#redacted sam and darlin

[alrxiin]

"I can't do this anymore."

Sam x Darlin' (Gender neutral) | angst

TW's : Character d3ath, su!cid3, self-degradation, Quinn, just sad.

I haven't written oneshot's in a while, so this might be bad, but how else can I warm up than write something? :P

I just thought of how awful Darlin' must have felt with the whole Quinn situation when they caught him, and decided to make something of it.

It was a few months after Quinn has been caught and executed, everything was going well. A day like all the other, that's all it was. Sam, working on his usual job – now that William has put him back on it – and Darlin'...

Sam's phone vibrated in his pocket, finishing up on something, he let it ring for a second before looking at the screen, noticing his mate's name showing.

The Vampire quickly picked up, pressing the phone against his ear just to hear shuffling along with a muffled wince.

- Darlin'? — He spoke softly, trying to pick up on any other noise, before the voice of his lover answers him.

- Sam, you picked up. — Their voice was quiet, strained almost.

- 'Course I picked up, why– scratch that. Darlin' is everything okay? — It felt like the stupidest question he could've asked, hearing as the shifters voice was softer than usual, and the strain on it.

- Sam I... — They hesitated for a moment. Questioning if this call was even the right choice, if this won't ruin what they had planned.

But finally figured, they did have to say a proper goodbye to their mate. The one who took care of them in their darkest moments, and the one they had planned a future that will not come to life anymore.

- I can't do this anymore, my love. — Was all they could've mustered. The petname that should have eased up the situation, bringing it up to a new state of worry for the man on the other side of the phone.

- What...what do you mean by that? Darlin', answer me, are you alright? — It stung their heart to hear his panicked voice, but they had to do it. Didn't they?

- It hurts, Sam. It hurts so much. — A cry escaped them, sending the Vampire running to the closest worker he could find to let himself off work.

- Dammit Darlin', please, be more specific. I need to know what happened. Please. —

- I can't take it anymore Sam. It's like he's everywhere, I can't escape him.

All I see is his features everywhere, and his voice, it's– it's taunting me, and I hate it so much... everything he said was right... I'm just a weak, disgusting thrall. His sloppy seconds. — The words were flowing out of their mouth like a faucet, words that should have never came out of such a precious, and innocent person.

- Darlin' don't say that, don't you dare say that!.. Are you at home? Tell me. — He didn't stutter, using his speed to get there as quick as he can.

- I'm home, please, don't come Sam. I just want him to go away finally. —

Sam didn't listen, talking to Darlin' as he sped to their home, that is before they went silent.

And that silence shot through him. Cry, that's what he wanted to do, sob out pleas for his lover to say something. But he just stayed silent.

The house was so quiet too, so cold, untouched. The Vamp quickly ran through the rooms, only to enter their shared bathroom.

And there they were, his sweet lover, propped up at the side of the bathtub, phone still in hand, and a bottle of pills that were supposed to help them...spilled on the ground next to them.

- Darlin'!... — He whisper-yelled, already by his lovers side, using his healing to fix whatever damage he could.

- No... p-please.. — Voice weaker than ever, they pleaded, eyes barely able to open. - I'm sorry S-Sam. — They finally spoke.

That's when he felt it.

Their body slowly going limp in his arms.

The spark in their eyes fading

And that last breath escaping their slightly parted lips.

- No. No no no no... — Frantic, he begged and finally sobbed, holding his lover close to him, trying to convince himself it was all a dream. Such a bad dream.

But it wasn't, the love of his undead life had just left him, and he was alone again.

He had their pack, yes, but it would never be enough to fill that void losing Darlin' made.

Even years later, he still has a small, hand built toy of a tank on his bedside table. Just another small thing to remind him of you, his Tank, as the others also called you.

On that toy sat a ring. One he could never give to you anymore, but he would always have with him, for it was supposed to be yours.

He knew, that his Darlin' would've loved it, with all their scarred heart, they would've said "yes".

