#rant yippeee

[emero0]

Someones said this already- surely- but i cant stop thinking about ruis whole “thank you for giving me a chance to change” mentality

Because its super sweet and all but i dont think either him or tsukasa have realized how much tsukasa has changed because of rui

Like- read main story or even early game tsukasa and then read the most recent (eng or jp)

HES CHANGED SO MUCH and its all because rui humbled him- told him that he’d never be a star—because at that rate, he really wouldnt have—in a moment of pain and hurt because tsukasa was being a bitch towards nene, and also possibly because this great opportunity rui wanted to have was turning out to be a lie

Until tsukasa changed

Realized his behavior and worked to better himself, and (lets be honest) practically begs this guy hes known for maybe 2 months (idk how long the main story takes place) to come back and make shows with him because??? Because tsukasa thinks hes just that good of a director? Or maybe its because ruis the one who made him realize his true dream again and what being a “future star” really means

Not to say rui hasnt changed either, him and mizuki talk a bit about it in ena5 and he mentions it a lot,

I think the wonder halloween event might be the best example

Cus the reason i thought of this post is because i was reading tsukasa side story from that event and MAN is he cocky- like annoyingly so- idk why he was (and still is) my favorite /j

But anyway- i remembered just now that the whole plot of that event is rui learning not to hold himself back, which is a big part of his character development imo

On the other hand, ruis impact on tsukasa is less direct

Like i said its because rui first got him to realize his “true feelings” (as the game calls it), but after that its really all on tsukasa—well not quite-

See- a big part of Tsukasa’s character development is his constant realization of- i guess “his place in the world”

For me personally the phoenix edge event is a good example of him acknowledging it- but i realize it actually started way sooner

In the pop in my heart event- he realized that his acting is so far behind these american (or atleast english speaking) actors who can convey feelings through language barriers

Its his “humbling” arc if you will, he realizes just how far he needs to go, and its not that he’s not confident anymore, but that hes more aware of where his talents lie and isnt overconfident

And this is all stuff he learned more on his own- however: rui still helped propel this growth

He realized in the torpe event (on the stage of dazzling lights i believe-) that he had been holding tsukasa back by typecasting him, and decides to give him more diverse roles as well as let wxs do the play torpe in the first place (because as director, it was his final decision)

But after that—and this applies to all of wxs, but mostly nene+tsukasa—he goes and tries to figure out how to keep wxs together while still giving them the chance to grow as actors and not be confined to a stage

And he succeeds, and off wxs goes to improve!

They (and every character in game i feel) have changed and grown so much and its so awesome to see it happen—and its neat how much theyve influenced each other’s change through it all

So yeah— ruikasa(/p or /r idc) have helped each other grow so much and i hate them with a fiery passion /j

[churrorat-art]

Hihihi new url!!

Churrobellart -> Churroleaf-art

Still the same person btw!!

[buggoblin2]

i fixed my sleep schedule please be proud of me

[kkolg]

Just checking - is it ok if I draw catified versions of the MedicalMalpractice duo :0

:O

omg that’d be so cool‼️‼️

I’d love to see it so u could @ me :D

Edit: any fanart is appreciated :3

[asterias-corner]

happy summer solstice :3

[bezalthebest]

If I don't get good grades in math, I may as well be dead. Because if you're not good at math, you just can't possibly be good at anything else. Mathematics is the only thing that's in the way. I know I'll probably die not notable like millions do but I want to be notable to myself. Thinking, "What's something that you've done over the years." "Be depressed, watch people die, and sleep." I don't want that, and I'm sure nobody else does too. - If I don't get a decent grade on this math retake test tomorrow, I might just bury my own grave, Bezal.

[tf2tomfoolery]

HELLO RANDOM GOOD NEWS >:))) Not tf2 related just wanted to rant here! tl;dr - PerhAps I'll be posting digital art here in the upcoming week (FINALLY-) because I may have found my crappy lil drawing pad's charger! :) BUNCHHH of yapping under the cut:

The charging cable for my drawing pad may be returning to me soon, meaning I'll be able to create digital art again (without straining my hand trying to draw on my laptop's mousepad BAHAHA)!

