing u all mwah have a bad blurry pic of the cn tower i took yesterday <3

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I cN totally seb seb hiring a dominatrix or a submissive to get kinky with. There are model who do that on the side and get paid slot of money for it. You really can’t believe just modeling small gigs allows them the live in nyc with $$$$ living. It’s part of the modeling industry as a side gig.

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Andrew Bogut, Animals, and Cats: ADOPT ME! Rocko 54035... spunky, friendly, affectionate, playful, & sometimes a bit feisty adorable little Rocko is your typical Russell Terrier boy How can you resist? This little cutie is said to be 13 yrs young, 22 lbs & is waiting for you to save his life at the Manhattan, NY ACC. Inquire about him now before it is too late! **FOSTER or ADOPTER NEEDED ASAP** Rocko 54035... spunky, friendly, affectionate, playful, & sometimes a bit feisty ... adorable little Rocko is your typical Russell Terrier boy. How can you resist? <3 For a New Family to Know: Rocko is an adorable little guy who loves treats, toys, a good game of chase & playing with other pups. He was surrenderd due to his beloved owner passing away & her daughter not having time for him, poor little guy. :( This little cutie is said to be 13 yrs young, 22 lbs & is waiting for you to save his life at the Manhattan, NY ACC. Inquire about him now before it is too late! ✔Pledge✔Tag✔Share✔FOSTER✔ADOPT✔Save a life! Rocko 54035 Small Mixed Breed Sex male Age 13 yrs (approx.) - 22 lbs My health has been checked. My vaccinations are up to date. My worming is up to date. I have been micro-chipped. I am waiting for you at the Manhattan, NY ACC. Please, Please, Please, save me! ****************************************** To FOSTER or ADOPT, SPEAK UP NOW & Save a Life: Direct Adopt from the ACC Or Apply with rescues Or Message Must Love Dogs - Saving NYC Dogs for assistance ASAP!!! ****************************************** The general rule is to foster you have to be within 4 hours of the NYC ACC approved New Hope partner rescues you are applying with and to adopt you will have to be in the general NE US area; NY, NJ, CT, PA, DC, MD, DE, NH, RI, MA, VT & ME (some rescues will transport to VA) UNLESS you can get to the shelter IN PERSON. ****************************************** Basic Information: Rocko is a 13 year old small mixed breed. He was given to her previous owner after her grandmother passed. She can no longer keep them due to not having enough time to care for them. Previously lived with: 1 adult, 2 children, 2 dogs How is this dog around strangers? Rocko is friendly around strangers and will approach them and sniff them and lick them. How is this dog around children? Rocko lived with a 1 year old and a 10 year old. She was calm with the children and would relax and lay with them. How is this dog around other dogs? Rocko lived with a 4 year old altered male and a 4 year old altered female. They were playful and would spend most of their time playing chase together. How is this dog around cats? Behavior around cats is unknown. Resource guarding: Rocko will growl, snarl, show teeth, and snap at other dogs when approaching him while eating. Bite history: Rocko has never attempted to bite or scratch any human or animal. Energy level/descriptors: Medium: Likes to relax but can occasionally be exuberantly playful. Other Notes: Rocko enjoys being brushed, being held and does not mind being disturbed while resting, being pushed off the furniture, or having their feet touched. They have never had their nails trimmed and will struggle against getting a bath. Has this dog ever had any medical issues? Yes Medical Notes Rocko is overweight. For a New Family to Know Rocko is a friendly, affectionate and mellow dog who loves to follow his owner around the home. He loves all treats and toys. He is an indoor only dog who ate dry food 2 times a day. When going on walks he would pull lightly against the leash. Intake notes: Rocko came into BxRC on leash. He had relaxed body language and allowed counselors to approach him, pet him, and scan him for microchip. He remained calm for the intake then allowed counselors to collar him, leash him, position him for photos, then pick him up and place him in the kennel. Date of assessment: 4-Feb-2019 Summary: Leash Walking Strength and pulling: None Reactivity to humans: None Reactivity to dogs: None Leash walking comments: None Sociability Loose in room (15-20 seconds): Moderately social Call over: Approaches readily Sociability comments: Distracted, sniffing around room. Approached when called Handling Soft handling: Seeks contact Exuberant handling: Accepts contact Comments: Soft body, moved away when legs touched Arousal Jog: Follows (loose) Arousal comments: None Knock: No response Knock Comments: None Toy: Grips, relinquishes Toy comments: None Playgroup: When introduced off leash to dogs Rocko greets politely. Date of intake:3-Feb-2019 Summary: Relaxed body, allowed handlng ENERGY LEVEL: Rocko is described as having a medium level of activity. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: Level 1 Behavior Asilomar H - Healthy DVM Intake Exam Estimated age:13yrs based on dental and ocular findings Microchip noted on Intake? yes Microchip Number (If Applicable): 0A112F1752 History : brought in by (deceased) owner's daughter; limited hx Subjective: responsive; friendly Observed Behavior -friendly Objective BAR H PINK 1 SEC 101.1 EENT: Eyes- NSOU, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: LEFT CARNASSIAL TOOTH DISEASE PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated; UMBILICAL HERNIA U/G: MC MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, SMALL SUPERFICIAL mass ON SHOULDER AREA, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Assessment 1) LEFT CARNASSIAL TOOTH DISEASE 2) SMALL UMBILICAL HERNIA 3) SEB ADENOMA ON DORSAL SHOULDER AREA Prognosis: GOOD Plan: AT NEW O'S VET-- REC'D DENTAL TREATMENT REC'D SUPERFICIAL GROWTH REMOVAL ON DORSAL SHOULDER AREA ... NOTE: *** WE HAVE NO OTHER INFORMATION THAN WHAT IS LISTED WITH THIS FLYER *** - For more information, or to direct adopt, please EMAIL adopt@nycacc.org - SUBJECT Line: ** Dogs Name & ID# ** - Don't forget to add your email address and phone numbers where they can reach you to your email as well. .... ****************************************** RE: ACC site Just because a dog is not on the ACC site does NOT necessarily mean safe. There are many reasons for this like a hold or an eval has not been conducted yet or the dog is rescue-only... the list goes on... Please, do share & apply to foster/adopt these pups as well until their thread is updated with their most current status. TY! ======== Shelter addresses ====== - Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St., New York, NY 10029 - Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard, Brooklyn, NY 11208 - Staten Island: 3139 Veterans Rd W, Staten Island, NY 10309 - Phone number: 212-788-4000 (is automated only) Operating hours: Monday through Friday 12.00pm to 8.00pm, Saturday & Sunday: 10.00am to 6.00pm. Closed on all Holidays. ****************************************** About Must Love Dogs - Saving NYC Dogs: We are a group of advocates (NOT a shelter NOR a rescue group) dedicated to finding loving homes for NYC dogs in desperate need. ALL the dogs on our site need Rescue, Fosters, or Adopters & that ASAP as they are in NYC high-kill shelters. If you cannot foster or adopt, please share them far & wide. Thank you for caring!! <3 ****************************************** RESCUES: * Indicates New Hope Rescue partner is accepting applications for fosters and/or adopters. http://www.nycacc.org/get-involved/new-hope/nhpartners ****************************************** https://www.nycacc.org/adopt/rocko-54035 ++++ http://nycaccpets.shelterbuddy.com/animal/animalDetails.asp?s=adoption&searchTypeId=4&animalType=3%2C16&datelostfoundmonth=2&datelostfoundday=5&datelostfoundyear=2019&tpage=6&find-submitbtn=Find+Animals&pagesize=16&task=view&searchType=4&animalid=91994 ++++ ++++ Beamer Maximillian Caro Hocker Carolin Hocker Ja Ku Stephanie Stadler

