#re: polly and richard

[wiinestories]

CLOSED STARTER | @richardxoliverxmayhew

A heavy sigh slipped from Polly's lips, frustration and concern taking over her while she was reading one of Richard's files laying on the table of his flat. From what she recalled, there was an investigation that he was tasked on that involved the club's owner, Andrew, whom was Polly's boss. Charges associated with him involved money laundering, drugs & beyond the strip club business, there were rumours of him involved with prostitution. Those assumptions from Andrew's businesses were unpleasant to her, given that she had known him for years, and she wouldn't let her findings slide without facing Richard about them. While some of them were true and Polly was unaware about them, there had to be a reason behind why he was being investigated when, often, Andrew was careful not to lead the officers of the law into his affairs. Polly tried to believe there had to be a snitch there or, possibly, Richard was the one to open that investigation.

Once she heard the door open and close, Polly got up from her seat and turned to face him, arms crossing over her chest. "What's this, Richard?" Her head tilted lightly to a side, as if she was pointing towards the files. A frown was cast over her soft features, clearly being upset over them. "Why are you messing with my job and especially my boss?"

[faithdevotion]

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[ulkaralakbarova]

An orphaned boy raised by underground creatures called Boxtrolls comes up from the sewers and out of his box to save his family and the town from the evil exterminator, Archibald Snatcher. Credits: TheMovieDb. Film Cast: Archibald Snatcher (voice): Ben Kingsley Eggs (voice): Isaac Hempstead-Wright Winnie Portley-Rind (voice): Elle Fanning Fish / Wheels / Bucket (voice): Dee Bradley Baker Lady Cynthia Portley-Rind (voice): Toni Collette Lord Portley-Rind (voice): Jared Harris Mr. Trout (voice): Nick Frost Mr. Pickles (voice): Richard Ayoade Mr. Gristle (voice): Tracy Morgan Herbert Trubshaw (voice): Simon Pegg Oil Can / Knickers (voice): Nika Futterman Fragile / Sweets (voice): Pat Fraley Clocks / Specs (voice): Fred Tatasciore Sir Langsdale (voice): Maurice LaMarche Sir Broderick / Male Workman 1 / Male Workman 2 (voice): James Urbaniak Boulanger / Male Aristocrat (voice): Brian George Female Aristocrat (voice): Lori Tritel Shoe / Sparky (voice): Steve Blum Female Townsfolk 1 / Female Townsfolk 2 (voice): Laraine Newman Background Boy (voice): Reckless Jack Baby Eggs (voice): Max Mitchell Film Crew: Screenplay: Irena Brignull Director: Graham Annable Adaptation: Anthony Stacchi Novel: Alan Snow Music: Dario Marianelli Animation: Travis Knight Screenplay: Adam Pava Animation: Stephen Bodin Animation: Malcolm Lamont Animation: Matias Liebrecht Animation: Brian Leif Hansen Animation: Payton Curtis Animation: Joon Soo Song Animation: Adam Lawthers Animation: Shane Prigmore Animation: Chris Tootell Animation: Kyle Williams Animation: Mike Hollenbeck Animation: Danail Kraev Animation: Kristien Vanden Bussche Animation: Adam Fisher Animation: Anthony Straus Animation: Sean Burns Animation: Mael Gourmelen Animation: David Vandervoort Animation: Dan MacKenzie Animation Supervisor: Brad Schiff Animation: Kevin Parry Adaptation: Phil Dale Producer: David Bleiman Ichioka Animation: Jon David Buffam Animation: Rachelle Lambden Animation: Gabe Sprenger Animation: Philippe Tardif Animation: Ian Whitlock Animation: Daniel Alderson Animation: Charles Greenfield Animation: Jason Stalman Casting: Mary Hidalgo Line Producer: Matthew Fried Sculptor: Toby Froud Visual Effects Coordinator: Jeremy Fenske Choreographer: Nicole Cuevas Visual Effects Coordinator: Claudia Amatulli Sculptor: Benjamin William Adams Set Designer: Emily Greene Additional Editing: Ralph Foster Visual Effects Editor: Todd Gilchrist Set Designer: Carl B. Hamilton Sculptor: Scott Foster Production Design: Paul Lasaine Production Coordinator: Jocelyn Pascall Editor: Edie Ichioka Art Direction: Curt Enderle Editorial Coordinator: Dave Davenport Art Department Coordinator: Zach Sheehan CG Supervisor: Rick Sevy Music Supervisor: Maggie Rodford Music Editor: James Bellany Songs: Eric Idle Visual Effects Supervisor: Steve Emerson Costume Design: Deborah Cook Production Manager: Dan Pascall Additional Writing: Vera Brosgol Post Production Supervisor: David Dresher Editorial Manager: Trevor Cable Visual Effects Supervisor: Brian Van’t Hul Additional Editing: Christopher Murrie Director of Photography: John Ashlee Prat Set Designer: Polly Allen Robbins Visual Effects Producer: Annie Pomeranz Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Ren Klyce ADR Voice Casting: Barbara Harris Gaffer: James WilderHancock Modeling: Paul Mack Publicist: Maggie Begley Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Tom Myers Production Design: Michel Breton Prop Designer: Alan Cook Animation: Paul Andrew Bailey Assistant Art Director: Phil Brotherton Executive In Charge Of Post Production: Ben Urquhart First Assistant Director: Samuel Wilson Layout: Daniel R. Casey Layout: Simon Dunsdon Orchestrator: Geoff Alexander Set Dresser: Duncan Gillis Third Assistant Director: David J. Epstein Animation: Anthony Elworthy Animation: Dan Ramsay Animation: Jan-Erik Maas CG Animator: Carolyn Vale Digital Compositors: Daniel Leatherdale Digital Compositors: James McPherson Foley Editor: Thom Brennan Production Illustrator: Ean McNamara Sound Effects Editor: David C. Hughes Finance: Erin Baldwin Finance: Jason Bryant CG Animator: Jeff Croke Con...

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Polly is at first hesitant to approach him, a concern spreading throughout her body if he were to misinterpret her closeness. Hand caresses his face ever so gently, her other pressing lightly against his chest. She leans forward, blue hues concealing beneath eyelids to press her lips against his, tasting the flavor of them.

Smooches for Richard: ALWAYS ACCEPTING

II @faithdevotion

The second Richard watched the dancer draw forward, the detective didn’t dare stifle back, nor did his flinch. Instead, kind and gentle blue eyes settled their gaze upon Her, as if beckoning... No... Assuring Her that it was okay. It was safe.

First, came Pol’s gentle touch. The way her hand cupped the edges of his face, whilst the other rested against his broad chest. Richard felt a breathless shiver run up his spine. Not in lust. No. It was a shiver of... Familiarity. Her touch was that of home. Perhaps it was a selfish thought, but the detective couldn’t help but want the feeling of Her touch blanketing over him; cocooning him from the world and all it held. Then the kiss. A breath caught somewhere in his throat.-- There was Pol, the woman Richard fought tooth and nail to protect from the world and their pawing claws. The man who worked day and night to make sure nobody laid a single finger on her. Yet, here she was, her soft lips pressed against his own. She tasted of the Earl Grey he had boiled for her some minutes ago, cherry, and everything sweet.  Richard stole back a silent breath, slicing a hair’s length between them. “May I?” he rasped, before re-initiating in one tender, yet breathless swoop, all the while his strong hands gently cradled her close, as if the detective were still doing his best to shield her from all the perils of the world. 

[livingmybestfakelife]

The Man With The White Horse

Summary: There were many situations that split mother and son apart, but this might be something that just might separate them forever

Paring: Michael Gray x Reader

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It was currently forty degrees and steady dropping so it was safe to say that it was cold, too cold to be outside having a conversation that could have been done indoors, but his cousins insisted that they have a word with him outside so he reluctantly followed them through the double doors and onto the wide open yard, their heavy footsteps crushed the thick snow beneath them, Arthur had to catch himself from slipping on a piece that was hard as a rock, Michael pulled out a cigarette hoping that it would warm him up a little, but would still rather be in the house, so whatever they wanted to tell him they would have to do it quickly and had better worth freezing his balls off.

“Alright, what is it? What’s going on?”

“How about you take a sip of this gin aye Michael?”

“Since when are you a gin drinker? Whiskey is more your preference”

Arthur shrugs and passes him a glass that he had already poured, he takes the glass from him and swirls the liquid around a little before taking a sip, the other two look on to see his reaction

“Mm it’s good, a little sweet but it’s alright...so is this what you dragged me out here for, to have me try some gin?”

John snorts and goes to pat him on the shoulder

“No, but we’d hope it would loosen you up a little, you’ve been crunching numbers all week, it’s time you let loose, it’s Friday night Mikey”

“I’m aware of the day of the week John, now what’s up with the both of you? You’ve been acting as if you’ve got something to hide all day, hell you all have, my mum won’t even look me in the eyes, fucks going on?”

The families suspicions behavior didn’t go unnoticed by Michael no matter how hard they insisted there was nothing wrong, but they knew he was too smart to be played a fool, so they thought they might as well spill the beans, he would find out the truth eventually

“Michael, we’d each had gotten a letter earlier this week, you had gotten one too but...”

“Hold on, what letter?”

It was silent again, the only sounds that was filling in the awkwardness was the crickets and an owl, it was somehow making him more colder, he hated when people would try to sugar coat what they were trying to say, he’d much rather them speak frankly, like Tommy and Polly did.

“Arthur, what letter?”

“A letter from YN’s uncle, asking for a meeting”

“Okay, so what happened to my letter then?”

“We couldn’t let you see it Michael, he was pretty aggressive in yours”

“Why would he be aggressive? I didn’t do anything wrong”

“Yeah we know that be he...”

“Would you fucking quit it with that! Tell me what’s going on, I’m sick of being out of the loop!”

His eyes were wild and frantic, he wore built up irritation and stress all over his face and in his voice, this family was going to be the death of him no doubt about it

“He thinks that you were behind YN’s assasination attempt”

“HE FUCKING WHAT?”

“Now calm down Michael”

“Don’t fucking tell me to calm down, why the fuck would he think that John? I love YN more than anything in this whole fucking world, more than I love myself, why would I want to hurt her!”

Arthur goes to grab his shoulders in an attempt to calm him down a little, but the action does nothing and he shoves him away, he didn’t want to be coddled like a child, he was way beyond being a kid, now in his mid twenties with more base in his voice no longer the mild mannered teenager that showed up on Polly’s doorstep, he was a grown man, a homeowner and a fiancée who would one day be the mother of his children, he could handle just about everything that came with being a man, but being accused of wanting to off his woman was something he couldn’t stomach.

“Michael, I’m serious lower your voice, you want your nosey neighbors to hear ya?”

“Then why are we out here? Let’s discuss this inside!”

The three men headed towards the door, Michael was about to open it only for someone on the other side to do it for him, out walked his mother with a look of concern on her face, she seemed to just get done breathing hard and tried to collect herself, she placed her warm hands on his face and expected him, she had indeed hard the shouts of her son from inside, she had came over to visit for the evening to discuss some last minute wedding plans with you, all hope for a peaceful evening quickly ended and she knew the reason why, it’s been eating her up inside, making her heart ache and stomach turn, she’d been dreading this moment for a while now, she thought she was careful but apparently not enough, it was all out in the open now, only God could save her now, but she hasn’t spoken to the good lord for a very long time.

“Michael, honey what’s the matter?”

“Arthur spoke up for him

“Let’s talk about this inside Pol”

She wraps a hand around his arm and guides him inside, the warmth from the fire that was lit in the living room instantly smacked him in the face, it soothes him for a moment and for a split second he’s not as angry as he was, but was still irritable, he wanted answers and he wanted them tonight, from either Polly or anybody.

“Son, you’re freezing, come sit down in front of the fire, YN just made some tea”

He moves himself out of her grasp and heads to the living room to find you taking a sip of your tea then putting it down once you notice him, the smile that forms on your face puts one on his, Michael walks quickly over to you and grabs your hands to lift you up, you’re surprised by his action as he does in a haste, you stumbled into his arms as you let out little squeal.

“Michael what’s the matter, what are you doing”

“We’re leaving”

“What, why what’s going on?”

“We’re going to New York, should’ve never left, knew coming back to this fucking city would be a mistake, fucking cursed I’m telling you-“

“Michael! What are you saying right now?”

Polly has tears in her eyes and turns to look at her nephews, they give her sorrow looks and feel sorry for her, they both already know her big secret and knew that if it were ever reach your family and Michael then the Shelby’s would be in a whole lot of trouble, they had enough enemies as it is, but none of them compared to the ones that they now made with the YLN’s, most importantly Richard YLN, your late fathers older brother and the patriarch of the YLN family, what he says goes, his power and influence made Thomas Shelby look like he was a little boy playing pretend.

It took a lot for Michael to even earn his trust, first business wise then personal because he wanted to date the mans favorite niece, the pretty girl he had met at one of Tommy’s gala’s that he was hosting, he remembered how your beautiful pale pink gown made you look like an angel, your very delicate and expensive pearls and diamond earrings added some elegance to your look for the evening, he’s seen some beautiful women before but there was something about you that reeled him in more than the others did, and it wasn’t a feeling of lust, this was something he couldn’t put into words, you were just it for him, he could feel it, right then and there he wanted you, hell even needed you, he hoped and prayed that another man didn’t already have claim to you, even if he did, he’s Michael Gray, he’d always gotten what he wanted, he had a bright future ahead of him and you were going to be apart of it.

“Michael please let’s just sit down and talk about this, there is no need to run of back to America, the both of you are not going anywhere, especially not YN, you remember how pissed Richard was after you dragged her away the first time”

“Yeah, that’s nothing compared to now mum, he fucking thinks that I tried to get YN killed, he’ll never forgive me now”

“Wait, w-what the hell is going on?!”

“Well go on mum, tell your soon to be daughter in law that her uncle for some reason believes that I was behind the her being kidnapped and nearly killed by the Owens brothers, oh and why the fuck would he think that anyway?”

You look to Polly for answers, she looks over at you as well and takes a step forward but he holds a hand up signaling her to stop

“Tell us about the letters mum, the ones that were sent to all of us but was hidden from me”

“Michael I swear to God I didn’t know it would go down the way it did, we made a deal they said that they wouldn’t hurt her- oh my God”

Her voice was shaking and she couldn’t finish, clinging onto John who held her tight, Arthur once again speaking up for everyone

“Polly made a deal with the Owens boys, it was suppose to be simple and no one was suppose to get hurt, Tommy made a bad deal with them and lost some money, they assumed that we betrayed them and stole money, so to get their payback they threatened to kill a family member...”

He trailed off and before Michael could tell him to keep going Polly looked up and continued

“I met with the eldest brother, I made a deal with them to not kill anyone...but to instead kidnap a member, and to do only that, keep them locked away somewhere until we could figure out what had went wrong, he swore no one would lay a finger on her, but his trigger happy little brother shot her, I can’t tell you how sorry I am, YN sweetheart you know that I care about you love, b-but there was no other way around it, it wasn’t suppose to happen this way-“

Michael ran over to her like a mad man, yelling and swearing like he was possessed, his anger, pain and betrayal clouded his thoughts and his body went on autopilot, he tackled his mother to the cold floor and wrapped his hands around her throat, squeezing tighter and tighter, in that moment he felt nothing but hate and resentment for her, all these years of bonding went down the drain along with any love he’d ever felt for her.

“YOU FUCKING BITCH, YOU FUCKING WHORE, HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME HUH? YOU FUCKING SCUM”

His strength was unmatched by Arthur and John who tried desperately to remove him from on top of their aunt before he killed her, he could hear your faint cries from across the room begging him to stop

“MICHAEL YOU’RE GOING TO KILL HER STOP IT”

Her eyes were turning red and so was her face, she scratched and punched but nothing helped, finally giving up she let him continue to try and choke her to death, she deserved it, and if there were anyone she would rather take her life it would be her precious baby boy, her little Michael.

Finally he was pulled away before she could close her eyes, she gagged in an attempt to let oxygen get into her lungs, her throat was already forming a nasty bruise, you cried, then Polly then Michael, he cried and screamed and banged his fists on the hard wood floor.

“I wish I never came looking for you, this family...this family is the worst thing to ever happen to me”

He whispered but she could hear him as if he said it in her ear

“Michael, oh my god”

You ran over to him and collapsed by his side to hold him, as much as you were hurt by Polly’s confession you still didn’t want to see her be harmed in that way, especially not by her own son, John and Arthur checked over Polly who gently pushed them away and got onto her feet with whatever strength she had left

“I’m sorry, oh my boy I love you”

“Get out of my house, ALL OF YOU GO”

The boys helped Polly to leave but not before you had your say

“I can’t promise you that Uncle Richard won’t come for you Polly, I suggest you be the one to run off to America”

She still has her hands caressing her sore neck, nodding in acceptance of her fate, and with that they left, you and Michael looked at the door, he was still breathing hard and his hands were still in a choking form, you reached down to hold them and looked up at him

“Michael, for heavens sake”

“No one and I mean no one comes above you, if I won’t do it then Richard will, and with the way your family does business, choking her would’ve been a less painful death”

You nod your head because that’s the only response you could give, Richard would find out the whole truth eventually, and when he does, Polly Gray would be no more.

[arcanalogue]

Music For Diviners - ‘Sing As The Crow Flies’

Whether you’re divining for a querent or just for yourself, the right sonic background can definitely enhance the experience — and for those of us who live in a leaf-blower paradise, sometimes it’s the only way we can concentrate at all. 

PLEASE STOP BLOWING THE DUST AROUND! 

But I digress. Over the years I’ve gathered a wonderful collection of music to help induce the desired state of mind. Usually I’ll turn it on about 15 or 20 minutes before I start, to calm myself down and begin setting the scene. That includes removing clutter from the space, tending any altars that are starting to look neglected, adjusting the light, taking out the trash... basically addressing anything that might interfere with my sensory experience, setting up my own little chapel, banishing all unwanted influence.

You can’t plan for everything. For example, those Bernie canvassers who knocked on my door last week when I was trying to induce a trance state. I was so disoriented that I didn’t even remember to ask why their candidate had opted out of that LGBTQ panel the night before. 

But I digress! Here’s my inaugural recommendation, the relatively recent Sing As The Crow Flies, performed by Laura Cannell and Polly Wright who describe the album as “a set of nine vocal tracks re-voicing the rural landscape, surrounding reed beds and marshes on the Norfolk/Suffolk border.” Or as I characterized it to a friend, “the sound of Mennonite women losing their minds on henbane in an old barn.” 

Their work is inspired by this 1872 text: The Norfolk garland: a collection of the superstitious beliefs and practices, proverbs, curious customs, ballads and songs, of the people of Norfolk, as well as anecdotes illustrative of the genius or peculiarities of Norfolk celebrities (archive.org link).

After listening on YouTube, I ended up buying it on iTunes so I could just press Repeat All and let the music float through the house for a couple hours. I also took it with me on a long sunset bike ride along the L.A. River, where I go to visit my own nightshade friends, and it greatly enhanced the solitude of the experience. 

Here’s some great corvid trivia for you: the constellation Corvus is made up of four main stars, named ALCHIBA (meaning ”the tent”), GIENAH (”wing”), ALGORAB (”the crow”), MINKAR (”beak”), and a fifth star named KRAZ. 

But no one seems to know for sure what KRAZ refers to! In his 1889 book Star Names, Richard Hinckley Allen wrote: 

“No meaning is given for this name, but to me the word 'kraz' seems be an Arabic version of Latin cras. The cawing of the ravens or crows was heard as 'Cras! Cras!' by Latin speakers, and was thought to mean ‘Tomorrow! Tomorrow!’ We get the word procrastinate, 'postpone until the morrow', from Latin cras. Mythology identifies Corvus with the procrastinating raven Apollo sent to fetch water, and tells how he dallied at a fig tree until the figs became ripe before carrying out the god's task.“

So while humans took the liberty of naming the other stars, KRAZ was effectively named in the birds’ own language. 

But I digress! Sometimes vocal tracks can be very jarring when you’re trying to concentrate, but since Sing As The Crow Flies is a cappella, and the singers’ voices so ethereal and susurrant, I’ve found it quite useful as a backdrop for ritual work, especially divination.  

