#sarah⚓

[jils-things]

Oh, yeah, Jil!! There was a local con at my library on Saturday (meaning I basically got paid to attend a con, this weekend asdfhjkl), and I saw a Steven badge/button that made me think of you!! I didn't get any pictures, but ... I figured you'd like to know I saw him and thought of you :3

~ swallowed--by-the--sea ⚓

ohh hello again sarah! long time no see, hope you've been doing fine :] i'm so jelly man, pkmn trainer merch is super hard to find these days haha i wouldve loved to see that steven pin <3 but i bet it looked fantastic! thank you for sharing!!

[lesbianlotties]

RONANCETOBER: all prompts!

all my fics for Ronancetober linked here! including AO3 links (i'll try to add all of them to AO3 eventually!) thank you for reading <3

Day 1: Upside Down 🙃

chapter 7 of my fic open up your heart (like the gates of hell) aka Ronance using the Upside Down as their personal San Junipero

“What does it say about us that we think of this grotesque parallel world as safe enough or at least safer than the actual world.” “I think it means we’re a good team,” Nancy replied, and she let her hand brush Robin’s as they walked.

Day 2: Vampire / Werewolf 🦇

nancy is a vampire. robin thinks that's very sexy of her. that's it. that's the plot

“Well,” Robin shrugged and didn’t dare to move forward just yet, “You did call me, didn’t you?” “I did,” Nancy smiled. It was an indescribable thing, seeing her smile happily instead of devilishly, and still seeing just a small glimpse of those fangs.

Day 3: Body / Style Swap 👭

“That’s not even your size, Robin.” “I feel ridiculous.” “No, I’m not saying I want it to be pink but…” “Baby, how on Earth did you get this hole on the shirt?” “I look like a twelve-year-old boy!” “I mean, it’s nice when you wear it but… are you sure?”

Day 4: Horror Movie AU 😱 (AO3)

THE CONJURING AU 👻: Robin and Nancy as Ed and Lorraine Warren (Movies Version), Nancy has spooky visions and Robin loves her very much!! ft. Steve as Robin's bestie, Max as their adopted daughter, B*lly dying, Vecna getting exorcised the fuck out! (please read this one is my favorite)

Day 5: Multiverse 🤯

what if... we met alternate versions of ourselves from the Upside Down and they were so hot... and we were both girls 😳😳😍💞🙈🥰💗😳

“Robin, do you see it?” the real Nancy said at the exact same time, turning to her Robin with a spark in her eyes and snapping her fingers as she said, “The Upside Down made an exact copy of Hawkins. It also made copies of us. Of course!”

Day 6: Superhero / Super Powers ⚡

BIRDS OF PREY AU ✨💎 starring: Robin Buckley as Harley Quinn, Nancy Wheeler as Black Canary, Vickie as Renee Montoya, Chrissy as Huntress, Max as Cassandra Cain, Henry Creel as Black Mask, B*lly as Victor Zsasz

Day 7: The Sapphic Senate 👭👭

THE CRAFT AU 🔮

“Try me,” Robin whispered. Nancy was close enough to hold and to hurt, to curse and to kiss.

Day 8: Your Ronance Anthem 🎶

Christine by Lucy Dacus → Robin throwing a shoe at the altar during Nancy's wedding <3

Day 9: Free Day! 🔥 (AO3)

DO REVENGE AU ✨

“What if we worked together? What if you could be the one to infiltrate Steve’s bubble to execute a perfect revenge? And I could just as easily shatter Vickie’s life.”

Day 10: Dungeons And Dragons 🐲

Fluff With Plot And Without Dungeons and Dragons

“So… I think I understand,” Robin said while frowning at the notebook on her lap. “No, you don’t,” Nancy said with her tone full of affection.

Day 11: Time Travel ⏳ (AO3)

TERMINATOR: DARK FATE AU starring: Robin Buckley as an Augmented Super Soldier from The Future (with Mackenzie Davis' arms) suffering from Gay Devotion, Nancy Wheeler as Future Leader of The Resistence against The Robots Apocalypse just some girl™, Joyce Byers as absolute icon Sarah Connor, Jim Hopper as Friendly Terminator :) , Vecna as Unfriendly Terminator :(

Day 12: Autumn 🍂 (AO3)

4 times Nancy made Robin blush and one time Robin did something about it… or something like that 👀👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🧣🍂

Day 13: Apocalypse AU 🧟‍♀️

"if the world wasn't doomed by a zombie apocalypse and we didn't have to fight for our lives every minute of every day... would you still like me? be honest"

Day 14: Heaven and Hell 😇😈

what if Nancy was an angel but she wanted to do evil instead? what if Robin was a demon but she actually wanted to do good? what if they kept running into each because they're supposed to influence Max, El, and Erica? but what if they fell in love with each other??? haha just kidding!! unless...... 👀

Day 15: Pirates AU ⚓

ah the inherent homoeroticism of a Pirates AU!

