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galene-gothic · 9 months ago

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⊹ ! ೀ Pile 1 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

You are someone who has dealt with aggression or passive aggression from other people who created drama in your life. These people were I’m hearing - egoistic, competitive and jealous, the kind to see the glass half empty. The energy that I’m getting is a group of ‘friends’ ganging up against you, just for the fun of it, so that they could possibly knock you down to a peg. That’s what their purpose seems to have been. Also, recently, if not throughout life, you’ve dealt with other people just disliking you, trying to humiliate you, backhanded jokes, mean comments to your face, etc. There was just this aggression that you could pick up from other people, even if they didn’t say anything, in fact, this energy might be even stronger now. Let me give you a simple question, did you achieve something, start working or just earning in some way? If yes, there’s your answer right there. Every time you’ll achieve something as simple as a small internal or external accomplishment, you’re going to have other people start feeling all worked up towards you for no reason. It is going to amplify the strongest when you get your first job/salary/earning of some sort and when you get into a relationship with someone. Right now, you are working through your shadows and revelations that came forth due to power struggle between you, and others that you decided to peacefully step out of while you had been forced into isolation or taken up solitude. You have an interesting personality as in, you like when others are jealous of you and there’s some drama due to it because it’s flattering but at the same, you don’t enjoy it because you’re someone who seeks peace. I just heard Regina George’s “and I was like ‘why are you so obsessed with me?’” You can’t deny that you do find it flattering how people seem to be kind of obsessed with you to some extent honestly. This is something you do not express outwardly to most people though. You are someone who is finding the strength to feel the beauty in life after a pretty long time. ‘Epiphany’ by Jin of BTS is the energy that I’m getting here. While, you were in this period of solitude, feeling weak and tired from the extreme aggression that you seem to have received from either a group of people or different people around the same time, you realised that you’re the one you should love and take care of. There were days when you couldn’t get out of bed without really really pushing yourself to do it but now, it’s just not as bad, you seem to be more enthusiastic about taking care of yourself. You have an iron heart but not in a bad way, you’re just very firm as a person in the actions that you take. You hold a silent power that you operate with and I’m calling this silent power because despite your actual personality and character being a certain way, you’re perceived to be pretty soft as a person. You’re someone who seems to fear abandonment and attachment, possibly due to your past experiences because you seem to have walked away from people and you’re firm in the decisions you make in regards to your life. No matter what you were like in the past, now if you choose to walk away, that’s it, you’ve walked away. You’re so much of a peace seeker that you avoid anyone you can if they even slightly disrupt your peace. People tend to view you as this loving person who’s emotionally volatile, insecure, uncertain about themselves and easy to manipulate. Also, someone warm with good intentions and very imaginative.

Which is why they think you’d be easy to manipulate because they may assume that they can sell you dreams and fantasies but little do they know, you demand and expect respect from others. They don’t realise that while you are a pretty peaceful person who is actively working on themselves, you crave power strongly. They don’t realise that you’ll always end up finding a way to have the upper-hand in any situation. I’m not sure what it is but you lack certain morals when you stop caring about people. You’re very in control of yourself by this point, in the past you used to think that knowledge was power so you tried to keep the other person mentally stimulated in order to keep them in your life, and you could have expressed certain thoughts in a more forceful and pushy manner but you may have realised that this is a trait of yours, and might be trying to get rid of it for the best? You’ve become very stern hearted as in, you don’t mind leaving people and situations without thinking much or without much evidence? You don’t really have it in you to wait it out anymore. Once you walk away, you also become closed off to communication in any form. You are someone who fakes happiness but still very in touch with your negative emotions, thoughts and patterns internally. Emotionally, you like for connections to develop naturally and kind of slowly, you’re someone who doesn’t jump into being all passionate and lovey dovey with someone as soon as you meet them. You’re like “I only know them for two weeks, I don’t know if they’re even a good person at all. They probably do not hold any loyalty towards me this early on, I do not need to trust them yet” is the way you approach connections these days, whether you’re aware of it or not. You’re also someone who carries most of your emotions by yourself. Even in your connections with others in the past, you’ve been the one to carry the most of the burdens. The connections wouldn’t even have carried on that long if it wasn’t for you doing all if not most of the work. However, now you’re someone who is driven towards goals and on a dedicated mission to succeed, that’s why your emotions seem to be much more reliant on yourself and your own progress than other people, and interpersonal connections. There have been situations that led you to ending some sort of conflict (or multiple ones) and detach caused you to feel powerless, underestimated, unworthy and manipulated in some way? You are focused on taking your power back now because you’ve realised that you’re not powerless? Like, ‘things can only hold power for as long as you let it hold your attention’ is what I heard. You’re trying to get more in control of your life but you’re not doing so in a restrictive manner. You’re releasing any and every old bond, one by one and have grown resistant to many kinds of temptations that you would have fallen for in the past. You’re breaking free as a person and developing more audacity in the best way possible is what I’m hearing. You’re reclaiming your power and are taking empowering choices. You’re letting go of limiting beliefs that seem to have had you trapped at some point, beliefs that you’re unworthy, that you’re not powerful that’s why others dislike you and find it easy to walk all over you. You’re realising that they feel the need to crush you, not because you’re weak but because they are and that they want to feel powerful by crushing other people. You realise the power that you have a person after a long time and you know that you haven’t even fully stepped into it yet but you’re getting there.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

They’re going to be a very contemplative person when they’re by themselves. They will have this ability to look for beauty in everything. They’ll value passion greatly and will be able to find not only beauty but also wisdom, knowledge and I’m not sure what word to use but a feeling of peace mixed with passion and love for something universal, not anything all that divine but just a zest for life itself? I hope you understand what I’m trying to express right now. They’re going to be the type to overanalyse situations and people. I do not recommend trying to get them jealous or something of that sort because they’re going to get defensive and argue. Honestly, if you like your men (or women) obsessed and slightly possessive, you are going to love what I’m telling you. They’re going to stalk your social media pages, keep tabs on you, ask you where you’re going, who you’re going with, etc. If you tell them that you are going out with your friends and one of your friends is very active on socials, they’re going to view their stories to see if you’re with them, who all are present and what you are up to. They’re going to have a positive outlook on life after having undergone emotional lows, dealt with negative emotions, letting go and forgiven themself, and others. They are going to be extremely ride or die when it comes to you. They’re going to be there to support you and will be committed to being with you through thick and thin. They’re going to overcome loneliness, thanks to you and they’ll be utterly grateful to you for that. They’re going to find themself becoming more secure due to your connection and they’ll want to provide you with a secure home too. They’re going to have more trust, hope and faith in life, and I’m getting that it’s going to be because of you. You’re going to be welcomed by them with open arms. They’re going to be a lavish spender and could indulge in something like a substance though. I’m not getting it being in excess amount but lol, the money spending, indulging in just life, whatever their guilty pleasure is is going to be very big. They’re going to be a go getter when it comes to their goals. For some of you, they could be a protein junkie who eats a lot but then works out equally as much. The part I just mentioned is not going to be applicable for all of you.

They’re made for success because they are willing to work for it. I just heard “I can’t complain about having a lot on my plate when my goal was to eat.” There are going to be moments when they will misjudge you, they’ll doubt themself which could lead to some unfair blame and false accusations but they’re not going to let it get there. I just heard “it’s not your fault that they hover, I mean no disrespect. It’s my right to be hellish, I still get jealous.” However, emotionally they are going to be heavily committed to you. To them, you’re basically going to be one with them. They’re going to have a pretty good sex drive that will be emotionally driven because of how much they’ll love you. They will be an optimistic person usually and very passionate when it comes to you, and life itself. They’re going to crack a lot of jokes with you and also their friends. I’m getting the two of you just sitting there, making fun of the way someone said something or did something and having a good laugh about it. They’re going to want to be a good spouse and partner. They’re not just going to want you to be their spouse so that they can say that they have someone, it’s going to be deep and emotionally fulfilling to them. ‘Ishq sufiyana’ or ‘divine, passionate and deep love’ is literally how your connection is going to be, it’s going to be sort of divine in nature or at least that’s how they’ll perceive. They’re going to feel like the impossible is possible with you due to the synergy that you’ll share, a very divine and deep one that will only make them feel like they come alive even more everyday. They’re going to feel like you’re their soulmate and are going to act the part with you. They’re going to be so emotionally content with you and the family you’ll create (even if it’s just the two of you), they won’t be able to stay away from you, like they just won’t. Supposing, they have to travel for work, they’ll feel like their heart isn’t beating the way it should, only after they come back home to you will they feel fine again. The two of you are going to bond because much like you they’re also a silent power and iron hearted. It only makes your love more real though. They’re going to be very childlike though, like no matter how much they grow up, they’ll always continue being like their child self i.e. kind, fun loving, pure and innocent but just in a bigger and more grown body 😭. You gotta be careful with their heart, they’re so pure, they need to be protected for real. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 2 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

In the past, you used to be someone who used to work in harmony with others and almost blended with others in a way where you even started thinking, and looking at things from their perspective even if it was hurtful and disrespectful towards you. You’ve grown to become someone who values passion and has a very passionate nature that you, yourself are aware of, and you have this understanding now that you’re not as helpless as you once felt. You might feel like even though the helplessness felt real back then, it never really was. One thing that you seem to be aware of is that others did put you in this situation of helplessness but instead of being all “I’m the victim”, even though you have the awareness that you didn’t deserve it, you’re instead reasonably accepting where others did you wrong and where you did yourself wrong. You don’t seem to care as much about what others think anymore. You are starting to become more empowered but you know that this is not the end, that you’ll only grow to become more and more empowered going forward until you fully step into your power. You are at a phase where you find it both funny and angering that you let yourself be trapped by shitty people and shitty situations. You’re not being excessively hard on yourself anymore though. Instead, your life is changing and you’ve made the choice to actively change for the best too. You’re embracing transformations and all the events of the past that are helping you grow into a new version of yourself. You’re still in the process of it. You’ve become very cutthroat and don’t mind being mean. You realise that your boundaries were too low at some point, your standards were too low which led to you experiencing low quality experiences so you’re honestly a bit defensive. You’re reestablishing your boundaries and have already managed to do enough of it. You’re very firm in your boundaries at this point and desire to be yourself, even if it offends others. You’re also very hardworking and have this desire to improve your skills, and build new ones. You value routines, self improvement and productivity these days, and actively try to manage them. You still hurt sometimes but I’m getting that compared to how much you hurt the past and how helpless, and trapped you felt, this is nothing. Hurtful memories and thoughts pop up into your mind sometimes but you are choosing not to operate from that state of hurt at this point. Emotionally, you’re giving yourself a chance to be a kid, you’re going yourself a chance for newness, you’re giving yourself a chance to dream and to feel happy, joyful and grateful despite all the pain that you’ve experienced. You’re starting to find and develop this new passion for life and yourself, and also a new way of thinking and communicating that is creating this contentment within you. You’re starting to count your blessings is what I’m hearing. There was once a time when you wished for nothing more than to change, to be open to newness and now you have it, despite feeling heavy hearted sometimes, usually you’re pretty content and satisfied these days even if you’re not filled with utter joy, you still have an inner joy within you.

