#processing of lost friendships???
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Hop hop is always the funniest motherhopper in the whole show
'i wish I could be lovingly embraced by all of humanity'
Me too sprig. Me too
They keep hinting that Polly is insanely smart
How are frogman and granddad the same. It's not frogman throwing cars around
Wow they're super powered handymen. Should go into construction! Ok well I guess the cop knows granddad did an oopsie
'it ended up doing more harm than good anyway' DID IT??? HE SAVED A BUS FULL OF PEOPLE WHO WOULD HAVE DRIVEN RIGHT INTO A CAR!!! nobody got hurt when granddad got angry at him. They really boiled the superhero genre down to nothing lol. Wow they're really not gojgn back on it ahahahahahaha. FUCK superheroes and them saving people from traffic accidents. Superheroes ain't shit!!! buses should just crash!!!!
Apparently.
Did Olivia take Marcy in when she hadn't even proven herself as head of the whatever artificer rogue guild? Wow
THE GHOSTS AND THE CRYPTID MOSSMAN LOOKALIKE ARE OTHERWORLDY PRISONERS. OOF. WOW!
Damn!;! Damn!!! That's why I like children's cartoons so much!!!! They just throw in horrific shit like it's FRESH. WAOW IS THERE FANFIC !!?! I LOVE HORRIFIC POSSESSION!!!!!! Marcy just went very much up in my characters I love list. Though she was seriously growing on me already. She trapped her friends in another world. Then didn't even go to look for them but let herself get distracted with what SHE could get out of it. Then never told them she was planning to take them travelling on and on - not home. Meanwhile she's just sooo sweet and sooo cute and harmless. A klutz. Sincerely affectionate but also careless. SO LONELY. She's got shit parents but she RARELY lets on. She lets herself be distracted. The most closed of all of them. An actual literal real world child prodigy, boundlessly curious and passionate for the world, and ruthlessly strategic. And now -she has merged with the best evil minds of Newtopia, been forced. She has become the city's evil heart. She refused to see the rot at the heart of the kingdom (she's smart enough to have discovered it) and now she has been eaten by it. Shes lost all control of her body and mind - by all accounts she must be trapped under the suffocating crush of the Core, yet aware. But at least, she is not alone anymore ....
am I gonna have to write the fic about the possession just like I did for catra...
Anne is the leader in the field, the soldier, the superweapon, the beacon, the protector, Sasha is the general, the tactical and violent hand of/against the state, and Marcy is the queen....strategic, focused on systems, improving lives
I should stop characterising bc the show likes to juggle them sometimes...also did just realise that my book has this ....theme role division for the three main characters
I like the gender non conforming FBI agents
God the squeak toy sounds for the frogs will never get old. Also the close ups with the voices
king Andreas sure is such a wonderful villain. So hearty and jolly and cruel
Ah the it girls are gay and in love
The characterisation of small children in this as Monsters will continue to baffle me
Ohhhhh I LOVEEEEERR evil hivemind Marcy. I LOVE HER. Esp bc the core seems to have also taken on some of her personality
HOLY SHIT I AM CRYING SPRIGS PRESENT FOR ANNE OH MY GOD!!!!!! THE VOICE ACTING AND TIMING AND WRITING ON THIS BIT HAAAAAAA
ANNE ONLY NOW IS INFORMING SASHAS AND MARCYS PARENTS THAT THEY ARE ALIVE. Also anonymously with the most outrageous claims....dude. they're not gonna fucking believe that
So Sasha's parents are divorced. She's also likely rich
They're opening an interdimensional portal with the energy from a car battery....
We're on the right track. YOU CREATED AN INTERDIMENSIONAL PORTAL WHAT THE FUCK
It's fascinating - apparently the only thing to see in LA are shops
ANNE IS HAVING THE 'IM JUST A KID' REALISATION
So they broke with Anne's blue colour scheme this episode just to do a Darth Vader reference?