“I want to know what you’re hiding behind all these shadows,” Nancy answered, taking one more step forward. “I’ll show you,” the Red Robin whispered. “If you’ll show me what you’re hiding under all these layers.”

Day 16: Trick or Treat! 🎃 (AO3)

Robin and Nancy wear a couples costume and go trick or treating with get bullied by Max, El, and Erica!

“Trick or treat?” Robin said, grimacing a little. “You’re late,” Nancy replied and sent a pointed look at Robin, who squirmed and scratched the back of her head. “Sorry. But look! I brought you kids!” Robin added, waving her arm beside her, and adding in an exaggerated whisper, “It was their fault.”

[mtnkat3]

Whimpering softly...

Guide me so I'm not hurting ya'll... cause I know I'm not perfect.. but I wanna be my best for you . . . . .

Or .....

is it just life & maybe... possibly... mischief & shenanigans keeping me on my tippy toes...

Well...whatever the case may be...

I gave you ..... the keys to my heart, mind, body, soul & spirit a long time ago. That'll never change, only grows deeper & more abiding. Why? Because God Created us.

I am finally on the cusp of becoming whom I'm meant to be. The protective shell.. the fatsuit.. are coming off. As too I'm shaking off the chains that held a 300# ball like a noose around my neck. Huh. Maybe that means God's gonna heal my body? My health? Hm. As only He can do such entirely. Just as He Healed Sarah. I have been praying about such for a long time. That He has Miracles & Gifts baking & stored up for me.. just waiting until I'm in the right place. And... I think when you . . . . . are in the right places. Just like I feel like I've caught glimpses... that I've seen you outta the corner of my eye... but it wasn't the right time so God kept that from happening. Sigh. Sometimes. That just makes me moan.. growl.. look up & sob..pout..sigh.. why.....!?!?!?!? Because baby...you know... sigh. My daughter. Patience. You know. Now hold on. Whimpering. Bowed. Yes Father. Yes my loves .....

Ok. Time to be a good kat. Meds. Food. Chores.

As my tummy is ... unhappy. Embarrassed kat.

I love you . . . . . & miss you so terribly... it's like ... the most beautiful precious part of me is missing... because that's your souls .

Getting up. Never giving up. I believe therefore I work & await.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Praying for Your Patience, Mercy, Guidance, Grace, Wisdom, Strength & Perseverance Lord. To make it to where I belong.....

To the priceless treasured Gift.

My beloved Bears . Angels . . . . .

Your humble, patience seeking, & listening closely, carefully, & quietly daughter.

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯

🤓👩⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🌂🔗⛓🧰📋🗓🛠⚒⚙🔐🏗🧱🏰⚖🗽🦅🕊🥧🧣🥾🏔🍋🥤🥨🥓🍳🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒🐯🐾🦉🐐🐢🦋🐛🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🌲🧶🧵⌚💡⚡🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🌎🧭🕯💋

Su.12.4.2022 11.27am est.

[aussiepoguepunk]

Meme masterlist

🌸-sarah 🐝-John B ⛳-Rafe 🔑-kie.

⚓-Pope 🔫-JJ

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part 1 🔫

Part 2 🔫

Part 3 🔫

Part 4 ⛳

Part 5 🌸🐝🔫

Part 6 ⛳

Part 7 🔫🌸⛳

Part 8 🌸🔫⛳

Part 9 ⛳🔫🌸

Part 10 🔫

Part 11 🔫

[gh0st-with-the-m0st]

because theres always something that makes the pain go away. 