Obviously everyone’s tastes and needs will be different — but that’s why you should be sure to follow the Music For Diviners tag in coming weeks, because in time it will accrue a wide range of awareness-sharpening (and noise-canceling) musical selections. 

That’s all for now. A million thanks to those who sought me out on Instagram and Patreon in the past few days! Here’s to many new and exciting things to come. 

[therandombanjo]

Songs From 2019 (one per artist)

Another mixed bag of stuff i either enjoyed a lot, thought was excellent or interesting (regardless of taste… sort of), emerging artists to maybe look out for, and generally music that for whatever reason connected with me in some way, including the odd earworm i just couldn’t shake. Some artists are left off just to vary a little more from some other popular lists. Hope you enjoy some of this too and find something new to be taken by. Please do buy their music if you can and hopefully from a local independent record store if possible to support their work. There’s a spotify playlist (below) for easier listening but I’ve also posted a few links to extra things on some of them if you want to check them out.  Spotify:

(As ever…. as i don’t tumblr or blog or anything (besides this list), this won’t be seen by many (if any?) people so if you like it or think it’s of any worth in any way, please do share this along)

In Alphabetical order:

A.A. Bondy - Killers 3 Abdallah Oumbadougou - Thingalene Alasdair Roberts - Common Clay Alex Rex - Latest Regret Andy Shauf - Try Again Angel Bat Dawid - We Are Starzz Angel Olsen - All Mirrors        bonus. her collab with Mark Ronson “True Blue” Anne Müller - Solo? Repeat! Antoinette Konan - Kokoloko Tani Arthur Russell - Words Of Love Asmâa Hamzaoui and Bnat Timbouktou - Sandia Baby Rose - All To Myself BCI - Grateful Bedouine - When You’re Gone Benny The Butcher - Crowns For Kings      ft. Black Thought Ben Walker - Afon Better Oblivion Community Center - Chesapeake Beverly Glenn-Copeland - A Little Talk     (from a reissue of her 2004 record Primal Prayer) Bibio - Curls The Big Moon - It’s Easy Then Big Thief - a. Not    b. Cattails    (from 2 excellent albums released in the same year: “U.F.O.F” and “Two Hands”) Bill Callahan - a. What Comes After Certainty    b. The Ballad Of The Hulk Bill Fay - Filled With Wonder Once Again Bill Orcutt - Odds Against Tomorrow billy woods - a. Spongebob w/ Kenny Segal     b. Western Education Is Forbidden    ft. Fielded        (From 2 excellent records this year: “Hiding Places” with Kenny Segal, and “Terror Management”) Black Country, New Road - Sunglasses Blu & Oh No - The Lost Angels Anthem    ft. Kezia Bon Iver - Hey, Ma Bonnie “Prince” Billy - Beast For Thee Bonny Light Horseman - Bonny Light Horseman      (”supergroup” of the great Anaïs Mitchell, Eric D Johnson & Josh Kaufman) Brent Cobb & Jade Bird - Feet Off The Ground Brighde Chaimbeul -  O Chiadain an Lo Brigyn - Oer Brittany Howard - Stay High    (the video for this, with Terry Crews, is a delight) Bruce Hornsby - Voyager One    ft. yMusic Burd Ellen - Sweet Lemany Caoimhín Ó Raghallaigh and Thomas Bartlett - Kestrel Caribou - You and I Caroline Polachek - Door Cate Le Bon - Daylight Matters Caterina Barbieri - Arrows Of Time Clairo - Bags Cochemea - Mitote comfort - Not Passing The Cool Greenhouse - Cardboard Man    (a pretty hilarious song about David Cameron) CRAC - You Can’t Turn Your Back On Me    (Unreleased old track from ‘76) Cross Record - PYSOL My Castle CZ Wang and Neo Image - Just Off Wave Damon Locks / Black Monument Ensemble - a. Rebuild a Nation   b. Power Daniel Norgren - The Flow Danny Brown - Dirty Laundry Daphni - Sizzling    ft. Paradise Daughter Of Swords - Fellows      (Mountain Man member Alexandra Sauser-Monnig’s 1st solo record) Dave - Psycho David Kilgour - Smoke You Right Out Of Here David Thomas Broughton - Ambiguity     (from the 15th anniversary reissue of his remarkable debut album, The Complete Guide To Insufficiency) Denzel Curry - RICKY Destroyer - Crimson Tide Dry Cleaning - Dog Proposal Dubi Dolczek - Do The Gloop Durand Jones & The Indications - Long Way Home Ela Orleans - The Season      (From 2012 but on a career retrospective, Movies For Ears, put out this year) Elkhorn - Song Of The Son Emile Mosseri - a. The Last Black Man In San Francisco b. San Francisco (Be Sure To Wear Flowers In Your Hair)    ft. Mike Marshall         (both from the wonderful score for the wonderful film The Last Black Man In San Francisco, the latter a cover of an old song sung here by the guy who sang “I Got 5 On It”!!) Erland Cooper - Haar Ernest Hood - Saturday Morning Doze        (from a re-issue of his “self-released proto-ambient masterpiece” in ‘75) Fat White Family - Feet Faye Webster - Room Temperature Fennesz - In My Room Fernando Falcão -  As 7 Filhas Da Rainha Sumaia     (reissue from ‘87) FKA twigs - cellophane Florist - Shadow Bloom Flowdan - Welcome To London Fontaines D.C. - Roy’s Tune Four Tet / KH - Only Human French Vanilla - All The Time Gang Starr - Family and Loyalty   ft. J. Cole Georgia - About Work The Dancefloor Girl Band - Shoulderblades The Good Ones - Will You Be My Protector?   (of Rwanda) Grand Veymont - Les Rapides Bleus       (of France) Gyedu-Blay Ambolley - Sunkwa     (of Ghana) Hailaker - Not Much HAIM - Summer GIrl Hana Vu - Actress Hand Habits - placeholder Hannah Cohen - Get In Line The Harlem Gospel Travellers - If You Can’t Make It Through A Storm Hayden Thorpe - Diviner     (Former Wild Beasts frontman’s debut solo record) Helado Negro - Running The Highwomen - Redesigning Women Hiss Golden Messenger - I Need A Teacher Holly Herndon - Frontier Homeboy Sandman - Far Out Hoops - They Say Hotel Neon & Blurstem - Language Of Loss House and Land - Rainbow ‘Mid Life’s Willows Ibibio Sound Machine - Wanna Come Down IDER - Saddest Generation The Innocence Mission - On Your Side International Teachers Of Pop - I Stole Yer Plimsoles    ft. Jason Williamson (of Sleaford Mods) Jacken Elswyth - The Banks Of Green Williow Jaimie Branch - nuevo roquero estéreo Jake Xerxes Fussell - The River St. Johns Jamila Woods - ZORA Jayda G - Leave Room 2 Breathe Jenny Hval - Ashes To Ashes       Jenny Lewis - Red Bull and Hennessy Jesca Hoop - Outside of Eden     ft. Kate Stables (of This Is The Kit) and Jesca’s 12 year-old nephew Justis. This live performance is so sweet https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cUPmE_hU7Ss Jessica Pratt - As The World Turns Joanna Sternberg - This Is Not Who I Want To Be Joan Shelley - Cycle John Blek - North Star Lady Jordan Rakei - Say Something        bonus. under his DJ pseudonym: Dan Kye - Focus Jo Schornikow - Incomplete Joseph Shabason - West of Heaven Julianna Barwick - evening Junius Paul - Baker’s Dozen Kali Malone - Spectacle Of Ritual Kate Teague - Sweetheart Kate Tempest - a. Firesmoke    b. People’s Faces Kelly Moran - Halogen (Una Corda)       (from a record full of all the bare piano parts she played for her prior record before all the editing and processing) Kim Gordon - Air BnB Kindness - Hard To Believe     ft. Jazmine Sullivan KOKOKO! - Buka Dansa     (Congolese collective upcycling discarded materials to make their instruments) Konradsen - Baby Hallelujah     (of Norway) Lambchop - Everything For You Laura Cannell - a. Sing As The Crow Flies     b. Flaxen Fields Laura Stevenson - Lay Back, Arms Out Le Groupe Obscur -  Planète Ténèbres Leonard Cohen - Happens To The Heart Leo Svirsky - River Without Banks Little Simz - 101 FM Lizzo - Tempo   ft. Missy Elliot Loren Conors & Daniel Carter - Departing Lou Roy - Bite Low Chord - Walkk Lower Dens - Galapagos Mahalia - What You Did    ft. Ella Mai Majja - Black James Dean Maria Somerville - This Way Maria Usbeck - Amor Anciano Mary Halvorson & John Dieterich - Vega’s Array      (Mary the recipient of the MacArthur “Genius” Grant this year, because she is) Mary Lattimore & Mac McCaughan - IV Matana Roberts - As Far As The Eye Can See Meitei - Ike Melanie Charles - Trill Suite, No. 1 (Daydreaming/Skylark) The Menzingers - Anna Messiahs Of Glory - No Other Love      (from a collection of rare black gospel from the Midwest between ‘65-’78 put out on Tompkins Square) Mica Levi - a. Hosting     b. Lobo y Lady (from the excellent Colombian film Monos) Michael Abels - a. I Got 5 On It (Tethered Mix)    b. Pas De Deux (both from the terrific score to the excellent Jordan Peele film, Us) Michael Kiwanuka - Living In Denial Michael Nau - Poor Condition Mike Adams At His Honest Weight - Wonderful To Love Minor Pieces - Rothko      (duo of Ian William Craig & newcomer Missy Donaldson) Modern Nature - Footsteps Molly Sarlé - Twisted      (Mountain Man member’s 1st solo record) Moodymann - I’ll Provide Moon Duo - Stars Are The Light Moor Mother - After Images Moses Boyd - Stranger Than Fiction Moses Sumney - Polly Mount Eerie & Julie Doiron - Love Without Possession MSYLMA - Inqirad (Rihab-U Dhakir)     (Saudi Arabia) The Murder Capital - Don’t Cling To Life Nardeydey - Freefalling The National - Rylan   ft. Kate Stables (of This Is The Kit) The New Pornographers - Falling Down The Stairs Of Your Smile Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - a. Waiting For You   b. Bright Horses   c. Night Raid Nivhek - After Its Own Death: Side A    (Liz Harris of Grouper) Noname - Song 32 Octo Octa - Move Your Body ODD OKODDO - Auma      (Kenyan/German duo) Øyvind Torvund - Starry Night      (Norwegian composer) Pet Shop Boys - Burning The Heather Petter Eldh - Fanfarum for Komarum II Porridge Radio - Give/Take PREGOBLIN - Combustion Purple Mountains - a. Snow Is Falling In Manhattan    b. All My Happiness Is Gone   c. That’s Just The Way That I Feel Quelle Chris - Obamacare Quinie - Whas At The Windy Rapsody - Ibtihaj   ft. D’Angelo & GZA Reb Fountain - Faster Rian Treanor - ATAXIA_A1 Richard Dawson - Two Halves Robert Stillman - All Are Welcome Róisín Murphy - Incapable Rosalía - Milionària Rosenau & Sanborn - Saturday Rozi Plain - Symmetrical Ruth Garbus - Strash Sam Lee - The Moon Shines Bright   ft. Elizabeth Fraser (of Cocteau Twins) Sam Wilkes - Run Sandro Perri - Soft Landing SAULT - Smile and Go Seabuckthorn - To Which The Rest Were Dreamt serpentwithfeet - Receipts    ft. Ty Dolla $ign Sessa - Flor do Real         (of Brazil) Sheer Mag - Hardly To Blame Shit and Shine - No No No No Sinead O Brien - A Thing You Call Joy Siobhan Wilson - Plastic Grave Six Organs Of Admittance - Two Forms Moving Sleaford Mods - Kebab Spider Slow Meadow - Artificial Algorithm Snowy - EFFED    ft. Jason Williamson (of Sleaford Mods) SOAK - Knock Me Off My Feet Solange - Binz Sophie Crawford - A Miner’s Life Squid - Houseplants         bonus. Their cover of Robert Wyatt’s  “PIgs..... In There at End of the Road Festival) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DktZtQbo-YU Stella Donnelly - Old Man SUSS - Ursa Major Swamp Dogg - Sleeping Without You Is A Dragg   ft. Justin Vernon & Jenny Lewis Tami T - Birthday  Tenesha The Wordsmith - Why White Folks Can’t Call Me Nigga Theon Cross - Activate     ft. Moses Boyd & Nubya Garcia Thom Yorke - Dawn Chorus Tierra Whack - Wasteland Tim Hecker - That World Tiny Leaves - Respair Toya Delazy - Funani         (of South Africa) Twain - Death (Or S.F.?) Twin Peaks - Dance Through It Tyler Childers - All Your’n Vagabon - Water Me Down Vampire Weekend - This Life Vanishing Twin - Magicians Success Velvet Negroni - Confetti Vendredi Sur Mer - Chewing-Gum      (of France) Victoria Monét - Ass Like That Vieo Abiungo - Cobble Together Visible Cloaks - Stratum      ft. Yoshio Ojima & Satsuki Shibano Warmduscher - Midnight Dipper Weyes Blood - Andromeda Wilco - Love Is Everywhere (Beware) William Tyler - Our Lady Of The Desert Willie Scott & The Birmingham Spirituals - Keep Your Faith To The Sky     (from a collection of obscure 70′s era gospel on Luaka Bop, “The Time For Peace Is Now - Gospel Music About Us”) Xylouris White - Tree Song Ye Vagabonds - The Foggy Dew Zsela - Noise

[pastforwardcast]

SHOWNOTES:

E91 - A ReCurrent Affair: July 2021 Edition

Well... We're back from our unintentional summer vacation and we're ready to tackle all the retro news we've been neglecting while we were away at Happy World Land. This month we're jabbering about Turner & Hooch, Masters of the Universe: Revelation, Fear Street. Also we review Rugrats, the Friends reunion special and Mortal Kombat! 

Listen on iTunes or Spotify

A REcurrent Affair:

RIP Richard Donner

RIP Charles Grodin

RIP Samuel Wright

RIP Shock G aka MC Humpty Hump

RIP Olympia Dukakis

Garbage Pail Kids animated series

Polly Pocket movie

Christine remake

The Wonder Years

Turner & Hooch

Masters of the Universe: Revelation

Fear Street

Rugrats

Friends Reunion

Mortal Kombat

[papermoonloveslucy]

BOB HOPE’S WORLD OF COMEDY

October 30, 1976

Produced and Directed by Jack Haley Jr.

Written by: Charles Lee with Gig Henry, Jeffrey Barron, Katherine Green, and Jack Haley Jr.

Bob Hope (Himself, Host) was born Lesley Townes Hope in England in 1903. During his extensive career in virtually all forms of media he received five honorary Academy Awards. In 1945 Desi Arnaz was the orchestra leader on Bob Hope’s radio show. Ball and Hope did four films together. He appeared as himself on the season 6 opener of “I Love Lucy.” He did a brief cameo in a 1964 episode of “The Lucy Show.”  When Lucille Ball moved to NBC in 1980, Hope appeared on her welcome special. He died in 2003 at age 100.

Lucille Ball (Herself) was born on August 6, 1911 in Jamestown, New York. She began her screen career in 1933 and was known in Hollywood as ‘Queen of the B’s’ due to her many appearances in ‘B’ movies. With Richard Denning, she starred in a radio program titled “My Favorite Husband” which eventually led to the creation of “I Love Lucy,” a television situation comedy in which she co-starred with her real-life husband, Latin bandleader Desi Arnaz. The program was phenomenally successful, allowing the couple to purchase what was once RKO Studios, re-naming it Desilu. When the show ended in 1960 (in an hour-long format known as “The Lucy-Desi Comedy Hour”) so did Lucy and Desi’s marriage. In 1962, hoping to keep Desilu financially solvent, Lucy returned to the sitcom format with “The Lucy Show,” which lasted six seasons. She followed that with a similar sitcom “Here’s Lucy” co-starring with her real-life children, Lucie and Desi Jr., as well as Gale Gordon, who had joined the cast of “The Lucy Show” during season two. Before her death in April 1989, Lucy made one more attempt at a sitcom with “Life With Lucy,” also with Gordon, which was not a success and was canceled after just 13 episodes.

Neil Simon (Himself) is a playwright and screenwriter responsible for more than 30 plays, most of which were seen on Broadway and adapted into films.  At the time, one of his most enduring plays The Odd Couple was being done on television. In 1983 became the only living playwright to have a New York theatre named in his honor. In 1960, when it was still called the Alvin Theatre, Lucille Ball appeared there in the musical Wildcat.

Don Rickles (Himself) worked as a stand-up comic in nightclubs for nearly 20 years before making his film debut in 1958. Rickles was known as an insult comic and became a staple of Hollywood roasts. In “Lucy the Fight Manager” (TLS S5;E20) he made his first and last acting appearance with Lucille Ball, but would be seen with her on variety shows and specials through 1988. Rickles was the voice of Mr. Potato Head in the animated Toy Story franchise. He died in April 2017 at age 90.

Norman Lear (Himself) is a television writer and producer responsible for such hits as “All in the Family,” “Maude,” “One Day at a Time,” “The Jeffersons,” and many others. He received three Emmy Awards for his work on “All in the Family.”  

Caroll Spinney (Big Bird) started playing Big Bird on “Sesame Street” in 1969. In 2000, Big Bird was named a Living Legend by the United States Library of Congress. Created by Jim Henson, Big Bird is one of two Muppets to have a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. Spinney has been honored with four Daytime Emmy Awards for his portrayals on the series and two Grammy Awards for his related recordings. Two recordings of Spinney's voice have earned Gold Record status.

As with many Bob Hope specials, the show is sponsored by Texaco.

Bob Hope's opening monologue talks mainly about the Presidential Election, which would take place in two weeks. Incumbent president Gerald Ford ran against Jimmy Carter. He also touches on the World Series, the Swine Flu epidemic, Zsa Zsa Gabor's multiple marriages, and the CB radio craze.

Bob's first guest is Big Bird from “Sesame Street” (Caroll Spinney). Big Bird does an ad-lib impersonation of Jack Benny that makes Hope laugh. This kicks off a montage of clips about animals.

A pet shop staffed by Bob Newhart 

Jackie Gleason playing golf with Mildred, a chimp in How To Commit Marriage (1969)

Roy Rogers and Trigger “the wonder horse”

Julie London with puppies who prove not to be housebroken

Dan Rowan with a horse and Dick Martin with a camel 

Hope with his dog in a vet's waiting room and Betty Grable there with a race horse

Hope and Greer Garson in divorce court fighting over their dog, Mr. Smith

Lassie as the subject of “This is Your Life�� in a spoof from “The Bob Hope Show”

Next Hope introduces a montage of clips featuring international stars.  

Maurice Chevalier (France)

Eva Gabor (Hungary)

Zsa Zsa Gabor (Hungary) with Angie Dickinson

Ingrid Bergman (Sweden)

Anita Ekberg (Sweden) with William Holden and Robert Strauss

Olivia Newton John (Australia)

Rex Harrison (England) and Lilli Palmer (Poland) with Janis Paige

David Niven (England) with Marilyn Maxwell

After a Texaco commercial, Bob introduces Lucy Ricardo aka Lucy Carmichael aka “the bionic woman of comedy” - Lucille Ball. 

Lucy reminisces with Bob, which leads to a black and white clip of a sketch from “The Bob Hope Show” (September 24, 1962). In it, Lucy plays a District Attorney and Bob a gangster named Bugsy Hope.

Back on stage, Bob asks Lucy the secret to her show's endearing success. She says that it has to do with the realatable domestic situations created by the writers. Bob add that the physical comedy gives her comedy world-wide appeal. Lucy says that as of last count her shows were seen in 79 countries. Lucy says she's heard herself dubbed in Japanese, and that in South America it is HER who as the accent. Asked about being a legend, Lucy says it is “kind of like an obituary” but she's very grateful.

After another Texaco break, Bob talks about slapstick and introduces a montage of clips.

Ernie Kovacs trying to sell his house during an earthquake

Bob as Bobby Riggs playing against Billie Jean King (Ann-Margret)

Hope and Douglas Fairbanks Jr. as astronauts walking in space

Jack Benny using hidden cameras in his home to avoid paying Hope a guest-star fee

The second hour of the special kicks off with Hope introducing playwright Neil Simon. They talk about writing, the difference between drama and comedy, and ethnic humor, which is the cue for the next montage of clips about vaudeville.