Her parents have realised that Anne has become insanely proficient at combat
WHAT parents would not insist on coming along
I wanna know what SASHA is doing. GIVE ME HER RESISTANCEEEEE
GOD Anne's powers look so damn cool
Interesting that they never returned to that bit about the mother of olms when that was their main lead
Sasha has a new OUTFIT. Instantly gives Anne the commander helmet. They undersell how significant that is. Is this episode gonna be about how Sasha is in her rightful place as commander and Anne is...for other things? I hope the colour of the helmet implies this. YES. Grime is saying the same. Please let it come true. Please let
Even Anne can tell. BUT SASHA IS TRYING TO BE DIFFERENT AND NOT TAKE CONTROL SO MUCH. And she's. Right that the people want Anne
WHAT THE FUCK AHAHAHAHAHAHA. OK that's the most Anne thing I LOVE IT she just GOT EATEN to get Sasha to take command. Man. Every emotional moment between them always great
Skdnkdndkdhdjdjdbd sometimes there's an amazing joke
YES THEYRE GOING ALL IN ON TACTICAL SASHA
GOD I LOVE SASHA MILITARY TALK AND HER INTELLIGENCE. YES I LOVE THE RESISTANCE!!!!
Sasha is like: the resistance can't lose both of us. But then does send both of them on mission. She did this deliberately to train with Anne for sure and/or to help toady develop in Crocker's team. Nah the narrative is not that smart. She did believe they could do without them though
Sasha literally kicked a giant rock in half
It's actually really fun to think about how Anne and Marcy and Sasha haven't noticed their own insane power creep - even without stone powers
Actually why did Anne put on the exact same outfit again. The school uniform or whatever...
Sasha and Anne work so well together as co leaders AAAAA I love them. Sashas signature are emojis....
SASHA CHEERLEADING BUT BEING TOO BUSY TO REWRITE THE SONG OH MY GOD I LOVE HER
This last season is honestly the best. Except for all the sappy parent scenes.
YES I KNEW IT. Marcy is locked in her own mind and the core has inherited quirks.
LOVE that Barrel is the famous toad from the past that they got the hammer from. LOVE that Leaf apparently started the planter line. All young and contributing to a horrific interdimensional empire without second thoughts.
God...the core sure is uhhh a horrific ancestor hivemind hanging out in the body of the kid you quite liked and then killed. The character design for Darcy is amazing
The question is why Sasha and Anne are hitting just little targets when they KNOW that the heart of Andreas' power is the music box. take that, and he can't invade shit
So Leaf left a leaf of paper for Andreas...
Sasha is more of a dog person...who woulda thought. Marcy and Anne are definitely the dogs in the relationship...
I LOVE how all the episodes are coming back!!! Bittyburg. Domino. Trattonio.
Their official titles are madam generals. I love it
Just realised that the Newts look like lotr elves
The FLYING the EYES the VOICE the MAGICAL HAIR . GOD it's so cool
Sasha supporting Anne afterwards. So cool
'im sorry sash' THEY HUG.
Their strategy is like that of a movie that Marcy watched. YIKES. The core will see through it for sure
Ah Marcy was not happy about Anne and Sasha not sharing in her interests.
Oh SHIT. That's what happened to Olivia and Yunan. Grisly.
Are you fucking serious.....Anne and Sasha beat these two by doing a perfectly synced DANCE that they still remembered perfectly after a tearful and emotional heart to heart where Anne grabs Sasha's hand in both hands and anyway
The voice actress for Marcy must be having SO MUCH FUN
GOD!!! THE ANIMATION. THE AMAZINGLY COOL OUTFIT FOR DARK MARCY. YAAAAAA
Dark Marcy about to kill ANNE!!! YEAAAA ANGST
'amusing. You want to beg?' ahhh delightful. Stupid petty shitty ass imperialist ancestor kings are so easy.
