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Proposed Diagnostic Criteria for Daydreaming Disorder (Maladaptive Daydreaming)
A. Persistent and recurrent fantasy activity that is vivid and fanciful, as indicated by the individual exhibiting two (or more) of the following in a 6-month period; at least one of these should be Criterion 1:
While daydreaming, experiences an intense sense of absorption/immersion that includes visual, auditory, or affective properties
Daydreaming is triggered, maintained, or enhanced with exposure to music
Daydreaming is triggered, maintained, or enhanced with exposure to stereotypical movement (e.g., pacing, rocking, hand movements)
Often daydreams when feels distressed or bored
Daydreaming length or intensity intensifies in the absence of others (e.g., daydreams more when alone)
Is annoyed when unable to daydream or when daydreaming is interrupted or curbed
Would rather daydream than engage in daily chores, social, academic, or professional activities
Has made repeated unsuccessful efforts to control, cut back, or stop daydreaming
B. The disturbance causes clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
C. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition (e.g., dementia) and is not better explained by autism spectrum disorders, attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder, schizophrenia spectrum disorders, bipolar I disorder, obsessiveâcompulsive and related disorders, dissociative identity disorder, substance-related and addictive disorders, an organic disorder, or a medical condition.
Note. Current severity defined as follows: Mild - experiences mainly distress, no obvious functional impairment; moderate - one area of functioning is affected (e.g., work); severe - more than area of functioning is affected (e.g., work, school or social life) (p. 180).
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MD is associated with social anxiety and addiction (particularly internet addiction) (p. 177), as well as dissociation, obsessive-compulsive behaviour, and inattention / attention deficit (p. 181).
People who seek treatment for MD are misdiagnosed with a variety of conditions; "...professionals were unfamiliar with their problem and provided various diagnoses, including depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, posttraumatic stress disorder, borderline personality disorder, and dissociative disorder" (p. 178).
"MD is uniquely characterized by a kinesthetic component, a need for evocative music, and an addictive yearning to compulsively engage in this mental behavior" (p. 184).
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From Somer et al., 'Maladaptive Daydreaming: Proposed Diagnostic Criteria and Their Assessment With a Structured Clinical Interview', Psychology of Consciousness: Theory, Research, and Practice (2017), Vol. 4, No. 2, pp. 176-189. DOI: 10.1037/cns0000.
Another interesting & related article is Somer et al., 'Representations of Maladaptive Daydreaming and the Self: A Qualitative Analysis of Drawings', The Arts in Psychotherapy (2019), Vol. 63, pp. 102-110. DOI: 10.1016/j.aip.2018.12.004.
#my emphasis in bold#described#described in post#described in alt text#maladaptive daydreaming#maladaptive daydreaming disorder#daydreaming disorder#proposed disorder#proposed diagnosis#proposed diagnostic criteria#dogpost
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I respect the "satoru fell harder" headcanons, but I really think suguru fell so hard he smacked his head on the pavement and that's why he was such a fucked up mess by the end.
#maybe it's bad but I don't think he actually had ptsd#I really do think he had other issues largely related to his connection/obsession with satoru#i've seen people propose ocd and sure but i think religious psychosis makes sense too#i always go back to the clapping because it wasn't amanai being shot that he kept coming back to or him almost dying in the fight with toji#it was satoru - a resurrected god - surrounded by the masses so far beneath him that he could destroy them with the effort of a thought#and in their ignorance they were clapping#i really think he saw something hopelessly evil and tainted in that because in that moment Satoru was the purest thing he could imagine#even as satoru was asking with a sort of childlike curiosity - should we kill these people?#btw i don't think he had schizophrenia but rather was schizotypal. he's frankly too functional for untreated schizophrenia or ptsd#obligatory âto meâ and ânot a doctorâ disclaimer#but i have a schizophrenia spectrum disorder so I do know what I'm talking about
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Omg hi Ms. Yellow Caballero big fan of your work <3 For real though, I'm really excited that your sharing the Weekenders, it was a joy to read and I'm bongocat-ing now that others also get the privilege to read it as well.
Referencing your tags, would you please elaborate of ableism in fandom and, like you said, how fandom treats characters with unpalatable disabilities?
