#save these if u want idc anymore

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[bixiaoshi]

activities to distract myself from the feeling of despair bcs i'm still unemployed and feel like my life has been stuck since i graduated university

[mimiteru]

I ACCDITENTLY PUT MY NITARA HC OUT OF THE DRAFTS WHAT I DIDNT EVEN FINISHED WRITING 😭😭

dude this is what happens when you have shity internet Dx i know there was a option to edit but before i realize that i deleted the post 🔫 idc anymore i'm gonna write it again

how tf does this app work i'm sorry mutual who reposted my draftJDKS

ANYWAYS MY NITARA DELULU HC LETS GO

tw: death of a character, mentions of vomit

• Remember Kahil? You know the vampire who once was user of the datusha/kriss and bc of it's power he kill most of the Vaeternus, moments later he commits suicide trapping the sword with him?

Well lets put more emotional damage and say this was a relative to Nitara, maybe a brother why not

(i rewatched the Nitara intros and her mother also died damn, that's rough buddy)

they had a really strong bond, so Nitara was broken and devastated by his brother's tragic end, and after a long time of grief, this "revelation" as she would say, came to mind. From this time she tries so hard to save her so no Vaeternus could face the fate of death

And you know, "trying" is a strong word, the coven at this point are kinda tired of her all the time visiting them and bringing her failed ideas

The coven are like: "yeah yeah you know why don't you go and try to take over outworld or something" as a joke just to get rid of her.

And she did go to Outworld so..

• Now, her voice... It's not the best, it's so monotone and she doesnt realize it

But now i can't stop thinking about her with a valley girl accent, the way she would say the word "like" repetitively in one sentence is insane

There were times when Havik just rip of his own ears to not hear her, she talks a lot

She likes to do monologues, i feel like it's normal for Vaeternus to have this... Theatrical way of speaking, that goes on and on

Nitara does not know how to lie, if you dig enough she would accidentally say the truth or let out her plans without knowing

• At first the interactions Nitara has with Rain were harsh but later he starts to understand the big problem that the Vaeternus were living in, so maybe these two will be allies in the future??? Please??

Tho at this point she is trying to persue ppl to help her cause, whether it's from the good guys or the bad guys, and not even god itself wants to make a solution to help the Vaeternus yeah she's fucked

With the fictional dead family i create around her it makes a little bit of sense when she's trying to make Smoke a vampire too, Nitara sees herself since the guy also lost his mom and sister

or instead he sees her brother in Smoke, which is kinda creepy and dark but thats how my girl copes <33 /j

• The Vaeternus have a way to go to Earthrealm from centuries ago, this could mean that the vampires have more noledge of human traditions, slangs and even technology than Outworld does

This can also includes Earthrealm pop culture, influencing the way they dress or act, there could be Vaeternus who moved to Earthrealm permanently, hiding in the shadows

Imagine miss girl tries to make chitchat with Havik, Darrius and Sareena making a Earthrealm references and everyone just look at her like "wtf r u talkin about?"

This is chronically online comunicating with normal people

Nitara finds Earthrealm movies about vampires fascinating by the way of how they portrayed her kind, bc sometimes those movies are so wrong and sometimes they are so accurate its scary

She finds the "familiar" character to be very useful, she will have it in mind and maybe find one of those to help her look for food and other plans

• There was a time when the vaeternus didnt need blood to maintain their survival (idk if it was on Liu Kang or Geras intros) and there was were other things they could have feed on, but little by little vampirism began to be part of their nature that it was impossible to change their ways, condemning their own species.

Trying to get back to a normal diet probably would take another millenia

And if they eat or drink something no blood related i imagine them vomiting A LOT and with a horrible stomach pain, not the best moment for a vampire

• Her eyes glow in the dark

Once Nitara tried to sleep upside down bc she saw it in one of those movies, and she find it so comfortable??? It's kinda embarrasing for her but she keeps sleeping on that position from now on

She's a failure, she's a loser, and i think that's beautiful

Yeah i don't have more to say, also

WWDITS MENTIONED‼️‼️

Yeah that's it bye

[cherritaxo]

Hi hi! So I noticed that on one your asks, you said that you moved across country for a guy but are now single, what happened?

If it's ok for me to ask 🥺

Hello hello!

Aww well thank u for asking, even though u didnt say plz, i love that emote so I'll answer 😘

WARNING LONG STORY

Well, I met this guy online, he was a friend of a friend. I fell for his voice, one of my kinks, & then i saw what he looked like & i thought he was hot, so I pursued him.

I know, my first mistake 😭

Then we did long distance & we were just so good together. He was so sweet, attentive, pervy, a good listener & texter, he'd send me $ just because 🥰

Then in 1 month of dating, we made plans in my son & i moving in with him. We were in a toxic household where my anxiety was thru the roof & so was my sons, so he opened his home to us.

I paid to get my car towed from CA (CALI GIRL HERE) to the East Coast, & got my son & i First class tickets. They were only $1,100 so why not 🥰

Anywho, it kinda went down hill since we fkn landed (starting with we waited for him at the airport for over an hour). I kept a mental checklist of things i liked n didnt like about him.

Fast forward to our 4th month together (he never remembered the date & never got me anything but I would), he finally had a talk about US. Mind you, I was already checked out on the first month we moved in, so around our 3rd monthaversary, & he said he valued my friendship too much to lose me.

