#r5 imagine

[jscameron]

imagine dating ross lynch

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i feel like he would be such a goofy guy to be with! but also the sweetest and sassiest. 🥺🧡 he’d drive you around in his bmw, wearing the sexiest outfit, but also checking you out in the passenger seat, just in awe of your beauty. he’s also, definitely, thinking about you without your clothes on.

he would definitely take you anywhere you want to go; shopping, hockey and basketball games, concerts (even though he can get you into his own shows for free). he would want to show you off to the world, proud that you’re his and that he’s yours. also, i feel like he would take you out to a lot of food truck dates, and just drive you around for hours. 😍

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should i write about him? send me requests if you’re interested!

[decodedlvr]

I need him biblically.

[katiascraft]

HELLO LOVERS

I am back officially if university doesn’t kill me or life or love or my mental health :3

Anddddd I’m going to renovate the account a little bit for sure. Also, I’m gonna start writing Ross lynch content soooo I would like you to tell me if you’re down for the ride !!

Leave some suggestions of what you would like to read about him down below in the comments.

I went to a TDE concert last week and now I’m obsessed 🤧 BEST SHOW SO FAR

See u soon my loves

𓆩♱🤍₊˙ 🧸 ♡♱𓆪 ur fav girl catie

[redbean-nom]

imagine the sequel trilogy. except it's these guys.

[amandamgsblog]

Chapter 15 - Passings and Parents - Part 2

awwn, baby Ross is so cute!!!! The little hands!

Amanda's POV

Before I walked in, I held his hand and said a little worried:

— Ross, I've never done this before. What if they don't like me? Or can't hear me? I'm not even that presentable…

— Amanda, look at me… - He takes my hands. — What did a beautiful little girl say to me when I went to meet her mother? To be myself. You're my Amanda and you just need to be yourself. - I feel my eyes fill with tears. I'm very sensitive right now. — You're looking good, and my parents already like you. My mother cried when she heard your story, and my father's jaw dropped.

They helped me so much to know that I was in love and they celebrated a lot when we got together… It's going to be okay.

I smile and hug him around the waist.

— Are they here? - I ask.

— They've gone to buy us a snack. We're going to have some time alone.

We sit, cuddled up, on the sofa.

— I still can't believe he's gone… - I say with my voice breaking. Ross hugs me tighter.

— I know that it hurts, but think that it was his time to go and that he loved you and your family very much…

— I know. - The tears come. — I shouldn't be like this. I'm here with you, I'm going to meet your parents…

— It's normal, sweetheart. When I lost my grandfather, dad's father, I was down for more than a week. Cry all you need to.

— I'm so tired of crying lately… Out of nowhere I cry, I feel sad.

— As soon as this medication adjusts, you'll get better, Amandita. - He sighs and picks me up.

— AH!

— Sorry, haha. Let's go to the bedroom and get some rest. - I smile and wrap my arms around his neck.

— My mom's right, Ross, you're my guardian angel. - He smiles, kisses me on the forehead and puts me to bed. I take off my shoes while he closes the curtains and the door. He lies down and hugs me. I'm glad he's so sweet. I focus on his heart beating and fall asleep.

Ross' POV

— Ross? We're here.

— Bedroom. - I say it not too loud, so as not to wake her. — Shhh… - I say to my mother as soon as she enters the room. — She's finally asleep. - I smile at her.

— She's beautiful, my son. - My mother strokes Amanda's loose hair.

— Yes, she is. - I look at her fondly.

— Well, your father's preparing the snack. As soon as she gets up, you'll come.

I spend some more time lying with my girlfriend, until she gets up.

— Hi. - She says sleepily. I smile.

— Hi, sweetie… Feeling better?

— I'm sorry if I cried on you.

— No problem. My parents have already arrived and made us a snack. Do you want to eat?

— Yes. I'm nervous about meeting them…

— You don't have to be. I'll be by your side the whole time. - She puts on her shoes and faces me, hugging me.

— Thank you, blondie. For helping me, for being my best friend and my boyfriend. - She looks at me and kisses me. I kiss back and say:

— Hey, it's the duty of every best friend and boyfriend to make his girlfriend happy and smile. I'm doing my job. You're special and amazing and, as I said the day I asked you out, you're not going to be alone.

— You're the best. - And she takes my hand. Before we leave the room, she takes a deep breath.

— Mom, dad, Amanda's here, but she's embarrassed. I told her she doesn't have to…

— Hi, sweetheart, you don't have to be afraid. - My mother says. Amanda comes out of my room and smiles, waving at them.

— Hi, my name is -

— We've finally met her! - My father runs up to her and hugs her tightly. Amanda is startled, but laughs.

— Dad, you'll break her like that. Let her go!

— Tight hug, huh? Hi, Mr. Lynch…

— My name's Mark, but you can call me Dad…

— Mom, what's wrong with him? - I ask her to come, already desperate.

— He said that when he got here, he was going to give her a tight hug, so she'd feel better…

— If she feels anything, she's blue! She'll become an Avatar! - The two of them were still hugging and I heard him say:

— (…) You make Ross very happy, you know that? You can come here any time, we'll welcome you. You're family now. And I'm sorry about your uncle, I'm glad you didn't stay alone and came here…

— I appreciate everything, Mark. It's okay if I say your name in Portuguese, isn't it? Can you hear me in that tone of voice?

— Of course, darling. - He laughs.

— Mark, enough, I wanna be with her too… - My mother broke the embrace between the two of them and hugged Amanda, ever so gently. - I'm sorry about my husband, he's silly on a daily basis, but he wanted to make you smile. My name is Stormie. So nice to meet you! Did he hurt you with the hug?

— My pleasure. No, he didn't, haha… - My mother shakes her head, encouraging Amanda to speak. — Today was a difficult day, and I wanted to stay here. I can't believe I was afraid you wouldn't like me or that you wouldn't hear my normal voice…

— Ross told us that you did speech therapy for a long time because of the sequelae. You're a warrior, my love… You don't have to force your voice. And he told me about your uncle. I'm really sorry. Do you want to spend the night here?

— Thank you, ma'am. - I saw that Amanda was getting emotional, so I approached her and put my hand on her shoulder.

— I told you not to be nervous. Please stay…

— I don't know if my mother will let me, but I want to.

— We'll sort it out in a second. - My mother smiles and continues talking to her.

— She's everything you said. - My father hugs my shoulders and smiles.

We ate and had a good chat.

— See? It all worked out. - I smile and we go to my room.

— It did. I loved your parents. They're so nice and caring, they treated me like their daughter.

— I'm sorry about my dad. Did he hurt you?

— No, of course not. He's funny. Now I know why you're silly too. - I smile and she hugs me, sitting us on the bed.

— I hope you are better.

— Yes, I am. - She kisses my cheek. — I really wanted to stay a bit longer, but my mom's back.

— Can I at least show you a song I wrote? - Her eyes sparkle. — Remember the day you were sad, and you told me that you were angry, and that your uncle wasn't responding to the treatment and you started crying? And I kept humming in your ear?

Amanda takes my hand, saying “yes”, and I continue.— Right in class, I wrote down the lines and wrote the song myself.

— Naughty boy. - She pretends to be surprised and laughs. I pick up my guitar and start playing.