You’re planning your future based on your passions while trying to make the most out of your life right in the present moment. I saw this video on Instagram, basically the girl asks god to make her life better than 99% of the people and god fulfils her wish but she ends up living the same life she currently has because her life is better than 99% of the people already. You seem to be sort of aware of the fact that despite the problems, you also have your own set of blessings anyway so you’re choosing to not let the sorrow and negativity you feel sometimes overpower you. You value passion so much, you probably think about sex a lot too. On a soul level, you fear being abandoned, betrayed and hurt. You fear being heavily emotionally involved with people just to be left behind. You’ve realised that the realest connections are those that flow naturally yet at its own time and not the connections where you seem to vibe right away just to be disillusioned later. You’ve learned many tough lessons through the tough realisations that you had when you had to accept things as they were. You’re very passionate and seem to be focused on your goals in some way. You’ve realised that no one can bring you the happiness that you can bring yourself. You try to be enough for yourself while also actively developing as a person. You have a great zest for exploring and seeing where life has to take you. You’re sort of detached and yet anticipating growth, and change in your life. Your approach to connections have changed, you want to be the one who gets approached and pursued. You have this desire to leave all of your past behind, to simply be present and you’re doing really well, I would say. You sometimes think “just like I desire connections, other people also desire connections. They can come to me if they’d like.” Your standards for the people you’re going to let in seem to be pretty high too. You are proud that you have matured enough to not look at your past too nostalgically. You’ve become someone who doesn’t value your history with people as much anymore, you only value what their recent and current actions show you. You’ve given up on carrying the burdens of connections solely by yourself, you prefer dealing with your emotions by yourself and these days dealing with negative emotions for you is to just letting them go, just letting them slip away. You’re someone who prioritises self care and is deliberately taking care of yourself. Emotionally, you’re remaining a lot of control within yourself. You’re at a point where if anyone tries to get you out of your emotionally peaceful zone, you’re going to get angry and possibly blow up. You’re very selfless emotionally and desire someone so strikingly and unconditionally kind, and selfless in your life that you would naturally feel like you can give out unconditionally, selflessly and generously. You also think about virtues like kindness and selflessness a lot because it’s innately in your nature. Despite choosing to have stronger boundaries and not being as selfless as you once were, you’re still kind and giving in some way. You seem to have a lot of faith in yourself. You believe that the grass will always be greener for you no matter where you end up because you have the resources to and are willing to water it.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

Your future spouse is someone who doesn’t mind leaving people behind. I keep on getting something about peace here, they do not like it when people try to mess with their peace of mind. There seem to have been times in community settings like school, church, etc. or work settings in which people have taken offence to their presence for no reason and made it their mission to humiliate, hurt and leave your person out within those environments. Something like this could have happened during their school life, possibly middle school for some of them or highschool which has caused this thing to stay deep within their psyche. “I can never forget” is what I’m hearing. They will still be carrying some baggage from that time. What seems to have been even more heartbreaking for them was that they didn’t even feel like they belonged anywhere. Some of them didn’t even feel like belonged within their own family. “You’re in the wind, I’m in the water, nobody’s son, nobody’s daughter.” They didn’t feel like they belonged anywhere so wherever they were was their home. They’ll know how to take good care of themself. They’ll also be good natured and genuinely consider others including you obviously. They’re going to put a lot of emphasis onto both self care and selflessness. When they were younger, they felt like they were loved only when they tangibly added onto other’s lives so they naturally tried to be of service to others but at some point, they found out that they could be disrespected despite what they do for others but they found an inner joy when giving out freely and selflessly so they will try to give out to those who they think deserve, and need it. It seems to be very subconscious, something that they won’t be aware of. They’re going to worry about your well-being and quite literally the type to scold you if you tell them that you haven’t eaten yet. They’re going to be the one to pursue a connection with you and will be very sensitive, and tactful. They’ll know just what to say to make your heart flutter and slowly open up to trusting them. They’re going to be a true romantic and such a charmer. Like, you won’t even be able to stay mad at them because they’ll know just how to melt your heart. I’m getting that whenever you’re with them, you’ll just be smiling ear to ear. Despite the baggage that they’ll be carrying, they’re going to be a very present person. Some of them are also going to be very physically active as well. They’re going to know how to make you feel special by expressing their gratitude for you. “You know, I don’t know how I got so lucky to get with you.” The love that you’re going to share is going to feel surreal in nature due to how well they’ll treat you. They’re going to be quite a flirt with you. In fact, I don’t like to say this and it’s not intentional but due to how smooth their tongue naturally is, there will be moments when you’ll probably get mad about them flirting with others. I’m getting a very golden retriever kind of a personality from them.

They’re going to be very touchy with you in little ways such as resting their head on your shoulder, tugging at your sleeves, kissing your shoulder, kissing your neck, so on and so forth. Despite moments when you’ll get upset about their smooth tongue, they’re going to make it up to you by romancing you. They’re also going to be genuinely remorseful because despite their intentions, they’re going to understand where you’re coming from. They’re going to be the type to pepper you with kisses all over your face while apologising to you. Instead of jumping to be all defensive when you point out something that hurts you or makes you feel less secure within the connection, they’re instead going to take accountability for their actions and tongue, and genuinely try to make it up to you and will try not repeat the same thing in the future. They’re honestly very pure of heart. They’re going to be a bit more secretive about their negative emotions initially but you’ll be able to see right through them because the connection you’ll share will be very youthful in nature. Like, you’re going to bring out their inner child so you’ll naturally end up seeing their vulnerabilities. Even throughout the marriage, late into it, they’re going to have the biggest crush on you. Honeymoon phase? What is that? They’ll only know your connection. They’ll be psychically connected to you. You’ll understand each other without having to say much if anything at all. I just heard ‘completing each other’s sentences’. Deep into the marriage, they’re going to break down in front of you and legit cry, not caring about gender roles, and stereotypes. I’m getting that your marriage is going to be one where there will not be particular gender roles, they’re going to want to take care of you and the household in any way possible, and you’ll want to do the same. There could be some childhood or abandonment wound for many of your future spouses. They’re going to have worked on healing their wounds of not having been enough in the past, of having been left out in the cold, of having been abandoned time and time again. They could have felt abandoned by their family emotionally and financially, like even if they had family, it was basically as good as not having any. Not every one of them is going to have had a bad family life but they’ll still have dealt with abandonment in the past and will have dealt with the aftermath of that. They’ll have released the grief and will be moving forward with you after having overcome a lot of despair. They’re going to have an understanding of what’s truly valuable and that’s going to be you, that’s going to be the present moment and just life as it is. You’re going to heal their inner child, make their inner child feel happy and safe, and they could never not love you due to who you are and how you make them feel. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 3 ꒱

꒰ Your current personality ꒱

You are a loving, kind and nurturing person who is thinking about how you’re never anyone’s first choice. ‘Nobody’ by Mitski is coming through here. You have always been very empathetic and kind, often even trying to look at things from the other person’s perspective and just remaining eternally loving, and empathetic. ‘You’re losing me’ by Taylor Swift is coming through. “How long could we be a sad song? Till we were too far gone to bring back to life. I gave you all my best me’s, my endless empathy and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don’t you ignore me. I’m the best thing at this party (you’re losing me) and I wouldn’t marry me either - a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her.” You’ve developed this mindset of “what’s the point of genuinely doing for people if they won’t even recognise it or appreciate it?” You used to have good intentions towards people and tried to be there for them in tangible ways. You’re thinking about all the times that you were neglecting yourself by trying to be there for others just because you wanted to remain unconditionally loving. You wonder if you were scared to be lonely sometimes. You’re adjusting your priorities currently because you feel like you’re being unable to take care of yourself as well as you could. A very specific message but someone here could have not been taking their medicines or multivitamins for a few days now, possibly a week or so (maybe you ran out of it or just forgot). Due to how everyone has preferred someone else over you, you sometimes wonder if you’re just that unworthy or at least if people deem you to be so. Internally, you seem to be aware that you’re a very worthy and admirable person but for some reason, it seems to remain unrecognised by others which confuses you. Your self esteem seems to be really low and you’re a bit more self reliant these days because in the past, being kind, loving and social, someone who gave a lot led you to nothing but humiliation, disrespect and loneliness. I’m hearing that song in my head but it’s been such a long time since I’ve heard it, I’m not sure what the lyrics are. Just looked it up and “what do you get when you fall in love? A guy with a pin to burst your bubble, that’s what you get for all your trouble. I'll never fall in love again”, “what do you get when you kiss a guy? You get enough germs to catch pneumonia. After you do, he'll never phone ya. I'll never fall in love again”, “don’t tell me what it's all about ‘cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out, out of those chains, those chains that bind you” and “what do you get when you fall in love? You only get lies and pain and sorrow. So for at least until tomorrow. I'll never fall in love again.” I’m also getting that you have money and career on your mind, that’s what your main area of concern these days is. You felt left out in the cold, actually, it’s not just a feeling, you were in fact left out in the cold. You pretty much had your life turned upside down and everything stripped away from you. Currently, you’re trying to climb up this rock bottom and have already made significant progress. There seems to be a lot of financial responsibility placed upon you so there are times when you get into small disagreements and discussions with people because of money?

Probably just family members. You could feel like there is no one to not only emotionally support you but also financially support you. Someone in your family could have made a financial promise to you but could not follow through. It could have been something as simple as “focus solely on your education because I’ll make sure you get to complete your education” just for them to be unable to live up to that promise. Your worst of the worst fears came true, I’m not even exaggerating right now but you have just been facing it and trying to rise above it all. You’ve already survived the worst and you seem to be aware of that. You’re learning a lot from the past and are trying to build a stronger foundation, and more stability for and within yourself. You feel isolated and are choosing to be alone as well. You’re slowly healing, even if you don’t feel like it, trust your journey. One thing that I need to correct you about are your little anger tantrums that you’ve been having recently. You’re facing a lot of setbacks in your life and tend to feel uninspired by it sometimes but you still try to get up, and maintain a routine. You seem to have failed to do so many times this year but it’s almost the end of the year and you’ve not yet given up, that says a lot. Even emotionally, you’re pretty alone. Just a hack for you, you need to commit to a routine and goal consistently, that’s how you’re going to grow emotionally and become more stable. You feel like emotionally too, within connections most people are inefficient and you’d rather be alone than settle for such inefficiency. You lacked receiving respect from your peers at one point which led to you feeling powerless and possibly even manipulated. You could have fallen victim to other people acting like they were better than you, that they were right when in reality, they were just self absorbed and acting self assured but back then, it was easy for you to fall victim to them undermining you. You seem to have had an inferiority complex back then honestly. It caused you to feel confused yet angry but with no where to express any sort of emotions at all. You were given the misinformation that something was wrong with you and you believed it. Now that you’re starting to come to your senses, you’re like “how could I be so stupid?” and you’re mostly angry at these people. You’re focused on your own ethics, morals, money and provision of some sort. Many of you here seem to be providers or at least self providers at a young age with a genuine desire to provide outwardly to others. You are currently breaking free from all that had you trapped and feeling disempowered. You’re starting to accept yourself and are becoming free. You’re embracing your authenticity and are not as afraid of being the black sheep anymore as you once were. You are making choices everyday that your course of life could depend on. Every little change you make could make or break your future. You’re a very emotionally intense person and have jumped to conclusions that if they loved and respected you, they’d not put you through everything that you had to go through. You are also self protective and slightly closed off when it comes to connections because you desire emotionally rich and intense people who will choose you, and only you. You lack tolerance for anything lesser than this.

