#sapnap is emotionally vulnerable

[jjoneechan]

Sapnap would do anything for George. He’d fly over 9 hours to a whole other country despite his fear of flights. He lets George win arguments and laughs at his jokes. He lets him boast about his height, age and maturity. He lets George make fun of his insecurities. He’d let himself be held and kissed and even though it makes his brain fog up and his heart stutter in his chest, he knows George doesn’t feel the same. He’ll be whatever George needed, just so he wouldn’t feel sad anymore. Even if the heart on his sleeve bleeds too deep, shows too much how he cares. He’d squash his feelings down because that’s not what George needs right now. He needs a distraction. And when George begs Sapnap to make him forget how alone and trapped he feels, to kiss him so much he’ll forget he’s leaving again, even though Sapnap knows having this one night would kill him… he’d do anything for George.

George: It’s not fair.

Sapnap: I know.

G: I hate it here. I want to go home. With you

S: I know, George

G: I feel so trapped. So alone

S: I’m here now, I’m not leaving

G: But you will, and I’ll be left again

S: George…

G: I wish you had never come here

S: … i know

[100blocks-archived]

thinking about sapnap, who is afraid of flying and didn’t have his passport going to england two days after george confessed to them he felt depressed. thinking about dream sending bink back to snf in madrid so they’re safe. thinking about sapnap forgetting his stream and everything around him for a few seconds when he sees that dream is tweeting about something serious, he gets so invested and has to know what’s up. thinking about george driving to dreams rehearsal after dream was emotionally vulnerable on twitter. my dteamies, they take care of each other

[suenitos]

twitter users: wow dream and george really treat each other differently than they do with anyone else. george is able to be emotionally vulnerable with dream and no one else and we know because dream brags about it also dream flirts with him so much and george just blushes and smiles and they’ve planned their entire life around each other. bffs for life and only bffs they treat each other like they’re boyfriend but they would never date even though one is openly queer and the only has dropped so many hints to also being queer

and like obviously even though george has all but said he considers himself patches' dad and you know maybe sometimes jokes about marriage arent just jokes and george said he would stay in florida forever even though he doesnt really like it that much and dream wrote at least 3 songs dedicated to him and dream basically shares everything with him and has put himself on the cross for him in ways he doesnt do for sapnap or really anyone else in the same way .. you know. obviously none of that means anything we're just being silly haha gay people arent real and they both will marry women at the end of the day because its so unbelievable to think they would get together even though they basically already are in the ways that matter like we're so silly loll #delusional 🤣🤪

[tinogiehd]

i remember a chatter telling sapnap that george was about to cry during the vegas panel and sapnap was like “i don’t believe you” like mannnn dream really is the only one who gets to see george so emotionally vulnerable and we see glimpses of it when he’s trying so hard to hold it back

he keeps it close to his chest Thankfully dream is close to his chest

[scoops404]

Idk but in my head I think Goethe would freeze up the first time Dream cries in front of him. He obviously knows how to comfort Dream over a phone, but he’s in person now and he can see how his shoulders shake and how he’s hiding his face in whatever is closest (his hands, his sweatshirt, a blanket).

But, as they get used to each other in America, George learns.

He learns that, when dreams crying from frustration, he has to pull him away from whatever’s bothering him (usually the computer) and help him calm down by speaking low and letting him stim to get some of the energy out. If dreams yanking at his hair, he’ll let him hold his hands instead, or he’ll start to comb through Dream’s hair to help soothe him. No matter the start, it always ends with Dream laying on top of George as he slows down.

He learns that when Dream’s crying from sadness, it’s an immediate go ahead to touch. It’s pulling him close, wrapping him up in a blanket, hugging him tight, whatever can make him understand that George is here and isn’t going anywhere until Dream feels a little bit better. It also means George sends a discrete text to Sapnap asking whatever the fuck happened that made Dream this sad if George doesn’t know

Finally, George learns how to handle a happy cry. To pull Dreams hands away from his face. To smile and say “you dork” and wipe at the tears. To show him that it’s okay to be so happy you cry, to let it all out, to just be.

