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[tetzoro]

good morning + happy wednesday my friendz !! i am super sleepy sleeps but determined to get thru the day with my trusty coffee by my side ଘ(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و !! i hope you all have a magnificent day 🤍💫

[ashwhowrites]

can you write a cheerleader reader x eddie story where eddie and the reader are acquaintances but they both like each other. eddie has a best friend who’s just like him into metal, d&d, black and reader is the exact opposite! i’m talking wears pink 24/7 unless she’s in cheer uniform, room full of stuff animals and ballerina decor and whitney houston. the ultimate girly girl. well one day eddie is supposed to meet reader after hellfire to finally ask her out after flirting for a few weeks and eddie’s best friend sees reader waiting and is a total bitch to reader. says that eddie would never like a girl like her and that she’s in a completely different world than eddie and that eddie is just using her to make the best friend jealous. let’s say they used to hook up or something just to add some angst 😮‍💨 then eddie comes looking for reader and his best friend just says that you left and eddie is very confused because you seemed like you liked him or whatever and after avoiding him for a while he finally confronts you and you explain everything. maybe it ends with them finally getting together and eddie making his friend apologize. this was so long i’m so sorry and i hope you’re feeling better!

I absolutely can! I love this idea. I hope this is what you were looking for and you enjoy it <3

The opposite

Eddie Munson liking a cheerleader was something Hellfire didn't think they'd see. And seeing Eddie swoon over a girl was different for them. But they secretly adored it. He was like a puppy as he watched her from across the cafeteria. His eyes locked on her during the cheer routines.

And people were shocked to see how much she liked him too. How often she stared right back at him. Her flirty smiles in the hallways had Eddie walking into lockers. Everyone seemed to be rooting for them, except Eddie's best friend.

Britton did not like the popular crowd. She stood by the words Eddie used to mean. The endless rants about how the popular are scum and won't exist outside of high school. But here he was, drooling over the head cheerleader like every other guy. She hated it. She hated watching Eddie do everything he could to get Y/N's attention. She can't stand that all he talked about was her.

"I did it! Your boy got himself a date!" Eddie cheered, sitting down at the cafeteria table. Slamming his hands down to make sure everyone's attention was on him. The table cheered but Britton felt herself rolling her eyes.

"Told you she'd say yes!" Dustin said, slapping Eddie's shoulder as a congratulations. Britton knew exactly who Eddie was talking about and it tasted sour in her mouth. She'd been after Eddie for years after he broke off their arrangement, and she didn't understand how Eddie could like a cheerleader over her. She was just like Eddie, and they had so much in common. Way more than him and a cheerleader.

"When is it?" Britton asked, smiling sweetly as she softly touched his hand that rested on the table. Eddie quickly moved his hand as he answered, "Friday night after hellfire." It was a few days away, but he was already excited.

Y/N wasn't someone he thought he'd be into, but she was gorgeous. She wore bubble gum lip gloss, pink sweaters and skirts, pink nails, and always had a smile on her face. Eddie adored her in her cheerleading uniform, but the soft sweaters felt amazing against his body when she'd smash him in a hug. She smelt like flowers and something sweet. He was obsessed with her.

Britton and Eddie had a past, one that Britton didn't want to end but Eddie called it quits. She was still hung up on it and Eddie moved on. They were in two different places and Britton couldn't handle that.

~~~

Friday night arrived, and Eddie and Y/N were nervous. Eddie spent the whole day figuring out what to wear for tonight. He had to wear his hellfire shirt for the campaign so he figured he'd change after it was over.

They spent the whole day smiling and blushing as they passed each other. They didn't have many classes together, but their eyes were always looking for each other.

"Are you sure this is a good idea? You guys are opposites." Britton tried again.

"Yes, I'm sure. We've been talking for months, we have hung out as friends a few times and we exchanged phone numbers. If we didn't get along, we wouldn't be going on the date." Eddie explained, rolling his eyes as he walked through the halls to hellfire.

"Oh come on Eddie! She's the head of the cheerleading team. And probably listens to Whitney Houston while she dances in her bedroom. She's not your type!" Britton argued. She couldn't believe how lovesick he was for Y/N. He'd never dated a girl like that in years.

"And what's my type?" Eddie snapped, turning around sharply as he looked at her. He was sick of Britton bad-mouthing Y/N every single time he brought her up.

"I don't know, maybe someone that knows what DnD is or listens to the same music you like. Someone edgy and alternative. Not miss Pink Ballerina. And not a cheerleader." Britton argued, trying to make him realize how idiotic he sounded.

"What, someone like you?" He chuckled, he knew Britton wasn't going to let their past fling go but damn he wished she would.

"Don't laugh. In case you forgot we were together, Eddie. I'm just like you and I am your type! We would make so much more sense than you and Y/N, why can't you see that? She's popular! She's going to ruin you and embarrass you. She probably doesn't even like you, some type of game the squad is playing and you are the idiot falling for it. All because you want to date the prettiest girl in school." She scoffed.

"And in case you forgot it was just sex and I called that off. You aren't my type. Yeah, she's popular, but she's sweet and caring. She isn't an asshole like the rest of them. Do you think I'm stupid? I'm not being used or being treated as a joke. She and I have something and I don't care if others don't see it. I like her and she likes me. You and I were nothing and will never be anything. Now leave me the fuck alone and keep her name out of your mouth." Eddie spat, turning around to walk into the classroom.

Britton was fuming, her eyes glaring as his body disappeared into the room. At one point, Eddie did like her, and she was the main attraction in his life. Now he's blinded but she had a plan to get him to see clearly again.

~~~

Y/N rocked on her feet as she waited for Eddie outside of the school. She changed out of her uniform and into a pink dress. Her white sneakers scrape rocks back and forth. She was nervous but relieved that Eddie asked her out. She loved talking to him and hanging out with him. And she was worried he'd only want to be friends and she'd be the only one with a crush. But the feelings were mutual and she couldn't wait for their first date.

She checked her watch as she waited. She knew Eddie's campaign could go longer so she wasn't worried. She took out her pocket mirror and reapplied her lip gloss, when she closed the mirror she jumped as she saw a girl standing there.

"Oh hi!" She greeted, trying to recover from her frightened state. She wasn't sure who she was but she knew she was a friend of Eddie's. She's seen her walking around with him countless times.

"Hi! I just wanted to talk to you about Eddie. Girl to girl, I can't let him do this to you. It's too unfair." Britton pouted, faking a sweetness in her voice as she went to grab Y/N's hands.

"Um, what?" Y/N asked, now growing nervous as the girl looked at her with pity.

"You see, Eddie and I used to have sex all the time. Then he asked for a relationship and I just wasn't ready. He was so broken up about it, so much that he never brought it up. But I can tell what he's doing. He's just using you to make me jealous, sweetie. Look at us, you are the exact opposite of me. If he likes me, why would he like you? And I'm so sorry he'd do that to you." Britton patted Y/N's hands. That same fake pout on her face as she watched her words hit Y/N where it hurt.

"But...but how do you know? Maybe he just moved on." Y/N tried to defend him. Not wanting to believe Eddie was that shallow and would use her like that.

"We made out an hour ago." Britton shrugged, a smirk on her face as Y/N took the bait. Y/N removed her hands from Britton's a pained smile on her face.

"Thank you for letting me know," Y/N said, quickly racing to her car as she dug for her keys.