'we look forward to dissecting you. Alive' I LOVE IIIIIT SO EVIL!!!! USING MARCYS VOICE FOR IT TOO!! please tell me Marcy was aware of almost killing Anne with her own hands.
But you know what? I do believe that Anne's parents have informed Mr X that there IS GOING TO BE AN ALIEN INVASION AND THEY NEED TO PREPARE THEMSELVES
They literally use their tongues for everything but those weren't incapacitated. Dark Marcy was very stupid to tie them up instead of instant collaring of course
Instead of helping the people not get murdered they're setting up a base....sldjdkdknff
Shit. She might NOT be aware of what happens on the outside. Too bad. The core is just distracting her with endless temptations
So they deleted her memory. Yikes. Is she getting that back? Permanent brain damage Marcy? Sounds very uh angsty
'and save any remaining civilians' YOU MEAN THE ONES WHO HAVENT BEEN EATEN WHILE YOU LEFT THEM TO FEND FOR THEMSELVES????
Wow when they went in for that hug I was like ????????????? Bc for on sec it was drawn rather differently like faces first
Wow. Soldiers are actually dying in this rts game
Olivias WHAT hahahahaha
Does...Sasha look like edelgard in Marcy's dream world hahahaha
Holy shit wow I did NOT expect them to parallel losing Polly's and Sprigs parents with losing Annes
Wow. What a solution. The monsters that killed your parents. The solution? Tame them and sicc them on your enemies. That's...unconventional
The cartoony shit where the enemy always surprise attacks with something non-lethal. Ah
Now they're just showing off with the animation for Marcy.
The only reason the whole of LA hasn't been blasted yet is due to one simple trick by Anne where her life might be essential
Is Andreas really gonna fight her? YEEEEESSSS ANNE GOING PSYCHOANALYSIS ON ANDREAS YESSSSS THATS WHAT I WANNA DO CALL HIM PITIFUL!! BOTH MOCKING AND GENUINELY PITYING HIM
Wow the Core builds some really shit AI lol
It hurts that they don't want what you want. Oh Marcy. I love you
Ok. Not the message I would have sent to Andrias, Leaf.
Wow the Core is so damn strategically weak actually. Guess having a hundred minds in there makes making decisions kind of difficult actually
So how did Anne get her third wind?
'nothing can take away the memories of the time we spent together'
But that's not true...because memories fade....
The Moon is a core base??????
Lol Sasha's outfit is punk
They look fucking cool
'this is the coolest most anime thing that's ever happened to me' well YEAH marcy
Pfffthrjdjdnfkfn a nat 20
MARCY STUMBLED IN SPACE
Honestly think this is dumb and they should have done a teamwork friendship move
Ok yeah I remembered right. Frobo CAN fly so why did he take the heron.
Wow CANON GAY NEWTS
'nothing will change what you mean to me' not time not space
Is that true?
YES!!! Grown up Polly!
Were Maddie's sisters so young that they're still pollywags?
Bessie and Joe the sparrow....
I guess it's nice that Sprigs still got Polly, and Hop Pop and Ivy. And that Anne's not dead. Really the defining thing here that makes things ok
You're telling me that. Anne Sasha and Marcy GREW APART. AFTER SAVING TWO WORLDS TOGETHER. WOW. Talk about a depressing message. I am...uh Deleting that part from my brain what the fuck. They could have just stayed friends???? Is the message that what Marcy was scared of actually happened and wasn't so bad? My god
#amphibia#my stuff#vidi#wow.....this sucks.#you aint fixing this with a new polaroid picture what the fuck??? they could have jsut stayed in contact?? was this whole show a fantastica#processing of lost friendships???
