#same hira same!!

[how-to-be-a-tree]

ME:

"This is too embarrassing. It's like I've been seen through"

[divineandmajesticinone]

MY BEAUTIFUL MAN (2021) I 1.04

"I never thought me and Kiyoi would go anywhere."

[braceletofteeth]

Hira + すき

[aureminate]

been artfighting so i haven't had the time to draw other stuff. however i still believe in the akutagawa world domination agenda.

[hirazuki]

Sephiroth (Final Fantasy VII) Cosplayer + edits: me Photo credit: @stevejensen65 Costume: SBluuCosplay (AliExpress), modifications by me Wig: Arda Wigs (Tauriel, in “Light Grey” + added wefts) Contacts: Uniqso (Sweety Crazy Green Demon Eye) There's too many misconceptions In this game of consequence When you're finding that your hero Is just who you're up against - Blackmore's Night

[fandomfairyuniverse]

This ep really did an excellent job at highlighting why the hira and kiyoi dynamic is so captivating ie the fact that hira has self esteem so low it rivals the Mariana Trench and kiyoi has the emotional intelligence of a jellyfish (I say all of this with love) and yet they’re both like “I love him so so so much he’s so cool and handsome and I want to be with him forever and ever”

[respectthepetty]

I've mentioned how Hira constantly lowers himself around Kiyoi because he has never seen himself as an equal.

But you know what Kiyoi has consistently done the past two episodes after telling Hira to never leave him?

He has treated Hira as his equal. He has looked Hira in his eyes, made Hira look at him by putting his hands on Hira's shoulders, and told Hira how amazing he is, how is is not a pebble, and how he is worthy of being by his side.

Kiyoi immediately comes home and becomes Hira's equal, lowering himself to the floor. He doesn't take the time to walk around and take off his jacket or bag. He stops right there, and discards everything about himself, to sit down, and talk to Hira as his equal.

Then he lowers himself even more when Hira states he is a failure.

The only time Kiyoi has been higher than Hira the past two episodes, is when Hira puts him there. Kiyoi was acting very much like Hira, admiring Anna on the TV, when Hira began taking photos of him. Kiyoi seemed uncomfortable being gazed at through the lens of the camera, but he understands this is what Hira likes, so he turns off the TV and walks over to the chair.

Yet he continues to try talking to Hira. Hira gives him brief responses. Hira is in his idol-worship zone, and Kiyoi is cut off on this pedestal talking to himself.

Every other time, Kiyoi is shown lower than Hira. If Kiyoi isn't making the effort to be equal with Hira, Hira is shown holding the real power in the relationship, and there is always something between them. Just like the sunglasses Hira wears when watching Kiyoi on set or the camera he takes pictures with, Hira is never really seeing Kiyoi in front of him. He is always seeing Kiyoi through a filter.

When they fight, Hira clearly holds the power as Kiyoi must look up to him.

But then again, Hira doesn't hold eye contact with Kiyoi until he crawls around the table to lower himself.

And that's when Kiyoi loses it.

Strangely enough, Kiyoi won't let Hira lay on the floor. He keeps picking up Hira.

Then he makes this comment:

Kiyoi has lowered himself and picked Hira up, but he is realizing that Hira never intends for them to be equal. Hira wants to maintain the dynamic they have of a god to a pebble, and no amount of reminding Hira that they are both humans is going to convince Hira to rise up to meet Kiyoi. No matter how much love and worth Kiyoi gives to Hira, no matter how many times he picks Hira up, and no matter how many times he lowers himself for Hira, Hira refuses to pick himself up. Hira states he doesn't want to bring Kiyoi down, but never once thinks he can raise himself up.

Because he is only a fan.

Not a friend.

Not a boyfriend.

Just a fan.

[kaistoast]

Thoughts on UtsuKare S2 EP3

The fact that I see that many people find Hira annoying feels like a truth because often neurotypical people think and feel like neuro-divergent people are self-centered, inconsiderate, and therefore annoying.

I don’t know if some peeps here watched Extraordinary Attorney Woo Young-woo one of the main conflicts was similar to this. WYW didn't want to get together with LJH out of fear of making him feel lonely and how it will be hard on him to love her. Woo Young-woo’s autism is very much parallel to Hira’s neurodivergence in Utsukushii Kare.