Britton stood proudly as she watched the cheerleader race into her car. A smirk on her face as she watched Y/N wipe her eyes and pull out of the parking lot.

~~~

Eddie threw his hellfire shirt into his backpack as he finished changing. He walked out to the parking lot with his keys dangling on his fingers. He looked around to see where Y/N was waiting but he saw no one. The lot was empty except for his van. He felt disappointed but he knew her. She probably had an emergency, and she'd call.

But when Eddie got home, he received no messages and no calls. He didn't hear a word from her. Was Britton right? Eddie didn't want to believe so. He liked Y/N and he wanted to hold on to the hope that something just came up.

But then he didn't hear from her the whole weekend. Even when he called her, he received nothing.

When Monday came around, he kept his eye out for her. Hoping he'd have a chance to pull her aside and ask her what happened.

"How was date night?" Britton asked, a small smirk on her face as Eddie visibly deflated.

"Got stood up." He mumbled, embarrassed to admit Britton had been right.

"Shit, Eddie. I'm sorry." She said, her eyes looking behind him to see Y/N watching from afar.

Britton quickly wrapped Eddie in her arms, hugging him as she whispered in his ear, a smirk on her face.

Y/N felt her stomach turn seeing Eddie and Britton wrapped up in each other. The smirk on Britton's face gave Y/N a tiny insight into what she was whispering in his ear. She swallowed the lump in her throat when Britton kissed Eddie's cheek.

It was true. She was a game piece.

"Thanks," Eddie said, pulling himself away from Britton. He hated to admit it, but all the popular kids were the same.

~~~

Eddie couldn't get a second with her. Once he found her, she went in the other direction. She ignored him as he yelled her name over and over. She's never been so distant with him and it killed him. He hated the giggles from the other students when they'd watch her completely ignore him. He was being made fun of again, and it was because of her. Because she stood him up because she ran away, and because she refused to acknowledge him. Everything he believed she was wasn't real.

~~~

A few days passed and neither spoke. She was still hurt by his actions and he was pissed at her. She tried to ignore the sting she felt every single time she saw Britton and Eddie together. They were always together, even more now that she was out of the picture. It seemed like Eddie's jealous plan worked.

Eddie still felt anger towards Y/N. Glaring whenever he saw her walk by. She was a coward and Eddie hated her for it. He deserved answers and he deserved an explanation. But she wasn't going to give it to him.

~~~

The winter dance was coming up and Eddie was nervous. The school offered little snowflake flowers to send to someone in the school. Eddie ordered one for Y/N before their falling out and now he wished he never bought it.

Y/N was reviewing her notes when a bouquet with snowflakes was placed in front of her. She looked up confused as the student walked away. She grabbed the bouquet, a small smile on her face. She'd never received something like that before. But her smile fell when she saw who it was from...Eddie Munson.

Eddie was smashing books in his locker when the door was slammed on him. He jumped back as his fingers barely made it out alive.

"THE HELL!" he yelled, looking to see Y/N standing there, holding the flowers and a pissed-off look. He matched her look, glaring at her.

"Your little jealous plan worked, so leave me the fuck alone." She spat, shoving the flowers in his chest, bashing her shoulder into his as she walked past him. But Eddie was confused about what she was pissed about, and what plan. He clenched the flowers as he followed her.

"Nah uh, missy." He growled, catching her elbow as he turned her around. She snatched her arm away, crossing them as she snarled in his direction.

"Now when someone gets you flowers, the nice thing to do is say thank you," Eddie mocked, a smirk on his face as he watched her growl. "And what the fuck are you pissed about? I should be the one pissed off. Which I am!"

"You? Why in the hell would you be mad? You got everything you wanted. I'm pissed off because you hurt me and used me like I meant nothing." Eddie watched as her hard expression broke down. A look of vulnerability crossed her face.

"What are you talking about? You stood me up and then refused to talk to me. You acted like I didn't exist in your preppy little world." Eddie scoffed. He refused to let her guilt trip him. No matter how sad her pretty eyes looked.

"I stood you up because Britton told me everything!" She snapped, her eyes hard again mentioning Britton. Eddie felt his body stiffen. His jaw tight and his teeth clenched.

"What did she tell you?" He said through his teeth. He was even more pissed and not toward Y/N anymore.

"You guys had a fling and you wanted more. She said no and you used me to make her jealous. Well congratulations Eddie, you got your girl." She smiled as she turned around but Eddie stopped her again.

"She lied! It was the other way around. I never liked her like that and she wanted a relationship. I called it off when we started talking. I didn't want anyone else but you. She's been trying to get me to forget you for months. But she won't be able to. You are all I think about and all I want to talk about. I love spending time with you and I was so excited to go on that date. I love being friends with you but fuck I want so much more with you." Eddie explained, praying to anyone listening that she'd believe him. "You have to believe me." He pleaded.

"I don't know, Eddie..." she trailed off but Eddie refused. He flung himself to his knees, the flowers in his hands as he looked up at her.

"Eddie, what are you doing!" She panicked as the bell rang. A flood of students made their way through the halls, and froze as they saw Eddie on his knees.

"Get up, people are looking." She spazzed, trying to yank him up but he refused.

"I am sorry for everything and for the shit, she said to you. I really like you and I want to give us a fair shot. I'm on my knees, begging for you to believe me, and to ask, Y/N will you be my date to the dance?" He dramatically gave his speech, his voice echoing through the halls for every student to hear. She found herself laughing at his ridiculousness.

She pretended to think, the students circling around them.

"PLEASE Y/N PLEASE," he begged, shouting with a smile as she laughed down at him.

"YES! Okay now stand up!" She giggled, Eddie smiled as he jumped back up to his feet. Handing the flowers over to her as she happily accepted it this time.

"NOTHING TO SEE MOVE ALONG!" he shouted, the students going their own ways as Eddie smiled at her.

"You won't regret it." Eddie promised

"Better not, Munson." She smiled, kissing his cheek as she excused herself to walk to class. She looked over her shoulder to smile at him one more time.

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[taegularities]

My rant about CMI 13🥰

Hiii Rid, I just finished catching up with CMI and pls I loved it so much. Reading the 2 chapters gave me so much comfort. I really needed it so I am very grateful for you and your writing. I am happy I found you! The whole hometown arc was AMAZING! I think this chapter was my favorite of all time. I loved how jk‘s mom and his brother were so welcoming and nice. 😭 Ria is such a sweetheart I loved her! And it was so interesting to see how the jealousy slowly grew from the beginning of the chapter and later exploded at the wedding. I personally loved the bicycle + strawberry plucking scene and the fountain +gift scene the most! It was so heartwarming and so fluffy. Their love is so pure and innocent like it makes you wonder if a love like this truly exists and if it does how lucky they are to have it.🥹 I wrote many things down for this chapter so I am having troubles typing it down LMAO. But the whole NARA situation goddamn it was so good, like I am a sucker for drama so it was chefs kiss. Oc‘s overthinking and her insecurities were portrayed so well, I could feel everything she felt and this shows how great of a writer you are! I am happy Nara spoke to Oc at the end and that they both cleared the air. I also felt a little sad for Nara cuz it’s hard growing up with your first love and yk growing apart and breaking up with the one you thought was the one for you… but tbh I am glad the Nara plot ends here cuz I love my girlie Oc. THO I must say I am interested in Nara‘s life like what she does and who she will meet and fall in love with. She deserves all the happiness cuz she seems like a nice and kind person. LET‘S GET TO THE MAIN TOPIC THO! HIS FATHER! He is such a freaking jerk! Jk didn’t deserve this at all like no one does… poor guy… The fight between jk and his father was soooo damn intense. I stopped breathing while reading. I am happy tho that he realized his mistakes and will work to better himself. It was DAMN late but at least better late than never. But it will understandably take jk a long time to process this and (maybe) forgive him. He deserves so much better… I LOVED how Oc supported and him while he broke down and confronted the jerk of a father. She is really an Angel. You did our boy Christian dirty tho LMAO (The smut was amazing as always🤭) BUT YK WHAT BROKE ME ? THIS:

“But even though you colour in all the spots in his room—

You think that in turn, he colours in every patch of your soul.“

This owned my heart right there and made me tear up. Thank you for your hard work! Sorry that this got so long.💜

NAWH and i'm happy you found me and have become my friend, too <3 oh gosh, your fav chapter ever?? that's a huge thing for me – i'd been planning it for so long and genuinely loved writing it, so this means a lot, love. with the jealousy as its key part and then things resolving, i was so curious what y'all would say lmao and the reactions to cmi13 were just what i wanted and needed.

i bet a love like this exists somewhere… things might seem hopeless at times, but we deserve this, too, so let's keep hoping and manifest the words i write into reality. also, i am so happy you could view the nara situation from all perspectives. like yeah, the whole thing was intense, but honestly, i feel a bit sorry for her, too? after all, jk wasn't just her boyfriend in the past, he was her friend as well. so to lose all that, even though she's moved on, must sting at least a bit. hmmm, maybe i'll elaborate on nara's life someday!! good point hehe.

