#ripkiki

[offbeatjxn]

We have a wide variety of soundtracks, jazz, and funk records in our stow. #ripkiki #ripauntbig #jxnwax #vinyl #records (at Offbeat)

[hustlersunion]

The good ole days. AT THE TOP we was some bad mofos. I look back and wish all my homies in these pics who passed were still walking this earth. I know how proud they are of me for the changes I made in life. #ripgabiD #ripkiki #ripchicago #rippeanut #ripcapone #riplouielou #ripesar #ripjingles #riplilgreg #ripjenx #rippoet #ripchinaman #ripmikebrown #ripbigchino #riplilmoyo #fallensoldiers #welostalot #itsididntstaythatway #stopthekillingsplease #onelifetolive #thisaintnomovieset #reallife #thatsnotevenallilost #🤦🏻‍♂️😢 (at Hustlers Union Clothing) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1MB_I6ANZb/?igshid=1seep8nu46qw2

[chesneyhawkes]

The Hawkes Family saying goodbye to our beloved Kiersty with Lenny the Studio Bear #family #keirstyrouge #wemissyoukiki #ripkiki (at C3 Church San Diego)

[meanmitch-blog]

Whoops, been awhile. A shit ton as happened. So let me vent.

Don’t remember what I talked last on here, I can see that no one reads it anyways. SO I guess this is more for my benefit to get it all out there and to have an out lit. 

So fuck man, a lot has happened......

I got a Kitty, two weeks ago exactly on this day. (Its Tuesday 10/3/17). I named her Kiki, after Kiki’s delivery service. (Its a must watch if you haven’t seen it and if you love Spirited Away and My Neighbor Tortoro) 

Oh my god, I fell inlove instantly. She was all I thought about when I wasn’t with her. I have to admit it wasn’t easy, after the first night I honestly wanted to give up. I was ready to sell her on Craigslist.... (yikes) BUT I didn’t. I made it through with the help of my glorious roommates. SO blessed to have them.

But anyways, she was only 7 weeks old when I got her (too early to give away btw) but the lady that gave her to me said she was 8..... (liar) oh trust me, you won’t like her by the end of my rant. 

She was beautiful.... my daughter. I gave her everything, fuck did I spoil the shit out of her though, but fuck I was in love. She did have a lot of problems though. She also costed me a HEFTY amount. Thank gosh I saved up! She had diarrhea, she had a parasite, and she pooped out blood. A plenthra of problems but I loved her so much anyways.

 In between getting her and losing her, Heffeh and I were in an okay place. So I thought. A week after getting her. Heffeh and I got together, we watched a move, we talked, we laughed, we made love.... I was an idiot. Then .. I went out with “his ex-roommates.”  Including the roommate that I fucked. I wasn’t thinking, I guess I was being selfish. I did it because, he didn’t invite me to his party, he never asked or told me. He never wanted me to come through. I even texted him that night, “hey party?” He said “not a lot of people here, not that lit.”

Does that sound enticing? Did that give my drunk ass any hint that maybe he just wanted to see me at least? NAW.

So I was trying to get everyone at Bates 8 to go to 4... He just happen to be outside and saw me come out with squad, he was pissed. Then I went upstairs to his party to talk or hangout. He literally, SHOOED me away... hand motions and all...

So fuck, that hurt. Kiki comforted me, then I went out again and hung out and I wasn’t alone. I was with people that actually wanted to hangout with me.

(End of week 1)

(Beginning of week 2)

He apologized two days later, I responded and told him why I did what I did. He told me he didn’t like how I was handling this, he’ll be a phone call away or upstairs. What does that mean? Is it over? Are we just friends now?... so then I just said alright. Left it at that. I responded a few days later saying how I get it, I was an asshole. I’m sorry. I wasn’t asking for anything. Then I asked where we are? 

(Friday) He responded with “I don’t want a relationship anymore, just with myself. I’m not cutting you off, I just can’t be responsible for you anymore.” 

The thing that pissed me off the most, I HAD TO ASK. He didn’t tell me, I didn’t know so yeah he broke up with me Friday evening.... via text. He could’ve said I’ll answer your question in person. Say it to my face. NO, actually say it at all. BUT NO, I HAD TO ASK. ME. What if I didn’t ask. Would you just be stringing me along? Thing whole time? Well fuck you too.

So Kiki again comforted me, fuck I miss her... It was like she knew exactly what was wrong and curled up right on top of my heart..

I went out, because I wanted to get drunk and be numb as fuck. I was having a great time with my friends, we went to a couple of bars and it was great. Then I felt like I just wanted to be with Kiki, I wanted to cuddle with her and hold her. So I was almost on my way out and then I get this phone call from my roomie. 

“Theres something wrong with Kiki, shes not responding. They are taking her to the hospital.” -My heart dropped...

We went to the Woburn Vet ER, found out she had parvovirus, which effected her immune system. She didn’t have an immune system. She was dying....

So I decided to put her down, she was in pain... I couldn’t make her live for my happiness. She would’ve died sooner or later so I chose now. It was the hardest decision I had to make in my entire life. But at the same time the easiest because it was the best for her. It just wasn’t the best for me because I wanted her to live for me. I watched her die in my hands... My entire soul was in pain. I’ve never cried so much for someone in my entire life. 

#RIPKIKI , my beautiful daughter.

SO that was my two weeks, Heffeh left me, Kiki left me. Now I am left with just me. And its been hard. So fucking hard... I hate going into my room because I expect to see her already there waiting for me. Expecting to see some poop on the floor because shes a weirdo and doesn’t poop in her litterbox. Fuck I miss her. 

I miss him, I went out Saturday night. Got hammered. Texted him saying how he left me alone. He broke me. My soul is in pieces. Then I asked, do you even love me? Do you even care? He answered “Of course I do, You’re a beautiful soul.”