The difference in UtsuKare S1, is that Hira took a step forward despite his fears and confirms to Kiyoi that he loves him while WYW hesitated and went as far as to reject LJH. Hira even if he views him as his King (idolizing him), he wants to love him (as a person) and remain by his side. This is a significant leap in his character as conveying his feelings became some sort of a climax at the end of the first season.

S2 feels like Hira's been taking one step forward and two steps back because he's struggling with his low self-esteem, and finding the foreign emotions he’s never felt before while Kiyoi is succeeding in every way possible in his career, changing individually too. Change is difficult for Hira, but he's still striving to stay with Kiyoi despite his insecurities and be worthy despite of his own "shortcomings."

Hira doesn't know how to fix his feelings and expectations towards situations but he clearly wants to because he knows it's making Kiyoi sad. As a fan and Kiyoi’s  lover he doesn’t want that. Hence the scene, him frustrated and riding the bike screaming, "ETERNAL." He doesn't want to make Kiyoi sad or lonely and he wants him to be happy together with him but he doesn’t know how.

The timing of his cousin visiting him blows up in his face as he's faced with having to acknowledge the “change” he feels between the both of them. There’s a difficult hurdle in communicating his complex emotions which are already hard for him to identify what more to vocalize, in addition to the fact that they're both still closeted too. He's clearly dissatisfied with himself for not being to par with Kiyoi but minimizes it to the extreme going as far as saying "A friendship is disrespectful towards Kiyoi who’s way better than I am."

I feel for Kiyoi because he misunderstood Hira. Kiyoi read it as Hira doesn't want to be in the relationship / doesn’t love him enough to involve his family with him. Kiyoi feels lonely from the way Hira is lowering himself and the whole scenario becomes more confusing for him because he thought Hira was on the same page with him, that he wanted to stay with Kiyoi forever. 

The thing is Kiyoi never vocalizes his confusion seen in EP2. This of course becomes a problem and a reason to why he blew up in EP3. Hira wants to stay with Kiyoi forever but he’s unsure if Kiyoi is going to. Hira knows that he’s hard to love due to his “sins/burdens.” When Hira tried to tell Kiyoi not to worry about their parents being involved it was him trying to comfort Kiyoi from what he sees could be another burden he’s placing upon Kiyoi or a reason for Kiyoi to leave. 

But, Kiyoi misunderstood that as Hira placing another barrier to their relationship. Versus Hira sees it as protecting and comforting Kiyoi from a possible discomfort so that Kiyoi can remain together with him. Just like how he cooked an unusual amount of food for dinner when he lost the photography contest, he feels the need to overcompensate or comfort Kiyoi for what he feels are his shortcomings which he believes are burdens he’s given to Kiyoi.

Kiyoi felt frustrated by the way Hira minimizes himself (which is very understandable) the misunderstanding accumulates from his confusion and loneliness causing him to lash out at Hira. Hira then panics and further digs his foot in the mud by trying to appease Kiyoi's anger because Hira’s own insecurities are now on full blast and Kiyoi doesn't understand him nor does he understand Kiyoi’s anger. 

So, Hira defaults into saying he doesn't know and he doesn't want to understand him because Kiyoi is different, he’s not like him and he shouldn’t be like him. Kiyoi gets hurt from his words and Hira immediately wants to comfort him despite his own confusion. 

We see how Hira has changed he’s never raised a voice of frustration towards Kiyoi and always kept this own thoughts under the wraps. But now, he’s become more vocal trying to make Kiyoi understand him. I don’t think Kiyoi has noticed this change since they're both hurt and extremely emotional during that fight.

None of them wants to meet at a middle ground. Hira accuses Kiyoi for being too out of his reach and Kiyoi accuses Hira for not wanting to be within his reach.

Kiyoi apologizes for falling in love with Hira and Hira doesn't understand all of the emotions he's developed from loving Kiyoi. All he knows is that he yearns for Kiyoi to love him, and to remain by his side despite his insecurity, “sins” and all.

Kiyoi despite saying that he loves Hira still apologized to Hira for loving him and isn’t completely transparent with Hira. His character has changed he shows his love to Hira in more subtle ways which is confusing for Hira who struggles to read others unless being told out right in addition to his own lack of confidence and self-worth.

