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Hello again a thank you for doing the sanemi x abused reader it was soooo goooodddd !!! But can you like make a modern au of teacher sanemi x teacher reader plss???๐ณthank youuu๐ค๐ค
Hello again @skeleton-the-gangser! Of course! I would love too!
I want to insert here some plot inside my head and I think a Modern AU of Teacher Sanemi X Teacher Reader would do well on it. XD
But perhaps~ you'll see another character OwO And I hope it would be good for y'all~ UwU
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Content Warnings: Curse words, Slightly Suggestive
"Y/N-sensei, is it true that you're still not married by now?"
For the millionth time, you've sighed, releasing all of the pent-up irritation that these incessant questions have brought. The gathering was supposed to be a get-together with your old class, but instead, you found yourself in the hot seat.
It's clear that your students from two years ago were just curious about what happened to you. But it really irritated you that they quickly shifted the conversation from their newfound jobs or their college lives, to your nonexistent love life.
"For the tenth time today, yes. I'm not married. I'm still single at 25. For God's sake. Let's just stop talking about me. Let's just chat about how successful you guys have been."
Laughter echoed in the restaurant, but no sound came out of your lips. You just felt like you wanted to head home. You never thought it, but this reunion had become draining. It felt like all your strength had seeped out of your body as you dodged all their invading questions.
Looking around for help from your crazy group of students, your eyes landed on your co-teacher, who was watching how flustered you were all along. You widened your eyes at him, signalling him to come and get you from there.
It seems like Sanemi took that hint, and with a smirk on his lips, he stood up from his seat and went towards you. Rolling up the sleeves of his white button-up shirt in the process.
You gulped when you saw the muscles on his arm, wishing that the man would never notice how you looked at him. Sanemi has always been fit, and there are times that you can't take your eyes off him.
An arm suddenly snaked around your shoulder, pulling you closer. With a creased eyebrow, you turned to look up at Sanemi, who's definitely taller than you. "Ey, ey! I can see how you've been pestering your Y/N-sensei. So I'll be taking her away from you."
Students often flinch at the sound of Sanemi's voice since he has always been the sternest teacher of you all. Often times, you would feel like hitting his head because of his attitude, but now you're very thankful for it.
Sanemi really did take you away from your old seat, despite the grunts that came from your curious students. For some reason, heat seems to build up in your cheeks as you realise that his arms are still wrapped around you. Sanemi's body radiated more warmth than you could ever imagine, as he acted so cold around some people sometimes.
He finally let you go once you were at his table. A small chuckle escaped from his lips as his purple eyes watched you settle down. "Why are you laughing, Shinazugawa-san?" You asked, rolling your eyes in annoyance and fluster.
You looked aside before being drawn into his intimidating stare, and he didn't even answer. "You know, if you'll tease me tooโ"
"I'm just curious too, Y/N-chan. Why are you still single?"
The audacity to ask that!ย Incredulous by what he had just said, you stared at him with wide eyes and cocked an eyebrow. You never expected that a man as stern as him would be interested in gossip.
Even though you were trying to keep your cool, all you could think about was punching the smirk right off his face. Maybe it's just the booze talking.
"Why on earth would you care?"
"Perhaps because I can change that?"
You seemed momentarily stunned. Did you catch every word he said? Is he actually so tipsy? After hearing what Sanemi had to say, your mouth nearly hit the floor in shock.
Is that a fucking confession?
There was a brief period of silence. You did nothing except stare at him in bewilderment, like a young child with no idea what was going on in the world.
Perhaps Sanemi couldn't stand that; he pulled you outside, making sure that none of your former students or co-teachers were looking.
No protest came from your lips, even as Sanemi had already carried your bag on his left shoulder, holding you by your right hand. All that matters in your head right now is figuring out what he just said.
One...
Two...
Three...
"What in the actual fuck are you doing, Shinazugawa-san?"
These words suddenly came out of your mouth as you realised that you were being dragged away from the gathering by your co-teacher, who seemed to be too drunk.
Yes, you will admit that you enjoyed the sensation of his calloused hand against your small fingers, wondering how his palm became like this in the first place.
"Oh, mind your language, Y/N-chan!" Sanemi teased, making you pull away from his hold. For real, what's on with him tonight? Curiousness and fluster mixed up within you, making you feel a boiling sensation in the pit of your stomach. You bit your lip and tried to steal your bag from him, but as he was taller and quicker than you, he just moved an inch, and all your efforts were wasted.
You groaned loudly, making some people look at the both of you. Realising that you both were in public, Sanemi raised an eyebrow at some bystanders and spoke with a cold tone.
"What's the matter with you? Enjoying the show? Go fuck off."
No one would ever think that this foul-mouthed man is a teacher with how he acts sometimes. You shot him a glance, mortified at what he had done, but it didn't seem to phase him in the slightest.
He looked back at you and sent you that smirk once again, which annoyed the hell out of you. "Shinazugawa-san, you're fucking drunk. Stop this." You're almost crying from too much frustration over his teasing.
And perhaps he had seen the tears that were welling in your eyes when Sanemi suddenly gulped and gave you back your bag. "Eh, I was just teasing. No need to cry, Y/N-chan." He said it as if both of you were children playing at the playground.
"Whatever!" You said, snatching the bag away from his hand.
You no longer felt like continuing on with the reunion and instead wanted to return home. You then turned around and started walking in the opposite direction, completely befuddling Sanemi. He chased after you, mumbling your name.
His mint perfume came to your senses, bringing back some memories. Whenever both of you are at school, you can always tell he's around because of his distinctive minty, masculine aroma. Sanemi loves to ask how you have been. Often times, he would help you carry books or even walk you to the bus station.
He isn't like that with the other people; it's as if he has a facade when it comes to them.
Or perhaps it's the other way around. You're the one who's seeing his facade.
"Hey, I was just joking earlier." He said it now, with a hushed tone, making you stop walking. As if he had lost his senses, Sanemi bumped into you, accidentally hitting his lip on the top of your head. A yelp came out of your lips as you turned to look at him and saw that there was blood on his lower lip.
"Shinazugawa-san! You should be careful!" You said that all of the annoyance faded as you took your handkerchief and wiped the blood from his lower lip.
It would be an understatement to say that you don't feel anything. As you wiped the blood from his lip, you couldn't help but witness how long his eyelashes were and how the little hair from his bangs moved with the littlest of his movements.
Gulping at the sight, you finally looked away and were about to step a bit further, but Sanemi caught your arm and pulled you close.
"But I'm definitely serious about one thing that I've told you tonight. I want you to be my girlfriend, Y/N-chan."
What he had said surprised you. At first, you thought that he is drunk, but then eventually realised that there is no hint of alcohol in his breath. So, he's definitely sober, and he's clearly confessing to you.
You gulped and didn't answer him for a while. You stared at him once again and saw how serious he is by the look of his face and the glitter of his eyes. His lips, his plumpy lips... You suddenly had the urge to feel them and check how they would taste.
But then, you stopped yourself and these crazy thoughts... for a while...
"Shinazugawa-san, uh... Let's get your wound cleaned first. Then we'll talk about this again..."
A smile crept up his lipsโnot that signature smirk that he always wears. You didn't smile back, but you're sure that you're blushing like a schoolgirl.
"Where do we go then?" He asked while taking the opportunity to gently squeeze your hand. You took a deep breath and glanced at your hands, which were intertwined.
"Up to you..." You said it in a small tone, feeling a lump on your throat as Sanemi's fingers caressed your hands slowly. When you returned his gaze, his earnest grin changed into a childlike smile, and a flush appeared on his cheek.
"I know the perfect place.ย Come with me."
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So, surprise! This story will be chaptered, and it'll be my first chaptered fic since 2014/2015 I think? HAHA!
Thank you once again @skeleton-the-gangser for the prompt >///< I will definitely tag you to the next chapters~ I hope you like the first one tho!
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A/N ~ This is sometime in the 2020s. Cars. Coffee makers. Temper-pedic beds. Etc. etc.. I'm still navigating my way through the world of writing and trying to branch out to present/modern day stuff. It's just kinda romantic not to have everything so easily at your disposal, like back in the day. That being said, I'd be a mess without my coffee and my coconut creamer. So, no. I'll stay here. Thanks.
"Beach House Vacay"
CW ~ slight [auditory] voyeurism, implied cheating (but no one actually cheats), oral, pโก๏ธv, general smart assery
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It was time for the annual gtfo of town summer trip for the Demon Slayer Corp. For obvious reasons, they couldn't all go. Except, last year got kind of screwed up. Everyone but you, Sanemi, and a few others got to go. Even the baby slayers (Zenitzu, Tanjiro, Nezuko, and Inosuke) left. How it's supposed to work is that every other year, names are drawn. Whoever had to stay behind on the previous trip was automatically a shoo-in this summer. So on and so forth.
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This year, it was just you and Sanemi heading out. Oh, you almost forgot, and f/n, the woman he met in a nearby village a couple of months ago. She wasn't driving out with you because she had some things to take care of. But she'd ride out later with the others.
You had no reason to dislike the woman Sanemi was seeing. Everyone was so excited for him to finally be dating. But it pissed you off. Like, in a weird way. Sure, yeah. Whatever, ok. Sanemi is hot. His wild eyes and tousled hair and his ... hands ... his body when he trains. Rain or shine. But you didn't feel that way about him. You've been with the Corp for 2 years. It was your job. There was no time to develop a stupid crush on another slayer. Not that you'd paid him any serious attention.
***
"Y/N! Put your shit in the trunk, and let's go. If we hit traffic, I'm going to be pissed," Sanemi yelled from the garage. He was still bringing his bags out, too. You weren't sure why he was getting on your case. You dragged your suitcases out to the car. Using your hips and legs to maneuver the awkward boxes around, you hoist them into the trunk. "Ok. Let's hit the road!" You're excited about this, as in like feeling a resounding pit in your stomach excited. It was your first time going. It was your first time going, and it was with Sanemi. Maybe that was why?
You sat down in the driver's seat and made some minor adjustments. Sanemi slammed the trunk down and climbed into the back seat. "Ahhh. Ok, go." He looked on at you, deadass. "Dri-vuh!" You could handle this one of two ways: You could drive off and indulge him in the obvious fantasy of him wanting you to be his chauffeur. Or you could yell at him to get his ass in the front because you're no one's driver.
Wanting to set a good tone for the vacation, you decided to play along. "Ho-k, boss. Did you put the directions in the navigation?" He huffed, completely unamused at your stupid little joke in response to his stupid little joke. "You didn't do that shit already? God. Jusโ just move. I'm driving." Sanemi muttered something under his breath as he tapped his foot in the gravel, waiting for you to get out.
"I heard you, y'know. I'm sorry I'm not all 'perfect Sanemi's girlfriend'. Has she seen you throw one of your hissy fits? Or do you just reserve those special for the people that have to constantly be around you?" He looked even less interested in what you had to say now than 15 seconds ago. "Whatever," you got into the passenger seat and buckled up. "I can't stand you most of the time anyway."
The music was on but not so loud you couldn't talk over it. Neither one of you had spoken a word since the exchange at the mansion, though. It was driving you crazy keeping so quiet. But it seemed like things were going as planned; light traffic, only 30 minutes until you got to the beach house. Only 32 minutes until you wouldn't be stuck in a small space with each other. You rolled your eyes to your reflection in the window. Yep. Right. On. Schedule.
***LATER***
"I don't care if I am the only one that's going to be in here. I want it. Besides, you and your girlfriend would have quicker access to the beach from the other room. You're welcome!" You slammed the door in his face and began muttering to yourself like a crazy person. "Oh, ohhh I'M SANEMI SHINAZUGAWA, and I can do whatever I want because I yell the loudest. Mehh mehhh mehhhh." Turning to put your stuff in the master bath, you stopped short of running right into the very man you had been mocking. "You didn't see this was an adjoining room. Did you, y/n?" Your face turned a deep shade of red that brought out every single freckle. "Well, I ... ffffucking see it now ... don't I? Could you please get out of my room? I'm going to change and then go down to the beach." Sanemi stepped back into his room, and you closed and locked the door after him.
You put your black swimsuit and cut-off shorts on, fill up your water bottle, and head down to the water. Opening the back door, you pushed through onto the wrap-around porch. "This house is incredible," you sigh heavily and step toes first into the soft, warm sand.
The sky was dark, and the air was heavy with humidity. No matter. You were on vacation, and nothing, not even your grumpy housemate, was going to take this from you. The water was 100' or so from the house, and you'd made it about halfway down. "Fffuck I love the beโ was, was that lightning?" You took a tiny step backward.
Thunder
Lightning.
More thunder.
More lightning.
Laughter?
Laughter. "That bastard."
Sanemi sat on the porch swing, swaying casually. He raised his glass to you as the torrential rain started to come down. It was so noisy that you could barely hear him, "How's the weather," Sanemi yelled to you. Having a pretty good idea of what he said to you, you raised your arms and shook your head.
"I. Am. Here. For. My. Vacation. He. Will. Not. Ruin. This. For. Me." That would likely become your mantra for the foreseeable future. You took off your shorts, stuck your finger through the belt loop, flung them over your shoulder, and continued walking on the sand.
A few miles out, you decided to turn back. There was a slight drop in the temperature, and you just wanted to get inside. It wasn't cold, per se, but a hot bath sounded nice. You walked at a calm pace most of the way back. It was your time away from the routine of training and slaying. You wanted to sit on your ass for a few days. Life and work would be there when you got home.
The rain had stopped some time ago, and your shorts dried, but you still weren't wearing them. As you approached the house, you could see the huge kitchen window. There were people inside. Food spread out on the table; fruits, an assortment of sushi, and salads. Your stomach rumbled before you had a chance to register how hungry you'd gotten since leaving the mansion. Sanemi didn't stop to eat once on the drive out. Food is for "the weak."
You walked around to find the outdoor washing station, cleaning your hands and dusting your feet on the mat just before stepping into the back hall to the kitchen. The smell of the small banquet hit you like a ton of bricks. You reached for a plate, but a rough hand rested on yours, keeping you from serving the food onto your plate. You knew the hand before you saw the rest of the body it belonged to. "I know you weren't going to grab a plate and stick your nasty ass jellyfish poking, pebble picking up, sandcastle building fingers into all of this food before you washed, right?"
You couldn't help but giggle and tuck your chin down. "Sahh-nehh-mee," you whispered, overstating his name. Closing the space "If you want to hold my hand, all you have to do is ask me, big boy."
You understood why he should be blushing, and he was. But WHY was YOUR face so hot? He didn't shrink away from you like you thought he would. He did, however, press you for an answer. "Well? Did you wash your filthy dirty hands, y/n? I'm not here to become patient zero." Amusing, you thought. "I washed my hands at the sink next to the outdoor shower. Just off the side near the porch swing. Where you sat and made fun of me for getting stuck in the rain. Did you not look around after that? 'Scuse me."
You pushed past him and got a few things to eat, and headed to the master bedroom. "Filthy dirty hands. I'll fucking show you filthy dirty hands. You'll be begging for some antibacterial soap ... Oh ... oh, shit." You flinched as you remembered talking to yourself earlier and how he snuck up on you. Though you locked the door right after telling him to leave.
Just to be sure, you checked it again. It wasn't locked. It was probably someone looking around for an empty room. You told yourself it was that and not the remote possibility it was Sanemi. Because, well, why would he do that?
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It was 1:34 am. when you looked over at the numbers dimly lit up on the nightstand clock. "I'm not even working and I can't sleep through the night." You had the bad luck of being a light sleeper. It wasn't always like this. Since joining the corp, you're lucky to get 4 or 5 hours on nights when youre home.
Tossing back the light blanket, you lowered your feet to the cool wood floor and followed the muffled noises. They led you to the door separating your room from Sanemi's. And the damn thing was cracked open. "Mm - a-ah, fuck, y/n, yes ... s'tight." Your hand flew up to lay over your mouth. Those noises were not unfamiliar to you. But hearing them fall so sinfully from Sanemi's lips was new to you. "Fff-ungh, oh โ oh shiโ" his voice became muffled for a moment. His movements were more erratic.
The longer you stood there eavesdropping on his pleasure, the more you were starting to doubt your resolve to hate this man. Surely, you were just feeling lonely and wanting to be touched as well. *Anyone* getting off in the next room, making these lewd noises would elicit these same feelings in you as well. Not necessarily just Sanemi. Right?
You sunk the length of the wall to the floor beside the door and listened to this brazen man sounding just a little vulnerable. "Hah - fuck, yeah ... hard ... ple - y/n, harder ... I ... m'gonna ... ugnnhh ... Oh, fuhโ oh fffuck yes."
Your head shot up from his sexy lullaby. "Did ... me? He just said *my* name!" You wanted so badly to sneak over to his room. But the village slut he brought was probably there. "Why did he say my name if she was there, though," you whispered to yourself.
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The sun woke you up after a few more hours of sleep. You got up and went to the bathroom to erase any sign of dishevelment from your body. A smile slowly crept across your lips as you recalled Sanemi saying your name. "Why not." Putting on some mascara, you skipped downstairs to see what there was for breakfast.
The spread was beautiful. It was a lot like dinner but with breakfast foods. You walked by Sanemi and gave his muscular arm a squeeze on your way to the sink. "I'm washing my hands. Especially for you." He let a small laugh fall from his mouth. "It's appreciated, y/n. No one likes filthy people handling the food."
"Yes, well anyway ... speaking of filthy people handling things, did you hear something around 1:30 this morning? Like, gosh, it sounded like someone was crying or something. Mmm, maybe not crying so much. Well, it sounded like they were jer-" Sanemi put his hands out in front of him to stop you from saying anything else. His face a brilliant red, again.
"NO! NOTHING LIKE THAT, HEH." He practically yelled that at you. If the rest of the people in the house weren't awake yet, they're sure to be now. Your eyes got large, and you leaned over the counter in as playful a way as you could fold yourself into. Your eyes narrowed as you bit your bottom lip. You plan to goad him on until he snaps and confesses his undying love for you โ but why do you care? This is Sanemi.
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There was a knock at the door, and Sanemi went to get it. A sexy and sweet voice purred out an excited greeting to Sanemi. "Hiii youuu. I have arrived." You rolled your eyes and mouthed the words back to no one. "Youuu, ha! You arrre here, all right. Look at that! Heyyyy ... y-you! I, I thought you weren't coming out until the end of the week?" That was the question of the hour. Sanemi looked back at you, and you could see he was feigning excitement. Why was he talking like that? Long drawn-out words were your thing.
"Hi, y/n. Enjoying your vacation so far?" F/n (village girl) asked you. Why did you disapprove of her so much? You smiled, looking at Sanemi and back to her, nodding a lazy yes. "It's beautiful here, I love the beach. Always have." You had to get out of there. You felt guilty that you were upset about her showing up 2 days too early. You felt like after hearing Sanemi say your name in such a way he did, you two were making progress.
"I'm gonna head to my room." A bath would make you feel better, you decided. You poured some salts into the bottom of the tub and ran the water a little hotter than you typically do. And then, you felt a gutsiness bubbling up from your gut. Like a fire that was on the verge of burning out of control.
You walked back to the kitchen where Sanemi and village girl sat, talking and feeding one another. Barf. "'San? I'm getting into the bath now." Village girl whipped her head around and looked at you as if you'd just materialized from a different plane of existence. Her eye twitched. Jesus, why we're you being like this?
Sanemi raised his eyebrows [shut up - he has eyebrows to me] and inhaled sharply, but quietly, so as not to alert his guest that he was sending up a million prayers for a huge gust of ocean air to come in and rip the pink towel away from you. Yes, he believed, they'll never know.
"Uh, heh, yeah. Ok, y/n. Thanks? ... thanks for telling me. We're um, gonna ... be ..." He was trying to form words, but it was an undertaking with you standing there wearing only a towel. Village girl was becoming exasperated, and Sanemi tried to figure out why you thought he needed to know you were taking a bath.
"O-ok, then. That's where I'll be. If, I mean, if you need me for anything. That's, that's where I'll be." You tilted your head to the right a little and smiled the sweetest smile at the both of them and swung around on your heels. Ew. Ok, who the fuck was THAT just now. And why, why, whyyy am I behaving like this? To Sanemi, of all people. I don't even like him. Reign it in, y/n, you thought to yourself as you headed to the hot bathtub. You're being icky. And over him. You let out a sigh of pleasure and slight pain as the hot water enveloped your body. You sat in there for an hour. Refilled the tub 3 times. But no one came knocking on your master bathroom door.
***
You awoke to the sound of laughter. "You, sir, are a fucking cheater!" Village girl accused Sanemi. "HOW! How could anyone cheat at this!?" He sounded like he was having fun. But for some reason, that just made you feel more isolated. If that miserable ass can have fun, why can't you?
You made your way down the dark staircase. Not acknowledging anyone, you went outside and sat down on the banister. It had started to rain again. The sun set not long ago. But any sign of light was strangled out by the heavy clouds.
You heard the door open, and you pinched your eyes closed, praying it was Sanemi coming out. "Hey hey, are you ok? Um, I have something kind of awkward I think I should say to you. I'm sorry, but ... uh, well, youโ" You jumped down from the railing and got closer to her, trying to come off as chill as possible. Even though you're well known for not having any chill at all. "I'm jus' here for vacation. Nothin' else. I'm not a fan of drama or lovers' quarrels. I don't care what you and Sanโ" You stopped yourself as you noticed a little bit of blood where you were sitting. "Awww, mother of shit." Village girl nodded and handed you a small plastic-wrapped square. "The last thing I wanted to do was make a scene in there. Or make you uncomfortable. Because we don't know each other very well. And," she looked around, trying to find something new to focus on. So you spoke for her instead. "Because it's generally just an awkward thing to say to a stranger. No, I get it. I appreciate you telling me. Thank you ... erm ..." God. You ran off upstairs and shouted Thank you over your shoulder.
You took your shorts and panties off and began to rinse them out in the tub. The stain wasn't nearly as bad as you thought it would be. "It had to be this pair. Goddamn it. Why does it always have to be the cute pair." You hung things up to dry and dressed again and went back down for dinner.
Village girl was the first to see you standing at the door, but you didn't notice her smiling at you. "What's on the menu," you asked Sanemi, mostly. He pointed and described the different dishes and handed you a plate only to pull it back just as fast. "Ah! Your hands clean?" Smirking, you flipped him off with both of them. "Clean enough for ya?"
You all ate dinner together and talked about missions you'd been on. Missions you wish you hadn't gone on. Who your favorite hashira were. There wasn't, however, talking about your least favorite. It just wasn't that kind of night. It was a night and a space full of warmth. Of happiness. And hell, even love. Any kind. It just resonated throughout the house.
"Help me with the dishes, shit hands." You continued to talk with one of the kakushi. Genuinely enjoying yourself for the first time in ages. "Hey! Shit hands." Turning your head to see who Sanemi was addressing as such. You felt bad for them being given one of his terrible nicknames. "Yeah you, y/n. Help me with clearing the table and doing the dishes." You glared and walked across the room to him. Jabbing two fingers into his ribs, you said, "You're going to have to do better than shit hands," You lowered your voice and narrowed your eyes until they were tiny slits on your face. "Big boy."
It took about 30 minutes to get everything straightened up, washed and dried, and put away. The two of you splashing at one another didn't do much to speed up the process because you had to mop up the floor. But you were happy with how nice the place looked again. You sat down at the kitchen island and began mindlessly playing with your hair and mindlessly rubbing the side of your neck.
"I'm so fucking bored!" Sanemi whined as he paced behind you. The manic energy radiating from his body was tangible. You'd give almost anything to be the one to entertain him. For him to touch your skin. You shook your head, not this again, you thought, trying to warn your future self out of the thoughts to come.