Sometimes love's a scary place

It's like standing in the dark

Flying through the universe

Trying to fix your broken heart

It's okay to let it go

You don't have to be so brave

Take a chance if someone else

Is gonna sweep in and save the day

You don't have to face your fears alone

'Cause whenever you're in trouble

I'll know

Let me be your superhero

There isn't a place I won't go

Whenever you need me by your side

I'll be there, be there

Never be afraid if you fall

I'll carry you away from it all

Let me be your superhero

Let me be your superhero

Take off your mask, put down your guard

Don't need a symbol on your chest

It's all right for once to play

The damsel in distress

You're gonna use up all your strength

Trying to be so strong

Don't have to shoulder all the weight

Together we can take it on

You don't have to face your fears alone

'Cause whenever you're in trouble

I'll know, oh

Let me be your superhero

There isn't a place I won't go

Whenever you need me by your side

I'll be there, be there

Never be afraid if you fall

I'll carry you away from it all

Let me be your superhero

Let me be your superhero

Woah, woah, oh

Woah, woah, oh

Let me be your superhero

Woah, woah oh, yeah yeah

Woah, woah, oh

Sometimes love's a scary place

It's like standing in the dark

Flying through the universe

Trying to fix your broken heart

Yeah...

Let me be your superhero

There isn't a place I won't go

Whenever you need me by your side

I'll be there, be there

Never be afraid if you fall

I'll carry you away from it all

Let me be your superhero

Let me be your superhero

Yeah, I can be your superhero

You know I will, baby

Woah, woah, woah, oh oh

Let me be your superhero...

— I loved it, my angel. I listened to every word and I loved it! I was thinking… I heard from Alice that the Human Sciences have a symposium every semester, with lectures, it's a big event. And there's always a talent show in which lots of students take part. Why don't you join in?

— I don't know, Amanda… - I scratch my neck. — I don't have stage fright, but I wonder if anyone will want to hear my songs.

— Are you kidding, Ross? - She takes my face. — Honey, you can do it. You've got talent! People will expect to see it. And if nobody likes it, who cares about two hundred people? Our friends and I will be in the front row to hear you.

— Thank you, you've persuaded me. - I kiss her. — Will you wait for me with my parents while I take a quick shower?

— Of course. - We kiss again. She was about to leave when I called her. - Watch out about my father. He's like a dog, he always wants attention.

That makes her laugh.

Amanda's POV

— Amanda, darling? I know what will make you laugh. My son's baby pictures.

— So, it'll have to be quick, while he's having a bath! - I say excitedly and run to sit next to her and Mark. The album begins with their wedding photo, with everything looking beautiful. — You looked beautiful!

— And with more hair… - Mark smooths his thinning hair, making me laugh. I see some photos in the snow; others of them here in Brazil, even one from the day Ross was born.

— Awn. Ross must have shown me the photo he took of me, I was half his size.

Photos and more photos (and several hilarious comments from his father) later, and even a photo of my naked boyfriend, still months old, I see a photo that catches my attention: the blond guy wearing a mullet (haircut), with a microphone, singing at Christmas.

— THE MULLET, HAHAHA! So he's always liked singing?

— Yes, and he writes very well. I heard him singing to you. - Stormie says.

— We just didn't stand in the doorway so as not to disturb you. - Mark says and she glares at him.

— Haha, he's sweet. I was even saying to him that the department we study at in college has a big event every semester, and then there's a talent show, which he should take part in.

They really liked the idea and are going to talk to him again. Another photo makes me laugh: he's by the pool, wearing shorts and feeling cold, with his little hands together.

— HIS BELLY BUTTON IS CLOSED, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL DETAIL, HAHAHA. I know it's silly, but can I take the photo of the photo? I could really use this photo for some blackmail in the future.

— Haha, go ahead.

— NOOO! NOT MY PHOTOS! - I hear him shout from the corridor and come in wearing another outfit. — Did she see me?

— Yes. - I hold in my laughter as he snorts. — For God's sake, Ross, everyone has a picture like that…

I hug him.

— But it's embarrassing!

— You were cute, Rossy! - I say, squeezing his cheeks.

— Sit down, both of you, because in this age of technology, this album is going to get more photos.

— Do you want me in the album?

— Of course, my love. - Stormie strokes my cheek. I smile and Ross sits down, hugging me. I return the hug and they take the photo on their phones. Naturally, my boyfriend and I look at each other and I thank him for everything, and he kisses me. I kiss him back and his parents take the photo. I turn red with embarrassment and Ross kisses my cheek. Needless to say, this is the third photo.

— That's it. We'll reveal it tomorrow. - Mark says and turns to me. - Tell us you're staying.

I call my mom, who won't let me at first, because I didn't bring any other clothes, because she thinks it's bad that I'm sleeping in the same bed as Ross, even if I don't change my panties… How embarrassing… I argue that: 1) Stormie could lend me some pajamas. 2) It's Ross, and they have a guest room. 3) I wouldn't die if I kept my panties on until the next day. Of course I just said “I'm not going to die because of that!”

Result: she let me. I asked her to look after my daughters and hung up.

— She let me. - I say smiling and Stormie says:

— Do you want to take a shower? I'll lend you some warm pajamas.

We watch a comedy movie on TV first, eat some more and at 7:30pm, I shower and change in the guest room. I go back to the living room and give them both a hug, thanking them for staying.

Ross and I go to his room, but not before Mark talks to us:

— The sink in his room is broken, so be careful when you use it.

— I loved this afternoon… - I say, smiling and hugging Ross as we lie in bed.

— That's great, my angel. - He kisses my forehead. — I knew being alone with your sister wasn't a good idea.

I sigh heavily. — She was going to keep saying: “Stop crying so much, blah, blah, blah”.

Ross smiles and grabs my waist.

— You look like my mom, but sexy. - He says silly things to me.

— Stop it! I'm not sexy, not even in my pajamas! - I laugh nervously.

— If you could see what I see…

— Ross, I've remembered something.

— Hm?

— I won't be able to sleep… My medicines! One induces sleep and the other stabilizes mood. The inducer is the most important… Damn! Ugh, I wasn't supposed to forget!

— Awn, my angel. We'll find something to do: a cup of tea, we'll talk, I'll sing to you quietly… You managed to sleep with me this afternoon.

A quarter to ten, I say goodbye to everyone and go to bed.

— Can I come in? - The blond knocks on the door.

— Sure. I'm afraid I won't sleep.

— Yes, you will. I'm going to stay with you for a while and… I've brought Calum to keep you company. - He hands me the teddy bear and I hug them both. Ross lies with me, caressing my face. We talk for a while until I feel sleepy. - Good night, passion.

— Good night.

I went to bed at 10 p.m. and at 1:17 a.m. I had closed my eyes, but I hadn't fallen asleep. I started crying out of anger and because I was feeling the usual spasms in my arms and legs. The dosage of the medication and the anxiety do that.

I walk with difficulty to Ross's bedroom door and open it. — Ross, help!

He's not listening, that's great! I find a pair of socks in a ball and throw them at him. Nothing. My last option was to risk walking over to him. I fall on him and he wakes up.

— Amanda, what are you doing? - He says confusedly and puts me on the bed.

— Help me. I'm having very strong spasms! - I can see he's getting desperate and asks me if I want to go to hospital. — No, this is common at night. It's muscle weakness, dosage, anxiety, everything…

— Shh… There's no need to cry. It'll pass…

He stands over me, holding me and massaging my arms. I'm unconsciously careful not to kick him anywhere because of the spasms. I relax and the spasms stop after a while.

Ross' POV

Amanda gets better and I go to the bathroom. I was so scared about all this! I wait for her to fall asleep. When I wash my hands, the tap splashes a lot of water on my shirt. I manage to close the sink and look at my girlfriend, deciding whether to take my shirt off, so as not to make a sound and wake her from the sleep she's had such a hard time getting, or to get another shirt. I take off my shirt and lie down on the bed, hugging my girl.

By morning, I was awake, but too lazy to open my eyes.

— I can't believe this has happened… I don't want to be a mother… I'm only eighteen… - Haha, poor thing, she must have been so tired that she didn't remember that we only had sleep… I take her hands off her face and kiss her.

— Relax, we didn't have sex. You got too tired and forgot that you came to my room.