Hi Ms. Bud Lite I'm a big fan of you <3
TL;DR A fear of writing characters of highly marginalized identities shields you from criticism and discomfort, but it's actively stigmatizing to people of these identities and as a writer you really need to get over yourself and write The Icky People.
I guess I'll come out swinging on this one and say that fandom doesn't like severe mental illness. (As a note, when I say severe mental illness (SMI) I mean illnesses such as psychotic disorders, bipolar disorder, substance use disorders, personality disorders, etc)
Obviously, nobody likes people w/SMI. It's just insanely egregious in fandom to me, since fanfic writers absolutely love writing characters or HC characters with depression, anxiety, or a specific variety of PTSD That Isn't Scary. People actively reject any character HCs for a SMI. When people write a character with SMI, they nicely downplay it, ignore it, substitute it for a disorder they like better, or rewrite it. It's completely untolerated, in both headcanons and in fanfiction, and every time I bring it up I always get the most interesting reasons why somebody couldn't possibly acknowledge a character's SMI in their writing. I've heard all of these:
"I don't know enough about the disorder to write it accurately." Do research.
"I'm not X, so I can't really depict it." You probably aren't a cis white man, but you depict those guys just fine.
"It feels insulting to the character." There is no shame in having a SMI.
"I can't understand what it's like, so it's better to be cautious and avoid giving characters stigmatized identities." There are LOTS of experiences that you'll never understand because you've never had them - you just don't want to write anything you're uncomfortable with. People with SMI make you uncomfortable, and you don't want to write anything that makes you feel uncomfortable, or think of a comfort character in an uncomfortable way. SMIs are marginalized differently than solely depression/anxiety/The Nice PTSD, and by refusing to write them you're actively contributing to the stigma.
I think (?) I've spoken in the past about how I believe that the rigorous external and internal policing of writing people of marginalized identities is actively harmful towards efforts to increase diversity of experience and background in fiction. A lot of fanfiction writers are just terrified to write people who they can't directly relate with, because they're worried 'they'll get it wrong' and be Big Cancelled. I think this is negative enough when it prevents people from going outside of their comfort zone, but on a macro level I think this results in people refusing to write characters of marginalized identities as all. It's an insidious thought process, and it's reflected in people's unwillingness to diversity their writing or acknowledge canon diversity.
'Well, I don't understand what it's like to be Black, so I don't want to write Black people'. 'I want to project on this character, so I only want to write them with mental illnesses and identities I have'. 'If I write a marginalized character incorrectly people will yell at me, so I won't write a marginalized character who's marginalized differently than me at all'. Can you imagine writing a lesbian character with a boyfriend because 'you feel uncomfortable writing lesbian experiences'? It's blatantly homophobic. But people do that with disability and race/ethnicity ALL THE TIME.
People with SMI notice that you feel uncomfortable with them. It's obvious. They notice when a character has a SMI + anxiety, and you only write their anxiety. They notice when a character displays symptoms of a SMI in canon, but you write it out. And POC notice when the characters of color are written out. I know we all like to project on the blorbos and relate to them, and in the joys of your own head do whatever, but as a writer if you only stick to identities you're comfortable with you are actively being a worse writer. Which to me is the REAL sin lmfao.
#my asks#thanks for enabling me lizzy if i didn't get this out i would have just vagued for the rest of time#even just beyond all of this on a more subtle lvl. HC people with SMI cowards. just do it. its good for you.#the two times me/a close friend have proposed on a fandom server "hey I read X as having a SUD/being on the schizophrenic spectrum'#there was actual fascinating pushback and rejection#people got MAD.#'blorbo wouldn't be an alcoholic he's not a bad person :(' fuck off#i dont use the word often but its ableism and you can be mentally ill and still ableist#if you dont feel educated enough on something to write it then do research#and while research wont give you everything it's a start#if you feel like you can only write people just like you then frankly? skill issue#i mentioned that the last fic was a bit of a spite fic - well#it was scientifically fascinating how the majority of a fandom wrote/acknowledged a character as depressed and anxious#but actively got incredibly defensive when someone suggested that the psychotic character may have had a psychotic disorder#it was so blatant. very annoying. anyway.
