#pry him from my cold dead queer hands

[sapphirebluejewel]

Endless List of Characters I Love - Ca$h Piggot

"I know what you want. I see it every time you look at me. I'm just not wired that way."

[sophsun1]

listen as much as i love britin's reunion in 3.08 we deserved to see more of the ex lovers now forced to work together in a boss/intern dynamic ramped with sexual tension trying to keep it professional in the workplace whilst failing miserably until they eventually give in and then fuck in the office at the end as their reunion :)

[doyelikehaggis]

Girl Meets World: Queer Zay Babineaux

[ineffableigh]

In better news my lasered arm is doing MUCH better so I should be able to get back to my art soon! Gotta get that EveryFrame entry done ASAP then a couple overdue Omens requests. After that I might try to get more work on my Edwardian Cosmic Horror Lesbians cause I love them and want to contribute to queer lit to help Replace a Certain Piece of Shit. Cause fuck that guy.

Once my arm is less gross looking I'll post a before and after picture because laser tattoo removal is impressively effective after even one session and I just find this really NIFTY! xD

[fluideli123]

I've watched the DP&W movie twice in theaters and three plus times on a pirated site, and I wanted to grant my analysis on Wade and Logan's relationship that not only respects Vanessa--because Vanessa was literally Wade's Soulmate until shit hit the fan and you can pry that fact from my cold dead hands. But also explains how Logan and Wade actually represent a a-spec experience and relationship that I feel like no one has really gotten into. Am I saying they're a-spec? No. But that doesn't mean queer relationships that are fairly normal in a-spec spaces doesn't mean they don't exist outside of them as well.

First of all, the only two reasons I believe Vanessa and Wade broke up was 1) Wade went back in time to save Vanessa and he told her after his usual routine of jokes and lies and 2) Wade finally believed he could be something more, a hero, only to be turned down by the people who are known for their heroism, leaving him lost.

I genuinely believe Vanessa had a hard time taking in that knowledge, but knowing Wade and everything they've been through she would get through that like the badass she is and work through it using her plans A-Z, as she always does. But I think to really stop that woman from continuing to start a family with Wade like she wanted to in Deadpool 2, is if Wade was no longer within the right mindset to do so.

Deadpool 1 introduced Wade as someone who believed he was a bad guy who got paid to fuck up worse guys, he refused the term hero, and the moment he even tried to reach for something selfless. An act that would hopefully spare Vanessa from the pain of cancer, it all got fucked up and he got turned into a monster. Someone he deemed even lesser than he was before. So far gone and completely removed from what he was loved for (his looks and personality, but how could his personality stand alone when he looked so ugly? As ugly as he always felt on the inside?)

So he turned to what he's always known: Tracking people down and making them pay. In his mind this only confirms that he's a monster, he isn't deserving of Vanessa, of anyone. Which is why he finds comfort in Blind Al, a woman who will only have to deal with his personality and not be able to see how ugly he actually is. Symbolism for showing only half of himself and not him in his entirety (not that he can hide it from her, she's too wise, knowledgeable, caring, and knows Wade better than he knows himself at this point.)

Eventually, he finishes his hunt and is still loved despite what had transpired. Vanessa still chose him, still loved him. So maybe despite how ugly he is, he can still be loved. This grounded him, solidified his self worth, have him such stability that he had a thriving relationship with Vanessa that they were SO ready to start a family, aspired to live that dream. Another act of selfishness. Only to, once again, be met by pain. Get his dream taken away, once again resorting to what he knows: revenge.

Wade wants to be a hero? He gets forcefully mutated. Wade wants a family? Vanessa gets killed. Both are immediately solved by death, but that self-loathing and sickening hatred towards himself do nothing to cure that same confirmation he had once thought he got over: That he wasn't a monster, he could be loved, be something else.

So of course Vanessa is who, even in death, looks him in the eyes and tells him he cares, he has always cared. He cares so deeply about the people in his life he meets who unconditionally love him for him as time passes, despite all his flaws.

Wade wants to be a hero? Colossus believes he can be. Wade wants to save the 13-year-old abused kid? Vanessa knows he can. He saves lives by sacrificing himself. He scarified his comfort to show Vanessa the full truth of his ugliness, he sacrificed his life for Russel to give him a better life. Maybe he isn't a complete monster, maybe he can believe again. He can be selfish, he can be reckless. So he goes back and saves more people. Heroes do that. They save the people they love. You don't hold the whole world on your shoulders, no, like Miles learned in ATSV you think of one person of the few people you want to fight against the world to protect. And he did just that.

With Vanessa back and a big family he can finally chase after what he wasn't meant for. Because it's only happened twice, it wouldn't happen again-

Rejection. He can't be a hero because people don't need him. He is the needy one, the one who wants to be needed, needs to be wanted. So, it's the crash. The final straw. He breaks. He breaks so hard because what the fuck is the point to trying if every time he is met with failure? Rejection? Pain? Loss? He becomes so stuck in figuring this all out he neglects his relationship with Vanessa, causing issues. They go separate ways, but still so close, because you don't just lose your best friend like that, even if you're no longer partners. They're always meant to be together one way or another.

