#rhys : confessionals

[ttimecode]

i feel so bad for never posting oricarmie bro i love them sm.... i should talk abt them more.....

i think after orion finds out that carmine was bullied, he definitely tracks them down (even if carmine doesn't tell him who it was)

he won't hurt them since he doesn't want to stoop as low as GHOST, but he'll pull pranks like locking them in a dark room for like an hour or two or just smth as simple as like. pouring a bucket of water over their heads

and then when it's over he steals buys some ice cream for him and carmine 😇😇

at one point orion probably stops since he has to gain approval from rhys to date carmine in the first place so. he tries to be on his best behavior HAHAHSHHSBBD

[properbantz]

BEACH HUT CONFESSIONALS — RHYS ALDRIDGE

day: 31

BEACH HUT CONFESSIONALS — RHYS ALDRIDGE (fr ig)

day: 31

WHAT ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TOO ABOUT REUNITING WITH THE OTHER VILLA? WHAT ARE YOU DREADING THE MOST? 

“josh?” it comes out a little bit like, are you really asking me that? “maybe a little for both, knowing what he told naomi and not jenny, knowing what happened with jenny and max, knowing he’s not seb’s biggest fan, or the postcard? all that aside. he’s still my best friend here and i miss him. definitely uh.. not looking forward to having to talk to bash. dreading that a little.”

IS THERE A BOMBSHELL THAT’S AT THE TOP OF YOUR ‘LIST’? WHO WOULD YOU BRING BACK? 

he hums a little, thinking about it. he really did not try very hard to get to know any of them except charlene huh? “i guess at the top of my ‘list’ is charlene. there’s something infectious about her energy, you know? she’s golden. it’s hard not to feel safe with her. i’d like to bring her back, i think.”  IF NONE OF THE BOMBSHELLS COULD COME BACK, WHO WOULD YOU MISS THE MOST? 

“well, char. but uh also jude? i like having another person around that just speaks and like.. everyone’s a little confused. it makes me feel better.” he laughs a little, “so yeah. i hope jenny brings him back.”  

WHAT CONVERSATIONS DO YOU NEED TO HAVE THE MOST WHEN YOU REUNITE? 

“i definitely need to uh.. talk to bash. gotta settle that, i guess. i don’t think it’ll go over well. like if i was able to do this several days ago...” he sighs, “i’m sure i’ll have to talk to josh. talk to seb again, about..” recoupling or something. leaving. whatever. 

WHAT ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT THE DECISIONS OF THE OTHER ISLANDERS? WHO DO YOU THINK HAS MADE THE BEST CONNECTION? 

“i don’t know. i hope someone has.” he looks back at a producer, laughing out of genuine exhaustion and probably some whiplash. “what the fuck just happened these last couple days?” 

[meta-squash]

Some random maybe rambling thoughts about Jack and his feelings towards his team:

I think Jack's love for, relationship with, and treatment of each individual member of his team is really interesting.

Owen and Tosh are the two team members he truly hand-picked. He followed Owen and recruited him. He literally tracked Tosh down and made a deal to get her out of a UNIT prison. He did his research finding them, making sure they were right, convincing them to join him. He did, essentially, save them and allow them a space to remake themselves.

And for the most part he treats the two of them in a sort of paternal way. Owen, especially, but both of them. He's firm when he needs to be, and gentle when he needs to be, but there's this sort of distant yet intense protectiveness of them. Like the way a parent still sees their child as a vulnerable thing that needs caring for, even after their child is a fully grown adult. His love for them is extremely protective, but he's not close with them, he doesn't confess his thoughts or feelings to them except in dire circumstances like in Dead Man Walking when he's with Owen in the jail.

So his loss of them is a loss of a father because, in a sense, he created who they were in Torchwood. He found them, worked to recruit them. He gave them a space to grow and learn and change and hone their talents, and he supported and taught and molded them. They were part of his earliest hand-picked team, too, so they were there for long enough that they saw the growing pains, and they were his, in a way that I think he was sort of convinced they'd be with him for a long time, which is why he was so desperate to bring Owen back the first time. He loved them so much he kind of forgot Torchwood has a high mortality rate, sort of in the way a parent assumes they won't bury their child.

On the other hand, both Ianto and Gwen kind of recruited themselves. Ianto harassed Jack into a job, and Gwen unintentionally brute-forced herself out of Retcon in such a spectacularly dramatic way that it got her a job. They found him, not the other way around.

Jack's relationship with them is different. He's closer to them, less paternal, more confessional, more romantic. It's interesting that he sees them both as potential (and in Ianto's case, eventual) love interests. It seems like he doesn't feel quite as responsible for them, or at least he feels responsible in a different way. He's able to open up to them about himself in a way that he doesn't do with Tosh and Owen. And he's not as put off when they question him. It's almost as if because they independently forced themselves into the job, they're more like equals, or rivals, or something. There's a different sort of potential relationship there from Owen and Tosh.

But it also means that he doesn't or can't love them in the same way. I think somehow he subconsciously thinks he can stop himself from falling in love romantically, but he doesn't seem to think about that parental type of love. So he tries to keep his distance from Gwen and Ianto a bit, knowing he'll hurt them and they'll hurt him. But he doesn't take Owen and Tosh into account. But it does mean that Ianto's loss is different one. It's a grief of a romantic type, the loss of a lover, but it's also this awful "what if" that hangs there, what if Jack had been willing to be closer, had been willing to have a proper relationship with Ianto while it lasted instead of this sort of weird undefined thing, what if Ianto had lived, etc. And Gwen, too, becomes a "what if," in a living sense, once she's married to Rhys. That frisson is always there between them, but once she and Rhys are married it becomes a sort of hypothetical between them, what if she'd chosen Jack, what if they took it past the abstraction of yearning into something real, what if what if, etc. Only it's not mourning, it's something else entirely because she's still there with him.

