#remaking this post bc it broke last time

[dontjudgemethatsgodsjob]

You know that one vine?

~Reblogs appreciated~

[ablupen]

I Completed Lessons 1-10. Here's what happened, and the ending I got.

Alright! After about 15 hr 23 min total of F2P playing, I've completed all 10 lessons with all main stories/episodes watched. Granted, anything past lesson 4 isn't full S completed anymore, and I am very broke, but eh.

Anyways, here's some pictures of how it's going:

And now some more thoughts and summaries, including stuff I didn't say in my last post.

The boss levels are basically beating up the boys... Well, uh, if you're mad at one of the seven, go play their boss level, ig?

Solomon's cooking is so bad it caused Henry 1.0 to rapidly polymorph temporarily into random things

Henry 1.0 was originally huge. Levi befriended the snake when both of them were hiding from Satan

Henry 1.0 became regular snake sized bc Sol shrank him 😐 This means the shrink spell wore off, apparently.

The building that you and Sol share is called Cocytus Hall. I wonder where this building would be present day..? Did it get recycled?

Newly-demon brothers are being discriminated

Cerberus was obtained bc of a rumor that anyone who tames it becomes Ruler of the Underworld.

Mammon rallies everyone behind Luci's back to find and tame Cerberus

On the way there, we discover that we can still summon the brothers (We summon Beel to eat a magically growing pile of apples)

Apprehension attempt on Cerberus did not succeed. Luci saves everyone and tames Cerberus. Someone leaks these news and this is how the seven brothers become the seven rulers.

We become one of the three core founding members of RAD lmao

Somehow we get caught in a dream(?) with Levi in the TSL world. Levi does not know TSL at this point in time. Anyways, he summons Lotan at the end of it, who apparently actually appeared in real life, flooded the room, and then left.

Fuck i forgot when this happened so I'll just leave it here, but: Satan turned everyone except you and Lucifer into Chihuahuas. Including himself. Thankfully, the spell had a limit so it didn't last long

Angels enter the scene! For RAD consultation.

Apparently at some point the bottom of Asmo's bathtub becomes a portal.

Solomon is a fucking bastard and pushes everyone into the bathtub. You choose if you go in by your own will or if he also pushes you.

It leads to the Celestial Realm??? No lol jk, it's actually inside a very familiar looking labyrinth and y'all are being chased by a giant spider, fuck.

Solomon remakes pact with Asmo to distract spider.

Solomon then summons Barbatos

Unfortunately at some point he pissed Barbs off so he's ticked off by this summon. Barbs teleports the spider away and Sol uses his pact to force him to make a portal back home, but Barbs gets mad and later TELEPORTS HIM TO A DRAGON'S DEN LMAO

dw he's alright! He returns next lesson with a dragon egg.

Bad news! Diavolo and Barbatos realize you're human and not a demon after... What/when is this? 6-7 lessons? Yeah. Anyways, Dia tells you that you should pack up bc he's sending you back to the human world. You're another distraction, so to eliminate some stress, you're being deported, sorry. This is not a good thing.

Mammon and crew - except Luci obviously take on a ghost hunting job at the tome place idk I forgot the spelling

Mammon gets fucking possessed by a human ghost named Adam after you read his name off of a tomestone bc it was written in a human language.

Adam says that a demon killed him with consent many years ago bc Adam was trying to look for his lover but their dead

In case it wasn't obvious, that you.

Also, the demon knew you'd have the Ring of Light on you still. Anyways, Adam tells you that the demon's name/alias was Nightbringer. Guys, it's a fucking name drop!!!

You manage to open the gates for Adam by slurping up some of the brothers' powers and by the powers of the ring

Next day, you get a letter telling you to meet Dia concerning your expulsion, which Sol comes with you to try and change Dia's mind.

Suddenly, Belphegor basically kicks open the doors to demand that Beel be released. Apparently, he's been jailed. Shit, isn't that a parallel or what, huh?

Apparently, he suddenly got out of control and rampaged. Dia manages to pin him down and get him into a cell with sheer strength alone, but later escapes in the next lesson after you confront Luci and Belphegor who had a spat.

You, Luci, and Belphie get blamed for causing all of this 🥴 Especially by Barbs. Anyways, using your magic siphoning ability from your future pacts and the Ring of Light, you knock Beel out. Lesson 10 ends with you revealing that you're human and Dia and everyone wondering who tf you are to have this kind of power.

That was a lie. The very last scene was actually Satan and Simeon watching a cat that you introduced to Satan before you left with Luci and Belphie and discover the rampaging Beel. "Do you think MC will come back before the cat wakes up?" "I hope so."

Context for the quotes on the Nightbringer site:

Lucifer; "My pride hurt my brothers": I actually don't remember this one. I don't even know if my choices led up to this one. Will maybe revisit everything tomorrow or sum

Mammon; "We chose to follow Lucifer here. We all had reasons for doin' what we did.": This is from when Mammon is trying to convince the other brothers to join him in his search for Cerberus. He's tired of being discriminated, and doesn't regret his choice.

Leviathan; "I never wanted to come to this awful place, to begin with!": When Diavolo meets with the brothers concerning plans for RAD and about possibly making an announcement to show the brothers'presence, Levi is against this. He doesn't want the attention.

Satan; "I can barely stand being around them. It's torture.": Obviously, "them" are his "brothers". I can assume when he says this, but I think I can guess when it is. It was probably after he stormed off once the others discuss what the Celestial Realm was like. He's never seen that place, and he can't relate to the other brothers.

Asmodeus; "I want to return to the Celestial Realm...! I want to be an angel again! The way I used to be... White wings and all!": This is during the weird portal in the bathtub scene. He had tried to move on from the fall, but Simeon's appearance reminds him of what he lost again. He's scared of the fact that he's getting used to his demon self and that he's forgetting what it was like to be an angel.

Beelzebub; "I have a big secret that I've never been able to tell... Not even to Belphie.": I've actually never encountered this one bc I didn't get close to Beel. Has anyone seen this one?

Belphegor; "Who deserves to be punished the most?": After Lucifer temporarily admits defeat and doesn't stand up to Diavolo to let Beel go, Belphegor gets angry. He's scared that he'll lose another sibling. After telling you about Lilith and how stubborn she was, he admits that he doesn't know who to blame: Lilith for breaking the rules, the angels for directly killing her (or was this second one the other brothers for not doing more? I forgot damn), or himself for not protecting Lilith.

Anyways, that's all I can think of rn. Do note though that in Nightbringer, choices apparently actually matter so you may have gotten different results!

[superm4ks]

~personally~ of course as someone who is very interested in 3344 i would love to hear from lewis what his perspective is on max, who is compared more to senna, who is lewis' hero within his senna stannie fan card. like if senna wrote the fucking book max wrote the smash remake. like obviously humans are messy and complicated but like in ur pysche if the guy you "hate" is cut from the exact same cloth (and even sharper!) than the guy you love hmmmm. there's a lot of things to be talked about when drivers talk about who they idolize and why (or don't idolize). but i also love what u posted form that 1991 article bc f1 has never not been messy and human and solely about "wheel" or whatever and that makes it more interesting.