(This was supposed to be a tiny 25 word ask but WHOOPS hope you enjoy lol)

not gonna lie the typo of George to goethe took me out fr lol

I'd love to see all the ways they've learned each other and how those things translate into physically being together. I think a friendship like theirs (or more) where they can be emotionally free and vulnerable like this is really amazing and one of a kind. Or, two of a kind with Sapnap.

[lmanberg]

sapnap is like a guy you meet at like 3 am at a party where everyone is like the stage of drunk where youre getting kinda sad and hes telling you about his life and youre like. drunkenly telling him to fix his life and hes like sadly agreeing with all your points and understanding but you know he wont do anything about it. except hes a multimillionare.

He wouldn’t be that emotionally vulnerable. He’s the guy you meet at a party and see him out the window throwing up in a bush alone two hours later

[lemon-mint-writes]

I'm writing a very vulnerable, emotionally charged scene, and George is laying in bed with Sapnap sitting next to him and George is hesitantly reaching for him and I think it would be so funny if we had all this emotional build up and George just....pushed Sapnap off the bed.

[misty-doodles]

Sorry I've been thinking about this again and I really really like completely emotionally withdrawn Dream who has all the Knowledge so I'm gonna ramble about that for a bit.

Sapnap and George know. Dream would have a fucking panic attack as soon as he was sent back into the past and they'd have to calm him down, assure him that he was safe and everything was fine. Dream, not knowing what was happening, would spill some details that would force him to explain that he's from the future. They're literally never leaving his side and, for a long time, are the only ones he's comfortable being emotionally vulnerable to, and even that takes time. The Dream Team would be even more inseparable.

Techno would also remember, and immediately nope out of the manburg vs. photopia war. He goes into retirement early to avoid making any enemies to hunt him down, and that tips off Dream. Instant besties, even if Techno is mildly put off by the fact Dream is so withdrawn and quite.

When Wilbur tries to ask Dream for the TnT for his plan, he's promptly chewed out for a solid 10 minutes on why he's stupid and childish and that Dream is not funding his insanity spiral. Wilbur does not blow up Manburg, and therefore does not die.

Only the people who were on the server pre-L'manburg know about Dream's sudden shift in personality, and to everyone else they kind of just assume that he's just quieter when not in competitions. The OG L'manburg squad would all have their own theories on why Dream suddenly shifted.

Since there's no Revolution and therefore no traitor Eret, They would simply be offered the crown sometime during the Manburg era and would immediately jump ship. This would put them on Niki's hit list for a while, but since they would have been in the government and directly under Schlatt, no one really blames them.

Possible Fundywastaken marriage

Dream does not like Sam even a little bit and everyone knows that fact and exactly 3 people know why, Sam not being one of him. He is

Hey, I just had the best time travel dsmp fic idea imaginable, you aren't ready. Hear me out,

Prisoner Dream, at what point I don't care, but for this I'm going to say pre-tommy imprisonment, gets sent back to pre L'Manburg revolution times. Specifically, after he's already declared war

He wakes up, and he's in the community house and his friends are there, and he's just ???? And obviously has a panic attack because everything is wrong, and he is very confused. He doesn't even try to appear normal. Sapnap notices and is like "are you good bro?" and he just fucking implodes. Just full hysteria and making zero sense while trying to process where he is while Sapnap and George are trying to comfort him and figure out why their friend is suddenly unwell. He's staring at his canon lives in confusion, what day is it? Where are all his scars? He is not okay.

Now, this can go one of two ways, either is golden

Dream runs away. Cottage core Dream fic starts now, baby. He leaves a note that's basically like "if y'all hate me so much, I'll just leave, have your damn independence," and disappears off the face of the earth. I want him to have his healing arch by himself in the woods and cope with his actions in the previous timeline while the server is in shambles.

Fun idea, leave the server in shambles, always fun to write.