So you have this broken man who is searching for purpose, years later still harboring this tiny flicker of hope that he can be greater. He can be great. He can be a hero.

His world is in trouble, he doesn't think twice saving it. He accepts he isn't perfect for this, not like all the big guys back in Avengers headquarters, but he can't let his loved ones die because of someone he's had a vendetta against the last two movies.

He literally fights and fights and fights to find someone to help him, Wade can't save who he loves he has to find someone else you can, anyone else.

Than a broken, desperate man walks into a bar to see another broken man who has since long given up.

The thing about Logan and Wade is that they don't need words. Wade blew himself up in order to die in the second movie, Logan drinks himself away, both knowing they can't die no matter how much they want to. How much they believe they deserve it.

So Wade sees a Wolverine who has potential, who hasn't hurt him (unlike the others, he gets hurt so much, guys) and places his faith in him without hesitation. From that moment on he has never truly doubted Logan's abilities nor his heroism, because he knew his Logan and if his world was anchored by a Logan than all Logan's are built with something he isn't. They're made to be heroes, made to be important. Yeah, they fight, but I strongly believe that's how two broken men say everything words can't possibly describe.

I mean what words could describe the way they go all out on each other, knowing the other can't die, the way Wade looks up at him, not wanting to regrow his entire body because he needs to save his world and understands Logan and has to decide to say something that'll convince him to help. Wade doesn't know if stopping the machine will completely save his world or if a new Logan will patch it up too, it's his own educated wish he passes onto Logan. Because just like Russel, he cares. He understands. He wants to help.

It's that faith, hope, and resistance and face of humor despite it all that causes Logan to stick by that dumb asses side. He lost everything, he is seeing someone like himself before he stumbled home drunk from the bar to find everyone dead. Someone who is capable of doing something he wasn't able to. He wants to help, more and more for Wade and less himself, a silent journey of healing following Wades steps everywhere they stumble into.

Because Logan was just drunk at a bar before being told he was needed to save a world, told he was the worst before being offered help anyone, getting praised over his capabilities, and than told again and again how he is able to be someone he never thought he could be. Much like Wade was and is.

Logan sees it. Wade most likely ignores it, much like anything else. He isn't very open with anyone other than Vanessa as we've learned.

So just- of course Wolverine is the honest one, of course he hits low, he sees himself and Wade and wants to hurt him. Wade wants to hurt him back, but only when he's directly attacked by his words and threats, a way of not taking shit. Logan took shit from the world and than didn't from Wade and his emotional rollercoster right. And I think without whatever happened in that Honda Odyssey things wouldn't have been the same. They needed that fight, that release, that hatred from themselves to burst into the form of someone else who could take it just as much as the other could.

Logan listens to Wade's home at the borderlands. Logan is given kindness and tough love. Logan joins. Logan begins to understand how most linger by Wade's side despite everything. He sees why. He's a force, he doesn't give up, he doesn't quit, not for others. It grants strength, though imperfect and messy.

Logan believes Wade deserves better. So he plans on sacrificing himself only for Wade to once again show how much of a Hero he wants to be and could be. Only for those two idiots to hold hands to madona and come to a mutual understanding and comfort that has Wade making room for Logan in his and Al's apartment.

And there is something so inherently a-spec about not being explicitly sexual with each other, having an understanding that goes beyond direct words and full truths. They they can hurt one another and it feels so good, so wanted and cherished. How they support one another by being fucked up and sloppy. They're wrecks and they help the other heal, do what they're too afraid to do.

What is more a-spec than two people looking at each other with adoration and trust? To be two people who cannot be placed within a single both because their relationship and meaning to one another isn't so neatly cut and within expectations? To love in a way that blood and standing side by side is a comfort? A steadying point in which everything becomes clearer with time?

They make me so fucking sick, they make me so FUCKING SICK.

[tommykinard6]

This blog is here to stay. It will remain a Tommy Kinard and BuckTommy blog.

I’m pissed. I’m grieving. 9-1-1 is my favorite show and now they’ve pulled this shit.

If Lou had left the show because the death threats were too much, his mental health was suffering, or he just couldn’t take it anymore, I would absolutely understand. I’d blame a certain part of the fandom, but I’d respect his decision. But he didn’t even want this. He loves Tommy and Tevan. I don’t know what Tim is thinking.

I know it all feels like a waste right now, but it’s not. Let me recount really quick:

• Buck is bisexual.

• There have been some really important scenes to come out of his discovering his sexuality, including Josh’s speech and his own lesson in fighting for his relationship.

• Tommy Kinard will be a character you pry from my cold dead hands. A gay man who discovered himself late in life and is still living his life genuinely. A man who made mistakes and acknowledges them, but has grown far past them. What a wonderfully rounded character.

• Excepting the end of 806, the beauty of their relationship. They did so much with so little screen time.

It’s not a waste, even though the ending absolutely trashed the progress made.

Resolutely, I do not believe this is the end. I know, I know, “the interviews”. It’s not out of the realm of possibility that they’re misdirecting. Also, they haven’t even written the rest of the season yet. The storyline is fixable if there’s a make up.