I just find it so interesting that the two hand-picked members Jack seems to see as his children and the two who forced their way into to Torchwood he seems to see as potential romantic interests.

[bookishwithathought]

I need Azriel to have a confessional moment with Gwyn, similar to Rhys with Feyre in the cabin. Doesn’t need to lead to a chapter 55 moment (I actually prefer if it doesn’t lead to anything physical so it doesn’t distract from the tenderness of the confession, and the last thing Az needs is getting physical too soon with his mate, boy needs the inner work to happen first), but more than anything he needs someone he will trust on that level, where he’s unfiltered and uncensored. He’s not even like that with his friends of centuries, he shuts down even with his closest people.

I need it so I can hug my box of tissues with snot running down my chin and vision blurred by tears while reading it.

I need Gwyn to take his face into her hands, stare at his face until he meets her eyes, and say “you’re enough. You’re good. You are exactly what you ought to be and exactly who I want, and I’ll always remind you in case you forget. I’ll also kick your ass in the process” with a wide grin at the last.

Amid tears. Azriel grasps her hands still on his face and smiles. “It would be my pleasure to have my ass kicked by you everyday. Just be here everyday.”

OK BYE 😭

[bookofmirth]

I was thinking about when Lucien tells Feyre that she was a better friend to him than she was to her, and how we as readers have reacted to that line over the years, and had a few thoughts.

The main thing is that characters can and will do/say things that they believe to be true, that we know are not actually true. The characters may also know that they are untrue, but don't want to admit. We lie to ourselves all the time, and characters do too. It may not even be the case that sjm wants *us* to believe that Lucien is speaking the truth. The important thing is that, in that moment, Lucien believes that he is speaking the truth.

We should not confuse what the characters are saying with what the author is saying. An author is NOT their characters. A character can and will say/do things that an author does not agree with, and may not even like. A character saying/doing something is NOT an endorsement of saying/doing that thing by the author. (This can be easier to understand when you read poetry - though there has been an increase in confessional poetry in the past few decades which is largely autobiographical, the narrator of a poem is NOT necessarily the same as the author of a poem.)

This isn't to say that Feyre is being an unreliable narrator; we have Lucien's literal words that he spoke to her, there was no reflection on those words by Feyre that tells us what she thinks of them, and she would have no reason to lie. As a fandom, I wish we could stop getting so hung up on the idea of unreliable narrators and differing character perspectives as a means to argue that one character is "more right" than another, or that we get "the truth" when we view from a specific character's eyes. That's... not how it works. There is no such thing as an objective way of viewing pretty much anything. Everything relies on perspective. We all hear/read things and those things get filtered through the giant pasta strainer of our upbringing, our beliefs, our values, our professions, our hobbies, etc. SJM has never been an author to use unreliable narration, but she does use differing perspectives. If she didn't, then every single character would seem like the same person. It's 10000% normal for us to understand characters and events differently when we hear about them from another character.

So back to my main point, I think that we can read this as Lucien genuinely believing this statement to be true - that he truly thinks that Feyre was a better friend to him if we consider his context.

Lucien has no real home with stability. He was banished from Autumn, he is estranged from his brothers, he cannot be there to protect his mother, his role in Spring has some importance but is reliant on the goodwill of someone who is, frankly, increasingly unstable. Lucien likely feels very indebted to Tamlin, and now that Feyre is Tamlin's bride/ex-fiancée, to her. There is also the role that she played UtM in trying to help Lucien. In other words, thanks to Beron being an asshole, Lucien relies on other people's goodwill for his basic survival. (This is why, later on, he would rather stay with the BoE. He isn't beholden to them in the same way that he would be to Rhys, yet another person taking pity on Lucien's dépaysement.)

In retrospect, Lucien feels guilt for not having done more when Feyre was suffering in acomaf. It's easier for him to see how she was suffering because he was suffering in an adjacent manner. In the beginning of acomaf, Feyre was making excuses for Tamlin, trying to be patient, to wait out his anger and grief at what happened UtM. Lucien was doing the exact same thing, but it took him longer to recognize how toxic it was because Lucien, unlike Feyre, didn't have the advantage of someone literally swooping in to take him away and give him perspective. He got there, though, when Tamlin starts working with Hybern and especially after he sees Feyre back in Spring, which leads me to my next point.

Lucien is clearly wary of Feyre's lies while she is in the Night Court. He suspects that she is pretending to be in love with Tamlin, pretending to be loyal to the Spring Court. This reinforces his understanding of just how toxic Spring has become, the fact that Feyre saw it, understood, and acted before he did. So tying these issues together - Lucien's exile, his reliance on other people for stability, his dawning understanding that Feyre recognized the situation for what it was before he did, that he has ended up in this situation where his mate is now at risk - and Lucien feels a whole lot of "if only I had..." And he now sees Feyre as someone who saw the situation for what it was before he did, and acted accordingly. But we as the reader know why that was harder for Lucien.

So going back to my point about Lucien believing this is all true, we know that it's not, and that's a normal part of being a reader. Lucien makes that statement after telling Feyre about Ianthe and Calanmai; we know that not long after, right after she tells Lucien that she wishes she could have stopped his assault, she nearly - knowingly - allows it to happen again. Lucien's words and Feyre's actions don't align, and there is nothing in the narrative that tells us that her actions are okay.