He stays, but is the most natural person alive with full knowledge of events, and just decides to see how closely things will match timelines without his active participation. He is still a mildly emotional wreck due to jumping from prison to current, but like, to everyone else he's even more cold. Have him write a passive-aggressive declaration of L'manburg's independence, reading it aloud as he writes, before throwing it at Wilbur's feet and leaving. The war is over before it began. Have him invite the same people, absolutely refuse to be a part of or help in the Pogtopia vs. Manburg war, threaten to perma-ban Tommy but let Tubbo deal with his nonsense.

The possibilities are endless, I need you to understand. Like he's just so passive (mostly) because like, if he does nothing than he can't be the villain and things still go to shit, so it clearly isn't his fault.

[struggling-with-time]

Comforting Presence [Wilbur Soot x Reader]

Pairing: Wilbur Soot x Gender Neutral!Reader

Summary: You need comfort after your ex has left voicemails

Warnings/tags: Hurt/Comfort, the comfort is strong

Words: 1k words

Masterlist: Wilbur’s Masterlist - Full Masterlist

A/N: IN DESPERATE NEED OF AN OPINION ON A SAPNAP IDEA (Also requests are still open! Click here!)

"Here, I'll take it." 

He gently lifts your thumbs off the screen, slowly sliding your phone out of your palms and into his left hand. Letting you clutch your hands back around his right hand. His fingers. His presence. 

He slips the phone into his back pocket, before bending down in front of you. 

"Sssh, Sssh, it's okay. It's okay, I'm here now."

His left hand gently holds your cheek, letting you melt into his touch. His thumb slowly caresses your cheek, wiping away the tears. Before they are replaced by new ones all over again. 

Your hands tighten around his left hand, and for a moment he wishes he was holding yours for a different reason. But he isn't, and this isn't about him, or his hopeless feelings.

This is about you, and about you needing his support. Therefore, he will be the best support he can be to you, even if it's 3 in the morning. 

"Hey, it's gonna be okay." 

He breathes out. 

Your fingers squeeze him slowly, he repeats the motion back. He can feel his heart beating faster. You close your eyes, and he slowly leans in to place a kiss on your forehead. 

"We're gonna get you through this, I'm here now."

He had received one worrying message from you, and rushed his way over here. Finding you hunched over on the floor, crying. Although your voice was gone. Your sobs had been painful and wet. 

Your ex's honey sweet voice pouring out from your phone, as they painted skies of promises, and planted forest of lies. 

"Come, come, let's get you back up to sitting."

He slowly lifts lips from your forehead, and his hand from your cheek gently. His heart arches with the way your head is chasing the warmth of his hand. The love of his fingers. 

He tries to remove his left hand as well, but you clutch onto it, as if it's your last lifeline. A plea for Wilbur to not leave you as well, and a plea he hears, and gently replies with a promise. A squeeze to tell you he's here, and another one to tell you, he's going to stay here. He's happy to let his hand be encased in the warmth of yours. 

"I'm gonna grab your shoulder now."

You squeeze his hand. You've consented to his movement, a sigh of relief leaves him. Yet your eyes remain closed. 

You look so beautiful even like this, so amazingly human. In a way Wilbur wishes you would be around him all the time. Vulnerable in a way that you trust him with your life and heart. Reaching out for him to help you pick up the pieces of yourself and your heart. 

Wilbur snakes his arm around your shoulder, feeling how heavy your body is. How limp you are on the floor. Fully trusting him, fully trying to escape reality. 

Making his body now encase yours, his stomach and chest ready to catch you when he gets you sitting up. His right hand on your right shoulder. His left hand squeezing yours, as you clasp onto his hand. 

"Up, up we go."

He's quick to get you up and sitting. Your body swaying, threatening to fall back down. But he's here, and he's ready to catch you. 

"I've got you, I've got you."

A squeeze. 

"You're doing so well."

He squeezes back.

You lean back into his grasp, and he happily lets you. Encasing your body with his. 

He can feel the way your shoulders are shaking once again, how your head drops down, and how your fingers squeeze tighter. 

