#progress i think

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

[dancerfelix]

Saw this posted and actually for the first time in my life I think I don't agree

Turns out having good friends and an amazing lover is actually better than having to be alone to prevent worse bad things from happening. I really just have not been the same since probably the worst period of my life followed by easily the best. It might really be time for me to let go of the idea that I need to be alone to have any sense of peace.

[pebbleguppy]

had a dream i was flying and i put my hand in the glovebox of the plane (yes there's a little glovebox in the plane idk why) and i had all these needles in my hand when i pulled it out. it was like i tried to high five a porcupine. i started pulling out the needles but it hurt so bad i woke up

[demaparbat-hp]

Damage.

Quote by @desertbcrnnobody

[allforlovessake]

first night in awhile i was actually excited to be here

[branchingcrossroads]

Realized that I feel obligated to wait for permission before I'm "allowed" to be strong. I haven't been letting myself act strong or confident. Part of me expects that the moment I do, someone will attack me, try to take me down a peg. "You think you're so smart? Want me to remind you of all the stupid things you did over the years?" "You really think you can do this? No you can't! Trust me, I've seen enough failures from you to know!" "Well maybe your opinions would be worth something if you got your act together. What are you even doing with your life? Do you really expect to be taken seriously when (your living space is a mess / you don't work full-time / you dress for comfort not style / you refuse to get your crooked tooth straightened / insert any other arbitrary criteria here)?" And I'm afraid that if someone "calls me out" like that, I'll buckle. Because it's true, I have done stupid things in the past, and I have failed, and I don't have my act together ((not that I'd let anyone touch my crooked tooth or rope me into a full-time job)). And these kinds of arguments have been used against me in the past when I couldn't fight back. ((I tried, sometimes. It would be used against me and just make things worse. There was no winning. The only thing to do was surrender and wait for it to be over. To listen with contrition, nod and shake my head and apologize in all the right places, until the mockery and yelling and finger-pointing run their course.)) It was safer to be small and meek, to doubt myself and defer to others. So that's what I did. What I was trained to do. And now that I'm allowed to fight back - when I can give myself permission to fight back - I don't know how. My brain shoots me down before anyone else can.

Yesterday I wanted to tell my person "I'm proud of myself for ((handling a situation))", but what I managed was "I guess I'm kinda proud of myself?" (((I was on the verge of adding 'not that it's a big deal', before my person cut in with "I'm proud of you". My brain went 'oh, I'm allowed! They agree, so I'm permitted to think I did well!' and then I had no trouble feeling confident and proud. About this specific situation. For the moment. (Because god knows, being told 'you did well' now doesn't mean it won't later be used as evidence of your selfishness or arrogance or laziness. 'You took one step in the right direction and you think that gives you bragging rights? That you never need to work hard again? That people will just respect you forever after?') )))

(And don't get me started on all the times I told people "actually, my pronouns are they/them", and consciously willed myself to stop talking,...and couldn't help adding a quiet little "if you don't mind" >__< )

But guess what. I don't need your goddamn permission. I don't have to wait on your goddamn approval. Maybe I'm not ready to act on it now. Maybe I don't know when, or if, I'll actually believe it. But I'm starting to think that maybe one day I will.

[tungledotedu]

uh why the fuck would you say this

this post has 3000 notes and they get worse.

el-shab-hussein has already explained why he no longer shares how he vets individual fundraisers. scammers will use the information to be less obvious, making it more difficult to spot them.

and senatortedcruz's post has no actual proof of a widespread scam. that is a serious accusation to make, yet people are reblogging it and accepting it as true with no evidence. i won't deny that there are individual grifters on tumblr, but there are accounts like @/neechees, kyra45 and anonthescambuster that will help you avoid them. hussein even has a #scam alert tag for this purpose.

it's racist to spread misinformation about a supposed large-scale deception posing as fundraisers, not to mention dangerous because this makes it less likely for gazans to get what they need to survive and escape relentless airstrikes. we've already seen the consequences of this bias. some of these people are all too happy to be cops and harass or report gazans thinking they're bots or 'spamming' inboxes.

almost nobody on that post is encouraging others to donate to organisations or other vetted lists like those by operation olive branch, which has a faq sheet that explains how they verify fundraisers. i suspect this is an attempt to discourage people from helping palestinians altogether.

gazans are making fundraisers because they have no other choice. many of them cannot work and earn money as their workplaces have been destroyed. some have been disabled by injuries thanks to the iof's targeting of civilians. the fault is on israel for besieging them and on the egyptian government for exploiting their need to evacuate.

they're doing this for the same reason they have been posting photographs and videos of genocide so that people will pay attention to their suffering, so the world will not forget. is it such a leap in logic to understand they will also use social media to start fundraisers? do you just expect them to sit there and die in silence? so you can ignore them and your countries can keep arming israel as it commits atrocities?

[an-established-butt-dent]

I'm a bald Solas lover I swear!!!!

—> Process video under the cut because of flash warning.

[wolfienation]

"when did agatha realize he's wanda's son?"

in that moment. in that very last moment. excellent face acting by kathryn hahn because you see the second the pieces click into place. what pieces are those?

he's powerful enough to break a spell cast by the scarlet witch. he knew exactly where to find her in westview, which he would know because billy was right there when wanda cast the spell. in this episode he is able to say the name nicholas scratch further confirming rio's statement "that boy isn't yours". and, in that last scene, he very much sounds like a naive hero, which was how agatha viewed wanda for the majority of wandavision. he says he doesn't want to be that kind of witch, he doesn't want to hurt people, he doesn't want to kill anyone to further his own agenda.

and in that last moment, her behavior shifts because he's no longer just this kid she has been looking out for. he's wanda's son.

