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ghostradiodylan ยท 1 year ago
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Me: polls are silly and inconsequential.
Also me: there is no way in hell this poll should be this close. I will be passing away if my boys lose to a not-even-hinted-at pairing from UD and my vengeful spirit will be posting pissy messages about how homophobic the voting bloc of the SMG fandom is for years to come. Matt and Jess HUGGED ONCE and Matt can abandon her purposely to die. Dylan and Ryan flirted for half the game and had a heartfelt conversation about their insecurities and Dylan kept talking about and caring about Ryan throughout, like. I know Ryan said โ€˜maybe neitherโ€™ but we all know heโ€™s full of shit.
I justโ€ฆ
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How tf can anyone resist them even?! Iโ€™m so confused. Is this just people picking UD over TQ no matter what the ship is?
โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”
Posting this rant as a non-reblarg so I can scream my confusion in the โ€˜latestโ€™ tag mmkay?
Edit: tumblr decided my most shamelessly thirsty tags couldnโ€™t be displayed so here they are because they made me laugh because Iโ€™m secretly a 13 year old boy.
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itsnocturna ยท 2 years ago
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Just a quick research here pls answer !
On a "x reader" fanfic... do you guys prefer the use of "you" or "y/n" ???
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attawaysmth ยท 5 months ago
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My fandoms
๐๐ซ๐š๐ญ ๐“๐• (๐›๐› ๐›๐ซ๐š๐ญ๐ฌ)
๐‚๐ก๐ข๐œ๐ค๐ž๐ง ๐†๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ๐ฌ
๐‡๐ข๐ ๐ก ๐’๐œ๐ก๐จ๐จ๐ฅ: ๐Œ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ข๐œ๐š๐ฅ: ๐“๐ก๐ž ๐Œ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ข๐œ๐š๐ฅ: ๐“๐ก๐ž ๐’๐ž๐ซ๐ข๐ž๐ฌ (๐–๐ข๐ฅ๐๐œ๐š๐ญ๐ฌ)
๐ƒ๐จ๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ž ๐Š๐š๐ฆ๐žฤ๐ฅ๐จ๐ก๐š, ๐Œ.๐ƒ.
๐€ ๐–๐ž๐ž๐ค ๐€๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ
๐†๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐†๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ๐ฌ
๐“๐ก๐ž ๐’๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ž๐ซ ๐ˆ ๐“๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง๐ž๐ ๐๐ซ๐ž๐ญ๐ญ๐ฒ
๐Ž๐ฅ๐ข๐ฏ๐ข๐š ๐‘๐จ๐๐ซ๐ข๐ ๐จ (๐‹๐ข๐ฏ๐ข๐ž๐ฌ)
๐‰๐จ๐ฌ๐ก๐ฎ๐š ๐๐š๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ž๐ญ๐ญ (๐‰๐›๐š๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ข๐ž๐ฌ)
๐ƒ๐ฒ๐ฅ๐š๐ง ๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ซ๐ข๐ช๐ฎ๐ž (๐ƒ๐ฒ๐ฅ๐ฉ๐ข๐œ๐ค๐ฅ๐ž๐ฌ)
๐ˆ๐ง๐๐ข๐š๐ง๐š ๐Œ๐š๐ฌ๐ฌ๐š๐ซ๐š (๐ˆ๐ง๐๐ข๐œ๐š๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ฌ)
๐‰๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ž๐ฌ ๐‹๐ž๐๐ฅ๐š๐ง๐œ
๐€๐ฅ๐ž๐ฑ ๐’๐š๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฌ๐จ๐ง
๐“๐š๐ญ๐ž ๐Œ๐œ๐‘๐š๐ž (๐“๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ญ๐จ๐ญ๐ฌ)
๐‚๐จ๐ง๐š๐ง ๐†๐ซ๐š๐ฒ (๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ž๐ก๐ž๐š๐๐ฌ)
๐’๐ญ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐จ๐ฅ๐จ ๐“๐ซ๐ข๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐ญ๐ฌ
๐“๐š๐ซ๐š๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฒ
๐ˆ๐Ÿ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ'๐ซ๐ž ๐š๐ฉ๐š๐ซ๐ญ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐š๐ง๐ฒ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ฌ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐š๐ง๐๐จ๐ฆ๐ฌ, ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐จ ๐›๐ž ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐ข๐ž๐ง๐๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ž๐ฅ ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐ž๐ž ๐ญ๐จ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฌ๐š๐ ๐ž ๐ฆ๐ž!!
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isaiahriley ยท 2 years ago
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AMBITION + raw lines
Happy holidays @quincywillows from your Secret Santa! โœจ๐Ÿ’ž Thank you for using your authorial talent to write this silly little show that tickles my brain in all the right places. ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ I hope I was able to do your beautiful words justice, and make them come to life. I LOVE YA, BUB!!!!!!!!!! โฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ
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finestmoment ยท 2 years ago
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when brooke woke up in the hospital, dylan was with her and riley was at a meeting for work. dylan ended up bringing brooke back to his place and set her up on the couch. she insisted she was okay, but everyone knew she was battling her addiction and it was spiraling out of control. "you don't even know how to make tea. you're going to burn yourself." brooke groaned, but finally gave up and watched as dylan was making her something to eat and drink. she knew riley was supposed to be done with his meeting soon and she was dying to see him, but she was still feeling anxious about it.
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stelstellakidd ยท 2 years ago
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because brainrot gifsets โ˜ž inferno
favorite season ;;; season 2 (9-1-1)
taglist ;;; @arrthurpendragon @stanshollaand @claryxjackson @endless-oc-creations
gif credit :: @maurawrites @bosvcr @tessgifs
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ambitionsource ยท 2 years ago
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what is a dream vacation destination for our couples?
So I've put off answering this question for a while (like a year, but who's counting LOL) mainly just because I myself am not a traveler and so I am like the least equipped person to answer this hahaha. But I decided I would reinterpret it a bit and answer more in the vein of like what kind of travelers are they and how that would reflect on where they might go!
Riley & Lucas
So for RL, I don't see them as big-ticket travel people. They're not particularly adventurous in this regard, so you won't see them hitting up big cities, going international, etc. This is for a multitude of reasons, the biggest ones being Lucas's aversion to cities (get him out of NYC I swear he needs to be free), his baggage with money, and Riley's penchant for finding beauty in anything thus she doesn't need a huge tourist destination to make an adventure. If she's going to go to a big destination city, she'd more likely do that with Zay, Dylan, etc. as a besties trip (which would be equally if not more fun lol).
But I do think RL would still do trips, just more in the vein of their senior summer road trip. Low-key, semi-low budget, just driving around the country to see things and experience nature and smaller venues. I think Riley could have a lot of fun with this too because of her planner and investigator nature -- like the idea of just finding hidden gem places to travel to within their means would be so much fun for her it's part of the experience in it of itself haha. And she knows (rightly) that wherever she wanted to go, Lucas would follow her, so she doesn't take that trust lightly. Ultimately, I could see RL doing a dedicated road trip of sorts about once every two years, with little pocket trips here and there in between.
Zay & Charlie
Now Zay and Charlie are a duo I could see really enjoying traveling -- given Charlie just embarked on a six-month global adventure, that shouldn't be hard to believe lmao. And we know Zay loves cities and nightlife and new experiences, so that pairs well that he would basically be up for anything. Much like a lot in their relationship, though, I think the most fun part about it would be the fact that they're doing it together. Both of them enjoy the act of travel on their own, but getting to experience it with the other person and their unique way of experiencing things is the special quality to their approach.
When it's within their means, I would expect Zay and Charlie to do a travel adventure of some kind about once a year.
Dylan & Asher
Dylan and Asher, appropriately, I think fall somewhere in the middle. I've always had this belief that Dylan would be the kind of person who loves to travel but especially to the most random ass places. Like he compiles a big list of random cities in the world and puts them on Random.org and is like okay Asher let's spin the metaphorical wheel and see where we're going next!!!!! And Asher is like wee... gjhfdskjhfdjkh but no I feel like the most fun part of traveling with Dylan Orlando would be, well, traveling with Dylan Orlando. So I think Asher views traveling as more of a "watching what my silly boyfriend is going to make out of this experience" than a personal adventure. Coupled with the fact that Dylan would travel for work now and then (i.e. Vidcons and stuff like that, whatever the hell those are these days), I figure they travel the most frequently.
To round out, I don't see Jade & Nigel as super avid travelers, like I think they'd plan for a while about a specific place they'd really like to go to and do so pretty infrequently just because of their personal interests / preferences for how they spend their money (and since they've already knocked out Stratford, they're set for like five years LMAO. Though I'm sure they'll wanna go back eventually just the two of them). Jack & Eric are grown adults and can do whatever they want though considering they live on education salaries they're not exactly rolling in it lol, so they'd be more infrequent since they gotta save for this stuff. Isa I don't see as much of a traveler, and it doesn't mean much to Farkle considering his wealthy upbringing so he's gotten to go so many places already (blah blah blah little rich boy). Maya thinks of travel strictly in the realm of her world domination, so she'll be coming to a city near you once she's locked down touring there.
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awritessomething ยท 10 months ago
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I have absolutely no ideas for writing whatsoever pleaseplease leave requests!!! Smut, angst, fluff, whatever yโ€™all want I can probably do.
Ill write for these people and probably more that I forgot (all male character x fem!reader) :
Formula 1:
Max Verstappen
Lando Norris
Oscar Piastri
Charles Leclerc
Pierre Gasly
Lewis Hamilton
Carlos Sainz
Daniel Riccardo
Mick Schumacher
Criminal Minds
Spencer Reid
Aaron Hotchner
Derek Morgan
David Rossi (preferably young)
Marvel:
Bucky Barnes
Tony Stark
Thor
Sam Wilson
Deadpool
Steve Rogers
Spiderman (Tom Holland, Andrew Garfield, Miguel O'hara)
Call of Duty
Keegan Russ
Simon "Ghost" Riley
Kรถnig
Phillip Graves
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
Star Wars:
Anakin Skywalker
Obi-Wan Kenobi
Kylo Ren
Luke Skywalker
Han Solo
Outer Banks:
JJ Maybank
Rafe Cameron
Topper Thornton
John B. Routledge
Harry Potter:
Harry Potter
Cedric Diggory
Draco malfoy
Ron Weasley
Fred Weasley
Blaise Zabini
Regulus Black
Severus Snape
Tom Riddle
Sirius Black
Lorenzo Berkshire
Oliver Wood
The Walking Dead:
Glenn Rhee
Daryl Dixon
Rick Grimes
Carl Grimes
Sports:
Joao Felix
Jude Bellingham
Brock Purdy
Leon Draisaitl
Jack Hughes
Vince Dunn
Mitch Marner
Connor Bedard
Wayne Gretzky (young)
Miscallaneous:
Jack Champion (Ethan Landry)
Patrick Bateman
Batman (Christian Bale)
Johnathan Crane
Finnick Odair
Josh Hutcherson (Peeta Mellark, Mike Schmidt, Sean Anderson, Clapton Davis)
Rodrick Heffley
Colby Brock
Sam Golbach
Tristan Dugray
Dylan O'brien
Bellamy Blake
Patrick Dempsey (Derek Shepherd, Ronald Miller)
Joe Goldberg
Timothee Chalamet (Wonka, Paul Atreides)
Minho (The Maze Runner)
Keanu Reeves (John Wick, Neo, Alex Wyler, Dr. Beckham, Julian Mercer, Ted Logan)
Jim Halpert
Farkas
Ulfric Stormcloak
Miraak
Ben Schnetzer (Max Vandenburg, Brad Land, Russ Sheppard)
Ralph Macchio (Daniel Larusso, Johnny Cade)
Dallas Winston
Sodapop Curtis
Robby Keene
Zuko (atla dallas liu)
Jet (atla sebastian amoruso)
Cillian Murphy (Johnathan crane, jackson rippner, Neil Lewis)
Evan Peters (all ahs characters, Luke cooper)
What I wont do:
Pedophilia
Beastiality or anything animal-y
Waterworks
Male reader (sorry)
Character x character
Threesomes or anything not 1x1
Character x oc
Specific body types (i just donโ€™t see the point)
Daddy/mommy kinks
Incest or stepcest
(Iโ€™ll prob have to add on but its midnight rn)
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thealmightea ยท 4 months ago
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๐Ÿ” reblog if you ship this couples like me...
[ come back for more to check for the newest because believe me when I said this will continue til the end of time ^^ because apparently I like collecting ships like collecting stamps or coins or cards. ]
in alphabetical order
9-1-1 - Eddie and Buck (Buddie)
9-1-1 Lone Star - Carlos and T.K (Tarlos)
Addicted - Gu Hai and Bai Luoyin (Heroin)
Addicted - You Qi and Yang Meng
Alles was zรคhlt - Deniz and Roman (Dero)
All of Us Strangers - Adam and Harry
Animal Kingdom - Deran and Adrian (Derdrian)
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe - Aristotle and Dante (Aridante)
As The World Turn - Noah and Luke (Nuke)
Brothers & Sisters - Kevin and Scotty
Call Me By Your Name - Oliver and Elio (Olio)
Casualty - Jez and Mickey
Class - Matteusz and Charlie
Cuffs - Simon and Jake
Days Of Our Own - Sonny and Will (Wilson)
Dead Boy Detective - Charles and Edwin (Charwin)
Degrassi - Dylan and Marco
Degrassi - Miles and Tristan
Degrassi - Riley and Zane (Ziley)
Demain Nous Appartient - Rayane and Jack (Jayane)
EastEnders - Christian and Syed (Chryed)
El Cor De La Ciutat - Iago and Max (Maxiago)
El juego de las llaves - Valentin and Daniel
Emmerdale - Robert and Aaron (Robron)
Eu Nรฃo Quero Voltar Sozinho and Hoje Eu Quero Voltar Sozinho - Gabriel and Leonardo
ร‰lite - Omar and Ander (Omander)
Eyewitness - Lukas and Phillip (Philkas)
Fellow Travelers - Hawk and Tim
Fisica O Quimica - Fernando and David
Free! - Makoto and Haru (Makoharu)
Free! - Rei and Nagisa (Nagirei)
Free! - Sลsuke and Rin
Freier Fall - Kay and Marc
Glee - Blaine and Kurt (Klaine)
Goede tijden, slechte tijden - Lucas and Edwin (Ludwin)
Grey's Anatomy - Nico and Levi (Schmico)
Hannibal - Hannibal and Will (Hannigram)
Hawaii Five O - Steve and Danno (McDanno)
Heartstopper - Nick and Charlie (Narlie)
Hit The Floor - Zero and Jude (Zude)
How To Get Away With Murder - Connor and Oliver (Coliver)
Hunter X Hunter - Leorio and Kurapika
In The Flesh - Simon and Kieren (Siren)
Interview with The Vampire - Lestat and Louis (Loustat)
Julie and The Phantoms - Alex and Willie
Kuroko no Basket - Aomine and Kise (Aokise)
Kuroko no Basket - Kagami and Kuroko (Kagakuro)
Kuroko no Basket - Kiyoshi and Hyลซga
Kuroko no Basket - Midorima and Takao
Kuroko no Basket - Murasakibara and Himuro
Legacies - Ben and Jed
Les Misรฉrables - Enjolras and Grantaire (Enjoltaire)
Love and Deepspace - Sylus and Xavier (Crowstar)
Love and Deepspace - Zayne and Rafayel (Snowfish)
Love Simon - Simon and Bram
Love Victor - Victor and Benji (Venji)
Man In An Orange Shirt - Steve and Adam
Man In An Orange Shirt - Michael and Thomas (Berrymarch)
Matthias & Maxime - Matthias and Maxime
MCU - Steve and Bucky (Stucky)
MCU - Spiderman and Deadpool (Spideypool)
MCU - Wolverine and Deadpool (Poolverine)
Merlรญ - Pol and Bruno (Brunol)
Merlin - Arthur and Merlin (Merthur)
Merlin - Percival and Gwaine (Perwaine)
Mo Dao Zu Shi / The Untamed - Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian (Wangxian)
O Beijo do Escorpiรฃo - Paulo and Miguel
One Live To Life - Oliver and Kyle
Oz - Chris and Tobias
Please Like Me - Arnold and Josh
Please Like Me - Geoffrey and Josh
Prisma - Daniele and Andrea
Queer As Folk - Ben and Michael
Queer As Folk - Brian and Justin (Britin)
Queer As Folk - Drew and Emmett
Queer As Folk - Ted and Blake
Raw - Geoff and Pavel
Red White And Royal Blue - Alex and Henry (Firstprince)
Roswell New Mexico - Michael and Alex (Malex)
Rykter - Mathias and Erik
Salatut Elรคmรคt - Lari and Elias (Larias)
Sala Samobรณjcรณw - Aleksander and Dominik
Schloss Einstein - Noah and Colin (Nolin)
School 2013 - Heungsoo and Namsoon (Heungsoon)
Sense8 - Lito and Hernando
Sex Education - Adam and Eric
Shadowhunters - Magnus and Alec (Malec)
Shadowhunters - Raphael and Simon
Shameless - Ian and Mickey (Gallavich)
Skam - Even and Isak (Evak)
Skam Belgium (Wtfock) - Sander and Robbe (Sobbe)
Skam France - Eliott and Lucas (Elu)
Skam Germany (Druck) - David and Matteo (Datteo)
Skam Italia - Niccolo and Martino (Martinico)
Solo - Oskar and Milo
Spartacus - Agron and Nasir (Nagron)
Spartacus - Barca and Pietros (Bietros)
Station 19 - Travis and Emmett
Suits - Harvey and Mike
Supernatural - Dean and Castiel (Destiel)
Tatort Saarbrรผcken - Adam Schรผrk and Leo Hรถlzer (Hรถrk)
Teen Wolf - Danny and Ethan
Teen Wolf - Derek and Stiles (Sterek)
The Eagle - Marcus and Esca
The Halcyon - Toby and Adil
The Magicians - Quentin and Eliot (Queliot)
The Maze Runner - Newt and Thomas (Newtmas)
The Night Shift - Drew and Rick
The Old Guard - Joe and Nicky (Joenicky)
The Silmarillion - Melkor and Mairon (Angbang)
The Society - Sam and Grizz
The Walking Dead - Aaron and Eric
Torchwood - Jack and Ianto (Janto)
Verbotene Liebe - Oliver and Christian (Chrolli)
Voltron Legendary Defender - Keith and Lance (Klance)
Waterloo Road - Preston and Kai
Young Royal - Wilhelm and Simon (Wilmon)
Yuri! On Ice - Victor and Yuuri (Victuuri)
... to be continued ...
โฃ Give me some recs pls โฃ
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elizabethwritesmen ยท 9 months ago
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The Devil Wears Lace
chapter 6 : October 28, 2023
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pairing: simon โ€œghostโ€ riley x reader
summary: itโ€™s halloween and your treat is a visit from ghost but it turns into more of a trick when a new bartender gets a little too friendly with him. you do what youโ€™ve got to do to keep his eyes on you and end up with more than you bargained for.
warnings: smut, oral (m and f receiving), degradation and praise, dancing on a bar, public nudity, reader gets harassed again, simon gets angry again, slut shaming and a lot of shit talking about the new bartender goes on in this chapter, i think thatโ€™s all but let me know if i missed anything!
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October 28, 2023
The bar was having a Halloween party.
I didnโ€™t want to go, Iโ€™d been working all day at my new job and was exhausted, but Sabrina insisted.