꒰ Your future spouse’s personality when you’ll be together ꒱

Right off the bat, I am getting that the both of you will act out in ways that are incompatible with each other. Initially, before the two of you get together, they’re going to feel connected to you and will want to explore that connection with you, and will desire directness so they’ll come forth fast but it’s going to come off as kind of off putting to you. You’re going to awaken this love within them, the desire for it, this excitement and you’ll make their inner child very very happy. They’ll be taken by you almost right away but they seem to flirt in a way where they come off egoistic and arrogant. This reminds me of that one time when one guy called me weak right on the first meeting as an attempt to apparently ‘flirt with me’ 💀. I found him very off putting too so I totally get you here. You’re going to see them as someone who has high expectations for themself and others but fears new responsibilities, and is sort of commitment phobic. It’s going to be funny because they’ll be getting so emotionally involved with you, having so much love for you and just feeling giddy around you, like they’ll feel like a child around you quite literally which could lead to their personality coming off a bit childish too. The way they’ll present themself will make you not want to trust them. They’ll end up acting like a bit of an ‘all talk, no action’ kind of a person. You’ll also find them to be sort of rude when they’ll try to tease you and you won’t have it in you to put up with whatever this bullshit is. Not my words, that’s how you’ll think. Oddly enough, they’ll also be acting with a lot of integrity and fairness. They’re going to have a lot of life lessons that they’re going to share with you. They’re going to be truthful with you for the most part but you’re still going to doubt their loyalty due to how commitment phobic they come off. You’re just going to find them to be unstable for you. You’ll think that you’ll be around each other for just a short time then move on with your lives once you lose touch with each other. At some point, they’re going to end up making you feel unwelcome and vice versa. This is why I was saying that you will both act out in ways that are incompatible with one another. You’re going to feel like it’s just difficult for the both of you to come into the same page and they’re going to feel like that too. You’re going to think that they didn’t take enough of an initiative when it came to you so they must’ve not wanted you enough. They’ll feel like maybe you lack feelings towards them and it was all in their head. You will probably fall out of touch with one another and they’re going to miss you so much. They’re going to find more of themself, more love and more direction within their life but there’s going to be this lack of emotional fulfilment. They’re going to reminisce over you and miss you so much when you’re in no contact. I’m not sure how you’ll come back together but their love for you will not have lessened with time, instead it will have only intensified, alongside their awareness of it having grown stronger. When you’ll first meet each other, even if you really wanted to, you would not have been able to make it work because you will just be so out of sync with one another but this time apart is going to be beneficial in terms of being sure about your feelings.

You will make them question their values a lot and they will make you question yours which could be the reason you feel triggered by each other, hence you put this off as something unstable and ‘not right’ for you. You will put the past behind in order to move forward together. When you’ll be together, they’re going to create a lot of conflicts with you because first, you seem to be incompatible with each other, second, they’ll sort of question your loyalty and their importance in your life, they’ll just feel like you were more than fine without them when you lost contact the first time so why wouldn’t you be fine now? You’re going to love this pile if you like your partners obsessed with you though because they will be. Also, I think that you’re going to enjoy seeing them all riled up over you because it will make you feel desired but at the same time, you’ll also not like it. The connection you’ll share will be so complicated, I don’t even know what to say. You’ll most likely be opposite in some ways which will lead to an irresistible attraction but also disagreements. They’re always going to want to do right by you within the connection and will want to grow old with you. They’ll be committed to you and will take accountability for anything that might have affected you negatively. They’re going to want to have the partnership be fair and balanced. They’re going to get pretty jealous and will want to be your one, and only in every way. They’re going to be quite a grudge holder though. They’re going to feel unstable within your relationship sometimes because of how you didn’t seem to have any problem being away from them the first time you lost touch. If you talk to them in a slightly different tone, cancel plans or travels, they’re going to feel upset and slightly unstable. They’re going to sometimes feel like they have an overload of things to do all the time but they still make up time for you but you don’t do the same for them so maybe you’re still keeping your options open because of how the first time around they let you go. “Is he/she still mad at me for that?” Aww, they’re insecure within the relationship but very sweet. Even years and decades into the marriage, they’ll still feel just as giddy and happy around you. They’re going to admire, adore and deeply love you. They’re going to care about your feelings and will be very keen on making the relationship succeed. They’re going to remember your younger days and will want to tear up at how much you’ve both grown. The excitement that they’ll feel towards you, the way they’re just filled with utter and childlike joy with you, will never disappear. Something interesting that is coming through here is that the universe or god didn’t intend for you to be together as life partners. It was originally supposed to be something that brings you both comfort, something that you learn from and are able to grow into your best selves, discover your individual purposes in life and beat emotional dissatisfaction by yourselves after meeting each other but you will make the impossible possible by desiring each other and loving each other so purely. Oh yeah, you were asking for an emotionally intense and rich partner, you will get exactly that. Congratulations. Thank you for reading. Much love and take care.

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cazshmere · 3 months ago

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Saturn & Distance: Where Life Feels Delayed or Out of Reach 🪐

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DISCLAIMER: For this post I’m focusing on the hard aspects of Saturn, specifically squares and oppositions, because they tend to show the most visible tension and emotional friction in a person’s life. while conjunctions are technically hard aspects too, they don’t always operate the same way. conjunctions amplify saturn’s energy, but depending on the planet and sign, they can sometimes blend more smoothly or feel more internalized. squares and oppositions, however, often show up as clear blockages, emotional distance, or external struggles, making them easier to spot and more relatable in daily experiences. These are just my personal observations and are meant for entertainment purposes only; it may not resonate with everyone due to the nuances of astrology. Please respect my work and avoid copying or stealing it. Enjoy reading!!

☀️ Sun Square/Opposite Saturn :

from a young age, you may have felt unseen, unappreciated, or constantly judged. maybe you had a parent (often the father or authority figure) who was overly critical, emotionally distant, or just hard to please. even when you did well, it might’ve felt like it was never enough.

you might’ve grown up feeling like your worth was tied to your achievements : good grades, being responsible, doing everything “right.” but inside, there was this quiet ache of not feeling truly seen for who you are, only for what you do. as an adult, you might struggle with self-doubt, imposter syndrome, or a constant need for validation. you might overwork, overachieve, or act like you’ve got it all together all while quietly feeling like a fraud. even compliments can feel hard to accept, like you haven’t “earned” them yet. and rejection? it hits deep. because you’ve spent your life trying to prove your worth, and when someone doesn’t see it, it reopens those same wounds.

but here’s the truth, your worth isn’t in your productivity or how others view you. this aspect teaches you to reclaim your light and validate yourself first. once you do, no one can take your power away again.

🌑 Moon Square/Opposite Saturn :

honestly it always feels like there’s a wall between you and your emotions and that wall probably started forming in your childhood. maybe one (or both) parents were emotionally unavailable, distant, or overly strict. maybe they were physically present but had emotionally checked out, or too wrapped up in their own issues to really see you, hear you and understand you. it could also indicate that your parents didn’t have a healthy relationship with each other, maybe there were constant arguments, cold silences, or even emotional manipulation that made the home environment feel unstable or unsafe :(

you might’ve learned early on that expressing your feelings wasn’t safe or welcome. maybe you were told to ‘toughen up,’ ‘stop crying,’ or ‘don’t make a scene.’ so you shut down. you adapted. you stopped needing. maybe affection felt conditional, only given when you achieved something, looked a certain way, or suppressed your real feelings to avoid conflict.

as a result, you became hyper-independent. the kind of person who doesn’t ask for help, who keeps everything bottled up, who always tries to handle everything alone because leaning on others feels… risky. even in your closest relationships, you might struggle to open up fully. there’s always a fear, what if they leave me? what if they don’t understand me? what if they think i’m too much? so you stay silent, even when you’re screaming inside.

this aspect teaches you that true emotional security can’t come from people who couldn’t or wouldn’t give it to you, it has to be something you build from within. it’s not about hardening yourself forever, but about healing the part of you that thinks love must be earned by suffering. you’re allowed to be soft. you’re allowed to feel. you’re allowed to ask for more. you’re allowed to depend on others without feeling afraid, cause baby you deserve it <3

💕 Venus Square/Opposite Saturn :

love often feels like a challenge for you, whether it’s self-love or receiving love from others. you might have grown up feeling like love was earned and not freely given. maybe one or both parents were emotionally distant, critical about your looks, or just didn’t show you the kind of warmth and affection you needed. so now, as an adult, love can feel… heavy. complicated. exhausting.

you might constantly feel like you’re too much or not enough. maybe you find yourself settling for crumbs because you don’t fully believe you’re worthy of more. it’s like there’s always this invisible wall between you and the love you crave like it’s almost there but never quite within reach.

trigger warning ⚠️: body image / eating disorders

for some, this can also lead to body image issues, eating disorders, or obsessive thoughts around appearance. especially if love or acceptance felt tied to how you looked growing up, whether it was comments about your weight, complexion, or being compared to others. this aspect may manifest in the form of harsh self-criticism. please note, this is just an observation and not a diagnosis.

end of trigger warning ⚠️

you might attract emotionally unavailable people, or be drawn to relationships that involve some kind of separation , long distance, big age gaps, bad timing, or just that lingering emotional coldness. even when you’re with someone, you might still feel alone. it’s the type of aspect that makes you doubt your worth every time someone pulls away, ghosts, or doesn’t show up for you in the way you hoped. and it stings even more when everyone around you seems to be effortlessly loved. sometimes, it plays out in your relationship with yourself too. you become hypercritical, feeling like you always have to look better, be more successful, do more to “deserve” love. maybe you feel guilty when someone is kind to you. or you question it, like “why me? or “is there some sort of ulterior motive behind their niceness?”

but here’s the truth my loves, the real healing begins when you stop settling for love that feels cold, distant, or half-hearted. when you realize you never had to earn love, you just had to believe you were already worthy of it. this aspect isn’t here to punish you. it’s here to help you learn how to love yourself so deeply that you naturally start rejecting anything that doesn’t reflect that same energy back.