[killermicrowave-blog]

everytime i get a bf :c

[mtnkat3]

4.41pm. Oh my loves..... you.....make me think, grimace, blush, grind my teeth, giggle & moan for want if you..... there's nothing in life that I don't long to experience with you..... from waking up & my hair an absolute tangled mess that takes time & lots of grunts & groans & cursing to untangle. To taking meds, brushing teeth & taking care to feed the animals. Usually animals first. Demanding varmints. Grin. But yes, I wanna wake up & see you......first thing. Doesn't matter about crazy hair, bad breath, ahem morning happy pants giggling. The only thing that matters to me is that you.....wanna spend it with.. me. That makes everything worthwhile to me. I don't feel what uf about you.....I feel when. When you are standing at my door.....it's you saying that you want it all with ne too. Every piece of you . . . . . .feels the same way I do . Exhilarating. Even when I grind my teeth. I just hope that when God Blesses us such...if He so chooses to Bless me as Sarah..... you . . . . .want to see me that way too. Blushing beet red bowing head chewing lips. Only He knows. But the thoughts with you . . . . . Whimpering softly. It's made me squirm & pray too.. for years. Only with You . . . . . Yeah.. um squirming. Tucking head. I am so Yours..... ~TkP. 🌺✝️☸⚓🙏🤲👣🐾🐯👩‍🏫🥾🧣🧤🌟🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🧭🕯

[mtnkat3]

12.58pm.

Whimpering softly moaning... squirming as I stand.. oh..f*ck...my loves..... you . . . . .feel me too? The good, the loving, the sexy... erotic.....

& the scared... the outta the loop frustration. The begging God to please end my prison nightmare.

To the thanking Him because many parts are done. But.. belligerent petulant bully is pissed off to owe me so much more than 1 penny.

To the know I'm...hungry... because I am in front of fridge & a swig of Hershey's made me cross my eyes... smile... thoughts... cravings.....

To the feeling you . . . . .

Stroke my hair.. my face.. like that.....

Whimpering softly.

Makes me desperately happy..

& crazy bonkers to end my nightmare.

.

But. the only way it can end earlier than 3.23.. is God breaking loose the chains hog & the adversary are weighing me down with. I know the only way he's gonna do that is for me to get all the dang packing & work done. But I need help to do so. More the support. God giving me energy & strength to ignore hog & just do it is me getting that to do 1 room per week. And that's a lot. [1280sq+full basement&garage.] But if God gives it to me & work from dawn to dusk it is doable. Barely. So.. fighting pain, depression, hog's...demotivating to not movement..

I need You . . . . .🎶

But ya'll know me & my warrior queen Tijgeress kat Phoenix spirit. You..... wouldn't love me if I let you do it all.

But I want Your love & respect more than I want to be rescued.

This is the last part of my battles, of the war. So yes, it's the hardest.

I want to prove to myself, to God, to you . . . . .

I am indeed worthy.. deserving.. & being Blessed beyond measure of the Gift of You . . . . . by God's Grace & Plan!!!!!

I work & will never give up!!!!!

I await because God's Plan & telling me to hold on daughter! Patience.

Strength. Fortitude. Endurance.

Believe.

Magic of God's Plan, Grace, Time, Reasons.

I am His warrior queen daughter.

Created by God.

For you . . . . .

My beloved Bears . Angels . . . . .

I wouldn't be a good warrior queen sub mate if I didn't do the work.

I let mom, hog.. control my life too long. I had those boots on my neck. It always kept me drowning..

Now it's time to soar... right into your..... arms...

...

And as per usual... God's in control. And took over this letter to you my loves.....

I think about you . . . . . Crave you . Want you . Alllll the time!!!!!

What keeps me ...motivated.. inspired.. focused.. & reminds me that I have a lot to atone & make amends for. I just.. feel like the years are my fault. And it's one of the huge cracks in my soul. I am working on me. To learn.. grow.. to learn how to forgive myself.

Again. God's Hands. He spilled these thoughts & feelings thru my thumbs. Shy grin.

I miss paper & nice pens! Ugh. But arthritis makes even this difficult.

Another thing I pray about. He's shown me so much..... does that mean I am more like Sarah & the magical things I've seen than the decrepit body my soul is struggling with now.....? I pray because I do not know.. I only know that I trust God. Implicitly.

And He has shown me to trust you . . . . . too.

Ok. I need to get back to it.

Blushing beet red bowing my head chewing lips

I gotta mess to swipe my slate clean of!

Hog. House.

Whimpering softly.

You . . . . . are my soul's precious priceless treasured Gift.

I will never take you . . . . . for granted.

I am..

Yours . . . . .