This is such supermaks bait anyway lets TALK about it 🌷

Literally thats the whole thing wid Canada that really stuck wid me after Max broke Sennas most wins oat, like Lewis' lil selfie wid him and his 'this is a pretty iconic podium' and that whole sloppy toppy moment wid fellow old Dawg Nando ((yall remember Nando podiums . damn 🕊️)) like theres a certain gravitas here. Max ended the most dominant streak by an f1 driver in the most controversial, soul crushing devastating fashion and followed that shit wid his own brand of dominance. That is fucking brutal lmfao. U said it like this is thee smash f1 remake this is textbook Senna, we've seen the script, we know what kind of driver it takes to enact the script. Its not gonna be a nice lil driver, its gonna be somebody who has a deep cynicism for the whole thing while simultaneously being unable to not execute it to perfection. That is Senna. It is Lewis. And it is Max. Max is, by all measures, in his current form, wid this red bull team, driving this car, untouchable. Bro is the final dawg. And the way that he still drives bro, that aggressiveness he has, that unwillingness to give up the line, thats every ((good)) drivers' dream to face a driver like that and come out on top because, ironically, thats as close to racing as it gets and it is old school. It does emulate a different time, a time that Lewis not only grew up watching but contributed to himself. It is about 'wheel' in the end but theres also a person in that car that can break you, which is like an extraordinarily human thing.

I've always found Lewis' bias for Senna very interesting because I think prolly until he was 25, and mind u I havent watched every Hamilton title winning season only 2008 and then obvi 2020 was my first so like obvi really influences how I c him, but he had that same restless nature. The shouts Max was getting even in 2021, Lewis got them too, including being a risk to his own peers, being rash, arrogant, etc. But then Lewis moved past Senna, imo, and became ‘Hamilton’, took over his own narrative, his team, made his own legend, wid his own dominant cars, and like he was settling back into that. Max came in at a point where u thought a Senna-like figure had no more space in f1. But Max created room, literally by force, and is also slowly outgrowing that to become ‘Verstappen’. I think thats the thread that wont snap between them, the knowledge that they are the last true protagonists of their respective eras. I have in faith in sharl, I think sharl wid a competent car, a good team, can achieve history too, but I dont have faith in Ferrari. Ferrari cannot perform to that level rn. So u have this monster at 25 whos like alone in his greatness and refuses to act the part. I get why people who dont fw Max's achievements might not like it, but that doesnt keep him from being the racing driver he is. That has no bearing on it, on him. Its a complete fabrication from fans. That is why Max feels so inevitable, and like, genuinely upsets people who dislike him by saying or doing anything because he will always own up on track and like theres an almost existential horror u cause haters wid that type of aura. Lewis is that same breed of driver, so he recognizes it, he knows what it takes be f1's villain. U cant cast a shadow on something u dont stand over.

After Silverstone he said: 'for a long, long time we’ve had periods of dominance. I’m lucky to have had one with my team. Michael Schumacher had it, Sebastian Vettel had it, and now Max’s period has arrived.' Just now in Hungary right after taking pole he said some shit like 'Max was doing 'Max things' in quali' which is a lil crazy to me. 😐 when the fuck did u ever hear Lewis Hamilton refer to a 'Max thing' except when Max has his ((much beloved)) category 5 Jeddah moments or bullies him during fp1 because he liked dared to breathe in his direction. Like since when is 'Max thing' a compliment. Like something shifted here and part of that is Max's inevitability in this car but also like how Lewis perceives that inevitability. Yk personally I cud only ever measure myself thru the people who beat me. In sports truly competition is all that is, u find somebody better and u chase after them. That's what Max did. He's rewriting those same records, because he can. And everybody who was ever somebody in motorsport did the exact same thing, including Lewis. And Senna right up until he died, because of the way it happened too, unfortunately, changed not only how u saw motorsport but also how u saw the person inside the car.

sharl was recently asked about lewis and max and had a very Leclerc type answer that I found very interesting:

Q: You were able to beat both Verstappen and Hamilton, who is more difficult to deal with?

Charles: "Both of them, they have completely different driving styles. Max always goes to the limit, I like his approach. He is aggressive and creates spectacular fights. Lewis on the other hand is very clever. In the way he positions the car after a corner, for example. He is less aggressive but thinks more. If he doesn't overtake you in one place, it's because he's thinking of an easier one in which to attack!"

Like is this not the most senna prost shit you've ever read in your entire life 😭😭. I think it comes down to how u approach a race and what u do wid the machinery ur given and faced wid certain track-specific challenges. Like look at this Spa weekend and you'd think it's the opposite of what sharl described, but it isnt. Max and Lewis can both be very aggressive, they just came up in the sport differently and established themselves wid different cars. Also neither of them about to let checo catch a break djdkdkd. In CONCLUSION ‼️ motorsport in general is a narrative driven competition wid a mechanical element that can make or break anybody no matter how good they are. Max himself becoming part of the mechanical element is unique to him, tho. Its above and beyond. Trust that the driver who became synonym for dominance in f1 is definitely paying attention lmfao

[coffeeknife]

blog reintroduction

the last time i used this account was when i was still a teenager. didn't feel like deleting and remaking on this handle though so uh. hey, i'm robin. i'm a married butch lesbian in mn. mostly logging back in so i can archive stuff on here where other people can see if they want

stuff i might post abt (under the cut)

managing physical/mental disability (my wife and i both have eds)

being broke and maintaining sanity/quality of life

it stuff. i have a cluster of servers at home running a lot of stuff to automate life. some stuff replaces subscriptions but i also do some budget smarthome stuff to make our living situation a little more accessible. i've also dabbled in backing up my personal healthcare record

more generally, extending the lifespan of (sometimes much older) tech & bending it to your will

some interests, though i tend to stay out of fandoms: trigun, dunmeshi, pokemon, ffxiv, persona series (but i dont touch that fandom with a ten foot pole) and a few others im sure i cant think of rn

also, feel free to send me asks about random tech things. i'll post some of my stuff later, but a quick rundown of my daily stuff

JUST replaced my phone. i only got my head out of the apple brainrot very recently, but my phone is a refurb'd note20 ultra that i intend to use for a very long time

desktop i built on the cheap. i5 (dont buy intel new, theyre zionists), intel arc graphics for video encoding

working on moving from a 2018-ish macbook air that's somehow barely runing to a 2010 thinkpad i salvaged from an ewaste bin. it's running pretty well on arch with a cheap SSD but it needs a new battery and a better display (and a modern wifi card eventually)

my server cluster that i've built over the last 10 years or so:

the manager computer is a 2017 imac i cut open to put more ram in. it was my primary computer until this year

2 raspberry pis that the manager dishes out tasks to. one is hooked up to an 8tb hard drive that it serves to the other 2 computers. the other has a zigbee receiver to handle cheap smarthome devices

3rd raspberry pi dedicated to networking. outside of the cluster, hosts a vpn so i can get into my stuff from anywhere without exposing it to the internet

salvaged two acer EEE laptops that i really want to convert into parts of the cluster bc i'm running out of cpu. they didn't come with power supplies and i have yet to get them to turn on

part of my goal for being active on here is to put some accessible resources on home servers out there. bc imo theyre insanely useful and learning how to do this stuff in general is good in the age of technological walled gardens

ok bye. follow me if you want ig, send me asks abt it stuff and i'll probably have something to say

[drifloonz]

btw i never posted this but conceptual pokemon teams for steven. one is mainly pre-incident while the one after is After The Incident ( since yk he canonically releases all his pokemon and goes willingly broke after miki dies. )

pre incident team ( he released like all of these. except miki obviously ):

post incident:

reasonings below ( its long i apologize )