Hope and Crosby do a routine

Hope, Crosby, Steve Allen, and Jack Paar are child actors competing for the same job

Danny Thomas as a candy seller interrupting Hope's act by stealing all his punchlines

Donald O'Connor as Wingo the Magnificent, a knife thrower, with Hope as Courageous Targo, his human target

Hope introduces Don Rickles, who promotes his new show “CPO Sharkey” which he compares to Phil Silvers in “Sergeant Bilko.”  Hope says he's been the victim of insult comedy, which begins a montage of clips where Bob is insulted by:

Milton Berle

Tony Randall

Redd Foxx

Glenn Campbell

Gina Lollobridgida

Jerry Colonna

Dorothy Lamour

Tony Bennett

Fred MacMurray

Joan Crawford

George Sanders

Frank Sinatra

Troy Donahue

Hedda Hopper

John Wayne

Dyan Cannon

Debbie Reynolds (with Jack Benny)

Juliet Prowse

Bob Hope introduces Norman Lear, who mentions he has no shows on NBC. They talk about “Mary Hartman Mary Hartman,” the 'Family Hour,' his flops like “Hot L Baltimore,” and Archie Bunker. The next batch of clips is about satire.  

Johnny Carson as a playboy movie star Rock Carson appearing on a talk show 

Hope, Burt Reynolds and Dyan Canon spoof the TV series “Paper Moon”  

A sketch called “Bananaz” (“Bonanza”) starring Bing Crosby, Bob Hope, and Juliet Prowse

A “Batman” spoof starring Martha Rae as Bat Girl and Bob Hope as the villain Lobsterman

Medical dramas are poked fun at by Hope, Barbara Eden, and Lee Marvin

After a commercial, the montages are about dancing. Some of Hope's choreographed clips: 

Dancing with Raquel Welch

Doing Eddie Foy's famous sand dance

Soft shoe with Pearl Bailey

A trio with Jeanne Crain and Betty Hutton

A challenge dance with George Burns

Rare footage of Dean Martin dancing alongside Hope

Polly Bergen, Jimmy Durante and Hope dance as babies while on their knees (above photo)

A partner dance with Ginger Rogers

Hoofing with Hope and Jimmy Cagney

Modern dance with Ann-Margret

Hat and cane steps with Sammy Davis Jr.

Hope wraps up the special with a look at some of the comedians of the past.  

Budd Abbott and Lou Costello (above photo)

Fred Allen

Gracie Allen

Cliff Arquette aka Charlie Weaver

Mischa Auer

Robert Benchley

Jack Benny

Willy Best

Fanny Brice, the original 'Funny Girl'

Joe E. Brown

Billy Burke

Eddie Cantor

Jack Carson

Charles Correll, Amos of “Amos 'n' Andy”

Wally Cox

Joan Davis

Marie Dressler

Leon Errol

W.C. Fields

Billy Gilbert, the greatest sneeze in show business

Ted Healy and the Three Stooges

Hugh Herbert

Judy Holliday

Edward Everett Horton

Buster Keaton

Edgar 'Slow Burn' Kennedy

Ernie Kovacs

Burt Lahr

Stan Laurel and Oliver Hardy

Harold Lloyd

Carol Lombard

Harpo and Chico Marx

Donald Meek

Victor Moore

Jack Norton, the perennial drunk

Franklin Pangborn

Joe Penner

Will Rodgers

Irene Ryan, Granny of “The Beverly Hillbillies”

Charlie Ruggles

S.Z. 'Cuddles' Sakall

Max Sennett, king of the Keystone Cops

Arthur Treacher

Burt Wheeler and Robert Wolsey

Ed Wynn

This Day in Lucy History – October 29th

“The Diet” (ILL S1;E3) – October 29, 1951

"Visitor from Italy" (ILL S6;E5) – October 29, 1956

"Lucy Buys a Sheep" (TLS S1;E5) – October 29, 1961

"Lucy and Andy Griffith" (HL S6;E8) – October 29, 1973

[sathinfection]

yuletide rec list!

This is sadly but a small fraction of what I enjoyed from the Yuletide collection because I accidentally deleted large swathes of my read history oops. Fic titles contain the link. Recs for the gifts I got are here.

Books

The Iliad 

The Speed of Dark - Hector/Odysseus (kind of), Hector/Andromache (sorta)

Rated M. Consider: what if the Iliad were in space? Nice understanding of the characters, good Achilles cameo. 

Robot Series - Isaac Asimov

Positronic relays, surging in the dark - R. Daneel Olivaw/Elijah Baley

Rated E. Explores issues of robot consent re: the Three Laws in the way Asimov might have if he’d wanted to write dicktouching. 

Monstrous Regiment - Terry Pratchett

Nightgowns - Maladict/Polly “Ozzer” Perks

Rated G. Surprisingly sexy for the rating! Maladict attempts some seduction and has vampiric tension. Nice.

Imperial Radch - Ann Leckie

Diplomatic Overtures - Breq & Seivarden Vendaai

Rated G. Short but sweet. Seivarden takes care of Breq and Breq is grumpy about it.

His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman

On Daemons in Royal Portraiture

Rad docufic, formatted as notes for an exhibition on royal daemons. 

The Homecoming of Beorhtnoth Beorhthelm’s Son - J. R. R. Tolkien

A Riddle of Maldon

Rated G. An exactly 100 word riddle in the Anglo-Saxon style.

The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle

King's Watch - King Haggard & Prince Lir

Rated G. Moody, atmospheric fic about King Haggard and Hagsgate post-canon.

Other

Tingleverse

Stimulated in the Ass by My Handsome Philosopher - Chuck Tingle/Nick Bostrom

Rated E. This is... kind of RPF? In the way that Chuck Tingle writes about real people in a way that they’re not real at all and also have slightly mangled names. Hilarious and shows lots of Tingleverse knowledge.

The Penumbra Podcast

Juno Steel and the End of the Line - Juno Steel/Peter Nureyev

Rated T. Gives Juno and Peter a happy ending! Great language in the tone of the podcast. Warning for suicidal ideation.

Historical RPF

As Ice in the Desert - Richard I/Saladin

Rated T. Richard I gets miserably sick and Saladin visits him incognito. Lots of sexual tension, some finger kink, snappy dialogue. 

This was a man - Mark Antony/Julius Caesar, Cleopatra/Caesar

Rated M. Both a funny and touching account of Cleopatra being mortified by Romans. Caesar’s sexual vigor, like Vercingetorix, was defeated in Gaul. Antony is crass and bad at disguises.

Fallen London

A Touch of Novelty -  Original Male Tomb-Colonist/Male Player/Original Female Tomb-Colonist

Rated E. Undead threesome! Very sexy. 

EDS Cat Herder’s Commercial

The Drive to Musquash Mesa

Rated G. What if cowboys herded cats instead? Delightful language.

[faithdevotion]

@richardxoliverxmayhew [ cont. ]

There was some kind of odd beauty in impulse; in letting feelings take the reins to control the actions of a human being and just let everything flow as it is. While Polly sought to keep them at bay, at some point they just let loose. The closeness to Richard was a consequence of it, a consequence that stirred so many more feelings towards him, none closer to any carnal instincts. No, his concern, his protection and being himself had made him grow in her.

To realize those working for the force were all different was a struggle for Polly. Growing into a family whose father had been a cop yet violent and alcoholic was a contradiction that she had learned with until she had no choice but to flee from his grasp and leave her mother and sister behind, with her mother being killed by her father a year later. Years of therapy weren't enough to recover from such a wound, inflicted deep in her soul. Ruby, her sister, ended up as a cop, so she had learned, and so the sentiment remained. Polly promised herself she wouldn't ever fall for one or develop attachment towards anyone that worked for any policeman. However, the promise had been broken.

Memories resurfaced in her mind, including such promise, in the midst of being lost in Richard's embrace and tender lips, which made her hands tremble and her breathing to become erratic. Pressure was more applied to her fingertips as they pressed against the side of his face, slowly breaking the kiss to press her forehead gently against his, keeping herself in his embrace, with hand on his chest pressed flat against it. A sense of dread threatened to take over from such memories, as if a monster was beside her.

"I'm sorry." She breathed out in a low whisper, eyelids drifted shut. "My demons come to haunt me sometimes. This is one of those times."

[porlockstompf]

ALL BOMBS 2019

           MY FAVOURITE PLATTERSTOMPF OF THE YEAR

                                  ~ loud records save lives ~

01 delaney davidson / bruce russell "one hand loose" [lp]

02 tuluum shimmering "these flowers in dawn's twilight at illusion temple"      [cd-rx4]

03 skullflower "purity" [cd]

04 earth "full upon her burning lips" [cd]

05 carter tutti void "triumvirate" [cd]      + cosey fanni tutti "tutti" [cd]          

                      06 tomoyuki aoki & harutaka mochizuki "2" [cd] 07 ulaan passerine "new evening" [12"]     + ulaan khol “collapsing hymns” [k7]     + 43 odes “43 odes” [k7] 08 swans "what is this" [cd]     + swans "it's coming it's real" [dl] 09 ramleh "the great unlearning" [cdx2]      + ~ le glam nouveau est arrivé ! ~         ramleh "it's never alright b/w kerb krawler" [7"]   10 cattle x girl sweat & girl sweat pleasure temple ritual band      "live at assembly house" [lp]

11 bill orcutt "odds against tomorrow" [cd] 12 sunn 0))) "life metal" [lpx2]      + sunn 0))) "pyroclasts" [lp] 13 headroom "new heaven" [12"] 14 ash & herb "salt lick b/w tables of grass fields" [7"] 15 jah wobble ft keith levene & mark stewart "a very british coup" [12"]   

       16 genesis breyer p-orridge & carl abrahamsson      "slowly b/w third minds think alike" [12"] 17 the other without "the other without II" [cdr]      + the other without "even the walls shall hear her [orgone blue mix]" [dl]      + urthona power trio quartet "size of a truck!" [cd] 18 i feel like a bombed cathedral "amorth" [cd]      + i feel like a bombed cathedral "rec.requiem" [cd]      + i feel like a bombed cathedral "the cathedral sessions" [dl] 19 stefano pilia "decay music n°2: in girum imus nocte et consumimur igni" [lp] 20 irma vep "the missionary b/w who will buy the milk..." [lathe 7"]

21 dead c "rare ravers" [cd]      + bruce russell & luke wood "visceral realists" [lp] 22 stefan christensen & friends “unknown fortune” [lp] 23 lee ranaldo, jim jarmusch, marc urselli, & balázs pándi "untitled" [cd] 24 françois j. bonnet & stephen o'malley "cylene" [lpx2] 25 big blood "deep maine" [dl]

26 bonnie 'prince' billy, bryce dessner, eighth blackbird      "when we are inhuman" [lp]      + bonnie 'prince' billy "i made a place" [cd] 27 friends of gas "carrara" [12"] 28 itakura mineko, shin’ichi isohata, michel henritzi & rqrq      "enka mood collection" [10"] 29 blixa bargeld, luciano chessa, fred möpert & the o.p.o.      "the noise of art works for intonarumori" [cd] 30 richard skelton "border lands" [cd]

31 black bombaim & joão pais filipe "dragonflies with birds & snake" [lp] 32 the quash wagon "orbital" [cd] 33 la grande armée "la grande armée" [lp]   34 the band whose name is a symbol "accidental landings" [k7] 35 psychedelic speed freaks "psychedelic speed freaks" [lp]

36 speleocombo "speleocombo speelt vu" [7"] 37 the caretaker "everywhere an empty bliss" [cd]      + the caretaker "everywhere at the end of time - stages IV-VI" [cdx4] 38 adoran "artemisia" [k7] 39 årabrot & radar men from the moon "gospel lillies b/w we wear sadism..." [7"] 40 10 000 russos "kompromat" [lp]

41 wooden shjips "shjips in the night: live in san francisco june 8, 2018" [lp] 42 keiji haino, oren ambarchi & jim o'rourke "in the past only geniuses..." [lpx2]      + keiji haino & sumac "even for just the briefest moment..." [cd]      + keiji haino & charles hayward "a loss permitted to open its eyes..." [lp] 43 white manna "ape on sunday" [cdr] 44 sleep "live at third man records" [lpx4] 45 the cosmic dead "scottish space race" [cd]

46 20 guilders "acoustic motherfuckers" [cd]                                     47 shit & shine "doing drugs, selling drugs" [lp] 48 föllakzoid "I" [cd] 49 suzuki junzo & sdbia      "the ascended master teachings of suzuki junzo & sdbia" [lpx2] 50 sammartano" walkman jazz" [s-sided k7]

(2019 long list continued after the break)

the yearly bowery eclectic [matthew bower & samantha davies]:

skullflower "just say yes..." [dl] skullflower "new shape from the distant past" [dl] skullflower "black hat jams" [dl] skullflower "black summer" [dl] skullflower "þþþþþþþþþþþ" [dl] sunroof! "polly on the burning desert shore" [dl] skullflower "poison and perfume" [dl] der illustre fälscher der träume "averse path" [dl] chrome sunroof "drowned venetian model railway [after the rain]" [dl] der illustre fälscher der träume "equinoctial hinge" [dl] der illustre fälscher der träume "verbotene schmuckstücke" [dl] skullflower "thunderbolt religious master" [dl] der illustre fälscher der träume "dolphin endorphins will save us all" [dl] skullflower "visor" [dl] skullflower "rise!" [dl] skullflower "sa man tra ba dra" [dl] skullflower "wailing on witch mountain" [dl] thee yllustrous foarger of dreamzz "z.z. vape" [dl] voltigeurs "golden hooks" [dl] voltigeurs "motherless son" [dl] skullflower "choice of weapons" [dl] the illustrated forager for dreamworks "unheimlich maneuver" [dl] der illustre fälscher der träume "satan have mercy on my long distress" [dl]

& other baker street irregulars:

nadja bsp live series: 2009-02-06 moscow" [dl] nadja "numbed" [dl] aidan baker bsp live series: 2009-02-06 moscow" [dl] aidan baker "tableau: kanon für vier tänzerinnen" [dl] aidan baker / faith coloccia / jon mueller "see through" [lp] aidan baker & karen willems "awel" [cd] aidan baker "surveil" [dl] aidan baker "treml" [k7] aidan baker / n "dobbellive" [cdx2] aidan baker "the forever tapes" [k7]

  favourite gigs of the year:

                     uptight @ les ateliers claus bxl 161119

most pleasing purchases:

armand schaubroeck steals "god made the blues to kill me!" [10"]   + "gone volume I 'colour dreams" [lp] [1986]      (because of the church mice "babe we're not part of society")

chinese moon "chinese moon" [k7] [2017] two daughters "recordings 1979-1981" [lpx2] "dop massacre presents the pop of dop:   a compilation of belgian-frenchian nuggets" [cdr]

joël van droogenbroeck "coloursound box" [cdx18] [2015]  + the unireverse "plays the music" [cd] [2005] de brassers "live at the velinx" [unplayable cdr] [1989] pat campbell "just a quiet conversation" [lp] [1969]                       AKA THE WORST RECORD EVER !

ilta hämärä "velloa" [7"] jo alan "le demon de midi b/w le predicateur" [197x] junko & michel henritzi "live at asaga ya ten, tokyo 01.11.16" [k7] magazzini criminali "crollo nervoso" [lp] [1980] 'mama' béa tékielski "la folle" [lpx2] [1977] "manneken punks [punk rock in brussels 1977-1978]" [cdr] [201x] 

mv & ee "sweetheart of the nascar" [7"] [2010]                      rema rema "fond reflections" [cdx2] sourdure "mantras" [lpx3] [2019] richard tate "road runner b/w j'viens de m'reveiller" [7"] [1974] schizo "le voyageur b/w torcol" [7"] [1972]

release raté:

soma "ākasa-dhātu" [lpx2]

annual postal piss-offs:

the quash wagon “reclusion” (bandcamp) ... LOST BY BPOST munehiro narita “成田“ (discogs) ... LOST BY BPOST agitation frite t-shirt (lenka) ... LOST BY BPOST

the many, many re-releases shortlist:

01 france "ott" [2016] [lpx2]

02 sourdure "mantras" [lpx3] [2017] ///      hôpital de la conception ft junk nurse the electric rockin' chair [lp] [2018] 03 bardo pond "bardo pond" [lpx2] [2010]      + bardo pond "big laughing jym" [lp] [1995] 04 up-tight "rare tracks" [cdr] [2003-2014] 05 mark stewart & the maffia      "learning to cope with cowardice & the lost tapes" [cdx2] [1983]      + the pop group “y [definitive edition]” [lpx4]/[cdx3] [1979]

06 rema-rema fond reflections [cdx2] [1978-1979] 07 "tokyo flashback p​.s.f. psychedelic speed freaks" [lpx4] [1991-1995] 08 "further perspectives & distortion" [cdx3] ///      "strain crack & break music from the nww list vol I" [lpx2] 09 midnight mines "create disturbance in your mind" [cdx2] [2013-2014] 10 "birth work death work, money & status in country music" [lp]

11 peter laughner "peter laughner boxset" [cdx5] 12 "punk rock ist nicht tot the billy childish story '77-'18" [cdx2] 13 "jobcentre rejects ultra rare nwobhm 1978-1982" [cd] 14 "all the young droogs 60 juvenile delinquent wrecks" [cdx3] 15 slift spacetrip for everyone [12''] [2016]

favourite blog- and/or bootlegs:

01 tomoyuki aoki & harutaka mochizuki "live @ revolver taipei 281119" [dl]

02 double wig [aka clint takeda] "live @ kings raleigh 060919" [dl] 03 headroom "live @ lodge room los angeles ca 270319" [dl]             04 bill orcutt & chris corsano "live @ union pool brooklyn ny 290119" [dl] 05 amt "live @ market house brooklyn ny 200419" [dl]

favourite artwork:

Tine Harrow “Rend/er” [k7] (2019)

favourite record sleeve:

as always:

the dream dates “the mess you're in b/w search & destroy” [7''] (1979)

favourite radio:

ever missed

The Brian Turner Overdrive ... (lost in the wilderness, moult fois hélas!)

favourite podcast:

arno "arno 70 c'était magnifique radio één sessie" [dl]

2019 summer hit:

as always:

youpy youpi yeah “youpi youpi yeah” (2010)

favourite comedy:

01 jeroen leenders "the jeroen leenders experience" [dl]

02 tony law “a law undo its-elf what welcome” [gofasterstripe] [headband]

03 john-luke roberts “all i wanna do [fx: gunshots] with a [fx: gun reloading] and a [fx: cash register] and perform some comedy!” [gofasterstripe] [dl]

and - finally - there just isn’t enough Lou Sanders in the world !

favourite bilderstompf:

la casa de papel “series I, II & III” [netflix]

chernobyl “miniseries″ [hbo] succession “season I & II” [hbo] 8 out of 10 cats does countdown “series XVII & XVIII” [4] fleabag  “series II” [bbc]

catastrophe “series IV” [bbc] his dark materials “series I” [bbc] watchmen ‘limited series” [hbo] queen of the south “season V” [usa network] killjoys “season V” [syfy]

favourite blog:

http://www.nyctaper.com

and - as always - the one that can not be named & is deliciously quiet:

best interwebs:

www.ubuweb.com… a rare beacon of hope in these dire times

and patiently waiting for the remastered version of freemusicarchive.org

. may your home be safe from tigers, x leroy

HNY & stay hungry!

the 2019 long list:

75 dollar bill "i was real" [lpx2] 9 horses "blood from a stone" [dl] a death cinematic "cagliostro" [cd]   + a death cinematic "in this faint-ashen twilight... droneuary LXIV" [dl] a place to bury strangers "fuzz club session" [12"] a winged victory for the sullen "the undivided five" [cd] a-sun amissa "for burdened & bright light" [cd] adam coney "pavilion" [lp] alvin lucier "orpheus variations" [cd] amt & the melting paraiso ufo "hallelujah mystic garden part II" [lp]   + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "how was the decisive moment recorded?" [lp]   + kinski & amt & the melting paraiso ufo "idem" [cd] anni hogan "lost in blue" [cd]                                               arno "santeboutique" [cd] ashtray navigations & alan courtis "protozoic rock express" [cd]   + ashtray navigations "a propos de naufrage" [cdr] "au-delà [meakusma compilation]" [lp]

big brave "a gaze among them" [cd] bill orcutt "live in l.a." [lp]   + bill orcutt "new words from the oed" [lathe lp] black bombaim, saldanha, augusto & fernandes "black bombaim" [lpx2] black myths "black myths II" [k7] black tempest "inner space: a psychedelic audio book" [k7] bloody head "narco bulldozer b/w black dog blues" [7"] bonnacons of doom "esus" [k7] boris "lΦve & evΦl" [lpx2]   + boris "1985" [12"] brian ruryk "east mall donut" [k7]   + brian ruryk "guitar asthma" [k7]   + brian ruryk "goose landing" [k7] 宙空一派 (chukuippa) "やあ裸のラリーズ (hadaka no rallizes tribute)" [dl] corpse twitcher "bring your dead" [k7]

damo suzuki & minami deutsch "live at roadburn festival" [10"] dan melchior band "negative freedom" [lp] deafkids "metaprogramação" [cd]   + deafkids "permanent dystopia configuração do lamento remixes" [k7] dennis bovell "dubbing up the pop group live @ rough trade 011119" [dl] doronco gumo "old tribe" [lp] dub colossus  "dr strangedub (or how I learned to stop worrying and dub the bomb" [cd] ecstatic vision "for the masses" [dl] eddy current suppression ring "all in good time" [cd] electric moon / terminal cheesecake "in search of highs vol III" [lp]           + electric moon "hugodelia" [cd] firefriend "avalanche" [lpx2] gad whip "ward 24 b/w trademark" [7"] genesis breyer p-orridge & carl abrahamsson  "loyalty does not end with death" [lp] georges & feuchard "opus primum" [dl] giulio aldinucci "no eye has an equal" [lp] glenn branca "the third ascension" [cd]

heather leigh & peter brötzmann "south moon under [red hook concert]" [cd] henge "nothing head" [lp] ignatz & de stervende honden "deadbeat freedom" [lp] jäh division "dub will tear us apart... again" [lp & 7"] jandek "gainesville monday" [cdx2] jason lescalleet "XXth century music" [k7] jay glass dubs "two devotional songs for spacemen 3 in the style of love inc." [k7] jozef van wissem & jim jarmusch "an attempt to draw aside the veil" [cd] kate tempest "the book of traps & lessons" [cd] kawaguchi masami's new rock syndicate  "boogie pt I b/w boogie pt II [psychedelic freak out]" [7"] kristina kubisch "schall und klang" [cd] kungens män "chef" [lp] la nòvia, terry riley "in c" [cdx2] lee 'scratch' perry "heavy rain" [cd] leonard cohen "thanks for the dance" [cd] little simz "grey area" [cd] lo carmen "now you know nashville b/w half a man" [dl] long hots "nickel & dime b/w give & take" [7"]

              (disturbing the comfortable and comforting the disturbed)

maher shalal hash baz "je est un autre" [10"x2] mark lanegan band "somebody's knocking" [cd]   + mark lanegan band "bleeding muddy water [live in europe 2017]" [lp]   + mark lanegan band "stitch it up" [7"] matthew de gennaro "what it is ?" [k7] mavis staples "we get by" [cd] memes "blah blah blah" [7"] melvins/flipper "hot fish" [10"] michel henritzi & ikuro takahashi "we were there" [cd] moor mother "analog fluids of sonic black holes" [cd] per svensson "psychedelic sounds" [lpx2] pieter-paul devos "citation needed" [10"] pierre vervloesem "artiste belge" [cd] plastic crimewave syndicate "massacre of the celestials" [cd] richard skelton "stadial" [dl] rst "rst" [lpx2] scorn "café mor" [10"x2] several wives "göldi fell" [cd] sleaford mods "eton alive" [cd] steven r smith "the loss of what we keep [unused film score]" [dl] "stuttgarter philharmoniker gabriel feltz "gustav mahler symphony n° 2" [cd]

teho teardo "grief is the thing with feathers" [lp] the band whose name is a symbol / shooting guns "in search of highs vol II" [lp]   + the band whose name is a symbol "codicil II" [lp] the beasts of bourbon "still here" [cd] the last poets "understand what dub is [prince fatty dubs]" [lp] the limiñanas "le bel été [ost]" [lp]   + l'épée "diabolique" [cd] the psychotic monks "private meaning fist" [lpx2]     thurston moore "spirit counsel" [cdx3]   + thurston moore / frank rosaly "marshmellow moon decorum" [cd] tine harrow "rend/er" [k7] toucans "when he died i was jealous b/w remember the night" [lathe 7"] ty segall "pig man lives vol I [demos 2007-2017]" [lpx4]   + ty segall & freedom band "deforming lobes [live]" [lp] unkle "the road: part II / lost highway" [cdx3] usa/mexico "matamoros" [lp] wet tuna "water weird" [12"] wild billy childish & ctmf "last punk standing" [lp]   + ctmf "brave protector" [lp]   + wild billy childish & ctmf "you're the one i idolise" [7"]   + wild billy childish & ctmf "marc riley session radio VI" [7"]   + wild billy childish & ctmf "live @ theatre margate 160619" [ william basinski "on time out of time" [lp] zzzoo "human lives" [dl]

-alternative tv "primitive emotions" [cd] -"angkor pop! a cambodian tribute o iggy pop" [cd] -balladur "la vallée etroite" [lp] -bambi lee savage "berlin-nashville express" [cd] -baron mordant "mark of the mould" [dl] -beth gibbons "performs henryk górecki symphony n° 3 [symphony of sorrowful songs] op 36" [cd] -creep of paris “geronticus eremita” [cdr] -hibushibire "turn on, tune in, freak out" [cd]  + hibushibire "official live bootleg vol V" [cdr] -ikuro takahashi "しりえないものとずっと" [lp] -infinite forms of yellow remember "infinite forms of yellow remember" [lpx2] -jeffrey lewis & los bolts "13 fall songs [live+lo-fi+lacking rehearsal!]" [cd] -k leimer "irrational overcast" [lp]  + k leimer / marc barreca "chains of being" [lp] -major stars "roots of confusion seeds of joy" [lp] -mark kozelek & petra haden "joey always smiled" [cd]       -matt valentine "preserves" [lp] -pascal comelade "deviationist muzak" [lpx2] -tuluum shimmering "blue water sunray" [cdrx5] -wasted cathedral "atmospheric hangover" [12"]

… lasciate ogni speranza …

the even longer list (with added moments of brilliance):

20 guilders "gravity bong: official bootleg series #1" [dl] + 20 guilders "gravity bong: official bootleg series #2" [dl] a.m. "collectivo" [dl] + the nether dawn "small black boxes" [lathe 8"] "a short illness from which he never recovered" [lp] akira rabilais "CXVI" [cd] alva noto & anne-james chaton "alphabet" [cd] alvin lucier "ricochet lady: for solo glockenspiel" [cd] andrew chalk "one long year" [k7] + andrew chalk "paradise lost" [k7] aponogeton "a place of solace" [lp] aseethe "throes" [cd] + aseethe "on audiotree live" [dl] ash & herb "in now time vol II" [k7] + ash & herb "in now time vol III" [k7] ashtray navigations "a propos de naufrage" [cd] + ashtray navigations "the fabulist" [cdr] assetstripper "heavy hard hitting music for the heavy hard of hearing" [k7] astrïd "a porthole (I)" [lp] automatic "calling it b/w mind your own business" [7"] + automatic "signal" [cd]

beastwars "IV" [cd] beb soggy & the gutter kids "live convention metal 200319" [dl] beije "you got it dude" [7"] bill callahan "shepherd in a sheepskin vest" [cd] boduf songs "abyss versions" [lp]   broeder dieleman & wannes capelle "dit is de bedoeling" [cd] + broeder dieleman "'t groot eiland" [dl] borange "bornite nights" [k7] carl stone "baroo" [lp] catherine christer hennix "deontic miracle: selections from 100 models of hegikan roku" [lpx2] charles hayward "(begin anywhere)" [cd] + charles hayward "objects of desire" [k7] + whistling arrow "whistling arrrow" [12"] clarice jensen "drone studies" [k7] cocaine piss "passionate & tragic" [cd] comacozer "mydriasis" [lp] costes "le gasoil est trop cher" [cdr] current 93 "invocations" [cd]

da captain trips "improvisations vol I" [cd]                                   dan melchior band "outside in" [lp]   + dan melchior & p g six"exhibit a" [lp] + dan melchior & sigtryggur berg sigmarsson "cod war kids" [cd] + the lloyd pack "on holiday with..." [lp] david nance group "meanwhile b/w credit line" [7"] + david nance group "catharsis lottery: live 2018-2019" [dl] dead end boogie "new tires b/w dance with a blizzard" [7"] dead sea apes "free territory" [cdr] deaf proof "brain utopia" [lp] dhidalah "treshold" [lp]                                                       doronco gumo "old tribe" [lp] dubkasm ft rider shafique "enter the gates" [12"] + dubkasm "shady grove" [lp] duerinckx, russell, safatly "serpentes" [k7] einstürzende neubauten "schlaf / sleep" [7"] + einstürzende neubauten "zivilisation / civilisation" [7"]   + einstürzende neubauten "abfackeln! [dub mix]" [dl] + einstürzende neubauten & supporters "eu wahl 2019" [dl] + einstürzende neubauten "jet lag hero" [dl] el-g "les particules" [lp] ema stoned / kawabata makoto / yantra "phenomena" [dl]

fadensonnen "chandra" [dl] fear falls burning "function collapse" [lp]                                   félicia atkinson "the flower and the vessel" [cd] fovea hex "the salt garden III" [cd] garcia peoples "one step behind" [cd]                                             + garcia peoples "natural facts" [cd] + hans chew & garcia peoples "natch 10 - hans chew & garcia peoples" [dl] general p.d.c. "amazon dub b/w amazon dub (beesmunt soundsystem version)" [10"] giant sand "recounting the ballads of thin line men" [cd] gimu "finally free, gravity" [cd] greg dulli "pantomina" [dl] hakobune "a fan, strings, & two guitars" [k7] hinds "riding solo" [dl] iggy pop "free" [cd] + iggy pop "cold metal [live]" [dl] jac berrocal, david fenech & vincent epplay "ice exposure" [lp] jah wobble & bill laswell "realm of spells" [cd] jake xerxes fussell "out of sight" [lp] jandek "austin sunday 2007" [cd] + jandek "the ray" [cd] jay glass dubs "thumb dub b/w index dub" [7"] + jay glass dubs "nyx" [12"] jeffrey lewis & the voltage "bad wiring" [cd] jóhann jóhannsson / echo collective "12 conversations w thilo heinzmann" [cd]

john zorn "tractatus musico-philosophicus" [cd] + john zorn "the hierophant" [cd] + john zorn "the hermetic organ vol VIII: for antonin artaud" [cd] + john zorn "the hermetic organ vol VI: for edgar allan poe" [cd] + john zorn "the hermetic organ vol VII: st john the divine" [cd] + quatuor molinari "john zorn: cat o'nine tails, the dead man, memento mori & kol nidre" [cd] johnny moped "lurrigate your mind" [cd] + johnny moped "living in a dream world" [7"] keiji haino, merzbow & palázs pándi "become the discovered, not the discoverer" [cd] king blood "hocus focus" [lp] kinky friedman "resurrection" [cd] kombynat robotron & snakes don't belong in alaska "kombynat robotron & sdbia" [k7] ktl "°live at big ears mill & mine knoxville 230319" [dl] kungens män "hårt som ben" [lp] la iglesia atómica "gran muro de coma [eroc's remix]" [cd] + la iglesia atómica "the jim jones kool-acid test vol I" [dl] + la iglesia atómica "the jim jones kool-acid test vol II" [dl] la jungle "past / middle age / future" [cd] + noyades, tomaga, van wissem & la jungle "noyades, tomaga, van wissem & la jungle" [lp]

lake mary & the anch family band "sun dogs" [lp] larsen "tiles" [12"] lasse marhaug & anastasia ax "objects to be destroyed" [k7] laurice "bad boy" [cd] le réveil des tropiques "l'arbre à cames" [lp] le scrambled debutante "geheime kaninchen verschworung" [dl] lee chapman "offcuts & cutoffs" [dl] lee 'scratch' perry "rainford" [cd] + lee 'scratch' perry "makumba rock" [10"] + lee 'scratch' perry "rootz reggae dub" [cd] + lee 'scratch' perry & mr green "super ape vs 緑 "open door" " [cd] + lee 'scratch' perry "lee 'scratch' perry "life of plants" [12"] + lee 'scratch' perry "big ben rock [woodie taylor remix]" [7"] + lee 'scratch' perry "weeping widow" [dl] + lee 'scratch' perry "african starship" [dl] + lee 'scratch' perry & the upsetters "upsetters shuffle [paolo bandini remix]" [7"] leila bordreuil "headflush" [lp]                                           lieven tavernier & room 13 orchestra "oude regenbogen" [cd] loren connors & daniel carter "the departing of a dream vol VII" [lp] louise landes levi, timo van luijk & bart de paepe "kami" [lp] ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day I" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day II" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day III" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day IV" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day V" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day VI" [cd] + ludovico einaudi "seven days walking day VII" [cd] lumerians "yellowcake b/w c-rock" [7"]

machinefabriek "with voices" [cd] mad professor / gaudi "mad professor meets gaudi" [dl] mai mai mai "nel sud" [lp]                                                     mamuthones "a place in the world" [dl] mark fisher & justin barton "on vanishing land" [lp] melvins/shitkid "bangers" [10"] + melvins/redd kross "escape from la" [10"] michel henritzi "music for nothing" [k7] + michel henritzi "live at rota flora" [dl] mikal cronin "undertow b/w breathe" [7"] + mikal cronin "seeker" [cd] + mikal cronin "arsonist/tsinosra" [dl] mike patton & jean-claude vannier "corpse flower" [cd] minami deutsch "can't get there" [12"] mono & a a williams "exit in darkness b/w winter light" [dl] + mono "nowhere now here" [cd]   + mono "before the past live from electrical audio" [lp] negativland "true false" [cd] nick cave & the bad seeds "ghosteen" [cd] night beats "perform the sonics' boom" [lp] not waving & dark mark "downwelling" [lp]

oisaux-tempête "from somewhere invisible" [lp] olumpus "caucus" [lp] + olumpus "surplus" [dl] om "bbc radio 1" [10"x2] partch "sonata dementia music of harry partch vol III" [cd] patrick haggerty "blackberry rose & other songs & sorrows from lavender country" [cd] paracelze "ptérodactyle" [lp] pere ubu "the long goodbye / montreuil" [cdx2] -peter brötzmann "i surrender dear" [cd] pierre bastien "tinkle twang 'n tootle" [12"] porest "abject mirror" [dl] + mark gergis "early-century sound recordings" [k7] possible(s) quartet "songs from bowie" [cd] prettiest eyes "vol III" [cd] "psych agaist cancer compilation" [dl] psychic tv "the evening turns crimson" [cd] rev scott h biram "sold out to the devil a collection of gospel cuts..." [lp] richard pinhas "live at bam balam" [lp] richard youngs & raül refree "all hands around the moment" [lp] rie fukuda & i-eternal "49 heures et 6 minutes" [dl] roy montgomery & emma johnston "after nietzsche" [lp] + roy montgomery & jessica moss "last year's man b/w after vermeer" [10"] rqrq "rqrq" [cdr]

sean mccann / seth graham performed by the kymatic ensemble "vilon b/w gasp" [k7] seth cooke "weigh the word" [k7] six organs of admittance "losing tracks of time" [dl] sleaford mods "eton alive extras b sides & demos" [12"] + sleaford mods "kebab spider" [dl] + sleaford mods "o.b.c.t" [dl] + sleaford mods "discourse" [dl] slowthai "nothing great about britain" [cd] sly & robbie "riddims live" [dl] some became hollow tubes "keep it in the ground" [lp] + some became hollow tubes "in 1998 i thought this shit would never change" [cd] space debris "archive vol VI special outtakes 2005-2008" [cd] + space debris "archive vol V freak valley festival" [cd] spain "god is not dead [johnny r cash]" [dl] steve bates / black seas ensemble "atmospheres, soundtracks & transmissions" [lpx2] sunburned hand of the man "intentions aka headless" [k7] + sunburned hand of the man "burnieleaks III" [cdr] suzuki junzo "todos los fuegos el fuego" [cd]

tanz mein herz "dosses" [lp] teeth of the sea "wraith" [cd] terminal cheesecake "le sacre du lièvre" [lp] the band whose name is a symbol "ottawa psychfest II" [dl] the cinematic orchestra "a caged bird / imitations of life" [12"] the flying luttenbachers "shattered dimension" [cd] + the flying luttenbachers "imminent death" [cd] the gluts "dengue fever hypnotic trip" [lp] the janitors "the ghost you must seeek b/w falcon" [dl] the last poets "transcending toxic times" [cdx2] the myrrors "black sand: live in london" [lp & s-sided lp]                           the reverberations "changes" [lp] the sharcks "tranquil salvation" [7"] the staches "this lake is pointless" [lp] the telescopes "strange waves b/w the speaking stones" [s-sided 12"] thurston moore "pollination b/w leave me alone" [7"] tinariwen "amadjar" [cd] ty segall "firste taste" [lp] uk subs "subversions II" [cd]

vatican shadow "berghain 09" [dl] vintage crop "company man" [7"] wadada leo smith "rosa parks, pure love: an oratorio of seven songs" [cd] whettman chelmets "long read memories" [cd] + whettman chelmets "doesn't remember" [cd] + whettman chelmets "giant eyes & infant steps" [cd] wild fuzz trip "surreal surroundings & fuzznaut)))" [lp] william tyler "aquarium drunkard lagniappe sessions" [dl] + william tyler "goes west" [cd] + william tyler "dispatches from echo magic" [cd] yannick franck presents mt gemini "just like a river" [lp] zeal & ardor "live in london" [cd] zonal "wrecked" [cd] zzzoo "monster zzzoo" [dl] + zzzoo "human zzzoo" [dl]-donovan quinn "absalom" [lp]

-dub trio "the shape of dub to come" [cd]                                       -hawkeyes "last light of future failure" [lp]                                     -hissing "burning door" [k7] -hoor-paar-kraat "ma'atu" [k7] -jacob kirkegaard "phonurgia metallis" [cd] -kool aid "family portrait" [k7] -k-x-p "IV" [cd] -liquid sun "inspiration" [dl]  + liquid sun "contemplation" [dl] -maria faust, tim dahl & weasel walter "farm fresh" [lp] -mosquitoes "vortex veering back to venus" [12"]  + mosquitoes "emergences b/w resurgences" [7"] -orchestra of constant distress "cognitive dissonance" [cd]  + orchestra of constant distress vs the idealist "dissonant dub" [k7] -painted faces "tales from the skinny apartment" [dl] -penelope trappes "penelope redeux" [lp] -richard pinhas & tatsuya yoshida "ascension" [cd]                                 -seven that spells "the trilogy: live at roadburn 2019" [lpx3] -"stumm433 [compilation" [cdx5] -sun kil moon "i also want to die in new orleans" [cdx2]  + sun kil moon "live at the old museum brisbane" [cdx2] -teleplasmiste "science <> religion" [k7] -the blank tapes "super bloom" [k7] -tindersticks "no treasure but hope" [cd] -tropical fuck storm "braindrops" [cd]  + tropical fuck storm "the planet of straw men b/w can't stop" [7"] -underworld & the necks "appleshine continuum" [dl] -wild fuzz trip "space echo" [dl]

… and - finally -  the longest list:

53407 "play the songs of ludwig dementgenstein" [dl] a a bondy "enderness" [cd] "a berry feast vol I (compilation)" [k7] a crushed rose "someone is looking out for us" [k7] abul mogard "and we are passing through silently" [cd] achim zepezauer & guests "kuhzunft slotmachine" [10"] ad van aart "concert for organ pipes & vacuum cleaners" [k7] adderall canyonly "the unburdened present" [cd] + adderall canyonly "give me room under the fire of the sun" [k7] + adderall canyonly "flow my tears, the policeman said" [k7] adriano celentano "adrian" [cdx2] akio suzuki "resonant spaces" [cd] alain pire experience "apex" [cd] aldous harding "designer" [cd] alexander tucker "guild of the asbestos weaver" [lp] amado / serries "jazzblazzt" [k7] andrea belfi "strata" [12"] andrew dr abbott "dead in chellow dean" [dl] andy stott "it should be us" [dl] andy votel & doug shipton "pvc cut & paste punk & dancefloor diy" [k7]   + andy votel & doug shipton "plastic dance volumes I & II" [lpx2]   années zéro "perdu" [7"] årabrot "die nibelungen" [lp] astral social club & grumbling fur time machine orchestra "plasma splice trifle" [lp] atmosphere "whenever" [dl] atom "in every dream home" [cd] autophonia "nolite te bastardes carborundorum" [k7]

bananagun "do yeah b/w top cat" [7"] baodub & mighty prophet "cradle of civilization echo cave" [12"] beak> "life goes on" [12"] bear bones, lay low "ses kondi" [k7] bees made honey in the vein tree "grandmother" [cd] bermooda & the green man tgm "der sound verändert dich" [dl] biosphere "the senja recordings" [cd] bitchin bajas "cuts III" [k7] + bitchin bajas "demeter" [dl] black mountain "destroyer" [cd] black mountain whiskey rebellion "black mountain whiskey rebellion" [cd] black thumb "i'll be home" [dl] + black thumb "idle bedroom mixes" [dl] + black thumb "... aka by this river b/w la motrigine" [dl] black to comm "seven horses for seven kings" [lpx2] + black to comm "before after" [lp] blake hargreaves "improvisations on the pipe organs of europe" [lp] blanck mass "animated violance mild" [lp]                                   bonne humeur provisoire "mèrak" [lp] brad laner "ligaments 01-05" [k7x5] braindogs "real live brains celebration of tom waits" [cd] brandon brindley "outlaw forever" [dl] brant bjork "jacoozzi" [cd] brigitte bardon't "radio songs" [k7]                                           burial "claustro b/w state forest" [12"] burnt friedman "musical traditions in central europe [explorer series vol IV" [cd] bvdub "explosions in slow motion" [cd]

camilla sparksss "brutal" [cd] cannibale "acceleration b/w let's jump" [7"] carrageenan "invisible design" [k7] cat of tomorrow "country hoodoo b/w t.b. blues" [dl] cate le bon & bradford cox "myths 004" [12"] causa "space dub b/w concrete dub" [7"] cave in "final transmission" [lp] celer "plays godflesh" [dl] + celer "vamps" [k7] cellophane garden "relation to the infinite" [lpx2] ceramic hobs "use your illusion III" [cd] chaouche "safe: instrumentals" [dl] charlemagne palestine & angelica miller "aaangelicaaa may 10th 2005" [cd] + charlemagne palestine & rrose "the goldenn meeenn & sheeenn" [cd] + trrmà & charlemagne palestine "sssseegmmeentss frrooom baaari" [lp] charles rumback & ryley walker "little common twist" [cd] chocolate hills "a pail of air" [lp] chris forsyth "all time present" [cd] chrissie hynde & the valve bone woe ensemble "valve bone woe" [cd] christine ott / torsten böttcher "nanook of the north" [cd] christophe clébard "honte" [lp] chuck johnson "ayami" [dl] circuit des yeux "reaching for indigo: gaia infinitus" [lp] civic "selling, sucking, blackmail, bribes b/w velvet casino" [7"] coil "swanyard [unreleased 1993-1996]" [cdx2] + coil "live five - gdansk autumn 2002" [dl] + coil "the gay man's guide to safer sex +2 [ost]" [dl] colour haze "live vol II: live at duna jam 2007" [cd] + colour haze "we are" [cd] comfort "not passing" [lp] common eider, king eider "égrégore" [cd] consumer electronics "airless space" [cd] country florist "outlastr" [k7] cowboy flying saucer "travel lodge" [lp] crazy doberman "[powder] station" [k7] cucina povera "zoom" [lp] cy an "earthnaval / morrigan" [k7]

dan melchior "squirrel II [the sequel]" [cdr] daniel schmidt & the berkeley gamelan "abies firma" [lp & cd] danielle de picciotto "deliverance" [lp] + hackedepicciotto "joy" [cd] dasher "dear humans" [lp] david jackman "herbstsonne" [cd] dead neanderthals "ghosts" [lp] + dead neanderthals "mankind" [dl] + rené aquarius "woodland sigil" [cd] deathprod "occulting disk" [cd] demdike stare berlin 09-03-19 [k7] + demdike stare rendez-vous contemporains de saint-merry [k7] desmadrados soldados de ventura "cornell 4.7.15" [dl] dessner / labèque "el chan" [cd] deviant "loading the gun" [7"] devendra banhart "ma" [cd] diät "positive disintegration" [lp] diggory kenrick & the aggrovators "bandulo rock" [10"] dire wolves "grow towards the light" [cd] + dire wolves "dig where you stand" [k7] + dire wolves "10-10-18 starline ballroom oakland ca" [k7] dirk serries "epitaph companion" [dl] dj shadow "our pathetic age" [cdx2] djinn "djinn" [lp] docteurlamort "in search of planet drive" [k7] doctors of madness "dark times" [cd] dommengang "no keys" [cd] donkey no no "love is sweet poison" [k7] + donkey no no turmeric [k7]                                     dopelord, weedpecker, major kong & spaceslug "4 way split" [lp] dora bleu "fascisim's intimacy" [lp] downward spiral galaxy "loyal to the cause" [dl] + downward spiral galaxy "have a cigar" [dl] dreamtime "tidal mind" [cdr] drugdealer ""raw honey" [cd] dub killer "soundsystem" [dl] dubblestandart & firehouse crew "present reggae classics" [cd] dubkasm "two x two" [12"]

earthling society "the blackpool sessions" [dl] ed rigetti "three chords and the gospel" [dl] edward ka-spel "the moon cracked over albion" [cd] + edward ka-spel & nuits rouges "midnight pharmacy" [dl] efrim manuel menuck & kevin doria "are sing sinck, sing" [lp] ekoplekz "in search of the third mantra" [k7] electric belt ft reverendo killer blues "the bottleneck sessions" [dl] + electric belt "never seen the devil" [cd] eleh "living space" [cd] elkhorn "sun cycle & elk jam" [lpx2] ellen arkbro "chords" [cd] entlang "the four sisters" [lp] eriksson delcroix "the riverside hotel" [cd] errant monks "the limit experience" [lp] + errant monks "psychopposition" [k7] emptyset "blossoms" [cd] endless caverns "jewel mining" [k7] endurance / pjs "endurance / pjs split" [k7] epic beard men "this was supposed to be fun" [cd] erin anne "tough love" [lp] eugene chadbourne & henry kaiser "wind crystals guitar duets by wadada leo smith" [cd] evan parker & paul g smyth "calenture & light leaks" [cd] + evan parker & paul g smyth "the dogs of nile" [dl] eve libertine "a free-form improvisation adapted from jack kerouac's sea" [cd] extra skeleton sunday "21" [dl] + extra skeleton sunday "extra skeleton" [dl]

fabio orsi "di lumi e chiarori" [cdx4] + fabio orsi "il vento disperderà la schiuma" [lp] fat white family "serfs up" [cd] fields (two) "fields (two" [k7]   fka twigs "magdalene" [cd] flamingods "levitation" [cd] foxy "oh bondage up yours b/w i'm a cliché" [dl] forest management "passageways" [lp] + forest management "after dark" [lpx2] + forest management "summer veil" [k7x2] + forest management "perfect hour / sheridan" [dl] fossil aerosol mining project "archeological testing in the land of monkeys" [dl] frank hurricane & the hurricanes of love "life is spiritual" [lp]             fraudband "blinkered vision & blurred horizons" [cd] + fraudband / 20 guilders "tour split" [cdr] frans zwartjes & lodewijk de boer / the frans zwartjes sound system "masterpiece / spectator" [lp] frederik croene "cul de sac" [lp] frimley embankment "the frimley embankment tapes" [dl] fruit bats & vetiver "in real life [live at spacebomb studios]" [lp] frustration "so cold streams" [cd] fujiya & miyagi "flashback" [cd]

giorgio dursi "intestinocephalo" [k7] giuda "e.v.a." [cd]                                                             + giuda "overdrive b/w lunar eye" [7"] glücksfall "glücksfall" [dl] + glücksfall "glücksfall II" [dl] + glücksfall "glücksfall III [live]" [k7] gnaw their tongues "kapmeswonden & haatliederen" [cdr] + gnaw their tongues "an eternity of suffering, an eternity of pain" [dl] + golden ashes "gold are the ashes of the restorer" [cd] gnod r & d "vol III" [lpx2] + gnod r & d "vol IV" [k7] goose "ted tapes I" [dl] + goose "ted tapes II" [dl] grace cummings "refuge cove" [lp] grand veymont "grand veymont" [lp] gudrun gut "moment remixes" [dl] hank wood & the hammerheads "heads" [k7] hardy fox "25 minus minutes" [cd] harley black "family affair #30" [dl] + harley black "lab rats #29" [dl] + harley black "3132 ad" [dl] hayes carll "what it is" [cd] headland "what rough beast" [lp] heavy metal "lp IV" [lpx2] helicon "zero fucks" [10"] hermann nitsch / koehne quartett "albertina quartett" [cdx2] hermit dubz "pursuit of balance" [dl] hey colossus "four bibles" [cd] + hey colossus "carcass b/w medal" [7"] hijokaidan x sissy spacek "entropic" [cd] hildur guðnadóttir "chernobyl [ost]" [cd] his name is alive "all the mirrors in the house [home recordings '79-'86 vol I]" [dl] + his name is alive "6teen ok" [k7] hiss golden messenger "terms of surrender" [cd] holly herndon "proto" [cd] honey radar "ruby puff of dust" [lp] howlin rain "under the wheels vol I live from the coasts" [lp] htrk "venus in leo" [cd] hyemen & metalfunkel "coasters" [lp]

identified patient & sophie du palais "don't exclude anything" [12"] + identified patient "signals in snakes" [12"] + identified patient "kogeldans" [12"] ifriqiyya électrique "laylet el booree" [cd] ilyas ahmed "behold killers" [k7] imperial wax "gastwerk saboteurs" [cd]                                         j. robinson whodemsound "more than music" [lp] jah wobble "the electro dub extravaganza ep" [12"] jaz coleman "magna invocatio: a gnostic mass for choir & orchestra" [cdx2] jeb loy nichols & the westwood all-stars "june is short, july is long" [cd] jefre cantu-ledesma "tracing back the radiance" [lp] jennifer gentle "jennifer gentle" [lpx2] jilted john "live! [40th anniversary tour]" [cd] jim o'rourke "to magnetize money & catch a roving eye" [cdx4] + jim o'rourke & cm von hausswolff "in, demons, in!" [lp] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 43" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 44" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 45" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 46" [dl] + jim o'rourke & not waving "side a / side b" [12"] joe ghatt "banana sludge" [k7] john garcia "john garcia & the band of gold" [cd] john luther adams / seattle symphony / ludovic morlot "become desert" [cd] + john luther adams / oliver coates "canticles of the sky & three high places" [dl] john the band "masterpiece b/w old friends" [7"] jon collin "water & rock music volumes III - VI" [k7x2] + jon collin "from a petrified forest" [k7] julian cope "presents john balance enters valhalla" [cd]

kali malone "the sacrificial code" [cdx3] karen willems & jean d.l. "twee lindebomen" [cd] kayo makino & tori kudo "ein traum für dich" [lp] keiichi miyashita "in the night" [dl] kevin morby "oh my god" [cd] khana bierbood "strangers from the far east" [dl] khruangbin "hasta el cielo" [cd] kiki & the cosmic egg with rrao "guided visualization" [k7] king dude "crazy b/w never let me go" [7"] + king dude "friendly darkness" [blogleg] [dl] king midas sound "solitude" [cd] + kevin richard martin "sirens" [lp] kleistwahr "on corrosion" [k7x2] (part of [k7ax10 box]) kode9 "diggin in the carts kode9 remixes" [12"] kokhlias "mixotricha paradoxa" [k7] kool keith "keith" [cd] + kool keith "computer technologies" [dl] + kool keith "blast b/w uncrushable" [7"] kronos quartet, terry riley "sun rings" [cd] + kronos quartet, masha & marjan vahdat "placeless" [cd] kukangendai "palm" [lp] kyle bobby dunn "from here to eternity" [cdx3] + kyle bobby dunn & wayne robert thomas "kbd / wrt" [lp]

la iglesia atómica "idiosincrasia" [dl] lambchop "this [is what i wanted to tell you]" [cd] lamp of the universe "align in the fourth dimension" [cd] lasse marhaug "the bastard doesn't dream" [k7] laura cannell "the sky untuned" [cd] laura luna castillo "folksonomies" [dl] le butcherettes "ever fallin in love with someone" [dl] + le butcherettes "bi/mental" [cd] + le butcherettes "live at clouds hill" [12"] leeroy stager "strange path" [cd] + leeroy stagger "me & the mountain" [cd] lello bezerra "desde até então" [dl] lemurian folk songs "ima今" [12"] + lemurian folk songs "jam in copenhagen 2018" [dl] leon vynehall "dj-kicks" [dl] léonore boulanger "practice chanter" [cd] leroy se muert "lrsm" [12"]                                                    les chasseurs de la nuit & burial hex "les chasseurs de la nuit / burial hex" [lp] lighthouse in darkness "the melancholy movies" [cd] lightning bolt "sonic citadel" [cd] lingua ignota & the rita "commissioned" [lp] + lingua ignota "caligula" [cd] lil' lost lou "lil' lost lou: rambling woman" [12"] linus vandewolken "het vlier, een hommel op aarde" [dl] los archimboldos "starcave mémoires" [cd] lsd fundraiser "urgent action, positive results!" [k7] lustmord "first reformed [extended motion picture soundtrack]" [cd]

m grig "mount carmel" [cd] m83 "dsVII" [cd] māpura music "believers" [dl] marconi union "dead air" [dl] mariachi los camperos "de ayer para siempre" [cd] marie davidson "chasing the light" [12"] marie france "tendre assassine" [cd]                                          marissa nadler & stephen brodsky "droneflower" [cd] + marissa nadler ft john cale "poison summer" [7"] mark mcguire "guitar meditations vol IV" [dl] + mark mcguire "in the heart of the heartless" [dl] + mark mcguire "kewl cloudscapes of the 4 directions vol III way even" [dl] martin brandlmayr "vive les fantômes" [cd] mary lattimore & mac mccaughan "new rain duets" [lp] masaki batoh "nowhere" [cd] masis, maes, dub troubles, dublin "singers & players remixes" [dl] master balance "constipation songs" [dl] mathieu serruys "live at ab salon" [k7] matt lajoie "the center and the fringe" [lp] + matt lajoie "full service station" [k7] + matt lajoie "happy to help" [k7] + ml wah "deep roots" [lp] + ml wah "heavenly host" [k7]

matt patershuk "if wishes were horses" [cd] matthew collings "uzonia" [lp] matthew sage "bias folklore" [k7] + msage "catch a blessing" [12"] max nordile "go to sleep, fool!" [k7] meitei "komachi" [lp] mekons "deserted" [cd] melange "goodbye yellow brick rainbow reich" [dl] + melange "money 4 nuthin'" [dl] merzbow & opening performance orchestra "merzopo" [cdx2] + merzbow "noise mass" [cd] metal chaos ensemble "basilisk" [dl] + metal chaos ensemble "call of cthulhu" [dl] michael begg "fragile pitches x" [dl] + michael begg "sonambulo" [cd] + michael begg "vanitas" [cd] michael morley "call back your dogs" [12"] + michael morley "heavens idleness awaits" [lpx2] + michael morley "call back your dogs" [dl] + michael morley "no direction home" [dl] + michael morley "hours of darkness" [dl] michael pisaro "nature denatured & found again" [cdx5] michael ranta "die mauer" [cd]                                                   mick harvey & the letter string quartet "journey" [dl] mikami kan, hijokaidan, mikamikaidan "三上階段" [cdx2] moerassig "vol I: practice space jams" [dl]                                           monomyth "orbis quadrantis" [cd] moon duo "stars are the light" [cd] my cat is an alien "spiritual noise vol I" [lp] + my cat is an alien "spiritual noise vol I" [lp] "mysterium lunae a requiem for the invasion of the moon" [dl]

nathalie stern "nerves & skin" [k7] natur "resuming the dub" [dl] neil campbell "obscure dank self" [k7] + neil campbell "mirror mania ersatz chamber" [k7] + stuart chalmers & neil campbell "frog dreaming skull" [cdr] + neil campbell & shit creek "arclight trance b/w cloud market" [cdr] nick lowe "love starvation / trombone" [12"] night beats "myth of a man" [cd] nik turner "the final frontier" [cd] nivhek "after its own death; walking in a spiral towards the house" [lpx2]             no water please "punk goes brass" [lp]                                          no-neck blues band "fino alla strada vecchia" [lp] nodding god "play wooden child" [cd] noël akchoté & laurent stoutzer "bicinium" [dl] + noël akchoté "friedrich nietzsche hymnus an das leben [1882] (for dobro)" [dl]   + noël akchoté & julie wintrebert "napoli missa cementina [scarlatti] (for dobro)" [dl] noel meek & patrick shiroishi "break your eyes" [k7] nordvargr "daath" not waving "tremendous" [12"] nouvelle vague "curiosités" [cd] nurse with wound "trippin' musik" [12"x3] + nurse with wound / the james worse public address method "the vursiflenze mismantler" [cd] + nurse with wound "arcane reawakening x" [cdr] + nurse with wound "arcane reawakening" [7"]

odd nosdam "flippies good tape III" [dl]                                                   + odd nosdam "flippies rock tape" [dl]                                                   + odd nosdam "flippies rock tape II" [dl] + odd nosdam "flippies best tape" [dl] olan mill "sacred geometry" [cd] ondness "not really now not any more" [k7] one eleven heavy "desire path" [ oneohtrix point never "kcrw session" [12"] oren ambarchi "simian angel" [cd] + oren ambarchi & martin ng ft ensemble offspring "the vanishing" [lpx2] + oren ambarchi, mark fell, will guthrie & sam shalabi "oglon day" [lp] + oren ambarchi & will guthrie "knotting" [cd] otoboke beaver "itekoma hits" [cd] oulu space jam collective "drug rings of saturn" [dl] our lady of the flowers "holiday in thule" [cd] p wits "the desire & pursuit of the whole" [k7] paw grabowski "lad intethedstræerne blomstre" [k7] + øjerum "nattesne" [cdr] + øjerum "the eyeless sea" [10" lathe] + øjerum "without blood the sun darkens" [cd] + øjerum "don't worry mother, everything is going to be okay" [k7] + øjerum "under røde måner" [k7] + øjerum "alting falder i samme rum" [k7] + øjerum "syv segl" [k7] + øjerum "on the swollen lips of the horizon" [k7]

pelegrin "al-mahruqa" [lp] pender street steppers "our time" [12"] per w, pawlowski "insider outsider" [cd] perilymph "deux" [lp] pharaoh overlord "V" [cd] phew, oren ambarchi & jim o'rourke "patience soup" [lp] philip marino "bandcamp tracks" [dl] philippe katerine "confessions" [cd] phoenix city all-stars "clash version rockers" [cd] pierre vervloesem & morgan ågren "artiste international" [cd] + pierre vervloesem "artiste belge" [cd] <pig> "candy" [cd] piloot "gyre" [k7] + piloot "atara" [k7] pop. 1280 "way station" [cd] porest "the parallel broadcasts" [dl] posset & glands of external secretion "obedience to authority" [cdr] + posset "the golden handshake that almost broke my wrist" [k7] poulidor "l'atelier d'eveil musical du centre social raymond poulidor" [12"] prana crafter & tarotplane "symbiose" [cd] prurient "garden of the mutilated paratroopers" [k7x2] "psychedelic source records the peranormal family jam in copenhagen vol II" [dl] + "psychedelic source records forrás sessions vol I" [dl] + "psychedelic source records forrás sessions vol II" [dl] psychedelic speed freaks [us] "looming tapes vol I" [cd] psychic graveyard "loud as laughter" [cdr] + psychic graveyard "the next world" [cdr] puce moment "o.r.g." [lp] pumice "worldwide welts" [k7] purba "singing corpse" [cd] purling hiss "interstellar blue" [dl] pushkin's stagecoach & 53704 "variations on poetry & sounds" [dl]