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Joyeux anniversaire mon cher Seb ! Bienvenue au club des 50 !!! https://www.instagram.com/p/CN-pBTfKK6R/?igshid=1r8uiegw32grr

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Nina, Seb & Roy in #corrie 21/04/21 #ninalucas #sebfranklin #roycropper #coronationstreet @mollie.gallagher_ @eyyya_visinoni #davidneilson https://www.instagram.com/p/CN-FL_3hyp-/?igshid=dl6kh0vnpk27

[coolchevistianofficialsite]

What do you think of the current state of Disney XD USA?

Disney XD can be summed up in one word: IS STILL THERE and is sad that Disney hasn't put it out of its misery But Seb what about what this Tumbrl user says: that the channel has more variety than CN & Nick! 

NO that is the most boomer statement.

 First of all people don't watch TV anymore everything is now streaming, when was the last time someone watched Disney XD live? besides a Wander Over Yonder marathon for the #SaveWOY movement.... that's it nobody

We are saying goodbye to a channel who dosn't care and used to do Let's Plays from Youtube and shoves trought our mouths many Gravity Falls reruns which only diehard fans will love but regular fans who want variety besides endless reruns of Gravity Falls and Phineas And Ferb which those two are now avalible on Disney+ NOPE

We're saying goodbye to a channel who dosn't have anymore original content, Lucasfilm Animation left them for Disney+ and Marvel Animation left them for Disney Junior and Disney Channel to create more quality Marvel content with a collaboration of DTVA and if Moon Girl And Devil Dinosaur becomes a sucess (which will be) Big Hero 6 The Series is ending and leaving the BH6 brand for a Walt Disney Animation Studios show for Disney+ and DuckTales is leaving to and the next step is the same with a Darkwing Duck Reboot for Disney+. 

 Disney XD is now the equivalent of Boomerang and Nicktoons and just is Disney Channel Animation Reruns The Channel and the fact that worldwide has shutted down it shows that The Walt Disney Company focus is Disney+ ,Disney Channel & Disney Junior We only have 5 left this year who knows which will be the next one for the purge, i made a experiment in TVA News in how to improve the channel with no relation to bringing Toon Disney back and the general concensus is clear, it lost it’s potential cash cow of anime Pokemon and their acquired shows from Europe are going to Disney+ to

Nobody wants this channel anymore. So in a TLRD: Disney XD needs to Disney X-Die

[chimechoho-a]

seb keps tryn 2 bite m antenn btu thts ok i cn keep hm away n i 4giv him