#screams into my hands

[shepscapades]

There's something so... heart wrenchingly beautiful about Etho's playlist ending with a song called "Happier"

It feels like a "see you later" in weird sort of way? Not an actual ending or goodbye, but rather peace of mind knowing that in the end, perfect or not, everything ends up okay. All the pain and fear he went through was worth it. Because now he truly is "happier". He got his happy.. not ending, but happy life. It's not perfect, it's never going to be perfect, hell it's not even the end of his journey. There is still much more pain, and fear, and love that he has yet to experience, that he will experience because no matter what, he is human in some sense of the word, and that means he will never get an "ending" before the real end.

Yet despite all of that, ending on happier feels like meeting an old friend after growing apart, and finally accepting that it wasn't your fault. Finally getting the closure you needed. Finally being able to forgive and move on, because even if it's not pretty... it's better this way, and the journey is just a painful part of the beautiful destination where he is finally Happier.

FFFFF I'M GOING TO CRY, oh my god, oh my god yes. you get it. it's not an "ending" to his story, but its like a warm embrace and a reminder that all of his hardship has given him the tools to face whatever will come in the future--that's he's more equipped now, with both company and experience, to take whatever life throws at him in stride. Sobs into my hands, thank you this is such a beautiful analysis <3

[prudentfolly]

Oh, Captain.

Prudence spends nearly a year on the first while she waits for Odette to show up. A lot can happen in a year.

This is a very casual relationship, used for stress relief and companionship. Prudence is very attracted to competence and the fact that Lyna can be a little stern and all business, come on. She does everything in her power to be a nuisance.

[madame-mongoose]

hey

you are insane

[immobiliter]

if varric considers you a friend, there is very little he would not do for you and he will wield all of the influence he possesses ( which is actually a great deal, he's not only a bestselling author but also an influential member of the dwarven merchants guild AND the viscount of kirkwall, plus he has powerful friends all over thedas ) in order to make you feel valued and appreciated and alleviate any troubles that you may have going on in your life :))

[ibeewashere]

THE FACT THAT LIAM OBRIEN MAKES A LIFE IS STRANGE REFERENCE AFTER USING THE FRAGMENT OF POSSIBILITY DURING CAMPAIGN 2 EPISODE 22 AND IT GOES COMPLETELY UNNOTICED IM SO. IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS OH MY GOD AND HOLY SHIT NOBODY CARES ABOUT THIS BUT ME BUT STILL. LIAM OBRIEN MY FAVORITE NERD

[twifairy]

continuing to toss out gkv crumbs for the perhaps 3 people who will find this funny

[mxaether]

spent like 15 minutes total doodling during a work meeting to keep my brain occupied enough to listen. shoulder and elbow fucking killing me now, because absolutely fuck me i guess

[emevergreen]

YOU'RE TELLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kyshiwarrior]

thinking about the kyoshi novels thinking about the kyoshi novels thinking about the kyoshi novels thinking about the kyoshi novels thinking about —-

[archivedolon]

i keep thinking about aphelios sitting alone in his room watching old videos of him and alune singing and laughing together during practices or old performances and just…. remembering

[johnbottoms]

I cannot stop fucking thinking abt that sandwich I had in colorado.... like oh fucking god jesus it is haunting me like the most pleasant most tasty nicest kindest ghost ever I love u babygirl I think of u every day every hour every minute and every second. god

[ahollowgrave]

No thoughts, only more of Ninth House Cavalier Odette. Pictured here with two of her necromancer's skeletons.

[prudentfolly]

sometimes we must be self indulgent.

you understand.

[madame-mongoose]

everytime i think "oooh i cannot possibly get worse about him" i do. this is so fucked up literally. someone free me

[isforever-moved]

Seeing as you have Barbie on here for now, got a question for em. How would she feel if Blitzø died?

how   would   she   feel   if   her   brother   died?   once   upon   a   time,   it's   a   question   that   would   have   made   her   stomach   twist   into   knots.   it   would   have   broken   her.   but   in   the   throes   of   her   addiction,   she   had   made   peace   with   her   own   death.   the   reaper   would   come   for   everyone   eventually.   surely   it   would   come   for   her   brother. 

maybe   his   death   could   be   a   sort   of   atonement.   it's   his   fault   their   mother   was   dead,   her   father   readily   reminding   her   of   it   every   chance   he   got.   it   was   his   fault,   but   as   his   twin,   she   was   some   sort   of   extension   of   her   brother…   and   she   blamed   herself.   could   it   have   been   different?   if   she   had   done   something   different,   could   she   have   changed   that   night?   no,   maybe   not.   maybe   that   was   what   fate   intended.   the   son's   mistakes   leading   to   the   death   of   his   mother…   their   mother.

“   i…   i   don't   know.   ”   it's   admitted   with   a   scoff,   because   deep   down?   he's   part   of   who   she   is,   they're   two   parts   of   one   whole.   she   wants   to   carry   her   father's   rage,   but   rage   and   sorrow   had   nearly   brought   her   to   ruination   in   her   desperate   desire   to   numb   the   pain.   “   i   mean   fuck…   i   don't   want   him   dead.   i   just   don't   wanna   fuckin'   see   him   ever   again…   ”   a   pause.   she   knows   the   truth   of   the   matter.   it   would   lead   to   another   spiral,   it   might   be   the   pain   that   truly   breaks   her   cold   heart.   “   i'd   be   sad,   i   guess…   but   i'd   get   over   it.   that's   how   shit   goes,   you   get   the   fuck   over   it…   besides,   he's   already   fuckin'   dead   to   me   anyways.   ”

but   he'd   haunt   her,   even   as   a   ghost.   the   memories   of   good   times,   an   anger   she   couldn't   put   away…   he's   her   brother.   she   doesn't   want   to   be   around   him,   but   she   still   mourns   him.   she'd   mourn   him   even   more   in   death.

[lilbittymonster]

I have reached 17k words in 22 days.

That's an average of 775 words a day.

I'm going to bed now.