Yep, y/n, this again, you succumbed to the fantasy. Your eyes involuntarily rolled back some as you imagined him pressing his hard cock into your back, pressing his lips to the outer lining of your ear and telling you all of the disgusting shit he'd do to do you.
His lips are on your ear.
His hot breath is on your ear.
His words.
You couldn't even begin to imagine what he'd whisper to you. This was one hell of a little fantasy. You could almost feel him.
Sanemi's lips grazed the side of your ear. "Huh? Whโ shit! Sanemi! What are you doing?" You got up from the barstool you sat on and backed away like you were the guilty party. "I said, hello? Earth to y/n? You looked like you needed CPR. Your eyes rolled back for a second," he laughed. "Heh ... yeah. No! I mean no! CPR is not what I need right now. I was," You took an unusually large deep breath, "momentarily and ridiculously turned โ N-nothing." You choke out. "Turned ... stupid. I just went dumb for a minute."
Sanemi didn't buy your lies for a second. The way your body reacted to him. To the most subtle touch of his lips to your warm skin. He had this leverage over people. He had leverage over you. "Oh, ok. Well, whatever. I'm turning โ We're turning ... in. So, goodnight. Shit hands." He said to you, looking almost saddened by his departure. Even though it was just upstairs. He didn't look like he wanted to leave you behind.
You wanted to scream at him not to go to bed with her, to stay with you. Because how could she ever keep up with him? She didn't understand the life you two led. The sacrifices that you've all had to make.
But you didn't tell him these things. You couldn't. It was unfair to village girl. It was unfair to Sanemi, and it was baffling to you where this sudden rush of feelings came from. Somewhere between the car ride from the mansion and here, you had started falling for the jerk. Unless what if it was sooner and you just needed time away to confirm it? You knew you had to either start dismissing these feelings altogether or give in.
Neither was an appealing option to you. So you did all you knew to do that would keep things status quo. "Goodnight, big boy," You mouthed and smiled sweetly at Sanemi. Watching him be dragged up the stairs into the darkness by another woman.
***
"All I'mโ all I'm saying is you two seem to have an ... unusual dynamic. That's all. I wasn't suggesting anything." Village girl was talking to Sanemi, and you could hear every stinking word of it. It made you wonder why he chose the room next to yours. You did force him out of the master bedroom. But there were 6 other rooms he could have just as easily taken. It didn't have to be *right* next to you.
On tiptoes, you made your way to the door, separating the rooms to make sure it was lockedโ again. The last thing you needed was village girl sneaking over and killing you in your sleep. You snorted out a laugh. "As if she could," you assured yourself. You attempted to talk yourself out of staying there at the door, hearing their intimate conversation. This was *none* of your business. But there was a gross part of you that needed to know what was being said. They were talking about you. If you were told about this later, it wouldnt be the same. Things get lost in translation.
Hearing it firsthand was the only way you could be satisfied. With that, you decided that was justification enough. "Just tell me what you're getting at here," Sanemi said rather loudly. He always either got too loud or very, very quiet when he was arguing. You learned from countless run-ins with him that when he got quiet is when it was time to reassess your reasons for arguing with him in the first place.
"You wanna know what I'm thinking? You really wanna know? Because what I'm thinking is going to change things between us, Sanemi." You heard footsteps, fabric rustling, and the bed creaking slightly under someone's weight. "What I think is ... well, I think that y/n ..." Village girl was losing her nerve. You knew that strained sound in her voice. It was hard to be the one to point out the obvious. Especially if that was going to drive the object of your affection into someone else's arms.
"Look, I'm tired. Can we go to sleep and talk about this tomorrow? After a good night's rest, hm?" Sanemi was asking in his nice voice. Village girl said something too faint for you to catch, and then there was silence.
You brushed your teeth, climbed into your large and empty but comfortable bed, and tossed and turned for the rest of the night.
***
Morning came without the filter you prayed for the night before. "Ugh. This fucking sun." You rolled out of bed and fumbled blindly down the stairs. Sanemi was sitting alone in the kitchen, staring at a kraft paper colored envelope in his hands at the breakfast bar. "Hey. Mornin'. Did you save me any coffee?" He only looked at you after you said something to him.
"Whoa, man. You look a little rough around the edges." He glanced up at you as you made your toward him. His white hair and scarred face look somehow softer to you in this morning's light. "Are you ok? Where's village gi-" You stopped yourself from finishing that question. He hated when you called her that and never understood why you were so uncompromising about your determination to not know her name. "Sorry. Where's f/n?"
He handed you the envelope. You opened it and pulled out the folded piece of paper. It was a handwritten letter. Addressed to him.
โ "Sanemi, The short time we were together was some of the best times I have ever shared with another human being. Unfortunately, that's where you and I will always differ. I am a run-of-the-mill woman, and you are a well above-average man. DO NOT get me wrong, I'm not saying you're better than me. Not by a long shot, ha! You have such a gentle soul, and there will always be a space reserved for you in my heart. But I was kidding myself when I thought that's where YOUR heart wanted to be. I see how you look at y/n. You light up when her name is mentioned. You practically float when she is in the same room as you. I am not willing to sit by and listen to you two lovingly insult one another. Though I'd give up so much to have you call me something as affectionate as Shit Hands and mean it. I know deep down you two should explore this and see where it takes you both. At least *try*, Sanemi. Of all the people I've met in my life, I believe you are one of them who truly deserve happiness. You have some parts, as most of us do, that are irrevocably damaged. Maybe y/n can help heal where I wasn't even able to stop the bleeding.
Please, please take care of yourself.
F/N
A.K.A.โ
Village Girlโ
P.S. I know that's what y/n calls me. It's ok.
"Oh shit, Sanemi ... I, I'm so sorry. Can, can I do anythingโ" He was walking towards you before you could even finish your pitiful and forced condolence rambles. You were sad for him. It's not like you were a completely heartless monster.
"What did you say to her the night you two were on the porch?" He was close to you. So close you wish you'd brushed your teeth or, at the very least, rinsed with mouthwash. He'd backed you against the fridge, his left hand pressed into the cool metal. "Tell me. What you. Said. Y/n."
Did you say anything to her? You couldn't remember anything when Sanemi was this close to you. If he hadn't just said your name a second ago, you'd probably forget that, too. "I, I don't think that I said anything out of the ordinary confines of casual conversation. No!" He glared at you. "I didn't. I didn't say anything that would be construed as impolite. Why are you trying to pin this on me!"
Sanemi slammed both of his hands on the fridge, making you flinch and causing it to rock back and hit the wall. "I'm NOT *trying* to pin anything on you. I just, how the fuck ... how the fuck did she know?" You opened your eyes and peeked at him, mindful not to stare for too long. Sometimes, he was like an animal you should avoid prolonged eye contact with. "How'd she know? How'd she know what?" You knew what he was talking about. But you needed too hear him acknowledge this elephant in the beach house.
Sanemi sighed and lowered his face to your shoulder, letting it rest there. His arms are still caging you in against the fridge. "Um, hey," you peeped, "Are you going to be ok?" He let out some sort of strained noise. Your body got so heavy and hot when you realized it was nearly identical to the noises you heard him making a few nights back.
Your chest rose and fell at unnatural intervals as your breath quickened. He was so close, but you still felt like there was infinite space between you. Lifting your hands slowly, so you didn't startle Sanemi out of whatever trance he was in, you put your palms flat against his chest.
You could feel his whole body beating. He began to nuzzle his face into your neck. Inhaling deeply, he dragged his bottom lip up to your earlobe. "Sanemi ..." You managed, a bit starved for oxygen from holding your breath if you're being honest. "Mmhmm?" He responded, leaning down more to kiss your reddened cheek.
You wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him closer to you. You were still in the clothes you slept in; a camisole and some thin shorts. What there was to see and touch on your body was not much of a secret. Sanemi had planned to use your lack of coverage to his advantage.
He ran his hands up under your cami and dug his fingertips into the heated skin of your back. He wasn't leaving a spot of your neck untouched with his lips. He brought you up around his waist and headed for the stairs. Within seconds, the two of you were at the entrance to your room.
He got you to the cal king bed and set you down on top of the messy blankets. Resting on his knees, he took his shirt off, exposing his scarred and beautiful chest before pushing your tiny top up.
He fell onto your chest. Licking and biting at your still-sensitive nipples. Grabbing and kneading at the pliant skin of your tits. Your breathing was becoming uncontrolled. It feels good to let yourself fall to utter abandon. It feels good to have Sanemi on top of you. Touching you in the ways you most wanted to be touched.
You could feel every inch of his dick pressing against your hot cunt through the skimpy fabric. The outline of his tip brushing your entrance was driving you mad. You locked eyes as he rolled his hips into you, making space between your plush thighs like you were now a piece of property he owned.
"You wa-, you want me to fuck you, y/n?" Your back arched at his words. "Mmhmm, yes, yes! 'Ver since I heard you cum and say my name the other night."
He slowed for a moment, a sheepish look spread over his face. "Oh, huh. I got carried away that night. You were so difficult on the ride here I had to ..." His attention waned, and his eyes glossed over a little. "I did unspeakable things to you in my head." You raised your hips to angle him at you better.
"Oh? Like what?" You propped yourself up on your elbows. He smiled a rather sinister flash of his white teeth and grabbed you by the waist, pulling you down closer to him. Sanemi put most of his weight behind the kiss he just gave you. Pressing you into the bed.
Your pussy clenched at the wild feeling of his tongue darting in and out of your mouth. "God. I want you inside of me, Sanemi. Take your fucking pants off." You both moved at a frenzied pace. Unable to remove the clothing fast enough that kept your pleasure just out of reach.
Sanemi got his pants off and threw them aside. Then he was before you, his cock stood against his abdomen, the head already leaking precum. You fell at him with an open mouth. "Tchh-ahh. You wanna suck my cock like the little bitch I know you are." You moaned at his words and hollowed out your cheeks with just his tip in your mouth. His head rolled back, and he exhaled an animalistic growl and put his hands on the back of your head to set his pace.
"Hah โ m'gonna, unghh ... ffffโ" You licked Sanemi's length, swirling your tongue over his swollen tip once more before he laid you down on your back. You smiled at him. "You gonna teach me a lesson now, big boy?"
"You are really fucking asking for it, y/n. Sanemi plied apart your knees to lay them flat on the bed and buried his face in your pussy. Licking over your clit until you were about to cum but pulling his mouth off of you when you bucked up against his face too much. "Fuck, Sanemi." Your hands found their way to the back of his head and you tried shoving it back down. But he replaced his mouth with 2 rough fingers. Knowingly massaging your walls in every direction. "You're gettin' ahead of yourself, shit hands." You threw your head back laughing, "Don't call me that right now! Gross!"
You were so wet around his fingers. He stopped touching your pussy and wrapped his large hand around his cock, pumping himself furiously while he licked the inside of your thigh with the tip of his tongue. "Fuck me, Sanemi. Please, I want to feel you inside of me. I'm so close, please."
He spit on your soaked cunt and pressed the bulky head of his cock just inside of you. "Ah ... Oh Jesus, S'nemi. More... All of it. Go all the way in." Your head fell back and you started to rub and pinch at your nipples. "You're not going to cum until I fucking say you're gonna cum. Do you understand, y/n? You won't walk for a week if you cum before I say you can. Fuckin' got it, my pretty little slut?"
You looked at him with wide honey-brown eyes. Like a deer about to be hit by a train. "Y-yes. I won't cum until you say that I can."
Satisfied with your answer he rocked his hips into your burning center. You were on the edge of insanity trying to hold back the tsunami of pleasure that was threatening to fall over you. "Oh, oh fff-fuck, Sanemi! I, I'm ..." You were a gentle brush of your swollen clit away from cumming all over him. "S'nemi, fucking seโseriously. Oh god!"
He pulled out of you and began spreading you open, fingering your hole. You began to grind into his hand to keep riding out the high you were about to fall from. "Ahh ahh ahhh, sweetheart. You heard what I said. Not until I tell you."
You reached out to him and brought his face close to yours. He kissed you on your lips and then down your jawline to your neck. Grabbing your wrists, he held them down above your head and ran his tongue over your nipples. Biting and sucking on them until they were an even deeper shade of pink. Slightly bruising them to fuel his satisfaction and desire.
You scooted down farther so you could rub on his thigh. You'd been holding on to this for far too long. He pressed his leg into your wet warmth, making sure to miss the neediest spot on you. "You wanna cum sugar tits? I think ... that I ... might eat you out for a while. But don't cum ...."
"M-mm-hmm, oh, ok. Ok." Your brain was turning to mush. Sanemi trailed his tongue between your breasts and around your belly button down to your achingly empty pussy. "Sanemi, pl-please ..."
He stuck his fingers in your mouth, "Suck." You did as you were told, hoping to get into his good graces. Hoping he'd give you the go-ahead to release this fucking pent-up energy. Pulling his slobbered fingers from your mouth, he slipped them between your slick folds. With his tongue, he dragged fat lines up and down your lower belly.
"Do you, y/n, think I should be nice now and give you what you want? You have been fairly well-behaved today. You might have earned it."
Sanemi propped up all of the pillows on the bed and laid back on them. "C'mere." You crawled over to him and sat, straddling his upper leg. He reached out and started grazing your chest with his fingertips.
You started to rub your cunt greedily on his leg and played with his balls, letting your head lay back. Sanemi's hands wrapped around your waist and slid down to cup your ass. He pulled you over on top of him so you hovered just above his lap. "Sit on it. Slowly."
You lowered yourself down carefully, noticing the way he stretched you and filled you up. But you couldn't go slow for long. He'd teased you and fucked with you for so long that you just couldn't behave anymore.
"Y/n, fuck, my god, mmuhh ..." You bounced up and down on his hard cock, your clit rubbing at his public bone. Your body clenched around him and sucked him in in a way he thought he'd died and gone to the afterlife. He took your right tit in his left hand and rolled it around. His right hand wrapped around your waist and pulled you into him as you went up and down faster and faster.
The relief was so much closer than you anticipated. He felt so good sliding in and out of you. "Hoh- fuck, Sanemi, you're so big." You leaned forward and began kissing him while your cunt pulled him into you even more. Kissing him was taking this to a whole new level of arousal.
"O-ok, okokok. You can cum - you can cum now, y/n. Fuck- fucking I'm g'na, Hah...." His hips rose to meet with each drop of your body. He pulled you close, his hands on your ass. He wasn't guiding you but going along with you. Anticipating your movements.
He lay back onto the stacked pillows and you fell forward onto his chest. Grinding onto him faster and faster until your orgasm washes over you wave after wave after wave.
Sanemi flips you over so he's on top of you now. He pounds into you with an intensity you never imagined feasible. "That's right, sweetheart." He brings your knees up to your chest and prods into you. His balls slap into your ass, sending vibrations throughout your body and clapping noises into the room.
He watched closely where your bodies met and where he continually disappeared into you. The familiar white ring at the base of his cock from your cum mixture sends him over the edge. "Oh shh- shit y/n. Fucking shhitt. That's a good girl. Fuck. You're s'fuckin' tight and wet for me."
He collapsed a wet shaking heap on top of you. You could feel the last few jerks of his cock as he stopped cumming inside of you and he came back down. His full body weight on you.
He started snoring.
"Saneโ Sanemi? Un-fucking-belie-" You couldn't believe that after that, he passed out on top of you! Laughing to yourself, you began to struggle under his relentless frame. Grunting and shoving, trying to get out of his trap.
He chuckled, "Do you really think I'd just drop out like that?" Rolling over to one side of the bed, he gave you leeway to get comfortable next to him. "These sheets ... should we wash them before we go home tomorrow?" You blushed. You, mostly, were the reason they'd become so soiled.
"They said to leave everything and they'd take care of it after we leave." You reached out and brushed away the hair stuck to his forehead and smiled at him. "So, uh, when do you want to leave?" You were sad the days had gone by so quickly. But still, really happy to be here.
Sanemi lay back on the messy pile of pillows and pulled you over to him. "What's the hurry, sweetheart? By my count, we don't have to be out of here until 12:01 am. tomorrow night. "I'm just getting started with you, and I'm nowhere near done.
He pulled you over atop his lap and kissed you softly. You let out the slightest little sound, goddamn it, if that sweet kiss didn't turn you on all over again. You wrapped your arms loosely over his shoulders and gave him a moment to figure out what you wanted.
Sanemi tucked his hands up under your legs and pulled you up higher on his chest, nibbling on the inside of your thighs. "Sit on my face and let me eat. Then I'll feed you, we'll shower, and eventually figure out how to explain this to everyone when we get home. Or, now hear me out, we could just send them a video."
You both laughed at how you thought each of them would react. And you made the video, anyway. But that was just for the two of you.
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Peach how the fuck do you just stay consistently feeding us?? This is so good! The characterization, the build up, the smut is so fucking top tier! Thank you sm for writing ๐ค
COMPASS
bad boy!Sanemi โข gang AU โข NSFW
A/N: Peach?? Not having any self control when it comes to writing a fic?? Itโs more likely than you think.
This was supposed to be a bad boy!Sanemi takes your virginity drabble that spiraled into a meta-analysis of Sanemiโs self hatred that then blew up into a fic with plot. All of those elements are still present but surprise!! Enjoy 24k words of my brain rot.
Inspired by @homo-homini-lupus-est-1701 โs wonderful meta analysis of Sanemiโs self hatred and his scars.
CW: 24k โข explicit sexual content โข MDNI โข gang-related violence โข mentions of blood and broken bones โข mentions of murder/death โข loss of virginity โข creampie โข vaginal fingering โข some angst
I have plenty more of this AU written, so if yโall want more, just let me know ๐ซก
There are three rules to surviving life in the Corps.
The first is simple: once youโre in, youโre in.
Never outwardly confirm or deny rumors; let others talk, but donโt even think about opening your fucking mouth about the things you see or the whispers you hear.
And donโt be stupid enough to think you can cling onto any vestiges of your old life. Thereโs no splicing your life within the Corps with the one youโd had before. No separation. Youโve whored yourself to their cause, and for better or worse, youโre there until either someone important says otherwise or you end up in a morgue.
This is especially true for someone like Sanemi, so hopelessly entrenched within the organization that heโd allowed himself to be branded at the age of seventeen upon his ascension from rank-and-file street member to full-blown Hashira โ the elite of the Corps, just short of the higher-ups who ran it.
The hot sear of iron between his shoulder blades had hurt like hell, but it was a welcome pain. A reminder that heโd not only outlived his father, but had actually made an impact, enough to be noticed and entrusted with more strenuous duties.
Each Hashira is assigned to a particular field. Uzui, silver haired, boisterous and extravagant, deals in bodies โ mostly women, but men too, and he runs all of the strip clubs and escort services west of center city. Kocho, a child prodigy in chemistry, leads an intricate narcotics network.
And then thereโs Sanemi: the debt collector.
Largely monetary debts โ collecting on behalf of loan sharks, gambling debts, or that which is owed to his fellow Hashira, when their customers forget that there are no friends in business.
But the brand seared into his flesh has nothing to do with money โ it is a reminder that above all, he is to ensure debts of another kind are paid.
Life debts.
In the three years since his initiation, Sanemi has only had to carry out this oath twice. Both had been scum, responsible for the deaths of innocents.
Their executions had been quick and without fuss โ or much mess. A quick trip to an overpass abridging the Wisteria River. A march to the barrier in the dead of night, when no other cars were out and about to see or hear pleading sobs and bargains for their pathetic lives. A bullet to the head would quiet them, and Sanemi would let the rapids below take care of the clean up for him. Job done.
But even though the spray of their brains hadnโt touched him, their blood still stains Sanemiโs hands.
He will never be able to wash them clean.
But this is the life he chose, so Sanemi will endure the consequences โ for the sake of his brother, the only living person on earth he gives a damn about. For whom heโll do anything โ be anyone โ if it means Genya does not have to pick up a gun and sell himself to the very gang that owns his elder brother.
The second rule is simpler: no patterns. Patterns signal comfort and comfort may as well be a target on your back, begging for someone to come and take their shot (or several).
And finally, the third and arguably the most important rule, is donโt get attached. Keep your circle small so thereโs less collateral to be used against you โ against the organization that owns you.
This rule applies to both Corps members and civilians alike.
For the longest time, Sanemi Shinazugawa found Rule Three to be the easiest one to follow. He has his brother and no one else. His parents are dead; he has no friends beyond those in the Corps with him, and he knows better than to get overly invested in any of them. His inner circle is as tight as it can get.
But then heโd chosen your bookstore to hide in and thatโs when everything falls apart.
โFuckinโ Christ,โ Sanemi mutters, anxious eyes tracking the large hand on his watch as it ticks the seconds by.
They were late.
The job was simple, and well within Sanemiโs capabilities. Maeda, a local dealer in stolen goods, had run up a sizeable bill at one of Uzuiโs joints that heโd yet to pay. And while the slippery lech was quick to come sniffing whenever news spread that Iguro, a fellow Hashira, had managed to hijack a semi-truck full of luxury items, he was surprisingly difficult to connect with when it came time for him to pay for company he couldnโt get elsewhere.
He glanced down at his bruised, swollen knuckles and smirked. Sanemi couldnโt say he loved that his worth was measured in the number of bones he could break, or the amount of teeth he could punch out, but heโd be lying if he said he didnโt relish the chance to smash the pervertโs face in whenever the opportunity arose. Nor could he deny the rush of satisfaction heโd felt when heโd thrown open the steel door of the Maedaโs small office, crowbar in hand, and watched the snot-nosed pervert piss himself, stumbling over his words as heโd begged for mercy Sanemi hadnโt been hired to give.
The stupid, greasy fuck.
By the time heโd finished, Maeda had been little more than a quivering, helpless lump curled in on himself on the sticky, slate floor. His office had been left in shambles, drawers yanked out and emptied, only to be thrown aside (or cracked over the verminโs back as he sobbed). But heโd had found the money, right down to the last dollar, just as he knew he would.
And thatโs how Sanemi finds himself standing in the alley tucked behind Maedaโs small warehouse, Uzuiโs payment split into two rolls that heโd shoved down into boots. All that was left was for the two junior Corps members heโd brought along for watch to bring the car around, and then theyโd return to the abandoned factory that served as their headquarters.
Normally, this would have been a solo job, and Sanemi would already be on his bike, speeding off to safety. But heโd received an order to take along two, new Hinoe so they could get experience with higher level jobs.
Conveniently, his instructions had omitted the part the fact that the two lugs were utterly useless, bumbling idiots, contrary to what their recent promotions otherwise suggested.
Because neither of the two juniors are anywhere to be found. Nor is there any sound signaling that his getaway ride is approaching.
Sharp, lavender eyes scan the alley before him, but to his dismay, it remains empty โ disquietingly so.
Leave it to a couple of rookies to set his teeth on edge.
Sanemiโs eyes drop down to follow the large hand of his watch as yet another minute ticks by. Itโs been six minutes and their window had only allowed for four.
He knows how to be patient when the circumstances call for it, but now is not one of those times.
One minute, he decides, shifting his weight between his feet. They get one more fucking minute and then he splits โ
A sudden screech of tires at the opposite end of the alley makes his stomach flip. Sanemi looks up just in time to see his escape car grind to a sharp halt, its rear jolting up as the driver slams on the brakes.
The passenger door flings open, and one of the Hinoe stumbles out, his feet barely connecting with the pavement before the car guns away, the side door flapping open.
The familiar howl of police sirens accompanied by distant shouts is enough for Sanemi to know this simple little debt collection has now gone tits-up.
โPigs!โ The Hinoe who stumbled out of the getaway car calls to him. โPigs!โ
โShit,โ Sanemi growls. No doubt Maedaโs bruised ego sold them out. He shouldโve taken the time to smash the assholeโs phone.