(A related rant, but characters don't need to be punished for us to understand if their actions are morally okay or not. We are smart people, we can tell that for ourselves. It may be annoying to us if they aren't punished, but that's another idea that has pervaded book spaces - that if problematic action isn't punished or portrayed negatively, then the author must think it's okay. No, maybe the author trusts us to know what's right and what's not, and doesn't feel the need to beat us over the head with it because books do not have to be moral, didactic tools.)

SJM could have written it so that Feyre didn't hesitate to help Lucien. She could have written it so that Feyre didn't intentionally try to put Lucien in the path of Tamlin's anger. She could have written Feyre to be a saint, but she didn't, and just because another character views Feyre's actions favorably doesn't mean that we have to, because we have the benefit of knowing that sometimes, people lie to themselves and/or say things they don't truly mean or believe. And furthermore, just because one character views Feyre's actions favorably, doesn't mean that SJM does. Remember - the characters =/= the author. SJM doesn't actually believe or agree with everything the characters say and do. She doesn't have to agree with anything they say or do.

Thanks for coming to my tedtalk.

[jils-things]

i do things very pg rated to rhys every morning. i say things i can definitely repeat at church to his ear. that's my rhys take as his first enjoyer and writer of my best seller "my immortal (lurhys edition)"

ALSKSJAKSKSJANEBDGDJAISJBEUSJEIDISJ IM FUCKIGGJ CRYINGS MY ASS WAS NOT READY TO RESPOND TO THIS CONFESSIONAL WADA HELL WHAKAKAKAKAJAHAJAKEBHEHSSHSH

[onlineproblems]

Let's just save everyone some time and annoyance. Instead of posting my entire Spotify library one track a time, cluttering up your dash, here's my top 200 songs (minus the X-Files soundtrack...) so that those who care can look.