NAWH THE FIGHT THO… i was holding my breath writing it, and idc if it's my characters, i was very happy jk flipped like this :') oc will always be there for him. let's hope that the only way's up. jksfnksf i know i did christian so fkn dirty, but i had no choice 🤣 maybe i should write original ian fic someday and give him the affection he deserves lmao

the last line… yeah– that's all i'll say. just yeah :') sigh. thank you for always reading bby <3 i will always wait for you, so don't stress yourself about getting to a chapter at all. i'm just so thankful for this msg <3

[2309analysis]

This is just my thoughts going haywire. Enjoy this rant.

I like to think that April started to become sorta overconfident in herself because of the turtles’ antics in season 1-2. Mostly because they’d definitely sneak her off most nights to help her train jumping off and on roofs. Casey also helps; and adding onto her indulgent behavior to think she could genuinely take on some enemies without help. Hence her impulsiveness throughout season one and taking most of the initiatives to fight without much thought or attention (girly did not pay much attention to her surroundings when she struck). Her lack of hesitation also made it really easy for her to open up a lot more to Splinter and trained with him to learn her techniques. She clearly is the support/defensive unit. Much like Donatello; but in a different sense. Likewise to her lack of defensive in general, easily helping her gravitate towards Donnie, in my opinion. They just chime together, and alongside Casey, when they put off their differences and work as a team. Unlike, literally the rest of the fandom: I really enjoy that trio. Sorry, back to why I honestly think she would felt like that - an overbearing feeling of confidence. She was improving, and rivaled how many individual training-sessions she had vs. Leo. I also like to tie in her snippiness and cocky stubbornness, too. She’s kind. She’s got a good understanding for combat and her abilities. She’s proud of herself; and she’s not afraid to tell you that through her actions and skills. I like to state that confidence was never lost. It balanced out. Throughout season 3 and 4, her development arc; not only were her powers growing, she become a fully fledged Kunoichi. I like to also say that Karai helped a lot making her understand her own strengths and weaknesses throughout the first two seasons, as well. I feel like most throughout season four, it’s when she matured, fully, therefore her confidence was big but not enough to make her seem… well, arrogant. Season three helped, too, but I feel four did a better job helping her character grow. Let me stop rambling, you get my point.

[applesbloominthefield]

the rookie thoughts (kinda controversial)

tw: topics of police brutality

first of all i have to say, i am an international viewer, and i just found out about the rookie a couple of weeks ago through youtube shorts, and knew i had to watch it when i saw clips of chenford.

i stand with the term ACAB through and through, and i am all for defunding the police, because unfortunately i have had my own terrible experiences with cops, even if not within the US. but come on, social media has proven once again, no matter which country or nation ALL COPS ARE BASTARDS.

so i when i found out the rookie was a cop show, i was very wary. i hate copaganda and no show or no media would ever be able to change my mind about cops being good people (still is true). but then i keep seeing these clips of chenford and i just fell in love with them. i don't know why and what about their dynamic is so attractive to me, maybe the slowburn, the black cat and golden retriever, the cold and sunshine, the yapper and the listener, the broody guy outside but a big softie on the inside and the hopeless romantic girlie?? so i decided to start watching it for the sake of Lucy Chen and Tim Bradford. let me tell you, i fell into a rabbit hole. i have never felt this way about a ship ever since middle school when i shipped dramione and sterek (both unattainable ships and not cannon btw) so imagine the euphoria of knowing chenford is canon. i truly fell in love with them, and i forgot how much happy hormones fangirling over your favorite character gives you.

i was in a bad place, and chenford and the rookie had my back, honestly.

i have to applaud the writers because they're able to make us - or me, at the very least- be invested into the lives of the ensemble of characters. let me tell you, i have been an avid series watcher ever since middle school, when my coping mechanism to weird thoughts and ideations (if you get what im saying) was to enjoy shows and hyperfixate on them so my brain gets distracted from the realities of life, and there are always characters i don't like, or characters i don't care about, or i skip over because i think they're a waste of my time, but the rookie truly made me care for and love each of the character. and i think that's a really tough thing to do.

now im new to the fandom (and honestly i dont plan to invest much time into being in the fandom anyways because being in a fandom is very exhausting and time consuming to me and i don't know if i've got that kind of energy like i had when i ran harry potter and teen wolf accounts when i was in middle school. i think i prefer to just be a fan of the show and just watch the fandom from afar but occasionally will have a couple of inputs or rants), so im familiar with people saying they hate nolan and why is the show focused too much on nolan (which... i mean the show did start out being centered around him) etc etc, which i felt the same way too when i watched s1, but truly, i have even grown fond of nolan too... and that's miracle work done by the writers, baby

i think my favorites are season 2-3 even if season 3 unfortunately got rushed by the circumstances back then (pandemic) s1 was good too in terms of plot, but my chenford heart couldn't take seeing nolan and lucy ewww. and of course i loved s5 bcs of chenford but the plot could have been better.

so those are a couple of things i think the showrunners/writers should be applauded for, now for constructive criticism... i feel the show never truly acknowledges that most if not all cops are bad (even if they insist that there are always good ones), they always scratch the surface or barely spend enough time to go deep within this topic, which i think is crucial as a cop show rather than just doing it for the sake of "woke agenda" (which i felt was their goal in s3)

you know when women say "i hate men" and men always say "not all men" and we as women would say "sure not all men, but it's always a man" i feel like it's always that kind of back and forth with The Rookie. if you are not or have never been the one being assaulted by the police, if you are not or have never been a victim of the corrupt law enforcement, if you have never felt the corruption and unfairness of law enforcement, who are you to say otherwise?

when i say and think ACAB, i mean it. even the most noble of cops for example tim bradford has been corrupted by the system due to work politics (S6) or maybe even when he was blatantly being prejudice in the pilot episode towards hispanic men (S1)??

i also think just putting poc with tragic backgrounds for main characters, to show why they want to do police work to be on the good side of things is NOT enough! that's like not even the bare minimum...

i honestly think the Professor Fiona arc was getting good, and they almost went somewhere with it, until it didn't continue in season 4 and never was even acknowledged again.

they barely scratched the surface, and im sure if the George Floyd case (may his soul rest in peace) hadn't been exposed, they woud have never even graze the topic of crooked cops

with that being said, the writers did a great job with doug stanton, because i truly wanted to punch him in the face repeatedly whenever he came on.

so what's the conclusion? i think the rookie is great when it comes to the main characters and their respective plots or character developments! but still really terrible at showing the reality of cops! because ACAB!

but i think i do understand that in the end all of this is fictional, and is a sort of getaway, but no matter how fictional, because of the coverage and platform the rookie has as a network tv show, that's also on hulu, it's important to dive deep into the realities that cops are bastards and how it has affected the lives of millions of innocent people. i think it would be the least they could do.

for me, i fully am aware that my stance on cops contradicts my love for the characters. but that's the thing, two things can be true. i still hate the police, but i love the rookie esp chenford as a ship! i guess in a sense, the rookie is a sort of guilty pleasure, and i really do hope the writers/showrunners do better on this topic so i wont feel ashamed when someone asks me what is my current fav show and i say it's a cop show.

anyways, ACAB! DEFUND THE POLICE! BLACK LIVES MATTER!