What was my new job, you might ask? Well, the previous May Iโ€™d graduated with a Masters in criminology. I wanted to seek higher education but was still deciding what and where. In the meantime, I was interning at a law office nearby. It paid shockingly well, they were a small practice but extremely successful and valued their employees a lot so they showed it by giving them a lot of money.
I didnโ€™t have time to go pick out a costume, so Sabrina assured me she would get me one, much to my dismay. Due to this, I went there straight after work, bringing my makeup and stuff with me so I could just get ready at the bar like I had many times before.
She met me at the door with a bag and shoved it in my hands, giggling all the while, making me frown. What had she cooked up?
I was mortified when I opened the bag and found combat boots, the smallest black dress I had ever seen, and someoneโ€™s fatigue shirt. Whose? I donโ€™t know. I wondered the same thing.
โ€œI am so not wearing this. Somewhere is bound to be open, Iโ€™ll go see-โ€œ
โ€œNO! You know good and well this is the best way to get these dumbass military boys to buy you drinks.โ€
โ€œWho says I want these dumbass military boys to buy me drinks?โ€
โ€œYou do, trust me, you need a night of flirting with a bunch of men more than anyone else I know. Now get your sexy ass in the back and get ready!โ€
I sighed, rolling my eyes so hard I thought they would get stuck that way, and did as she told me, heading to the small room in the back that we usually changed and touched up makeup in. It had bad lighting but weโ€™d placed lamps in front of the mirrors, and it had a small set of lockers for anyone who worked there to put valuables in, but they didnโ€™t actually lock so I didnโ€™t understand the purpose of them.
Once I managed to get everything on, I had to admit I looked good. Turned out the dress was basically just a nearly sheer lace slip, but it blended in perfectly with my black bra and thong, which made it feel just a tad bit more modest than it actually was. The combat boots actually paired well with it and the fatigue shirt. I already had gold jewelry on, and I just kept it, thinking it made the look even a little better. All that was left was to touch up my makeup and curls.
Once I stepped out into the bar area, leaving my clothes behind trusting nothing would happen to them, I was bombarded by Sabrina, Dylan, and the new bartender whoโ€™d taken my place. She was cute, honestly, tall and skinny with big dimples on her cheeks. I figured she was doing well, and she seemed nice.
โ€œYou look so good!โ€ They told me, fawning over me. I laughed, waving them off, sitting at the bar and waiting for it to get busy. It always did on the night of the Halloween party, without fail.
The music was loud, and all of it was either dark and sexy or Halloween themed. Decorations were hung up, less in depth than I usually did. Sabrina always hated decorating and I guess the new girl did, too.
โ€œHey,โ€ Sabrina sat next to me, โ€œIt feels like itโ€™s been forever!โ€
โ€œItโ€™s been like, three days,โ€ I deadpanned, brows furrowed and she laughed.
โ€œYeah, but we used to spend damn near every day together. Itโ€™s so lame here without you.โ€
โ€œBut you have that new girl, right? She seems nice, maybe you could be friends.โ€
She rolled her eyes and I got comfier in my seat, knowing she was about to tell me all about the drama. โ€œSheโ€™s awful.โ€
โ€œI gathered that from the eye roll, now spill!โ€
โ€œAlright, so when she first got here, she acted like she was just really eager to learn. Then โ€˜eager to learnโ€™ turned into โ€˜eager to feel up my husband every chance she got.โ€™ Fucking slut.โ€
I gasped, leaning in farther, โ€œShe felt up Dylan?โ€
โ€œYes!โ€ she sounded exasperated, โ€œHe was showing her how to make a couple drinks and she just got right up on his side and started rubbing his arms and his back!โ€
โ€œThat bitch,โ€ I furrowed my brows.
โ€œI know! So he told me to take over showing her the ropes, and I have, but I wanna just fuckinโ€™ fire the stupid cunt. Sheโ€™s an idiot anyway and she canโ€™t do anything right!โ€
โ€œWell then why hasnโ€™t he fired her yet?โ€
โ€œBecause his dad is wrapped around her finger and doesnโ€™t want him to.โ€
โ€œThat bitch!โ€ I huffed, โ€œWell if she touches him again Iโ€™ll beat her ass for you. I donโ€™t work here anymore, I canโ€™t get in trouble.โ€
โ€œI know you will. Just tell me first so I can film it, weโ€™ll pop some popcorn and have a movie night.โ€
I raised my drink and she clinked it with her own, taking a sip with me. I eyed the new girl, in awe that she could seem so nice but be such a snake.
Around 9, the place was full, and I was dancing with a few friends that had shown up. We were just jumping around on the floor, a few guys around us dancing with us. It was fun, more fun than Iโ€™d had in a while.
I didnโ€™t even notice theyโ€™d shown up until one of my friends started talking about the sexy guy in the mask. I furrowed my eyebrows, hope sparking in my chest as I looked around and saw him at the bar, the new girl in front of him, leaned over, giving him a front row seat to her tits. I nearly fumed, excusing myself and briskly making my way over.
I stood behind him for a second, trying to catch a hint of their conversation. It didnโ€™t seem like he was giving her much from what I could tell, and she seemed to be getting more and more desperate for his attention by the second.
โ€œGhost,โ€ I cleared my throat from behind him.
โ€œI was wondering how long itโ€™d take you to realize I was here.โ€ He spoke without even turning around. The new girl made her way to the other side of the bar, giving him a moment alone.
โ€œMaybe I was waiting for you to come to me.โ€
โ€œYou looked like you were having fun, didnโ€™t want to disturb you.โ€
โ€œI was,โ€ I sighed, โ€œAre you gonna look at me? Or are you gonna keep staring at her tits?โ€
He chuckled, turning around fully to face me in his seat. My breath hitched, I didnโ€™t expect him to do that.
โ€œWhatโ€™s wrong, sweetheart?โ€ he patronized me, โ€œYou wanted my attention now you got it.โ€
I took a few steps closer to him, โ€œJust a little sad. See, youโ€™re supposed to be looking at me.โ€
โ€œWell, Iโ€™m looking at you now,โ€ his voice was low and dark and his hands settled on my hips, pulling me a little closer, โ€œWhatโ€™re you wanting, huh? A compliment? Want me to tell you how good you look in this little piece of fabric you call a dress?โ€ I nodded frantically, biting my lips and his eyes followed the motion, โ€œYou havenโ€™t earned it.โ€
I gasped, eyes widening and he laughed again, this time fuller. His hands tightened on my hips as he lifted me into the stool beside him, gesturing new girl over and ordering me and Malibu Pineapple. I caught the dirty look she sent me, but I didnโ€™t have a fuck to give. My brain was short circuiting over the way he just.. lifted me into the chair, and the way he remembered what I wanted to drink.
โ€œThank you,โ€ I offered him a smile, taking a sip.
โ€œProbably not the first free drink youโ€™ve gotten tonight.โ€
โ€œNo, itโ€™s not. But itโ€™s my favorite free drink Iโ€™ve gotten tonight.โ€
โ€œSuck up.โ€
โ€œI would, if youโ€™d just give me the chance,โ€ I winked and the whites of his eyes showed a little more for a second as he widened them.
โ€œYouโ€™re impossible.โ€
โ€œThen why do you keep coming back for more?โ€
My hands were on his thighs then, both of us facing each other in our chairs, and I let my hands roam slightly but not to anywhere too scandalous.
โ€œGuess what the fuck that bitch just did!โ€ Sabrinaโ€™s voice broke the trance, and I looked at her expectantly, โ€œShe said you cockblocked her and started whining about you. Like Iโ€™m gonna choose her side over yours, be fuckinโ€™ for real for a second!โ€
I raised my eyebrows, โ€œCockblocked, huh? Sounds like new girl wants you bad, Ghost.โ€ He grunted in response, lifting his mask to take a sip of his whiskey. โ€œDonโ€™t moan and groan at me, you were the one undressing her with your eyes. Want me to get her number for you? Maybe you can take her home.โ€
Sabrina looked at a loss for words, and her eyebrows were raised in concern but she saw her way out of the situation. Smart choice.
โ€œSweetheart, stop.โ€ His voice was a command. Deep and final. But I just couldnโ€™t leave well enough alone.
โ€œOh, honey, Iโ€™m just getting started,โ€ With that, I was up and across the bar, dancing with my friends again and trying to ignore him. A few guys came up to me, one wrapping his arm around me and trying to grind on me but I pushed him away a little with a laugh.
โ€œYou can buy me a drink, but you canโ€™t touch,โ€ I teased, but my face went dark and his hand landed a smack on my ass.
โ€œIf you didnโ€™t wanna be touched, whyโ€™d you wear this?โ€ he asked me, leaning his head down for a kiss that I dodged, elbowing him hard in his chest.
โ€œMy outfit isnโ€™t a free pass to touch me, you stupid fuck.โ€
โ€œAt least Iโ€™m not a stupid slut,โ€ he slapped my ass again, but this time I was ready for him. I grabbed his arm and twisted hard, wrenching it around behind him. Once I had him where I wanted him, I kicked the back of his knee and sent him to the floor, me standing over him and holding him hostage there.
โ€œYou want a broken arm? Because youโ€™re sure asking for one.โ€ My tone was angry, forceful, more assertive than I could ever remember it being.
โ€œFuck, get off of me,โ€ he growled, trying to pull away but I twisted harder and he let out a gasp.
โ€œGet the fuck out of the bar, and donโ€™t come back until you can learn to keep your hands to yourself,โ€ I growled at him, letting him go just to kick him in the back and send him all the way to the floor in a heap. He turned over and laid there, staring up at me.
โ€œThatโ€™s not your choice to make,โ€ he smirked, still cocky after what had just happened and I raised a brow.
โ€œNo, itโ€™s mine, and I agree with her. Get out.โ€ Dylanโ€™s voice was like a lifeline as he grabbed the guy by the shirt and pushed him out of the doors. I breathed a sigh of relief when he was gone. โ€œGood job, killer,โ€ he high fived me and I grinned, โ€œIf you didnโ€™t have that fancy new job Iโ€™d ask you to be the new security guard.โ€
I giggled as he walked away, trying to come down from the adrenaline of everything. The bustle around me made it hard, though, so I walked outside, holding myself tight to battle the cold. I heard the door open and shut behind me and imagined it was Sabrina, but I knew I was wrong when he walked towards me, his heavy footsteps giving him away.
โ€œYou alright?โ€ he asked me, and I turned around slowly, nodding.
โ€œIโ€™m fine.โ€
โ€œThat was pretty impressive, what you did in there. Maybe you can take care of yourself.โ€
โ€œIโ€™ve told you that a million times but you had to see it to believe it, huh,โ€ I chuckled but my words were venom, staring down at my feet.
โ€œYou gonna tell me why youโ€™re acting like this?โ€ he changed the subject.
I responded with a quick, โ€œNo.โ€ He looked frustrated, speechless almost.
โ€œYou can just tell me youโ€™re jealous. Itโ€™s obvious enough.โ€
โ€œJealous? Of what? Sally McSlutface laying her boobs out on the bar like a personal menu for you? Yeah, Iโ€™m green with envy, let me tell you,โ€ my tone was biting, sarcasm laced in every word, pure hate dripping from me when I talked about her. Maybe she hadnโ€™t done anything to deserve it. Maybe Ghost wasnโ€™t mine and I had no claim to him. Maybe he could talk to whoever the hell he wanted and look at whatever the hell he wanted.
He breathed out a laugh, staring at the sky hopelessly, begging for the patience he needed to deal with me. โ€œYou are green.โ€ His eyes snapped back down to me. โ€œWhose shirt you got on, anyway? One of these soldiers that comes in here and hits on you? Whatโ€™d you have to do for it?โ€
โ€œI didnโ€™t do anything for it, asshole, I donโ€™t know whose it is.โ€
โ€œRight, that makes sense,โ€ his tone was patronizing again and it set me on fire, anger building inside of me.
โ€œYouโ€™re gonna get mad about me wearing someone elseโ€™s fatigues when youโ€™re in there eyeing up that dumb bitch like sheโ€™s fucking candy or something? You fucking asshole.โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not mad, baby, youโ€™re the only one thatโ€™s mad,โ€ but he sure sounded mad, and I didnโ€™t believe a word that came out of his mouth. I didnโ€™t even dwell on the word baby.
โ€œIโ€™m not mad!โ€ I yelled, then tried to calm myself down, โ€œYou know what? Go fuck her. See how much I care. I have my own plans for the night.โ€
I attempted to walk past him, but he grabbed my arm, stopping me in my tracks. โ€œDonโ€™t do anything stupid just because youโ€™re throwing a fit like a fucking brat.โ€
โ€œWanna see how much of a brat I am?โ€ I couldnโ€™t tell whether my words were foreboding or inviting. โ€œCome back inside.โ€
I shook away from him and stormed into the bar, beelining it to Sabrina and Dylan.
โ€œRemember two years ago when I danced on the bar for Halloween?โ€
โ€œYeah,โ€ they both nodded.
โ€œIโ€™m doing it again. Put on the song.โ€
Their eyebrows were raised but they nodded, and Dylan went to the stereo system to get it going.
โ€œYou good?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m fine. Iโ€™m taking your advice and moving on. Or showing him what heโ€™s missing. Whatever, I donโ€™t give a fuck. Plus itโ€™ll make that new girl mad.โ€
โ€œWell, when you put it that way,โ€ she grinned, โ€œGet your fine ass up there and show them whoโ€™s boss!โ€
I grinned back as the familiar tune began. I made my way onto the bar and some of the guys there noticed and began to gather around. Right at that moment, Ghost walked back inside and the second his eyes found me, he looked homicidal.
I began swaying my hips to the beat, winking at him and increasing my movement with every lyric.
Heaven help me, the devil wears lace and she canโ€™t be tamed.
If I were wealthy, spend every last dime just to hear her say my name.
I flipped my hair around, slipping the big shirt off and throwing it to Sabrina who was watching from behind the bar with a huge smile on her face. She handed me a bottle, one of the cheapest liquors they had as the chorus hit.
So light me in flames
Just as hot as you need
Let me see the good girl you wanted to be
I turned my back to the group of people gawking and cheering, bending over and reaching between my spread out legs to pour two shots worth of liquid into one of the guyโ€™s mouths, which brought on more cheers.
My eyes caught his as I turned back around and felt myself up, hands sliding from my chest to my thighs, squeezing the fat there as my motions got sharper with every beat.
All of my praise, only from me
I can be the one who can set you free
He made his way over to the bar and I grinned, turning my back again and doing a small spin, hanging on to the rail at the top of the bar for support then shimmying down, surely flashing some people but I wasnโ€™t concerned.
Fall from your grace
Turn up the heat
I feel Iโ€™m going down, hands gripping the sheets
I sat sideways on the bar, leaning back on my arms and arching tightly with my head thrown back, then turned over and raised my hips, arms stretched in front of me and ass on display and he snapped. He ripped his jacket off and threw it over me, hauling me off the bar and outside. The people there seemed dumbstruck, and I barely heard the end of the chorus before the door shut.
โ€œWhat the fuck were you thinking?โ€ he growled, setting me down in front of him.
โ€œDo I have to think about everything I do before I do it?โ€
He let out a sharp laugh, โ€œYou are the most danger prone girl I have ever known. Yes, you have to think about dumbass decisions before you make them.โ€
โ€œAll I did was dance on a bar,โ€ I rolled my eyes, pulling his jacket tighter around me in the cold.
โ€œYeah, right, thatโ€™s all you did. Now everyone in there has seen your ass, you feel good about that?โ€
I set my jaw, letting it tick as I thought over my answer. โ€œYouโ€™re talking to me like Iโ€™m some kind of whore. Maybe I just wanted your attention.โ€
โ€œYou have that already. Give me a real reason.โ€
โ€œMaybe I just wanted the attention you gave her.โ€
โ€œWhat attention? Youโ€™re so fucking delusional. I didnโ€™t even look at her. I donโ€™t give a fuck about her. I came here for you. My team came here for you, and theyโ€™re in there having the time of their lives because they got more of you than they bargained for. Thereโ€™s only one girl that I want to drive me up the fucking wall, and itโ€™s not her!โ€ he was yelling, seething really, his tone harsh and cutting deep but then I let his words settle in along with the feeling of stupidity.
โ€œGhost, I-โ€œ
โ€œFuck, donโ€™t call me that, my name is Simon,โ€ his voice was still raised and itโ€™s like he didnโ€™t even realize what heโ€™d said until it was out, and we were both taken harshly aback.
I let my mouth drop open a little, taking one step closer to him.
โ€œSimon,โ€ I tried it out and I liked the way it felt rolling off my tongue. I think he liked it too, judging by the way his face softened and his eyes darkened. โ€œForgive me,โ€ I implored, getting further into his personal space. Crowding him out, really, until my perfume mustโ€™ve been suffocating him, thinly veiled by the jacket heโ€™d thrown over me. He didnโ€™t answer. โ€œForgive me,โ€ I repeated, urgently this time. โ€œWant me to get on my knees and beg? I will. Not for anyone else, but for you, Iโ€™ll do it.โ€ He just kept staring at me as I rambled on, โ€œI was jealous, Simon. So jealous, canโ€™t help it with the way she was looking at you. Had me so angry-โ€œ
He cut me off, yanking his mask up to his nose and grabbing my throat, pulling me to him and kissing me. I yelped, shocked by the impact, but it only took me seconds to fall into a rhythm, melting where I stood and whimpering for more.
โ€œSuch a little slut, begging for me like this and I havenโ€™t even touched you,โ€ he groaned, pulling away to kiss down my neck. I let out a shaky moan, arching into him as his mouth drifted lower.
โ€œFuck, Simon, please,โ€ I whined, and he laughed.
โ€œI shouldโ€™ve told you my name a long time ago,โ€ he mused as he brought his mouth back to mine, claiming it as his own. He backed me slowly into the wall, huge hands circling under my thighs and lifting until my legs were wrapped around him and I was caged in his arms.
I got more desperate, squeezing him closer and breaking the kiss to groan when he pressed into me. He was big. Big was an understatement.
โ€œDonโ€™t think thatโ€™s gonna fit,โ€ I breathed out and he laughed, nuzzling into me.
โ€œNot tonight itโ€™s not.โ€
โ€œWhat?โ€ I was panicking, the need for him growing in me with every passing second.
โ€œNot gonna take you for the first time after a fight like that, baby,โ€ he kissed me again, โ€œGonna make you wait for it.โ€
โ€œIโ€™ve been waiting-โ€œ
โ€œDonโ€™t whine,โ€ he shut me up, โ€œMakes me want you too bad. Now come on, letโ€™s go back in.โ€
I pouted as he set me on my feet, all turned on with nowhere to let it out. I followed him as he dragged me inside, pulling his mask down at the same time.
We garnered some stares as we walked in, hand in hand, people obviously knowing exactly what was going on. There were some surprised looks, I wasnโ€™t exactly known for being seen with a man or even settling for a man at all. People were used to be flitting about, flirting but never enough to care.
โ€œEverything okay?โ€ Soap asked as we approached their table, where Sabrina and Dylan were already standing, chatting away.
โ€œWeโ€™re just fine,โ€ Simon nodded, and I stayed quiet, blush on my cheeks still, and my eyes might as well have had hearts in them as I gazed at him.
โ€œYouโ€™ve got a littleโ€ฆ bruiseโ€ฆ.โ€ Sabrina muttered, grazing her thumb over a spot on my neck and I gasped, pulling the jacket up higher. Everyone laughed at that, and it looked like even Simon smirked but I couldnโ€™t quite tell under the mask.