r stevie moore "afterlife" [cd] + r stevie moore & gary wilson "fake news trending" [lp] rachel grimes "the way forth" [cd] radar men from the moon "bliss ep" [12"] rafael anton irisarri "solastalgia" [lp] rainbow grave "no you" [cd] rainforest spiritual enslavement "venus flytrap exotica [7"] + rainforest spiritual enslavement "simulated thunderstorm" [dl] + rainforest spiritual enslavement "panama canal left-hand path" [dl] raketkanon "rktn #3" [cd] rakta "falha conum" [lp] raymonde "ce qui est en bas est comme ce qui est en haut; vica versa" [lpx2] razen "ayîk adhîsta, adhîsta ayîk" [lp] red kite "red kite" [cd] rhucle "photosynthesis" [k7] riccardo sinigaglia & trio cavallazzi "in fa" [lp] richard pinhas "flesh empire" [dl] richard skelton "another hand" [dl] + richard skelton "a great body rising & falling" [dl] + richard skelton "till fabrics" [dl] + richard skelton "four" [dl] richard youngs "dissident" [lp] + richard youngs "foot band" [dl] + de waard, nÿland, youngs "onder-stroom" [lp] + richard youngs "new world memory" [lp] + richard youngs "foot songs" [dl] + richard youngs "duets" [dl] + richard youngs "bad words" [cdr] rip hayman "dreams of india & china" [lp] rm "spazi futuri" [lp] rose city band "rose city band" [lp] ross alexander "memorias vol II high atlas to the sahara desert" [lp] "rural electronics [adversary electronics compilation]" [k7]

saariselka "the ground our sky" [cd] salford electronics "deconstruction" [12"] sarah davachi & ariel kalma "intemporel" [lp]                                       + sarah davachi "pale bloom" [lp] schwund "technik und gefühl" [lp] sean mccann "puck" [lp] secteur pavé "secteur pavé" [lp] seekersinternational "the guncontrolla" [lp] she keeps bees "kinship" [cd] shearwater "shearwater plays bowie's berlin trilogy" [dl] shit & shine "no no no no" [12"] shooting guns "sports drink" [12"] siavash amini "serus" [lp] sigur rós "variations on darkness" [lp] + sigur rós "22° lunar halo" [lp] + sigur rós "sigur rós presents liminal sleep" [dl] silver apples "oscillations" [12"] simon joyner & friends "low fidelities & infidelities [demos & covers]" [cdr] + simon joyner "pocket moon" [lp] simon pomery & blood music "four pints of guinness for tony conrad" [dl] sir richard bishop & david oliphant / karkhana w nadah el shazly "carte blanche" [lp & 7"] sisto rossi "my dungeon, my rules" [k7]                                             sly & robbie vs roots radics "the final battle" [cd] sly & the family drone "gentle persuaders" [lp] snowdrops "manta ray [ost]" [cd] solid bronze "the fruit basket" [lp] somesurprises "somesurprises" [lp] + somesurprises & super candy "some candy" [k7] "sonic path to agitation [kashev tapes compilation]" [k7] sons of pale horse aka trent reznor & atticus ross "watchmen vol I" [cd] sons of pale horse aka trent reznor & atticus ross "watchmen vol II" [cd] sons of pale horse aka trent reznor & atticus ross "watchmen vol III" [cd] soundwalk collective w patti smith "mummer love" [lpx2] + soundwalk collective w patti smith "the peyote dance" [cd] spaceslug "reign of the orion" [cd] spemakh "nonzigo" [lp] sqürl "the dead don't die [ost]" [cd] starbirthed [ash & ml wah] "more messages from..." [k7] + starbirthed "dream pool" [k7] + starbirthed "starbathing" [k7] + starbirthed "with the mother" [k7] + starbirthed "chakra six" [k7] + starbirthed "chakra seven" [k7]

status quo "backbone" [cd] steeden mustik "too goode" [dl] stef kamil carlens "making sense of ∞" [cd] steph cl "perturbation locomotive live @ les ateliers claus, bxl" [dl] stephan eicher "homeless songs" [cd] stephen mallinder "um dada" [cd] stereo total "ah! quel cinéma!" [cd] steve gunn "the unseen in between" [cd] "still waiting: a patient sounds compilation" [dl] strotter inst / peter vukmirovic stevens "bile noir" [lp] stuart a staples "music for claire denis' high life" [cd] sunburned hand of the man "meadow glen malloy" [cdr] + sunburned hand of the man "digital breadcrumbs" [cdr] suzuki junzo "se una notte d'inverno un viaggiatore" [k7] tabata mitsuru "get the car" [dl] taiwan housing project "sub-language trustees" [dl] -tanya taucker "while i'm livin'" [cd] taras bulba "one" [lp] tape loop orchestra "interiors one [lp & cd] + tape loop orchestra "interiors two" [lp & cd] + tape loop orchestra "interiors three" [lp & cd] test dept "disturbance" [cd] the band whose name is a symbol "aggregate fractures... in search of highs" [dl] the bird & the bee "interpreting the masters vol II tribute to van halen" [cd] the cinematic orchestra "to believe" [cd] the cowboy fellowship band "the way we worship" [cd] the flying luttenbachers "shattered dimension" [cd] the galileo 7 "there is only now" [cd] the hare and hoofe "the hare and hoofe" [lpx2] the highwomen "the highwomen" [cd] + the highwomen "the chain [from the motion picture soundtrack 'the kitchen']" [dl] the loons "a dream in jade green" [7"] the mañana people "princess diana" [cd] the mavericks "play the hits" [cd] the members "version" [cd] the moth gatherer "esoteric oppression" [cd]

the necks "live in berlin" [dl] the new blockaders "live at sonic city" [cd] + the new blockaders & incapacitants "as anti as possible" [cd] the others "shaolin b/w feedback" [12"] the purkinje shift "thread" [lp] the rasters "to err is human" [cd] the senior allstars "soul from dubdown darker than blue" [cd] the sonic dawn "eclipse" [cd] the spacious mind "the n° 4 or 5 gravy band" [lp] the telescopes "exploding head syndrome" [ the tiger lillies "the devil's playground" [cd] the underground youth "montage images of lust & fear" [cd] the undisputed truth "truth gon' set you free" [cd] the warlocks "mean machine music" [cd] the widdler "threebies" [dl] the world "reddish" [12"] the young gods "data mirage tangram" [cd] thee ideal gus "excerpts from up north" [dl] thee speaking canaries "who are the shitbirds playing" [lp] thick air "archéologie de mars" [k7] "thieving dogs! [a low company compilation]" [cdr] thighpaulsandra "practical electronics with thighpaulsandra" [lp] thisquietarmy & tom malmendier "steppe" [cd] + thisquietarmy, dirk serries & tom malmendier "hell" [cd] thistle group "thistle group" [7"] tom carter "fields" [dl] + tom carter & ryley walker "sliders" [dl] tombstones in their eyes "maybe someday" [cdr] tool "fear inoculum" [cd] + tool "72826 & bonus" [lp] [1991] transport "live at kraak festival" [k7] triple negative "precious waste in our wake" [lp] + triple negative / colour bük "un tout petit serval b/w unique bazaar" [k7] "truc album photo [truc compilation vol III]" [k7]              trust "fils de lutte" [cd] tunes of negation "reach the endless sea" [lpx2] twink with moths & locusts, and heavy friends "think pink IV: return to deep space" [cd] + twink & technicolour dream "sympathy for the beast" [lp]

ulver "drone activity" [lpx2] underground all stars "conscious sounds present underground dub" [dl] underworld "drift series I" [dl] uniform & the body "everything that dies someday comes back" [lp] "upcoming talent [dub communicaton compilation]" [dl] van morrison "three chords & the truth" [lpx2] vanishing twin "the age of immunology" [cd] + vanishing twin "cryonic suspension... b/w who wants to live forever" [12"] varg "evanescence [a love letter]" [k7x2] vatican shadow opium crop airstrikes [k7] + vatican shadow "american flesh for violence" [k7x2] vert:x "live from orphir / jökulsárlón" [cdr] vetiver "up on high" [cd] vibracathedral orchestra "squeeze the lids b/w through coming window" [lp] vic godard "mum's revenge" [lp] vision 3d "vision 3d" [lp] wailing aaron jennings "wailing aaron jennings" [dl] weeping icon "ritual wasteland" [lathe 7"] + weeping icon "weeping icon" [cd] wheel of smoke "sonic cure" [cd] "wilcovered: wilco songs covered by recording artists" [cd] wild classical music ensemble "ça va bien se passer" [lp] will beeley "highways & heart attacks" [cd] winslow "winslow" [lp] wire "cactused" [cds] witch trail "the sun has left the hill" [cd] wreckless eric "transience" [cd] xylouris white "the sisypheans" [cd] yawning man "macedonian lines" [cd] yves de mey "exit strategies part I" [cd] zion train ft brother culture & queenie moy "soundsystem" [7"] zwangere guy "brutaal" [cd] 猫 シ corp & telepath "building a better world" [cdr] 

-baba zula "derin derin" [cd] -betonkust & eilandnet "robogoth" [12"] -cage the elephant "social cues" [cd] -chris dooks secular works [dl]  + chris dooks incoming [bay of laig 250819] [dl]  + chris dooks autopaths [dl]  + chris dooks the fibromyalgia loops [dl] -comit "remote viewing" [lpx2] -cv313 "glass city sessions" [12"x2]  + cv313 "subtraktive reprise remastered & unreleased" [dl]  + cv313 "satosphere sessions [transmission II]" [dl] -david j [official] "scott walker 1996" [dl] -dub mentor, anna domino & stephen mallinder "lake" [cd-s] -dubcreator, ranking joe & donovan kingjay   "dc meets ranking joe & donovan kingray" [dl] -fabienne delsol "four" [cd] -indiana bible college "skipping rocks" [dl] -james ferraro "requiem for recycled earth" [k7] -limbs bin "compassion & vision" [cd] -monarch "beyond the blue sky" [cd] -mungo's hi-fi & eva lazarus "more fyah" [cd] -murderer "i did it all for you" [lp] -nathan ventura "the devil, me, and a twisted tea" [dl] -pawns "monuments of faith" [7"] -ralph stanley II & the clinch mountain boys "lord help me find the way" [cd] -reena riot "nix" [cd] -rob dougan "the life of the world to come" [dl] -rosalie cunningham "rosalie cunningham" [cd] -sista livity & sista moni ft good over evil "only love" [dl] -the specials "encore" [cdx2] -tokyo rooz "welcome to our world" [cd] -underworld "brussels" [dl] -uniform & body "everything that dies someday comes back" [cd] -w.h. lung "incidental music" [cd]

the re-releases long list:

"1977 the year punk broke" [cdx3] a handful of dust "dragging her wings..." [lpx2] [rec '94-'16] a m related birdcatcher a cloak for fading eyes [lp] [2010] a m small rooms, big rooms [dl] [2002] a m & keri john ford the marriage of heaven & hell [dl] [2003] abner jay "man walked on the moon" [lp] adderall canyonly "influenza 10" [k7]  [2013-2017] aidan baker "letters" [dl] [2002] ainotamenishis "xlisis" [cd] [2017]                                                  alamo jones "voice in black" [dl] [2012] alan vega & mr pharmacist "you pay bw too many teardrops" [12"] alex chilton "my rival" [10"] [1975] alice coltrane "live at the berkeley community theater '72" [] alternative tv & the good missionaries "scars on sunday" [cd] [1979] alvin lucier / morton feldman "chamber music" [cd] amt & the melting paraiso ufo "amt & melting paraiso ufo" [lpx2] [1997] amt & the melting paraiso ufo "invisible eyes & phantom cathedral/sacred & inviolable phase shift" [lpx2] ann-margret "best of ann-margret" [cd] anthony burgess "conversations with the a b cassette archive '64-'93" [cdx2] apples in stereo "time for bed" [7"] [1994] + apples in stereo "hypnotic suggestion" [7"] [1993] ashtray navigations "the vulgar glissando" [3" cdr] [2006]

berlin express "the russians are coming" [12"] [1982] "black man's pride vol III none shall escape the judgement of the almighty" [cd] bob dylan the rolling thunder revue the 1975 live recordings [cdx14] + bob dylan "man on the straat vol II" [cdx10] + bob dylan "make you feel my love: 16 love songs" [cd] + bob dylan "railroad boy [live]" [cd] + bob dylan "the new thunder review [mojo]" [cd] + bob dylan ft johnny cash "travelin' thru '67-'69 bootleg series vol XV" [cdx3] bob stanley & pete wiggs "present three day week" [cd] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol I" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol II" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol III" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol IV" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol V" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol VI" [k7] bonnie 'prince' billy "bpb mix tape vol VII" [k7] brant bjork keep your cool [lp] [2003] brainticket "adventure" [1980] [12"] brainticket "voyage" [1982] [12"] brainticket "celestial ocean / live in rome '73" [cdx2] [1973] brian eno "apollo atmospheres & soundtracks" [cdx2] [1983] brilliant swords "it's complicated b/w gravity pulls me close" [dl] [c1990] "brown acid the eighth trip heavy rock from the underground comedown" [cd] bunny lee "dreads enter the gates with praise, the mighty striker shoots the hits!" [cd] bunny lee & the aggrovators "enter into dub" [2018] [10"] burial "tunes 2011-2019" [] buzum "draugen - rarities" [2005] [lpx2] buzzcocks "love bites" [cd] [1978] buzzcocks "another music in another kitchen" [cd] [1978] buzzcocks "singles going steady" [cd] [1979] cabaret voltaire "1974 - 1976" [cd] cabaret voltaire "chance versus causality" [cd] "calling 1000 dreadlocks" [lp] [1978] canned heat "live at kaleidoscope club" [1970] [lp] cannonball adderley "the sidewalks of new york" [1958] [cd] + cannonball adderley "sophicated swing the emarcy small group sessions" [1958] [cdx2] + cannonball adderley "swingin' in seattle live at the penthouse '66-'67" [cd] carrageenan let's go there [lp] [2018] chaos echoes "remains" [cdx2] [2012-2018]            

                            chavela vargas "100th birthday celebration" [cdx2] "chevance (etc.) outremusique pour enfants '74-'85" [lp] christian wolff "preludes, variations, studies & incidental music" [cd] coil vs eleph "protection" [cd] "come on up to the house: women sing waits" [cd] creedence clearwater revival "live at woodstock" [cd] curtis mayfield "keep On Keeping On: Curtis Mayfield Studio Albums 1970-1974" [cdx4] "dad rock collection vol I" [cdx2] "dancing in the darkness ebm, black synth & dark beats from the 80s" [cd] david bowie "suffragette city live" [cd] david rosenboom "brainwave music" [1975] [lpx2] deaf center & svarte greiner "owl splinters bw twin" [lpx2] [2011] delroy wilson vs sly & robbie "delroy wilson vs sly & robbie 50" [dl] [1969] delta 5 “singles & sessions 1979-81″ [cd] die tödliche doris "7 tödliche unfälle im haushalt" [1981] [cd] + die tödliche doris '' '' [1982] [cd] "discophilia belgica: next-door disco & local spacemusic from belgium '75-'87" [cd] 

dntel "hate in my heart" [lp] [2018] "do the reggae skinhead reggae in the spirit of '69" [cdx2] "doing the natural thing psychedelic country garage soul" [lp] + "doing the natural thing psychedelic country garage soul 2" [lp] dome "dome II" [lp] [1980] "down in jamaica: 40 years of vp records" [cdx4 & 7"x4 & 12"x4] dry cleaning "sweet princess" [k7] [2018] einstürzende neubauten live @ luxemburg 131118 [2018] + einstürzende neubauten "holiday downloads" [dl]                                ela orleans "movies for ears" [lp] [2016] endless boogie "no favors" [cdr] [2004-2013] eternal womb delirum "#1" [cd] [1974-1975] eugene s robinson & philippe petit "chapel in the pines" [lp] [2018] expo '70 "alive in 2010" [k7] expo '70 "mystical amplification" [lpx2] [2007] f/i “why not now ...alan!” [lp] [1987] far "water & solutions" [lp & flexi 7"] [1996-1997]

"freaksville records presents underground mutant pop vol II" [dl] garrison hawk ft sly & robbie "survive" [dl] [2012] "gizeh records anthology a free label sampler" [dl] gong "love from the planet gong the virgin years '73-'75" [cdx12] "greg belson's divine disco vol II obscure gospel disco '79-'87" [cd] günther schickert & peter unsicker "mauerharfe" [lp] [2009] hamlet minassian "armenian pop muisc" [lp] [1979] hamsters "stupid songs vol I & II" [k7x2] [1980-2017] hank williams sr "country outlaw series" [cd] hank williams sr "the complete health & happiness recordings" [] hank williams sr "1940 recordings" [7"] [rsd '19] harde smart "flemish & dutch grooves from the 70s" [k7]      hillbillies in hell "country music's tormented testament '52-'74 tribulations" [cd] human greed "black hill X full moon over the blighted star" [2009]