PRE-INCIDENT TEAM ; here's a discord screenshot i put for general info lol anyways suicide cw in the screenshot ( just a mention though but yk. heavy shit )

miki - its miki. do you need me to give explanation. part of me just kind of took a few strangled red fics interpretation of why/how steven has miki ( aka he found her in the rain in pallet town and he didnt even wanna be a trainer - inspired by faulty on ao3 )

pidgeot - first pokemon caught other than miki for probably obvious reasons. he also needed a pokemon to use fly - a lot of his pre incident team is just for tms or for backup but he used like almost exclusively miki bc mikis OVERPOWERED

haunter - steven doesnt go into pokemon tower until after the incident, but i like to think somehow he met a gastly and it just kept following him until he caught it. ( im too lazy to remake the team but bc of this it prob should b a gastly in this image )

Fun fact; Personally i think the gastly in Strangled that lets you into his house is his gastly. why the fuck else would it be there. after steven releases all his mons it still follows him around and tries to get people to help them by moving the stones that block his house, but accidentally makes it worse bc steven just attacks people who come into his home at that time. oopsy.

sandshrew - i dont have a lot to say abt this one it just kinda fits + for tms probably ( sandshrew. learns a lot of tms. )

lapras - likely just for surf but theres probably more i could add to this my brains just not thinking

chansey - gifted by daisy! either as a happiny or just. as a chansey. it's honestly more of an emotional support mon than it is an actual battling mon

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POST INCIDENT TEAM ; ( once again discord screenshot w general info )

there's more post-incident teams, i made like 3, which is why it says he has pokemon that it doesnt seem like he has in the second images. few notable examples are zoroark, gallade, chandelure, hydreigon, gourgeist, and phantump ( ... the phantump is probably a kid he killed ( maybe in strangled ) that follows him arnd since he probably lives in a forest LOL )

miki - she's now fucked up and glitched since its post-incident. he technically has multiple fucked up missingno'd versions of her canonically. Do not ask why

mega absol - it's a disaster pokemon. it follows him arnd and doesn't leave him around bc he's constantly got disasters happening arnd him. he IS the disaster at this point. also i kind of stole this concept from a steven twitter rp account, iirc bc its a really good concept. i like to think he kind of resents it but he still technically Has it

mega houndoom - u can't tell me he wouldn't have a houndoom. steven HAS dog owner energy. also absol and houndoom r mega just bc i think they go hard and their designs fit better w steven. idk if steven would actually have mega evolution shit.

mawile - he would. idk why but he would

staraptor - he doesnt have pidgeot anymore so he got a staraptor, ig. i don't know why he'd have one it just fits

luxray - literally all of these last 3 boil down to "it just fits."

[stellarana]

Me in RuneScape about a month ago bc I forgot to post it at the time and only just noticed it in drafts:

Me: Ok, finally got the last of the strange rocks.

Museum dude: Alright, add them to the statue

Me: *adds rocks to statue*

Statue: *comes alive or something then breaks*

Me: Aw it broke! I guess I didn’t use enough glue. *starts picking up the pieces*

Museum dude: No you can’t remake it with the same pieces

Me: Why not?

Museum dude: That’s just not how it works.

Me: So, do I take the pieces and make them into a statue in my POH?

Museum dude: No.

Me: But I heard I would get a version of the statue for my house?

Museum dude: Well, you can have the plinth for it. And one piece of it.

Me: What, just one piece?

Museum dude: Well, we’ve been studying the statue and we managed to make a replica of one of the pieces.

Me: I’ve been working on this for ages and all you have is one replica piece?!

Museum dude: yeah

Me: Ok, I guess I’ll go put the plinth in my house and add that first bit then.

Museum dude: Oh, no you can’t. You need it’s twin, like with the strange rocks.

Me: So I can't add this to the statue until I do THIS WHOLE THING AGAIN?!?

Museum dude: Yeah pretty much.

Me: can u pls give me the fletching rocks then? (my fletching lvl is ALL lamps and daily challenges)

Museum dude: No.

Me: 🖕

[icharchivist]

though now that i’m done with ff15 this is kinda fun to me to look back to my history with this game

from how i used to watch the first trailers to FF13 Versus on youtube in 2007/2008 when i was 12/13 being obsessed with Noctis, falling out of video games only to be obsessed back with FF right on time in 2015 when i was 20 (when the ff7 remake was first announced) enough to get to the page on every little drama that happened in the production of ff15 as it went from ff13 versus to ff15 

to seeing people talk so much about the game i wanted to find a way to have it when it got released, that i ended up watching Brotherhood and Kingsglaive in preparation for that, and following every press announcement of ff15 so much so that i have so many magazines talking about it (and posters!!), as well as this period i remember we were theorizing (and even correctly predicting) the game together in the ff fandom as we were waiting , but well, never could actually play the game (couldn’t afford it/wasn’t allowed to use the TV anyway lol)  and justified to myself that anyway i would have been too overwhelmed/too bad at games to play it.

to have it spoiled to me in the next few weeks and losing mostly interest because the ff fanbase was salty as hell and every little argument against ff15 got stuck into my brain for years thinking the game must have sucked and then having a “actually why do i care about fandom opinions” awakening a couple years later that brought my interest back but i was far gone by then, so i just had a passive love for the chocobros and knew most of the plot but never would have played it anyway

in the meantime i had started to get more into PC gaming but it was on my old pc that couldn’t stand newer generations of games

and a couple years ago i remember waking up from dreams involving the chocobros and i was vibrating and obsessed with ff15 for days i kept talking about it, i ended up downloading the demo on my old computer and struggling through it but i was having a blast with the bros i didn’t care it was barely playing, and i was rambling about it so much that some of my friends decided to buy the game for me on steam, which i’m still so soft about....

i tried to play it more then, but after Chapter 2, especially with the magitek engine spawning, my PC really couldn’t keep up anymore and i couldn’t keep up with the game. My PC ultimately broke anyway and i didn’t touch the game anymore for a while. 

when i bought a gaming PC what was it, last year? i was too far removed from the game to play it again and i left it aside doing other stuff then.

and it took discussing about FF games with Peten who was mentioning how much bun loved ff15 for me to just. want to start playing it again. 

and i ended up finishing it in what, two weeks? 

idk it’s just. so wild to me because i’ve been thinking about Noctis and this game a lot since i’m 13, i still have this weird, perticular connection to the FF games due to this specific time of my life where i found so much comfort in just knowing about them. And then this call back to it in 2015 which was one of the most... specific years i’ve been through and the ff fandom was a place i felt very good, for a while at least. (ff and dgm have always been fandoms i’ve held very close to my heart if only for the timeperiod those were for me and what they brought me especially in my own understanding of myself - guess bc of the “i fell into it when i was 13, fell out of it, and came back when i was 20 realizing how much it had actually shaped who i am” way) And how i tried to play it when i still couldn’t really do it and was always a bit sad i couldn’t get through with it. And now finishing it in two weeks.

like. it’s a 13 years journey that i had since the first time i thought ‘i want to play this game” and having actually finished it. This is such a weird experience to me to look back on. 

All those moments of genuine interests that just couldn’t align with the state of my life then, and i guess it does reflect too on how my life changed in those 13 years. 

but it’s just, so weird to be able to get through and finish something i’ve wanted to try so many times in 13 years with always the feeling i could never actually do it. 