Not telling anyone how to feel about Oliver’s comments, but I would caution about using TVline’s article as the Bible. It was a terribly written, heavily biased interview and frankly it’s an insult that it was even conducted.

Even if it is the end, no one has to stop shipping. No one has to leave the fandom. We did not lose. We still got our canon ship and it will forever be an irrevocable fact that it was canon. BuckTommy is endgame for me. I may be disappointed by expectations, but I will never be in the wrong for sticking by that.

Make your displeasure known to Tim and ABC, but do not lose your dignity doing so. Do not engage with the haters. No harassing Lou. You can hold Oliver accountable for his remarks, but no harassment of him. You can call him out without making him the fandom whipping boy. I’ve seen many people latching onto him as the outlet for their feelings on this. Do not harass or bully the writers or actors, but make sure the producers and showrunners know they fucked up.

And most importantly, look after yourselves and each other. We’re still a community and we’re here to stay. This week is one of the worst ever, but we will come out of it.

Thank you, Tommy Kinard, for the hope you gave us, the representation you presented, and the character you were. Thank you Lou for portraying such a character and being such a sweetheart. BuckTommy will forever be in our hearts, endgame or not.

As a reminder, BuckTommy is not the be all end all of the show for queer rep. Hen and Karen, our fabulous queens, and Josh will still always be there. Buck is still bi, no matter what’s next in store for him. Tommy, even if gone forever, is still a significant moment of gay rep. And that’s not even counting the small characters that come in and out. It’s not always done well, but it’s there.

[peacockpenis]

chris leask agreed that trevor is queer at stagedoor tonight apparently cause he plays him like other stagehands he knows who we’re all degrees of queer which means that YOU CAN PRY CANON GAY TREVOR WATSON FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

The way that Wilhelm’s anxiety storyline means so much to me. ❤️‍🩹

Anxiety is not a one-size-fits-all phenomenon, and neither is its treatment. YR captured that so well in the aforementioned scene. I’ve never seen anything like it. It’s brilliant.

God I understand Wilhelm's frustration here so damn well

These types of exercises never worked on me and it's upsetting when you try and it does nothing

[suncrat]

I forgot that I never posted my P5R ramblings so here they are:

Socra’s Random Ass P5R Thoughts:

-I got emotionally attached to Ryuji and then Ann and then Yusuke and I refused to swap any of them out of my party throughout the entire game and it annoyed my brother (who was presiding over my playthrough) to no end

-(this also made the Okumura boss fight really annoying for me)

-Ryuji and Ann are my kids. My sillies. My beloveds.

-my brother and I referred to Kamoshida’s boss fight as “castrating Kamoshida” so in the period where I was waiting to do the fight (in the real world, not in the game) he’d just randomly ask me “when are you gonna castrate Kamoshida”

-I went from a Makoto hater to a… somewhat Makoto enjoyer? From what I’ve heard I think I’ll like her more in Strikers

-I know Kasumi/Sumire is kinda set up as the main love interest girl or whatever in Royal but I never once wanted to date her (no hate on those who do though), my initial impression of her was that she was like one of those underclassmen who you take under your wing when you’re in school and joke about being your kid and stuff

-also let me romance the bros:((((

-I didn’t date anyone but if I had to I’d probably date Hifumi

-and if Joker wasn’t a fucking kid I’d date Takemi (I am not immune to hot punk doctor)

-and if I could romance the bros then I’d date Ryuji

-I was hoping and praying for Sojiro to take in Yusuke and I was very disappointed when it didn’t happen. Like who the fuck is taking care of him??? Doesn’t he need a guardian???????? He sent a text about eating fucking bread crusts once and I have never wanted to parent a fictional teenager more in my life

-Ryuji will say the gayest shit about Joker and then the game will remember he’s supposed to be the Straight Bro Guy™ and the overall experience is of someone who is very, VERY deeply in denial that he’s a lil bit of a fruit

-Ryuji: Thank you for being there for me dude I’ve never felt this way with anyone before and there’ll always be a place for you at my side

Ryuji, two seconds later: man I sure do love women

-(closeted bi disaster Ryuji methinks)

-Anyways you can pry queer Yusuke and queer Ann out of my cold dead hands

-my embarrassing confession is that I got lost in Kaneshiro’s palace like three times

-apparently I got close enough to having Mishima be my first Maxed confidant that my brother was getting concerned

-my brother told me that “if Yusuke asks you to go on an outing and you don’t commit, I’m never letting you play on my laptop again”

-I kinda hated Morgana towards the start of the game (mostly bc he was a dick to Ryuji) but he did grow on me around the 3rd palace. Then I got to the 6th palace and got back on my Morgana hater arc. My final opinion is that he’s just a lil hater but he’s alright. He’s lucky he’s cute

-I am not really a Mishima enjoyer but I think I have far less negative feelings about him than most of the P5 fandom. It doesn’t sit right with me that the game obviously wants the player to laugh at him even after showing that he went through bullying and abuse- characters like Yusuke have funny moments/lines while also having their trauma be validated, but Mishima isn’t allowed to have that and it feels kind of shitty

-so uhhhh for some reason my game skipped the entire middle phase of the Akechi fight?????