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯☸⚓🤓🙇‍♀️🙏🤲🌂🔗⛓🧰🧣🥾🏔🍋🥤📋🗓⚙⚒🛠⚖🔐🏗🧱🏰🗽🦅🕊🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🌲🧶🧵🥧🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍭🌰🍎🍑🍒🥨🥓🍳🥩⌚💡⚡🌟🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🧭🕯🎅🎄🎁🎀💓🎶💋

Sa.12.17.2022 1.48pm est.

[mtnkat3]

They would tell you my loves..... that you . . . . . Are everything to me. That even though I'm nervous about it all... I'm still taking your hands for the adventure of this life. To be loved by you . . . . . To know that when I wake, & go to sleep.. I'll be looking into the eyes that love me.. the ones that know me inside & out & love me anyway. That I have my own ways, most don't understand. But that's ok. As long as you..... my soul's mates..... love me as I am. As I will ever be. No matter if God heals my body in entirety. Or brings me back to at least where I should be... where I belong..... because I believe in what my soul's telling me. I believe in you my beloved Bears . Angels . . . . . To me, nothing else matters we can live in a cabin in the woods & never come back out & I'd be just fine. Or we can go on mini adventures & explore the world. But still come back to our home base. Because... .... you . . . . . are my home. Our homes that we build in love will just be shelters we love that we enjoy. But they aren't you..... buildings vs my loves.....guess who wins... you . . . . . Hands down Blushing shyly. I don't know.....everything. But I know that God is working His magic. Keys. . . . . I know that I'm unusual & unique. Even though there are others with similarities, they aren't me I know that in today's society I may be odd & a spinster. Like Sarah. But that doesn't mean that God Created me to be only what the world thinks. He can work mysteriously. He can heal my body in totality. He can give a celibate/ virginal body & abused life the most abundance. Family. He can do anything He wants to. He is the Creator of all the multiple universes & all of the cosmos. There isn't a speck of space dust, black holes, nebulas, stellar nurseries, pulsars, or gama ray bursts that He didn't Create! I am awed, & humbled by that! So when He decides to Gift His daughter with the most precious priceless treasured Gifts... that of soul's mates & family..... well... I'm not so big for my britches that I think I know better. So when doctors try & tell me things because of age, circumstances, etc. I feel like shoving their diagnosi down their throats & up their asses where the sun don't shine! Not doing hrt none of that shit. Just take progesterone & Pray. And work. And await. HIS WILL & PLANS. Not my own. I only know that He's working to get me to your side of the bridge my loves!!!!! That I am Protected, Loved, Cherished, Adored. By God. And by you . . . . . I feel you . I love you . I want you . I crave you . I adore you . I am devoted, faithful, loyal & give my fidelity... to you . . . . . I will always have your back..... wash your back..... protect your back..... be The Tijgeress kat to strike back at those trying to get to your back.....there is no one like me. My eyes... perhaps ... glowing..... ? With inner fire of Tijgeress & Phoenix & kat.

I love you . . . . .

I miss you . . . . .

I am...

Yours . . . . .

Chewing my lips.

Blushing shyly bowing my head.

I work & await though because I believe.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Lord, Your humbled bowed listening carefully closely quietly daughter.

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯☸⚓🙏🙇‍♀️ 🌂🔗⛓🧰⌚⚡🌟🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♾🎯🧭🕯💋

Su.12.11.2022 11.39am est.

[mtnkat3]

9.47am

Was wondering how to feel when woke & opened.. chewing lips & thinking I got something wrong again.

But then.. you .. all .. & go make me giggle! & moan. & squirm. & ...stepping carefully. Cause well.. I wanna show you my love with my eyes being lightened of my trials & shining into .. well.. for you .. again.

Cause yeah, for a long time the depression rode me. Hard.

..

But. I know my ptsd[?.. probably.] Is situational. That I can heal from it all.

Getting away from the worst persons for me.. mom & wh. I will start anew. Detox my system of all that negative energy & effects. Rebuild my life.

But.. the mom issue.. I just have to remind myself.. she's 80yo & not gonna change. So keep my emotional distance as much as possible. It's just.. well.. she's my mom. That's the clencher.

How do I overcome? By keeping a fence line that I don't allow her thru. It's not gonna be easy. But I know I can do it. I just.. well.. need my soul's mates .. surrounding me.. to remind me that I'm a better person than she treats me.