"It's gonna be okay, it's all going to be okay."

Wilbur can feel his leg slowly numb itself. He needs to get you off the floor before you fall asleep. The last thing he wants is for you to wake up ruined emotionally and physically. 

Your shoulders have calmed down once again, and your breathing is getting heavier. 

"Hey now… You shouldn't fall asleep here. Let's get you to your bed."

You nestle yourself closer into yourself, instead of praying for the void of sleep to claim you and carry you away, never to open your eyes again, never to open your heart. 

"No, no, no, no, we can't do that."

Wilbur can hear you hum disagreeing, but he won't back down. You have to get off the floor and into your bed once more. 

He doesn't know if it's because you're more tired, or actively working against him. But you seem heavier, as he tries to move you away from his chest. 

Your hands still intertwined, your life line as he pulls you up and away from your comfort of the floor. He happiness as you squeeze his hand, before stopping in front of the bed. Dragging him down first, then letting yourself crash onto him. 

Your fingers are warming him. 

His other hand starts combing through your hair. 

A small squeeze tells him not to stop. He doesn't. 

"When the morning comes…" 

He trails off, you hum. 

"We could take a drive downtown to the Pacific Ocean."

Tiny squeeze. 

"We could work it all out, figure out how to help you get him out of your life. I know you're hurting, and I know you still care so much."

His hand soothingly tangles and de-tangles your hair. As you listen to his heart beat. It's quicker than you remember it being. He must be overwhelmed. 

You lazily squeeze his hand. 

"Pass red lights, like they do in those old movies."

You're getting sleepy, his voice lulling you, as you count his heart beats. The hand in your hair coaching you along. Telling you it's okay to go to sleep. It's going to be okay for a while

He squeezes your hand, and you relax into his arms.

"Help you see the future a bit clearer. Just…" 

He breathes.

"Just be you and me." 

A weak squeeze. 

"Just drive…" 

[1randomperson15]

One of the first things Dream says after calming down is "I used to have a clock." Even after all this time, that attachment still means a lot to Dream, he still mourns it. 

This might seem meaningless, but I think this is Dream's way of opening up to Techno, the first person to treat him with kindness in almost half a year. Dream is being emotionally vulnerable with Techno, something he hasn’t done since George and Sapnap left him.

[ayamturd]

can I request headcanons on how the sbi or dt would react to a rich reader who spoils literally everyone? platonic ofc 😈

spoiler│dream team hc

warnings: none, only fluff

pairing: real-life platonic!dream team

a/n: first headcanon! i thought this idea was really unique so thank you for requesting it :)

wc: (0.7k) - m.list

dream -

considering how successful he is, it probably doesn’t faze him so much as it would others

now when he’s the one you’re spoiling一 man’s shocked to say the least

since he mainly spends more on food for himself, you would push it further from both gourmet to assortments of junk food

clothes

if he’s not going to care for his appearance, then someone has to

you’d try to buy him more simplistic clothing but still high end or name brand

knowing him, he’d try to give it back but you’d guilt trip him into accepting

doesn’t like to admit that he think’s its sweet of you to care

“No, y/n. I don’t need more clothes!”

“But I thought of you when I saw this!”

“… fine.” >:(

if you were a streamer or online personality yourself, you would send him loads of your own merch

now that he would easily, proudly accept (he’s a huge softie for his friends, and he only wants to support them uwu)

would complain if you were spoiling someone other than himself as a joke, but pull you aside to reassure you that he wasn’t serious

there is still the offhand chance he actually tries to rival your gifts and spoiling

imagine: there was this one day where you two kept out-gifting each other on George’s stream to the point where he had to disable them

“I swear to God, you two are going to be the death of me.”

he understands the want to spoil your friends the most out of the group, so he’s not one to try and stop you

respects you greatly for putting others ahead of yourself, even if they don’t necessarily need it like himself

george -

let’s be honest, he’s the most mature out of the group so he’d try to lecture you on your spending on multiple occasions

however, he knows it’s from a good place, so it’s not to the point where he’d try and stop you from spending on behalf of others (even though he can’t)

more so off-hand comments in reaction

“No doubt you’re going to go broke at this rate.”

