#rewiring my brain

[lorelune]

reader is too soggy and pathetic to go to parties BUT if they were to right before jy’s heat hits how would he feel about them walking in smelling like a bunch of randos esp if he’s been patiently waiting to see them and their actual scent is impossible to pick up(first thought went to him going im not mad just disappointed lol) 😭

anon this question has been haunting me throughout my corporate work day. oh my god.

you are right anon that reader is a little too pathetic and soggy to show up to a party on their own, but maybe you were coerced!! by a coworker, by yukong. you know you need to get home to jy, but they tell you it will be quick... SURE... sure

jing yuan would be in his nest, preparing it for his heat (to share!! with you!!! 🥺!!!!) and to have you walk in, covered in sooo many other scents (none of which are his!!) and it's so heavy on you?? he can't even smell you? and he's pre-heat. oh, you're in for such a scolding.

jing yuan might normally be amused!! by you going to a party and coming home a bit tipsy and blubbering but he's pre-heat... he needs u in his nest. it's that simple. he would be giving u the talk about how it's not safe to go parties without him there with you, how you need to be careful and mindful, all while giving you the scenting of a lifetime. probably grinding his leaking cunt and cock on your thigh too, for good measure.

[spangledemporer]

Every time I feel depressed about my life I'm gonna look up one fun fact about an animal. Any animal. And then when the feeling of despair and hopelessness comes around I'll remember that fact. And then learn another one. And then hopefully it becomes a mantra that I'll say to myself over and over to remind myself that life I worth living and there are so many interesting facts about interesting animals that I maybe haven't even yet met before and that will keep me going.

[boldlygoorgohome]

hozier performing salt in the wound with boy genius and then hugging Lucy and Phoebe and then getting on his knees to bow to Julien with them…… fucking kill me

[vizthedatum]

I woke up with such a warm feeling today :)

Part of it is because I had a really uplifting date last night.

And that my body is feeling better after 2 fairly consecutive bladder treatments and medicines (fun but scary fact: sometimes they put me on a bunch of antibiotics even when I’m not having an infection because it helps with reducing inflammation in my bladder; another fun fact: boric acid is lethal but you can put it up your vagina no problem (been doing so since 2017)).

I’m still worried and I’m in grief about so many things, but I feel like I’m really making those hard decisions that actually help me move forward and upward in this life.

And I just now thought: dang, I lost a toxic friend (the white man who I’ve been vaguely bitching about) but gained TWO beautiful friends (who also left the toxic guy too)… and it honestly feels super right. I’m feeling a sense of kinship that feels so aligned with who I am and becoming. Her friendship and getting closer to her son (he is now way too comfy with me and now shows his more bratty side lol ~little baby humans~) has really enriched my life. I don’t know if we would have ever met except through a toxic white man tbh. It’s so rare to meet someone who vibes with you - a potential best friend. I’ve met a couple and I think I’m exceedingly lucky.

:/

Growing up, it was always decided for me what kind of friends I’d have. Either my parents would be super prejudiced or I wouldn’t have access to certain groups of people.

Everyone expects me to have solely academic-oriented friends. Like for the majority of my life.

…

One time in 8th grade, my social studies teacher sat me down in private and told me that I’d have to break up with one of my friends before the school year was over because she and I were going on different academic paths. That I need to be okay leaving her behind.

…

Over what???? Math classes and needlessly rigorous examination of American Literature?!

I wish I could go back and say:

It’s not the skills I know and can do, it’s not the privilege I gain… it’s how I’m connecting with other walks of lives in this world. That’s what will make me soar and thrive… I don’t care about half of the skills I have for any other reason other than that it will potentially help people and that it can maybe earn me money in this stupid transactionally capitalistic world. Like yes, it is cool to write programs and see things run and numbers are fun and stuff… but I honestly wish I could have not been an academic from such a young age… focused on understanding human connection instead so I could fill the wounds within with light instead of ticking explosives.

[soracities]

happy "everyone forgets that icarus also flew" monday. i want to throw up !

[otlwoozi]

recent alnst sketch pages

[majunju]

ur sooo into me.... right... twirls ur hair...

[autisticblitz]

Helluvalentine Day 7 - Proposal 💍

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Big inspo from my favorite comic ever in the world of ever by @blitzbittz and @hellamews 🩷🩷🩷 please go read the whole thing it’s so good

READ IT HERE IM NOT ASKING IM DEMANDING

[canonsensical]

Currently reading Bad Behaviour, and this woman is just, wow

On my reading list this year.

[sixteenthofseptember]

me watching season one markhelly: idk :/ it feels kind of shoehorned in bc there “needs” to be a het relationship…

me watching season 2 markhelly:

[pissmamiii]

you ever just want ur pussy ate for hoursss or is that just me daily

[isjasz]

like sand from the hourglass definitelynottober - day 10

[cyber-corp]

🥳🥳🥳

[ariespetal]

a doodle-page comm i just recently finished up for @cocakuya :D

[chell-min]

i insist somebody will die, and i hate hoping

[someoneslightlygay]

Me and the apprentices on a night out