[asfodeltide]

Year in Akechi

[reasonsforhope]

100% have been perusing your climate change masterpost, and understand you're probably swamped so feel free to delete of course. But if you can find the time, is there any kind of hope to give in fighting climate change now? Can we save ourselves against the oncoming steamroll?

You hang in there too. Thanks for finding the hope among everything else. It feels so bad rn but I have to believe it can change. I hope it can.

Yeah actually I do think there is hope.

Things are going to get rough. Things are going to get worse before they get better, both for the climate and for people living in the US (and for people living in lots and lots of other countries that will be affected by the US election results/the ways the climate will worsen as aa result).

I haven't posted about this yet because I didn't want it to come to this, but now that it has, here's something that people have been quietly saying/research has been showing for months:

-via Reuters, November 6, 2024

Renewables, especially solar, are just too powerful to be stopped. They just too much cheaper and too much better, and that's only going to become more true, not less.

Also, I think (and hope) it's actually inevitable that at some point, we'll get to net negative carbon emissions. I think it's like solar: the technology, cost, and planet all make it feel like an inevitable technological trajectory, the same way solar tech is on an exponential trajectory. (IF WE WORK FOR IT, OBVIOUSLY, but also so, so many people ARE working for it, have dedicated their lives to working for it)

I sure fucking hope that's the case, anyway.

(You can find my masterpost on going net negative on what that actually means here)

It is gonna happen more slowly and shittily than I hoped, but I do think it's going to happen.

And if we can get to net negative emissions in time to save ourselves (which I think we will, the rates of advancement in many of these areas are very impressive), then we'll be able to slowly start to undo and heal lot of the damage.

[adaki]

GIRLS NITE OUT >_< ((clockwork could not make it)) (wip)

[onionninjasstuff]

[nocek]

Miguel is the plan guy in this triad (however useless it is with a chaos incarnate in it) and he'll make sure of it one bad fashion statement at a time.

[chinchilla-clown]

When you think Sun is winking at you but no his eye is just busted :-(

(I was thinking "huh i copy paste the dca's face a lot :-/" so WHY NOT incorporate that in universe with a comic!! The facial changes are subtle but it makes sense this way idk. I'll be drawing them a bunch anyway and I'm a sucker for asymmetry. Next one will be Moon talking abt their eyes too)

Bonus:

Biblically accurate DCA enjoyers rise up <3

[branchingcrossroads]

Been reading some H/C and talking to my person and attending a program and thinking, and,,,

"You need to get better so that you can start being useful again. You need to get better so that you can pull yourself together and GET BACK TO WORK." (('work' meaning 'whatever's expected of you', not necessarily 'job')) You can get a reprieve while you're weak, but as soon as you are stronger, you'll be expected to work yourself to the bone again. It never ends. “Just (...) and THEN you can rest” always ends up being a lie. You can't say “no, I don't want to get back to work” (or even admit it to yourself) - that's selfish and greedy (or at best 'weak and useless', or 'whining' or 'exaggerating' or 'trying to get attention' or 'feeling sorry for yourself') - "you think you're the only one who has problems? you think YOU're struggling? you think you have a right to complain when you've got it so easy? you think others have to wait on you hand and foot? how dare you - aren't you ashamed - burdening others - bad bad bad stupid unacceptable"

You can't allow yourself to feel better for a while or do something enjoyable, because “if you can do this, clearly you're fine, stop malingering and get back to work”. (eg. “so you want to (play a game/learn about a topic/etc)? why aren't you putting that energy into (looking for a job/cleaning your home/meeting more people/etc)?”) ((Unless the activity is something 'sanctioned' and 'socially approved', in which case you CAN participate, but you can't show (and therefore feel) much enjoyment or energy or motivation or skill, otherwise “if you can do this, clearly you're able to do all kinds of things, now get back to work”))

And since your brain caught on to the pattern, it learned that: "Getting better is unacceptable" "Getting better only leads to more pain, exhaustion, useless struggling" "Getting better means you have no excuse" "Getting better means people will resume expecting more than you can give" "Getting better means people will go back to holding you to a standard you can't meet, you'll keep falling short, they'll keep getting angry at you or disappointed or frustrated" "Getting better means losing whatever sympathy you're getting" "Getting better means losing whatever help you're getting" "Getting better means losing whatever reprieve you're currently allowed to have"

So things that 'help' feel like a threat - they are tools to make you 'get better' so that you can be pushed beyond your limits again. So that you're able to push yourself beyond your limits again. So that you can be hurt again. So that you can go back to letting yourself be hurt. To ignoring when it hurts. To squeezing yourself for every last drop.

And part of your brain doesn't want that. 'Getting better' is a threat.

So there's a level of resistance even (especially!) to the most basic things that are helpful or positive or comforting. And you don't even know why. You're hungry, the food looks good, but for some reason you can't bring yourself to eat. You'll feel better after you take your meds, but you find yourself just staring at the bottle for minutes at a time before you can make yourself open it...only to then sit there with pill in hand, willing yourself to just take it already, what's the holdup, what the hell Branch, you KNOW this will help, just do it. You used to love going into your hideout, it used to feel safe and comforting - now even imagining it stresses you out. Hearing "it's OK, you can do it, I'll help, I believe in you" makes you panic, and you don't know why. This is supposed to be encouraging, so why are you suddenly frantic to make the person give up on you? (Because on some level it feels like- not even a threat - a sentence. “It's OK, now stop whining before I lose my patience. I know you can do it, stop pretending like you can't, I'm not letting you weasel out of it. I'll help you do it or I'll MAKE you do it, but you're getting this done whether you like it or not. I believe in you, you better not disappoint me.”)