#progress. but thats just me. i know like all of you didnt follow me just for a couple reblogs here and there in between three posts of me

[veevei]

DAWN IN THE ADAN

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ch 25: minecraft

yn rushes back to her dorm after she just got a text that the stream would be starting soon.

opening the door from her 15 minute sprint from the coffee shop to her dorm —why did she even go get coffee and an egg and cheese sandwich at 8pm?— doesnt matter anyways as she turns on her laptop

“i should get a better laptop.. maybe a pc when i graduate..” mumbling to herself while texting maki, not even bothering to tweet a stream announcement. toge and yuji probably did it already anyways.

yn joins minecraft and the proximity chat with nearly everyone in it. they were still waiting on one more person, megumi. whatever

she continues eating her english muffin which is nearly finished by now. once shes done megumi finally joins the call. yn puts down her phone which she was scrolling on pinterest on for minecraft house ideas and starts getting blocks.

this wasnt a speedrun anyways, theyll probably play again soon. while yuji and toge are doing their own thing— killing mobs, mining, actually progressing — yn was barely done either getting the wood for her house.

she was pretty quiet for the stream because of how tired she was. not because shes sleepy but because of classes. whenever shes not in class shes either studying or streaming, sometimes alone sometimes with her friends. she only got rest on sundays and fridays, this week looks like its going to just be friday.

even though she was with her friends she still felt alone. toge and yuji were trying to speedrun the game, and maki was pretty much doing the same thing yn was doing but with nobara following along, yuta was mining, he was still talking on stream and had some energy left. megumi was.. what is he doing?

maybe maki and nobara will become better friends. thats fine, nobaras nice enough.

hours later they go into the end and kill the ender dragon. this is boring. shes nearly done with her house and hasn’t spoken to basically anyone after the end. right now everyone is trying to kill eachother—more like yuji and toge trying to kill everyone— and yn still hasnt gotten above iron armor

she heads into a random strip mine that yuta probably dug in the beginning on the game, after 20 minutes she starts to hear a voice. she turns around to see nothing. the voice is probably coming from above her anyways. before long she starts getting hit by what she thought was a zombie. she turned around and started immediately hitting megumi.

“oops sorry. i thought you were a mob” yn says while giggling. “thats my fault anyways. do you have any iron?” megumi asks yn. “why?” yn says while checking her inventory, not that she needed to. she knew she had atleast a stack of iron by now.

yn throws him the iron. “i didnt say my reason first, i could be trying to kill you, you know” megumi says. “are you trying to kill me?” yn retorts. “nah, kay bye. thanks for the iron”

“no problem”

by the time she gets to the surface most everything is either on fire or covered in random cobblestone. no one had died yet but yuji was chasing after nobara screaming about how she killed his dog.

yn laughs to herself as she starts to travel back to her house from spawn. she made sure it was far away just because she did not want her house to be burned down by toge.

when she checks her chest she finds that all of her diamonds that she got from the end city were gone. probably yutas or makis doing, toge wouldve destroyed the house down the moment he saw it.

yn crafts herself a suit of diamond armor and a diamond axe from the diamonds she just minded and she heads back to spawn. 5 minutes later she starts to here yelling, she sprints to yuta asking where her diamonds went. “yuta! did you take my diamonds? i had like 7 but now theyre all gone” “oh yeah.. i thought that was makis house.”

yn gives the deadest stare to anyone who was still watching her stream, they all probably moved to yuji or toges because they still somehow were talkative.

“whatever”

by the time yn makes it back, she sees yuji and toge scavenging in her house. how did they even find it? it was like 700 blocks away from spawn, she thought that was far enough. atleast they didnt burn it down yet.

STUPID BABY WAS SLAIN BY YUJI

“MY CAT WHAT THE FUCK YUJI” yn yells. yuji gasps and says “THAT WAS YOURS?” yn gets her axe and immediately starts hitting yuji “THIS IS MY HOUSE WHAT DID YOU THINK??”

“i thought it was makis!! STOP HELP, HELP ME TOGE”

toge had already left the moment yuji started killing her cat.

4 hours later yuji and toge are being killed for their crimes. right after that the stream ends.

“that was fun.. i think atleast.” yn mumbles to herself as she shuts her laptops, clearing the food and drink off her desk. she glaces at the clock.

1:47 AM

damn it.

whats up guys

this ISNT proof read.. at all

egg and cheese english muffin are so fucking good

1 breakfast food DONT PLAY WITH ME.

yn and megs first interaction???!!!

25 ch deep 😭🙏

i hate this

i haven’t started ch 27 yet… 😕

spiderman across the spider man reference

“givemeamin” how cute he put it in one word yk kids these days

idk what he said but it was smth like that

everyone thinks yns stuff is makis

bye

yns english muffin 🤤 yns inspo from pinterest

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[dungeonmeshi-confessions]

I wanna do more kabumisu positivity following that other anon. it really brightened my day so much.

bc really I dont want to bash other ships to lift mine up!!! and I actually also really love and respect labru, and know the majority of labru shippers arent Like That, just like most kabumisu shippers arent Like That. every group has some annoying, loud, opinionated people and they dont represent the average person who likes the ship, you know? I would love to see some labrus follow suit and send in some positivity as well!!! If the positivity keeps going I will come in here and post all my fave things about labru, labru art, and labru shippers as a kabumisu. lets ditch the bitching and hold hands instead!

anyway, some reasons I really love kabumisu

- as a neurodivergent disabled person dating another neurodivergent person, this is like. THE couple to me. and like its not just about mithrun being taken care of. taking care of mithrun actively helps kabru be more mindful of his own needs. In my life, I may struggle to feed myself, but I can make breakfast if my partner is hungry. other times she may do the same for me, it depends on who is doing worse.

-they both struggle with insomnia also

-from everything we've seen, pre-dungeon mithrun wasn't entirely dissimilar to kabru (high masking people pleaser) and thats Fascinating to me.

-kabru's job seems pretty stressful (no matter how much fulfillment it brings him, its a lot of responsibility for one person!) so I feel like coming home to that one guy he can take his mask off around and not even have to try and impress must be such a huge relief. also add mithrun with cooking experience to this, making kabru a nice meal after a long day of work.