(it doesn’t help too that because of various reasons i had a bad track record on not managing to finish games that i kinda always had a fatalistic approach over it (between life getting in the way and the fact i struggle to focus very hard when i’m not 100% passionated), but those past few years i’ve been getting through that a lot more too and that too is something that’s wild to reflect on)

and now it’s here, it’s done, it’s over. It’ll keep a place in my heart and i’ll come back to it so i don’t mean it in a way to say it’s over, but it’s weird to finally kinda put a close to this whole thing. This trip that started 13 years ago, only accessible in the last 6 years, and has been finally seen to its end.

It’s another layer of making me emotional over it DLKJFDLK

so yeah. tons of thoughts about it tonight and about my history with ff in general linking to it (this is the third time i write this post bc i ended up going off the rail too in depth too in details the other times DKLFJDf) . It’s so weird. 

but there we are i guess. what a journey.

so yeah shout out to Peten for giving me the last push i needed but also to all the ff friends i had back in the days and that are still sticking around, whom i talked about the game with years ago now to see it all being over with now... I have a lot of thoughts and emotions about all of this all over again and my heart is full tonight. (and ofc shout out to the people who stuck around and indulged in my yelling, it’s just that.. man it’s SO WEIRD to get back to actually finish something that had had my interest for 13 years without being able to get through it and it’s even wilder to know there may be some people on there who knows and have seen this years back about me it’s just. so wild.)

what a trip. what a trip.

[madokasoratsugu]

cinderella au meta notes

or: the plotline that never happened because i was so caught up in the euphoria of writing Fritz/Lucette Cinderella AU, i forgot that i had to have a plot

also: a bunch of bonus facts i guess !

this basically spoils the whole fic (that you can read here) which contains Fritz and Rumpel route spoilers, so read with caution ! under the cut bc it got Long :”))

this meta was initially written on a tumblr post bc it was meant to be a short ~2k thing (HAHAHA). then it got so long my computer started crashing and i had to move to google docs. 

i wrote this with disney live action remake osts AND six the musical in the background. it was a wildin’ experience listening to ‘dont lost ur head’ while writing Fritz be a chaotic mess in the beginning, then listening to ‘how does a moment last forever’ when writing the Fritz/Lucette garden scenes.

Karma and Fritz are childhood friends ! both boys who were more interested in being a knight than inheriting a kingdom, but learnt their responsibilities along the way.

on that note: none of the characters were exactly...planned to appear. the initial tweet thread idea only had Fritz, Lucette and Alcaster casted - the other characters just kinda wrote themselves in this meta. 

im pretty sure it started with Karma barging his way into the fic in act one, then i had to have someone balance him (Waltz), then i needed someone to play the music for their waltz (obvs that had to be Rod), and then i got sad thinking Rumpel would be left out, but Lucette’s broken glass slipper scene conveniently needed someone. the Widdensovs just kinda came into the picture by virtue of Lucette just needing someone to interact with when she wasnt at the ball LMAO 

everyone else just didnt make it in the natural progression of the fic, and i didnt want to shoehorn them in just for the sake of having them appear.

however: Parfait was initially going to make an appearance as a duchess who snuck Lucette out to her father when she came to the castle for help when her manor burnt down. here’s a lil snippet of her scene:

(no one had, the last time she came; the smell of smoke still clinging on her, her head slamming a cacophony - surviving only thanks to the bravery of a certain court lady now disappeared, who heralded her to a servant’s exit, gave her gold and directions to her father, told her, run, told her im sorry, and cried, tears dripping endlessly from her pale pink lashes.)

Parfait is well and alive in this AU btw ! she’s just ‘disappeared’ bc she’s living somewhere secret with her goth wife Delora.

(side note: i realise Rumpel seems a lot like Lucette’s fairy godmother in the act thirteen. not intended, but i liked the imagery enough to let it stand :”)) bippity boppoty chevalier ! )

Varg and Lilja are both Swedish words. ancient Angiellian is partially Swedish. there’s probably ikea in this AU. let that sink in.

the swan mask Lucette was wearing was meant to allude to Odette and Odile from Swan Lake (because Fritz and Varg, white and black, swans are pretty yadda yadda), and i was going to write some really neat symbolism about that but i forgot lol ! 

(also the idea just never worked for me bc Odette and Odile aren’t the same people like Fritz/Varg but i wanted to reference Barbie Swan Lake (2003) ok let me live)

pour one out for our man Fritz who got rejected on his birthday. f. 

Emelaigne is the MVP. older sisters, no matter how truly Head Empty they are, always pull through when you need them. 

“isn’t the moon beautiful tonight” is a direct reference to an anecdote (which may or may not be true) about Natsume Souseki, a famous japanese writer, who translated ‘i love you’ to that phrase in order to account for the indirect characteristics of japanese speech.

Rumpel is the royal doctor, and has been apprenticing in the castle since Fritz was a child, before taking over the position as an adult ! so yes, Rumpel definitely rubbed off on Fritz in terms of values and morals.

with regards to Fritz and Lucette’s curses: i never really gave it much thought, but the vague idea i had was Lucette being cursed by Hildyr for disobedience (manipulative parenting say eye), then Hildyr dies lol and Lucette breaks her curse eventually.

with Fritz, he was likely cursed out of political reasons/jealousy and Varg was the result. works bc either way the curse meant for Fritz to be 1) inconvenienced or 2) dead/taken out of consideration for succession so like...a pain in the ass replacement who behaves the exact opposite of a prince works too.

this was hinted at vaguely in the fic, but Fritz became very secluded and hid himself in the castle for the years it took him to come to terms with his curse and break it. even then, because there was no one around him to really affirm his identity or accept him, he remained very withdrawn and a shell of his former self. 

i reckon it took him about 5-6 years to break the curse. so that’s a lot of time alone. Fritz was basically a NEET.

all jokes aside: Lucette and Fritz each broke their curses with their own willpower and effort, but remain the mostly the same because there was no one around them to truly understand or accept them for who they were, or who they became.

(until they met each other, of course)

also, idk if it was hinted well enough but Lucette and Fritz actually were in an engagement once, when they were children/early teens ! i intended to allude to this more with Hildyr giving Fritz Lucette’s portrait, which results in him recognising her, but it just never fit in anywhere. so yeah ! that’s another reason how/why Fritz knew who Lucette was at first glance. 

i figured the previous engagement would also help ease the court into their eventual marriage despite the whole ~*disgraced noble*~ thing. idk. i know nothing about western history and how it worked except for ALEXANDER HAMILTON (america sings for yooouuu) and divorced, beheaded, died, divorced, beheaded, survived.

however, Alcaster broke the engagement, as stated in act thirteen. the reason was basically: Angielle in this AU works not by a hereditary monarchy, but rather the previous monarch getting to choose whomever the fuck the want to succeed them. Hildyr and Alcaster were both in line for the throne, and Hildyr wanted to ensure that even if she couldn’t get the throne now, she still had a chance in the future if her daughter married Alcaster’s (who would then be king) son. Alcaster was like lol fuck off because he wanted power all to his family and took things into his own hands to ensure that would never happen (which involved: inciting public hatred against witches/Hildyr, breaking Lucette and Fritz’s engagement, and generally being a dick.

that’s about as plot heavy as it gets yall. the rest is just dumb idiots falling in love !