“If it’s for you, guarantee” :)

“No, no, no, don’t do that. You’re not allowed to do that.”

it’s out of habit at this point that he’d yell your name out the same way he does with dream

“Y/n! What??”

isn’t like dream to playfully complain if you gift others, but plays into his shock

probably privately tells you that you don’t have to spend so much for others since they already know you care

you would say thank you and try to heed his words, but don’t lol

even though there is no way to physically do so, he isn’t an affectionate guy (physically and verbally), so you would target him the most as a way to show your appreciations for him

imagine: he’s doing a solo stream for once and chatting with chat when a large donation from you comes through, immediately calls you

“Y/n! Why did you just donate [something something amount]??”

“Cause can” :)

he would try to fight you on it the most

always fails

doesn’t like to admit how meaningful he finds it so will say a simple ‘thank you’ every time

like he doesn’t know how to verbally express it beyond a ‘thank you’

struggles but always tries to outwardly say he appreciates you beyond what you try to give

sapnap -

now this boy would whine the most if you were spoiling someone else

like dream to do so as a joke, but can sometimes be emotionally vulnerable to the point he where believes you don’t like him the same way as others

since in this scenario, gift giving/ spoiling is your love language and way to show your (platonic!) love

you’re always quick to spoil him after, which makes him feel guilty to think something like that

has the best reactions when you gift him things

“Wait… oh my gosh, y/n!”

“Hehe, surprise!”

“What the hell!”

you would send him the most random things

both as a joke or because you found it cool

from foods (mainly sweets), clothing, plushies

imagine: you send him, like, a giant panda plushie as big as him

“Where the hell am I supposed to put this thing??”

“I don’t know, but it looked cute” :D

the most outward with his appreciation, whether on stream or private

this isn’t to say he only wants gifts from your friendship, but is the most susceptible out of the three

will always say you’re his favorite *^*

is the quickest to reassure you that you didn’t have to given how accepting he is to your giving nature already

no matter what, admires you for your kind-hearted nature and values your intentions (either significant or as a gag gift)

[cupcraft]

Skephalo have goofy divorces often but c sapnap takes them very seriously and emotionally. Like every couple months he’ll start crying to karl about how scared he is that his parents are gonna split up and these are like some of the only times he is EVER outwardly emotionally vulnerable. Important to note skeppy and bad get back together two or so hours after each argument

[cups hc asks]

first of all ough :( csapnap but also so thiss is why cq gave skephalo couples therapy

[zeta-in-de-walls]

Analysis on Tommy’s character’s mental state as a result of the exile arc.

Hey guys, I often makes posts discussing Tommy’s character and one thing that absolutely can’t be ignored is how his character has been traumatised by his experiences during exile. So, I thought I’d discuss in depth and how it’s impacted his behaviour.

In exile Tommy usually described himself as lonely. This is somewhat true but it’s actually a little misleading if you take it at face value. It’s not really loneliness that was his main issue, that was just the easiest one to express. Indeed, people did visit, they just didn’t really help with the issues that were really plaguing him. And there were a few.

-Tommy felt powerless. He was weak and attempting to get stronger himself only lead his hard work to be wasted. Therefore, he was reliant on others for help, and was utterly unable to give them anything back for any help offered. 

He also felt trapped, he had to stay on the island so people could find him and visit him but he was not allowed to choose to send time with others himself. He was completely reliant on others deciding to visit him. (Him building not one but two bridges to make it easier for others to visit was all he could do to increase the odds of someone coming to see him.) It wasn’t just loneliness so much as it being something out of his control. 

-Tommy felt worthless. He felt like L’Manburg had just seen him as a liability and was increasingly feeling like they were better off without him. No one really cared about him. He didn’t feel like he had value anymore as a person. 

He didn’t want someone to visit him, he wanted someone to stay with him - he wanted to feel accepted, validated. That’s why he spent time making a guest tent, so people could spend the night. And was so ecstatic at Mexican Dream agreeing to live with him. 