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hey do you think next time i'm stuck in another pearl-clutching hysteria fest about how cell phones are ruining The Children i should tell them cell phone bans are the technological equivalent of abstinence-only sex education
#i just remembered my work meeting schedule tomorrow ïżœïżœïżœïżœ#i think i'm like the third-lowest-ranked employee of the 10-30 who will be in the meeting where this will happen#and it will include my boss and her boss#good idea? probably not. a cathartic conversation grenade? oh yes#i could also talk about how 'screen addiction' is not common and by comparing tech use to substance use we are undermining the seriousness#of substance use disorders and we should stop that#the proposed equivalency also suggests that substance use disorders can just be solved as if they don't have long-term impacts#and 'mental health' always comes up (I put it in quotes because the people who say phones cause mental illness are wrong)#a lot of people are going to be really surprised when you take away phones and legitimate mental illnesses with biological and genetic and#environmental roots don't suddenly magically just become cured#reducing screen time can be good for your mental health! for sure! i'm trying to do it!#but there's a difference between 'touching grass is good for you' and 'your phone is making you mentally ill'#and people really don't like to hear that#not that any of them actually know what mental illness is
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Relationship Status: Going to a wedding expo tomorrow đ
#worshipper's oath#irl yandere#male yandere#yandere#obsessive love#obsessive love disorder#yandere boy#bpd yandere#obsessive thoughts#yandere community#yanblr#yancore#irl yan#yan blog#yandere male#yandereblr#yanderecore#okay now that tags are out of the way#this is actually true#im going to a wedding expo tomorrow#and me and My Goddess are currently racing to see#who will be the first to propose#im gloating only a little#all my little yandere heart dreams are coming true :D
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it's probably the sunnier weather that's doing stuff to my brain to make me more optimistic but it's so interesting having a brain that craves a lot of self-fulfillment to the point where I can move past some hang-ups around perfection by going "oh I really wanna do that though" and then I do it well because researching how to do it right is also a rewarding part of the process
#it comes with the double edged sword of dropping projects as soon as they become a bit more involved/difficult#or when they don't feel fulfilling#but maybe it's better to take a break and come back to something with new knowledge ?#maybe it's good that my brain has a built in 'if it sucks hit da bricks' function ?#i just wish that i had more stamina for these things when they start lacking intrinsic rewards#it just feels like compared to my other family members i lose steam very very quickly and since we all have the same disorder i should be-#- 'just as capable'... but honest to god my under-activity feels SO severe#it honestly feels like compared to others my threshold for mental exhaustion is half the normal benchmark it should be#you know how there were studies done that found that 4 hours is the maximum amount of time people can work before a decline in efficiency?#i swear to god when the activity is something i have no internal reward for it takes 1-2 hours for that decline to start. and my brain -#- crashes HARD. my eyes start to glaze over. i start forgetting how to speak. my brain starts acting like it's 2-3 am and that i need to -#- sleep. i don't push myself not because i coddle myself but because i perform WAY worse. my work becomes unintelligible#or if it's some other kind of task (such as cleaning) my brain desperately tries to take shortcuts in order to get it done#i am trying to avoid a situation where i have to fix up the shitty job i did after the fact!#it's just kind of crazy to me how this is viewed as laziness LOL 'you did a bad job!' because i was pushed past my limit!#not to mention... i get burned out for DAYS if i push myself too hard. i am trying to conserve my efficiency#if you want me to do a better job... i need more time. and trust me: i'll do an excellent job if you let me rest#i am a very smart and capable person who cares about doing a good job - and i have a fine eye for smaller details as well#the trade-off here is i'll need some time to find joy and fulfillment somewhere else for a little bit while i rest. let me excel ok?#idk where this high self esteem came from other than like. realizing i wrote an entire research proposal in such short time#while receiving positive feedback with very few notes for improvement. i just sat down an added another section today based on -#-feedback and realized like 'wait. i know what i'm doing and i probably care about this far more than the average classmate'#i've been having a lot of thoughts lately and i sort of want to get to the bottom of how i have a difficult time coping w/ burnout#and i also want to figure out how to offset the costs of the stuff i need to do... it's a process
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Was talking to my partner about BPD and I mentioned that BPD and DID have almost exactly the same symptoms and they were like "What no that's not true" so I looked it up and the first thing I see is a person with DID complaining about the DSM because BPD and DID have almost exactly the same symptoms