...............except for the political usurp that happens later, with Fritz’s faction forcefully taking the throne away from Alcaster’s tyrannical rule, which leads to a dramatic sway of public favour to Fritz and Lucette.

and then they live happily ever, ever after. 

(carrie underwood. yes i am planning an Enchanted AU dont look at me.)

the end !

[chibi-encubierta]

Trials of Mana, Session 6: “I was so tired that pressed the “save as draft” instead of the “post” button last night hahahah”

Ugghh... I hate being an adult and having to do adult stuff for all week... (they lifted the quarantine for some days last week I had to buy food and supplies for the next round of confinement). Also Pokemon Go Fest was cool! Got 4 shinies and some regionals and the Shadow bird trio (2 out of 3 are 90+iv without purification!!). Also my brother would have died long time ago if it weren’t for the fact that I’m currently with him doing everything in this apartment. ===============    But now I’m finally back to play!! yaaaaayy!!! TIME FOR REVEEEEENGEEEE!

Yeess finally killed this plant!! I really don’t know what I did wrong the first time, I did exactly the same and it died really quick. (Caterpillars make pig noises hehehe) ===============  

Dryad is literally doing an OwO face here and I don’t know what to think about it.

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Finally got the 8 spirit! Took me long this time... Ok, time to go to Oblivisle and get every single bad guy after us, yay!

Altena’s ship looks so cool! But reminds me of... something...!!!!! PROTOSS!!! THAT A PROTOSS SHIP!!!

This looks even funnier in 3d hehehehe

I love Nevarl ship and its remaked ballons!!

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YES! Its Flammie time!! Lets go to find her!

nice view in this place :D love it

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The Winged Defender of Sass (If I recall correctly in the fan translation is called “father of the winged ones” or something similar.. maybe that was the name of the Heroes of Mana game... Aaanyway, I like the new title of “Defender” is cool!)

Cute Flammie is soooo cute! I have always loved her and will love her forever.

YEEEEEHAWWW!!!

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Honestly, the past week has been just so hard... I don’t have the energy as I did before the 6 month of quarantine with all this “normal” activity... but I really love this part, need to keep playing.

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I see no difference! (will make this a separated post later)

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HELLO THERE MANA GODDESS, almost forgot that she appeared here.

Hi  ̶̷̼̠͚̘̦ͫ̉̒ͨ̌D̰̟ͥ̌ͤ̀ͪͨ̓̈́͟u̡͙͓̅͊̈ͤ̏̐ͭ͒̈́̕r̗ͮͩ̈́ͬ͊͒͑a̴͚̝̘̳̫̗ͦ͛̉nͯ̑ͨ̈̈́ͪ̿̌͏̬̦̮͢’̾̿̋ͤ̚͘҉̘̖̮̮͢s̫̥͚͈͈͑̓͗̂ ̵̛̪̹̱̼͎̲̻͒ͥͮ͑̔̎̾͒́ḟ̛̝̟͇̝̟̟̮͆̊͑̍ͬ͗̃́ǎ̸͚̙ͪ͂ͯ̀̍̔̋ṱ̷͖̦͓̮͉͙͗̐͋̒̓̊̈́h̸͋ͭ̓ͮ͐̂ͧ̄͏̹͔̦̺e̸̤̻̪̝͚ͫ͐̿͆̓̋̊r̟̮͉̰̯̿͒̉̆̈́̽͝ Bye ͔̭̦ͫͣͧ̄̌̏͝͠D̘̼͚̜̩̖̠̠̅̚͡u̮͔͉͓̝ͭ̎̀r̝͎͕̪͙̻̿̋͒͂ͤ̓ͩ͘a̱̯̬͉̜͎̤̎̒̌̂ͬn̛͚̭̩͇̜̼͔̻͊̅͛̒́’̷͙̭̫͕͕̮̺͒̃̾͡s̷̺͙͎̉͝ ̧̟̺̽̏̇f̢̦͔̪̗̳̭̒̄̍ͦ͂͡ā̧͓̬̲̱͖̯ͣ͢t̬̫̫̍̽͛͋h̶̎̀͏̫̻̦̳ĕ̷̌̇͒̋̌̓͆͒҉̥̲̠͕͇͙̯͘r̸̷̰̯̹͙̘͔̒́̓ͮ̑͊̑ͩ͘ͅ ̹͓ͧ̅   forever this time.

Mmm.... Charlotte? Are you not going to comment something about seeing Heath right here? No? nothing? Ok moving on, to Ferolia!!!

=============== Will rush this castle because I’m getting really sleepy but again, I love this part.

...I’m not totally ashamed to admit that got lost trying to get a treasure... I’m really tired hahhaha. ===============

Riesz: Oh my... What happened here? Kevin:  *smiles* I did when discovered the king made me kill Karl! Riesz: How...? Kevin: Ran thought it, wall break down, I kept running. Charlotte: NICE A SHOTCUT!! LETS GET BACK FAERIE, DECCHI! =============== (Now Charlotte recognized Heath, about time gurl!)

Wow... That was low Kevin, you broke Gauser heart, I’m sure :(

And then he proceeded to exit the scene... To play with a pup!!

Sword of Mana confirms it: Kevin is a beautiful cinnamon Roll, too good for this world, too pure. The game want me to go back the entire castle but I KNOW I NEED TO GO BEHIND THE THRONE ROOM!! (Gauser is literally playing with Karl!! omg!! but it is obvious that he likes dogs, he has 2 big cerberus as pets!! is a family thing?)

The plot thickens.

The  A+ parenting of the entire game (Literally, all the rest are the worst parents ever or dead... or both!) Gauser really loves his son, no matter what he says :D This is why I love this part, Gauser and Kevin ends this part so happy Now finally to my favorite part, defeat the Benevodons!! but... not today I’m just too tired and don’t know which one to pick first =============== Next session: “Dolan is nearest but I want to fly to destroy the Light one first bc I just hate that one eye flying tumour”

[smores100]

i really snjoy reading your opinions on wtfock (i may have scrolled through your posts tonread your tags) and holy shit i agree 100% with you! bless you for being brave enough to share your opinion!

awww anon, this was a sweet msg to come back to, thank you! the fact that you scrolled through my posts to read *my* tags and *my* opinions….me???….you flatter me 😌 my tags are often so rambly and messy bc i have Thoughts but i don’t always know how to make sense of them but sometimes i just GOTTA so then that happens. and i appreciate being called brave but lol i’m really not! notice how i share my opinion/crticize/rant in the tags instead of making my own posts…i’m a wuss who can’t handle confrontations, but still has things to say and a desire to vent, so rambling in the tags is my solution, haha. i just know a lot of my opinions are probably unpopular and controversial and i don’t want to piss anyone off with my negativity. plus i’m sure i’ll be accused of being a skam purist who hates on the remakes just for the sake of hating, which is untrue bc i *did* try to like the remakes, and fact is i *do* love some of them, BUT it’s also true bc i’m 100% a skam pursit when it comes to s3. say what you will about all the other seasons, but og s3 is PERFECTION in every way, and aside from maybe a thing or two i wouldn’t change ANYTHING about it, so if you’re gonna copy/paste it OR make changes then hell yeah i’m gonna have Thoughts about it, and don’t be surprised if they’re not positive ones!