Heโll be dealt with later โ and with relish. But right now, Sanemi needs to get the fuck away.
Part of following Rule Three means not worrying about your fellow comrades when the cops come. None of them are stupid enough to actually risk talking to law enforcement about the Corpsโ operations, but the fewer of them who get caught, the better.
So Sanemi takes off, adrenaline pumping fast and jot in his veins as he hears the swine behind him split off. He canโt be sure, but he can make out two, maybe three pairs of footsteps trailing behind him.
He scowls; shaking one cop is a breeze; having to shake off three is a bitch.
He hurtles over a pile of wooden crates and shoves a stack of delivery pallets over behind him as he runs, darting down random alleys and side streets that he knows will eventually lead him to a safe house.
The backstreet he shoots down is a fork, but only the path straight through will lead him to a rust yard of abandoned warehouses and shipping containers that Sanemi knows like the back of his hand. He could lose them there, could vanish between freights and wait the bastards out, and once clear, he could slip back into the district marking the outer territory of the Silo and get back home.
Iron pumps hotly in his veins. Almost there, almost there โ
A car skids to a stop at the end of the middle ting of the alley, police lights flashing and alarms blaring.
No good.
โFuck.โ It isnโt the end of the world, but the blocking of the alley meant he had to reevaluate his escape. While heโs familiar with the path now obstructed by the police cruiser ahead, he hadnโt the chance to fully scope out his only other two options โ the side streets to the left and right.
Without much thought, Sanemi darts sharply left and prays to whatever deity is listening that he hasnโt fully fucked himself.
Only one shop remains open; a tiny hole in the wall, tucked in between two old apartment buildings at the end of the street โ one that borders the cityโs western wing.
Itโll have to do, he decides, especially as the police sirens grow louder with each passing second.
He explodes through the front door, wide eyed and panting. Vaguely, it registers to him that this is a bookshop โ a thankfully empty, cluttered bookshop.
But his abrupt arrival does reveal that the shop is not totally empty. There is one other โ the storeโs lone employee, who startles out of her seat behind the clerkโs counter, nearly knocking over a small cup of coffee.
He regards her for a moment, and she him, with matching expressions of wariness and shock at the presence of the other.
Behind him, the police sirens grow louder; more urgent.
Itโs now or never. And, because heโs desperate enough to try, he risks a move he knows better than to take.
โYou got someplace I can hide?โ
โโ-
You blink, stunned as you stare at the frantic, pleading man anxiously looking between you and the door behind him.
His name registers dimly in the back of your mind. Here. In your store. And, evidently, on the run, if the distant echoes of police sirens growing steadily closer to your store is any indication.
Sanemi Shinazugawa.
You know him; youโd known him most of your life, even if youโd never spoken to him. Youโd gone to the same school in your youth โ all thirteen years of it, in fact. Heโd been an abrasive loudmouth in the hallways, but a quiet, even polite boy in the classroom.
You know heโs from the Silo โ a worn down, derelict part of the City that housed only the poorest residents. A cruel nickname meant to mock the poverty of its population.
But the Silo was also well known for being the epicenter of operations for the notorious group known only as the Corps.
It was the Corps who owned a majority of the City, its reach extending from the Silo, through the West and East wings, and all the way into Midtown. And, as was the case with most leeches, the Corps relied on the most desperate and hungry to carry out its biddings, offering some level of protection and security for the poor souls who needed it most.
Hence, its presence in the Silo.
So you hadnโt been surprised when youโd heard Sanemi had joined the Corps. Most kids from the Silo did; what had surprised you were the rumors that he became a high-rank member by the ripe age of seventeen, before heโd even graduated high school.
You shudder to think what he had to have done โ what heโd become โ in order to achieve such status and notoriety.
If heโd been anyone else, you wouldnโt have helped; you wouldโve screamed, alerted the police to his presence, maybe even outed him as a suspected Hashira.
But you owed him.
Years ago, before either you or your siblings could drive, you all relied on the city bus to get to and from school.
But one afternoon, when youโd had to stay late for a club meeting, your little sister accidentally got on the wrong bus. Rather than being dropped safe and sound a block away from home, sheโd ended up in a bad part of town that just so happened to have been the stomping grounds of the scowling delinquent now shoved under your cabinet, contorted between boxes of blank receipt rolls and stacks of returns.
Had anyone else found your sister, there would be no telling what would have happened to her. The Silo was not a place known to be kind to lost little girls.
But it was Sanemi who discovered her, sniffling and red-faced at the dilapidated bus stop. And though heโd been nothing more than a scrawny ten year old, heโd put your sister on his back and carried her not just the six miles back to safe part of town, but the additional two that led right to the front doorstep of your parentsโ home.
Youโd watched him curiously from the stairs as your parents profusely thanked your sisterโs white-haired savior. Theyโd offered Sanemi dinner, or at least some sort of reward for his efforts, but heโd only waved them off, briskly telling them it was โno big deal.โ As though carrying a six-year-old nearly eight miles was par for the course, as far as he was concerned.
His eyes had flitted over to you once during the exchange, briefly lingering before he turned and left, a single hand held up in casual farewell.
Youโd been ten at the time. And now, here you are, twenty years old, running a shabby bookstore, and the opportunity to pay him back has finally arrived. The chance to show your gratitude for sparing your sister of a fate he himself, had not been able to escape.
Quickly, you motion him to you and without explanation, you cram him under the clerkโs counter, holding the cabinet door shut with your knee just as the police burst through the store entrance.
There are three of them, and they do not bother announcing themselves to you. Instead, they begin to prowl through your aisles, flashlights out and guns drawn while they comb the quiet corners of the store, searching for signs of anything that did not belong; anything misplaced.
A bead of sweat slides down the back of your neck, but you keep your face and your stance casual. Below the counter you cross your fingers, hoping and praying that the criminal stuffed inside your cabinet isnโt stupid enough to try and shift.
One officer rounds back into the main part of the store and locks in on you, stiff and anxious behind the counter.โYou havenโt seen anything suspicious?โ
โIโm sorry, sir. I donโt know what you mean.โ
The cop grimaces. โYou havenโt seen anyone who looks out of place? Maybe seems like theyโre running?โ
You feign an easy, sweet smile, even as the leg holding the cabinet door shut begins to tremble. โIโm afraid youโre my first customer of the day, sir.โ
The officer grumbles under his breath something along the lines of not your customer, but he questions you no further. He only waves to his comrades and the three of them shuffle out through the door, one muttering into the walkie strapped to his shoulder.
Several moments pass, tense and thick. The silence is broken only by the sound of your heart hammering against your sternum. You remain still, fingers curled tight against the counterโs edge listening for any sound signaling the cops have returned, that their stiff departure had been a ruse to lull you into a false sense of security, as they waited for you to reveal your deception.
But all remains quiet. And you cannot stomach the silence any longer.
โTheyโre gone,โ you mutter, finally moving aside to let the cabinet door below you swing open.
Thereโs a faint thumping and a few, muffled curses as the scar-speckled fugitive unfolds himself and spills free from the under-cabinet.
In a way, Sanemi still resembles the boy of your memories. His eyes and hair have always been distinctive: a shocking contrast of violet framed by thick, dark lashes that do not match the mop of silvery-white atop his head. But itโs the faint scowl he wears as he stands, the tinge of annoyance that tugs at the corners of his mouth, that scrunches his pale eyebrows, that feels familiar.
That expression, a portrait of vague irritation with the world around him, was one you came to know well โ at least, at a distance. One that remained constant even as you grew; his default.
However, it is still not nearly as memorable as the shy embarrassment that had turned his cheeks slightly pink, had made him cast his eyes down as your parents showered him with gratitude.
But that earnest bashfulness is nowhere to be found now.
He wears a patterned, short-sleeved button down. Though rumpled and a tad dirty, you suspect the top three buttons were left open intentionally, rather than being the product of whatever scuffle heโd found himself in before he decided to make it your problem.
You try not to linger on the very obvious hint of the well-defined muscles revealed by his open collar. Nor do you let yourself consider the bulging mass of his biceps as he runs a hand through his cornsilk hair.
He has scars heโd not had in your youth โ jagged, silvery lines that cut halfway across his cheek and forehead. Yet their presence does not dull his good looks.
A scrawny ten year old no longer; Sanemi Shinazugawa is now tall and roguishly handsome. But his infuriating good looks aside, your debt to him has been repaid; now, he needs to get the fuck away.
โCanโt thank ya enough,โ he shoots you a devilish smile as he straightens his shirt. โYou really saved my ass โโ
โGet out of my store.โ You order, your voice hard. โTake your trouble somewhere else and leave me out of it.โ
Sanemiโs eyes narrow at your use of the word trouble, but he says nothing. Instead, he only rounds the counter with a loping, infuriating swagger, his hands shoved in his pockets.
โAs you wish, Princess,โ and you bristle at the sarcasm dropping from the word. He pauses to scan the shelf marked New Releases. โJust need somethinโ for the road.โ
He snags a small novel โ a fantasy story, judging by the cover - and he tucks it under his arm.
โLater,โ he calls, waving a lazy hand over his shoulder.
You stare after him, slack-jawed and incensed. โYou have to pay for โโ
But the door bangs shut behind him, and Sanemi Shinazugawa disappears into the night.
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By the time Sanemi returns to his shabby apartment, it is well after midnight. Heโd met up with Uzui and forked over Maedaโs payment. Though, the Corpโs head pimp hadnโt been particularly pleased that his money rolls had been shoved deep down in his boots, his nose wrinkling as Sanemi dropped the crumpled, slightly damp wads of cash into his waiting, magenta-nailed hands.
As it turned out, Maeda hadnโt sold them out. Rather, one of the Hinoe had stupidly gotten into a scuffle with some brash, young teenager and in his anger, pulled his gun on the kid.
Right in front of two, marked cop cars.
One of the idiots had been caught and cuffed, and was now spending his evening locked in the damp, cold jailhouse pending bond. The other โ the driver โ had managed to escape, though heโd been carted off to Iguro for punishment.
Thereโs a reason he prefers working alone, he thinks bitterly as he kicks his boots off. He fucking loathes incompetence.
He pulls his gun free from its place in his waistband and sets it gently atop his ratty kitchen table. Sanemi then trudges over to his futon, collapsing heavily on it with a groan. A shit day, he decides, pulling the stack of cash heโd received as his cut for the job free from his pocket, thumbing through it. A shit day with shit juniors.
He shifts against a lump that sits under his ass. Frowning, he reaches into his back pocket and pulls out the book heโd swiped from your store and turns it over in his hands. Surprisingly, it has managed to remain in pristine condition despite its rather unceremonious storage in his pocket.
Your face flashes in his mind, but before he can fully appreciate it, your words echo in his ears.
Take your trouble somewhere else.
Sanemi scowls, tossing the book onto his coffee table, annoyed. The implication underlying your use of trouble and the venom with which youโd spoken it is a thorn in his side he cannot ignore.
You know what โ who โ he is. In Sanemiโs world, thatโs a liability.
Though, in fairness, he canโt really be surprised that you do. Gossip is a free commodity in this town, and itโs a coveted one. It wouldnโt be a stretch to conclude that youโd overheard one of the rumors about him and his ties to the Corps.
What concerns him is he doesnโt know what your connection is, if any, to his world. Maybe youโre really just a girl in a bookshop who paid back a decade-old favor.
Or maybe youโve got an in with them.
The Corps isnโt the only gang operating within the city; there is another, crueler and far more violent that had arisen west of the Silo.
The Kizuki.
In the last six months, the Kizuki have managed to overtake the Western Wing, nearly expanding their reach into center city.
Their takeover had been swift; practically achieved overnight, following the systematic execution of every known Corps members in the area. And their violence hadnโt been limited to active members; the Kizuki had brutally maimed and murdered anyone tangentially connected to those Corps members.
Neither women nor their children were spared. And now, it seemed the Kizuki had set their sights on the Silo.
There are whispers that theyโve expanded into their operations into the neighborhood adjacent to the one in which the bookstore sits. That alone is enough to make Sanemi suspicious โ perhaps youโre in league with them, and youโll hand him over the moment itโs most convenient for you to do so.
Admittedly, that theory seems doubtful. Youโre a bookseller. Not the kind of girl he knows is prone to becoming involved with the seedy underground world of organized crime. And your apparent disdain for him and his trouble only supports that theory.
But thatโs an assumption, and in his line of work, assumptions are precarious; risky. Too much so for comfort.
Either way, he doesnโt know, and that uncertainty is a breeding ground for the parasite that is doubt. Toxic enough that were it to take root in his brain, his judgment could be compromised, leading him to mistakes he canโt afford to make.
Sanemi doesnโt tolerate blind spots. He will keep you on his radar until he determines the threat you pose and once he knows its severity, heโll decide how to proceed.
He eyes the book heโd swiped from your store. He likes reading, though he hasnโt had much time for it lately (or, ever). But, if heโs going to hang around you while trying to identify the threat you pose, he might as well have a strategy for getting you to talk.
Sighing, he grabs the novel from his table and thumbs to the first page as he pads into his kitchen, in search of something to quell the grumble in his stomach.
โ
His inquiries into you and your life reveal shockingly little.
You work at a bookstore. Your parents sold off your childhood home and retired to some beach down south. Your siblings are spread out across other cities and donโt visit home often, if ever.
Only you remain, abandoned by your family to fend for yourself in a crumbling city with only a shabby bookshop that sits on the furthest end of an otherwise safe street to keep you busy.
Truthfully, the bookstore probably is more interesting than you, at least on paper. But itโs that dirge of information that piques his interest; makes him look at you more as a mystery worth unraveling.
Besides, the smart thing for him would be to keep a tab on you until he can confirm you are in fact, as boring as you appear.
Or so he tells himself.
The image of a ten-year-old you peering at him from your parentsโ stairwell flashes through his mind once more.
Heโd felt your gaze burning a hole into his head, and shyly, heโd looked back at you, only to find himself unable to look away. Only your motherโs prodding about him joining your family for dinner had broken your temporary enchantment over him.
The memory of how youโd looked at him โ a mixture of curiosity and awe highlighted by a faint blush in your cheeks when heโd met your stare head on โ remained fixed in his brain for years after.
And though the two of you never spoke, you always smiled at him whenever you locked eyes in the school hallway or cafeteria. A real, genuine smile.
He wonders if he ever smiled back and finds himself irritated that he canโt remember if he had. He shouldโve; especially now when it seems as though heโs unlikely to ever see that gentle, radiant smile again.
Sanemiโs phone pings and all thoughts of you come to a screeching halt. The message that flashes on his screen โ instructions, only by way of an address and an amount โ chase away the images of you and your sweet smile, like a hand scattering smoke.
With a sigh, Sanemi dials the number for two, lower-ranked Corps members to serve as scouts. With watch secured, he shoves his phone into his pocket and runs a tired hand over his face.
He wonders what will kill him first โ whether it will be a bullet or whether it will be because thereโs nothing left of him to whore out on the Corpโs behalf.
Ultimately, he knows it doesnโt really matter. He wonโt die as himself; as Sanemi, the boy from the Silo who wants a life thatโs anything but this. Heโll die only as Shinazugawa the Hashira. Heโll die under the mask heโs forced to wear so often, he wonders if it hasnโt yet bonded with his skin.
But as long as he remains in one piece, he must continue on as a puppet in this this tedious show. So, Sanemi grabs his gun from where heโd placed it on atop the cheap plastic of his kitchen table and he tucks it into his waistband.
And by the time his apartment door slams shut behind him, Sanemi has slipped the mask down over his face, and he is Shinazugawa once more.
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Two weeks pass before he ends up back in front of your bookstore.
Sanemi doesnโt really remember how he got here. He awoke well before sunrise to his phone chiming with orders that he go collect on a sizeable gambling debt owed by one of Iguroโs regulars, an owner of some pawn shop.
The sun was already high overhead when he finally left the pawn shop, knuckles bruised and arm aching. Heโd kicked his bike into gear in a familiar daze, one that always slipped over him after he completed a job. A kind of numb quiet that settled into his bones, a dull static in his brain that did not fade until the tremor in his hands subsided.
That paralysis needs to be broken. Contrary to popular belief, desensitization was not an ideal state of being for someone like him. It made him apathetic and careless to the world around him, and that was little better than painting a giant target on his back, begging his enemies to come and do their worst.
So, when the numbness still lingered by the time his bike roars past a rusted water tower that marks the outer limit of the Silo, Sanemi knows of only one cure. His go-to.
His bike is still hot by the time he lifts his phone to his ear, just outside his shithole of an apartment.
He doesnโt know her by name โ only by description, as told by the series of emojis that accompany her number on his phone. But itโs surprisingly easy to charm her, though perhaps thatโs because sheโs looking for an escape just as much as he is.
Less than ten minutes later, the girl pulls up beside him in the parking lot.
Her hands are already roaming down his chest and playing with the buckle on his belt as Sanemi unlocks his door and pushes her inside.
At some point between the front door and his bedroom, the girl has stripped herself of her outer clothing, leaving her only in her undergarments as she tugs Sanemi down by his neck and into her kiss. Sheโs licking and nipping at his lips in a way heโs not sure he likes, but he allows it because his cock is painfully hard and throbbing where it strains against his pants.
And, after all, heโs the one desperate for relief.
โIโve only got ten minutes,โ she warns, kicking off her underwear as she falls back onto his bed. Sanemi only smirks as he slides his hand down the length of her leg, gripping her by the ankle and flipping her to her stomach.
He shifts away long enough to quickly wiggle free of his pants. He grabs a condom from his nightstand and rips the foil with his teeth. Fingers toying with the girlโs clit as she moans into his mattress, Sanemi rolls the latex down his cock. Protection secured, he reaches for her again, yanking her by her hips until her backside is flush against him. One hand pushes down between her shoulder blades while the other snakes up her neck, and Sanemi nudges the tip of his cock up against her entrance.
โDonโt worry, darlinโ,โ he winds the long tresses of her hair around his fist and gives her a sharp tug. โWeโll be done in five.โ
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Even an hour after he tossed the girl her clothing and not so casually suggested she leave his apartment, Sanemi still feels restless.
He cannot shake the images of the afternoon from his mind, and so, Sanemi resorts to walking.
He does so without thought as to destination or the rapidly setting sun. Sanemi only focuses on the activity itself. One foot in front of the other; pace even and quick, each step accompanied by a flash of that dayโs sins.
The crash of a garage door as it slammed back against the wall. Wide eyes that quickly filled with panic at the sight of him and the flash of metal tucked against his hip.
Step.
A plea; a desperate promise to pay, one that heโd heard a thousand times from a thousand different mouths. None of them ever seemed to understand their word wasnโt worth shit when theyโd already defaulted on their obligations. Yet still, they begged.
Step.
The breaking of teeth beneath his fists.
Step.
The crush of bone under the iron pipe heโd found discarded on the garage floor. The agonized futility of trying to scoot back and away from him, despite a shattered leg.
Green; the color of the money heโd found stashed in a duffel, the debtorโs desperate attempt to hoard the wealth owed to the Corps.
Step. Step. Step. All the way down the street leading until he finds himself on a distantly familiar stretch of pavement that ends at the bookstoreโs front steps.
For a moment, he lingers outside the shop, hesitant. He should turn around; there is no reason for him to be here. His investigation into you is not a priority by any means, especially where whatever poking he has done has revealed so little.
The book he lifted from the New Releases shelf is tucked carefully in his jacket pocket. He doesnโt know why heโs carried it around with him, all this time. Sanemi finished the novel the very night youโd helped hide him from the cops.
He should leave; but then his feet carry him up the walk leading to the store, and heโs pushing the door open.
His arrival is punctuated by a cheerful ring of the old bell nailed above the door. At first, the store appears deserted; but then you pop up from under the counter, surprise coloring your features.
That surprise melts quickly into cold disdain that makes something in his chest flutter as he strolls toward you. With every step, that numb haze of his disperses and instead, Sanemi feels himself returning to normal the closer he brings himself to you.
โThis isnโt a library,โ you chide when he plops his borrowed novel back down on your counter. โYou have to pay for the books here.โ
Itโs incredible how easily he is able to slip back into the skin of the suave, smug playboy, and your adorable glare only makes him smirk. โI brought it back, didnโt I? Look โ didnโt even crack the spine.โ
โIt doesnโt matter,โ you reply coolly, snatching the book up and tossing it on a small cart marked Restock. โThat loss came out of my paycheck โ which is scant enough.โ
That piques his attention. โDidnโt you say this was your store?โ
His question makes you turn pink, and youโre quick to put your back to him, pretending to shuffle through new releases waiting to be shelved. โI work here,โ you mutter quietly, but when you turn back around, you stick your chin out, defiant. โBut I am the only employee, so it is my store, in a sense. The owner doesnโt ever come by.โ
You wrinkle your nose. โSo yes, lost profits affect me, and me alone, you thief.โ
Sanemi cocks his head, his eyes running over you in consideration.
Youโre beautiful; heโs always found you cute, even as a kid, but the transition between your teen years and adulthood have been kind. Even if youโre glaring at him like you would a crushed bug stuck to the bottom of your shoe.
But your words strike a chord in him. His job is to collect money from those greedy lowlifes who waste it; who use money to carry out their bad deeds, who use it to fuck over others.
He doesnโt take it from those who need it; from those who are barely scraping. by. Sanemi knows the agony of having to choose between keeping the lights on or feeding a hungry stomach far, far too well.
โFine, here,โ he tosses a random novel on your counter and a crumpled twenty dollar note. You ring him up, eyes flicking up to glare at him every so often as you count out his change.
He only continues to watch you, the heat of his stare ignites an itch under your skin that makes you squirm.
Your restlessness boils over. โWhat?โ
โNothin,โ he shrugs. โJust think itโs interesting that you of all people are still lingering in this shit hole.โ
Your head snaps up, your task of totaling out his change forgotten. โI live here, idiot.โ
He snorts. โDidnโt you want outta here? Do somethinโ different?โ He leans forward, elbows propped on your counter as he rests his chin on his fist.
โI donโt see how thatโs any of your business.โ Heโs dancing dangerously close to a sore spot of yours โ that you are alone in your hometown, working at a failing bookshop, with no one and nothing to justify your stagnancy.
โThis canโt be your dream life.โ
You donโt have to answer; you know that. But his line of questioning is puzzling. Because, no matter how casual he manages to keep his tone, his nonchalance is betrayed by his eyes, sharp and inquisitive.
Like heโs waiting to dissect whatever answer you give him.
Sanemi continues. โItโs strange for people not to want for more โ to not dream about somethinโ different.โ
โAnd who are you to say I donโt?โ You bristle, slamming your cash drawer shut with more force than necessary. โI have a dream of my own. Just because itโs not one you would pick for yourself doesnโt mean itโs wrong.โ
He blinks, taken aback. โWoah, woah, I never meant any offense.โ He pushes back from the counter. โMy bad.โ
His response feels genuine but your ego is already bruised. Stiffly, you finish counting out his change and drop it into his waiting palm.
You slide his book across the counter. โHave the day you deserve.โ
His surprise morphs into amusement at your iciness. So haughty, he winks. โYou too, Princess.โ
You turn aside in clear dismissal. He makes a show of taking out his wallet and stuffing his change inside, but your pointed ignorance of him means you donโt see him toss another note on the counter.
Heโs already halfway out the door when you call after him, urgent. โSir, you dropped your โโ
โNah, I didnโt,โ he raises his hand in farewell as the bookstore door bangs shut behind him, leaving you to stare open-mouthed after him.
Clutched tightly in your hand is his crisp, one hundred dollar note.
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His next visit is unplanned, but not in the way that Sanemi avoids routine. Itโs unplanned in that heโs annoyed and itโs partially your fault, so that means the onus is on you to fix it.