Top - Live

Carry on Phenomenon - Kishi Bashi

Gillian Anderson - DeRita Sisters

T.B.D. - Live

Philosophize In It! Chemicalize In It! - Kishi Bashi

The Sandman - PJ Harvey

All Over You - Live

Fall - Davido

Crystal Ship - The Doors

Everyday - Weyes Blood

Shit Towne - Live

Sylvia - The Antlers

Theme for Scanty and Knee Socks - TeddyLoid

Fighting With the Melody - Jimmy Urine

Prometeme - Monsiuer Perine

Doctor Blind - Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton

Selling the Drama - Live

Bad Girls - Donna Summer

Paralyzer - Finger Eleven

Get It Up - MSI

Stage - Live

Hollywood Baby - 100 Gecs

Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens

Jesusland - Ben Folds

Broken - UNKLE

Like a G6 - Far East Movement

Sober - Fidlar

A&W - Lana Del Rey

Twilight Time - The Platters

Witch - the bird and the bee

The Perfect Drug - NIN

Mulder and Scully - Catatonia

Concerning the UFO sighting - Sufjan Stevens

Freezing - Mozella

Epilogue - The Antlers

I Alone - Live

Never Wanted to Dance - MSI

A Lot's Gonna Change - Weyes Blood

Iris - Live

Obstacle 1 - Interpol

Jinja - Olamide

The Heaviest Matter of the Universe - Gojira

The Less I Know the Better - Tame Impala

Waitress - Live

Starman - David Bowie

Death is a Girl - Mini Mansions

My Gun - Tove Lo

TAIL - SUNMI

Sheisty - Trinidad James

Come on Eileen - Dexys Midnight Runners

Close to You - Carpenters

Eventually - Tame Impala

Never Let Me Down Again - Depeche Mode

The Dam at Otter Creek - Live

Intro/Pathos, Pathos - Kishi Bashi

Mulder, It's Me - Roach Coach

Take What's Mine - Baumer

Patty Hearst - Jimmy Urine

Oblivion - Grimes

Wonderboy - Tenacious D

Andromeda - Weyes Blood

MY GOD! - Tessa Violet

Enjoy the Silence - Depeche Mode

Here Comes the Hotstepper - Ini Kamoze, Salaam Remi

Volverte a Ver - Monsieur Perine

Get Over It - OK Go

money machine - 100 Gecs

Knife Prty - Purity Ring

Loser - Beck

I-E-A-I-A-I-O - System of a Down

Gasolina - Daddy Yankee

Scroll Patrol - Rinse and Repeat

Sleep - Conjure One, Rhys Fulber

Every Third Thought - David Duchovny

Somebody's Watching Me - Rockwell

Attack - System of a Down

Seether - Veruca Salt

Fucking Boyfriend - the bird and the bee

Something Good Can Work - Two Door Cinema Club

Funkin' Around - Outkast

867-5309 - Tommy Tutone

Attitude - Buggin

Son of Sam - Elliot Smith

Goatmeal - LustSickPuppy

RIDE IT - LustSickPuppy

Space Oddity - David Bowie

All I Really Want - Alanis Morissette

She Blinded Me With Science - Thomas Dolby

The Government Knows - Knower

Don't Worry About the Government - Talking Heads

Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

Crystal Ball - Keane

Life on Mars? - David Bowie

Road to Nowhere - Talking Heads

She's An Angel - They Might Be Giants

Sci-Fi Wasabi - Cibo Matto

Yours Truly, 2095 - ELO

How to Disappear Completely - Radiohead

In the Backseat - Arcade Fire

Oh Comely - Neutral Milk Hotel

La Mer - NIN

Burn the Witch - Radiohead

Galaxies - Laura Veirs

Scientist - The Dandy Warhols

Stella was a diver and she was always down - Interpol

Hurt - NIN

Female of the Species - Space

Lithium - Nirvana

Black - Pearl Jam

Karma Police - Radiohead

Hungry Like the Wolf - Duran Duran

Who Can it Be Now - Men At Work

Gila Monster - King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard

The Boy with the Thorn in His Side - The Smiths

Live Fast, Diarrhea - The Vandals

Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessionals

OG! - JPEGMAFIA

MakeDamnSure - Taking Back Sunday

Freak Mode - Dorian Electra

Welcome to Earth (Pollywog) - Sturgill Simpson

Origin of Love - MIKA

The Curse of Curves - Cute is What We Aim For

love nwantiti - CKAY

Adore You - Miley Cyrus

On & On - Longpigs

Dumb - KOPPS

Anubis - Septicflesh

Girls on Film - Duran Duran

Friday I'm in Love - The Cure

Andrew in Drag - The Magnetic Fields

Water of the Gods - The Changes

La Gozadera - Gente De Zona

Violent Pornography - System of a Down

You Sexy Thing - Zella Day

Heart Burn - SUNMI

Party Time - The Northern Boys

Dani California - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Island in the Sun - Weezer

Babooshka - Kate Bush

Californication - Red Hot Chili Peppers

What Kind of Name is Love – Big Kid

Hacker – Death Grips

Space Age Love Song – A Flock of Seagulls

The Way We Talk – The Maine

Walking on a Dream – Empire of the Sunday

Neighbour – Mother Mother

Slow Dancing – Aly & AJ

To the Hellfire – Lorna Shore

Los Ageless – St. Vincent

So Hot You’re Hurting My Feelings – Caroline Polachek

Me and Bobby McGee – Janis Joplin

The Message – Grandmaster Flash

Maria – HWASA

Mothercreep – FKA Twigs

Locket – Crumb

When You Die – MGMT

I Want You – Mitski

Ghost Town – The Specials

joke! - SE SO NEON

You Oughta Know – Alanis Morissette

Propagation – Com Truise

No Rest for the Wicked – Lykke Li

Genghis Khan – Miike Snow

Kettering – The Antlers

Just Say Yes – Snow Patrol

Take a Walk – Passion Pit

Major Tim – Shiny Toy Guns

Neighborhood #2 (Laika) – Arcade Fire

Genius Next Door – Regina Spektor

More Than Words – Extreme

Creature Comfort – Arcade Fire

Dark Red – Steve Lacy

Let It Happen – Tame Impala

Crimewave – Crystal Castle

Church – Aly & AJ

Better Things – Passion Pit

Tulsa Jesus Freak – Lana Del Rey

cellophane – FKA Twings

Insane in the Brain – Cypress Hill

Me and My Husband – Mitski

Duality – Slipknot

Send Me an Angel – Infected Mushroom

Lady – Regina Spektor

Girl Loves Me – David Bowie

I’m Yer Dad – GRLwood

Hollywood Junkyard – The Bobby Lees

Disco Heaven – Lady Gaga

Helplessness Blues – Fleet Foxes

Such Great Heights – The Postal Service

In Cauda Venenum – The Dear Hunter

The Other Side – Pendulum

Bruma – MOL

Alrighty Aphrodite – Peach Put

Prince Johnny – St. Vincent

Shake It – Metro Station

You Are the Right One – Sports

Now We Can See – The Thermals

Body – Mother Mother

Kids – MGMT

I Will Possess Your Heart – Death Cab For Cutie

[graftisms]

BEACH HUT CONFESSIONALS 11: JOSHUA VARGAS DAY THIRTY-ONE ( CASA DAY 4 )

what are you most looking forward to about reuniting with the other villa ?   what are you dreading the most ?

“ oh man, i’m kinda going crazy right now, ”   josh laughs.   “ i was excited when i first heard the text, because obviously i’ve been talking about finally getting to talk things out with naomi for days now. but... it’s not going to be easy, either. for all i know she could be coming back with someone. hell, she probably is coming back with someone, knowing her. so that won’t be easy, but i’m also looking forward to it too ?   i don’t know. i’m definitely excited to see romi again though, i’ve missed her like mad. rhys too, i hope he’s got a nice guy or girl or whatever coming back with him. the guy deserves it. i’m... not looking forward to seeing jenny again, honestly. ”   josh rubs the back of his neck.   “ it’s been easy to ignore the way things left off with us while she’s been gone, but i actually don’t know where her head’s at. i’m assuming she’s bringing someone back too, but that doesn’t mean things between us are finished. i mean, for me they are. they have to be. yeah. ”

if you were to stick, why would you ?   why would you consider switching ?

“ i don’t know, y’know. i think everyone at this point in casa knows that i want to be with naomi, but there’s no ignoring that she’s probably bringing some dude back. plus after sleeping with mali on night one, i doubt she’s going to be able to suddenly trust me again. and then there’s the whole dylan thing, so... it would be smart to bring someone back, just in case. i’m trying to figure out if i should be game playing here—because everything’s a game with naomi—or just shoot my shot, even if it means getting dumped. ” 

if none of the bombshells could come back, who would you miss most ?

“ layla, for sure. i think if i were to bring anyone back right now, it’s gonna be her. though, to be honest, i do think phoebe deserves a shot too. i don’t know what happened between her and dylan yesterday, but she seems really upset, and she’s a sweet girl. even if she did friendzone me. and then miles, obviously, ”   josh laughs.   “ if frankie doesn’t bring him back, i just might do it myself. he’s a really good dude, reminds me of my friends back home. i haven’t had a friend like that here since luke, so it’s been nice. a highlight of casa. ”   he pauses.   “ i’ll probably miss mali too, even though i know how that sounds. i don’t know, maybe i should be bringing her back out of anyone. ”

what conversations do you need to have most when you reunite ?