— Yes, but I vaguely remember you being dressed…

— Calm down, okay? The sink splashed water on me and I didn't want to wake you up if I took another shirt, so I took it off and warmed myself up by hugging you and the blanket.

— It makes sense.

— Nothing happened at all. - I laugh and hug her. — I promise.

She hugs me and kisses me on the neck.

— All right, then. You're so handsome, baby. - She climbs on top of me and slowly kisses her way down my chest and stomach, batting her huge eyelashes and staring at me. — Very handsome.

I like this dark side of her. I bite my lower lip to keep it quiet, already melting inside.

— Gorgeous, as much as I'm enjoying it, we'd better stop… - I make her look at me.

— Ross, I'm sorry… I saw you like this and you're beautiful inside and out, and I couldn't take it.

— It's all right. - I kiss Amanda and put her under me, kissing her on the neck a few times and nibbling on it lightly. — It's normal for us to be like this, Amandita, there's no need to feel ashamed. It's the attraction.

— Thank you for looking after me at night. - She says happily.

We chatted for a while and then went to have breakfast with my parents.

[weptsorrow]

a few days had passed since the introductionary rounds. till had been in a worse shape than ever with his head bleeding and shoulder dislodged, but ivan still found the way and time to sneak into the infirmary where the younger was recovering. ivan simply sat by his side, wordless, motionless, save for the ocassional brush of fingertips either against till's own or his cheek. he never once woke.

the atmosphere had been heavy in the garden ever since. he hadn't seen mizi in a long time, always secluding herself away and dealing with her grief. ivan didn't blame her. the kids who didn't make it through the preliminary rounds were taken back home by their owners; for all that it was worth, their time at the music school had ended. as was luka, given that he didn't even belong to their class; so the big, spatious garden had suddenly become that much more empty. no more laughter. no more play. just the ever-looming dread of further death in the upcoming semi-finals.

it finally all clicked together, the religion classes they had; the lies they fed them about death and the afterlife. it was to brainwash them to ensure they didn't fear coming onto the stage for the first time. but as was expected... it was difficult to keep those beliefs after witnessing the murders first-hand.

so with mizi gone and till unconscious, it was just ivan by his lonesome. he didn't really mind that much, as he'd been used to solitude, but it was lonely without till around. every so often, he went to visit the wegyein beast back in the walls, and every other day he had an ad shoot to model for that unsha had secured for him. from a schedule of classses to follow had developed a routine. he imagined this was what his life would be if he were to win. good thing he wasn't going to.

unsha didn't have time for him to keep an eye on him at home, so it was only convenient for ivan to still be welcome to stay at anakt garden for the duration of the entire show. it was that evening that he returned back, still all neat and well-groomed, with glitter dusting his cheeks, that he went to check back in on till once again. it's been three days... surely he was awake by now?

  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎everything  goes,  the  dim  flicker  of  consciousness  snuffed  out  with  brutal  efficiency,  leaving  till  submerged  in  the  oppressive  black.  he  doesn't  get  to  look  at  her,  doesn't  even  catch  a  fleeting  glimpse,  and  that  magnetic,  almost  cruelly  withheld  attention  drifts  down  to  the  floor  like  just  out  of  reach.  he's  yanked  back  into  the  cold  embrace  of  familiar  nothingness  —  a  void  too  brief  to  heal  but  long  enough  to  drain.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎a  dull,  gnawing  pain  blossoms  in  his  neck,  creeping  in  and  soon  joined  by  the  persistent  throb  behind  his  temples,  each  beat  louder  than  the  last.  'such  black,  black  sorrow,'  a  low  voice  sings,  its  melody  cutting  through  the  haze.  it  takes  him  a  moment  to  register  ivan's  familiar  tone,  and  by  then,  the  thin  fabric  of  oblivion  has  unravelled  completely.  another  round  has  started,  and  the  ballad  is  already  at  its  crescendo.  a  twinge  of  regret;  he  likes  ivan's  voice,  even  if  ballads  weren't  his  thing.  what  he  heard  sounded  nice. 

his  collar  shines green.

'you  are  my  black  sorrow.'

  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎  ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎a  sharp  pang  slices  through  his  shoulder,  jagged  and  unrelenting,  forcing  him  to  turn  his  attention  inward.  teal  hues  dart  down  to  the  source,  his  injured  shoulder  now  grotesquely  misaligned;  the  restraints  hold  fast,  their  grip  ensuring  he  can't  attempt  to  fix  it.  then  from  the  corner  of  his  eye,  a  flash  of  pink  draws  his  attention.  her.  he  ignores  the  agony  and  the  last  echo  of  a  melody  to  look  at  her,  but  mizi  doesn't  flinch.  doesn't  even  seem  to  notice ...

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎his  gaze  slowly  shifts  after a few seconds to  the  screen  for  one  last  glimpse  of  ivan.  he's  not  there.  the  stage  is  empty,  the  older  man  already  gone,  likely  slipped  backstage;  there's  no  chance  he  lost...  the  pod  doors  hiss  open,  all  but  his  responding  to  the  automated  timer,  and  the  faint  rustle  of  those  exiting  fills  the  air,  a  sound  both  mundane  and  hollow.  mizi  remains  frozen,  he  doesn't  move  either;  can't.  his  collar  flashes  back  to  red.

[rubys-domain]

what the fuck. what the absolute heck

[fisheito]

Crimson Phantom: the one that gfkion got me

Flashback to my old yakutier list: in the top tier, you'll notice that one of these is not like the others:

SO WHAT IS IT DOING THERE????????

Perhaps the reason Crimson Phantom R5 ranks so high is cuz of the PERSONAL HISTORY i got with it. The straw that broke the fish's back? the last drop of water that makes the cup run over and spill onto my socks MOST iRRITATINGLY?Hm. Maybe. Prepare yourself for the longest post yet:

Let me give you a timeline...

May 2022: start playing nuca during Mystical Banquet. First SSR is Endless Banquet Garu. I am intrigued by his musculature and adorable puppy eyes. July 2022: Idol Fest. I only care about Olivine. Captain Oli is the one SSR i get, and i am exceedingly happy. October 2022: Eerie Escapade. I pull for Garu, but get 3 Yakumos. I am bitter and ignore him entirely. November 2022: I don't have many SSRs, so I consider building my 2-star vampire yaku. This would involve unlocking his rooms for the stat boost. I ask Friend A, who also plays nuca, what his rooms are like. Friend A says "it was roleplay cringe but free' I respond, "i expected as much" and do not build up vampire yaku. December 2022: I get Friend B to start playing nuca. Since we live together, it is very easy to spark impromptu , impassioned nuca discussions in the middle of the kitchen. February 2023: Friend B discovers the main menu- Past Events and Galleria, most notably. Their eyes sparkle as they look thru the events they missed. "When did you start playing?" they ask. "Since THIS event." i say, pointing to the Mystical Banquet banner. "Can I see who you have?" I give them my phone. They express mild awe as they scroll. We continue life as usual. March 2023: Friend B gets Spring Chaos Edmond and i am JEALOUS. I say so- regularly and loudly. During one such griping session, this occurs:

Me: you JUST started playing . you cannoT be destroying me in the rolls like this!!! i'm getting NOTHING!! Friend: but you have so many units that I don't! That I didn't even have a chance to get!!! Me: none of them are Beautiful Bride Edmond??!!! Friend: BUT YOU HAVE VAMPIRE YAKUMO Me: ?????????? so??? Friend: GOD HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND I'M SO SAD I MISSED HIM Me: you can have him. he's not doing anything over here. i wanted garu!! Friend: YOU HAVEN'T EVEN UNLOCKED HIS ROOMS? THAT'S NOT FAIR. GIVE HIM TO ME. I'LL TREAT HIM RIGHT Me: i wish i could dude i wish i could

Please imagine the utmost confusion on my face the moment my friend equated Bride Edmond's beauty to Vampire Yakumo's.