-Mithrun is actually very perceptive and sees straight through kabru's bs multiple times and doesn't hesitate to call him out. Laios isnt the only character that forces kabru to be honest. ("unless theres someone else?" "theres someone you want to tell that story to.") mithrun is also the one who gives kabru the information he's been seeking this whole time.

-I am very interested in exploring mithruns whole desire situation. what desires does he gain? I think it is probably a lot of little ones that weave together. oh also I think sometimes things may seem more mithrun centric bc in any story where he is going to end up in a relationship he is going to have a much more dynamic arc than whoever he is paired with. literally dynamic as in like. he requires a lot more growth to achieve the outcome. and there are ways to skip it or gloss through it but. a lot of these stories require that in some way you show the progress has happened.

-to me, kabumisu is more often queeplatonic than romantic. but Im aroace so that could just be my aroace glasses. ALSO kabru is vaguely aro to me. you mean the guy thats super desirable that doesnt really seem interested in anyone particular outside of pursuing friendship? that guy? (also the way he did rin omfg)

-random but I dont think kabrus PTSD is talked about enough and also like the extent of his trauma. its not just utaya/monsters/his mom dying; its being raised by a single mother, its his blue eyes, its being adopted, its being raised by an elf, etc!!!! a lot of things he does bc of ptsd get attributed to autism (I also hc kabru as autistic, and some is symptom overlap. but it is secondary to the ptsd! he is traumatized first and foremost ty) I really love kabru so much. ty for the ptsd rep <3

-also out here to say I know an amount of kabumisu content is mithrun centric. I will tell you from my pov specifically though its bc I deeply relate to mithrun (as someone who once told a therapist many years ago I desired nothing and truly meant it. she said I was like a puppet without strings. of course I saw mithrun and was like. oh.) and Im in love with kabru. kabru reminds me of all the people who gave me a reason to pull through. people who saw good in me and treated me like a person when I didnt feel like one. I also really relate to kabru though as someone with complex trauma, even if my traumas are not the same. thats why I say I think not enough is attributed to his ptsd. anyway, once I just opened a notebook and wrote kabrus name over and over again with hearts. I have never done this to mithrun. so dont tell me kabumisus dont like kabru !!!

-kabru and mithrun are both so gender. Ive seen so many variants on their gender and gender expression in the ship. some people hate this and insist they must be one way or the other. I think theyre neat lots of different ways. I love when theyre both feminine men. I love when mithrun is super masc. I love when theyre butch4butch. I love when theyre both trans. and so much more. its all beautiful. a very good variety of food. the other day on my dash I had a tallman art of mithrun with the biggest tits imaginable and the very next post he was like a little porcelain doll. keep up the good work guys. I love you.

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[zeravmeta]

Thoughts on RvB Restoration Finale

not really that long just my 2 cents

I wanna say I liked the movie because I did enjoy myself watching it, but honestly I'm very much gonna stick to the RvB17 open ended finale

Overall the movie was... ok? It wasn't unwatchably bad the way RvB Zero was but it also just made a lot of choices that I disagree with fundamentally both with the writing and the core themes of the series as a whole. I've had this take ever since RvB14 on the fanbase and the writers but this movie flat out says it:

The writers are fucking unable to let go of PFL and Chorus in a meaningful way.

For a series thats core message is about saying goodbye, they literally dont let that part of the show die. They are functionally unable to let go of the past peaks of the franchise and write something new. And I get it: RvB fundamentally cycles with its storytelling, but what was so refreshing to me about RvB14-17 was that it actually progressed itself Past those peaks of RvB10 and 11-13 (and honestly people REALLY dont appreciate the good in those later seasons). It felt like a natural (if wacky) progression, and it definitely wasnt perfect but it gave the extended cast more opportunities to shine in ways we didnt appreciate before

This movie just doesnt do that? Honestly the fact that they KILLED Sarge and Doc was so... disrespectful to me? Like not in the sense that it was as bad as how RvB Zero (fake) killed Tucker, but more like it felt like the writers killed them off because they were following a book titled "How To Write Story" and saw 'killing off characters is good writing'. Sarge got a dramatic send off that also didnt feel that impactful? And I did see it coming from the start but having Doc be Washs' guilt haunting him just left a bad taste in my mouth.

Its a really self contained story, a whole bunch of characters outside the main 3 reds and Caboose felt ooc, a good chunk of characters dont even show up (dude where was DONUT??? youre telling me he only has 5 seconds in Simmons' mind in a cheerleading costume?), it was composed of like 3-4 sets total, Carolina, Tex and 479er all just kind of Show Up to be badasses in the way The New Person would show up in an MCU movie...

Honestly watching this movie I kind of felt like it would have a twist ending. Like the credits would play and then itd zoom out to show the Reds and Blues post S17 in a movie theater watching this dramatic finale, because thats honestly what it felt like: The whole movie was a cheap facsimile of RvB as a whole. The fact that Trocadero wasn't allowed/signed on to make the music for this finale really does influence this movie, since they used a whole bunch of songs and osts that felt out of place (though I will admit Vale Deah softly playing as Grimmons said goodbye to each other did make me choke up a little)

Despite my negative review, I do still recommend watching it, since there was stuff I did like: Simmons in a leader role, Tex and the fun reveal during her fight with Tucker-Meta, Grif FINALLY getting to retire, Caboose as a whole was really well written, there IS good in this movie! And again it's not unwatchable bad, it just... kind of leaves a somber, sour taste in my mouth. This movie threw a whole bunch of stuff to the wall not to see what would stick but to break it all and leave for the insurance money. Just a "hey since we're sinking might as well make all these callbacks and break a bunch of stuff along the way."