(also if i’m already here, let me just say regarding the last two clips - EEK. i’ve said in another post how i hate that they broke this scene into 2 clips bc it feels unnecessary and only for shock value and drama. in general i don’t like how DARK and DEPRESSING they’re making out this story to be, there really wasn’t any need to see 3 mins of robbe trying to have sex with a girl, he has internalized homophobia WE GET IT. we got it when isak made out with emma in front of his friends and pulled away when she tried to blow him in the bathroom once they were gone; we got it when matteo pulled away from sara and offered to watch a movie together instead or when he flinched when she touched his back and ran out of there. THEY DON’T NEED TO GO THIS HARD for the viewers to get it!!! and blah blah realism blah blah this isn’t what s3 is supposed to be about!!! i can’t stress enough how the message of s3 is HOPE. i’m not lgbt so obviously i’ll never know what it’s like for them, but i’ve had (and have) shit going on in my life and escapism for me is watching something that cheers me up and makes me happy. and maybe i’m wrong, but i think a lot of lgbt people would rather watch something that comforts and gives them hope instead of a rerun of their real life. i know i would. and that’s what was so beautiful about og, it wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows, there was angst and difficult times, but there was always a good balance b/w the angst and the fluff, and even being isak’s safe haven had a lot to do with it. 

i saw someone saying earlier something about how they love what wtfock is doing with robbe’s internalized homophobia bc it’s more realistic/better than even fixing isak’s internalized homophobia, which made me GROAN out loud bc THAT’S NOT WHAT HAPPENED. even didn’t FIX anything, isak CLEARLY still suffers from it even AFTER getting together with even (the first time) - e.g. his fear when emma calls him ‘gay’ in the middle of the party; the pride talk with eskild; his nerves before and during his coming out scene to jonas; same with magnus and mahdi and ‘i’m not gay….ok maybe a little bit gay…’; i could go on and on. the point is, even didn’t FIX anything, but he *did* make things EASIER and BETTER and he *did* give him that push he needed in order to start his journey to self acceptance. that’s why their first kiss was such a PIVOTAL MOMENT for isak!!! the water, the 21:21, the REBIRTH SYMBOLISM, isak initiating the kiss….it was isak FINALLY letting himself be his REAL SELF for the FIRST TIME. it was his first real step into accepting himself, and once that happened, despite his internalized homophobia not magically going away, despite all his worries and fears, he never looked back. he didn’t try to fight who he really was anymore and force himself to act straight again. bc meeting even changed his life and gave him HOPE. just like isak’s and even’s story did to so many other people. what wtfock did after robbe’s and sander’s first kiss is the complete opposite. they missed the whole point of the season and i hate it). (also, i have no idea whether or not they’re planning on keeping the mi storyline, but if they are…..ooof, this will make everything up until now even worse).

ANYWAY you didn’t ask for this, i’m sorry! i just had to vent somewhere, so ty for providing me with the opportunity. and ty again for caring about my opinion at all 😊

[holdmetightordont-2]

hi :0

i have 300 pages to read, and yet here i am, remaking my tumblr. yep.

hi, my name’s ray. i’m 23 and i started my first year of grad school two weeks ago. i already want to die. 

i’m not sure if this’ll be more of a personal or fandom blog yet. we’ll see. it might be a combination of things. i’m not bothered about followers or anything like that, so there’s no real incentive for me to make this blog known for a certain entity. i do want this blog to be somewhat organized though, so i’ll make sure i tag everything. ya’ll can blacklist any tags you don’t want to see.

i suppose the purpose of this post is to introduce myself, and sort of...blog about my first few weeks of grad school.

i’m tempted to reveal every single aspect of my life, as i do on my personal twitter account. i’ll try to be as appropriate as i can, in case someone irl finds me. i do think i’ll be somewhat recognizable, based on my research and interests, but that’s alright.

based on my username, you could guess that i am/was a big fan of fall out boy. i still listen to their music, but less so these days. about a year ago, i rewatched inception, one of my favorite movies in high school, for the fist time in years. after 8 years, i became obsessed and was pleasantly surprised to see that the fic comm is still around, churning out arthur/eames fics. it’s fantastic. i uh...love inception so much that i...did this...

i had it finished right before i moved for grad school. i’m pretty pleased with it :)

originally, i planned out a somewhat large-scale tattoo with my tattoo artist -- i wanted matching tattoos on my ribs of a rose garden, firstly because they’re one of my favorite flowers, and it would symbolize beast/highlight, the first kpop band i ever loved. then...in march, all that shit came out about junhyung -- who is a piece of shit, by the way, and i no longer really interact with fandom because of all the people who still support him -- so that obviously was called out. tbh, i’m so glad that all was revealed in march, bc i was supposed to get it in may. i would have really considered a cover up if i had gotten it before he was called out, tbh.

anyway! after i got the first half of the inception tattoo, i went to study khmer for the summer out of state. it was...an interesting summer, partly because of the teachers. khmer was h a r d. i hated the state i was in. i actually applied to go that school for my MA and i’m glad i made the decision not to go back in april.

after that, i returned home for a bit, finished off the tattoo, and promptly moved to...paradise. i’m trying to be vague here, but you can probably guess where i moved. it’s just beautiful here. the culture is so rich. i’m surrounded by such good food. i’m very excited about the classes i’m taking, the people in my program (anthropology) are so nice. i’m so so so so excited for my research.

but i’m lonely. i’ve made a few friends, but i feel kind of excluded from the group that formed in my cohort. i can tell that they hang out more together, and haven’t really invited me (though i haven’t sought them out either). i’m just kinda bummed about that. but it’s okay, i’ll make friends. 

i’m also suffering from health issues...i’ve had a hives viral infection for the past two weeks. it’s been fucking hell. nothing really helps except for the steroid i’ve taken the past few days. it just really fucking sucks. i’m itchy all the time, especially at night. in fact, i’m itchy right now, and i’m kind of glad i’m doing the all-nighter since i can’t go to sleep with this anyway. i hope this doesn’t last too much longer.

i fucked up real bad, y’all. i still have that 300 pages to read and weeks worth of khmer to do. my macbook actually broke yesterday, but thankfully i have my old one with me. it’s not a good excuse, really. i’ve been lazy. i hope i can better manage my time this upcoming week. maybe limit all-nighters to once every two weeks, or even better, once a month? that’d be nice.

on another note, i’ve been trying to cook more recently since a bunch of my kitchen supplies finally came in. i made a japanese curry with potatoes, carrots, and kabocha yesteday and it’s pretty good!! i wish i’d gotten a spicier roux though. it’s kind of a miracle that i like it so much, because i almost never eat vegetables. i guess the trick is to simmer the veggies until they’re super soft and absorb all the flavors. 

i also found recipes for a turmeric pad thai, “golden” (turmeric) broth noodles, and egg kimbaps that i’m excited to try!! there’s a small japanese grocery store that’s in walking distance from my dorm, but it doesn’t have all the ingredients i need. i also still need to order a mini fridge. but it’s been working out so far!! also want to make carne asada burritos!! i want to make 3 for this week and have the other 3 frozen so i can sorta meal prep throughout the month. i bought a meat thermometo and i’m just. so excited. because i have never made proper steak before, like the kind that’s rare or medium rare? it’ll be great.

okay, i think this is a good place to stop. it’s nice writing about everything here, cohesively. i’m a bit of a rambler on twitter (not that i’m not here, clearly), but i like that i have all my thoughts in a single place, even if there’s no one to read it. 

wish me luck on my readings! -ray

[lolbtsaus]

Thunder (Bad Boy!Taehyung)

Plot: A thunderstorm with bad boy!Taehyung

Word Count: 648

A/N: this is a remake of an old post I did (click here for the original version) I added in some hints of bad boy!Tae (here) bc my heart

You hadn’t seen it coming really. You’d set up a movie date with your boyfriend of two years, Taehyung, and planned to hold him and not let go for the rest of the night. You wanted to watch his favorite movie so you could see him smile and hear his laugh, you wanted to eat so much popcorn, you two wouldn’t be able to eat another bite of it for weeks. You wanted a normal date night with your boyfriend and you had started to get what you wanted.