He pulled out a chair for me and one for himself right beside me and I sat down. They kept cracking their little jokes and I kept not saying much, too lost in thought. I wanted him and I wanted him bad.
I placed my hand on his thigh, rubbing slightly and making my way further and further up. He slapped it away but I just put it back, continuing my ascent. โ€œIf I leave, will you follow me?โ€ I whispered the question in his ear, and he just looked at me, but the way his eyes grazed over me let me know he was on the hook. I smirked, pulling my hand away and fleeing to the back room.
The new girl came in behind me, her face twisted in blatant annoyance.
โ€œYou canโ€™t be back here,โ€ she spat.
โ€œYet somehow, I am,โ€ I giggled, waving her away, โ€œAnything else?โ€
โ€œI thought you were nice when I first met you earlier, but youโ€™re really just a bitch, huh?โ€ I cocked a brow as she let those words slip.
โ€œDo you want to find out just how much of a bitch I am?โ€ I questioned, and she didnโ€™t back down. โ€œGet out. Now. Go ride a dick in the bathroom or something like youโ€™ve been trying to all night.โ€
โ€œI think I will, in fact I think Iโ€™ll go for that man in the mask,โ€ she smirked and before I could even laugh, he came in.
โ€œFuck off,โ€ he grunted, โ€œThis seatโ€™s taken.โ€
I snorted and she just gawked.
โ€œShe isnโ€™t even supposed to be in here!โ€ she huffed.
โ€œGo tattle on her, then,โ€ he barked, and she jumped, making her way out of the room. Once we were alone, he closed the door, turning the lock behind him. I smirked, walking towards him slowly, slipping the jacket further and further off with every step until it was on the floor.
โ€œJust gonna leave my jacket on the ground like that?โ€ he asked.
โ€œDonโ€™t worry, Iโ€™ll make up for it,โ€ I winked, finally reaching him and placing my hands on his chest, balling them in the thin fabric of his shirt.
โ€œSweetheart,โ€ he groaned, โ€œYouโ€™re playing a dangerous game.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t care, as long as I win,โ€ I clicked my tongue, sinking slowly down to one knee, and then the other.
He let out a ragged breath as my hands slid down, tugging his belt until it was unbuckled and sliding out of the loops. Then I got his button and zipper undone, pulling down just enough to expose his boxers slightly.
โ€œAw, my poor Simon, you just wanted me to touch you, huh?โ€ I cooed, pulling the boxers down enough to expose the tip. โ€œI got you this turned on, baby?โ€
โ€œDonโ€™t forget your place,โ€ he growled, but his actions were sweet as he brushed my hair back from my face lightly.
โ€œI know my place,โ€ I smiled, โ€œOn my knees with my mouth wrapped around you.โ€
He all but growled, hips bucking into my touch. When I raised a brow, he admitted, โ€œBeen a while.โ€
โ€œFor me, too,โ€ I offered, hoping it would make him feel better, before pulling his boxers down further and exposing the entirety of him.
โ€œFuck,โ€ I gasped, โ€œYouโ€™re huge.โ€
โ€œGonna keep talking about it or put your mouth on it?โ€
I didnโ€™t need any more encouragement, getting straight to work, starting with a stripe licked up the back and ending by sucking the tip into my mouth, twirling my tongue around it teasingly.
โ€œFuck, please,โ€ he breathed out, hand pulling my hair tighter as I took more of him. I had to ease my way down to adjust my throat, but once I got as much as I could in, I started moving back and forth. He held me there until my eyes were teary and wet, my throat completely expanded, and I let him use me.
โ€œWanna see you,โ€ he told me and I nodded as well as I could, humming around him and pulling my dress and bra down to expose myself, the air making my nipples hard as theyโ€™d ever been. Iโ€™m sure he had something to do with that, too. โ€œSo fucking - agh - perfect, so perfect for me, fuck please keep going,โ€ he sounded broken, but not in the same way other men Iโ€™d been with did. He sounded needy, like heโ€™d been waiting his whole life for that one moment and he never wanted it to end. Iโ€™d never felt that from anyone before, and I wanted more of it so I got greedier with him in my mouth, savoring the weight of him on my tongue.
โ€œFuck, yโ€™gonna make me cum,โ€ he gasped, squeezing my hair to pull me back a little as his hips stuttered. It was a sweet gesture, to keep from hurting me with his movements, and I moaned around him, which seemed to tumble him right over the edge. He groaned with one last thrust of his hips and pulled out just enough for me to open my mouth wide and stick out my tongue, letting him let go right there inside of it. He watched closely as he did so, enjoying every second, right to when I swallowed it all.
I grinned after he came down, pulling his boxers back up and doing his pants back up for him then standing and wiping my mouth gently.
โ€œSee you out there,โ€ I winked as I began to walk past him, but he grabbed me by the arm and pulled me back to him, picking me up and bringing me to the small bench in the corner. He laid me on it, pulling me to the edge and kneeling in front of me, eyes dark on me.
โ€œWhatโ€™re you doinโ€™?โ€ I asked, breath coming out quicker, heart racing.
โ€œShowing you what your place is, since youโ€™re a little confused,โ€ his voice was rough as he hooked a finger in my panties, pulling them off of me swiftly, โ€œItโ€™s laid out with your legs spread wipe open just for me.โ€
I gasped, squirming under his gaze as he brought a finger down to swipe through my folds.
โ€œPlease,โ€ I whimpered, and he chuckled.
โ€œThatโ€™s it, what a good little slut, begging me to touch you. What do you want from me baby? Want my fingers in this little cunt?โ€
I nodded frantically, eyes wide and pleading, and he obliged, ripping his gloves off and slipping one finger in. I let out a broken moan as he went in and out, thinking it couldnโ€™t possible get better but then it did as he slipped in two, fucking me with his digits, curling them around that spongy spot inside of me.
โ€œSimon, I - fuck - please -!โ€ he went a little faster, and I tried my best not to scream but it was so hard.
Then, all at once, he went away.
โ€œWhat are you-โ€œ
โ€œIโ€™m not goinโ€™ anywhere, calm down,โ€ he shushed me and I relaxed, lying back and watching as he grabbed his jacket. He walked over to me, placing one of the sleeves over my eyes and tying it behind me, making a blindfold of sorts.
โ€œWhatโ€™s this for?โ€ I asked, and I heard a bit of movement and something being set down before he grabbed my hands and lifted them to his face, laying them down there on bare skin.
I gasped, feeling around, greedy for more then I found it in his hair. I tugged lightly, loving how it felt in my fingers, and he groaned. Before I could even process his bare face, heโ€™d leaned down and kissed me again, his fingers going back to where I needed him most and pushing back in. I rutted against him desperately as his tongue explored my mouth, then moved downwards. To my neck, then my chest, spending a little extra time there teasing me, then down my belly and to where his fingers were.
He circled his tongue around my clit and electricity shot through me as I let out a shriek, my legs falling over his shoulders and pulling him closer as my hand fisted in his hair. He lapped at me like a man starved, working harder for me than anyone ever had, coaxing me farther and farther open until I didnโ€™t feel like I could even inhale. He noticed, pulling away just enough to rasp, โ€œBreathe, baby. Iโ€™ve got you, just relax and let me make you cum.โ€
I moaned again, back arching as I began feeling that peak inside of me getting closer and closer. He could feel it too, so he sped up his movements and added another finger, tipping me over the edge and fucking me through it as I wailed. What felt like forever later, I collapsed in a heap, gasping for breath.
A minute later, he took the jacket off of my face and I pouted when I saw his mask was back on, as well as his gloves. I started to get up but he stopped me with a hand on my chest, laying me back down.
โ€œHold on,โ€ he ordered and I did, watching him look around for a second before coming back with a little towel heโ€™d found. He carefully cleaned me up, and I watched him in a daze, those dangerous feelings bubbling up in my chest once more. I was a goner for him, and suddenly the thought that he had to leave soon hit me and my eyes were getting hot.
โ€œIโ€™m gonna keep these,โ€ he smirked as he pocketed my underwear, and I nodded, staring at the ceiling. He got quiet, taking note of my attitude change and furrowing his brows. โ€œWhatโ€™s wrong?โ€ I didnโ€™t answer and panic set in. โ€œWas that not okay? Did you not want that? Fuck - Iโ€™m sorry, I-โ€œ
โ€œNo,โ€ I shook my head, โ€œI wanted it. It was good. Perfect, even. I justโ€ฆ I feel like I canโ€™t tell you whatโ€™s wrong.โ€
โ€œWhy?โ€
โ€œBecause youโ€™ll laugh at me.โ€
โ€œPromise I wonโ€™t.โ€
โ€œYou have to leave. I just feelโ€ฆโ€
โ€œUsed?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ I placed my hand on his to quiet those thoughts in his head, sitting up carefully, pulling my dress back to somewhat modesty. โ€œSad.โ€
โ€œOh,โ€ he said, seeming surprised. โ€œYou know, sweetheart, Iโ€™m not the kind of man you wanna care about.โ€
โ€œItโ€™s a little too late for that.โ€
โ€œIโ€™ll be back. I promise I will.โ€
โ€œAnd if you canโ€™t keep that promise?โ€
โ€œI can.โ€
The tears fell then and he sat beside me, pulling me into his arms as I cried. โ€œShh,โ€ he whispered, โ€œItโ€™s okay. Iโ€™ll be back. Just let it out.โ€ His hand was rubbing circles on my back, easing some of the pain. I couldnโ€™t believe how vulnerable I was being, but I felt completely wrecked and he hadnโ€™t even fucked me, and now he had to leave. Of course I was vulnerable,
I stopped crying, pulling slightly away from him and wiping my face as best I could.
โ€œWe should go back out there. Try to have a good night.โ€
โ€œBaby, Iโ€™ve already had a good night,โ€ he chuckled and I let out a little giggle too.
โ€œOkay, then letโ€™s try to keep the good night going. Come on. Thereโ€™s no telling what theyโ€™ve said about us by now.โ€
โ€œProbably nothing that wasnโ€™t true.โ€
โ€œYeahโ€ฆโ€ I mumbled, โ€œWe havenโ€™t been too subtle, huh?โ€
โ€œI think when you showed your ass to everybody in the bar, subtlety went out the window.โ€
โ€œProbably,โ€ I laughed, standing up and bringing him with me. He slipped the jacket back over my shoulders as we walked out.
โ€œYou donโ€™t have underwear on, Iโ€™m doing damage control.โ€
Just as I expected, everyone picked on us, and the night was full of endless innuendos. I just stayed quiet and shy, gazing at Simon, and it almost seemed like he was gazing back. He kept either his arm around me or his hand on my leg for the whole rest of the night, seeming like he didnโ€™t want to let me go.
Unfortunately, the time came that he had to, and we all parted ways and he walked me to my car, still holding me to his side.
โ€œYou gonna be ok?โ€ he asked, hand cupping my cheek as I stared at him with those same heart eyes I had for him before.
โ€œI think so,โ€ I grinned and his eyes fell to my lips.
โ€œI meant what I said,โ€ he told me, โ€œIโ€™ll be back for you.โ€
โ€œIโ€™ll be waiting,โ€ I hummed, pulling him a little closer until I was trapped between him and my car, but there was nowhere else Iโ€™d rather be.
He lifted his mask to his nose again and I smiled, knowing what was coming. His mouth fell down to mine, slower than before but just as intense. It was short and sweet, but memorable, and I chased him as he pulled away.
โ€œGo home, sweetheart,โ€ he mumbled, kissing me on the forehead before putting some distance between us. He started to pull his mask down but I stopped him, jumping on him one last time in a panic and kissing him with everything I had. It lasted longer and left us both breathless. When I finally stepped back, he just smiled at me, and I realized it was the first time Iโ€™d seen his real smile. It was the prettiest thing Iโ€™d ever had the luxury of seeing, and I pouted when he covered it up.
โ€œPlease stay safe,โ€ I told him, finally letting his hand go and getting in my car.
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gh0stsp1d3r ยท 5 months ago
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Cowboy!au playlist๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿฝ
๐Ÿ’—= personal favorites !!
cowboy!au Masterlist
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๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Make you feel my love- Bob Dylan (cb!john b)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข I love you because- Johnny Cash (Cb!Pope)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Fist city- Loretta Lynn (cb!Rafe x cowgirl!reader)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Luckenbach, Texas- Waylon Jennings (cb!jj)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Let your love flow- The Bellamy brother (cb!pope)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Forever and ever, Amen-Randy Travis (cb!john b and cb!pope)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Please help me, Iโ€™m falling-Hank Locklin (cb!jj)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Blue eyes crying in the rain-Willie Nelson (cb!rafe)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Cold, cold heart- Hank Williams (cowgirl!reader x cb!rafe)
๐Ÿ’— โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Harper Valley P.T.A-Jeannie C. Riley (cowgirl!reader x cb!barry)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Delta Dawn- Tanya Tucker (cowgirl!reader)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Itโ€™s only make believe- Conway Twitty (cb!rafe)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Jackson- Johnny cash (cb!jj)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Always on my mind- Willie Nelson (cb!rafe)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Hey, Good lookinโ€™- Hank Williams. (cb!jj, cb!barry)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข There stands the glass- Webb Pierce (cb!rafe)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข I ainโ€™t never- Webb Pierce (cb!john b and cb!pope)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Young love- Sonny James (cb!john b)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข It must be love- Don Williams (cb!rafe)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข Rhinestone Cowboy- Glenn Campbell (cb!rafe)
โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข I will always love you- Dolly Partons version (ex!cb!john b x reader)
๐Ÿ’—โ‹†๏ฝกหšโ™กโ€ขแด—โ€ข If loving you is wrong- Barbara Mandrell (Outlaw!jj x reader and outlaw!john b x reader)
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stephstars08 ยท 1 year ago
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Boyfriend
Jack Champion x Actress!Reader
Warnings: Adult Language, Mention of Toxic Relationship, Angst but mostly Fluff, Anxiety, Kissing/Short Make Out Session, and maybe some grammar mistakes.
Summery: Jack has had a crush on Y/N even before he booked the role for Scream 6 so, when he get's to play her love interest in the movie his crush for her just grew even bigger. His fellow co-stars really want him to make a move but obstacles stood in his way so when production for the movie ended he never got to. When the cast reunited Jack hears that Y/N is looking for boyfriend which makes him want to make his move but he still has that anxiety that holds him back. Will he let go of his anxiety and finally make a move?
Inspired Song: Boyfriend by Big Time Rush
Word Count: 2,983
Authorโ€™s Note: HELLO EVERYONE! Iโ€™m officially back to posting my stories!! I havenโ€™t started writing again but I will hopefully this weekend! As I said before this will be my last Jack story for awhile since I want to focus on writing for his characters like Ethan and Spider! Anyways itโ€™s so good to be back and let me know how you all liked this one shot! Talk to you all soon!!
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Ever since the first day on the set of Scream VI, Jack immediately fell head over heels for Y/N. Well, if Jack was being completely honest, he has had a crush on Y/N even before booking the role since she is his secret celebrity crush. Before Y/N joined the Scream franchise she was on many Disney Channel and Nickelodeon shows when she was young. Thatโ€™s how she met Jenna and ever since then they have been best friends. As Y/N got older she left Disney and Nickelodeon since she wanted to do more mature roles and she did just that. Y/N was in the last Scream movie, so she also became close with Jasmine, Mason, and Melissa so when there was news about another movie, she knew she wanted to return. Y/N plays a character that is related to Tatum and Dewey Riley. In the sixth movie Jackโ€™s character is a love interest to Y/Nโ€™s character. Throughout the whole movie Y/Nโ€™s character defends Jackโ€™s character for not being Ghostface but becomes heartbroken when she finds out he really is Ghostface.
It was already hard for Jack to do scenes where itโ€™s just Y/N and him because of his crush but it was even harder because she has a boyfriend who just so happens to be on set every fucking day! When they first met Jack and Y/N immediately connected. It wasnโ€™t shocking since Y/N is known to be one of the sweetest and nicest actresses to work with and Jack totally agrees with that statement. Itโ€™s just sad that he canโ€™t say the same thing about her boyfriend. From day one Jack could sense that Y/Nโ€™s boyfriend was intimidated by him. Jack mentioned this to Mason, which he told him to get used to that. Mason told him about how it was from Dylan who played Wes who was Y/Nโ€™s love interest in the last movie. Jack asked Mason why the asshole of a boyfriend does that in which he didnโ€™t have an exact answer, but he did mention that the girls and him think itโ€™s because he knows that there is someone out there that is better for Y/N than him.
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As production was coming to an end a sudden change of mood came from Y/N. Throughout the whole filming Y/N had always been happy and had an exciting attitude but that all changed a week ago when she showed up to set the total opposite and has been like that since. The most talkative girl on set all of sudden became the quietest girl on set. She also didnโ€™t look like herself either since even with make up on you can tell that she had been crying a lot. Jack was very concerned about her so when he would ask her what was wrong, she would just brush him off with an obvious lie, so he decided to go to Jennaโ€™s trailer and ask her.
When he knocked on the door Jenna called out to him to come in. When Jack walked into the trailer, he saw Jasmin was also in the trailer talking with Jenna. โ€œHey Jack.โ€ Jenna said to him from her seat on her comfy chair. Jasmin was sitting on the small love seat that was next to Jennaโ€™s comfy chair. โ€œHey, do you two know what is going on with Y/N?โ€ Jack asked them with concern in his voice. โ€œEvery time I ask her, she lies telling me that sheโ€™s fine.โ€ He added with a sigh. โ€œThat fucking asshole broke up with her.โ€ Jenna answered in a snappy tone.
Jack felt his heartrate speed up. Jenna just said what he thought she said, right? Y/N isnโ€™t with that controlling asshole. Y/N is signal!
โ€œWait, that asshole broke it off with her?โ€ Jasmin asked Jenna, who answered her question with a nod. โ€œEven worse is that he did it over fucking text message. I was with her when he texted to her saying that they were over.โ€ Jenna added in a snappy tone.
He texted Y/N saying itโ€™s over and that he didnโ€™t want anything to do with her no more. If Y/N wasnโ€™t broken down crying, Jenna wouldโ€™ve gone and found that motherfucker and kicked his ass.
โ€œThat asshole is such a fucking coward.โ€ Jasmin said which made Jack let out a laugh since they keep referring Y/Nโ€™s ex-boyfriend as asshole instead of his name. But Jack didnโ€™t disagree with them since he was an asshole. โ€œI mean Iโ€™m glad that sheโ€™s done with him I just wish it was the other way around.โ€ Jenna said with a sigh. โ€œI mean Iโ€™ve told Y/N a hundred times that she deserves a guy ten times better than that asshole.โ€ Jenna added.
โ€œYeah, Y/N deserves a guy like Jack.โ€ Jasmin said looking over at him with a knowing smile. โ€œM-me?โ€ Jack stuttered not expecting Jasmin to say that. His brown eyes were wide open in shock. โ€œDude, we know you have a crush on Y/N.โ€ Jenna told him with a laugh. โ€œWhat? Did Mason tell you?โ€ Jack asked now with frustration in his voice. Mason is the only person he told. โ€œHe didnโ€™t have to because itโ€™s so fucking obvious.โ€ Jenna told him which made Jasmin laugh. โ€œWait so everyone knows about my crush on Y/N? Does she know?โ€ Jack asked, starting to panic. โ€œRelax, okay! She is completely oblivious to your flirting.โ€ Jasmin told him in reassurance. โ€œI donโ€™t flirt.โ€ Jack mumbled as he looked down at his shuffling feet. โ€œListen all weโ€™re saying is that when we see you with her, she looks really happy and that maybe there is something there between you two.โ€ Jenna explained to him, which put Jack into deep thought.