-when Maruki was bonding with the tentacles and said something to them like “I’m yours to use” my brother gave me a look like “don’t you dare fucking say it”

-(I said it)

[ninadove]

Miraculous Masterpost

Because I did not expect to write about this series as much as I did, so now my Random Ramblings Masterpost looks like a never-ending shopping list, and we can’t have that.

Generic 🦋

Miraculous’ philosophy of consent: all’s fair in love and plot [S5 E19]

A word on show-don’t-tell (Get it? A word? On show-don’t-tell? I’ll see myself out —) [S5 E18]

London Callin’ (Maybe) (We’re not sure) [S5 E24]

The Shadow Weaver-ification of Gabriel Agreste — Part 1 [S5 E26]

The Shadow Weaver-ification of Gabriel Agreste — Part 2 [S5 E26]

The Shadow Weaver-ification of Gabriel Agreste — Part 3 [S5 E26]

I love the Sentimonster Theory Canon and you can pry out of my cold, dead hands [S5 E26]

Felix Graham de Vanily / Argos 🦚

"Duusu, spread my feathers!" — A queer reading of the Sentimonster theory [S4 E26]

Felix is a little b*tch (affectionate) [S4 E26]

Taking risks in Strikeback (Get it? Risk? Strikeback?) [S4 E26]

On the beef between Felix and Chloé [S5 E18]

Felix’s masterplan was brilliant, actually [S5 E18]

Leave my fucking child alone — Part I: "There’s only one thing worse than Gabriel —" [S5 E18]

Leave my fucking child alone — Part II: A very chill rant about Adrien’s amok [S5 E18]

Reminder that yes, Colt SUCKS, but he’s not the only one [S5 E24]

On cracked rings and broken chains [S5 E24]

Surviving child abuse through humour [S5 E24]

Badass in the arena [S5 E24]

TRANSMASC. FELIX. PROPAGANDA. [S5 E24]

Plushie Parallels [S5 E24]

Felix is a ray of fucking sunshine [S5 E24]

On Felix’s wish [S5 E26]

Kagami Tsurugi / Ryuko 🐉

To wear one’s heart on one’s sleeve [S5 E18]

Cutting off contact(s) [S5 E19]

Thinking about Kagami Tsurugi ❤️ [S5 E24]

On Kagami and the cousins’ silly antics [S5 E26]

Birthday post ❤️🐉🎂🎉 [S5 E26]

Feligami 🦚🐉

On Feligami and the (absence of) masks [S5 E18]

Beware of first impressions [S5 E18]

Feligami Fastburn my beloved [S5 E19]

Feligami Flexes [S5 E19]

It’s the way they hold hands, your honour [S5 E19]

Some Ship Bingo Ramblings [S5 E19]

Incoherent screaming over Kagami’s amok [S5 E19]

Feligami / Gabemilie parallels [S5 E19]

Pretension 🥺💜❤️ [S5 E19]

On Flairyuko and chokers [S5 E19]

The quickest prison break ever [S5 E24]

You come to MY post, you disrespect MY blorbos — [S5 E24]

A word on jealousy [S5 E24]

Finding beauty in the monstruous [S5 E24]

Feligami’s couple cosplays [S5 E24]

A word on monsters [S5 E24]

Feligami Writing Guide [S5 E24]

From queer neurodivergent child abuse survivors to lovers [S5 E24]

Draw me like one of your British boys [S5 E26]

Felix doesn’t get the monopoly of the heart eyes [S5 E26]

On defying the narrative [S5 E24]

Ryukomori x Argos… Argomori? [S5 E24]

*Fireflies from Owl City starts playing* [S5 E26]

The Marigami-to-Feligami pipeline [London]

Beauty and the Beast AU

Felix’s fanfictions

Coup de foudre

Adrien Agreste / Chat Noir 🐈‍⬛

Remember kids: necromancy bad — [S5 E26]

On the S6 Redesigns Dread™ [S5 E26]

Graham de Family 💍

Flairmidable’s formidable costume [S4 E26]

Transmasc Felix Propaganda [S5 E18]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part I: NEWSFLASH, ASSHOLES!!!!! Felix has cared about Adrien the entire goddamn time [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part II: The Path to Isolation [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part III: L’Enfer est pavé de bonnes intentions [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part IV: Sun and rain [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part V: Sun and moon [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part VI: Mirror, mirror [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part V: First draft [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part VI: Everything I did… [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part VII: Reclaiming your image [S5 E24]

The Senticousins Agenda — Part VIII: Blue roses

#LetAmelieStabABitch2023 [S5 E24]

On Felix, Emilie and Solitude [S5 E24]

On Felix, Emilie and loneliness [S5 E24]

All I’m saying is, Emilie should have been a lesbian [S5 E24]

Some thoughts on Sentisouls [S5 E24]

Adrien is a disappointment to his entire lineage (and we love him for it) [S5 E24]

Hands again! [S5 E24]

Let’s play Animal Crossing: Happy Home Paradise! [S5 E26]

A word on accents and guillotines (with a title like that how can you NOT want to click)

Aroace Adrien and Demiromantic Felix propaganda

Marinette Dupain Cheng / Ladybug 🐞

Do NOT talk shit about Marinette [S5 E26]

In defense of Ladybug’s suit [Paris]

On Marinette and second chances [London]

Kind of an accidental Lilanette post [London]

Love Square ❤️

Queer coding! Queer coding everywhere!