He’d arrived, bringing his infamous square grin, highlighted by the studs under his lip, his sleeve of tattoos and the backwards snapback he loved so much with him, along with a bag of your favorite takeout. You two had made it through dinner, started the first movie, eaten half of the first bowl of popcorn when you heard it. Thunder.

At first, it’d started out as rain, a few drops here and there. Taehyung had told you it wasn’t anything too bad and you’d listened, turning your attention back to the movie. Then the rain got heavier and heavier before you heard the noise that made you jump straight out of your boyfriend’s arms and into your closet. This wasn’t your first thunderstorm with Taehyung, which means you didn’t get the usual “what are you doing” and “get out of there, it’s just thunder.”

Instead, you saw your boyfriend squeeze into the other side of the closet, bringing the popcorn. You looked at him in shock, wondering why he wasn’t trying to coax you out like he had last time.

“The view’s not amazing from here but it can work. Popcorn?” he offered, holding the bowl towards you as he made himself comfortable.

“What are you doing?” you found yourself asking, your head tilting.

“Watching a movie? Isn’t that what you called me over for?”

“Well yeah, but I-” you broke off as there was another crack of thunder, making you throw the blanket over your head and curl into the smallest ball you could.

You felt him rub your back, subtly beginning to move you out from the closet and back into the bedroom.

“What are you-” Another crack cut you off, this time sending you straight into his arms.

He immediately wrapped himself around you, his arms holding you tightly against his chest as his legs tangled with yours. He pulled his phone out of his pocket, grabbing the earphones off of your bed and putting them into your ears. He went into a playlist made specifically for this occasion, turning the volume up high. He let you hold his phone in case you wanted to change the music, his hand slowly rubbing your back. He let you trace the tattoos on his arm to help distract you while his chin found a spot on top of your head. You two fell into a more relaxed position, your head resting on his chest while his fingers drew shapes into your spine.

It was moments like these you knew you loved him. Of course you loved your usual energetic “bad boy” boyfriend but the moments of serenity with him were enough to make you fall even deeper. He seemed to know you better than you knew yourself most days, seeming to sense you’d had a rough day before you could even tell him.

You couldn’t name how many times he’d called at three in the morning just as you were gathering the courage to text him. You couldn’t begin to count all the times he’d given you the hug you needed after a long day without you asking for it. He knew when it was time to play and when you needed him and he was quick to respond to both.

“I love you.” you whispered, seeing a soft smile spread across his face.

“I love you too.”

[theteaisaddictive]

can I send a few? if not, feel free to just go with your favorite :) 1, 9, 14 and 20 for Adam and Belle (maybe 2017?) sorry for sending so many but you know I love your fic and I'm always desperate for more Adam/Belle fic :)) -danstevensgrowl (bc I got ask limit haha)

thanks! i’ve already done 20, but i’ll have a go at the rest (and to reiterate, i’ve only seen the remake once so if they’re a little ooc that’s why) (also these are going to be a lot shorter than the last post was but that’s ok, right?)

1. things you said at 1 am

Adam looked over at Belle, who was still gamely reading even though it was long past midnight. 

“Darling?”

“I’m almost finished with this chapter,” she said. 

“You said that an hour ago.”

“I’m on a different chapter now.”

“Belle! It’s past an hour after midnight!”

She shut the book, pouting in that way she only did when she was teasing him. “And here I thought you loved my eccentric reading habits.”

“You know what they’ll think, the two of us up so late, unchaperoned.”

Belle actually laughed out loud. “The wedding is in two days, sweetheart. Do they think that if we’re left alone for as much as five minutes, I’ll magically produce a child seven months after the wedding instead of nine - despite neither of us so much as touching the other, might I add?”

“They’re just worried,” Adam said. “They know I was … well, you know.” Belle did, in fact, know - the morning after the curse, both of them had had a long, frank discussion about each other’s pasts. 

She hummed thoughtfully. “Come over here,” she said, patting the space beside her. Once he shuffled over, she manhandled him so that his head rested on her lap as she read.

“I could sleep like this,” he said. 

“Good. If they’re going to talk, let’s give them something to talk about.”

9. things you said when i was crying

The Beast had transformed. They had kissed - one magical, earth-shattering kiss. And then, much to Belle’s embarrassment, she had burst into tears.

“Belle!” the young man said, rubbing her shoulders soothingly. “It’s alright, I’m here. I’m alright.”

“Are - are you sure?” Belle sobbed. “Because I’m pretty - pretty sure you got shot in the back three times - three times, my - my dear, dear -” 

She had dissolved into tears again, and the Beast - the prince, she supposed - pulled her close against his chest. She heard the strong beat of his heart, and it was inconceivable that less than a minute ago she had heard it stop, seemingly forever. 

But here he stood, kissing the top of her head and stroking her hair.

Eventually, she calmed down enough to stop sobbing, although a few stray tears still fell. “I’m sorry - I’m normally never like this.”

“I know,” he said, and it was less an assurance of her emotional state than a proclamation that he did know her.

14. things you said after you kissed me

Belle and Adam broke away from each other, and the congregation exploded with cheers. Maurice, a few steps away, had whipped out a handkerchief. Lefou and Stanley, along with the other villagers, were on their feet cheering. The castle servants were just as joyful, and on cue the maids opened the balcony doors to the wide sunlight, as Belle and Adam smiled and nodded their thanks to Pere Robert for marrying them.

The gold ring, adorned with a luminescent opal, was nowhere near as ornate as Belle had feared it would be. The matching thick band on Adam’s hand seemed to suit him immensely - and Belle was hit with the realisation that she would get to see that ring on his finger every day for the rest of their lives. They walked sedately to the balcony, having been prepared by Cogsworth the night before. 

“The Crown Prince, Louis-Alexandre Vincent Adam Christophe, and his bride, the Crown Princess, Marie-Isabelle Beaumont!” 

“It’s going to be loud out there, darling,” he said - their first words as husband and wife. “Are you ready?”

“For you, dear husband? Always.”

He smiled that blinding smile she had seen more and more as she got to know him, and they stepped out on the balcony together, to greet the people of France.

ship prompt meme

[magtitude]

1 -- 10 Chris headcanons from my old blog/s under the cut. watch out tho bc it’s a long post.

1. Ruth’s nickname for Chris is “Tiffa”, after having difficulty pronouncing his full name when she was first starting to speak ( Chris-topher; Tiffa ).

2. When living with his mother: In a house. Ground floor: living room, kitchen, dining room, coat closet, outhouse leading to the garden. First floor ( 2nd. IDK I’m British ): Mom + Tom’s bedroom. Ruth’s bedroom. Spare bedroom. Two bathrooms. Attic, which is also Chris’ bedroom.

