#racethewind10 told me to

[2old2swiftie]

Haitch.

IMAGINE ME & YOU (2005) dir. Ol Parker

[rahleeyah]

You just know this fandom has trust issues when we get something like THAT on a promo yet half of twitter is being suspicious and negative. HOW??? No matter how this goes, it's clearly so fucking good!!!!

We have spent so long at the mercy of people who genuinely hated us and resented everything we stand for and we have time and time again been built up to hope for something good and been slapped in the face and mocked for being so stupid as to believe we might possibly one day get to have one nice thing so I'm not shocked. It's brutal out there fam.

I have taken Twitter off my phone. To tell you the truth I started spiralling into a bleak headspace about halfway thru oc last night without even glancing at Twitter, and to protect myself I'm taking a few days away.

I shared my dark thoughts last night - when my darling @racethewind10 so eloquently told me to knock it off and go the fuck to sleep - but I shared them with people who I knew a) cared about me and were interested in my opinion and b) were not vulnerable to catching the infection of existential dread I'd come down with. I don't share those thoughts widely bc I know that I'm vulnerable to the doom and gloom, and I don't want to inflict that on anyone else who might also be, who might otherwise have been perfectly content.

There's a lot of feelings and a lot of speculation, and we have entered a time that can be great - all the excitement! The hope! The joy! - and can be terrible - the looming dread! The spiralling into worst case scenarios!! - and I am not going to be participating in much speculation in the coming days for the sake of my own well being.

I want to be excited, and I am directing my energy there, but to anyone who is feeling uncertain or battling with dread I just want to say: you're not alone, and whatever happens we're gonna be ok.

[lilolilyr]

WIP Tagging Game

Tagged by @dauntlessdiva, thank you very much! ♡

Rules: post the last sentence you wrote in a WIP and tag about as many people as there are words.

Well... i have a long af sentence (that I might break into at least 2 in the final version) so tagging that many people might be a stretch xD tho I'll try!

@kaorimaxwell-blog this is from the smut fic I told you about that I'm writing inspired by part 10 of your Mirror Milippa series :D Haven't gotten very far yet, but I'm working on it! Tagging you to do this as well if you have any WIPs atm & want to share :)

She must have frozen, or shown her sudden epiphany in some other way, for Philippa let go of her breast to raise her head and look at her, question in her eyes - before she could ask, however, Michael had already bent down and caught her mouth with her own, kissing her like her life depended on it (and perhaps, in a way, it did).

64?? Did I count correctly? Bloody hell, let's see how many writeblrs I can think of.

Tagging, only if you want to of course,

@kaorimaxwell-blog

@smittyjaws

@aeternumregina

@imagitory

@innocent-gayngel

@cryhardanddanceharder

@knoepfchen

@yelowjackets

@betweencrossedblades

@salzundhonig

@bookerandy

@puppiesforfemimism

@nicky-olives

@miss-nixy

@rhubarbdreams

@lightdescending

@ongreenergrasses

@aw-hawkeye-no

@poemsingreenink

@aahaanaa

@banashee

@dauntlessdiva

@cookie-sheet-toboggan

@toboldlynerd

@nomi--sunrider

@pers-books

@startrekgeorgiouery

@onaperduamedee

@girlgoneangsty

@accio-baqat

@justanalto

@sad-tunes

@annikasevenshots

@maybebrilliant

@verbumproxen

@purlturtle

@apparitionism

@lonely-night

@francescawayland

@lestrade-london

@squishmittenficfan

@guardianrock

@xvnot15

@bobbseynumber3

@amysnotdeadyet

@marzipanilla

@ussjellyfish

@tatudobemagora

@browneyedgenius

@aliceinthinkland

@andunetir

@loved-the-stars-too-fondly

@racethewind10

@kla1991

@batnbreakfast

@daisydoctor13

@les-begay-together

@charlottepriestly

@gunbrooke

@habrenwrites

@songbookff

@cosmic-roses

@mako-and-tails-and-stuff

Whoever else wants to do it xD

- this was a bloody unnecessarily long time to spend on a tag meme, just thinking of people to tag xD

- I am 99% certain i missed some obvious writer mutuals of mine and only about 80% sure that all the people I tagged are even writers

- tumblr won't let me tag some people even tho I know for sure the URLs are correct??

- the last few tags didn't take because there's a limit of 50 apparently xD Good to know

This was fun to do, despite the idiotic extra work I gave myself xD

[wily-one24]

20 Questions

I was tagged by @theblindchick

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 amazing people you would like to get to know better.

Name: Jacqui (or Jaquelyn, if you want to get formal)

Nickname: Jacqui. I mean, SOME people call me Jac, and even fewer get answered when they do (I am telling you, if you call me Jac and you don’t get told off, then you are in my inner circle and/or I’m crushing hard on you). Usually Jacqui. 

I’ve also been called “The Angst Queen” in some fandoms (oh those were the days).

Birth Month: May

Height: 165.5cm (I *think* that’s, like, 5′4? Maybe). 

Ethnicity: Caucasion. 

Orientation: Now *that’s* a question and a half. I’ve recently thought of myself in terms of female leaning greysexual bisexual. However, I really am thinking of changing that to lesbian. But then I’ve also heard the term autochorisexual and that sounds a lot like me. 