Chloé Bourgeois / Queen Bee 🐝

Can a bee change her stripes? [S5 E18]

That one time I accidentally made myself a Chlolila shipper [S5 E22]

Lila 🐛

London special takeaways

Master Fu 🗝️

Ah yes, the good old cycle of abuse and neglect

Lukadrien 🐈‍⬛🐍

A word on… Swear words

[allzelemonz]

Finding and Feeling (2.5): The Threat and A Talk

Pairing Type: M/M Rating: M/Reference to sex Warnings: Internalized homophobia, mentions of torture, gelding, asexual character, everyone is queer, platonic relationships, Background and Mentioned Relationships: Javier & Bill, Micah & Bill, Kieran & Mary-Beth, Kieran & Karen, Mary-Beth & Karen, Charles/Arthur, Dutch/Hosea Summary: Bill and Kieran come to terms with things on their own. A/N: You can pry aroace Javier from my cold, dead hands. Other Chapters

Micah can’t find that dumb, drunk, bear of a man anywhere. Lately Bill’s been going out to cause mayhem with him and, as much as Micah doesn’t want to admit it, he enjoys the company. He does find Javier counting cash that Micah’s about three-quarters sure was won off Bill, so he stops to lean on the table and stare.

Javier looks up at him. “Micah.” He mutters.

“Seen Bill?” Micah asks simply, tilting his head to peer at the bills in the other’s hand.

“Maybe.” Javier looks back down at his cash. “What do you want with him?”

“None a’ yer damn business.”

When Javier looks back up, Micah has disappeared. But he did have a point, Bill is nowhere to be found. Annoyed that he’s worried, Javier tucks his cash away and walks out towards the woods. It doesn’t take him long to find Bill. He’s slumped against a napping Brown Jack, out like a flame in the cold just as his horse is. Javier shakes his head, looking around the woods before kicking lightly at Bill’s boot.

“¡Buenos días!” Javier yells in a whisper when his friend stirs, wanting to annoy Bill without spooking the horse. He settles himself down next to the idiot he had held a knife to just yesterday, offering him his flask. “Micah was looking for you.”

Bill grunts, snatching the flask and taking a swig.

“You hear what happened with Arthur and little Jack.”

Bill groans. “Pinkerton bastards.”

Javier shakes his head. “How the hell did they find us?”

Bill grunts again.

Javier looks over at him. “What’s wrong with you?”

“Nothin’.”

“Bullshit.” Javier mutters. “Tell me, cabrón. I’m great with secrets.”

Bill is quiet for a moment. He takes his hat off his head and sets it on his knee so he can run a hand through his hair. “Did somethin’ stupid.”

“Don’t you always?” Javier chuckles.

“Ain’t funny.”

“Okay.” Javier puts his hands up. “Sorry. Tell me.”

Bill fiddles with the seam of a patch on his pants. “Think ‘m sick.”

“You don’t look sick.” Javier says, tilting his head to look at his friend’s face. “Maybe hungover—”

“Not that kinda sick!” Bill grumbles, putting his head in his hands. “Think I… Think I’m an invert.”

Javier goes quiet, simply staring at his friend. Of course Javier knows, most of the camp has their suspicions, but Javier prides himself on knowing things of romance. Bill has never shown interest in women, not that Javier has seen. He’s passed up some of the prettiest working girls in favor of staring at some other cowboy in countless saloons. Javier isn’t stupid. Which is why he also knows what this is about. That O’Driscoll rat.

“Tell me what you did.” Javier speaks evenly, trying to take on the tone he would want if he ever told his secrets.

Bill sits up, leaning back against the still sleeping Brown Jack with a sigh. “I got drunk n’... went out ta the woods…”

“Ah…” Javier licks his lips as he tries to think of what to say. “And you thought of him?”

Bill nods.

“I don’t think there's anything wrong with that.” Javier says carefully, knowing his friend’s short fuse. “I think of men on occasion.”

Bill looks over at him like he’s crazy and Javier manages a smile.

“Was that all?” Javier asks, fishing cigarettes from his pocket. “Because that’s not very stupid.”

Bill takes the cigarette he’s offered. “You don’t think it’s stupid?”

“No.” Javier says. “Do you think it’s stupid that I don’t find people desirable at all?”

Bill glances at Javier with furrowed brows.

“Just saying.” Javier shrugs. “We have some things in common. I don’t find women attractive either, or men. It’s just a feeling, who cares.”

“Yer confusin’.”

Javier chuckles.