#pwbpd đ€ pwdid#having episodes of acting entirely differently usually able to be categorized into specifc states#having dissociative derealizing or depersonalizing episodess#rapid and extreme changes in personality often based on situation#all of this being atttributable to childhood trauma#afaik the only big difference is memory loss vs impulsiveness#i think i remember a psychiatrist proposing unifying them and just calling them 'dissociative disorder with memory loss' and '#'dissocative disorder with impulsive behaviour' or something#which i support because apparently it's a common experience on both sides of the aisle to have an unclear diagnosis between the two#especially since if you have both memory loss and impulsiveness... i mean fucked if i know what you have. super disorder#i guess to be fair in order to get diagnosed with bpd you don't have to have all the symptoms that would get you a did diagnosis#especially memory loss. i've looked into it and apparently memory loss is one of those things that's associated with bpd just not a criteria#i definitely have some memory loss after especially bad episodes#somebody described them as comorbid and i was like what does that even look like.#how would you distinguish betweenhaving comorbid bpd and did vs having just one#you can have impulsiveness when you switch alters and you can have memory loss when you have an episode#so like#how can you even know if you have both vs just having one#idk i think the next edition of the dsm is probably gonna change em up something fierce#can't wait to be rediagnosed with There's Something Wrong With Your Personality: Crossover Edition#i guess this is why psychiatry is so ehhhh as a field though#everyone is different and there really isn't a hard line between disorders#fucking. i forgot. the fucking community parlance for having an episode is literally almost the sam#with bpd it's 'splitting' with did it's 'switching'#is there... is there any community overlap? like are there communities for both pwbpd and pwdid?#anyway#gonna stop rambling about psychiatry in the tags#incoherent rambling
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mental health facilities looooove to only have inpatient available when it would make things worse
#''you have to be proactive and search for treatement'' I DID#I SHOWED UP A MONTH AGO AND ASKED TO BE HOSPITALIZED#DONT TELL ME NOW ''ooh the only thing we can propose is hospitalization why are you here''#IT'S MY LAST RESORT OKAY#everything else is blocked off#i have no idea what i'm supposed to do#i absolutely do not trust any of your sections to handle eating disorders in a way that's adapted to my case#this system is fucking hostile to anybody who doesn't have the exact same priorities than the official ones#or who has slightly unusual problems#or who doesn't want to sacrifice all happiness to appear healthy#jesus fucking christ#i'm gonna do it. i'm gonna try to get an appointment for the fucking. psychological center or whatnot they gave me#im gonna try to get back in contact with the hospital nutritionist#but my question is fucking: what for#the plan is like: complete this program of painful things for this goal you don't want and then you're allowed back into human life#okay sorry i can't live without hurting literally everybody around me have you considered euthanasia instead perhaps#i'm not interested in achieving your goals#i just want to be okay and live an okay life just let me go back to school#post cancelled actually i just remembered again the problem is me#the problem is me the problem is me and as long as i live i will be me with me#broadcasting my misery#vent
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champagne problems is so relatable even to forever alone me but this is due to my disorganised attachment style probably lol
#I just don't see myself LETTING someone else do that#...to themselves. hence I would reject their marriage proposal#tsposting#this thing is sick and twisteddd... when I saw the therapist write down attachment disorder on the clipboard đđđđđ#and selfshipping isn't real life it's like THE horse taming fantasy but I'm the horse and I feel unconditionally safe enough to heal lol
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WE ARE SO BACK (found the specific key words to find all the research i needed for my research paper)
#just requested 30 peer reviewed journals but i gotta have an outline submitted next week#well#i guess i should be more worried about the research proposal i need to submit tomorrow#fuck it we ball#thoughts of dante#(its about body dysmorphic disorder and the effectiveness of a available treatment options)
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Unpacking Developmental Trauma: The Hidden Struggles of Childhood
#youtube#Unpacking Developmental Trauma: The Hidden Struggles of Childhood  Developmental Trauma Disorder (DTD) a proposed diagnosis that sheds lig
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also in regards to that last article about varied ways of thinking about psychosis/altered states that don't just align with medical model or carceral psychiatry---I always love sharing about Bethel House and their practices of peer support for schizophrenia that are founded on something called tojisha kenkyu, but I don't see it mentioned as often as things like HVN and Soteria House.