Jasminโ€™s phone started to vibrate. โ€œDevyn just texted, weโ€™re needed back on set.โ€ Jasmin said, picking up her phone and sending a quick text back to her. โ€œCโ€™mon lover boy.โ€ Jenna said in a teasing tone to Jack as she stood up. Jack rolled his eyes and walked out of the trailer with Jenna and Jasmin following behind him.
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As production went on Jack wanted to make a move on Y/N but he never got to because of the toll her recent relationship had on her. Yes, the guy she was with treated her terribly, but they were together for almost two years and the guy didnโ€™t even have the courage to break up with her face to face.
When filming wrapped up everyone went their separate ways but still kept in contact with each other. They still talked through the group chat. Everyone but Y/N which is most likely because she was filming for a TV show that she frequently guestsโ€™ stars on. Jack was also busy doing a press tour with the Avatar cast promoting the sequel. Even though he wasnโ€™t with Y/N, she was still on his mind. He thought about texting her just to see how she was doing but never did since he was scared that she wasnโ€™t going to respond.
When it was finally time to promote Scream VI that meant Jack will be reuniting with Y/N since the whole cast will be getting back together for the premiere. Jack was excited to see her, but he also couldnโ€™t help but be a little nervous too. The cast was going to be walking around New York doing press coverage and taking pictures for the movie.
Jack was the first one that was ready, so he was in the lobby of the hotel waiting for everyone. He was sitting down on a couch when he heard an exciting voice say his name from the elevator. When he looked up, he saw that the voice belonged to Y/N. Right when he stood up Y/N gave him a big hug which almost knocked him over. โ€œIโ€™ve missed you so much!โ€ Y/N told him as she held onto him tightly. โ€œIโ€™ve missed you, too.โ€ Jack told her returned the tight embrace. When Y/N pulled out of the hug she noticed his hair. โ€œWow, you cut your hair.โ€ Y/N said to him in surprise. She was just so excited to see him she didnโ€™t even notice. โ€œYeah, do you um like it?โ€ Jack asked with nervousness in his voice that he was hoping she doesnโ€™t pick up on. โ€œI love it! It suits you really well!โ€ Y/N told him giving him a pat on the head and sat down on the couch.
โ€œHow have you been doing?โ€ She asked him. โ€œGood, I was really busy doing a press tour for Avatar.โ€ Jack told her as he sat down next to her. โ€œI saw the movie with a couple of friends! It was amazing! You were amazing as Spider!โ€ Y/N told him with a smile which made Jackโ€™s cheeks turn bright red. โ€œThanks, that means a lot!โ€ Jack said as he looked into her beautiful eyes. Y/N stared back into his memorizing brown eyes but before anything could go further Mason, Jasmin, and Liana came out of the elevator greeting them.
Once the rest of the cast showed up, they made their way out of the hotel and to their first destination. Throughout the whole day out Jack would feel Y/Nโ€™s gaze on him but when he would look back at her she would look away pretending that she wasnโ€™t staring at him. When Jack first noticed it, it made him think back to what Jenna and Jasmin told him that Y/N deserves to be with a guy like him. But the real question was is does Y/N want to be with a guy like him?
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That night Jack was sitting in his hotel room when he heard loud knocking on the door. Jack got up off the bed he was lying on and walked over to the door. When he looked through the peep hole, he saw it was Mason. Right when he opened the door Mason walked into the room. โ€œUm, come in.โ€ Jack said in a sarcastic tone as he closed the door. โ€œDude, Y/N is looking for a boyfriend!โ€ Mason told him which made Jackโ€™s heart skip a beat. โ€œWhat?โ€ Jack asked in a surprised tone as he walked over to where Mason was standing. โ€œDid she tell you that?โ€ He asked wondering how Mason knew this. โ€œNo, but I was at the indoor pool with her Devyn, Jasmin, and Jenna and I overheard Y/N tell Jenna that sheโ€™s looking for someone.โ€ Mason told him.
โ€œYou need to get your ass down there and ask her out!โ€ Mason told him in a stern tone which made Jackโ€™s brown eyes go wide. He felt like his heart was going to beat out of his chest. โ€œW-what, now?โ€ Jack stuttered out. โ€œJack, just fucking go for it. Now is your chance!โ€ Mason told him with excitement in his tone.
Letโ€™s just say that Mason is the biggest shipper of Y/N and Jack. On set it was super obvious that they have amazing chemistry on and off the camara. When their characters had a romantic scene together, they werenโ€™t just acting as their characters, everyone knew it was really Y/N and Jack being filmed. Everyone really wanted either Y/N or Jack to make a move before filming wrapped up but that never happened.
โ€œWhat do I do? What do I say?โ€ Jack asked, starting to panic a little bit. โ€œJust be yourself! Walk up to her, sit down, talk like you two usually do, and when the time is right ask her out!โ€ Mason explained to him.
โ€œOkay, is she still at the pool?โ€ Jack said, grabbing his hotel room key and slipping on a pair of shoes. โ€œIโ€™m pretty sure.โ€ Mason said walking over to the door. โ€œCome on!โ€ Mason said walking out the door. Jack put the key into his pocket and quickly followed Mason out the door.
Jack followed Mason downstairs to the hotelโ€™s indoor pool. When the boys got there, they looked through the little window on the door and only saw Y/N and Jenna sitting on the edge of the pool with just their feet in the water. While Jack stared at Y/N laughing at something Jenna said his nerves started to pace again.
โ€œMason, I donโ€™t know if I can do this.โ€ Jack said completely stressed out as he stepped back from the door. โ€œWhat if she says no?โ€ He asked having zero confidence. โ€œJack, you got this!โ€ Mason told him putting both of his hands onto Jackโ€™s shoulders. โ€œJust go in there and be yourself. Just go back to those days on set where you two would just talk the day away!โ€ Mason told him trying to boost his best friendโ€™s confidence. โ€œGo in there and use that million-dollar smile of yours!โ€ Mason added, which earned him a strange look from Jack. โ€œOkay, that wasnโ€™t strange at all.โ€ Jack said, taking Masonโ€™s hands off his shoulders.
Jack took out his room key, getting ready to unlock the door, but before he could the door opened to reveal Jenna. She walked into the hallway with the boys. Mason grabbed the door before it could close. โ€œWhat are you two weridos doing?โ€ Jenna asked them. โ€œWeโ€™re not weridos!โ€ Mason said defending Jack and himself. โ€œOkay, you keep telling yourself that!โ€ Jenna said with a yawn and walked away from them. The boys looked into the pool room to see Y/N still sitting there. Mason pushed Jack into the room. โ€œGo!โ€ Mason said motioning his one hand towards Y/N and shut the door.
Jack looked at Y/N moving her feet around in the water. He took a deep breath to calm his nerves and walked over to her. โ€œHey Y/N.โ€ Jack said getting her attention. โ€œHey Jack!โ€ Y/N said with a smile that always makes his heart skip a beat. โ€œCan I sit with you?โ€ Jack asked with nervousness in his tone which made him curse at himself in his head. โ€œOf course!โ€ Y/N said oblivious to the nervousness in his tone. Jack put the key back into his pocket. He took off his shoes and socks and rolled his pants up to his knees. He sat down next to her and put his feet into the water.
โ€œThese past couple of months are the happiest Iโ€™ve been in a long time.โ€ Y/N said as she looked down at her feet in the water. โ€œReally?โ€ Jack said, looking over at her. โ€œAfter production wrapped up my ex wanted another chance, so I gave him one which turned out to be a huge mistake.โ€ Y/N said with a heavy sigh. โ€œWhat did he do to you?โ€ Jack asked with a protective look in his eyes. โ€œSame shit he did before. It got so bad that he wouldnโ€™t even let me leave my apartment to go on set. I finally opened my eyes after realizing that he was trying to run my life, so I kicked his ass to the curb.โ€ Y/N explained as she did everything, she could to keep her eyes from tearing up. She needs to stop wasting tears on that asshole. โ€œYou deserve to be with a guy who treats with love and kindness.โ€ Jack told her as he used his hand to put some of her hair behind her ear. โ€œYou do?โ€ Y/N said looking over at him locking eyes. โ€œYeah, it was so hard seeing that asshole treat you so terribly.โ€ Jack told her as his brown eyes stared deep into hers.
They didnโ€™t even realize that they were leaning in till their lips met. This isnโ€™t the first time they have kissed since they had to kiss in a scene for the movie but this one was different because this wasnโ€™t their characters kissing. This was actually them kissing. It put shock into both of them especially Y/N, so she pulled away. โ€œOh my gosh! Iโ€™m so sorry!โ€ Y/N said quickly standing up. โ€œWait! Itโ€™s okay!โ€ Jack said quickly, getting up onto his feet.
He took one of her hands to stop her from walking away. โ€œY/N, I have feelings for you.โ€ Jack told her, finally confessing it after holding it in for the longest time. โ€œYou do?โ€ Y/N asked in a surprised tone. โ€œY/N.โ€ Jack started taking her other hand in his. โ€œI have had this big crush on you before even meeting. That crush turned into more as we worked on the movie together, but I never made a move because you were with someone else. It was so fucking hard seeing you with that asshole because I knew you deserved better. When you two broke up everyone was telling me to make a move, but I was too scared.โ€ Jack told her has he held onto her hands tightly scared that she would disappear. โ€œIโ€™m okay facing that fear now.โ€ he added, staring deep into her Y/E/C eyes.
โ€œIโ€™m such an idiot.โ€ Y/N said with a frustrated sigh. โ€œHuh?โ€ Jack asked with confusion. โ€œEver since I left that asshole Iโ€™ve been looking all around for a charming and cute guy to be my boyfriend. I didnโ€™t even have to because that guy has been in front of me the whole time.โ€ Y/N said letting go of one of his hands and put her hand onto his cheek stroking it gently with her thumb.
She pulled him in for a kiss which surprised him, but he didnโ€™t hesitate to kiss her back. As they kissed Y/Nโ€™s arms made their way around his neck while his arms made their way around her hips. They released themselves from the kiss when they needed air.
โ€œWould you be my date to the premiere tomorrow night?โ€ Jack asked her once he caught his breath. โ€œYes! That sounds like a perfect first date!โ€ Y/N answered with a big smile on her face.
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builtbybrokenbells ยท 1 year ago
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Gold Dust Woman | ix
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Broken hearts and bruised feelings make for an ugly pairing.
Read part eight here
Pairing: jake kiszka x f!reader, sam kiszka x f!reader
Word Count: 16.4K
Warnings: SMUT 18+, unprotected sex (wrap it), fingering, oral (m&f receiving), exhibitionism, public sex, impact play, spit play, temperature play, dom/sub, touch of bratty sub, praise, degradation, soft sex, angst, fighting, mentions of alcoholism/alcoholic tendencies, drinking, swearing, crying, v emotional chapter, sorry if i miss any!
heres chapter nine a little early, just cause I feel so bad for being horrible at posting ๐Ÿ˜ also I am living for the speculation on the story; you all have very intriguing ideas to share. as always, enjoy, be kind, and donโ€™t mind any grammar mistakes! (cause thereโ€™s def lots, this is incredibly lightly edited)
Music boomed in your ears and your chest burned with heat from your last shot. Dylan and Riley were fighting against their disgust for the tequila, nursing a lime wedge in their mouths as their eyes watered with regret. You placed your own wedge in the shot glass, barely wincing as the alcohol moved to your stomach. You had become accustomed to the sensation, and it was no different than the scratch of cigarette smoke on the back of your throat. If anything, the otherworldly ache from substance was much easier to digest than the permanent pain that settled in your heart. But, to you, another night of drowning out the sorrow was infinitely better than speaking the trouble into existence, even if you knew you would wake up feeling worse than the morning before.
Days had passed since your first show in Atlanta. It had gone without a hitch; the only thing you wished to change was the length of time you were allowed to spend on stage. Performing was your new purpose, your driving force for getting out of bed and surviving the day. It was something you had been searching for since you moved to Nashville, and you had finally found the feeling outside of another human being. The world seemed perfect if you were an outsider looking in, but perfect was subject, and your life was far from it. You had your dream job, more money than you ever dreamed of as a child, and more love pouring in than ever before, but you were still miserable. So miserable that drinking away the day served as more comfort than sobriety, lately.
Gold Dust Woman had become you; the name fitting better than it ever had. Elusive and empty, always searching for a thrill in a bottle, and seemingly unable to find a purpose. You felt like you were walking aimlessly, showing up to venues solely for the sake of entertaining. When the hotel doors closed and you found yourself alone again, any sense of self was gone without a trace. Mirrors had become the enemy, always seeming to showcase the emptiness you held behind your eyes, taunting you with unfamiliarities that you did not have the energy to change. You were lost within the mess of the rockstar lifestyle, and the blame was only on you.
You had turned volatile and distant, a shell of who you used to be. Unfortunately, it was not the pressure of the music industry, nor the lack of rules and enhanced freedom that you had gained. In truth, that was very low on your list of reasons for feeling so poorly. The reality was that your dance with the devil had finally caught up to you. The brothers had moved in for the kill, successful in their strike. Entertaining love from both of them had always been tiresome, but now you were exhausted. It was not loving them that was difficult, rather the fact that you loved them so much, and so equally. Now, there was no chance of escaping them, even just for a moment. You lived with them, travelled with them, and worked with them every minute of the day. Most of the time, your closed hotel door room did not even stop them from invading your life.
Sam was persistent, always around in attempt to win your heart for good. Jake, on the other hand, was absent once more. This separation was not at his hands, though. You had refused any further contact after the debacle of the nameless bimbo at the Atlanta venue. You had no way to express it, but the pain you were holding from that interaction was debilitating, and it was only worsened when you looked at him. You understood that his intent was to hurt you in the same way he was hurting, but he struck nerves that you didnโ€™t even realize existed. You werenโ€™t official with either boy, but had always been under the pretence of at least being committed. Perhaps your jealousy and anger was misplaced, but even if it was, it was still very present in your mind.
You were certain he knew the affect of his actions, and you were sure he felt remorseful about it. However, you had never allowed him the chance to express his apologies even if he did want to make amends. Every conversation he initiated was quickly shot down, every touch was evaded, and every longing glance was not returned. You tried to appear uncaring, but the truth was you cared too much. You werenโ€™t sure if this stood for the ending of your relationship with Jake, but it was certainly a bump in the road that threw you violently off course.
Your hurt lied within the fact that Jake and Sam both knew the truth about the situation; they continued to try and win you over while knowing that you were seeing both of them at the same time. You, however, were not under the impression that the brothers would be entertaining anyone else. If Jake had flirted with another girl in good faith, maybe you would have been more likely to forgive and forget. Instead, he only used the woman to bother you. She was a weapon meant to shatter your ego, and it did exactly that. His childish endeavour was harmless in theory, mostly because you knew he did not take her home that night. Even if he did spend the entire evening immersed in her, it ended as soon as you both walked out of the door of the venue. The issue was not the innocent flirting; it was the fact he had done it solely to hurt you, and hurt you he did.
Seeing him entertaining advances from another person reminded you of where you sat all those months ago, pining after Sam while he had girls tripping over themselves to get his attention. It put you directly back into the state you were in when you were desperate for Samโ€™s attention, crying and hurting every night over someone who refused to acknowledge your existence in any way other than friendly. It made you feel small, insignificant and shattered your entire self worth. Perhaps he was trying to make you see things through his eyes, but he had no idea it would burn you as bad as it truly did. Being second to someone else was normal for you, but having gone so long without feeling that way, you seemed to have forgotten how much it sucked. Outwardly, you were furious, but deep down, all of the anger was nothing short of an act to cover the sound of your own breaking heart.
You missed him terribly, but not enough to give in so easily. You were determined to reach a lesson, and so far it had been working well. Although both of you were nearly unbearable to be around, the message was definitely portrayed in the way you intended, and that was enough to keep you in moderately good spirits. โ€œAnother one, please.โ€ You told the bartender, closing your eyes for a moment to regain your senses. Thinking about Jake for too long seemed to heighten your blood pressure and prompt a migraine. You loved him, but in the same way a dog stays loyal to the owner who inflicts pain on it. You had one hell of a knack for self punishment, and you almost seemed desperate to be hurt by him. Instead of cutting it off completely, you continued to string each other along in the most painful way possible.
Loving him from a distance was excruciating, but loving him fully was even worse. Your feelings for Jake were so intense that it was hard to comprehend, but you seemed to be angry at each other more than you were happy with each other. You couldnโ€™t help but appreciate how simple things had been with Sam, and even when you were annoyed with each other, it never seemed quite as catastrophic. Comparing the two brothers in any sense was something you had sworn not to do, but at the end of each day that passed, it was becoming increasingly difficult to keep them separate.
โ€œHere you go, sweetheart.โ€ He said, placing the shot in front of you. The term of endearment sent a shiver down your spine, immediately reminding you of the boy who you were desperate to forget about. He was an addiction, one that you knew was killing you, but you couldnโ€™t figure out how to give him up. It was selfish, but on the list of sins you had committed over the course of your relationships with the boys, greed one of the lesser injustices.
โ€œThank you,โ€ you placed the cool glass to your lips, tilting your head back and swallowing the liquid. Without as much as a wince, you sat the glass back on the table and popped the lime in your mouth to satiate the burn. โ€œCan I get a double rum and coke, too?โ€ You had been drinking since before the show, but you were yet to feel even a buzz. You opted to pick up the pace, hoping if it wouldnโ€™t wipe your memory clean, it would at least lull you to sleep later.
โ€œDo you think Iโ€™m strong enough to carry you home?โ€ Dylan asked, giving you an incredulous look at the sound of your order.
โ€œNo, but it would be funny to watch you try.โ€ You chuckled, slipping your fingers around your drink and bringing the straw to your lips.
โ€œYouโ€™ve been drinking since this morning. How are you still standing?โ€ Riley asked, joining the conversation.
โ€œTalent.โ€ You smiled, looking to the booth that held the rest of your company. โ€œIโ€™m going to play pool.โ€ You announced, not waiting for them to follow before moving towards the crowded area. You picked a cue off the wall, scanning the tables in hopes of finding a group that was looking for an extra. Better yet, your gaze landed upon a vacant table that was up for grabs. You moved towards it, setting your drink on the corner and arranging the balls.
You shot the cue ball, breaking the rack of the other balls. They scattered across the green surface of the table, one landing in the corner pocket and the rest slowing to a stop before they could reach.
You made a move to line up another shot, focusing on the ball and sinking it effortlessly. You straightened up, scanning for your next target, when you felt a body present itself at the end of the table. โ€œNice shot,โ€ without any deeper analysis, you could tell that the compliment was laced with deeper meaning. The conversation starter was not because of your drunken talent, rather because he was desperate for you to speak to him. You did not acknowledge him, opting to brush past him and shoot at another ball. At your rejection, you thought he might head back to the booth to sulk, but you were never lucky, especially when it came to Jake. โ€œIโ€™d love to join. You know, if you donโ€™t want to keep playing yourself.โ€ He offered.
You made a move back to your drink, refusing to even look him in the eye. Instead, you shot another ball into a corner pocket, the slam of the cue against the ball exaggerating your feeling of distaste for his company. He watched, unsure of what to say to make things better. He knew he had done wrong, and it was haunting him. His moment of gratification from your shock was not worth losing you for good, and if he could take back the pain he caused, he would without hesitation. Despite his regret, he was beginning to get fed up with your lack of communication. His hot-headed nature was quickly surfacing, and he could only keep his composure for so long.