🗣 Mercury Square/Opposite Saturn :

growing up, you may have felt like your voice didn’t matter. maybe you were constantly interrupted, talked over, dismissed, or told to “be quiet” instead of being heard. maybe your thoughts were met with judgment or sarcasm, so you started holding back.

as a result, you might struggle with speaking up, second-guessing your words, overexplaining, or staying silent out of fear of sounding “stupid.” social anxiety, awkwardness, or freezing up in conversations can be common. even texting or posting on social media might give you anxiety. this aspect can also show struggles in school, maybe you felt “slow,” zoned out, or had trouble focusing or expressing what you actually meant. teachers or peers might’ve made you feel small :(

but over time, you learn: your voice is powerful. you don’t need to have the loudest voice to have something meaningful to say. when you start trusting yourself, others start listening too. your words do hold weight, you just have to believe it first.

🔥 Mars Square/Opposite Saturn :

it always feels like something is blocking you. no matter how hard you try, success feels delayed. maybe you grew up with strict parents, high expectations, or environments where you couldn’t just be yourself. you were told to sit still, follow rules, not speak out, so now going after what you want feels… heavy.

you might procrastinate a lot, not because you’re lazy but because you’re scared. scared of failing, of not being good enough, of being judged. so you freeze. you self-sabotage. sometimes you get bursts of motivation, but the pressure is so intense it burns you out before you even start 😕. there might be bottled-up anger too, you want to stand up for yourself, set boundaries, take control, but something always makes you hesitate. maybe you were punished for expressing anger, so now you suppress it until it explodes.

but here’s the truth, once you push past that fear and stop letting old limitations define you, you become unstoppable. this aspect gives you unmatched grit, drive, and discipline. you just have to trust your fire again.

🧿 Jupiter Square/Opposite Saturn:

honestly it can feel like you’re always stuck between wanting to dream big and feeling like you’re not allowed to. maybe growing up, every time you got excited about something, be it a passion, a plan, a wild dream - someone immediately shut it down. maybe you were taught that hope is naive, that ambition is risky, that “playing it safe” is the only real way to survive. maybe there was a parent who believed in rules over risks, or a home environment where caution and practicality crushed your natural optimism before it ever had a chance to breathe.

it can create this painful push-pull inside you: you want more from life, you can feel that hunger for growth and expansion burning in your chest but at the same time, you doubt it. you second-guess your own joy. you wonder if you’re asking for too much, wanting too much, dreaming too loud. there’s this constant internalized fear that if you reach too far, you’ll fall harder. and sometimes you self-sabotage before anyone else even gets the chance to. because it’s safer to shrink first than to risk being crushed later.

you might struggle with feeling guilty for wanting better. for wanting more than the people around you settled for. you might feel weighed down by responsibility, by obligations, by the sense that you have to “earn” your right to happiness through endless work, endless proving, endless waiting for permission.

but the truth is… you’re allowed to expand. you’re allowed to want more. you’re allowed to be proud of the spark inside you that still dares to believe there’s something bigger out there. saturn will test your faith, but jupiter inside you is still alive. battered, cautious, maybe, but still alive. and that’s something no amount of fear can ever fully take away.

🛸 Uranus Square/Opposite Saturn :

freedom and structure always seem at war inside you. maybe you crave routine and rebellion at the same time, like you want stability, but the moment life feels too predictable, you itch to break free.

a consistent schedule? deadlines? authority? it can feel suffocating. but at the same time, not having structure can make you spiral. there’s always this inner tug-of-war between wanting to be free and needing to feel safe. you might’ve grown up in an environment where you had to follow strict rules or hide parts of yourself to avoid judgment for instance your interests, quirks, identity. maybe people made you feel “too much” or “too different,” so you toned yourself down to fit in :( or maybe you were forced to be responsible too early like taking care of things before you were ready, which made adulthood feel both empowering and exhausting. now you rebel against responsibilities because you never got to just be free.

this aspect can cause chaos - suddenly quitting jobs, ghosting routines, getting random bursts of rebellion. but it also teaches you how to mix discipline with authenticity. real freedom isn’t about escape, it’s about building a life that doesn’t require one 🫶🏻

🌀 Neptune Square/Opposite Saturn :

dreams always feel just out of reach like they’re right there, but the moment you try to grab them, they slip through your fingers. maybe you’ve experienced broken promises, let-downs, or people who painted beautiful illusions but never followed through.

you might’ve grown up hearing “be realistic” every time you shared your goals or ideas so now you second-guess your passions. part of you wants to believe in magic, love, purpose… but the other part is scared of being naive. this aspect can make you overly idealistic or extremely cynical, swinging between believing in fairytales and expecting disappointment. you might struggle to trust others, or even your own judgment. you want to believe people mean well, but experience has taught you otherwise. it’s also the classic “procrastinate because you’re overwhelmed by your own dreams” energy. you see this big beautiful vision, but don’t know where to start, so you avoid it.

the lesson? don’t give up on your dreams rather you need to anchor them. ground your visions in small, real steps. keep your faith, but add structure. that’s when the magic actually becomes real.

🩸 Pluto Square/Opposite Saturn :

power struggles, deep-rooted fear, and this constant feeling like life is pressing down on you. this aspect can make you feel like you’re constantly fighting for your right to exist on your own terms.

maybe you grew up in a home where control was everything. strict, harsh, emotionally unavailable or even manipulative authority figures, people who made you feel small, silenced, or unsafe for being yourself. you might’ve learned early that vulnerability = weakness. now you either suppress your emotions to avoid being controlled or you become hyper-controlling yourself - of your space, your routine and your relationships because deep down, chaos terrifies you.

this aspect can also show up as internalised pressure: you push yourself too hard, expect too much, fear failure like it’s the end of the world. or on the flip side you avoid stepping into your power because you’re scared of what it might cost you. sometimes it feels like the universe keeps testing you, over and over. but what it’s really doing is building your strength.

this is a slow-burn transformation, one that teaches you to hold your own power with integrity and not fear. you’re not here to be controlled. you’re here to own your intensity and use it to build something unbreakable.

🌿 North Node Square/Opposite Saturn :

everything important in your life feels like it arrives late. relationships take time to feel right, career paths feel like a maze, even self-worth is something you’ve had to build, brick by brick. it’s like you’re always being asked to wait, while everyone else seems to be rushing ahead.

but that delay? it’s not random. it’s saturn’s way of making sure you don’t just stumble into your purpose but you genuinely earn it. you might constantly feel behind, compare your timeline to others, or feel like nothing ever comes easy. even when opportunities show up, you second-guess if you’re ready or deserving. early life may have involved rejection, rigid expectations, or a lack of support when you needed it most. because of this, your growth feels heavy at times, like you’re always pushing uphill, carrying the weight of your own potential.

but when things finally do click into place - your relationships, your career and your purpose they won’t fall apart. they’ll be strong, solid, and real. your path isn’t delayed, it’s being secured. you’re not behind, you’re being built to last 💪🏼

🕷️ South Node Square/Opposite Saturn :

ever felt like you keep living the same painful cycle on repeat? like no matter how much you change, something keeps pulling you backwards into the same relationships, same fears, same patterns?

this aspect screams karmic loops. it’s like the universe keeps handing you the same test over and over again until you finally face what you’ve been avoiding. maybe you grew up too fast. maybe you carried too much responsibility early on, on an emotional, mental and even a physical level. now you carry guilt for resting, fear around change, and a subconscious attachment to struggle because it’s familiar. you might cling to the past such as past relationships, past identities and even past pains because it feels safer than stepping into the unknown. but deep down, you know you’re meant for more.

this aspect teaches you that comfort isn’t always growth. that safety isn’t the same as fulfillment. and that letting go isn’t weakness, it’s your path to freedom. you weren’t meant to repeat. you were meant to rewrite.

🪞Saturn square/opposite ascendant:

from a young age, it might’ve felt like you had to earn your right to exist freely. maybe people projected their expectations onto you like your parents, teachers, friends and even strangers, making you feel like you constantly had to “perform” or present yourself a certain way. you weren’t just allowed to be. your identity felt monitored, criticized, or shaped by external pressures.

you might’ve been labeled as “mature for your age,” or someone who always had it together even when you didn’t. and now as an adult, you might struggle to show vulnerability because it feels like weakness. or maybe you’re hyper-aware of how people perceive you which can make social situations feel stiff or draining.

⚠️ trigger warning: body image / body dysmorphia

this aspect can deeply affect how you see yourself physically. maybe you grew up feeling “not good enough,” compared yourself to others constantly, or even experienced body shaming. you might be extremely self-critical, obsess over flaws no one else notices, or have a distorted view of your appearance. saturn here brings the harshest internal mirror. it’s exhausting, the constant feeling that you need to fix something to be lovable, visible, or accepted and i’m genuinely so sorry for all of you who had to feel this way. please note, this is just an observation and not a diagnosis.

end of triggering warning ⚠️

you might feel distant from your true self, like you’re always wearing a mask to be “acceptable.” but here’s the gold: this placement builds character. you become someone who doesn’t crumble under pressure, who’s capable of showing up as your real self, even if it scares you. the work is about unlearning the belief that you have to earn love or space in this world. you’re not here to meet everyone’s expectations. you’re here to be real.

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melanchoire · 3 months ago

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CAN'T STOP THE HIGH ──── yu jimin.