ID: [A colorful digital drawing of a group of people having a meeting inside a house while it snows outside.]
"What really set the stage for tĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â were two social movements started by those with disabilities. In the 1950s, a new disability movement was burgeoning in Japan, but it wasnât until the 1970s that those with physical disabilities, such as cerebral palsy, began to advocate for themselves more actively as tĆjisha. For those in this movement, their disability is visible. They know where their discomfort comes from, why they are discriminated against, and in what ways they need society to change. Their movement had a clear sense of purpose: make society accommodate the needs of people with disabilities. Around the same time, during the 1970s, a second movement was started by those with mental health issues, such as addiction (particularly alcohol misuse) and schizophrenia. Their disabilities are not always visible. People in this second movement may not have always known they had a disability and, even after they identify their problems, they may remain uncertain about the nature of their disability. Unlike those with physical and visible disabilities, this second group of tĆjisha were not always sure how to advocate for themselves as members of society. They didnât know what they wanted and needed from society. This knowing required new kinds of self-knowledge.
As the story goes, tĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â emerged in the Japanese fishing town of Urakawa in southern Hokkaido in the early 2000s. It began in the 1980s when locals who had been diagnosed with psychiatric disorders created a peer-support group in a run-down church, which was renamed âBethel Houseâ. The establishment of Bethel House (or just Bethel) was also aided by the maverick psychiatrist Toshiaki Kawamura and an innovative social worker named Ikuyoshi Mukaiyachi. From the start, Bethel embodied the experimental spirit that followed the âantipsychiatryâ movement in Japan, which proposed ideas for how psychiatry might be done differently, without relying only on diagnostic manuals and experts. But finding new methods was incredibly difficult and, in the early days of Bethel, both staff and members often struggled with a recurring problem: how is it possible to get beyond traditional psychiatric treatments when someone is still being tormented by their disabling symptoms? TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â was born directly out of a desperate search for answers.
In the early 2000s, one of Bethelâs members with schizophrenia was struggling to understand who he was and why he acted the way he did. This struggle had become urgent after he had set his own home on fire in a fit of anger. In the aftermath, he was overwhelmed and desperate. At his witsâ end about how to help, Mukaiyachi asked him if perhaps he wanted to kenkyĆ«Â (to âstudyâ or âresearchâ) himself so he could understand his problems and find a better way to cope with his illness. Apparently, the term âkenkyĆ«â had an immediate appeal, and others at Bethel began to adopt it, too â especially those with serious mental health problems who were constantly urged to think about (and apologise) for who they were and how they behaved. Instead of being passive âpatientsâ who felt they needed to keep their heads down and be ashamed for acting differently, they could now become active âresearchersâ of their own ailments. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â allowed these people to deny labels such as âvictimâ, âpatientâ or âminorityâ, and to reclaim their agency.
TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â is based on a simple idea. Humans have long shared their troubles so that others can empathise and offer wisdom about how to solve problems. Yet the experience of mental illness is often accompanied by an absence of collective sharing and problem-solving. Mental health issues are treated like shameful secrets that must be hidden, remain unspoken, and dealt with in private. This creates confused and lonely people, who can only be âsavedâ by the top-down knowledge of expert psychiatrists. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â simply encourages people to âstudyâ their own problems, and to investigate patterns and solutions in the writing and testimonies of fellow tĆjisha.
Self-reflection is at the heart of this practice. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â incorporates various forms of reflection developed in clinical methods, such as social skills training and cognitive behavioural therapy, but the reflections of a tĆjisha donât begin and end at the individual. Instead, self-reflection is always shared, becoming a form of knowledge that can be communally reflected upon and improved. At Bethel House, members found it liberating that they could define themselves as âproducersâ of a new form of knowledge, just like the doctors and scientists who diagnosed and studied them in hospital wards. The experiential knowledge of Bethel members now forms the basis of an open and shared public domain of collective knowledge about mental health, one distributed through books, newspaper articles, documentaries and social media.
TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â quickly caught on, making Bethel House a site of pilgrimage for those seeking alternatives to traditional psychiatry. Eventually, a cafĂ© was opened, public lectures and events were held, and even merchandise (including T-shirts depicting membersâ hallucinations) was sold to help support the project. Bethel won further fame when their âHallucination and Delusion Grand Prixâ was aired on national television in Japan. At these events, people in Urakawa are invited to listen and laugh alongside Bethel members who share stories of their hallucinations and delusions. Afterwards, the audience votes to decide who should win first prize for the most hilarious or moving account. One previous winner told a story about a failed journey into the mountains to ride a UFO and âsave the worldâ (it failed because other Bethel members convinced him he needed a licence to ride a UFO, which he didnât have). Another winner told a story about living in a public restroom at a train station for four days to respect the orders of an auditory hallucination. TĆjisha-kenkyĆ«Â received further interest, in and outside Japan, when the American anthropologist Karen Nakamura wrote A Disability of the Soul: An Ethnography of Schizophrenia and Mental Illness in Contemporary Japan (2013), a detailed and moving account of life at Bethel House. "
-Japan's Radical Alternative to Psychiatric Diagnosis by Satsuki Ayaya and Junko Kitanaka
#personal#psych abolition#mad liberation#psychosis#altered states#antipsych#antipsychiatry#mad pride#peer support#schizophrenia#i have a pdf of the book somewhere if anyone wants#the book and the documentary also discuss some of the pratical struggles in creating a community like this which i also found helpful as#someone who is very interested in helping open a peer respite.
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i propose a redo of race to the edge, but this time with a mature rating. imagine:
(spoilers for rtte)
actually being able to see characters deaths and wounds
more depth into snotlout and spitelouts relationship- itâs clearly not a healthy one
more depth into hiccstrid and other couples
specifically, queer couples and characters- we know gobber and snotlout are gay/bi respectively, but we never get more info on that subject
actual blood and wounds
let!!! them!!! say!!!!! fuck!!!!!
more clarification on which dragon fire hurts which dragons, and which ones donât
blood!!
ruff and tuff clearly have things to say that are not age appropriate, let them say it
could go more in depth with the scarier side of the dragons
show the effects of characters getting wounded!!!!
just. everything about dagur.
could go more in depth with fishlegsâs anxiety?
on that note, all of the gangâs mental health- hiccup clearly overworks and blames himself for everything, astrid has obvious anger issues and pent up rage, snotlout pretends to think heâs better than everyone else to mask his cripplingly low self esteem, fishlegs 100% has anxiety or some kind of panic disorder, ruff is already canonically frustrated with being âa woman in a manâs worldâ and doesnât feel appreciated enough, and tuff doesnât seem to value his own well being very much- not to mention that he literally has hallucinations sometimes
and dagur definitely has something that causes him to be in a constant state of mania
gustav and his parents- he said his mother only notices heâs gone after the third day????
at least one person on berk has (consensually) fucked a dragon. give me some background on that.
at least half of the riders cursing like sailors
being able to show sicknesses better- the time astrid caught the scourge of odin, the time astrid got deathly poisoned, plus the time astrid went blind (astrid sure does get beat up a lot damn)
just give me all the things we couldnât have as kids!!!! blood!!! gore!!!!!!! death!!!!!!! cursing!!!!!! gays!!!!!!!!! abusive relationships!!!!!!!!! kissing that doesnât look awkward and forced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! monster fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that is all, thank you for your time
#how to train your dragon#httyd rtte#race to the edge#rtte#httyd#ruffnut and tuffnut#ruffnut thorston#tuffnut thorston#httyd ruffnut#httyd tuffnut#hiccup haddock#httyd hiccup#hiccstrid#hiccup how to train your dragon#hiccup and toothless#astrid hofferson#httyd astrid#httyd snotlout#snotlout jorgenson#snotlout snotlout oi oi oi#fishlegs ingerman#httyd fishlegs#rtte dagur#httyd dagur#dagur the deranged
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Currently getting my socks clean blown off by Rethinking Narcissism, by Dr. Craig Malkin. Which I found, in a roundabout way, from this video on Midsommar, grief, and narcissism.