[castlebyersafterdark]

Yes! I felt like they picked up each others mannerism/traits too before and I always thought it were the things they found endearing about each other. First i noticed Finn in the newer gb interviews with McKenna, some moments the way he’s interact with her reminded me of Noah towards Millie and his sister, and that made me think of how it felt like Finn would mirror nillies dynamic with Sadie, and I think that has to do with Finn admiring how wholesome and close Noah is with the women in his life, haha this is very analytical and based off vibes but Millie also attested to how great it is to have Noah around as a girl in a space with the other boys on st who have alyways been gentlemen so that says a lot, and Finn notices his sweetness so I feel he noticed this as well over the years.

This is getting meta but whatever. It could be Finn feeling more comfortable and being better handling anxiety compared to the interviews for the first movie, but finn was giving me more cool guy aloofness that I recognized from watching my brother becoming that in his teenage years around others when we’d interact, when before the toxic masculinity took influence I guess, he was much more expressive and goofy with me in a way I’d recognize in my close female friendships (as a girlie). McKenna and him def have sibling bond as they play siblings and I’m definitely projecting but for me in my formative years I felt like I had to conform to that sort of disposition around men and it was sad to do that with my own brother when there was a time he was essentially like a sister 😆 so I got that impression with McKenna in some moments of the older interviews, not that Finn is like a toxic misogynistic male this is coming from someone who notices when a man is masking when I KNOW the ways a close bond with a women can bring out a type of fun and wholesomeness some men might get embarrassed to show particularly in front of other men (I know what you’re really like bro why are we acting tough🤕) I also feel like that’s why he appreciates gaten because he can definitely blend with the girlies 😌 so yeah I think this shift has to do a little bit with being endeared by Noah’s bond with women, how he interacts with people in general in his lovely Noah way, and perhaps also expressing that in each others company as well!

Sorry for the rant but there’s more 😅 now Noah, I agree with anon I never really noticed Noah being expressive with his hands while talking until more recent years, in particular the recent con panel. I feel like when talking about something funny, yes, but not when it’s about ✨the arts✨essentially, which I feel has to do with his shyness and maybe feelings of inadequacy (same). He definitely seemed more reserved and bashful, speaking by conveying through fluctuations in tone and moving his head around a lot, lots of “I think” “uhhh umm” and “and yeah”, you know he’s passionate but it can be scary to articulate that, and I don’t know I always attributed that to him being closeted through the years and that gets in the way of fully expressing yourself in a deep way because what if you’re too revealing and you’re not so sure of yourself so you resort to acting a bit silly to mask it (same). I remember Noah like pre season 2? 3? He seemed to speak a little more passionately, but after Noah came out I knew we’d be able to see that side of him again in full and it was so cool to see a glimpse of that and I’m so looking forward to when the show comes out just to hear him talk about it. But oh shit how does this relate to Finn, well he’s always been a yapper and since season 1 press he talked deeply and passionately which I always found so neat being their age knowing how most kids around me didn’t speak so articulate and profound, which I always thought was special about him. (Just shows kids have that ability but something about American culture snubs that out who knows what it is) and I definitely see Noah admiring Finn for that over the years, enamored by his dedication and how opinionated he is, especially since he’s THE scene partner he’s so familiarized with since childhood, seeing him intently listening to him in interviews or him watching how Finn works on set, and now having a closer bond than ever Finn can share that side in a private space, having Finn’s influence and encouragement to bring out that part of him as well while also retaining Noah’s playfulness in between I’m sure. And yeah I pretty much got that from how reverent he spoke about the show, and how he spoke very animated with his hands of course, very Finn core. Oh and vibes always vibes. It’s just so nice to think Finn is part of Noah embracing this side of him, vice versa

I can’t wait for their panel for the confirmation bias to fuel my delulu. The projections wow I relate to them and byler in so many ways. I think it has to do with observing them growing up as I do, I wonder if this is how og 1D fans felt going into adulthood along with the band, in real time coming of age.

Sending this one along for our communal reading pleasure!! I adore when you guys ramble 😊

[joyswonderland1108]

🙃

I know i said that my biases are Jimin and JK but i never said i wasn’t a big fan of 3J which means that if Hobi is being disrespected imma snap your head in half!

Every time i come here to talk about something nice there’s a whole mess going on that at this point my blog is turning to a rant blog ffs. When did this fandom become like this? When did the toxicity became huge to the point where you can’t go a day without something disgusting being spread online? 

So by now everybody knows that Hybe posted an announcement about Hobi’s upcoming enlistment that he started the procedure already, we saw that coming but it’s still upsetting of course, we still felt sad knowing how real it’s becoming that Hobi is leaving for MS too. So we’re trying to come to terms with it and another announcement only this time it’s a happier one:

We were also able to see our Sunshine live 

(Credits to Dalto on Twitter)

Now i believe you see where this is going right? So Hope on the street is a single set to be released on March 3rd, key word here : SINGLE. One song. But of course dickheads have a thing to say right? Saying how he is interfering with Jimin’s solo if he couldn’t release it before why choose now bla bla bla rat language.

I’ve mentioned in my previous post that even one song can take a while let alone many, some artists spent 2 3 years on one song, it’s called perfectioning it, working on every possible flaw so that the end result is something that lets the artist feel satisfied with the hard work he put in it. So to answer the “why didn’t he release it before?” simply because he couldn’t “why won’t he release it later?” simply because he can’t. 

Now saying that he’s interfering with Jimin’s solo.. There are 20 days between March 3rd and March 24th (not including both dates) and again am going back to the key word, it’s a SINGLE it’s only one song how tf is that interfering with Jimin’s solo? There’s enough time to give attention to Hope on the street and also be ready for FACE.

It’s actually funny to see people try to make it a competition between none other than Jihope like.. Be so fr right fucking now! It’s not like y’all are legally blind to not notice how close those two are, they’re besties, and more than anything they are happy for each other so for a bunch of low-life strangers trying to put their 2 useless cents of thoughts on the matter.. y’all just shut the fuck up

Now if Hobi just decided to enlist without dropping anything, people would be saying how he’s not appreciating Army he just left like that or why did he wait all that time to enlist if he doesn’t have more work to do or or or.. Of course there’s always something to complain about, this fandom is never satisfied and would you look at that, the boys still think about this stupid fandom and dedicate their work to them. 

Honestly there should be a whole separate new fandom for our boys, a private one that is, Vip or whatever you wanna call it, like you can’t get into that fandom unless you pass the morals test, the personality test, etc.. Army be fighting with that other fandom (not mentioning the name but y’all already know who, no hate to the girlies they’re cool, can’t say the same thing about their fandom tho) when they’re no better, creating shit INSIDE the fandom to begin with. 

It’s seriously getting tiring and sickening how people were just allowed to become this hateful, it’s like they forget that they got into this fandom that was started because of BTS like.. THE WHOLE BAND! Yes these 7 men are all different and unique but they’re also part of the same band whether you like it or not and if they wanted to go solo like many of y’all are dying for it to happen they would’ve done it a while ago it’s not the first time idols leave their band to go on a solo journey. If y’all have no respect for these boys as a band at least have respect towards your favs and what they want, what they wish for and the people they love. 

[everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats]

I imagine that, instead of being a lonely Zillennial (roaring 20s tossin tossing pennies in the pool, it’s supposed to be fun turning 21, how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22-ooo oo ooo, she’s still 23 inside her fantasy and your sitting in front of me) woman (she/her; feel free to tell me your pronouns) covered in cat hair (it’s a party) drinking in my wine-aunt bi-wife energy (I am the bi-but-not-so-much-wife; LGBTQIA+🩷💜💙), I am a ghostly Victorian lady (a better way to put Chronically Ill/anemic spoonie🥄🦓🦄 INFJ/INFP w CPTSD🩵SA survivor) wandering through the backwoods with a candle in a candlestick holder, writing only on parchment with a feathered quill (instead of ranting from my not-so-new phone on Tumblr at 3:00 a.m. like the Midnights become my afternoons insomniac I am, off to some secret garden in my mind or fangirling on a Swift Stream).

Just a folklore / evermore girlie that would’ve could’ve should’ve been a head writer/artist in The Tortured Poets Department if only my crying a lot was more productive instead I just try to keep making art & am an avid reader of all of the books beside my bed.

I mostly speak now in English (though I grew up learning ASL🤘just not as handy here *pun intended*😅 & I try to keep up with swift fluency for Swiftie acronyms iykyk-yoyok🤣).

🫶 So, It’s me, hi 👋 you can call me “the problem” or Lila (short for Delilah) or Lav (short for lavendar) As in @lavendarneverlands the 1 main blog of ✨mine🪻 (cause lavender haze was taken & alas, there’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have), so I guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats, alone… but if you follow this page you can come along💖 I’m usually running back home to you here on what’s the seven-th-ish Tumblr side-blog I have for fandoms like this!

So, Welcome Swifties! Long live the magic we make!

P.S. yes, I’m still a believer: that every Taylor Swift song is actually about her cats.

If you want the D.L.X. bio there’s a more chapter below:

Here’s some basic Q&A’s to trade friendship bracelets:

My Taylor Swift cry song is: Champagne Problems

& if I don’t scream/sing “She would’ve made such a lovely bride what a shame she’s fucked in the head” then I have been beamed up in a cloud of sparkling dust.

Same with “And you were tossing me the car keys, "Fuck the patriarchy" Keychain on the ground, we were always skippin' town. And I was thinkin' on the drive down, "Any time now, He's gonna say it's love," you never called it what it was. 'Til we were dead and gone and buried; check the pulse and come back swearin' it's the same, after three months in the grave. And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you, but all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame.”

I have never been to a Taylor Swift concert. & It is not for a lack of trying. Yes, I hate it here.😂 But yes I watch every stream I can, I love Surprise Song o’clock. Minus the fact I’m bad at math for CT.

Confession: I’m horrible at hearing lyrics right & either really good or really bad at acronyms.

First album heard & album experiences: Debut I heard but it was brief it was really Fearless as the first album I got super into & then went back to Debut after, Speak Now was my age group/childhood, Red was the obsession phase & only sanity in my life, 1989 will forever & always be a bop, Reputation is severely underrated, Lover was all I listened to that entire year, folklore was my true love at first sight, evermore saved my brain in a really tough time, of course the re-recordings are all I listened to Taylor’s Version all day everyday (just waiting for Debutation) Midnights is perfection I loved it day 1 to wherever we are now, Tortured Poets Department is THE album everyone I know heard and went LILA ITS YOU (or should I say ME!).

Current album rankings: — (trying to think technically) — folklore, evermore, Midnights, The Tortured Poets Department, 1989, Reputation, Speak Now, Red, Lover, Fearless, Debut — (trying to think subjectively) — evermore, folklore, The Tortured Poets Department, Midnights, Red, 1989, Reputation, Lover, Speak Now, Fearless, Debut

Swiftie-ness: I do LOVE Fall & I don’t care that I’m basic. Why would you make fun of someone for being excited? In a world where we can like whatever I’m happy to be excited over enjoying TS music. And I wanna be remember for the things I love! + I think she is a gifted storyteller. And her music has put words to what I cannot, I’ve grown up with it steadily, got more into it during Lover, super into it during folklore & super next-level Swiftie during Midnights & Eras Tour but I’ve never not been a fan. Minus the one thing I hate getting stereotyped for: I don’t get weird with it; death threats are too far, stalking someone isn’t being a fan it’s being a stalker, be kind & enjoy enjoying something, but be people people. However that’s not the Swifties I know, I like the friendship bracelet group of y’all! Let’s fandom about it!

Clowning Levels/Thoughts/Theories: I predict Rep first, & Debut being called Debut Taylor’s Version… though “Taylor Swift Taylor’s Version” would be epic. TBH I’m just excited for whatever they are :-) & yes, I, Eras Tour clown an embarrassing amount😅😂 while also loving where we are in this era/age.🫶💕

[hyunsvngs]

So I hope this is a safe space to rant. I just need to get this out to someone and this seems like the place to do it.

I have never had sex with another human being where I have cum by the other person. I’m pretty limited on my consensual experiences, but still most have just been the worst. I do have a thing going with my best friend and we’re just taking a minute to figure out what works. Unfortunately it is incredibly hard to make me finish and I’m terrible at explaining the right way to do it.

But my biggest issue is actually my experience with my piss kink. My all time biggest kink is and always will be piss. It was first introduced to me by my high school boyfriend. It started with him holding me close to him anytime one of us had to pee and saying we should just stay together and piss. I always thought it was a joke though. Until one day at my parents lake house he suggested us finding a private place for him to piss on me. I was confused by it but I’ve never been one to kink shame, so I agreed. I have never felt more beautiful, more sexy, more special, or more loved than I did in that moment. I’m a very insecure person, but in that moment I felt like perfection. Since our breakup I have found one person who was comfortable with this kink. Everything we did together was bad except for the piss. That was when I experienced letting it get into my mouth. I came very close to cumming without any stimulation.

But other than those two people any friend or sexual partner that I’ve brought this up to has made me feel so bad about it. Calling me fucked up and disgusting. Don’t get me wrong when said in the right tone “my disgusting little fucked up slut” is the best thing to hear. But these people are intentionally putting me down. Striking it off as weird before I can even explain how the kink makes me feel.

So now I’m like extremely insecure about this kink, and literally the only way I can somewhat satisfy my desires is by your fanfics and an occasional good porn video.

Side not about the whole sleeping with my bestie thing. One of her only big No’s is excrement, so piss is off the table with her. She has stopped making fun of me at my request, but I still low key feel like she judges.

So I guess my question is, how do you go about introducing this to people without getting shot down so horribly? How do you deal with the rejection?

Another thing people judge me for is my nose kink. I have no fucking idea why, but other than a phat ass the sexiest feature of a person is a big nose. When I tell you that I drip just from looking at Chan’s face because of how perfect his nose is, oh my fucking god. But people make me feel so bad about it.

Anywho that’s my rant. I feel a bit better.

I put another anon ask out recently where I brought up the idea of Chan coming home to you in the shower and inviting himself in for some piss fun time. If it wasn’t of good taste, I understand. Just a little fantasy.