They both got work to do and it’s so wonderful to see. I definitely got frustrated myself watching Hira absolutely mess it up and pour fuel to the fire but truly, this series is great I can't wait to see how they'll patch this up in the final episode next week.

[roomofshitposts]

made this when i heard the ros finale dropped and forgot to toss it here they call me a dumbass o(-(

hi hello, it's been a long while since i posted here and i think i'll call it quits about now for this blog

i'm not super active on any tumblr/twitter accounts these days but my handle is @aureminate if anyone wants to see art once in a blue moon

right now i don't know if i'll deactivate roomofshitposts or just leave it up, or i guess if anyone wants to have the handle they can send me a message?

and that's all from me, goodbye !!

[casuallydyinginthecorner]

I made the Potats as picrews!

link to the picrew: https://toon-me-picrew.carrd.co

Aru: (the bird is Boo this is the closest thing the picrew had to a phoenix)

[Image ID: Aru Shah from the Pandava Quintet. She is sitting with her knees up in a park with a blue sky in a purple T-shirt, gray shorts and yellow sneakers. There is a gray watch on her left hand. A yellow bird sits on her knee and she holds up a peace sign. A light blue frame surrounds the picture. /.End ID]

Mini:

[Image ID: a picrew of Mini from the Pandava Quintet. She is sitting with her knees up in a yellow room with potted plants. She is wearing a fuchsia dress, black strapy sandals, gold hoop earrings, and a flower in her hair. There is a book to her left. /.End ID]

Brynne:

[Image ID: a picrew of Brynne from the Pandava Quintet. She is sitting with her knees up in a park at nighttime, with blue sparkles behind her and is winking at the viewer and is doing a “rock on” sign with her right hand. She is wearing a strapy black crop top, a necklace with a blue charm, dark blue jean shorts, black ankle Converse, gray stud earrings, and an orange and yellow flower crown. There is a slice of cake with a spoon to her left. /.End ID]

Nikita:

[Image ID: a picrew of Nikita from the Pandava Quintet. She is sitting with her knees up on a beach at sunrise, holding her left hand as though she’s about to snap. She is wearing a light blue ruffled top with white dots, a long white skirt, brown strappy sandals, silver heart earrings, and has silver heart glasses on her forehead. There is a pink drink to her left. /.End ID]

Sheela:

[Image ID: a picrew of Sheela from the Pandava Quintet. She is sitting with her knees up in blue, purple and pink ombré clouds with blue flowers behind her and is winking at the viewer. She is wearing a blue and pink zebra-striped shirt, light blue overalls, purple sandals, light pink fingerless gloves, and has silver star glasses on her forehead. There is a bottle of juice to her left. /.End ID]

Aiden:

[Image ID: a picrew of Aiden from the Pandava Quintet. He is sitting in a park in the daytime with his knees up, with white sparkles behind him and looking to his left. He is wearing a dark green button up shirt, black shorts, gray ankle converse, a black wristwatch on his left hand, and square silver sunglasses on his forehead. There is a bag of opened cookies to his left. /.End ID]

Rudy:

[Image ID: a picrew of Rudy from the Pandava Quintet. He is sitting with his knees up in a yellow room with potted plants, doing a peace sign with his right hand. He is wearing a blue button up shirt with pink flowers, gray shorts, light pink and white slides, a straw hat and round pink sunglasses on his forehead. He has a pink beverage to his left. /.End ID]

Hira: (picrew based off of @burntchickennugget2468 ‘s prom au drawing since k couldn’t find one on the wiki)

[Image ID: a picrew of Hira from the Pandava Quintet. She is in a park at nighttime with yellow sparkles behind her, sitting with her knees up and looking to her bottom left and doing a “rock on” sign with her right hand. She is wearing a light blue jumpsuit with dark blue stripes, white socks with light blue ankle Converse, silver bracelets, silver hoop earrings, and a yellow flower in her hair. There is a slice of cake with a spoon to her left. /.End ID]

[tragedykery]

babe wake up new oc lore just dropped (aka long ramble about hira under the cut)

the thing about hira is. she grew up in an orphanage in the western earth kingdom. she was left there as a baby with nothing but her name. she doesn’t know who her parents were, where she’s from, and when her efforts to figure this out prove fruitless, it hurts. she longs for family, for knowledge and identity and culture, only spurred on by the feeling of alienation from (and perhaps jealousy towards) her peers.