“ besides the obvious ? ”   he laughs.   “ no, i’ll probably wait to see if dylan and naomi are gonna hash their shit out immediately, otherwise pull naomi first. i think the longer we go without talking, i’ll start breaking out into hives. jenny will have to come eventually too, but... that one can wait a bit longer. ”

what are you feeling about the decisions of the other islanders ?   who do you think has made the best connection ?

“ the best connection is frankie and miles, for sure. i really should’ve voted them for the hideaway. dylan feels like a waste of a vote now. but there’s no way she’s not bringing him back. i guess i should say val and marcus too, since they’ve been all over each other this entire time, but i don’t know. i’m biased, but i think if marcus brings val back, it’s just delaying the inevitable about him and romi getting back together. i still don’t love the way their relationship ended, on both of them, but there’s no way they’re ending this thing with other people. i think he should come back single for romi. ”   josh shrugs.   “ dylan, well. who knows what he’s thinking. i’m assuming he’s bringing back adela at this point, since he’s moved from phoebe to her in twenty-four hours. they seem into each other, so hey, good for them. it’ll be good to keep adela around, although i don’t love the idea of her and naomi talking about me. i just hope he doesn’t come back single. like, he’d be an idiot for that, and it might make me have to rethink what the hell i’m doing. it’d be naive to think what dylan does won’t affect me. but who knows—if he doesn’t bring back adela, maybe i’ll have to do it myself. ”

[dobits]

DAY 27 ... max braddy’s dumping confessional

did you see that dumping coming at all?

“am i a dumb cunt if i say no? it’s the most random night ever. and, look, i know everybody’s got big beef with dejan, but... at least the guy’s more interesting than most of the fools around here. i mean, c’mon, bash? maddox? rhys is only here to fluff josh, i’m telling you.”

do you think you deserved to stick around?

”fuck yeah,” max laughs, leaning back in the chair. “c’mon, you can’t look at my, what? five or six days here and say i had a fair chance. at least i made the most of my last couple.”

is there anything you would’ve done differently on the inside?

this takes some real thought. mostly because he was pretty drunk for a lot of it and the memories are all hazy. “i would’ve told josh me and jenny fucked raw.” the leering grin quickly melts off in favor of a manufactured look of sincerity. “just kidding, we totally used a condom. in the shower. yeah, always stay safe kids.” anyways. “nah, that was actually a really tender, meaningful thing to me. i mean, it was really fucking fun and i’m just lookin’ forward to seeing her on the outside. if anybody has any ideas for what could rhyme with shower, lemme know, ‘cause i’m drawing a blank.”

is there anyone else you would’ve liked to see leave instead?

”rhys and bash, obviously. but i get it, my fellow islanders wouldn’t know good tv if it smacked ‘em in their shiny, white veneers. oh, sorry, josh -- is it too soon?”

do you think any of the current couples have a shot at making it to the end?

“well, i’m gonna go on a limb and say josh and jenny’s time is probably running out,” he strokes his stubbled chin, half pretending to hide his growing grin. “there’s no way naomi and dylan are gonna last either. well, they’ll probably try their best to grit their teeth and power through it, but if the guy has any self-respect, he’ll grab the first bombshell he sees.”

 who would you like to see win?

“i think frankie and callie have a real shot, to be honest with ya. far as i can tell, they’re the realest ones in there. they got my vote.”

who do you think you’ll stay friends with after leaving the villa?

“me and josh are gonna go on a boys trip, first thing.” can’t even get the words out without snorting. “nah, i’m cool with everybody in there, i don’t give a shit. if you mean who do i think is gonna get more than just a follow back on ig? the usual suspects, of course - the blondes. frankie, jenny. seb and me always been chill. and, y’know, call me crazy, but i don’t think you’ve seen the last of me and miss naomi santos.” there’s a pause as he thinks, feels like he’s forgetting somebody. “oh, shit, dejan. hey, do you know which jail they dropped that fool off at?”

anything else you’d like to add about your time in the villa?

“was fun as fuck, i’m glad i got the opportunity. to those who were team max, i love you, baby. and, uh, yeah... oh, album’s dropping next month, stream it wherever you listen to music, and tour’s kicking off at the top of summer. first stop is the avalon. LA, i’m lookin’ at you. see ya’ll there.”

[guttcd]

DEJAN BENNANI’S BEACH HUT CONFESSIONAL ➝ EXIT

after getting hauled away by security and getting first aid assistance, the producers were kind enough to remind him that he is contractually obligated to complete the dumped beach hut prompt before leaving  the villa officially and oh my god, this man is fuming. dejan is sat with a clenched jaw and hardened eyes, currently nursing his split lip with his tongue. one of his legs is shaking, impatience and adrenaline still festering in his veins.

𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐮𝐦𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥?

“yah.”

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝?

“dunno.”

𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝’𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞?

“nah.” 

𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝’𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐝?

“eh.”

𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝? 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐧?

“they could all choke for all i care.” 

𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮’��𝐥 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚?

he laughs.

𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐝𝐝 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚?