I also asked if 🥃anon was available. Is it? I’m a dark liquor girlie so that’s my favorite emoji

Anyway, love you and everything you post bestie

I literally check this page everyday

hi friend!! so i'm so sorry to hear you haven't had a good time with sex :( before i respond to everything i want to say i do still have your previous ask in my inbox!! i had planned to respond to it soon and yes 🥃 is definitely free <3

firstly please do not feel as though you should be ashamed for this kink. trust me there is a lot worse out there lol and as long as they're consensual who cares! you're not forcing anyone into trying this with you, you're just being open about what you're into. that's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.

secondly in terms of introducing it to other people, i would personally wait until a topic about sex came up with the other person and maybe slide in a little "oh, what are you into in bed?". i think a LOT of people are into piss and just don't want to say it either (further reinforced when i started writing about piss here and so many ate it up). in terms of dealing with rejection, i think it's just a sort of thing like ah, okay, ygm? like not everyone's into choking. not everyone's into bdsm. it is exactly the same with piss! not everyone's into it, and some people are, and that's okay.

i really hope you feel more accepted soon. this is always a safe safe place for kinks and piss in general so please do not ever feel afraid to come here and rant to me <3

[m00n-pr1sm]

despite me having a 60 slide presentation that is 9k words titled “morgana pendragon did nothing wrong”, I do in fact! think she has done bad things. the main gripe I have with everything is how genuinely shitty her development is, like this point has been hammered in a million times atp and I’m probably not adding anything new to the convo but let me rant, one day I’ll write a polished explanation or whatever but I’m just annoyed + me explaining why she’s not a good person :3 + my thoughts

I think morgana is a wonderfully established character, she’s someone who was willing to stand up for what she believed in and actively call out uther’s actions; as well as being willing to cross morally questionable lines to achieve what she genuinely thought was for the best. she was complex and honestly so interesting in the earlier seasons, we saw her struggles and genuinely empathized with her desire of acceptance and the fear of persecution. Also girlie had nightmares constantly like I can only imagine how tiring that shit is. but then s3 happened and her development took a complete nose dive! like I understand why she did what she did in s2e12, I think it’s a fine episode but I do wish they established the morgana + morgause relations better than they did in canon, like if you’re going to make a character do a complete 180, at least show the time period between that? because morgana was so clearly shaken but what she had done in s2e12, she had shut down basically and was struggling to cope with what she had done through the entire episode. Like I’m sure you could fill in the gaps but it’s just poor writing, show, don’t just imply that morgause became this figure in morgana’s life that she held up with such reverence and how she basically absorbed her values to just become this hollow antagonist that just has silly little schemes every episode in s3. like we already established how she had a desire for acceptance we should’ve show morgause grow into that. Also the fact that she brings up the poisoning like one time??? and never had any heart to heart with Merlin? Like I get that she was too unwilling to compromise on her values (and she’s ne polr-) but it’s far too quick of a shift in her character. She went from feeling immense guilt of her actions to smugly wanting Camelot to fall, like at least show some ambivalence or some kind of self doubt if you’re going to make her turn to evil off screen??? I’ll probably always be upset that they removed that scene in s3e13 where morgana was like “I felt like a monster (bc of my magic) and morgause was the only one there for me”, like that simple line, while implied w/o that scene, just has a lot of depth to her and explains it explicitly (also I feel like that would be the last thing to break uther so yeah I wish they didn’t delete that one). circling back, but I actually really love s3e05 (it’s one of my faves) because it just expands so much on how much she genuinely wants to be loved and how volatile morgana has become to rejection; like she is genuinely so desperate. I think from then on, morgana sorta imprints the idea of being “uther’s daughter”, thus trying to fit herself into that role (but that is very much a headcanon). From s3+ her mission is just “I want to kill Arthur (and emyrs) so I can be queen because I deserve it” but it’s totally about her bringing magic back! I think she comes to see Arthur as nothing more than an extension of uther (something that she does call him out her in earlier seasons) but I also believe that there is envy there! because he recognizes him as her son ofc but denies morgana of that, so she seeks to destroy what she cannot have (sx4???). of course her whole pursuit of emyrs which is just born of self-preservation. I actually appreciate s4 morgana bc of the fact that she’s is more vulnerable than in s3, like she’s just a lonely fool in the woods w/o any real friends bc she’s lost them all. and she contemplates sometimes. silly. also I like that we got a slight taste of distressed morgana who always sought out reassurance in s4e13, like girlie needs someone to tell her that’s everything will be okay and that is why morgwen is the best ship ever + why she is so emotionally volatile bc she is w/o that

Although I do wish they focused on her skill of social engagement, like she had so many ally ships and a clear ability to read and manipulate emotions, but whatever ig. It’s sad to see how much her world has really changed and her world view being so messed up and so black and white (like she also was pretty polarized in the earlier seasons but like those values she held made more moral sense + she felt guilt) also I think it’s important to bring up how her talking to emyrs in s4e06 being like “Arthur will never accept you, magic will only come back once I rule” as a play to distract him. also it’s genuinely so fucked up that she was locked in the bottom of a well for 2 years w/o light or movement like??? That is genuinely such a messed up thing I don’t think the show or fandom talks about enough. It’s literally a complete loss of her agency and freedom which I do believe is something that morgana values a lot, to always do some kind of action, she’s never been a stagnant character and to just. be stuck powerless and immobile for 2 years with the one creature that you’ve bonded with and loved and saw as you’re only campaign, like aithsa saved morgana; just suffer in such a painful and cruel way? LIKE WHY DO WE NOT TALK ABT IT MORE??

I guess I’ll talk abt s5 right now lol or just read my slideshow rant abt one of my gripes lol but yeah the writing takes another nosedive in s5, morgana just becomes really more one dimensional, although I’m glad that they at least addressed her and Gwen’s relationship, albeit in a very messed up way. But yeah her desperation for Gwen finally got the best of her and I truly believe that was the main purpose and not just her being used as a tool for assassinating Arthur. One think they should’ve done more was Morgana’s descent into madness and delusion, like she’s actually unhinged by the final few episodes and ofc that was caused by mordred’s death but I do wish that was just a theme in her character. I suppose it could parallel how uther shut down into numbness but morgana just became increasingly more volatile (it is 2am I am def grasping for straws). One day I write a proper uther and morgana parallels rant. Anyways her death scene is nice ig, she never did get the satisfaction of seeing Arthur die. anyways her entire character from s3+ is the sunk cost fallacy, she’s in too deep and she could never pull out. I haven’t watched bojack but I would’ve loved if they made her like Diane in how she feels like she needs to write her book to make her trauma productive in some way (“if I don’t then that means that all the damage I got isn’t good damage it’s just damage and all those years I was miserable I could’ve been happy this whole time. blah blah “what was it all for?”, from memory so if there’s a mistake that is why). She needs to take out all her years of hurt and rejection and someway by embodying that and doing it to everyone in her life ((for that reason)unconsciously) but I mean it’s not like they really imply that in canon, I’m probably reading too much into it. But yeah she’s selfish and hypocritical. At least she continued in being way too overbearing in her personal judgments (MY ESI WIFE (REAL))

[kasarian]

i dont even talk about fandom a lot but by god i hate the yandere trope especially when its from a character that i strictly dont like or view even remotely romantically . and there is NO way to skip it like. nasasarwa'ak. not to mention i really wanted to know the plot but not like that........

and a character i personally view as my MC's bro like hi. dont touch me like that it gives me the vibes that you, sir, are about to sexually assault my very blatantly female presenting character!! DURING SEVERAL MOMENTS IN THE STORY I AM READING!!! you were her BROTHER.

and thats not even it. it just. wow thats a lot of human experimentation in lads. so okay lets remove my "thats her brother!!" bias;

i like my characters overprotective to an insane point but in a way that they can face the fucking consequences of it goddamn. i dont like the mary sue ass reaction mc gave him. i want her to have violently reacted!!! i wanted her to have her instincts be on edge the entire time, i want her to have been able to AT LEAST THINK ABOUT WANTING TO PUNCH HIS STOMACH, KICK HIS BALLS, before realizing that he would stay true to his word for that shit 3 days before she could go home. i wanted my mc to fucking start having a panic attack right there. i wanted her to start bawling on the spot because of how bad he was hurting her, mentally.

and in a way, if i were a good writer, i would have written a fucking retrospective perspective that caleb was being a dick while also allowing himself to not be overly a creep and giving her an out. just to comfort myself that he wasnt a total creepy jackass.

i know he's written SUPPOSEDLY to be a "i will proctect MC no matter what it takes, no matter how much it hurts her" but by god this man really made me tense up because at several points in the cutscenes, as a traumatized person from being SA'd as a kid by his own older cousin, that shit felt disgusting and should have had a skip button. it really is giving "i will babytrap my own childhood friend just so that she stays out of trouble for her sake, because people want the important gem in her heart" like fuck right OFFFF. fuck OFFF.

