#rant yippeee

[emero0]

Someones said this already- surely- but i cant stop thinking about ruis whole “thank you for giving me a chance to change” mentality

Because its super sweet and all but i dont think either him or tsukasa have realized how much tsukasa has changed because of rui

Like- read main story or even early game tsukasa and then read the most recent (eng or jp)

HES CHANGED SO MUCH and its all because rui humbled him- told him that he’d never be a star—because at that rate, he really wouldnt have—in a moment of pain and hurt because tsukasa was being a bitch towards nene, and also possibly because this great opportunity rui wanted to have was turning out to be a lie

Until tsukasa changed

Realized his behavior and worked to better himself, and (lets be honest) practically begs this guy hes known for maybe 2 months (idk how long the main story takes place) to come back and make shows with him because??? Because tsukasa thinks hes just that good of a director? Or maybe its because ruis the one who made him realize his true dream again and what being a “future star” really means

Not to say rui hasnt changed either, him and mizuki talk a bit about it in ena5 and he mentions it a lot,

I think the wonder halloween event might be the best example

Cus the reason i thought of this post is because i was reading tsukasa side story from that event and MAN is he cocky- like annoyingly so- idk why he was (and still is) my favorite /j

But anyway- i remembered just now that the whole plot of that event is rui learning not to hold himself back, which is a big part of his character development imo

On the other hand, ruis impact on tsukasa is less direct

Like i said its because rui first got him to realize his “true feelings” (as the game calls it), but after that its really all on tsukasa—well not quite-

See- a big part of Tsukasa’s character development is his constant realization of- i guess “his place in the world”

For me personally the phoenix edge event is a good example of him acknowledging it- but i realize it actually started way sooner

In the pop in my heart event- he realized that his acting is so far behind these american (or atleast english speaking) actors who can convey feelings through language barriers

Its his “humbling” arc if you will, he realizes just how far he needs to go, and its not that he’s not confident anymore, but that hes more aware of where his talents lie and isnt overconfident

And this is all stuff he learned more on his own- however: rui still helped propel this growth

He realized in the torpe event (on the stage of dazzling lights i believe-) that he had been holding tsukasa back by typecasting him, and decides to give him more diverse roles as well as let wxs do the play torpe in the first place (because as director, it was his final decision)

But after that—and this applies to all of wxs, but mostly nene+tsukasa—he goes and tries to figure out how to keep wxs together while still giving them the chance to grow as actors and not be confined to a stage

And he succeeds, and off wxs goes to improve!

They (and every character in game i feel) have changed and grown so much and its so awesome to see it happen—and its neat how much theyve influenced each other’s change through it all

So yeah— ruikasa(/p or /r idc) have helped each other grow so much and i hate them with a fiery passion /j

[eggsrblue]

MY GINGI STICKER CAME OMGOSH!!!

TYSM @littlesliceofimmortality AGAIN FOR MAKING SUCH LOVELY DIALTOWN MERCH!!! also I AM IN LOVE WITH THE TEXTURE ON RANDY AAAAAAAA

[xx-d3m0n-k33p3r-d4rk-xx]

Dearest mutual i am leaving one billion draculas in your blog. Casually.

Yoooo one billion Draculas let's gooo

[churrorat-711]

Hihihi new url!!

Churrobellart -> Churroleaf-art

Still the same person btw!!

[bezalthebest]

If I don't get good grades in math, I may as well be dead. Because if you're not good at math, you just can't possibly be good at anything else. Mathematics is the only thing that's in the way. I know I'll probably die not notable like millions do but I want to be notable to myself. Thinking, "What's something that you've done over the years." "Be depressed, watch people die, and sleep." I don't want that, and I'm sure nobody else does too. - If I don't get a decent grade on this math retake test tomorrow, I might just bury my own grave, Bezal.

[buggoblin2]

i fixed my sleep schedule please be proud of me

[kkolg]

Just checking - is it ok if I draw catified versions of the MedicalMalpractice duo :0

:O

omg that’d be so cool‼️‼️

I’d love to see it so u could @ me :D

Edit: any fanart is appreciated :3

[duncanor]

I'm so bad at commenting on fics and art.

I just be posting the most awkwardly worded meat riding shit ever but do understand that it comes from genuine love and idiotic enthusiasm.