So I said ok so we're friends then, he said well no i dont wana lose you cuz ur like my best friend but i dont wana hurt u

🙄🙄🙄

My ex before him told me that he was probably turned off by the way i look (im chubby, small boobs, 5'5, mexican, piercings, tattoos) & was just being nice to not hurt my feelings. Cuz apparently somw guys are stupid enough to telling the difference between reality and filters. Even tho we video chatted, my ex said it was probably my tummy that turned him off 🥺

In the end, as I said, I clocked out. Idc that we're not together anymore, bcuz he's not the MAN that i fell for, this dudes a traumatized brat who doesn't believein therapy or medication (didnt know that), & I dont want that for a partner, gross.

So, we're still living here in his house, but i mind my own business. I'm working my ass off, looking for more ways to make money, meeting new people, keeping my son safe, getting my bills straight, so I can save up & get our own place.

And who knows, maybe I'll become rich in the next two years, & live back in Cali 🥰 and then fly all over the world 🌎

I'm not gonna let some guy, whos too depressed and anxiety filled to even fuck me (2 min bathroom quickie & thats it), to dim my light.

Especially not my sons 🔪

I just gotta keep going & it'll all work out in the end 😤🤟✨️

[anachronistic-falsehood]

EPISODE 4 (starting here because there wasn't a whole lot of background info in 1-3 because they were still just getting used to playing their characters!! this is the end of harttawa arc):

- if dakota had succeeded the roll to stop vyncent from stabbing wavelength, he wouldve taken the damage from grabbing the blade and stopped it and they wouldnt have had to make the choice between who to save!

- charlie was NOT planning on revealing the wisp form that early but he was too emotionally invested in beano and wanted to protect him (which made choosing him to die later was REALLY hard)

- "william has a very complicated realtionship with death" << im just gonna leave you that quote. putting it on ur doorstep like a cat with a dead bird

- bizly had two separate plans for how the session would go based entirely on whether or not they befriended beano (which!!! they have another little oneshot series on the patreon called what if where they will go back and play non canon sessions of different like. alternate routes. and they did one where this happened :])

- charlie coming up with the idea for william and discussing him with bizly was supposedly the first time in his life he had ever pulled an all nighter (which? is insane). because they just kept throwing ideas back and forth and talking about scooby doo and danny phantom (!!!) and they ended up actually playing out a little bit of his backstory in character

- there was a little retconned bit about william where a few strands of his hair turn white every time he uses his wisp form. which. hello trimax vash. what if i went insane. this is supposedly "not canon anymore" but its something i hold in my heart so dearly

- wavelength was supposed to be so much tougher and scarier but bizly rolled so bad for him: "he was supposed to be COOL he was supposed to be SCARY. HE SUCKED HE DIDNT HIT YOU ONCE."

- tide showing up at the end was supposed to serve as a reference to show just how much more powerful Actual Superheros are than these kids. bizly specifically had tide use his powers a lot more obviously and frequently during that scene than would be normal for him *specifically* so that theyd be like "oh fuck" and it worked :]

- they levelled up bc its the end of an arc!! theyre now power level 6 (i think. i dont actually remember. they might only be at 5 at this point) !!!

IM GONNA ANSWER EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE <3 awww charlie got attached to beano enough to reveal william's wisp form early. dude. honestly i would have done the same <3 beano i miss u

william has a very complicated relationship with death. 🧍 what could this mean. i mean i KNOW he's got a complicated relationship with death but I DON'T KNOW THE FULL EXTENT OF IT I THINK.

i understand why wiwi is ur favourite guy. that is danny phantom in a different font. AND he's got a white streak in his hair (idc if they retconned it to be noncanon it's canon 2 ME!!!!!) like this is literally mac ghostiezone core. william wisp is ur kind of fucking character. fork found in kitchen

MARK CANONICALLY AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING LOSER BECAUSE BIZLY ROLELD SO BAD FOR HIM <3 CRINGEFAIL DAD <3 HE ABSOLUTELY SUCKS <3 and tide showing up at the end like an angry father i love him so much. the single mother of all time <3

[thepandalion]

anyways so last week we finished season 4 of house md

I can admit to crying in those final episodes

Also this kinda ruined my werewolf au. Because now my babies are fighting and I can't quite reconcile that with what I have of my au.

So. Multiple ideas:

Amber is a vampire. She survives, but when Wilson decides that her miraculous recovery means he should tell her that he's a werewolf, she reveals that actually vampires and werewolves don't go well together for dating (which uhh. Is a bit of a problem bc I'm pretty sure there's a bit where they think cuddy wants to date wilson and wwwau cuddy is also a vampire). So she breaks up with him and is still alive and they're just broken up

Amber still dies. Wilson forgives house faster than canon bc while he was about to let Amber in on werewolf stuff he didn't yet, so she's not pack while house IS pack, so I'm just ignoring all those parts of s5 for the sake of my boys and nothing else

Amber dies but now she's been pack?? House is also upset because they've now both been Wilson's people and while he might not have liked Amber he respected the fact thay wilson did and sorta respected Amber as a person too. They're not mad at each other but still get time apart. Wilson has a character arc where he goes to meet some wolves in the forest and tells them about how one of his humans got another one killed and effectively does werewolf therapy with this older werewolf (who will later come in and find human wilson because in this version good things can't happen and older werewolf has cancer and is dying). House would come up to wilson in that period when Wilson left in canon and go "I get it if u don't wanna be pack anymore and go be with other wolves in the forest like uve been doing for months now - yeah I know abt that btw" and wilson would just. Break. Bc wtf do you mean "don't wanna be pack" of course he still wants to be pack. He just needs time alone for a sec.