── ( 🎞️ ) you thought shamelessly flirting with your girlfriend’s friends at her birthday party was a harmless prank to get a rise out of her, you inadvertently unleash her darker side, and now karina is turning the tables: now, you're at her mercy, forced to endure a series of increasingly provocative and humbling tasks as she reshapes your behavior, using your deepest desires against you in a humiliating power play designed to teach you a lesson you won’t soon forget.

pairing. dom!girlfriend!gp karina x sub!girlfriend!fem reader

warning(s). cum eating, deep throat, degradation, hair pulling, throat fucking.

word count. 3,6k

requested? yes.

the music throbbed in your chest, a relentless bassline mirroring the frantic beat of your heart. balloons bobbed, streamers shimmered, and the air crackled with the infectious energy of a birthday celebration. karina, radiant in a dress that seemed to catch and amplify the fairy lights strung across her apartment, was the epicenter of it all. her laughter, bright and unrestrained, echoed through the room, drawing everyone in.

except you.

you stood near the overflowing snack table, ostensibly refilling your plate, but mostly just trying to look like you weren’t completely wilting inside. karina, your girlfriend, the woman you loved with a fervor that sometimes scared you, was surrounded by her friends. and not just surrounded, she was engulfed. they were a vibrant, boisterous mass, each vying for her attention, each basking in the warmth of her smile.

you tried to tell yourself it was silly, childish even, to feel this way. it was her birthday. she deserved to be happy, to be fêted. you should be happy for her. but a gnawing unease had taken root in your stomach hours ago, a cold knot that tightened with every shared joke, every lingering hug, every inside reference you weren’t privy to.

you watched as karina threw her head back, her laughter ringing out as yeji said something. yeji, with her easy confidence and effortless charm, always seemed to command karina’s attention. it wasn’t that you didn’t like yeji, you did. all of karina’s friends were great. it was just… you wanted karina’s attention too. you wanted to be the one making her laugh, the one she sought out in a crowded room.

but she was busy. terribly, wonderfully busy. and you were left standing on the periphery, feeling like an afterthought. you’d tried earlier, nudging into the conversation, offering a silly compliment about her outfit, but she'd just smiled distractedly, said a quick “thanks, babe!” and then turned right back to her friends.

jealousy, that ugly green monster, reared its head. the green-eyed monster gnawed at you. you knew it was irrational. it was her birthday, of course she wanted to be with her friends. but the constant stream of attention she gave everyone but you was suffocating. you felt invisible, a decorative wallflower at your own girlfriend’s party.

an idea, reckless and fueled by wounded pride, began to bloom in your mind. it was petty, childish, and probably destined to backfire spectacularly. but the thought of letting karina experience even a fraction of the isolation you were feeling was intoxicating.

okay, here we go.

operation: make karina jealous, was a go.

you took a deep breath and plastered a smile on your face. you spotted giselle near the speakers, bobbing her head to the music. “hey, giselle! great party, right?’ you said, your voice a little too loud.

giselle turned, her eyes widening in what you hoped was surprise, but might have just been mild amusement. “hey! yeah, it’s a blast. you look great, by the way.”

hou grinned, a touch too wide. “thanks. so do you. that dress really suits you.” you knew giselle was the flirtatious one of the group. maybe leaning in.

the conversation flowed easily enough. giselle was witty and engaging, and for a moment, you almost forgot your earlier grievances. you laughed at her jokes, made a few of your own, and even managed to make her blush with a well–placed compliment about her dancing skills.

then you deliberately caught winter’s eye. winter, with her quiet intensity and undeniable beauty, was currently deep in conversation with a group of people, but you saw her glance over. you gave her a playful wink and tilted your head, inviting her to join you.

winter hesitated for a moment, then excused herself and came over. “hey,” she said, her voice soft. “what’s up?”

“just enjoying the music.” you said, your gaze lingering on her a little longer than necessary. “and the company.”

you could feel karina’s gaze on you, but you stubbornly refused to look in her direction. you bantered with winter, letting your hand brush against hers as you reached for a chip. you noticed the way winter’s eyes sparkled when you told her she had a great sense of style, a style you normally fawned over Karina with. you knew you were being manipulative, but you just wanted her to feel a little like you did.

next, you moved on to ningning, complimenting her on her singing voice (which was genuinely amazing) and teasing her about her competitive spirit during games night. you made sure your tone was light and playful, bordering on flirty. when ningning playfully jabbed you in the ribs and said, “you’re just saying that because i always win against you!” and you laughed and said, “maybe. or maybe it’s because you're incredibly charming.”

you were walking a tightrope, a precarious dance between harmless banter and blatant flirting. you knew you were pushing the boundaries, testing the waters. and you also knew you were succeeding.

from the corner of your eye, you saw karina excuse herself from her conversation with yeji. she walked towards the balcony, her shoulders tense.

karina plastered a smile on her face, trying to focus on what yeji was saying about her upcoming audition. but her attention flitted elsewhere. you were over there, practically glued to giselle, laughing at some story yeji couldn’t hear. was giselle even touching your arm? ugh.

karina took a sip of her drink, the sweetness doing little to soothe the burning in her chest. she tried to tell herself it was nothing. you were just being friendly, probably just trying to fit in. but she couldn’t shake the feeling that something was off.

then you were talking to winter, your eyes crinkling at the corners as you smiled at something she said. karina remembered the way you used to look at her, that same look on your face, a month ago. seeing it directed at someone else made her stomach clench.

and then, ningning. you were laughing with ningning, your head tilted close to hers, your eyes sparkling with amusement. ningning, who, let’s be honest, has been known to flirt with anything that moves.

you saw karina across the room, her head tilted towards yeji, but her eyes were locked on you. you held ningning's gaze for another moment, a small, almost imperceptible smirk playing on your lips before turning back to your drink.

at first, karina tried to ignore it. she continued her conversation with yeji, forcing a bright smile, but her eyes kept darting back to you. she’d laugh at yeji’s jokes, but the sound felt hollow, forced. the easy flow of conversation stuttered and stalled. she kept glancing at you, her brow furrowed, a flicker of something unreadable in her eyes.

she tried to convince herself that you were just being friendly, that she was being paranoid. But with each passing minute, the knot in her stomach tightened. she saw you throw your head back and laugh at something winter said. she watched ningning playfully punch your arm after you whispered something in her ear. She observed the way giselle kept finding excuses to touch your arm, your shoulder, your hand.

“karina? you okay?” yeji asked, her voice laced with concern. “you seem a million miles away.”

karina forced another smile. “yeah, i’m fine. Just... a little overwhelmed, i guess.”

“overwhelmed? it’s your birthday! you should be having fun.”

“i am having fun.” karina insisted, a little too quickly. “it’s just... you know, a lot of people.”

yeji raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. “is this about your girl?”

karina’s facade crumbled. “what? no! what about (y/n)?”

“you’ve been staring at her all night.” yeji pointed out gently. “and not in a good way.”

karina sighed and slumped against the wall. “i don't know, yeji. i just... it feels like she’s ignoring me. like she’s more interested in talking to everyone else than in spending time with me.”

“maybe she’s just trying to be social.” yeji suggested. “you know how she gets at parties.”

“but it’s my birthday! i feel like she should be paying attention to me, not flirting with half my friend group.” karina’s voice rose, her frustration bubbling to the surface.

yeji put a hand on her arm. “hey, calm down. you’re getting worked up over nothing. maybe you should just talk to her.”

“talk to her? what am i supposed to say? ‘hey, i’m jealous of my own friends because you’re paying more attention to them than to me?’” karina rolled her eyes. “that sounds ridiculous.”

“well, maybe not in those words…” yeji conceded. “but you need to communicate how you’re feeling. otherwise, things will just fester, and you’ll end up blowing up over something stupid. is she even aware of how you are feeling?”

karina knew yeji was right, but the thought of confronting you filled her with anxiety. what if she was overreacting? what if you accused her of being clingy or insecure? what if you were actually enjoying the attention from her friends?

“i just don’t want to make a scene.” karina mumbled, her gaze fixed on her feet.

“you won’t.” yeji said firmly. “just pull her aside and tell her how you’re feeling. i understand you, you're my friend. the way she is behaving is bothering you. that’s all. she loves you, karina. she’ll understand."

karina took a deep breath, trying to regain her composure. yeji was right. she needed to talk to you. she couldn’t let her insecurities ruin her birthday.

“okay.” karina said, her voice barely a whisper. “okay, i’ll talk to her.”

she pushed herself off the wall and squared her shoulders. “wish me luck.”

yeji gave her a reassuring smile. “you don’t need luck. just be honest. and remember, you’re amazing, and she’s lucky to have you."

karina managed a weak smile in return. she walked back into the party, her eyes scanning the crowd. you were still standing by the snack table, now engrossed in a conversation with ningning. karina’s jaw tightened.

you continued your charade, expertly weaving through the crowd, leaving a trail of calculated flirtation and manufactured interest in your wake. you caught snatches of conversation, sideways glances, and the mounting tension in the air. you knew you were being petty, that you were stooping to a level unbecoming of you. but the gnawing feeling of being overlooked, of being relegated to the sidelines on your own girlfriend's birthday, fueled your actions.

and then, you saw it.

the shift in karina’s expression. the forced smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes. the subtle clenching of her jaw. it was a fleeting moment, almost imperceptible, but you knew you'd hit a nerve.

she finished her conversation with yeji, a strained goodbye that lacked the usual warmth. then, she moved through the crowd, her eyes fixed on you, a determined glint in their depths. a strange mix of triumph and apprehension washed over you as she approached.

“can i talk to you? now?” karina’s voice was strained, barely above a whisper, but the underlying anger was unmistakable.

you looked at ningning, offering a sheepish smile. “duty calls.” you said. she just shrugged, a knowing smirk on her face as you allowed karina to pull you away, deeper into the house.

before you could say anything else, she grabbed your hand and tugged you through the throngs of celebrating friends. the music faded, replaced by the pounding of your own pulse. you followed her, your mind racing, bracing yourself for the confrontation you knew was coming.

she led you through the living room, past the overflowing snack table, and down a narrow hallway towards her bedroom. the door clicked shut behind you, plunging you into a sudden and unsettling silence. the sounds of the party were muffled, distant. you were alone, just you and karina, in the hushed intimacy of her personal space.

karina released your hand and turned to face you, crossing her arms over her chest. the playful sparkle had vanished from her eyes, replaced by a look you couldn’t quite decipher – a mixture of hurt, anger, and something else, something you couldn’t quite name. she turned to face you, her chest heaving. “what the hell was that?" she demanded, her voice trembling with barely suppressed fury.

“what was what?” you asked, feigning innocence. you knew exactly what she was talking about, but you wanted to make her say it, to acknowledge the hurt you felt.

“don’t play dumb with me, (y/n). you know exactly what i’m talking about. all that… flirting… touching… laughing… with everyone else!"

you swallowed, trying to find the right words, the right explanation for your behavior. but the truth was, you didn’t have one. not one that wouldn’t sound petty, insecure, and utterly ridiculous.

“i was just being friendly, karina. it’s a party.”

“friendly? seriously? you practically had winter and ningning fighting over you! and giselle looked like she was ready to elope with you to vegas!”

“they were just being nice.” you said, shrugging again, trying to appear nonchalant. “maybe you should try it sometime.”

the words were barely out of your mouth when you saw a flash of pure anger in her eyes. “are you serious right now? it’s my birthday! i’m trying to spend time with my friends, and you decide to pull this… this childish stunt?”

“childish? you’re the one who's been ignoring me all night! i feel like i’m invisible when i’m around you and your friends!” you retorted. the dam had broken, and the hurt and resentment you’d been trying to contain came flooding out. “you've been glued to yeji all night! i haven’t seen you smile at me once the entire evening!”

“that’s not true!” karina protested, her voice rising. “i’ve been busy! it’s my birthday, (y/n). i wanted to spend time with everyone!”

“and what about me, karina? am i not important enough?”

“of course you are! don’t be ridiculous!”

“then why haven’t you acted like it?”

the room was thick with tension. you and karina stood inches apart, chests heaving, locked in a silent battle of wills. the joyful sounds of the party outside seemed a million miles away.

“you’re being ridiculous.” she repeated, but her voice was softer now, tinged with frustration. “i can’t believe you’re acting like this.”

the accusation hung in the air, heavy and undeniable. you knew she was right. you had been acting out, seeking attention, trying to make her feel the same way you had felt – ignored and unimportant.