Welp. Goodbye, RvB. At least this way I know that RT dies without riding your coattails any longer. And hey given that RvB technically has 3 endings (RvB17, Zero and RvB19) you can just take your pick on what you like best anyways. Quick edit no jutsu I forgor to mention there is the sequence at the beginning of the movie where it is implied RvB19 COULD also be one of the simulations in and of itself so. yeah you can in fact just take it as you will

[etherealspacejelly]

ERM

ok so

anonymous bc no way am i showing my url on this Jhshsheheh

so like all my friends at school. they seem. so much more mature than i am???

like even the ones who are younger than me. they're already thinking about partners. and dating n stuff. like some of my friends already have partners

but i. just am not interested in that rn??? and sometimes i feel like there's. something Wrong with me. yk

like im year 9 but. i feel like i should be thinking about this and it feels like im not mature enough that i don't want to worry abt that now

- 🐉

there is nothing wrong with you. listen to me. there is absolutely Nothing wrong with you.

it is perfectly normal to not be interested in romantic relationships, i wasnt at your age and im still not. i am in a platonic relationship with my best friend, mostly because it comforts us both to know that no matter what happens we will not be alone. even if all of our other friends get into romantic relationships and prioritise them over friendships

desiring a romantic partner does not make you more mature than anyone else. having a romantic partner or a partner of any kind is not a requirement for happiness, fulfilment, or maturity.

focus on what You actually want. ask yourself what would make You happy, what would make you feel fulfilled and satisfied with your life. set aside these notions of what we are Supposed to want, of what it is ""Normal"" to want, and focus your attention on yourself. this is your life, and you owe it to yourself to follow your own path.

i think it would help you to research aspec identities, especially aromantic ones, and talk to aromantic people about their experiences. you might not be aromantic! alloromantic people can still have no desire to be in romantic relationships, and that is perfectly fine and normal. and likewise aromantic and arospec people can want to be in romantic relationships despite their lack of romantic attraction. what i think researching this community will do for you is show you that romance is not the be all and end all of human beings. it is not a requirement for existing and being happy.

i think even progressive parents can fall into this trap of telling their kids "when you grow up and get a girlfriend or a boyfriend" or "when you get married to your spouse", and like, yea its great that they arent assuming you will be straight, but they are still placing the expectation on you to Want a romantic relationship and that you will have one no matter what. and that doesnt have to be the case!

your "happily ever after" does Not have to involve riding off into the sunset with your One True Love, it can in fact be a freezeframe of you and your best friends jumping into the air together and pulling silly faces!

idk this is. a long and rambling answer to what was a fairly simple question but. this ask hit me very close to home. i know how you feel. i felt Exactly the same way when i was your age. i felt wrong and broken and different and i didnt understand Why everyone was so excited about dating and kissing and relationships. so. im telling you what i wish someone would have told me.

take a deep breath. and let go. you dont need to have it all figured out Right Now. you can in fact just enjoy life as it happens! you dont have to know exactly what you want at this age. you can figure it out as you go. you have So Much Life ahead of you to learn and grow make mistakes and change your mind and figure things out and just. live.

the world wont end if you never want a romantic relationship. life will go on. you will find out what Really matters to you. and thats the beauty of being alive! please do not force yourself to do anything you dont Really want to do, just because thats what it feels like you're Supposed to do.

you are unique and beautiful and so so alive. you are doing just fine, and im so proud of you. you belong here.

you are loved.

[codecicle]

Swag, tell me about your BG3 character, I’m curious about what you play !! :D

rubbing my hands together evil style. wampus you have no idea what you've unleashed

this is my bastard son: Samuel Alastine :D he goes by Sam but everyone calls him Sammy ^_^

his personality is like if you combined chip jrwi + sokka atla and made a really sappy fucked up love child. he's such a sarcastic little bitchboy at all times who loves being a bastard and charming his way into and out of situations (the consequences of his actions). he really focuses on the actions of the people and how they treat others as a sign of if he should trust them or not, when asked by Withers the question on how much a single human life was valued i had his answer READY lmao he was instantly responding with "it depends on the person's actions." he definitely has a weak-spot for kids though, he went through a rough childhood, but he doesn't consider it "important" and he trys to keep it as close to his chest as possible.

he's a tiefling sorcerer and i decided to make his sub-race a dragonborn tiefling so he could get the specific type of spells i wanted. i think my plan for progressing him is to focus my general skill-tree to be skewed towards how his personality would fight instead of whats most practical, and for him that definitely means wiping out multiple people in one flashy go with ZERO back-up plans. the amount of times he's had to get one of the other party member to revive him is insane, so he tends to leave that part out of the big flashy tales about his adventures. he loves showing off and bragging so much genuinely again think sokka atla just an absolute loser bastard who tries to take credit in a loving way. he would kill and die for his friends he just shit-talked as beneath him and side characters 5 seconds ago, and if someone else tries to also talk bad about them he's throwing hands and swinging on them in an instant with his whole 8 strength

speaking of which i skewed by skills so badly by putting the free +2 modifier to charisma to give him a 17 bro i coulda blanced his skills a little more and made all of his attacks do more than a grand total average of like. 2. maybe 3 if youre lucky but i DIDNT because im not a COWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!! so now he just flops over if he gets breathed at wrong or is out of spell slots like god intended. but at least he knows how to flirt GODBLESS

also also i definitely think his current party is going to remain his favorite and most trusted for the whole game. he's adventuring with Shadowheart, Wyll, and Astarion right now and they fit him so perfectly its actually insane. he loves how forward thinking Shadowheart is and is willing to follow her, and respects her for keeping her secrets while still letting him make fun of how closed off she is. (realizing now that my playful banter i try to give him might be the romancing options. but like. yeah he would try and do that she would never go for it though.) ((maybe)) and he absolutely adores Wyll's heroicism and looks up to him in a way, full of nothing but respect for how selflessly he acts and how he fights with confidence. he's an especially big fan of how he treats kids, knowing he never would have gotten that same kindness and it was nice to see the cycle be broken and someone make a change. and astarion he just wants to fuck LMAOOOO he loves the conversations they have and while astarion saying "oh yeah btw how do you wanna die when that worm in your brain spreads. like do you want poison or a knife" should normally be offputting thats EXACTLY his kinda humor and flirting. he said knife btw ^_^ purely because at the beginning where astarion jumped him he pinned him to the ground and held a knife to his throat and he really wants that to happen again but you didn't hear that from him. nuh uh.