A universe where season 4 happened but Amber and Wilson aren't dating. Still got the new fellows but wilson is still woefully single and Amber goes to work at like. Mercy or something. Idc. Just means she doesn't die. But house might :3 because the bus very much did still crash in this version

Just. Ignore season 4 entirely. Didn't happen cannot touch me. Foreman did quit and idk maybe cameron too. Chase didn't really get fired so much so as he got promoted. He's got a small office near wilsons and he runs the magical medicine department where they treat magic people, which includes werewolves and vampires but also like. Just people practicing magic. Because chase is one of those in this au. He eats rocks and I do have a case in mind where a seer running a magical ingredients shop gets saved by him and she gives him some really cool stuff to do magic with and after that it becomes custom for patients to hand in small magical artifacts to their doctors if they're treated by the magic ppl. One of those patients accidentally fuels chases addiction to eating shiny rocks. There's a silly intervention. Anyways there's gonna be new fellows to replace those three and they might be the same fellows but also maybe not. Because I'm not sure if foreman can keep his job at mercy this time around. So I can have taub replace him in the sceptic position (but this time with the mild spicy interest of "well ok, say that vampires exist. Why do we believe our patient is one just because they say so? Everyone lies after all" and stuff). Thirteen is gonna be. Some type of creature probably. So's kutner but his vibes are just murky enough that I'm stuck in the like ??? Phase of "is he magic or just neurodiverse"

Help. Legit cannot decide between these

[millionsknives]

1, 2, 23 😊

1. Song of the year? JOHNNY CASH THE MAN COMES AROUND omfggg this year has been my year of johnny. my year of learning that i mfing love old cowboy music. i found out that my grandma lowkey knew johnny before he was super famous and she has a wedding photograph autographed by him & his band and she owns one of his old harmonicas. (that's very cool for u grandma but u are listening to johnny cash as a republican i am listening to johnny as a consistent life ethicist and anti-war advocate. we are not the same. can i have that harmonica when you die) and my dad bought american IV for me on vinyl as a souvenir from a trip to nashville. there is no occasion that can't be made better by putting on some johnny tunes i'll be listening to him at work and on road trips and while drawing and while crafting and when im making tacos with my dad. i've just been obzessed

2. Album of the year? john mark mcmillan's mercury and lightning. john mark mcmillan save me. john mark. save me john mark mcmillan. i have grown so horribly jaded from the actions of people who claim to represent the same god and jesus i love and i'm exhausted by the state of things but i listen to john mark sing about all the things that are heavy on his heart and they're the same things heavy on mine. like i've been chasing god i've been chasing mercury & lightning i need a new religion or i need a new lie. another pound of flesh offered up to the gods of american success. oh christ did you give your body up just to suffer for my savage love. so if hell cannot conquer hell the devil cannot conquer himself and you're telling me you still want to live by the sword? when the bomb went off we were dancing in the kitchen with a neon cross and i got no place to call my country anymore. everybody calls for a covenant but nobody's drawing blood. you lift me up like lazarus, you love me like death, you love me like death, you love me like death ǝsɹǝʌǝɹ uᴉ

23. If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be? this year demons are gonna torture you but u will make it through by the end of it you will only care about the good parts. also idc if you don't think you have the time, drop everything and go visit your friends more often. there are people out there who love you but you are just too afraid to embrace it

[empyreasheart]

QUESTION ATTACK!!!! as a fellow kairi stan what are some of your personal hcs for her or what you wanna see for her in future games or just like. general kairi thoughts because you are so based for the rightful kairi appreciation

HEHE HIIII I want 1) playable kairi and 2) i want the destiny trio's dynamic to be flipped and for kairi to save sora and riku for once. emphasis on riku because i feel like a lot of fans & even the games forget that riku and kairi genuinely care for one another.

my ideal kh4 would have kairi basically go "idc if you dont think im strong enough yet im tired of just standing here while u guys need my help" and basically decide to go to quadratum despite rikus wishes and she saves riku from getting plummeted by heartless (or whatever enemies are in kh4) or smth and shes like haiii ^__^ and riku apologizes for considering her too weak in melody of memory (im sorry that scene made me mad because i dont think riku would say that hes literally the one who gave her her keyblade in kh2!! but i digress) and they go off to find sora together. but i dont think itll happen this way sadly :(

i loveee kairi so much shes my sweetie. shes so kind and i want to be like her honestly, i dont really kin as much anymore but if there was any character from kh i would want people to associate with me personality wise itd be kairi!!! i feel like i judge most kh fans based on how they feel about kairi because im like if ur not a kairi supporter im not rocking with u... idk... shes definitely in my top 3 kh characters i think, soras #1!!! (i love axel/lea but sora is literally my baby thats my son sora kingdomhearts)

headcanons?! i think she and lea become besties and siblingpilled because once she meets him and gets over the Scary she realizes. hes just a loser lol. And honestly i think she already knew that during kh2 he was kind of a pathetic kidnapper. I think she xion and naminé do fun girly stuff and force lea to tag along and he has to carry all of their bags when theyre shopping and pay for their fun little treats