NOT TO MENTION HES FUCKING PART OF THE GOVERNMENT SURVEILLANCE STATE AND AN ORGANIZATION THAT WANTS TO KILL THE MC HELLO!!!! i would have liked this drama shit better if caleb were a woman because at least toxic yuri is a little more. consumable. and while would bring me the same uncomfortability its at least some sort of fucked up love shit i would loved to have written. if its gay and women its more palatable to me than men, funnily enough.

anyway rant over the next part is just talking about what my mc would have done right after getting home. because this anxious energy would just NOT leave me at all.

She should really, really, check herself, or make the Hunter org/her teammates check her for bugs, my MC would be really anxious and unconsolable for months, asking for leave, constantly contacting Sylus to help her with the whole scumminess and double, quadruple check her for any trackers, and giving a shit ton of hints to Zayne because talking about it in Linkon makes her undoubtably anxious. Sy and Zayne and my MC would just be in the N109 zone for a while, while also occasionally going back to linkon. Girlie would just have random panic attacks at night, worse nightmares, but she no longer has any good associations with her grandma and an even worse impression of caleb.

or my MC, who ALREADY is Zayne's beloved atp, lives with him, while Sylus occasionally comes over from n109 zone to cuddle with his partners.

how am i over sylus's own misgivings? hes a fucking simp; zayne and sy both had neutral-negative leaning first impressions on me but by god zayne's true intentions were cute. bros autistic like me. i love that and sylus turned out to care for mc than i thought.

also the only man in uniform i like are firefighters thanks. also rafayel is now forgiven, a little. i still hate men that try to control me or their prospective partners regardless but somehow raf isnt horrible to me anymore. caleb is worse.

[scoupsbicepvein]

Hi sweet! How are you? I hope you are doing great now🥺 Talking abt ur conditiom are you like passed out(?) or go to ER just to check your condition?

By the way, how's your real life with the uni and your periods going? Please don't forget to taking care of ur self and try not to overthink everything because it will pass anyway.

Just go with the flow~

I know it seems like something that is easy to say but hard to do cause believe me I know🥲 been there, done that🥲 you don't have to be 'perfectly' go with the flow, but just try it little by little bcs in the end you'll find your own flow where you won't be stress that much but you can do most of the thing great!

For my request, pls don't take it as a promise or something you should done. Just make it when you have time and in the mood too! It is really fine even if your next post for the next 3 years isn't my request because I always enjoy your contents💖 Don't make it as something you should fulfill, okay? You can make and post everything you want to😉

Sorry this is a long one😭

Have a nice day sweet!🎀

-🦌-

Hi dear anonnie 💖

I'm feeling a lot better than the last time I was here thankfully. And thank you so much so your reassuring words 🥺 they really mean a lot to me especially bc I don't really hear them in real life.

As for my er visit my last post might have been chaotic bc I wrote it under a lot of emotions but basically I decided to go there bc I didn't want to wait until I completely pass out. I was feeling like I couldn't breathe properly and my lungs felt really heavy (?) and I felt dizzy and overall not that great. And I was concerned bc stuff like that happened before but they lasted for 15 minutes at most but this time it lasted for almost an hour before me and my roommate decided to head out. It didn't help that it was getting pretty late and I didn't want to go to sleep in that state (if I even could fall asleep) and my friend was worried that I might pass out when she sleeps.

But the stuff they checked at the hospital didn't show anything concerning so I was let go a few hours later with a note to go to a cardiologist. It took me a few days of thinking but I'm pretty sure it happened bc of stress, idk for sure but I've always been an anxious girlie and all the stress from the last few months finally caught up with my body and it said 'nah sis you're gonna feel like you're gonna die tonight' (and a few times after that).

Sorry I ranted about it for too long I feel like 😫 but other than that the stuff with uni are slowly being resolved but I don't want to say anything to early.

How are you btw? I hope your job hunting is going well and that you're gonna find a good job that pays well (you deserve it queen 👑).

And about your request I'm going to save the ask with it for now but I have Joshua done so I'm going to post him as a stand alone and when I come up with something for the two other !95 liners I will post it as well. I hope you're okay with something like that.

Hopefully you have a nice day or night depending on where you are and what time you read this, and that everything in your life is going well 💕

[withleeknow]

thank you for translating your emo hours into 💌 I'll meet you halfway if you let me GOD I FELT THAT IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH & q. for the author: which member/idol did you have in mind/gravitate towards as you were writing this?:)

omg you're gonna have the best time, the fact you'll be able to see one another in person is so heart-warming 🥹🥹 note to future 🍙: I'll be here to welcome you with open arms and physical onigiris in ldn <3

ok but the stars aligned awfully in the past 24hrs bc seeing this after our hybe rant - our 🌰 on his way to japan in freakin' crutches - I can't do this anymore tinyurl.com/3nux77mf I want to protect him at all costs 😭

ohhh my heart, the husband really is husbanding:')) as an acts-of-service girlie myself, this has ignited all the butterflies in my stomach <3 🥺🥺 in exchange I have the prettiest of crumbs: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGesuXDQ3/ - this along with the new skz concept photos that dropped yesterday LORD- I NEED A NEW MICROWAVE

final crumb: have you seen the news abt jin being a torchbearer for the olympics???! mr WWH in PARIS????

eeeek i'm so glad you liked reading it 🥹 i've never posted anything in first person pov before so you could say that was my little journal entry that i had nowhere to put lol. i actually wrote it bc i was feeling super emo about new york (it's hard to describe my relationship with new york lol) and i had to channel it somewhere. wrote it mostly bc i wanted to get the first paragraph out! but for the rest of it i thought a little bit about mimo and a little bit about jungkook (my main muse until not too long ago yk) 😂

i know oh my god i'm so excited about new york!! it's the only thing i'll be thinking about for the next 10 weeks. it still feels so surreal :((( next year i definitely have to hit up london, just mark my words!! it would actually be so crazy if jen x onigiri happens as well omg lol

jesus i saw that yesterday! i was like - he is in literally crutches and a brace, where on earth are you making him go. my son i hope he gets better soon 😭 he really does need to be wrapped up like a burrito and shielded from bighit bc they've overworked his ass to hell and back

he !!!!!!! how is he so handsome :((( if i saw him walking down the street i think i would actually pass out. i say this even though i had a dream about heeseung the other day lmao.

I HAVEEE SEEN JIN'S NEWS! he's been back for 2 weeks and he's already taking over the world. imagine his cute choppy bangs at the olympics omg 😭 it's been so long that i forgot how big my tannies are. it's times like these that i'm very glad i don't live in paris/london/milan/etc bc my kpoppies are there practically every other week for all sorts of events and i just wouldn't fare well at all the entire time they're there lol

[thetaylorfiles]

Wait, hold up! How are you "Very Old" but also "got hit with menopause early"? Which is it girlie, the math ain't mathing? I always assumed you were in your late 30s. It's cool if you don't want to get into it though, it's none of my business I know, I was just curious! Good luck with the ADHD meds btw!

So, from what I’ve learned, perimenopause is the time where you start losing hormones because your womb and eggs are winding down - no clue how to say this properly. You lose hormones and start getting awful fucking symptoms. However, if you’re getting your period still, you’re not in menopause yet. Menopause begins one year after your last period. (I hope I’m getting this all correct. It can be confounding sometimes)

I’m still getting ‘baby’ periods. It used to be a normal 5 day cycle. Now it’s one heavy day, one light day and that’s it, maybe spotting for a day. The terrible symptoms started over a year ago when I got a bladder infection that not even a urologist could get under control. For 3 months. I literally felt like I had a UTI for three months. It was hell. One of the top 3 painful/uncomfortable experiences of my life.