[autism-corner]

yippee

[asterias-corner]

happy summer solstice :3

[cacklefrendly]

Hi, I know you're busy moving, but when you have time I'd love to hear more about the "seafoam" selkie AU. I've read your fic two times already, it's so well written and I love how that AU fitted perfectly with their dynamic and made it even more interesting (like how Gin was ready to let Vodka go, prioritizing his well being, that was such a nice touch, and Vodka coming back made me tear up). I couldn't leave a comment in the fic, but when I have more time to elaborate I certainly will. Congratulations on moving! I hope the place is nice :)

i have been FOAMING AT THE MOUTH to answer this since i noticed it akdhakskAJJ-

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM GLAD YOU LIKE SEAFOAM!!!!!! AND THANK YOU FOR THE CONGRATULATIONS!! the place is SO NICE — I'm renting a small condo with my sibling and a friend of ours, and while there's not much space, we all actually like being around each other so it's done absolute WONDERS for both my mental and physical health (　＾∀＾)

and yes, i can ABSOLUTELY talk more about seafoam! i am SO READY to talk more about seafoam!!!! i do not CARE that i am restricted to my phone!!!!!!!!! IT'S TIME TO TALK ABOUT SEAFOAM YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(none of this is ordered in any way and there is a non-zero chance that i yap more about it in the future)

selkie pelts are alive. they're warm to the touch, and their undersides feel and look like living skin. cut one and it bleeds, scabs, and scars. if you put both on a table, most people won't be able to tell the difference between a seal pelt and a selkie's by sight, but very few people can touch both and say they're the same thing.

new pelts are grown about three times over the course of a selkie's life: once as a young child, once as they enter their teens, and once somewhere in early adulthood.

it's a simple, yet really weird process — the selkie gets stuck in their seal form, and like a lobster, the new pelt grows underneath their old one (making them appear bloated and malformed). over time, their old pelt dies, and the selkie can freely shift forms using their new pelt. (the only other time a pelt will die is if its owner dies in their human form)

what's done with dead pelts varies by culture, but it's pretty normal to take someone's teenage pelt and turn it into something like a belt as a celebrationof them reaching adulthood — dead pelts are nearly the same as tanned seal leather.

- - -

the bond between a selkie and their pelt can be permanently severed with enough time spent separated from one another. the selkie is essentially turned into a human. a normal human can take the (still living) pelt for themselves — and become a new selkie, if they spend enough time wearing it. the further away the pelt is from its owner, the less time the separation takes, but the average is ≈30 years.

it would've been bittersweet: a core part of Vodka that he loved dearly would be gone forever. at the same time, he would finally have his agency back, and nobody could ever hurt him like that again.

Vodka’s pelt was being regularly damaged, torturing hurting him and putting additional stress on his connection — therefore accelerating the separation process. if Gin hadn't found out and stepped in, Vodka would've been completely cut off from his pelt in 2 - 3 more years. (total of 8 - 9 years)

i think Vodka would've gone to a beach, built a bonfire, and thrown the pelt into it. then he'd just try to forget it all, somehow. i don't think he'd ever tell Gin what he used to be.

- - -

so, Gin mentions that Solbeso "called [Gin] in to gloat" a month before seafoam, during which he showed off Vodka’s pelt.

what Gin doesn't mention is that he left Solbeso's place, got home, saw the new injuries on Vodka’s back, stood there for like 20 seconds as the Implications of "Vodka is a selkie and Solbeso stole his pelt" sunk in, and bolted back to Solbeso's place THAT SAME NIGHT to take the pelt.

he spent the rest of the month conflicted over whether or not to hand it back to Vodka. he also did his best to restore it, partially as a way to buy himself more time to think.

in case it's somehow not obvious, a large part of Gin’s final decision to give it back was guilt. he assumed that Vodka had been Gin's slave, and that if Vodka had a choice, they never would have spent so much as a day together, let alone 6 years.

(but Solbeso never actually ordered Vodka to listen to Gin at all. he called Gin in, said "this is your new partner," and never gave Vodka any direct order to obey Gin. sure, it was heavily implied, but this kind of magic is very picky.)