That also reminds me since lea and kairi are both from radiant garden i keep thinking about making up some sort of au where they end up being adopted siblings which im not sure how itd work out i just want to imagine baby kairi and teenage lea growing up together :,)

[odxrilove]

OHH which albums?? (and fr studying is so ass i hate it here someone save me)

LSRFM FEARLESS BLUE CHYPRE VER AND SVT GOING SEVENTEEN MAKE IT HAPPEN VER YAYAYA lemme show u my pulls

im really happy with all my pulls tbh idc which lsrfm member i pulled (except garam ofc cuz shes not in the group anymore) so that's alr and for svt i love sm of their gose pcs but i really wanted to buy the verkwan unit pc cuz their hair is so ugly and it's just such a funny pc to me 😭😭😭 tbh i wish i pulled a pc with the little silly hats on but this is good too so yay!!

last week i went out to visit my new like place/city and i found this huge média shop and they had albums too so i bought 2 too and i got a kang daniel album from vinted lemme show

i didn't take a pic of love & letter but i pulled vernon bookmark/pc so yay because that was my first vernon!!!! i still haven't pulled a scoups btw i think he hates me and i ended up buying a set of jun and hao pc because i never pulled a hao either and i needed my bf to come home immediately

[smoosnoom]

FMF AHH

the i love you too scene actually broke me. like i was in shambles. anyway

i love finding out my favourite people on the internet share more then one interest! if is so exciting!

also i absolutely love love love the wolf scene. ik you already talked ab it in another Ask but idc uhh anyway that scene destroyed my everything,, also omg i love the parts where they legit just dance around like.. you see everything from their perspective and then it zooms out and they are just dancing! !like silly little guys!!! back to the ily scene the way she said it? hello?? the emotion????? god that actres. i love her

and and i love the ending. they didn’t get their house back. they didn’t get freedom. they still have to steal food from grocery stores but they are still happy because they have learned despite everything they can still settle and be happy! i love it, it puts on a more real amd honestly more interesting perspective then all the ‘person is unhappy person is saved person is happy and safe and has no troubles’ blah blah blah fmf on top!!

(also if you rant on this Ask don’t u date apologize. i see you moobynom. moynoymoob. shh don’t say sorry just rant ☺️☺️☺️

HI AGAIN it has been months and iam sosoososo sorry for that . but ienjoyed reading ur thoughts and u are so so right !

the "i love u too" scene ruined my life for Real oh my god . i love u but i shouldnt have married u what were they THINKING . oh my god . and that is such a real thing too oh my god ineed to walk into the ocean

oh u are so real for that because i loveee the way they dance . stop motion is avery versatile form of media and i love the way they had all the characters move in a very . intriguing way, moving away from realism and into a more artistic way of showing them act and behave, like their dancing especially ! they dance so cartoony but also Not . the grocery store dance scene lives in my heart forever n ever .

the ending u are so right !!!!!!!! like they didnt gain any of their things back they dont have a physical home anymore and they might have to return back to their hole and they dont have freedom but they are still happy ! mr fox is maybe even a little less concerned with his materialistic view and is now maybe valuing his family all the more :)

this also reminds me of mr fox's relationship with ash because u know . the entire time ash is just trying his best to grow into the sort of outstanding fox that his dad used to be, and its clearly not the path made for him because he just keeps falling short, and its even visible when mr fox favors kristofferson a little more because hes kind of just . the fox that mr fox used to be . and at the end ash doesnt even do anything incredible to make up for it ! but mr fox loves him anyway ! because ash doesnt need to do anything great because he is already great to mr fox !!!! oh my god !!!!!!!!

anyway . so many thoughts so many emotions i know it has been Forever but if u ever want to drop by into my inbox again feel so free to do so !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[jade24632]

Ponyboy x royal knight y/n: ⚔💜loyalty⚔💜

(Yall don't bite my head but I been thinkin about doin a Fantasy AU so enjoy)

Ponyboy p.o.v

Life of royalty was borin, no fun, no excitement.. just tellin people wha to do all the time. But wha makes it worst is darry constantly naggin, like leave me alone. I ain't 14 anymore. but accordin to him I' still is, when he gonna let me grow up?.. anyway I was n my room, layin across mybed readin reading a knock at my door. If it was darry I gonna crash out. But luckily it ain't him it was soda, thx goodness.

Idc if it was "wrong" for a royalty to be with a knight, idc about the consequences.. y/n is all I want.

It's been 4 ½ months since I seen y/n, they've been gone on a royal call as a knight. But with them gone bein a king was boring, although it was wrong for a knight, n any royal subject we had our secrets. But anywho- I was n my throne room bored as ever, when the messenger came to me. If y/n ain't comin home I ain't wanna hear it.

"Yes Philip? What news did u bring me?"

Before Philip spoke he clearly his throat, n proceeded to grabbed the scroll that was under his arm.. here we go again 🙄

"To prince ponyboy Michael Curtis I'm please to inform u dat war has finally ended, n all ur knights will return tonight.. ur loyal n dearest friend king Darrel Curtis" (Philip)

I ignored everythin else but heard "all knights coming home".. the inside of me did bk flips n cartwheels I was happy, but I had to keep my composure.