(and maybe she conflates those different types of longing, maybe she thinks if she discovers what nation her parents were from she’ll find a new family there.)

so when she finds out she can airbend, she’s overjoyed. she throws herself into learning everything she can about the bending and the culture. she makes plans to go to the temples when she gets off the ship. when she gets there, she’ll finally have a family. she’ll finally be at home.

and that is one of the reasons she struggles so much when she realises she actually likes it on the ship. she likes being with these people, these pirates who have actually begun to feel like some sort family to her. the ship feels like home. and that’s why, eventually, she stays.

(and also, she’s scared. she’s scared they won’t accept her at the temples, that she isn’t air nomad enough. that she doesn’t know enough. she’ll go, just later. not yet.)

she stays, and keeps learning. she learns to meditate, to write air nomad script and speak air nomad languages, to cook air nomad recipes, all under the tutelage of sita (though for the last one, chusak helps too). she’s almost a bending prodigy.

and then she discovers she’s the avatar. and she refuses to believe it.

because being the avatar would mean being not really an air nomad. it would mean a duty to the world, and with that, an inability to fully comply with air nomad philosophy. the avatar can’t stay detached from worldly matters or choose not to harm.

so she denies it.

eventually, with the help of her friends (her family) she learns to separate the concepts of family and culture and identity and bending. she learns her worth doesn’t depend on those things, that she can be multiple things at once, that she doesn’t have to choose. she can do her duty as the avatar and still be an air nomad.

can bend any of the elements and speak both the languages of the eastern air temple and a small village in the west of the earth kingdom and prefer her tea the way it’s served in tea houses decked out in green but prefer her bread the way it’s eaten by nuns and have it be okay. she doesn’t have to choose or change or be perfect to be loved. her family is a motley pirate crew made up of people who find their origins in all four corners of the globe, and they celebrate all their wonderful differences.

so indeed, I think more than anything, wind in the sails is a story about identity & culture & personal growth.

[hydrasaura]

among the only quotes i knew from cowboy bebop were ''see you, space cowboy'' and ''i love a woman that will just kill me'', little did I know that the latter one was directed at this absolute babe like i'm there with you buddy i want her to crush me I'm talking full on watermelon in the thighs level carnage

[braceletofteeth]

I have to leave with you.

Are you alright? I'm here.

[yuurei20]

Hi, I'm working on a theory for Ramshackle and MC. Have the creators said why Queen of Hearts/Scar/etc. were chosen for the Great Seven? ((Also, why did MC become the prefect of Ramshackle and not the Housewarden?))

Hello hello!! Thank you for this question, it became a rabbit hole!

Yana had this to say about the villains who were used for inspiration (from the game guide):

"The number one reason is that they are all from 'masterpieces with which everyone is familiar'. They are all legendary—you need only say the movie titles and the characters come immediately to mind.

Since they are also legends in their own right, we thought it would be good to choose stories with a long history, and that is how we settled on these seven.

There are many other movies with fascinating villains, so it was a very difficult decision."

-Twst Game Guide (2020)

She also goes into detail about the different eras during which the movies were set, which may also have influenced which were selected! More here! (Youtube)

But there may be more going on than we have been told 👀 There are theories that "death" is another theme that links the dorms together!

All members of the Great Seven were villains that either died in their movies (Scar, Ursula, Maleficent, Jafar (in the second movie), the Evil Queen), or were never alive in the human sense to begin with (Queen of Hearts, Hades).

Death has never been a subtle theme in Twst, with new students at NRC arriving via coffins.

Kalim observes that, with the ceremonial robes they wear to orientation, "it's like we're attending a funeral."

And there are also the ghosts!

While it seems possible to be born as a ghost (according to Crowley and Eliza), Lilia says that ghosts "linger here due to powerful attachments or personal motives...they aren't visible outside of magically suffused locations like Night Raven College," and that they "linger" by choice.

And this brings back to the prefect!

In the manga, all three prefects that we have seen thus far have had names connected to the afterlife:

・Heartslabyul Arc, Enma Yuuken (円満 雄剣): Enma's family name is pronounced the same (the kanji is different) as 閻魔 (Enma), the king of hell in Buddhism. From the Kyoto National Museum website: "The King of Buddhist Hell is Enma, who is also the judge of the afterlife."