“I mean…” Bill scrunches his nose as he thinks. “What kinda man doesn’t like—”

“Ah, ah.” Javier shakes his head. “We are both men, amigo. Some people are just particular.” He looks over at Bill. “Some men like women, some like men, some like both, some like neither.”

“An’ you…”

“Like neither.” Javier shrugs. “But I still have fun when I want. Nothing wrong with doing something you enjoy.” Javier watches Bill process this for a while before he stubs out his cigarette and stands. “I don’t know what you did to the kid, but you should probably try and win him back, yes?”

Bill nods. “It’s really… okay?”

Javier scoffs. “No one cares. Arthur and Charles have been sharing a bed since Colter, have you not noticed?”

“They…?” Bill nutters.

Javier shrugs. “Not that I care. Just means I get a tent all to myself.”

“But it ain’t—”

“Ain’t what?” Javier interrupts. “Right? Moral? Who gives a shit, idiota. We’re outlaws.”

Bill just sits there, staring at the ground.

“What? You think Dutch hasn’t slept with Hosea before?”

Bill looks up at him with wide eyes.

“You think old Grimshaw hasn’t gone off with a working girl?” Javier laughs. “Or that Sean hasn’t made out with some poor bastard in a saloon?” He gestures broadly at the woods around him. “We’re free out here. No one can touch us.”

Bill stares for a while as Javier steals back his flask, then he speaks quietly. “Help me.”

“With what?” Javier asks.

“With the O’Driscoll.” Bill mutters. “I did some shit an’... I damn well don’t know how ta flirt.”

Javier chuckles. “Let’s go buy him something.”

“Why?”

“He’s got nothing.” Javier shrugs. “He needs things and you have money.”

“L-Like what?”

“He likes horses, yes?”

Bill nods.

“Then a brush.” Javier shrugs. “Or whatever shit you get for this spoiled brat.” He laughs, patting Brown Jack's flank.

Bill smiles to himself. “Could get him some treats fer that little walker a’ his.”

“That’s it, cabrón” Javier grins. “I’ll go with you, I need some things for Boaz anyway.”

*

Karen’s second cup of morning coffee is something folks know not to get in the way of. Most folks anyway. Just as she opens her mouth to tell off the little baby O’Driscoll, she hears the tiny sniffle. And as much as Karen prides herself on being one of the toughest women she’s ever met, it breaks her heart a little.

“What’s wrong?” She asks, keeping the edge in her voice.

Kieran wipes his face before he turns around, attempting a smile. “N-Nothin’’s wrong, Miss… Just—”

Before he can think of a lie, Karen shouts. “Mary-Beth! Get over here, Kieran’s cryin’!”

“I-I ain’t—”

“Hush, darlin’.” Karen sighs.

Mary-Beth rushes over, stopping only to be pulled along by Karen as she pushes Kieran over to the rock he usually sits at. Karen pushes Kieran down to sit on the rock and kneels in front of him, taking his hands in hers like he’s a little boy that had his toy stolen. Mary-Beth sits down beside him, putting an arm over his shoulders in an attempt to comfort.

“”Now, what’s wrong?” Karen asks again, still not quite using a friendly tone.

Kieran sniffles. “It’s nothin’ fer you ladies ta trouble yourselves with.”

“Bullshit.” Karen mutters.

Mary-Beth squeezes Kieran tight and tries to speak as softly as she can. “Somethin’ with Bill, ain’t it?”

Kieran feels a shiver go through him, fearful thoughts rocketing around his head. “H-How did ya—”

“Oh, please!” Karen chuckles. “Whole damn camp can see the way ya stare at ‘em.”

“Karen.” Mary-Beth hisses. “Be nice.”

“Just saying… there was that one time Bill had his union suit with that missin’ button, I think Kieran here nearly passed out.”

Mary-Beth ignores her, turning back to Kieran and trying to be gentle. “You wanna talk about it?”

Kieran shakes his head.

“Might be a good thing.” Mary-Beth presses, hating to see Kieran suffer more than he already has. “Please?”

Kieran shakes when he exhales, as if he was holding in toxic air. “H-He…”

Karen grips his hand, squeezing comfortingly as she gets her sensibility back.

“H-He came up ta me a few days ago… with them tongs…”

“Oh…” Mary-Beth pulls Kieran closer. “You poor thing, Kieran. Are you alright?”

He nods.

“‘m gonna kill that bastard.” Karen mutters.

“How ‘bout I go get Charles an’ he can take ya out ridin’?” Mary-Beth suggests. “Ya like Charles, don’t ya?”

Kieran nods. Charles is one of the few people that was never cruel to him, one of the few he doesn’t have ready reason to be afraid of.

“We’d go, but…” Karen looks off towards camp. “Grimshaw’ll have our heads if laundry ain’t done today.”

“‘s alright.” Kieran sniffles.

Mary-Beth and Karen walk him over to Charles who looks up with kind eyes. He agrees without much convincing to talk Kieran out for a little riding, saying it’ll be good for Branwen to stretch his legs. Kieran drys his face for the last time, already happy to get out of camp for a while. As he nears Branwen he notices a new pair of saddlebags on his saddle and when he reaches inside he finds a new brush on one side and a healthy amount of treats on the other.