Youโre in the process of double checking delivery logs to ensure all your new inventory has arrived when a large thud against the clerkโs counter startles you.
You frown. Itโs him again โ all ivory hair and silvery facial scars that somehow are less imposing than the irritated scowl he wears.
โThis book was shit,โ he scoots the novel across the counter to you with distaste. โI want a refund.โ
You level his pout with a frosty glare of your own. Wordlessly, you lean over the counter and tap a single finger against a laminated sign duck-taped to its edge.
Return-exchange only. No refunds.
โBut it was shit,โ he repeats, as though that will somehow spur you to change a policy you didnโt create. โYou let me waste twenty bucks.โ
โI did nothing,โ you rustle the pages of your delivery log in pointed dismissal. โYouโre the one who decided to buy a book before checking it out.โ
You glance down at the discarded novel. โFigures,โ you scoff. โHeโs not even an author. He uses ghost writers and takes all the credit.โ
โWoulda been nice if youโd told me that before you let me give him my money.โ
You hum idly as you cross off the logโs boxes for new releases. โI suppose I was too stunned that you even knew how to read. Guess I wasnโt really paying attention to your shit choices.โ
โOh?โ And you glance up to see Sanemi smirking at you. โThe Princess has claws, does she?โ He leans against the counter, propping his cheek under a loose fist. โSo, what are your recommendations, gorgeous?โ
โIโm not your Princess,โ you snap imbuing the nickname with as much venom as you can muster. โCall me by my name or call me nothing at all.โ
His eyes drop to your name-tag, pinned neatly on the front of your sweater. That insufferable smirk of his only widens. โAlright, alright. What are your recommendations, Y/N?โ
The syllables sound rich and honeyed and suddenly, you wish youโd let him stick with Princess, as grating as it was.
Because your name should not sound so sweet, should not roll off his tongue so seamlessly, as it just did.
Youโve never been one to indulge in rumors. But in this city, as economically fractured as it is, gossip is a currency everyone keeps in their back pocket. And though you keep your head down and mind your own business, even you have heard the rumors swirling around town about the eldest Shinazugawa child.
Rumors that he has ascended the ranks of the same Mob that claimed the life of his deadbeat father long before the bastard was shived in the back for a debt heโd owed (their words, never yours).
Rumors that he holds a unique position within the gang, known clandestinely only as the Corps, and that position requires him to do things most wonโt speak about.
But the rumor that screeches to the forefront of your mind has nothing to do with his alleged status with the Corps. Itโs his reputation as a flirt; a rumored womanizer, through and through, that is a splinter under your skin.
Determined to pick him out, a wicked idea blossoms. โFine, here.โ You stalk purposefully to the section marked Literature. Your finger drags down a line of titles before finally settling on one. You pull it free with a soft grunt, the book sitting thick and heavy in your hand as you dump it into Sanemiโs.
โRead that.โ
His eyes flick between its cover and you, incredulous. โThis ainโt a book; itโs a brick.โ
โItโs a classic,โ you counter. โOne that examines age-old question of destiny versus free will, generational curses.โ Your head cocks to the side, a challenging smirk tugging at the corner of your mouth. โLove and lust.โ
His eyebrow raises and you cross your fingers. If he falls for it and ultimately ends up hating the book, then perhaps heโll decide your taste in reading material is indeed shit, and maybe then heโll leave you alone.
Sanemi considers you for a moment but then he takes the bait. โIf you say so,โ he sighs. โBut if itโs shit, Iโm taking my refund.โ And then he leans in close, so close that you can feel the warmth radiating off his body.
His breath is hot against your ear. โRegardless of your shitty little policy.โ
You refuse to let him see how much heโs knocked you off-kilter. โSo I can expect to be robbed? Will it be at gun or knifepoint? Just so Iโm prepared.โ
His chuckle, low and dark sends goosebumps skittering down your arms. โWorse,โ he promises before he draws back. His grin is wolfish, all teeth and feral hunger. โYouโll owe me a date.โ
He looses a low, appreciate whistle as he steps back and takes his eyes over your rigid form. โThough, I might just take you out anyway.โ
โYou assume Iโll say yes โ or are you planning on kidnapping me? Iโm sure youโre rather proficient at it, given your occupation.โ
Something dark flashes across his face, and itโs enough to make you step back, a sudden fear creeping up the back of your spine.
Stupid, you chastise yourself. You never know when to keep your mouth shut.
But the shadows in his features recede as quickly as they appeared, and Sanemiโs mouth eases back into that same, cocky smile.
โYouโll say yes, Princess. You wonโt be able to resist the temptation.โ
โTemptation?โ You force out a laugh. โAnd what makes you think I canโt?โ
Sanemiโs eyes find your current read, open flipped over on the counter, marking your current page.
Itโs a mystery novel. Your third of the month, born of a new hyperfixation on the genre.
You want nothing more than to wipe that smug grin of his clean from his face. He gives an affectionate snake of his head as he turns and makes his way toward the door. โHabits, Y/N. It all comes down to habits.โ
You should throw it at his head, but Sanemi exits the store before your hand can find its spine.
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Over two weeks pass without so much as a whisper from the enigma that is Sanemi Shinazugawa.
Loath though you are to give him that sort of credit, you cannot deny that he utterly confounds you. He is everything you expected while simultaneously nothing at all what youโd imagined. He is brash and cocky, and he struts around with an insufferable self-importance that can only come from years of being at the top of his game (no matter how he got there).
Yet, he also reads. Enough to have opinions, even decent ones, about certain authors, and heโs open minded enough to accept your recommendation even if it feels as though he has an ulterior motive for doing so.
And, heโd been bothered by the dock in your pay as a result of his mischief; so much so, that heโd slipped you more than enough to make up the loss. That is the action that puzzles you the most, even weeks later. Youโd assumed that someone like him, so used to ensnaring people into various schemes, wouldnโt have given two shits if heโd stolen money from some broke girl at a bookstore. After all, his business was all about money โ and the lengths some would go to keep it.
Yet heโd paid you back โ paid you more than you needed, if you were honest.
Since that day, youโve had your ears tuned to any mention of his name, any whispers of the mysterious, scarred gang-member who has occupied nearly all the open space in your head. Youโve managed to glean small things here and there. That heโs a Hashira, and Hashira means heโs only one step below what is known ominously as the Master Family โ the heads of the entire organization.
That heโs rather feared, even among seasoned Corps members; that heโs known for his swift brutality.
That heโs more than just a flirt; heโs a virile lover. Not picky in the slightest about who warms his bed, though no one has ever been able to pin him down longer than a handful of one-night stands.
You stop poking around after that particular revelation, embarrassed that you now know exactly what makes him so popular.
Apparently, his flexibility pairs well with his near inhuman stamina. And heโs said to be very well-endowed.
Itโs more information than you care to know, but you canโt deny that your curiosity lingers.
You brush aside your inquisitiveness as nothing more than a natural side effect of your own inexperience. And youโll be damned before admitting that your interest in Sanemi Shinazugawa isnโt limited to rumors of how good he is in bed. That, perhaps your curiosity stems from something deeper, from a desire to know if that bad boy persona is authentic or a mere facade, and boy on the stoop still lurks somewhere beneath his mask.
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โYou look like shit.โ
You startle up from where youโd been resting your head on your arm, wavering between consciousness and sleep.
You know that gravelly voice before you lay your eyes on him, and your irritation is quick to flicker to life.
Nearly a month has passed since your last encounter, and for a moment, youโd thought youโd been freed from his nuisance. But now, Sanemi stands in your store, wearing a half-amused expression on his stupidly handsome face.
โIs that the only descriptor you know?โ You ask miserably, hands working quickly to smooth down your mused hair. โIs everything either shit or not-shit to you?โ
Sanemi shrugs. โPretty much,โ and he holds something out to you, waiting. โHere.โ
Itโs a to-go bag from a cafe two blocks away. One known for their almond croissants, for which you have a particular penchant.
Your stomach grumbles fiercely. Youโd foregone eating breakfast when you realized youโd overslept your alarm, and had to rush out of your apartment to ensure youโd be here in time for the weekly delivery truck.
The sweet scent of butter and sugar wafting from the bag makes your mouth water.
But this is Sanemi Shinazugawa, and you should think to know better. โIs it poisoned?โ
He rolls his eyes. โIf I wanted to drug you, sweetheart, Iโd pick a far more convenient way to do it โ and one that didnโt involve me getting up at the ass crack of dawn for some overpriced pastries.โ
Warily, you accept the paper bag, and Sanemi surprises you again by handing you a to-go cup of coffee. He watches as you, ever the dramatic, sniff tentatively at the lid and frown, apparently dissatisfied that you can discern nothing but the rich, aromatic scent of espresso.
Sanemi takes a deep drink from his own cup. โItโs a thank you. For that book you recommended,โ He smirks. โIt wasnโt shit. It was good.โ
You fish a pastry out of the bag, and nearly drool as you behold its buttery, flaky goodness. โYou sound surprised.โ
โMaybe I was. Your success rate was only fifty-fifty. I had every right to be skeptical.โ
โYouโre the one who grabbed that last book,โ you take a large bite out of your croissant and you fight to keep yourself from moaning. โThat had nothing to do with me.โ You swallow thickly before taking a large sip of coffee to wash down the pastry. โSo, no date, then?โ
The smile he gives you is almost apologetic. โSorry, beautiful. I donโt actually date.โ And you nearly double over at the bewildering taste of disappointment creeping sourly up the back of your throat. โGotta keep things casual in my world.โ
The once-over he gives you is razor-sharp. โAnd you donโt look like a casual girl.โ
You resist the urge to cross your arms. โYou seem awfully certain, Shinazugawa.โ
โExperience,โ he offers easily. โI know casual women.โ He turns his head away before quietly adding, โAnd you ainโt one of โem.โ
Itโs odd; you know of his rather wild reputation among women, and yet he seems almost embarrassed by its acknowledgment. But as youโre slowly learning, Sanemi Shinazugawa is a conundrum you havenโt yet been able to pick apart.
You could throw it in his face; you could spew some barb about his experience, rub your salt right into his obvious wound. You have no reason to spare his feelings, not when heโs been such a consistent pain in your ass.
Your eyes drift to the empty pastry bag and coffee cup before they find him again, and suddenly, you donโt see the swaggering, cocky Corps member with a reputation for being just as dangerous and violent as he is flirtatious.
You see only the boy on your stoop; the one whoโd gently removed your sister from her place on his back and handed her back to your tearful, relieved parents.
And itโs because you cannot stop seeing that boy, that you offer before you lose the courage to ask, โSo, friends, then?โ
Sanemi whips back to you, surprise coloring his features that quickly melts into a smile โ a real, genuine smile.
And thus, Sanemi Shinazugawa, ruthless member of the Corps and a ranked Hashira, befriends a girl who runs a bookshop.
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In retrospect, Sanemi knows heโs probably fucked himself.
His only intention in visiting your shop after that first day had been to discern what level of threat you posed to him, if any, and to address it accordingly. Befriending you was never his goal. After all, he prided himself on his staunch ability in following the unspoken Rules of the Corps โ number Three, in particular.
But he has always interpreted Three has a warning against forming bonds within the Corps. And though he knows itโs good practice to keep his circle outside its operations small as well, he rations heโs entitled to indulge his curiosity in you. He doesnโt have friends, not really. Just Genya, and his little brother lives well over an hour away, enrolled in a school in a far better โ far safer โ city.
It would be nice to have someone a little closer to home that he could relax around.
Yet, he canโt recall whether Rule Three would bar him from associating you outside work hours. Caution would dictate he shouldnโt, but Sanemi never claimed to be a careful man.
He never visits the same day or at the same time. Rule Two says no patterns, and though heโs steadily blurring the lines of Rule Three with each passing day, he convinces himself that as long as he abides by the first two, he wonโt be in as deep shit as he, in theory, could be.
It starts out slow; tentative. Despite what heโd thought otherwise, youโre not nearly as prim and haughty as youโd tried to make him believe.
Youโre sweet. Genuine, in a way thatโs rare for him to encounter in his world.
Gradually, he begins spending more time with you. At first, your relationship is confined strictly to discussions of books. You swap favorites, debate which author is at the top of their genre, and you occasionally needle each other over your respective guilty pleasure: yours, bodice rippers. His, fairytales.
He spends a great deal of his free time at the bookstore, though heโs never consistent with his visits. You never ask him about it, and for that, heโs grateful. But eventually, your conversation turns to other interests โ movies, shows, music โ and each new mutual interest only further enamors him with you.
And when you invite him over one day after you close the shop to watch an old movie youโd swiped from the storeโs limited collection, he canโt find it in him to tell you no.
The first time he visits your apartment, he is appalled.
For starters, the neighborhood you live in isnโt the safest. Itโs not the Silo, by any means, but itโs an area he frequents as part of his job and that fact alone sets him on edge. He knows what kind of people linger here; knows that they tend to borrow cash that ends up in Uzuiโs business โ another Hashira.
And when he sees the shoebox you live in (a studio, youโd proudly boasted, as though the distraction of exposed brick and industrial piping made up for its shit location and shit security), Sanemi finds himself clutching his proverbial pearls.
He supposes he can see its appeal โ youโve certainly turned it into a home.
Youโve made a small living room out of a single couch, thrifted coffee table, and a faintly stained rug. Your TV is laughably small, but he supposes it gets the job done.
A small kitchen stands to the right of the entryway, and there is a bathroom to the left. You have a wall of closets with folding doors, and the wall directly opposite of him boasts three large, arched windows. Sanemi supposes during the day, they provide enough natural sunlight to negate any need for any overhead lighting, of which you have none. But he canโt tell if they open from the outside, so he resolves to furtively check once youโre distracted.
Your bed stands on the furthest wall, tucked into a corner and laden heavy with colorful pillows and plush throws. Books are stacked everywhere โ in shelves, in corners, by plants and furniture. All well-worn and loved, their spines cracked and covers stained.
Itโs lively; warm. And it has you written all over it. That alone is enough to slightly endear the place to him.
But itโs still a shit apartment in a shit neighborhood.
Worse, your door is little more than a flimsy piece of wood that latches with a single turn lock โ the easiest to break, if someone was determined enough to try. He tells you as much and you roll your eyes, brushing aside his concerns as though heโs not precisely aware of what kind of filth might linger around the corner.
The next day, he brings over a deadbolt, a chain, and a drill. He bats off your indignant protests as he installs it on your door. And, because heโs petty, he forces you to sit through a painfully detailed demonstration of how to properly latch and unlatch the chain once heโs finished.
The weeks blend seamlessly into months, and Sanemi finds himself spending more and more of his free time with you. It doesnโt matter whether youโre working at the bookstore or enjoying a night of brain-rotting entertainment on your shitty little television. He just wants to be near you, and he finds himself unable to stay away.
Four months into your friendship, you start a weekly movie night, though the date is always subject to change. Still, Sanemi finds himself craving more of that precious time with you. The hours spent in your store or at your apartment fill a void in his chest he hadnโt realized heโd been harboring, and itโs a fullness he quickly becomes addicted to.
It is an odd thing, this new ritual (never routine) of his. The alternation between visiting the scum indebted to the Corps, to feel bones crush and snap beneath his hands or the iron of a spare crowbar, or blood griming to his knuckles, only to return to your bookshop or apartment, cheap beer and greasy takeout in hand, isnโt the kind of switch he imagined heโd ever make. But you make taking off his Hashira mask so damn easy, and every time he leaves he finds it more difficult to slip back on.
With each passing day, he learns you more and more. He gathers information like a dragon hoards its jewels, each new tidbit a precious gem that he tucks safely away in a mental box labeled with your name.
He learns that, while he prefers tea, you prefer coffee, but youโre picky about your order. If itโs hot, you want it black or with only the faintest splash of cream. If itโs cold, however, you want every sweet syrup and topping known to man, even though it only makes you crash like a freight train once the sugar high wears off.
He learns you think cooking means pouring yourself a bowl of cereal and calling it a day, and itโs a revelation that makes him have to walk away and collect himself, lest he start lecturing you on the importance of proper nutrition, just as he does with his brother.
In exchange, he opens up about the more sacred aspects of his life โ namely, Genya. He confides in you the great pride and adoration he has for his little brother, and admits his deep-seated fear that Genya will somehow be pulled into his violent, hostile world of his. And each time Sanemi begins to feel that anxiety rear its ugly head, threaten to settle into the marrow of his bones and send him into a spiral, youโre always there to pull him back.
Sometimes you ask questions, and Sanemi tries to answer them as best he can. But there are some subjects he can never touch. Never wants to.
He canโt tell you whose blood stains his knuckles or is splattered across his shoes. He canโt tell you where he goes when his phone vibrates late at night or at random during the day. He canโt tell you what his fellow Hashira do; the specialties they oversee.
Sanemi does make a point to assure you there is one sacred creed by which they all abide: no kids. This seems to put you at ease, as though this tepid moral line somehow absolves him of the other shit heโs guilty for.
Itโs selfish, this thing he has created with you. He knows that. And his blossoming friendship with you likely breaks more than one of the sacred precepts of the Corps. But youโre the first person heโs met since his initiation who knows what he is and doesnโt cower in fear, and that makes him desperate to cling onto you. You know what an ugly, beastly creature he is, and yet you do not run away from him. Even when you probably should.
So, he makes a promise. He wonโt show you the Shinazugawa who belongs to the Corps; a formidable member of the Hashira, known because of the things he can do to others to make sure they pay their debts. What he does to them when they donโt.
With you, he wants to be Sanemi; only Sanemi.
And so it goes, for the better part of a year, the two of you learning one another, pretending the ease you feel in the company of the other is merely the product of two people relieved to find a friend in a city that cautions against such ties, and not something in danger of becoming more.
As though the metamorphosis hasnโt already set in.
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โYou never told me what your dream was, yโknow.โ Sanemi says one night while you finish up inventory at the store.
โWhat dream?โ You hum as you scan the shelves reserved for non-fiction releases, your lips pressed into a firm line as you run your pen down the entries of your log.
He leans against the bookshelf, arms folded across the considerable mass of his chest. โYour big dream โ the one you bit my head off for insulting that one time.โ
You look up long enough to roll your eyes at him. โWhereโs this coming from?โ
โDunno. Curious.โ
โThought youโre not supposed to ask questions in your line of work.โ And you shoot him a sly grin. โYou ought to be careful.โ
Sanemi snorts but he nudges your foot with his. โIโm serious.โ
Your eyes dance back and forth between him and the log before you. Thereโs no real harm in it, you decide. After all, heโs the only friend you have. โI want my own bookstore.โ
โYeah?โ He raises a pale brow and waves his hand vaguely around behind him. โArenโt you practically running this one? That ainโt enough?โ
โI donโt own it, though.โ You frown, setting your clipboard down. โI just work here. Youโve seen my paycheck.โ
And he had, having found a paystub when heโd gone snooping under your counter. You wouldโve been furious at his invasion of your privacy had you not been so mortified at the way heโd stared in horror at the pitiful figure reflecting your earnings after two, grueling weeks of work.
His insistence on bringing you meals at any and every opportunity afterward only compounded your embarrassment.
โI want something thatโs mine โ that I own.โ You continue. โIโve begged the owner to let me organize author meet-and-greets as a way to promote the store for months, and he always says no. If I owned my own store, I wouldnโt need anyoneโs permission.โ
You pull your bottom lip between your teeth. โI wouldnโt have to live under anyoneโs thumb.โ
Something shifts in the way Sanemi watches you, a certain profundity creeping into his eyes.
Your cheeks heat. โI know it sounds stupid โโ
โIt doesnโt,โ Sanemi says earnestly. โWanting your freedom can never be stupid.โ
You soften then, as understanding passes between you. Of course he would know all about that โ arguably better than anyone you know.
Sanemi clears his throat. โSo, a bookstore?โ And he gives you a broad smile as he pulls out his wallet and tosses you a twenty dollar note. โConsider me your first investor.โ
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Sanemi spends the rest of the evening watching you work, fascinated by the way you meticulously organize your store shelves, and count the cash in your register. When it comes time for you to heave boxes of excess inventory to the back storeroom so they can be shipped back to their distributors, Sanemi plucks them from your hands, batting off your protests as he carries them for you.
By the time closing arrives, every new shipment has been unpacked and its contents have been shelved.
You flick off the overhead lights in the main store, relying on the backlight of the exit door to light your way out. You tug on your coat and find him watching you, expectantly. โAre you walking me home?โ
โTch. Donโt I always, when I can?โ
You grin and itโs enough to chase away some of the sourness twisting in his gut. He shouldnโt do it, as often as he does. Heโs risking enough as it is by constantly redrawing the lines around Rule Three to justify the way heโs beginning to bend the parameters around the rule against patterns. But itโs dark and late, and you donโt have a car, and heโll be damned if he lets you brave the walk home alone.
Better heโs there to protect you from the dangers he can anticipate and see than to stick to his code and risk your harm from those he cannot.
Thankfully, the journey back to your apartment takes no more than fifteen minutes, even when he stops to thumb free a cigarette from the spare carton he keeps tucked in his jacket. You wrinkle your nose at him in mock-disgust as he lights it, the smoke curling out of his mouth reminiscent of a fire-breathing dragon.
He wouldnโt do it if he knew it truly bothered you. But youโd once shyly confessed you liked the faint smell of tobacco that clung to his jacket, especially in cold air like this. So he only shoots you a wink as he brings it to his lips and takes a long drag.
Besides, he thinks as he looses a slow exhale. He needs something to help him take the edge off; to guide him in making that transition between Hashira and Sanemi.
He escorts you all the way to your front door, the two of you trading quips and jokes. And Sanemi savors how utterly extraordinary something as ordinary as walking you to your door feels. Almost as if heโs ordinary, the way he so desperately wishes he could be.
You fidget with your keys, sliding them into your lock. โDid you finish that series I recommended?โ
Sanemi grins. โLast night. I think it was your best suggestion yet.โ
You duck your head, a bashful smile spreading across your pretty lips and its sight fills him with a golden warmth.
Your door gives way and you turn back to him. โโTil next time?โ
It was what you always said; you never asked him when you could expect to see him again, and he appreciated it. Appreciated not having to explain himself, when most outside his world would likely demand he try.
โโTil next time,โ he confirms, returning your smile with one of his own.
You hover in your doorway, fingers drumming on the frame, eyes roaming his.
โYou never told me yours โ what your dream is.โ
He should leave. Youโre treading in murky waters, ones made dangerous because he almost wants to tell you โ tell you the truth, at that.
That he dreams of more. More life. More stability. More everything. Heโd settle for anything, really; anything at all.
As long as it was more than this.
But Sanemi only responds with a wry grin. โTo wake up in the morning, Princess. Thatโs all I can ask for.โ
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Sanemiโs answer lingers with you long after you emerge from your shower, warm and toweling your damp hair.
To wake up in the morning, Princess.
Heโs full of shit and you know it.
Over the course of the last year, youโve learned a handful of crucial details that make up Sanemi Shinazugawa.
Youโve learned he loves matcha, but he really loves the expensive kind. While you canโt afford to buy the high quality powder, you make do with what you can afford at the grocery, and you make it for him as often as you can.
He drinks it every time, bitter dregs and all.
More importantly, youโve learned what it means to have a friend involved in the Corps. Not that heโs merely involved with the notorious gang โ at least, not any more than the two of you are just โfriends.โ
Town gossip aside, Sanemiโs affiliation with the Corps is made obvious by his own actions. Like the way the two of you only ever hang out at the bookstore or your apartment; how he never invites you to visit his place, over in the Silo.
Or how he insists on scoping out your apartment every time he comes over, his eyes alert and sharp as his hand lingers at his hip, ready to pull out the gun you know he keeps tucked into his waistband at all times.