It’s a very long way to say I don’t freaking know, but I’m cool with that. 

Favourite Fruit: Lychees

Favourite Season: Season one. 

No. but seriously, summer. I haven’t always, but lately I much prefer the heat now. The cold is not kind to me. 

Favourite Book: Oh, man. Honestly, I haven’t read many printed books lately. I used to read upwards of three or four books a week. I was constantly reading. But I just can’t get into it much anymore. 

I read fic constantly, though. It’s definitely more inclusive to me than non transformative literature. There are no constraints to be socially acceptable and, I find, it makes fic more enjoyable and relatable. 

And I’m lazy enough to enjoy reading things on my phone rather than draggin g a book around with me. 

Favourite Flowers: Gerbras.

Favourite Scent: I don’t know. I can’t really remember scents that much. My sense of smell is significantly reduced, so unless it’s really strong, I don’t smell anything. 

I remember liking freshly mown grass, melted chocolate, freshly baked cookies, baby talcum powder. 

Favourite Animal: Who has a favourite? They’re all awesome. Red pandas are adorable and awkward and I love. I’ve always liked water animals, dolphins and whales and seals. And large cats. 

Favorite Beverage: Diet lemonade, with ice. 

Average Hours of Sleep: 6-8

Favourite Fictional Characters: Awww, fuck, how long do we have? What parameters are we talking about? Current? Of ALL time? 

I will always have a special place for: Kaylee Frye, Veronica Mars, Emma Swan, Alex Danvers... my fic babies. I do torture them emotionally, like, a lot, but it’s only because I care so much. 

Number of Blankets You Sleep With: What a weird and esoteric question. I love it! Hmm, right now, I have three doonas and a throw blanket. The weight and warmth of it is soothing. In summer, I tend to have one of the doonas (a thin, summer one) on my bed and that’s it. 

Dream Trip: Somewhere tropical. An island resort. 

Blog Created: June 2012. I came here to nosy on about what people were saying about me and my fic. “Man, people are talking about Paint It Black on tumblr!”   Me: *signs up and reads everything she can find like the attention seeking whore she is*

Number of followers: 439. I have no idea how many of them are porn bots, so probably about 30 actual people. Haha, I kid. I would say at least 350 of you are real people, whether or not you still active or post or read my crap, I believe in you. 

Oh, god, now I have to tag 20 of you. Jesus. I honestly don’t even know if twenty of you still talk to me. Anyway, in no particular order:

@floorplan91, @natasi, @the-silence-in-between, @racethewind10, @evergrove, @holdwine, @absolutelyiris, @badwolfgrapesoda, @romanimp @janejuly, @oooolookashinything @chocolate-cream-soldier, @ladyfortunas @clarkebiprincess, @emptymarrow, @whoeverdares, @xraex21, @rozf

[laerryncoramar]

#god i love how they wrote Ava's character (don't get me wrong i adore Bea too okay)#but like. what an MC. the girl who never was allowed to live and now she's given a second chance#only to realize that all this only happened so she could die again#like we joke that ava is the golden retriever gf but god damn do you ever think about what's going on under the surface#she's so energetic and full of life! but this is a girl who has spent what..a decade? and change?#being told that her very existence serves no purpose and now..now she knows it DOES and that purpose is to die#so that OTHERS can live. do you ever think about how when its too dark and too quiet how ANGRY ava must have been#and how even with all that when she finally goes to fight adriel (and to die) she does it willingly#wholly embracing her fate because it means *Beatrice* gets to live? do you ever think about how many people have called Ava#selfish and spoiled (and maybe she was sometimes! because she's human!) but her heart was also so big#and so full of love that when it really comes down to it she doesn't hesitate to make the ultimate sacrifice#even though she knows from personal experience there is no 'next life' ( @racethewind10 you’re killing me)

AVA + being protective of BEATRICE

WARRIOR NUN (2020-) SEASON 2

[woodface]

Supergirl S2: United we stand, divided we fall (aka Strong Together)

The past few days I've heard several people tell me that they have or are considering to stop watching Supergirl and just enjoying the gifsets that tumblr throws at them. I can't say I'm surprised, but it does sadden me at how much the show has changed. It's a shame because I know people still enjoy the characters and (most of) their relationships. I think we all know why, but it's Sunday and if you know me, I tend to ramble on Sunday. I've been meaning to give a review of the first half of the second season and now seems as good a time as any.

Now, Supergirl has been all but a perfect show. Season 1 had its flaws: the writing was wonky in places, throwing characterisation overboard to fit the plot and the pacing of the season was terrible. There was something there, however, that had many of us turning in. (More than an amazing cast.) Supergirl was a story of hope. It was a story centred around the women in the show and their journey of becoming heroes. It was a story about found family and how after losing everything, it is still possible to heal when you open your heart for the people around you. At the heart of the show were Kara, Alex and J'onn. The three people who formed the core of the show and who despite the conflict thrown at them, were always there for each other. Stronger together.