“nah get me the fuck — actually. you know what?”  mid-way through standing up, he plops himself back on the couch. his posture is more upright, a little more intent on actually speaking.  “yeah. let me go through the list um… marcus and romi were clearly a joke. so much for power couple. it didn’t even take a full week to break that up, isn’t that wild? almost makes you think that it’s all bullshit, doesn’t it? marcus is a fucking loser. seeing him whining like a baby gave me the biggest ick of all time. romi’s obsession with him was cute and all but it sure didn’t take them long to move on, did it? maybe they’ll finally start showing their true colors now that they don’t have a boy toy to impress. i thought marcus was her lapdog but now i’m thinking maybe josh is the one deserving of the title. fucking asshole didn’t stop nipping at my ankles until the very end. i hope i see those buck teeth again because i will punch them straight in. maybe someday jenny will grow a backbone and do it herself. that girl has to be dickmatized and i’ve never seen a more unfortunate case of it. she’s down that bad for midsize? that blonde bleach dye must have done a number on her brain cells. speaking of unfortunate, if rhys’ self-respect was half the size of his bobble ass head he probably wouldn’t look so damn sad all the time and he probably would still be partnered up with dylan instead of bash. which, by the way … i think you guys need to do a little more digging on him because i’m 95% sure you all just let a minor enter the villa.  naomi is fake, spoiled and a downright bitch but i pray that dylan takes a note out of her shit-stirring book because that man is about as thrilling as watching paint dry. i wish i could at least say that slutty side of him is fun but it’s not. watch a grown man fumble to figure out what he wants enough times and you start feeling, i don’t know, embarrassed for him. maybe it runs in the family ‘cus callie is hardly any more exciting.   i would love for someone to list one note-worthy thing she’s done aside from getting manhandled by her partner. who apparently eats boogers on the regular back home. seriously, what ‘yippee ki-yay’ trailer park did you all pick frankie up from?  uh, yeah. nana is a wimp for quitting the show. seb gives good head . maddox smells like someone just cracked a whole bunch of pretentious colognes  into an hermes purse. if i’m missing anyone it’s ‘cus they were completely and utterly forgettable. one last thing — ” he leans in, bringing the mic up close to his lips and looking square at the camera. “the décor in here is unbelievably tacky. i never thought neon colors could look so goddamn depressing. who the hell was in charge of restocking the kitchen ‘cus the only spice i ever saw in there was romi and maddox doing their thing on the counter. i’ve seen nicer beds in shows about priso— ” this is where they cut him off lolol 

[inquixotic]

BEACH HUT CONFESSIONAL, CASA AMOR #3

if you were to stick, why would you? why would you consider switching?

“if i am to stick, it is not for maddox,” the way he says it is like they’re stupid for even asking him that. “it is pretty obvious that rhys would be my pick, if i were allowed. it makes the switching question more complicated, obviously, since i would hope maddox has had better options to bring back instead of returning to me. if i were to switch...frankly, it would be another friendship pair.”  

is there a bombshell that’s at the top of you ‘list’? who would you bring back?

“if i were to bring anyone back, it would be stella. i feel badly to have lead her on, even if i still do not fully think i did so — i think she of any of them should have the chance to crack on with the others.” 

if none of the bombshells could come back, who would you miss most?

“i think i would miss angel the most. i told him at the start we could be honest, and i do not think he has been anything but with me. i think he and i could be good friends. stella and charlene, too.” 

what are you feeling about the decisions of the other islanders? who do you think has made the best connection?

he snorts. “i am not confident in any of their connections, frankly. jude and dante lack sense. angel and callie are probably the strongest, but i do not trust callie to not run back to frankie at the end of all this either. i have no idea what their plans are, but i do not expect good outcomes when the others return.

[bashfulboy]

DAY 31 : BEACH HUT CONFESSIONAL 

what are you most looking forward to about reuniting with the other villa? what are you dreading the most?

he doesn’t quite know how to answer the question. his answer for both of these is going to be the same. rhys. on one hand, he’s excited to see the other again and see if the connection is still there. the other part of him is scared that it isn’t. “i guess, i’m mostly looking forward to seeing rhys and seeing if we could like...pick up where we left off? but i’m also scared that we won’t be able to. i’m not blaming him or anything but we were so new before this whole casa thing started so it wouldn’t be fair for me to expect him to stay loyal. especially not when i was kissing adela and all of that.” but there’s a small part of him, the foolish, hopeless romantic part of him, that hopes that he’s wrong. 

if you were to stick, why would you? why would you consider switching?

“if i were to stick, i think it would be because of rhys. the connections i made here were nice but i’m not sure if they’re quite the same.” but then again, there could always be someone else. and as naive as bash is, that thought does cross his mind. “i don’t know if i would switch. if i did, it would be because of the connection i formed with adela. but that’s so new too so i could end up in the same boat that i was with rhys. so, i dunno.” he shrugs and his shoulders sag a bit, not like the usually upbeat boy.

is there a bombshell that’s at the top of you ‘list’? who would you bring back?

“i think adela. i really like talking to her, among other things.” kissing her. “i think that it would be kind of nice to have something different from what i had with rhys. i feel like what i had with rhys was kind of slow growing and very soft. what i have with adela feels more like...fast and exciting.” which usually isn’t his pace, but he’s not gonna mention that.

if none of the bombshells could come back, who would you miss most?

”honestly, i think i would miss miles the most. the guy is just such a fun time to be around with. as much as i like adela, i think miles would be like the person who i would feel like i could miss the presence of the most. it makes sense why he and frankie have something between them. they both have such fun energy.” 

what conversations do you need to have most when you reunite?

“obviously there’s the conversation with rhys. i don’t know what he has to say but i’m kind of nervous about it.” he shifts in his seat a bit. “i guess, i’m just sort of dreading feeling like i did when nana blindsided me although this obviously isn’t the same exact situation. i just don’t want to have to feel that again. 0/10 would not recommend.”

what are you feeling about the decisions of the other islanders? who do you think has made the best connection?

“truthfully, as much as i liked callie and frankie together, frankie and miles have got a real connection. i feel bad for saying that because i really don’t want callie to be blindsided or sad so hopefully she made a connection too. but man, they just clicked, you know?”