-Tommy is a very clingy person. He’s extremely sociable and becomes attached really easily. He has a hard time letting go too. In exile he constantly missed Tubbo and obsessed over the fact that he hadn’t visited. Leaving on bad terms hurt him. He couldn’t resolve anything and instead his frustration and bitterness grew and grew. He was put into such an awful and dark mindset! Its during this that he lets himself grow attached to Dream instead, who subtly encourages him to believe Tubbo didn’t care. 

So, Tommy said he was lonely, but he was way more troubled than he let on. 

...

Dream also took advantage of Tommy and performed abusive actions that both confused and traumatised him. 

Dream forced him to drop his items, hitting him if he refused and threatening to kill him if he continued to resist. He then acted nice, protecting him, keeping him company and joking around with him.

He lent Tommy his pickaxe and trident. He helped Tommy get primes. He repeatedly blew up Tommy’s armour. He regularly destroyed any diamond tools Tommy got and talked about ‘letting’ him keep some things, like he was being generous. Dream talked about how L’Manburg was prospering with Tommy there, suggesting everyone had moved on while he was the one responsible for sabotaging Tommy’s relationships.

Dream acted like an authority figure, dressing up all his actions as reasonable and Tommy was at fault for making his actions necessary. He lied about Tubbo not caring about his compass. He promised to invite people to his party and then didn’t, letting Tommy believe they chose not to come. Dream’s actions left Tommy increasingly dependent on him, as he was both physically and emotionally very vulnerable (as Dream had induced) and Dream took advantage of it. Finally, when Tommy did a relatively minor act of rebellion, Dream blew up everything. He killed Mushroom Henry and destroyed anything else Tommy was attached to - his tent, the campsite Wilbur built, the prime log.

Now, one of Tommy’s key character flaws is that he is rather irrational. While he can be perceptive, he often gets driven by his emotions rather than logic. (Its part of why he gets attached to things so easily). Usually he doesn’t actually let his feelings control him, but the exile put him under huge emotional turmoil.

-Logically, he always knew that Dream was responsible. He never forgot anything, he was just struggling to process it.

Dream was acting like he cared and Tommy clung on to that. Even once with Techno he described his confusion at his exile and noted that he recalled all the events perfectly but was confused emotionally and basically wasn’t able to deal with his feelings on Dream at all. He knew he ought to hate Dream but wanted to trust him still. 

Thinking more on emotions is also why he took Tubbo exiling him so personally - just before Doomsday he apologised and said he understood why Tubbo did it (I think he said it was the right decision even) but at the time he was hurt and felt like Tubbo didn’t care about him. Tommy often acts in the heat of the moment but fixes things afterwards. The issue with his fight with Tubbo was that they were unable to see each other and therefore resolve things, causing it instead to fester and get worse. 

So, that’s basically what happened to him throughout exile, but how did this affect his actions? A few different ways.

-He became extremely depressed and almost ended his life. Though he ultimately chose against this, his sense of self-preservation is notably lower. He didn’t seem to be afraid at the possibility of dying during Doomsday. And he was also prepared to confront Dream again over his discs - he had nothing left to lose as far as he was concerned. Once Tommy realised that Dream didn’t want to kill him, he took full advantage of it. He walked up to Dream completely unarmoured while Dream was in full netherite and confidently ordered him around. He was not afraid of dying. And again, he threatened to kill himself if Dream didn’t return after already killing Dream twice. Tommy’s only slowly gaining back his zeal for living. 

-He became angry and lashed out. Jack visited him at one point and Tommy spleefed him into lava, killing him absolutely ruthlessly. This is not a nice anger, its a cold destructive one, a result of all his bitterness from his unjust suffering. A minute later, he can only ask, why did he do that? Sometimes, Tommy might seem meeker, but it’s just hiding pain and rage that comes out in the worst of ways.