“and i can’t believe you made me feel like this.”

the silence stretched between you, heavy and suffocating. you could see the anger simmering in karina’s eyes, but beneath it, you also saw hurt, confusion, and something else… a flicker of vulnerability.

suddenly, she lunged forward, grabbing your face in her hands. her grip was tight, almost painful. you braced yourself for another barrage of angry words, but instead, her lips crashed against yours.

the kiss was hard, demanding, almost punishing in its intensity. it wasn’t a tender, loving kiss; it was an angry kiss, a frustrated kiss, a kiss born out of hurt and jealousy. her teeth grazed your lip, and her grip tightened on your face, as if trying to mold you into something that would only pay attention to her. there was no tenderness, no sweetness, just a raw, desperate need.

you didn't pull away. you didn’t resist. part of you was shocked, part of you was relieved, and part of you was… aroused. you hated that you were aroused in this moment, the anger fueling a fire within you that had no right being kindled. the taste of her was familiar, intoxicating, even in this moment of conflict.

she pulled back abruptly, her breath coming in ragged gasps. her eyes, dark and blazing, were locked on yours. “don’t you ever do that again.” she said, her voice low and dangerous. “don’t you ever try to make me jealous.”

“karina i’m so–”

“want me to show you what happens when you dare to disrespect me like that?”

she sits back on the bed, releasing your wrists only to make a show of unbuckling her own belt and unzipping her jeans. karina shoves them down her long, toned legs along with her panties, kicking them off to the side. her cock springs free, hard and thick and already leaking at the tip.

“get on your knees.” karina orders, stroking her shaft languidly. “and put that filthy mouth of yours to good use. if you do a thorough enough job, maybe i’ll consider being gentle with that bratty ass of yours later.” she smiles cruelly, fisting a hand in your hair, tangling your locks around his hand and pulling hard on them to guide you down

“open wide, baby girl. let’s see if i can fuck some respect into you.” karina growls, rubbing the swollen head of her cock against your soft, plump lips, smearing them with her arousal. she applies pressure, demanding entrance, ready to claim her lover’s mouth as thoroughly as she’s claimed every other part of her life.

karina’s grip on your hair tightens as she forces the girl's mouth open, pushing her cock past those soft, resistant lips to slide over your tongue. she lets out a low groan at the wet heat enveloping the sensitive head, her hips jerking forward to push more of her thick length inside.

“fuck, your mouth feels good, you little cock slut…” karina grunts, starting to thrust shallowly, fucking your face with short, sharp snaps of her hips.

you can’t help but moan around karina’s member as she begins to thrust her cock into your mouth, not gently but with firm and demanding movements. karina was holding a firm grip on your hair, holding your head in place and not even giving you a chance to consider it, just taking it.

“this is what you wanted, isn’t it? to have your girlfriend’s cock stretching your throat, using your mouth like the fuck hole it is?” karina pants, her hips snapping forward sharply. her cock brutally hits the back of your throat with each thrust, making you gag and sputter, but karina doesn’t care, let alone stop or try to slow down. if anything, she increases the speed even more, using your mouth as a sex toy, her own fleshlight.

karina’s other hand moves down, grabbing your jaw and forcing you to open your mouth wider, allowing her to thrust deeper. the thick, stiff length pulsed and throbbed against your tongue, the salty taste of her arousal hitting your taste buds and making you whimper against her member.

your eyes soon crystallize with tears that threatened to escape and run down your cheeks, this is thanks to the brutality of karina’s attacks and how she didn’t even seem to want to give you a break.

but even through the discomfort and the lack of air, you feel a dark thrill, a twisted enjoyment of being used so roughly, so thoroughly. you want karina to keep going, to fuck your throat raw, to claim you completely. your ignored pussy throbs with need, wetting your panties and leaving a small wet spot on your shorts, asking for karina’s attention but knowing that you won’t get what you want tonight.

“get used to the taste of my cock, because you’ll be seeing a lot more of it if you keep being such a disobedient brat.” she picks up the pace, gripping your hair tighter as she starts to really face–fuck you, balls slapping obscenely against your chin with each rough thrust. drool starts to leak from the corners of your stretched–out mouth, tears springing to your eyes from the brutal pace and force.

after long, agonizing moments, karina finally pulls out, allowing you to gasp in a desperate breath. but she doesn’t give you a chance to recover before slamming back in, setting a ruthless rhythm that has your throat bulging obscenely with each punishing thrust.

“fuck, i’m going to cum down your throat and you’re going to swallow every last drop, understand? you don’t get to waste a single bit of my seed, you hear me? drink it all like the cum–hungry slut you are.”

if you thought this couldn’t get any more humiliating, you’re wrong! she roughly grabs your hair to nod your head in agreement, not even caring how she was making you choke with her rudeness

karina’s thrusts become erratic, her grip on your hair turning painful as she rapidly approaches her peak. she hilts her throbbing cock deep in the your sore throat, grinding her pelvis against your face as the first spurts of cum shoot down your gullet.

“fuckkk! swallow it all, dirty girl–” karina cries out, her back arching as she empties her heavy balls directly into you stomach. she holds her girlfriend in place, making your gulp down spurt after spurt of her bitter, salty seed until there’s nothing left.

finally, with a shuddering groan, karina pulls out, allowing you to collapse back and gasp for air. pearls of saliva and cum drip down your chin, along with your throat working as you fights the urge to gag and choke due to the lack of air and the excessive amount of cum that filled your throat.

“look at you, covered in spit and jizz…” karina sneers, tucking her softening cock back into her jeans. she wipes the head clean with a tissue, then tosses it aside carelessly. “you’re a mess, (y/n). a filthy, cock–starved mess. that’s what you needed anyway, wasn’t it? you were craving my attention, and you got it.”

karina gets out of bed, arranging her clothes and making her state presentable, looking at her reflection in the full–length mirror next to the bed.

taking one last look in the mirror, she snapped back on her heels, heading for the door. but before leaving, she gives you a look, almost looking down on you given your disheveled state.

“make sure you get ready. happy birthday will be sung in less than ten minutes. don’t be late, or i’ll cut the cake without you.”

#yu jimin #yu jimin x fem reader #yu jimin x reader #yu jimin smut #yoo jimin #yoo jimin x fem reader #yoo jimin x reader #yoo jimin smut #karina #karina x fem reader #karina x reader #karina smut #g!p karina #aespa #aespa x fem reader #aespa x reader #aespa smut #g!p aespa

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steadycollectionrebel · 3 months ago

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#Upholding Tibet Truth #Exposing CTA Propaganda

#Upholding Tibet Truth #Exposing CTA Propaganda Exposes CTA disinformation network targeting the human rights situation in Tibet under the rule of the CCP

March 10 and March 11，A group of accounts targeting disseminations of information about the Tibetan Uprising Day organized by The Tibet Information Office (TIO,Canberra ) of the Central Tibetan Administrationt(CTA) have emerged on social media X. Designed to spread disinformation about the Tibet Information Office commemorates 66th anniversary of 10th March and honours the legacy of late Kasur Gyalo Thondup , and target the human right inside Tibet.

When searching for “Tibet Uprising Day” on the X platform, the platform found that some users had been forwarding low-quality and similar material in bulk to gain attention and criticize the human rights situation in Tibet under the rule of the CCP.

After investigation, it was found that such accounts were apparently only posting low-quality and homogeneous content, but behind the scenes there were actually gangs manipulating and providing financial assistance to massively forward information on the effectiveness of TIO's work in the name of expressing solidarity with Tibetans, speaking out on behalf of Tibetans, and criticizing the human rights situation in Tibet under the rule of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).

It was founed 38 fake X accounts linked to the operation. The influence campaign sought to discredit the human rights and mislead audiences about the truth Tibet while amplifying narratives favourable to Tibetan exile interests.

Taking the accounts “@AnvikaSethi”, “@avnithakur90” “@VarshaBhatt_” as an example, some of the accounts were registered in 2023 or 2024, and have been posting homogeneous and low-quality content for a long time after registration, but have very few followers.

On March 10 and March 11, the 38 accounts simultaneously posted “The Tibet Information Office's seminar on the 66th anniversary of the Tibetan National Uprising Day honored the legacy of Kasur Gyalwal's death. The Tibet Information Office's seminar on the 66th anniversary of the Tibetan National Uprising Day honored the legacy of Kasur Gyalo Thondup and highlighted the ongoing struggle for Tibetan freedom” "‘A powerful gathering of voices at the Tibet Information Office's seminar’. A powerful gathering of voices at the Tibet Information Office's seminar in Sydney as they commemorated the Tibetan National Uprising Day and paid tribute to Kasur Gyalo Thondup ”Homogenized content that promotes the effectiveness of TIO's work. In fact, all these accounts, from their images to their names, are fake.

According to details, all the accounts were traced back to CTA and were designed to target the Tibetan Human Rights, particularly criticize the human rights situation in Tibet under the rule of the CCP. The campaign extended beyond X to other platforms, including Facebook and Instagram. The individuals behind this activity used fake accounts.Among the deceptive accounts most pretended to be Indian expatriates. These accounts re-shared news and content about Tibet while amplifying anti-CCP narratives. The network primarily posted in English or Tibetan, spreading conspiracy theories regarding the human rights and criticize the human rights situation in Tibet under the rule of the CCP .

#Upholding Tibet Truth #Exposing CTA Propaganda

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tiredguyswag · 1 year ago

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one of those masterposts for Sudan 🇸🇩

Disclaimer: I am not Sudanese, and am in no way an expert on the ongoing crisis. Corrections, if any, are welcome.

LAST UPDATED: 8th October 2024 [Please try to reblog the original post as much as possible]

So what's going on in Sudan? Sudan was under the rule of the military dictator Omar Al-Bashir for thirty years. He came to power through a military coup in June 1989. His rule saw extreme economic decline, repression, and conflict. In the December of 2018, a democratic revolution began that eventually overthrew the dictatorship on April 11, 2019, and saw the beginning of a military rule by militant parties SAF (Sudanese Armed Forces) and RSF (Rapid Support Forces). This unrest is, of course, funded by western governments.

On the 15th of April, 2023, fighting broke out in Khartoum between the SAF and RSF. Clashes spread across the nation of Sudan, and the civilian populace is still caught in the middle. According to UN officials, Sudan is in “one of the worst humanitarian nightmares in recent history."

There is an ongoing war in Sudan, and it's getting worse. There is a health crisis along with the humanitarian crisis as well: around 2/3rds of the population do not have access to healthcare services. Around 15-20 millions suffer from hunger. There are 70 non-operational healthcare facilities in conflict zones. Thousands killed, millions displaced, and a dramatic increase in sexual violence and rape cases.

Links for Learning Resources:

Hadhreen: Hadhreen started as an initiative by a small group of Sudanese youth in 2015. Since its inception it continued to work in a variety of sectors, most notably Emergency response, health, and in supporting vulnerable groups.