"i'm a freak 2 baby british heavy psych & hard rock" [cdx3] "if you're not part of the solution: soul, politics & politics in jazz '67-'75" [cd] iggy pop "roadkill rising the bootleg collection '77-09" [cdx4] iggy pop with david bowie "mantra studios broadcast 1977" [] iggy pop "zombie birdhouse" [1982] igor wakhevitch "kshatrya [the eye of the bird]" [lp] [rec 1999] infinite light ltd "infinite light ltd" [] [2011] jah woosh "rastaman" [1981] [cd] jean-claude vannier "le bête noire" [7"] [1983] jerry garcia band "electric on the eel" [cdx6] john coltrane quartet "africabrass" + john coltrane "the first trane!" + john coltrane "blue world" johnny cash "live in 1996" [cd] Johnny Paycheck "Loving You Beats All I've Ever Seen" [1975] [lp] johnny thunders & the heartbreakers "yonkers demo & live '75-'76" [cd] + johnny thunders "madrid memory live" [cd] "jon savage's rock dreams on 45 1969 -1971" [cdx2] joy division "they keep on calling me" [2002] [cd]

julia kent "temporal" [2018] [cd] kawashima makoto "homo sacer" [lp] [2015] king crimson "a mojo anthology rare, classic, unusual & live 1969-2019" [cd] king tubby "king at the control" [lp] [1981] + king tubby "meets blackbeard's ring craft posse" [lp] kronos quartet & múm "smell memory" [dl] [1999] kyle bobby dunn "fhte-b" [k7x3] lars von trier antichrist [ost] [lp] [2009] lee chapman "untitled" [cd] lee hazlewood "400 miles from l.a. '55-'56" []               lee 'scratch' perry "people funny boy the early upsetter singles" [1968] [7"x10] + lee 'scratch' perry "back to the ark" [late 70s] [12"x4] + lee 'scratch' perry & the upsetters "lost dubs" [early 70s] [dl] leighton craig diamond eye [rec 2006 -2010] [2018] leonard cohen "angels at my shoulder live 1993" [cd] lieven tavernier & united brass "de fanfare van honger & dorst" [cd] "life & death on the ny dance floor" [lpx2] ['80-'83] link wray "the link wray collection 1956-62" [cdx2] lloyd & devon & upsetters "wolf out deh" [7"] [1977] "losing touch with my mind psychedelia in britain '86-'90" [cdx3] lou reed "rock n' roll live" [cd] + lou reed "best of lou reed vol I live" [cd] + lou reed "best of lou reed vol II live" [cd] luc ferrari "music promenade - unheimlich schön" [lp] ['70-'71] "lullabies for catatonics a journey through the british avant-pop-art rock scene '67-'74"

malaria! "compiled 2.0 1981-84 & full emotion [2019 remaster]" [lpx2] [1981-1984] marcus fjellström "exercises in estrangement" [lp] [2005] marcus fjellström "gebrauchsmusik" [lp] [2006] maryanne amacher "petra" [1991] masayuki takayanagi new direction unit "april is the cruellest month" [cd] [1991] maurizio bianchi "t.p.t.m.b.t.d." [2014] max romeo “striker's choice dubs [bunny 'striker' lee 50th anniversary edition]” mazouni "un dandy en exil algérie-france 1969-1982" [cd] mick harvey & christopher richard barker "corpse 564 [ep]" [dl] [2018] mike cooper "distant songs of madmen" [2012] °milan knizak string quartets [lp] [19xx] (2019)° miles davis "the lost quintet" [] “mogadisco; dancing mogadishu [somalia 1972-1991]” [cd] “morricone groove the kaleidoscope sound of ennio morricone 1964~1977″     [lpx2] [1967-2014] motörhead "1979" [boxset] "music from jarvis cocker's sunday service" [cd]

nadja "desire in uneasiness" [dl] [2008] nadja "numbed" [dl] [2009-2014] norman westberg "plough" [dl] [2012] nouvelle vague “let's get together” [lp] [1980] nouvelle vague "rarities" [dl] nurse with wound to the quiet men from a tiny girl" [cd] [1980] nurse with wound "merzbild schwet" [cd] [1980] nurse with wound “soliloquy for lilith” [cdx3] [1998] nurse with wound & graham bowers "parade" [dl] [2013] nurse with wound/adolf wölfli “lea tanttaaria, great-god-father-nieces” [cd] [2014] nyah fearties "a tasty heidfu'" [lp] [1986] odes "the odes live" [k7] [rec 2012] øjerum "7 sjæle" [lp] [2018]   øjerum "selv i drømme lyser den første sne" [k7] [2018] øjerum "forgotten works" [k7x2] [2009-2017]                                                 "optimism - reject punk & post-punk meets diy aesthetic '77-'81" [cdx4] ornette coleman “double quartet free jazz” [lp] [1961] otomo yoshihide “unreleased recordings 1975-2012″ [k7]

patrick cowley "mechanial fantasy box" [lpx2] [1981-1982] patti smith "live at the boarding house" [cd] [1976] "pay it all back volume VII" [cd] peter green's fleetwood mac “before the beginning 1968-1970; rare live & demo sessions” [cdx3] [1967-69] peter ivers "becoming peter ivers" [cd] pierre vassiliu "en voyages" ['77-'83] [cd] pixies "pixies deep cuts" [dl] prince "purple underground volume VIII i'm gonna kick your ass" [cdx3] prince buster “roll on charles street - prince buster ska selection” [cd] prince jazzbo “pepper rock” [lp] [197x] prurient “the black post society” [dl] [2008] ragnar grippe "symphonic songs" [lp] [1981] "revolution - underground sounds of 1968" [cdx3] robber "studio, live, & rehearsal" [k7] [independent women] [2016] robert ashley "private parts" [lp] [1978] roger doyle "thalia" [cd] [1978] roger doyle/operating theatre "the early years" [lpx2] [2006] rolling stones "let it bleed" [cd] ]1969] "room 37: the mysterious death of johnny thunders" [12" & dl]                       rory gallagher “blues” [cdx3] "rough guide to a world of guitar" [cd] roy montgomery "scenes from the south island" [lpx2] [1995] "rubadub revolution early dancehall productions from bunny lee" [cdx2]

"sad about the times" [lpx2]                                                      scattered purgatory "lost ethnography of the miscanthus ocean" [lp] [2014] scott morgan's powertrane "ann arbor revival meeting" [cd] [2002] scott walker "sings songs from his television show live" [dl] "send i a lion, a nighthawk reggae joint compiled by leroy jodie pierson" [cd] serge gainsbourg "dark melodie" [cd] simon bonney "past, present, future" [cd] [1992-199x] six organs of admittance "for octavio paz" [lp] [2003] sly & robbie "present reggae masterpieces vol I a taxi records anthology" [cd] "soul jazz preents studio one dj party" [cd] spaceark "don't stop b/w instrumental" [7"] [1976] + spaceark "spaceark is" [lp] [1978] spaceseed "they laughed at the academy: the best of spaceseed" [cd] spk "dokument III0 1979" [7"x3] spk "zamia lehmanni - songs of byzantine flowers" [lp] [1986] "spirit of ’69 trojan albums collection" [cdx5] "spiritual jazz 9 blue notes parts I & II" [cd] stapleton & tibet "the threat of memory" [1996-1998] [cdx5] steve reid ft the legendary master brotherhood "nova" [1976] [cd] "strut my stuff: obscure country & hillbilly boppers" [cd] "style & fashion - soul jazz records presents fashion records" [cdx2] sun ra & his intergalactic solar arkestra "space is the place music for the film" [cd] [rec 1972] [1993] sutcliffe jugend “with extreme prejudice” [dl] [2011] suzanne ciani "flowers of evil" [cd] [1969] swans "soundtracks for the blind/die tür ist zu" [cdx3] [1996] tabata mitsuru hardcore space [dl] [1997] tabata mitsuru "lucifer" [k7] [2010] tabata mitsuru "uprising b/w sky lantern" [7"] [2013] "take us home boston roots reggae 1979 to 1988" [lpx2] "ten years gone a tribute to jack rose" [dl] the band whose name is a symbol "ensemble III" [k7] [2018] the carter family "across generations" [cd]

the fall "bend sinister the 'domesday' pay-off triad-plus!" [cdx2] the fall "dragnet" [cdx3] [1979] the fall "live at the witch trials" [cdx3] [1979] the fall "(1982)" [cdx6] [flac] [1982] the fall "grotesque [after the gramme]" [cd] [1980] the fall "sheffield poly 26-11-1986" [dl] the fall "live at phoenix festival '95" [2003] [cd] the flamin' groovies  "between the lines complete jordan-wilson songbook '71-'81" [cd] the gorge "pyramid chaff" [lathe 7"] [2018] the janitors "15 years of fuzz & folköl" [lp/cdrx2] the left outsides "there is a place" [lp] [2017] the melodians "rivers of babylon [expanded edition]"  [cd] [1970] the residents "b.s." [lp] [rsd '19] [rec 1971] the residents "a nickle if your dick's this big" [cd] [1971-1972] the ruins "4 song demo" [dl] [1967] the scientists "9h²o.sio²" [12"] + the scientists "not for sale live '78-'79" [lpx2] the stooges “the stooges [50th anniversary deluxe edition]” [dl] [1969] the telescopes "stone tape" [cd] [2017] "the time for peace is now; gospel music about us" [lp] [1970s] "the world of keith haring" [cdx2] thelonious monk "monk's music" [lp]  [1957] "thesaurus vol III rock-punk en france 1979-1980" [lpx2] "thesaurus vol IV inédits punk cold synth pop 1979-1984" [lpx2] throbbing gristle "greatest hits [remastered]" [cdx2] [1980] throbbing gristle "live december 2004 a souvenir of camber sands" [lpx2] throbbing gristle "tg now part II the endless not / tg now" [cdx2] [2004] thuja "hills" [lp] [2002] tim rose "morning dew the broadcasts" [dl] tommy mccook "revenge b/w greetings" [7"] [1976]

van morrison “ten songs for you” [ dl] vanessa paradis "best of & variations" [cdx2] “black truffle at 10 [mixed by oren ambarchi” [dl] [2009-2019] vatican shadow "washington buries al qaeda leader at sea" [lpx2] [2016] vatican shadow "byzantine private cia" [lpx2] [2010] vatican shadow "pakistan military academy" [lp] [2011] velvet underground “velvet underground [45th anniversary remastered deluxe edition]” [cdx6] [1969] velvet underground “what goes on live” [cd] [1969] vert:x "death to false motorik" [lp] [2018] vibracathedral orchestra "so-called texture" [cdr] [2017] voltigeurs "carrion" [dl] [2009] w ravenveer "fuzzy hair electronics vol I" [lp] [2016] whisper room “lonjing [drone compendium V]” [k7] [2017] william bell "phases of reality" [lp] [1972] winfried mühlum-pyrápheros "musica nova contemplativa" [lp] [1970] "woodstock back to the garden 50th anniversay experience" [cdx10] wouter van veldhoven "verzamelen I" [k7] [2006-2016] yabby you meets king tubby "the walls of jerusalem" [cd] [1980s] zounds "can't cheat karma" [lp] [rec '80-'84]

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Basket-case network news producer Jane Craig falls for new reporter Tom Grunnick, a pretty boy who represents the trend towards entertainment news she despises. Aaron Altman, a talented but plain correspondent, carries an unrequited torch for Jane. Sparks fly between the three as the network prepares for big changes, and both the news and Jane must decide between style and substance. Credits: TheMovieDb. Film Cast: Tom Grunick: William Hurt Aaron Altman: Albert Brooks Jane Craig: Holly Hunter Ernie Merriman: Robert Prosky Jennifer Mack: Lois Chiles Blair Litton: Joan Cusack Paul Moore: Peter Hackes Bobby: Christian Clemenson Bill Rorich: Jack Nicholson Martin Klein: Robert Katims George Wein: Ed Wheeler Gerald Grunick: Stephen Mendillo Young Tom: Kimber Shoop Young Aaron: Dwayne Markee Young Jane: Gennie James Jane’s Dad: Leo Burmester Elli Merriman: Amy Brooks Anne Merriman: Jane Welch Clifford Altman: Jonathan Benya Mercenary: Frank Doubleday Lila: Sally Knight Spanish Cameraman: Manuel Alvarez Guerilla Leader: Luis Valderrama Guerilla Soldier: Francisco Garcia General McGuire: Richard Thomsen Commander: Nat Benchley Date-Rape Woman: Marita Geraghty Weekend News Producer: Nicholas D. Blanchet Makeup Woman: Maura Moynihan Floor Manager: Chuck Lippman Paul’s Secretary: Nannette Rickert Edward Towne: Timothy W. White Tom’s Soundwoman: Peggy Pridemore Emily: Emily Crowley Newsroom Worker: Gerard Ender Donny: David Long Chyron Operator: Joshua Billings Technical Director: Glenn Faigen Technical Director: Robert Grevemberg Jr. Control Room Director: Richard Pehle Weekend News Director: James V. Franco Assistant Director: Jimmy Mel Green Assistant Director: Raoul N. Rizik Technician: Mike Skehan Audio Visual Engineer: Franklyn L. Bullard News Theme Writer: Glen Roven News Theme Writer: Marc Shaiman Lecture Host: Alex Mathews Aaron’s Cameraman: Steve Smith Aaron’s Soundwoman: Martha Smith Mother in Hall: Cynthia B. Hayes Young Tough: Dean Nitz Young Tough: Phil Ugel Young Tough: Lance Wain Ellen: Susan Marie Feldman Tom’s Female Colleague: Jean Bourne Carinci Cab Driver: M. Fekade-Salassie Uniformed Cop: Gerald F. Gough Defense Dept. Spokesman: Robert Rasch NATO Spokesman: Robert Walsh Angry Messenger: John Cusack Film Crew: Producer: James L. Brooks Production Design: Charles Rosen Casting: Ellen Chenoweth Editor: Richard Marks Director of Photography: Michael Ballhaus Unit Production Manager: David V. Lester Music Editor: Bob Badami Associate Producer: Kristi Zea Original Music Composer: Bill Conti Camera Operator: David M. Dunlap Co-Producer: Penney Finkelman Cox Foley Editor: Mark P. Stoeckinger Costume Design: Molly Maginnis Executive Producer: Polly Platt ADR Recordist: Charleen Richards Associate Producer: Susan Zirinsky Color Timer: Bob Hagans Boom Operator: Joseph F. Brennan Hairstylist: Colleen Callaghan Foley Editor: Cindy Marty ADR Voice Casting: Barbara Harris Still Photographer: Kerry Hayes First Assistant Editor: Karen I. Stern Stunt Coordinator: Jery Hewitt Construction Foreman: Steve Callas Sound Effects Editor: Patrick Drummond Supervising Sound Editor: Robert Grieve Makeup Artist: Carl Fullerton Property Master: Mark Wade Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Rick Kline Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Donald O. Mitchell Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Kevin O’Connell Dialogue Editor: Dave Kulczycki Location Assistant: Peggy Pridemore Script Supervisor: Mary Bailey First Assistant Camera: Gábor Kövér Dialogue Editor: Jacqueline Cristianini Dialogue Editor: Frank Smathers ADR Editor: Jessica Gallavan Construction Coordinator: Bruce J. Gfeller ADR Editor: Jeff Rosen Set Decoration: Jane Bogart Best Boy Electric: Jerry DeBlau Unit Publicist: Anne Marie Stein Gaffer: John W. DeBlau Sound Effects Editor: Linda Whittlesey Production Coordinator: Cynthia Streit Sound Mixer: Thomas Causey Supervising ADR Editor: Beth Bergeron Second Assistant Director: David Sardi Negative Cutter: Donah Bassett Key Grip: Dennis Gamiello Location Manager: Stuart Neumann Dolly Grip: John Lowry First Assistant Director: Yudi Bennett Se...

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INTRODUCTION

 One day, my students sat me down and ordered me to write this book. They wanted people to be able to use our work to make their lives better. It was something I’d wanted to do for a long time, but it became my number one priority. My work is part of a tradition in psychology that shows the power of people’s beliefs. These may be beliefs we’re aware of or unaware of, but they strongly affect what we want and whether we succeed in getting it. This tradition also shows how changing people’s beliefs—even the simplest beliefs—can have profound effects. In this book, you’ll learn how a simple belief about yourself—a belief we discovered in our research—guides a large part of your life. In fact, it permeates every part of your life. Much of what you think of as your personality actually grows out of this “mindset.” Much of what may be preventing you from fulfilling your potential grows out of it. No book has ever explained this mindset and shown people how to make use of it in their lives. You’ll suddenly understand the greats—in the sciences and arts, in sports, and in business—and the would-have-beens. You’ll understand your mate, your boss, your friends, your kids. You’ll see how to unleash your potential—and your children’s. It is my privilege to share my findings with you. Besides accounts of people from my research, I’ve filled each chapter with stories both ripped from the headlines and based on my own life and experience, so you can see the mindsets in action. (In most cases, names and personal information have been changed to preserve anonymity; in some cases, several people have been condensed into one to make a clearer point. A number of the exchanges are re-created from memory, and I have rendered them to the best of my ability.) At the end of each chapter and throughout the last chapter, I show you ways to apply the lessons—ways to recognize the mindset that is guiding your life, to understand how it works, and to change it if you wish. A little note about grammar. I know it and I love it, but I haven’t always followed it in this book. I start sentences with ands and buts. I end sentences with prepositions. I use the plural they in contexts that require the singular he or she. I’ve done this for informality and immediacy, and I hope that the sticklers will forgive me. I’d like to take this chance to thank all of the people who made my research and this book possible. My students have made my research career a complete joy. I hope they’ve learned as much from me as I’ve learned from them. I’d also like to thank the organizations that supported our research: the William T. Grant Foundation, the National Science Foundation, the Department of Education, the National Institute of Mental Health, the National Institute of Child Health and Human Development, and the Spencer Foundation. The people at Random House have been the most encouraging team I could wish for: Webster Younce, Daniel Menaker, Tom Perry, and, most of all, Caroline Sutton, my editor. Your excitement about my book and your great suggestions have made all the difference. I thank my superb agent, Giles Anderson, as well as Heidi Grant for putting me in touch with him. Thanks to all the people who gave me input and feedback, but special thanks to Polly Shulman, Richard Dweck, and Maryann Peshkin for their extensive and insightful comments. Finally, I thank my husband, David, for the love and enthusiasm that give my life an extra dimension. His support throughout this project was extraordinary. My work has been about growth, and it has helped foster my own growth. It is my wish that it will do the same for you. 

People to be able to use our work to improve their lives

Chapter 1 THE MINDSETS When I was a young researcher, just starting out, something happened that changed my life. I was obsessed with understanding how people cope with failures, and I decided to study it by watching how students grapple with hard problems. So I brought children one at a time to a room in their school, made them comfortable, and then gave them a series of puzzles to solve. The first ones were fairly easy, but the next ones were hard. As the students grunted, perspired, and toiled, I watched their strategies and probed what they were thinking and feeling. I expected differences among children in how they coped with the difficulty, but I saw something I never expected. Confronted with the hard puzzles, one ten-year-old boy pulled up his chair, rubbed his hands together, smacked his lips, and cried out, “I love a challenge!” Another, sweating away on these puzzles, looked up with a pleased expression and said with authority, “You know, I was hoping this would be informative!” What’s wrong with them? I wondered. I always thought you coped with failure or you didn’t cope with failure. I never thought anyone loved failure. Were these alien children or were they on to something? Everyone has a role model, someone who pointed the way at a critical moment in their lives. These children were my role models. They obviously knew something I didn’t and I was determined to figure it out—to understand the kind of mindset that could turn a failure into a gift. What did they know? They knew that human qualities, such as intellectual skills, could be cultivated through effort. And that’s what they were doing—getting smarter. Not only weren’t they discouraged by failure, they didn’t even think they were failing. They thought they were learning. I, on the other hand, thought human qualities were carved in stone. You were smart or you weren’t, and failure meant you weren’t. It was that simple. If you could arrange successes and avoid failures (at all costs), you could stay smart. Struggles, mistakes, perseverance were just not part of this picture. Whether human qualities are things that can be cultivated or things that are carved in stone is an old issue. What these beliefs mean for you is a new one: What are the consequences of thinking that your intelligence or personality is something you can develop, as opposed to something that is a fixed, deep-seated trait? Let’s first look in on the age-old, fiercely waged debate about human nature and then return to the question of what these beliefs mean for you. WHY DO PEOPLE DIFFER? Since the dawn of time, people have thought differently, acted differently, and fared differently from each other. It was guaranteed that someone would ask the question of why people differed—why some people are smarter or more moral—and whether there was something that made them permanently different. Experts lined up on both sides. Some claimed that there was a strong physical basis for these differences, making them unavoidable and unalterable. Through the ages, these alleged physical differences have included bumps on the skull (phrenology), the size and shape of the skull (craniology), and, today, genes. Others pointed to the strong differences in people’s backgrounds, experiences, training, or ways of learning. It may surprise you to know that a big champion of this view was Alfred Binet, the inventor of the IQ test. Wasn’t the IQ test meant to summarize children’s unchangeable intelligence? In fact, no. Binet, a Frenchman working in Paris in the early 

twentieth century, designed this test to identify children who were not profiting from the Paris public schools, so that new educational programs could be designed to get them back on track. Without denying individual differences in children’s intellects, he believed that education and practice could bring about fundamental changes in intelligence. Here is a quote from one of his major books, Modern Ideas About Children, in which he summarizes his work with hundreds of children with learning difficulties: A few modern philosophers . . . assert that an individual’s intelligence is a fixed quantity, a quantity which cannot be increased. We must protest and react against this brutal pessimism. . . . With practice, training, and above all, method, we manage to increase our attention, our memory, our judgment and literally to become more intelligent than we were before. Who’s right? Today most experts agree that it’s not either–or. It’s not nature or nurture, genes or environment. From conception on, there’s a constant give and take between the two. In fact, as Gilbert Gottlieb, an eminent neuroscientist, put it, not only do genes and environment cooperate as we develop, but genes require input from the environment to work properly. At the same time, scientists are learning that people have more capacity for lifelong learning and brain development than they ever thought. Of course, each person has a unique genetic endowment. People may start with different temperaments and different aptitudes, but it is clear that experience, training, and personal effort take them the rest of the way. Robert Sternberg, the present-day guru of intelligence, writes that the major factor in whether people achieve expertise “is not some fixed prior ability, but purposeful engagement.” Or, as his forerunner Binet recognized, it’s not always the people who start out the smartest who end up the smartest. WHAT DOES ALL THIS MEAN FOR YOU? THE TWO MINDSETS It’s one thing to have pundits spouting their opinions about scientific issues. It’s another thing to understand how these views apply to you. For twenty years, my research has shown that the view you adopt for yourself profoundly affects the way you lead your life. It can determine whether you become the person you want to be and whether you accomplish the things you value. How does this happen? How can a simple belief have the power to transform your psychology and, as a result, your life? Believing that your qualities are carved in stone—the fixed mindset—creates an urgency to prove yourself over and over. If you have only a certain amount of intelligence, a certain personality, and a certain moral character—well, then you’d better prove that you have a healthy dose of them. It simply wouldn’t do to look or feel deficient in these most basic characteristics. Some of us are trained in this mindset from an early age. Even as a child, I was focused on being smart, but the fixed mindset was really stamped in by Mrs. Wilson, my sixth-grade teacher. Unlike Alfred Binet, she believed that people’s IQ scores told the whole story of who they were. We were seated around the room in IQ order, and only the highest-IQ students could be trusted to carry the flag, clap the erasers, or take a note to the principal. Aside from the daily stomachaches she provoked with her judgmental stance, she was creating a mindset in which everyone in the class had one consuming goal—look smart, don’t look dumb. Who cared about or enjoyed learning when our whole being was at stake every time she gave us a test or called on us in class? I’ve seen so many people with this one consuming goal of proving themselves—in the classroom, in their careers, and in their relationships. Every situation calls for a confirmation of their intelligence, personality, or character. Every situation is evaluated: Will I succeed or fail? 