When no one turns up to his party, Tommy destroys part of the bridge he built for people to visit as he’s angry and has no real way to lash out - it’s not logical but as Tommy expresses: if they really want to visit then they’ll have to make an effort. A few days later he builds another, not because he’s better but because he’s so desperate for company he doesn’t even care if they don’t really care as long as they show up. 

His actions while with Techno have him torturing Fundy and Connor, interrogating Ranboo and helping Techno release a wither on L’Manberg. This is not the normal Tommy. This is him releasing his bitterness and rage in a destructive way, with his twisted mindset being vaguely approved of by Technoblade (though even he thought Tommy was going too far!) 

-He grew unhealthily attached to anything that gave him any stability in his warped, messed up world. That’s why he started fixating on his music discs so hard. And why he clung to Dream so hard for a while. And why he clung so much to Technoblade, quickly growing dependent on him, desperate for any sort of care and validation.

It’s why he even agreed to help Techno destroy L’Manburg at all. He was in such a warped mindset and wanted to trust Techno even if part of him was appalled by the idea, but his anger at L’Manberg was also clouding his judgement, and he wanted to agree with Techno because Techno cared about him. It’s not Techno or Tommy’s fault but their relationship was messed up thanks to Tommy’s trauma. Tommy was so dependent on Techno and was not able to function properly alone and he was very driven by his emotions, which were in a mess. He could barely sort out his feelings on Dream, let alone L’Manburg or Tubbo. He even let himself believe that all they were doing was minor terrorism, when Techno hadn’t hid his intentions that much at all. 

-Tommy blames himself for all that occurred. When the anger faded, and he was a little less powerless, Tommy began to get back his own sense of agency, which he’d been lacking for so long. With more clarity, he realised that of course he wanted to forgive Tubbo and make amends. His experiences lead to Tommy feeling like it was up to him to apologise - and he did. 

In some respects, there’s some excellent development here - it’s amazing to see him put feelings to one side and realise that his anger and bitterness were hurting him. And he held himself responsible - that his actions, traumatised or not, didn’t justify hurting others. He had been becoming the person he didn’t want to be - and rejected it. 

But there’s some worrying signs too - his experiences left him in some ways too apologetic. His sense of self-worth is still low. He didn’t blow up the community house but at one point said he wouldn’t bother defending himself anymore as there was no point, nothing to be gained from arguing about it. He apologised to Sapnap for releasing Mars - wonderful but it was never really necessary. When interacting with the egg, he said he didn’t want to cause yet another war, having internalised the idea that he’s responsible for most conflicts. At one point he even said he blames himself for Doomsday. It’s not healthy to have such a low sense of self-worth. He no longer blames others for not caring about him - but he does blame himself. 

....

Well this has been a long post. I hope that better expresses how Tommy’s been affected from his exile. I feel like I’ve seen posts complaining about apologists using trauma to excuse his actions. Not at all! Merely to explain. You cannot discuss Tommy’s current character without discussing his trauma. Likewise, it has been treated seriously by the narrative and Tommy continues to have it affect his character. It’s ongoing. He is improving but it has had a long-lasting impact. Indeed his mental state still feels fragile enough that us fans have been very sensitive to anything that might impact him. Tommy should be handled with care, and few of the characters on the server realise this. 

[napsaps-archive]

sapnap is literally justa Little guy who loves his friends that's it. he gets competitive and loud and cocky but he is also a guy who is full of so much love and he expresses it mostly by being a little shit but he also speaks so openly about the love and respect he holds for every single one of his friends and he's not scared to do that. he's not scared to say he loves his friends and he's not scared to say WHY he loves his friends and if you actually take the time and look, you can see he's not scared to be vulnerable with them either. he lets them hold him and hug him and touch him and he lets them tease him and he'll tease them right back and he makes himself smaller when he's next to them and he gives them his full attention when they talk and he loves his friends so fucking much the idea he'd ever to anything to purposefully and cruelly hurt them or anyone else, physically or emotionally, is downright laughable