โ€œCome on, y/n. Cut the shit.โ€ He snapped, finally losing the temper heโ€™d been so desperate to keep hold of. At the sound of his tone, your head shot up in anger, pupils clouded with a flame of rage. โ€œYou canโ€™t ignore me forever.โ€
โ€œYou have no idea what Iโ€™m capable of, Jake.โ€ You snipped, knuckles turning white from the tight grip you had around the wooden cue.
โ€œOh, I know, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He said, never breaking your gaze. Your heart was erratic in your chest and the alcohol in your system was not particularly intoxicating you, but it was definitely worsening your emotional state.
โ€œThatโ€™s your problem, Jake. You know everything, donโ€™t you?โ€ You sneered. โ€œYouโ€™ve got it all figured out, and we just live in this world that Jacob created and we have to be happy about it because he thinks heโ€™s fucking god.โ€ You slammed the cue back on the rack, finished with your lighthearted game and finding yourself overdue for a departure.
โ€œSo you want to fight?โ€ He chuckled, peering down at you with a hint of curiosity in his face. โ€œLetโ€™s fight, sweetheart. Iโ€™ve got all night.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t want to fight. I donโ€™t want to speak to you at all, but you canโ€™t seem to take the fucking hint.โ€ You picked up your drink and began walking away, done with the conversation before it ever really started. You were in no state of mind to hash out your thoughts or settle the matter, and you werenโ€™t willing to channel the energy to get there.
โ€œI want to talk, y/n. Thatโ€™s the point. You canโ€™t have it your way all of the time, even if youโ€™re so used to getting it.โ€ You chugged back the last of the liquid in your cup, sitting the glass on the counter as you signalled the bartender towards you. โ€œThe world has more than just you in it.โ€
โ€œAnother double, please.โ€ You said, disregarding Jakeโ€™s words completely. โ€œAnd Iโ€™d like to close out, if I can.โ€ He gave a nod, compliant with your request.
โ€œIโ€™ll get it.โ€ Jake announced, brushing you to the side as the bartender sat the debit machine in front of you. He was mad, but it did not forego his feelings for you, nor his need to take care of you. โ€œAnd mine, too.โ€
โ€œFuck off, Jake.โ€ You warned, reaching to grab it before he could. He looked to you, eyes all but red with anger, clearly showcasing that he was more than done with your tyrant.
โ€œBehave,โ€ he muttered, just low enough for you to hear. Even as upset as you were, his words prompted a rush of arousal straight through you. Jake being an asshole somehow equated to sexual desire in your mind, and despite your contempt, you would have been willing to let him have his way with you right then and there. You watched as he paid, turned on but careful to not be forgetful of the fire in your heart. โ€œLetโ€™s go.โ€ He turned to you, eyeing the drink in your hand as a silent order to finish it quickly.
โ€œIโ€™m not going home with you.โ€ You let out a laugh, shaking your head at his ridiculous request. You sipped through the straw, watching as the theoretical smoke began pouring from his ears at your disobedience. You may have been intrigued at his dominance, but not enough to push your feelings to the side. By having sex with him, you would only allow the painful debacle to continue without any repercussions. โ€œI donโ€™t even want to talk to you. Do you really think I want to fuck you?โ€ Something snapped deep inside him, like the fuse to the bomb had finally whittled away to the end.
โ€œIโ€™m not asking, y/n. Finish your fucking drink and get outside.โ€ There was no hidden implications within his message this time; he wasnโ€™t using your high emotion as leverage for a night long session. He wanted to fight, too, even if he tried to pass it off as a mature discussion. You shot him a glare, but chugged down the carbonated beverage like it was holy water, knowing that it would be the nightโ€™s only salvation. You sat the cup on the counter and turned without another word.
Back at the booth, Dylan and Danny were watching with fear settled deep in their spines, worried that when they made their return back to the hotel, there would be no building left to sleep in. Jakes need for control and your fiery temper was not a good mix, and that was true without the added effects of the liquor you both had been gorging yourselves on. Danny was certain that Jakeโ€™s antics with the nameless woman at the venue would cause nothing but trouble, and Dylan was there to pick up the pieces after the devastation struck. They knew how catastrophic the situation could be, and they werenโ€™t sure how to stop the inevitable.
โ€œTheyโ€™re going back together, arenโ€™t they?โ€ Josh asked, tipsy and almost laughing at the thought. He wasnโ€™t even facing the door, but he didnโ€™t need to see you to know what you were up to.
โ€œYeah, howโ€™d you know?โ€ Danny chuckled.
โ€œItโ€™s Jake,โ€ he rolled his eyes, as if it were obvious. โ€œI can feel how angry he is all the way over here. Heโ€™s not going to let her go home without him.โ€ The three settled into a shared laugh at the thought.
โ€œUse your twin telepathy every now and then and tell me how theyโ€™re doing, okay?โ€ Dylan asked, laughing but still worried about the scene that might unfold. Josh peeked over his shoulder in just enough time to catch Jake swing the door open for you, his grip nearly breaking the wooden panel as he held it. The emotion radiating from the both of you was heavy enough to fill the entire room, leaving no empty space for any questions or concerns.
โ€œTheyโ€™ll either never speak to each other again, or theyโ€™ll be back to normal by tomorrow.โ€ Josh deducted, knowing no better way to explain his thoughts. Dylan heaved a heavy sigh, slinking back into the booth and closing her eyes. Danny snaked an arm around her shoulder, pulling her into his side in hopes to ease her worry, but all three of them were praying for the best possible outcome.
The night was cold on your exposed skin; the flimsy fabric of your tattered shirt sprawled with a worn band logo was not enough to insulate any heat. Your jeans were littered with rips and holes, leaving your legs vulnerable, too. The alcohol coursing through you was doing nothing to aid your temperature, and your teeth were chattering as soon as the bar door shut behind you. Wordlessly, Jake followed you as you stormed away. He never let you get too far, but kept a respectable distance from you. He didnโ€™t want you running off, or for anyone to intercept the two of you. His arms-length distance was suitable for his comfort, but he didnโ€™t want to crowd you, either. Even in his anger, he was always mindful of your safety and comfortability.
โ€œTake my jacket, y/n.โ€ He said, watching your draw your arms across your chest to preserve any body heat left in you.
โ€œI donโ€™t want your stupid jacket.โ€ You replied, picking up the pace as you trundled down the sidewalk.
โ€œNot asking,โ€ he reminded, slipping it off his shoulders as he followed.
โ€œStop trying to take care of me!โ€ You exploded, turning to him quicker than he could comprehend. He halted his movement in attempt to stop himself from running into you, still processing the sudden change when you started to speak again. โ€œItโ€™s not your job, Jake! I never asked you to, and I donโ€™t want you to!โ€ His scowl was heavy, unsettling and so unlike anything youโ€™d seen from him before.
โ€œI donโ€™t care.โ€ He said, looking down at you with little fear of your outburst. โ€œI donโ€™t care if you want me to, y/n. Donโ€™t care if you asked, donโ€™t care if itโ€™s my job. Iโ€™m always going to do it, because I care about you. Now take the fucking jacket, and keep walking. You can yell at me all you want when we get inside.โ€ You found yourself caught in a staring contest with him, both fuming but neither willing to give in. He raised an eyebrow, moving his arm to shove the jacket a little closer to you. With a clenched jaw, you snatched it from his hand and draped it over your shoulders. He didnโ€™t think to utter a thanks, and you didnโ€™t stay long enough to notice if he did.
The hotel lobby was vacant when you tumbled through the doors in disarray. The clerk at the front desk seemed like they were eager to greet you, but decided not to once they saw the expression you adorned. You rushed to the elevator, pressing the button as many times as your hand would allow. When the doors opened, you bustled inside and clicked the button to your floor, hoping the doors would close in his face. When they began to slide together, Jake caught up to you in enough time to stick his hand between them and send them flying open again. You rolled your eyes as he made his presence known, wondering why he felt the need to stand so close to you. In truth, he was all the way across the elevator, yet your intoxication and annoyance made it seem like he was nose to nose with you.
When a ding rang through the air signaling your arrival on the top floor, you couldnโ€™t seem to get away fast enough. He stayed close behind, knowing that if he let you get to your room and close the door, you would never let him in. His inkling was not incorrect, as that was your exact plan. You thought if you could gain some distance, you would be able to lock the door and sulk in peace. You flashed your key card against the reader, twisting the knob and pushing inward in one swift motion. You opened the door so fast that you almost fell in and onto the floor, but kept your footing just to get the satisfaction of slamming the door in his face. When you turned to close the door, you were joyous when you didnโ€™t see Jake immediately behind you. You thought you were in the clear, but just before you could bridge the gap, he stuck his foot between the frame and the door itself.
โ€œTake a hint,โ€ you huffed, out of breath from his pursuit.
โ€œWould you give it up?โ€ He snapped. โ€œLet me in. Iโ€™m not leaving things like this. Iโ€™m not leaving you like this.โ€ He refused to move out of the way, his foot planted firmly on the ground so you couldnโ€™t lock him out.
โ€œThen you can sit out there all night.โ€ You challenged, sending another shove on the handle. He let out a hiss of pain as his foot was jammed in the opening, making the foolish decision to withdraw. Seizing the opportunity, you managed to latch the door shut without any further struggle. Jake felt a wave of frustration wash over him, letting his forehead fall flat against the solid door, sending the thumping sound through your room. You felt a sob rising in your throat, disgusted with yourself and the situation you found yourself in. You, too let your head fall against the door; both of you assumed the position, wishing you were leaning on each other to feel the warmth of comfort. Instead, stubborn and determined to be right, you left your hand on the knob with no intent to open it again. The yearning was so strong that you could both feel it clearly even through the blockage of oak wood.
โ€œI know youโ€™re mad at me, y/n, and I know why.โ€ His words were muffled, but you could hear him clear as day. When it came to the sweet tone of his voice, you would strain to listen until you were left deaf and defeated. โ€œLet me fix it, please.โ€ You didnโ€™t answer, instead felt the tears slip down your cheeks as you pictured the lingering pain he was holding in his features. He hurt you, and you were hurting him. It was an evil thing to entertain a relationship when you were both bound to destroy each other. Love was an ugly motivator, and it had left you both feeling alone much more often than it ever left you happy.
โ€œI donโ€™t want to fix it, Jake. I just want it to stop.โ€ Perhaps your poor mood was clouding the level of drunkenness you were experiencing; now that the rage had settled into a dull ache, your head was swimming with intoxication. You werenโ€™t sure what you were thinking, or feeling. All you knew was that it hurt, and it hurt unbearably bad. โ€œI canโ€™t do this anymore.โ€
โ€œIf youโ€™re ending this, at least do it to my face.โ€ The crack in his voice was unmistakable, his fear louder than any other emotion shared that night. โ€œPlease, Gold Dust Woman. Donโ€™t end things like this.โ€ You cheeks were already streaked with mascara, your skin damp with the physical remains of your mistakes. You wanted it to stop hurting, but you didnโ€™t know how to put an end to it. Walking away was tempting, but the emptiness in your heart prompted from the thought alone was enough to make you stay. โ€œLet me in. You can yell, or scream, or break things. I donโ€™t care, just let me in.โ€
โ€œI canโ€™t let you in, Jake. Donโ€™t you get that?โ€ You clamped your teeth down on your bottom lip, holding back the urge to cry out. โ€œEvery time I do, it hurts. It shouldnโ€™t be painful to love you.โ€ You were both too caught up in your breaking hearts to notice the declaration of love that you had let slip. โ€œYou said intimacy isnโ€™t easy, and I know that, but it shouldnโ€™t hurt this bad.โ€
โ€œOpen the fucking door,โ€ he pleaded, jiggling the handle as he begged for your cooperation. โ€œY/n, I will break this door down if I have to.โ€ His desperation was evident, but he didnโ€™t care. He couldnโ€™t bear the thought of you being in tears and him not being there to hold you. He couldnโ€™t bear the thought of losing you, despite his previous promises of being a good sport if the situation turned on him. Love had crazed him, and he was too weak to fight it anymore.
You took a step away, looking to the whiskey bottle decorating your nightstand like a trophy of despair. If heartbreak were a competition, you would be in the lead. You reached for it, taking a long drink to satisfy the ache in your heart. You were so lost within suffering that you werenโ€™t even certain what you were hurting over anymore. Yes, Jake had shattered you with his careless flirting, but it had grown far beyond his mistakes. Months of hurting from being stuck between the brothers was breaking you down, leaving nothing left but a mess of guilt and sorrow. You were on the brink of insanity, and you werenโ€™t sure how much more you could take before inevitably spiralling out of control. You had no idea who you were, nor where you were going. Time was blur and you were just a pawn within the game, floating through while life happened around you. When he wiggled the handle one more time, the guilt from pushing him away became too much. You took two long strides to the door, using a single finger to pull down the handle, just enough to set the latch free. It took him a moment to process your action, but once he did, he swung the door open like it was the gate to hell.
Sandalwood filled the room, and itโ€™s cold hands reached out for you with a mask of invitation. When you gave in to it, showing signs of weakness, the fingers clasped around your neck in a violent hold. It was enough to bring you to your knees, enough to make you beg for more, even while knowing it would eventually be the very thing that would take your life. You looked to meet his eyes, but neither of you were ready to run to each other in apology. You took a seat on the edge of the bed, bottle in hand with a heavy heart. โ€œStart talking.โ€ He kicked the door shut behind him, but did not move any closer to you.
โ€œYou donโ€™t get to come in here and start barking orders.โ€ You shook your head, chuckling as you raised your hand to wipe your cheeks clean of any painful evidence.
โ€œWould you rather have it your way? I can stand in the hallway and wait. Maybe by the morning youโ€™ll sober up enough to talk to me.โ€ He tried his best to keep cool, but he had never felt so much emotion course through his veins at once. Every possible worry was swimming in his head, leaving him desperate for some sort of relief.
โ€œYouโ€™re such a self-righteous prick.โ€ You scoffed, slamming the bottle down on the table. โ€œItโ€™s okay when you get pissed off at me and ignore me for three days, but when I do it, itโ€™s the end of the world?โ€ You looked up, finally catching sight of his face. โ€œSorry, I forgot youโ€™re the only person in the world whoโ€™s allowed to feel things.โ€
โ€œNo, Iโ€™m sorry, sweetheart. I think you might have things a little mixed up. I dont go around picking fights at the bar in front of everyone. Iโ€™m not the one locking you out in the hallway and making you look like an idiot.โ€ He cocked his head to the side, the look in his eye dangerous. You were both volatile, barely needing to be provoked to explode.
โ€œOh, so itโ€™s an appearance thing! God forbid Jake looks a little silly, I forgot itโ€™s not good for his image when somebody calls him on his shit.โ€ You seethed. โ€œSorry I ruined your mystical elusive bullshit, or that I made you admit you can feel something deeper than sexual. Itโ€™s about time that I realize that itโ€™s part of the rockstar charm to make someone fall for you and then keep them guessing if you feel the same way.โ€
โ€œGuessing?โ€ He fumed, taking a step towards you. โ€œYou really have to guess if I care about you or not?โ€ You stood, just as willing to challenge him.
โ€œMaybe I wouldnโ€™t have to if you werenโ€™t letting random bimboโ€™s feel you up at concerts.โ€ You snapped. โ€œOr is that your backup plan? Love some brotherly competition but not when it gets too tough?โ€
โ€œYou know thatโ€™s not true, y/n.โ€ He warned, pointing his finger at you to solidify his truth. โ€œI fucked up. I get it, and I feel like shit about it. Iโ€™ll say Iโ€™m sorry a million times if I have to, but you donโ€™t get to accuse me of that.โ€
โ€œI donโ€™t get to?โ€ You reiterated, trying to understand his words. โ€œYou deliberately went out of your way to make me jealous. You stood there, dangling her off your arm like a shiny trophy for what? Leverage? A way of telling me that Iโ€™m easily replaceable? Or as a way to tell me that you donโ€™t think Iโ€™m good enough?โ€ You tried to fight the wavering tone, tears threatening to make another appearance and ruin your moment of power. โ€œYou donโ€™t get to be mad, Jake. You donโ€™t get to be upset over something you started. I understand that this whole thing hasnโ€™t been sunshine and rainbows, but you started it! You got me into bed that night knowing I loved him, and you didnโ€™t care about any repercussions! I canโ€™t keep feeling like shit over an outcome you knew would happen!โ€
โ€œI get to be mad!โ€ He boomed, moving even closer. โ€œI get to be upset, Iโ€™m allowed to hurt, Iโ€™m allowed to feel everything that you feel, because Iโ€™m a fucking person, too!โ€ You were both yelling, uncaring of the late hour or the neighbouring rooms likely filled with sleeping people. โ€œI get to fuck up, and I get to say sorry, just like you do! Just because I signed up for the pain doesnโ€™t mean it feels nice to see you in his arms!โ€
โ€œWhy doesnโ€™t it feel nice, Jake?โ€ You hissed. โ€œIs it because you love me, or is it just because you donโ€™t want him to have me?โ€ He gave you a bewildered look, stunned by your question. It caught him so off guard that the malice temporarily fled him.
โ€œWhat?โ€
โ€œYou keep acting like youโ€™re innocent, that this whole thing started because you were so enamoured with me, but itโ€™s just not true, is it?โ€ You raised an eyebrow, watching the flood of disdain wash over his face. โ€œThat baggage is awfully heavy, Jacob, even if you think youโ€™re carrying it well. This pissing contest with Sam is way bigger than just me. You let me wallow in the guilt and feel like the worst person in the world because I fell for both of you, but you get off on it, donโ€™t you? The thrill of taking something from your brother?โ€ He straightened up, watching you with a fervour. His expression was deadly, eyes dangerous and warning you to stop before you took it too far.
โ€œY/n,โ€ his voice was low, the tone calm but covering a mountain of red. He was vibrating at the accusation, and was pleading with you to yield. Their history was always left unspoken, and you voicing it back to him did nothing but bring up years worth of pain heโ€™d been desperately trying to forget.
โ€œDo you like passing girls back and fourth? Stealing them right from each others bed and ruining them, just so you two can make up and hug it out later?โ€ He took a step towards you, silent but deadly. โ€œIs it fun? Do you get a good thrill from it? Do you think you can do it forever, or that youโ€™ll always get away with it, and you and Sam can live happily in your little fucked up world?โ€
โ€œStop talking, sweetheart,โ€ he said, looking down at you and hoping you would see reason. You were chest to chest, the tension too high to withstand.
โ€œJust answer the fucking question. Do you love me, or do you just love the idea of him not having me?โ€ He didnโ€™t respond, nor did he move an inch. You were yelling in his face, crazed for the truth, but it didnโ€™t seem to bother him at all. โ€œTell me, Jake! Because I canโ€™t take this anymore! I canโ€™t keep running back and fourth. It never mattered if I made a decision or not, because you two will never fucking stop! I care about you so much, but it just feels like you both only care about beating each other in your twisted little game. I canโ€™t keep falling without knowing someone is going to be there to catch me, because itโ€™s killing me! This is killing me, and itโ€™s never seemed to bother either of you-โ€œ you were cut off by his hand raising and his fingers gently clasping around your neck, silencing any further thoughts.