Also at the time I started becoming irrational, easily annoyed, sweating through my sheets every night, so much more but also I became rage-y. I’ve never felt that emotion in my life till then and the rage comes from stupid things like forgetting something. Or getting cut off in traffic. It was scary how angry I got, my body felt like I needed to hit things in order to get that anger out. I would beat up my steering wheel with my hands, punching it and only hurting myself more. But it felt like a need. I despise feeling like that. Im normally an optimistic person who’s pretty easygoing.

Menopause is hell and no one talks about it. I try to talk about it when I can because I swear, it wouldn’t be this bad if you could prepare. If our moms explained it all like our periods. It being this terrible surprise was like a gut punch. And doctors don’t believe you. It took me FIVE doctors to find one who believed me.

I’m a bit past 40. And I started getting symptoms over a year ago. So that’s why I call it early menopause (technically early perimenopause). Typically women start to get it between 45-55. I’m not there yet. And one of the reasons the docs didn’t believe me is because I was slightly young for it. The other reason is because women are woefully under treated, disbelieved, and humored unkindly when trying to get healthcare treatment. Do you know that in med school they spend one class session going over menopause? That’s a couple of hours for something that happens to 50% of the world and causes suffering to most of those women. Shouldn’t doctors get a bit more training? I could rant forever. There’s so much fucked up about women’s healthcare and not just menopause stuff.

So that’s where I am. Maybe I misspoke? Maybe it’s not early? I don’t know. I now take estrogen through a gel and a progesterone pill. Most of the time I feel normal and like myself, but that other 25% is awful. It’s like someone else is inhabiting your body. It’s not even just the pain or discomfort if whatever symptom is blessing you with it’s presence. It’s the way it changes your personality for the worse and how annoying you become to your family members who can’t possibly understand it because no one talks about it! We need to normalize menopause as much as we have normalized PMS. I need to stop talking about this now! 😂😂

And thanks! I’m on day 3. It’s just little changes but oh my god does it make a difference! I actually want to do the things that I normally have to remind myself 20 times over to do. I feel better and more clear and more up. I’m so excited for how it’s making me feel. So hard to explain but it’s this tiny pick me up in the oddest of ways.

If anyone of you guys has adhd and takes concerta, do you like it? Anything o should know? Or if you take anything else you feel like sharing. I’m open to any advice!

Sorry about the math not mathing. Hope i explained it well

[sunshine-on-marz]

I AM HERE TO REQUEST TOTALLY NOT BECAUSE OF MY RANBOO FANGIRL MOMENT WHAT NO

ANYWAYS UMM

CAN I HAVE RANBOO FLUFF W/ GN READER PLEASE PLEASE PLEAAAASSSSEEEEEEEE

ALSO BIT OF A HAPPY RANT BC YES

THE PAST FEW YEARS I HAVENT FELT CONFIDENT ENOUGH TO WEAR DSMP/MCYT MERCH TO SCHOOL BECAUSE SOME MEAN POOPY HEADS WERE MAKING FUN OF IT WHENEVER I DID WEAR IT SO I JUST STOPPED WEARING IT AND THE OTHER DAY THIS NEW GIRL COMES IN WEARING SAPNAP MERCH AND I ALMOST SCREAM AND THE NEXT DAY ITS GEORGE MERCH SOI FINALLY HAD THE CONFIDENCE TO WEAR MY RANBOO JACKET AND SHE WAS LIKE OMG I LOVE UR JACKET AND WE STARTED TALKING ABOUT DSMP AMD STUFF AND SHE WAS LIKE “if you listen to banter, they were talking about how dream might face reveal soon and honestly… he better be hot, we’ve waited too long for him not to be” AND I WAS WHEEZING SO HARD BUT IM JUST SO HAPPY I FINALLY HAVE AN IRL FRIEND TO TALK ABOUT DSMP WITH

ANYWAYS THATS MY RANDOM RANT FOR TODAY :]

BUT RANBOO MY BELOVED <3

Omg everything I wrote for this got deleted I’m so sorry if it seems rushed-

Home

Ranboo x Reader

Meeting ranboo in person

I’m calling him Mark in this idk if it’s his real name and really don’t care but if he’s uncomfortable being called that please dm me

Also, in this the reader is more feminine, im so sorry but I use they them pronouns, this fic is slightly self indulgent, so I do talk about makeup and doing hair and other “girly” stuff, anyone can enjoy these things so just have fun and enjoy!

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The man you loved so dearly held you as tightly as he could while he cried, well the both of you were crying but still. The makeup was starting to run down your face a little bit and Mark was picking you up by the waist with his arms looped under your thighs. “Oh my gosh! You’re so beautiful, even prettier in person, wow, I can’t believe I have you in my arms” what he was saying was muffled by your neck and slurred by his sobs, but still was understandable. “Shh, don’t cry, don’t cry love” your comforting words didn’t help much as each syllable was cut by your own hiccups and sobs. The two of you stood there in the middle of the airport sobbing for nearly 5 minutes until you both finally walked to the car. Once you both got into the vehicle he took a hair tie and pulled your hair back, it was all frizzy from the commotion of the day. He kissed you on the forehead and you started on the way to his house, or as you would soon call it, home.

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I hope you like this!!! It’s rushed and short but I like it!

@z0vamp this could be us

-Toad

Have some cute ranboo art from Dakota Fox Art

[paterklatter]

bazillion word long bones and all overthinking below be warned

i've been rotating bones and all in my mind since it came out on vod (sorry to my two friends who had to deal with my 3 separate multiparagraph rants about it in our gc, you know who you are and you're stronger than the troops) and like despite the movie having quite a few flaws i can't rate it anything lower than a 10/10 in my head. like i found myself agreeing with most negative reviews (at least partially when it came to things like the script, although they often focused too much on the "ahhh it's so gross like omg" thing like yeah obviously. did you just find out it's 2022 movie directed by luca gauadagnino staring taylor russell and timothee chalamet too or?) but the film as a whole just works so well for me. it's most likely just the tumblr cannibalism brainworms i have chronically but like it just hits. but also it could've hit so much harder if it did things a little different.

like it was very very unhorny. which i think works to it's detriment. again maybe it's the hannibal girlie in me speaking but like how can you make a movie like this and not sexualize it like bro. there are some scenes where it feels like they went out of their way to make it unhorny to the detriment of every other element of the scene.

but i also really enjoy how the movie leaves the question of ~what the cannibalism represents~ up to the veiwer. while it obviously leads pretty heavily to each conclusion it really comes down to whatever connects with the viewer the most. i've heard everything from queerness to addiction to generational trauma and they all made sense.

the one element i'm most mixed on is the performances. taylor russell flips flops between absolutely devouring a scene and just kind of staring blankly with giant doe eyes. then timothee chalamets performance was good, having some even great moments, but it felt like he was playing a different character half way through the movie. like in the mannerisms and delivery of dialogue maybe i'm just crazy or something but it was really distracting for me. and the mark rylance is doing... that. sure it's creepy as fuck but it's like family guy pedophile levels of cartoony, which i think would work fine if it weren't for another thing, the tone.

bones and all takes itself seriously the entire runtime and it works against it at multiple points, from mark rylances whole character to one specific line that literally everyone i know who's scene it said made them laugh from the delivery. i also think the film is afraid to fully get visceral. most of the gruesome elements are not shown fully on screen and left to the (absolutely amazing) sound design. which works *fine* until the final scene which has no sound and shows nothing and really kills it. it could've been such an intimate moment if the camera just got in the general radius of the action. again, unhorny to a fault. i do think it could've work a little bit better if it allowed itself a little more leeway. it feels like it's ashamed to be a horror film

and then obviously the cinematography is amazing and the soundtrack goes crazy goes stupid and me and who and you know all the shit i have to say.

all bisexuals be eating people ong