anyway im having so much fun playing this game fully in character i see why the council did it that way now !! this is so silly goofy and fun i love going "oh wow any normal self respecting person would NOT say that to the random person they just met. i dont want to pick this option but youre not gonna believe this chief, its What My Character Would Do" every 5 fucking minutes for a new dialog this game is awesome im gonna go die in a combat now goodbye [vanishes into the woods] [the camera very clearly shows me hiding behind a tree thats too skinny for my body asking someone off screen if he's gone yet]

[youredreamingofroo]

a bit of a message talking about inactivity and my possible hiatus. I dont know if this counts as a cw but i talk about depression here and there at the beginning (nothing graphic) and as usual, its a rant

im gonna be straight honest rn, i'm probably not gonna be active on tumblr for these next few days, ive been super up and down depressed and im just unmotivated and too tired to do anything, im still gonna check in here and there but dont expect me to reblog or reply to many posts, if at all. This could mark the beginning of a hiatus, but with mood swings and up and down depression, i could be back, active as ever tomorrow. Ever since ive uninstalled Sims 4, i did feel a weight lift off my shoulders, but simultaneously made me depressed due to the lack of... well... doing something, i dont... really know how to put it into words, its just something in my brain that i just cant explain, i guess a good way to put it is playing sims 4 gave me the motivation to stem off into other mediums, blender for example, gave me something to do, something to learn, and while i can still use blender, i just get progressively slower and slower at doing stuff in it because of my limited resources, some scenes i want to do require specific outfits and i dont have the facilities to make those outfits... i mean i probably do but i just dont feel motivated to do all that. I still play other games, ive been playing a lot of slime rancher 2 and have been trying to branch out to other games (indie games and bigger games), I want to post gameplay but if youve seen me rant about tumblr before, one of my biggest gripes is just how fucking annoying it is to upload images, so i just get completely unmotivated to post images/gameplay especially if its just some silly post. if uh if anyone is still reading this, ill be honest, i havent even been motivated to write about WAS at all, probably havent touched the planning doc in about 2 weeks. This... 'spiral'... has been noticeable for me for the last week as my sleep schedule gets swapped around from sleeping at night and awake during the day... to sleeping during the day and awake at night, this is all my fault, but its also just something that happens rotationally for me, i go from sleeping VERY early in the evening (6PM at the earliest) and waking at VERY early times in the morning (4AM at the latest) to sleeping VERY late in the morning (6AM at the earliest) and waking up late in the evening (3PM at the latest), i dont really know what causes the shift, but it happens, and i often blame myself for it even though i dont know what causes it...

anyways sorry, this will probably mark a very iffy hiatus, like i said ill be active but not... super active, i didnt check tumblr at all yesterday/monday, so thats kind of the pattern to expect from me depending on the day. In the meantime... i might try to get back into older sims games, ive mentioned this before, but i do have sims 1 on my laptop so maybe ill post stupid little gameplay posts from there (granted i havent played in like... a month 😐). I'll probably put up a poll after this post for people to vote on which sims game i should play- i KNOW i did it once before but im probably gonna do it again cuz i cant find the post and i have over 1000 posts 😭

if you read thus far, thank you for sticking around, if your a random person who read this for no reason... thanks? if your a follower of mine and cant understand where im coming from with this lengthy post, see yourself out or deal with it 🙃 otherwise, thank you all and i will be lurking about

[quodekash]

OKAYOKAYOKAYOKAYOKAYOKAYOKAY EPISODE 9 ITS TIME FOR EPISODE 9 LETS GOOOO

look, I knew they were rich, I just didnt realise HOW rich they were

OML NO WAY HE PULLED THE SUGAR DADDY CARD

AND SAILOM'S GOING ALONG WITH IT HOLY FRICK NUGGETS THIS IS HILARIOUS

guys you dont need that much food for two people, you're gonna be sick if you eat that much

AAAAAAAA THE SWINGS SCENE IS COMING

IVE BEEN ANTICIPATING THE SWINGS SCENE FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE MONTHS (but in reality is probably only like. a little over one month.)

HES SO WORRIED ABOUT HIS NONGGG

NO IM GONNA CRY

HE SAID HE WOULD LITERALLY DIE FOR SAILOM AND NOW SAILOM'S GONE MISSING

oh you bastard

this is worse than all the previous times

also: I wonder why this has happened several times before

maybe think about that for a bit

maybe actually TALK TO and CONNECT WITH your son for once rather than assuming you know him when you literally dont know ANYTHING about your OWN FREAKING SON

fhedsfhsdfdsfjsdhgjsdhgjfdhbjvdfhkgvber I love them so much

I CANT TAKE IT, THE SUGAR DADDY/BABY STUFF IS TOO FUNNY TO ME

bro fell asleep that quickly? we sure he didn't actually die on the spot?

GUYNAWATIMEGUYNAWATIMEGUYNAWATIMEGUYNAWATIMEGUYNAWATIMEAAAAAGPUIEWHSDGIOPEHSDOB

"its your friend" "its your friend" "its your friend" "its your friend" they're both so stupid and I love them

HE BOUGHT THE KIDS A NEW BALL THATS SO SWEET HOLY CHEESE CURDS IM GONNA CRY

KANG WITH CHILDREN IS SOMETHING I DIDNT KNOW I NEEDED

THIS IS SO PURE AND WHOLESOME AND LOVELY ITS TOO MUCH FOR MY SAD LITTLE HEART

THE CANS ARE SO BIG IN THEIR TINY LITTLE HANDS WHAT THE HELL

one of my favourite things is how aware kang is of sailom's ticklishness

he noticed it when he kissed sailom on the cheek for the first time

he always giggles and moves his head away slightly, and kang notices that and takes advantage of that by KISSING HIS BOYFRIEND ON THE CHEEK AND GIVING HIM AS MANY SNIFF-KISSES AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE WHENEVER HE POSSIBLY CAN because he thinks its cute

its so adorable and I love them

HES SO SILLYYYYYYYYYY

this kid in the yellow is my favourite

THE WAY HE DELIVERS HIS LINES

THE KID'S VOICE

IT'S ADORABLE

I dont think I have maternal or paternal instincts. I do not like kids, nor do I want to have children like ever.