[darlinrxe]

the way sam reacted to darlin’ telling him they stayed to listen the entire time broke my heart

[ashthefrogmonarch]

// I am tasting myself in the mouth of the sun.//

[aimedis]

redacted asmr headcanons pt.2

-while angel loves no one more than david, no one infuriates them more than he does (could apply to all mates)

-darlin’ tries to trip david every time he walks in front of them

-lasko is so obsessed with dear, he trails after them like a lost puppy all day (even when they're at damn)

-gavin is 100% addicted to sugar (he’s always eating candy and desserts and drinking sweet drinks)

-darlin’ is insanely ticklish but the only one knows is sam because no one else would dare get that close to them (sam comes up behind them and pokes their sides while they’re not paying attention and they flinch hella hard) ((he also tickles them when they’re in bed together))

-as a teen, darlin’s parents would not let them do anything without david (because they would undoubtedly get into trouble otherwise)

-vincent acts incredibly corny ironically just because it annoys/embarrasses lovely every time

-darlin’ is a pretzel purist (obsessed with them)

-if gavin is arguing with freelancer, giving him a lollipop with make him shut up 99% of the time 

-gavin and freelancer look at each other in sync and judge other people

-asher and baabe argue once a year

-freelancer and gavin fought like one time in their first year of dating and it made freelancer cry like a lot especially to damien (he told gavin after they made up “never let me catch you making my best friend cry again, do you hear me?”) 

-david and darlin’ are 100% siblings coded

-every other week david, asher, milo, and darlin gather together somewhere and talk about their mates and other stuff (mainly their mates) ((sturniolo triplets style))

bonus +

asher: “we’re shifters, of course, our love language is biting the shit out of each other”

milo: “we’re shifters, of course, i'll fight you if you touch my lower back no matter who you are”

darlin’: “we’re shifters, just because i respect the pack hierarchy, doesn’t mean i respect the people in said hierarchy”

david: “we’re shifters, of course, as alpha, i’m legally allowed to beat the shit out of all of you for the sake of “keeping the pack in line””

[zozo-01]

"i thought you said you never get cold." "shut up, collins." "you love me, darlin'." "i'm a lawyer, we're incredible liars when we want to be."

another beautiful commission done by the incredible @andr0leda!! my beloved darlin' is ten seconds away from riding her beloved cowboy!!

[radiant-cowgirl]

perhaps a silly question but are angel and baabe’s unempowered familes invited to the wedding? that’s gotta be a huge covert breach

but imagine the silly hijinks that would ensue

“hey why’s the best man (gender neutral)’s boyfriend sitting under an umbrella? it’s supposed to be clear skies all day”

“oh um he’s just super goth”

“he’s wearing a cowboy hat”

“he’s…y’allternative”

“wtf angel”

[skunkox]

Puppy Dog Eyes

Who's using them least to most often

David:

Doesn't realize he's doing it and wouldn't believe you if you told him he was either. It mostly happens when he wants Angel to sit still and cuddle with him. Angel teases him about it every now and then. He'll just bury his head in the crook of their neck and deny it.

Milo:

Strategically uses them. Like when he wants to get out of playing a horror game. Or when he's trying to win a debate. Milo has been known to pick up Aggro and hold him next to his face. Puppy eyes on full display. The combo is lethal, and he knows it. There's also a quick change from puppy eyes to bedroom eyes that still boggles Sweetheart.

Darlin':

Does it all the time and doesn't even know. David, Ash, and Milo has seen it at least once. How quickly Sam would fold and how he'd struggle to hold himself back from locking them in a bear hug. They didn't wanna believe it when the guys joked about it, but Baaabe was quick to come with receipts. A picture found in the Mates group chat and taken by Sweetheart proved otherwise.

Asher:

All the damn time and to everyone. That's just how he's wired. Asher has one of those faces it's hard to say no to. It's not impossible, but it happens. Especially when he does it to people he's known nearly his entire life. There's a 50/50 success rate when it comes to Baaabe. They're used to his antics and doesn't have a problem with dishing out "consequences." But if there's no harm, why not let him have his way?

[dani-ya-dig]

The audios with David and Sam mean so much to me, bc Sam is shitting his pants because he is having to meet with a man that has a lot of power, and is super intimidating to him. He doesn’t know what’s gonna happen in all of this, David might have yelled at him, David might have tried to whoop his ass for all he knew. And on top of all of that, he’s probably also freaking out about the person he has a little crushy crush on never forgiving him for this.

And David is just being the sassiest fuck ever the whole time! He is giving Sam like Milo Greer levels of sass.

These have gotta be one of the funniest things David has ever done. Up there with winning Just Dance and getting fucked up in the club.