Because,, from the moment I started nuca, I had zero interest in yakumo's general aesthetic. I was long soured off the vibes due to an extensive history of dating sims shoving a Certain Guy into my face:

"Certain Guy AKA 1st potential love interest is imperious red/black guy who's also kinda the True Ending so we're only giving you the illusion of free will and you will be disappointed by the lack of care we give to other routes compared to this guy. You wanted a character that wasn't him? HAHAHA nah that nobody dies in a ditch offscreen. You were SUPPOSED to fall in love with the 1st guy we showed you and find his attitude problems attractive for the rest of your blissfully coupled life." (The freshest wound at the time was Nobunaga from that Specific branch of the ike series)

Butbutbut!! Yakumo is not imperious??? He's nothing like what you're describing??

Yes, dear reader, your assessment is fair. UNfORtUNATeLY, I'm a shallow ho and just the LOOK of his redblack skeleton embroidery was enough to repel me. The only thing that kept Yakumo in the Neutral zone was that his story self was Wibbly.

Looking at VAMPIRE yakumo, however... This was not wibbly. Here, with his hair slicked back and his torso seemingly widened and his generic bishonen-vampire-halloween-cosplay ...... it irked me. I did not like it. This look was everything I hated about those redblack domineering types haunting my past. The one interesting thing about yakumo (his wibble. his personality subversion of the aggro trope) and they GOT RID OF IT? Nah. I'm not into it. I refuse it out of principle.

I was steadfast in my dismissal of vampyaku for months.. But that was because I played alone- without outside influence.

Then that March conversation with Friend B happened.

SUDDENLY, SOMEONE introduces the POSSIBILITY that YAKUMO in THIS form can be attractive? Huh? Seriously? People think that?Legitimately never occurred to me. Unfortunately, my friend's words are in my head now.

During that convo (a convo which, unbeknownst to me, caused the first cracks in the healthy moderation i held for this game), i jokingly offered to unlock vampire yaku's rooms so my friend could watch them. A peace offering. "PLEASE!!!!!", they yelled,, with effusive sincerity.

Ah... well now I had to commit...

Determined to give my friend a Nice Thing, I threw excess knives at yakumo in my spare time. "I might as well unlock these rooms, and see how bland they are, and maybe sorta achieve vindication when I show them to my friend and they find out how Not Worth It vampire yakumo is compared to bride edmond" (I am fueled by spite and pettiness.)

thus, with time... ROOM 1 UNLOCKED!

Yakumo is wallowing again. Nothing new. He's handling the new cooking duties well, though. Good for him! Eiden is perceptive and wonderful, as usual... ah, eiden, beloved eiden.....i adore him and all the Sense he brings to these traumatised clan members ☺ Oop, there they go! initiating the cliche roleplay! Biting. Blood. Yep. Guess we're doing this.

AND NOW WE'RE GONNA TALK ABOUT ROOM 2

I was so self-satisfied when i unlocked R2. I mean, i wasn't going to show my friend until i unlocked EVERYTHING, but so far? From what I saw? this ain't it. this is SAD. this is... so very unsexy.

the only thing anchoring me to the present while watching this room was eiden's cheeky self. As Friend A remarked long ago, this was indeed cringe roleplay (but eiden is free).

I'm not very adept at voice reading/recognition, but i still felt something was up with yaku's voice. Meaning, it was different. he was REALLY laying it on heavy... It being the Role? Where was his tremulous soft voice? Naaaaaah, here in R2 we got yaku DROPPING octaves like they're on fire and affecting a drawl that...i think... is supposed to add to the seductive dangerous mood? i think? i'm really not good at parsing the horny from the Not fjkdrhgdu

with every extended vowel leaking thru yaku's fangs MY ANTI-NOBUNGA DEFENSES ARE BRISTLING yaku is REALLY playing it [Count Drakumo] up and he is NOT himself and, wait, he's spiralling? ooohhhhhh ok this is not good this is not fun he is not having fun

yes ok we've been over this my boner is dead killed by sadness that's just me not everybody is like me and i should let ppl like what they like MOVING ON

ROOM 3: OOOh Girl How they gonna react after THAT disastrous scene Woah!

Yakumo, angry???? Standoffish???? REfusing to be near Eiden? Interesting.... I mean. No! Not interesting! There's nothing interesting about vampire yakumo! Cliche as hell!!! Conventionally decent-lookin whatever-man is growling and hiding his face in a shadowy corner while saying things like "oh i'm a horrible monster .who could truly love me?!" and "stay away!! i'll only hurt you!!!"

Eiden: starts spouting truths about how the perception of "bad" and "undesirable" traits don't negate an entire person's positive traits and that someone's value can't be determined by such rigid thinking

Me: dammit eiden. stop making sense. i'm trying to hold a grudge here .............i'm starting to get hungry...

ROOM 4: OOPS I LOVE EIDEN AGAIN

I LOVE YOU EIDEN AND READING THIS ROOM MADE ME LOVE YOU EVEN MORE yakumo is, once again, spiralling in his self-hatred. i, on the other side of the screen, am getting weary. tbh, if you asked me to react to yakumo in real time, i would not know how to behave appropriately. i probably would have dismissed his concerns in some way (empty reassurances or bored ignoring).

but eiden??? ebeatutiiful emotionally UNconstipated FULL OF EMPATHY FIBRE eiden? candid... communicative... accepting yet not encouraging the dark thought patterns. . a self-aware king...

so when eiden gets in front of that mirror to demonstrate the self-talk "training":

I AM SO ENDEARED AND IM LO IBVE UHJIJM....

When Eiden gives yaku a chance to try, poor snakey doesn't know what to say. So Eiden whispers all these nice words and affirmations while standing behind yaku, expecting him to repeat them outloud THEN OF COURSE THE SILLY GUY ESCALATES TO HORNY AND I HAVE TO 🤣🤣🤣

ok, i'll begrudgingly admit... pretty cute interaction... and funny... if there's one way to win me over it's The Funny... how dare. how dare this room make me smile. I'm having a little giggle. Over a Yakumo room. THANKS eiden. For injecting humour into anything and making everything seem more tolerable...

After the practice run, Yaku ends up spilling his actual fears about his dual natures... but eiden insists that he can handle both.

yaku: if i think these dark thoughts does that make me a bad person eiden: well we all have layers n stuff so go wild yaku: if. if i. wanna lock u away all for myself and gnaw on your bones forever and keep u attached to my skin like an anglerfish absorbs mates into their flesh. will u hate me??? eiden: girl let your freak flag fly. i can take u ;););)

OKAY. SO MAYBE I CAN SORT OF SEE THE POTENTIAL FOR *NOT-AS-SAD* HORNY. THIS IS QUITE NICE (i comment mildly, gesturing to the emotional catharsis and deepening your understanding of another person). Now that yaku is emboldened in uh, being himself? all versions of himself? let's see how boinking is gonna go. hopefully it will be quite the departure from R2's struggle hours...

FUFIOKIN. ROOM 5: BANE OF MY EXISTENCE

The FIRST thing that strikes me when the room starts is

EIDEN YOU ARE SO HOT WHAT TH BRWOIJAOIEWFSKAESFKJLFEA?

INIPPL?