"Very well, n order of celebration we'll have a ceremony in celebration Send out invitations"

"Yes sir" (Philip)

As he walk away I walk down the enormous halls of the castle, n into my bedroom.. once my doors was closed, I leaned against it before going over to my n screamin n my pillow.. with excitement. Like a school girl kickin they feet when their crush finally asked them out; y/n's comin home!!..I then rolled on my bk to look at the top of my 4 poster bed n delight, I missed their smile, lips, voice n laughter.

I missed them so bad.. ughh!! Me tryin not to sound desperate. But I missed them.

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Time skip

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As planned we had a ceremony n honor of my knights comin home, but my eyes was on y/n only from across da room. They so beautiful/handsome.. their beautiful e/c, skin, lips n just how they look. So mighty n bold n their armor. I wish I was their damseliness dress so they can save me. I wanna feel special too. But anyway as da night went on, y/n kept givin me quick glances across da room with a smile on their face.

Oh my heart 💖.  All I want was to be with them but rn I can't. Even though we close we still far away; I eventually found myself standin on da balcony of da ball room, starin at da village below. I was lost n though till I heard da double doors behind me close; Turing to my attention, I saw y/n. They looked so beautiful/handsome n their outfit for tonight. It didn't take long for us to embrace each other n a hug, n hold each other.

I felt tears falling from my eyes, y/n looked up at me with those beautiful eyes n wiped my tears; they brought their lips to mine, n my arms wrapped around their waste while y/n wrapped their arms around my neck. I missed them so much.

"I missed u y/n"

"I missed u too. N u still look as handsome as ever" (y/n)

I blushed n hugged them again, I ain't wanna let go. After we pull away out attention turned to da stary night, n saw a shootin star. N y/n made a wish

"Wha u wish for?"

"For us to b together like dis all da time." (Y/n)

We embrace each n other hug, I wanna b with y/n for da rest of my life. I love them so much, I ain't wanna let em go. Even it's wrong for royal to love a knight but I ain't care. I them too much, with every fiber of my being.

"I love u y/n"

"I love u too ponyboy (y/n)

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Yo,

I hope yall enjoy this story, dis was supposed to be posted on Valentines day, but I had other things to do.. but either way I hope yall enjoy, don't forget to follow, leave a comment n vote for more craziness. Yall come bk now 🤪

N if yall got a request go ahead n drop them n the comments

I love each n everyone of yall: ✌🏾💕

All yall my babies 💋.

[satelitis]

꒰ HERMES ꒱ . . . talk to me! tell me about your day, your current hyperfixation or whatever’s on your mind :) please don’t vent!!

RAHHHH i hate the cherik mfs. “christine should’ve chosen erik idc!” but if u were in christine’s position u would’ve absolutely cared?? she is a victim of abuse and it is so fucking disgusting how many people still romanticize cherik despite her never once showing any romantic attraction towards him at all, and the kiss doesn’t count because she did it as a last resort in hopes of him atleast letting raoul go and every single thought and feeling she has in this book is constantly ignored because she’s meant to be this damsel is distress, especially in the movie, which i feel is overlooking her character and what she’s gone through?? nobody in the story has actually cared what she thinks and what she wants because she’s beautiful and sings nice, which immediately erases anything she’s thinking because it simply doesn’t matter to anybody anymore, both in the fandom and in the book/musical/movie/any adaptation. it’s also annoying as fuck how everyone’s trying to justify erik’s actions by bringing up everything raoul did wrong, but erik is the one who actually abused christine. first he pretends to be the angel of music to gain christine’s trust, meaning he’s been lying to her since the moment they first met, and also using her dead father to manipulate her into trying to make her fall in love with him, and not taking no as an answer. it’s also rlly important to remember infatuation can be different than love in christine’s case. she was infatuated with the idea of him being an angel sent by her dead father, she wasn’t in love with erik. in most adaptations, christine is between the ages of 15 and 20, and the phantom is always over 30, this can count as grooming (directed at the mocie) despite the age christine is still a student and he is still her teacher, he has a position of power over her that other characters like raoul or meg or mme giry don’t have. “angel or father, friend or phantom, who is it there staring?” — direct quote from wandering child in act 2. she’s still confused about who he is and if he’s going to hurt her or not and what his intentions for her are. multiple songs in the musical also clearly demonstrate how scared she is of him, and rightfully so, after he murdered multiple people around her, some even in front of her, and kidnapped her twice. not to mention how he also tried to kill raoul, her fiancé, several times. the conversation she has with raoul on the rooftop in the book, she’s hesitant to be there because she has no privacy and erik is always watching her in some way so she can’t even talk to raoul for a few minutes without fearing for her life. back to the kiss in the final lair, despite how many interpretations there are, she has always cursed his name in the few moments leading up to kiss, and she only ever actually kissed him because she didn’t know if he was going to hurt her or not, it must’ve been terrifying for a 20 year old to have to kiss a man she doesn’t actually know as an attempt to save her life and possibly raouls. in the book the lives of countless parisians have been placed in her hands and erik is actively trying to force her to marry him as she can hear raoul in the torture chamber every so often simultaneously, knowing she can’t even help him. the mfs who try to tell me this isn’t abuse are the same mfs who only like the phantom because they think he’s hot 😕

꒰ HERMES ꒱ . . . talk to me! tell me about your day, your current hyperfixation or whatever’s on your mind :) please don’t vent!!