When living with his aunt: apartment on the 6th floor. Living room/dining room/kitchenette. Two bedrooms. One bathroom.

3. Neither Angela nor Chris can drive ( at least up until February of 2015 ), and have to rely on others to pick them up, or public transport. The latter they hate – they both like to have their own space to sit, and not next to strangers on a bus.

4. Sometimes Chris has dizzy spells, and it feels like his head feels stuffed full of cotton and heavy on his neck, and sometimes it feels like his sense of balance is thrown off to the side; he occasionally calls this last thing “left-leaning” or “right-leaning”, depending on which direction it feels like ( most of the time it’s left ).

Before the mountain, he justs shrugs it off, joking ( mostly to himself so others don’t get worried ) that as long as it doesn’t feel like he’s dying, he’s not bothered by it, even if it has a serious-sounding name ( he has no idea if it does ).

Post-mountain, he thinks it’s “probably a good idea to look into it”… about several months ( maybe a year, year-and-a-half ) later.

5. Josh was Chris’ first friend; being bffs was the cherry on top. and it was also the first time he found someone who wasn’t related to him who would stand up for him, at all.

6. Sometimes it’s funny to get under people’s skin. you know, just over silly stuff – masculine manly men stuff with Mike, for one thing, and asking how many feet Emily has, then asking “then why do u need so many shoes?? :o”, and nabbing Beth’s beanie, and saying stuff like “the sequel/remake was better :///” around Josh. Just for fun.

He has gotten himself into trouble with it before, where he has actually upset someone ( not just his circle of friends ). And although he didn’t intend to, he, 9 out of 10 times, apologises.

7. Chris & Ruth have heelies.

8. During one of his many flits from his home with his Mom to go stay with Diane’s for a couple of weeks ( before he eventually got tired of her too, again ), he broke his ankle during an argument as he was leaving – fell off the porch. He had to stay home; his mom was insufferably apologetic, with a touch of smug relief that he couldn’t leave. He was 17 at the time.

9. When Chris was 16, his biological dad, Ryan, tried to get back in touch with him; Chris blew him off, more-or-less flipping the bird over the phone. Ryan doesn’t try again until three weeks after the 2015 Blackwood incident.

10. Chris has practised shooting firearms on Mount Washington when he went to visit, and has also practised under the supervision of Tom, his stepfather.

[thepeppermama]

About me

Yo, I got tagged by @nothingcametomind

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better

Star Sign: Virgo

Height: 5'4 (I think lmao)

Time Right Now: 10:08 AM Last Thing Googled: ‘pissed off mama bird’

Favourite Music Artist: I listen to all types of music and I tend to like songs specifically rather then artists, but just for consistency’s sake? Panic! At the Disco just because out of everyone I listen to, I like the most of their songs.

Last Movie Watched: Sing

Last TV Show Watched: Steven Universe

What am I wearing right now: Black Long sleeved shirt, jeans, oversized zip hoodie, crossword puzzle converse, and green lipstick lmao

When did I create my blog?: Uhh. Okay so technically 2013 I think, and then the only thing that’s really changed since then is the fact that I accidentally deleted my account and had to remake it a few months ago (with the same URL tho)

What kind of stuff do you post?: DC’s Robins/Batman, shit that amuses me, Steven Universe, and the occasional social awareness shit

Do you have any other blogs?: Yeah I have one for writing and one for RP (that I never use)

Do i get asks regularly?: Nah

Why did i choose my URL?: Okay so. Here’s the thing. I only made a tumblr originally because of @akumanoko In the first year I knew them we where joking around one day about me being their Sugar Daddy or something (because I have a habit of giving the people I love food like all the time IDK it’s been years) and I was just like ‘no I’m broke I can be ur pepper mama tho’ and thus they became my pepper baby, and I the Pepper Mama.

Gender: Female Pokemon Team: Mystic 👅

Favourite Color: Burgundy

Average Hours Sleep: 6-8? I’m never well rested tho bc my sleeping patterns are shit.

Favourite Characters: (in no particularly order) Toshiro Hitsugaya from Bleach, Ciel Phantomhive from Kuroshitsuji, Dick Grayson from The Batman comics, Damian Wayne from the Batman Comics, Tim Drake from the Batman Comics, Tenten from Naruto, Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter, Fred and George Weasley from Harry Potter, Levy from Fairy Tail

Dream Job: I have no particularly strong need to do anything. I do have an interest in psychology through, and I’m over halfway through an associate’s and aiming for a Master’s in the next 5 years right now so I’m going to see where that takes me.

I suppose I’ll tag @akumanoko @emeralddrop @into-the-painted-gay @anunfortunatelackofdragons @amandaplease19 @fabled-truths-sometimes-lies @j-a-s-o-n-t-o-d-d @blackbatqirl @chimerasara @m-a-k-e-d-a

That’s not 20 but idk. Whoever else wants to do this, feel free.

[dgdtheband]

this is a lot

i feel really conflicted bc i’ve had this blog since i attempted suicide in 2014 and posting on it has helped me to cope with a lot of traumatic events and it has a sentimental value to me? and it helps me to process events to reread posts no matter how long ago the event happened and thats just part of my processing. even this post is part of my processing

but at the same time, i feel that processing is part of the reason why i obsess over events for days and then act as if nothing ever happened? obviously me being mentally ill is part of the equation but i’m really not a fan of the way that i like, will spend time overthinking and analyzing every aspect of a traumatic event and then try to avoid talking about it ever again and acting like it doesn’t effect the way i behave. it’s like i try to skip actually healing or caring for myself and even outside of traumatic events, even wrt my mental illness i’ll make a ton of posts over the course of a panic attack and then try to pretend i am fine 

lately i’ve been feeling like i am not being true to myself about what i want and what really matters, and i dont know if fixing this problem means coming out (again, but this time demanding to be understood), not smoking weed, deleting this blog, eating healthier, being on medication, etc. but i know i’m tired of repeating the same behaviors and i’m tired of being self destructive, i’m tired of not loving myself and treating myself like shit and living with such a fog around me. i’m tired of not being the person i want to be for my friends and my family. i’m tired of feeling guilty when i put myself first. i’m tired of being in relationships and being afraid, either because of past traumas or my own insecurities or not being able to stand up for myself. 

i just want to get to a place of love and appreciation and optimism that i was at when i started this blog because i was so ready to take care of myself and love myself and put myself first. and i determined that was all returning as the theme of 2017 when i left my job and broke it off with a girl that, admittedly, i was completely ready to love. it took a LOT of strength for me to do both of those things and i don’t want to regret them because i know that. it took all the lessons i was forced to learn in 2016 and all the strength i didn’t think i had last year to make these decisions. i don’t want to go back anymore, i don’t want to revert to old behavior anymore. i spent an entire year being abused and not thinking for myself and not putting myself first and i don’t think i could repeat the journey that has put me in this place of being tired and wanting to change. 

no matter what happens in the rest of the year, whether i go back to my old job for the money, or if i move in and live with my mom longer than we anticipate, or if i fall in love... i want to make these decisions with confidence and with the knowledge that i am putting myself and my priorities first. so i think i will delete this blog and all it’s messiness and all the depressing text posts and stop letting the things that have happened determine my character and be such a piece of my identity... i will remake and i may archive this but then there isn’t a point. we’ll see