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important to note the entire time i was cooking i was like wowww i bet kondraki likes scrambled eggs ... she would go crazy for these omggg and it unironically got me to actually finish cooking instead of just . tossing a microwave lasagna in for the third time this week
#something somethting if naruto compels you to clean your room so be it. or however that post goes#thank u kondraki for making me actually eat properly for once. curing my ed one step at a time via psychic visions of blorbo from media#speaking.mp4
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honestly i thought surtr was like some sort of hidden arknights boss or an ex-villain or something but she's just a passive mall goth lounging around and eating all my damn ice cream
#arknights#she doesnt leave my damn fridge alone#had to request a new minifridge through HR to hide my personal ice cream stash#(theyre original klondike bars. you see#only the original klondike bar has a solid chocolate casing hard enough that its a valid shell that doesnt crack or melt easily#and what i do is that in my office i use a spoon to introduce small microcracks into the klondike bar#to then pry apart by pieces and slowly deshell the klondike bar to eat its chocolate seperately from the ice cream#after ive finished eating all of the shell and ive properly left the ice cream proper nude#i proceed to eat the block of vanilla ice cream like a normal ice cream serving with the same spoon#using the foil itself as a plate for max efficiency#and upon finishing i lick the foil plate clean and politely fold up and throw away to minimize trash output as much as possible#thus ensuring a nice ice cream experience#but no surtr has to be like “bro just bite into the fucking ice cream its an ice cream sandwich”#BITCH you dont UNDERSTAND the PROCESS#WHICH ONE OF US IS THE TACTICIAN HERE????
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A arcanist’s work. Exhibited in the 1990s for 24 years. Completed in Summer, on September 13. The exhibition was first held in Manila, Philippines, and after 10 years the exhibit later traveled to Spain, before going all over the world.
◆ Medium: Hunger ◆ Afflatus: Banquet of Concrete [Mineral] Everlasting True Love ◆ Fragrance note: Fruity - Raspberry, Apple, Coconut. Meat, copper. ◆ Size: 175cm / 5’7’’
new six stars character yall <3 here's Venison's insight II illustration and their role garment menu (i built that template from SCRATCH bro, i'll drop the psd later) they're my lil mercenary, local cannibal guy, former manus member <3
here's their fullbody sprite under the cut, i got too lazy to actually render it lmfao
#reverse: 1999#reverse 1999#re1999#re1999 oc#reverse 1999 oc#digital art#purinsu art#venison beloved venison#i dont have their doc ready yet so teehee i suck at filling my own templates#yes theyre yandere or whatever. theyre extremely obsessive in general#does familial yandere exist? instead of like. ooo you gotta be my bf its ooo you gotta be my family#anyway. manus adopts a stray that vertin overlooked. it goes badly for everyone#thats their target wall in their insight II illust btw <3 mf is forming parasocial relationships with every person theyre sent to kill#love justifies the cannibalism and all#their arcanum is also bone and cartilage related! <3#which fits soooooo good with the manus and arcana's aesthetics#they just have. to get to the bone. clear access to it. to properly use their arcanum. which means they get to EAT/RIP THE FLESH CLEAN FIRS#do you see my vision do you see where im going with this. the game deserves truly deranged guys#i saw the fucking manus garment for diggers. guys. we need to talk bout it
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I want a wife
If I had a wife, and if I were a man, I probably could be a genius. I'm smart (most people tell me that, it's not a me thing) and have a ton of shit I would like to do/learn/read but I can't because everyday I have to wake up and do household chores and when I finish I'm too tired and not in the mood and overwhelmed.
I remember a cartoon of a man explaining his productivity routine, while his wife around him was cleaning and doing all the stuff. It's so easy to be productive when you have a wife or a mom that cuddle your unwashed ass.