- - -

before seafoam, Vodka wears coats and jackets like 89% of the time, even indoors, as a self-soothing measure. this is normal, in his situation. most selkies whose pelts are stolen will try to keep their shoulders covered. (shawls and shrugs are the primary go-to, but kidnapped selkie children may also use blankets and towels)

after Gin gives him back his pelt, Vodka progressively wears jackets less and less — unless they're appropriate, of course. he also starts casually leaving his pelt around the house, which in selkie culture is a gesture of an absolutely WILD level of trust. (he used to do it with his jackets, too!!)

it makes Gin’s stomach drop every time he walk into their living room and sees the embodiment of Vodka’s free will just. tossed over the arm of the couch. or the back of a chair. like it's NOTHING. where SOMEONE LIKE GIN COULD JUST TAKE IT. AGAIN. he's even leaves it IN GIN'S CAR!!!!!!!

he does not understand why Vodka is so okay with this. Vodka himself has considered the matter at length, and concluded that if Gin kills another person to protect his pelt then it'll be really hot, actually.

- - -

And now,

AN INCOMPLETE LIST OF LIES THAT GIN TELLS THE READER (AND HIMSELF):

Gin wouldn't know — he didn't care much about shorelines.

directly after an entire paragraph describing the highly secluded and easily defendable beach he specifically chose to bring Vodka to, but okay.

And he was selfish, Gin admitted to himself…

as he's actively walking to GIVE VODKA HIS FREE WILL BACK and potentially LOSE HIM FOREVER, but OKAY.

Maybe a kinder person would have something poignant to say. Or a 'thank you,' perhaps. Whatever.

it's not like he cares or anything. baka.

The ocean spray stung Gin’s eyes.

no, it didn't.

He should be more careful around sand, he thought, blinking. It seemed like some had gotten into his eye.

no, it DIDN'T.

"I'm not standing in your way anymore, so I recommend you get back in the water before somebody sees you."

it's not like he CARES or anything. BAKA.

"Stop looking at me like that." / Like one of those idiots Vermouth has eating out of her hands.

"yeah i was 1000% going to shoot up my beloved car to ensure your safety it's no big deal stop lookin at me like that" THAT LOOK IS CALLED "LOVE"!!!!!

YOU FOOL!!!!!

YOU LANKY WRECK OF A MAN!!!!!!!!!!

[tf2tomfoolery]

HELLO RANDOM GOOD NEWS >:))) Not tf2 related just wanted to rant here! tl;dr - PerhAps I'll be posting digital art here in the upcoming week (FINALLY-) because I may have found my crappy lil drawing pad's charger! :) BUNCHHH of yapping under the cut:

The charging cable for my drawing pad may be returning to me soon, meaning I'll be able to create digital art again (without straining my hand trying to draw on my laptop's mousepad BAHAHA)!

For context, I lost it around.. last year? My drawing pad won't work without it, and I was too lazy/stubborn to purchase another one. Anytime I've been digitally drawing has been using my laptop's mousepad (which is a long and tedious process, and my wrist has paid for it BAHAHAJAH). I had a sneaking suspicion that my father accidentally took my charger mistaking it for one of his. Apparently I was right, because I just brought it up with him again - he said he had recently organised some cables at his place, including one that matches the description of my drawing pad's cable. So yeah!! Next time he visits, I will have acquired The Cable, meaning I'll BE ABLE TO DIGITALLY DRAW PROPERLY AND MORE NATURALLY AND QUICKLY AGAINN A AAND AAAfhdiuk I'm so excited! :] Hopefully it's the right one, I'm sure it is.. hopefully.... fjghriilhfr

I'm especially excited over this because I've been itching to actually create (good lmao) tf2-related content, including some drawings for an awesome friend, and for an epic mutual, and I can finally Do That soon! It''s been a stupid mental block that I'm slowly crawling out of BAHAHA. Just YEAHH!!!!!1 YIPEPEEEPEPEPPEEOIFJHBJOI

[gogtropica]

Getting home from work and taking off my shoes and bra and letting my hair down and feeling relief the likes of which are only comparable to the relief a wife feels when her husband returns safe from war i think

[rats4brainzzz]

Heh.... You Don't Know Whats Coming Your Way @cupofcappuccy... ( Your DTIYS Is What >:) )

[mattynmarns]

officially obsessed with uniqlo now btw

[subzeromoron]

the urge to post my art for other fandoms on this blog despite knowing darn well that this is my enstars blog (technically)