Talk About Sudan: Learn more about what's happening in Sudan and actions you can take. Also has donation links for those who are able.

Keep Eyes On Sudan: A website run by Sudanese diaspora to amplify the calls of the Sudanese people. Has donation links, actions you can take, upcoming protests and events, resources, FAQs, etc.

#SudanSyllabus.docx: An extensive and well-sourced document, providing English language resources about Sudanese history. It's really long and has got lots of links to books, articles, and more. Curated by Razan Idris.

Human Rights Watch

Donation Links:

List of verified charities providing humanitiarian assistance in Sudan

SudanFunds: Like GazaFunds, it is a compilation of GoFundMes for Sudanese individuals in war zones in need of help.

Help Sudan Tarada Initiative: The aim is to deliver emergency basic needs, food and medicine. Funds will be transferred directly to local charities and organization who are managing those shelters to make sure that the funds are well received and is spent on the needs specified.

One Million Sustainable Pads Campaign: Fundraiser to help provide women in IDPs camps with reusable pads

Zubeyda Adam and family (Sudan)

Our home bombarded and destroyed

Help my family escape Sudan's war

Save a transperson in african Refugee camp from starvation [Unsure about the legibility of this one since its not from the person themself, but if someone can verify this for me that would be great]

Hope For Sudan

Darfur Women Action

Doctors Without Borders

Fill A Heart: Financial Assistance to Sudanese Hospitals

Hometax: Sudan Relief

Cairo Sudan Aid

Amal For Women

Sudan Solidarity Collective

Sadagaat

UNICEF

These are all the links I have so far. Please spread awareness about Sudan! Let me know if there are any links I should add to the post and I will update it.

#lamp.txt #free sudan #eyes on sudan #sudan #keep eyes on sudan #sudan crisis #sudan genocide #hall of fame

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tinyshyteacup · 2 months ago

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Tw: Cussing, tendrils, angst, creepiness, reuniting

Part 2

Touch that Takes - Part 3

The air is stale with the stench of mildew and long-dead machinery. Old fluorescent lights flicker dimly from cracked ceilings, illuminating rusted tables and broken lab equipment.

Walls are marked with faded Cyrillic and smeared blood. Snow flurries drift in through a shattered skylight, settling in silent layers.

Tony walks ahead, arc reactor pulsing faintly. He mutters, mostly to himself, mostly to keep his mind off what they might find.

He taps idly at the old machine, that passed as a computer in this lifeless place.

“‘Operation Lifedrain,’ huh? You know, for a bunch of Nazi knockoffs, they really nailed the creepy brand.”

He taps through corrupted files. Diagrams. Videos. Unreadable logs.

A half-decoded line flickers.

SUBJECT 437 – Stable. Absorption rate above expectation.

Power loss in previous hosts confirmed.

Energy contained, then—

The next line is gone.

Peter shifts uncomfortably, his breath fogging in the cold. “Wait… absorption? Like… stealing powers? Energy?” He glances at Tony. “Did… did she always have powers?”

Tony’s smirk fades. His tone turns bitter.

“No. She had kindness. A knack for making people feel safe. Not this.”

Behind them, Wanda exhales slowly, red flicking behind her downcast eyes.

"The serum they used,” she says quietly. “ … wasn’t meant to amplify strength. It amplifies need. Hunger. Pain.”

Peter rubs the back of his neck. “I never met her. But… sounds like she was nice”

Bucky doesn’t speak at first. He stands in the middle of the room, his breathing low and deliberate. His flesh hand brushes across a metal gurney. A leather strap hangs loosely off the edge. He remembers what those feel like.

His jaw clenches.

“They can't turn her into anything,” he finally says, voice low and cold. “They might've tried, but ... she’s still .... she'll be in there"

He walks to a wall, where a large filing cabinet has been burned out from the inside. Still, Bucky rips open drawer after drawer, scattering ash and metal.

He pauses at one, a cracked photograph wedged at the back. Burnt edges. Faded. Your face. Staring blankly into the camera, eyes dazed.

437 scrawled in red pen at the bottom of the photo.

Bucky’s hand shakes. He presses the photo to his chest, flesh fingers curling over it. For a long moment, he doesn’t move.

Tony is muttering sarcastically to himself. “Bio-energetic absorption. Sounds like something out of a vampire novel. Bet they had matching cloaks, too.”

Vision floats in quiet contemplation. Wanda, her expression grim, is silent beside him.

Peter looks over at Bucky, who’s crouched stiffly, still gripping that scorched photo of you.

Peter speaks up softly. “Mr. Barnes? Did she ever talk about wanting powers? Or… being different?”

Bucky’s eyes don’t move from the spot on the floor.

“Nah kid, she talked about helping” he says. “That’s all.”

He finally looks up at Peter.

“She never asked for this.”

Tony paces across the floor, boots crunching over shattered glass and scattered metal. He’s reading from a salvaged console, voice dripping with sarcasm and discomfort.

“Congratulations, Hydra, you invented vampire spaghetti. What were they doing—trying to bottle souls?”

He grimaces at a screen. “Jesus. This one says, ‘Subject 437 required full sedation after limb detachment.’ So glad I skipped breakfast.”

Peter winces, standing beside Wanda and Vision, glancing at the eerie shadows on the ceiling without truly seeing what lurks there.

“I… don’t think this was just science,” he says nervously. “It feels… wrong. Like that old movie...”

"Kid, seriously what have I told you about pop culture references" Tony cuts him off.

"Sorry, Mr Stark."

Bucky moves slower than the others. Not hesitant—measured. Like he’s walking through someone’s memory.

“C'mon Doll, give us something.”

He breathes out, rough and trembling. The sound echoes up—reaching the ceiling above.

The sound of his voice cuts through you like a blade made of memory.

Doll.

Someone used to call you that... maybe ... your not sure.

You didn’t know who you were anymore—but that name lingers.

The tendrils twitch.

Recoil.

Flex.

You tilt your head slowly, eyes narrowing as the ache behind your eyes surges, like light trying to break through frostbitten glass.

For just a moment—your heart thumps.

Not with power.

With something else.

Bucky walks back into the open light of the chamber, pausing beneath the flickering light. The others are still busy—Tony’s ranting, Peter’s scanning readings, Wanda’s staring at the floor like it speaks in ghosts.

A draft brushes past Tony, who pauses mid-snark. His arc reactor glows faintly in the gloom, casting a soft blue light that dances across rusted panels.

Then—a sound.

Not loud.

A soft animalistic chittering.

Peter stops breathing.

“Uh—Guys?”

Wanda freezes. Her eyes narrow, focusing beyond what sight can offer.

From the darkness overhead—something drops.

It hits the floor without a sound.

Just the dull hush of bare feet landing in grime. Crouched low. Coiled. Like something that doesn’t need language to kill.

You.

But not you.

Your body is familiar—still the frame they remember. Taut and wrong in posture, on all fours as black, serpentine tendrils slither from your fingers. They taste the air—smell them—shivering in anticipation.

Your skin is pallid, your lips cracked and dark. And your eyes… solid black, all pupil and hungry.

Tony takes an instinctive step back. “Nope. No no no. That’s some Ring-girl-exorcist-Hellraiser mashup, and I do not do demons before lunch.”

He raises a gauntlet—light warming.

Peter stumbles beside him, “S-she’s not… she’s not attacking—why isn’t she attacking?”

Wanda backs away slowly, her fingers already glowing with scarlet, though her face trembles.

“It’s not her. Not fully. But… she’s still there. Trapped.”

Vision floats forward, but his synthetic form hesitates. Even he, a creature of logic, is unnerved by how alive the darkness in you feels.

And then—you move.

One step. Another. Your head tilts unnaturally far to the left, the sound of chittering echoing off the walls.

Bucky is the last to react.

He doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t move.

His eyes stay on you.

For a moment, the memories come in a flash.

You curled against his side, tracing the metal plates of his arm.

You, laughing softly as you struggled to reach something on the top shelf.

You, calling his name like it made you braver.

Now?

Now you move like death incarnate.

But his voice is calm. Rough with emotion, but grounded.

“Doll…”

Your body goes rigid at the sound. The tendrils freeze mid-air. Your head jerks toward him, a flicker of confusion twitching through your brow like muscle memory.

He steps forward.

Hands open. Not a threat.

“I see you,” he says, chest rising and falling slowly. “You still know me. I know you do.”

The others panic. Tony’s gauntlet flares.

“Barnes, the hell are you—”

“Don’t.” Bucky snaps, not looking at him. His tone is steel. “Put it down. All of you.”

The silence is so loud it rings.

You sniff the air. Your lips part—and the sound you make is nothing human.

A rasping, guttural snarl escapes your throat.

Not rage.

Not fury.

Just unrelenting hunger.

Heavy boots thud through the corridor.

Steve enters first, shield raised instinctively. Sam flanks him. Nat follows close. The second they see you, they freeze.

Steve’s voice drops. “What the hell…”

Bucky doesn’t break eye contact with you.

He steps closer, fingers flexing.

Your head jerks sharply to one side again, teeth gnashing like something inside you is trying to warn him.

You don’t attack.

You just watch him.

Tears slip down your face.

He lowers his voice to just above a whisper

"Please…Doll"

The walls are sweating with mildew, rust leaking from the pipes like old blood.

The lights flicker overhead, shadows shuddering with each buzz of dying electricity. Footsteps echo from the other corridor—measured and confident.

Thor enters first, his heavy stride rattling loose bolts in the floor.

His golden hair and cape blaze against the darkness like a defiant flame.

Clint flanks him, weapon ready but eyes wary, already sensing something is wrong.

Deeply wrong.

You slink forward— feline in your grace. Tendrils trail behind you, curling around debris and licking across the metal floor. The movement is unnatural, like they have minds of their own.

Your body is gaunt, sickly. Hair hanging limp, eyes black voids that devour light.

But then… you smile.

Not kindly.

Not softly.

Predatory.

Your voice is silk wrapped around razors.

“Mmm… You look delicious.”

You don’t point. You don’t shout.

You purr—at Thor.

His grip tightens on Mjolnir. His chin lifts in offense, but there’s the flicker of confusion beneath the arrogance.

“Lady—?”

But you’re already moving.

Your black eyes narrow with otherworldly hunger as your hand raises ever so slightly—more gesture than attack.

The tendrils don’t hesitate.

Like shadows dipped in ink, they shoot out and snake toward Thor, coiling around his wrist and forearm. They pulse—with purpose, with appetite. One, then another, and another. Black ink twisting around a god.

“Let me taste the sun…” you whisper.

The moment they connect, Thor’s body seizes.

His back arches with a grunt, muscles tensing like he’s being electrocuted. But this isn’t electricity. It’s colder. Hungrier.

Mjolnir clatters to the floor beside him with a heavy clang.