I never replied, what am I supposed to say? Thanks? If you love me then don’t leave.... I need to let him go, this is whats best. I miss him.

I feel like I lost two soulmates in one day. My heart feels heavy, I feel like my soul is hurting so much. They don’t know who they are anymore....

What do I do now?

Help? Questions? Comments? Anything? Lets fucking talk. 

[mbtayo]

Built a shelf for the back office #RipKiki (at North Mayfair Park)

[xxdanimalxx]

12.00.15 - #RipKiki Shred in Paradise #FujiGA645wiPro - #Expired #Kodak #Portra 400 #shootfilmstaybroke #shootfilmnotmegapixels #FilmScan #FilmsNotDead #skateboarding #skate #kiajanaalo #keaks #neverforget #MediumFormat (at Redwood City Phil Shao Skate Park)

[itslee-ah-blog]

This has been a week I will never forget #RIPCed #RIPKiKi #RIPPierre #PhotoGrid

[shotsbyscottie]

As my thoughts roam and I can't sleep its one person on my mind! The footprint she left is changing the game. My baby made a difference in the short time she was here. Never a dull moment with ya and it won't ever be anything else. Prayers going up for everyone whose feeling the hurt right now but just remember to keep ya head up, take it one day at a time, and smile before you cry. Peace, love, and blessings. #TakingTheStand #RIPKiki #godmommysbaby "#herschottie" #onelove #watchoverusbaby #rejoicinginyourname #positivevibes #shethebesttho

[villagecigarcompany]

Sad news generally comes out of nowhere. Such news came to us last night out Miami that the man behind mastering the blend for our house brand, “Pueblo Cigars” had passed of a heart attack at 56. From CigarAficiomado.com, "Henry "Kiki" Berger, co-owner of both the Cuban Crafters cigar shop in Miami as well as the cigar brand of the same name, died on Monday. He was 56. Like many, Berger entered the cigar business in 1996 at the height of the cigar boom. Berger, though, wasn't just another speculator looking for a quick buck, but showed his devotion to the industry by establishing a cigar operation alongside the Pan American Highway in Estelí, Nicaragua. "When I first got here, it was the time the Sandinistas had just left," Berger told Cigar Aficionado in 2003. "The country was just starting to boom. I went from a little factory to building a bigger one." That little factory was Tabacalera Estelí, and next to it Berger erected a traditional thatch-roofed curing barn. He also planted a field of tobacco next to the structures. Berger even married a Nicaraguan woman, Karen, who would end up donating a kidney to her husband after his failed some years after the cigar operation was built. Berger once focused on making cigars for other companies, which included boom-time brands such as Cupido, but then he turned most of his efforts to his own products, specifically Cuban Crafters and J.L. Salazar y Hermanos Reserva Especial. In 2009, Berger teamed up with Mike Argenti and formed a joint company called Berger & Argenti. The pair released a few brands, one of which, Entubar, received a couple 90-plus ratings in Cigar Aficionado. That company has since been dissolved. A burial service was held earlier today in Miami's Mount Sinai Memorial Park Cemetery." A true legend in the business and a driving force behind making Nicaragua so important to the world of cigars as we know it, "Don Kiki" will be missed by all. Rest In Peace Kiki, and thank you for the perfect cigars you’ve left us with. Village Cigar Company & Barbershop 2049 Pine St., No.64 Burlington, ON 905.681.2012 #cigar #RIPKiki @pueblocigars #thankyou #PuebloCigars #BurlON (at Village Cigar Company)

[stanthony1986]

I don't mean to put you two on blast maybe a Lil lol @true2mysign_gemini @kiaashuler but that's Keona in the middle & I got a Lil teary eyed #tbt #ripKiKi

[hustlersunion]

The good ole days. AT THE TOP we was some bad mofos. I look back and wish all my homies in these pics were still walking this earth. I know how proud they are of me for the changes I made in life. #ripgabiD #ripkiki #ripchicago #rippeanut #ripcapone #riplouielou #ripesar #ripjingles #riplilgreg #ripjenx #rippoet #ripchinaman #ripmikebrown #ripbigchino #riplilmoyo #fallensoldiers #welostalot #itsididntstaythatway #stopthekillingsplease #onelifetolive #thisaintnomovieset #reallife #thatsnotevenallilost #🤦🏻‍♂️😢 (at Hustlers Union Clothing) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1MB_I6ANZb/?igshid=12p4mcx10qu7k

[singabrightsong]

Upon hearing of Kiki's death, I went straight to work writing this song. 

Donec resurget ex favilla... Until she rise again from the ashes. (Pardon if I got the inflection wrong in the Latin, the words I use might mean "he" instead of "she")

May you rest under the LORD's almighty wings.

[barfingrainbow]

she left me at fifteen

not feeling her body next to mine feels weird tonight. not waking up seeing her face tomorrow will be something new. not having her everyday in my life is something i need to get used to. god i miss her.

[hustlersunion]

The good ole days. AT THE TOP we was some bad mofos. I look back and wish all my homies in these pics were still walking this earth. I know how proud they are of me for the changes I made in life. #ripgabiD #ripkiki #ripchicago #rippeanut #ripcapone #riplouielou #ripesar #ripjingles #riplilgreg #ripjenx #rippoet #ripchinaman #ripmikebrown #ripbigchino #riplilmoyo #fallensoldiers #welostalot #itsididntstaythatway #stopthekillingsplease #onelifetolive #thisaintnomovieset #reallife #thatsnotevenallilost #🤦🏻‍♂️😢 (at Hustlers Union Clothing) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1MB_I6ANZb/?igshid=11eo4fm8mysu0