Tonight I woke up from a nap and accidentally took my morning meds, so I'm going to be up for a few hours because of the meth. In place of sleep, I'll try to roughly sum up some basic ideas proposed by the research the book is based on:
That traits of "narcissism" like entitlement, grandiosity, and feeling special are not inherently toxic. There are times and places they are appropriate and beneficial. If you show up at a hospital with a gunshot wound to the chest, you should not sit and wait to be seen after people with earaches and coughs. (Actually, medical systems are designed to prioritize people with more urgent needs, and you qualify under that system. You are special and are deserving of different treatment than those others, which is why making your needs known, even insisting on it if you're not listened to appropriately the first time, is an extremely good idea. It keeps you from bleeding to death on the floor, and keeps the hospital from getting its pants sued off by your heirs.)
It is more useful to view "narcissism" not as an inherent immutable personality trait, but as a cluster of coping mechanisms. As previously stated, there are times they are exactly the right coping mechanism for the job. However, people we call "narcissists" tend to cling to these ones even when they become detrimental to themselves and others, often because they lack other ways of regulating their emotions and getting their needs met. And that is something they can change, if a person is willing to put in sincere and difficult work. It is not usually fast change; it's a matter of years, not weeks. But a skillbuilding approach turned Borderline Personality Disorder from an immutable curse to a fully treatable (though not quickly treatable) condition, and there's a lot of hope that it can do the same for Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
Meanwhile, there's an opposite end to the narcissism spectrum, and it is also pathological and destructive to hang out there all the time. It's an aversion, or even a resistance, to expecting yourself or other people to treat your own feelings, thoughts, ideas, needs, or preferences as important. For Greek mythology reasons, its proposed name is Echoism.
Unfortunately, because most of the damage echoism does is, by its very nature, localized to its sufferer and their own personal relationships, its downsides aren't often talked about. In fact, it's often seen as an ideal moral state, a kind of altruism or saintliness everyone should strive for. As a pathological coping mechanism a person is trapped in, though, it's often more a fear-based reflex than a conscious and deliberate attempt to achieve some real and specific good. It's not actually as beneficial as being able to recognize your needs, desires, positive aspects, and areas of competence or excellence, and bring them forward in your relationships with other people and yourself.
To me this has all been a cross between a gut-punch and a cool, sweet drink of water. There have been other ways to describe echoism over the years, but this feels like the most concise and useful one I've seen in ages.
It specifically puts its pin down in the middle of the moral debate a lot of people struggle withâ"What right do I have to put myself forward? What hope do I have of being seen and accepted? Isn't it better not to burden anybody else?"âand says that the problem is not feeling in touch with either side of the equation, but specifically, the inability to move from one part of the spectrum to another when it's merited by circumstances.
When I was a child, I thought Echoism was the answer. It was my ideal. I thought it was what would get me the love and acceptance I wanted, and would keep me safe from the pain of rejection or not being understood. I had no idea it would actually, in fact, be the primary cause of alienation and loneliness for the rest of my life.
Now I'm so deeply thankful I couldn't fully achieve it, in practical terms. As hard as I tried to erase myself, there were always things I loved too much to suppress. I still found ways to express and discover myself in the books I read, the stories I wrote, the intellectual work of school and the experience of pursuing hobbies I loved, my ambitions to be helpful even when they demanded I stop being selfless, and the relationships where I felt safe enough to experience love and acceptance even if I didn't think I deserved them.
There's this question I found a while back that echoed in my bones: Who am I allowed to be around you? Because that's what I felt like, as a child. If I wanted to engage with other people and minimize my risk of harm, it was my job to bend into a pretzel and fit the shape they wanted. And thank god, thank god, thank god, I couldn't fully do it. Despite everything, there were parts of me too strong and bright to lop off completely to get my arms and legs inside the carriage. I was able to take care of myself and let them grow in secret until I found social places I could let them out again. Despite myself, I found ways to grow and thrive, well beyond the trauma that said I shouldn't have.