Examples with emojis to emphasize my point:

David: I’m the Alpha of the Shaw pack of Dahlia

Sam: oh. 😟

David: yes 😒 oh 🙄

Sam: Mr. Shaw?? 😥

David: Sam. 😑

Sam: They had told me that…

David: Did they tell you WHY that friend was attacked 🤨

Sam: …😓

David: I’ll take that as a no 😒

[rainingcatsandjune]

the sleepy bbs :3 sam sleeping with a shifted darlin :3

at this point i feel like i should just tag her SHES BEEN GIVING ME ALL THE IDEAS RAHHFJKSDFHGKJF thank you @nicnebula for indoctrinating introducing me to redactedverse my motivation to draw has gone through the roof AND THANK FOR THIS IDEA ITS SO SWEET AAAAAAAAAAAA

bit messier but i gotta fix my perfectionism somehow so here you go :0

[lwdsial]

redacted fandom is so screwed bcz how does a fictional man say “i love you too dad” or “my eyes were brown” and everyone loses their shit 😭😭

[no-see-um-incorrect]

When Porter and Vincent(+lovely) witness Sam being all cute/sexy-like with Darlin they will act like a couple grossed out kids watching their parents kiss

Sam: let me get a kiss from my darlin~ *Kissing Commences*

Porter: UGH-*Gagging noises*

Vincent: eweweweweEWEWEWEW!!

Lovely: MY EYES!!!!!!!

[darlinrxe]

thinking about how sam and darlin will have to make a very difficult decision at some point in their relationship iykwim

[ashthefrogmonarch]

I miss my parents guys...I miss them a lot.. I'll be back 😔😔

[aimedis]

redacted asmr headcanons pt.3

-darlin’ gives sam puppy dog eyes all the time both with or without their own acknowledgement (they bite their lip too and it drives sam fucking insane)

-wolves don’t particularly enjoy being touched around their lower back area, even the most controlled wolf will get uncomfortable and/or shift instinctively to protect themselves

-asher and baabe are literally johnny and mavis 

-vincent and lovely are always together. always. (where one is, the other is not far behind) 

-gavin telling freelancer they’re pretty every single day 

-freelancer telling gavin he has the kindest heart every single day (and that he’s pretty) 

-freelancer plays volleyball (they’re on a recreational team)

-darlin' and milo will forever have beef with asher and asher will always harass them. when milo says "ash, ew.." darlin' says "ash, what the fuck.."

-david ‘hardass’ shaw brought to his knees begging for forgiveness because angel called him david once 

-freelancer and huxley feed off each other’s energy and they’re both adorably loud when around each other 

-gavin and freelancer get violently upset if they’re not around each other for more than a day

-“your eyes are so pretty” was one of the first things coworker said to lasko and he stopped breathing for a solid minute

-under extreme stress, cutie loses control of their powers and it can either make them slide out of someone’s head or into everyone’s head (during the inversion they could hear everyone’s thoughts and they were trying to fight off a panic attack the whole time)

-milo and darlin' make fun of each other’s trauma (milo: “that’s why your dad doesn’t fucking love you” darlin': “your dad doesn’t love you either, bitch”)

[justsomeimbicel]

Darlin going to Mount Blanc to visit Sam's grandma's grave and awkwardly telling her how Sam's doing. They don't plan on telling Sam about it, they just wanted to pay their respects to the only person that cared for their mate when he was suffering.

[radiant-cowgirl]

thinking about freelancer and gavin and avior and starlight and sam and darlin because it’s so unfair that all of them fought so hard to find the love they have with each other and none of them are going to get the time they deserve.

one day freelancer is going to be in a hospital bed, cupping gavin’s face, calling him their darling boy, telling him that everything’s going to be okay, pretending that they aren’t crying themselves. the rest of their friends are spread across the globe. the only one they wanted to see before they left was gavin. they’re going to die and there’s not a thing gavin can do about it.

one day, avior is going to be sitting in a cemetery on a hot summer day, until the sun sets, casting long shadows across the grass. he’s going to talk to starlight’s grave like they can hear him. he’s going to complain about frivolous things, tell them about his life without them. then he’ll grow quiet just as the sun dips below the horizon and confess that none of it actually bothers him. the only thing he can’t stand is not hearing their responses, or being able to hold their hand while he talks.

one day, sam is going to have a very good day. he’s going to visit the pack, laugh and joke with his aging friends. he’s going to eat an entire tub of butter pecan ice cream and not feel guilty about it. he’s going to spend comfortable, long hours having introspective talks with vincent. he’ll call alexis and tell her everything he never had the guts to say. then, somewhere around four am he’ll put his favorite flannel on, make himself a pot of coffee and climb to the roof and talk to the remaining stars like they’re his mate. he’ll wait for the sunrise, hoping that for a few brief seconds he’ll feel the warmth and not the burn.