EIDEN'S HANDS? I'M BITING THEM? LET ME BITE THEM??? Yeah so i'm just staring at eiden displayed proudly in the mirror and a bird could probably land in my mouth with how it was hanging open, thinking, "yall know how to lewd your protagonist, nuca.... respect....." i'm distracted, but i need to move the room along so

.? ⚠! (ALERT NOISE) (ping!) the only yakumo room i've unlocked at this point is the OG SSR/Story H. i may have seen idol r2, too. so my current image of yakumo at this point is: -wet -crying -subby little baby

therefore, him saying he's GOING TO TEASE EIDEN causes my brow to upturn. 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 really? really, yakumo? YOU? are you even capable of doing that? can you do more than one thing [be wet baby]? i doubt it. these games always choose one niche for a character and stick to it... you caNNOT drift into switchery. try it i dare u (<- famously lesser-known last words)

eiden, in line with "i can take all of you", responds that he likes both. and btw, this ain't one-sided. he warns that he's about to weaponise bottoming again. if yakumo thinks he can just lead eiden around, lolollololo l good luck. my boy's gonna squeeze him dry (seriously. i have zero faith in yakumo's ability to stay in control of any situation)

OK! so! they're fukin *mundane hand gesture. rollin it along*

yakumo slows his roll and is all, actually, part of the fun is looking at you confused and needy :3 so he's going at a super lax pace and adjusting his dick angle and some other tactical penis feint that's edging eiden into horny frustration

as if i'm cheering on my fave racehorse, i start YELLING when eiden ~~snatches back the reins~~~~

WEAPONISE! 👏THAT!! 👏BOTTOM!!!!!!!👏🏭🎬ATTABOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!📣📣📣🔊📢🔊🎖🥳📣🔊📢

wait what ........HOW HAS HE NOT LOST IT? if eiden went off on me like that, uhhhhhhhhhhh hahahaha rest in pesis i'm losing immediately but... crybaby.... is holding it together? in fact, he somehow TAKES CONTROL AGAIN??????? THET F ????

idk guess i'm shocked with processing another side of yakumo that i didn't expect,, i avoided yakumo because his look served potential for "2000s toxic seme" energy. but i tolerated him because his ACTUAL personality was NOT That. yet... now he's showing that exact domineery junk and i'm ..ok with it? Is it specifically because i've only seen him be pathetic in every other room?!

i'm just gonna...a. take a moment here to... maybe sort of understand the predicament i'm in along with my growing . something. admiration? for yakumo. uhhh.... hmmmm..........

yeah ok whatever people can be freaks about nipples i guess

SHIT I FORGOT HE HAS COLD HANDS . SHIT. I FORGOT I LIKE COLD HANDS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M INTO THAT?

NOT THE NECK BITING AGAIN AHAHAHAHAAHHAHHA FOR REAL?????? VAMPIRE COSPLAY SERIOUS????? (<- my voice has gone an octave higher as i start panic laughing)

i don't know why i didn't expect that here. do i just not think ahead? it's stupid count drakumo. of course he's gonna suck blood. at least twice. maybe the rest of you saw it coming, and rolle dyour eyes. ahahaha, how very trite. how very standard.

did the active shattering of my preconceived yakumo.png weaken me THAT much? was i sudddenly swept up into the revelation thata game was Finally going beyond the yaoi dichotomy? to make someone subby AND dommy? Was i SO swept up that the "cringe vampire roleplay" bypassed my eyerolling sensor?!?!?!

i've got a single nervous bead of sweat making its way down my back and it's cuz of the very simple combo of hole/temperature/neck

so while i'm taking another impromptu wary pause , stewing at how DEVASTATED i may or may not be idk whatever it's not a big deal that the neck bite isn't shown on screen

LOGIC: that makes sense. animating and drawing that separate pose in this setup would be way too much work for 2 sentences. HORNY: TEAR INTO HIM. SUCK HIM DRY. LET ME

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

yeah for real. I'M feeling attacked right now. eiden trying his best not to splort from the three-pronged feel-up (struggling like an amorous salmon up a waterfall) when suDNDEnly

......?

*RECORD SCRATCH* ?!?!?!?!?!??!?????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!???!!!!!??????????????????????? ?????!?!?!?!?????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????E?!?FKFOO>>>>?VFF??A""????":??"??????!?!!??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

👆

WHAT WAS THAT?

*runs into the adjacent room like it's a reality tv privacy booth* *slams the door and stares incredulously at the camcorder* *points toward the room i just left*

IS THAT ALLOWED?

Is Yakumo legally allowed to say "fuck"?????

*falls into a hushed and baffled whisper* i don't have enough Japanese comprehension to parse exactly what yakumo said oh god i wish i had the comprehension is this a translator liberty? is it real? because if the original speech was actually more reserved but the translators were like "bro that ain't sexy. just write FUCK"?? i guess that wouldn't be outside the realm of possibility? but if yakumo legitimately said "fuck" ...... AND dropped the honorific from eiden's name?! .......... huh! ohhhhhhhh *ruffles my hair out of confusion* did he really say that? i mean ok he's a grown ass snan i shouldnt ' be scandalised like i hear d an infant say FUCK as its first word , 11 months out of the womb ....... *deep breath* ok. don't dwell on it. gotta return to the task at hand. *steadfastly turns the doorknob and returns to my previous location*

so eiden looks like what i feel right now (in the key of: !?!?!?) thankfully the surprise doesn't last long in the face of his shamelessness (blessed be eito), so he tries to repeat after yakumo but yakumo's drilling him so hard that brain mysgh muysh can't really... speak..prororperly

SUHUT THE FUCCK UP YAKUMO I'VE NEVER BEEN SO OFFENDED BY SUCH A SHORT SENTENCE GO AWAY WITH YOUR THIRTY SHADES OF COUNT DOMKUMO PARADING IN HERE THINKIN YOU CAN DISH OUT ORDERS LIKE THSI WHEN YOU'R E NORMALLY A SOBBING MESS BY NOW=====----

*pinches in between my brows* uueugh...... eiden doesn't get to finish his task but they go at it until the screen goes white with that powerful SPLOOSH we all know and love

and yakumo FINALLY breaks character getting juiced released a bit of his control i guess we hear an "uhu" at last. he uses his pathetic wibble to ask eiden for more because he's still hard. of course he is...... mans is never done.......dick ouroboros with the way he never ends.......

BUT THEN EIDEN PULLS A FACE THAT GRABS MY ENTIRE BRAIN AND FLOODS ME WITH SO MUCH AFFECTION

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY JUST LOOK AT HIM SLUTTY BLEP i was having an out-of-body experience i was suddenly going over every BL i've ever played and how none of the protags were ever this unabashedly INTO IT (of course we are only here because we build upon the foundations of our gay ancestors THANK YOU GAYASS SPIRITS OF YORE , ) BUT! i'm experiencing a grand realisation of how far we've come and how eiden being a slutty versatile dweeb enriches my life to untold measures and his stupid cute little ;P thirsty look is going to sustain me for years and also i love it so much i'm going to screenshot it and keep it in my gallery just so i can look at it whenever i think about homophobia existing ever . i love u eiden get that dick and hole forever💖

now that yakumo is all vulnerable and Himself and freed from his edgy persona , he's just pounding into eiden liek 🥺 i'm just a normal snokai right? 🥺😥 so it's ok to act the way i truly want to❓ you'll accept all of me? 😖 i'm not a horrible irredeemable monster ?? 😧💦 you still want me? here?? with you???🥺🥺🥺 i'm allowed to make you feel good??😢?😭?😥 of course eiden affirms all this with a big moany yes (in surprisingly eloquent words despite the state of his anus)

and to top it all off, the room provides a full circle of plot by letting eiden complete his failed "repeat after me" task from before..- with a horny addendum about how he can't get enough of yakumo's dirty expressions, because of course our boy has to get the last word.

ahhh,,, like an epic movie,, it all comes together. loose ends tied and fucklines affirmed. tasks fulfilled; pervert's journey complete;; we, the audience, can go home with satisfied closure.

after-credits sceNe: when the post-nut clarity hits yakuei, i am brick'd with overwhelming concern about eiden's leg. how has it NOT cramped this entire time, being held up like that.? what was that? at least 15 minutes?! of lifting up one leg and spreading it so wide? damn, boy, is ya potassium that powerful? no calf cramps? nothing? eiden your sexual athleticism is unrivalled. i am in awe.