A few yards away, Bill grips the dominos table so hard his knuckles turn white. Javier sits across from him, sharpening a knife.

“He like it?” Javier asks, looking up at Bill.

Bill smiles, looking away from the O’Driscoll—Kieran. He’s working on that. “He’s smilin’.” Bill mutters. “Givin’ the horse a peppermint.”

“Good.” Javier sighs. “Just keep spoiling him and he’ll warm up.”

“I feel silly.” Bill mumbles.

“That’s love, amigo.” Javier chuckles. “Warm, fuzzy, and silly.”

[ashtonisvibing]

egos normalcy au

everyone's just fucking normal, average people (but still queer as fuck, but that's a given)

anti and jackie both work in tech in some way. jackie has no powers, he doesn't save anyone. anti isn't some weird glitch goblin. they probably hate each other, though. anti is so xenogender, so "anti" isn't its birth name

chase is a video game streamer. still very depressed still very divorced, but no connections to IRIS (IRIS doesn't exist)

marvin is a clothing store retailer who does magic acts for kids on the side

henrik... well, still a doctor. just the stuff with sean doesn't happen.

jameson isn't a wacky guy from the 1920's. he's either a historian or plays violin, i can't decide on which. still mute and uses sign language, obviously. ooooooooo, or maybe he crafts puppets! actually yeah, i like that more, he makes puppets and marionettes ^^

robbie is henrik's adopted child but is actually fucking alive for once

general info (age, pronouns, sexuality, gender)

jackie: 35, he/him, pansexual asexual, trans man

anti: 32, it/its xe/xim, aromantic asexual, glitchgender/agender

chase: 35, he/him they/them, aromantic bisexual, cisqueer

marvin: 33, they/them, gaybian, genderqueer/nonbinary

henrik: 39, he/him, bisexual, cisgender

jameson: 38, he/him they/them, gay asexual, transmasc bear

robbie: 17, they/them he/him it/its, unlabeled/queer, nonbinary/xenogender

in terms of relationships:

jackie and chase are still childhood friends, you can pry this from my cold, dead hands

jackie and marvin are engaged

jackie and anti are step siblings and have a rocky relationship. jackie's trying to mend it a bit but anti is not having it (trauma from your parent's divorcing can be a bitch)

chase and marvin are twins, used to have a bad relationship but through some healing thanks to their childhoods they're okay now

debating on if i wanna have henrik and chase have a friends with benefits thing currently happening. depends on if i wanna bring the iplier egos in (if i do, the fwb will be a past thing, and chase and bing will be dating)

jameson and marvin are exes but on extremely good terms (it was a mutual breakup). now jameson and anti are dating

if i decide to draw stuff for this i'll include a full fledged relationship chart. despite this honestly starting out as a joke post... as you can see i have- many thoughts-

i'll probably bring a couple'a the ipliers in, i love the goobers too much lolol

[doyelikehaggis]

Girl Meets World: Transmasc Isadora Smackle (He/They)

[firstofficerkittycat]

Can you talk/elaborate more about your McCoy headcanons... I like hearing you talk about him

sry this took so long!

i think he never really believed in what he was taught religiously as a kid like he asked too many questions and was not satisfied with the answers but the fear still got to him, he was always high strung and sensitive and was bullied rly badly for it, he mostly hung out with his gramma who was the only person in his family who was nice to him, she was a healer and taught him everything he knew about herbalism. the intrusive gore stuff started at like 8-10 and by 12 he was living every day feeling like he had no skin or bones and that someone could just reach inside him and pull something out. if anyone threw him a punch he'd just crumple up on the floor in a ball shaking cus he felt like he was bleeding to death. he started stealing his dad's tools and making armour to wear under his clothes so no one could get to his insides which like. burned the fuck out of him in the heat but honestly very practical for a queer kid in georgia and he was able to start fighting back

he didn't have the vocab to explain to anyone what he was experiencing, all anyone ever saw was him blacking out at the mention of body parts so he was just called squeamish and everyone moved on while he got worse. then one day his gramma was cooking and he saw her cutting up tomatoes and lookked at them a little too long and slammed his head thru the drywall, and his dad went to hit him and she was like no no stop and took him into her greenhouse sat him down and was like you're old enough to know now i think. and she told him he was getting visions from god of what hell looks like + that both of them were being called to service. so he went heavy into evangelism at that point and it lasted a couple years, all the time he was still studying medicine in school, and then he had a massive breakdown because why hasn't god made it stop I'm doing what I'm supposed to. and his family control him and would never let him go get seen in a million years so he stole chemistry supplies from school and started trying to cook his own antipsychotics with herbs in the greenhouse because the kid is a visionary. did not fuckin work he got really sick from it and just kept going and going cus he felt he was so close to getting it right + ended up getting arrested and charged in hospital at some point down the line

then the space program came to his town and he was like please yes get me the fuck off this planet, and he didn't have anything to show for how smart he was because he was too sick to finish, and they looked thru his criminal record (cus thats how they find their starfleet candidates be real) and they were like hey listen, from age 16 u were in ur room trying to make fucking quetiapine from scratch, starfleet needs a freak like you

he met jim in organic chemistry and they got together, he eventually told him he joined starfleet to run away from god and jim was damn that's crazy i joined to meet god and pry my life back from his cold dead hands. and they were both like wow haha. and then they met spock and had this same conversation at the bar one time and spock drunk on cocoa pops was like if we're speaking metaphorically i believe i joined to make out with god sloppy style

