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pleaseshootthejester · 1 month

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I don't eat all day and then my partner takes me out for dinner and we eat fish and chips and they're greasy and now it's 3am and I've not slept and my tummy hurty and I have lots of regret

#i couldn't finish it either!#usually we get takeout and we share a mini cod and chips but he insisted we ate in cus his house has no electricity and mine has 2 cats that #will try and eat the fish #and the place we ate has a strict “NO SHARING” policy for food you eat in??#so i ate half my fish and a quarter of the chips and i was embarrassed the whole time cus when i eat out it becomes very clear to everyone #around me i have *issues*#and i was utterly mortified the whole time and it was awful and now i feel unwell #not to mention cus hes not actually moved into his new place yet cus its having work done the bathroom was FILTHY #like sticky toilet seat with god knows what dried onto it??? and filth everywhere #and another one of his friends has been staying a few nights a week whilst they work locally and HOW ARE THEY USING THAT BATHROOM???#i couldn't sit on the loo and i had a panic attack looking at the state of the bathroom like its absolutely gag worthy its so fucking gross #how can someone be showering and shitting in there and??? be okay with that??????#anyway the bathroom may have influenced how much i was able to eat i am still thinking about it now it was absolutely so fucking gross #i feel physically sick #like #i have real bad ocd mostly about contamination and getting sick #and my flat gets into some right states sometimes cus depression but the one thing i can say with pride is that my bathroom is so clean #you could eat out of my toilet it is so clean #its the one room that HAS to be clean #my kitchen is a tip (a clean tip but still a tip) but my bathroom????#its sparkling! shiny and clean and delightful and not triggering as fuck!!#and i use other peoples bathrooms and they make me feel so unwell #like SO UNWELL #the place hes living atm is another ocd household so their bathroom is very clean for similar reasons to mine #but honestly the new place??? rancid!!! awful!!!!!! i may go over with cleaning supplies at some point soon and scrub it so its not so bad #its a genuine health hazard and someone is USING IT LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!#sosososososooooooo gross #it needs cleaning properly #ro rambles #ocd

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