Itโs evident in the way Sanemi never sticks to a consistent schedule. He varies the days and times of his visits at random, never allowing himself to settle into a routine, even if that means going an entire week or longer without seeing you.
But perhaps the most significant detail youโve learned about Sanemi over the year of your friendship is this:
He wants out. Dreams of it, even.
This revelation does not come from the scarred Hashira himself. It is the product of months of observation, of studying how his face darkens when his phone pings! while youโre watching some sitcom on television, or when he sees a familiar face pass by your shop window, and suddenly he has to leave because he must be Shinazugawa again, and you wonโt see him for the rest of the day.
It is evident in the way he talks of his younger brother, who, by all accounts is a star student and athlete, with a promising future in collegiate archery.
Sanemi is saving every penny he can to send his brother โ Genya โ to school, far, far away from the Silo. The conviction with which he speaks of Genyaโs future, full of college and internships and promise, breaks your heart, because you know Sanemi hadnโt anyone to want those things for him.
Sanemi does not speak of any future of his. You suspect itโs because he doesnโt believe he will have one.
That has to be why he answered your question with his vague desire to wake up every morning. It was an easy answer. One that relied on you making certain connections between his life and his words and deduce that he truly had nothing more to live for other than life itself.
A cop-out, is what it is.
But his reading habits betray his darkest secret โ betray the truth โ and thatโs exactly how you know his flippant answer is utter bullshit.
The book Sanemi carries around the most is a series of classic fairy tales, bought off your sale table a few months back. Heโs read the whole thing cover to cover, but he keeps a bookmark on one specific page, and periodically, you catch him flipping back to it.
He made the mistake of leaving the book on your coffee table one night when he excused himself to use your bathroom. Realistically, you knew it was no big deal to flip through it, but somehow, the thought still felt like an invasion of his privacy.
But your curiosity got the better of you so you snatched it up, and thumb quickly to the bookmarked page, desperate to know which story has so captivated him.
You opened to the first page of of a tale โ an old French story, about the daughter of a merchant who is sent to life with a beast in a distant castle, as penance for his theft of the beastโs rose.
You smiled to yourself; you were familiar with the story. You know how it goes โ the beast everyone believes to be the villain is saved by the woman, and revealed to be a handsome prince. And the two live happily ever after.
Your smile faded as you recalled how the woman saved her Beast. True loveโs kiss, or something along those lines.
True love.
And as Sanemi returned from the bathroom and plopped down next to you on your couch to watch a rerun of some old sitcom before he has to leave for the night, you mulled over Sanemiโs apparent fascination with the tale of the beast and the beauty.
And thatโs how you drew the series of conclusions which enabled you to see right through his thin facade.
He wants out.
He wants a happily ever after. He doesnโt think heโll get it.
And, above all, he dreams of love.
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If any doubt lingered as to the magnitude of his ties to the Corps, it disintegrates one night, about eight months after heโd first burst into your bookstore.
It is well after midnight, but you are still awake, too engrossed in a new fantasy novel to pay particular attention to the lateness of the hour when your phone buzzes on your bedside table.
Sanemiโs name lingers above the notification, which reads simply, Outside.
You untangle yourself from your blankets and pad over to your front door, hastily tugging on a pair of sleep boxers over your underwear.
You open the door and the flutter of excitement youโd felt upon seeing his text is chased away by shock at the sight before you.
There is a bruise forming along Sanemiโs cheek that you almost would have mistaken for dirt if not for the swelling. His hair is rumpled, his clothes in disarray. Though it winks away the second he sets his gaze on you, you swear you were able a cold fury in his eyes; foreign, and violent.
The fury that belongs to a Hashira, not to the friend you know.
Wordlessly, you step back and allow him to limp past you.
โYou got liniment?โ He rasps, plopping heavily down in your kitchen chair. โAnd water?โ
โYou mean icy-hot?โ Youโre already filling a glass from the tap that you set on the table next to him before you retreat to your bathroom to rummage the cabinets.
You return a few moments later, tub of minty topical gel clutched in hand. You nearly drop it when you realize that Sanemi has stripped himself of his shirt already and is now bare from the waist-up, his forehead resting against his arms where theyโre propped up on the back of your chair.
Youโve known for a long while that Sanemi is well-built (obscenely so).
Once, in the early days of your friendship, youโd snapped at him to button his shirt properly if he insisted on hanging around your store, dramatizing over how obscene it was for him to prance around with his chest half-exposed.
Sanemi had only grinned at you before he unbuttoned two more, revealing a generous glimpse of infuriatingly toned abs. Your open-mouthed, scandalized stare was met only with a wink.
He kept his shirt like that for the remainder of the day. Youโd hardly been able to look at him without flushing a deep scarlet that only seemed to inflate his already generous ego even further.
But, youโre only human. And as the months passed by, and your friendship with the scarred mobster grew, you found yourself sneaking the odd peek every now and then. A glimpse of pectoral here; a hint of his rigid v-line when he stretched his arms over his head there.
And now, here he is, sitting in your small kitchen area awaiting the relief of the icy hot clutched in the tub that grew more slippery between your rapidly sweaty palms, every mouth watering inch of his upper body on display.
Beautiful. Your mouth goes dry at the sight of him. Sanemi is unbelievably beautiful.
โNeed ya to rub it into my shoulder, if you donโt mind,โ his voice is muffled against his arm. โI hate asking, but I dislocated the damn thing and had to reset it โ fuckinโ hurts, now.โ
You know better than to suggest he go get an x-ray. No hospitals, heโd once explained. Not unless youโre bleeding out.
You also know better than to ask how he dislocated it, and so you only pad silently over to him, grateful heโs turned away from you so he cannot see the tremble in your hands or the blush creeping across your cheeks.
Eager to give yourself something to do besides ogling, you focus on unscrewing the lid on the jar of liniment, your nose wrinkling under the burn of its stringent odor. You scoop a generous amount of the salve into your palms and warm it between your hands.
โMotherfucker,โ Sanemi hisses as your hands spread gently across his shoulder, your fingers gingerly massaging the topical into his swollen joint. โShit stings.โ
โYouโre lucky itโs not broken,โ you chide, carefully prodding along the joint in search of anything that may be amiss โ an odd lump or gap, signaling something hasnโt been reset properly. โAt least, I donโt think it is.โ
โYour medical expertise is astounding,โ Sanemi drolls, but he winces again as your fingers press against a particularly tender spot. You step away from him with a huff and fish your phone out of your pocket, hands still slathered with ointment.
โIโm not a doctor,โ you shoot back. โAnd since you refuse to go see one, the best I can do it give you the advice of the internet.โ
You ignore his grumblings as you search for treatments for dislocated joints. You tap on the first link that appears and scroll, eyes narrowed as you read.
โYouโre in luck. It seems like you wonโt die,โ you say dryly. โBut youโre going to have a nasty bruise.โ You purse your lips, eyes scanning the article on your phone. โAnd this says youโre supposed to rest โ not overexert the joint.โ You reach to tug playfully on a lock of his hair. โI donโt suppose youโre actually going to do that, though.โ
He twists and flashes you a mischievous smirk over his shoulder. โYou know me too well, Princess.โ
You roll your eyes and snort, tossing your phone onto your table in favor of reaching for a discarded kitchen towel to wipe off the excess icy hot from your hands.
Youโre about to tell him to put his shirt back on and stop flaunting the muscles he just canโt seem to help but show everyone he has when your eyes snag on a mark that rests squarely between his shoulder blades.
You wouldnโt have noticed it but for the shiny redness surrounding it, a clear contrast to the rest of his skin. But the longer your stare at it, the more clear its abnormality. The mark is puffy and raised, but thereโs a distinct pattern to it that makes the hair on the back of your neck curl.
A brand, you realize with horror. Someone has branded him like cattle.
Your finger reaches to trace over the ridges seared into his skin before you can think the better of it. Sanemi twitches under your touch, a small shudder skirting down his spine as he tilts his head back toward you.
โUgly, ainโt it?โ His tone is unreadable. โLike a collar, โcept itโs permanent.โ
Though he tends to err on the side of caution when it comes to discussing the Corps, you at least know what is role is within it. He told you: debt collector. Mostly monetary debts.
But the brand has nothing to do with money. No, the symbol burned into his skin โ the one that stands for Kill โ is a neon sign of a reminder that Sanemiโs duties can and do entail another kind of collection.
A chill snakes down your spine. Youโd had your suspicions, of course, youโre not stupid. But seeing it confirmed by a brand of all things is a lightning rod through your chest.
Sanemi must sense your stare against his back, and you hear his rueful smile though you canโt see his face. โGuess itโs fitting, since Iโm their dog.โ
There it is; confirmation of what he is, as though it were possible to forget. You donโt know why youโd held out in letting its weight settle over you. Nor do you know why your brain had refused, for a moment, to reconcile the Sanemi who brought cheap beer and greasy fast food to your apartment for a night of trash television and book reviews with the one before you now, branded with inexorable reminder of what his duties are when he steps outside and debts go unpaid; when scores go uneven.
Your eyes slide to his gun, resting atop your table. It may has well have been smoking.
โItโs barbaric,โ you murmur. You never offer much of an opinion on the tidbits of information about his life he shares with you, unwilling to make him feel as though you arenโt someone he can confide in.
But the sight of the brand scorched between his shoulder blades stokes something ugly and angry within you. Youโre grateful his back is to you so you can furtively rub your hand over your prickling eyes before he can see you do something stupid, like cry.
He tilts his head back until it rests against your abdomen. โThank you,โ he murmurs, his eyes drifting shut.
You freeze for a moment, your anger temporarily suspended against your uncertainty of whether you should step back or remain. Youโve touched Sanemi a thousand different ways โ youโve grabbed his arm, smacked him upside his thick head, and elbowed him more times than you can count.
But this; this is something far different from your teasing nudges of the past. This small gesture feels infinitely more tender. Gentle.
Intimate.
Sanemi has never not been the picture of cocky brashness, especially around you. His priggish smirk was a constant, only ever dampened by the occasional alert on his phone โ the one that meant he had to stop being yours for the night, and go be theirs.
But this Sanemi? This peaceful, eased, vulnerable version of your best friend is wholly uncharted territory. And perhaps itโs because he looks so unguarded this way, his face relaxed and his eyes closed, that you feel so flustered.
You brush his hair away from his forehead. At the first graze of your fingers along his scalp, Sanemi leans further into you with something akin to a moan.
Hot; everything feels so damn hot, the air in your apartment suddenly too thick. Too oppressive.
Yet, you donโt stop; your fingers keep raking through his hair, surprisingly silky.
You think he may have fallen asleep in your chair, but after another moment of your hands carding through his hair, Sanemi stands. You step away instantly, and you avert your eyes while he pulls his shirt back over his head, cursing softly as he works it over his injured shoulder.
Sanemi turns to you and clears his throat roughly. โThanks again. Donโt know what I wouldโve done without ya.โ
You wave him off with an exaggerated eye roll, eager to conceal the redness in your cheeks. โOh please, Iโm just your neighborhood book supplier and occasional first aid nurse.โ
A sudden sobriety passes over his features, clouding over that all too familiar smirk with something heavier.
โNo,โ he murmurs and his hand absently lifts to tuck a stray lock of hair behind your ear. โNo, youโre more than that.โ His palm lingers against your cheek and his voice quiets to a hoarse whisper. โMuch more.โ
For a moment, you wonder if heโll lean in; if heโll show you whether his lips are as warm as his touch.
His eyes drop briefly to your mouth and your stomach somersaults at the thought he might be considering it, too. But the clouds part and Sanemi withdraws from you with an affection flick against the tip of your nose.
And then he turns and leaves.
You sink back against your door after you close it behind him and slide to your floor. You remain there for a long while after, your mind little more than a gnarled tangle of brambles you canโt begin to pick through. But even despite the complicated mess of thoughts and emotions knotted together in your head, one thing stands clear: youโd wanted to kiss him.
And for a moment, you swear heโd wanted to, as well.
An old rumor, one you hadnโt considered since your very first interaction with him, resurfaces in your mind. The one that had less to do with him in the Corps, and more so involved his activities outside of it.
The rumor that he cycles through the bodies he uses to warm his bed more frequently than you change the sheets on yours.
Your cheeks heat, and you shake your head to clear away the sudden, intrusive images of Sanemi tangled in the throes of passion with some faceless stranger that fill your imagination. You donโt care what those blasted rumors claim; you know him. And whatโs more, you know that what you feel for him is stronger than anything youโve ever felt toward anyone.
Youโre in love with Sanemi.
It is his face you see at night before you fall asleep; itโs his touch you imagine in those secret moments in your bed or in the shower, when youโre desperate and aching.
Itโs he who makes you feel most at ease; the one person you feel truly sees you, thinks youโre actually worth something.
Youโve never really known love before. But itโs because youโre such a novice that you know your feelings are true; powerful. You know what he is โ what he thinks he is. And you know that you will never want anyone else; you canโt.
You wonโt.
โ
Three rules. Thatโs all he had to do, was follow three simple fucking rules.
Donโt speak. No patterns. And donโt get overly attached.
It had been easy, so easy, to follow them. If there was one thing Sanemi believed he could pride himself on, it had been his steadfast adherence to the Corpsโ rules. Number three, in particular.
Until you. Until the day heโd chosen your bookstore to hide in.
Because that was when Sanemi decided that those rules were really more like guidelines; malleable. Heโd let himself cast them aside out of a desperation for human connection. And heโd justified his carelessness by convincing himself that as long as he maintained some semblance compliance with the unspoken code of the Corps.
Sanemi had built his own set of rules around the foundation of his friendship with you, a wall of stone around the glass castle meant to ensure you would not be cut by its shards should it ever shatter.
He would not be your liability, nor would you be his.
But now, heโs too deep; Sanemi knows heโs gotten in way too fucking deep with you.
Until this moment, he imagined heโd managed to toe the line of this internal code that applied only to his relationship with you, save a handful of instances when heโd let himself blur it.
As it turns out, heโd been dead fucking wrong. Because heโs pretty sure you just asked him to cross the last major boundary heโd set for himself when it came to you.
So, Sanemi only gapes at you. โWhat?โ
You huff, impatient. โI want you to fuck me.โ
You say it like itโs the most obvious thing in the world โ as though you havenโt just ripped the floor out from beneath him and sent him falling directly on his ass.
If he didnโt know you were dead serious, he wouldโve laughed in your face. And thatโs how he knows heโs fucked.
Youโre a virgin; he knows that, because youโd drunkenly confessed it to him two weeks prior, tipsy on the cheap beer heโd brought over for your weekly movie night together.
Admittedly, heโd been surprised. You were beautiful โ not that beauty was a requirement for a good fuck, but you didnโt seem the type to go for random hookups, unlike him. Still, he wouldโve thought youโd had some prior relationship where the opportunity would have arisen.
As it turned out, youโd never been in a relationship, either.
Between long gulps of your drink, youโd asked him to fix it and heโd turned you down โ his tolerance for watery beer far surpassed your own, and Sanemi Shinazugawa wasnโt the type to sleep with someone who couldnโt fully consent.
So heโd let you down โ but not before he kissed you. It was only once; soft, the way you deserved to be kissed. His lips met yours and suddenly, the gaping hole in his chest felt smaller; fuller. Kissing you felt like coming home, even though Sanemi was sure heโd never fully known what home truly felt like.
And then he parted from you with an affectionate flick on your nose to cover the way his heart clenched at the visible disappointment in your eyes.
Heโd boldly kissed you twice more after that night โ one a quick, cheeky peck when you went in to hug him, an act done more to fluster you than to sate any desire of his, no matter how he craved more of you.
The other happened only three nights prior, and it was anything but soft and sweet.
One of Sanemiโs fellow Hashira, Kanae, hadnโt been seen in several days, and no one had been able to get in touch with her. When sheโd missed a scheduled patrol of one of the neighborhoods in the Silo, he and another member, Iguro, had been sent to check on her.
Theyโd found her in the kitchen of the small home sheโd shared with her two sisters with a hole in her head and her brains splattered across the floor.
Curled under the protective stretch of her limp arms, had been her two sisters, both bearing matching bullet wounds to their skulls.
Kizuki, most likely. They were the only ones brave enough to target someone as high ranked as Kanae.
Their blood had still been fresh, and the stench of decay and rot hadnโt yet set in, which only told them that the girls had been held for several days, forced to endure unknown horrors at the hands of their murderers.
He hadnโt been particularly close with the woman, but as his rank equal, sheโd had his respect. But now she and her adolescent sisters were nothing more than smears of brain matter and skull fragments to be scraped off the linoleum of their kitchen floor and quietly buried. Forgotten.
The hours passed by in a blur once Kochoโs death was called into the higher-ups, and Sanemi didnโt remember cleaning up the scene anymore than he remembered the solitary trek back. His mind and his body disconnected, and he only snapped back to reality when he realized he was standing in front of your apartment, unsure of how or when heโd begun walking in its direction.
He knew he should turn around and go home; there was nothing you could do for him right then, he shouldnโt bother you โ
His fist was pounding on your door before he could think better of it.
Despite the late hour, youโd greeted him with a broad smile and a shy hi. Your hair had been damp, and he could smell the floral sweetness of your shampoo still mixed with the steam from your shower as it spilled into the hall.
Safe; you were safe.
Your door had still been hanging wide open as Sanemi surged forward, trapping your face in his hands to crash his lips down against yours, his kiss heavy and hot.
Youโd broken away long enough to ask, โS-Sanemi โ what โ?โ
โShut up,โ heโd snarled, slanting his mouth back over yours, his teeth nipping at your bottom lip. Heโd half expected you to shove him away, perhaps to even aim a knee right at his crotch, yet youโd only buried your fingers in his hair and tugged him closer.
He backed you up against the wall opposite of your entryway, though heโd moved his hand to cup the back of your head to keep it from banging against the exposed brick.
You moaned into the kiss and Sanemi lost whatever shred of sense heโd managed to cling onto. His tongue swept along your bottom lip, and the hand cupping the back of your head loosely pulled at your hair, tugging your head to the side and signaling you to open up โ to let him in.
And you did. And the first brush of his tongue against yours as he licked into your mouth ignited an inferno within him that he did not know how to tame.
His hands pushed under your sweatshirt, seeking out the comforting warmth of your skin. Higher and higher they rose, until they came to rest against your ribs, and Sanemi realized you were bare โ completely bare โ beneath your hoodie.
That youโd allowed him to toe so dangerously close to a line neither of you could cross had clouded every bit of his judgment. The thought that heโd only have to move his hands mere centimeters to touch you in a way no other had before had sent him reeling, and his hips were beyond his control when they pinned yours against the wall and ground into you.
But your single gasp into his mouth broke the spell, and with more regret than Sanemi knew he should feel, he broke away, leaving you both breathless and panting.
Without a word, heโd turned around and stalked right back out of your apartment, closing your door firmly behind him.
Heโd sent a text only a few minutes later โ a single, ominous reminder to you to lock your door, deadbolt and all.
He hadnโt the stomach to explain his cryptic warning; not as the sight of Kocho remained burned into his retinas.
So, yes, heโs blurred a few lines when it comes to you. But those had only been kisses; heavy touching aside, heโd never allowed himself to go further than that.
No matter how much he wanted to.
And itโs because he knows he canโt cross this last line โ canโt open you up to risk more than he already has, that he meets your expectant stare with a rueful smile.
โYouโre better off asking someone else, Princess. You donโt want to get tangled up with someone like me.โ
Never mind that youโre already tangled up with him โ but heโs managed to uphold this last boundary, and Sanemi has convinced himself that as long as it remains in place, he canโt ruin you the way Kocho and her young sisters were ruined.
โI donโt want to ask someone else,โ you fold your arms across your chest and cock your hip out, defiant. Normally, Sanemi finds your stubbornness endearing, if not adorable, but not now; not when you should know better.
A low growl of your name is his warning. โYou donโt know what youโre asking โโ
โItโs you I want. I donโt care what the rumors say, I donโt care what anyone thinks โ including you.โ
The sincerity in your eyes nearly scalds him. โAnd I am not asking as a friend. You and I both know this is more than that.โ
He wants to throttle you. Not literally of course, he could never โ but he wants to shake the sense youโre so clearly lacking back into you until you see; until you understand.
Of course he wants you. He has wanted you for months โ so much so, he hardly can focus on anything else. And heโs pent up. He hasnโt had the stomach to fuck anyone else. Not since he began falling asleep and waking up to thoughts of you and your touch, of how you might look under or above him, wanton and desperate. Or how you might feel in his arms; on his tongue.
Really, itโs been quite a blow to his rather wild reputation throughout the Silo. But God knows he has tried to fill the you-shaped void in his heart, but nothing โ no one โ has come close.
More than anything, he wants you to be his, and for him to be yours. He longs to be the Sanemi who takes you out on dates, who kisses you freely without the compulsive need to check over his shoulder, to make sure there arenโt any enemies watching and plotting to strike him right where heโs weak. He wants to be the Sanemi you come home to after a long day at the bookstore. The one with whom you plan a future, utterly and completely yours.
But he can never be just Sanemi. He is nothing more than the property of the very organization heโs sworn allegiance to; the group whose brand he bears on his skin.
He is not good. He is a curse that will infect you, a poison to your life.
He will rot you from the inside, out.
His friendship with you is selfish. He knows that โ heโs always known that, and yet he did not stop. It is selfish because he deluded himself into believing he could actually be someone else when he was with you. Someone worth befriending; perhaps someone worth a little more.
You were right to call him a thief, that day. All he does is take your time and affection when he knows damn well he wonโt give you anything in return, no matter how he wishes he could.
Sanemi wonโt label that thing he holds deep inside his heart which is formed in the shape of your name; not when it could so easily doom you both. But he knows his feelings for you are dangerous, and he cannot allow you to sniff them out.
Because if he does, then this only ends one or two ways: either he lets you in only for you to abandon him once you realize the truth of what he is, or youโre used as a weapon against him.
In either event, he loses you. So it is better to cut this off now, to force you away before either of you become more invested than you already are.
He will not hurt you, but neither will he allow himself to be hurt by you.
You take a step toward him, and the soft whisper of his name sounds like a holy prayer on your lips and thatโs how he knows this is wrong.
Your obstinate refusal to recognize him for what he is is a needle digging into his skin, one that whittles away at every wall he has managed to build around his heart, that damnable, soft, dangerous thing that he will not allow you to find; he cannot.
Youโre confusing your roles. He is the vulture and you are his prey, not the other way around. he is not here to give. He is here only to take, and you will let him and then he will leave.
And he will not be the carcass you pick clean only to discard once youโve had your fill.
(A lie, but itโs one Sanemi almost believes. Almost.)
But Sanemi knows you; he knows you better than he knows anything else. You are a constant he has become far too dependent upon, and you are precious โ far too precious to him to continue to indulging.
He knows you are too good, too loyal in your feelings to forget about him, even if he disappeared from your life entirely.
A clean break. it is the only thing that will force you to forget him and move on, find another, someone good and whole and not a broken, misshapen thing like him.
He will show you who he really is. He will show you that he could never be just Sanemi, and he sure as hell canโt ever be yours.
Better; you deserve better, so he will become worse.
He advances on you, his step heavy and imposing, and you have enough sense to scurry back from him. But he is too quick and soon he has you caged against the wall of your studio, literally backed into a corner.
โYou want me?โ He is scathing and he loathes himself for it, but he canโt stop. Not when heโs desperate to save you from the blight of himself.
You shouldnโt; you canโt.
But you nod, damn you. Wide-eyed, you nod and he resents the certainty reflected in your gaze.