When the show changed channels, we all saw the writings on the walls. We all held our breaths as marketing didn't seem to realise what it was that made people tune in. While the second season started a little shakily, by the third episode I was appeased. The show was still there, the Danvers sisters were fighting side by side, still being each other's back up and then… 

I miss the old days where ships were a thing that happened in the background. When subtext was what had us rooted to our screens, or what we could easily ignore when we aren't interested. Romance has been the bane of this season. But Jara, I hear you say, romance was present even in season one. You're right, and it was a tad embarrassing how many men the show threw at Kara, but it also always went back to the heart of the show. Take the finale. James and Kara get their screen time, but when the action is going, when the chips were down, it was the found family that ran through everything. The show told us how much Kara cared about everyone in her own unique way. It was J'onn who walked out with Kara to defend this earth that had become his new home. It was Kara who struggled to say goodbye to Alex, and Alex who refused to give her up. Where movies and other shows would have focussed on the romance, this show put family at its heart. Romance was secondary. Kara was learning to become Kara Zor-El before anything else. Being a girlfriend was second or third. 

Much has changed since then, and nothing was more painful to me than seeing the last episode and having Kara say she always has to fight alone. She's almost desperate to have Mon-El become a superhero was so she would have someone with powers fighting at her side, conveniently forgetting that J'onn had always been there, that Alex will fly into space or jump to an alien planet to get her back. In that one sentence, the show summarised exactly what has been wrong with its second season: romance is no longer second place. It has become first place and found family is taking a backseat to everything else. 

It took them ten episodes to give us a decent moment between Kara, Alex and J'onn. You could argue that this is natural, that conflict keeps things interesting and we'll get there in the end. I have no doubt that we'll see glimpses of our found alien family, but this used to be the glue that held everything together. Stronger together has been hollowed out as Kara, Alex and J'onn are isolated in their own stories and their lines seldom cross. 

The Danvers sisters rarely get moments together, and when they do, it's generally to talk about the romance. Alex is no longer Kara's mentor. They don't hit the training mats anymore, and while they're still supportive and the actors make certain that we see their bond, the show is no longer putting it central to its story telling. 

Kara has become isolated, her actions more and more fuelled by protecting Mon-El and getting him to become the hero she thinks he should be. While this could be an interesting take, after all, it might be evidence of Kara struggling to go back to not having Clark there, this is not what it's about. It's not Kara's struggle, but it is Mon-El's. That in itself wouldn't be so bad if only Kara did have her own storyline, but she doesn't. We don't see Kara growing as a superhero, she's trampling in place and getting isolated as the show puts her in function of Mon-El. Meanwhile James is learning to be a superhero as well, which in a way removes how Winn and James would be what reminded Kara what it was like to be human. 

Now, CatCo has always grated on me so I admit that I was glad to hear Cat Grant was gone. I was hoping her removal would mean that the show would have an easier time to balance out Kara's plot. The division between the DEO and CatCo was always superficial to me and diluted storylines where it shouldn't have. Episode 3 to me is the best example at how well the lesser attention to CatCo works. Sadly, TPTB seem to enjoy juggling too many storylines at once and we're still getting too much plot crammed into one. I keep being reminded of @racethewind10's mantra: this show needs to pick character over plot. My hope was that less CatCo would help with this, but so many new characters have been added, each with their own separate storyline that it hasn't happened. Character moments are so rushed and hamfisted in its delivery, it's almost painful to watch. 

While the plot was suffering in season 1 as well, we got some amazing character moments. I'm thinking of Kara facing the robber without her powers, Alex screaming and begging at Kara to come back to her, Alex and Kara supporting J'onn as his past comes back to haunt him. There were so many strong moments that were truly moving, but season two has had very little… The few we did have were tied to Alex and her journey of self-discovery. They were delivered between Kara and Alex. 

The difference between how Kara and James were treated versus how Kara and Mon-El is treated is huge, where James was always a player in Kara's story, this isn't the case now. Never mind how the change in romance was handled. I actually could completely understand when Kara broke up with James. Her realisation that she needed to find herself first fitted well. I bought it and could actually applaud it. However, that character moment (one of the last Kara was allowed) was completely retconned when TPTB decided to throw Kara at the next available guy that crossed her path. 

How can we believe that after barely any time between her breakup, Kara who had no other character development whatsoever, can suddenly come back and be interested in Mon-El. Such is life? Perhaps, sometimes loves hits us at the most awkward moments, but the way Kara has been treating him like a little brother (or a replacement for Kal-El) to suddenly this arc where Kara is only fighting for him and can only think of Mon-El as her backup when the going gets tough… It comes out of nowhere and is completely out of character for the girl who would always turn to her found family and would live by the creed of Stronger Together. 

It's true that Kara has been isolated, however. J'onn is a bit in a world of his own and Alex has her own romance story that has been monopolising her time, and here lies the rub. I don't want to make light of the importance of Alex's character development (at least she has some). Representation matters and the message the show is sending with Alex is powerful and so much needed. I want to look beyond this for a moment, however, because this has been another key part of how the show has changed. 