*also also when bones is in recovery he fine tunes the stuff he was working on with the plants and sends it to his gramma who would never take meds in a billion years but because he made it himself with the bush knowledge she taught him she was down with it n he gets her better and they repair their relationship

[chaoticas-hell]

MY AFTG pride hc of the Foxes for Pride Month:

Neil: demisexual (canon!) But also demiromantic, this boy had not felt a single romantic feeling towards anyone expect for Andrew (he definitely just says he's andrewsexual until he learns about demi). As for gender, HE IS A TRANS MAN I WILL GO DOWN WITH THIS Y'ALL CAN FIGHT ME (it just makes so much sense you can pry trans Neil out of my cold dead hands if you dare)

Andrew: gay (canon) but also greyromantic or demi romantic, I'm torn between the two but he defo didn't experience romantic feelings for anyone but Neil (i.e. the reason he thought Neil was a hallucination bc he had never felt something like that before and hoped it was because of the drugs but hahaha nope!)

Aaron: repressed bisexual, he knew from an early age that boys were cute just like girls but he heard what Luther was saying about gay people and suppressed his own feelings for y e a r s and acted out bc he never processed his sexuality for a decade (also Neil was an asshole and he didn't want his brother to date the guy he hated the most so of course he was against it, also because he realizes that Neil could hurt Andrew (re Baltimore) and that's not gonna happen, not on Aaron's watch no sir)

Kevin: bisexual (this guy is bi, he's so bi like- he's a bi man if I've ever seen one) (so bi he fails completely at trying to pass as straight, his giant crush on Jeremy was a dead give away) but he's definitely on the aro spectrum. He's definitely still figuring it out bc you know, romantic feelings weren't allowed in the Nest so he's figuring it out

Nicky: gay :3 (canon)

Dan: bi sexual but, to her huge dismay, with a preference for men (super satly when she realized this but you know she got Matt out of it so it was okay)

Matt: he's also bi, I mean just look at him. If he wasn't so in love with Dan and was able to, he would probably kiss Neil. He and Dan definitely talk about the cute people they see and point out cute people because they're comfortable in their relationship to do so, no jealousy here

Allison: a bi sexual queen! She doesn't realize it until after Seth passed however. She definitely made out with girls while drunk and just thought it was normal (sure, keep telling yourself that boo)

Renee: a fucking lesbian. Should've been canon (I saw Nora trying to force a Renee Jean thing, I saw that and I reject that)

Bonus

Jeremy: pan, gender doesn't matter at all to him, he loves all

Jean: queer, he can admit he is attracted to multiple genders but he has too much trauma to really look into it. He's also ace for sure

[just-prime]

Here we go again

So, once again, like the sacrificial lamb that I am, I've consumed the newest episode of Ahsoka...and the best thing that could possibly happen to this show is Thrawn showing up for literally only two seconds. Keep my baby away from this, he deserves better.

It goes without saying that the flashbacks and Anakin made me feel nothing. It was clear that they were covering the clone's faces so that they didn't have to pay Temuera Morrison more than just for that one line. It was an utter rehash of multiple Clone Wars arcs, but far far worse.

A show, where people walk with arms crossed between set pieces in shitty looking costumes. I've seen child cosplayers with better costumes than this. Baby Ahsoka looks like shit. Adult Ahsoka looks like shit. De-aged Anakin looks like shit. Normal Hayden Christensen looks hot. I will concede that point easily.

But yeah, I return once more to my thesis that nothing fucking happens in this show. Like sure, events take place, but they have no meaning. The New Republic wants to court martial Hera? Okay...for what??? Going rogue? They literally don't believe that a war is coming so why the fuck do they care??? Also she's literally one of their highest ranking generals...so what exactly can they do to her? Take away her ship? You're prying the Ghost from her cold dead hands.

Like seriously though, why did this take 3 episodes for them to figure out to follow the purrgil? Like, why wasn't that the first thought?

Also, why is Ahsoka going and finding Hera's kids??? She literally could have left Jacen and Chopper sitting on the Ghost for the entire fleet to find, and jumped in with Ahsoka...

OH AND ALSO FUCK YOU DISNEY FOR MENTIONING LEIA KEEP MY WIFE'S NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH - my live reaction

Aaaanyway, here's the obligatory where the fuck is Zeb? Where the fuck is Kallus? We literally only have 3 episodes left. Is Disney avoiding them cuz they don't want to pay Steve Bloom? Is that what's going on? Did he make one too many m-preg jokes and the higher ups stuck him on the DNI list right next to Daniel Glover for the crime of being pro queer characters???

So yeah...Also yes, fine, the purrgil look really good. I'll also give them that.an