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e. elliot. Elliot forsaken. I have to write him. I need to write about him. oh my god. this is what I became a writer for

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oh we're so back

so fortunately , episode 5 released in the time where i have the most free time ! as promised , i am reviving this stupid dead blog for a LIMITED TIME of ... somewhere before july . depends on my energy .

and in the meantime i will ANNOY EVERYONE with my STUPIDLY LONG RAGATHA ANALYSES look at this blog's theme it's the ragablog expect a lot of ragaposting

some more stuff you should know about !!

caine's not available for questions

ragatha's not infected with a virus ): she's just literally answering asks in the form of letters in this one . feel free to go crazy with that information

yeah there's still ragapom What is ask-the-rag-dolly without the doomed yuri

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i. I watched hamilton. oh my god.

i watched Hamilton live

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Hi, hello, what if,,, what if you drew ITrapped /nf /nf

THIS IS REALLY FUNNY BECAUSE I WAS JUST PLANNING TO MAKE MY DESIGN FOR HIM—

but yeah,,, err a lotta diamonds that are actually ice because he’s special like that, and he displays only one eye to minimize the likelihood of people getting a proper read on him (+bonus scary points) !!

mentioned already, but his hair is frayed at the ends due to being frozen + his fingertips are black due to stage 4 frostbite

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hey, just wondering what actually happened with angelica hamilton?

The thing is, we don't really know. Stories and sources vary as to what exactly happened, but the commonly repeated line of events go as; Angelica became depressed after the shock of Philip's death - who she had a close relationship with - and then Hamilton's death so shortly after left her in a terrible state of mental well-being.

Angelica's condition was not talked about much outside of barely surviving family letters, which is typical for 18th century medical handling, as mental health was treated as a hushed topic. It appears the only primary sources we have in regards to pinpointing the cause of Angelica's distorting health is Eliza Hamilton Holly, the youngest daughter of the Hamiltons', and Allan McLane Hamilton, Philip Hamilton's youngest son.

“We often engaged in confidential conversations, when she [Eliza Hamilton Holly] would discuss the tragedies which so clouded her life. I especially remember her dwelling upon the sad history of her sister, Angelica Hamilton, who, she told me, was in the bloom of health and surrounded by everything that goes towards making life happy when her eldest brother, Philip Hamilton, was killed in a duel. He had but recently been graduated from Columbia College and lost his life in 1801 on the same spot where, about three years later, his father was killed by Aaron Burr. This dreadful event affected her so deeply that her mind became unbalanced, and she was finally placed in an asylum, where she died at a very advanced age. Mrs. Hamilton lived in Washington, D. C., in one of the De Menou buildings on H Street, between Thirteenth and Fourteenth Streets, and Mrs. Holly resided in the same city until her death.”

(source — As I Remember: Recollections of American Society during the Nineteenth Century, by Marian Gouverneur)

“Upon receipt of the news of her brother's death in the Eacker duel, she suffered so great a shock that her mind became permanently impaired, and although taken care of by her devoted mother for a long time there was no amelioration in her condition, and she was finally placed under the care of Dr. MacDonald of Flushing, and remained in his charge until her death at the age of seventy-three. During her latter life she constantly referred to the dear brother so nearly her own age as if alive. Her music, that her father used to oversee and encourage, stayed by her all these years. To the end she played the same old-fashioned songs and minuets upon the venerable piano that had been bought for her, many years before, in London, by Angelica Church, during her girlhood, and was sent to New York through a friend of her father.”

(source — The intimate life of Alexander Hamilton, by Allan McLane Hamilton)

The issue that lies here with reliability though is that all of these are coming from the younger generation of the family. Holly was only about two, and Allan didn't even exist when Philip died, they are hardly describing these events from firsthand experience, but they are the only sources we have to even come close to understanding the situation. What is likely, is that they are just repeating what they have heard from their older family members, like the brothers or Elizabeth. In Allan's defense here, notably Phil II was seemingly close with Angelica and was likely was looking after her when Holly and Elizabeth couldn't during their excursion to the West to see William and even a few years after that. So, if Allan was getting his feedback from his relatives, like his father, his word can be trusted as a source. And the same applies to Holly, as she was the one usually caring for her alongside her mother.

There are no clear descriptions of Angelica's symptoms, or what the shock had actually done to her. Allan claims his aunt was “insane”. James Kent writing about his visit to the Grange in 1804 before Hamilton's death describes Angelica as “uncommonly simple”;

“His daughter, who is nineteen years old, has a very uncommon simplicity and modesty of deportment, and he appeared in his domestic state the plain, modest, and affectionate father and husband.”

(source — Memoirs and Letters of James Kent, by William Kent, James Kent)

Another guest at the Grange, who was recorded only as ‘Mrs. Q’, referred to who is likely Angelica, merely as “a deranged daughter”.