HOWEVER. sometimes I wonder if maybe I do have parental instincts. this is one of those times.

another one of those times was with jigsaw in os2 of vice versa, you literally can't walk away from vvs os without COMPLETELY adoring jigsaw with your entire soul

WHY IS HE SO ADORABLE

THIS FREAKING CHILD

this kid is suddenly more important to me than my own life

protect this kid. let him be happy and then to grow all rich and famous, so that he can follow in the footsteps of the kind wealthy strangers who bought soccer materials for him and his friends so they could have even more fun

oh honey

im sorry, but no

unfortunately thats not how the world works

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

PLEASE PUT GUYNAWA IN THE SAME ROOM COACH, PLEASE

YEEEESS

YES

YES YES YES YES YES

THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS GOING TO PROGRESS FURTHER THIS EPISODE, I KNOW ITTTTT

im holding out hope for a guynawa kiss this episode but its probably not likely

bRO

AND WITH THAT EXPRESSION? sailom there's no hope for you buddy, im sorry, you're gonna be having a bath with him

sailom's face, I can't

hes so

OML PFFT

SORRY I KNOW ITS LIKE A SERIOUS SCENE OR WHATEVER BUT LIKE-

ITS SO FUNNY TO ME FOR NO REASON

anyway, my 30 images have been used up, time for a second post

[cult-bull]

The need of a Pantheon Thoughts

How gods directly control their assigned elements in cult of the lamb is just so very intresting to me.

The lore tablets you can find tell more about the gods the bishops overthrew way back when, and mentions how certain aspects of the world just faded with their deaths. A god of seasons or at least like fall/autumn died and the leaves stopped changing colors explaining the lack of seasonal change in game (though it doesnt explain how followers age in years when the game progresses in days but details, details XD)

Killing the bishops though didnt exactly stop any of their respective elements, maybe just making it a bit more uncontrolled? I dont know, I'd say Leshys realm got even more chaotic after his initial kill just saying.

It brings up a lot of questions. How was the world when all the gods were still around? We're kind of on a large landmass/island type of thing per jalala's journal with the map, so what about the land she and her brother came from? Unaffected due to being under the jurisdiction of other gods maybe?

It also brings up the concept of godly loneliness that has intrigued me so much its partially responsible for my Fear AU.

The lamb is the only proper god with a following left in the game (kinda). People like clauneck are presumably demigods of sorts? Or servants made for gods, they dont take the same role as lamb or the bishops do.

The owl who gave us initial lore still seems to have some following leaving it offerings, but apparently it bowed down to the bishops way back when, so maybe theyre a passive god just choosing not to interact too much with the lamb?

Memories or shades or just remnants of the old gods can be found per relics and the zealous flesh wall thing thats presumably an old snake god that fell at the hand of Shamura or another Bishop.

But a true equal to Lamb? Doesnt exist.

At least it didnt before goat arrived. We now have a dark reflection of lamb that is presumably also very much some type of god. But its way to be summoned and how you unlock the tarots and relics with it speak of corruption. Plus we have no idea what goat even is at the end of it?

But clearly Lamb needed some kind of companion. I cant imagine how it feels to be the only god left after being responsible for the deaths of the former, especially before you bring any of them back, even Narinder if you didnt spare him.

Just a lot to think about.

[sp0np]

How the hell do you not have more notes on your posts??? Your art is literally so beautiful— 😭

Believe me or not but i JUST started posting today. Like TODAY. Found this old acc i didnt even know i had, obliterated all of the 2019 cringe, and then spammed like my life depended on it 🧟🧟🧟

Also thank you so much!!!! Im very new to tumblr…. like when i last had it i didnt use it very long or very well… it was always so intimidating for me to get into cuz i knew there would be so much to transfer (i post progress as I go so the lack of history is what was scary) but then I actually got really excited to post into a void where nobody really knew me! When u post and people already follow you on other things…. its kinda like alerting a bunch of people “hey im here again” and when I wanna spam i just feel so annoying… OMG IM YAPPING but yeah so i had a lot of fun just posting whatever for nobody but myself and if people like it then they like it and thats all there is to it🩷🩷🩷

[onmonotonyandotherailments]

How do you deal with the voice in your head? (justified guilt and the like)

This is a question to the dear reader, and for personal research only, also happy pride to those who celebrate it

I don't really know what to do about life anymore, And it sounds so lame to start my first ever post like this, but i've seen all the "It girls" having a diary of some sorts to keep up with their thoughts and to reflect ont hteir daily life. I am not some It girl myself, If there's some list of requirements one must follow, i don't think i quite qualify, and using an aesthetic as a role to follow is probably not the best course of actin when you realize you are struggling.

That's also a big step for me, what's "struggling"? I've used it pretty liberally throughout my life but i don't know what it really encompasses, can i even call it a struggle? When bits just the consequence of my own actions? All struggles are consequences after all, but if the only way to find a faulty party is to look at my reflection i would rather not do it at all.

That's also something i've found about me recently, i don't like blaming people, or i say i do, because i hope they wont point fingers later, when they find out the fault was mine all along.

I keep on going on tangents latey, Back to the point, my life. Ironic sentence i think, Life being the point of discussion when i find life pointless. Not in a suicidal way, but in an avoidment of responsibilities and consequences kinda way. And its not like i havent thought about it, but when youre still living with your parents and your sibling, killing yourself is so much of a hassle for others, more than a big step for myself. So like so many of my attitudes i chose to put it on the list to do in about twenty to ten years or when im living alone.

Its a hopeful list honestly, aside from the /killing myself maybe/. Because as far as im made aware most of these feelings may just leave when i find my own freedom to actually do what i want.

The bad part is, and this is why i needed to do this blog too i think, that i could do most of these things if i just grab hold of the reign of my life and just "Got IT together" as many self motivation posts have pointed out already. The IT its aludding to may be related to these It girls ive written about previously.