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#still think abt the time an (adult) male relative told me (when i was 10) that I 'needed to lose weight or no man would ever find me sexy'#which IDK feels like a shitty thing to say to anyone but especially a girl who had yet to even reach puberty lmao#and who wasn't even That overweight at the time Nor had body image issues until that moment going forward lol#ironically... I ended up having some ED issues and gained a bunch of weight from then on#mainly bc i had some CSA trauma in my early childhood way before that conversation so I internalized the idea#that if I was fat no man would give me unwanted attention#however... this thought process (on top of other things) led me to believe for almost my entire life that no man would find me attractive#or like me or love me at ALL unless I either lose a bunch of weight and maybe not even then#which is kinda why I'm overall uninterested in men even if the attraction is technically there?#I lost interest in even male Friendships tbh bc i internalized this idea that no man would be interested in me even platonically š¤#anyway. just something I'm working through in therapy but every once in a while I wonder why it's so hard for me to lose weight#and then I remember... ah yes.. 'āØtraumaāØ' lol#funky's personal tag#delete later probs#anyway. I can't really talk about this stuff easily outside of therapy irl so I just be yelling into the void sorry guys :(
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get help
#this man told me not two hours ago to get lost- immediately after i gave him a beer which is one of his favorite items#so i was like āman i guess my friendship is still reeeeally lowā#then he thought it over and was like ānah iāll repay the favorā#so shaneās personality is alcoholism and typical male depression#word#peach rambles#i choose to believe my character is not awake enough to process any of this. no please help iām not much of a drinker at all#do NOT down all that in like 15 seconds you will die girl
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In the vein of my headcanon of body mods being super popular in Zaofu, Wing and Huan have definitely gotten their siblings and Kuvira to get some sort of matching tattoos. I just haven't decided what isaid tattoos would be yet.
#Wing's motivation was the power of friendship while for Huan it was some manner if artistic symbolism#this process probably involved a lot of guilt tripping and puppy eyes and lost bets#beifong brainrot#wing beifong#huan beifong#kuvira#baatar#baatar jr#opal beifong#wei beifong#legend of korra#avatar#tlok#the legend of korra#avatar the legend of korra#atlok
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MLP Song Tournament
Please listen to both songs before voting.
Sweep Song
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We'll Make Our Mark
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#the Sweep Song has no right being this high up#it's just up there because late in the bracket-making process I replaced the Reprise of 'Equestria the Land I Love'#some reprises are worth being counted separately but not that one#mlp#my little pony#my little pony friendship is magic#mlp fim#mlp g4#polls#polls on tumblr#tournament polls#mlp music#Saddle Row Review#Crusaders of the Lost Mark#Sweep Song#We'll Make Our Mark#0x39v0x46#Youtube#MLP Song Tournament#MLP Song Tournament Round 1
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the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do
#ive uh not processed it yet and it also wont really shake out for a little while now i guess but .. yeah#long story short my friends who ive been A Trio with since we were 11 might be done with each other#theres a LOT of additional factors but theyre splitting a house share so one can go live with a boyfriend#and in the process it sounds like theyve made a lot of selfish choices for some unknown reason#ngl theyve pissed me off a little bit for being so weird and reclusive since theyve had the boyfriend as well but only with us#its ... yeah i dont know what alls happened because i dont live with them#but i just cant fathom how they got to this point quibbling over the contents of their shared house of 5 years#over a boyfriend whos been around for 2 or 3 years ..... to ruin a friendship of 18 years ????#again i dont know the whole story but i trust what the friend whos still good at talking to us to not lie about them being screwed around#i just dont get it at all how to reconcile what ive been told with who ive known over half my life#theyve felt off .. or wrong for a while now tbh ... i miss them#i havent seen the other one since before may ...#the thought that mightve been the last time we all hang out is kind of killling me inside lol#and it was also pretty weird and stilted again because it was very boyfriend-centric#this always happens to me lol ive lost count of all my school friend groups who end up basically fighting over me after they fall out#its a MAJOR trauma point for me and i thought we kind of grew past that but i guess i was wrong#ive been catching myself with a weepy eye or a single sob all day#i dont know what to do i wanna know what the fuck happened and what was worth doing this for#i wanna confront everyone and ask for a fucking explanation as to why my single life solid bedrock is falling apart#i mostly wanna dig a hole and die in it ... im fine im safe but im bothered by like ...#what a total fool ill look like if i just melt down at work ... i might find the mental health first aiders list and write an email lol#im like not okay cksbdkssj fucking hell#i have some hope but its ... its hard out here#i need to go to bed fuck#id dont neeeeed thiiiiisss im gonna choke on life agaaaiiinnn#the battle to keep my shit together enough to at least not self-sabotage ??? its testing my patience#rory's ramblings
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Yāall are being subjected to my Sims 2 tests, so there
The other set of Vargases came over for a visit and Scriabin picked up Shmee and started talking to Scriabin through him. Very normal, very usual
I downloaded some circle-glasses recolours and hghghh they look so good! Closer every day to his final details! Getting ever closer!