・Savanaclaw Arc, Hirasaka Yuuka (比良坂 悠河): "Hirasaka" is written and pronounced the same as the hirasaka of Yomotsu-hira Saka, known as "The Entrance to the Underworld" in Shintoism, explained on Shimane Prefecture's official tourism website: "Yomotsu-hira Saka appears as the boundary between the land of the dead and the land of the living."

・Octavinelle Arc, Mito Yuuta (三途 宥太): "Mito" uses the same kanji as 三途川, the "River of Three Crossings," which is "a mythological river the souls of the deceased must cross by one of three crossing points." Credit to blogger Tansho for the discovery that "River Styx" was changed to 三途川 in the Japanese-language dub of the "Hercules" TV show.

So there is definitely a theme of the prefect filling a role between life and death!

While one theory is that the prefect ended up in Twisted Wonderland after they died (in the manga it is insinuated that all three prefects were hit by vehicles directly before waking up at NRC), another theory is that they're not quite dead yet.

If that is the case then they may be close (Grim wakes them up prematurely, and Crowley says that this is his first time having a student who opened their "gate" (coffin) on their own) and they might just be an astral projection of someone who is between life and death, appearing at the magically suffused location that is NRC.

In other words, a ghost 👀

The manga is following a theme of naming its characters something involving "Yuu" (which is always the students' nickname for them) and "Yuu" is also commonly adopted as the default-name for the game's prefect.

Another word that involves a "Yuu" sound is 幽霊 (Yuurei), which means: ghost :>

(Hence the name of this blog! It is the very chuunibyou name of a twitter account I made in 2018 to complain about my job. This potential connection to Twst was completely unintentional and makes me laugh.)

As for why the prefect was named Prefect of Ramshackle dorm instead of Housewarden: I am not sure! But it seems to have something to do with the unique situation that is the prefect's role.

They have not technically been assigned to the overseeing of the dorm as a whole, just to Grim, so maybe that is why? :>

And it is particularly interesting as that means that the role of Housewarden of Ramshackle Dorm is still open--maybe to be filled some day...? 👀

[hirazuki]

I did a costest of Mairon today (and an impromptu Almaren-era look, because why not) -- he's ready for con! I'm really happy with how he looks and too excited to wait to share photos until I'm done editing, so have some unedited shots plus two quick memes & the last thing you see when you dare imply Melkor might have not done nothing wrong XD

Inspiration for the memes came from this amazing poll by @kanafinwe-makalaure.

Edit: Ahaha okay this got A LOT more attention than I anticipated, for being just some test shots and silliness ^^; I usually don't include costume credits in costest photo dump posts, only on finished photos, but now I feel like I need to include them here too, so here you go: Wig: Arda Wigs (Grace, in "Fire Orange") Contacts: Uniqso (Sweety Crazy Red Demon Eye) Ears: Aradani Costumes (Sun Elf Ears) Circlet: PernCirclets (on Etsy) Gorget: Crystalsidyll (on Etsy) Gauntlets: Jadekei (on Etsy) Leather armor: LederFantasies (on Etsy) Fangs: Scarecrow (Small Deluxe Fangs) Gloves, dress base, and finger armor are mass-produced/store-bought; shirt is my own. I'm honestly shocked at the reception and everyone's really kind and supportive words! ♡♡♡

[negrowhat]

what are your top ten fav bl's of all time?

Hey Anon! I had to take some time to think about this. It's hard for me to choose things like this! You're really putting me on the spot lol. Here we go tho...I might cheat a little.

To My Star. Both 1 and 2. I love Seo Joon's and Ji Woo's story. I love their relationship dynamic. I loved how protective they were of each other. Both Ji Woo and Seo Joon are complex characters with layers that you can really bite into and analyze many ways. I know a lot of people were not fans of s2 but that was one series where I truly ate up the angst. Ji Woo is a hard character to understand unless you really take the time to watch the series and focus on his behaviors. You'll never, ever catch me talking bad about TMS.

Gameboys the Series. Both the seasons and the movie. CaiReel have such a modern and relatable love story. I think it being a series about finding relationships in the middle of a global pandemic while we were ALL sharing the same plight really stood out. I felt like I made new friends while watching that series. Also for s1 to be shot completely on an iPhone and for most of the actors to not actually be filming their scenes at the same time, I was BLOWN away by the quality AND chemistry. That series made me SOB and that is also something I consider impressive. If it can make me cry then it's certified gold.