Just joking of course, i just need to start studying more, and actually studying and get some part time job, something online even. Its not even that my degree is uninteresting to me, but when its your third time taking a class (and take the third as liberal as you can) and you still have no idea where anything is coming from, you kind of exhaust all other "faults". Its not my teachers as ive had many, its not my current environment, ive done both virtual and on campus classes, the basis ive had were enough for my peers who have already advanced into their actual careers so its me, its my fault.

And fault is so slimy and easy to ignore when its yours, and thats whats sweet about escapism, is that its soo easy and sweet, it fills the brain with that quick and easy dopamine. Love it! But working on your goals and marks on your life? ughhhhhhhhh such a lame-o way on life. Soooo

ive started this blog, mostly to hold myself "accountable" (blegh) and to aestheticize and romanticize life. But im sooo a total shut in, so i have to, in return, start to take care of myself for that outward appeal that they loove to share online. The basis of aesthetics, if you will.

Hopefully this and the deleting all other social media kinda works on favor of this. Hope i didnt come off as a total snob and more like a girl failure. we set the low very low so our highs(returning my overdue books to the library) look like actual progress.

Adding a pretty picture from when we visited our family on the province just to prove im not a Total shut in.

Lots of love, Celine

[hopelesslygaysstuff]

I cant wait to see how ur edits progress! Ill be one of the first to have followed you! Wandas just having sum tlc. Is that the saying? Or is that a tv channel idk

OMG I AM SO GLAD I DIDNT MAKE U FEEL THE UNCOMFORTABLE I PANICKED LIKE A FRENCH MAN IN A TUTU. DONT QUESTION I PANIK. I’m brave? 👉👈. Ahjekfjs i’m so glad i made u smile n giggle!! It makes me very happy to know that!! Oh. Oh! Can i say it again? Then ur smile n giggle again?!!

I’m not too kind! I’m just stating what i know! Oh 🙇‍♀️ was just me on my knees praising ur works, art n edits! Anyways thats it! I dont wanna overwhelm u!! And. Well. I think you are very cute! Ok good bye now this is too much for my shy self.

awww well i'm honored, you'll have been there since the beginning!! and yeah idk she's just off doing secret witchy things but she is NOT dead i repeat NOT DEAD not on my watch

tbh in my head Natasha is still canonically alive so my favorite characters never truly die ♡

i've never heard that saying before omg "panic like a french man in a tutu" that's- imma use that irl and see what my friends think haha i love it! and yes u are very brave!! and aww, look at you getting all flustered, that's cute :3

did u see one of my old face reveals haha or did i accidentally link my main tik tok account to the one i edit with 💀 either way, thank you lil anon, that's very kind of you!!! i blush

[joleneghoul]

Hey I followed to see that DC Disability public essay, so I’m new to this blog. It had me wondering what was your journey of discovering DC and it’s characters and what are your favorite comics, stories and characters?

Hi! Welcome and I'm sorry this blog is kinda my "put everything i think of" train of thought blog. But it's also my only blog lol! Thank you for being interested in the Essay. It's not near done as I'm still taking responses but we will get there. Rest is under cut because i accidentally rambled on.

As far as my journey with DC comics I feel like Dc has just been a part of my life forever- I've grown up in this world where caped stories are pop culture and everywhere and when i was growing up like EVERY cartoon about heroes was about the dc ones (brave and the bold, batman the animated series, justice league)

Actually my first memory I can recall is seeing an episode of justice league on the tv and seeing john stewart green lantern.

Though I wouldnt of called myself a fan really back then because my special interests for most of my life started with Sonic and then Transformers. But in my opinion the base of both of those universes and stories is the same as caped comics so it makes sense I eventually got into them fully.

I don't think I've told the story about how I started actually reading the comics but basically I was homeless at 17 and thats when my love for these comics started. I started reading old batman comics because around then I had met my boyfriend whos special interest was batman so that was my way of both distracting myself and bonding with him.

BUT through batman comics I got introduced to Blue Beetle and Booster Gold and I instantly shifted to reading the Blue beetle comics (sorry to booster i didnt read vol 1 until maybe a year later) specifically the 1986 solo about Ted Kord.

Like I mentioned I was homeless at the time and I hadn't even been diagnosed yet with any of my illnesses I had been suffering from for 5+ years at that time. But within those comics there are two very special stories that cemented my love for these comics and its.

1. Ted has an issue where he goes around the streets of Chicago at night because someone is killing homeless people. In other stories i'd read heroes would maybe briefly talk to the homeless if at all. But instead of that Ted the entire comic sits down with people and speaks to them and gets their stories. I remember reading it and feeling "oh, this is a hero who would actually care to sit down on the sidewalk with me. This is special".

2. There is another story in this run where Ted basically defends the life of this kid who ran away from home and has no immune system and sets out a way to help him. Not the best but I was relating to the kid at the time.

I ended up carrying around an issue relating to Ted in my backpack for most of that time just because it was special to me. Anyways its pretty much history from there I ended up getting into Booster Gold and other heroes as I looked further into these stories and learned more about teams and etc. But Ted Kord will always be special to me, especially since he also has a chronic condition.

As my condition progressed this became one of my outlets for expression and it still is. Through reading I found that a lot more of these heroes were disabled than I had previously thought because NOBODY talked about it. I remember at first not knowing Booster had lost an arm because it just wasn't something I saw mentioned (though back then like. Nobody was posting abt him or ted hardly. you'd be surprised it was like they had a lull in popularity for a bit which makes sense they were not in comics) so I kinda have made it so I talk about these things so they are in peoples minds more. At least a bit.

As far as my Favorite comics go I have to say my favorite comic is Justice Leagues Quarterly 10, but you'd probably want to know the JLI roster before reading it if you dont. JLQ has very fun collections of stories. I try to recc blue beetle 1986 to people too just because it's special to me same for booster gold 1986.

Speaking of essays, here is one I wrote about Booster Gold and his relationship with disability.