OH MY GOD TOOK THE WORDS RIGHT OUTA MY MOUTH and the cherik stan’s are the hostile ones who get defensive bc they know deep down that christine belongs w raoul and NOT FUCKING ERIK

[baekhvuns]

thank you for the recommendation of the angsty songs!!!! how'd i forgot about osts that truly helped for angst 😭😭 and and anddd!!! i have been writing my fics in google docs as well and it's very helpful! since i saw someone said that writing straight on tumblr usually happened to have repeated paragraphs at times so,,,

hegehehegdhrj i think my mingi ff is a little rushing towards the ending since im sucks in writing good ending considering my brain only generating ideas somewhere for the climax lmaoo but i hopeeee i can have audiences enjoying it <3 im not really good with angst although my life is full with angst so i guess i just wanted to be happy once in my own stories (ouch). i dont really consider myself a writer, just a mere reader tbh skshsjkss but i will let you know once i have the courage to drop that fic :D

no but recently, as i said, i only saw porns on my tags, etc and barely seen any mafia with actual plot yk,,, like real legit plot with long ass words written so im a little sad and thought that nobody wants to write mafia anymore or they have lost any new twist for the trope lmaoooo 😭😭😭 being said, i missed your mafia mingi so much i hope its doing well and in a pink of health in your draft <333

anyways new update: i have started writing reincarnation au san and next to write perhaps news reporter yunho (that my brain generated when i was watching morning news yesterday 🫡) or fake dating au seonghwa (that i have been keeping the draft for more than a year now),,, let's see.... ehe :D

p/s: kinda want a new job but at the same i dont want one yet just so i can continue converting all my ideas into writing 🦍

ofc any time!! forgetting you by davichi is the ultimate angst wiring song pls do give it a listen if u have the chance! you’re right, ever since tumblr updated from mid last year(??) it’s been repeating paragraphs and even has a word block limit 😭😭 glad ur writing on something that can save ur works!

AAAAAAAAAA im very excited for ur mingi fic im sure the audiences(me) will love them!!! no bc i also suck at writing endings so i just leave it at a cliffhanger-ish/up to the reader type of ending 😭😭 LMFAOOOOO NOT UR LIFE BEING FULL OF ANGST FBWNBSKCK pls do!! hopefully u get the courage ✊🏻✊🏻

😭😭😭 how did we as a society move from full bloom plot heavy fics to just porno’s 😭😭😭 NO BC FBSJHFS I WAS VISITING MY MINGI MAFIA DRAFT BEFORE I WAS ANSWERING THIS ITS STILL THERE AND SITTING PRETTY IVE COME UP W A BETTER SAME PLOT FOR IT AND I WILL BRING BACK MAFIAS FOR YOU my dedication for that fic will be u <3 if i don’t write the f1 fic first that is 😭😭 or a miraculous lady bug fic <3

WE NEED SMALL DETAILS OF ALL UR PLOTS. WHAT THE FUCK DO U MEAN NEWS REPORTER YUNHO. ????. WHAT THE FUCK DID U SAY ABOUT PARK SEONGHWA AND FAKE DAYING FHKWHDWKJDKW

ANON IDC THIS HOLIDAY I BETTER SEE THAT FAKE DATINF FIC ON THIS APP I DO NOT CARE I WILL HUNT U FOR THAT FIC FHAMFJKSJDLA

[spacenachi]

its 4:15 am and i have not slept :)

[vivgst]

I love mel, her desing, I hate the character lol

I thought Viktor and Jayce would be a thing and then Jayce says shit about Viktor being like a brother, fuck you meannnn????!!! I wanted them to be together so bad

Right? It's disgusting.

And Bella did an amazing work so I don't get why they're hating

Yeah, hate that sm, they could be all over Lara Croft or Ada Wong, they're very male gazey

I was shocked about that too, there's almost no male gaze in RE in general, which is good

If it happens I'm dying or siding with the zombies Idc, I don't wanna live through a fucking apocalypse, shit terrifies me

I watched world war Z yesterday and those kinda movies always make me feel paranoid? like a zombie would come into my house any minute, I regret watching it

Omg that's so cooooool, I wanna learn but I feel it'll be hard

HOW can u wear sweaters in hot weather my dear?? maybe your hot weather and my hot weather aren't the same lmao

Hell yeah, I love skirts and I would love to wear stockings but I'd faint, it's so fucking hot in here

is it? I haven't had this problem with my dresses or maybe I haven't noticed

That happens to me in counter all the time and I honestly love it, kids are always too good at playing or too bad lol

I personally think they're the coolest, I have a lil nephew and I love him to death but thinking about having one for me it's...

That's basically what we do here with dollars, when ppl wanna save money they save in dollars, wait for a couple months and do the conversion to our currency, they get more money that way

You need to train in order to get green thumbs lol, that's what my mom says, she has a lot of plants

I have a cactus:) I love it

YESSSS, that's the name, omg thank u

I hate whn they try to smash glass???? WHYYY

Yeah…

My family was absurdly, filthy rich, you know? So I grew up as a spoiled girl with no idea of ​​what things cost, or how much you had to pay to have the quality of life we ​​had

But my dad is a conscienceless fucker who ruined all the businesses we had and we basically went bankrupt.

