#queer temporality

[hangingslothcentral]

Thinking about queer time theory and how this plays into what I love about writing vampires and immortals more generally, the opportunities presented by expanded timelines, a reimagining of fulfilment and love in life when it is not defined by standard concepts like marriage and childbirth and regular transitions like adolescence into adulthood. The distorting lens of experiences like coming out or medically transitioning and how they refract time around themselves. How remarkable to live a life defined by a thousand little rebirths. What an exhausting privilege to redefine yourself again and again. Holy fuck do I love being queer and being alive. I’d do this forever if I could.

[embraceyouropacities]

“You fill yourself with the gift of time—the ticking of moments, the time you spent, the fact that you were always called a late bloomer. What is late? You are always on time.”

— Brennan Lee Mulligan, “Dimension 20: The Seven”

[femmeholograms]

From The Pace of Queer Time by Lila

every time it snows I inevitably return to and reread this and I always find it comforting

[grey29]

When you’re a teenage dirtbag who only eats hot pockets but you’re 21 and literally have a degree in thinking and can have a discussion about the queer theory that explains why you’re being a teenage dirtbag at 21.

[sophieshiddenlibrary]

fuck it, I'm gonna be a Theatre Kid in my 30s, this is definitely how Queer Temporality works.

[to-the-batcomputer]

oh my god. i. oh my GOD? i was gonna say bruce's childhood extended into adulthood and maybe when he took in a child, they kinda grew up TOGETHER. like his life stopped and didn't resume until he started batman, or a little after. childhood again, but this time with an equally traumatized hand to hold?

anyways this is making me think of queer temporality

[variousqueerthings]

sometimes you’ll think about queer existence as it pertains to storytelling and mythologies and you just have to sit down for a bit because it’s so cool and so endlessly deep and you’ll never hit an end to where queerness is embedded into the core of who we are

[toastofthetrashfire]

I’m still processing so I probably won’t write a full meta about it today. But I just feel so blessed by the eighth sense. I am so glad that my prediction in my last meta was correct, cause we have so many stories of queer and crip death, and the eighth sense rewrites those endings. The last two episodes didn’t just give us a happy ending but one that felt like an ode to queer and crip futures and possibilities. Such a perfect capstone to a series so dedicated to showing the temporal fractures of living while queer and mentally ill. I just...so beautiful

[athousandgateaux]

"while S/M cannot return its players back to a prior historical moment any more than a museum can, it can remind us of what the museum itself represses: memory is not organic or natural at all but dominant historiography simply demands that the props for modernity be hidden so as to make it seem so. In turn, S/M shows us, memory can prop up projects unrelated to the history it supposedly references"

--Elizabeth Freeman, "Turn the Beat Around" from Time Binds: Queer Temporalities, Queer Histories

[embraceyouropacities]

“We can understand queerness itself as being filled with the intention to be lost. Queerness is illegible and therefore lost in relation to the mind’s mapping of space.”

— José Esteban Muñoz, “Cruising Utopia: The Then and There of Queer Futurity”

[ladysquigglebones]

I have an undiagnosed seizure-like disorder, and I would love some input from people who’ve dealt with this kind of thing.

It started out of nowhere one night and has been going on for months. I have these episodes where I spasm and stutter, as well as seeing flashing lights and hearing things. I get super nauseated from them, especially as they’re coming on and first starting. I also feel like I’m falling or in an elevator, and sometimes I get deja vu about everything. Sometimes they only last a few minutes but other times it’s hours.

I can’t go anywhere or even do anything around the house when I have them, or else they escalate to where my body is spasming so violently I can’t even sit up straight in my wheelchair. They also make me sensitive to light and sound, so even if I make it to my college classes, doing the homework causes or worsens episodes. I’ve been hospitalized twice for it, and both times they found nothing wrong with my brain or electrolytes or anything.

I have cyclic vomiting syndrome, another poorly understood disorder that causes my autonomic nervous system to try and kill me in response to strong emotions, plus anxiety and depression. I’m also AFAB and I have some childhood trauma from being a hella sick kid. All this makes me a stereotypical candidate for functional neurological disorder. But my symptoms also match temporal lobe epilepsy perfectly, and if seizures aren’t treated, it could be dangerous. I’m afraid I’ll get fast tracked to an FND diagnosis without properly getting the TLE ruled out.

If you have FND or TLE, have any advice on getting a diagnosis accurately? What has your experience been with dealing with the medical system?

[fagmegumi]

at my cousins heterosexual wedding and i feel like an alien

[cinnonym]

If you’re actually 12 years old you need to deactivate your tumblr account

Anon, you're delightful

(Thanks for your concern, my friend. Thankfully, I'm 23, so this made me giggle)

[seishun-emergency]

this post was going to be something wildly differnet but its 4 am and my brain glitched upon seeing my own pfp and now all i can think about is tori cat. perceive him (menace)

[ciltilladeltilla]

"And indeed, it cannot be denied that the most successful practitioners of the art of life, unknown people by the way, somehow contrive to synchronize the sixty or seventy different times which beat simultaneously in every human organism. Of the rest, some we know to be dead, though they walk among us; some are not yet born, though they go through the forms of life; others are hundreds of years old though they call themselves thirty-six."

Gerald Raunig, Dividuum: Machinic Capitalism and Molecular Revolution pgs. 37-38

[ponderosapineneedles]

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