[obsequence]

hi so this is for if you care about my writing ! my new blog is @suturism and im gonna be posting updates about my wips on there alongside my other mainblog shit :) i also have a twitter by the same username but i really just tweet abt random shit on there lol , but feel free to follow me if u want !!

im about to ramble a bit so if tail lights is your concern that's below here

obviously , i barely wrote last year , especially compared to the year before that . i didnt really make an effort in my writing at all after about march or so . and it wasn't lack or motivation or ideas

for a lot of people , it's really easy to write TO cope with like difficult situations but for me that's just . not it . im a very tunnel-visioned person and i can really only focus on one goal at once , and my goal for 2023 was literally like: survive . because of life situations plus my own health . i also didnt know whether id have to get extended care , so i didnt want to start any like big fics or anything during that time because i didnt know if id be able to update . thats the primary reason i didnt write much

the second is literally just insecurity and posting anxiety which sounds stupid LOL but it's super real for me . im really trying not to be so self conscious about what i post and to be content with the fact that i have progress to make , but it's hard at times . esp because (imo) tail lights was lackluster and i REALLY want my next multichapter to be better and something i can be proud of . so up to this point ive kinda been too anxious to post much if im being honest ! but i can feel that ebbing and it's simultaneously exciting and scary !

the third reason is just that like up til recently i didnt see a point !! my perspective towards writing has been really negative for a while but now im like rediscovering my love for it in my own and others' works and im just so . it makes me gush and also ANGRY because i feel stupid for neglecting it for this long LOL

so yeah with that: tail lights haha . im sorry but this the official funeral :| better now than holding out hope .

its status is basically: i have no PLANS to finish part two and i dont WANT to finish part two , so dont anticipate anything . not saying it wont ever happen if one day my feelings change but like i really dont see that happening so

i just have too many ick feelings associated to continue it and also enjoy it , so i really am sorry about that

BUT just because i am less invested in tail lights doesnt mean it isnt important to me still !! i appreciate everyone who read it/kudosed/commented/holds it dear 🖤 more than you can ever know . writing that showed me that people WILL actually read what i write , and that they care about it too , and thats a priceless sentiment i cherish

and with THAT: new writing !

so i dont wanna say anything super concrete but what im posting next is PROBABLY going to be yellowjackets related , but it may be saltburn or even tlou !! ill probably write a fic or two related to tlou after the remastered comes out depending on how much content we get and if its anything i can work with :)

but yeah if u read this far thank u for caring about my writing i love you

[bayleaf-2]

Drew some art of the progression of Lyra's feelings about Ioun

But it's like 11 PM and I should sleep so I'm gonna post the art and make barebones captions/context, go to bed, and might just remake the post if i wake up, look at it, and go "voci. voci...voci thats not enough buddy"

With that in mind!

This is when Ioun apologized to Lyra after they were resurrected (they died in the Zehir fight) and (in my mind) the start of Lyra having. A closer relationship with her, or seeing her as more than just. (Because we legally cannot call Ioun our boss) the person in charge, hense why it's labeled "beginning." Their thoughts in that moment are general feelings of appreciation, surprise, and relief. Debated putting warmth in there as well. Probably too soon. Maybe. Idk!

Transcript: Lyra's dialogue reads "Tough!" which is what they said to the goddess of prosperity trying to offer them deals. Description reads "Loyalty to Ioun after she apologized."

Ioun apologizing combined with Emily inviting Lyra to stay with her once all of this was over (AUUUUUUUGH) pulled Lyra out of their mortality crisis, hence the design change! They're wearing old (aka Elion's) earrings and actually put effort into styling their hair :)

Transcript of the bottom one: Nerd <3 "I love her" (Connotation: I just think Ioun's neat :) ) "I need to apologize to her if we fail"

Nerd refers to this being the time where Lyra starts researching and interacting with the library. "I just think she's neat" is a reference to that one Marge meme. Point being the "I love her" is a casual declaration with no deeper feelings attached. "I need to apologize to her if we fail" is referencing this:

Now a disclaimer on that: I wrote that months ago and while the og idea still holds in that I was planning on doing it, I would absolutely tweak the wording now. Also that's from my writing server so the wording is mostly for me. in terms of what "today" and "everyone else didnt follow orders" means I think that was the Tiamat fight? Timing indicates it's Tiamat. I do not know what "orders" past Voci is referencing. It might be the deals thing. ANYWAY!!

General summary for that point: Closer but still not quite friends. That being said Lyra's more cheery around Ioun and seeking out talking to her just cause.

Transcript: Lyra thinking to themself "God I love her she's so cool" Description reads "Whale convo, which is almost directly post Vecna" (So Lyra is thinking that as Ioun's talking to them) and then the bottom one starts with "After Ioun leaves and they're just thinking" Lyra's thought reads "...Oh." with the description "Means [I love her] in a different way than before"

Squish! :) Congrats lil guy! You love her and now you gotta hide your feelings so you don't pressure her because that'd be really fucked up of you! Yeah that includes your thoughts! Good luck suppressing those! (HE FAILS. HE SLIPS UP SO MUCH I'M DYING TO TAKE PROPER NOTES ABOUT THAT SHIT YOU HAVE NO IDEA)

"Voci why is the 4th heart in the scale grey instead of black in the top one" Uhhh I'm not sure. I think it has to do with Lyra not really knowing what their feelings are?? Like it's vague and then once they're actually reflecting on it, they realize it's something more than just thinking Ioun's neat. Btw it's not clear in this shitty photo but Lyra is blushing.

Transcript: Ioun saying "I do care, by the way." Lyra verbally keysmashing in response, which is cut off by the tiny tiny page. Description reads "right after the trial".

We had a trial where Emily was trying to make a case about the wording of the curse so we wouldn't have to kill her and only temporarily banish her (and Ioun. And possibly the Raven Queen. And anyone else who ascended) outside of reality. It was a really formal court though so everyone was in like. Proper boring formal wear and Lyra went the safe route of going in a suit yes I know that collar looks scribbly I was drawing in front of a campfire okay

I??? This is hard to describe, but by this point, Lyra's feelings are deeper, like they weren't...flustered by Ioun before, at least not to the same extent, and now they are, if that makes sense. I hesitate to say their feelings got? Deeper or more intense, because the timing makes this extremely fucky. And also feels like I'm in the danger zone in terms of possibly using aphobic wording. So I'm just gonna hold off for now.