Edgar too! I made him a custom hair with a lighter undercut - Iām mostly happy with it, probably couldāve shifted it a shade closer to his skintone but the texturing was weird no matter what :P And his stripey shirt! I wish Body Shop didnāt have that hands-on-hips pose lol, it looks so much better in-game, but thatās all the better :)
I got some new clothes for Todd as well! As soon as I saw thisĀ āfit I was likeĀ āOh thatās 100% Todd there he is.ā Scriadad hug ā„ So cute
Foot-dancing together stopp itās so cute!!
The way he looks at them stoppp <3 <3 They kept doing this right up til they left for home haha, Toddās giggles are the cutest
Used SimPE to save him to the Body Shop, I now have infinite copies of The Boyyyy āŖ
Moved him in with his āparentsā as just shadow people basically, theyāre not gonna matter in a bit as long as I remember how to get the Social Worker/Adoption process to work properly. Get her Todd!!
Wanna play? :D
Menacing :(
Look, Todd, your new dads are here! Initially I wasnāt sure who I wanted to adopt him, got lots of options; the first passes, the married couple with their own Todd, Johnny?? He definitely doesnāt have the facilities for a child lol But these are the ones that showed up on their own, so the married Vargases are the winners!
Scriabin cares more about him than his actual parents ;; A stranger off the street shows him more care! Not that itās a high watermark
Look at him being a good dad!
Weh, he just wants friends ;; Poor baby
Best timeline, thank you
While we wait for CPS, letās get some other interactions in! Nny is mean so he tended to prank the other two with a nose flick - mostly Edgar lol āŖ Now kiss
āOh please donāt break all my bones~ :3ā I love Todd looking up at them haha <3
Pffft, I think he was talking about the other Scriabin and just how attractive he is. Classic Scriabin. Alternatively, also funny to imagine him bragging himself up about how heās just so handsome that Edgar canāt help but love him hahaha āŖ
Allow me to tickle you with my KNIFE! >:D
Get a load of this guy lol
He ended up passing out at one point - I forgot which motives make CPS show up >.> - and completely 0%ād his comfort, but for some reason stargazing increased it?? Itās the same ground wh
Is two not enough to satisfy your butterfly bloodlust child?? He ended up with three, I had him release them before he was picked up by the Social Worker - success!
