#reasons i think im adhd

[faunandfloraas]

im so glad im not the only person that looks at seungmin and goes "❓tism❓" bc he is Way Too Relatable to me as a person w autism

yeah..... like I say it in jest but also..... well, yk. sometimes you notice something and you notice something and you notice something and you go Hmmmm

[jackalopc]

i've been devouring these marcsteven fic's on ao3 by Leo_LongestNameEver and i need you to understand its fundamentally changing my brain chemistry. these are fics that i'll read and be like "jesus christ this hit me so hard i need to lie down" while i'm literally already lying down. then there is @pummedraws fic "F.I.L.W.T.O.Y.I.Y.M" which is doing tHE SAME FUCKING THING TO ME!?

i feel a little bonkers rn i'm gonna be so real i had to walk away from ao3 to literally calm down that's where i'm at rn

and their writing is just so good!? between these two and my moots @reggiesfilthylittlesecret & @thecarrott stuff, i'm just like sitting here like

holy shit i need to fucking up my game!!!!

not in that bad way of like 'omg i'm so envious i hate them they're better than me' no but rather like 'omg i want to be on the same level with my writing because i want to be able to reach people on the same emotional level that i feel with their writing' way.

[pollen]

i've been diving a lot deeper into adhd symptoms and comorbidities and misdiagnoses and whenever i tell my boyfriend something i learned that sounds like me he responds with something like

[faunandfloraas]

Dreamt Chan joined the sydney swan's afl team and you might be like Chan doing sport? Sounds normal. but you don't know what the australian football league uniforms look like.

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

( TOME AU ) tfw you wake up in the abyss of the game youve loved after 4 fucking years and your first thought is "where the FUCK is my HAT" (hopefully i can make this into a comic ??? or something. idk)

[alyt-neroon]

ugh my aunt is coming over tomorrow to drop off some books and i really hope she isn't expecting to stay and chat (which is usually the case when she comes by) because im so fucking stressed about this deadline atm i could cry

[mouselikething]

i realized this applies to me so im wondering what the general population consensus is so

[phinnking]

GOD i wanna CREATE. i wanna sit down aand MAKE something that has an emotional effect on mysefl and others GODDDDDD

[rervraiilstew]

flipping people off tic they could never make me like you.

[daughterofsarenrae]

man i should move my music set up into the office instead of my bedroom

[shinkai-kaiju]

i think humans shouldve had teeth made of titanium instead of dentin actually.

[shdwtouch]

personal small vent / hot take (?) under the cut. will delete

people in the rpc claim they are friendly and accommodating to people with autism and adhd, until they have to deal with people who are sporadic, have fluctuating energy, struggle to socialize, struggle to understand boundaries, struggle to communicate / articulate, struggle to read social cues, struggle to focus / shift focus a lot, struggle with rsd, struggle with executive dysfunction, overexplain, need to have things "overexplained" to them, etc etc I could go on.

in general people in the rpc are very open to neurodivergency, until they have to deal with any inconvenient aspect of that neurodivergency in other people, until those aspects make engaging with them more difficult

and tbh this isn't even about me. this is about people who I know are neurodivergent and often struggle to feel seen, wanted, and valid in the rpc. this is about people on the dash I know have discussed their neurodivergency and disclose it so they can be better accommodated. this is about everyone who struggles with anxiety and depression and adhd and autism and bpd and all the symptoms involved only to be criticized for the choices they make or feel alone when they are open about their experiences and feelings and needs.

we all need to do better. on both sides of this. at communicating, and listening. at asking for accommodation, and providing accommodation. at caring, for others and ourselves.

[kristiliqua]

you ever be talking to yourself and over explain shit while youre ranting even though youre literally talking to yourself and already understand the concept and point of what youre trying to say because youre talking to your-fucking-self but you continue to over explain anyway because you feel the need to even though you Know you dont have to whatsoever ?

yeah so the doctors said i dont have adhd or autism . shrug

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Last ADHD evaluation: Had to wait about six months to get in, "doctor" was a man, he told me I'm "too smart" to have ADHD

This ADHD evaluation: Doctor is a woman, I can get in within two weeks, already a much more pleasant experience

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

[shayberri789]

I'm a little hurt by some of my irl friends and have two courses of actions, but which will both have similar outcomes

Basically, I have three creative irl friends. Every time they share their writings with me (be it fics, poems, stories or creative non fic), I ALWAYS read it as soon as I'm able and give feedback + healthy amount of gushing.

But whenever I write something I am proud of and I share it with them, none of them acknowledge it. Its like they don't see the link you know. And its fine because I just say "I wrote a thing" and give a link. I'm explicitly asking for feedback or validation. I can't be upset because they're not mind readers

But sometimes I explicitly DO ask them "hey did you see what I wrote?" "Hey, what do you think of this?" And i get half assed responses at best. "Oh its good" "uh ill read it when I get home *never hears about it again*". And that's a little more frustrating.

Earlier today I needed to put together a portfolio, and asked my two best friends to please read through it, because it was important and I needed their input on (1) thing, and I needed it *before the end of the day*. It was three pages of easy reading. Its not like I was asking for concrit or editing or something time consuming.

One of them skimmed it and gave me feedback. The other one is adhd and forgot. Said she'd read it later when I reminded her. When I reminded her again, she said she forgot and had made plans, can she do it in the morning?

And normally I'd say that's fine! Because I don't expect immediacy from my friends online, esp for favours. But I had a deadline, and this was the third time this particular friend has done this. There's only so many times I want to poke someone to read my shit before I start feeling like I'm bragging/attention seeker/being entitled and demanding. So I just went and asked someone else.

I know I'm valid to feel hurt about this, and frustrated. I also know that my friends don't mean to make me feel like this, or forget. I know they want to support me. But I'm also tired of getting burned so I'm just going to fucking stop trying to share my writing with them because instead of validation I'm getting pain.

My two options are either a) telling my friends that actually their silence and forgetfulness hurt me or b) just lettint it go

Either way, I'm not reaching out again. B) seems like the option less likely to hurt my friends/make them feel bad, so I'm leaning to that. If the roles were reversed, I'd rather option A), because when people tell me these things I do genuinely try to do better in the future, and I know my friends would feel the same. But I've also lost faith in their ability to do so in this area. Idk what I should do