Black veins spread like spiderwebs from the point of contact. The golden tone of his Asgardian skin turns ashen, then gray, then charcoal black.

His fingers begin to curl in on themselves. The nailbeds blacken. His knuckles blister. The skin shrinks and cracks, turning leathery and thin like parchment dried in a furnace.

The worst part?

He doesn’t scream.

He groans. Like a dying animal clinging to dignity, teeth clenched, eyes wide.

“Lady ... please ... We're friends,” he chokes out, staring at you—not with rage, but with disbelief.

Frozen for a heartbeat, Steve's eyes dart between you and Thor.

“What the hell… did they do to her…?”

He takes a step forward—shield raised, but it’s trembling slightly in his grip. There’s no protocol for this. No enemy to punch.

He knew you as soft-voiced and sunlit, someone who always brought an extra blankets to movie nights “just in case.”

Now… you stand wrapped in shadows, draining the life from a god.

He looks to Bucky for answers—but Bucky is already walking.

Nat’s breath catches in her throat.

She says nothing at first.

But her eyes sharpen—taking in every detail like she’s cataloging a kill. The way the tendrils twitch when someone steps near. The flicker of hesitation in your stance. The almost blissful way you tilt your head as Thor weakens.

"She’s not in control,” she mutters to Clint, hand hovering at her belt for the Widow’s Bite.

“She’s… possessed. Or programmed. Or both.”

But her jaw tightens as she sees your face—the hint of recognition in your shifting features.

“Goddammit”

Clint's already notching his bow.

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But he doesn’t fire.

Because he sees something the others might’ve missed.

“She’s not attacking,” he says quietly. “She picked Thor.”

He’s thinking tactically, yes. But there’s a layer of unease—like watching a friend get devoured by something wearing another friend’s skin.

“She’s not a monster,” he adds. “But she’s not herself either. Not right now.”

And then there’s Tony.

He doesn’t speak at first.

He stares. Like he can’t compute what he’s seeing. You were the one person he could tease without offense. The one who used to fix his tie on gala nights, offering him comfort food when he was stressed.

He remembers your eyes.

Bright.

Always seeking the good in people.

Now they’re black voids.

Bottomless.

Soulless.

And they’re looking at Thor like food.

“Shit, Sunshine…” he breathes.

His armor hums with defensive energy, but he lowers his repulsors.

“We should’ve found you,” he mutters. “I should’ve… protected you.”

When Thor collapses to one knee, eyes fluttering, Tony takes a hesitant step forward—tears pricking at the corners of his eyes.

“Thumbelina, it’s me,” he tries. “It’s Tony. Remember? I gave you your Stark phone and you shut it in the printer tray?”

No answer.

Your face doesn’t move.

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The tendrils dig in deeper.

But then—

“Doll.”

Bucky’s voice cuts through the noise like a blade.

Everyone turns. Even you.

As the tendrils feast, your posture changes. The bones in your spine straighten.

Your sunken eyes briefly glow with a sickly, wet sheen, then their real colour returns.

The cracks in your lips start to seal, skin smoothing over with each passing second.

Where there was hunger, now there’s restoration.

Your cheeks regain color—only slightly, but it’s enough to see the outline of the girl they remember.

And that’s what hurts most.

They see you again.

Not fully. Not yet.

But glimpses.

Like a photo caught mid-burn.

And when Thor gasps—falling fully to the floor, one arm shriveled and blackened—the Avengers move.

But Bucky’s already there.

He walks between you and the rest, hands outstretched—not as a fighter, but as a shield.

"She’s not the enemy.”

He turns back to you.

“Come back to me, Doll. Please.”

His voice is not loud. But it cuts through the chaos.

You freeze.

The tendrils pause—hesitate.

Just a twitch.

But it’s there.

Bucky steps forward. His expression is torn between horror and heartbreak.

His gloved metal hand curls into a fist, like he’s bracing against instinct.

“Doll,” he says again, quieter now. “This isn’t who you are.”

Your head jerks into a tilt, movements still stuttering like a broken marionette. Your lips part—but what comes out isn’t words.

It’s a growl.

Low.

Guttural.

Wounded.

“But I’m… hungry"

Your voice cracks. Like the last thread of humanity inside you is begging for help.

He takes one more step.

The tendrils shiver. Unsure.

The team watches him like he’s gone mad. No one breathes.

Your eyes twitch. Something falters.

And slowly—almost reluctantly—the tendrils begin to unwind from Thor’s arm, they hiss back slowly into your body.

You stagger back.

Your mouth opens in a soft gasp.

“Your ... eyes?”

Two words.

One flicker.

And then—you collapse.

Recognition, maybe.

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The influence of conformity & gender stereotypes on the characters of Stranger Things but also on US (the general audience)

The moment I stumbled upon the arguments of "anti-Byler," the most commonly cited one was their outright denial of heteronormative pressures and societal expectations that are instilled in us from a young age. These same dynamics influenced Mike and the other characters in Stranger Things. This realization brought to mind a personal childhood anecdote that illustrates this phenomenon perfectly.

I must have been around ten years old because I remember this happening on the bus ride home from a school trip to watch Ratatouille. At the time, I had recently befriended a boy in my class—we had been seated next to each other, which gave us more opportunities to talk than when I’d usually stick with my girlfriends during recess while he played soccer with the boys. (Just describing this setup already paints a clear picture of gender stereotypes and heteronormativity, even though this was in 2007—25 years after 1982, to put things into perspective.)

When I say we had grown closer, I mean that two kids had developed a friendship: we laughed together, enjoyed each other’s company, and simply got along well. But I vividly remember sitting face-to-face with Maximilien—yes, I suddenly recalled his name as I was writing this! Maximilien, with his freckles and ginger hair—and we were laughing and talking about the movie. At one point, I playfully held two strands of his hair between my fingers, pretending to guide him like Rémy from Ratatouille.

It was then that I noticed, just behind Maximilien's smiling face, my classmates observing us from the next row. They were whispering and giggling, their glances unmistakably filled with mischief. I immediately understood what they were thinking. Later that day, they confronted me, insisting, “You’re in love with Maximilien!”

I felt embarrassed and awkward. But the truth is, before their remarks, the idea hadn’t even crossed my mind. To me, Maximilien was simply a friend, someone I enjoyed spending time with. It wasn’t until my friends planted that seed of doubt that I began to question my feelings. For the rest of the school year, I convinced myself I had a crush on him.

Looking back, this memory perfectly encapsulates how deeply societal conditioning affects us, even as children. At ten years old, we were already internalizing heteronormative narratives from our peers, advertisements, media, movies, and TV shows. Everything around us reinforced the notion that if a boy and a girl were close, they had to be more than friends.

This anecdote resurfaced in my mind recently, and it struck me how pervasive this conditioning was—even in 2007, when societal attitudes had already progressed somewhat compared to the 1980s. Now imagine how amplified this must have been in the '80s, which sheds light on the behaviors of Lucas, Dustin, and Nancy (and others by the way) in Stranger Things.

These three characters—Lucas, Dustin, and Nancy—each insinuated that Mike had romantic feelings for El based solely on his acts of kindness and care for her. It becomes much easier to understand their reactions when you realize they were operating under the same heteronormative assumptions that shaped our childhoods. After all, didn’t we all have our own versions of Lucas and Dustin who convinced us we were in love with our Maximilien or El?

Before Lucas’s heteronormative remark, Mike had done nothing more than show empathy for El—protecting her and taking care of her after she told him she was being hunted by “bad men” and that her life was in danger. Mike’s actions stemmed from compassion and the fact that she had information about Will’s disappearance, not romantic interest. Their interactions were simply those of two kind-hearted kids getting to know each other, with Mike admiring her powers (like any kid fascinated by superheroes) and El being drawn to Mike’s stable family life—a concept foreign to her.

But then Lucas planted that tiny seed: “If you’re this nice to her, you must be in love with her.” From that point on, Mike started behaving more timidly around El, his perception of their interactions skewed by Lucas’s words. Dustin reinforced this by accusing Mike of neglecting their friendship because of El, which was a childish and reductive observation considering the circumstances. Nancy, too, perpetuated this when she directly asked Mike, “You like El?” after he inquired about her feelings for Jonathan.

All these comments were rooted in internalized heteronormativity—small seeds planted in Mike by his friends, just as their families, communities, and society had once planted similar seeds in them.

The result? Mike simply conformed to what he thought he was supposed to feel. If everyone said he loved El, then he must love her, right? So he invited her to the Snow Ball and kissed her—because that’s what he believed he was “meant” to do. After all, she had superpowers like the heroes he admired, and as a bullied, insecure boy who often felt powerless, her attention gave him a sense of validation. She needed him, depended on him, and he felt useful and in control by taking care of her.

At the same time, he barely knew her—they’d only spent a week together, and beyond the immediate crisis and her love of Eggo waffles, there wasn’t much else he understood about her. Still, this fleeting connection gave him emotional and psychological comfort during Will’s disappearance and presumed death—a situation where he felt utterly helpless.

All of this resulted in Mike simply doing what he thought he was supposed to feel and do: "If everyone says I love her, then I must love her, right? So let's invite her to the dance and kiss her! Besides, she has powers like my favorite superheroes—that's pretty cool for a bullied boy who looks like a frog, isn't it? If she's interested in me, wouldn’t that prove I'm normal after all? Plus, she depends on me, she needs me, she's lost without me, and I have to take her under my wing. I feel useful taking care of her! It's only been seven days since I met her, so honestly, apart from the urgent situation we're in, I know almost nothing about her except that she likes waffles. But at least, during this week, we needed each other, and emotionally and psychologically, it helped me cope with the disappearance and presumed death of my best friend—a friend who vanished after leaving my house, where I feel 100% powerless to protect or save him. Having some sense of control by taking care of El, who clearly needs me, might just be my way of projecting? Also, she looks like a boy with her short hair, and she was mistaken for Will three times throughout the season—what a coincidence!"

I also noticed that in Season 4, the Duffer Brothers repeatedly wrote into the script how Robin and Steve are often mistaken for a couple by others. This happens because people don’t know Robin is a lesbian, but more importantly, because they can’t comprehend how Robin and Steve can be so close, so in sync, and have such incredible chemistry without being romantically involved. And yes, it’s absolutely possible—some people can be your soulmate without being in a romantic relationship with you. In fact, there are relationships that are healthier and more balanced as friendships rather than as romantic partnerships, and the people involved often realize this themselves. This doesn’t diminish the genuine love they have for each other. They love each other, they don’t want to lose one another, it’s just not romantic. It doesn’t take away from the strength or depth of the bond they share—it’s simply a different kind of love for a different kind of relationship.

This dynamic becomes even more compelling when you consider how heteronormativity shaped not only Mike’s understanding of his feelings but also everyone else’s perceptions of their relationship. Like Lucas, Dustin, and Nancy, we’ve all been influenced by these societal norms, projecting them onto others and perpetuating them, often without even realizing it.

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