He rolled a new Want as soon as Todd was taken away - āWants to see Ghost of Toddā Woah, dark! :0
And here he is on the married Vargasesā lot!! Success!! I did it right!! Heck yeah! :D Unfortunately they were uh, indisposed at the time. Good job guys pft
Goes right for Shmee, he really is Todd <3
#The Sims 2#My queue is too backlogged on main! And I /have/ been working on a lot of Vargas-specific Sims 2 retextures so it's fine lol#These are still tests - as said up top lol - so these events are ''non canon'' to what will eventually be my actual Vargas family#The beats will be similar tho! It's mostly just a lot of tweaking at this point to get everything just where I want before the domino falls#Edgar Nny and Todd are all so close to done - Scriabin still needs a bit more work lol of course he's the problem member āŖ#It'll be worth it tho! >:3c Handsome lad <3#Did find out some interesting things with the Social Worker/Adoption process :0 Most importantly that adoption basically wipes everything#Wipes memories and family relations and changes the last name! So I'll have to go in with SimPE to change his name back once I'm there#I love SimPE haha āŖ I mean it's just an extension of how much I love TS2 but I just ughsjkhagf it's a good program!#It's extremely powerful and easy to get lost in if you don't know where to look but it's also incredibly user-friendly if you do know#Like - it's as easy as ''Open this sub-menu. Click this button. Rename this. You're all done'' it's just jdsflf Sims 2 my beloved <3 <3#I decided to cheat down the Casils' relationship with Todd before everything else - thus why his father is menacing him for the prank#I've seen Sims with not high enough friendship to not take a water balloon as a fun invitation but not between a parent and child!#It's subtle but the parent being mad and the kid cowering :( It's sadly appropriate for Todd#I stuck the Casils in a box to wait things out and they ended up glitching frozen in bed - they're effectively dead by Motive but can't move#So they can't die /or/ live - feels fitting#If you'd like to recreate CPS taking your child away without straight up torturing them! - Hunger. You just need hunger lol#Alternately you can also have them miss class if you'd prefer to feed them - both will result in being taken away after long enough#If I return to this save it's gonna be confusing since both Todds are identical and have the same names lol#I do have a bunch of new clothes! Second shopping trip :D#There's something oddly fitting for the Vargases to adopt twin/clones lol - fun shenaniganary until the Final Version comes to pass#Although now that I think of it I Could also give them a toddler!Todd hmmmmmm#It's an idea :)
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Iām in the process of rewiring my brain. My whole life Iāve put such a heavy importance on being The Absolute Best that when I inevitably fall short of my own impossible expectations, I fall into a spiral of crippling self-doubt and loathing. And who does that help? How do I better myself in that way? The answers: no one and I donāt, of course.
Being able to identify these patterns, Iāve decided to make a conscious effort to change them! Iām surrounded by so many kind and talented people; when someone meets the standards Iāve set for myself before I do, it doesnāt mean Iām a bad person and a failure and I should lock myself away. It means theyāre more likable and more talented than I am, and I should look to them as examples. I have a lot to learn, and Iām grateful to have so many people I can learn from!
Thatās the aim. Replace hopelessness and scathing self-criticism with optimism, betterment, and support of those around me. And maybe itās a little pathetic that Iām having to actively work at that when Iām pushing 30, but a late start beats the hell out of not starting at all!
#peaches screams into the void#my dad said heād help me find a psychologist that my insurance will cover so with outside support Iām hopeful itāll be an easier process!#admittedly Iām among the least capable and least likable people I know and thatās given me a baaaaad inferiority complex over the years#itās lost me friendships and community and I refuse to keep letting it win!#and Iām writing all of this down on Tumblr to hold myself accountable#āUgh I fucking suck I should crawl in a hole and dieā āPeaches you made a public statement you had BETTER see it throughā š#thank all of yāall for your support and kindness!!