Note!

When i first watched these rooms, I didn't have headphones. Months later, i finally got to watch the scenes WITH SOUND. and i was so very pleased to hear that yakumo's voice in R5 was a nice middle ground between his suuuuper drawly heavy cosplay mode R2 angstvoice,, and his regular uhuu soft voice. it's definitely more himself, but with the added confidence of roleplaying ehuehue so it's just nice!! to hear him being more secure in himself!! and enjoying the situation!! but also teasing eiden and enjoying the power plays?? yay! near the end he returns almost fully to his regular voice due to , you know, whiny pleady 🥺 feels-too-good things afoot and that just .... upped the affection for me.... ugh... so he CAN do both......

in future watches, i eventually take the time to look at yakumo's face instead of eiden's. . .

and i do NOT like where my subsequent thoughts go

oh no he's hot.......................

WE RETURN TO REALITY. IT IS SOME TIME BETWEEN MARCH AND MAY (2023). I HAVE AT LAST UNLOCKED ALL OF CP YAKUMO'S ROOMS. I AM IN MY ROOM AND I AM SHOOKETHED. Shortly, I seek out Friend B, the catalyst for this train of horror and realisation. I tell them the task is done. Eventually, i give them my phone so they can watch their beloved vampire yakumo rooms. I couldn't even hand it over with the derisive scoff I THOUGHT I would show. the look of absolute dismissal that used to appear whenever someone mentioned crimson phantom yakumo. No, i handed it over with thinly concealed amusement . perhaps even excitement, that someone would soon share in something that so pleasantly surprised me. A part of me wished for them to return my phone with a disappointed "tch". to tell me that, oh, that wasn't very good after all. you were right. i could have missed out on vampire yakumo and lost nothing. Unfortunately, they returned my phone later that evening . their eyes glittered with the glee of someone whose hopes were beautifully fulfilled. "OH MY FUCKING GOD I KNEW it was gonna be amazing!", they bubbled. "Yeah." is all i could say... . I spend the following weeks slowly falling victim to yakumo's charms. By June, I am putting up posters of him all over my room while talking about how much i hate him.

SUMMARY: like nuca itself, it started as a joke and now the quences have conned. i'm suffering the cussions, reperfully. eiden did NOT help. he was beautiful and amazing from every angle and that added to the positive associations with these rooms,, and by extension, yakumo. and now? now i hate this snakeboy for what's he's done to me. i'm p sure he's actively moving the goalposts on my preferences as i type. i'm scared. he has too much power . that this mushy noodle would subvert tropes by following the old kabedon-seme script then DO IT AGAIN by hitting me with the SUBVERT REVERSE BEAM #2 and now i dream about railing him under the moonlight.

it was all downhill from that accursed roleplay. eiden's a gayteway drug. he fkoin got me. and now yakumo's got me too

[vvxdoesurmom]

My take on Till and some things about him which i observed because i don't think i can emotionally recover after R6 (Ivan is alive guys i swear)

(mind you, this is MY personal interpretation, perhaps also a bit of me being delusional (also Till is my baby))

From what i have observed, Till was treated really badly by the aliens compared to the others, even in the flashback to when Till saw Ivan for the first time in the R6 mv, you can see in the backround that on Till's glass cage thing there are signs that say that he is being sold for 50% off, to stay away, not to touch etc. He also has the muzzle thing ,which i assume prevents him from speaking, which none of the other Alien Stage members (of those that we have seen) had.

It is also shown that he was quite abused by his Alien guardian, who possibly just saw Till as a sort of lab rat (Till's rebelion probably didnt help the abuse/torture). So how i see it is that Till is simply very traumatized, and his thought process and the way he acts is probably reflecting that in some way.

Compared to him, the others were treated significantly better (from what was shown atleast) . While Ivan and Sua weren't treated particularly well, they wer simply seen as a sort of pet, perhaps like a house cat for the aliens, unlike the lab rat treatment Till got. Sua was like a little dress up doll to her alien guardia, and Ivan was just a peaceful thing for his.

Mizi on the other hand was innocent, she was relativley cared for by her alien guardian, and therefore remained pure and angelic is a sense.

I belive that Till's crush on Mizi came from a sort of need to cling onto something that was as far away from his trauma. He saw Mizi as a sort of pure angel who wasn't touched by the cruelty of the world (which was a true observation), someone who could perhaps be his savior. We can see this because any time Till remembers her, he thinks of the sweet child version of her. And that is also why he was so utterly crushed and perhaps in denial, looking at her after R1, and escpecially after R5.

And in the flashback of R6 when he imagined her, he didn't see her as she is now, insted he saw the bright child version of her, the version that was furthest away from his abuse and trauma, extending his hand to him as a sort of savior angel. He is very deeply attached to this image that he created of her to perhaps cope in some way with the abuse, and the fact that she changed, escpecially after seeing her in R5.

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In R6, i suspect that he thought that he was going to lose, and probably accepted it. He was going against Ivan after all, and Ivan is perfect, and he is more liked by the audience. So i belive that Till simply accepted death by the time R6 begun. In R6 he is alot more... Depressed? His vocals are raw and full of emotion, and his eyes look like those that have given up, escpecially once they finished, he was just looking downward as if accepting defeat, and as if he saw that coming.

That didn't happen though, and Ivan FUCKING KISSED HIM (sorry i will just never get of tht kiss). Now. When Ivan kissed him, Till is not in any way disgusted or angry(which is what Ivan perhaps thought Till was) , instead he looks confused, because he is, and that is his general reaction to things, his eyes look like he is searching for answers. Because i belive that Till probabky literally had no idea or thought that Ivan possibly loved him like that:

EXHIBIT A:

From what i have gathered from the mvs themselves and from official posts, is that Ivan is a quirky littley guy. He has weired quirks, and he can act and talk quite funny, so if Ivan tried to tell Till, or somehow allude to him that he likes him, Till would probably assume that it's just Ivan being Ivan, and think nothing of it.

This can be kinds seen in the scene in R6 when they were in the cafeteria place. When Ivan touched Till's cut, he was probably looking to make Till annoyed or mad, which would be Till's typical reaction. He was clearly annoyed at first, but then he saw that it was Ivan and kinda brushed it off, since its just Ivan, he is just a quirky little fella.

Therefore i belive that Till would shrug off any attempt as confession or flirting from Ivan.(Didnt seem like Ivan was doing that anyway)

EXHIBIT B:

Any show that Ivan loved him and not just being friends happened when Till was ither unconscious, or not paying attention/not looking.

Till is a silly little guy, but how is he supposed to know or assume when there is no proper communication happening?

( he could also have been to focused on Mizi to notice)

MY CONCLUSION!

I belive Till loved Ivan. Perhaps not in the way Ivan loved him, but he probabky loved him as a friend would, because they did spend like alot of time together.

I also belive that Ivantill can work out if they had proper COMMUNICATION, and if Till realized that his crush of Mizi was a way to try to escape his trauma and abuse and get something pure and innocent. ( I could also be very delusional )

Anyway, this is my interpretation of Till as a charecter. I do have alot more thoughts on him like his natural talent for music and composition, but my fingers are tired typing this out:)

( also i did not reread it so forgive any spelling/grammar mistakes:))) i just needed to vent a bit)

[andmaybegayer]

weirdo fuckin router I got, which is the TP-Link Archer R5. I've been looking for a reasonably high end WiFi 6 AP and stumbled on this used for a steal. It's so thin! It's intended to mount on a wall with tape or a mounting hook, so it flat-packs the antenna array and makes the whole thing lie up against a wall. Those are collapsing RJ45 terminals, like you find on thin laptops sometimes. Takes 12V USB-PD power! Every decision here makes sense but it's such an unusual set of design goals. I guess this is partially the logical conclusion of the Deco line of routers, which are aimed at people who don't like that their routers are huge eyesores.