I am valuable. I am worthy. I am deserving.

Just because my mother doesn't agree does not mean that God Created a worthless sack of garbage in me. No. She is my main trial. From birth til now, & beyond. She was taught to be that way & the cycle stops with me.

I pray for God's Plan & Blessings. If He does indeed see me like Sarah.. then I will listen & remember my lessons so that I do not perpetuate the cycle.

The very thought is so devastatingly repugnant & repulsive to me.. so terrifying that I pray His Hand & Guidance to never be that kind of person, nor woman. Be the daughter He Created me to be.

..

Anyways.. dang tangents.😳😖🙊🙈🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

even with a storm headache that excedrin migraine did nothing to.

Yeah elbow bruises are wrapped all around the joint, molten, just like 22 ankle sprains. So gotta get cleaned up, do cgm, & go have it checked out.

I'm writing these.. letters.. to you .. my beloved Bears .. Angels .. for you to know.. me. All my layers.. my googey sticky cinnamon bun layers.. cause I'm all about the sweet.. & surprisingly spicy of cinnamon. Than onions. Kinda boring. They haven't all the many interesting parts... cinnamon.. creamy butter.. pecans.. caramel.. dripping frosting..... oh how I much prefer thinking about a cinnabon!!! Giggling softly blushing.

Grinning.

Ok. I've gotta get my meds taken, with my bolthouse mocha cappuccino protein shake.

About all the coffee /caffeine I can intake at present. So don't wanna have another bloody nose & beta response type of shakes from having 2 mugs of coffee! [~20oz mug x2.. or was it 3...🤔🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️...] and I've stopped restaurant sweet tea because of diabetes & the panic attacks. I might can take a small amount. Sucks.

But I'd rather have the shakes from ... well.. you . & um.. you watching me with my favorite peppermint chip milkshakes... naughty mischievous wicked eyed kat grin.

Opps!🤭😏😌

Gotta get myself together here!

I love you . . . . .

Ya know that... right...???

Can you feel my love... the way I feel when you .. surround me..

I pray so.

Sigh.

Well.. time to get my tushy movin!

I love you! I believe in you! In us. In God. In His Plans for us & our lives together.

So. I work as I await.

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

Your confused but stepping & listening closely carefully & quietly daughter.

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯

🤔🤓👩⚓🙇‍♀️🙏☔⛈⛅🌂🔗

⛓🧰📋🗓⚙⚒🛠🏗🧱🏰⚔⚖🗽🦅🕊

🥧🍁🧣🥾🏔🍋🥤🥨🥓🍳🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵

⌚⚡🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🧭🕯🎶💋

[I wish you could see the fog around this house right now! Makes me wanna be in your arms.. riding in an old truck.. on a mountain road right now!]

W.11.30.2022 10.43am. Est.

[mtnkat3]

W.9.28.2022 10.29pm est

Whew! Ok Lord!

Thank You!

You are keeping me busy getting tasks done & helping me feel productive again!☺️⚓🙏🙇‍♀️

I mean, yes, I had a bad night & running on ~4 hours sleep. Blood sugar drop at 5am then sinus drainage/ibs for 2 hours sucked! Like flying rubber dog doo on a C-5 to china! Lol! Yeah, one of my favorite lines!

And of course I had stayed up writing last night's til like 1am. I ~thought~ wh was asleep & could go to bed. Psyche! Because he's made 2 bathrooms inoperable, & because I have rebuilt every piece of my own toilet to the point only the porcelain is still original.. so.. uses my bathroom. 🙄🤦‍♀️

I SO cannot wait to have my own clean space! I am not the type of woman to want stuff all over the countertops. The rare special occasions I wear makeup I put it away in my carrier cases. Hair brushes, combs, do-dads. Put away. I like clean but lived in.

But I got up.

Got to work. Heck I got to doing so many things that I forgot to take my morning meds! [Which, btw Lord. I pray to detox so I will be rid of all of them & the cgm. Really hate having such a thing. Too much like the mark of the beast.] But well, this morning! Being woken because my blood sugar was gonna bottom out.. it was a life saver. Oh! Thanks for showing me 1 butterscotch hard candy is enough!

But feeling accomplished Lord.

It's a good thing!

But I also want the people in my life to know how much I appreciate them!