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I keep fucking thinking of little c!Techno things, and ik I have to make that character analysis post later and not right now because it will take forever and I'm really fucking tired, but I'm just gonna dump a few things so I don't forget them:

- history of being unable to verbally express his emotional attachment to anyone except Phil unless it's in moments of immediate danger (tommy about to get killed by dream, ranboo in peril bc of the egg)

- adhd brain go brr, inability to focus on conversations nts might consider super important bc his brain just looks for other things to focus on after too much excitement (also applicable to cc!techno after too much lore, basically)

- other than when he's pushed to his emotional limits, being really lighthearted/dismissive of things that make him feel too emotional because he just doesn't want to deal with emotions (reaction to tommy's death with hesitance then masking it with false joy, getting really scared of sapnap killing him for .2 seconds then masking that with jokes and intense focus, feigning indifference when ranboo gave him a replacement axe of peace)

- constantly getting emotionally and physically hurt by people and never getting closure, so he just compounds all his emotional hurt and severely internalizes it, so now he has literally no sense of self-awareness and takes no damn accountability for his actions bc to him, it's all justified by every time someone hurt him

- his anarchism stemming from a view of governments as unjust, perpetuating unjust violence, rule, and punishments; now he gets so paranoid about another government forming after almost getting executed by one that he jumps the gun

- even though the egg is technically more of a government and more of a danger than snowchester at the moment, techno doesn't realize that he still holds a grudge against tubbo after all these months, and also has some unaddressed guilt for the time he took one of his canon lives, all culminating into resentment that made him hyper focus on tubbo and snowchester this stream, even if, objectively, that made no logical sense

- the progression from joining the first rebellion against the manberg government after the rebellion's creation, to nipping the new tubbo presidency in the bud with the withers, to now checking in on snowchester before it's even established itself as a nation (progression of trying to prevent shit before it starts, increased paranoia)

- an innate need to make sure everyone else is always less powerful than him because he's just so damn afraid of death. everyone talks about how c!dream is scared of death, and yet views himself as a god, and techno is such an interesting parallel to that. when equipping the rebels before the pogtopia vs manberg war, techno gave everyone purposefully inferior armor (all the armor he gave had fire prot iv or something similar instead of prot iv). he grinded for hours upon hours upon joining the server, just so he would no longer be in iron armor while everyone else was in diamond. he went completely overkill with potions in his fight against quackity, despite knowing that his pvp skills are better than quackity's anyways. he literally spawned withers in l'manberg just so he could get his axe back from fundy and ranboo because he felt so vulnerable without his one, op weapon. now, he doesn't see his wither skulls as comparable to snowchester's nukes bc his skulls, in techno's eyes, are simply a necessary form of self-defense, while surely snowchester could turn violent at any moment (/s).

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So I’ve been thinking about something for a while now and I’m gonna talk about it on here; I feel like in fandom spaces people are VERY quick to slam two male characters with onscreen chemistry together into a gay relationship and it kinda rubs me the wrong way? I’m gonna be using the Dream SMP as an example cause it’s the only active fandom I’m in and I think the source material does a very good job at striking a balance between gay rep and positive male friendships

For example, while there are plenty of canon gay relationships on the Dream SMP (Karlnapity, Awsamponk, and beeduo technically), there are still a lot of friendships between two guy characters that are affectionate and tender (tommy and tubbo, sapnap and Dream, Phil and techno). I’m actually so surprised how well this goddamn stupid Minecraft server showcases both of these types of relationships in a realistic and healthy way, but I could go on for hours abt the Dream SMP and that’s not the point of the post lol.

Whenever people take those friendships and spin them into something romantic, I feel like it’s telling young men that they can’t have affectionate, emotional, and vulnerable friendships with other guys; whenever they immediately ship the characters it tells them that tenderness and vulnerability is innately ‘gay.’

It’s also why I’m pretty off put whenever people ship the streamers irl for having…healthy friendships with their boys? But that’s a whole other can of worms that I’d rather not get into

TL;DR: while gay representation in media is important it’s just as important to showcase healthy and emotionally valuable male friendships :)