Despite this, Angelica proved to be at least decently lucid, or just on some occasions. Her father purchased her three or four parakeets 1802, writing that she was “very fond of birds”. Even going on trips with her family, and was hosting balls at the Grange.

Holly claims that Hamilton's death worsened Angelica's case, though there doesn't seem to be much to prove such. Unfortunately, Philip Schuyler died just a few months after Hamilton's death which also could have played a part in Angelica's health. But that is merely speculation.

While Angelica's mental well-being didn't seem to worsen, it certainly didn't get any better. She never married or lived on her own, but instead was nearly entirely dependent on her mother, who she remained in the care of, with her younger sister's assistance. However, a letter written by Mason seems to indicate Angelica was visiting the Masons in Boston. He writes that her comportment was amiable and poised, but with implications of a sort of depression like “these sorrows which probably never can be removed” about her;

“This good girl of yours has made herself extreamly acceptable to Mrs. Mason & daughter. We shall anticipate with pleasure some future opportunity to enjoy her society in Boston [...] you have in her [...] great consolation and comfort & a companion that will alleviate & soothe these sorrows which probably never can be removed.”

(source — Jonathan Mason to Elizabeth Hamilton, [1805])

With again, polarizing descriptions like Mary Ann Schuyler - wife of Philip Jeremiah Schuyler - writing to Catharine Malcolm;

“Saw all our friends [in New York City] however. I left them well excepting poor Angelica Hamilton who remains far from rational, though they flatter themselves she is recovering.”

(source — Mary Ann Schuyler to Catharine Malcolm, [May 5, 1819])

It is evident her family loved her though, and did what they could to help her, even if they didn't quite understand the cause or solution. Plenty of her siblings tried to pitch in and help their mother care for her as well.

Overall, it is undeniable Angelica suffered from some sort of mental illness, with the exception of some lucid comprehension that she still somewhat possessed that allowed her to live a semi normal life. I'm not a mental health professionalist, nor even knowledgeable in that field at all; so I hardly find myself suitable to be tossing around suggestions or any diagnosis. There is a master post about the theory Angelica may have suffered from schizophrenia that you can read if you'd like. But evidently, there aren't any implications that Angelica ever showed signs of mental illness as a child, and by all descriptions she is said to have been a talented, beautiful, and happy girl. Perhaps this is also just at the fault of scarce information, and we just don't have enough to actually deduct Angelica's mental health only spurred out of control after the continuous family deaths.

Eventually, Angelica's aging mother could no longer care for her, and with her siblings having moved on with their own lives or having passed; Angelica was soon placed in the care of a Dr. MacDonald of Flushing, Queens, where she remained for the rest of her life. As seen above, Allan claims his aunt would; “constantly referred to the dear brother so nearly her own age as if alive. Her music, that her father used to oversee and encourage, stayed by her all these years. To the end she played the same old-fashioned songs and minuets upon the venerable piano that had been bought for her, many years before, in London, by Angelica Church, during her girlhood, and was sent to New York through a friend of her father.”

Which seems to hold some truth as Angelica reportedly had her piano with her in the asylum;

“PIANOFORTE, London, ca. 1790, made by Clementi. Provenance: Mr. William Hamilton Swan and Mrs. Randolph Jenks; Mrs. Charles F. Swan (1924-1942), Sanford Hall, Flushing, N.Y.; Angelica Hamilton at Swan Hall, Angelica Hamilton at the Grange. This pianoforte was purchased by Angelica Hamilton’s aunt, Angelica Schuyler Church, in London in 1795. It is mentioned in the correspondence between Angelica Church and Elizabeth Hamilton, London, September 19, 1794, Hamilton Collection, Library of Congress, Washington, D.C. and it is also referred to in Alexander Hamilton’s cash book on August 20, 1795, when he paid 5 guineas duty. Angelica Hamilton lived at Sanford Hall until her death in 1850. The pianoforte remained there until 1924 when it was removed to the home of Mrs. Charles F. Swan a great-granddaughter of Alexander Hamilton. Whether this pianoforte was located at the Grange during Hamilton’s lifetime is not known. There is no evidence as to what, if anything, was moved from the Hamilton New York City residence to the Grange.”

(source — Hamilton-associated furnishings at Hamilton Grange with provenance)

The former Sanford Hall mental institution in Flushing

In 1848, Holly moved their 91 year old mother from New York to Washington, D.C., where she died in 1854 at the age of 97. Elizabeth requested in her will that her other children be; “kind, affectionate, and attentive to my unfortunate daughter Angelica.”

Only three years after her mother's death, in February of 1857, Angelica died at the asylum, marriage-less and without any children, in New York at the age of 72. She was buried alongside her sister, Eliza Hamilton Holly, in Westchester County, New York at Sleepy Hollow Cemetery. It appears Angelica may have already been showing signs of her coming death, as a year pior in 1856, Holly lamented Angelica's expected death and wrote; “Poor sister, what a happy release will be hers. Lost to herself a half century!”

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