Utsukushii Kare. Both seasons and the movie. This is another series with complex main characters. Hira deals with his general uninterest in damn near everything EXCEPT Kiyoi and photography. And Kiyoi deals with his need for attention even if he generally doesn't like people because they always disappoint him. It's interesting to see how they handle their seemingly unbalanced relationship. Hira is willing to give Kiyoi all the love he requires and not get close (which is normally what Kiyoi wants) and Kiyoi learns that with Hira he wants a real true love and relationship and that's quite a task when the man you love doesn't value himself. It's just interesting seeing the growth between them.

Color Rush S1. I love the way they tackle the soulmates trope, and explore the darker side to the obsession that could happen once you find your perfect match ESPECIALLY when that match can help you see a full picture. Yeon Woo struggles with a myriad of thoughts and fears as he does his best not to get close to Yoo Han even though Yoo Han is serving up himself on a silver platter with tantalizing promises of helping him learn the colors he craves to see. Yeon Woo becomes obsessed, but little does he know that Yoo Han is also obsessed because Yeon Woo also helps Yoo Han see a clearer picture. But maybe that obsession is really just them falling in love and not knowing what to call it.

Moonlight Chicken. Messy and relatable to a person like me who is smack dab in the middle of the age groups involved. This series really showcases how messy romances can be. It shows how hard it can be to close the door to a chapter you thought would end happily. This series shows how hard it can be to move on when a normally open door shuts in your face suddenly and forever. It shows how a chapter that starts off terrible can lead you into the most thrilling moment of your life. It shows that the last chapter you finished might have you TERRIFIED to move on to the next one. Stuck. This was a series I found difficult to dislike any of the characters even if they were being terrible. Emotions were high and reactions were warranted. This was a series where I felt like people were allowed to feel the way they were feeling.

We Best Love. Yes, both seasons. Shu Yi and Shi De had such an up and down ship. Shi De went through such a roundabout way to get close to Shu Yi and I really enjoyed watching them become friends. I enjoyed watching Shu Yi come to realize he was in love. I wanted to beat Shi De up in s2 for ghosting Shu Yi and I was enjoying watching Shu Yi get his lick back, but really he was just looking for answers so he can decide if he was stupid for wanting to forgive Shi De the moment he saw him again. It's another fun and messy series.

Lovely Writer. I LOVE Gene ok. He really made me love the series because he was such a bomb ass character. I also found Nubsib's psycho/stalkerish tendencies quite entertaining because he was so polite about it. I love that the series took stabs at all the things wrong with the BL community while simultaneously having the main character be an actor in one of the most toxic fake BLs I've ever seen. Just meta on top of meta. Satire in the form of a trendy BL within a BL.

History 3: MODC. Salt run aside, I just really loved this series. Can't believe a series about the shy kid falling in love with his bully is a fave. That sentence alone would make it problematic af...not to mention the questionable age gap between the 2nd couple. But it was beautifully constructed. Hao Ting found the best version of himself in Xi Gu and Xi Gu found a brighter side to life with Hao Ting. And they were WAYYYYY into each other and Hao Ting did put in his work to be forgiven. I do my best not to overthink Zhi Gang's age difference from Sun Bo because it's such a norm in Taiwanese BL. It's kind of interesting to see their relationship play out. Zhi Gang definitely has his hangups with the age gap and Sun Bo just doesn't care.

Blueming. Such a laid back series. Si Won is just a sweetheart dealing with self-esteem issues trying to make his presence known in life so he can get the best out of his university experience. And Da Un is just that effortlessly cool guy Si Won strives to be like. He can't even fathom the idea of such a cool guy having a crush on him that he takes the flirting as arrogance lmao. I think it's sweet that Da Un helps uplift Si Won and I think it's sweet that Si On showed Da Un the attention he never got at home.

Ingredients the Series. Just a sweet lil slice of life miniseries. It fills me with joy to watch Tops and Win pine after each other as Win works on his music and Tops works on his cooking and they live together symbiotically. There's not too much to this series. It relies heavily on food and chemistry and that's perfectly perfect for me.