Alex's romance is not a natural development within the show. We all knew Alex was gay without needing to be told, but the show runners decided to treat this as a completely new discovery. That in itself should not be a problem, but they brought in a completely new character who has no other purpose to fill than to be Alex's love interest. As a series regular, this is problematic because Maggie had no natural place within the storyline. She's a cop and has no ties to anyone else. To make this work, TPTB changed the universe of our show (I'm sure there's more it than that, but it does seem to be a part of it). Maggie knows about aliens, has been friendly towards them all her life and has a job at the NCPD handling said aliens. That's the common ground the worked into the show to have Maggie and Alex meet. 

However, in order for them to continue meeting, they had to come up with ways to have Maggie show up. So what happened is that Alex and Maggie got their own plot, separate from everyone else's. Kara would get drawn in occasionally (because you really can't separate those two completely), but for the most part, Maggie's only point of contact with anyone else is Alex. Furthermore, to have an excuse to have Maggie around, the role of the DEO has been lessened and with it, J'onn's role as well. Now imagine if the show had used Lucy or Vasquez and given a more natural progression for Alex's self-discovery, where the romance would fit right into the main plot and not water down the importance of the DEO. 

Instead Alex gets her own storylines while Kara and the others have their own. While I love seeing a different side to Alex, it means that she was effectively replaced in the main Kara storyline by either Winn (when it involves science) or James and Mon-El when it comes to fighting scenes. Alex's relationship with J'onn got watered down as she no longer was there for much of the big plots, and Alex no longer is Kara's main backup. Yes, there's been exceptions, but this is a trend where the men replace Alex as our kicking ass human hero. 

After all, James is now the human who gets to beat up bad guys and wants to make the world a better place. M'gann and Kara have had a stronger bond with J'onn than Alex does. Danvers sister moments are replaced by Alex hanging out with Maggie. While this might balance out as Alex's sexuality becomes a simple fact rather than a huge revelation, I'm not confident that we're going to return there. After all, Mon-El has been slowly taking over Alex's role when it comes to Kara. Alex was always the one with one foot in reality, evening Kara's goodness and innocence out. (Remember her threatening Lord.) Slowly the show has been pushing Mon-El to take that position because Alex is too tied up in being in love. 

Don't get me wrong, I love seeing Alex happy. I love that we got such a positive storyline on television. I love the moments when Kara gets to be supportive of Alex. I want Alex to actually think of herself for once, but that does not negate the fact that it's another part that has the glue of our show crumbling down. 

Alex's romance story has effectively removed her from the main plot where she used to be at the centre with Kara. Do you remember how many times they'd end up fighting and checking in at the middle of the fight to make sure the other is okay? We've had so little of these moments because Alex basically rarely gets to be there anymore as the side characters take up her space. 

The show has screwed itself over by bringing in too many new characters and wanting to tell too many stories at once (the latter is an old issue that's gotten worse). They've separated the main three characters from each other and have removed what was the heart of the show. It's still there, but less so and the moments that we should see are rushed or simply don't happen because a romance scene gets precedence over them now. 

Supergirl is simply not the same show anymore. Kara was a different superhero. Not only because she's a woman, but because she knew she shouldn't do this alone. Because she had her friends around her, her found family, which kept her going and saw her through. She was working through so much pain and suffering, but she managed to hold on to her kindness. 

Supergirl was a show about Kara, but they're trying to turn it into an ensemble show where the female heroes are defined by their romance stories and the men learn how to be heroes. That's not the show I signed up for. That's not the show I fell in love with. I am disappointed and saddened any time I see those pictures of all those little girls excited to meet Melissa Benoist, to meet Supergirl. I am saddened because they deserve better and so do we.

[rahleeyah]

I want to start by saying thank you! I'm a long time ao3 and ffnet lurker, but new to tumbler. I grew up with SVU (it premiered when I was 14) and EO was definitely my first 'ship, even if I didn't know what that meant. Finding y'all, it's felt like coming home!

That said, I stopped watching when Stabler left and only since his return have I started to watch again, and also go back and rewatch from the beginning.... I've got questions!

Was Melinda around when Liv was kidnapped by Lewis? Is it possible that through Melinda, Elliot will find out what happened to Liv? Maybe Melinda will say something in passing to him, assuming Liv has told him? I feel like Warner always knew what was up between E&O.

Phoebe. Has Munch met her?? Did anyone mention she looks an awful like a vic Munch had a soft spot for back in season one?!? LOL Or is this one of those L&O Universe things we don't talk about, like how Casey Novak looks suspiciously like a perp they arrested for raping a stripper in season 3?

Sorry this got away from me and became so long. So happy to be here reliving my angst with you all!

Oh my gosh welcome aboard friend!!! I am just absolutely loving how all of us old fans got reactivated like sleeper agents and are finding our way to each other. It is like coming home!!! It's a beautiful thing!!! To come back to these familiar faces, these familiar stories, after so long away... I'm getting emotional just thinking about it lmao

Melinda was, iirc, sort of tangentially around when Liv was taken. Like no longer main cast but still poking her head in from time to time. But she definitely would know and GOD for Elliot to hear about it from someone else???? 🔪🔪🔪🔪 Lmao like. Warner totally knows something was up between them. Liv has been so tightly controlled around him so far I can totally see it coming to that, that she never says a word but someone else does.