His mouth twists into a cruel sneer. โYou want to say youโve had a taste of the lowlife, huh?โ
Your eyebrows knit together. โSanemi, thatโs not โโ
But he canโt stop his venom. โBragging rights, thatโs all youโre after, right? You want to be like one of the characters in your stories โ the good girl who makes an honest man outta the good-for-nothing villain.โ
โStop it,โ you bite, and your eyes harden. โYouโre acting like an asshole.โ
Youโre angry. Good. Sanemi knows how to deal in anger.
โHate to break it to ya, sweetheart, but Iโm not acting like an asshole. I am one.โ
Your hackles raise, and you step away from the wall and toward him, bold in your fury. โI know you want to believe you are, but youโre not โโ
Sanemiโs hand shoots out to grab a fistful of your hair. โIs that so?โ You yelp as he wrenches your head back, your neck straining. โThen maybe I oughta bend you over and fuck you like I would any other cheap whore. Then you can tell me what you think I am.โ
Your eyes water as the grip in your hair tightens.
Good, he thinks savagely. Let you see the monster he truly was, let you know he was his bastard fatherโs son, and that heโd be no different, no different at all. Heโs a brute, and you donโt want that, you donโt want him โ
โYou can do whatever it is you want,โ you manage, you throat tight. And Sanemiโs eyes blow wide at the soft, watery smile that forms on your lips despite the tears that escape the corners of your eyes. โDo to me what you like; I donโt mind, as long as itโs you.โ
All at once, his ire with you and your bewildering devotion to him melts away, leaving nothing behind but a deep well of guilt, bitter and acerbic.
It isnโt that you think he might take you forcefully and harshly; after all, heโs only shown you heโs entirely capable of doing so.
Itโs that you would let him. Without a shred of doubt, he knows you would offer yourself to him to use however he wants, and that youโd do it with a smile not unlike the one youโre wearing right now, soft and earnest.
Fuck, you just did.
And itโs that realization that has Sanemiโs hand loosening from your hair, his eyes softening. An errant tear escapes down your cheek and he moves to brush it away, but you close your eyes the moment you spy his knuckle nearing your face.
You do not flinch, but you are steeling yourself in anticipation of expected cruelty, and the front heโs put forth crumbles to dust.
He is a monster, but not for the reasons heโs used to justify this ugly display of his. Heโs a monster because he has made you believe that this treatment is acceptable โ an unavoidable cost of intimacy, no matter how fleeting.
Worse, heโs done the one thing heโd sworn never to do to any woman, let alone someone as good and as dear as you.
Heโd only wanted to disgust you; enrage you, so that you would kick him out of both your apartment and your life, right out on his sorry ass like he deserved.
But this is worse. He has frightened you.
He recoils from you like a kicked dog. โI didnโt mean to scare you.โ
He stands awkwardly as you stare at him, wide-eyed and uncertain, and each second that ticks silently by only amplifies the oily well of guilt in his stomach.
He clears his throat. โIโll go,โ he says roughly, too ashamed to meet your eyes. โโM sorry, I didnโt โโ
Your hand grabs his bicep, anchoring him in place. โI want you to stay.โ
โYou donโt owe me anything โโ
โItโs not about owing you,โ you interject, lifting your hands to take his face between your palms. โI want you. I want this.โ
You prove your point by taking his hand and guiding it to your waist. You hold it there, mouth set in a determined line as you inch closer to him.
โYou deserve someone else,โ Sanemi canโt stop the admission from rolling off his tongue. โBetter.โ
But youโre already shaking your head, as though you somehow know different. โThere is no one better; I only want you.โ
Idiot, he thinks as you rise up on your tiptoes, your arms winding around his shoulders as the distance between your bodies grows narrower. Youโre an idiot.
You canโt possibly believe heโs as good as it gets. Heโs used you as a distraction this whole time, a chance to forget the things heโs done and what heโll be required to do in the future. Surely, you must know that.
He will hurt you; itโs in his nature. Itโs unavoidable. He canโt be what you deserve.
But then your lips brush gently against his and the last of his resolve crumbles.
Sanemi melts into your kiss. He brings one hand to cradle the side of your face as the one braced against your waist shorts, until he wraps his arms around you and tugs you closer to him.
This kiss is gentle in every way the last was not. Sanemiโs lips are soft moving against yours, his hands almost hesitant in how they hold you. For a moment, he imagines himself not as the selfish, hard brute he knows he is, but instead as the gentle, giving lover he wants so desperately to be. One who is worthy of someone as kind and vibrant as you, and not the trash youโd be better off leaving out on the street.
The tentativeness with which he kisses you tempers some as his tongue flicks out against your bottom lip. You answer his silent request with enthusiasm, your fingers burying themselves in his hair as you haul yourself closer. The moment Sanemiโs tongue sweeps into your waiting mouth, you buckle against him with the sweetest sigh heโs ever heard. One of pure relief, as though youโd been burning and he was your balm.
Ironic, considering heโs only adding gasoline to this fire between you.
But thereโs nothing he can do now except allow the flames to consume you both.
Soon, the shy curiosity with which he explores your mouth gives way to a mutual hunger, evident by how he feels as though heโs boiling alive while you gasp and sigh into him, your fingers tugging pleadingly at his hair.
You want more, and he needs you, too.
His nose nuzzles against yours as he bends down, his hands running along the bare expanse of your legs. The ground beneath your feet disappears as Sanemi gathers you up easily into his arms.
One of your arms is looped around his neck while your other hand cups his face, turning it toward yours as he carries you to your bed. Your thumb smooths absently over the scar that cuts across his cheek and then your lips seek out his once more. His kiss is as gentle as the hand squeezing your waist, his fingers slotting into the gap between your sweatshirt and the top of your sleep shorts, stroking your skin.
He lays you out upon your mattress, grateful youโd at least purchased a full bed rather than some shitty twin. Your hands untangle themselves from his hair and instead seek out the waistband of your sleep shorts, but Sanemi covers them with his, halting you.
โDonโt,โ he murmurs between quick, messy kisses. โLet me โ please.โ
Before you can respond, Sanemi sits back and grabs a fistful of his own shirt, yanking it over his head.
Your pupils blow wide at the sight of him and he feels himself hesitate. Sanemi has always felt an easy self confidence when it came to stripping in front of his partners for the night. Heโd always been quite proud of his physique, relying on his considerable muscles to mask his deep loathing of his scars.
But in front of you, all sense of self-assuredness goes flying out the window, and suddenly he feels too exposed. His eyes drop to scour the planes of his chest โ have his scars always been this prominent? This thick?
โHoly shit,โ your soft sigh snaps his attention away from the howling inside his head. For one, petrifying moment, he thinks that you are as disgusted with his body as he is, but then he sees the pink flush staining your cheeks.
Your eyes roam hungrily over him and your tongue darts out to wet your lips. You meet his gaze and your pupils are blown wide with desire โ rich, hot need for him.
Your voice is little more than a sultry whisper. โCome here.โ
He moves eagerly to cover your body with his, his hair rumpled and his eyes bright as his lips press hurriedly against yours. Your hands smooth over his pectorals and tease down his abdomen until heโs panting, but the moment your nails rake along the skin on either side of his navel, Sanemi moans.
More. He needs more.
He hauls you up from the bed, straddling you across his lap, his hands notched behind your knees as they press into the mattress. You reconnect your lips in a heated kiss, one hand playing with the ends of his snowy hair, the other dropping down his back, settling over the brand seared between his shoulder blades. Covering it.
Yes, he thinks as he nips your bottom lip, urging your mouth to open so he can slide his tongue in to dance with yours. Yes, this is fitting. Because in his ideal world, his life with you would come before any other โ including his with the Corps.
Sanemiโs lips begin trailing hotly down your jaw, pausing when he reaches your neck. He finds a particularly sensitive spot with a nip of his teeth that he soothes with his tongue, and he hums in approval at the faint, breathy whimpers that squeak past your lips as you tilt your head, offering more of yourself to him.
The ache burgeoning in his groin in response to your display is enough to drive him insane; he has never wanted anything in his life as badly as he wants this โ you.
As his mouth continues its heated path, his hands find the hem of your hoodie. With a gentleness that surprises even him, Sanemi begins charting your skin with his fingers. With every new plane of your body he explores, he pushes your sweatshirt up, up, up, until he guides it over your head.
He tosses it to the side, not caring for where it lands. His attention is focused solely on you as you fall back against your bed, now bare from the waist up.
โBeautiful,โ he marvels, eyes running over the slope of your shoulder and tracing the curve of your breasts. โSo fuckinโ beautiful.โ
He savors every hitched breath, every chill that ripples over your skin as he explores your body with his mouth and hands. Over the years, Sanemi has become well acquainted with the magic of the female body. Heโs always liked how soft women were compared to him. He isnโt a picky man; heโll celebrate them all, regardless of their shape or size.
But you? Celebration isnโt enough; you deserve nothing less than outright worship.
โYou feel so damn good,โ he mutters against your breast before closing his lips over your nipple and sucking hard. You bow off the bed with a keening moan that gutters out into something more ragged as his hand covers the other, pinching and rolling your stiffened bud between his fingers.
He could spend all night like this, lavishing your soft mounds with his mouth. But Sanemi knows that wonโt be enough to satisfy the hunger gnawing at both of you, so with a tinge of regret, he forces himself to move on, descending your body in alternating kisses and nips.
He reaches the waistband of your shorts and his eyes flash to yours as he tugs on it with his teeth. The hot exhale of his breath below your navel sends goosebumps across your skin. Sanemiโs fingers inch below the hem of your shorts until he loops his hands around the waistband, and he yanks them down your legs in a single, fluid motion.
His eyes rake down your body, taking in every beautiful inch. A blush forms on his cheeks as he realizes all that separates you from him is your simple pair of black underwear.
He sits back, eager to join your near-nudity. His hands are quick, if not a little clumsy, as he finds his belt buckle. The instant the metal clicks and the leather around his hips loosens, Sanemi shoves off his pants, eagerly kicking them off your bed until he is left in nothing but his briefs.
Your eyes fall to where the evidence of his desire protrudes stiffly from between his legs. Sanemi watches your throat pulse as you try to stifle your small gulp, your thighs tensing beneath him in an effort to press together.
He can sense your nerves; can see by the way your eyes dart anxiously between his and the rigid tent in his briefs.
With a gentle smile, Sanemi leans in and soothes your unease with his lips. โWeโll take it as slow as you want. Iโm not in any rush.โ
โN-now?โ You murmur between kisses, and he nearly seizes at the hesitant, questioning brush of your fingers against the underside of his shaft.
โNot yet,โ he groans against your mouth. โI gotta make sure youโre ready first.โ
โI am ready -โ
โNot like that,โ he cuts off your protest by ghosting his fingers up the covered seam of you. Sanemi circles his finger around where he thinks your clit is, and he smirks when your head tips back against your pillow, your mouth widening in a silent o.
โFound you,โ he croons, repeating the movement again until your legs begin to twitch beneath him.
He makes quick work of your underwear, tossing them over the side of your bed without much thought. The sight of you bare beneath him nearly stops his heart dead in his chest. His eyes drop to the neat thatch of curls resting at the apex of your thighs, and his mouth waters.
You blush under the intensity of his appreciative stare, and your legs twitch, as though you mean to close them.
A hand sliding between your thighs restrains you from doing so. โUh-uh,โ he tuts. โCanโt hide from me now, sweetheartโ.โ
He smooths his hand down the length of your leg until it hovers just outside where heโs most eager to explore. The heat radiating from sends his pulse skyrocketing.
One, tentative finger circles your entrance, testing. Sanemi leans in to capture your lips with his as he pushes in, swallowing your soft gasp with his tongue that he slides into your parted mouth.
A moan vibrates in his chest in time with a faint whimper that sounds in the back of your throat as Sanemi begins exploring you. Youโre tight; almost impossibly so, clenching and pulsing around the single finger he gradually sinks inside you, pushing deeper with every gentle pump of his hand.
The thought of your tight, wet heat constricting around the aching length of him just as you were around his finger makes him dizzy with want.
He wonโt go down on you, he decides. Not tonight. Not when heโs throbbing this badly after just a couple of fingers; not when your breasts are so plush and soft pressed against his chest where youโre already arcing up into him, sending his mind wild with thoughts of how youโll move under him; how youโll moan.
His lips are hot against your neck, trailing down past your collarbone. Left behind are a series of purplish-maroon whorls blooming beneath his mouth, your skin quickly becoming a tapestry for him to display how badly he wants this. You.
You cling to him, one hand buried in his hair, pulling and tugging at him as the other clutches wildly at his shoulder, your fingers digging hard into his muscles. Your teeth are buried into your bottom lip in an effort to stifle your whimpers, but a needy whine slips out as Sanemi sucks one, soft breast into his mouth, his tongue flicking out across your pert nipple.
Another finger slides into your entrance as his thumb works your clit, and before long, youโre vibrating beneath him, unrestrained in how you moan and cry out for him so beautifully.
โSanemi! I think โ oh, I think Iโm -โ but then he crooks his fingers, brushing against a rough spot deep within you that makes you writhe. You thrash back hard against the bed, your hips grinding against his hand with abandon.
He smothers a curse into your skin. Youโre close and he knows it; can feel it in the way your walls flutter and pulse around him. And as desperate as he is to study how you fall apart, itโs too soon.
โNot yet,โ he pants against your breast, circling your nipple with his tongue before imparting a final nip at the soft flesh and drawing back.
Remorseful, he pulls his fingers away from you, leaving you panting and flushed under him. But the hot, searing flames of desire burning beneath his skin intensify still, as he takes your hand and guides it between your legs.
โThere. Feel how wet you are?โ His voice is husky with want. You peer up at him through heavily lidded eyes as you nod, a whimper vibrating in your throat as Sanemi grinds your hand against your sensitive flesh.
โFor you,โ your voice is syrupy and warm, and damn if Sanemi doesnโt feel like he could get drunk on it. โItโs all for you.โ
His tone sharpens into something possessive; hungry. โThatโs right,โ and he pushes your hand firmly against your clit and rotates it, eliciting a deep moan from you. โBecause youโre mine.โ
Itโs not fair. But he wants to pretend like itโs true, if only for a while.
Once your fingers are sufficiently shiny with your own wetness, he brings your hand to his mouth, his tongue peeking out from between his lips. Slowly and languidly, he drags it up the side of your digits, and his eyes burn into yours as he slides your fingers into his mouth and sucks them clean.
It takes everything in him not to moan at the sweet taste of you that floods his tongue.
Heโd made the right decision in not going down on you. If he had, heโd never be able to pull away; not until his face had become so adorned with your essence that he could not comprehend anything that wasnโt you. Not until you were trembling under him and begging for a break.
The first time you cum will be on him; with him. So as much as it pains him, he resists your temptation.
But not before you know; not before you understand exactly how wild you drive him. How much you threaten his sanity.
โJesus Christ,โ he rasps as he pulls your hand away from his mouth. โHere.โ
His hand his gentle but firm as he grips your chin, squeezing your jaw until your mouth parts. The question in your gaze dissolves, your eyes instead rolling back into your head, as Sanemi slides the two fingers heโd just had between your thighs, still covered in your wetness, past your lips.
โGo on,โ he orders, his other hand brushing your hair from your face. โTaste how fuckinโ perfect you are.โ
The moan that slips free from your lips is one he wishes he could bottle up as your tongue caresses his fingers, your cheeks hollowing so fucking perfectly around him as you dutifully clean yourself from him.
Fuck, youโre trying to kill him.
But some of the burning he feels ebbs as the sobering weight of whatโs to come settles over him; the magnitude of what he is about to do. Because no matter what happens after, nothing between you will be the same. Whatever else you are after tonight โ whether thatโs something or nothing โ you will never be just friends again.
Sanemi supposes the punishment fits his crime; this is what he gets for getting in too deep with you, even if it means losing you entirely.
He chases away those thoughts by running his hands down your sides before he pulls back, leaving you in favor of shucking his briefs down his thighs.
Finally bare, heโs quick to drape his body over yours once more, his hands smoothing up and down your sides, unable to quench his need to feel your skin against his. But a foreign uncertainty stills him, and his eyes flash to yours, hesitant.
โAre you sure?โ
You answer only by reaching to grip the back of his neck, tugging him down to meet your lips, your kiss feverish and urgent.
He doesnโt have a condom but heโs in too deep now to stop. In a way, what is about to happen is new to him as well. Heโs never fucked anyone raw before. No matter who heโd had in his bed, no matter how much they begged him or assured him they were on birth control, heโd always been sure to have protection on hand.
Children are a gift, but heโd be damned if anyone tried to come after him and demand he raise one in his fucked up world. Either Sanemi got out or he never became a parent; there was no middle ground.
But once again, he is blurring boundaries where you were concerned, and Sanemi doesnโt think he knows how to stop himself from having the full taste in the indulgence that was you.
โIt might hurt a moment,โ he admits against your mouth, his voice raspy. โBut I promise Iโll be gentle โ as gentle as I can.โ
You stretch to kiss him again, your lips soft and warm and everything he loves. โI trust you.โ
You shouldnโt, he wants to say. You shouldnโt, and you should run far away from this โ from me.
But Sanemi knows you wonโt just as much as he knows he doesnโt have it in him to try and chase you away, and so he only kisses you back, slow and indulgent.
He breaks away from you with a soft groan and sits up on his knees. His back straight, Sanemiโs hands curl around your hips and he tugs you forward until your backside is flush against his thighs.
The heat radiating from you pulls him in like a magnet as he lines the tip of his cock up with your entrance. A vein above his brow ticks, the only outward sign of the battle raging within him as his self restraint wars with his tantalizing urge to impale you on the thick, throbbing length of him, desperate for the sweet relief only your body can give.
Every inch of him trembles as Sanemi presses his hips forward. โFuck,โ he exhales shakily, pushing his tip past your entrance. โFuck.โ
His head falls back and the muscles in his throat strain. Some small, needy sound leaves him and the fingers on your hip tighten nearly to the point of pain.
The noise registers in the back of your mind, and vaguely, you recognize it as a whimper. You wonder whether he makes that sound for the others; somehow you doubt it, given that he does it again, only now in the shape of your name.
The rumors always said he never asked for names; he was a one-and-done kind of man. A great fuck, but not someone to go to if you were looking for comfort; softness.
Once again, Sanemi is nothing but a collection of contradictions, especially where youโre concerned.
Sanemi hisses as he slowly eases into you. Despite your wetness, youโre impossibly tight, and your body is a live wire hell bent on pushing out his intrusion.
With a deep groan, he falls forward, one arm shooting out to land near your head to catch himself before he can crash into you. His weight carefully braced above you, Sanemi shifts, widening the stance of his knees. Your legs slide up his waist, locking at your ankles at the base of his spine.
His cock is barely a quarter of the way inside your heat when he pulls out. A whine of protest mounts in your throat, but it quickly flickers out when he presses his leaking tip to your clit and grinds. A soft moan slips out of you when he repeats the movement again, and your thighs widen, your hips tilting up to allow him easier access.
Sanemi circles the head of his cock once more against your sensitive nub, coating himself in more of your sticky wetness, before he slides back into your entrance. This time, your body parts more easily around him, sucking him in rather than trying to squeeze him out.
โThere you go, thatโs it,โ his breath is hot against your ear, his lips trailing silkily across your jaw. โThatโs my girl.โ
Halfway in, Sanemi brushes against that thin barrier that separates him from the rest of you, and he stills.
He pulls his head back from your neck, and moves his hand out from between your legs to cup your cheek.
โReady?โ His thumb strokes over your cheekbone, tender and soft.
There is a tightness building in your abdomen, a foreign pressure that isnโt entirely unwelcome, but neither is it wholly comfortable. You brace a hand at your side, balling your sheets into your fist as you steady yourself, flushed and panting beneath the scar speckled man holding rigidly still above you.
Your eyes flick up once, and you see the tightness in his jaw; the tremble in his limbs as he fights against the urge to relief the friction mounting where you are joined.
You swallow around the lump of anticipation lodged in your throat. Your breath is shaky, but at last, you manage a single โPlease.โ
With a groan, he grips himself around his base and slowly, he presses forward. There is a sharp prick that shoots deep in your lower abdomen as Sanemi surges past that thin inner wall.
You cannot stop your cry of discomfort from ringing out anymore than you can stop the surprised tears which escape the corners of your eyes as the sharp pain between your legs intensifies.
But then Sanemiโs lips are there, kissing away your tears, and the hand heโd used to guide himself into your body skims along the outside of your thigh, hiking your leg higher up his waist before it drops to rub gentle circles into your hip.
โIโm sorry,โ he murmurs between soothing caresses of his lips against your cheeks and across your eyelids. โIโm sorry. Iโm sorry.โ
He coos his string of apologies as his cock continues to push into you. On and on he sinks, his length endless, and you begin to think your body will split in two before you find the end of his.
Just before you reach your limit, Sanemi stills, fully embedded in your heat. He pants through gritted teeth, his jaw locked against the way youโre constricting around him so tightly itโs nearly painful.
Itโs unreal; not only does Sanemi realize how much fucking better sex feels without the restriction of a condom, but heโs also bashed over the head with the realization that you were made for him. For nothing, no one has ever felt as incredible as you.
Nothing in his life has ever felt so right.
Sanemi has always been someone who fucks fast and hard. Heโd had no objective other than to escape for a few, blissful moments in the body of another as he pretended not to feel the hollowness in his chest, or the throb of his own self-loathing.
With you, however, he wants nothing more than to relish every movement of your body against his, to savor your every gasp and sigh; to learn what makes you lose control.
You are no temporary distraction; he wants to know you.
He drops his forehead against yours and waits, allowing you to adjust to the intrusion of him.
He trails his lips across your collar bone and down to the twin swells of your breasts, sucking softly at your plush skin as you fidget and squirm beneath him. One broad hand skirts down the outside of your thigh until he finds your knee, and gently he guides your leg around his hips. The other he leaves relaxed against the bed, your foot resting somewhere against his calf.
When your eyes flutter open and find his, he knows youโre ready. So he moves his arm out from between your bodies and winds it instead around your waist, deepening the arch in your back until his chest is flush with yours.
His lips press to your forehead, a silent warning that he is about to move.
And then Sanemi begins molding your body to the shape of his.
He starts slow. He doesnโt withdraw far from you, instead focusing on rolling his hips against yours. Each churn of his groin pushes his cock deeper into your warmth, and soon, your timid whimpers melt into soft moans as your initial discomfort gives way to pleasure.
Encouraged by the way your body starts to relax in his embrace, Sanemi tests drawing his cock out a few inches before plunging back into you.
Before long, the room fills with the lewd sounds of skin slapping against skin, and Sanemiโs moans join yours as he rapidly becomes lost in the euphoria of your wet, tight heat.
One of your arms jumps to lock around his ribs, your nails sinking into his skin as you anchor yourself to him.
His hand snakes across the sheets in search of yours. When he finds it, fisted against your sheets, he pries your fingers loose, winding them with his and he wraps your arm around his shoulders.
โTighter,โ he gasps. โHold me tighter. Please.โ
Your fingers dig into the muscles of his back and Sanemi groans his approval.
And then heโs rolling to his side, pulling you along with him until youโre stretched out across the length of your mattress, chest to chest.
His hand grips under your thigh, tugging it over his hip as he rocks harder into you. โTalk to me, angel,โ the hand under your thigh moves to splay across your rear, pushing and pulling your hips in time with his as he grinds. โTell me how you feel โ tell me what you want.โ
You cry out, mournful, as Sanemi draws out his cock nearly to its tip before he plunges back into you.
The fullness you feel is overwhelming. You canโt stand that empty feeling, even for a moment. So you hitch your leg higher around his hip, and dig the heel of your foot into the firmness of his ass, limiting his movements.
โCloser!โ You gasp. โI โ I need you closer.โ
He needs that too, he decides; craves it. He doesnโt want to feel any space between your bodies. He wants โ he needs โ to be so enraptured with you that there is no point in trying to separate. That way, he might get to keep you for just a little longer.