And there's another art I drew of. The dream conversation where Ioun and Lyra ended up holding hands for an enTIRE FUCKING HOUR but it wasn't finished and I think? That moment kind of speaks for itself? So I'll just. Leave that there and sleep now gn <3

Again apologies if huge chunks of this don't make sense this is one of those moments where the hyperfixation is just Taking the God Damn Reins and I Have To Show People This

[bye-bye-firefly]

i said this to my friends like. i have Lost nano. as i said at the start i do not ever plan to lose ... But we cannot All be winners... but despite this im still like i did a REALLY good job. im sure everyone knows about how inconsistent my writing is like when i put out chapters and when theyre done and everything but its like 41k in a month is nothing to look over like thats really good for me. even on a good day im not writing the fucking 3k that i wrote once or the 2k i wrote at the start. i DO want to try and keep writing everyday because it wasnt the writing everyday that fucked me, it was real life shit and the holidays and work and friends and blah blah blah there is stuff OUTSIDE of writing that i have to do. i have Obligations. AND im a human person who likes to do things other than make money and write; i like playing video games and hanging out with my friends and if i dont have that socialisation time then its like. Rover

like this was REALLY great i felt like id gone back to my early days of fic writing and writing everyday like i did on propaganda and actually having like ideas and just writing and progressing the story I LOVE WRITING!!! i didnt need to be reminded how much i love writing but i did have to be reminded just how much i can DO. because sometimes you just have to sit down and say I'm going to write today and THATS IT. for some people thats harder unless theyre medicated but for me i do think i could force myself to just sit down and write. but im not writing 10k in one sitting LMAO that would burn me out and then we'd NEVER get the chapters of nameless im working on.

BUT I AM PROUD OF MYSELF. like i failed and i had fun doing it AND i have 41k words of my novel down! so one day thats going to exist and im happy with the state that everything is in right now ^_^ but i think during december as i get my work hours in im going to start time blocking and then in january, ill have to do that in both my journal and in my calendar. im actually really excited about it and i hope that if i make it a habit to set that time up for myself, i'll actually Follow Through and Do It. and then we might get consistent updates like i used to do And wouldn't that be beautiful ...

but yeah!!! im really happy about my novel and will set up time for it in my calendar when im not so super tired of writing it because thats all ive been writing this month 😭

[saezurufeels]

hello there, i've being a saezuru fan since chapter 15 was realized and i've been following the tumblr posts since then as well, this is the first time i actually commented anywhere on tumblr about it! :)

i'm saying this for a reason by the way stay with me :)

ive being expecting this chapter for like a month and ive reread everything from the beginning and i will encourage you to do the same as i understand better the relationship of doumeki and yashiro but also the plot of the yakuza story line, the time frame of the story in the story and the actual time frame of the manga being posted is consider always when creating the next chapter. i mean there is a time dilation and that somehow dilates the understanding of the story! i know that you probably are like dahh we know sis.

BUT i came to an expectation of chapter 51 that was accurate somehow, because i knew that their relationship was never expressed by them with WORDS, and even if they used words (like sharing secrets to each other in the very beginning of the story) is because they showed trust and affection to each other by flirting, especially yashiro to doumeki in the beginning chaptes his like - i can do so much to you babes, let me show you what i can do to you babes omg your so cute! -

There is a silence in their conversation, that it is known that it says i love you. it was always like that from the beginning and thats why i love saezuru that much and yoneda for creating it, i didnt saw that anywhere else so far in a manga, i only saw the words and the common confessions to convey that.

i dont expect a confession i dont see the need for that, she choose to make yashiro kick doumeki to show how concerned he was about him (i love you why did you do that to yourself, i wanted you to be safe) and doumeki let him kick him although he is bigger than him and could easily stop him and all he did was grab him gentle by the wrist and looked at him( i love you i will always love i did this because i can protect you and i will protect you).

also there is no way that doumeki doesn't love yashiro or he is with someone else is yoneda trying to create anxiety on you and she is succeeding lol, she is aware of her fanbase and she is also aware of pleasing us and displeasing us.

i would like to hear your thought and opinions guys!:)

Hi there! Wow, you’ve been here very long! Thank you for your first public Saezuru comment and sharing some of your wisdom :) Well put, I agree with everything you said! Rereading the manga before new chapters come out is always so helpful because it puts things into a proper perspective.

You’re so right, they did flirt a lot in the beginning. They talked so much about their personal lives, and shared so many thoughts and ideas with each other. They also showed so much interest in the other; they didn’t just talk about themselves, they actually cared about the other person. It’s these simple gestures, the pauses - the acceptance, that convey romantic feelings. YK uses body language, dynamics, reactions, and everything in between to show the progression of Yashiro and Doumeki’s relationship. Sometimes there are brief internal monologues and confessions, but those parts are used to supplement what was already conveyed and understood through non-verbal storytelling.

It’s true, a confession isn’t always necessary. The impact of character development often goes down the toilet when you just have two characters in a room making one confession after another. Words don’t change opinions, actions do. Saying something is great, but what value does it have? What impact does it make if it’s not backed up by some tangible actions? Who’s going to believe you? If Doumeki told Yashiro, “I don’t want you to see Kido, because I don’t like how he treats you,” would that leave the same impact as throwing a grown man across a room and picking your lover off the floor? Portraying action is proof, but words are empty by nature.

That being said, I do think Yashiro and Doumeki will have an honest conversation eventually, otherwise it would leave a void. I know I just said words are empty by nature, but when you follow up an act with an explanation, you ascribe meaning and significance to it. If there is no meaning ascribed to behaviour, it could make people question the importance and validity of it. So, words are still important to solidify and clarify the significance and meaning of actions. Perhaps, the order of those two is important in good storytelling.

Oh YK would drop a golden apple into a room and watch the girlies fight over it for sureee. Love her though, would follow her into a cult