โ€œYou talk a lot, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He noted, jaw hard set and nostrils flared with rage as he tried to keep it buried under the surface. โ€œIf you would shut the fuck up for a minute, maybe I could answer your ridiculous questions.โ€ You watched him, angry but having no fear of him or that he would hurt you. You gave him a slow blink, showing him that you were willing to listen if he was ready to say something meaningful. โ€œIf I let go, are you going to behave?โ€ You blinked again, answering his question sufficiently. He slowly released his hold, studying your face for any sign you would start your tyranny again.
โ€œYou really think that I like watching him love you? That itโ€™s fun to know youโ€™re tangled in his sheets, with his name painted across your lips?โ€ You didnโ€™t respond, giving him his own moment to voice his feelings. โ€œItโ€™s worse than torture, y/n. Sitting at home at night, or in my hotel room, knowing that I donโ€™t get to hold you, or tell you exactly how I feel about you. You donโ€™t get to tell me if Iโ€™m allowed to hurt, and you donโ€™t get to put words into my mouth to make it sound like Iโ€™m a piece of shit. You have never been a game to me. What I feel for you has never been anything but true. Sure, maybe I donโ€™t know how to show it all of the time, and maybe I should learn how to talk about my feelings, but you have no right to say that I donโ€™t fucking care about you.โ€ You felt a flash of regret as he spoke, seeing the sincerity underneath the hard exterior. It was so profound that it made your chest ache just hearing it. You couldnโ€™t imagine the pain he was feeling while professing it.
โ€œYou think youโ€™re forgettable? Or that youโ€™re not good enough for me? Like Iโ€™m trying to find someone to take your spot once I move on?โ€ His face was hovering over your own, tone condescending and filled with accusatory undertones. You wanted to be angry, but you knew that you had done the exact same thing to him. โ€œFucking answer me.โ€ He barked, eyes burning into you.
โ€œIโ€ฆ I did, yeah. Thatโ€™s how it made me feel.โ€ You whispered, voice cracking at the thought of his arm around another girl. โ€œIt killed me, Jake, and I had to get up on stage and pretend that you hadnโ€™t just ripped my heart out of my chest.โ€
โ€œForgetting you has never been an option for me. Iโ€™ve been trying since the day I met you, and even more so after I saw the stars dancing in your eyes every single time you looked at him.โ€ Him. Jake didnโ€™t have to say the name for you to know who he was referring to. Jake had been struggling with inferiority long before youโ€™d ever graced him with your touch, and he was finally reaching a breaking point. Every time he saw you and Sam together, it was like a stab to an already open wound. โ€œI donโ€™t know who made you feel like you werenโ€™t good enough, or why they would ever make you feel like that, but you are more than enough for me. So good that it fucking kills me. Youโ€™re worse than any addiction I can imagine, and there is nothing after you, y/n. No girls lined up or anything like it, none that even catch my eye, because itโ€™s all you, and it always has been. You are everything to me.โ€ He tried to keep his stern demeanour, but his strength was wavering at the thought of his own love for you.
โ€œIโ€™m not going to stand here and talk down about him, because I donโ€™t know how he feels or what heโ€™s thinking. All I know is that I have been crazy about you since the first time I laid eyes on you, and I still am. I donโ€™t know how to show you, but I have been trying in any way I know how. Yeah, I started this, and sometimes I wish I didnโ€™t, but it has never been because I donโ€™t want you.โ€
โ€œIf we care so much, why is this so fucking hard all of the time!โ€ You exploded, unable to process everything he was saying to you. โ€œIf we like being together, why are we always mad at each other!โ€ Your words were not particularly posed as a question, but rather a statement. โ€œAt first it was exciting, and the passion kept things interesting, but now itโ€™s fucking exhausting.โ€
โ€œBecause thatโ€™s what happens when people care about each other, y/n! You fight, you feel things you donโ€™t normally feel, and everything is a million times harder, especially when you canโ€™t have each other!โ€ He was frustrated, and that was clear. You still werenโ€™t sure how you felt, or if the anger had dissipated enough for you to move on. You knew you were still upset, but there was a small voice in your head begging for you to reach out and hold him, that it would solve all of your problems and you would wake up in the morning without any more pain as long as you woke up next to him.
โ€œIs that your way of asking?โ€
โ€œAsking what?โ€ He snapped, tired of the back and fourth.
โ€œTo love me.โ€ You clarified, your heart erratic as the words left your mouth. He seemed to stop breathing for a moment, shocked at your words. โ€œBecause if it is, it fucking sucks.โ€
โ€œI have been asking you that every single day, y/n.โ€ He corrected. โ€œIn everything I do, and everything I say, but you wonโ€™t let me.โ€
โ€œBecause itโ€™s not supposed to be this hard, Jake. The yelling, the ignoring, the jealousy and the pushing each other away. Itโ€™s not supposed to be like this.โ€
โ€œThen leave.โ€ He snapped. โ€œOr tell me to leave! If you donโ€™t think this is right, or if you donโ€™t want me, stop pretending you do.โ€ You managed to shake your head at his outburst, terrified that he would step closer, and even more terrified that he would step back. You wanted to tell him everything, but you couldnโ€™t seem to let the words pass through your lips. It was tantalizing to love him so deeply but have no idea how to express it.
โ€œI canโ€™t.โ€
โ€œWhatโ€™s stopping you?โ€ He scowled. โ€œWhy are you so scared to say it? Itโ€™s a four letter word, y/n. It wonโ€™t hurt you, and Iโ€™m sure itโ€™ll feel so much better to get it out.โ€
โ€œOh, fuck you.โ€ You hissed, placing your palm on his chest and pushing him backwards. You stepped away, making a move towards the bottle of whiskey on your nightstand. He stepped towards it, too, cutting you off and grabbing it before you could lay your hands on it. You turned your head, shooting him a glare that was piercing enough to disturb his soul.
โ€œOr do you think youโ€™re some kind of martyr?โ€ He hummed, a smirk breaking out on his lips. โ€œYouโ€™re so worked up because youโ€™re projecting, arenโ€™t you? Mad at us for playing with you, but youโ€™ve been been the biggest con artist of all.โ€ A rush of fear ran through you, your palms sweaty and your blood cold. โ€œWho told you about Sam and I?โ€ He pressed, finally calling out the most crucial piece to the puzzle.
โ€œIt doesnโ€™t matter,โ€ you reached for the alcohol, but he moved his hand so you couldnโ€™t grab it from him.
โ€œMaybe we arenโ€™t the only ones whoโ€™ve been up to no good, hmm?โ€ He raised an eyebrow, placing the bottle to his lips and taking a slow drink of the amber liquid. โ€œHave you been trying to teach us a lesson, Gold Dust Woman?โ€ He asked, the bottle barely free from his lips before he spoke again. You averted your gaze, nervous that heโ€™d picked up on your plan so easily. โ€œYouโ€™re not innocent either, sweetheart.โ€ He picked up on your expression easily, his question answered without any further confirmation needed. โ€œTell me, baby. Lying wonโ€™t help you now.โ€ His smirk turned into a twisted little smile, thrilled that he finally managed to figure you out.
โ€œYou canโ€™t outdo the master,โ€ you muttered, knowing that you had learned that lesson long before that moment. โ€œSo it never really mattered, anyway.โ€
โ€œWe all lost, angel. There was never going to be a winner, and you know that.โ€
โ€œSo why are you still trying?โ€ You shot, fed up with his game and ready to retire.
โ€œWhy are you?โ€ He responded, stalemating you once more. You stared at him, no words surfacing in your brain that seemed fitting for an answer. โ€œSeems like that little four letter word would solve all of the problems once again. It may even be the answer to all of our questions, too.โ€ You shifted uncomfortably under his gaze, knowing that he was right; if you could admit to what you both were feeling, perhaps the pain would be obsolete.
โ€œGive me the bottle, Jake.โ€ You diverted the conversation again, reaching out with annoyance. He pulled his hand away again, shaking his head. You didnโ€™t like the mischievous glint in his eye. It was very clearly telling you that he was no longer interested in talking things over. The demeanour shifted, and the tension in the air quickly turned sexual. He wanted to solve the problems in the best way he knew how, and you were never one to deny him of a wish.
โ€œNow, why would I do that?โ€ He smirked. โ€œBad girls donโ€™t get what they want, and youโ€™ve been nothing but bad.โ€ He noted, taking a step closer to you. โ€œI love discovering your secrets, Gold Dust Woman. Theyโ€™re always so much fun.โ€ His tone dropped and he took a step towards you, backing you up onto the bed. When the backs of your knees collided with the mattress, you sat down and looked up at him. Your stomach was burning with desire; your anger still lingering, but almost completely overtaken by hunger for him. It did not take much for Jake to turn you into a mess for him, and seemed like it was his favourite thing to do.
โ€œWe canโ€™t use sex to try and fix everything, Jake.โ€ You fought it, but your retaliation was weak. You knew that sex with him could cure even the worst of ailments. It could turn dust into gold and even water into wine. Jakeโ€™s trade was sex, and he was the master of it. If you had doubt about anything, it surely wasnโ€™t that. Worst of all, it was completely irresistible.
โ€œIโ€™m not trying to fix anything with sex, angel. I am fixing it, and Iโ€™m starting with your shitty attitude.โ€ He explained, already expecting you to know that. โ€œYouโ€™ve been sneaky, running around and trying to teach us something that we already know all about. You think this is fun for us? That we enjoy it?โ€
โ€œN-no,โ€ you shook your head, mouth practically watering at the idea of him. It had been so long since you had a moment alone with him that you almost forgot how enchanting he was.
โ€œYou really think that Iโ€™m doing this because itโ€™s exciting, or because I get a thrill from stealing you from him?โ€ You didnโ€™t respond, because both of you knew that you had been feeling exactly that. โ€œAm I really going to have to show you how much I care about you?โ€ He mumbled to himself, admiring your face despite his distaste for your actions. โ€œBefore anything, I think I might need to remind you of whoโ€™s in charge, here. Seems like you forgot that you donโ€™t get to speak to me like that.โ€ With his free hand, he undid the buckle of his belt, smiling at the sight your face. He slowly slipped the leather from the loops of his jeans, carefully sitting it on the bed beside you, hoping to remind you of his love for using it. โ€œDoes that sound okay to you, sweetheart?โ€
โ€œYes, sir.โ€ You said, willing to submit to him as an apology for your earlier actions. In your anger, you had thrown some hurtful accusations his way, oneโ€™s that werenโ€™t anywhere near the truth. You were willing to stay in line as long as he didnโ€™t push you too far.
โ€œGood girl,โ€ the small praise sent a rush of arousal through you. โ€œYou want some?โ€ He questioned, lifting the bottle of whiskey into your line of vision. Almost as soon as the flame died down, he reignited it worse than it burned before.
โ€œDonโ€™t talk to me like Iโ€™m a fucking dog,โ€ you snapped, your expression of excitement quickly twisting into a scowl. Unfortunately for you, Jakeโ€™s favourite pastime was pushing your buttons, but he wasnโ€™t willing to stand the backtalk. He took his free hand and clasped your cheeks between his fingers, holding your mouth shut in a way much less than gentle.
โ€œI can talk to you however I want, sweetheart.โ€ He warned, eyes hard and lacking any sympathy. โ€œI asked you a question. Do you want some of this?โ€ He tried again, his words slow and impactful. Your gaze flickered from his face to the bottle, teeth grinding together in anger as you nodded your head. โ€œThen open your fucking mouth.โ€ He relaxed his grip on your face, allowing you to obey his command. With little hesitation, you slackened your jaw and parted your lips, expecting him to pour the liquid straight into your mouth. Instead, he brought the bottle to his own mouth, taking a sip and setting it down on the table again.
His lips upturned into a small smile when he looked down and saw your shocked expression. Despite not expecting it, you were intrigued by his intentions. He let his fingers slide down to your chin, tilting your head upwards and holding you in place. He leaned forward, close enough so he wouldnโ€™t miss his target, but distant enough to deprive you of any other touch. Slowly, he let the liquid trickle from his lips into your mouth, neither of you moving until all of the whiskey was dancing around your own tongue. He closed your mouth for you, leaning down a bit further so his lips were ghosting over your own.
โ€œSwallow,โ€ he hummed, encouraging you a little. You did as he asked, feeling the warmth spread through your chest and settle in your stomach. โ€œThatโ€™s my girl.โ€ He spoke as his eyes fluttered closed. In appreciation for your obedience, he pulled you in for a kiss. The liquor was still potent on his skin, adding to the intoxicating feeling of kissing him. After all, Jake would not be so familiar if he lacked the scent of sandalwood laced with whiskey, and he would not be so familiar if you did not find yourself drunk off a single kiss. He pulled away, almost unwilling to part with you, but straightened up despite his dismay. โ€œStand up.โ€
You rose to your feet, head still spinning with the previous events and a growing ache between your legs that only he knew how to satiate. He cupped your cheek in his hand, drawing you into another kiss. As he did so, he slipped his jacket from your shoulders and discarded it on the floor. He let his hands rest on your hips just below the hem of your shirt, both of you growing more desperate with every second that passed. When he broke away, he took little time to pull your shirt over your head. The air was cool on your skin, but you knew it wouldnโ€™t take long for him to warm you up again. With expert precision, he unbuttoned your jeans and allowed you to slide out of them.
He took a moment to admire you while you stood nearly fully exposed before him. โ€œOn the bed,โ€ he ordered, fighting the urge to reach out and touch you. As much as you felt like you couldnโ€™t resist him, he felt it for you a million times more. Jake was such a fool for you that his love for dominance meant little to nothing to him, and he would give it up in a heartbeat if he knew he could please you by doing so. You quickly turned, shuffling into the mattress with your back to him and got on your hands and knees. You knew him well enough to know how he wanted you, and he did not have the patience for you to ask him, anyway. He took a few steps towards you, his palm landing on your lower back in a sweet touch. He let his fingers drift over your skin, savouring the feeling of having you so intimately. His touch eventually landed on your ass, giving it a gentle squeeze before beginning his own tyrant.
โ€œSo, what is it, baby? Whatโ€™s got you so worked up?โ€ He asked, voice low and feigning concern. โ€œWas it the girl at the concert?โ€
โ€œYeah,โ€ you whispered, not sure why he was bringing her up, now. You thought you had made your point abundantly clear.
โ€œYou were jealous,โ€ he noted, an air of cockiness in his voice. His hands were still dancing over your exposed skin, as if he was trying to familiarize himself with you again. โ€œRight?โ€
โ€œYes,โ€ you sighed, hating yourself for being so worked up over the incident.
โ€œBecause you thought she would get to have me like this?โ€ His question seemed sincere, like he was genuinely trying to get to the bottom of the issue. โ€œThat I would treat her the same way I treat you?โ€
โ€œIโ€ฆ yeah, I guess.โ€ You admitted, feeling defeated and knowing there was no way out of this situation without explaining yourself. The whole reason you didnโ€™t want to talk to him was not because you enjoyed being without him, but because you were terrible at explaining your feelings. You had no idea how to express your distaste for his actions, and you didnโ€™t want to look like a fool trying to do so.
โ€œTell me how you feel, angel. I want to know.โ€ He was coaxing the answer from you with sweetness, and when he had you in such a position, it wasnโ€™t hard to do.
โ€œHurt,โ€ you answered, but you both already knew that. It was the nights main topic. โ€œIt hurt seeing someone else touching you. It sucked seeing you touch someone else.โ€
โ€œMmm,โ€ he urged you to keep going, thankful that you were finally able to speak without anger in your tone. โ€œBecause you want me all to yourself, donโ€™t you?โ€ He asked, slowly moving his hand between your legs.
โ€œF-fuck, yes.โ€ You stuttered, feeling his fingers locate your clit through the fabric of your underwear. โ€œI do, Jake. I donโ€™t want anyone else to have you.โ€ At the delightful confession, he added a bit more pressure to his touch.
โ€œSee? Itโ€™s not so hard to say that, is it?โ€ He hummed, pleased at your obedience.
โ€œNo,โ€ you sighed, eyes fluttering closed as you spoke. โ€œItโ€™s scary, sometimes, trying to tell you how I feel.โ€
โ€œWhy, baby?โ€
โ€œBecause I care about you a lot.โ€ The weight on your chest was lifting with every word you said. Jake knew how to get exactly what he wanted from you; all it took was a promise of his hands, and you would tell him the secrets of the universe. Sex with Jake had always been a motivator, but in this case, it had little impact on the overall discussion. You were exhausted from keeping everything locked up in your brain, and you wanted to tell him more than you wanted to keep it hidden. His touch was just encouragement, aiding you in your confession.
โ€œYou know Iโ€™d never touch anyone else like this.โ€ He reminded. โ€œIโ€™d never treat anyone as good as I treat you.โ€
โ€œI know,โ€ you breathed, hoping that he would give you more than what he was already offering.
โ€œSo why accuse me of not caring, angel?โ€ Your eyes opened, expression dropping as your stomach burned with anxiety. He wasnโ€™t into the sweet confessional; he wanted you to repent for the hurtful words you said, and he wanted to punish you for even thinking them. โ€œDo you think itโ€™s fun to be a brat?โ€ He furthered his question, tone growing stronger as he continued on. โ€œThat you can speak to me like that get away with it?โ€
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Jake.โ€ You did not feel the need to defend yourself; you had made your bed, and now it was time to lay in it. Your only hope was that he would find mercy for you if you showed enough remorse for your actions.
โ€œYouโ€™re not sorry, sweetheart. Youโ€™d do it again if you had the chance, and thatโ€™s why I canโ€™t let you get away with it.โ€ You could hear the smile in his voice as he reached for the belt on the bed beside you. The metallic cling of the buckle sent a shiver of fear through your body, but you kept your position and bargained with the pleasure that was bound to come after the pain. โ€œWhat was it that you called me?โ€ He pretended to ponder, letting the cool leather dance over your skin to taunt you. โ€œRemind me, again.โ€
โ€œA self righteous prick.โ€ You mumbled, eyes closed as you braced for impact.
โ€œRight,โ€ he nodded his head, as if it took great effort to recall your insults. โ€œA self righteous prick who thinks heโ€™s god, that cares too much about his image and only wants sex.โ€ He listed off, showcasing that he remembered your words exceptionally well. โ€œDoes that sound familiar, or am I missing something?โ€
โ€œNo, that sounds right.โ€ The shame in your voice was astounding, filling the room and weighing you both down.
โ€œStill feel that way, angel?โ€
โ€œNo, sir.โ€ You shook your head. The leather had now warmed to the same temperature as your skin after sitting idle for so long.
โ€œI donโ€™t think I believe you.โ€ He tried to sound sympathetic, but he couldnโ€™t hide the sadistic tone he so often used with you. He was enjoying watching you struggle, and he was going to enjoy everything that came after.
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Jake.โ€ You tried again, but it was futile.
โ€œThat was four insults, if Iโ€™m counting correctly.โ€ You could hear the smirk in his voice. โ€œSoโ€ฆ two for each, and two more just because you pissed me off. Tenโ€ฆ I think thatโ€™s fair. Do you, sweetheart?โ€ You were in a predicament of fighting and risking further punishment, or agreeing and suffering without trying to defend yourself. โ€œDoes that sound okay?โ€
โ€œYes, sir.โ€ You tried to hide your annoyance, but he could read you like a book, even if he was blinded and deafened.
โ€œRemember your colours?โ€
โ€œYes.โ€ You nodded, comforted by the thought of being able to stop if it became too much.