It's why I write, it's why I like♡. [Even when the bulk are people that I don't speak to here, I feel like God You appreciate me putting forth this effort!] I think about each person I speak to & care about. Wanting to give each of them a hug multiple times a day! I really do miss each, & the ability to give hugs!

Kinda think I finally understand that I hit the wall as far as being isolated from people I care about. I feel my soul's Mate.../s.. sigh.. God please??? I feel him.. even though I don't know.. & I know You do Lord! Let him know... I am, & always be, his huckleberry. I'm not a shrinking violet type of princess. I expect to contribute, in whatever form that comes Lord. Only You Lord know.. You can use my life like Sarah, or You may use me like a warrior nun. Or whatever combination because I rather enjoy watching science shows, building Fedora/Redhat Linux based computers, as I also enjoy watching my mandevilla still have blossoms, cherry tomato bushes producing & my herbs & ferns being happy. Would my soul's Mate.../s sigh... enjoy being in the kitchen with me Lord? I pray so. But. It is Your Will, not mine own. I only know...I love You Lord. And that I will work so that as I work I become the best me so that Your Plan will manifest in my life. You give me energy, a stubborn will to survive & determination to make my goals a reality. To make the dreams You Lord have shown me actually happen! I have never been the type to give up. And thank You Lord for reminding me of the woman You Created me to be! The woman You molded with hard working parents, that as much as I grew up with television & things like 'Scarecrow & Mrs. King,' I really only watch things like Barnwood Builders & TWC anymore! Although I lost both of those favorites when had to downgrade to limited basic. Argh! I mean what the heck?!?! The Weather Channel not on limited basic???? So keep watching crazy things, but don't be informed about the weather!?!??! That's insane to me! But I watched another crazy, zany b movie tonight as writing this. "Lava Storm" 2008. With Ian Ziering. I love the cheesy bad science! Lmao!

Just so tired Lord. Good thing I started this early, kept getting dozy. I so can't believe that weather has changed so much that I'm still wear shorts! In high school, I'd have been in turtlenecks, & sweatshirts & needing a coat! I so love Autumn & the changing of the seasons Lord! And I can't wait to be able to decorate & make where I live into a home. To be away from wh scrooge self & this place.

Oh! Today I got my counseling forms filled out, always paperwork. But praying for real help. As I also dealt with emails, that QDRO is almost done.

Today has been a good day! And I thank You Lord for that!

Even with the headache from the weather/allergies. I have been feeling more like myself. But must stay vigilant to thwart the adversary from turning me into the Blue Ridge Parkway, full of twisty turns, switchbacks, & hills. As much as I love those mountains & driving during autumn, I want to get back onto the train tracks be on Your righteous woman path Lord!

Just.. please tell my soul's Mate.../s sigh... tell him.. I love him, & I feel him, & I miss him. That I will always wait & never give up! Not on You Lord. Not on life. And not on Your Blessing me such that I feel like I've won life's lottery! To have finally gotten my life right!

oh Lord.. please??? I know... sigh..

Believe. And oh how do I Lord!

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Thank You Jesus for loving me!

Your sleepy, calmer, but listening carefully & closely daughter,

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

Th.9.29.2022 1.02am est. Diary. 1.28am

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"Writing" gifs.🤷‍♀️

[mtnkat3]

10.50am?

my Love/s. DOne, DPOne, & Alll.🔆

"Lion of Judah."

I beseech Thee oh Lord.

Your Love, Grace, Mercy, Wisdom, Guidance, Perseverance, Strength.

You Lord endureth Forever.

And only with & thru You may I.

I am Your daughter, Your warrior, Your tool, Your Potter's clay, Your woman.

If I am to be as Sarah, I shall weep in joy. And sing hallelujah. If I am to not, I still will sing Your praises, & listen for Your Blessings within the lessons.

Mold me & shape me Oh Lord, to Thy Will, not mine own.

Another post that built from God's Plan. I looked up Lion of Judah in gifs & He built the rest.

I am Yours God.

Please do with me as Thy Will.

Teach me Your lessons Jesus.

I pray for Your Protection of the Hedge to remove the demons that keep battering my shields. Only with You Jesus will I endure. Win.

And I know Lord, that You brought my beloved precious perfect for me priceless treasures of the Gift & Blessings of my soul's Mate/s into my life now so that I might fight this final battle within my own war with the greatest of victory for Your Glory!!!

I bow my knees to You God.

And to the Mate/s You have Blessed me with.