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i wonder how legion lost would have gone if the roles were reversed (minus jan, wildfire, and jazmin)
#how would rokk fair as leader in this situation#how would lyle and chuck bullshit their way through making a jump shift#what would luornu and vi do#would tinya give birth in space?????!?!!!#would jo go home to try and grieve tinya and form a weird friendship with brin in the process?#how different would legion world be if brainy had helped work on it instead?#how would garth and mekt's meeting and reconciliation go#how would they feel when they find out ayla's one of the only ones not coming back?#what would candi's story look like had she not died at jan's hands?#so many questions#legion of super heroes#losh#legion lost
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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, iāll go first: today i said āget out of my wayā forgot to say ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½iām kiddingā then immediately said ābyeā
#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with#but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this#i canāt just. talk to the guy#if i say hey and he says sup i say āsup indeedā like what the fuck is that#i can barely even say hello to him#donāt get me wrong iāve DONE it but most days iām like#ah fuck there he is#okay you can do it just say hi#just say whatās up#and then heās already gone#also. like. the setting weāre in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. itās work heās my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin#ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. heās kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for š§#but like. āi dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction#or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesnāt talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or#iāll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess iām just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i donāt screw it up š„“#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at#least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but thatās partly my fault#too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair#but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side#where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20#mins before when iād flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time iād processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone š¤”#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number#who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21#his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him š¤¦#cheers to being fools universe
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#personal#i know logically like#im sad because i just lost a friendship that was important to me and i am grieving that loss#but i feel so stupid still being so sad about this#i feel childish for not having moved on already#even though logically it has barely been a Week since this blowup#but like she Did apologize (even though i desperately wish she hadnt yet bc i Needed to be angry to start the grieving process right -#-bc i really struggle to connect with my feelings and learned how to process them first through anger)#and like idk. maybe im just a childish asshole#it feels like this is all my fault even though i know logically thats NOT true#i keep having nightmares about all my loved ones flipping a switch the way she did#i keep having nightmares about not being good enough for anyone and feel so violently insecure about my role in ppls lives#and i WANT like. reassurance that ppl love me is the thing#but if they reference this issue or like i have to ask it just doesnt feel Righ5#and ive been putting the energy out into the world that i would like to receive sometime but ik i cant demand that either#i just.#feel so sad#i hate that this impacted me so much#like. im literally more upset about this than my dad's health issues#(though admittedly this hits a more deep rooted insecurity/fear/distress than my dad's issues do)
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I'm on water seven arc rn (like, kinda at the beginning of it, when Usopp's been told that the merry go has reached its limit) and there are some things about Sanji that make me uncomfortable, but I do love how it's obvious he cares about EVERYONE, not just the ladies. I need to see him worry/care about his male mates more often lol because he gets all serious and serious sanji is great imo
#like#they all care about each other#but I just love how they're personal 'flaws' fly out the window when something serious happens#it's just like nami#she goes on and on about money constantly but when usopp was kidnapped she didn't care about the 200M berries that were lost in the process#and its just so great because things like that truly show how much they appreciate each other#and just#āØstraw hat friendshipsāØ#one piece#water seven#usopp
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i miss having someone who was excited about my fics during the writing process and who cheerleadered me on and i could brainstorm with. the process is so goddamn lonely now.
#i also miss that friendship in general#but that train left the station#i just need to deal#sigh#but it's a process i'm still grieving#me and my wHINING#i've lost multiple friendships i thought were meaningful in the past year#and it sucks#one i feel i got taken advantage of in so i had to cut it#two just started ghosting me#and now i'm sitting here#wondering what the hell is wrong with me#that i'm so easy to abandon#i'll shut up now tho