I mentioned this to @racethewind10 - good lord what if Elliot ran into Cassidy. What if it was Cassidy who told him, Cassidy who probably resents the hell out of him, Cassidy who was left trying to hold Liv together after she was taken - through the nightmares, through the flashbacks, God through everything - and Cassidy sees the two of them and he just. He wants to protect Liv but he wants to make Elliot hurt too. I may write that lmao

And oh my gosh 🤣🤣🤣I know this show has been on the air forever but there are SO MANY recycled actors it's hilarious. Bless their hearts.

You come and yell in my inbox any time you want friend!!! I'm so glad you're with us 💜

[rahleeyah]

Ok @racethewind10 and @featherpluckn svu polycule barbeque here we gooooooo

It's labor day. And Elliot and Liv have been working a lot and they both want to spend time with Kathy and the kids and Maureen is coming to spend the weekend with her boyfriend and Kathy tells Liv to invite Alex bc she knows how those two are together and she figures if Mo sees Liv and Alex together she won't notice how Kathy/Elliot/Liv are together. It's a faint hope

When Alex gets there, in like. Linen pants and an expensive blouse, she finds Liv in cut off jeans and a tank top playing football with the kids (Katie and Lizzie vs Dickie and Liv) and her hair is tied back in a ponytail and her necklaces are bouncing against her tanned skin and for a second Alex fully hates herself for being in love with a woman who's wearing jorts.

Kathy is sitting in a lawn chair with little Eli asleep on her lap.

Elliot is by the grill.

"Cabot! Now the party's started. Lemme get you beer"

"who are you and what have you done with Elliot Stabler"

He grins and as he walks by her on his way to the cooler he smacks her ass.

No one notices but Kathy, who rolls her eyes

"he's in a mood" she says. "Come sit in the shade with me"

So Alex - who is so pale she'll burn if she doesn't close the blinds on her office windows - sits next to Kathy, big straw hat on her head to protect her nose, and Elliot brings her a beer, kisses Kathy's forehead and ruffles Eli's hair while he's there

"they look happy" Alex says, while they're all watching Olivia playing with the kids.

"yeah she does" Elliot says.

Kathy and Alex know what he means. Liv has had a hard road. But there, in the sunshine, laughing, ponytail bouncing, she just looks. Happy.

The game breaks up about the time Mo and her boyfriend get there. They're making introductions when Liv comes up and takes the beer right out of Elliot's hand and takes a long drink.

Literally no one thinks this is weird except Mo's boyfriend.

Then again after everything she told him about her parents, he didn't expect her parents to be best friends with a lesbian couple either so he figures maybe he was just being judgmental

Kathy goes inside to get the rest of the fixings for the burgers and Alex volunteers to help bc she wants to be in the AC for a minute.

Kathy gives the baby to Olivia.

Maureen watches this. She has never seen them like this, Liv with the baby on her hip like he belongs there, standing by the grill, laughing with Elliot, the four of them so easy together, and it's freaking her out a little

Kathleen notices

"don't make it weird. It works for them."

Elliot takes the beer out of Liv's hand

"what works for them"

Kathy and Alex emerge from the house carrying lettuce and kraft singles and ketchup and mustard and tomatoes and whatever else and Alex is exasperatedly trying to explain to Kathy about cheese and their shoulders are brushing and

"Katie what the hell is-"

"don't make it weird"

Mo decides that discretion is the better part of valor

Meanwhile, at the grill

"you gonna flip those any time soon"

"do you want to do this?"

"well I mean yeah if you're offering"

"like you know how to grill a burger"

"I know you need to flip them"

"I'll flip them when I'm good and ready"

Kathy and Alex are setting things up on a picnic table and Kathy rolls her eyes at them

"are they like this at work?"

"honestly? They're worse. At work they're carrying guns"

"ok children" Kathy says. She steps up between them and settles a hand on each of their backs. "Are they close?"

"yeah, go ahead and get the kids to the table"

Liv and Kathy and Alex shuffle everybody to the table, make the younger kids wash their hands, pour drinks. Liv is still holding Eli. Elliot discreetly flips the burgers while she's not watching

They all cheer when he brings them to the table, and it's all easy laughter and hands reaching and Liv is holding the baby and Mo realizes Kathleen was right. This is working for them. They're happy.

Alex gets em going with some story about something stupid Elliot did and Mo's boyfriend is watching these three women tease him mercilessly and wondering how it's possible that he still looks smug

"was that more or less stupid than the time Cupid threw you through a plate glass window"

"I'm not the one who accidentally got stoned on mushrooms"

"hey I wasn't stoned I was really sick!!"

"I'm not the one who stabbed the captain with a pickle. I swear to God Liv I thought you'd lost it"

"they're kinda cute" Mo's boyfriend tells her in a whisper. She shoots him a murderous look and he wisely takes a drink instead

"so" Alex turns to him and he wishes she wouldn't bc God is she pretty and her top is low cut but she's got eyes like a shark "tell us a little bit about yourself"

And all four of them are looking at him now and he gulps bc it was bad enough when he'd thought he had to impress Maureen's parents, but now he's got the killer lesbians to worry about too

But they have a nice time. The sun goes down, everybody who can is drinking - Liv slips Lizzie a sip of her beer and Alex feels bad for Dickie so she does the same while giving him a lecture about underage drinking - and the kids are running over the grass and Elliot and Liv and Kathy and Alex and Maureen and her boyfriend linger at the table. Eli is now asleep on his dad. It's nice.