Sanemiโs hand massages your backside, his cock throbbing with every push into you. โDeeper,โ he confirms between throaty groans. โYou want me deeper?โ
You bury your face into his shoulder. Your teeth sink into his skin and with a moan, you nod.
He can do that; is more than happy to, as a matter of fact.
So, with a faint snarl, Sanemi grips the fat of your ass and spreads you wide, and he begins thrusting, hard.
The new angle allows the tip of his cock to bump up against a sweet spot deep inside you. Sanemiโs eyes narrow at the way your head drops back, a loud cry tearing from your throat.
Determined to hit that point within you again and again, he shifts his hips under you while hiking your leg higher up his hip, his fingers digging into the curve of your ass.
Itโs a success; soon, your wails echo throughout your studio, punctuated by every punishing slap of his skin against yours.
Really, he canโt give less of a damn at how thin your apartment walls are. The sounds pouring from your mouth are the prettiest fucking thing heโs ever heard.
Something hot and electric mounts quickly in your stomach with each of his frenetic movements. Youโve come before with your own hand, but this โ this is something different. Something far more intense, something that threatens to rip you apart from your very sanity until you know nothing but him.
You try and tell him youโre losing control but all that comes out is a pitiful whimper.
But he knows; he knows exactly what you need.
โIโm here, baby, Iโm here. Iโve got you.โ And with that, Sanemi rolls you back underneath him, settling into the cradle of your thighs and pushing his cock faster and deeper into you. His arms gently unwind yours from his shoulders, and he brings them up over your head, one large hand pinning them down.
โIโll take care of you, sweet girl,โ he promises, and he weaves the fingers of the hand keeping you pressed against the mattress with your own. โJust keep your legs around me.โ
Your thighs squeeze his waist in silent answer, your mind far too suspended in the throes of your pleasure to do anything else.
With his lips trailing along your neck leaving hot, open-mouthed kisses in its wake, his free hand slides between your sweat-slicked bodies. He wedges it between where his groin is pressed to yours, and he searches along your sensitive, swollen folds, seeking the spot between your thighs that made you tremble and whine for him earlier.
You jolt under him as his fingers find you again, that foreign, electric sensation sparking deep in your abdomen. โSanemi โโ
โItโs okay,โ he murmurs sweetly, pressing down on your clit until you arch further into him with a gasp. โItโs gonna feel so good, baby, I promise. Just focus on me.โ
Each rotation of his hand against your sensitive bead matched the deep, pointed roll of his groin, with Sanemi capping the end of every powerful thrust with alternating pulses of his thumb. The pressure he uses mounts with every churn of his hips, and the moan vibrating in your chest as another surge of sticky wetness gushes from your thighs is the sweetest sound he thinks heโs ever heard.
A broken chant of please please please stutters its way out of you, spurning him to go faster; hit deeper.
And Sanemi only knows how to oblige you.
โYouโre doing so fucking good, sweetheart. Just keep letting me take care of you โ- thatโs it.โ He curses as you clench down around him, crying out in approval at his praise. โYeah, yeah. Youโre my fuckinโ girl, arenโt you?โ
A single wail of his name is your only response, but itโs enough of a confirmation to damn you both.
โYou are,โ he affirms, his voice taking on the timber of a growl. โMine. Youโre fuckinโ mine.โ
His thrusts grow sloppier with every second, though each is punctuated by a silent, recurring chant of mine, mine, mine. Though your eyes are closed, Sanemi can spy a faint sliver of white peeking out from between your eyelids.
Youโre close; he can feel it. And he knows, as the walls of your cunt flutter and tighten around him, that your climax will be his undoing.
The hands he has pinned against the mattress over your head flex as you twist and writhe beneath him. your head tosses from from side to side, and the vibrato of your cries rises octave by octave. Every muscle in your body is tense; you are a live wire thrumming with a need to come apart that he knows you do not fully understand.
Sanemi grunts as he fucks you harder into your bed, no longer concerned with keeping his weight off you. He will show you; he will show you how to shatter, and then he too, will break.
But he needs to see you, first.
โLook at me,โ his voice beckons you back from the precipice of ruin. โLook at me, Y/N.โ
Your eyes open to meet his and suddenly youโre right back at that edge, only this time, youโre falling freely over it, plummeting down a drop that has no end.
โS-Sanemi โ!โ Itโs all you can manage before the knot steadily building in your stomach unravels. Your back arcs sharply away from your bed, and Sanemi ducks his head to smother his own cry against your breast as he takes its tip into his hot mouth.
Your hips jerk and twitch against his, your cunt seizing around him with force that threatens to squeeze the life out of him. Above you, your arms strain and pull against his grip as you writhe and sing for him.
โThatโs it baby, thatโs it,โ Sanemiโs praise is muffled against your sternum, though it is strangled as he nears his own end. โFuck!โ
Heโll have to buy you the morning-after pill tomorrow, he realizes as you continue to come apart so beautifully on his cock, a soft chant of his name the only thing on your lips. He will not force you to bear the consequences of his own selfishness; he will not saddle you with his burden.
But heโs also not strong enough to pull out; not when your body feels like it was made for him, not when your sweet cunt is gripping him this hard, is this wet โ all because of him.
He is selfish and he is weak; itโs a toxic combination, and yet he knows cannot stop.
Sanemiโs hips snap a final time against yours, pushing them up and away from the mattress, pressing deeper than he thought possible. His eyes roll back as his own orgasm rocks through him, powerful and blinding, and the growl that built in his throat melts into a strained groan.
He holds you in place, his cock pulsing in time with your cunt while the two of you ride out the waves of your climax together, his cum steadily filling you with his warmth. Your hands skirt down the length of his arms, blindly searching for his hips. When you find him, you pull and tug, a faint whine sounding from the back of your throat. Sanemi answers your plea with a broken moan of his own and he rocks against you, your hips circling with his until he finally lets you collapse against your mattress, limp-limbed and exhausted.
He follows you down, smothering you with his weight as he clings to you like a lifeline, his face buried in the crook of your neck.
โFuck, you did so good, sweetheart. So fuckinโ good.โ He moans into your ear before he pulls back, his eyes searching your face as he pants.
One hand cradles your jaw and his thumb strokes repeatedly over the flushed curve of your cheek. โYou okay?โ
You donโt answer right away, your eyes shut tight, and Sanemi feels panic bubble hot in his stomach. The hand cupping your face tightens with his worried call of your name, his fear rearing its ugly head, ready to rip him apart, to turn him into the horrid monster heโs always known he was โ
โI love you,โ and then youโre peering up at him, eyes round and shining with emotion he does not deserve to feel. โI love you, Sanemi.โ
It wouldโve hurt less if youโd shot him.
Whatever wall remained around his heart cracks and crumbles under the weight of your confession. Sanemi does not answer, cannot find the words to adequately capture the depth of his feelings.
Instead, he snatches you up into his arms, crushing your body against his.
He kisses your lips and then your cheek. One hand cups the back of your head, his fingers burying into your hair as he presses your face into his chest. His arms tremble as he holds you close, every hard ridge of him cradled against your soft curves. He feels your smile against his collarbone, and the way your fingers dance up and down his spine that makes him melt.
It hits him, then. You arenโt waiting for an answer โ you said it only so he would know, and youโd not expected anything in return.
All youโd done was give while he took and took. Your body. Your love.
He doesnโt deserve any of it.
Whatever or whomever came after this would never compare to you. Truthfully, Sanemi doesnโt think it would be worth trying anything different. Everything now began and ended with you โ including him.
He twists his head to kiss you again and again, your lips meeting his with a sleepy enthusiasm.
He pants as he breaks away. โโM gonna pull out โ might be uncomfortable for a second.โ
You wince at the sudden stab of cold left behind by Sanemiโs retreating warmth. He shifts back onto his knees and slides his hands down your thighs, parting them.
A low whistle blows past his lips. โDamn, I made a mess outta you.โ
For a moment, Sanemi canโt tear his eyes away from the sight between your legs; the sight of him trickling out you, staining the sheets below. But some of that hot, possessive pride that wells in his chest tempers at the small smear of blood staining your inner thigh.
His fingers massage your legs in silent apology. โLet me clean you up.โ
Your hands shoot to grasp at his shoulders, a pleading whimper on your lips. โDonโt leave โ not yet.โ You bite your lip, your eyes wide and anxious. โPlease, can you just hold me for a bit?โ
Sanemiโs eyes soften and his heart throbs painfully in his chest. He canโt imagine leaving you; not now, not ever. No matter how stupid and selfish that makes him.
Heโd be lying if he said he didnโt know the source of your anxiety โ or that you didnโt have reason for it. Sanemi isnโt known for lingering.
But this is different โ youโre different. Youโre not some temporary distraction. Youโre everything. His everything.
โShhh,โ he maneuvers you easily atop him, settling you in against the length of his torso, his hands smoothing up and down the column of your spine. โIโm staying right here, sweet girl. Iโm not goinโ anywhere.โ
He seals his promise with a gentle kiss against your forehead before laying his cheek against your temple, cradling you to his chest.
Finally, you relax against him, convinced. He lays with you for a long time after, one hand on the back of your head, his fingers rubbing against your scalp until you fall asleep on against him, safe and sound and warm.
Minutes pass, or maybe hours. But Sanemiโs head does not quiet, not even under the soothing sounds of your deep, slow breaths as you dream.
He must have lost his mind. There is no other explanation for the way heโs disregarded every rule, every boundary heโs ever made sense of, all in the name of you. In a single evening, you managed to obliterate every last defense, every barricade heโd safely cowered behind, and now that the castle has fallen, he isnโt quite sure what heโs supposed to do with the rubble.
What he does know is that thereโs no putting things back to how they were.
His eyes search your sleeping face because if you were able to make him question nearly everything that made sense in his life, then surely you must also have the answers he needs to re-strike balance in his tilted world. Maybe they lie among the lashes that tickle your cheek, or in the occasional twitch of your mouth between your deep inhales.
But Sanemi is only left feeling more confused the longer he watches you. Because, despite the way he feels vulnerable and exposed at how easily he has been stripped of his guard, he canโt quite bring himself to believe it was entirely your doing.
His eyes widen. Thereโs his answer.
Perhaps you are not trying to sink your nails into his flesh to peel it back, to demand he be stripped to the bone for you to inspect, to scrutinize and use as you please.
Perhaps that is what youโve done to yourself, and youโre waiting to see if you will join you; to know if he can volunteer his vulnerability, rather than wait for someone to come and force it from him.
He cannot make any promises. He has spent so much of his life cowering behind the armor he crafted out of his scars and his sneers and barks that were always more ferocious than his bite, that he does not know how to take it off. He does not know how to navigate the world without its weight, both his safety net and his chain. And there is an understanding in your eyes that signals you know that, too.
But he can try.
He mouths I love you against your hairline โ he does not voice it, not yet, though itโs what he feels. But your love is a compass that just might point him down the road the leads to a life he so desperately wants; to you.
And heโll get there, maybe.
In time.
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kny if the Kochos were the main characters
#doodle#fanart#kny fanart#kny#kimetsu fanart#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#au#shinobu kocho#kanae kocho#sanemi shinazugawa#giyuu tomioka#zenitsu agatsuma#nezuko kamado#inosuke hashibira
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mom said it was my turn to genderbend the hashira
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revealing outfit prank โ hashira men
Authorโs Note: borderline 18+NSFW, but ~mostly just suggestive. ๐
revealing outfit prank โ hashira men
Himejima Gyomei x Reader, Iguro Obanai x Reader, Rengoku Kyojuro x Reader, Shinazugawa Sanemi x Reader, Tomioka Giyuu x Reader, Uzui Tengen x Reader
Word Count: ~2,000
CW: explicit language, Fem!Reader, mild sexual content
Suggestion Fulfilled: You know those girlfriend pranks on YouTube where the girl wears a sexy/revealing outfit to out in? Can I have HCs of our Hashira with a S/O who tries to walk out in such an outfit? Of course, they respect her choice in wearing whatever she wants, but that outfit is too tempting...
~faqs~
โHey babe, guess what Iโm wearing!โ
โClothesโฆโย
โI mean, heโs not wrong ๐
You huff, โGuess again.โ
Gyomei pauses, wracking his brain for whatever else you could have on
โ... not, clothes?โ ๐คจ
โWell Iโm not going out to dinner naked!โ
โA cardboard box?โ ๐
You can see his brow furrowing
Heโs trying his best! ๐ฅบ
โSo remember that slip dress I was describing for you a while ago?โ ๐
His face warms as he recalls how youโd painted quite the picture of dainty ribbon details, an open back, and a satin hem that would barely brush past your thighs
He clears his throat, voice lower than before, โI remember that I encouraged you to buy it.โ
He freezes, eyes widening, gaze focusing in the direction of your soft breaths, โYouโre wearing it?!!!โ
You giggle, he gulps
You can hear his inward groan ๐ฉ
โIsnโt it exciting?!โ you squeal, stepping toward him, playful palms splaying across his chest as you grin up at his restrained expression, โI feel so pretty!โ ๐
โYou are so pretty,โ he nearly growls, large hands settling promptly on your hips, โMaybe we shouldnโt go out after all.โ
โOh?โ ๐
He chuckles as his fingers caress the silky, smooth fabric hugging your body, sensing the heat emanating from your bare, warm skin, eager to feel the curve and seduction of your spine, your shoulder blades, the tenderness of your nape
โI beg your pardon,โ he rasps, an unfamiliar darkness in his tone as his fingers move upward to tug at your carefully tied spaghetti straps, tiny bows squished beneath the intensity of his touch, โIโm an adult, you know. I can have dessert for dinner.โ
๐ณ๐ฅต๐ซ
โ
โGyomeeeiii!โ
โMy love?โ โบ๏ธ
โI CANโT POST THIS!โ ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
โAnd why not? Is my rizz too much for YouTube?โ
โYES.โ ๐
โYouโre going out in that?โ ๐ง
You glare back, arms crossing over your chest
A not so subtle attempt to emphasize your tits ๐
Obanai not so subtly glances downward
โI repeat, in that?โย
โThe hell is wrong with what Iโm wearing?โ you scowl haughtily, โI thought youโd like it!โ ๐
Blinking in disbelief, Obanai rolls his eyes, amusement softening his judgmental expression ๐
โIโm not a fucking idiot,โ he grumbles, โOf course I love it,โ glare returning as he points an accusing finger at you, โBut the last time you went out in something like that you ended up stealing all of my layers because you got cold!โ
โWell then wear more layers!โ you quip cheekily
โThatโs my line!โ ๐
*sigh*
โDo you want me to change?โ ๐
โAbsolutely not!โ he snaps, ears reddening even as he makes a disgruntled gesture, โBut, please, grab a coat.โ
โAre you fed up with me?โ ๐ค
You inch closer to him
His breath hitches
โNo.โ
โAre you suuure?โ
You can hear his heartbeat now, can see the restraint in his hands as he keeps them firmly by his sides
โIf we donโt leave soon, then Iโll show you how not fed up with you I am.โ ๐
You grin easily, lips grazing his earlobe as you murmur
โObanai, I donโt think that was nearly as threatening as you hoped it was.โ
He inhales sharply, stepping away from your sweet, sultry scent, feigning sullenness when he mutters
โYour tits are staring at me.โ ๐
You laugh, bouncing on the balls of your feet just enough for them to jiggle slightly
โOr are you staring at my tits?โ ๐
He audibly groans, head tilting backward as he averts his gaze
โI hate this.โ ๐
โ
Rest assured, you never make it to your reservation ๐คซ
The video never makes it to YouTube either
PornHub, howeverโฆ
Jk, jk
And Obanai does not hate this ๐
โYou are breathtaking!โ Kyojuro declares, beaming with pride as you twirl for him
Heโs doing his best to ignore the fact that he can see your lacey panties when you spin
โThank you!โ you smile, striking a pose for him, โI feel so amazing in this dress.โ
โYou are amazing in any dress!โ ๐
Heโs earnest with the perfect dash of seriousness โ like he needs to know that you know youโre beautiful
A gentleman as always ๐ฅบ
You hesitate, feeling almost guilty as you ask slowly
โAm I only amazing?โ ๐คญ
You hope youโre coming off coy and alluring ๐
For all of his awkwardness, Kyojuro is nothing if not straightforward
โYou are also sexy! Most definitely sexy!โ ๐
Your expression cracks, your giggling filling the hallway as endeared laughter accompanies you
โHow sexy?โ you wink, an exaggerated, playful flirtation
Fortunately, Kyojuro loves improv ๐
โYes, and!
โThe sexiest woman I have known, I know, and I will know.โ
There he goes again
Earnest, serious, and almost unbearingly sweet ๐ญ๐
โKyo,โ you persist, โIโm trying to seduce you.โ
He grins at that, eyes narrowing so quickly you nearly miss the tantalizing glint that flashes through them
โOh I am aware, sweetheart,โ he purrs, gesturing with his index finger for you to twirl again
You do, oblivious to the way his jaw clenches, gaze thickens, your pretty, dainty panties on display for him once more
โLook at me,โ he commands softly, relishing the dazed, dizzy, glowing color of your face, โLook at me, and tell me whether you have succeeded.โ
You look
Itโs impossible to miss his erection, straining against his pants, bulge teasing and beckoning you to come closer
โ
You post the video, minus a sizeable chunk ๐ถ
โSo people are allowed to thirst over you, but not me?โ โน๏ธ
You snort as Kyojuro pouts, patting his arm consolingly, โYou canโt really see anything when Iโm spinning, but your dick is a little too obvious.โ
He perks up at that, kissing your cheek with reassured confidence, โIt is quite large.โ
โWhatever makes him feel better, yโknow ๐
โThat being said, it is quite large ๐ซฃ
P.S. Kyojuro begs to differ; he can see plenty when youโre spinning ๐
Help this man ๐ตโ๐ซ
He is TIRED ๐ฎโ๐จ
โDonโt get me wrong!
Sanemi does his best to be a good sport ๐ฅบ
And heโs 1,000% watched your videos in โsecretโ, numerous times over; you are entertaining โบ๏ธ
On nights when youโre apart, he falls asleep to his Favorites list (which consists solely of you) on auto-play
But thereโre just one (thousand) too many trends for him to keep up with, and he never knows when heโs going to be your ~victim again ๐
โIs this another prank?โ he sighs, only slightly exasperated as his eyes stray from your pretty mouth to your tits practically spilling from your top ๐ซฃ
โOh, so now I canโt look nice without it being a prank?โ you retort, scowling playfully, โRude.โ Raising his hands in mock defense, Sanemi smiles softly as you step closer to him
โYou can touch me, yโknow,โ you murmur gently, โIโm not gonna break.โ
Swallowing thickly, he lowers his arms, forearms hooking around your hips as he pulls you in
โYeah,โ he croaks, scanning the bedroom for wherever you mightโve hid your phone, desperation and desire bubbling in his throat, โBut Iโm not so sure about your outfit, itโs got so many strings andโฆ and, holes.โ ๐
You laugh cheerfully, squeezing his waist as you inform him, โTheyโre cutouts. Theyโre supposed to be sexy.โ ๐
โThey are,โ he replies bluntly, stifling a long inhale as he willingly gives into his fate, โYou are so fucking sexy.โ
Heโs already plucking at your shoulder straps, somehow boxing you in with his broad, chiseled body, even though itโs his back against the wall
โYouโre not gonna ask me how I manage to avoid getting tangled?โ you tease, your breasts pressed firm and warm into his chest as his heartbeat quickens
The question had occurred to him, but-
โWhy the hell would I ask that when I could be untangling you instead?โ
โ
โSend me the video.โ ๐
โExcuse me?โ
Youโre grinning
โPlease.โ ๐
Heโs begging
You acquiesce, the thought of Sanemi jerking off to it later inspiring you to reach down again ๐
(Now imagine his faintly pained moan as you slowly caress him, valiantly hardening in your careful grip as he mentally prepares himself, this time intending to punish you; you canโt keep missing your reservations! ๐ค)
#the pranks are getting out of hand ๐ฌ
#but Sanemi canโt really find it in himself to be bothered ๐ถ
#at least not when heโs already in something else ๐
โWhy are you going out in that?โ ๐คจ
โWhat are you implying?โ you frown
โI asked first.โ
You huff, โAnd your question offended me.โ ๐
Grimacing, Giyuu glances downward, โI didnโt mean-โ
โDo I look horrible?โ โน๏ธ
You almost feel badly, giggles brimming in your chest ๐คญ
โNo.โ
โDo I look too good?โ ๐
You can practically see the gears turning in his headย
โYes? No. Yes. Wait. Iโm confused.โ ๐ซ
โHow does my outfit make you feel?โ ๐
He pauses at that, swallowing nervously as you run teasing hands up your sides, accentuating your hips and bust
โI look good, right?โ ๐ฅบ
โOf course.โ
โDo I look too good?โ ๐
*Giyuu Panic 2.0 activated*
โWhat does that mean?โ ๐ญ
Heโs hushed, in awe of your luscious form, inhaling roughly when you step into his immediate proximity, the hem of your dress nearly brushing against his shins as you twirl for him
โGiyuu, am I turning you on?โ
When in doubt, go for frankness
*Giyuu Panic 2.0 deactivated*
Ohhh ๐ณ๐๐ <โ he gets it now
โNot at all,โ he says smoothly, โYou look quite comfortable.โ
You pout, fingers curling into the collar of his shirt as you nudge his feet apart, slipping your leg between his thighs as you close the distance, your body pressing clumsy and hot against his
He sighs, a quiet, enraptured sound, delicately brushing the straps of your dress from your shoulders before he rasps, โI am turned on. Delightfully so.โ
Your dress crumples sheer and light to the floor, Giyuuโs jaw ticking with desire as he realizes just how easily it slipped off
โAnd you,โ he murmurs, delicious warning in his tone as he thumbs the undersides of your tits, โAre such a pretty slut.โ
โ
โWhy is it that every time I try and prank you, you end up fucking me instead?โ ๐ฅฒ
โHm,โ Giyuu hums, voice thick with amusement, โSeems premeditated to me.โ ๐ฅด
โGiyuu-!โ you sputter ๐ซฃ
โGiYuU!โ he smirks ๐
โAre you mocking me?โ ๐
โAnd?โ he grins ๐
โSee if I ever prank you again!โ ๐ค
โOh you will,โ he remarks, nonchalant and cool, โJudging by how many times we changed the sheets yesterday, Iโm not even worried.โ ๐
Ngl, Tengenโs a lil desensitized ๐
Heโs got four wives
He knows youโre all hot af ๐
He knows heโs hot af ๐
Thereโs not much you can do to faze him
Except like, get injured or something, but thatโs kinda the opposite of what youโre aiming for ๐ฅด
โDoes this mean weโre fucking after dinner?โ
โจHe has a way with wordsโจ
โTengen,โ Hina scolds
โSo vulgar!โ Suma exclaims
โDonโt act so innocent when youโve ambushed me looking like that,โ Tengen mutters, pants already tightening as he takes in the silken fabric draped delicate and precarious over your breasts, โWhoโs idea was this?โ
โWhose do you think?โ Makio snorts
โTengen,โ you say breezily, reaching out to grasp his hand, stroking a coy, tender thumb across his knuckles, โLetโs go, weโre going to be late.โ
โObviously,โ he grunts, eyes shining with appreciationโa welcomed promiseโas he raises your palm to his lips, kissing your fingertips one by one, โWeโre not leaving.โ
โ
โHold up, you made two reservations?โ Tengen shrieks
Your eyes roll as if to say Duh, already rummaging for a new dress while Suma helps pat Makioโs back dry, steam from the attached bathroom wafting into the bedroom
โSheโs always prepared,โ Hina chirps proudly, kissing your jaw with a fond smile
โThat, and Tengenโs always horny,โ you smirk
You donโt really have a video suitable for YouTube ๐
, but you do post Before/After photos of the ~prank on Instagram with a cheeky Unfortunately, the โDuringโ photos are NSFW ๐๐ซข๐๐ caption
#hashira x reader#headcanons#modern au#demon slayer smut#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#himejima gyomei#gyomei x reader#iguro obanai#obanai x reader#rengoku kyojuro#kyojuro x reader#shinazugawa sanemi#sanemi x reader#tomioka giyuu#giyuu x reader#uzui tengen#tengen x reader
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Listen, KNY Mermaid/Pirate AU but the men are the mermaids and the women are the pirates --
Edit: Giyuu got saved yay
#Sanemi is a shark btw#idk what Giyuu is but he's about to become a grilled salmon#demon slayer fanart#demon slayer#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#drawing#anime#digital art#sanemi x kanae#kny sanemi#sanemi shinazugawa#kocho kanae#sanekana#giyuu x shinobu#tomioka giyuu#kocho shinobu#Shinobu#giyushino#kny mermaid au#mermaid au#demon slayer au
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Maybe in a softer time...