For context, I lost it around.. last year? My drawing pad won't work without it, and I was too lazy/stubborn to purchase another one. Anytime I've been digitally drawing has been using my laptop's mousepad (which is a long and tedious process, and my wrist has paid for it BAHAHAJAH). I had a sneaking suspicion that my father accidentally took my charger mistaking it for one of his. Apparently I was right, because I just brought it up with him again - he said he had recently organised some cables at his place, including one that matches the description of my drawing pad's cable. So yeah!! Next time he visits, I will have acquired The Cable, meaning I'll BE ABLE TO DIGITALLY DRAW PROPERLY AND MORE NATURALLY AND QUICKLY AGAINN A AAND AAAfhdiuk I'm so excited! :] Hopefully it's the right one, I'm sure it is.. hopefully.... fjghriilhfr

I'm especially excited over this because I've been itching to actually create (good lmao) tf2-related content, including some drawings for an awesome friend, and for an epic mutual, and I can finally Do That soon! It''s been a stupid mental block that I'm slowly crawling out of BAHAHA. Just YEAHH!!!!!1 YIPEPEEEPEPEPPEEOIFJHBJOI

[gogtropica]

Getting home from work and taking off my shoes and bra and letting my hair down and feeling relief the likes of which are only comparable to the relief a wife feels when her husband returns safe from war i think

[tvb0y]

Heh.... You Don't Know Whats Coming Your Way @cupofcappuccy... ( Your DTIYS Is What >:) )

[mattynmarns]

officially obsessed with uniqlo now btw

[subzeromoron]

the urge to post my art for other fandoms on this blog despite knowing darn well that this is my enstars blog (technically)

[transaccordionist]

I know smoking is bad for me but smoking saved me from one of the worst times of my life

Also smoking just makes me feel hot as fuck💅

[lyriumrain]

mum was always saying I should get into transcription services, but everytime I look into it I just get depressed. It's always an online service, and I'd much prefer employers I can, y'know, see and talk to in person, and on top of that the output needed to sustain yourself is really fucking high. I can't go that fast.

"oh but you get quicker with experience" - this comment always pisses me off because people don't know me the way I know myself. Even when I'm very familiar with a job my brain still needs more time than "most" people - i naturally just go slower than other people. I'm not unique there's plenty of people like that, but irt jobs I'm always being compared to what's considered the Best for that job (ie someone who can go real fast)

I'd love to do it if 1) I could go at my own pace and 2) if the bosses/supervisors in that business could be compassionate and understanding (which goes back to the online nature of it, I've signed up for doing online work in a different area and it's very cold. They have no problem locking you out/"firing" you for any reason.)

This is probably the most frustrating part of autism irt job seeking for me. People are always saying I'm "so talented" and that my skills are going to waste (usually said by people older than me, and I'm 31 lmao), and that I could "do anything" and I just wanna *homer simpson strangling bart* them because YEAH I COULD DO ANYTHING, I AM TALENTED - PLEASE TELL THAT TO EMPLOYERS.

[nyancrimew]

you'd think that after like 9 years of this shit someone would maybe care about how i have chronic flare ups of extremely debilitating muscular back and chest pain* (which NSAIDs don't even reduce and sometimes make breathing and swallowing hard) that since like two years also always come accompanied by extreme fatigue symptoms, but uuuh, nope. doctors have so far pretty much just told me im fine actually or that i simply need to be a bit more active and fit (sidenote: i was doing two types of sports and was extremely fit when this started, i stopped being active Because of the pain).

anyways if there is shit im supposed to get back to this or next week, im sorry, im trying my hardest but im currently either in pain or sleeping half the time.

*on really bad days it spreads everywhere but it's mostly just my entire back and neck + chest

as a chronically ill person my favorite activity is being not taken seriously by doctors

[ddems2]

jets on the side as I try to finish another project

[autism-corner]

were back