They send everybody off to bed and the grownups start to clean up. Boyfriend offers to help, but quickly realizes they don't need him, and he goes to find Mo.

They don't mean to. Kathy has put Eli down and the kids are all in bed, Maureen's boyfriend has been relegated to the sofa but he's in the bathroom when they linger by the door. They need to call a cab for Alex and Liv, but...

"it's late" Kathy says, and she tangles her fingers with Liv's and looks up at Elliot with that pretty little pout he can't say no to.

"you think you can be quiet?" He says to Alex.

"you wanna find out?"

They tiptoe up the stairs together.

They strip each other bare. There's no rhyme or reason to it; just hands and lips trailing against skin and there's a king size bed they all go tumbling into, but they're trying not to move too much and they're all a little drunk and a little tired and they just end up a tangle of limbs and gently exploring fingers, whispers turning into light snores

Maureen's boyfriend sneaks into her bedroom

"my dad is gonna kill you if he catches you"

"trust me, he's not gonna. He's busy"

"what do you-"

"they didn't leave, Mo"

She groans and buries her face in his chest

She's up with the sun, a little stressed, a little confused, and she goes into the kitchen where she finds Liv, wearing one of Elliot's shirts over her jorts, Eli on her hip, making coffee

"you want some" she asks, very gently

She looks soft, and sweet, and happy, so Maureen just says yes. She'll worry about the rest of it later.

[goldenwanderer]

#yeah im sorry (im not sorry) i cannot take Christine/Spock seriously lmao#its either Christine/T'Pring or THIS#like come the fuck on#you expect me to buy that Christine is really into Spock when Christine/Joseph and their Shared Trauma is right there???#and like. not just the Trauma but the trust#the shared understanding of 'sometimes people have to do Bad Things to protect what you love' and they are going to be those people#they will do those things#and they will struggle with that but they also won't let it break them#and the best part is the sheer RANGE that's literally right there in canon with these two#canon 'id rather die with you'#canon 'do what you have to i've got your back'#canon 'im not going to judge you for the things you did because id do them too'#even a strictly platonic reading is SO INTERESTING and layered#because of what they went through together on J'Gal#like you know Christine went to Joseph's tent some nights when she couldn't sleep#or when she saw that look on his face that told her Joseph wouldn't be able to sleep#so she goes to him and sometimes they just hold each other#and sometimes they play shitty card games and sometimes they fuck and sometimes they sob into the other person's shoulder#gay new worlds#also it doesn't help that Jess and Babs have more interesting chemistry than Jess and Ethan yeah i said it lol

@racethewind10

we've gotten out of worse not really

[rahleeyah]

i’m trying to recover as quickly as possible - I can start doing short walks tomorrow, but no lifting anything until the doctor clears me, and no hiking/running/going to the gym for 3-4 weeks, which will be torture for your poor anon 😩

favorite animal: pet-wise, cats. i have two of the best kitties in the world. i also have a dog who is the light of my life (he’s staying with family until I can walk him again)

if we’re talking all animals, foxes. there’s something about them - clever and scrappy and tough and cute all at once.

favorite book: of the moment? i recently read ‘furious hours’ about a murder case in Alabama and the manuscript that Harper Lee was writing about it (and never published) before she became a recluse.

of all time: ‘the stranger’ by albert camus (again, my penchant for being pretentious and esoteric) but i do love it

and i haven’t read that book, but will add it to my list! I’m always looking for recs, and if it’s gonna give me insight into madam liv… 👀

what are your favorites?

and to go along with people submitting e/o songs: what’s your favorite album? or favorite artist?

Oh my goodness that is a long time to be out of the game anon. I wish you the best of luck.

Sammy is routinely told that he is the worst cat bc when I brought him home I was living with my best friend and her cat, and that's what we used to say to Reese so that's what we said to Sam and now here we are. Reese still owns my own whole heart, I am such a cat person, so I feel you on this - and I know it will be hard to be separated from your pup but I hope the time will pass quickly for you both!!

And @andallthatmishigas also loves foxes!!!! What a good choice

I have not read either of your faves, I am ashamed to say, and I am adding them to the list.

The kushiel series is sexy, bisexual, philosophical, and french, and truly a delight. There is a convention in the books that I intend to borrow for madam Liv thanks to a suggestion from @racethewind10 but I won't say anything else about it now 🤣

Let's see my favorites? I am of course fond of bunnies - that's like. Part of my identity at this point - but actually the answer is bears. I just. Really love bears.

Favorite book? I am cursed by favorites questions, bc I seem to always forget everything I've ever heard/seen/read and my brain just goes [Jeopardy music]. But let's see. I always say the belgariad, and yes there's 12 of them but they are one very long story and it is such a fundamental piece of like. Who I am as a person. I've re read all of them once year, every year, since I was about 12. Usually around Christmas. They remind me of home, and my mother, and there is nothing like the opening pages - always skip the prologues - and Eddings waxing lyrical about the warmth of a kitchen to make me feel at peace. What is fate? What is home? What is family? What is duty? And what is life without hope? The books ask those questions, and answer them - along with some interesting musings on the nature of time - in a way that has shaped my worldview and slipped into my writing in many different ways.