#ubuyashiki kagaya#himejima gyomei#himejima gyoumei#kanroji mitsuri#iguro obanai#shinazugawa sanemi#uzui tengen#rengoku kyojuro#rengoku kyoujurou#kocho shinobu#kochou shinobu#tomioka giyu#tomioka giyuu#tokito muichiro#tokitou muichirou#my art#my nice art#except that I don't care about anatomy#let's just say Muzan rearranged their anatomy#kny fix it au#Softer Time AU
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Warnings: Sex, Smut, NSFW, MDNI, 18+, Funny
Summary: It gets both steamy and funny when you manage to rile up Sanemi. And the man really has a short fuse. Modern AU.
A/N: For all you MHA fans, you are welcome to replace Sanemi with aged-up Bakugo. I can almost hear his voice in Sanemi's lines.
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The afternoon was going well until you made the fatal decision to go to the arcade. It was ages since you both last been and the silly in you wanted to try if it was as much fun as you remembered it to be. At first, Sanemi was enjoying himself but very soon things went south. You were winning, time after time, beginner luck at first, but when your winning streak continued, he was no longer able to contain his frustration.
โThis shit is rigged. How the fuck can you be winning all the time?โ
You laughed impulsively.
โSeriously Nemi, how can it be rigged? Do you think I am in cahoots with the owner?โ
Your grin became vicious and you lowered your voice into a conspiratorial whisper while leaning closer to him.
โMaybe I slept with him to get ahead?โ You followed this with a wink.
He was not amused. He glared at you pursing his lips and continued the game.
โFuck. How do you do it?โ He almost growled out after losing yet again.
You shrugged and gave him an innocent but triumphant smile, and even did a little victory dance. Andโฆyou shouldnโt have.
โEnough! We are going. This was not a good idea and I am not coming back here again.โ
You giggled and put your hand into his as you began walking out of the noisy arcade.
The cool evening air and your mild hand softened his mood and by the time you came back home, he was seemingly fine. But, once on the sofa, his eyes flared up in vicious intent.
โLetโs play Battlefield. I bet you canโt beat me there.โ
It was his favourite online shooter that you only played a handful of times. You did not take to it and, to be honest, you weren't interested in gaming that much anyway.
โYeah, whatever. But donโt you just want to watch a movie and cuddle?โ You asked with a flirtatious smile.
โWe can do that later.โ He was already pulling out the controllers and logging in to the online portal.
He passed you the controller and a few moments later you were moving through a village in the middle of a desert, first-person view of your surroundings, trying to avoid or shoot the enemy. For each time Sanemi got shot and revived, you stayed alive and kicking. When you quickly glanced at him, his jaw was tensed and his eyes had that half-insane focused look in them.
โNemi, you are taking this far too seriously.โ
โThis is serious.โ He barked out, which caused you to burst out laughing.
He paused the game and looked at you. A long, drawn-out, crazy stare. โIf looks could killโ was probably the best description of what was being projected from his light-purple pupils.
โRelax, babe.โ You put your hand on his thigh and began riding up to his groin. โLet me help you.โ
You cooed and started rubbing him through his jeans, the bulge slowly growing from your treatment. He was alternating staring at you and down at your hand.
โDo you really think I am some primitive gorilla that can be pacified with sex?โ He was seething with increasing irritation.
โNo, of course not, I donโt think that. Why would I?โ You cocked your head and smiled, biting your lip while continuing to rub his now quite prominent hardness.
โFuck you.โ
โYes, fuck me, Nemiโฆ โ
This was followed by a moment of silence after which he suddenly growled quietly and flipped you over on your stomach.
โAlright, I will fuck you. But don๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝt say you didnโt ask for it. Because I donโt intend on holding back.โ
You bit your lip in anticipation. You liked it when he was rough, but it would probably piss him off even more to know that right now you wanted him to be exactly that, heavy-handed. So instead, you just lay still, tiny, pinching, shivers running down your spine as his hands touched your ass and began pulling up your skirt.ย
His hand disappeared momentarily, and the sound of his zipper being pulled down sent even more electricity up your spine. He grunted as you could hear him get up and pull down his trousers. And then he was back at you, slapping your ass repeatedly, you moaning in response.
โNow, bitch, I will show you who is boss here.โ He rubbed you to excessive wetness and began pressing his cock into you, without much consideration for positioning himself properly. He was too eager to be tough.
โNemi, thatโs my other hole. You need to reposition.โ
โArgh! You donโt need to tell me what to do. I know what I am doing.โ
He shifted and slammed into you, missing your opening entirely and burrowing himself into the sofa. He was so consumed with the combination of rage and arousal that he managed to give the sofa a few hard thrusts.
โBabe, you are not inside.โ
โStop talking. I know I am not.โ
โShould I assist you? In finding the hole? Itโs like pinball, you know..โ You giggled. You could not help yourself to make the arcade allusion, because his reactions were simply too entertaining.
โDo you think Iโm funny, huh? Letโs see if you think this is funny then.โ
This time around, he pumped his fingers into your pussy, positioned himself correctly, and slammed into you causing you to gasp.
ย โHow do you like this?โ
โI like it.โ
His bare teeth were now grazing up your back and finished up on the side of your neck, the proximity of his warm, strong body causing you to clench a little extra. His breath was near your mouth and he hissed in a raspy voice:
โBrace yourself, fuckdoll.โ You loved it when he called you that.
He kept his proximity to you and started to hammer his hips into the softness of your ass. You were a little shaken as his pace increased. Your breath started to sync with his thrusts, but he kept it up so fast you were left gasping for air. He pushed deeper and harder until you were whimpering from his force.
He then pushed the whole length of his cock into you, and you could feel the head pushing at your cervix. The pain and pleasure sent shivers throughout your body. Your legs were shaking uncontrollably now, and you could feel your pussy start to gush. He continued his thrusting as if you weren't even there. Your knees were about to buckle, but he pulled you up again by the waist, his fingers digging into your flesh, and started his relentless thrusting once again.
You could barely breathe, and you were starting to see stars, the only sounds you could hear were your own heartbeat, his ragged breathing, and the sound of his cock driving into your soaked pussy. You started to lose consciousness, your vision narrowing to a point.
โNemi, Iโm coming.โ You whimpered out as the familiar feeling of needing to pee was turning into a full-blown climax accompanied by your pussy gushing like a fountain.
As you slipped into a blissful abyss, his cock finally erupted and released the thick, white cum that had been building up. It coated your womb and dripped out onto the sofa. His breathing started to slow down, and he released his grip on your waist. Your legs gave out, and you slumped forward, resting your head on the soft cushions.
He grabbed his sweatshirt off the floor and cleaned himself and your leaking pussy. He then pulled you upright and wrapped his arms around your waist, leaning his head on your shoulder. You placed a hand on his head and caressed his hair.
โAre you calm again now, my dear?โ You whispered into his ear.
โI was never agitated. What are you implying? That I lost control?โ Irritation was beginning to simmer up in him again. You let out a giggle. You could feel him tense up behind you, and his hands went for your throat. You tried to get away, but his grip tightened.
'What's so funny, hmm?'
You struggled to get out a few words. 'Nemi...please.' You begged.
'Please what, slut?' He replied, his grip getting tighter.
Your head was going fuzzy again, but his grip was not tight enough to make you black out. He was not a monster, after all, and besides, you did enjoy it, your juices running down your leg from his grip on your delicate flesh. You felt his cock growing stiff again. He really was insatiable. He let go of your throat and turned you around. He sat down on the sofa and pulled you into his lap.
'Now, we need to get a few things straight, doll. If I am going to continue to put with you, then you are going to need to understand that I am the one in control here, do you understand?' This was his usual way of asserting himself, that never really worked on you other than make your pussy drip.
โJust like you were in control of the game controllers just a moment ago?โ You giggled while grabbing his cock and lowering your full weight onto him.
He could no longer keep up the tough faรงade, the cracks showing by a playful spark appearing in his eyes. He laughed through closed lips and shrugged.
โYeahโฆjust like that. Well, I guess we both know that you are the boss here, my kitten.โ He groaned as you began riding him. And this was the beginning of a long, adrenaline-fueled night filled with sensual and passionate sex. Lesson learned? Annoying Sanemi was well worth it.
Dividers by @cafekitsune
Hope I can make you laugh with this oldie but goodie. Imagine Bakugo instead of Nemi ๐
@doumadono @crystalwolfblog
#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#shinazugawa sanemi x reader#sanemi smut#sanemi#sanemi x reader#kny sanemi#sanemi shinazugawa#demon slayer sanemi#demon slayer smut#kny smut#kimetsu no yaiba smut#sanemi x you#sanemi x y/n#sanemi x female reader#kny shinazugawa#demon slayer shinazugawa#shinazugawa brothers#demon slayer x reader#demon slayer x you#demon slayer x y/n#demon slayer x female reader#kny x reader#kny x y/n#kny x you#kimetsu no yaiba x reader#kny au#demon alayer au#smut
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Working on an AU where Makomo is alive lol
Based on a comic that I canโt find no more๐
Bonus
#sabigiyuu#sanegiyuu#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#tomioka giyuu#sabito#sanemi shinazugawa#rengoku kyojuro#kny makomo#WUFS AU#<- title subject to change#giyuu tomioka#sanemi throwing Sabito in frustration? embarassmenr? idk maybe he just wanted to
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Some KNY doodles
Makomo being a doting older sister canon, totally canon
#artists on tumblr#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#demon slayer art#giyuu tomioka#kny giyuu#kny tomioka#tomioka giyuu#kny makomo#kny sabito#sabito#sanemi shinazugawa#kny sanemi#KNY Tsutako#tsutako tomioka#tomioka siblings#kny au#FoxSiblingsLiveAU
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Here we go with our Part 5 finally ^^
I am thinking if I'll make a Part 6 of ๐๐๐๐ค ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐จ๐ฎ or no, but it depends on y'all loves and my magic plot bunnies.๐ In this chappy, I want to resolve one of Y/N's concern, sooooo this might all be about that, but I promise it'll be sweeter.
Taglist: @unofficialmuilover @sofilsworld @skeleton-the-gangser @ahashiraswife
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Content Warnings: Curse words, Slightly Suggestive
"Here's your coffee..."
It has been a few days since you reconciled with Sanemi. It has also been a few days since you agreed to go out with him. Yes, this hot math teacher is now your boyfriend, and you adore him so much.
But despite this, both of you decided to hide it from the school for now. It's not that you're not proud of it. You just don't want the thought of other people invading your privacy. You are the total opposite of Mitsuri and Obanai, as the couple made it clear that they're together. Mostly, it's because Sanemi's friend is just too easy to get jealous of.
Oh well, Sanemi can easily be jealous, but both of you decided to keep it lowkey.
And yet, there are times that Sanemi can't keep his hands to himself. He would sneak kisses on your cheek when you were alone in the faculty room. He would even slip his hands under the table and entwine them with yours when he was sitting with you at lunch. Even if he acts harshly, he'll make sure to send you sweet text messages, which you never thought he'd do. He's too fluffy inside that facade.
Sanemi and you still haven't kissed on the lips. Surprisingly, the man easily gets flustered. Perhaps soon you will feel his lips, but perhaps it will happen if you initiate it.
You'll never know that Giyu is getting the hang of these. With the sudden closeness between you and Sanemi, your best friend knows that something is happening behind the curtains. But knowing your best friend, he's not the type of guy who'll intervene or ask too much, so he just lets you. And yes, Giyu is prepared to punch the hell out of Sanemi if he breaks your heart, despite the fact that he will not admit it. And the man will make sure that his scars double because of it.
You had this little mission in you to make your best friend and your boyfriend on good terms, but it seems like it isn't working. Giyu doesn't fight with Sanemi, but yes, the latter makes sure that the former hates him to the guts. There are times where Giyu will even ask you why Sanemi hates him so much, and even if you know the reason, you don't want to tell him, as your boyfriend might get madder at him.
"Thanks babe." You said this as Sanemi placed the coffee on your table. You were reading a history book while listening to your favourite song. Your boyfriend had decided that he would visit you for the first time, and that made you happy, so you let him. You want his company as much as you want to just cuddle with him, inhaling his minty scent.
Sanemi plopped down in the space beside you and draped his hands across your shoulders. "What are you reading, baby girl? I'm here already, yet you seem to still be busy."
Baby girl.You felt a tingle in your stomach as you heard this come out of Sanemi's mouth. You turned to look at him and placed your book on your lap. "Ooh, so the baby boy wants my attention?" You teased, pinching his cheeks, which made him roll his eyes.
"Stop calling me baby boy, babe. I can definitely put a baby inside of you now if I want to."
"What the heck!"
His words made you blush madly, so then you kicked him with your feet, which made him fall down the couch, laughing like crazy. Again, he is teasing you, which is somewhat amusing, but you are a little taken aback by his words.
"Idiot! I'm just kidding!" He said, massaging his butt as he stood up, still laughing from your reaction.
You were about to throw a pillow at him when, suddenly, your doorbell rang. Who might it be? As far as you know, it is Saturday, and no one has ever visited you before.
Unless it's... "Fuck it's Giyu." You muttered under your breath, which immediately made Sanemi look at you with a sudden annoyance plastered on his face. "The fuck? That asshole visits you?" He groaned and gave you an angry look that caused you to roll your eyes.
"Obviously, he is my best friend."
"Who cares? Just open the door!"
You sighed and walked towards the door. Yes. You know that Sanemi's jealous; that's why he started to throw a fit. Sanemi's somehow childish sometimes, and one of those moments is this one.
Ignoring your fuming boyfriend, you opened the door, and there Giyu stood, handing you a cake. "I bought this from Kamado-kun's bakery. It's your favourite." He says and that made you smile. "Thanks Tomioka-san. Why don't you come in?"
"WHAT IN THE HELL, Y/N?" Sanemi yelled from the living room when he heard you invite Giyu in.
The poor man blinked in surprise. His suspicion was confirmed. He had seen Sanemi's car parked near your house but decided to ignore it. But now it's all clear. "That's Shinazugawa-san's voice, right?" He asked you with his brotherly mode activated. "Uhhh... Tomioka-sanโ"
"Why are you here, Shinazugawa-san?"
Giyu entered the house, crossing his hands at Sanemi, who was sitting on your couch with a crossed leg.
"Why do you care? Tsk!" Sanemi blurted out, standing and crossing his arms at him as well.
"Uh guys..." You tried to intervene, but the two seemed to be in an intense staring contest. You can't deny that Sanemi looked so hot while glaring at Giyu, but of course, you pushed your thirsty thoughts away and went between them, raising your hands on their faces, which definitely shocked them.
"Hey idiots! Listen, okay? Please? Or I'll both kick you out of my house."
"What's happening then?" The two men asked in unison, and that made you sigh for the nth time.
You turned to look at Giyu, taking Sanemi's hand and holding it tight.
"Tomioka-san, Shinazugawa-san's my boyfriend."
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"What? You hate me for that?"
Thirty minutes had passed, and the tension had faded. Thankfully. You never expected that in those thirty minutes, you could change the way your boyfriend looks at your best friend.
After you told Giyu that Sanemi was already your boyfriend, all his thoughts were confirmed. Even if he wanted to protect you that much, he also wants you to be happy, and Sanemi makes you happy right now, so he respects that.
Giyu went in front of Sanemi and bowed his head. "Please take care of my little sister. I know that she'll be in good hands when she's with you." He said that, claiming you as his little sister, which made you blush a bit. Sanemi blinked in confusion, telling Giyu to stop bowing to him. The ravenette man's remarks made your boyfriend blush as well.
And there, Giyu smiled at Sanemi for the first time. His kindest smile made all the coldness in Sanemi's heart melt. "Dude, stop grinning; that's spooky!" Your boyfriend said that, which made Giyu and you chuckle.
"Sanemi's just flustered at your cute smile, Tomioka-san."
"He surely is."
The teasing eventually became a conversation that finally led both men into this moment. Sanemi and you sat across from Giyu, with him slicing the cake for the three of you.
"Just to settle this, Tomioka, why on earth do you think you are different from us? I believe you're not fucking better than me."
Sanemi suddenly blurted out, seemingly curious about the reason behind the man's detachment. Giyu looked up at the man and blinked in confusion. "I never thought of that, Shinazugawa-san."
Sanemi gritted his teeth and slammed the table with his hands, which surprised you and Tomioka. "Why? Because you think I'm no good? The fuck, I'm gonnaโ"
"What? You hate me for that? You thought that I thought I was superior to you?"
Giyu sighed and crossed his arms. You patted Sanemi's back, trying to calm him down. Sanemi leaned back, crossing his legs again. No words came from his lips, and that gave you the chance to look at him. Even though he gets upset easily by things, he is still so adorable.
"I never thought of that. I even think all of you are a hundred times better than me; that's why I tend to say I don't belong there."
"Oh." Sanemi's tensed shoulder relaxed with his breathing. He looked at you, and you just gave him a smile, urging him to listen to Tomioka.
"Even back in high school. I saw how hardworking you are, so I always thought that you deserved to be noticed more. I wanted to be friends with you; I tried, but you hated me that much, so I just dealt with it."
You looked up at Sanemi and held his hand again. "That's why I always wondered why you all avoided Giyu so much. He's a great person. He acted as my brother when I lost my family in a car accident. He and Tsutako-sama took me in, and that's why I'm still in. But yeah, Giyu's not just a great talker, and I've been dealing with that all my life."
That's the first time that Sanemi heard about your family, and sadly, you've already lost them. Your lover looked at you with sadness in his eyes. Sanemi squeezed your hand and pulled you near him, giving you a warm side hug.
He wanted to know more about you, but one step at a time.
"Tomioka, look. I'm sorry, man. I misunderstood you." Sanemi let go of you, stood up, and bowed to your best friend. Tomioka blinked in shock once again but didn't do anything, as he doesn't know how to handle Sanemi at all.
"Shinazugawa-san, let's be friends."
You smiled at Giyu as he made your boyfriend blush, but the math teacher just hummed in agreement as he looked away, hiding his reddened face.
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That day ended quickly, with Giyu leaving the both of you early and apologising for barging in and interrupting you. And yes, Sanemi was nicer to him. He'll still throw some curses and insults, but not like before.
And you watched them like a proud mother as Sanemi sent Giyu out the door, shaking his hand for the first time.
Sanemi went beside you after that, and both of you just decided to watch a movie together.
But yes, the night came, and you woke up on Sanemi's shoulder. He was staring at you, which made you blush hard.
"Baby, what's the matter?" You said, rubbing your eyes as you tried to compose yourself from the adorable sight in front of you.
"I love you." Sanemi muttered, and in a blink of an eye,you felt a warm but soft sensation on your lips. Realising that Sanemi had kissed you, your heart started to beat faster than before, and you felt like the heat on your body was quickly rising up.
Letting your emotions go, you wrapped your hands around Sanemi's neck, deepening the kiss that made the man chuckle as he slowly ran his tongue on your lips, asking for entrance.
Fuck, he's a great kisser.
You parted your lips a bit, and Sanemi took that as the chance to explore your mouth, your tongues fighting for dominance as his hands slowly wrapped around your waist, pulling you over his lap.
Drunk with passion, Sanemi pulled out for a breath, ironically taking your breath away with how flushed his look is. The man slowly came near you and whispered in your ear.
"How about I really put something inside you now? I think you'll love it, baby girl."
Shivers crawled across your skin as you heard those coming from his lips with his super-sexy voice. Sanemi placed his hands on your face, looking at you with eyes glistening with a mixture of passion and lust.
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"What do you think, Y/N, baby?"
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Oh my gosh~ I want it so much >.< Sanemi, so naughty!
Anyways, thank you for reading this chapter~ And good news, more chappies will come hahaha! My plot bunnies are awake soooo hihi ^^
Hope you'll also check my other stories! Send a request if you want me to tailor one, specifically for you fufufu~
Also, for easier navi, Imma put this here as well:
Thank you so much and see yah on the next part! Love yah!
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#demon slayer x reader#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba x reader#demon slayer imagines#sanemi x reader#sanemi shinazugawa#shinazugawa sanemi#genya shinazugawa#genya#sanemi shinaguzawa#sanemi x y/n#sanemi x fem!reader#sanemi x you#sanemi x kanae#giyu x shinobu#shinobu kocho#rengoku kyojuro#kanroji mitsuri#obanai iguro#uzui tengen#gyomei himejima#demon slayer au#demon slayer modern au#sanemi modern au#sanemi au#sanemi angst#teacher sanemi x teacher reader#teacher sanemi
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Sanemi Shinazugawa redesign/headcanons!
โ He's a albino and his skin it's a bit sensitive to sunlight, due to that he always carries a wagasa around to protect himself whenever he can, also, he hides his sword in the wagasa. Sanemi tends to hit other demon slayers with his wagasa when he gets annoyed.
โ He has a birth mark shaped like a rhinoceros beetle :3
โ He tend to focus on things so much to the point that he forgets to blink, making his eyes go dry.
โ Sanemi can cook very well and he loves to cook actually, but he keeps this secret locked up like it's a awful crime.
#sanemi shinazugawa#demon slayer hcs#sanemi headcanons#demon slayer au#kny#kny headcanons#artists on tumblr#digital art#character edit#kny edit#demon slayer#kny au#kny hcs#kny sanemi#demon slayer sanemi
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Sabito: you ever wanna talk about feelings, Shinazugawa?
Sanemi: No.
Giyuu: I do.
Sabito: I know, Giyuu.
Giyuu: I'm sad.
Sabito: I know, Giyuu.
#im kidding okay#tomioka giyuu#shinazugawa sanemi#sabito#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#sanesabigiyuu#ooc for giyuu but imagine in an au where he's ok bc sabito is alive#sanegiyuu#sabigiyuu
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[roleswap au]
i love the Kochos sm
#doodle#fanart#kny fanart#kny#kimetsu fanart#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#shinobu kocho#kanae kocho#sanemi shinazugawa#giyuu tomioka#zenitsu agatsuma#kanao tsuyuri#tanjiro kamado#role swap au#au#alternate universe#rengoku kyojuro#tengen uzui#kny mitsuri
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quick 20 minute doodles to show more of the pintsized pillars au dynamics !!!
feel free to ask more about them, i may doodle some responses since they r fresh on my mind
#demon slayer#kny#pintsized pillars au#pint sized pillars au#demon slayer fanart#kny fanart#muichiro tokito#obanai iguro#sanemi shinazugawa#gyomei himejima#tengen uzui#kyojuro rengoku#mitsuri kanroji#giyuu tomioka#shinobu kocho#deaging#deaging au
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