I want a wife
#I'm dying on the kitchen floor because despite I made food yesterday there is nothing to eat again#And I have to buy groceries but I barely can stand the lighting in the supermarket#I swear I have lost a ton of weight the last few weeks because I'm unable to eat properly#Where is my wife to cook me nutritious foods while I read Crime and Punishment#Where is my wife to clean the bathroom while I make a piece of art
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Headcanon; Severus is a graze eater. He has snacks stashed in his office, work room, private chambers. From what I know of his childhood, I doubt he was getting regular or decent meals. Even though he's spent a couple decades at Hogwarts and rationally knows there's going to be more than enough food every day, it's both a habit and feeling of security to have something to eat where he can easily get to.
#Headcanon#severus snape#pro severus snape#tw child abuse#tw c ptsd#harry potter universe#Recurring theme I've seen in characters with neglectful/abusive parents is they graze eat as adults#Sev's parents wouldn't keep their child clean and properly clothed#I doubt they were feeding him properly#Plus with the hiding in your room while the parents fight#You can't get to the kitchen to eat because you can't come out of hiding#pro snape
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long car rides in the passenger seat are the ideal time to think about blorbo. unfortunately for the. 8? hours I've been in a car today, the only blorbo thought my brain would parse is Vincent eating some rancid roadkill while Lino watches with the exact same expression you'd wear while watching your dog eat a really big bug. just. total dismayed acceptance of the situation.
#like. Vincent Is a cannibal. bc thats the only type of character i know how to write#but i dont know when i decided he was a just 'go to town on some raw meat' cannibal instead of a 'fine dining' cannibal.#like. hes not a 5star chef but hes a decent enough cook#he knows how to do that#but i just. can not imagine him properly cleaning a kill instead of going face first into it#He Was going to eat Lino before he decided he was an actual angel
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life has never been the same since i read that article about the gay dudes who kept giving each other giardia (3 times) because they were so deteremined to eat each other out that they just would not wait til they got better and when they do they seemingly don't know how to wash their nasty holes. He keeps desperately trying to go im not the only one continually getting giardia right? this is a common gay experience we all have. But the doctor tells him no there hasnt been any uptick in gastro-intestinal parasites, none of his other gay friends know what that is or have ever gotten it. Its wild and it will never leave my mind.
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I am having the most normal day ever. Not normal as in normal for me, but normal as in for the average person. Ok so I was allowed to skip school today because school is short because of the election and there was no homework or anything, so I slept in, I ate breakfast, I took a shower, I cleaned my room, and did other productive stuff like that and like this all feels so normal? Like usually I don’t sleep well on school days and I don’t have time to shower in the mornings or eat breakfast and I’m usually very lazy and stuff but I’ve done all those things and this feels like an average guy day? Like the type of day that would happen in like a movie or like the type of day you’re supposed to have if that makes any sense? Idk I just feel so jarringly different today and it’s like wow I’m living like a normal guy should? This is so weird to me but it feels like a normal thing and idk how to explain it very well but like this is so strange I’m going to eat lunch and get ahead on my homework all productive-like and just wow I’m having an eerily normal person day???
#sorry to anyone not having a normal day I understand why that would be the case#hope everyone is doing as best as they can be#I just felt like sharing how weirdly normal my day feels this isn’t meant to like flex on anybody or anything 😭#Like wtf I’m cleaning my room and stuff instead of lazing around#this is probably because I slept properly and ate properly I should take better care of myself more often#not that I take horrible care of myself I usually get like 5-7 hours of sleep and eat 1-2 meals a day + snacks#just in case anybody is worried or anything I promise I am not like sleep deprived or starved#personal#not as in secretive but like this is just about my day so far#I am overthinking this post way too damn much bruh I need to just post it#ramble#long post#rope/spider post
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I'm like. spiraling.