Our money situation has been very strange since then (2012 or so), in 2020 we were absurdly good again.

But precisely because we lost everything many times, I'm now terrifed of stuff going to waste and money began to have value for me.

Now we are in a shitty situation again, which is funny because a year ago I was on vacation out of the country.

but yes… our situation has taught me to value the things I have, even more than I should because I keep clinging to my poor phone that can't handle it anymore lol

One of the things that has been most difficult for me is having to adapt, because the country has also been getting worse and no one can escape from it anymore

I feel like I made a whole essay about my family jajsjsjs sorry:)

@vivgst new thread <3 (I have the cut so it won't be a pain to scroll lol)

I've never watched Death Note, but I guess Ill just say L is my favorite since we share a name (technically) Honestly? my answer is simple w/ what animal Id be Almost ANY cat (not the flatfaced or folded ear ones though they can have some bad health issues :( ) Like if you're a domestic cat, you have the stuff to survive both in the wild, or in someone's house. You have super scenes of smell, night vision, claws, sharp teeth, AND probably enough smarts to not get eaten by dogs or smth. On the other hand with humans, at least 70% of the population would adore you, and maybe even take you in to pamper you. It would be very easy to get them to do your bidding since you'd be just some animal, and perhaps put above your caretaker's needs. Pets? Affection? Just act all adorable and stuff and they'll give it to you, cling on to them and they'll say they're your human now. On the other hand (or paw) there's the wild cats!! Still very cute. Still very cool. Now your defenses are upped by a ton, and people still find you cute. Though with how shitty environmental conditions are, and with the bigger cats slowly going to extinction :( , I may or may not just stick to domestic cats But hypothetically.. It would be neat to be either a snow leopard, tiger, or a jaguar. I love snow leopards for their big fluffy tails, and it would be cool to be able to roam through snow and stuff, but that seems to get a little boring from time to time. Love tigers for their stripes, I don't think they can roar..?? But that doesn't change anything. Think Tigers and Jaguars are both pretty efficient in survival, but I'd pick Jaguar just for their athletics and HUGE bite force (least from my 1st search). Or maybe, maybe not because there's an outfit/skin or two of Valeria's that are based on jaguars.. (or leopards, but ill go w/ jaguars) im obsessed w/ this woman man hdwhadwjadawnk OH ALSO ON THE TOPIC OF BIRDS??? AS FUN AS IT WOULD BE TO BE A MALE BIRD AND SHAKE YOUR COLORFUL BUM AROUND, THERE WAS A WHOLE ASS WAR W/ EMUS AND AUSTRALIA Honestly who wouldn't wanna be a relative of a dinosaur, but smaller and just as fucking scary Also for vacation.... I don't like going on vacation. I just like being in my sad little room, on the internet or drawing my ass off But, Id love to visit Japan and see their Ghibli Studio museum, it's so cool... Or even just go to a few hotels or smth here and there, I love their stellar technology, I love how everything is so cute or neat there, oh and I especially LOVE the social rules there, I'm a goody-two-shoes at heart and perfectly agree with being "nice"... Like yeah sure I may not like you or the opposite, but at least we can co-exist without biting our heads off (unlike the fucking us) and japan seems open to their culture being explored by others, so I'd totally love to (respectfully) participate in some traditions here and there OR I could visit Europe. Like not even a specific country? Just Europe. Cuz the US is like really fucking big, and a country like France is apparently as big as Texas. And it would be cool to take a week trip just exploring cultures and stuff (well everything except food, I'm a terrible picky eater ugh) Vacation in the US scares me tho, I'm fine where I'm at rn Maybe id be a little open to going to canada.. but bc of how they're treating the Palestine genoside rn maybe like later in life if they redeem themselves, but like the us? Fuck them too I think crocodiles r cute, but I wouldn't wanna go near one :3 Most of my relatives are either in the Philippines or Maryland, I barely know abt them now Never thought I'd be the one to be the gay cousin, ngl

[captaincryolicious]

trapped in misery...

...until he comes to save the day

➳ scaramouche x gn!reader

➳ oneshot ; 1.3k

➳ cw. fluff, hurt/comfort, y/n has no motivation to do anything, scara is ooc but idc i just wanted to write scara comfort

zep's note ; this is so self-indulgent that i'll probably take it down sooner or later heh

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The clock on your nightstand read two-point-eighteen pm. 

Scintillating rays of the autumn sun filtered through the closed blinds, but through the change of seasons the strength and gentleness of the sun was fading, and they reached you no longer. All that seemed to reach you was an impending feeling of gloom, and you couldn’t shake it off. 

Completely still, you lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling. At some point your thoughts had been running wild, one miserable thought following another, but by now your mind was empty and blank. It had been hours since you woke up, but your mind ran out of fuel and there was nothing left to think of. Yet, you didn’t move. You didn’t kick off your covers to get up and do something, even though that was probably the best thing to do right now. You couldn’t get yourself to do so, and you remained in bed idly, with no motivation or whatsoever to make a change to your current setting.