Set it up and did a BeatSaber run, definitely less blocky and higher quality than when I'm using my router which has to penetrate a concrete wall. Very handy. Might set up a smart power switch to turn it off when it's not in use although I imagine its quiescent power is pretty low.

[leaderwon]

GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTERS I THINK ENHYPEN WOULD MAIN

warning : mild cursing, not proofread pls lmk if any mistakes!

word count : 671

notes : just a quick one because I haven't been posting alot lately

HEESEUNG : EULA LAWRENCE

Hmm, let's see

From his League of legends gameplay, he seems the type of guy to Main a character that easily does big damage.

He gives me eula vibes because who doesn't love eula??

Like i can imagine him just one shotting everything because she's a physical dps.

She's mommy material and if you disagree with me i.will.find.you

He probably hardcore invested in her imo, has a godly build and gets 36 stars in abyss.

rest of the members utc!

JAY : ZHONGLI

OKAY WE SAW THAT COMING.

I feel like he'd use his money and get him upto c6 and hardcore invest in him tbh.

Will shield you from any damage (his c2 cons) and will do big pp damage with his rock

i don't think he would invest into his weapon tho (even I wouldn't it's completely useless). Maybe he'd go for staff of homa for zhongli

i think he would just use his ult on other people for fun.

like imagine you're looking at your artifacts screen and out of nowhere you hear "I WILL HAVE ORDER!!"

like bestie did you just waste your ult like that...

JAKE : ARATAKI ITTO AND GOROU

TELL ME YOU DON'T SEE JAKE BEING AN ITTO MAIN LIKE MAN COME ON

Itto is just so goofy and cute and so is jakey and it's such a perfect match I CANNOT BELIEVE I THOUGHT OF THAT??? (In shock)

Itto is like so massively strong with his cow I swear

Need help? no worries a cow is here to help you!

No cuz i feel like he'll be so obsessed with itto's cow he's going to throw it on npcs and just laugh is ass off.

I also think he'll have alot of fun spamming itto's burst. i think we can all agree that his burst is very satisfying.

He wants to maximize it's damage, and the best character to help? gorou.

dog + a really good geo support = perfection for jake

he is def (pun intended) pulling for both their constellations for c6

SUNGHOON : KAEDEHARA KAZUHA

Have no idea how this thought popped up into my mind tbh it just did?

like kazuha is so calm and collected and peaceful i think it fits hoon really well in. way

and his dog gaeul's name means autumn in Korean. Ring a bell??

beside that i don't think he would seriously invest into him

kazuha is so broken at c0 itself, he won't bother as much but if he gets a constellation on accident he wouldn't mind.

SUNOO : NILOU

I was initially thinking nahida or diona even, but then i realised nilou would be so perfect??

no hear me out, she's cute she's gorgeous she dances she's so sskjejssjzjjsjzjehdwbhxdb AHHHH (sorry)

i feel like he would fall in love first sight of her no cap

he will be casual ab her me thinks, wouldn't try to get constellations really.

is afk most of the time staring at her beauty

JUNGWON : GANYU

HARD CARRYING LEADER!!!

tho he gives cat vibes (maybe diona or kirara) he also gives me "I will carry you but i will avoid you and the enemy like the plaque" if you get what I mean.

his build for her would be fucking crazy no cap.

like bro is hitting 100k every charged shot no buffs

wouldn't go for cons imo but will go mad crazy about building her

his aim would be so good tho, he never misses! (the same way he never misses to make my heart flutter)

NI-KI : HUTAO

we definitely saw this coming

the goofiness, the happiness, the crazyness and the urge to annoy zhongli (Jay) it all fits perfectly

he would definitely one tap everything that comes across his way

my boy is going all out with her c6 r5 (with Jay's money ofcourse)

i can also imagine him getting super mad when someone accidentally heals him like excuse tf me. did you just do that.

dw he'll get revenge by constantly burning the grass you're standing on 😘

disappeared from Tumblr for a while omg did someone miss me.

school has been hectic as hell as one of my most imp exams are coming up like kill me already

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[xxsp3llb0undxx]

howdy! i'm not sure if you're still taking twilight writing prompt requests, but if you are, could i get a 5 (in random prompts section) with jasper hale? bonus points if it's with a pregnant reader!

Immortality and its flaws (Jasper Hale x Pregnant!Reader)

Prompt: R5 - "I swear to the holy ghost, if I catch you; you'll be deader than you already are."

Disclaimer: Please do not repost my work to other sites or claim as your own, this is purely written from my imagination and from the help of the franchise. All rights of the main storyline goes to the writers and producers of Twilight.

Summary - Reader is Jaspers pregnant mate, they've been together for the last 5 years. Jasper decides to play a prank on his mate with his adoptive brothers, Edward and Emmett; only they didn't expect to be running away from her in fear of being scolded like a bunch of children. Which lets be honest, they are.

MASTERLIST CULLENS

Y/n's pregnancy was a surprise to everyone; including Jasper, but that didn't mean he wasn't thrilled to be a dad. The first couple weeks of her carrying their child were probably the hardest, still being human and having to drink blood to make sure their child was well nourished wasn't exactly what Y/n planned on happening but anything for her baby. Jasper was nothing but loving and caring, he would go out of his way to make sure Y/n was comfortable and nothing was hurting her.

After the first month of the pregnancy, Y/n was slowly able to get up and walk around the Cullen house without being supervised every second, but of course Jasper was still lurking around in case of his mate needing him. That was until one day Jasper wasn't there to help Y/n, he was instead, planning a prank with his two adoptive brothers; Edward and Emmett. It was just supposed to be light hearted, never truly anything to aggravate anyone. Alice was in on it too, she was not to tell Y/n what the boys were conspiring, in return they said they would bring the petite, fairy -like vampire on a shopping spree whenever she wanted.

And so the planning began, the three vampires were sat outback on an unusually sunny Friday afternoon; Edward kept reading Y/n's mind to make sure Alice was keeping her occupied for the time being, feeling reassured enough to walk back to his brothers, Edward heard Emmett's bounding laugh bounce off the surrounding trees. "So, what have you come up with?" Jasper's lips stretched into a wide grin, his amber eyes twinkling with mischief. In this moment, he was the living embodiment of the Cheshire Cat. Jasper explained to Edward what Emmett had proposed, the bronze haired boy was all on board to go forward with their little escapade.

Y/n was sleeping peacefully when the Cullen boys started to move all of Y/n's favourite snacks to the lower shelves in the kitchen, knowing full well her swollen stomach would restrict her from being able to reach them. Emmett's laughter roared throughout the house, the blonde vampires trying to shush him in fear their prank would be cut short from Jasper's mate waking up. Luckily, Alice had come downstairs and told the trio they were in the clear for now but Y/n would wake up any minute.

The Cullens boys rushed around to finish off anything that had to be done to make this prank the best it could be. Five minutes later, they heard one of the doors upstairs open, they were met with a waft of honey and the smell of grass after it had been raining; it was Y/n. Jasper rushed upstairs and took a hold of his mate. "What are you doing up out of bed? You're not strong enough to be walking around." His thick southern accent more noticeable, that only happened when he was worried or anxious about something.

Her bright e/c stared into Jaspers amber ones, she held such a soft look in her eyes; the same look that she always uses in an attempt to assure her mate everything was okay. "I was hungry, so I thought I would go down stairs and get something to eat." Her voice was velvety, it made Jasper's still heart skip a beat. Said vampire picked up his mate and carried her down the stairs, he wasn't going to risk her getting hurt from falling down the ash wood stairs. Once they had reached the bottom, Alice had come over to help Y/n walk to the kitchen.