[properbantz]

BEACH HUT CONFESSIONALS 009 (i think) — RHYS ALDRIDGE

day: 28

WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON MAX & DEJAN’S EXIT LAST NIGHT? WHY DIDN’T YOU VOTE FOR THEM? 

“ for obvious reasons, i couldn’t vote for them. ” he sighs. “ i wouldn’t have voted for them anyway, they weren’t even a real couple, like it was some weird dead poet’s society type of coupling situation and i think bash and i deserved more time to get to know each other. ” he’s staring dead at the camera, that was pointed, producers. 

HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT THE START OF CASA AMOR? 

“ annoyed. to put it simply. ” sick to his stomach, actually. it was easier to know that bash was into him when they could be together, see each other and talk whenever they wanted to talk. he wasn’t having to ask for reassurance because he could pretty much get it whenever. his lips are twisted in thought, while he strings words together for a sentence. “ i... it’s real shit, you know? when people have something so new that they’re really trying to figure out and explore to split them up like this. because the one person i wish i could talk about all of it, about how i’m feeling is bash and i can’t. so it’s shitty. i wanted to talk to him about other things too, and so now i feel like an even bigger asshole because i decided to wait a couple of hours and this is what i get? i’m trying to do the right thing, i want to do the right thing but- ” he throws his hands up in a slightly frustrated what can you do motion.

ARE THERE ANY NEW ISLANDERS THAT HAVE CAUGHT YOUR ATTENTION? WHO?

“ honestly no. ” it’s not really for a lack of trying? but he’s not really interested in getting to know anyone else and making himself feel like an even bigger piece of shit while bash and him are still coupled up. he lets out a heavy sigh, “ i don’t know. not to be a dick or anything, i think they’re really nice. maybe it’s just me that feels like it’s all really disingenuous. like speed dating except i didn’t know i was hitting the buzzer for the next person. ”  he always thought the first time someone came up to him and said they were a big fan it would be because he just wrote netflix’s record breaking tv show or something of the sort, not because he had a menty b on television. 

ARE THERE ANY NEW ISLANDERS YOU DON’T SEE YOURSELF VIBING WITH? 

“ no not really. ” he’s not in the business of making enemies or fighting. frankly, he doesn’t think he could take it even if he wanted to, call him sensitive, he doesn’t care.  “ again, they seem nice, i’m just indifferent i think. ” 

DO YOU THINK THAT YOUR HEAD COULD BE TURNED?

that feels like a loaded question. targeted maybe.  “ i don’t know. ” his response is clipped. the thing is, he doesn’t feel like his head had been turned when it comes to both seb and bash. it’s not like there’s a one over the other and that’s what made this whole thing so stupid and complicated. note to self: ask the show therapist about monogamy and whether it’s right for you! “ turned by the new bombshells? probably not unless, i don’t know, they ticked all the boxes for the kind of person i’m into and if i let them go it’s going to feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest, worse than rose letting jack go from the titanic. ”  he looks at the camera again,  “ i know what you’re thinking. but it’s like holding the sun and the moon together, perfectly complementary, and beautiful all the same. one would feel empty without the other. ” he doesn’t mean seb and bash would feel empty without the other, more so that his sky would be lacking should there be no moon nor a sun. that’s exactly that he means and maybe this is the first time he fully understands it. he sighs again, tough shit.  

WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR ‘OTHER HALF’ IS UP TO IN THE OTHER VILLA RIGHT NOW? HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT THEM? 

he sits quietly for a moment, anxiously cracking his knuckles.  “ chatting, getting to know everyone. he’s nice like that, always greeting you with the warmest smile you could possibly imagine. ”  there’s a flash of a smile on his face for the first time this beach hut as he talks about bash’s smile. if bash is getting to know someone else he’s sure they’d succeed where he had his own shortcomings. it’s not like he wants to think about how there could be bash’s perfect person in the other villa, looking at each other with hearts and stars in their eyes, but he has to be aware that there’s truth to it, maybe. and if there is some level of truth to it, he would be remiss to not attempt to find safety in one of the new bombshells.  “ you want me to say i miss him, don’t you? ” the small smile that had appeared earlier reappears again,  “ i miss him, obviously. but i’m trying to be breezy, less so like how i told dylan i attempted to and more like i’m rolling with the punches, taking things as they go and trying not to stay too in my head about what he’s doing over there. we’re... we’re still getting to know each other, nothing was official so i can’t expect him to not want to get to know other people either. i want him to be happy, at the end of the day, with whoever that’s going to be. ” 

[blondcs]

𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 𝐇𝐔𝐓 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓 𝟖: 𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝟐𝟕

how are you feeling in your current couple ?

“i don’t know,” she aims her giggle at the floor. “i’m really happy right now, not gonna lie. i feel like this is what i’ve been looking for. like, josh makes me smoothies and we do our little face masks together and i’m finally gonna let him help me spruce up my workouts and i just feel like we fit, you know? i guess part of me is kind of just waiting for the other shoe to drop. hoping it’s because he’s never seen the devil wears prada or like, he’s terrified of spiders or something and not that he’s been boning his ex this whole time.”

is there anyone outside of your couple that you’re still chatting to ? do you think your head could be turned ?

"uh... like chatting chatting? outside of josh—and obviously rhys—i’m closest with max, i guess,” she bites down on a smile, rolling her eyes. “and it’s tough because he’s hot. like, he’s hot, and the banter is so good. i don’t know, i just think if something happened it could really go either way. like, either extreme, which is kind of a big risk when i have someone else that i’m really into right now. like, obviously i’ve thought about it. but... i don’t know. the fantasy might be better than the reality. like, the tension’s just so good, might be better to just keep it that way...” a thoughtful pause. “wish i could read his mind. pretty sure naomi would be his top choice anyway, though, which... i can’t even get into. everything happens how it’s meant to.” then quieter, conspiratorial. “did he mention me in his confessional? come on, you can tell me.”

what are your thoughts on the last recoupling ? are there any couples that surprised you ?