Will I look smart or dumb? Will I be accepted or rejected? Will I feel like a winner or a loser? But doesn’t our society value intelligence, personality, and character? Isn’t it normal to want these traits? Yes, but . . . There’s another mindset in which these traits are not simply a hand you’re dealt and have to live with, always trying to convince yourself and others that you have a royal flush when you’re secretly worried it’s a pair of tens. In this mindset, the hand you’re dealt is just the starting point for development. This growth mindset is based on the belief that your basic qualities are things you can cultivate through your efforts. Although people may differ in every which way—in their initial talents and aptitudes, interests, or temperaments—everyone can change and grow through application and experience. Do people with this mindset believe that anyone can be anything, that anyone with proper motivation or education can become Einstein or Beethoven? No, but they believe that a person’s true potential is unknown (and unknowable); that it’s impossible to foresee what can be accomplished with years of passion, toil, and training. Did you know that Darwin and Tolstoy were considered ordinary children? That Ben Hogan, one of the greatest golfers of all time, was completely uncoordinated and graceless as a child? That the photographer Cindy Sherman, who has been on virtually every list of the most important artists of the twentieth century, failed her first photography course? That Geraldine Page, one of our greatest actresses, was advised to give it up for lack of talent? You can see how the belief that cherished qualities can be developed creates a passion for learning. Why waste time proving over and over how great you are, when you could be getting better? Why hide deficiencies instead of overcoming them? Why look for friends or partners who will just shore up your self-esteem instead of ones who will also challenge you to grow? And why seek out the tried and true, instead of experiences that will stretch you? The passion for stretching yourself and sticking to it, even (or especially) when it’s not going well, is the hallmark of the growth mindset. This is the mindset that allows people to thrive during some of the most challenging times in their lives. A VIEW FROM THE TWO MINDSETS To give you a better sense of how the two mindsets work, imagine—as vividly as you can—that you are a young adult having a really bad day: One day, you go to a class that is really important to you and that you like a lot. The professor returns the midterm papers to the class. You got a C+. You’re very disappointed. That evening on the way back to your home, you find that you’ve gotten a parking ticket. Being really frustrated, you call your best friend to share your experience but are sort of brushed off. What would you think? What would you feel? What would you do? When I asked people with the fixed mindset, this is what they said: “I’d feel like a reject.” “I’m a total failure.” “I’m an idiot.” “I’m a loser.” “I’d feel worthless and dumb—everyone’s better than me.” “I’m slime.” In other words, they’d see what happened as a direct measure of their competence and worth. This is what they’d think about their lives: “My life is pitiful.” “I have no life.” “Somebody upstairs doesn’t like me.” “The world is out to get me.” “Someone is out to destroy me.” “Nobody loves me, everybody hates me.” “Life is unfair and all efforts are useless.” “Life stinks. I’m stupid. Nothing good ever happens to me.” “I’m the most unlucky person on this earth.” Excuse me, was there death and destruction, or just a grade, a ticket, and a bad phone

call? Are these just people with low self-esteem? Or card-carrying pessimists? No. When they aren’t coping with failure, they feel just as worthy and optimistic—and bright and attractive—as people with the growth mindset. So how would they cope? “I wouldn’t bother to put so much time and effort into doing well in anything.” (In other words, don’t let anyone measure you again.) “Do nothing.” “Stay in bed.” “Get drunk.” “Eat.” “Yell at someone if I get a chance to.” “Eat chocolate.” “Listen to music and pout.” “Go into my closet and sit there.” “Pick a fight with somebody.” “Cry.” “Break something.” “What is there to do?” What is there to do! You know, when I wrote the vignette, I intentionally made the grade a C+, not an F. It was a midterm rather than a final. It was a parking ticket, not a car wreck. They were “sort of brushed off,” not rejected outright. Nothing catastrophic or irreversible happened. Yet from this raw material the fixed mindset created the feeling of utter failure and paralysis. When I gave people with the growth mindset the same vignette, here’s what they said. They’d think: “I need to try harder in class, be more careful when parking the car, and wonder if my friend had a bad day.” “The C+ would tell me that I’d have to work a lot harder in the class, but I have the rest of the semester to pull up my grade.” There were many, many more like this, but I think you get the idea. Now, how would they cope? Directly. “I’d start thinking about studying harder (or studying in a different way) for my next test in that class, I’d pay the ticket, and I’d work things out with my best friend the next time we speak.” “I’d look at what was wrong on my exam, resolve to do better, pay my parking ticket, and call my friend to tell her I was upset the day before.” “Work hard on my next paper, speak to the teacher, be more careful where I park or contest the ticket, and find out what’s wrong with my friend.” You don’t have to have one mindset or the other to be upset. Who wouldn’t be? Things like a poor grade or a rebuff from a friend or loved one—these are not fun events. No one was smacking their lips with relish. Yet those people with the growth mindset were not labeling themselves and throwing up their hands. Even though they felt distressed, they were ready to take the risks, confront the challenges, and keep working at them. SO, WHAT’S NEW? Is this such a novel idea? We have lots of sayings that stress the importance of risk and the power of persistence, such as “Nothing ventured, nothing gained” and “If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again” or “Rome wasn’t built in a day.” (By the way, I was delighted to learn that the Italians have the same expression.) What is truly amazing is that people with the fixed mindset would not agree. For them, it’s “Nothing ventured, nothing lost.” “If at first you don’t succeed, you probably don’t have the ability.” “If Rome wasn’t built in a day, maybe it wasn’t meant to be.” In other words, risk and effort are two things that might reveal your inadequacies and show that you were not up to the task. In fact, it’s startling to see the degree to which people with the fixed mindset do not believe in effort. What’s also new is that people’s ideas about risk and effort grow out of their more basic mindset. It’s not just that some people happen to recognize the value of challenging themselves and the importance of effort. Our research has shown that this comes directly from the growth 

mindset. When we teach people the growth mindset, with its focus on development, these ideas about challenge and effort follow. Similarly, it’s not just that some people happen to dislike challenge and effort. When we (temporarily) put people in a fixed mindset, with its focus on permanent traits, they quickly fear challenge and devalue effort. We often see books with titles like The Ten Secrets of the World’s Most Successful People crowding the shelves of bookstores, and these books may give many useful tips. But they’re usually a list of unconnected pointers, like “Take more risks!” or “Believe in yourself!” While you’re left admiring people who can do that, it’s never clear how these things fit together or how you could ever become that way. So you’re inspired for a few days, but basically the world’s most successful people still have their secrets. Instead, as you begin to understand the fixed and growth mindsets, you will see exactly how one thing leads to another—how a belief that your qualities are carved in stone leads to a host of thoughts and actions, and how a belief that your qualities can be cultivated leads to a host of different thoughts and actions, taking you down an entirely different road. It’s what we psychologists call an Aha! experience. Not only have I seen this in my research when we teach people a new mindset, but I get letters all the time from people who have read my work. They recognize themselves: “As I read your article I literally found myself saying over and over again, ‘This is me, this is me!’ ” They see the connections: “Your article completely blew me away. I felt I had discovered the secret of the universe!” They feel their mindsets reorienting: “I can certainly report a kind of personal revolution happening in my own thinking, and this is an exciting feeling.” And they can put this new thinking into practice for themselves and others: “Your work has allowed me to transform my work with children and see education through a different lens,” or “I just wanted to let you know what an impact—on a personal and practical level—your outstanding research has had for hundreds of students.” SELF-INSIGHT: WHO HAS ACCURATE VIEWS OF THEIR ASSETS AND LIMITATIONS? Well, maybe the people with the growth mindset don’t think they’re Einstein or Beethoven, but aren’t they more likely to have inflated views of their abilities and try for things they’re not capable of? In fact, studies show that people are terrible at estimating their abilities. Recently, we set out to see who is most likely to do this. Sure, we found that people greatly misestimated their performance and their ability. But it was those with the fixed mindset who accounted for almost all the inaccuracy. The people with the growth mindset were amazingly accurate. When you think about it, this makes sense. If, like those with the growth mindset, you believe you can develop yourself, then you’re open to accurate information about your current abilities, even if it’s unflattering. What’s more, if you’re oriented toward learning, as they are, you need accurate information about your current abilities in order to learn effectively. However, if everything is either good news or bad news about your precious traits—as it is with fixed-mindset people—distortion almost inevitably enters the picture. Some outcomes are magnified, others are explained away, and before you know it you don’t know yourself at all. Howard Gardner, in his book Extraordinary Minds, concluded that exceptional individuals have “a special talent for identifying their own strengths and weaknesses.” It’s interesting that those with the growth mindset seem to have that talent. WHAT’S IN STORE The other thing exceptional people seem to have is a special talent for converting life’s setbacks into future successes. Creativity researchers concur. In a poll of 143 creativity 

researchers, there was wide agreement about the number one ingredient in creative achievement. And it was exactly the kind of perseverance and resilience produced by the growth mindset. You may be asking again, How can one belief lead to all this—the love of challenge, belief in effort, resilience in the face of setbacks, and greater (more creative!) success? In the chapters that follow, you’ll see exactly how this happens: how the mindsets change what people strive for and what they see as success. How they change the definition, significance, and impact of failure. And how they change the deepest meaning of effort. You’ll see how these mindsets play out in school, in sports, in the workplace, and in relationships. You’ll see where they come from and how they can be changed. Grow Your MindsetWhich mindset do you have? Answer these questions about intelligence. Read each statement and decide whether you mostly agree with it or disagree with it. 1. our intelligence is something very basic about you that you can’t change very much. 2. ou can learn new things, but you can’t really change how intelligent you are. 3. o matter how much intelligence you have, you can always change it quite a bit. 4. ou can always substantially change how intelligent you are. Questions 1 and 2 are the fixed-mindset questions. Questions 3 and 4 reflect the growth mindset. Which mindset did you agree with more? You can be a mixture, but most people lean toward one or the other.You also have beliefs about other abilities. You could substitute “artistic talent,” “sports ability,” or “business skill” for “intelligence.” Try it.It’s not only your abilities; it’s your personal qualities too. Look at these statements about personality and character and decide whether you mostly agree or mostly disagree with each one. 1. ou are a certain kind of person, and there is not much that can be done to really change that. 2. o matter what kind of person you are, you can always change substantially. 3. ou can do things differently, but the important parts of who you are can’t really be changed. 4. ou can always change basic things about the kind of person you are. Here, questions 1 and 3 are the fixed-mindset questions and questions 2 and 4 reflect the growth mindset. Which did you agree with more?Did it differ from your intelligence mindset? It can. Your “intelligence mindset” comes into play when situations involve mental ability.Your “personality mindset” comes into play in situations that involve your personal qualities—for example, how dependable, cooperative, caring, or socially skilled you are. The fixed mindset makes you concerned with how you’ll be judged; the growth mindset makes you concerned with improving.Here are some more ways to think about mindsets: • hink about someone you know who is steeped in the fixed mindset. Think about how they’re always trying to prove themselves and how they’re supersensitive about being wrong or making mistakes. Did you ever wonder why they were this way? (Are you this way?) Now you can begin to understand why.• hink about someone you know who is skilled in the growth mindset—someone who understands that important qualities can be cultivated. Think about the ways they confront obstacles. Think about the things they do to stretch themselves. What are some ways you might like to change or stretch yourself?• kay, now imagine you’ve decided to learn a new language and you’ve signed up for a class. A few sessions into the course, the instructor calls you to the front of the room and starts throwing questions at you one after another.Put yourself in a fixed mindset. Your ability is on the line. Can you feel everyone’s eyes on you? Can you see the instructor’s face evaluating you? Feel the tension, feel your ego bristle and waver. What else are you thinking and feeling?Now put yourself in a growth mindset. You’re a novice—that’s why you’re here. You’re here to learn. The teacher is a resource for

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Lights, Camera, Mania: Showbiz Satire’s Descents Into Madness by Charles Bramesco

In his seminal tell-all Hollywood Babylon, Kenneth Anger claimed to reveal the festering truth beneath the dream factory of the American film industry. His was a bemused but cynical perspective on the business of show, reveling in the sordid juiciness of early Tinseltown controversies that usually concluded with tragedy, if not death. Representatives of the film idols referred to in the book lined up to denounce the tales of drug-fueled orgies and suicide cover-ups as conjecture and falsehood, and indeed, the modern reader would do well to take Anger’s gossip with a metric ton of salt.

But rather than a factual history, Anger’s book has more value as a portrait of a certain mentality specific to this professional milieu. Even if Clara Bow didn’t bang the entire USC football team, this progenitor of the celeb exposé spoke to true conditions of the culture surrounding the movie colony, suggesting that decadence and luxury made—and continue to make—it too easy to go mad with power. Readers flocked to Anger’s toxic oil spill of a book for the same reason airport bookstores regularly sell out of the latest A-lister’s confessional: it’s devilishly pleasurable to watch fame and fortune make someone act crazy.

The best Hollywood send-ups have adopted this jaded outlook, turning an eye inward to find a carnivorous business that masticates talent and spits it out once the flavor’s gone. The recent, toothless likes of Argo, La La Land, and The Artist have courted the label of satire with a line about expanded universes here or a jab at blowhard producers there, but these little rib-nudges have been affectionate counterpoints in otherwise adulatory valentines to the magic of the movies. The good stuff cuts to the dark heart of an industry that gives creative types—and who could possibly be more mentally infirm than a writer—too much money and influence for their own good.

The history of showbiz spoofery is the history of insanity: the finest entries have used the assorted pressures of filmmaking to push their characters to their wit’s end as an absurd representation of the corrosive forces of Hollywood. Starting from Anger’s sensationalist tracking of Frances Farmer’s long, sad descent into madness, all roads have led to the sanatorium.

The main thoroughfare is the derelict drag of Sunset Blvd. Billy Wilder was the first to conjure a human manifestation of filmmaking’s maggoty underbelly with Norma Desmond, a crumbling grand dame cannily played by crumbling grand dame Gloria Swanson. Swanson applied the exaggerated techniques of silent film acting to the talkie form in order to create an affected style marked by its own period, a symbol of decay in an industry obsessed with the new and young. She constructed an insular fantasy life in her isolated castle lair as a coping mechanism for her fall from prominence, and for his blackest joke, Wilder allowed her delusions to become reality in the film’s concluding punch line. Norma’s deteriorating psyche imbues the film around her with a bit of her mania, too; a funeral for a chimp Charlestons along the line between the silly and the somber. Even as he verged on the outlandish, he struck a chord; Louis B. Mayer famously bellowed to Wilder at an L.A. screening, “You have disgraced the industry that made and fed you! You should be tarred and feathered and run out of Hollywood!”

But this strain of satire truly hit the fever-pitch sweet spot with S.O.B. in 1981, trading the showbiz-specific indignity of aging past relevance for that of creative compromise. Director Blake Edwards plays a cruel and pernicious god to his Job-like plaything of Felix Farmer (Richard Mulligan), a producer driven to desperation by his first flop and willing to do anything in order to salvage it. He’s put through the wringer several times over, bungling four suicide attempts in increasingly pathetic fashion before arriving at the epiphany that sex was the missing ingredient from his character study of a closed-off woman retreating into the recesses of her own mind. (All we see of the fictitious Night Wind is a disturbing, surreal dream sequence set to “Polly Wolly Doodle” twice over, first as an unsettling juvenile fantasy and then as a doubly unsettling eroticized juvenile fantasy.)

The film industry, at least as it’s shown here, doesn’t function like other professional sectors. Nobody really knows what’s going to connect with an audience and what won’t, and to those working on the inside, it often feels like no rhyme or reason governs the separation of hits and misses. Edwards makes Felix into the casualty of a sense-defying work culture, where no bad idea or underhanded maneuver is off limits so long as it yields success at the end of the day. Felix grows deranged as a result of his constant humiliation, and resolves to play as dirty as the weaselly studio executives who cheat him out of the rights to his picture once it starts to look like a success. By the moment he’s killed due to his own harebrained plan, he’s been reduced to a nattering nutjob, martyred by a system seemingly resistant to logic.

Robert Altman would torment another power-producer to the point of breaking a decade later with The Player, but the next film to actively integrate the mentality of lunacy into its overall atmosphere would be the gleefully unhinged Death to Smoochy. (It’s no coincidence that all the films mentioned so far drew powerfully polarized reactions at the time of their release; a draught this bitter has never gone down easy.) Shifting to the other side of the camera, director Danny DeVito mined laughs by transposing the cutthroat nature of big-leagues entertainment to the bush leagues of kids’ shows. He juxtaposed the core nastiness of back-room wheeling and dealing with the outward-facing nicety of Barney and his ilk, and in doing so, delivered an uncommonly misanthropic take on how the sausage of entertainment gets made.

Moreover, the film presented a physical manifestation of hyperactive id in Robin Williams’ corrupt, ruthless kiddie showman Rainbow Randolph. Starting at a coked-out 10 and only turning the dial higher from there, Williams rendered his role as a manifestation of pure, white-hot hate, screaming every line at the top of his lungs. As he goes about his dogged mission to dethrone his replacement Smoochy (Ed Norton as the chipper Sheldon Mopes), DeVito suggests that Randolph’s frenzied dysfunction simply reflects the fucked-upped-ness of his climate. The ostensibly incorruptible Sheldon is offered the seductions of money, pleasure, and influence, and while he’s able to remain true to his principles in the face of it all, Randolph’s the foil illustrating what happens to those without the required moral fortitude. He has a near-complete psychotic break at feature length, his mind irreparably warped by the deleterious forces of televised playtime.

Tropic Thunder took a more specific set of reference points for its deflation of Hollywood ego and pretension, ultimately driving its subjects to the brink of sanity as well. Namely, the myth of Francis Ford Coppola and the notoriously calamitous production of Apocalypse Now (dutifully chronicled in the making-of documentary Hearts of Darkness) provided the guideline for this send-up of war films and the people who play make-believe in them. Coppola reportedly went a touch native while mounting his titanically ambitious epic in the jungles of Vietnam, and likewise, the prima donna actors dropped into the wild start to lose it when they realize the danger they’re in is bona fide.

Writer/director/star Ben Stiller gets in some good potshots at scuzzy corporate types (Tom Cruise’s craven studio head Les Grossman comes off looking the worst of all), but mainly lampoons the actors taking their craft seriously enough to lose sight of themselves. Both Stiller’s macho action hero and Robert Downey Jr.’s award-festooned boob slip into their assigned roles, extending Method acting to the point of fractured identity. Rather than taking aim on the machinery that generates movies, Stiller trains his crosshairs on the process of acting itself, mocking those artistes so wrapped up in “becoming” their role that they can’t tell where it begins and they end. Stiller accelerates their mental strain by dumping the cast in enemy territory, but they don’t end up anywhere that Jared Leto hasn’t gone of his own volition.

Just about all entertainment that goes behind the scenes of entertainment agrees that the job’s not a part-time gig, that creating art on this kind of scale demands a lot from the people involved. The gentler critiques have stopped the symptoms at workaholism, but these more incisive films expand that list to include a wide array of psychological hazards. Los Angeles runs on hysteria, on the single-minded willingness to do anything and everything to make the show go on. The innumerable “troubled-but-brilliant” biopics have made the suggestion that inner anguish is the noble sacrifice that true talents make for shouldering the burden of genius; in an art form as prone to disaster, complication, and overall FUBARification as cinema, it’s just the cost of doing business.

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