The fairy-like vampire knew of the prank her adoptive brothers were pulling and she knew how cruel it was but, boys will be boys she thought. Y/n started rummaging through the cupboards trying to find her favourite snacks to eat, she let out a frustrated sigh as she stretched her arm as far as possible to open the doors to the cupboards beside her legs, the pain in her back accompanied by her swollen stomach stopped her from being able to bend down. Once the thin slab of wood finally pulled open, Y/n saw a glimpse of her favourite snacks pushed behind the cleaning products. She was livid, how dare they move her beloved snacks.

Quiet laughs came from the living room, before Y/n could confront her mate or his brothers, Alice had broken away from her vision; Edward knew what was coming next so instead of sticking around for Jasper's angry, hormonal mate to come and murder them; he starts running for his life, his brothers hot on his tails. When Y/n finally managed to hobble her way to the living room, the three vampires were gone. She knew they were still around somewhere, close enough to hear her. "I swear to the holy ghost, if I catch you; you'll be deader than you already are. You better run, Hale."

To say the least, Jasper didn't come back home for a few hours until he was certain his mate had calmed down a little bit. When he finally came to his sense, though, he was met with an extremely angry Y/n. She told him she would only forgive him if he cuddled her and told her all the stories about his life prior to meeting her, and of course, new snacks.

[bunderies]

as someone who's been a fan of alien stage since R5 was released, i’m really struggling with how the fandom has shifted over the past few months. i don't have anything against ivantill shippers, but they’re engaging in a story where ivan's love for till is clearly one-sided, and their only mission seems to be proving that it’s actually mutual...? ivan's character is written around his unrequited love for till, which is what makes his sacrifice so tragic. so yeah, seeing endless threads every day trying to prove ivantill was canon and people attacking mizi really bothers me... shipping characters and imagining them together is totally fine, but wanting to rewrite the story starts to become an issue.

[crustyfloor]

I'm itching to see how Till will be acting in round 7 (if we even get one). Till was in quite a state in r6, quiet, subdued, not his usual self y'know. Ivan died (he didn't) and if Ivan is still someone Till holds close to his heart as I theorize, and the fact that Mizi is gone, and the fact that he is even alive in the world of Alien stage just think how much worse his state of mind will be. I can only imagine him being worse than Mizi was in R5. Unresponsive, completely broken down and hopeless, not even Luka can snap him out of it enough to hit him or something, because at this point he's seriously sick of it so he won't fall for it anymore and he'll carve his own exit out of this hellhole,

but it'd also be fun if he went the exact opposite direction and snap and go back to his old self (like in R2) but even worse. Unresponsive, but in the way that he just doesn't listen, unapproachable, violent(?), and restraints galore. Luka himself might not even want to get close. Till would be so done with it all that he would either 'mad dog' his way to certain death or win the competition with the sheer intensity he'll give off (and maybe he'll scream in our ears once again this time)

[amandamgsblog]

Chapter 8 - Rain and care - Part 2

Amanda's POV

We arrived at the coordination office and asked the receptionist if any of the Languages coordinators were there.

— There's only Priscilla. What's the problem? I can put her on. - Cláudio says.

— Well, one of my colleagues deliberately stepped on my foot, which is already disabled, and almost broke it. It's been half an hour and some people saw it.

— This is very serious. You can go in, she's in her room at the end of the corridor.

We thanked her and found Priscilla.

— Hi, are you the other coordinator? I'm Amanda and this is Ross. We're first-year students and something unpleasant happened just now.

— Sit down and tell me about it.

— Help me out here, Ross, it's throbbing…

Well, I was walking back to the entrance of the main auditorium of 43, and a colleague was leaving at the same time, but she grabbed me by the shoulders, stared at me and stomped on my foot, hard, with hatred. And what's worse, it was the foot that I have a birth defect in. And it's not the first time she's picked on me, because she's been bullying me since the first day I joined the course.

— Wow, I'm going to call her in private and we'll sort this out. This is very serious. Do you know if she has a reason for such aggressive behavior?

— Can I say something? - Ross asks. — I've witnessed situations where Ariana has made fun of Amanda's disabilities and she picks on Amanda because she likes me, and Amanda and I have been very close since we met.

— Well, nothing justifies that. I'm going to give her a warning and a two-day suspension. If anyone else does anything to upset you, Amanda, come and talk to any of us, understand?

We smiled and thanked her. We left and Ross hugged me.

— I told you everything would be fine. You were scared for nothing… - He says and I laugh.

— Thank you, handsome.

— You're welcome, beautiful. And your foot?

— Throbbing less. Let's go back and I'll put it up a bit. - I take his hand and we talk. A couple of times, I had to put my arm around his neck and walk on one foot. We laughed at the height difference. — Do you think you'll be all right tomorrow? It rained a lot and I'm worried.

— I'll be fine. I'm so happy that girl is going to be punished… - He stops and stares at me. —And I meant it when I said that you're strong and that you shouldn't listen to the shit she says.

— I know. I don't believe I'm pretty, but I know the rest. - I laugh and Ross stops me and grabs my right cheek. He closes his eyes and kisses my other cheek a few times and I smile, feeling my heart race.

We walk back and watch the rest of the lessons. In the evening, I put on some pain cream and put my foot up and it got better.

Ross' POV

I ended up not feeling well the next day. I woke up with a runny nose, a lot of nausea, a scratchy throat, coughing, a sore body and, worst of all, I have an exam today. If I don't take it, it won't be until the end of the semester and there's a good chance I'll forget I didn't take it.

— Awn, son, why don't you stay home today?

— I have exams today and tomorrow. I can't miss it. One of the exams is from the teacher who expelled me. - I say, frowning, remembering.

— So you're not driving today. You look like hell. - My father says.

— Geez, I'll improve faster.

I take a nap in the middle of the morning and get a hitchhike. The exam is in the first period of the day, so I'll just have to survive a bit until the exam is over.

I kept coughing and my friends realized I was sick.

— What happened? - Alice asks.

— He got rained on yesterday, he got soaked. - Amanda strokes my back.

I finish the exam and get a headache, my vision blurs, and I put my head down.

— Ross, are you feeling sick? - Duda, one of Ariana's nice friends, asks. All I can do is nod.

— I'll take you to the doctor's. - Amanda says and we leave.

— I don't want to. I'm going to faint… - I say weakly.

We walk carefully to the cafeteria and Amanda sits me down.

— I'll get you a snack. Hi, what have you baked? It could be a pão de queijo.

She comes back with the snack and a juice, but I don't feel hungry.

— I'm not hungry, sorry.

— You have to eat or you won't get better. Just a little. For me…

What do I not do for her?

I eat the bread and feel like lying down on the sofa over there. There was no air conditioning today.

— Will you lie down with me, Amandita?

She laughs and sits down on the sofa. I lay my head on her knees. So warm and cuddly. My day is made.

I feel her stroke my hair and we fall asleep. I wake up and decide I'd better go to the medical center inside the college because I have a fever.

— I've improved… a little.

— But you still have a fever and a cough.

We get there and I lie down on the stretcher.

— What a cold place… - I say shivering. Amanda, once again, takes another zippered blouse and puts it over my body. Every gesture she makes to take care of me makes me fall more in love. I'm not going to deny it any longer.

I wait for the doctor to arrive and explain the situation. He gives me some fever medicine and we wait for my temperature to drop a little. I feel a bit better to attend classes and I go home.

— Mom, dad, I'm really falling in love. But I'm scared… I don't know if it's good or bad…

— Son, you'll never know if you don't try. - My dad says and I nod. Even though I'm exhausted and sick, I smile, getting some ideas.

[sandrasaid]

imagine being a trooper guarding gideon’s command centre. waiting for your demise as you hear the most terrifying words. “r5 next shield”.