โ€œI always loved the colour red on you.โ€ He crooned, letting his hand run over the thin red lace concealing you. Your stomach settled at the gentle touch, wondering if he was going to be kind to you and change his mind. Just when you let your fears settle, the sharp sting of the belt sounded through the room. You let in a sharp gasp, the feeling catching you off guard and the pain quickly fizzling away. In his own way, he was being kind to you. The strength in which he hit you was nowhere near what he was capable of, and you knew that. He did not get off to the thought of you getting hurt, just to the idea of making you suffer a little bit.
You barely recovered from the pain before he lifted his hand and brought the leather down for another time. You held back a groan, not wanting to show any emotion at all until the punishment was through. โ€œOne down,โ€ he said, encouraging you to keep going. His focus was on your ass, which was unfortunate for you to receive so many blows to the same place, but he was doing it for good reason. He didnโ€™t want to risk any marks being visible in any stage clothes, and was aiming to keep your bedroom escapades away from the public eye to save you from any uncomfortable situations. It was thoughtful, but brutal all the same.
He wanted to draw out the experience, but the thought of leaving you without comfort for so long was nearly painful for him. He brought the belt down once more, the force more than he intended. You let out a hiss, flinching away from the contact in hopes to ease the sting. He brought his hand to your skin, letting his fingers drift over the red mark left behind. It was soothing, but barely, mostly because you knew he did not have enough sympathy for you to stop there. In truth, you did not expect him to. You were mean, and what you had said to him was not fair. Jake cared about you, and that was never something you should have questioned. Your emotions got the best of you, convincing you that you were less than what he truly thought you were worth.
When you showed signs of recovery, he wasted no time in striking again. The fourth was much gentler, but on top of the already irritated skin, seemed much more violent than it truly was. By the fifth one, your teeth were grinding together to keep yourself silent. By the sixth, tears were pooling in your eyes. You did not have faith in yourself to make it to the end, but you were not one to give up so easily. When he struck for the seventh time, it knocked the breath from your lungs and left your legs quivering. When the sting subsided, you let out a whimper of relief. The sound settled in his chest, prompting a feeling of guilt. โ€œHave you had enough, or do you still feel that way?โ€
โ€œN-no, I donโ€™t. Iโ€™m sorry.โ€ You rasped, tears rolling down your face. โ€œMโ€™so sorry, Jake.โ€ The sincerity of your voice nearly brought him to his knees and he had to shake himself out of his thoughts to keep himself in character. With a clenched jaw, he raised his arm and brought the belt down to your skin once more. You let a raw cry out at the impact, the pain intense and the only thing you could focus on. He let the belt drop to the floor, finished with his mission and worried he pushed you too far. He moved to lay a hand on your skin again, hoping to soothe the ache. When you shied away from his touch, a wave of terror washed over him.
โ€œAre you okay, baby?โ€ He asked, his hand opting to find your hip rather than the red skin on your ass. You took in a shaky breath, propping yourself on your elbow as you tried to catch your breath.
โ€œThat was only eight.โ€ You reminded. He cocked his head to the side, processing the statement with confusion. โ€œYou said ten.โ€ He let out a small laugh, one filled with disbelief at your words.
โ€œYou want two more?โ€ He asked, clarifying before moving on.
โ€œNo! I justโ€ฆ you said ten, andโ€ฆ yeah.โ€ You trailed off, finally able to gather your thoughts as the ache began to fade.
โ€œI think Iโ€™ve made my point.โ€ He explained, prompting you to straighten up so you could look at him. โ€œYou did so well that I donโ€™t believe you need two more.โ€ He hid the truth, which was that he did not have the heart for two more. He thought he pushed you far enough, and the idea of giving you any type of lasting injury greater than superficial was sickening to him. โ€œCome here,โ€ he beckoned you towards him, guiding you into his lap. With great ease, he lifted you and settled you into his arms. You let your legs find home on either side of him, melting into the touch and almost forgetting the pain he had inflicted on you moments before. He let his hands settle on your hips, pulling you down just a little further in search of relief from the erection strained against his jeans. โ€œI knew you could be good for me,โ€ he mumbled, distracted by the closeness of your face and the friction of you against him. โ€œIt wasnโ€™t so hard, was it?โ€
โ€œNo,โ€ you replied, also lost in his features. With him so close to you, nothing else existed. If it did, it was completely unimportant to you. He leaned forward, capturing you in a kiss too sweet to match the nights intensity. You brought a hand to his cheek, holding him to you as your other found his arm to keep yourself steady. Truthfully, it was just another excuse to touch him. With his hands on you, you had no fear of falling. Even if you doubted it, deep down you knew Jake would always be there to catch you.
He moved his hands to your back, unclasping your bra with ease. You loosened your grip on him so he could take it off. When it was discarded on the floor, he ran his thumb over your nipple. The sensation sent a jolt of electricity through you, prompting you to grind your hips against him. He let out a low groan against your lips, parting with you to suck in a sharp breath. To cover his own desperation, he brought his lips back to you, peppering kissing down your cheek to your jaw and settling on your neck. He let his lips dance over the sensitive skin, careful not to leave behind any marks amidst his passionate endeavour. When he found that sweet spot he was searching for, you let out a shaky sigh as your arm wrapped around his neck. You let your fingers dance in his hair, uncaring of the unusual sweetness of the moment.
You let out a gasp, hips moving down on him again as he continued his work on your neck. In an automatic response, a growl sounded from him, showing his appreciation for your enthusiasm. He moved his fingers, forgoing his previous gentleness, and pinched your nipple between his fingers. A whimper fell from your lips, lighting a fire in him at the sound. His hand dropped from your breast, falling to your hip as his fingers dipped under the elastic of your underwear. Faster than you could comprehend, he gave a sharp pull and the lace easily broke away from your skin.
โ€œJake-โ€œ you made a move to voice your discontent with his action, but he was already in motion, shifting to lay you down on the bed and settle between your legs.
โ€œShut up. Iโ€™ll buy you whatever you want to replace it.โ€ He huffed, using his hand again to break the other side free. You were so eager for him to touch you that you couldnโ€™t find the will to care about the fabric he had destroyed. The skin that he had wounded was stinging in reaction to the fabric of the blankets, but the pain was easily forgotten as he discarded the remains of your underwear on the floor and moved downward between your legs. He hooked his arms beneath your thighs and pulled you down on him, his mouth connecting with your cunt as he disregarded any more discussion.
You let out a moan, overwhelmed by the sudden change. His tongue moved quickly and with intent; he wasnโ€™t eager to tease and was desperate to give you an orgasm, partially because he loved pleasing you, but mostly due to his desire to fuck you. Your hands found his hair, already needy enough to pull on the strands as encouragement for him to keep going. He hummed against you, almost smiling at your crazed reaction. He knew what he did to you, and he was intending to prove a point.
โ€œFuck, Jake.โ€ You whimpered, almost unsure of what to do with yourself. The pleasure from his simple work was unexplainable, and you were on the brink of insanity from his tongue alone. Just the same as the first night, you had yourself convinced that Jake was a simple reincarnation of the devil. Put on this earth in a mortal body to inflict suffering on others, but most specifically you. It was hard to feel remorseful about your entanglement when a simple touch from him alone could outshine any other existing thing in the universe. Evil was coursing through his veins, and you were the prey he chose to take for his own. Even so, it was hard to feel like prey when every touch he graced you with was blissful, and it was hard to recognize you were dying when the descent was so pleasant.
Sinful was not a powerful enough word for what Jake was doing to you; it was godless, and you feared that a human being could not house power over another like he had on you. As a whole, he was iniquitous. His advantage over others was unfair, and he chose to use it for evil. But, you were in no position to point a finger, because your enjoyment left you just as criminal as him. You could shame Jake for his unrighteous acts, but you knew that you were no better simply for allowing it to continue.
You had become the boy who cried wolf, denouncing him for placing you amidst the painful battle, but you were no better for allowing him access to you despite its disastrous effects. It was no longer believable that he was causing you any harm because you were so willing to accept his invitations.
He added his fingers to you, driving you closer to a climax instantly. Your hips moved in search for more, and every time you thought he was unable to provide, he managed with ease. Your abdomen ached from your tensed muscles and your stomach was burning in hopes for a release. โ€œOh god, Jake, Iโ€™m gonna cum.โ€ You warned, forehead glistening with sweat from the intensity of the feeling. You noticed his hips grinding into the mattress as he worked, desperate for relief, too. The knowledge of his enjoyment from giving you pleasure was a driving force, sending your already exhausted body into a frenzy. He couldnโ€™t verbally encourage you, so he hoped his focus was enough to let you know that it was okay, and that it was exactly what he needed from you.
The orgasm washed over you like a storm of emotion, the relief alone enough to bring you to tears again. Your muscles were tense, your lungs depraved of oxygen as you cried his name. He didnโ€™t slow until he was certain he had given you the absolute most he could. When your legs relaxed and your body fell limp onto the mattress again, he tapered his movements until he eventually pulled away from you completely.
He caught his breath, wiping away the remnants of your orgasm from his chin. His eyes studied your face, trying to memorize every detail so he could relive the moment later. In a soft touch, his hands drifted over your thighs and all the way up to your stomach, the featherlight sensation sending a shiver down your spine. He moved back up your body, unable to resist the urge to kiss you again. You drew him closer to you, hoping that you could hold him there and exist in the blissful cloud forever. He revelled in the touch only for a moment before rising to his feet again. His eyes drifted over the table on your bedside, taking note of all the items on the surface. He adjusted himself in his jeans as he reached out for one.
Your initial thought was the whiskey, but when his hand surpassed the bottle, you pulled yourself from the euphoria in attempt to comprehend his thoughts. His fingers settled on the keycard to your room, in which he picked up and slid between his fingers, flashing it in your line of sight so you could see what he had grabbed. You sat up, fear striking you similar to the first night you shared with him. โ€œYouโ€™re leaving?โ€ You asked, worry evident in your tone.
โ€œOh, now you want me to stay?โ€ He teased, a smirk playing on the corner of his lips. โ€œIโ€™ll be back, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He assured you, but did not lean forward for any further touch. โ€œI want you exactly like this when I get back. Do you understand?โ€ You managed a small nod, wondering when his return would be. Knowing Jake, he could have meant five minutes, or five hours. His air of mystery was constant, and he did not like disturbing it.
โ€œYes, sir.โ€ You said, eyes never leaving him. At your confirmation, he stepped towards the exit of the room. You opened your mouth to stop him, but no words came out. Instead, you watched him slip through the doorway and into the hall without any further explanation. The lock clicked shut behind him, and he disappeared as if he never existed in the first place. The deafening silence in the room was too much to bear, and the lack of company was crushing. The only reminder of his presence was the lingering tingle on your skin from the ghost of your orgasm.
You watched the door, the seconds passing by slowly, and your hope fizzling away with each minute that went by. You looked around the room, noticing only his jacket and belt on the floor, but no other reminders of him. There was nothing worth coming back for, aside from you. You had to find faith that you were worth the return, and it proved to be a struggle. You werenโ€™t bound to the bed, nor the room. You could freely dress yourself and wander after him to discover where he was headed to. The idea was tempting, but there was a prickling fear of him coming back to find you away from the spot he was so keen on you staying in. Knowing Jake, you thought it best to stay and hope he was being genuine.
By minute five, the unsettling feeling was taking over. You could feel it in your bones, the fear of him returning to his room and going to bed. Although horrible, you did feel like the treatment would not be unwarranted. You had put him through hell that night, and you were unsure if you would ever be able to make up for it. When all hope was lost and the minute counter reached double digits, you collapsed onto the pillows in a heap of regret for your actions. Your chest ached with remorse and your heart was breaking at the memory of his pain stricken features. Before you descended too far into your own despair, the electronic click of the lock sounded, and the door opened once more.
Jake stepped inside, a styrofoam cup in his hand and a smile on his face. โ€œHi, angel.โ€ He greeted you as if he had not left you in a complete state of disarray. He immediately noticed the relief on your face, finding his ego return at the knowledge that you wanted his company. โ€œWhatโ€™s wrong? Did you really think Iโ€™d leave you here like this?โ€ He asked, tone dripping with fake concern.
โ€œYou? Never.โ€ You managed a smile and a small laugh. He got a chuckle out of your comment too, ensuring that the door was shut tightly before returning to the bedside. Your eyes landed on the cup, curious as to what he felt was so important that he had to leave to retrieve.
โ€œYou knew Iโ€™d come back, sweetheart. Still have a point to prove, remember?โ€ He reminded, looking down at you as he spoke. His eyes drifted over your naked body, the sight almost sending him feral. His composure was hanging by a thread, and you didnโ€™t even have to do anything to worsen it. He sat the cup on the table alongside the keycard, but instead of climbing into bed with you again, he pulled his shirt over his head. You let out an audible sigh of satisfaction, thankful that he still had some kindness left in his heart for you. You peered inside the styrofoam, noticing nothing but ice. You looked back to him, dumbfounded only for a moment before realizing why he had left. The ice was not to chill any refreshments; it was just another thing for him to terrorize you with.
When he freed himself from the rest of his clothes, he dipped his fingers into the cup and pulled out a single ice cube. You settled back on the mattress, inviting him in. He took to the bed, finding himself back in his earlier position with ease. He gently laid the ice cube on your stomach, looking up at you with a smile. โ€œAre you starting to remember how much I care, angel?โ€
โ€œYeah,โ€ you breathed, focused mostly on the frigid feeling on your skin. He let out a low chuckle at your response. Instead of replying, he lowered his mouth to your stomach, just above where the ice was slowly beginning to melt from the heat of your body. He brought his tongue to the droplets, slowly running it over the skin to rid you of the water. You took in a sharp breath, the feeling of warmth from his mouth offsetting the chill from the ice almost immediately.
With ease, he slowly ran the ice up your torso. The cold was a shock, but quickly soothed with his tongue. When he reached just below your chest, he scooped the ice into his mouth and brought his lips to your nipple. He pulled it into his mouth, letting the ice sit on you before he made any further moves. The chill sent your back arching off the bed, an involuntary reflex that was prompted by the sensation. Once your nipple was hard, he began moving his tongue. A whine sounded from your throat as he continued, the feeling completely new and exciting. He continued on until the ice was a distant memory and your skin was warm once more.
When he pulled back, a shaky breath left your lips. He looked up, pleased at your expression. He gave you a smile, happy that you seemed to enjoy the change in pace. โ€œDid you like that, beautiful?โ€ Such a sweet name send your morals crashing down, no further care about your fight before finding yourselves in the position. You never seemed to catch any softness from Jake during sex, and when you did, it was earth shattering. The high energy and excitement was fantastic, but when you saw love dancing in his eyes, it reminded you of a whole different side of Jake you wished you could know.
โ€œYeah,โ€ you said, but your focus was not on his words. You both seemed to be caught in a staring contest, clinging to the adoration in each others gaze in hopes to discover what had been so often left unsaid. โ€œCan I try?โ€ He laughed at your question, suddenly overtaken by the soft spot he held for you.
โ€œIf you want to.โ€ The glimmer in his eye was so different than what you had seen from him before. It was one that was begging you to let him keep you like this for the rest of his life, and it was beautiful. Jake was not trying to prove he cared for you through rough sex and orders; he was doing the opposite, something you least expected of him. He was showing you himself to you completely, in the most intimate way possible.
โ€œOkay, lay down.โ€ You giggled, playfully shoving him off of you. He dramatically fell to the side of you, collapsing on the bed in a heap of laughter as he did. Dominance was natural to him, but vulnerability wasnโ€™t. It was his last opportunity to show you how much you truly meant to him, and he was going to do whatever it took to make you understand. He assumed your position, nestled in the pillows and watching you experiment with him.
You grabbed your own ice cube, placing it between your lips as you watched him. Instead of bringing it to his body, you approached him for kiss. With surprise, he accepted the offer and snaked his hand to your hip, guiding you towards him. It was messy, both of you passing the melting ice back and fourth with little grace, but it was right. It felt right to be so careless with him, not needing to worry if he thought you were making a fool of yourself, and not worrying if he was enjoying himself. Both of you were having a grand time, and it was solely because you were in each otherโ€™s company. When the ice landed back in your mouth, almost melted but still hanging on, you moved away from him. He almost seemed disappointed at the loss of contact, but the drunken haze of desire in his eyes told you he was excited for your next move, too.
You sank down on the mattress, laying on your stomach between his legs while giving him a sweet smile. The breath caught in his throat, hoping that you were going to do what he thought you were. You lowered your head, bringing your hand to him as you brought your mouth to his cock. He let out a shaky breath, unfamiliar with the feeling of letting someone else be in control. You brought the ice to the tip of your tongue and ran it from the base of his cock to the tip, slow and steady with your pace. His eyes fluttered closed, the sensation completely foreign yet enjoyable, mostly because it was you that was doing it. You repeated the action a few times until the ice has melted completely. Once it did, you brought your mouth to the tip and slowly began bobbing your head down on him. You kept your focus there for a moment, attempting to show him that slow could sometimes be better. He would never admit it, but in that moment he would have agreed with you.
He let out a sigh, his small way of telling you that he thought you were doing a great job. Once the feeling of him in your mouth became familiar again, you picked up the pace a bit. To him, the speed was still agonizingly slow compared to what he was used to, but he was willing to allow you to lead the way. He reached down and gathered your hair in his hand, keeping it away from your face as you worked at him. As you relaxed your jaw and took him further, your eyes fluttered up to meet his. The eye contact was almost too much for him; he thought he might finish at the sight alone. In fear of the moment ending, he closed his eyes and let his head fall back on the pillow to stop the impending orgasm. He tightened his grip on your hair, thrusting his hips upwards gently to meet the time of your mouth.
You focused on steadying your breathing, and then made your attempt to take his full length. When the tip of his cock hit the back of your throat, he let out a groan, one that was surely the most heavenly sound you had ever heard in your entire life. You felt him twitch in your mouth, an obvious sign that he was close. If it were up to you, you would have let him finish, but he used his hand in your hair to pull you off of him. โ€œIs that your way of saying sorry?โ€ His chest heaved for breath as he asked the question. You looked to him, fearful that he was not enjoying the moment as much as you were. When he saw the fear dancing in your eyes, he was quick to speak again. โ€œBecause itโ€™s working.โ€ He added, settling your anxiety. โ€œCome here.โ€ He released the hold on your hair, beckoning you towards him. You moved upwards, straddling him again. He held your hips up as he shuffled upwards too, resting his back against the headboard of the bed. โ€œYou never fail to amaze me, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He hummed, raising a hand to your cheek in a soft embrace. You leaned into the touch, reaching down to line him up with you.
โ€œSometimes I feel like I exist just to please you.โ€ You admitted, sinking down on him as a soft moan left your lips.
โ€œIf you do, youโ€™re doing a fantastic job.โ€ He assured you, pulling your upper half down towards him. You rested your forehead on his as you began to rock your hips. โ€œBut you exist for far more than that, angel.โ€ He didnโ€™t even care about the slow pace, nor the lack of control. He was so focused on loving you that he could almost forget that he was fucking you. He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, letting his eyes drift over the soft details of your face. โ€œYou have no idea how important you are, y/n. This world exists just so you can live in it.โ€ Normally, the profound emotions he was displaying would have sent you running, terrified of intimacy and vulnerability. Deep down, you knew that running was not a question anymore. You were in this until the end, and any ideas of having a fair shot at control was just not true. Jake and Sam were always in charge, running the show how they pleased and with little care. Even so, all the pain no longer mattered, because you were in love. So deeply and unconditionally in love with them that it was almost impossible to comprehend. So in love that it was impossible to communicate it, because words did not amount to anything close to what you were feeling.