My body hurts and it's falling apart and there's nothing wrong with it and there's no way to fix it. I'll never be able to have a normal job again. I can barely stand how am I supposed to finish college. I need help and I keep asking people to help me and that makes them uncomfortable and I'm asking too much of them. I say there is no food in my house. They say why don't you go buy food. I say I'm too disabled to drive. They say oof lol. How does oof help me. How are you not worried about me. How when I say I haven't bought food in a week or washed my clothes in a year people respond omg lol and not holy shit are you okay do you need help how are you alive. Not to be lazy or anything but I would actually literally kill for someone to hold me and say it's okay you don't have to do this alone anymore I'm going to help you. I would commit unspeakable acts of violence for someone to offer to drive me to the store. Once you're disabled you're trash you can't contribute to society just let yourself decay. I make everyone uncomfortable by just existing as myself and I ruin every event by either being visibly in pain and pulling an ugly face because my legs are about to give out or by not going because my spine is broken and I can't leave my bed. My family won't help me they don't believe me I'm not allowed to flinch or look like I'm in pain because my face is ugly when I'm in pain and I'm just faking it to get out of doing anything at all. I don't have a single support system or way to survive this shit. I'm in so much pain constantly there's not even a word for it because I can't just say it hurts nobody takes me seriously or understands just how bad it hurts. I can't say it's like a knife in my spine that sounds so fucking fake. It's like a knife in my spine and every tiny cell that moves hurts it because it's a fucking blade stuck between my bones. It's cutting and mangling my skin and muscles and everyone is like why don't you just stop having a knife in your back and the doctors say you do not have avknifevin your back and my parents say everyone has a knife in their back and you're just pretending it hurts and being lazy because you hate me. How am I still alive why am I still alive why does it just keep getting worse
#There's actually no reason for me to exist and I'm never going to get better or get help and no one will ever understand#I feel so useless and I will never be as good as my peers#Even my disabled peers live and handle themselves and manage their symptoms better than I can#I'm like not okay for real my brain is Fucked fucked#Shit like eating and pissing have become a fucking reward for me I'm not allowed to do it if I've been bad#I say good. you sit there and you hurt and you think about what you did and you think about this next time you want to act like a baby#But punishment doesn't even fucking work on me nothing works!!!!!!!!#I just like having a real tangible way to prove I can feel and I'm not making my pain up#I'm such a fucking toddler I expect to be fed with a spoon and reminded to use the potty and told when I need to take a nap#I need to be told how to shower properly and the right way to clean my house and the normal way to speak to people or think with my brain#Why am I like this. Why when I start to get comfortable with someone I pretend I'm a baby or a dog#Nobody thinks this way. What the fuck is wrong with you#Why can't I be a human. Why do I want to bark and bite people. Why does it hurt to touch people like a person would#There isn't a single normal thing about me. I'm so fucked up and awful and gross I literally need to be put down
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all these fucking food recalls are a fucking NIGHTMARE
i already have to fight my brain half the time about eating things! im already having to talk myself out of the idea that its gonna fucking poison me! and now it's like. well. honestly, it might! who knows!!
guy who gets his food fears validated repeatedly. jesus fuck
#that on top of eating already being a goddamn chore because my body & brain are fucked up from years of ED#and it being hard as hell to feed myself bc of money and fatigue#and working food service im like. well how many delis actually thoroughly cleaned their shit after the listeria outbreak.#how many of them sanitized their sliders and cooler shelves and shit properly#whoever slashed food production regulations im fucking coming for you.#cant remember who it was but i remember that happening several years ago#and honestly im surprised it took this long for the consequences#carter speaks
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eating chilli fries out of a bowling ball is so alluring
#would eat if the bowling ball was cleaned properly beforehand#iasip s16#iasip#frank reynolds#the gang goes bowling#🎧
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god felt so bad abt how shitty my period cramps are that she sent me an compensatory angel in thr form of mindblowing period horniness. amen
#nsft#was genuinelt baffled when i first discovered other ppl find period sex or even jacking it on their period gross n uncomfortable...l#skill issue clearly#i guess its kind of a kink for me.. just find it rly fun n hot n it feels rlyyyy good esp after so much pain. relaxes all those muscles#small blessing my roomies off on her holiday today so i can properly get into it 😏 no need to worry abt being noisy#and yeah its messy but thats part of the funnn. put a towel down go crazy.#fake covered-in-blood enjoyers when ppl who like period sex come at them:#also been getting back into reading smut lately n ive found a couple fics that have given me a LOT of food for thought 😏😏😏😏#some beautiful minds on this planet earth. manifesting gay sex with someone who can match my dysfunction fr#trying so hard not to immediately fall asleep now ive cleaned up and showered...im so cosy i havent felt this relaxed in weeks 😭#possibly even months. but i need to nip to lidl before it closes to restock my ibuprofen stash for tonight. and also EAT DINNER!#and then my guardian angel Memory Foam Pillow awaits me.... mwah#let me tag this nsft sorry to anyone seeing this unexpectedly i ammmm blissed out and dont care <3#i hope i have a nice weekend :-)#.diaries
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our brain's decided to freak out over shit that definitely feels ridiculous and like we're freaking out over something tiny and I can't even pinpoint why the thing is an issue but our brain clearly does not fucking like it.
