#screaming out my asshole

[inkskinned]

am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.

you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?

okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.

but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.

i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.

and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?

[megzorzan]

[insurged]

just an fyi, i'm sorry i'm slow. at everything. replies, dm's, asks, etc. this is a hobby and i'm a tired 580 year old in spirit who works full time in the medical field and will be going to do more schooling for it. i follow people for a multitude of reasons but my vibe is always that i just enjoy seeing your content. i'm not going to put a time limit on when we have to interact/chat and soft block you when you can't meet that deadline. i try to interact or like posts when i can as a silent hello from afar. if you are following my blog and expect me to follow deadlines in terms of writing or even chatting, my blog is not for you. i am also not someone who has puppy dog energy to constantly be on the dash and chat and love everyone.

i am a cryptid old cat. i love from a distance. (◕‿◕) just a gentle reminder that i do this for fun, it's not a job.

[userautumn]

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[endlessfuckup]

saw your post about no longer wanting to be a phan blog and i just wanted to say i get you especially the reaction to this tour has been very uncomfortable and i could never figure out exactly why it felt... overbearing ig??? but it has been building and the tour leak and announcement just seemed to put a spotlight on people seem to have learned nothing from the previous years and seem to think that now that they're back it's okay to push their boundaries because they're engaging with us again. and tbh i appreciate you for helping put into words the discomfort ive been feeling and it sucks that it turned out like this that the enjoyment of the thing gets harder because of others

I was so so hoping it wouldn't get like this again

The first 5-6 months of the gaming channel being back were mostly wonderful

Everyone was behaving and respectfully enjoying dnp being back as a duo

I've seen/felt it building up over the past few months but I kept ignoring it because I figured it was just newer phans who didn't know about any of "the lore"

But every time I'd check their page out it would almost always be someone in their mid-late 20s who has been around for 10+ years

I was dumbfounded

I genuinely cannot believe people still treat Dan and Phil like tv characters who exist purely for entertaining the masses

Its really sad

[pierrelucdisaster]

The toughest part of fulfilling one of my biggest goals of becoming a writer was having to figure out how to not be such a fan of teams and players. I struggled with it early on bc my first story was about someone I had already made a ton of comments about being very talented. But this story has really fucked it all up for me. And I don't think it's a fan thing, I think it's just this person isn't a good person. Or maybe it is a fan thing bc I always thought they were a good person. It's weird to be in this spot where you see a part of someone's true colors and you have to keep it to yourself... and then actively avoid them and their friends.

[tonya-the-chicken]

Every time I read a review of "Global South" country politics it's always "We are defying the US by doing this and this. And "This and this" is being friends with authoritarian regimes and not giving a fuck about victims of genocide. But hey! International leftist solidarity against the victims of American imperialism :) If you're a victim of any other imperialism then fuck you. We are building stronger relationships with "Usa's rivals" (regimes that are the reason you are suffering rn)

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

when people rightfully pointed out that catra never compliments or comforts adora, a c//a stan said this:

interesting.

quality time.. like this?

don't you get it? catra is forcing adora into a position she isn't comfortable with, and gaslighting her to make her stay, because she loves her

acts of service? like this?

she's giving adora physical and psychological scars, isn't that so nice of her?

what was the last one? physical touch? oh i've got a bunch of examples of that, you're gonna love it.

this isn't unwanted touch or pushing away adora when she's trying to reach out, it's just how catra shows affection. right?

be for fucking real. either you haven't watched the show or you're deliberately acting dumb so that you can keep supporting abuse.

you're right. not having words of affirmation as a love language ≠ being a horrible person. however, constantly torturing and manipulating people and *checks notes* committing multiple war crimes = being a horrible person.

[florallylly]

sorry queen but a cheater is a cheater is a cheater and that's not a label i easily let go of

[jupiter--dream]

(cw vent, sorry it's just been A Couple Of Days)

Not really having many irl friends comes at the price of feeling so terribly lonely, I feel like I have no one to talk to because I'm not close to enough people, or maybe I am and I just haven't talked to them in a while and I don't want this to be our first conversation qwq

I'm honestly just. Tired, tbh qwq

[megumi-fm]

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[actual-corpse]

Watching Avatar the Last Airbender...

Politely reminded of the time people wanted my head because I said that ATLA ruined storytelling because some people can't fucking think critically of media before trying to tell you what's so good about it.

I LOVE AtLA! Adore it! But like.... A majority of people watched Zuko switch sides and said, "Damn... What if we redeemed ALL the villains?" Without realizing Zuko wasn't a true villain in need of redemption.

But... The Redemption Game isn't truly JUST the fault of AtLA... There was a shift in the Moral of the Story. Idk how to explain it bc I'm half asleep, but like...

[insurged]

ANNOUNCEMENT: blog hiatus from may 7-10th !! i won't be on here since i'll be visiting my grandmother in CA.

[angel---eater]

Fucking fuming at my brother who, when we came out as trans as a teenager, convinced my mother that T is gonna, idk, hurt us or something. Make us fuckin' radioactive. Make all our hair and teeth fall out and turn us into ''something unrecognizable''. And of course because my mother is the type to believe (verbatum quote coming up) ''microplastics are the reason why young people these days are autistic, depressed, and anxious'', she believed him, and thus went out of her way to impede our hormonal transition until we quite literally gave up. Guess who's been on T for just under a year? My brother. :) Found out by overhearing his new voice through a video call with our mother. Killing him with my fucking mind.

[savage-rhi]

.Magenta.

[jazzy-mass]

So. Restoration huh?