โ€œDo you see it, yet?โ€ He asked, helping you move your hips. โ€œDo you feel how much I care for you?โ€
โ€œI do, Jake.โ€ You nodded against him, the verbal confirmation not seeming like it was enough. โ€œIโ€™m sorry for questioning it. I never should have doubted you.โ€ You said, feeling like your heart was going to explode. โ€œI hope you can see that I feel the same way.โ€
โ€œSay it, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He pleaded, fingers digging into the skin of your hips. โ€œI need to hear it.โ€
โ€œJake,โ€ you warned, knowing that you were both treading dangerous waters.
โ€œPlease, y/n. I canโ€™t be the one to say it first, because it wonโ€™t mean anything if I do.โ€ You had never seen or heard Jake so desperate for anything in your entire time of knowing him. โ€œIf you feel it, just say it. Weโ€™ve already said it a million different ways, just not like this. Itโ€™s not as scary as it seems, and I swear to you that Iโ€™ll keep it safe.โ€ Your heart felt like it was breaking, yet mending all at the same time. He was right, you had said it in every way except for direct, and you were scared of something you had been feeling since the beginning.
โ€œI love you, Jake.โ€ You whispered, opening your eyes to look at him. He looked up at you, gaze clouded with an unfamiliar emotion. If you looked close enough, you would have noticed the gloss of tears shining under the adoration. โ€œI love you.โ€ You said it again, stronger than the last. โ€œI love you so much that it hurts. I donโ€™t know how to love someone, or what it even means, but I know that I feel it for you, and I have for a long time.โ€
โ€œI love you, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ You both opted to ignore the shaking of his voice. He moved forward, slinking his arms around you as he pulled you into a hug. You wrapped your own around his neck, holding on to him with the same fervour. He moved so he could lay you down on the mattress, shifting so he was between your legs again. It was his favourite place to be, and even more so now that the weight of the confession had been lifted off your chests. As if heโ€™d turned feral once again, he guided your leg around him and took over control once more. He thrusted into you with more power than before, the feeling eliciting a moan from your lips.
He only continued on his pace for a few moments before his attention was drawn elsewhere. His eyes scanned the room, shining with mischief as they settled on the sliding door to the balcony. โ€œDo you trust me?โ€ He looked back to you with a wicked smile.
โ€œOf course I do,โ€ you gasped, feeling the tip of his cock brush against your cervix.
โ€œI have an idea,โ€ he announced, slowing his hips to a stop. You let out a groan at that loss of movement, unsure if you were willing to go along with his plan if it meant you had to stop. โ€œCome on,โ€ he said, drawing back from you and making a move to stand. You watched him in confusion, but sat up and slid off the bed anyway.
โ€œWhat are we doing?โ€ You asked as he helped you stand.
โ€œYou told me you loved me, Gold Dust Woman.โ€ He reminded. โ€œI think that calls for a celebration.โ€ He guided you towards the doors, using his free hand to slide it open.
โ€œJacob, absolutely not.โ€ You recoiled, staring at the dark balcony with wide eyes.
โ€œOh come on, angel. Whereโ€™s your sense of adventure?โ€ He smirked.
โ€œWhat if someone sees us?โ€ Your voice was shrill, terrified at the thought of being caught.
โ€œJust means I get to show the world how much I love you.โ€ He said, the smirk growing into a smile. You watched him in disbelief, unsure if he was even being serious. โ€œGet out there, sweetheart.โ€ He ordered, the flash of dominance returning to his lust clouded pupils.
โ€œI donโ€™t want to get caught.โ€ You shook your head, but still found yourself admiring his beauty in the dimly lit room. You were certain that he had the power to convince you to jump from a cliff if he looked at you for long enough.
โ€œThen you better keep quiet and cum fast.โ€ He was no longer willing to debate the topic, watching you with expecting eyes. You knew the softness would not last long, but you had no idea that it was turn into a show of exhibitionism. He gave you a look of warning, to which you couldnโ€™t deny. You stuck your head out of the door, noticing that none of the other patios seemed to be occupied. Next, you looked to the ground, noticing the minimal movement below. The world was quiet, and there was no better time to explore pleasure like such. With a deep breath and an air of blind confidence, you stepped out into the night, the cool air stinging your warm skin.
He followed, seeming barely concerned about your surroundings. He let his hands slip to your hips, giving you a small comfort in knowing that if you were going to be caught, he would have to take the fall with you. โ€œSee? Youโ€™re okay.โ€ He assured you, mouth hovering over your ear. You gave a small nod, allowing him to guide your upper half down and pull your hips back towards him. You gripped the rail of the balcony with your hands to keep yourself steady, feeling himself line himself up with you. โ€œIf you want to stop, just tell me.โ€
โ€œOkay,โ€ you agreed, feeling a bit more comfortable than you were when you first emerged. With a hand on your shoulder, he pulled you back on him, letting out a small sigh of relief. Once he knew you were steady in your position, he brought both hands to your hips to hold you in place as he began thrusting. Your eyes were begging to close, lulled by the ecstasy of feeling him inside you, but your mind would not allow it. You were on edge, nervous about someone seeing you, but the more he fucked into you, the less you cared.
You let a moan slip past your lips, quickly silencing yourself with hope that it went unnoticed. โ€œThatโ€™s my girl,โ€ he purred, ecstatic at your enjoyment. โ€œDo you like being a little whore for me?โ€ His voice was low, but it was loud and clear to you. It settled deep in your stomach, the beginning of the tightening knot.
โ€œGod, yes.โ€ You whispered, the anxiety fleeing you indefinitely.
โ€œFeel so fucking good, angel.โ€ He took a sharp intake of breath, likely cutting off his own sounds of pleasure. He slipped his hand around to the front of you, quickly finding your clit with his fingers. The added stimulation from the circles he was tracing were means of torture. He knew that it would be impossible to stay silent, and he was being an asshole on purpose. He sped his hips, the sound of skin on skin echoing through the empty air. If there was anyone below, it would not be difficult to imagine what was happening above. He increased the pressure of his touch, hoping that he would either coax an orgasm from you, or at least pry another moan out of you.
You clenched your jaw, holding back as much as you could, but every so often a noise too strong to hold back would surface and cut through the silence. He felt you clench around him, a sure sign that you were close, and he wasnโ€™t one to miss an opportunity. He slammed his hips into you, quickening the movement of his fingers. You were lightheaded, mind swirling with plenty of thoughts but none that made any sense. โ€œCum on my cock, baby.โ€ He muttered, encouraging you to let go. You didnโ€™t need the help, because the knot in your belly had let go. You legs were shaking and you could barely hold yourself up. He used his hand to cover your mouth, ensuring that you could ride out your orgasm without worry. When you began to descend from the euphoria, you expected him to slow, too. Instead, he continued on his brutal pace, not ready to end the night just yet. โ€œGive me one more, sweetheart.โ€
โ€œI canโ€™t, Jake.โ€ You whimpered, trying to keep yourself silent. The more he moved, the less control you had over yourself.
โ€œYou can,โ€ he promised. The irritating sensation from his fingers was overtaking every other feeling in your body, the overstimulation begging to break your psyche. โ€œBe good for me,โ€ he continued with his gentle words, knowing that if you didnโ€™t let go soon, he wouldnโ€™t be able to hold back. Your body was on fire with everything he had put you through that night, and his wish was not hard to comply with. Even though the feeling of his fingers seemed like too much, you couldnโ€™t deny the pull of pleasure underneath the discomfort.
โ€œFuck,โ€ you croaked, the insatiable sting finally overwhelming your body in a moment of weakness.
โ€œThatโ€™s it, sweet girl.โ€ He sighed, feeling you descend into another climax. He was most concerned with holding your body upright, so he had to forgo silencing you with his palm. You were too far gone to care about keeping yourself quiet, the fear obsolete next to the pleasure he was giving you. In a mess of curses and sweaty bodies, you came down from the high with stars dancing in your eyes. When he felt you relax against him, he finally allowed himself to let go, spilling into you as he echoed your name into the night. He fucked his release into you a few times before pulling away, just as a final note to end the night with. He heaved a sigh, coming back to reality and realizing the obscene display you were in. โ€œCome on, angel. Letโ€™s get you inside.โ€
You let him lead you back into the hotel room, body and mind exhausted from the high energy the night held. You both cleaned up, minds begging for sleep, but found that your hearts were aching just a little less than before. Jake pulled on his boxers, lazily throwing his shirt to you while he did so. โ€œAre you staying?โ€ You looked up at him, hope gleaming through the exhaustion.
โ€œOf course I am, baby.โ€ He said as if the question were blasphemous. You slid under the covers, making room for him to get in beside you. Once he was settled, he pulled you into his arms.
โ€œIโ€™m sorry, Jake. I never should have said that stuff.โ€
โ€œI am, too.โ€ The apologies were minimal, but stronger than they appeared. You closed your eyes, settling your head on his chest and listening to the lull of his heartbeat. โ€œCan you say it again?โ€ He asked, voice quiet and barely breaking through the night.
โ€œThat Iโ€™m sorry?โ€ You asked, wondering what he meant.
โ€œNo,โ€ he mumbled. When you realized what he wanted to hear, your heart warmed at the thought of him wanting to hear it again. All of your fears of rejection, the fear of intimacy and vulnerability was no longer important. From the sound of his voice alone, you knew that his need to know you cared was far more important than your attempts at protecting yourself.
โ€œI love you, Jake.โ€
And there it was; the statement so heavy that it had tantalized you for months, slipping past your lips like the easiest thing you had ever said. It was true, and it was so exhilarating to finally speak aloud.
But even so, as exciting as the proclamation was, it did not hinder you from falling into the same patterns as you had before. If anything, it did nothing but make it all the more painful.
You better put your kingdom up for sale
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Hello!!
get to know me !
she/her - pisces - movie + book nerd - shifter - writing as a hobby !
iโ€™m kamryn, but i go by kam. I love reading and writing and would love to share that with people :)
rules and the fandoms i write for below:
Rules:
all kinds of people are welcome here, my only rules are that you are respectful and kind.
i write smut, fluff, angst, and iโ€™ll usually will only write headcanons, blurbs, etc. not really full fics, seeing as i struggle writing about one thing for so long.
I am open to writing for fem, masc, ftm or mtf, and non gender specific readers, along with any other requests! (florist!reader, fem!reader, autistic!reader, etc).
Feel free to correct me or let me know if i have written something that is inaccurate or if i make any mistakes, but please be polite about it.
I do not write for: beastiality/anything romantic with animals, bodily fluids (other than blood, + cum), no feet kinks please, oc x reader, non con.
There will be others but feel free to request and if it makes me uncomfortable i will add it to the list and politely decline
I write for
Wolfbloods
โ€ข Rhydian Morris
โ€ข Maddy Smith
โ€ข Tom Okinawa
Teen Wolf
โ€ข Scott McCall
โ€ข Stiles Stilinski
โ€ข Derek Hale
โ€ข Allison Argent
โ€ข Lydia Martin
โ€ข Liam Dunbar
โ€ข Malia Tate
The Maze Runner
โ€ข Thomas
โ€ข Newt (only mlm)
โ€ข Gally
โ€ข Minho
โ€ข Frypan
โ€ข Brenda
โ€ข Teresa
Bridgerton
โ€ข Anthony Bridgerton
โ€ข Eloise Bridgerton
โ€ข Daphne Bridgerton
โ€ข Simon Basset
โ€ข Colin Bridgerton
โ€ข Theo Sharpe
โ€ข Benedict Bridgerton
Deadly Class
โ€ข Saya Kuroki
โ€ข Marcus Lopez
โ€ข Willie Lewis
โ€ข Maria Salazar
โ€ข Billy Bennet
โ€ข Petra
Marvel
โ€ข Pietro Maximoff
โ€ข Remy LeBeau
โ€ข Tony Stark
โ€ข Loki Laufeyson
โ€ข Natasha Romanoff
Scream
โ€ข Billy Loomis
โ€ข Tatum Riley
โ€ข Stu Macher
โ€ข Sidney Prescott
โ€ข Ethan Landry
โ€ข Amber Freeman
โ€ข Wes Hicks
โ€ข Sam Carpenter
โ€ข Mindy Meeks
โ€ข Chad Meeks
โ€ข Tara Carpenter
Extra
โ€ข Andrew Neiman (Whiplash)
โ€ข Mason Freeland (Thirteenโ€” 2003)
โ€ข Dead Poets Society
โ€ข Harry Potter (canon and fanon characters like the slytherin boys or marauders era)
โ€ข OBX
โ€ข DC
โ€ข Criminal Minds
โ€ข COD
โ€ข Red Dead Redemption 2
โ€ข Sturniolo Brothers
I will be updating this list, but feel free to request any characters or fandoms youโ€™d like me to write for and iโ€™ll happily look into it!
I also am happy to write for celebrities! (Jack Champion, Evan Peters, Dylan Oโ€™brien, etc)
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best-supermassive-character ยท 1 year ago
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Matt Taylor x Jessica Riley
1. Their interactions in the mines๐Ÿฅบ
2. mines. no more words just mines. thereโ€™s so much potential, like Matt holds Jess so carefully when she feels not good and heโ€™s so material for her iโ€™m screaming
Ryan Erzahler x Dylan Lenivy (Rylan)
1. Theyโ€™re both dorks and very much deserve each other in the best way
2. "Swarm of bears?" "Yeah ...?" "*Herd* of bears." "Yeah, I've heard of bears ..." (Basically, their dialogue is absolute golden!)
3. I like Dylan Dylan
4. Canon gays ok. They match each other beautifully
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Character Name Ideas (Male)
So I've been browsing through BehindTheName (great resource!) recently and have compiled several name lists. Here are some names, A-Z, that I like. NOTE: If you want to use any of these please verify sources, meanings etc, I just used BehindTheName to browse and find all of these. Under the cut:
A: Austin, Aiden, Adam, Alex, Angus, Anthony, Archie, Argo, Ari, Aric, Arno, Atlas, August, Aurelius, Alexei, Archer, Angelo, Adric, Acarius, Achilou, Alphard, Amelian, Archander B: Bodhi, Bastian, Baz, Beau, Beck, Buck, Basil, Benny, Bentley, Blake, Bowie, Brad, Brady, Brody, Brennan, Brent, Brett, Brycen C: Cab, Cal, Caden, Cรกel, Caelan, Caleb, Cameron, Chase, Carlos, Cooper, Carter, Cas, Cash, Cassian, Castiel, Cedric, Cenric, Chance, Chandler, Chaz, Chad, Chester, Chet, Chip, Christian, Cillian, Claude, Cicero, Clint, Cody, Cory, Coy, Cole, Colt, Colton, Colin, Colorado, Colum, Conan, Conrad, Conway, Connor, Cornelius, Creed, Cyneric, Cynric, Cyrano, Cyril, Cyrus, Crestian, Ceric D: Dallas, Damien, Daniel, Darach, Dash, Dax, Dayton, Denver, Derek, Des, Desmond, Devin, Dewey, Dexter, Dietrich, Dion, Dmitri, Dominic, Dorian, Douglas, Draco, Drake, Drew, Dudley, Dustin, Dusty, Dylan, Daniรจu E: Eadric, Evan, Ethan, Easton, Eddie, Eddy, Einar, Eli, Eilas, Eiljah, Elliott, Elton, Emanuel, Emile, Emmett, Enzo, Erik, Evander, Everett, Ezio F: Faolรกn, Faron, Ferlin, Felix, Fenrir, Fergus, Finley, Finlay, Finn, Finnian, Finnegan, Flint, Flip, Flynn, Florian, Forrest, Fritz G: Gage, Gabe, Grady, Grant, Gray, Grayson, Gunnar, Gunther, Galahad H: Hale, Harley, Harper, Harvey, Harry, Huey, Hugh, Hunter, Huxley I: Ian, Ianto, Ike, Inigo, Isaac, Isaias, Ivan, รsak J: Jack, Jacob, Jake, Jason, Jasper, Jax, Jay, Jensen, Jed, Jeremy, Jeremiah, Jesse, Jett, Jimmie, Jonas, Jonas, Jonathan, Jordan, Josh, Julien, Jovian, Jun, Justin, Joseph, Joni, K: Kaden, Kai, Kale, Kane, Kaz, Keane, Keaton, Keith, Kenji, Kenneth, Kent, Kevin, Kieran, Kip, Knox, Kris, Kristian, Kyle, Kay, Kristjรกn, Kristรณfer L: Lamont, Lance, Landon, Lane, Lars, Lรกszlรณ, Laurent, Layton, Leander, Leif, Leo, Leonidas, Leopold, Levi, Lewis, Louie, Liam, Liberty, Lincoln, Linc, Linus, Lionel, Logan, Loki, Lucas, Lucian, Lucio, Lucky, Luke, Luther, Lyall, Lycus, Lykos, Lyle, Lyndon, Llewellyn, Landri, Laurian, Lionรง M: Major, Manny, Manuel, Marcus, Mason, Matt, Matthew, Matthias, Maverick, Maxim, Memphis, Midas, Mikko, Miles, Mitch, Mordecai, Mordred, Morgan, Macari, Maรฏus, Maxenci, Micolau, Miro N: Nate, Nathan, Nathaniel, Niall, Nico, Niels, Nik, Noah, Nolan, Niilo, Nikander, Novak, O: Oakley, Octavian, Odin, Orlando, Orrick, วชrvar, Othello, Otis, Otto, Ovid, Owain, Owen, ร˜yvind, Ozzie, Ollie, Oliver, Onni P: Paisley, Palmer, Percival, Percy, Perry, Peyton, Phelan, Phineas, Phoenix, Piers, Pierce, Porter, Presley, Preston, Pacian Q: Quinn, Quincy, Quintin R: Ragnar, Raiden, Ren, Rain, Rainier, Ramos, Ramsey, Ransom, Raul, Ray, Roy, Reagan, Redd, Reese, Rhys, Rhett, Reginald, Remiel, Remy, Ridge, Ridley, Ripley, Rigby, Riggs, Riley, River, Robert, Rocky, Rokas, Roman, Ronan, Ronin, Romeo, Rory, Ross, Ruairรญ, Rufus, Rusty, Ryder, Ryker, Rylan, Riku, Roni S: Sammie, Sammy, Samuel, Samson, Sanford, Sawyer, Scout, Seรกn, Seth, Sebastian, Seymour, Shane, Shaun, Shawn, Sheldon, Shiloh, Shun, Sid, Sidney, Silas, Skip, Skipper, Skyler, Slade, Spencer, Spike, Stan, Stanford, Sterling, Stevie, Stijn, Suni, Sylvan, Sylvester T: Tab, Tad, Tanner, Tate, Tennessee, Tero, Terrance, Tevin, Thatcher, Tierno, Tino, Titus, Tobias, Tony, Torin, Trace, Trent, Trenton, Trev, Trevor, Trey, Troy, Tripp, Tristan, Tucker, Turner, Tyler, Ty, Teemu U: Ulric V: Valerius, Valor, Van, Vernon, Vespasian, Vic, Victor, Vico, Vince, Vinny, Vincent W: Wade, Walker, Wallis, Wally, Walt, Wardell, Warwick, Watson, Waylon, Wayne, Wes, Wesley, Weston, Whitley, Wilder, Wiley, William, Wolfe, Wolfgang, Woody, Wulfric, Wyatt, Wynn X: Xander, Xavier Z: Zachary, Zach, Zane, Zeb, Zebediah, Zed, Zeke, Zeph, Zaccai
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