"maddox and seb are fucking hilarious to me. sorry, don’t tell them i said that,” a goofy smile as she thinks about them climbing into their respective halves of the bed. “wasn’t that surprised about marcus and romi staying together. it’s kind of hard switching gears in here unless you’ve already got a foot in the door somewhere else.” re: josh and noami. “actually, kind of pissed that max picked dejan, to be honest. like, i get it....” a pause. “actually, no i don’t. i don’t know why i’m saying that. fuck that guy.”

did nana or kenny’s departures affect you at all ? out of everyone left, who would you be most upset to see go home next ?

"i wasn’t really close with either of them. like, not intentionally or anything. although... a blonde named kenny? we were never gonna be close. i just thought nana didn’t like me. which, to be fair, she probably didn’t, but the night she axed herself we chatted a bit and—i don’t know. i feel like she would’ve been a bad bitch to gossip with, you know? she clearly had this whole like, inner monologue she didn’t share with us, and i bet it would’ve been super fucking relatable. i really don’t think she should’ve left but... i guess better her than me. i really don’t want to go. like, ignoring spin the bottle, i feel like the dust is finally settling for josh and me. like, i’d be so devastated if either of us got dumped now when we’ve only just finally coupled up. and then i’m obviously terrified of losing rhys. he’s like, my bestie in here and he totally deserves to find someone here.” a wistful smile as she pictures his dopey little face. “aww.... i love him so much.” she doesn’t want max to leave either. would actually be kind of upset about everyone except dejan or frankie or maybe naomi.

a lot happened at the cowboys and aliens party. what were the highlights of the night for you ?

"i’m actually like, still hungover so i’m not super clear on the whole night, but i guess the most memorable part had to be that fucking kiss, right?” she rolls her eyes. “not even a foot away from my face, might i add. like, could literally hear their mouths squelching.” forcing a shudder. “fucking annoying. like, he apologized and everything and i get that it’s a game and i would never be a fun-sucker. like, i never would’ve stormed off or made a huge scene or anything, but come on. i looked like such a fucking idiot.” maybe she’s not as over it as she thought she was. “big shoutout to max for not letting me walk out of there by myself though. like, he scored major brownie points for that one. josh should’ve followed me, but whatever. we made up right away anyway so it doesn’t even matter.” she absentmindedly rubs the fading spot on her neck. “what else happened? oh, the mechanical bull was awesome. i haven’t been on one since... i don’t know, it’s been a minute. we used to go to this bar in the city that had one,” new york city, should go without saying, “and i got pretty decent. but the guy who controlled it was team jenny all the way. he always made sure i had a nice, smooth ride. like, yeah, frankie may have stayed on longer but i put on a fucking show.”

which couple do you think has the best chances of lasting to the next recoupling ?

"i feel like we have a few solid couples right now. like, i’m pretty sure josh and i are good. i think naomi and dylan are good. seemed like they made up even faster than we did, but that’s ‘cause dylan’s a total simp. callie and frankie seem pretty good too. is that ev—oh, wait. can we actually backtrack a second though,” she’s grinning but there’s an accusatory finger already poised at the ready. “here’s a highlight. what the fuck was that display in the kitchen? and, more importantly, why didn’t maddox do that for me? like, no offense to josh, but i’m actually so pissed about this.” she’s laughing with an incredulous shake of her head. “a blanketless fuck in front of everyone and it didn’t even involve me? like... when’s my slut era?”

[qnewsau]

Aussie queen forced to leave RuPaul's Drag Race UK

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Aussie queen forced to leave RuPaul's Drag Race UK

Australian drag queen Saki Yew has been sadly forced to drop out of RuPaul’s Drag Race UK season six due to a knee injury.

Saki, who’s from Melbourne and living in Manchester, was one of the queens on season six of Drag Race UK. The season only just started last week.

Episode two dropped this morning, and halfway through the episode on elimination day, Saki entered the werk room on crutches and shared the sad news with her sisters.

“I hurt my knee quite bad, so it hurts to walk,” Saki explains.

“I was getting into the shower and I slipped and knocked my knee into the wall.

“I’m actually going to say goodbye to you. I’m gutted because it’s not the way I wanted to leave, but I have to be smart about this [and] look after my body.”

Saki explained in a confessional, “I can hardly walk. There’s a lot of swelling. No walking, no running, no dancing and definitely no heels.

“This is my decision. I have to repair and heal.

“It was short, but it was just amazing to be season 6 with these sisters.”

Gutted!

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Ahead of the season, Saki describes her drag as “Australian showgirl glamour, mixed with high energy Filipino sass and a sprinkle of Northern wit and realness.”

In episode one of Drag Race UK, the Filipino queen kiki’d with Zahirah Zapanta about their shared heritage.

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[ardentlyxabbadon]

Either way, both made their lasting impact crater. I could have a terrible poker face or you secretly knew I would provide this confessional to you. I might consider mentioning it, but I almost guarantee you that Rhys won't see me in any desirable fashion. My company doesn't bother him, yes, however, I doubt Hellhound's his type.

Technically it was two truth bombs. I was merely waiting on you to admit it for yourself, Abbadon, keeping it harbored within is different than saying it out loud. You will only see his reaction to such a notion if you bring it up to him.