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Hello, mutual Star! Last time you asked me for my tgcf opinions and I gave you a lightning round of my thoughts, but now I want a lightning round of your tgcf thoughts! This was definitely my original idea and not at all orchestrated by a third party! (But seriously, we talked using my thoughts as a jumping off point before, I wanna know what some of your favorite parts of the series are :D)
*wakes up in a disoriented haze after playing tgaa all week nonstop* I FORGOT TO ANSWER THE NAVI ASK
this question is evil š because i have bad memory and i last read tgcf like 2 years ago BUT i will answer to the best of my ability (and memory)
- obviously.... hualian.... theyre so everything.... romance of all time.. i remember my first time reading it i was so crazy abt the first scene in the gambling den and then the lanterns scene.. oughgh .. their aesthetics are also kind of insane. the white/red/silver/butterflies slay
- what u said abt both of their characters being so good was rly true i agree.. but xie lian was definitely one of my fav charas ever after i finished (will have to revisit to see if it still holds i SWEAR ill reread it this sem)
- the arc i remember most vividly is the very first one and the entire backstory saga bc wow. agony and suffering. the first one was just fun and i rly liked the structuring of the early arcs! the way the story builds is really sooo satisfying
- ling wen was also one of my fave charas and i don't remember her arc too well but she is beloved to me <3 best heavenly discord mod
SORRY IF THIS ANSWER IS LACKING... U__U tgcf is on the immediate tbr for my commute next semester so you Will Eventually have coherent thoughts from me but. for now all i can say is that it was a really satisfying story to read and hualian kind of invented romance <3 i usually have more things to say when im responding to someone elses thoughts LOL
#stardust.ask#thanks for the ask i swear it was in tbe back of my head all week i was just trapped in the liminal Video Game space#where i am uncontactable until i resurface for air#tg/aa is so much fun im really not an ace atorney kinda girl but the story and characters for this game have been so captivating#almost done with the duology though :'D i dont want it to end#OH I ALMOST FORGOT#you should tell me ur p/5r thoughts. as a fellow sumire appreciatior... thats my girl... my darlingbeloved etc#my bestie is in the process of playing it finally and i have already spread my sumi + akc friendship propaganda to her despite#the lost potential of 3rd sem#or p3. i would like to talk abt p3 also <3#i shall now return to my gaming void hope you have a good dayyyy~
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i donāt know why i spend so much time apologizing for taking up space with my grief. how else am i supposed to heal if i keep trying to make myself small when my feelings are so big
#i dunno. i've grieved so much over the years#grieving lost friendships. grieving what my life could've been. grieving lost family members#figuring out how to navigate the gaps left behind#this is the first time i've really allowed myself to unabashedly grieve#at 26 years old i think i'm finally getting the hang of healthily processing these feelings#i've been crying a lot. and for me ā a person who cries like twice a year ā this is a lot for me#but it feels good. it's coming in waves and i'm letting it come and go naturally#i probably shouldn't use fandom tumblr as a diary but i'm going back to my old ways#i might post a long cathartic thing i wrote to help me process this better idk yet#cw grief#cw grieving#cw loss
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so i was just sort of talking at my sister (as one does with a hyperfixation) about reed's relationship with the royals. about how bb and medusa seem to be pretty close to him (and sue, but i digress), and how even maximus ended up on friendly terms with him when he was an,,, honorary member of the illuminati for a little bit that one time.
and i was thinking, surely, maximus thought of reed as just that annoying guy his brother and sister-in-law talked about sometimes, and helped them imprison max. i don't imagine he thought highly of that guy at all.
and then he ends up in the illuminati, and actually talks to him, and realizes that this guy is also a genius and gets how he thinks and operates. so now he has to deal with thinking "oh no he IS cool" about that guy that helped his brother beat him up a couple years prior
#and also. how did reed get like that entire family to like him#he's an inhuman royal MAGNET#but yeah. iirc max and reed have a moment where they both are just kind of finishing each others sentences#and tony has to tell them to stop and explain what theyre talking about bc even he is lost on their thought process#i am a huge fan of characters with similar intelligence getting together and just being !!!!!!! at each other#like. 'YOU!!!! you get it!!!!!'#regardless of what that intellect is its my favorite kind of friendships#esp when its a character like maximus who has scenes of 'ive never had a real friend who understands me'#bc when they get those moments they find someone who DOES understand? whoooo boy#reed š¤ boltagon -> friends :]#thats my point at the end of the day. good friends good friends#throwing medusa under the boltagon label for the purpose of that meme. its not technically incorrect?#does she ever actually introduce herself using boltagon? does any narrative acknowledge that part of her name ever?#eh. last names arent important anyways. the inhumans rarely use theirs. first name basis baby!!!!#KABSJANSMA#blackagar boltagon#medusalith amaquelin#maximus boltagon
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