Favorite albums? I listened to Chris Stapleton's Traveler on repeat in my car for like a full year. Flogging Molly's Float got me through a really difficult point in my life when I couldn't listen to anything else but if I'm being honest Drunken Lullabies is more important to me. The Avett Brothers' Emotionalism. And Cleopatra by The Lumineers. I think. I think there may be a theme here.

Favorite artist? All the ones listed above and Luke Combs bc he never misses.

Ok now please hit me with your favorite musicians/albums and also: do you have a favorite piece of art? Painting/sculpture/what have you

[eoangstlover56]

Ok here’s the flip side:

-This was advertised for months as a HEALING arc for Olivia, it was meant to be her working through her trauma. But we didn’t get that. We just got her having more trauma and having to do everything alone again DESPITE the promo telling us ‘she won’t do it alone’ while she did. Cause the show is hell bent on having the mindset that she’s a badass and can handle anything and I’m so sick of it. Let her lean on someone. Let her have comfort. Stop piling pain on her and then just act like she’s over it. I thought we’d get a therapy scene or they’d show her being triggered (granted they did with the shotgun scene) but I just…I’m tired of her having to suffer in silence because she’s ‘strong’ crying in the arms of the man she loves would NOT have been weak. Yeah I’m gonna yell about the promo being cut in a minute but wanted to say that first

-this show really sucks at editing and putting boring unnecessary scenes in and wasting time they could be keeping important parts in. EO deserved more than a 2 minute scene. The fin/Bruno case was boring and honestly what the heck is going on with Velasco? Why couldn’t they have put a scene with El and Noah while he drove him home? Or extended the apartment scene or SOMETHING. And the end of that case was so rushed I honestly feel like it would’ve made more sense for this to have been a 2 hour special or something. We’re just supposed to take oscar papa’s word for it that Noah is safe? Really?

-wasn’t really surprised that Duarte was killed but what I WILL say bugged me was that scene with him and Olivia at the bar because why is she suddenly having a change of heart about this guy? He’s not a good cop. He ignored a rape tree for a year. I don’t understand why all the sudden he and Olivia were friends after she was pissed at him in the last episode?

-ok the apartment scene. I honestly am ok that we didn’t get a kiss. We got an almost kiss and it was still more intimate than what we’ve gotten. And I GET why Olivia isn’t ready yet because she’s still hurt and I also think she knew that they wouldn’t be able to stop at a kiss they’d end up in bed together and that’s a LOT to think about right now after the week she’s had. I have even come around to liking the “I knew you’d try to protect me” line after reading @fairydyke-mothr’s perspective because yeah there IS an innate feeling there deep down that he would’ve been there and that even though she doesn’t feel like she can fully trust him with her heart yet she knows she can trust him with her safety because yeah…her instinct was to tell Lewis her old partner would’ve known what to do with him because she knows if he knew he would’ve been there. And maybe part of that instinct is also what told her she could trust El with Noah because she’s seen this man with children and she knows he would never hurt a child and she could trust him to bring her boy home safe. And maybe she partly did that because she wanted to see him (El) too so it was a good excuse

Here’s where I’m still struggling:

It still doesn’t feel like there’s really continuity or communication on and between SVU and OC. I wanna know how we got from El last week saying he lost a close friend/partner to him in her kitchen almost kissing her (although someone did say on here that it looked like he was ducking his head to meet her eyes rather than trying to kiss her. @racethewind10 I think and yeah I like that better). I wanna know how we went from “let’s wait ok. Noah gets attached easily” to him picking up her son. I wanna know how we got from “he left me Amanda and I’m not over it” to her basically saying the reason she wasn’t ready was because she was scared it wouldn’t work out (and not because she’s hurt). I wanna know if he knows about Noah being adopted because like…that conversation has to have happened right? I mean he’s going to pick her son up at his half brother’s no questions asked? I want her and us to get answers about why he left and I want them to have the Lewis convo even if it’s not an in-depth one. Like I don’t know it just feels like they’re giving us these cute scenes but it feels shallow and then there’s no follow up. Are they just gonna go back to pretending each other doesn’t exist again for 6 months? Or is this gonna be the start of some real progress and continuity? And I get that they can’t show everything in a 40 minute episode but they can give us something. My main problem with tuckson was always that there was know buildup/backstory of how that happened and it felt shallow and I really don’t want that for EO. They need to work through the hurt

-lastly I am still disgusted by the flat out lie the promo was. For two weeks we were teased with what looked like a very meaningful scene. No I was never expecting a kiss. But Olivia crying in Elliot’s arms? She deserved to have that. And you know Chris and mariska acted their hearts out and it just…it was a terrible editing decision and marketing decision and a disservice to these characters and their history. I may not have been so upset if we hadn’t been baited with that promo. That wasn’t normal baiting that was cruel. And for what? Literally what was the reason? Because they wanted Olivia to be badass and having her finally lean on someone and release her pain was a hinder to that? 🤬 shame on whoever cut that. We were also led to believe with the ‘she won’t do it alone’ that he would be helping her take down BX9 or helping protect Noah or something. We didn’t even get them working together again.