but I just realised we missed some doses of one of our usual medications and from past experience that gives us wild mood swings and makes us get upset about tiny things and just have an overall shit time so I guess that explains at least some of what our brain's been doing today.
there's also just the fact that we're so overwhelmed with stress and pain and medication side effects and struggling to keep up with anything that even tiny things that wouldn't normally be an issue end up giving us panic attacks and being absolute hell to deal with.
but unfortunately I still have to deal with feeling like I'm being overly-dramatic and like people are judging me for it and it doesn't fucking help that we've already had so many instances over the last month where we've been told our triggers don't make sense and that we're too sensitive and need to just shut up and deal with things and should bottle up our emotions so other people don't have to deal with us being stressed and upset
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#posts made on pain meds#I understand that dealing with me being upset probably isn't great but like... imagine how I fucking feel#like I'm sorry I keep getting irritable and upset and being spaced out all the time#it's just that for nearly 2 months I've been in severe pain and haven't slept properly and have had medications completely fuck me up#and I'm dealing with some of our worst triggers on a daily basis#I'm struggling to eat. I keep waking up in so much pain I can't sit up#my life is a fucking disaster right now because I can't keep track of anything or remember what the fuck I'm meant to be doing#and the treatment I need is probably going to cost basically all the money I have#and on top of all that I have to worry about people getting annoyed at me for struggling to keep my room clean#or not remembering things very well or getting upset when things trigger me or literally just having needs
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waiting for my roommate to send a text saying i can reenter the dorm so i don’t walk in on them fucking <3
#marzi speaks#i agreed to vacate the dorm way ahead of time it was properly communicated#and technically i don’t know if they’re fucking. but judging how they were cleaning their space they probably had someone over#they asked for an extra hour and i have given it to them. can i come in and eat my sandwich now#i’m hungry. and that sandwich sounds REALLY good#also i’m tired. keep yawning out here
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anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol
#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird#this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY#i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it#whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo#i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work#imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞#real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason#like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me#ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS???#ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like#why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean#i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything#i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed#i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame#i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol#also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually#cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj#i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle#i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore#i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable#ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao#im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed#ramblings#shut up cianna
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objectively im not fine or doing well at all at the moment i need to get my shit together and get better . yes my bald spots triggered my motivation/anxiety 😕
#i’m so insecure abt them it’s unreal i just want my hair to grow back :(((#i should eat healthier which is. 😭 i haven’t cooked properly since november#it’s like foreign to me now i’ve been living off of the occasional veggie and a piece of sausaged meat and like. croissants#have to get better i miss cooking :(#dulsevia save me#save me dulsevia#anyway . i hate that im losing hair and my house needs cleaning and there’s sm to do and i wanna have the energy to do it aaaallllll#barely coherent rant#i need to basically force myself to get better so i don’t spiral into another episode#ض
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