In Your Name Jesus I am able to fight & be victorious!!!

Amen.

Humbly. Bowed.

I am Blessed beyond measure that You/Alll love & want me.

I am. ~Your's/s'.~

DOne, DPOne, & Alll. 🔆

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11.15am

[Phone calls. Sigh. 11a]

[mtnkat3]

7.02p

my Love/s.

I hate the adversary tricks, games & minions. Depression, health woes. On its cog... wh.

I love You/Alll endlessly.

And no, I do not wish to be a man.

Even with all the pain of a woman's cycle & I grumble & get cranky. I still do not wish to change the plumbing God gave me!

Even as a girl wanting to be a military pilot, it was with a bit of sadness. Because I thought I would be alone because of pcos.

I LOVE "Space Camp"!!!

I am more of a nester, with bouts of the desire to travel & see the world than I'm... butch? Shudder me timbers!

Tomboyish yes. Mudpies, yes. Standing on a high barstool chair "helping" my mom make doll cakes & such...yes. adventurous, yes. Walking down stairs easier backwards than forwards, yes. [Slow grin] trying to fly...yes. standing & watching planes & wanting to fly jet fighters... heck yes!

Being a woman. Mate. Wife. Alpha sub. Warrior queen.

~Yes!!!.~

Even... freaking hell ABSOLUTELY to the ~YES~!!!

Changing because I am so complex...

Heck no!!!

I am a woman.

And I enjoy things that maybe most don't. So what.

I know how a jet engine works.

How a transmission is put together

Was an excellent markswoman.

[Gotta seee... about that. sigh.]

Maybe I'm a bit... Daisy Duke. Because I'm not a doormat, but a blend of a woman.

I know how to cook.

Understand science.

Love plants & nature.

And I know how to treat animals right & hold an infant.

Heck, when I went parasailing, a young couple trusted me to hold their very newborn infant. I cradled & protected that wee one as if my own.

I have held human infants & animal infants most of my life. Family, to rescuing to just happenstance to church nursery as a teen.

And yeah, I crinkled my nose at green diapers, & cover my ears at frequency squeals tooo.

Whether God Blesses me as Sarah, or has other plans for me.

I am still very much a woman.

Whether with my hair up & covered in either dirt or grime.

Or dressed up in a pageant dress.

My boobs & plumbing & horomones...

Alll by God's Hands & Plans.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Just... me.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix.

And aaaaalllll.....

~Your's/s'!!!.🌺

DOne, DPOne, & Alll!!!

Alllways & Forevermore!!!. Period.

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7.40p

[mtnkat3]

My beloved mates... I must wait God's Plan. Is why it is happening now. This way. I don't understand it. Why life had to be such a b*tch to me, us each!, before we met. Why couldn't we have been born near & such as that. Why!?!?!?!? God wanted kings & a warrior queen to grow into each others love. That's what He is telling me. And just as Biblically the trials of many were to bend their knees to God. So too must I. Must we. The mantel is heavy, but with the Father's Love we can handle our portion. I feel the trials of Job, as well as Sarah's all the time. But I also feel the light He has created within each of You/ALLL my loves that is lighting my way to each of You/ALLL!!! It will beyond measure worth it alll!!!

So please... hold onto me...???

I AM coming!!!

I love & adore each of You/ALLL!!!

WE ARE WORTH IT ALLL TO ME!!!

EVERY SINGLE MICROSCOPIC DROP OF TIME, BLOOD, SWEAT, & TEARS!!!

I AM...

~Your's/s' Alll Forever!!!.

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3.45p

[gh0st-with-the-m0st]

Meds (venting time #3)

i feel like most people take some sort of medication now a days, as do i. i have a physt on my brain (kinda like a small tumor) and i take a medication to make my mindgrains less severe. ive been on zoloft (for anexity & depression). most people are now diagnosed with either of those two mental illeness and i was just wondering what these meds do to us. to me zoloft never worked no matter how high the dossage and when you just stop taking them...you legit feel like you rather be dead. the meds i take now i feel like i rely on them more then i should. to me meds make people go madder then they already are, i just hope they find a better way to make this easier...

[gh0st-with-the-m0st]

this sir right here, austin carlile is such an inspiration to me, without him i dont know how i could get through the day. this gif shows him crying because of his fans cheering for him, this gif always makes me cry because it shows how much he loves his fans i love you austin <3