So those are my thoughts. I hope I’m pleasantly surprised and something happens later this season to improve things

Ok so before I say anything else this is only based on my watch of SVU I have not watched the OC episode yet. Will have to do that tomorrow.

Now that I’ve watched the episode I am not quite as upset as I was before. I do still have some issues with it but first here’s what I loved:

-Olivia being mama bear, threatening oscar papa and the whole ‘no one gets away with trying to kill my son. If you say one more word it will be your last”

-the Fin/Olivia phone call and that we get continuity of her being upset that yet another person left as she looks at Amanda’s desk and telling fin “are you gonna leave me too” and his reassurance that no he is not. I LIKE that we did see her tired and hurt for a moment. I just wish she wasn’t alone but I’ll get to that when I talk about my dislikes.

-I like that there are still Amanda mentions on the show with Carisi still being on there. Proof that they in fact CAN imply that a relationship is still occurring in a characters personal life without that person always being in an episode

-I like that now when Elliot is mentioned people have stopped talking shit about him or trying to tell her to keep her distance etc instead we just get Carisi smirking at Olivia saying she was gonna meet El and Noah at home

-I LOVE Olivia’s new apartment. It’s so spacious and honestly she deserves a space that’s hers and Noah’s and that doesn’t have memories of her being with Brian and the early days of her trauma after Lewis etc

-I can’t remember who it was on here that originally pointed out the artwork and how it looked like Elliot and Noah might’ve made some art together for Olivia? Maybe @elliot-olivia but like YES that is so deliciously domestic I wish We could’ve seen it

-Elliot telling Olivia “you’re family” is actually HUGE and I glossed over it the first time I saw the clip but like remember in Philadelphia when she said “I’ve been alone my whole life” and we all were wishing he’d said “no you’re not you have me” well that’s pretty much what he did and YESSS

-them moving through her kitchen being all domestic with him planning to make her tea and her looking for the sugar 🥺❤️ be still my heart

-ok NOW this part thank you to @det1stgrstabler @fairydyke-mothr and others for helping me see the convo in a different way because initially I felt like his “why’d you call me?” And “Liv look at me” were kinda…cold or demanding or something? But I think a lot of that was because I was expecting a hug so it didn’t seem as soft as I wanted but now that I’ve watched it again he’s gentle/soft with her he just…he loves and wants her so bad and she loves and wants him too and it probably is a little frustrating that he’s putting himself out there only to be rejected even though we and he understand why she’s rejecting him. And I think it was @thisismehappy that said they thought he realized in this scene just how much he really fucked up with her? Which is a good thing and could lead to something. Hopefully

-she tells him “I want to” twice because she wants him to know that she loves him she’s just scared 🥺 and I hope this means they are gonna try to work through the fear. I also agree with @rahleeyah (pretty sure it was you but I’ve read so many blogs today lol) that her “what if it doesn’t work out” is not neccesarily that Elliot specifically would leave her again but that she’s used to losing things so many times she’s afraid this will just be another thing and she knows that would break her (I’m paraphrasing cause Leah articulated this way better than me lol but I read that and was like ahhh yes)

-we didn’t get a hug or a face cradle but we DID get them leaning into each other and an almost kiss and a face nuzzle and what I swear was a kiss on the cheek or at least a loving caress and it was sexy 😍🔥 and sweet

-lastly I’m choosing to believe he stayed like @calliopecantaloupes said

Will discuss my problems with it later tonight as we just got to the hospital to see my grandma. Please keep her in your prayers if you believe in that or send good vibes ❤️

[solvingpuzzles-savingtheday]

#person of interest#Sameen shaw#so i have a lot of feels about how Cole hid his feelings for Shaw#and literally only told her as he was dying that he cared for her in a way that went beyond friends#and to be 1000% clear I loved Cole and I think whatever his reasons for not telling  Shaw how he felt he also respected her#and never acted like he thought she owed him anything  or should return those feelings okay? this is not in any way anti - Cole#but he never told her. until he died. and it was too late. Look at Shaw's face and the impact that makes#would she ever have been able to have a relationship with Cole? we'll never know and I think he knew her well enough never to expect#that she could reciprocate his emotional attachment but she *cared* about him and she didn't know how much he felt for her#when you're someone like Shaw - who has to consciously work at emotional intelligence - that's got to leave a mark#she missed something important#contrast that with Root#Root who tells Shaw#all#the#time#how important she is and makes it so explicit that she loves Shaw and yes we see Shaw acting like that's not a big deal sometimes#but don't tell me its not#don't tell me knowledge isn't comforting  to Shaw - even if she can't return Root's feelings exactly she *knows* what those feelings are#anyway there's no point to this i just think its really important Root's always been so explicitly honest with Shaw#even if sometimes she uses that honesty to be kind of a little shit its a good thing for Shaw (via @racethewind10)

I never had many friends. Didn’t have much use for ‘em. Cole was an exception.