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can we talk more about avpd being a (proposed) schizospec disorder? because i almost never see that theory talked about but i wish it was. likeâŠ
avpd makes me censor my thoughts because i think someone might hear what iâm thinking and see what a horrible person i am on the inside or judge me for thinking embarrassing things.
avpd makes me so afraid of someone walking in on me doing something i Shouldnât Be Doing that my brain twists background noise into the sounds of whispers and footsteps behind me.
avpd makes me so worried about people staring at me that in my peripheral vision, anyone near me looks like theyâre already staring at me, and itâs only when i look at them directly that i realize theyâve been looking in a totally different direction the whole time.
avpd makes me so convinced of how much everyone must secretly hate me that i often start thinking everyone secretly wants to hurt me too, to the point where iâve had panic attacks from a person walking too close behind me because i feel like theyâre getting ready to attack me (when i havenât had any kind of trauma that would create that fear), and the paranoia just serves to reinforce my need to avoid people.
avpd makes me lose my ability to speak or reduces it to nothing more than one word answers only when spoken to, turning the thoughts i wanted to express into a jumble thatâs impossible to turn into words or just throwing them away completely and making my mind go blank, so i end up just staring at people silently or even acting like i donât see them standing there at all (not on purpose but because my brain wonât let me engage with them).
avpd makes me look damn near emotionless around everyone but my safe person (and sometimes even around my safe person) because showing my emotions would be far too vulnerable for its liking, so it completely takes away my ability to express them.
and i could keep going! there are so many things i experience because of avpd that iâve seen really closely reflected in the experiences of schizospec people. i donât know how common these kinds of things are in avpd overall, but theyâre a really prominent part of my experience with it, so when i found out that some research suggested it could be considered a schizospec disorder itself, that made so much sense to me! and iâd be so curious to see how many other avoidants have dealt with this stuff but havenât talked about it because itâs never mentioned as being part of avpd.
#this post was brought to you from the Looking Over My Shoulder Frozen In Fear Because Of The Whispersâąïž position#which is. quite a common position for me#im honestly kinda nervous to post this bc i feel like somebodyâs gonna be like âthats not avpd!â or âthats not schizospec stuff!â#but oh well. thatâs just how it is on the internet#i also feel a little weird about the wording bc i donât really see avpd as an outside force that Makes Me do things#but itâs 5am and im too tired to think of a better way to say it#poss.speaks#discussion#avpd#actually avpd#actually avoidant#avoidant pd#avoidant personality disorder#cluster c#schizospec#schizophrenia spectrum#schizo spectrum#schizotaxic
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Excerpt from this story from Mother Jones:
When a man with painful cystic acne came to dermatologist Eva Rawlings Parker for help in a Nashville clinic, she couldnât prescribe him doxycycline or minocycline, two medications sheâd typically use to treat this condition. This is because the man was a roofer, says Parker, and these medications would have impacted his ability to tolerate heat.Â
Parkerâs patient was far from alone. Other common medications for physical health, like beta blockers, can impact peopleâs ability to handle heat. Many medications for mental health do, too.
Conventional wisdom tells people with conditions that make them unusually vulnerable to the sun, like the autoimmune disorder lupus, or are on medications that lead to heat sensitivity, to avoid staying outside when the sun is at its strongest.
But for the one-third of US workers who must spend regular time outdoors, that advice bursts into flames. For some, such as farmworkers, hours and hours of heat exposure, with minimal or no reprieve, are just part of the job. Increasing heat waves and more frequent wildfires point to the need to find real solutions for outdoor workersâand highlight how labor and climate change are intertwined.Â
Edward Flores, faculty director of the Community and Labor Center at the University of California, Merced, specializes in the conditions of low-wage and immigrant workers in California. He says the need for heat safety policy reform is acute. âWe know that workers have been dying,â Flores says, âbecause of chronic conditions that accumulate through heat stress over many years and decades that lead to shorter life spans.â
Parker, the dermatologist, is acutely aware of how heat can trigger or worsen skin problems. She is co-chair of the American Academy of Dermatologyâs group on climate change and environmental issues, and was an author of a 2023 review on the ways climate change can contribute to dermatological issues, including triggering flares of conditions like hidradenitis suppurativaâwhich causes painful lumps deep in a personâs skinâand skin cancer.
Workers do have some legal rights to breaks and water, depending on the locale. California, Oregon, and Washington are the only states that mandate those breaks. And roughly half of crop farmworkers have no legal work authorization. That lack of legal status, and the threat of deportation, gives many workers reason to fear complaining about working conditions.
In July, the Occupational Safety and Health Administration proposed a new set of rules which would help protect more than 36 million workers from heat-related illness or death. The proposed OSHA rules would require employers to monitor their workers for heat exhaustion symptoms, provide adequate water and shade, designate break areas, and provide mandatory rest breaks, among other things.Â
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