Oh, you could come up with plenty of things to do, that wasn’t the problem here. You could grab a book and read a little, get up and grab yourself something to eat, go outside to take a walk to feel better, tidy up your room to be productive, and so on. So many ideas, but they all lost their spark as soon as they popped up. It wasn’t laziness that kept you from acting, you were well aware. No, you wanted to do something, you wanted to get out of your current state, but nothing seemed promising enough to reel you out of that downward spiral. Nothing sparked your interest anymore, not even the things you usually loved to do. 

It was one of those days.

With a sigh, you pulled the covers a little higher up to your chin. You were buried in your soft duvets comfortably, but discomfort still coursed through your being. You wanted to close your eyes and go to sleep, just so that this day was over. You were tired, so so so tired. You didn’t want to feel anymore. And it was still so early in the afternoon. You allowed yourself to curl up into a little ball of misery, your gaze finally straying away from the ceiling as your eyes fluttered close. 

Darkness wrapped around you, literally and figuratively so. 

     “Y/N?” a voice filtered through the door, followed by a curt knock. 

You recognized that voice, and your heart jumped a little. But you didn’t reply, your voice gave in. You couldn’t get yourself to speak so loudly to allow him inside, and you stared at the door with the everlasting sadness lingering in the pit of your stomach. You felt so useless, even something as simple as calling out was too much for you today.

     “Whatever, I’m coming in,” you heard the person mutter, and the door opened. Scaramouche stepped into your room, merely a silhouette as the fickle rays of sunshine barely brought any light to your room. The blinds worked well to shroud your room in darkness. 

Scaramouche was quiet for a while, you felt his eyes observing you as he connected the dots. You, surrounded by darkness, still in bed even though the day had progressed for a big portion already, not saying a word upon his arrival. That could only mean one thing, and he knew all too well. 

     “Y/N…” he spoke, his voice unusually gentle. “You’re doing it again.” 

     “I know,” you whispered. 

     “Can I open the blinds?” Scaramouche asked, though you knew he would do it anyway regardless of your answer. 

     “Go ahead,” you mumbled, not looking forward to the sea of light that would flood your room in a moment. As much as you despised the darkness, it was also strangely… comforting, but in a way that smothered you slowly. 

You had to squint when the blinds no longer filtered out the sunlight from outside, and you pulled up the blankets to cover your face. Scaramouche was doing the right thing, you knew that much. Dwelling in the darkness wouldn’t get you anywhere, but you didn’t feel like being in the light either. 

But your boyfriend knew what to do, so he acted confidently. After all, he had seen you in such a state too many times for his liking, and over time he figured out how to deal with it when you were about to drown in another episode of misery. Though you didn’t act like it, you were always relieved when Scaramouche interfered with those moments. There was nowhere to run when you ran from yourself, and he was your only escape. 

     “You really have to treat yourself better, Y/N,” he lightly scolded you, softly pulling the duvet down to reveal your doleful face. “You look miserable, but I know you’re stronger than this.” 

     “I’m tired of always being strong,” you quietly admitted. “I can’t do it anymore.” 

     “Shut up for a moment,” Scaramouche said, though his tone held no malice. “You say that as if you have to suffer alone. Don’t forget you have me by your side. I may be an ass who doesn’t know much about comforting you, but I’m trying my damn best and I will never let you down. Now scoot over.” 

You did as he asked – or commanded – and made room for him to join you under the covers, like he always did when you were having a miserable day. He was cold, and his presence sent a chill down your spine. But it was a different kind of cold than the one that consumed you today, one that you grew to love. His inhuman form melted against you as he held you close, allowing you to snuggle up against him. Bad thoughts evaporated now that you had him near, his fingertips drawing circles on your back to distract you a little bit. You didn’t know what it was, but simply the idea of having him with you made you feel a lot better. Scaramouche wasn’t the nicest and warmest person, he could be quite harsh and blunt sometimes, but when he knew you needed him the most, he tried his very best to be your comfort. 

And it worked.

     “We’re going to make a plan for today, Y/N,” he started. “Staying in bed all day won’t help you.” 

     “Okay,” you muttered, playing absentmindedly with a strand of his violet hair. 

     “First, you’re going to try to eat a little,” Scaramouche began, still drawing little shapes on your back. “It doesn’t have to be much, just try it or I’ll have to force-feed you.” – you smiled a little, making a face at him – “Then we’re going out to do some grocery shopping and we’re going to treat you to something nice. As much as I hate to admit it, you know I can’t cook for shit so you’ll have to help me with that. Is that okay with you?” 

You nodded. As much as you didn’t feel like doing anything, the idea of doing things together with Scaramouche made it a little easier to find motivation. He was right; staying in bed all day wouldn’t make you feel any better. Going out with him would. So many times had that been proven. You knew it would do you good. The male knew very well what you needed in moments like these. Him. It was as if he possessed magic, motivating you when nothing else could. This guy singlehandedly pierced through your misery as if it were nothing. 

     “It’s time to get up, Y/N,” he announced. “Can you do that for me?” 

His cold fingers folded between yours as he got up and slowly helped you as well. You swung your feet over the edge of the mattress and rose, gaining a rare little smile from Scaramouche – one that made your heart swell with the smallest speck of joy. With your hand still in his, he guided you out of your room, away from your little pit of misery. 

He did it again.